#still probably the best poem ive ever written to date

[b0ngwater69]

Reminded of dog poem symbolism discourse and it's got me thinking of a banger of a poem i wrote a while back and presented in a creative writing class (community college so a decent variety of ages/backgrounds) and the only complaints abt the dog symbolism i got were from a couple of younger women who didnt like/were confused by me using a dog (thing they liked) as an allegory for depression (thing they see as bad)

so basically write your dog poems who give a shit almost nobody offline will see anything other than a baring of your soul and vision

[thefeverburningalive]

࣪𖤐.ᐟ 𝖳𝖾𝗇 𝖳𝗁𝗂𝗇𝗀𝗌 𝖨 𝖧𝖺𝗍𝖾 𝖠𝖻𝗈𝗎𝗍 𝖸𝗈𝗎.

billie eilish x fem!reader

chapter three | ch2 | ch1

summary: due to the recent new rule given to your sister by your father, some meddling parties decide the easiest way to get you to date is by paying somebody to take you out. who better to do so then the hot mysterious delinquent

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a/n: i’m so sorry this took so long to come out </3. i had a super crazy past couple of weeks plus some writers block sprinkled in there. there will most likely be only one or maybe two more parts of this so i hope you guys enjoyy.. also! i put a little star (*) where a specific scene starts, in order for the scene to make sense please watch the link above or at least listen to the song above (bc it was the best thing ive ever written and i want it to make sense so bad) tysm!!

genre: slow burn, tooth rotting fluff, angst, probably a curse word or two

warnings: slight cursing, idiots being idiots

word count: 4.2k

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“y/n, m’lady, you sway to the rhythm of my heart.” kissy sounds and off beat comments where all you could hear the second you entered the classroom, reminders of the fool you had made of yourself at that party. english had always been your favorite subject but you where dreading all classes today. how could you be such an idiot? you couldn’t give any of those jerks the satisfaction of your acknowledgement. you sat down and began to take your materials out. just ignore and pretend like you always do. “y/n stratford you where on fire! wonder where you learned to dance like that babe.” joey’s voice makes anger bubble deep inside your gut. you kept cool on the outside, not even glancing up, keeping your eyes fixated what’s in-front of you as joey joins his friends. right as the bell rang, billie came in. she quickly looked for your eyes which where still preoccupied. she timidly walks over and slinks into the seat behind you. you knew it was her. you weren’t sure if you recognized the sound of her necklaces rattling together or her musky perfume first, but both where indicators of her presence. billie knew she fucked up. the entire situation was fucked up. she couldn’t help but ask herself if the money she was getting was worth breaking something that’s already fragile. billie wants to know you, to be real with you. your cold shoulder was enough for her to make up her mind. she’s calling it off with joey. you listened intensely as mrs. blaise explained the upcoming assignment. something about writing poems- or something like that. before you knew it the bell was ringing, and you waisted no time in scooping up your stuff and rushing off. you didn’t even hear billie say your name as you left.

you always spent lunch with your friend juliana, being that she was one of your, if not your only, close friends. “you went to a party? i thought we where officially apposed to social activity.” she linked her arm through yours, connecting you guys while the two of you walked through the campus. “i didn’t have a choice jules.” this was the last topic you wanted to discuss, not only where you embarrassed over getting fucked up and making a fool of yourself, but also embarrassed by getting turned down by billie. “didn’t have a choice? where’s my y/n and what have you done with her?” you knew she was just poking friendly fun but you really where in no joking mood. “i did it for bianca and it backfired. i got drunk. i danced. i fell. i puked. i got rejected. it was big fun.” juliana didn’t push after your short angered rant. she could tell it was something that was still raw for you. she really wanted to ask about the being rejected part, you having failed to mention to her you where even remotely intrigued by anyone. as you two walk you see and make eye contact with billie. she nervously smiles and gives a small wave. you huff and roll your eyes before immediately turning to walk on a different path. juliana made eye contact with billie. without knowing or hearing anything, juliana knew all she needed to know before continuing to follow you. you decided to have some ‘you time’ after school. the vintage book store was always a comforting place for you. you could spend hours trailing up and down the rustic istles. “exuse me? do you know where i could find a copy of the feminine mystique? i seemed to have lost my copy.” it seemed as if billie came out of no where, suddenly standing directly in-front of you. you stop dead in your tracks and cross your arms. “what are you doing here?” she smiles and shrugs her shoulders at you. “heard this is a pretty cool joint.” you let out a sarcastic laugh before turning to a near by shelf, picking up a book, and shoving it into billie’s chest before exiting. when billie looked down, there was now a copy of the feminine mystique in her hand.

