#stop being so fkn toxic

[bunnihearted]

the earth is getting hotter and hotter and nobody's doing anything about it but im misanthropic and depressive because i can see nothing that inspires hope 🤙

[jeon-ify]

that night : j. yunho - pt. 1

a/n: this is my first actual fic since i’ve just been posting scenarios and requests :3 !! this idea came from listening to ‘you broke me first’ by tate mcrae. its a great song and it reminds me of yunho but toxic yunho. it would kinda be good if you listen to the song while reading !! idk girl i just write

genre: smut, drama, early 20s- mid 20s romance, toxic/dark romance, 18+

warnings: smut, dark romance, toxic!yunho, yunho has a threesome with y/n’s best friends, yunho is a cheater, reader swears a lot, yunho calls reader a psychotic bitch, san is a druggie, alcohol, cocaine, yunho begs, yunho gets sad and guilty, reader claims she moved on, san is annoying as hell, wooyoung is readers bestie!!

“san! i haven’t talked to you in so long, i’m sorry! how have you been?” your phone rang, you look to see that san called you about 20 times. you’ve been ignoring him, since he’s done almost every drug under the sun in the past year since you all have moved to different cities.

“man I called you 6 times. stop playing dumb. yunho’s asking about you again, please call him back. i’m sick of his shit.” san sniffles sharply. you’re sure he’s doing crack again, but when is he not?

you did not want to hear about yunho. you haven’t heard about or seen him in almost 4 years now, recovering from that night.

~~~~~~~~~~~

you call yunho, in hopes that he’d pick up. you left him a voicemail asking if he’d want anything from target when you were off work tonight.

*hello!! it’s yunho, sorry i couldn’t take your call. leave a message and i’ll call back!*

“i’m gonna stop at target, babe. did you want anything? love you, call me back.”

you finish your target run, grabbing a set of shampoo and conditioner and other necessities as you’ve been out of your favorites for a week now. you step out of the car, grabbing your bags and unlocking the door to yunhos apartment. you didn’t live with him, but you practically did since you were there almost every day of the week.

“~yuyu, fuck its so good! so big!” “you fuck us so good oh my god.”

“you’re both so fuckin’ pretty. my god.”

no fucking way.

your heart dropped to your ass, at a loss of every word in the dictionary. you felt like you were being run over by a truck 100 times over.

it felt like every moment with yunho was flashing at once.

he told you he loved you a million times a minute, you thought you were the only one. you thought that yunho would love you and only you, but how could you be so stupid to trust anyone else again?

you walk to where the noise is coming from, tears flooding your eyes, threatening to fall. the door is cracked a little, you see a pile of black hair and red hair mixed, one on top of the other. one of the girls has a tattoo on her wrist while the other has one too— it looks all too familiar.

one tattoo being a moon, the other being a sun.

your best friends.

you want to cut off the star tattoo on your wrist so fucking bad. how could they ever betray you like this? they never approved of yunho, but he’s inside both of them, fucking them on your shared bed. in your (what was once) home.

you didn’t even want to acknowledge the situation, instead you dropped the target bag at the door of the bedroom, leaving as soon as you could.

hours later, yunho calls. no answer.

you stare as your phone rings.

*32 missed calls from yuyu 🫶🏻✨*

yuyu 🫶🏻✨: hey, sry i didn’t call back. where’d u go?

yuyu 🫶🏻✨: babe?

yuyu 🫶🏻✨: y/n, pick up the phone.

yuyu 🫶🏻✨: not funny.

Read at 12:43AM

yuyu 🫶🏻✨: ur reading my fkn messages but ur not answering n its pissing me off

yuyu 🫶🏻✨: alr whatever lmao dnt pick up.

Today at 5:21AM

yuyu 🫶🏻✨: i cnt sleep, thibkin about yoj

*2 missed calls from yuyu 🫶🏻✨*

you watch your phone ring, waiting for the ringing to stop. your tears flow, deciding to call him back.

“baby? my fucking god, i mis-missed you. *hiccup* had me worried sick.” he slurs. he’s fucking crying.?

“you’re a fucking liar. my best friends? you’re drinking, you piece of shit. and you’re fucking crying?”

“relax, they’re not your best friends and i know that cus they did that to you, plus me and you baby, we don’t belong to each other. been wanting to leave. felt so fucking locked up. you won’t let me do what i want, you controlling fucking psychotic bitch.”

what the fuck.?

you watch the time on the phone call increase as he mumbles what you really meant to him.

you feel like you really did trap him, but you both didn’t agree on a poly relationship. for him to fuck your best friends is an insane thing to do to someone.

you end the phone call after 57 minutes of yunho talking about how much he fucking hated you for never letting him fuck your friends.

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“i’m never talking to that piece of shit again and never bring him up to me. i have things to do, i’ll text you.”

you hung up the phone after 35 seconds.

you’ve grown past the situation with yunho, healing and becoming a better person. you were single, traumatized from your past relationships being a burden on you. but, your best friend wooyoung always supported you through and through. he wanted what was best for you, even though he introduced you to yunho. it wasn’t wooyoungs fault that yunho had fucked up (or was already fucked up), he just wanted to help you find someone. you had your own apartment, your own car and your own lash studio. you were booked for days on end, always working and being your own person.

but, with healing comes pain.

you’d occasionally think about yunho, how he’d pamper you in gifts and he’d take you anywhere you wanted. you thought about the nights that you’d cried to him, he’d hold you in his warm chest, making sure you were held and you didn’t feel alone. you sometimes still toss around in bed, thinking yunho was next to you, on your right side. you’d still bake matcha and white chocolate cookies as if he’d eat them with you, a reminder that you loved yunho— as your love language was baking— and every time you see those cookies, your heart begins to ache.

you pick up your phone and text your best friend, as he’s the only person you go to for anything.

—————-

to: woo 🧍🏻‍♀️

y/n: bitch get up

y/n: r u awake yet

y/n: GET THE FUCK UP BRO ITS AN EMERGENCY

y/n: if ur not up in the nect 5 minutes i’m calling the cips

y/n: next *^ & cops^*

y/n: man i just need to talk 😩 san called me

*seen*

woo 🧍🏻‍♀️: girl what the FUCK

woo 🧍🏻‍♀️: did u call the cops yet

woo 🧍🏻‍♀️: is the cop hot

woo 🧍🏻‍♀️: bitch WHI CALLED

woo 🧍🏻‍♀️: im calling u rn answer

your best friend calls you in no less than 3 minutes after your series of texts.

“why is san calling you? what’d he want?” wooyoung asks, concern masking his voice.

“woo, i just started feeling like i finally moved on from all that bullshit. he fucking calls me like ‘oh yunho wants to talk to you’ and i’ve been dodging yunho for fucking ever. i know he’s been calling me but-“ you ramble to him. he cuts you off, questioning:

“did you ask him what he wanted from you?”

“it doesn’t matter because im over it and im over fucking everything. its all bad news and i don’t wanna go down that hole again, woo. if you’re so curious ask him yourself. i don’t care and i honestly don’t wanna know.”

“okay. i won’t ask.” wooyoung says in defense. he has a sixth sense, and his sense is telling him that maybe something is wrong with yunho, or maybe he wants to try to give you the closure you deserve. though he already gave you closure— just not the kind you expected from someone you’ve loved for 6 years.

but a part of you really wanted to know why he called. a little portion of your heart still aches for yunho, but you’re healing, remember?

the phone call ends after small talk, and you stare at yunho’s contact info for 7 minutes. you open messages and read the last message he sent you. you have him blocked, but you know it’s his number.

May 19th, 2021 at 3:21AM

*You have new messages from (***)***-**** *

(***)***-****: baby, i’m so sorry.

