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[ausomeboy88]

Really opens my eyes and gives furthers insights on the subject matter regarding mental illness and PTSD. This post really means a lot to my vast knowledge and logical thinking…

*SUF Spoilers* Anyone Can Suffer from Trauma

As the series ends, “Steven Universe: Future” gives us a reminder and portrayal that anyone can suffer from trauma. “Steven Universe” and “Steven Universe: The Movie” have showed trauma many times. However, the epilogue series gives us the one person who is suffering the most right now: Steven. Steven has been through a lot but is usually positive and is able to deal with the situation or does not see it and pushes it off. However, two years after saving the universe, he is starting to fall deeper in depression and isolating himself from loved ones due to trauma from his past. In the beginning of the series, some fans saw this as a surprise because his character is to be kind, empathetic, and positive no matter the situation. But even a positive character like Steven will struggle with a situation he cannot deal with due to his past trauma. “Steven Universe: Future” bring the subject of trauma the show has dealt with before using Steven, the main character, to emphasize that trauma can affect anyone.

The franchise has portrayed trauma in many different characters. The Crystal Gems have had their share of traumas related to the Gem War, Gem society of Era 2, and before and after Steven was born. Pearl was obsessed with Rose Quartz and was deeply traumatized by her passing. She projected her obsession to Steven and questioned her worth as an individual without Rose. Garnet is a mixed gem fusion and was frowned upon by Era 2 Gem society. She did not exhibit much trauma until we see “Keep It Together” where she felt guilt and anger over forced fusion Gems which can be viewed as survivors guilt and she puts pressure on herself to be a calm and collected leader. Amethyst was not affected by the war due to emerging from the ground later then the other Gems. However, she developed insecurities about herself not only because she is a defective Amethyst but also because the Crystal Gems associated the Kindergarten as a bad place therefore making internalizing her existence as a mistake. She struggled to love herself and it later created an unhealthy obsession to beat Jasper in season 3. The Crystal Gems have had their fair share of trauma but are not the only Gems who have suffered some type of trauma. Lapis Lazuli was a war prisoner trapped inside a mirror for thousands of years and trapped herself in an abusive relationship/fusion with Jasper. She was very untrusting of others and when the Diamonds were involved, she ran away out of fear despite hurting others in the process (this is not to blame or negatively criticize anything on Lapis, these are just my observations and opinions). The corrupted Gems during the series are war victims who lost their minds and forms from the Diamond’s blast. Bismuth suffered betrayal from the Gem she idolized because of her radical ideals without anyone ever knowing, leaving her to lash out at Steven and hurt that no one know the true story. After Lapis left with the barn, Peridot fell into a deep depression and lost any form of joy in her life. Spinel suffered abandonment from Pink Diamond that lead to her lashing out at Steven, who did not deserve it, and caused her to loath herself and act out irrationally. Even the Diamonds suffered trauma when they lost Pink Diamond. Yellow Diamond buried herself in her work, Blue Diamond never moved on from mourning, and White Diamond isolated herself from others to maintain a perfect image (does not excuse their genocidal actions in the past, again just my observations). Lots of the Gems suffered some form of trauma in “Steven Universe” and “Steven Universe: The Movie” and were able to move on from it with the help of Steven.

This time it is Steven’s turn to face his trauma in “Steven Universe: Future”. Steven is known as the problem solver and using empathy and kindness to help others. In “Steven Universe” he can handle tough situations and help Gems to move on or/and cope with their trauma. However, this is due to the problems his mother has caused and was a target of Homeworld. He has faced attempted assassinations, identity crises, family drama, and adult situations which can be so much for a child. With the support of his family and friends and his empathetic and kind nature, he either brushes off these problems off to save everyone or deals with these terrible situations with a support system. However, with Era 3 peace time and losing his purpose to save others in “Steven Universe: Future”, he is now dealing with his past and the trauma is manifesting into his behavior.

“Steven Universe: Future” is not the only time he has faced traumatic experiences. There are many episodes in “Steven Universe” where Steven had to face serious situations. “We Need to Talk” Steven clutched his Gem after witnessing Connie and Greg fist bump over shared experience with Gem related knowledge. Steven is a hybrid of a Gem and human and feels alone because he is one of a kind. “Mindful Education” he bottled up his feelings of failure to save others and it started to appear as hallucinations when fused as Stevonnie. He was only able to confront those feelings when talking to Connie and her reassurance to Steven that it is okay to feel bad made him feel better. “Storm in the Room” he confronts his mother (more of a hologram AI) about questioning her motives and damage she caused. The room reassures Steven that his existence was purely out of love to bring life not to fix problems unrelated to him. In “Lion 4: Alternative Ending”, he is frantically trying to find his magical destiny or purpose. After watching a second version of the Rose video, Greg tells Steven there is no destiny for him and Steven realizes his mother just wants Steven to live his own life how he wants it. “So Many Birthdays” he aged rapidly because he felt silly liking childish things and starts aging rapidly. It was not until the Gems started bickering, did he realize he can still like things deemed childish. There are episodes I am missing where he dealt with adult situations and Steven starts to have recollections of his past in “Growing Pains”, but the main purpose is Steven has faced traumatic events affecting him but is able to deal with them because he talked it out or it never bothered him.

