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Kimetsu no yaiba stuff?
I just, got into thinking about kimetsu and the weird feelingd i have towards it. So i am gonna ramble a little.
So essentially, i thunk kimetsu no yaiba is a little bit... sexist? And i have thoughts about that. Because the show is frankly a lot better than older shonen and it is infact, not bad at all, like, i dont know if i would call it "problematic" at all.
Like, most of what it does in fine, and even the tropes it uses are very mild. Its not even something that feels complaint worthy, but i find it almost facinating to think about, as i have gotten into analizing more the stories i consume. Kimetsu feels like a story plagued by little "biases", wich in a way, all stories have, but i just personally find it very interesting.
The way i would put it, the shows feels like a very good version of a very anticuated style, it is a very simple shonen with a couple of interesting ideas and blessed visuals. But in that basic shonen way, you really can feel the tropes, the sort of mentality behind them.
Ok to the actual topic; the female characters. They are not bad, i guess they are as deep as anyone else and some i even like, (like a good shonen they are few of them).
There are three women amongst the big powerful heroes and villains in the story.
On the heroes side, there are the pillars, each with an elemental power:
Water
fire
sound
mist
Sound
Wind
Snake
LOVE
BUTTERFLIES (insects)
WICH ONES DO YOU THINK ARE THE TWO GIRLS???
Like, the only women are love and butterflies??? And they are not... bad characters, again, they are kinda like every one else, but with such theming from the get go its hard to not side eye a little bit. And yeah, even if the way each one is written is okay the type of writting who gave them the love and butterflies powers follows them constantly, to the point that, despite liking them i cannot take my eyes off the tropes.
Because in a vacum, they are pretty cool, i honestly do like shinobu's (butterfly) story, her whole thing about hidding a deep anger, behind s forced gentleness. I think she is cool and she looks cool and has cool powers. But i cannot ignore that she is the doctor butterfly girl who uses poison because she is too weak to chop heads off. Specially is there is no other ones. Because when the only other woman is a big boobs love obsesed pink haired girl with the power of LOVE, its hard not to notice a patern.
Again, i am not even against their characters, tropes and all existing but is the pattern that pretty much all the female character share that annoys me.
And yeah, all of the women have at least a couple of weird tropes and roles that kinda prevent me from fully enjoying them.
Like, Kanao's deeply traumathic life resulting in stunted emotions being fixed by falling in love??? Tanjiro kinda shows up and the place with the ladies and solves their problems.
Daki, the only woman in the upper moons and she is the lowest rank, and guess what, she ISNT the lowest rank, cause the actual lower rank is her badass older brother that protects her cause she is just a weak cry baby.
And the thing is, like i said before, i dont hate the characters, or their tropes, and i am find with them in a vacum, is frankly not a big deal and is miles better that a lot of other shonen. Is just that, with this series in particular, i can almost feel the old outdated tropes clinging to the characters and dragging then down. Like if with a few changes, or simply more female characters in less tropey roles, i would not mind at all.
I guesd i am just annoyed at the pillars. It feels like a PARODY. I want a female wind or rock or fire pillar goddammit! Or how about a dude themed around love? Do better.
I guess the other funny thing is that, nezuko is in contrast so much better? Like, she falls into a damicel in distress at times and its not perfect, but she turns big and buff and evil. Her powers and rol specially in more resent fights are a lot less tainted by basic ass tropes, she is remarcably phisically strong, she is cool.
But it is her existance what in a way shines a light in the weirdness of characters like Daki. They are both powerful demons, i mean there was nothing preventing gyutaro or some of the other upper moons from being women? Or Daki could have been the actual powerhouse.
Tho that is also just a trope that annoys me, because if characters can be superhumanly strong, then being a man of a woman doesn't matter! They cut stone with elemental magic sword fighting and enhance their bodies with mistical breathing techniques, why are there no girls.
#kimetsu no yaiba#demon slayer#stuff i write while on meds#i dont even know i just was in a mood#demon slayer spoilers
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I think driving school could try being a little more interesting tbh. Hiring a clown or something to teach theory lessons idk. Make an effort break a leg guys
#why is everything so BORING#My GOD#it's simple but no fun which means my brain is like HAHA. NOPE#it also doesn't help that I'm trying a new adhd med which turned out to be weaker than my previous meds#and I have to wait until the end of the month to get my regular meds now#which........ by then I'll already have finished all my driving theory classes............#ig I'll just have to go over the stuff we learn in class again on my own whenever I have some spare time#which SUCKS. but anyway#I'll do what I can and try my best etc I just need to sigh and bang my head against the wall a little bit#sleep.txt#I tried taking more notes today while the teacher was talking which helped a little#I think I just need to find ways to keep my brain awake and interested#which is a challenge but. well. at least writing words and scribbling lines helps
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Streamer!Honey Headcanons Pt.4
First Part Next Part
It’s been over a month I’m so sorry 😭😭😭 it’s here now, and there are some things that didn’t make it into this post, but that just means more parts!
