#still reading the wn and still not up to date because I read very slowly

[katotaines]

🎀 Happy provisional birthday Beako!!! 🎀 \(*≧▽≦)/

[zhuilingyizhen]

Tsundre Jin Ling who has no idea how to deal with his feelings for his (only) 3 friends

Side Note: Wow this ended up long- & thank you anon!! I really loved this ask.

At first he thinks that he’s supposed to feel like that towards all his friends. I mean, the three juniors are the only expieriences with friendship he’s had so far. So of course he loves likes them! Thankfully, he’s not as oblivious as Jingyi or as self-sacrificing as Sizhui. He is possibly more afflicted with dumb bitch disease than Zizhen, though. Very, very possibly.

But once the feelings of ���I wanna hold his hand.” and “How would it feel to kiss him?” and “I never noticed how attractive he is.” start settling in, he realises two things. One, he’s a cutsleeve, and two, holy shit he’s in love with his friends.

There’s some major problems with this revelation. Of the 4 juniors, barely one and a half of them can healthily express their feelings, and I can guarantee that Jin Ling is not a part of that minority, being the tsundere he is. His mommy/daddy issues (rather, the lack of having living parents) also play a part in his not being able to successfully process or display his feelings. Plus, he’s not stupid just blind. He only has three friends. He’s in love with all three of them. In the scenario that they all reject his feelings and decide leave him, he would be alone again.

Imagine how he’d feel. Though his parents both left, that was due to their deaths, not them wanting to leave (though there is the fact that his mother was willing to give up her life for her brother possibly knowing that she would be leaving her son behind, but even then her main concern at the time was her brother’s life so it isn’t exactly a fair comparison and oops I’m rambling-). Jin Ling wouldn’t be able to live with himself knowing that his only friends (the ones that he loved & cared about) had willingly left him. Not that they would ever do that, but he doesn’t know that yet.

Another problem with his feelings is that he really doesn’t have anyone to talk to. The only parental figures in his life are his three uncles (JGY, WWX, and JC) and possibly WN? I’m not too sure about their canon relationship but them having a nice uncle-nephew like relationship would be nice. JL, seeing his uncle’s past experiences in romance, immediately crosses out JC from the list of possible confidants. We all know what happened with JGY (though assuming this was before everything went down, I would say that JL isn’t as close to JGY, & asking romance advice from him wasn’t exactly an appealing solution). WWX & WN both have strong familial connections with LSZ, so it would definitely be awkward talking to them about JL’s feelings for him (and almost worse having to tell them he also liked LJY & OYZZ). Plus, he wasn’t very much interested from getting a shovel talk from LWJ, who would most certainly hear about it from WWX. His friends weren’t exactly an option either, unless he went to them talking about his feelings for their mutual friends. And the idea of that was so mortifying that JL almost puked from embarrassment. Almost.

Plus, even if he asked in a hypothetical context, his friends know that he wouldn’t have a crush on anyone outside his tiny group of close knit juniors. Well, Sizhui and Zizhen know that. Jingyi is too dense to realize that Jin Ling is 1. Gay and 2. Desperately in love with them. The other two assume that JL likes one of them, but for the life of them can’t figure it out. JL is just too tsundere-y around them.

He has several options on how to deal with his quickly progressing feelings.

A: He confesses to them, and hopes that they don’t end their friendship.

B: He could slowly distance himself from his current friends, and possibly make some other friends. Leave them before they can leave him.

C: (similar to B) He could throw himself into his sect leader duties and use it as an excuse to not spend as much time with his friends, and brush them off whenever they ask about him. Become a bratty JC.

D: He hides his feelings for all three of them. Lets the feelings build up inside him, push his friends away whenever they ask, and accidentally act extremely suspicious and moodier than usual towards them.

He obviously picks a combination of the last three. Also probably has vehemently denied having feelings for any of them whenever the mere mention of romance is brought up, which has led to many awkward silences.

At this point, Zizhen is sure that JL has a crush on one of them (he’s betting on Sizhui). Sizhui himself is still trying to figure out who it is that JL likes (but he’s a bit closer to the truth than Zizhen) and Jingyi... Jingyi is questioning the odd behavior that’s going on between his three besties.