When the movie came out, he accomplished restructuring Gem society and creating Little Homeworld for Gems, uncorrupted and Homeworld, to help integrate into Earth society. Everything seemed like the usual happily ever after until Spinel comes in injecting bio-poison into the Earth and rejuvenating the Crystal Gems and Steven. He and the Crystal Gems had to restart, literally, and figure out everything with limited use of his powers. Spinel was a tough character to help, especially when she spiraled downward when Steven left her for a few seconds, and she became angry and started fighting. After fighting Spinel, tiring her out and resolving the conflict, destroying the injector, having the Diamonds take Spinel back to Homeworld, and fixing the damage, it seemed like everything is at peace again.

“Steven Universe: Future” shows how Steven and everyone else is after times of peace. However, something is different with Steven in this mini epilogue series. Once he realizes people are doing fine without him, he is losing his purpose and feels like is friends and family are drifting away. There have been some incidents where Steven had to save the day, but it was solved quickly and he is used to life-threatening situations. The recurring theme or problem of the series is Steven feeling disconnected with everyone because they do not need his help and does not know what to do with his future. We also see trauma resurfacing from this past and he is unwilling to share or get help for it. Steven is dealing with trauma from the past, closing himself off from friends and family, having self-doubt and feelings of being left behind, and suffering from the over-bearing responsibilities and facing life-threatening situations from having a savior complex. He has devoted himself to helping others and is used to chaos surrounding Gem related conflict. There is no other way for him to communicate without helping someone and with no conflict outside his own, he can’t talk to other people normally anymore. In the recent episode “Growing Pains” Dr. Maheswaran explains Steven about childhood trauma is starting to affect his body in dealing with stress. Because he has been in so many life-threatening situations in the past, Steven’s body is reacting to mild stress as life-threatening and activating his powers in extreme ways. It did not seem to have been a problem until Connie’s rejection in “Together Forever” is triggering his body to act as if his life is in danger very much like PTSD. With Dr. Maheswaran’s honest and factual explanation on trauma to Steven and his father as a support maybe he can try to recover. Depending on how the Crewniverse decides to end, it will resolve in Steven figuring himself out and learning to heal himself from the trauma to start moving forward and to the future.

The epilogue series portrays a very important concept of trauma: everyone can suffer from trauma. Are there people affected from severe trauma far worse than others? Yes. Does that make it okay to invalidate mild or moderate trauma depending on person’s background, personality and resources? No. Coming from personal experience and the few reactions I have seen on Steven’s behavior from the series, trauma affects anyone regardless of the person. There are people who can better themselves with more resources then others such as a support system, therapy, self-care, awareness, and coping mechanisms. Some have access to these resources and others may not, but it still does not change the fact anyone can suffer from trauma. There were a few times I saw posts remarking the change in Steven’s character. In “Steven Universe”, Steven was an optimistic and empathetic kid who solved other’s problems through communication. When “Steven Universe: Future” aired, some fans commented negatively on Steven’s inability to communicate well with others anymore and isolating himself due to fear of his friend and family drifting away. His savior complex, especially the need to save others, is causing him to not talk with others about his own problems because he has needs validation from fixing other’s problems. Steven is starting to develop depression and PTSD from his past and the trauma is manifesting and showing. It is not surprising he would go from a happy-go-lucky kid to a teenager suffering from trauma and not talking to others about his problem. He has been through so much as a child; learning about his mother’s identity and past, resolving conflict from his mother’s mistakes, fixing the Crystal Gem’s issues, heal corruption, almost killed multiple times, and restructuring Gem society. It would be shocking if he was still happy with his life, especially after the fight scene with Spinel. Despite being positive during conflicts, he usually pushes aside his own problems to fix others and it is starting to take a toll on him when there are no more problems to fix and he questions his worth. The Crystal Gems are trying to help him, but he cannot open to them because he must be Steven, savior of the galaxy, not Steven, a teen suffering from trauma and unwillingness to confront his past. Steven does have a support system and still has some of his positive traits but even so, he is denying his trauma and not looking for the help he needs. “Steven Universe: Future” shows that no matter one’s background, severity of trauma, personality, and resources, anyone can suffer from trauma. Trauma does not have to define who you are but how you deal with it does. Many suffer from guilt or shame of trauma due to stigma of specific people suffering trauma, comparisons of trauma, and personality traits determining who trauma affects. No one’s trauma should be invalidated but should be supported and treated as real. It’s okay to talk about it and to get help but the only way to do that is if the person suffering wants to get help. Rebecca Sugar and the Crewniverse have demonstrated the importance of recognizing that anyone can suffer from trauma and the best way to heal is self-awareness and accepting help from others.

This post was both difficult and exhausting to write. I was getting anxious a lot and had to take breaks writing this. It took a few days to write and get my thoughts in order before suddenly feeling uncomfortable and taking breaks. Below is a story/reason as to why I wanted to write this post. I cut it because it is really personal to share but I feel comfortable sharing it now. You don’t have to read it which is another reason why it is hidden. Just wanted to tell my story related to this post.