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Guy started showing up on stream more often than he did in chat. Though, to protect his privacy, he wears sunglasses and a face mask.
Every time he seems to have a different set.
A face mask with a smiley face, or maybe it's rainbow colored, or (his favorite) a pizza pattern. Sometimes he wears one that is plain black with a small heart in the middle (honey likes to kiss the heart but not on stream ofc).
As for the glasses, I made this post talking about those ;w;
Every time he buys a new pair Honey has to go in and change out the lenses for darker ones so no one can see his eyes. They are very particular with Guy staying anonymous, they care about his safety more than they care about anything.
And unless he's willing to carry pepper spray and a pocket knife with him while he works, he is not allowed to show his face.
He loves how protective honey is, he thinks it's the cutest damn thing.
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The first time he showed himself, he and Honey had planned it beforehand. In the middle of their stream, he knocked on the door.
Honey made a big show of faking a dramatic gasp, and saying "whoever could that be??"
They open the door, and Guy steps in like 💃💃
"Oh my god, is that the Guy??"
Guy T-poses, "it is I, The Guy."
Chat lost their shit.
MY BOY ITS HE
GUY REVEAL [NOT CLICKBAIT] *EMOTIONAL*
Oh my 😳😳
HOT DAMN
loOK AT [HONEY'S] SMILE IM FUCKING SWOONING
beautiful beutiful butiful BETTYFUL BOOOOOYYYYYY
WHY HE DANCING LIKE THAT
DAMN HE GOT CAKE
Guy had quite the ego boost after that…
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Sometimes while sitting next to them on camera he'll slowly start to lower his face mask just so Honey will hold his face "to keep the mask on".
♡♡♡♡♡♡
Honey looks to their right to see Guy eyeing them while slowly lowering the face mask. They roll their eyes and huff, practically throwing their controller onto the desk in front of them. They take Guy's face in their hands, squishing his cheeks, and give him a hard glare.
It goes on for a few seconds, Honey's intense gaze boring through him. They lean a bit closer and their forehead presses against his, never breaking eye contact.
"Stop doing that shit," they say in a low voice that makes Guy's knees feel weak. "Please," they add quietly, and all he can do is nod.
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The fanart increased, and this time it wasn't weird because people had more of an idea as to what Guy looked like.
Guy still thinks it's adorable, and he has taken to finding ways to share this incredible art with the world in many ways.
He likes to print out the pictures and hang them on the fridge.
He calls the people in chat his children.
Or, at least, he did until they started calling him daddy…
Now they're just his chaos squad.
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Guy made a second Instagram account to post on without showing his face (as if he ever even posts on his personal acc)
His stories are… interesting
First there's a picture of a grasshopper he found outside with the caption "look at this dood", then you see a really blurry photo with the caption "ASGFKDGFGSJ HALP ITS EVIL".
He posts little videos of Honey 🥺
They're chilling on the couch, their legs draped over Guy's, and he turns the camera towards them with a cat face filter.
Honey makes eye contact with the camera and sticks their tongue out a little bit anD THAT LIL BLEP WITH THE DOODLE CAT EARS AND WHISKERS WAS ENOUGH TO MAKE GUY FALL IN LOVE WITH THEM ALL OVER AGAIN
Before the video cuts off you can hear him make a little gasp and the caption is "I love them"
Fans think this confirms their relationship until they see Honey's story has a video of Guy in the kitchen humming the macarena—and half ass dancing to it—while making pizza rolls with the caption "if there was a zombie apocalypse, he would die first", and it makes them think maybe not…
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Ever since Guy's debut, he joins chat less often (much to their disappointment), but what Honey doesn't know is that this was all part of an elaborate plan cooked up by none other than their menace of a boyfriend.
He wanted to spoop them. That's a harmless little prank, right?
WRONG
Honey has the most VIOLENT reactions when they get scared, you DO NOT want to be on the receiving end.
But nooooo, Guy just wants to be a little shit.
♡♡♡♡♡♡
Honey was playing The Mortuary Assistant. It's one of the few games that actually scares them from time to time, because of how unpredictable it is.