the next day flew by fairly quickly, and quietly. you where on the soccer field going about practice as usual. the coach announced a fifteen minute break since the marching band was also on the field, practicing for the next football game. you chatted with some of your teammates, discussing tactics for the next game and complaining about whatever else.* “you’re just too good to be true,, can’t take my eyes off of you,,” suddenly a beautiful voice could be heard over the loud system of the game field. “you’d be like heaven to touch,, i wanna hold you so much,,” billie was suddenly seen coming out of the announcer booth, microphone in hand, lips moving perfectly in sync with the singing. she was singing. “at long last, love has arrived,, and i thank god i’m alive,,” she then finally finds your eyes on the field, holding the most intense eye contact with you. “you’re just too good to be true,, can’t take my eyes off of you.” as she finished the phrase she points a finger at you. before you could even continue to process what was going on, the entire school band starts playing music- the music to go along with billie’s singing. your mouth hangs agape, an unavoidable smile spreading onto your face. everyone else on the field was in total shock, people laughing, teasing, gossiping. but you couldn’t even be bothered to care. all you could focus on was billie. she sang and danced through the bleachers, along with running away from campus security. all you could do was watch and laugh and smile, not even believing what was happening. as the song came to a close billie eventually had to stop dodging security and go with them to the principals office- probably to get in trouble for hijacking the sound system. you whistled and cheered for her though, as did everyone else. you definitely couldn’t let her sit through detention after that. the loud whistle the coach was using snapped you out of your thoughts. unfortunately, you couldn’t help her until after practice. luckily, it wrapped up about twenty minutes later. after lazily throwing sweat pants over your soccer shorts and slipping on some low top sneakers, you made your way to the detention room. all you had to do was distract the teacher long enough to let billie escape. as you entered the room, billie eyes where the first thing you looked for. your eyes met instantly, she gave you a ‘what are you doing?’ look as you gave her a ‘don’t worry about it’ look back. “mr. elicks! just the guy i was looking for!” okay so maybe you weren’t an actor, but you could be convincing enough for the sake of the task at hand. you created small talk with the older male teacher, once he turned his back you looked over at billie- mouthing the words ‘escape while you can’. billie had a huge grin on her face as you continued to chat away with the teacher. slowly but surely, billie made it out of the classroom undetected. once she was out, you quickly said goodbye and dashed out of there. the both of you laughed and giggled while running down the halls, booking it for the parking lot. you lead her to your car before unlocking the doors allowing you both to sit. “dude i can’t thank you enough for helping me sneak out of detention. very cool of you.” she was still panting a bit, but you where too, having just run down four hauls and several flights of stairs. you laugh through the pants before responding. “yeah no problem.” you put the keys in the ignition and begin to drive, existing the parking lot. “i thought i was gonna be a goner trying to sneak out of there. so how did you do it? keep him so distracted?” due to you driving, you couldn’t exactly look over at her. but you could tell she was still smiling. “oh you know..i dazzled him with my wits.” she chuckles as you pull into a gas station parking lot. “so what now.” you turn to billie, now being able to actually talk. “are you up for it?” billie has this mischievous look on her face. “up for what?”

that’s how the two of you ended up covered in paint, laughing your asses off, playing paint-ball. “eilish watch out!!” you two start laughing as she got hit with a paint ball. you take a few step closer to her but you’re suddenly hit with a paintball straight to your back, sending you stumbling forward. before you know it you’re falling onto the ground- right on top of billie. “well how cliche.” billie placed one of her hands on the small of your back, while the other came up to brush some of your paint covered hair from out of your face. “shut up and kiss me already.” “with pleasure.” billie then finally brings her face to yours, and places her hips atop of yours. her lips where softer than clouds, seemingly melting into yours. the kiss was soft and gentle. she tasted like cherry chapstick and spearmint gum. when the kiss was done, you felt yourself missing it. after the kiss, you both just looked at each other for a moment. neither of you being able to find the right words to say now. billie was the first one to speak. “maybe we should uh- head out.” you nodded and scrambled to get up and off of her, offering your hand to help her stand. the walk back to the car was silent. it wasn’t awkward, but there was still a slight feeling of tension. as you got to the car you handed her a towel from in your trunk. she raised an eyebrow at you. “bianca always has me pick her and her friends up from the beach. i hate sand, especially in my car. so ive just gotten into the habit of keeping towels in the trunk.” she nods and listens as you both wipe as much paint as possible from off yourselves before entering the car. “do you wanna go to my place?” the question catches you off guard. you’d never been to billie’s house before, hell you dont even know where she lives. she continued to speak. “we’re both covered in paint, and exhausted. also- i’m pretty sure your dad will go all ‘sargent dad’ on you if you go home looking like a kindergarteners finger painting project.” she had a point, your dad would ask way too many questions, and you hated the feel of the paint drying in your hair. “yeah why not. but i have no idea where you live.” she smiles as she puts her seat belt on. “i gotcha mamas, i’ll give you directions.” and she does just that. it was about fifteen minutes of her giving you directions before you finally made it back to her house.

it was different then you pictured in your head. she leads you inside after unlocking the door. you’re suddenly met with a large pitbull, jumping up excitedly onto billie. “shaaark hi buddy, hey big guy, who’s a good boy!” you watch as billie crouched down to give love to the dog while she talked to him in a cute baby voice. it was a side of billie you’d never seen before, and it made you smile. the dog suddenly comes over to you and sniffs you, before sitting in front of you seemingly waiting for you to pet him. you smile and pat his head. “nice to meet you shark! aww you’re so cutee.” now you’re crouching down to pet the dog as he rolls over for you to rub his belly. “oh yeah he’s a looker.” she watches closely while you interact with her dog, something about it makes her stomach do backflips. “he’s literally the cutest thing i’ve ever seen.” you turn to look at her while still petting the dog. “not as cute as you.” she shoots you a wink and you roll your eyes, your cheeks blushing slightly. “here come i’ll show you where the bathroom is, i’ll grab you a towel and some clothes to throw on.” she guides you up a flight of stairs and to a bathroom, seemingly to be her own. “i’ll be right back with the supplies.” she turns and leaves while you study the bathroom. it has one tooth brush, so this must be her own bathroom. you see some skincare products lined up on the sink, along with some vanilla body lotion. a knock at the door is heard before billie slips in. “clothes and towel as promised. there’s shampoo, conditioner and body wash inside the shower on the shelf. once you’re done you can come to my room that’s where i’ll be. it’s the first door on the left when you walk out.” you nod taking the pile from her hands, while she closes the door behind her. you quickly shower, ridding yourself of the paint. billie gave you a black nike hoodie with some red basket ball shorts. the outfit was a little big on you, but it was almost comforting. the clothes smelt like her arms where wrapped around you.