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jjk men and valentine’s day

a/n: eeekkk went a little crazy on nanami and sukuna's parts. hopefully i'm not too late, happy v-day! celebrating it with fictional men for now :3. content: gojo x reader. geto x reader. nanami x reader. sukuna x reader. (fluff!) not proofread… wc: 1.1k

𓆝 𓆟 𓆞 𓆝 𓆟𓆝 𓆟 𓆞 𓆝 𓆟𓆝 𓆟 𓆞 𓆝 𓆟𓆝 𓆟 𓆞 𓆝 𓆟𓆝 𓆟 𓆞 𓆝 𓆟

gojo

he wakes you up with kisses all over your face. excited to celebrate another valentine's day with you. "happy valentine's day pretty girl," he giggles in your ear. he takes you out to shopping to find an outfit for your evening together. he sits outside of the fitting room as you try on outfits and ask him his opinions which is useless cause he swears you look good in everything you've tried on and ends up buying all of them. during your evening together he takes you on a helicopter tour of tokyo, your first time seeing the city like this. "this is beautiful satoru," you smile at him sitting next to you in the pilot's seat. "i think so, too" he smiles at you. "thank you for spoiling me," you joke with him.

geto

he gets flowers and chocolates delivered to your place. sends you a "happy v-day baby. see you soon" text. you spend the entire day together. in the morning he takes you to a flower exhibition. a floating garden with an array of flowers hanging. it was all so beautiful. you were elated. for dinner he takes you to your favorite sushi place. you talk about nothing and everything. however your valentine's day isn't complete without a stuffed animal. even when you were just friends, suguru would show up with a stuffed animal and flowers on valentine's day to cheer you up. and when you both started dating, the suffed animal on valentine's day became a tradition. the arcade is closing as you both reach and you ask them to let you play a quick game but they deny you entry. suguru drops your hand and walks over to talk to the manager privately and slips in some money in his pocket to keep it up and running for another hour. just the two of you in the arcade it reminded you of your high school days. you end up losing at the game where you have to knock out the cans with ball. desperate to win the stuffed panda. you pout at suguru as the manager comes to you and tells you that time is up. "one more game and we're out" suguru promises. he uses one of his curses to help him win and scores you a stuffed panda. you add it to your stuffed animals collection, all given to you by suguru over the course of your relationshiop.

nanami

he doesn't think today is any different to any other day of the week. "just another way for people to make money," he told you before. it's your first valentine's day with him. you're not really expecting anything from him today but you personally loved lovers' day, so you decide to decorate your apartment with different shades of pink and red. heart shaped knick knacks strewn around. he walks out of your bedroom dressed for work. "good morning," his voice is gruff. "too much?" you ask him when you see him look around with an amused smile. "no, i like it. it's cute." he smiles softly at you. "my place tonight." he tells you as he kisses you goodbye. you're surprised when you walk into his apartment. the floors covered in rose petals creating a path to the balcony. he's standing by a candle lit table with a boquet of flowers in his hand. he chuckles quietly when he sees the look of surprise on your face, "happy lover's day," he says as he hands you the boquet. you go on your tip toes to peck his lips "did you do all this by yourself?" you smile at him. "eh yeah i know how much you love today, so i thought i'd surpise you" his says shyly looking away from you. you pull his face back to face you and kiss him fully "thank you". his cheeks hurt from trying to control his smile but a blush takes over his face. he didn't mind that you had that effect on him. after dinner he slides a box across the table "but i didn't get you anything," you pout as you look between the box and him. "it's okay. you don't have to. just open the box." you unwrap the box and find a key sitting in it. you look up at him confused, "will you move in with me?" he speaks softly. your mouth falls open at his question and your eyes fill with tears of joy. you nod feveriously getting out of your chair and moving over to him quickly. "yes yes" you mumble into the kiss, manuvering yourself in his lap.

sukuna

"what the hell is valentine's day?" he asks you his hand running through your hair.. "a day to celebrate love. and lovers." you chirp from your place on his chest. this would be his first time celebrating valentine's day (well frankly his first time being in a relationship too). he hums. "so you're my valentine?" your heart squeezes at the way he asks that question. "do you want me to be?" you retort giggling. "yeah," he blushes slightly. "okay, then lover boy. you're my valentine too," you tease. he wants to do this right he thinks so decides to surprise you. much to his dismay, things don't go as planned. you walk into the kitchen and smell something burning. "ah fuck" you see sukuna standing near the oven. a tray of burnt cupcakes in one hand. another hand on his forehead in disappointment and two hands on his hips as usual. "suki?" he yelps when he hears your voice. "you shouldn't be here" he huffs. "what's wrong? let me help." you approach him. he puts the tray of cupcakes down. and you notice piping bags filled with red and pink frosting. "this isn't how it was supposed to go. i remember you mentioned how much you loved chocolate cupcakes so i was going to surprise you but now they're burned. so much for doing things the right way, huh" he pouts as he rambles. "it's okay. they dont look too bad," you try cheer him up. he tilts his head at as to say 'we both know these are not edible'. "we can fix this suki, look" you cut off the burnt part of the cupcake and mash them into small circles. you grab some sticks from the drawers and place the circles on the sticks. "cake pops!" you wiggle it in front of his face with a satisfied smile. he pushes your hand down and pulls you in close to kiss you. his tongue slipping in your mouth as his four hands pulls you in tight. "can't believe you made me fall in love," he whispers into the kiss.

𓆝 𓆟 𓆞 𓆝 𓆟𓆝 𓆟 𓆞 𓆝 𓆟𓆝 𓆟 𓆞 𓆝 𓆟𓆝 𓆟 𓆞 𓆝 𓆟𓆝 𓆟 𓆞 𓆝 𓆟

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Best Laid Plans

Chaol Westfall wants nothing more than to celebrate his first Valentine’s day as a married man with his wife Yrene. He made a tidy list and everything, full of all her favorite foods and activities. 

