#stuff i write while on meds

[homunculusgirldick]

Kimetsu no yaiba stuff?

I just, got into thinking about kimetsu and the weird feelingd i have towards it. So i am gonna ramble a little.

So essentially, i thunk kimetsu no yaiba is a little bit... sexist? And i have thoughts about that. Because the show is frankly a lot better than older shonen and it is infact, not bad at all, like, i dont know if i would call it "problematic" at all.

Like, most of what it does in fine, and even the tropes it uses are very mild. Its not even something that feels complaint worthy, but i find it almost facinating to think about, as i have gotten into analizing more the stories i consume. Kimetsu feels like a story plagued by little "biases", wich in a way, all stories have, but i just personally find it very interesting.

The way i would put it, the shows feels like a very good version of a very anticuated style, it is a very simple shonen with a couple of interesting ideas and blessed visuals. But in that basic shonen way, you really can feel the tropes, the sort of mentality behind them.

Ok to the actual topic; the female characters. They are not bad, i guess they are as deep as anyone else and some i even like, (like a good shonen they are few of them).

There are three women amongst the big powerful heroes and villains in the story.

On the heroes side, there are the pillars, each with an elemental power:

Water

fire

sound

mist

Sound

Wind

Snake

LOVE

BUTTERFLIES (insects)

WICH ONES DO YOU THINK ARE THE TWO GIRLS???

Like, the only women are love and butterflies??? And they are not... bad characters, again, they are kinda like every one else, but with such theming from the get go its hard to not side eye a little bit. And yeah, even if the way each one is written is okay the type of writting who gave them the love and butterflies powers follows them constantly, to the point that, despite liking them i cannot take my eyes off the tropes.

Because in a vacum, they are pretty cool, i honestly do like shinobu's (butterfly) story, her whole thing about hidding a deep anger, behind s forced gentleness. I think she is cool and she looks cool and has cool powers. But i cannot ignore that she is the doctor butterfly girl who uses poison because she is too weak to chop heads off. Specially is there is no other ones. Because when the only other woman is a big boobs love obsesed pink haired girl with the power of LOVE, its hard not to notice a patern.

Again, i am not even against their characters, tropes and all existing but is the pattern that pretty much all the female character share that annoys me.

And yeah, all of the women have at least a couple of weird tropes and roles that kinda prevent me from fully enjoying them.

Like, Kanao's deeply traumathic life resulting in stunted emotions being fixed by falling in love??? Tanjiro kinda shows up and the place with the ladies and solves their problems.

Daki, the only woman in the upper moons and she is the lowest rank, and guess what, she ISNT the lowest rank, cause the actual lower rank is her badass older brother that protects her cause she is just a weak cry baby.

And the thing is, like i said before, i dont hate the characters, or their tropes, and i am find with them in a vacum, is frankly not a big deal and is miles better that a lot of other shonen. Is just that, with this series in particular, i can almost feel the old outdated tropes clinging to the characters and dragging then down. Like if with a few changes, or simply more female characters in less tropey roles, i would not mind at all.

I guesd i am just annoyed at the pillars. It feels like a PARODY. I want a female wind or rock or fire pillar goddammit! Or how about a dude themed around love? Do better.

I guess the other funny thing is that, nezuko is in contrast so much better? Like, she falls into a damicel in distress at times and its not perfect, but she turns big and buff and evil. Her powers and rol specially in more resent fights are a lot less tainted by basic ass tropes, she is remarcably phisically strong, she is cool.

But it is her existance what in a way shines a light in the weirdness of characters like Daki. They are both powerful demons, i mean there was nothing preventing gyutaro or some of the other upper moons from being women? Or Daki could have been the actual powerhouse.

Tho that is also just a trope that annoys me, because if characters can be superhumanly strong, then being a man of a woman doesn't matter! They cut stone with elemental magic sword fighting and enhance their bodies with mistical breathing techniques, why are there no girls.