you made your way to her room, the sound of low music to be heard from the door that was cracked open. when you stepped inside you’re met with a whole different billie than you’re used to. billie is seated at a desk- she’s wearing a darker red hoodie was some sort of band logo on it, along with some checkered pajama shorts. her hair was wet but thrown up in a messy bun, and she seemed to be applying some skin care products to her face. she seemed so much more real. she noticed your presence and smiled. “c’mon in, i don’t bite.” she grins as she speaks while motioning for you to sit on the edge of the bed next to her chair. without a second beat you indulge. “do you live here alone?” you couldn’t stop yourself from being nosey. it was strange there was no one else here. “nah i live with my parents and older brother. my parents travel a lot for business and my brothers almost always at his girlfriends house- if not then working.” you head nodded as she spoke, your eyes locked with her blue ones. “its not too bad tho. i usually just kinda hang here with shark. sometimes zoe will come by.” as hard as you tried to pay attention to her words, her presence was overtaking your mind. your mind couldn’t help but question how you ended up here. “what about you? have anything you like to do while home alone?” it was clear billie was continuing to try and get to know you, which you appreciated. “well i’m also usually home alone a lot. bianca’s always god knows where. my dad works in a hospital so he’s off saving lives. jules is usually busy- she works and studies a lot, and she’s pretty much the only person i hang out with. i kinda just read or listen to music or practice the guitar.” speaking with billie felt so natural to you as you’ve grown accustomed to her being around. “nice nice. i’m more of a piano person myself.” billie smirked as she spoke. “speaking of music- i didn’t know you could sing??” you’d almost forgotten about the public performance from earlier today; even though it was only a few hours since it felt like days. you could see a small blush creep onto her cheeks as she just smiled and rubbed the back of her neck. “i- yeah.. it’s not something i talk about a ton.” you could tell the topic made her slightly nervous. it was cute. you start to think back on the reason for her show earlier, and it makes you slightly frown. billie must have noticed the shift in your mood because she immediately perks up. “hey, what’s wrong?” the concern could be heard in billie’s voice. “why didn’t you kiss me in the car?” the question you’d been dying to ask finally spilling out, you stood as you continued to speak. “you flirt with me. you call me pet names. you- you take me to a party- take care of me- open up to me- but then you don’t kiss me-? and then today you do this big gesture and you hang out with me and kiss me and bring me to your home- i just.. do you not want to be with me or what because i-i can’t just play games with you billie.” you let out a sigh after speaking, having just ranted and spilled out everything you’d been thinking.

billie just looks at you. you couldn’t tell what she was thinking- her eyes being so unreadable. she sighed as she stood up from her chair so she was standing directly infront of you. without saying any words she just brought her arms around your waist and pulled you in for a hug. not knowing what to do- you put your arms around her shoulders. billie buried her face in the crook of your neck and sighed. “i’m sorry.” was all billie said, her voice low as she was so close to you. you could feel her breath on your neck and it sent shivers down your spine. the two of you stayed like that for a moment, not knowing when to break apart- not wanting to break apart. billie pulled away and cupped a hand on your cheek. “i was scared- you where kinda drunk and i don’t know i thought that you’d either regret it or forget it if we kissed that night. but i-i do- i do want to be with you.” billie’s eyes slightly glossed over, a mix of emotions clouding her brain. none of this was actually supposed to happen. she wasn’t supposed to fall for you, she wasn’t supposed to get so involved, but she couldn’t help it. her stomach was sick with guilt, she wanted to be real with you. she wanted to be with you because of her feelings, not because of joey. you smiled and pulled her into another hug. “i forgive you.” you spoke just above a whisper. “i know i can be a lot.. i’m very closed off but it’s just because- i’ve just been hurt a lot. it’s hard for me to trust people.” your confession sent another wave a guilt through billie. billie knew she had to be sure that this ‘deal’ with joey was buried dead and gone. she also knew she had to make sure you’d never find out. when you finally let go, billie could see more of the pink hue that dusted your cheeks. for the first time, you felt nervous under her gaze. billie gave you the softest smile, the same pink hue now covering her own cheeks. she slightly stepped closer, if that was even possible. “can i kiss you again?” her voice was low, quiet, like her words where only meant for your ears. all you could do was nod, not trusting your voice to be stable enough to answer. she placed her hand behind your ear while her thumb rested on your cheek before leaning in, and kissing you once more. this kiss felt different then the first one. the first one was soft, a spur of the moment kiss. this kiss felt more real. it was passionate, like she was confessing her feelings through her movements. she pulled you closer by your waist as you put your hands on her chest, slightly grabbing at her hoodie as if to pull her even closer. by the time you’d both finally pulled away, you where on the brink of gasping for air, the kiss having lasted a life time. she rested her forehead atop of yours, her eyes staring deep into yours. “go to prom with me.” it wasn’t even a question she was asking you, more of a demand. “prom-? why would you even want to go?” you didn’t take billie as the school event type of girl. “i want to be with you. i want to do things with you. please go to prom with me.” the desperation in her voice made the butterflies in your stomach start to flutter. “i don’t know billie..” you wanted to protest the idea but then you just saw her staring at you with her big blue eyes. how could you say no? a sigh escaped you lips before you finally answered. “okay- i’ll go to prom with you.” billie immediately picks you up by the waist and spins you around. you laugh with wide eyes while gripping onto her shoulders. “i promise you won’t regret this y/n.” she holds your face in her hands as she speaks. you blush once more, the strong brick walls you had built around your feelings slowly came crumbling down.