(***)***-****: you won’t ever forgive me, but i’ve changed. my star, my love, my moon, my sun.

(***)***-****: i can’t sleep anymore.

(***)***-****: i’ll leave you alone, okay?

December 10th, 2022 at 1:21AM

(***)***-****: i can’t live without you.

(***)***-****: it’s been so fucking long

(***)***-****: js need to see ur face. keep staring at the same pic but it was so long ago

(***)***-****: my messages are green, why are they green?

(***)***-****: i met someone today, his name started with an M but i can’t remember what his name was

(***)***-****: he’s helping me heal. ik i don’t deserve to heal but i wanna be better bc u deserve better

(***)***-****: i wanna be the one for u my love

(***)***-****: i fucked up but pls believe me when i say i’ll change for u bb

(***)***-****: i’m going to sleep, goodnight my angel

January 8, 2023 at 7:08PM

(***)***-****: everythibg remjnds me of u baby

(***)***-****: ur everywhere i go

(***)***-****: ur everything i see

(***)***-****: mingi won’t let me live diwn what i did to u

(***)***-****: i deserve to fucking die

(***)***-****: i really lost u

Today at 10:32PM

(***)***-****: i still miss you, my love.

(***)***-****: want you to carry my children and be in my life forever.

(***)***-****: i’ve bettered myself. i’ve changed, please let me see you again.

*seen*

shortly after you open his book of messages, your phone rings.

*2 missed calls from (***)***-**** *

———————

you watch your phone ring twice, your heart dropping 6 times over, you didn’t think he would be this bad about it, but maybe he aches for you the same way you ache for him.

maybe yunho is sorry. maybe he changed and maybe he wants to be with you again.

your phone rings again, the same phone number showing up, as your shaky hands press the green button.

silence. the first 8 seconds is silent as yunho tries to process and come up with what he’ll say to you.

he tried calling you for 3 years on end, you’d blocked him. he was so used to your voicemail being the only thing left of you to heal him.

“h-hello?” there it is. the voice you refused to hear for almost 4 years, its there. it’s no longer only in your head, it’s his voice on the other side of the 7 inch screen against your ear.

his voice makes your stomach twist and turn, your hands sweating as your chest forms a hole within itself.

“you don’t need to say anything, just listen to me, hm? you can hang up any second you want, but if your heart still aches for me the way mine does for you, you’d listen.

my love. i’ve ruined you and tore you to shreds. i don’t even know where i begin. you are the most precious thing that has ever happened to me. the minute you entered my life, i took you for granted and fucked up. i didn’t realize how much i loved you or how much you meant to me until you left. that night is a blur to me, you didn’t deserve any of that. you deserve to be treated like royalty, you deserve to be treated in the most beautiful and enchanting way because that is how you made me feel. but i went and fucked that up for the both of us. i didn’t mean what i said to you. i was drunk but that’s no excuse to talk to you the way i did. it’s not right. it never was.

the only time i ever find myself doing right is when i beat myself up for doing you wrong.

i stay at the same apartment, san comes over and does whatever he needs to do but i haven’t touched a drug since you left me. the minute you left was the minute i decided to better myself. mingi is helping me be the person i want to be for you. my god, i hate myself for everything ive done to you. i’m not asking for your forgiveness, i know you won’t give it to me. but i want you to know that i still am here and i still love you. i love you better and i love you the way you deserve.

are you still with me, y/n?”

he breathes. you breathe. you finally breathe.

“i- yunho. i don’t know how to feel about any of this, you really hurt me and i can’t trust anyone anymore. you fucked my best friends, in our room. i don’t even know why i even looked at my phone or why i even answered san when he called me. i’m doing better, but you calling me again is really making me feel like i’m falling down that hole again.” you try your hardest to not let him hear you grow weak to his confession. his heart caved in, and his stomach grew empty when you’d brought up his mistake.

“i understand. i won’t push or do anything to make you uncomfortable. but, i want to have coffee with you, or one of us can come over and we can talk about this, hm?”

you sigh. you felt like all the healing and all the self care you’ve been doing is going straight down the drain.

but do you wanna listen to what he has to say?

“i’m free tomorrow afternoon. but i can’t stay long.” is all you say. you don’t wanna keep this conversation going, nor do you even want to talk about this at all. you are growing selfish; only wanting to see yunho because you miss the attention you used to get from him.

“as long as i get to see you, its okay. i look forward to talking to you, y/n. been waiting forever. is 4:30 fine with you?” he sniffles and lets out a calm chuckle from within his throat.

he’s aching just as much as you are.

“yes. goodnight, yunho.”

“goodnight, star.” that nickname. the same nickname that dragged you into his lore. he speaks lightly. the phone call ends and he sounds like an angel, making your head spin and your heart confused.

you don’t know whether to trust yunho again because, maybe, he is sorry. maybe he wants to make things right with you.

for the rest of the night, you cannot sleep. you don’t decide on going tomorrow, you really don’t want to face yunho after what he did to you. after 4 hours of tossing and turning, rereading texts from yunho, drinking water, and listening to nothing but the buzzing in your ear, you finally manage to get sleep.

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first fic!! yay!! i know yall are gonna hate yunho because what he did to y/n is trash and ass and all of the above. i hope you guys start to understand yunho further in the story. idk what im gonna do with this fic but i hope i come up with part 2 in a timely manner cus i dont want it to be dragged lol. but!!!!!!!!!! i hope you all like this fic just as much as i HATE it 😋

[am-i-interrupting]

I saw a demand for toxic Vox and— what if toxic Vox x equally toxic reader (except that reader is better at manipulation and pulling the strings).

Like, they are mutually OBSESSED with each other but their goddamn pride won't allow them to take a first step, so instead we get Vox sabotaging any potential love rival, Reader having it out for Valentino— and on a nsfw side, maybe Reader getting a plushie from Vox as an anonymous gift, but it has a hidden camera and well, long story short Reader knows and feigns ignorance as they have some spicy alone time (using toys) and Vox is fkn horknee and its a mutual masturbation.

(If this is too much or too chaotic, feel free to nitpick what you want! Also I prefer a male / gn reader but its gucci)

Yours truly,

🖍

Being Watched

Warnings: NSFW, electro play, sex toys, voyeurism

You were ready to go home. That was really all you wanted. You wanted to grab yourself a glass of wine and plop onto the couch.

Today had been shit. Valentino (because of course it was Valentino) had decided to interrupt your meeting with Vox to begin ranting. The two men lived in the same tower. Did it have to be during work hours?

After nearly three minutes of him ranting, you threatened to bring the man to his second death. He looked to Vox, scandalized and Vox packed things up, claiming the two of you were nearly done anyways.

Nearly done or not, he came into your time. You left pissed. Maybe you broke a window display on your way home. Maybe you didn’t.

Your mad march was stopped, however, when you saw a box at your door. You halted immediately and slowly picked up the box. It’s as fairly light.

There was a card attached to a bow with your name on it and no sender. It wasn’t a standard box. It was one specifically for presentation. You undid the bow and slowly opened the lid. Taking a peak inside, you saw a soft blinking light. When the lid was off, the light was gone and all that was left was a stuffed toy.

You opened your door. The box was set on your counter as you grabbed a glass. Your poured wine into it before you got the toy out.

It was a whale shark, not much more than a foot in length, and with two eyes on either side of an open mouth. It was so obvious who this was from.

You leaned across the counter and stared into the beaded eyes, into the camera, and at the man on the other side. You pulled back with a chuckle and took a sip from your glass. If he wanted to watch, fine. He could watch.

You debated if you should cook or not for only a second.

Grabbing the whale shark, you went to your bedroom. Quickly you scanned it before you found a vantage point centered on the bed.