Unfortunately, the baby in her belly is determined to ruin all of Chaol’s plans, one bullet point at a time.

For Day 2 of @sjmromanceweek 2023: Love Languages. I think Chaol shows his love through acts of service and I wanted to explore how that might look with Yrene. I love Chaol and Yrene and I've been wanting to write them for a while so this worked out perfectly!

Rating: General/E for Everyone. Pure fluff. Also, there are spoilers for the movie The Princess Bride oddly enough so if you don't want to be spoiled, go watch that and come back.

Word Count: 2.5K

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Chaol hadn’t anticipated how excited he could be for Valentine’s day until he had married Yrene. 

Wonderful, smart, beautiful, far too good for him Yrene. It hadn’t been love at first sight for either of them when he opened his eyes the first time after his car crash, paralyzed from the waist down. No, she had huffed into his room and angrily declared she was going to fix him.

And she had, in all the ways that mattered. Their rehab appointments blossomed into a date, then another date, then a few brief months later they were married and Chaol had never been happier. 

He had secretly started planning for their first Valentine’s day as a married couple - as a couple at all, really - while on their honeymoon in the cozy cottage in the Scottish Highlands they had rented, just a few weeks after their courthouse marriage. The idea of spending all day doing their favorite activities made him giddy with excitement and love for the woman who had saved it in more ways than one. It was going to be perfect.

And then Yrene woke up one morning holding three positive pregnancy tests like a poor imitation of a royal flush and all of his ideas for their perfect Valentine’s day were shattered.

“I’m pregnant,” Yrene breathed, smiling and dazed, and she threw herself into Chaol’s stunned arms and squeezed him so tight he was glad he still suffered from some partial numbness in his body or it would have hurt. “We’re going to be parents.”

He was happy - thrilled, honestly, but as the news finally sunk in later that evening, he realized his perfect Valentine's day for Yrene was ruined. Sighing, he canceled the reservation with the four star Michelin sushi restaurant that served the freshest Japanese tuna known to mankind. 

Okay, so there’d be no sushi or romantic horseback ride - Chaol was adaptable. He could change his plans. After all, isn’t that what loving husbands were for?

X

Chaol’s alarm on his smartwatch woke him up at 8 AM sharp. Yrene was turned on her side away from him, deep in sleep. Operation Valentine’s Day was a go.

Creeping out of bed, he quietly made his way downstairs to the kitchen. First step: breakfast in bed with homemade pancakes, crispy bacon and scrambled eggs with avocado toast. 

Loading everything on the wooden food tray, he carefully climbed the creaky wooden steps to their bedroom and saw a small stream of light peeking under the door. Smiling softly to himself, he walked in and saw the light was coming from their master bathroom, and the dreaded sounds of retching immediately hit his ears. 

Quickly setting the tray on the bed, he made his way to the bathroom to see Yrene bent over the toilet. He gathered her hair behind her head and pressed a wet rag to her forehead.

“Are you alright?” Chaol asked, terrified. “Are you sick? What do you need?”

She spit into the bowl and flushed. “It’s just a bit of morning sickness,” she said, turning her weary gaze to his. She sat down and leaned her head against the wall. “Baby just didn’t like something I ate apparently.”

Chaol bit his lip. “Isn’t five months a bit late for morning sickness? I thought that was only a first trimester thing.”

She shrugged. “For most women, yeah. Some lucky ones have to suffer through it all nine months.” She sniffed the air. “What’s that smell?”

He grinned. “I brought you breakfast -”

Yrene immediately threw herself back on the toilet, gagging and spitting, as Chaol looked on, slack jawed. 

“Thank you dear,” she gasped out, giving him a teary eyed smile when she was done. “That was very nice of you. I’m not sure I have the stomach for breakfast at the moment - do you want to eat it for me?”

Chaol had no appetite either but he shoved a piece of cold, limp bacon into his mouth after Yrene had cleaned up and crawled back into bed. “Love you,” he whispered, kissing her on the forehead and taking the mostly uneaten breakfast downstairs to clean up and regroup.

He checked the list he had made on his phone, typing a big ‘X’ next to breakfast. Not off to the best start but he still had a whole day planned for the two of them. Next on the agenda was a couple’s yoga class he had signed them up for. Yrene loved yoga - she often used it as a form of additional therapy when the stressors of her job and past became too much, and she had even roped Chaol into going once or twice. 

She sat up in bed and squealed in delight when Chaol told her to get ready. “I haven’t done a class in ages!” she exclaimed, running up to him and giving him a big kiss on the mouth.

Chaol preened under her attention. “Better get ready then,” he said, giving her a swat on her butt as he turned towards his dresser to change.

At least this was going to work. He had just pulled on a shirt when he heard a snuffling behind him. Turning, he saw Yrene standing in front of their full length mirror with a pair of leggings pulled up as far as they could stretch, almost comically resting under her belly. 

There was nothing funny about this though. Chaol could handle a lot but the one thing he couldn't stand was Yrene’s tears. Rushing over, he gathered her in his arms right as she began wailing. “Nothing fits anymore!”

Chaol kissed her forehead, willing his own tears away. She had finally “popped” within the last few weeks, her stomach rounding out in a way that was obvious to everyone that she hadn’t just eaten a large meal and was suffering from an intense bloat. He laid a hand on her belly and rubbed soothing circles into her skin. 

“Do you want to borrow some of my shorts or sweatpants?” 

