#suck-ass adaptation tho like jfc

[queerofthedagger]

well that was disappointing as all fuck

[semiautomatic-mouth]

:)

I am currently on the path to making true and lasting changes to my life, working to reach goals, and really just striving to live on-purpose. Being around him has honestly been so good for me, and not because I'm changing for him or feel any desire to. Instead, he is just this incredibly-influential person filled with knowledge and life-skills and understands how to move through trials of adulthood. It's honestly p wild to see the changes I've implemented, almost subconsciously, and for the most part, simply bc I see him functioning and adapt the behaviors and habits to achieve my own functionality. That sounds vague but I'm baked so I will give examples. I consciously work to keep my spaces clean, his house is like a fucking model home most days, and he told me that it's easy to keep order as long as you maintain the habit of just tidying as you go. And that has rly stuck w me, esp since I'm currently sharing a house w my family and their immense amts of clutter and superfluous junk (SEVEN NAIL CLIPPERS IN 1 BATHROOM JFC), so I just started doing small things to maintain order. I make my fucking bed now ! And my car is p clean...need to get under the seats tho lmao. And everything else is centered on achieving my goals in order to live my most authentic life and it's just....So Great??? The best part is that he openly expresses how proud he is of me for making these changes and actively working to become the independent adult that I want to be. There is so much support on both ends, and it is just so so...Holistic and positive. Everything abt our friendship-etc. just works so well. The dynamic is so fluid and electric and being around him is just so clarifying. It fucking sucks that he has so much shit to deal w in his life--Like So Much--and he works his ass off so that makes for less-frequent hangs at times, but it usually culminates in late-night hangs that I have to fucking sneak out of my house for but they're always adventures--star gazing, drinks 20 mins before last call, climbing trees and doing handstands in parking lots, nearly getting arrested for closed-park shenanigans, just fucking driving on back roads and talking abt everything we can--and I always take the opportunity when I can bc I love spending time with him and making these cool, lasting memories and just feeling so blissed-out and Alive. So WTL;DR: I am striving for happiness and fly working to surround myself with good things and good vibes and good people and tuning into the universe and reading self-help books and just. I am so proud of the steps I've made and am beyond pumped abt the path these steps are paving the way for. And I'm so happy to have met and actively participate in his life and he mine. I'm just a gusher bursting w good feelings and bleeeehhhhh