“Here we go,” you said as you placed the plush there. “Perfect little spot for a perfect little thing.”

You stretched as you turned around, feigning thought but letting out a real groan as your shoulder popped. You rolled it and rubbed it while you made your way to your bed.

Bending over, you took off your shoes and socks. Then you pulled down your pants and underwear at once. Your shirt swiftly went over your head. You were impatient today.

You walked around the room, naked as can be, and bent down to give the stuffed animal a good look at your ass. You picked through your toys carefully. You were putting on a show.

You sat back down on your bed with a pillow between your legs. You grabbed one of the two dildos you’d placed on the bedside and began licking it. Your tongue glided against the sides, swirling at the tip.

It inched into your mouth. Your mouth stretched, your tongue was almost smooshed, your throat constricted around the dildo. You let it sit there for a moment, breathing carefully with your nose just above the base.

You gripped the end of it and quickly pulled it out then pushed it back in. You set yourself up quickly with a harsh, quick pace. The head of the dildo pressing against the back of your throat one second, gone the next, forcing itself back to its beginning placement and then starting the process over again.

You moaned, eyes rolling back. You gripped your hair with your free hand and pulled. A high pitched scream was muffled by your stuffed mouth.

You petted your own scalp. You ran your hand down your neck, squeezed the back of it, and then over your shoulders and torso. You paused for a brief second to nip at your nipples with a shark twist before you continued downwards.

Your skin quivered as you moved your hand to your pelvic bone. Your hips rocked against the pillow. You scratched the sensitive skin above your privates before you let yourself touch.

You gagged yourself on the dildo as you moaned and moved closer to your hand. You felt tears begin to prickle at your eyes. You flicked your fingers at the sensitive head of your genitals. You squeezed it between two fingers.

As an apology to yourself you rolled yourself between those same fingers, a nail going beneath your hood. Your eyes fluttered as all you saw was static.

You forced the dildo out of your mouth and coughed. Drool came from your mouth. It stringed down onto your thighs and the pillow between them.

“Fuck,” you moaned, voice harsh.

Your eyes flickered to the plush toy and you collapsed on yourself with a keen. Knowing he was watching just made it that much better.

The dildo still in your hands, you tilted it towards you. Your loose grip caused it to hit your face, smearing saliva onto your cheek. You moved your head up and opened your mouth. The head fell onto your lulled out tongue.

You licked it once. Then twice. You took the head alone between your lips and sucked on it. Your tongue swirled.

You closed your eyes and envisioned him. You envisioned Vox’s dick in your mouth. What he’d do and what he’d say.

The dildo slipped out from your lips.

“Vox,” you moaned into the empty room.

You looked forward, at the whale shark, at the camera, knowing he was watching. Your hips jerked and your breath hitched.

You removed your hand from yourself and used it to push yourself up.

You groaned, nearly collapsed on yourself again. Your thighs quivered.

You kept your body facing the camera as you reached to your bedside and grabbed two pinchers, two nipple clamps. You slowly, lethargically put them on. There was a painful pinch but then it became more reminiscent of pressure on a bruise.

You placed the small remote for them beneath your knee. You whined when you reached over to the bedside table again. The pressure of your body shifting to that very knee the remote was under caused the clamps to send an electric shock to your nipples.

“Fuck, Vox,” you said.

Your hand curled around the second dildo. It’d been slicked up with lube and, knowing you’d have a meeting with Vox today, that was enough. Your tight was having been stretched that morning and all day by a butt plug you’d received anonymously.

You slipped it out of you. You mourned the loss off stretch but you didn’t even notice it until it was gone. You’d grown accustomed to it during the day.

You couldn’t help but wonder what Vox looked like as he no doubt recognized the present from your no so secret admirer.

Did he moan? Did his claws shred through a desk or his clothes or perhaps his own skin? Was he smiling that manic smile he could get? Was his eye spiraling?

You whined at the thought. You tossed the butt plug onto a different part of the bed. You could worry with clean up later.

You stroked the dildo just once, making sure it was throughly lubed. It was a nice dildo, one of your favorites, also given to you by the man on the other side of the camera. If you had to guess, based on the dark base but electric blue tip, it might even be a replica.

That thought made sinking down onto it and feeling it stretch your ass so much sweeter. Your mouth fell open and your head rolled back. Your muscles clenched but couldn’t close. An ache, a wonderful, blissful ache consumed you.

“So good. Feels so good.”

Your nipples were electrocuted again. You spasmed, moaned, envisioned his hands sparking. Those claws dragging down your chest. You did a poor imitation of it.

You rocked back. You exposed your throat to the camera. You rocked back and forth. Into the fullness of the dildo and then into the shocks of the clamps.

Still, it wasn’t enough. It never was. You blindly reached for the other dildo. When your hands wrapped around it, they were met with dried saliva but you didn’t care.

You immediately, desperately scrambled to put it in your mouth. You choked, gagged. Your eyes prickled with tears. It was forced out of your mouth. When you were finished coughing, throat hoarse from the previous abuse, you shoved it back in. You gagged again but kept it lodged in your mouth.

One dick fucking your ass, the other your mouth. To top it all off, with your blurred vision, you could imagine the sparks on your now sensitive nipples were Vox’s hands.

You moaned and gagged on one dildo as you slammed down on the other. You reached for the remote of the nipple clamps and pounded the button. You convulsed and screamed, vision going white as tears spilled down your face and you legs shook.

You came to later with your body slumped against the bed frame, one dildo filling you up to the fullest, and the other, having fallen out of your mouth, rolling on the floor. The remote was sat upon your fingertips in the loosest grasp imaginable. Your tongue was lulled out as you panted.

You looked at the whale shark plush and your body twitched, wanting to give more at the reminder you were being watched.

“Fuck.”

Sluggishly, you planted a hand on the mattress only to feel your hand wet. “Fuck,” you said, now for a completely different reason. Worth it.

The next day, you saw Vox and you both played the game you always did, pretending you both hadn’t come while moaning each others names. Like you hadn’t had to wash your entire bedspread and Vox didn’t have to deep clean his keyboards. Like nothing had changed.

[aaric-s-haven]

Ok imma be real Rohan from K3G deserved a murder.

First he is obviously not the favorite son and for unknown reasons his brother disappears from his life and nobody is telling him shit. His parents don't mention him and his grandmothers leave the house soon after cuz they probably couldn't bear Rahul's absence.

His mother is extremely depressed and always detached from her surroundings aka not the best person to look after a child and his other mother, the person who arguably loved him the most, DJ, is sent away with his brother.

His father is a dickhead who practices repression of emotions cuz uk it's a must toxic masculinity trait, he has literally not brought up his kids cuz if he had contributed anything apart from high expectations in parenting, his kids wouldn't be such good ppl. They wud be toxic males like him. Rahul always showed sensitivity towards his mother's plight and Rohan called him out on his shit and got slapped for it.

When the story starts Rohan is mostly growing up in a boarding school like Rahul but unlike Rahul he never gets to spend his holidays in a loving environment. Instead he gets an empty house too big for three people, absent parents cuz they are too wrapped up in their grief and grandmothers who can't stop seeing his brother in him hence a constant reminder of how Rahul's loss took everything from his childhood.

He grew up never being enough for anyone left in his life. Everyone looked at him and mourned his brother. Side note, the mommy senses of Nandini activating for Rahul but smh Rohan standing right behind her doesn't get the same AAaAaAA is lowkey funny... If you are a person like me who relates. DJ on the other hand, GOATed woman narrowed on the suspiciously red eyed dude with her old boss' name so fastttt, she didn't need anyone or anything to connect the dots. She thought I smell fkn Rohan flavored bullshit and she was right.