it had been hours since you’d arrived at billie’s house, her having suggested to you guys watching some tv on her living room couch turned into an hour and a half long nap. when you woke up, you where clung to billie’s torso. her arm was draped around your shoulders while the other one was playing with your hair. you groaned, having been so comfortably sleeping. “hey sleepy head.” billie spoke very softly, sounding like she’d possibly also been sleeping. “how long was i asleep for?” you sat up slightly, still staying close to billie. “like an hour and a half-ish. i woke up like twenty minutes ago.” you nodded and sighed as she spoke, knowing you’d most likely have to go home soon. before either of you could say anything else, the sound of the front door opening and shark barking filled the room. billie looked over and noticed the two that had just walked in and smiled. “hey fin, hey claudia. finally gracing me with your presence?” you assumed this must be her older brother and his girlfriend, who billie had briefly mentioned earlier. she then got up from the couch and headed in their direction. a part of you wanted to pull her back and keep her next to you but you knew the moment couldn’t last forever. you knew you should also get up and say hi so you did. as you approached you got to actually see the couple that just arrived. you took notice of her brothers ginger hair, wondering if maybe billie’s jet black hair wasn’t her natural color. the girlfriend was tall, and very beautiful. even in a sweat suit she still looked like a super model. the girl seemed to notice your presence before the other two. “hi there.” billie and her brothers heads turned at the sound of her voice. “oh right- y/n this is my brother finneas, and his girlfriend, claudia.” claudia gave you a warm smile and wave while finneas extended his hand for you to shake, which you reciprocated. “hi nice to meet you guys. i’m y/n.” you felt slightly nervous interacting with the two despite their kindness. the conversation flowed with ease, both finneas and claudia being incredibly nice and friendly. the four of you sat on their living room couch, discussing various topics like music, tv shows, movies, food, and sports. after about a half hour you had decided it was probably a good idea for you to head home being that you had been out the entire day and it was almost 6pm. billie was leaning up against your side, so you lightly tapped her knee. her head perked up and she looked over at you. “i should probably head home.” she frowned but understood. “cmere i’ll walk you out.” you turned to finneas and claudia after standing up. “it was so great meeting you guys.” the couple also stood and each came in to give you a hug. “you’re welcome any time.” finneas said as he hugged you goodbye. “i hope we see more of you!” claudia stated as she gave you her hug. finneas then turned to billie before you two exited. “you better treat her right kid. she’s a keeper.” you could feel heat rush to your cheeks, and you saw billie’s do the same. billie and you walked out without a word, walking to your car in silence. “i uh- loved spending the day with you.” billie opened your car door for you as she spoke. you giggled slightly before leaning in and kissing her cheek. “me too, see you tomorrow?” billie blushed once more before nodding with a smile. you started your car with a sigh and waved to billie before driving off.

billie watched your car drive away, before going inside and picking up the phone. she waited a moment, letting it ring, before beginning to speak once the line picked up. “the deals off joey.”

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tag list <3: @emilyshortcake

[horny-p0et]

simpbur x streamer!reader part three

writing makes me feel good, enjoying getting back into it. more to come (hopefully) and as always, thank you for reading and my ask box and dms are always open. feels nice to be back :)

part one part two

warnings: stalking, obsession, reckless spending, usual simpbur behaviour

wordcount: 1443

dont like, dni. please just block me and move on.

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SIMPBUR who put so much time into your existence that he's falling behind in classes. he's been a fan for about three months now but it feels like a lifetime by your side. he's smart and always done well in school, but university seems so pointless when you're on his mind. why bother writing an assignment when he could watch your videos? what point is there spending time with his friends when he'd rather watch your streams? it's like you're attached to him with an IV, sustaining him.

SIMPBUR who finds out where you live from your posts online. he justifies it in his head, the information is there and he just put together the whole picture. seeing the bars and restaurants you've been to on your instagram story he gets the city you live in, managing to narrow down the suburb from a snapchat of you walking down a street with some friends. the house tour vlog on your youtube gives him the exact address, when he compares the photos to apartments for rent listed in the area from when he knew you moved in. it's not weird, you posted the information for him- he's smart, and you'd be so proud of him for figuring it out! you probably posted the clues for him, a test of his devotion.

SIMPBUR who considers the flights over to your city, even though its far to expensive for him to go logically. sure you'd be a little startled if he showed up at your front door, but if he brought flowers and some of the poem's he'd written you'd find it romantic. that's what guys do in movies for girls they love, huge romantic gestures to impress the girl. after all, he's seen enough films where a nerdy guy like him manages to convince the pretty girl to get with them, and by the end of the 90 minutes they kiss and live happily ever after.

SIMPBUR who gets a notification in your discord your having mod applications, and applies as quickly as his fingers can type out the response. he hasn't focused this hard on his school work in months, but he treats this like an application to harvard. he knows he deserves the position, he's been supporting and defending you for months now when it wasn't a job, and he could be trusted to look after you officially. he's a good guy, the best guy- for you.