Sizhui is the first to figure it out. The juniors excluding JL (who’s busy on so-called sect stuff) are hanging out. LJY & OYZZ are discussing a romance novel that OYZZ read, and LSZ is just listening in. The gist of the novel is that a warrior falls in love with a young maiden from his hometown and the prince of a neighboring kingdom, who they are soon going to war against. The warrior has to choose what’s best for his home, and ends up slaying his male lover. Though he goes back to the young maiden and his family, the warrior ends up drowning himself in despair and guilt at having to kill the prince.

(The next part was kinda written as a fic, cause I didn’t wanna do like a screenplay of what happened.)

The two chat about it, with Sizhui occasionally offering his opinion, before Jingyi interjects. “Why couldn’t the warrior have just been with them both?”

Zizhen asks what both Sizhui and he were wondering. “What do you mean?”

“Well, he clearly loved them both. There had to be some way for him to date both of them.”

(End short dialogue fic thingy.)

It got Sizhui thinking about their situation. It was clear that Jin Ling had feelings for at least one of them, if his defensive behavior and blushing were any clue. But he hadn’t really considered the idea of him liking more than one of them, or even all three of them. The more he thought about it, the more it made sense. LSZ could never exactly pinpoint who JL likes because JL had always acted the same (tsundere-y, blushing, & defensive) around all three of them. The different behavior most likely meant that...

Jin Ling liked all three of them.

Discovering this had left Sizhui reeling. The fact that he was on a picnic with the other two people one of his closest friends had a crush on didn’t exactly help, so he quickly excused himself (though this suspicious behavior went noticed by Zizhen and Jingyi, and they vowed to figure out what was afflicting the usually calm member of their group).

For one thing, Sizhui wasn’t completely sure how he felt about his friends. He was certainly fond of all three of them, but in love with them? That was quite a revelation. But it made sense. He was already close to the other three juniors, and he certainly loved them. However, the question was whether or not it was platonic or romantic love. Most of the physical contact he had with people were with his friends (mostly Jingyi, since they live at the same place & are usually together). So it would make sense that he would seek more romantic touches from them, right? Sizhui wasn’t quite sure about this all. The first thing to do was to confront Jin Ling about his feelings. Maybe they would figure it out together, all four of them.

Turns out, Jin Ling doesn’t want to talk about his feelings (seriously Sizhui, what were you expecting? Emotional maturity?). Sizhui quite literally had to chase him around Lotus Pier. Eventually he catches him, and gets Jin Ling to sit down with him for tea. (Sizhui didn’t even have to restrain him! That went better than expected.)

Not one to beat around the bush, Sizhui is pretty blunt with his questions.

“Do you like a zhen, a yi, and I romantically?”

Jin Ling was only half expecting that and chokes on his tea.

At first he denies it, but Sizhui refuses to let him leave until he tells him the truth. Which means JL either has to go with option A, or wait until Sizhui let’s him leave.

They sit there for almost an hour before the owner kicks them out. After that, they just kinda... chill. Jin Ling won’t say anything, and Sizhui won’t leave until he gets an answer, so they’re stuck in a deadlock.

Meanwhile, Jingyi and Zizhen are looking all over the Cloud Reccesses for Sizhui, but he is nowhere to be found.

Eventually, Jin Ling breaks first (he really needed to get this off his chest) and tells Sizhui that he likes them. After that, he immediately kicks Sizhui out the door and goes to mope around somewhere. Preferably with Fairy.

Sizhui finally returns and Jingyi breaks both the the no running and making loud noises rule once he sees him. Zizhen has to go back home, because by now it was pretty late. Thankfully, they got back before curfew.

The next step in Sizhui’s plan to get Jin Ling, Zizhen, and Jingyi together (he still wasn’t sure how he felt about it all himself, but he could at least make his best friends happy, right?) was to talk to Jingyi and figure out if Jingyi liked the Young Mistress & Zizhen.