It is a wonder he doesn't grow up to hate Rahul. But it is very much believable that when he turns up at Rahul's house, he is viciously longing for his brother's love and puts up with his overprotective rudeness. That hug at the end of Bole Chudiya fucking breaks me, there was such longing on his face for his family, it was so fkn heartbreaking. I think that's what Rahul saw on his face and pulled him in for a hug. He probably thought that the random guy who Poo won't stop hitting on is missing his family not knowing that he is the family Rohan has been craving for years.

Also the weight loss????? I know some ppl who have had that transformation from child to adult but fight me, Rohan "laddoo" Raichand underwent that cuz of stress taking physical form.

And then of course is the failed attempts at reuniting his family. The first attempt ends with a slap when he points out that Yashvardhan Raichand is a dick. Second attempt only succeeds cuz Poo his bestie also begs Rahul to come back for just a few moments. As if it wasn't obvious that Rahul had given his place to Poo. If anything Poo had a place in his heart that Rohan could never have cuz he became her second father figure. Rahul has a favorite child and it's not his brother, FOR UNDERSTANDABLE REASONS, but man it has to suck for Rohan.

Rahul comes back, Yash finalls caves in and gives the worst ever form of apology to Rahul. Personally Rahul shud take his London fam, his mother and brother back to UK and leave Raichand with his dumbfuck Parampara. Man made everyone suffer for ten years. Specially his wife and children.

So now Rohan is back to the family he always wanted except now they have Rahul, the favorite son, the one that was most visibly wronged, the one who will be getting a special treatment by everyone cuz he was the most obvious victim, and Rohan is back to being the background. Honestly at this point Anjali and DJ are the only ones who are gonna give him attention. And one is his nanny who wud want to live with her daughter for some time and other is his sister in law who has many responsibilities.

So yeah I support Rohan rights and also Rohan wrongs. Go murder your father babe. Dickhead destroyed your life and left you with numerous insecurities and inferiority issues. You became the therapy child with nobody acknowledging your trauma cuz it wasn't visible enough. As if solving your parent's issues emotional and personal isn't a giant red flag of unhealthy upbringing

P. S I really don't ship Poo and Rohan, like come on you set up a romance like Rahul and Anjali's, you give that standard for love. And then the next couple is reduced to childhood besties that are still act like KIDS cuz uk he just passed out from school. They gave amazingggg bestie partner in crime vibes but not romance dude

[k-kizkhalifa]

s2ep11 --

alright guys.. here it is, the continuance that NO ONE ASKED FOR BUT IM IN INVESTED IN MYSELF SO I AM DOING THIS. im curled up, phone ready, computer ready, sweater on. lettttttttts ggooooooooo

i love the beginning already. misaki if you don't pick the right choice ill destroy you. but also, why are brother usami and papa usami sending shit to misaki. boy. im through WITH THEM. AND NOT MISAKI ACTUALLY CONSIDERING ONE OF THERES. oh you hopeless idiot.

Akihiko stomping on it! HAHAHAHAHAAH (i love a good ole toxic man, fk.) Akihiko so happpy. Awe my baby.

I love how chill they are together, now. I hope that everything that happened last episode was for the good. But also, lmfao, I am not getting my hopes up. This anime fucking destroys me left and right doesn't it????

i feel the butler is such a good person. he deserves some love. (i just mean in general.)

lol Misaki saying he'd go on the trip "alone" LMFAO. AWE USAGI SAYING IT WAS IMPORTANT. AWE AWEAWEAWE AWE

OH HERE WE GO. I love Misaki's travel attire. LOL

OH GREAT PAPA USAMI AGAIN. bro if papa usami shows up imma flip a switch. i feel like you all are thinking: get ready to flip a switch.

oh great usagi SPRINTING to the car. LOL HE DIDN'T FINISH HIS WRITNG.alsdkjfalskjdf

ok i will admit this scene is adorable. the way usagi is GRINNING at misaki being so happy about the ocean view. giving me hope for a future, my guys.

lol petty cash of 1.3 billion. not usagi saying: i can make it myself.

ok i love usagi in his glasses. i can't help it.

the rubber ducks are giving me a fee-- I FKN KNEW IT. PAPA USAMI. THIS MFR. lol but can we just realize this is where usagi gets his childish love for toys from? hahah.

oh great papa usami here to talk. smh. oh man the way misaki gets nervous about this convo. time to man up, misaki. you gotta have these conversations sometimes. i just think it is really sad how everyone talks about akihiko, these ppl just don't understand him at all. it makes me angry.

damn papa usami giving misaki a fkn lesson in life and love right now. man the doubts misaki gets himself into. ugh.

I LAUGHED SO HARD, bro usagi just acting like he didn't expect anything less than this from misaki.

Usagi: what fkn idiot floats in the bath that long? this fkn idiot.

alskjdfalskjf HAHAHAH

lol the BL Manag. BRO JUST BRINGS THIEM WITH HIM EVERYWHERE.

no usagi being so fkn sweet. broooooo. misaki he is BEGGING YOU TO TLAK TO HIM. TALK TO HIM. oh okay, i'll stop yelling. they're talking finally.

oh no not misaki talking about leaving. and being so worried about usagi. ugh. i just wish i could take these two and push them together and say, "now kiss and be happy and fk the other ppl!"

oh great i beat usagi is with his father. YEP. HERE WE GO, ISN'T IT? LOL AT MISAKI EAVESDROPPING.

ugh these usami ppl dragging misaki all the time, except for brother usami bc he "loves him" SMH. i mean, hot take i guess, but i don't think papa usami is necessarily bad hes just shit at being good.

oh man i feel like misaki is about to SNAP. OH HERE WE GO! HE IS ABOUT TO SAY SOMETHING ISN'T HE?! HE'S ALWAYS LIKE THIS. Angry dude and snapping on these idiot usami's alsdjflf

Misaki: I AM NOT TOYING WITH USAGI. I LOVE HIM. Papa Usami: And how do you plan to be good enough for my son? Misaki: I DON'T KNOW MFR BUT I AM WORKING ON IT. DAMN.

adlibbing, but that is the jist of the problem, right there.

oh goodness not usagi saying his love with misaki and from misaki changed how he saw the world.

OH I REMEMBER THIS SCENE. THE HOT SPRINGS. CUE THE MUSIC. CUE THE KISS. CUE THE SOFT WORDS.

oh yeah this scene is really just so sweet guys. like. okay, we get a look into misaki and seeing how is opening up to akihiko. he's all, in his thoughts: these conversations happen, we're together, we are intimate more, we spend out time togehter, i feel okay when usagi says to feel okay (implying that he has opened up to usagi in ways he hadn't been doing. that misaki is truly falling for usagi. like it's not the whole: "i love you/i don't love you" take anymore.) but then it's like reality does hit him (and maybe it should) that he and akihiko are so different, they're from two different worlds and after he thinks all those things he says: i am almost tricked into believing him.

I think what we can take away from this is that Misaki has very real concerns about the reality of their relationship. In a way that, maybe because Usagi is older, he doesn't... It really seems, a lot of the time, that the world is very black and white to Usagi. It's a "i want it, i get it" type of world, because it's always been that way and maybe that is why he fell so hard for misaki because misaki gave him a different look at the way the world really is.

And here we see Usagi, ONCE AGAIN, begging and pleading and praying with Misaki.

Usagi: Fall in love with me, love me 10x and 20x more than you love me now and become unable to part with me. That's all you have to do. I'll protect you from everyone else in this world, without fail.

It's just... I feel bad for Usagi, and I hate to be this person but I understand where Papa Usami is coming from. We want our children to have everything and love and happiness and all the world can have but we also don't want to hold them back from whatever they want as well. It's a fine line. I think there is just a lot at play in the whole thing.

okay okay im done. hot take over.

[tutuandscoot]

I’ve watched all the moulin rouge practice vids I could find. What are some of your other favorite practices of theirs other than those?