It was quiet, Honey wasn't really talking with chat. They were invested, double checking everything to make sure they were burning the right body.
Chat was basically left unsupervised, like a small child lost in the McDonald's play place.
Why do the feet have jiggle physics
✨realism✨
wouldnt the bodies be stiff tho? rick-a-morris or something?
RICK A MORRIS?!?!??!?
It's rigamortis, sweetheart
Ihatethisgameihatethisgame
EW EW NO GET THAT LIPLESS NO EYELID HAVIN ASS OFF MY SCREEN
WHY IS IT NAKED
Boy out here looking like salad fingers 🥗☝️👅👅
I’d smash ngl
Hi [Honey] <3 hope you're having a good day xoxo
That does not look like salad fingers
🌝✨rUstY💫🌚 💦🦴spOOnS🦠🥄
Baby girl got some mommy issues 😘💝😚
Lmao same 🤣😂😆
R u ok?
No :')
Can't have mommy issues if you never had a mom 😝😝
PLEASE-
Y r u joking abt this?? 😢😢
Where are the therapist people in chat?
Laughter is the best medicine ☺️☺️❤️
There they are
Alright, now everyone say 5 positive things about yourself
No
What if we don't?
I SAID 🔫🔫🔫 EVERYONE SAY 5 POSITIVE THINGS ABOUT YOURSELF🔫🔫🔫
HoneysHeaven: hello :)
Still no
GUY
GUY
MY GUUYY
BABY BOY BABY
HELLO 👋👋👋👋👋
HE HAS RISEN
GUY
PRAISE JUGULAR
HoneysHeaven: shh 🤫
EEEE
shh?
Ooh we be sneaky now
Y shh?
HoneysHeaven: everyone keep [honey] distracted I'm gonna spook them >:)
OOOH OK OK
SHHHHH
Oops
Pranky time 😈😈😈
Spoopy scary skeletons
Go Guy Go
On camera, you can see Guy verrry carefully open the door. He sneaks in, ever so gracefully, only tripping over himself a maximum of two times.
Despite his few hiccups, he managed to get in without Honey noticing (somehow)
Y'know that meme picture of Jason Momoa sneaking up on Henry Cavill? Yeah, that's what it looks like right now.
Honey was in the middle of a sentence when Guy pounced on them.
He wrapped his arms around them from behind and went, "BOO!"
Honey yelped and swung an arm behind them.
They've never had any training, but like… they've got a pretty damn good right hook…
They punched Guy in the face.
He fell to the ground, holding his nose, and laughed out a groan in pain.
JESUS FVCKING CHRIST
NOOOOOOOO
LMFAO 🤣🤣🤣🤣
GUY NO HIS FACE IS BROKEN
I KNEW THIS WAS A BAD IDEA 😭😭😭
Honey immediately realized what they'd done and a hand flew over their mouth. They were kneeling next to Guy within seconds.
They cupped his face, "holy shit, are you okay!? Let me see-"
Guy's glasses had been punched off his face, but since he was on the floor, Chat couldn't see.
He had tears in his eyes though he was laughing and saying he was fine.
Honey felt so fucking bad.
"No, Honey, I'm fine really. You don't have to- no! Oh noo, Honey don't cry!"
They weren't crying, they were just… teary.
A lot just happened all at once. They got scared, and they punched their boyfriend in front of around 200k people, and they're pretty sure his nose is broken. Leave them alone.
Guy pulled off his face mask, revealing his bruised, bloody nose. Yeah. That's broken.
Honey's eyes were full of so much guilt, you'd think they murdered someone's puppy.
They did.
Their puppy.
They said sorry so many times, they sounded like a broken record. They held Guy, with their face buried in the crook of his neck, mumbling apologies, before finally coming to their senses and turning off the stream to take Guy to the hospital.
He wasn't mad at them. Of course he wasn't.
But Honey was mad at themself, because how could they ever hurt Guy like that!?
He insisted it was fine, that he understood it was a reflex, and that he shouldn't have scared them (because he knows they react violently).
Regardless, Honey sucked up to him so much while his nose was healing, let me tell you.
They babied him, they coddled him, they waited on him hand and foot.
Guy hated that they felt so guilty, but he was getting so much love and affection, so…
He wasn't even that badly hurt, these two are just dramatic
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After that little fiasco, Guy's account now has a special alert to let Honey know that he's in chat (so he doesn't go do something stupid like that again).
At first the sound was a little ding noise, but then Guy changed it.
Now it starts playing the jaws theme.