SIMPBUR who cries tears of joy when he gets the email that says he's been approved and is now a mod for your twitch streams and community discord. this was it, you essentially admitted you needed him, and of course he was more than happy to oblige. he would move the stars if it made you happy.

SIMPBUR who starts taking extra shifts to cover the costs of his gift subs and bits and its still not enough. you do a subathon and he asks his mum for some extra money, even though he's an adult who shouldn't be doing that sort of thing. he lies and says its for a friends birthday and he's buying them a present, which, technically is true. it's your birthday subathon, and he wants to make it special for you. you guy's are basically best friends at this point in his mind, your fleeting interactions online have convinced him your relationship is greater than fan and creator.

SIMPBUR who waits with bated breath for the subathon to start, knees bouncing under his desk as he watches the starting soon screen. you're playing a song he recognises from your spotify, you love that band- you've seen them live three times (you mentioned it in a vlog months ago), maybe he should buy you both meet and greet tickets to their next show and you two could go on a date. it would be so cute- you'd tell him how happy you are to be enjoying it with him by your side.

SIMPBUR who feels like the world melts away when you appear on his screen, waving at the camera and greeting your chat with a big smile. god, your smile. he swears you must have been created by the angels just for him, it never fails to give him butterflies (and stiffen his cock). he's already in chat, typing a bunch of messages in a row and spamming emotes to try and get your attention.

"you guys probably saw in the discord but i've gotten some new moderators working with me now, so no funny business or they'll hit you with the ban hammer."

<W1LLbaby> nothing is gonna get past me, i promise. i'd do anything for you <3

<W1LLbaby> i'll be here every stream not matter the time to make sure you're okay

<W1LLbaby> the best mod you've ever had, won't need anyone else <3 <3

"ha, well don't discredit the rest of my mod team. but i'm sure you wont disappoint, my chat already loves you."

SIMPBUR who feels like he has purpose now he's working on your streams, catching every message that he considers inappropriate. even some compliments cross the line in his mind, since he hates knowing other people admire you like he does. sure, he loves how successful you are and wants you to be supported, but he doesn't like sharing.

SIMPBUR who donates at least $200 worth of gift subs and bits during the stream, enjoying the excited giggle you make when you read the notification. he loves hearing you say his username, how the words roll off your tongue. he wishes it was his real name, whispered in his ear as you played with his hair but for now he'll take the crumbs your throwing him. he'll take anything. he'd literally eat the crumbs off your plate if he could.

SIMPBUR who goes to your amazon wishlist during the stream to buy you a birthday gift, deciding on an expensive gaming chair. it was the most expensive item on the list, and you deserve it. he imagined how he will see you sitting on the thing he got you on stream, comfortable because of his kindness. he wonders if you'd sit on his lap while you streamed, his hands around your waist and his chin resting on your shoulder as you talk to chat. how jealous your fans would be seeing you in his arms. it gives him a sense of masculine pride so he buys it for you.

SIMPBUR who feels like his heart stops when you announce at the end of the stream you'll be going to twitchcon for the first time in your career. you'll be hosting a meet and greet, that you're so excited to meet your fans for the first time since you blew up online. he knows you're most excited to meet him, you're probably just too shy to mention it on stream.

SIMPBUR who is already buying tickets and checking flights on his second monitor before you're stream is over, his fingers fumbling across the keyboard as he finds a cheap hotel and works out how much he'll need to save up so he can go. it's only about two months away, but it feels like a lifetime. he can't imagine being in the same room as you, breathing the same air, putting his arm around you for a photo... it makes his head spin.

SIMPBUR who spams some more compliments into chat before stream ends, making sure you know how much he appreciates you. you don't react on stream, but he's confident you read it. you probably mentioned the meet and greet on stream because you knew he would come, and he'd bring you some flowers and you'd tell him how much you loved him. the image it creates in his mind is enough to make him smile to himself like an idiot.

SIMPBUR who chats in your discord for a while after stream, chatting with other fans who are excited for the convention. not at excited as him obviously. he works on a fanfiction he's had in his drafts for a few weeks before his eyes start to burn from staring at his screen for too long. he looks at the time, its already 3 in the morning and he has school tomorrow. not that he cares much for that anymore.

SIMPBUR who drags himself to bed, wrapping his gangly arms around a pillow and pretends he's cuddling you. he's been doing it for weeks, whispering praise to the inanimate object as though you can hear it. he's never even cuddled a girl before, so he's making sure he gets some practise in before you guys meet. he wants to be the best boyfriend, the best person you've ever met. he won't let you down. ever.