This was easier than expected, cause though Jingyi is oblivious, he isn’t oblivious to his own feelin- oh wait. Well, at least he won’t deny his own feelings after figuring out that he has them. He and Sizhui have a very long talk, and yup he has feelings. He also holds Sizhui’s hand a little because feelings.

Meanwhile Jin Ling is freaking out back at Lotus Pier because he just remembered that there is a night hunt that week (and everyone will be suspicious if he doesn’t attend).

(Jiang Cheng is moderately concerned so he follows Jin Ling on the night hunt decides to visit Xichen on the day of the night hunt. On business, of course.)

The night hunt happens as usual, though Jin Ling is suspiciously quiet. Sizhui and Jingyi are more attached by the hip than usual.

They kill a few fierce corpses. Woohoo. But then Zizhen gets attacked from behind and Jin Ling pushes him out of the way. The two Lans deal with the corpse and Zizhen smiles and thanks Jin Ling, which leads to an incredibly blushy Jin Ling. Which makes Zizhen think. Because blushing + close proximity = signs of a crush. And currently Jin Ling is almost on top of him from tackling him earlier. So...

“Oh my god, you have a crush on me?”

Which was not the response Jin Ling was looking for. It also almost gives Sizhui a heart attack because oop this isn’t gonna go well. At this point, Jingyi can’t be fazed by the disaster that is his friends. Until Zizhen straight up kisses Jin Ling on the mouth, which makes him do a double take cause really guys? Right in front of his salad chicken wings?

Jin Ling is confused, Jingyi is confused, Zizhen is kinda confused and a bit dazed cause kisses sometimes do that, so Sizhui has to deal with this clusterfuck of emotions.

He gets everyone to sit in a circle (crisscross apple sauce) which, looking back on it, probably wasn’t the best idea considering they were on a night hunt. Sizhui, now knowing that at most of them have feelings for each other (still isn’t sure about Zizhen), decides to go first.

“I like all of you romantically.”

Yay confession! Jingyi isn’t surprised since he knew from their talk, so he just kinda smiles. Jin Ling, having never figured this out, would have spit out his tea again had he had tea. Zizhen just accepts it, because yeah, it makes sense.

They sit in awkward silence as Jin Ling tries to not choke on the air, Jingyi moves a bit closer to Sizhui, and Zizhen & Jingyi eventually breaks it.

“I like you all, too.”

“Same here.”

Which leaves Jin Ling, who has been attempting to find an excuse to get out of here at. It’s one thing to have feelings and another to find out that they’re returned. This wasn’t one of the outcomes he had prepared for. So he sits there until he realizes that his friends are waiting for a response.

“What’re you all looking at me for?! You can’t expect me to say it after you guys already went.”

Jingyi silently threatens to tickle him, which is somehow worse than having to spill his feelings?

“Fine, fine. I like you guys too. Can I leave now?”

Sadly for Jin Ling, Jingyi forces him & the others into a hug, because feelings.

They all just kinda sit there for a while, before Jin Ling realizes that it’s time for them to get the heck out of there because he has to get home before his uncle yells at him.

Little did he know, Jiang Cheng had been watching him from the bushes and his new boyfriends would be getting the shovel talk very, very soon...

[kaisooficrec]

What are the current fics you guys are reading? Hope you're all having a great day!!

hello, you too, sunshine -3- here’s what we’re reading or wanting to read atm c:

Admin J: i’m 500 years behind on reading fest fics halp [same -Admin O]

catching up on around 60 fics from nodtt and forkadionly

Up That Hill - running up that hill extras, boi i cant get enough of this and I’m patiently waiting for more

What the Nightingale Spies - spy au, + Orbiting Bodies- non au, and basically everything by at1stsoo

Running Home by kaisoochateau - mama au, jongin trains his whole life to become a dancer but soon discovers a superpower he can’t control and his life changes 180 degress

The Boy Next Door - neighbour au, the hot guy who moves in next to ksoo is a p*rnstar :oo

They Won’t Know - tennis au, both kd are tennis players and in a secret relationship (warning: homophobia)

You And I Were Fireworks - ksoo works at the pet section in a home store and jongin, an owner of any pets, is ksoo’s fav customer

The Road To Your Heart - set in india, soo is a blacksmith and one day he receives a home cooked meal from his admirer (shy shy jongin!)