#i know this wasnt as interesting as the other parts T^T im sorry#these were the things i was able to write down while off my meds#but since im back on them hopefully part five will have some more fun stuff#redacted audio#redactedverse#redacted headcanons#redacted honey#redacted guy#redacted pizza guy#redacted streamer!honey#redacted fanfic
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I'm going back through my phone notes and I remember I was gonna write a fun kinda tongue in cheek TFA fic of Ratchet dealing with various interfacing related injuries and getting fed up with them all. Like Autobot-Decepticon truce situation, and he's gotta deal with stuff like Lugnut coming in with shattered optics because Strika sat on his face too hard, and Bulkhead comes in with minor electrical burns and arhythmia because Bumblebee accidentally shocked him, and Shockwave and Blurr coming in with friction burns in embarrassing places for reasons you can probably figure out. Like fun non-serious but embarrassing injuries. Then the punchline would be Ratchet getting a broken hip because he fell off the berth in the middle of getting busy with Arcee and the other medics desperately trying not to laugh while patching him up. That's for sure going on the future fics list.
#obviously everything is sane and consensual#not safe tho because they ended up in the med bay#this fic based on embarrassing er visits as a result of sex gone sideways literally#i think ill make this and the fun medic fic i mentioned a while ago warm up works#you know stuff to write at the beginning to get into the swing of it#before writing what i actually sat down to write#tf#transformers#my ramblings#also have i ever mentioned my love for bulkbee#because i love them#theyre so cute#theres such a fun juxtaposition#you have the outgoing energetic city boy#and the shy smart country boy#besties and bonded in my book baby
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If i had a Boss battle it would start as a badass lady knight with a cool sword and on the second phase my helmet explodes into a mass of sharpen tentacles and my body grows bending the armor until i turn into a vaguely humanoid chimeric monster with like a snake head for a tail and claws and stuff.
would be called like, Homunculus Knight Sofía.
girls love having a second boss phase
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I’m doing something else but I had a thought looking at all my stories.
Man, its so easy to shift Tord’s characterisation everywhere on his personality slider, without me feeling too uncomfortable about how he conducts himself. This is probably because we lost his character early on, without getting a “solid” base like the others. They have their “default” but a little extra something in there too, yfeel?? Something Tord doesn’t have.
Anyway this is a ramble for me to say:
Regimen Tord: Incel-Weeb
KC Tord: Chuunibyou-Emo
Stay Tord: Nerd-Geek
That is all.
#neil talky#regimen ao3#ew Stay AU#Two Kings ao3#If you want a stupid summarization of how I approach them lmao#CG Tord can be a hikkikomori#fhskskd#CG ao3#Thats by ‘solid’ base for these Tords when I write them#also I’m doing some other stuff while I readjust to my new meds so forgive me for not getting to asks yet#🙏#AND IM SO SORRY FOR USING WEEB TERMS#I *WAS* A WEEB AND THIS IS THE CLOSEST EXPLANATION I CAN GET
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OKAY. I have been doing some really good blocks of writing over the past few weeks--like several sessions with ~2000 words. Unfortunately, a lot of it has been skipping around on different fics (I'm trying to be better about unhealthy sleep habits, so I'm not writing in huge, hyperfixated chunks. Or trying not to 😬).
So, if you would like, feel free to poke, request, remind so it stays on my conscious mind! Do not feel obligated, this is only if you feel the urge, it will get done either way!
#I don't think i ever said on here but my ADHD meds that I was on weren't working and i have yet to start new ones#this is probably obvious 😁#but I'm trying to get better about pacing and external systems to help get things done#(cute timers for writing/replying sprints#and website timer limits on my phone and browsera#a comfy place to write in my room#AND hopefully a clickity clackity mechanical keyboard soon to encourage happy stimmy feelings)#the work is slow but I'm getting there and that's what matters!! I'm massively compartmentalizing and taking it slow#because the point of burnout is telling you what's not working so I'm trying to learn from it and work better with myself#so sorry to friends i haven't replied to im a while--I'm getting there!#you are important and your correspondence matters to me and i appreciate your patience as i work shit out#and i wish that the stories I'm SO excited to share with everyone weren't so slow to come out but sometimes you gotta do the slow work firs#(i rewrote that last sentence to make it not an apology because I'm trying to be better about feelings of guilt#and obligation that YOU LOVELY PEOPLE never put on me and only stems from myself#cause mentally beating myself up isn't gonna do shit because it never HAS. we're doing something new! as many times as it takes!#ANYWAY#my stuff
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This should be me manifesting my energy into making things when I don't actually have the Energy to make them rn
#i woke up at 3 thus afternoon because i took my sleeping meds and it was A BAD IDEA#so I'm waiting out for a few hours to go back to sleep and fix my schedule but GODDDD being awake rn knowing i could be drawing is hell#not art but art related#literally the amount of plot I've thought about while going to bed too is so cruel 😭 worst time to think about writing like BITCH !!!!!!!#tomorrow I'm gonna be out most of the day but hopefully i can get the rest of the blocked colors down for the drawing stuff haha
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Alright i had quite the moment with my mom.