“It doesn’t matter,” she moaned into her chest. “None of my sports bras fit either. My boobs are too big, and the material hurts my nipples.”

“How can I help? What can I do for you?”

Yrene turned her teary, puppy dog eyes on him and Chaol had to grind his teeth together to stop himself from crying at the sight. God help him if they had a daughter - she’d be a spoiled princess once she figured out she’d only need to turn on the water works to get anything she wanted out of him. 

“Cuddle in bed with me for a little bit?”

As if he would ever refuse that. Grabbing his phone so he could cancel their spots for yoga, Yrene laid her head on his chest and wrapped her arms around him as best she could. Trailing a hand up and down her back, Chaol thought about the rest of the day. 

He had planned to take her out to her favorite coffee and bakery spot after yoga, followed by an easy walk in their local arboretum but he figured she wouldn’t want to do that, seeing as how she had already fallen back asleep, her little snores muffled against his chest. 

He checked his list and added three more ‘Xs’. Baby Westfall: 4. Chaol: 0. It was as if their child was determined to ruin their father’s hard laid plans every step of the way. 

The late afternoon sun was streaming into their kitchen by the time Chaol began working on dinner. He had gotten Yrene to eat a little by giving her her favorite pregnancy snack - pickle spears smothered in peanut butter - and was cautiously optimistic that she would have an appetite for dinner. She couldn’t have sushi, her favorite food, but she could still eat her second favorite meal, roast chicken and pasta. 

Chaol had just set a timer on the microwave for the chicken when Yrene padded downstairs in her fluffiest robe. Yawning, she sidled into one of the high chairs at the kitchen island and smiled at him. “Goodness I’m starving - what are you making?”

“Your second favorite meal, since sushi is off the menu for a while,” Chaol replied, feeling pretty pleased with himself. “That lemon roasted chicken and pasta recipe you love so much.”

To her credit, Yrene kept her face composed but Chaol saw the slight downturn of the corner of her lips, the sudden dimming of her eyes.

“Oh no,” Chaol said, grimacing as she grinned sheepishly at him. “Don’t tell me -”

“The baby isn’t really feeling chicken tonight,” she said apologetically. “I’m really sorry, you’ve been putting so much effort in to today -”

“It’s alright,” Chaol said softly, forcing a smile to let her know he wasn’t mad, though he was definitely a little upset at his child for thwarting him yet again. “What are you in the mood for?”

Yrene hummed and opened the fridge, opening a bottle of cranberry juice and taking a big gulp before opening the freezer. She gasped and bent over and held out a brightly colored bag to him.

“Pizza rolls?” He said incredulously. “And not even Totinos, but off-brand?”

“They’re the best!” Yrene replied. “Please? Oh! And how about some sweet potato fries?” she said, holding up another frozen food bag. 

“Of course,” he sighed, kissing her forehead. “I was going to make chocolate pudding for dessert -”

She grimaced. “Maybe not. Texture has been a big thing for the baby lately.”

“I figured that, so I came prepared,” he said, pulling out a bag of Swedish Fish from the pantry.

She moaned with relief. “God, you’re the best husband ever.” She gave him a big hug and opened the bag of sweets, popping one in her mouth before offering the bag to him. 

He checked his phone while they crammed pizza rolls into their mouths. He put yet another ‘X’ next to dinner, and then, for good measure, burned the roof of his mouth on the molten cheese that erupted from the little pizza pocket crust in his mouth. Clearly, his unborn child had something against him. 

“How about a movie?” he asked as they finished their gourmet freezer dinner. She nodded and they made their way to the couch, Yrene with the bottle of cranberry juice and candy tucked at her side. Getting comfortable, he put on her favorite film - The Princess Bride - before he pulled her over so her head was in his lap.

“Chaol Westfall, you are an absolute gem,” she said, as the opening scenes of the movie came on. 

He smiled. “You deserve it.” He wrapped an arm around her shoulder and snuggled close, finally ready to put a mental ‘W’ in his column and an ‘L’ for the baby. 

Yrene sniffled. Then she sniffled again. Then she dragged her hand over her eyes to wipe away the tears gathered there.

“What’s wrong?”

“It’s just,” she choked out through gasps, “it’s not fair, is it?”

Chaol’s mind was whirling, trying to make sense of what she was talking about. What had he done? What hadn’t he done? Was she upset that she was pregnant while Chaol didn’t have to suffer the changes going through her? 

“I mean, Buttercup is just so mean to Wesley, and he already loves her, and he doesn’t deserve it!” she bawled, fat tears leaking down her cheeks. 

For a split second Chaol had never felt more relieved in his life that he wasn’t the source of his wife’s tears. Relief turned into confusion as he stared at her.

“I thought this was your favorite movie?”

“It is,” she gasped through her tears.

He reached over and handed her a box of tissues. “Do you want me to stop it? We can watch something else.”

“No!” she shrieked. “It’s my favorite movie!”

“But you’re crying!”

“It’s just my stupid hormones,” she said. “You know I cry all the time now for no good reason.”

As Chaol listened to Yrene quote the movie practically line by line through her thick tears - she was especially emotional when Buttercup and Wesley were separated, and when Inigo Montoya got revenge for his father’s death - Chaol had to hand it towards their unborn child: when they committed to absolutely dunking on their father, they went hard. At the end of the day, it was Baby Westfall with the sweep: six for six, Chaol thought almost bitterly. 

Yrene was completely sobbing by the end of the movie as everyone rode off into the sunset. “It’s such a good movie,” she moaned through her sobs. 