Yeah I don’t think you can really beat the 2/17 practice.. that shit is the holy grail. I mean a full uninterrupted- no cut aways of VM being VM, practicing THAT program… for 30 mins… than camera man new what we fkn wanted and gave it to us.. i truly cant believe we have the “thats how you win the olympics” practice in beautiful high quality video!!!! . I mean I could be greedy and say I want that for every practice there has ever been but I’ll forever be grateful we have 2/17

As for others:

Obvs this one for… reasons x

SD practice at worlds 2017- so many cute moments, i also like that its a kinda weird camera angle, kinda feels like how it might be at some skating comps if you are right at the boards x

Fd practice at gpf 2016- i did a whole sappy babbly post on this bc i was in my feels one night, but its so beautiful x

Sd practice in sochi, its just fascinating.. i remember them saying once that in sochi the relationship with marina had become so toxic they hardly went back to the boards at all during practices to consult with her but in this one they are back there bc T cut her finger. There’s kinda this erie, quiet quality to how they are going about it all, they are confident but also so alone and at times seem so fragile x

Theres a few fan cams of them practicing at COR 2012. I remember a few years ago.. in my kinda second round of obsessing over them i watched all these videos, then when i came back (and stuck around this time) i went back to those practices and remembered watching them, but now with a new obsession appreciation. The way they handle having to emergency stop the rotational lift bc a team was in their way, when S holds out his hand for T to take their bows, the pre practice hugs x x

Practicing Aint No Mountain at worlds and S not remembering the chore x

Oh and of course them choreoing/ running LTR for the first time at SCI 2017 x

Theres many many more and theres lots i haven’t watched in a while so i forget how good they were

[bootyberri]

Fuck them.

One day, you just wake up & you no longer feel anything for them. You no longer care who they're with, who they're hooking up with, who they're talking to. You just stop giving a fuck. You stop giving fuck about what if i do this and they come back. What if I do something and it ruins the chances of me being with them when they come back. You literally just stop giving a fuck. Because in reality, they had their chance. They had their chance to grow up and to change for you but they chose not too. You eventually get tired of the toxic fkn cycle. The sex becomes boring, the conversations becomes boring, the chase becomes boring. When that day comes when you no longer feel anything towards them, that is when you've won. You will feel so free and content that you will become unstoppable. And they can live with the loss for fucking up the only good thing they had for themselves. They can live with the guilt for ruining something so pure whilst you’re too busy setting yourself free and investing in people who chose you and appreciated you from the very beginning. Do not feel sorry for them for losing you. Fuck them.

[jdopes-recorder]

okay you sappy ass hoes

You made me tear up fuck you

@njmweb

Im kinda shit at this but I'll try. You're one of the closest friends I've had and i can't begin to tell you how much the friends I found in the three mean to me. I never thought I'd actually find people I can be myself with and not worry about being embarrassed. You guys are just as bad. I love how supportive you are and you're just always there to talk to and talk with. With the stuff only you know was happening...you've helped me last year more than you know. It felt so good to have someone actually care and be open with me. I loved when we played roblox just to beat little kids up the entire summer and you bashed on my ice cream and bourn vita (fuck you). Every single thing you've given me (except the flower I'm so sorry it died and i didn't have a book to put it in :D), every random drawing, I have them all and im definitely gonna treasure it my whole life. You are such a copycat sometimes smh (stop listening to the same random artists it's so weird when that happens yeesh). I learned so much stupid shit from you and i love your cat memes and jellyfish. I've picked up little mannerisms of yours since I've been stuck with you for two years, and i randomly realise how I never used to do something that I do now before I met you. Thank you for being you.

@kiew-ie

wait what when'd you get a new profile 😭😭

You fkn cutie. You've been next to me (almost) everyday the last year and it's always so weird when you're absent i just sit there like 🧍‍♀️I love listening to you talk about mlp Or some other cute shit I don't know anything about. I love how we both sound like we've had helium when we're excited. When we doodle in our books and talk about any topic when we're supposed to be studying? We're stupid but i love it. I srsly love your hair and I've told you that before but idk I don't think you believed me, but I get that. Thank you for always letting me sag on your shoulder when I feel too lazy (most of the time tbh). You're so fun to be around and I've loved every minute. I love listening to you rant and even though I never know what to say, I'm always so touched that you trust me enough to tell me shit. I love you and your obsession with pink stuff <3

k well we don't have ells acc cuz she's stubborn af, but I just wanted to tell you guys that even though I never say anything or act like it, you all mean more to me than you know. I never would have ever imagined what would have happened with me just asking dhri what music she listened to. If nana didn't overhear us talking about that, if ells didn't come with leo. It crazy to me how life works. You guys gave me that happiness and peace I had been craving for years. You know how my last friend group was and how toxic it was. I never had true friends and didn't have to be on guard. I can let go of all of that with you guys, because I know you don't care and even do the same (idiots). I don't wanna lose what we have and it scares the shit out of me that we aren't gonna be together and we're gonna leave everything we've known in less than 2 months. I finally got real happiness and I don't wanna lose that again. But you know, like how I never would have seen this coming, I have no idea what will be coming for all of us. This shit is crazy. I never would have imagined you guys would be my best friends. Even though I know we'll all have our own lives and get other friends too, I know I'll never forget you guys. When I look back to mt childhood, you guys will always stand out. Thank you for everything. I guess I'm better at writing about the things I think about instead of telling it to your faces.

Don't being this up tmr, I will self combust.

being madly in love with someone platonically is so ridiculous. hey man i think about you all the time. i wish you were here right now. talking to you makes me indescribably happy. i miss you. honestly what the hell

[alirhi]

I see so many fans going on about how they prefer Sebastian's body this way or that... almost all of them bitch about how they want him to be as bulky as he was in CA:CW, and y'all that is so fucking toxic and cruel. Think whatever you want, but keep it to your damn self!

Me? I just want him to be healthy, well-rested, and taking care of himself. He puts his body through hell for Marvel and while I respect the hard work and dedication, you will never, ever see me complaining that he's not the tank he was for a brief few months in 2015. He said himself that he couldn't maintain it, and he's not the only Marvel man to say that within a couple of weeks of when they start shooting, they all start losing weight rapidly because those bulky, muscular physiques are unrealistic.

It's not even about the fact that he's getting older - although that is definitely a factor. Sebastian is almost 40 and the stunts he does wreck the human body. It's a wonder he can still do these action movies at all. But even if he was still in his 20s and had never smoked, the picture of perfect health... the super restrictive diet and insane workout regimen to get into superhero shape are not healthy. They're not realistic, and they cannot be maintained long-term without a serious impact on the body.

Sebastian only went as nuts as he did for CW because he felt small and inferior next to Evans, and he thought Hemsworth might be there, which made him even more insecure. Even when he got up to 200 lbs he couldn't see what a tank he was and still felt little and insecure. And then he started making fat jokes about himself. That "beefy Bucky" y'all are so attached to? From what I've seen in interviews and con clips, that was, mentally/emotionally, the worst time of Sebastian's Marvel career. Stop pushing him to go back to a point six years ago where he was feeling like crap!

This rant has been sitting in my drafts for like 3 weeks and I've been on the fence about posting it, but you know what? Fuck it. It's still bothering me, so I'm gonna post it. I am so sick of seeing people complaining every time we see Sebastian in his natural leaner shape. Shut up and let the man fucking live jfc...

[fairycosmos]

chloe i’m yelling your last post about your sis and her bf makes total sense!!! shit like that makes me sick to my stomach lol am i bitter? maybe. am i jealous? maybe. is it straight up gross? definitely. keep your romance to yourself please.