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[skyybridge]

all the valentines asks. I wanna know how you love

what an ominous way to phrase that but i’ll take it. im only gonna answer the rest of the ones that havent been sent to me yet !

first date: describe your ideal first date. i don’t think i really have an ideal first date! I’m people pleaser so whatever the person i’m taking out wants, I imagine? i do like fun stuff where we can chat and do Things, so maybe not like a dinner or a movie or anything like that. hrm. dunno

first kiss: what’s the best way to be kissed?i don’t have a lot of experience in Being Kissed but i imagine real soft kisses late at night are the best

preference: sexuality? what’s your ‘type’?i’ve always liked redheads w freckles, and brown eyes, but as far as appearance or gender other than that, i cant say i have a preference

hand holding: do you like pda? uhhhh pda is kind of weird for me because i dont do well when other people are like, having a steamy makeout session near me, but hand holding and smooches and dumb cutesy stuff doesnt bother me (seeing it or doin it!)family: how important is your family’s approval of your s.o.?i think regardless of who i fall in love with my parents will always have disapproval towards them, so i... try not to care as much

doves: what’s the most romantic thing someone’s done for you?made me a handmade scrapbook of all our memories!love hearts: where were you when you met your crush?i cant remember zoinks

candy: favourite thing to eat on a date?spaghetti. u dont know a person truly until u see them eat spaghetti. and also spaghetti hits

roses: do you like picnic dates?YAAAA THOSE SOUND SO CUTE! giggle: what’s more important in an s.o.: intelligence or humour?anyone who can make me laugh has my heartlace: who looks best in your favourite colour?this question confuses me so i dont know

cupid: have you ever been set up? have you ever set anyone else up? how did it go?mmmm i dont think i have, nolovebirds: at what point in a relationship would you make it ���public’?it’s hard to say.... i’m pretty bad with even knowing if someone likes me or not. my previous partner and i (knowingly) had mutual feelings for each other, but we didnt make it public until they were ready. i guess im just good to go whenever

love knots: would you like to forget the person you shared your first kiss with?mmmm my first “kiss” was with this dude in 5th grade so it doesnt count. my first kiss on a guy i really liked was in 9th grade, but we’re still friends to this day, so i’d never want to forget him!promise ring: who do you see yourself being with in two years?this is a hard question bc theres a lot of like “i hope” and “i know this is the reality”ballad: best love song?theres too many! vanilla twilight by owl city, dumb stuff by lany, just the way you are by billy joel.... aphrodite: how important are looks?not important at all. i can find love in just about anyone ahah. but with my feelings i see the beauty in ppl too, so i think just about anyone i care for as cute!harp: have you ever written a poem for a crush?YEAH i’m a terrible, terrible poet but ive written poems for every single person ive liked. they dont always see/know about them though. theyre like. secretred: where will you be spending february 14th?me houselove notes: who was your last valentine? where are they now?i’ve never had an official valentine before but the person i liked last year for valentines is probably currently wishing a girl was kissing her and collecting lost things like the funky little goblin she isflowers: what’s the best romantic gift to give someone?i think something handwritten just will always be... truly like.... the highest and most honest form of romance

st. valentine: what are your hopes for love this year?i already am so full of love and ive found people to give it to! im trying to make 2019 a good year and wearin my heart on my sleeve has been workin thus far

[andwhatdostarsdobest]

i was tagged by the ultimate cutie @uglypastels  

Rules: tag 10 mutuals you’d like to get to know better

Name: Al (although no one really calls me that in real life i just like being mysterious)

Star sign: aquarius baby🌬

Height: 5.7ft/ 5.8ft (i’m coming for your height tom)

Put your iTunes or Spotify on shuffle. What are the first 4 songs that popped up?

1. The Nutcracker- Ballet, op.71, Act II, no.12 - Divertissement:: Trepak: Russian Dance- Tchaikovsky  

2. Don’t Matter Now (acoustic version)- George Ezra

3. Angel- Tokio Myers

4. The Red Rooster- Howlin’ Wolf, Eric Clapton

Have you ever had a poem or song written about you?  umm yeah my best friend wrote a poem about me for an assignment at uni

When was the last time you played the guitar? i used to play when i was a kid but i think the last time was when i was 14 ??

Who is your celebrity crush? my man Tom Holland of course but special shout out to John Boyega cause that man could fuck me up any day 

What’s a sound you hate and a sound you love? we have an open fireplace in my house that we always light in the winter and so the sound of crackling logs is really soothing to me as for a sound i hate, i get sensory overload a lot so small sounds that probably shouldn’t annoy me i guess...

Do you believe in ghosts? undecided- the thought scares me honestly but i believe in presences !! (had a lot of incidents with those)

How about aliens? yeah, i feel like it’s pretty ignorant to think we are the only living things in the universe  Aliens: real or not? is my go-to conversation starter on dating apps😂😂

Do you drive? last time i drove was when i was 18- it gives me TOO much anxiety so i gave up learning when i went to uni

What was the last book you read? to all the boys ive loved before- Jenny Han i’ve hardly done any reading this year, i really want to get back into it

What’s the worst Injury you’ve had? i broke my left ring finger cause i tried to open a door while in a rage😬 but the one that still affects me is my ribs, i fractured them falling of a horse when i was 10 i think and i never got them properly checked out so now if i lie on my side for too long they ache a bit

Do you have any obsessions right now? marvel, hp will always be there, this sounds weird but i love planning weddings lmao so i have a whole scrapbook with wedding ideas and themes and shit in

Do you try to hold grudges against people who have done you wrong? i did when i was younger cause i held in all my feelings, but now i cant stay mad at someone for longer than like 10 mins (unless they do something truly horrible)

In a relationship? well i have a date next week so who knows...🤷‍♀️

I’m tagging: @h-osterfield @spidey-pal @tomhollandthirst (i already know you well but i like tagging you in things✌) @heartbreakerholland @onedustyboi @starkravingparker @positiveparker @mysteryavengers @spideymybabe (you don’t need to do it though)💛💛💛

[daofeibutdead]

do 1-30

im skipping the ones i was asked already which isnt a lot

2. is anyone currently crushing on you?