[homunculusgirldick]

If i had a Boss battle it would start as a badass lady knight with a cool sword and on the second phase my helmet explodes into a mass of sharpen tentacles and my body grows bending the armor until i turn into a vaguely humanoid chimeric monster with like a snake head for a tail and claws and stuff.

would be called like, Homunculus Knight Sofía.

girls love having a second boss phase

[bamsara]

I love Arson he's my favorite heater but I should really get a cheap laptop one day so I can leave the house to write because the Noise. Is . Too Much. I need to go write in the forest

[dailydoodlies]

(day 19)

sdflksfjdklj really like subspace,, so awesomesauce,, would like to study this guy under a microscope,,

tried to make something for pre-incident subspace and also just clean up my current subspace design

[iliterallydecepticanteven]

I'm going back through my phone notes and I remember I was gonna write a fun kinda tongue in cheek TFA fic of Ratchet dealing with various interfacing related injuries and getting fed up with them all. Like Autobot-Decepticon truce situation, and he's gotta deal with stuff like Lugnut coming in with shattered optics because Strika sat on his face too hard, and Bulkhead comes in with minor electrical burns and arhythmia because Bumblebee accidentally shocked him, and Shockwave and Blurr coming in with friction burns in embarrassing places for reasons you can probably figure out. Like fun non-serious but embarrassing injuries. Then the punchline would be Ratchet getting a broken hip because he fell off the berth in the middle of getting busy with Arcee and the other medics desperately trying not to laugh while patching him up. That's for sure going on the future fics list.

[baconcolacan]

I’m doing something else but I had a thought looking at all my stories.

Man, its so easy to shift Tord’s characterisation everywhere on his personality slider, without me feeling too uncomfortable about how he conducts himself. This is probably because we lost his character early on, without getting a “solid” base like the others. They have their “default” but a little extra something in there too, yfeel?? Something Tord doesn’t have.

Anyway this is a ramble for me to say:

Regimen Tord: Incel-Weeb

KC Tord: Chuunibyou-Emo

Stay Tord: Nerd-Geek

That is all.

[guqin-and-flute]

OKAY. I have been doing some really good blocks of writing over the past few weeks--like several sessions with ~2000 words. Unfortunately, a lot of it has been skipping around on different fics (I'm trying to be better about unhealthy sleep habits, so I'm not writing in huge, hyperfixated chunks. Or trying not to 😬).

So, if you would like, feel free to poke, request, remind so it stays on my conscious mind! Do not feel obligated, this is only if you feel the urge, it will get done either way!

[beast-feast]

This should be me manifesting my energy into making things when I don't actually have the Energy to make them rn

[hotmess-exe]

wrote like 1k words last night yayyy

[blairwaldcrf]

there are times when I genuinely question if i can actually speak my native language or if I'm just pretending

[homunculusgirldick]

Alright i had quite the moment with my mom.

So, for random stupid reasons i pretty much failed a class, and i explained my mom, and so i got to get some stuff out of my chest and try and explain to her again how i... well experience shit.

And truly i am loosing my mind as i start to finally get that, not everyone feels like this????? Not everyone wakes up tired and can only do like 1 task a day and feels so exausted they can barely sit on a chair and has accepted that they will fail classes and go real slow for the rest of their life???

Some people have ENERGY and have PLANS and GOALS and work all day and get tired on the afternoon but can still go to work in the morning.

Some people arent so acostumed to a total lack of energy that even the greatest motivation cannot shift.

Wild.

So anyways, i am getting a lot more certain i have chronic fatigue or someshit.

[rainecloud020604]

I iwsh it wasn't hard tk talk why is everything worse now.

[nocherryblood]

May I add: living with chronic anything.

Sometimes people with chronic conditions do everything they can to avoid making symptoms worse, or to manage their existing pain. Creams, meds, long medical treatments, etc. Sometimes it's long and monotonous, and people are still in pain afterwards. Sometimes it's more manageable.

Sometimes, people with chronic conditions might not want to do that. Sometimes they just want to carry on as they are. Maybe it's health risks, or monetary reasons, or it's just not worth it. Sometimes people just don't want to do it, full stop.

Chronic conditions are chronic for one reason: even if they come and go in bouts, even if they're "not that bad"... they don't go away. Sometimes they remain forever, sometimes they may go away. But either way, you will have them for a significant portion of time.

Some people have cures and medicine that helps them to live as uninterrupted as possible, some don't- whether it's access to funds to get it, or because there literally just isn't something like that out there in the world, or maybe it's too risky. Sometimes you can be cured of one thing and it causes another, or it can come back, or, even if your main symptoms are gone, you may be left permanently affected by what the condition did to your body.