goddd i’m so glad you understand bc it’s like i sure as fuck sound like a bitter bitch and maybe i am! but im also just begging them to act uhhh normal...... like i love seeing ppl happy and i love love and obviously i would never say anything to them about it and im not mad cause it’s not thatttt deep but it IS thattt annoying......like do they have to be so tedious and co dependent and LOUD about every fuckin incessant part of their relationship? it’s like their teenagers. we get it. everyone gets it. 😐 we live in a tiny house too so i can hear everything all the time and im honestly barely clinging on to sanity <3

[padfootastic]

hi : ) I am new to this fandom ( new as in new to start reaching out to the other fans not prongsfoot shipping-wise ). I have been a simp for them since like when I was 20? And believe me I am waaaaay older now xD and I am very happy to c other ppl love this ship because it certainly needs more attention. ❤ The potential between Sirius and James is so great that I dunno how to describe, like to me, they do absolutely anything ( and I mean that ) to have each other and not fall apart. Like, James is trying to woo lily and he keeps showing off in front of her but the moment Sirius tell him to - stop - he listens and obeys, no questions asked xD it is kinda funny in this sense tbh, like Sirius has him and his huge ego on the leash ( although he is not better than James in that matter anyway) . Tbh though, I think that James would do anything to have Sirius's attention on him, even if it means by him stop showing off and Sirius scolding him ( softly of course ) like, most ppl always HC that Sirius is a dramatic attention seeker but I think it more applies to James. Also, for some reason I always thought that James has a more darker side than Sirius. Everyone going all about the Black family madness but true as it may be, to me James has the same dark side ( maybe even more ) although it's not running in the family like Blacks. It is more like a deep bitter cesspool of savage feelings for him cause he is very sentimental when it comes to Sirius and down right obsessive and possessive. I get it that most of the fandom think other way but I guess I have a soft spot for a lovelorn James who cannot let Sirius walk away/move on/ even take single step further without him, despite the fact that he himself flirts with lily. Like, he has been spoiled and pampered all his life, so whatever he wants he should get and that's that ( in his opinion) .

ahhhh welcome to this side, anon!!! (the fandom, not the shipping :p) i’m always so giddy whenever a j/s fan sends an ask bc !!! more for our numbers!!!

i’m totally w you on the ‘james would do absolutely anything for sirius’ train. that scene literally lives rent free in my head bc it’s so fkn antithetical to what arrogant teenage boys are like i’m just,,,,, like. anyone who’s tried saying no to one would understand how difficult it is—they’re brimming w defensiveness and bravado and a need to be contrary no matter what. the fact that james just,,,listened? to sirius? just like that? it tells me A. it’s not the first time. the lack of hesitation shows he’s used to and not bitter about occasionally following sirius’ lead and B. there’s absolutely zero defensiveness or bitterness. he’s not showing off or acting like he’s mightier than he is. and that’s so precious. because it shows his level of comfort with sirius? how he’s willing to give up on all pretences and doesn’t even care. (i kinda hc james as someone who’s concerned with his image? not in a self absorbed sense but more of a golden child way where they like to be in good graces at all times)

also okay that’s so interesting bc i’ve never seen anything like that before. i’ve definitely seen a similar characterisation of sirius who’s possessive and wants james at all times (he hexed lily bald in it lmao) and he’s toeing the line of morality but to have it flipped onto james? 👀 definitely needs some cognitive restructuring on my part but i don’t hate it, hey. the bit about him being a pampered little fuck who expects everything he wants to be his is definitely the part that convinces me. you can have these little instances of like, james being an absolute asshole to people because they’re trying to get sirius’ attention (which, ofc, they won’t get bc they’re not james) or he deliberately sabotages others’ attempts at asking s out on a date. it’s a toxic, codependent, unhealthy dynamic bc u just know both of them will be as intensely passionate about the other and i absolutely adore it.

is there anything better than a ‘i’ll burn the world down for you’ relationship tho?

[realcube]

haikyuu!! characters with a chubby! s/o 💗

characters: tsukishima, oikawa, atsumu, osamu & suna

thank you anon for this cute request 🥺

tw// comfort, fluff, angst if you squint, insecure! reader, swearing, they/them reader but reader wears a dress (in osamu’s)

(a/n): anon requested comfort but i feel bad bc i’m writing this like ‘no, (y/n)! stop being sad! you’re beautiful! 😡’ then i remember that i can just select+delete the pain away💗💖

Kei Tsukishima

let’s not pretend like tsukki gives a fuck what you look like tbh ✋

like nobody is ‘perfect’ and everyone is insecure (to varying degrees) so why would he care about your weight?

nobody ticks every single box to meet society’s definition of ‘beauty’  

plus, tsukki thought beauty standards were stupid away so he created his own - and you meet every single one 💖

in fact, almost everyone meets his beauty standards - besides himself ‘:)

he seriously doesn’t care about your weight tbh, it’s the most trivial thing so why would he care?

although, he wasn’t naïve enough to think that everyone was like-minded

your front of ‘i don’t care about what other people think of me’ was strong enough to fool even the most observant of poeple, including tsukki

however, tsukishima failed to take into consideration that you were his girlfriend, meaning that you could be playing the same game as him; ‘pretend to not care about superficial things like beauty so nobody will think for a second that you are insecure about your body’

he wasn’t one to give compliments but neither were you tbh so the mutual agreement y’all have of ‘let’s call each other names as a form of endearment to avoid those awkward moments were you are looking for the right words for praise but can’t come up with anything’  was fair

but after you accidentally sent him a self-deprecating ‘joke’ message that was clearly meant for a friend, he never passed up the opportunity to compliment you ever again

like he kinda just stared at the message like 😮 ‘does (y/n) seriously care about their weight? why? it doesn’t even matter. how stupid! who told them that the shape of their body is important? bc it’s not..’

then he turns to look in the mirror like ‘wow you srsly need to put on muscle, lanky bitch. or else (y/n) will probably leave you for some built jackass like kuroo. pick up some weights, noodle arms!’

anyway, he’s not too good with words and comfort in situations like these but he’ll probably reply to your text with something out-of-character and surprisingly sweet

to paraphrase (bc the actual text would probably be like a whole damn persuasive essay LMAO he starts with the introduction, makes five points and finishes with a conclusion pfft) , i think it would be something like: ‘hey, (y/n). ik that text was probably meant for one of your friends (but if they’re the ones making you feel bad about your weight then you should probably drop those toxic cunts anyway 💅✨) but i just wanted to say that even though you are the biggest clown i’ve ever met (/j) you’re still v beautiful 💗 stop being insecure or i’ll pass away ⚰💀 ok thx love you bye’

Tōru Oikawa

how are you insecure if you’re dating oikawa? /j

like he is such a hypeman

whenever y’all take pics in your ✨fancy outfits ✨ for formal event, he acts as though you are second most beautiful thing on the face of this earth 😍 (second to him ofc)

but he only does that so he can keep up the reputation he has of being effortlessly confident bc he’s scared that if it slips for even a second, everyone will see how truly insecure he is

truthfully, in his eyes, you come first place by miles (❤ ω ❤)

like srsly, you’re so gorgeous in that dress!! he hopes that you know that he is joking about the whole ‘second place’ thing bc you should be able to tell by the way he looks at you that you’re genuinely the most striking person he’s ever laid his eyes on 

you never acted overly confident in front of him but he definitely didn’t think you were as insecure as you are

he thought you were just..humble :)

sometimes he’d hear you mutter something mean about yourself as you passed the mirror but he paid no mind to it as he figured that you just cared about your appearance and wanted to maintain a certain image

however, once he was made aware that you didn’t want to maintain your image but rather, change it - he never let you murmur anything nasty about yourself under your breath ever again, not without proceeding to tackle you to the ground and shower you with his love, affection & praise 💞💕❤

and he never made a ‘second place’ joke ever again, he started his honesty streak by reassuring you that you’ll always be the number one in his eyes 🤩

also, after that, he was a lot more open about his own insecurities with you and you made sure to respect them and help him in a similar way that he did

there is just so much love and admiration between the two of you and at first you were both to shy to express it but now, you both are showering each other in compliments 24/7 bc you both just want the other one to know how perfect you view them as (❁´◡`❁)

Atsumu Miya

atsumu is a hypeman like oikawa but...better :)

IT’S BC HE HAS NO SHAME

he’ll compliment you on anything you wear and he makes it a point to use the most inappropriate compliment as possible, relative to the outfit you’re wearing

so if you’re wearing your pyjamas, he’ll call you ‘glamourous’

if you are wearing a swimsuit, he’ll call you ‘elegant’

if you’re in your work clothes/school uniform, he’ll call you ‘sexy’

and if you’re in lingerie, he’ll call you ‘adorable’

but it makes you blush so hey, no complaints

so when he finds out that you’re actually insecure about your weight, he’s just like ‘no ❤’

like he hates the idea that when you look in the mirror, you don’t see the god(dess) he sees

like why? it’s the same person

💞 fuck ‘perception’ 💞

💕 ‘beauty is in the eye of the beholder’ TF YOU ARE THE FUCKING BEAUTY💕

grrr he was so mad  

but he was also soft 

he was like ‘if (y/n) insecure? then why hot? then why pretty? then why fit perfectly into my arms?’