Well, at least she had a good time. Chaol tried to keep his voice light as he suggested they get ready for bed but Yrene heard the disappointment behind his words.

“Hold on,” she sniffed, refusing to let him get off the couch. “What’s wrong?”

“It’s just,” he began, suddenly embarrassed. He sighed. “I’m sorry Yrene. I tried to make our first Valentine’s day together perfect but everything went wrong.”

She furrowed her brows at him and sat up, wiping the last tears from her reddened cheeks away. “What do you mean?”

“I made you breakfast in bed and you couldn’t have it because the baby gave you morning sickness. I signed us up for yoga, none of your clothes fit. I made you one of your favorite meals, the baby decided they wanted something else. We watched your favorite movie and you cried nearly the entire time. I just wanted to give you the perfect day and frankly, the baby sabotaged all of it,” he ended, only scowling a little. 

Yrene laughed and despite his misery, that all too familiar flutter hammered through his chest at the sight and sound of it. “Don’t listen to him, little one,” she said, staring down and patting her stomach. “He’s just a little upset that you ruined all his hard work.”

“Yeah I am,” he grumbled, but laughed along with Yrene.

“This was the best Valentine’s day I’ve ever had,” Yrene said, looking up at him and staring at him with such love and adoration on her face he nearly stopped breathing. “And you know why?”

Shaking his head numbly, a small thrill went through him as she grabbed one of his hands in both of hers. “Because I spent the whole day with my amazing and caring and handsome husband, and I can’t think of anything more lovely than that.”

She pulled him in for a kiss and his hand fell to her stomach, where their baby’s kicks beat like a drum against him. 

“See? They’re happy they got to spend all day with you too,” Yrene said, positively glowing.

How did he get so lucky to have found this amazing woman? “I love you,” Chaol whispered. “Happy Valentine’s day.”

“I love you,” Yrene said, leaning down to kiss him softly, and Chaol had to admit that even if their baby one-upped him all day long, it was still the best Valentine’s day ever. 

[suau-projectmatriarch]

[WARNING: This blog includes a lot of swearing, blood, and graphic descriptions of gruesome violence. It is a more r-rated fan fiction with some graphic art as well. If that stuff triggers you, please take care of yourself and either block my account or ignore it, I won't be offended.] Project Matriarch Master Post

Author: Azureang3l Hello! Welcome to the Project Matriarch master post, where I will post links to the chapters, reference photos for all of the characters, basic info, etc! [LINKS BELOW] GENERAL INFO Project Matriarch is a written Steven Universe AU fan fiction [with some art here and there] set after SUF where Steven and the Crystal Gems face a new kind of enemy, the very people they tried to protect Brief description of the AU in question is on AO3 and in the blog description! I will post the chapters here as well as on AO3 [LINKS BELOW] No set schedule, more focused on quality and health and life stuff rather then quantity I've had an ungodly amount of formatting issues trying to make fancy indents in AO3 and on here so- I'm just gonna format the story how I format it on AO3 to save me some sanity lol

TAGS Au Tag: #su au project matriarch Ask Tag: #PM asks/replies Chat Tag: #azureang3l rambles ASK RULES Feel free to ask me and the characters questions! But there are some ground rules and info I gotta put into place first - Keep things SFW - You can give characters things! [no promises I can draw said thing very well though] - The minimum amount of characters that can be questioned at a time will be 2, cause otherwise it would get overwhelming pretty quick - You can ask personal questions and be mean but, just a warning, some characters probably won't respond very well- - I will avoid answering questions that spoil the story REFERENCE SHEETS [More to be added]

CHAPTERS - CHAPTER 1: Medicine [AO3 Link] - CHAPTER 2: Sieze [AO3 Link] - CHAPTER 3: Split [AO3 Link] - CHAPTER 4: Test [AO3 Link] - CHAPTER 5: Hello [AO3 Link] - CHAPTER 6: Gone [AO3 Link] - CHAPTER 7: Remembrance [AO3 Link] - CHAPTER 8: Team [AO3 Link]

[idyllic-affections]

This may be late but welcome 🦊 anon to our family of anons and moots! Hope you you like our cozy nice family ^_^

I DO!!!!! AMBROSE WITH A SCYTHE IS SO FITTING! Like imagine someone looking like an angel comes to you and heal you but then you said something bad about Yaoshi and BAM! you have a scythe near your neck and shall feel the wrath of the Child of Abundance!!!!! 乁⁠ʕ⁠ ⁠•̀⁠ ⁠۝ ⁠•́⁠ ⁠ʔ⁠ㄏ

The idea just gives me angel of death vibes yk???? Now they wouldnt go killing people for no reason but like to their allies and the people they help, they are an angel, the rain that comes after a long drought, their salvation from the pain but to their enemies? The grim reaper that has come to collect your soul, the cold that has come to take your last breath, the one who has your life at the tip of their hands.

But honestly i think they could still have a gun, like Kafka has two weapons (her katana and guns) why not have Ambrose wield two weapons? or we can go the ruby rose route and have Ambrose wield a hybrid of a scythe and a gun/sniper. (Just search “Ruby Rose Weapon” and a weapon called “Cresent Rose” will appear and you willl get what i mean if you dont watch RWBY)

Also not a full day gone by and i was already spoiled by dear Youtube with many scenes of the new update 💀. How in Teyvat are people this fast in playing the new update?! (Btw have you played it yourself? And who are you getting? or are you saving up?)