So, for random stupid reasons i pretty much failed a class, and i explained my mom, and so i got to get some stuff out of my chest and try and explain to her again how i... well experience shit.
And truly i am loosing my mind as i start to finally get that, not everyone feels like this????? Not everyone wakes up tired and can only do like 1 task a day and feels so exausted they can barely sit on a chair and has accepted that they will fail classes and go real slow for the rest of their life???
Some people have ENERGY and have PLANS and GOALS and work all day and get tired on the afternoon but can still go to work in the morning.
Some people arent so acostumed to a total lack of energy that even the greatest motivation cannot shift.
Wild.
So anyways, i am getting a lot more certain i have chronic fatigue or someshit.
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wrote like 1k words last night yayyy
#finally finding a sweet spot with a new med thank god#the med before last is what i'd been on for a while but i needed a higher dosage#v effective but also a huge appetite suppressant -_- and i'm already struggling with malnutrition#and the one i tried before this was not doin a damn thing for my attention#but was also a mild appetite suppressant and made me constipated so like.... a wash#this one tho!!! 🤞🏾#cie stuff#i love writing... and by that i mean i love when i am physically capable of actually fucking writing
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there are times when I genuinely question if i can actually speak my native language or if I'm just pretending
#like with English I know I can write well enough#i aced college essays and whatnot lol#but half the time I post or text I'll read back and be like..... that ~genuinely~ makes no sense#it's gotten worse since my new (only) spanish speaking roommates moved in#constantly finding myself mixing grammar rules both ways when I have to interpret#and I'm off adhd meds while they figure out my heart stuff which didn't help#anyways#personal#language tag#(insert that's not important but it's important to me that you know that gif here)
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May I add: living with chronic anything.
Sometimes people with chronic conditions do everything they can to avoid making symptoms worse, or to manage their existing pain. Creams, meds, long medical treatments, etc. Sometimes it's long and monotonous, and people are still in pain afterwards. Sometimes it's more manageable.
Sometimes, people with chronic conditions might not want to do that. Sometimes they just want to carry on as they are. Maybe it's health risks, or monetary reasons, or it's just not worth it. Sometimes people just don't want to do it, full stop.
Chronic conditions are chronic for one reason: even if they come and go in bouts, even if they're "not that bad"... they don't go away. Sometimes they remain forever, sometimes they may go away. But either way, you will have them for a significant portion of time.
Some people have cures and medicine that helps them to live as uninterrupted as possible, some don't- whether it's access to funds to get it, or because there literally just isn't something like that out there in the world, or maybe it's too risky. Sometimes you can be cured of one thing and it causes another, or it can come back, or, even if your main symptoms are gone, you may be left permanently affected by what the condition did to your body.
Some people have low pain or needs- this doesn't mean they're "overreacting" or "being too dramatic". Pain, even on a low scale, can be absolutely debilitating over a prolonged period of time. Sometimes, medical specialists can get very temperamental over this- personally, my conditions always get missed on 95% tests even if the markers to indicate I have them are there, so the specialists are very reluctant to give me help at first because they don't understand how much my pain affects my life until I prove to them that that help supports me to try to carry on as best as possible. This meme pretty much sums it up (for those who are confused, π, or, pi, is a number that never ends- the calculation for it has been going on for hundreds upon hundreds of years and we're still nowhere near the end seemingly):
On the other hand, some people experience extremely high pain levels and/or are severely affected by their chronic conditions, so much so that it limits them from doing a majority, if not all, of their daily life activities. Some can manage with a carer or assistant, some cannot. That doesn't make them "useless" or "unworthy" or "lazy". They are valuable as all humans are to each other, no matter whether or not they can work "like everyone else" to fulfill that cruel, uncaring, devaluing shitshow of modern expectations of an adult or not. Human decency and care for each other shouldn't ever be associated in the slightest with output or ability.