plus, THIGHS

he’d never diss a person bc they had small thighs or anything BUT he’d also NEVER complain about being given the chance to be with someone with some good thighs 👍

tbh the best could do to help was compliment you ten times harder to eliMINATE ALL YOUR INSECURIES 

(and ofc i don’t mean that in a way - for example - if you’re insecure about your nose, he’ll fkn chop it off......he won’t chop your nose off LMAO he’ll just show you how much he loves it, to the point where you have no choice but to love it too ( •̀ ω •́ )✧ )

anyway, plz love (or at least, tolerate) yourself or else he’ll suffocate you with all his love and affection :D

Osamu Miya

osamu is at a loss when it comes to typical beauty standards tbh

to him, weight (and most things) are similar to..hand size, for example

just like how you can’t imagine someone feeling self-conscious about the size of their hand (especially if their hand is a healthy size) 

he can’t imagine why some one would be shamed for their weight (especially if they’re a healthy size)

so had no idea you could possibly be insecure about something like that and he probably on realised after a few years in the relationship 😅

there was a formal event coming up and y’all were going as dates so you wanted to shop for outfits together 

as couples do ✌

anyway, he was on a dress site, scrolling away until you pointed out one that you thought was pretty - and it matched the color of the tie osamu bought too!

it was a fair price (for a formal dress 🙄 which is probably like $68/50) so osamu was like ‘buy it then ( •̀ ω •́ )✧’  bc he thought it would so gorgeous on you 

but you were like ‘no’

and after he pried further, you explained how you thought it wouldn’t ‘suit your body type’ 

GRRR HE dislikes IT WHEN PPL SAY THIS SO MUCH BC HOE YOU DON’T HAVE A BODY TYPE YOU’VE GOT A BODY 😡💕 WEAR THE DAMN DRESS IF IT MAKES YOU FEEL BEAUTIFUL 

but like deadass it’s not your blood type-  it’s just a thing ppl made up to make ppl (mostly women) feel bad about themselves for no reason

but that might just be his inner atsumu talking 🤷‍♂️

he didn’t even know what to say at first- he was just like ????? body type ????

but once he figured out what you meant, he still had no idea what to say- at least, without sounding rude

what if someone came up to you and told you they were insecure about the shape of their knee.......what do you even say???

so he was silent for like the rest of the day

you decided to give him some space just in case something happened which had upset him

he had no idea what to say, in all honesty, so he hoped that his actions spoke louder than words 

around 3 days had passed since you last spoke to osamu and you were beginning to think something you had said made him uncomfortable

you were studying in your room until there was a ring at your door so you rushed downstairs and you opened it to reveal a package sitting on your doormat

you had recently ordered some cleaning equipment so you were sure that the content of the package was probably that

so imagine your surprise when you tear it open to reveal  — you guessed it —  the dress 💕

Rintarō Suna

when he says that he doesn’t care what ppl look like, he means it

he upkeeps his own appearance though bc..it’s his!

like why would he care about what weight you are? that’s none of his business

as you can tell, he’s generally not shallow but sometimes when y’all are just cuddling and your face is pressed to his chest, the words ‘you’re so cute’ just fall from his lips

so ofc he appreciates compliments over his skills, personality, humour etc over flattery about his appearance 

hence, the praise he gives you is usually based around those things too bc he just thinks that you’re just like him in the fact you don’t appreciate skin-deep comments

so when he found out that you’re actually insecure about your weight (or something else), he kinda blames himself

he thinks that the whole reason you’re not extremely confident in your appearance is all due to him and the fact he fact he maybe didn’t compliment you on your looks enough  — but that’s not to say that he doesn’t think you’re beautiful 

you’re the most radiant person he’s ever laid his eyes on and he thought you knew that regardless of whether he vocalised it or not

he wasn’t really sure what to do tbh

bc he loved you and wanted to comfort you ofc but he was scared of making things worse

like what if something he says accidentally makes you so upset that you break-up with him 😭

but he knew he couldn’t just stay silent about the issue, especially when he wanted to say to much

thus, he sent you a heartfelt message on discord 

(rather than snap, whatsapp etc so he could edit it after he posts it bc knowing him, he’ll probably write something, reread it ten times then as soon as he hits send, he spots a bunch of mistakes)

and he’d explain how you’re simply divine regardless of your insecurity and if anything, it just makes you cuter 😍

ok ok so i really don’t want it so seem like he has a fetish bc HE DOESN’T 

but he think your curves are so fun and pretty ❤ 

like everything about you is pretty but suna just can’t comprehend why you’re insecure about something like your weight when he literally adores it (bc he adores everything about you) 

[daybreakx]

I’m sorry if this is out of pocket, but your friends are pathetic. They’re in that phase of bringing a kpop stan where their entire fkn personality is Kpop and people like that (I remember my phase like that 🤮🤮) irk my fkn soul cause imagine your whole life being dedicated to the success and perpetuation of the image of another versus taking the time to enjoy some music while you live your life. Like damn, those fRiEnDs aren’t your friends and I would suggest cutting them off slowly if not completely because of how toxic they are being. Cause when i was in that phase, at least I kept my antic to my self, but that right there, that some childish shit right there for them 💯💯💯

Ugh honestly you are right sometimes I’m like, “do you hear yourself when you talk!?!” And it just pisses me off sooooo much when I try to watch a stage or something and she’s like “you’re watching it just now? Ew I watched it at 3 am” miss, I was sleeping??

And don’t get me started on how much money she has spent and she’s been here three minutes (like it’s her money ik) but it’s also like “I don’t get why you don’t have more merch if you have been here for so long😌” ???? WHAT???

Sorry for ranting again omg, just let people enjoy things without turning their wholes lives into it? I have so many interests I try to enjoy stop trying to guilt trip me and shame me for not doing what you want ugh. The worst part is that we had a fight around February about it and she doesn’t stop. Like she chilled out for a moment but it’s begun all over again and I don’t think I’ll just put up with it anymore.

[gyeomverse7]

Random stuff kpop fans do that I would like to address.

1. Comparing two kpop groups.

Honestly if you do this your just trying to pick a fight and it shows how immature you really are. Kpop isn’t finite genre and every group is different so trying to tear one group down because you think another group is better is honestly some toxic shit, if your a serious kpop stan BE BETTER TYVM. If your comparing an aspect of a comeback or the way a group is set up then this doesn’t apply to you.