Cheater 2 - ksoo is a cheater :/ (crossing fingers for the update!)

landfall - stripper au, soo gets a dancer on his bday but as a drunk man, he rejects the services. nevertheless, fate makes their paths cross again (this is sooooo good and they’ve just updated!)

Admin I:

A Misguided and Unnecessarily Long Galactic Odyssey to Earth - i have heard so many good things about this fic oh my god, and i really can’t wait to get started. first of all: frkn space!au hell yeah, second: KAISOO AND XIUCHEN? i am signed tf up

The Woes of the Heart and Susceptible to You - inarichi is a really amazing author! i have read some of her shorter fics, and i love them! i can’t wait to get into the lengthier, angstier fics because boooooooi i just know i am about to be slaughtered

Déjà Vécu - or as i so lovingly call it: ‘deja vacate this place lucy’ and ‘deja vacuum me’. yes, yes i know, i’m such a fake lucyoppa stan for having not read her masterpiece STILL but i will get to it soon i promise. ANGST NEEDS WEEKS OF MENTAL PREPARATION FROM ME.

Catfish and Running Home - i’m slowly making my way down all of queen kaisoochateau’s fics!! i love her writing so much my underrated bb :(

Smells like Teen Spirit - i am a sucker for slowburn and reckless teenagers!! i started this fic last week (n got busy rip) but i’m waiting to continue reading it hehe, and so far, it’s amazing! 

and literally soooo many fest fics rip (don’t get me wrong, i am LOVING all these fests, and the authors who write for so many? you guys are amazing shoutout to you!!)

Admin H:

Circuit Dreams - im not sure if the author is new or im just seeing their name for the first time but! oh! my! god! their writing is so beautiful, it’s about formula driver jongin (rich af tho) wooing idol!kyungsoo and basically having fun dates and being soft boyfriends, a must read!

You + Me + Happy Ending - im soft for domestic aus where small kids are involved and this is uni student ksoo currently struggling with taking care of his baby sehun and jongin happens to be there to help around :’)

The Woes of the Heart - I LOVE PAIN AND SUFFERING aka you’ll be ripped apart a hundred times with this onesided!kaisoo where ksoo is a wedding planner and HE is the one who has to plan jongin’s wedding

Brightest Star - the only kadi chaptered fic im following rn and this is my friend’s fic so i scream at her to update :’)) / kadi used to be close friends in hs where ksoo was an idol trainee when he gets into exo, they both naturally strayed apart until they meet again and reconcile (fall in love) + all of you are going to relate to luhan so hard

Helping Jongin Come - everytime this updates my life gets added an extra 20 yrs // they started off with kyungsoo teaching jongin sexual stuff :))) and in the end they stayed as very close friends with a sexual relationship but!1 theyre very sweet and gross with each other :D

Admin O:

A Misguided and Unnecessarily Long Galactic Odyssey to Earth - this fic is so long and so creative and so a.m.a.z.i.n.g. i actually like to let a few chapters build up and then binge read for hours on a weekend ugh.

Running Home - mama!au, kyungsoo is a cute little dork talking to plants, jongin is pining. ‘weird tree kid’, i live for weird ksoo. someone send help. admin down. i repeat admin d[o]wn.

The Internet is for Porn - awkward teenage nini accidentally finds out his favorite camboy is also his best friend who he’s secretly had a crush on 5ever. they’re such dorks and i am so in love. 

Wizards in Training - basically i am currently reading anything indigomini has going. she never fails me. 

Love in Control - what is this!!! it’s so well written and so much fun but also girl knows her stuff!!! this fic is so good and i literally check my aff app every single day waiting for that update notif. i can’t wait to see where it goes.

Good Graces - flowergirl is my life. By The Light of The Moon was my everything. i love her work and i would give her the world if i could. this fic is beyond A++. 

incoherent boundaries - okay so i have decided i am currently reading any and everything written by jongdaesang. they can have my first born. all of my kids. my soul. all of it.