NO this is so sad can we sh

3. have you ever been in a long term relationship?

the longest relationship ive been in lasted 6 months and the other one lasted 3 and a half.. both of them when i was 16

4. have you ever been asked out?

yes

5. have you ever asked someone out?

yes and they said yes epic fail

6. have you ever kissed someone?

no!!!!

7. have you ever been kissed?

no

8. do you think your crush likes you back?

i dont talk to enough people for anyone to like me like that!

10. what are your go-to love songs?

omg nooooo i need to find more music.... i used to have a playlist i’ll have to make another

11. are you more of a flirt or a hopeless romantic?

the second one..... 

12. what would be your ideal date?

i like walking around and doing stuff like shopping but like wheres theres lots of tinier stores and one of them is an ice cream place and holding hands auhhf

13. do you have a crush on the person you last kissed?

well of course

14. have you ever confessed your feelings knowing they were unrequited?

no i might be the kind of person to do that though but im also shy so idk

15. have you ever written a poem/song about someone you had feelings for?

yeah i also draw

16. if the person you like/love was with you right now, what would you say/do?

eeehhhjh im bad at telling when i like someone so i always say i dont.. question cancelled! 

17. are you currently single or taken?

what does it look l

18. have you ever broken up with someone?

yes. doing that is hard when you care for the person but i dont pussy out of that so anyone who dates me doesnt have to worry that i secretly dont wanna be with them...

19. have you ever been broken up with?

yes

20. is there someone in your life you have been trying to get over?

kinda? i am now definitely way over that but it still makes me cry bc im not an emotionless b

21. what is your favorite quote or lyric about love?

this is toooooooooo much i cant too embarrassing

22. do you believe in love at first sight?

no not what people mean when they first hear that word but. like maybe about your children and loving them as your kid or when i saw my puppy and cats or even when you see someone very bright and you want to compliment them, different kinds of love.. not in the way this question probably means. i love people and i always think about that stuff sooooo

23. does the person you have feelings for know about that?

sigh

24. what is your favorite rom com?

my what!

25. if you could date a celebrity, who would it be?

not once in my life have i ever wanted to date a celebrity

27. have you ever used an online dating site or app to find dates?

yes we dont talk about that ok next question

28. what is the sun sign of your crush/significant other?

EEEEEEEEEE

29. have you ever had romantic feelings for a best friend?

yeah and if we’re not then i want to be best frienmds..

[my-insanity-is-irrelevant]

The same to you - all of them 🎃

200: My crush’s name is: Ryan, Eli, Claire, several others I cant name for complicated reasons 

199: I was born in: 1997/a hospital 

198: I am really: Intense weather in my calmness or excitement 

197: My cellphone company is: T-Mobile

196: My eye color is: Light green

195: My shoe size is: 9 1/2 wide (i usually have to do like a 11 for high heals)

194: My ring size is: ??????? probably big I have chubby fingers

193: My height is: 5′ 6″

192: I am allergic to: nothing unless you count idiocy 

191: My 1st car was: A blue 2007 Ford Focus and I LOVED her

190: My 1st job was: A server for Cheddar’s Casual Cafe 

189: Last book you read: How to Ruin Everything by George Watsky 10/10

188: My bed is: A king with lots o’ pillows and blankets and is very comfy

187: My pet: 2 cats, 5 kittens, 6 dogs, 2 snakes, 1 bearded dragon, 1 leopard gecko, 4 turtles, 1 bullfrog tadpole, and bunches of fish

186: My best friend: is a boy i met a month ago because i have intimacy issues

185: My favorite shampoo is: Dead Sea’s Argon oil shampoo is so good to my poor dry curls

184: Xbox or ps3: I use an Xbox to watch Netflix but I don’t play video games

183: Piggy banks are: Cute decorations but go unused

182: In my pockets: $2, some lint, a rubber band, and something weird i took out of my dog’s mouth earlier

181: On my calendar: I have nothing written in it but it has cool pictures of bears

180: Marriage is: Cool because of the financial benefits but other than that unnecessary to prove one’s love. I want a wedding though because I want a pretty dress

179: Spongebob can: Make me hate my life a 3am

178: My mom: Died of breast cancer and smoked a lot of pot

177: The last three songs I bought were? I can’t remember ever paying for music but the last three i listened to are: Cherry Wine by Hozier, Strong As An Oak by Watsky, and San Cristobal by Mal Blum

176: Last YouTube video watched: A slam poem by Neil Hilborn called Liminality

175: How many cousins do you have? I have no clue? At least 10 on each side, but i’m sure there’s way more than that

174: Do you have any siblings? 2 older brothers, 2 older sisters, ans one younger sister 

173: Are your parents divorced? They were never married

172: Are you taller than your mom? Nope! She was like 5′10′

171: Do you play an instrument? I can play hot cross buns on the recorder and thats the best i can do

170: What did you do yesterday? I slept and ate beef jerky[ I Believe In ]169: Love at first sight: No, but i do believe in lust and infatuation at first site. I think  love takes time to grow.