- 🐱 Anon

YES YOU SEE MY VISION AKJSKSHJSGJ 🙏🙏🙏🙏 YOU ALWAYS DO THOUGH FR

ambrose is so gentle and lovely!!! they're so willing to help out where they can, even if the person they're helping out is aligned with the xianzhou alliance or otherwise aligned with the hunt... but, generally, a child who has a good relationship with their parent doesn't take well to that parent being insulted. they don't go around insulting lan, so... if someone from the alliance really wants their healing that badly, then they need to swallow down whatever misplaced bitterness they may have towards the abundance because ambrose literally does not tolerate it well!!!! it pisses them off!!!!! that's their parent you're talking about, you know :((

UGHGHGHGGGG THAT IS SO REAL!!!!!! ambrose is not the kind of person to needlessly kill. that said, it's important to remember that they can. it would be dangerous if they were unable to; the universe is so insanely dangerous, after all. they'd be a sitting duck if they couldn't protect themselves effectively. ambrose is something of a pacifist. they are not harmless. they are capable of bringing harm, but actively choose not to. but... if they had to? ambrose is so impossibly attuned to life, but life and death are merely two sides of the same coin, are they not? ambrose is all too familiar with death, having seen for themselves the pain and suffing and death that war and violence can bring upon a world. so... who better than them to be the one to flip that coin? yes, ambrose may be attuned to life, but they are also attuned to death.

ambrose indeed can be seen as an angel of death. an angel, gentle and kind and a nurturer of life, but one who is also deeply familiar with death and has the power to bring it upon a person just as powerfully as they can life. the aeons are gods in their own right, so i don't think it's too far off to say that some of their emanators are like their angels--the ones who exercise their will when and where they can't or haven't. ambrose is definitely one of yaoshi's angels!

and, fun fact--ambrose was initially supposed to have wings. phoenix wings, initially, when i was still considering how to handle their mara (they would have functioned similarly to how the vidyadhara do, in that they would burst into flames periodically and shed some but not all of their memories before rising from those ashes; the difference between them and the vidyadhara being that they would come back the exact same as before, with the exception of a few missing memories). but angel-like wings seem more fitting now.

i watched RWBY very briefly a few years back! so i do know what it is you're referring to and i think the idea is super cool....... i don't think it suits ambrose, however. i think perhaps something more like how kafka functions would suit them better! so maybe i'll make them a dual-wielder <3

HELSPDLDJSLHDKH i haven't played it yet but same!! it's so hard to avoid spoilers tbh. i don't plan on pulling for jingliu or anyone else as of right now! i'm just saving up for now, i think. 🫶

[bookoformon]

2 Nephi Chapter 19. "Nevertheless, the Light to Come."

Isaiah speaks messianically—The people in darkness will see a great light—Unto us a child is born—He will be the Prince of Peace and will reign on David’s throne—Compare Isaiah 9. About 559–545 B.C.

1 aNevertheless, the dimness shall not be such as was in her vexation, when at first he lightly afflicted the bland of cZebulun, and the land of dNaphtali, and afterwards did more grievously afflict by the way of the Red Sea beyond Jordan in Galilee of the nations.

Zebulun= Glorious dwelling place

Naphtali= Who struggles

Jordan= the Descendent. To cross the Jordan is to become one's adult descendent.

Red Sea= The East Wind which blows the mind clear of the delusions that cause sin. It is the Voice of God which drowns out the voices of the propagandists and creates dry land, safe territory free of slanderous speech and bloodshed.

What Was the Parting of the Red Sea?

The miracle of the parting of the Red Sea (keriat yam suf in Hebrew) was performed by G‑d through Moses, seven days after the Israelites’ Exodus from Egypt. Pharaoh and the Egyptian armies had pursued Israel to the water. Moses turned to G‑d in prayer, and G‑d instructed him to raise his staff. A strong east wind blew, and the sea parted, allowing the Israelites to walk through it on dry land.

=God is trying to tell the world it's not going to be so bad. He will do what is necessary to lead the righteous out of slavery to people who propagandize gun violence, racism, climate change and war crimes and make them seem paradigmatic.

The Tantra states,

"Nevertheless, the dimness caused by those who curse king, God and country shall not stay one who struggles to find God's Glory on the other side of one's deluded mind. They will not walk in darkness."

2 The people that walked in darkness have seen a great light; they that dwell in the land of the shadow of death, upon them hath the light shined.

3 Thou hast multiplied the nation, and aincreased the joy—they joy before thee according to the joy in harvest, and as men rejoice when they divide the spoil.

4 For thou hast broken the yoke of ahis burden, and the staff of his shoulder, the rod of his boppressor.

yokes= The concept is that of "accepting the yoke of Heaven" (in Hebrew, "kabalat ol malchut shamayim"); it is a way of acting that derives from our obligation to G‑d, rather than out of love or fear of Him.

staff= has to do with the difference between God's voice and the voice of the serpent.

For their first meeting with the Egyptian monarch, Moses and Aaron were instructed by G‑d to demonstrate a miraculous feat: Aaron was to cast his staff before Pharaoh whereupon it would turn into a snake. So he did - but was quickly matched by the Egyptians wizards who performed the same trick. Then, after all the snakes had reverted to their original status as staffs, Aaron's staff swallowed the staffs of the wizards, ending the contest. This discourse discusses the inner significance of the staff-snake-staff sequence and why this was the sign chosen to introduce Pharaoh and Egypt to what was for them a new reality:

5 For every battle of the warrior is with confused noise, and garments rolled in blood; but athis shall be with burning and fuel of fire.