Sometimes, people's conditions are "intrusive" and/or affect other people's lives (e.g. family becoming carers or assistants, needing more support, being unable to control impulses or body functions) and whilst, yes, sometimes they can take effort to deal with by people on the outside, the person themselves is not incontrol of their condition and complaining 24/7 about it to them will just make them feel like crap. Contrary to popular belief, many people with chronic conditions are actually extremely aware of the effect of their condition on themselves and especially others, and are constantly overcompensating for it and putting so much effort into dampening it down just to make it more "palatable" for others. You don't need to tell them what they already know- if something's really affecting you, maybe come up with a realistic way to help before you ream off about how much something they're having to deal with is annoying you.
Please, don't expect someone to move mountains if you're not going to give them the rope.
And the final point I'm going to make is... please, for the love of your own compassion, sometimes there are people who are tired of having to constantly have to avoid triggers or irritants (e.g. with skin conditions), and want to allow themselves some semblance of being able to live like fully non-chronically affected (i.e. not living with a chronic condition) people for a while.
Concern is a lovely thing to have, but sometimes, people just want to have a bit of a break, y'know? I understand if there's concern about someone continually, severely harming themselves with their actions (i.e. eating an allergen they're highly allergic to, or something that could seriously harm them long-term)- of course, speak to them or try to empathise with them and then bring up your concerns, or come up with something alternative for them.
But if it's a short-term thing? Just let me have this one thing, please- my mental health needs it too. Don't judge me for wanting to have one long night out even if I'm chronically exhausted or easily get overwhelmed. Don't judge me if I have chronic skin conditions but want to have one nice perfume or pretty bath even though I'll be barely able to tolerate clothes in the morning. Don't tell someone they're dumb because they want to take a walk even if they may not be able to keep moving for long. I, and they, can regulate ourselves- we know the risk vs. the reward and sometimes you just want to do "normal" things for once.
Just... please. We're not defined by our conditions, but it doesn't mean we're not constantly affected by them too. They're a part of us, they're not always a welcome part of us, but they're there and we have to deal with them. Just please don't forget: just because we seem happy or fine, doesn't mean we can't be in pain.
when u go to write a mentally ill person in ur story you are presented two options. the first option is to write your mental illness realistically as you actually experience it with all the ups and downs and people who are like you will resonate with it and feel seen. except every person who reads instagram infographics on mental health that uses the phrase narcicisst for anyone who does anything that crosses them and unironically call themself a dark empath will call you scary and tell you that youre demonizing mentally ill people
the second option is to lie and write inspiration porn for those people to get hard to
#stuff im nervous to write: a list.#1. autism/ocd tics. whenever it's mentioned irl ppl say “you don't have tourette's(!!)”...no i dont! I'm talking about AUTISM/OCD tics 🫠#2. “High-functioning” (for lack of better term) characters that can't/don't want to mask. irl I'm scolded for “acting more autistic”#2. and it hurts. first bc im not “acting” it's just trying to let my body carry out all the random little impulses i get and also bc “more#2. autistic“ (which isn't a great term anyway) is fucking cruel to use an insult. the people you think of as ”more autistic“ are people.#2. they gave thoughts and feeling too BC they're HUMAN. regardless of whether people know you're insulting them doesn't change what the#2. underlying message you're trying to say with that “more autistic” line.#3. autistics who react to stimuli in different ways. some ppl flap theur hands some dont. some vocalise but can control it some dont. some#3. have meltdowns and shutdowns and some dont. pls dont come to me and say “wait why couldn't [character] just say beforehand that”#3. they needed space or time out?“ is an example. it's okay to be curious- good even. but framing your questions in a way as to#3. blame someone for their actions especially when sometimes things happen sudden or without warning.#4. long-term chronic things. e.g. depression- ppl say you must wanna not be here to be depressed.#4. well no actually depression can also be when you feel empty or like everything is shallow or you can't comtrol anything.#4. wanting to hurt yourself isn't a deciding factor of depression. sometimes you just feel... tired. like a cloud over your heart. for years#4. skin issues- irl ppl acting up when i use something that i know is going to irritate my skin. not bc they care it will hurt. but bc it's#4. their moral mighty high ground. i know it's obvious to avoid irritants. but sometimes idc bc I've gone over a decade without and i would#like to indulge myself in something as simple as a bubble bath or a nice fabric for ny clothes thank you very much.#4. chronic migraines- ppl when i tell them i have a headache: “again!?!? ffs just take some meds” me- “thanks 👍🏼”#4. chronic anything tbh. sometimes when you've lived with something for long enough you want to have something nice once in a while#chronic illness#chronic pain#long post#chronic condition
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elean is a teacher, right? what age group does she teach?