2. Slut-shaming, fat-shaming or trying to call out and cancel idols/their friends for no god damn reason.

I see this happen all the time and it needs to stop. I’ll admit to mistakes I’ve made in the past with fandoms where convos with my friends would get out of pocket. We’d be talking about a dating scandal and one of them would say “what a hoe didn’t she date ... too”. Slut shaming is something I feel bad that I have been a part of in the past but I’m older now and I will honestly not stand for it. You don’t know that person, you don’t know anything about the situation so please stop.

Like I know people have posted threads about how sometimes idols get nervous around their friends especially their female friends because people get out of hand. It’s not cute, it’s not funny, it’s just horrible and your being a shitty person by bullying someone for being associated with someone else.

But in saying that some fandoms get really toxic when it comes to dating scandals especially with boy groups. Y’all get so mad and out of pocket when your bias gets a girlfriend when you don’t need to. They’re human and they’re going to date someone or not and that’s something that I hate to say is absolutely none of your business. And another thing while I’m here STOP FKN BEING SO RUDE TO FANS THAT ARE EXCITED ABOUT THEIR IDOLS DATING. Like damn grow up your not a child let us be happy they aren’t going to die alone.

3. Trying to find their private accounts.

*sighs. Your creeepy

Like I’m sorry but it’s just not acceptable, don’t go looking for their private stuff.

[aaric-s-haven]

I hate the PJO fandom here. I have never read such absolute bullshit takes anywhere else. Like yes I get Nico is your cute little emo gay, but tf is it with making him a victim HE WAS NOT A VICTIM IN????

Yes Percy choked him in TLO, that was wrong. But do you remember where he was? In a fkn cell of the actual underworld. Surrounded by death. Tricked into the situation by a person he trusted. All the while carrying the stress and burden of the prophecy child. So yes if he saw the said trickster again, IT DOESN'T MATTER THAT NICO DIDN'T INTEND IT, he would feel righteous anger and yes he acted out of it. Somehow you guys seem to keep forgetting that this little kid also was trying to kill Percy, trade his soul for his sister's the entire previous book. THAT somehow isn't mentioned by any of the nico stans here. Of course you wouldn't. He was 11, he was grieving, his anger was also righteous. But somehow it's toxic when Percy does it.

And then I saw somebody bring up the fact that Percy regularly has violent thoughts regarding Nico. First of all excuse me that's not true. He only felt murderous this one time in TLO and I doubt he would have actually done anything. Second of all he sees Nico as a little brother, one that isn't afraid to stab him in the back in Percy's eyes but little brother nonetheless. He is simultaneously annoyed by him and feels extremely sorry for him. He would die for the kid and seeing how cryptic Nico is always, it doesn't seem like Percy is wrong about being slightly cautious of him. It's not Nico's fault but it's not Percy's either. Stop this train of Percy mistreats Nico. Are we even reading the same books??? Percy got mildly offended when Nico listened to Amnabeth and not him in the battle of the labyrinth. Percy worried over Nico's disappearance. AND YES PERCY DOES FEEL RESPONSIBLE FOR BIANCA'S DEATH. THERE IS LITERALLY NO EVIDENCE ANYWHERE THAT HE BRUSHED HER DEATH OF. He DOES feel responsible for Nico. He did NOT talk shit about Nico on the Argo II. All he said was he had complicated loyalties. And Nico does have complicated loyalties. He looked in the eye of the amnesiac and told him no I don't know you. He never tells anyone his plans. Fucking stop it with the Percy bashing. Big part of Nico's arc is that people cast him out, Percy is the one person who really doesn't give a fuck

All you guys want is more reasons to feel sorry for the skrunkly emo, when in fact the emo is a way more complicated character than uwu everyone hates me

[k-kizkhalifa]

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UGH THIS IS IT. THIS IS THE END (of the season)!!!!!!!!!!!!! HeRE WE GO. I AM NERVOUS AS HELL.

oh usagi is so helpless with his work. how did he manage without misaki taking care of him?! if i remember correctly trouble happens in this episode. ugh.

oh great this meddlesome fker.

the FLOWERS AROUND MISAKI. <3

LMFAO MISAKI WITH HIS CRUSH ON THIS GUY. Oh great, Misaki going off again. This man has no fkn stop.

OH MY GOD. MISAKI TOLD THIS SHIT HEAD HE LOVED HIM. USAGI HEARD. OH SHIT OH SHIT OH SHIT. aslkdjfalsjflskaj

oh goodness jealous usagi. (kinda hot my guys, knida hot.)

lol misaki shut up darling. your boyfriend is going to go kill him. he's gonna ask me to get nowaki out.

oh great, brother usami is HERE AND PRESENT.

lol a haruhiko throwing shade. and then misaki promising usagi he'd go "straight home!" lmfao.

i kinda remember this scene. ugh. but also good? i cant remember all of it.

lmfao not misaki trying to converse with this guy, and NOT HARUHIKO SMILING BC HE REALLY IS IN LOVE WITH MISAKI. (okay kiz we're not feeling bad for haruhiko. hes a pushy toxic dude.)

i am so happy he is doing what he wants, because misaki gave him the motivation to. and misaki is genuinely happy. (misaki is a good guy, he really cares for ppl.) oh great -- here we go.

Haruhiko: I need you. I love you.

USAGI IS GOING TO HEAR THIS!?!?!??!?!!

why are all these ppl SO FKN CONCERENED ABOUT THIS RELATIONSHIP?!?!?!?

Misaki: dude i am not gay. Haruhiko: but you are for Akihiko?? Only??

(i mean fair question my guy)

LMFAO

Misaki: nah man YOURE not the problem. Usagi is a FKN mess but well, he's my mess. I lvoe him.

BRO THIS IS A BIG MOVE! Misaki telling someone besides Usagi that he is love with him.

Oh great, Haruhiko is going to be cold as hell to him now.

AWE AT THEM BEING SO DAMN CUTE WITH EACH OTHER.

LOL AT USAMI PAPA HERE NOW. FKN FANTASTIC! Papa Usami being so damn blunt.

Ah man, no misaki in his feelings again. lol misaki get him some chocolates! you sad sap. usagi will love them, just like the small flowers you got him. he loves things from you, anything from you.

welp here we go! these ppl. LOL PAPA USAGI CUDDLING THE BEAR. alsjflkasjf OH NO NOT MATCH MAKING. Also, I just wanna say is it weird that... Misaki has his own room, and then WEIRDER that Usagi just dismissed him to his room like a damn child. BRO. USAGI. HE IS NOT A CHILD.

oh the music. SOMETHING ABOUT TO HAPPEN.

welp there it is, isn't? i know this is the last episode of this season but hot damn they really going for the break up.

Papa Usami: oh hey misaki thanks for being a sport and turning down haruhiko, now go ahead and turn down akihiko so i can go back to ignoring my children. tahnks man.

i feel like Usagi is about to LOSE HIS EVER LOVING MIND. lmfao not usagi RUNNING out of the hosue. this is the build up! i forgot what happens here.

OH MY GO-- okay misaki saved him.

LMFAO AT MISAKI HITTING HIM IN THE HEAD.

Misaki: USAGI YOU FKN IDIOT, LEARN TO CROSS THE STREET. AND YOUUUUUUUUUU PAPA USAMI TEACH YOUR CHILD HOW TO CROSS THE STREET!

this boy sure does know how to GO off.

ohhhhhhh it was good. papa usami finally understanding. idk why ppl are so scared of the usami family, but misaki isn't. MISAKI WON THE APPROVAL! THANK GOD!

awe the usagi smile over the chocolates from misaki. i told you he would love them misaki! he loves everything you give him.

awe that was it. i saw that JR3 was on, i've never watched it so it'll be a new experience for me! but i am excited.