Some people have low pain or needs- this doesn't mean they're "overreacting" or "being too dramatic". Pain, even on a low scale, can be absolutely debilitating over a prolonged period of time. Sometimes, medical specialists can get very temperamental over this- personally, my conditions always get missed on 95% tests even if the markers to indicate I have them are there, so the specialists are very reluctant to give me help at first because they don't understand how much my pain affects my life until I prove to them that that help supports me to try to carry on as best as possible. This meme pretty much sums it up (for those who are confused, π, or, pi, is a number that never ends- the calculation for it has been going on for hundreds upon hundreds of years and we're still nowhere near the end seemingly):

On the other hand, some people experience extremely high pain levels and/or are severely affected by their chronic conditions, so much so that it limits them from doing a majority, if not all, of their daily life activities. Some can manage with a carer or assistant, some cannot. That doesn't make them "useless" or "unworthy" or "lazy". They are valuable as all humans are to each other, no matter whether or not they can work "like everyone else" to fulfill that cruel, uncaring, devaluing shitshow of modern expectations of an adult or not. Human decency and care for each other shouldn't ever be associated in the slightest with output or ability.

Sometimes, people's conditions are "intrusive" and/or affect other people's lives (e.g. family becoming carers or assistants, needing more support, being unable to control impulses or body functions) and whilst, yes, sometimes they can take effort to deal with by people on the outside, the person themselves is not incontrol of their condition and complaining 24/7 about it to them will just make them feel like crap. Contrary to popular belief, many people with chronic conditions are actually extremely aware of the effect of their condition on themselves and especially others, and are constantly overcompensating for it and putting so much effort into dampening it down just to make it more "palatable" for others. You don't need to tell them what they already know- if something's really affecting you, maybe come up with a realistic way to help before you ream off about how much something they're having to deal with is annoying you.

Please, don't expect someone to move mountains if you're not going to give them the rope.

And the final point I'm going to make is... please, for the love of your own compassion, sometimes there are people who are tired of having to constantly have to avoid triggers or irritants (e.g. with skin conditions), and want to allow themselves some semblance of being able to live like fully non-chronically affected (i.e. not living with a chronic condition) people for a while.

Concern is a lovely thing to have, but sometimes, people just want to have a bit of a break, y'know? I understand if there's concern about someone continually, severely harming themselves with their actions (i.e. eating an allergen they're highly allergic to, or something that could seriously harm them long-term)- of course, speak to them or try to empathise with them and then bring up your concerns, or come up with something alternative for them.

But if it's a short-term thing? Just let me have this one thing, please- my mental health needs it too. Don't judge me for wanting to have one long night out even if I'm chronically exhausted or easily get overwhelmed. Don't judge me if I have chronic skin conditions but want to have one nice perfume or pretty bath even though I'll be barely able to tolerate clothes in the morning. Don't tell someone they're dumb because they want to take a walk even if they may not be able to keep moving for long. I, and they, can regulate ourselves- we know the risk vs. the reward and sometimes you just want to do "normal" things for once.

Just... please. We're not defined by our conditions, but it doesn't mean we're not constantly affected by them too. They're a part of us, they're not always a welcome part of us, but they're there and we have to deal with them. Just please don't forget: just because we seem happy or fine, doesn't mean we can't be in pain.

when u go to write a mentally ill person in ur story you are presented two options. the first option is to write your mental illness realistically as you actually experience it with all the ups and downs and people who are like you will resonate with it and feel seen. except every person who reads instagram infographics on mental health that uses the phrase narcicisst for anyone who does anything that crosses them and unironically call themself a dark empath will call you scary and tell you that youre demonizing mentally ill people

the second option is to lie and write inspiration porn for those people to get hard to

[sepiasys]

Hi I'm having a fun time with a headache still and uh I'm *ig* stressing over getting a job but not really but maybe

Idk

We's gotta get used to talking to ppls

The embarrassment at the bookstore we went to was enough andbsbdndb

[frascospecimen]

elean is a teacher, right? what age group does she teach?

She’s a nurse actually! Before she was a nurse she was a dog trainer/pet groomer and the last one is a job she wants to go back to doing once she gets back from space.

[mirror-shards-broken]

🪴In times when everything feels overwhelming and your inner world is heavy, know that your strength is not defined by how you feel. Even if today feels dark, you’re still a person of immense value and worth. Take things one moment at a time, and remember that your existence has a quiet resilience. You are doing your beset, and something to be proud of🪴

im barely a person, but alright. thanks for the kind words, i guess

who are you, anyway? are you the same anon from the other emoji asks?