She’s a nurse actually! Before she was a nurse she was a dog trainer/pet groomer and the last one is a job she wants to go back to doing once she gets back from space.
#Sometimes i feel like i should actually talk more about my ocs here because there’s so much I don’t talk about but welllllll Oops#im just bad at thinking of things to talk about….also shy LOL#elean timeline tldr is childhood friends with fellow crewmate and captain Ness -> eleans family moved back to poland while she was still a#kid and she didn’t see ness for a long time -> volunteer dog trainer as her first job -> more permanent dog trainer/pet groomer job while#she gets into med school (she starts transitioning somewhere around here) -> graduates med school and becomes nurse -> finds out about the#space mission opportunity and applies then when she gets accepted she moves to the us again to be part of the space program. and then she#meets ness again there -> Now she is in space#Probably the most stuff I’ve said about elean on tumblr. there’s a lot of writing behind these characters i just forget to post anything..
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🪴In times when everything feels overwhelming and your inner world is heavy, know that your strength is not defined by how you feel. Even if today feels dark, you’re still a person of immense value and worth. Take things one moment at a time, and remember that your existence has a quiet resilience. You are doing your beset, and something to be proud of🪴
im barely a person, but alright. thanks for the kind words, i guess
who are you, anyway? are you the same anon from the other emoji asks?
#asks#that emoji gimmick makes me think that this is the same person as the other ones#yknow what#im not-so-secretly hoping this g or b sending asks on anon#but that's extremely unlikely#i dont think they've learned how to send asks#and this is writing style isnt like either of theirs#and you seem to know a little something about systems because you said inner world#which#funnily enough#it's the outer world that's the problem here#it's because i cant get a job or go to college#and thus cant move with my cat out of my abusive parents' place#so im stuck in an endlessly retraumatizing environment#with parents who treat me like some decoration or little kid when im in my 20s#who seemingly endlessly lie about supporting my efforts at independence#all while the 2 fps/crushes that ive loved for 5 years both rejected my romantic feelings and one of them even got into a relationship#and like#yea im a whole yanpilled jealousymaxxer and everything XD#but i am polyam#and it's not like i couldnt handle having a metamour#but i dont get that#i get nothing#i get to be loved “like a brother”#by the people that have literally been my reasons to stay alive#and yea i get it#this mentality is at odds with my whole relationship anarchy-adjacent stuff#but i can't fucking help it#and all that while my meds keep getting fucked with and i can't sleep#and then there's the anxiety of what happens if america fucks up and elects a fascist again. yeah if that happens i probably will die
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#adhd meds wore off so snzzz goodnight#john rambles#but nah ill probably be lurking for a while or smth#just self satisfied right now about Writing today#maybe i can write some stuff later thats actual serious stuff and not like#me just thinking and thinking and thinking#maybe ill reblog some prompts or smth and ask for suggestions#literally i will taking writing suggestions whenever i love writinf SOOO freakin muc chch
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MK1 guys attending the fair with their S/O
(Tomas Vrbada, Bi-Han, Kuai Liang, Johnny Cage, Kung Lao, Raiden, Kenshi Takahashi, Syzoth, Liu Kang)
i just need to write these down because oh my god they've been stuck in my head for too long
this also ignores canon a bit (cough cough lin kuei cough cough) because i'm delusional and refuse to believe anything that bi-han did was canon /lh [lighthearted]
also not proofread and just a bit ooc , just made this outta impulse
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Tomas likes to go on the rides, specifically the more intense ones. He just finds the thrill of being tossed and turned around fun. He will do his best to comfort you if you don't do well on those kinds of rides and will even bring motion sickness meds just for you. Also please hold him whenever you're scared on those rides because it makes him feel so happy to know that you're willing to cling to him shdbsb
Tomas also enjoys the fair games a lot, the both of you trying and failing miserably to win the games and simply laughing about it. There was only one time he ever won a game, and it was only because he used a bit of his magic to toss the ring around one of the poles. Even so, it was a win in his book.
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Bi-Han doesn't really care for the fair. He's only there because both you and his brothers dragged him along. However, he seems to lighten up just a tad when he sees you gushing over how adorable one of the prize plushies is. He wastes no time in buying play tickets and making his attempt to win it just to impress you.
He eats shit every attempt that he tries. Eventually runs out of tickets and gets mad so he just uses his cryomancy out of pure rage. The poor guy at the stall is scared shitless and just claims that he won before handing him the huge ass plush out of fear. Bi-Han immediately hands it to you and just smiles tiredly at your giddy behavior as the two of you walk away hauling the big ass stuffy.