Battles that result in blood soaked garments are never won. Those fought over the incense burner with wood, the vessel and incense, AKA the study of the Torah are how all battles against transgression in life are won.

Next: This is not actually the prophecy used in the Gospels, which comes from a different section in Isaiah. Read both 9:6-9:8 and the real meaning will jump out:

6 For unto us a achild is born, unto us a son is given; and the government shall be upon his shoulder; and his name shall be called, Wonderful, Counselor, The Mighty God, The Everlasting Father, The Prince of Peace.

7 Of the increase of government and peace there is no end, upon the throne of David, and upon his kingdom to order it, and to establish it with judgment and with justice from henceforth, even forever. The zeal of the Lord of Hosts will perform this.

8 The Lord sent his word unto Jacob and it hath lighted upon Israel.

In the Torah, sons are seed forces that satisfy the desires of the woman "the prophetess", who establishes the experiential order to come. In this case the Tanakh says we want to use the "technology" to create race of men that will create governments that finally establish social justice, peace...all the Noble Skills and Clans...

See:

https://www.tumblr.com/torahtantra/716760141661339648/the-ephod-the-passport-to-heaven?source=share

9 And all the people shall know, even Ephraim "Prosperous" and the inhabitants of Samaria "those who watch", that say in the pride and stoutness of heart:

10 The bricks are fallen down, but we will build with hewn stones; the sycamores are cut down, but we will change them into bcedars.

Sycamores are a kind of fig found in the desert. They do not grow very tall. Cedars are men who grow up, have no ignoble tendencies, and respond well to the yoke of duty.

11 Therefore the Lord shall set up the adversaries of Rezin "the Bridle" against him, and join his enemies together;

12 The Syrians "felicity" before and the Philistines "the weakener" behind; and they shall devour Israel with open mouth. For all this his banger is not turned away, but his hand is stretched out still.

13 For the people turneth not unto him that smiteth them, neither do they seek the Lord of Hosts.

14 Therefore will the Lord cut off from Israel head and tail, branch and rush in one day.

15 The ancient, he is the head; and the prophet that teacheth lies, he is the tail.

16 For the leaders of this people cause them to err; and they that are bled of them are destroyed.

17 Therefore the Lord shall have no joy in their young men, neither shall have mercy on their fatherless and widows; for every one of them is a hypocrite and an evildoer, and every mouth speaketh folly. For all this his anger is not turned away, but his hand is stretched out still.

18 For awickedness burneth as the fire; it shall devour the briers and thorns, and shall kindle in the thickets of the forests, and they shall mount up like the lifting up of smoke.

19 Through the wrath of the Lord of Hosts is the aland darkened, and the people shall be as the fuel of the fire; no man shall spare his brother.

20 And he ashall snatch on the right hand and be hungry; and he shall beat on the left hand and they shall not be satisfied; they shall eat every man the flesh of his own arm—

21 Manasseh, aEphraim; and Ephraim, Manasseh; they together shall be against bJudah. For all this his anger is not turned away, but his hand is stretched out still.

Ma=what

Nasseh=lifts

Ephraim= Prosperity

Judah= Praise

="What lifts us up is prosperous should not violate the Torah lest it perish. For all that angers God is not turned away; His Authority is everlasting."

=19 Through the wrath of the Lord of Hosts is the land darkened, and the people shall be as the fuel of the fire; no man shall spare his brother.

v. 9 Says the wise know something is wrong. We all know it. The Virgin birth was supposed to yield a governor and a government free of ignobility, ignominy, violence, oppression and tyranny. Instead the land continued to be soaked in blood, and bodies not incense fill the air with smoke.

Call him what you want- Son of David, a snake-staff, a cedar, a vine instead of a brier, someone needs to rise up and engage in policy work that turns back the Wrath of God. All of our troubles are the result of rifts between scripture and policy, AKA Egypt and the Promised Land.

"A strong east wind blew, and the sea parted, allowing the Israelites to walk through it on dry land."

[normalbirb]

“You have two extra set of legs to use!"

[all-hail-stevinel]

two different reactions to pregnant!spinel lol

both Steven and Universe are very protective, but one is a bit more uh...zealous with how he expresses it 😂😂😂

and yes, they both kiss Spinel’s baby bump 1000 times every morning, what about it???

[mudwingprincemain]

SO! the anniversary of this au is coming up really fast (a week from now, holy shit-) and im not really ready for it XD

but i do have some plans >:)

and one of them is that i'll give out 7 random facts about the faded au leading up to the anniversary along with how many days we have left!

its been a lot of fun messing around with you guys and now its been a full year of that :)

[demonn-pilloww]

Now this makes more sense

[allet-art]

Forgot about this cockroach yet? Now you haven’t

[mysticbaconslice]

pearl

[anti-anti-stevinel]

[the-garbage-is-my-fandom]

There are many things in this world that are universally acknowledged as impossible

Licking your elbow

Eating only one potato chip

Sneezing without closing your eyes

I'd like to add to that list

Avoiding SUF spoilers on this godforsaken hellsite

[borkthemork]

My favorite part about all this is that people are starting to think the wyrm theory might come true and are beginning to jump onto the idea, and I’m just here being like

[werewolfie]

im so tired