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Kuai Liang has you on a leash because you get lost easily. Either that or he's just worried about losing you in the crowds. The leash is most likely latched to some kind of bag or belt that you might be wearing. Whether or not it's you or him taking the lead, he always makes sure he's got a firm hold on the leash.
If you get distracted or overwhelmed, Kuai Liang will tug lightly at the leash to bring you closer whilst muttering 'C'mere' under his breath. He'll hold your hand to keep you from straying and as a means of comfort. If you're too overstimulated, he'll cradle you to his chest and shield your face from the noise, whispering sweet nothings and reassurances for you to focus on.
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Syzoth has had very little experience with fairs. Closest thing he's gotten to one is the Sun Do festival, and he's only experienced it once. You'll have to guide him through a lot of the stuff. He doesn't really like the rides (aside from the chill ones) but will do his best not to projectile vomit acid anywhere if you do.
You two are strolling down the place while munching on some fair food when you spot a cute looking prize at one of the game booths. You decide to use some tickets to try and win one, but you don't seem to nail it. Syzoth offers to give it a shot, scarfing down the rest of the turkey leg in his hand (that both of you were supposed to share together) before trying it out. He wins, like- perfectly, managing to win you the prize in one shot while leaving some fairgoers and the vendor stunned.
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Kung Lao is absolutely destroying all the food at the fucking stalls. It's a wonder how this mf isn't built like a 1x1 lego piece from the sheer amount he powers through. He likes to share portions with you so that you can have a nice taste of whatever high-calorie junk is being served.
Oh my god and don't get me started on the stranger sides of the fair food. Kung Lao would happily order the weirdest shit only to regret it two seconds later. Except for once. There was one time where he tried pickle drink, which is just pickles in Dr Pepper. To your misfortune, he liked it, and now it's something he whips up at home every now and then. I hope you like pickles.
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Raiden prefers to just have a chill day with you, doesn't want to do anything intense. He just walks around with you, looking at the shops and such while eating some fair food or something. He doesn't go on any of the dizzying type of rides, and will simply watch from the ground if you decide to do so.
Even without all the thrilling shit, Raiden does his best to make it enjoyable, mostly through romantic actions. Like- my dude will get matching stuff for you, stuffed animals or treats with the cheesiest lines ever—it's like you two are on a first date with how he tries to treat you. You find it adorable, especially when he gets flustered after you return the favor.
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Johnny Cage thinks he's an absolute legend at the fair games. He's really not, but he will always boast about it anyway. He'll most likely drag you towards where most of the games are and use his fuckload of tickets to play. If you point out a prize, he will absolutely fight tooth and nail to win the prize.
He never does and eventually the vendor gets so tired of his attempts that the guy just hands him the prize. Johnny will probably go on about how he totally won that while you simply chuckle and roll your eyes as the two of you move on. He also will be taking an excessive amount of photos during the fair—but that's pretty par for the course on anything with him.
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Similarly to Raiden, Kenshi isn't very fond of the intense rides, especially the ones that spin a lot. He just likes to stroll around and chill with you. He also doesn't really favor the games all too much, and if he does play, he's probably using Sento to help out.
Kenshi likes to hang around the animal-petting zoos, seeing as it's one of the few things he really can enjoy with his blindness. The two of you like to play this game where you hold an animal out to him or guide his hand towards one, and he has to guess what animal he's touching. The animals also seem to be very fond of him. Especially the fluffier ones.
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Liu Kang is kind of a mix of Raiden and Syzoth. He doesn't really care as much for the fair than he does your happiness and enjoyment. He'll happily go along with you around the fair or on rides, except for the dizzying ones. He'll gladly try some fair food, play some games, all to see you smile.
While Liu Kang often chooses not to play any of the games, he's actually jacked at this shit. Point out a prize and he'll fuckin slam dunk that game like it's nobody's business before handing you the thing you were eyeing. He doesn't pay mind to the shocked stares around him, content with watching that grin of yours shine as you giggly thank him. He also likes to go on the ferris wheel—he finds it relaxing and it gives him time to just be able to sit in peace with you whilst the fair goes on from below.
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#fanfiction#fanfic#reader insert#x reader#mk1 2023#mk1#mortal kombat#mortal kombat 1#smoke x reader#tomas vrbada x reader#sub zero x reader#bi han x reader#kuai liang x reader#scorpion x reader#kenshi takahashi x reader#liu kang x reader#kung lao x reader#raiden x reader#syzoth x reader#reptile x reader#johnny cage x reader#crispy writes
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