168: Luck: Yes like, as in karma

167: Fate: Catch me in the right mood and i do

166: Yourself: NOOOOOPE

165: Aliens: Yes

164: Heaven: No

163: Hell: Yes, it’s called Texas

162: God: Naaaaah

161: Horoscopes: I think they’re accurate generalizations

160: Soul mates: Yeah but not like the traditional; kind of way, i think we have lots of people we’re meant to be with in various ways

159: Ghosts: Yes and No i go back and forth

158: Gay Marriage: 100%

157: War:0%

156: Orbs: Idk what this is talking about but sure, ill root for them

155: Magic: No, Im a science gal[ This or That ]154: Hugs or Kisses: Hugs

153: Drunk or High: High, drinking gives me a tummy ache

152: Phone or Online: Online

151: Red heads or Black haired: Red heads

150: Blondes or Brunettes: Brunettes

149: Hot or cold: Cold

148: Summer or winter: Winter

147: Autumn or Spring: Autumn

146: Chocolate or vanilla: Vanilla

145: Night or Day: Night

144: Oranges or Apples: Apples

143: Curly or Straight hair: Curly

142: McDonalds or Burger King: Mcdonald’s

141: White Chocolate or Milk Chocolate: White Chocolate is the key to my heart

140: Mac or PC: PC

139: Flip flops or high heels: HIgh heels even though i cant walk in them

138: Ugly and rich OR sweet and poor: Sweet and poor

137: Coke or Pepsi: Coke

136: Hillary or Obama: Obama

135: Burried or cremated: Cremated, the idea of rotting creeps me out

134: Singing or Dancing: Dancing but im bad at both

133: Coach or Chanel: Idgaf

132: Kat McPhee or Taylor Hicks: ??????

131: Small town or Big city: Big city

130: Wal-Mart or Target: Wal-Mart

129: Ben Stiller or Adam Sandler: I hate Adam Sandler

128: Manicure or Pedicure: Manicure

127: East Coast or West Coast: West Coast

126: Your Birthday or Christmas: Christmas all the waaaaaay

125: Chocolate or Flowers: Flowers, preferably potted

124: Disney or Six Flags: Disney i’m scared of roller coasters

123: Yankees or Red Sox: I dont sports[ Here’s What I Think About ]122: War: Its stupid and bad and i hate violence 

121: George W. Bush: Okay, looook, i dig his paintings, okay???

120: Gay Marriage: gimme that shit i want that shit

119: The presidential election: I could be down for violence against trump

118: Abortion: everyone should have safe access to abortions, they save lives

117: MySpace: I never had one? Does it still exist? I may make one for fun? 

116: Reality TV: i dont ever watch it, i avoid it like the plauge

115: Parents: Mine were grade A shit

114: Back stabbers: What goes around comes around

113: Ebay: I use Amazon

112: Facebook: Its filled with my racist family, i avoid it 

111: Work: I watch my niece and nephew (twins) and i love it

110: My Neighbors: I don’t interact with them ever

109: Gas Prices: why so expensive pls give me break

108: Designer Clothes: catch me in wal-mart clothes i bough 4 years ago

107: College: I want but cant afford halp

106: Sports: no

105: My family: I love them but they fkn annoy the shit out of me with their political views

104: The future: stop.[ Last time I ]103: Hugged someone: My niece yesterday

102: Last time you ate: I am eating a bowl of mac n’ cheese right now

101: Saw someone I haven’t seen in awhile: I saw my sister’s in-laws last week and i loooooove them! I made slime with the kids

100: Cried in front of someone: When i found out my ex was cheating on me like two months ago

99: Went to a movie theater: Went on a date with a cute boi like a month ago and w saw Baby Driver it was so good

98: Took a vacation: The only vacation ive ever took in my life was with my ex and his family to Florida last summer

97: Swam in a pool: Less than a week ago

96: Changed a diaper: Yesterday, i change them for a living

95: Got my nails done:last summer

94: Went to a wedding: My oldest sister got married last week!

93: Broke a bone: when i was like 3????

92: Got a peircing: two weeks ago i got my nipples done

91: Broke the law: this morning when i got high

90: Texted: Im texting cute bbs  right now[ MISC ]89: Who makes you laugh the most: My boi Ryan who is a fkn idiot i love him

88: Something I will really miss when I leave home is: I already left home and only miss having someone else cook and clean because my roomates are hopeless

87: The last movie I saw: The Last Five Years

86: The thing that I’m looking forward to the most: When i can move far north and start a loving and respectful communist sex cult

85: The thing im not looking forward to: Getting up for work at 5 in the morning

84: People call me: lame

83: The most difficult thing to do is: exist

82: I have gotten a speeding ticket: i sure haven’t i’m Safe

81: My zodiac sign is: Libra

80: The first person i talked to today was: Ryan

79: First time you had a crush: i liked a boy named Antonio in second grade

78: The one person who i can’t hide things from: no one? 

77: Last time someone said something you were thinking: Ryan last night when we said a stupid Ricks and Morty quote at the same time

76: Right now I am talking to: my cat Beatrice 

75: What are you going to do when you grow up: probably cry a lot

74: I have/will get a job: working with kids!

73: Tomorrow: I will be very tired

72: Today: I am very tired

71: Next Summer: I will be very hot

70: Next Weekend: Im going to tie ppl up with rope

69: I have these pets: see 187

68: The worst sound in the world: A baby crying because they’re hurt or sad

67: The person that makes me cry the most is: my ex inbox me for his url so you can tell him hes a meanie

66: People that make you happy: My nieces and nephews and also my bff

65: Last time I cried: last night because the damn dog was so cute

64: My friends are: amazing and deserve the world

63: My computer is: slow and bad but i still love her

62: My School: was down the road from a prison, which my mom was in years ago

61: My Car: is old and smells like my mom’s cigarettes 

60: I lose all respect for people who: are racist, homophobic, sexist, trans-phobic, Islamophobic, anti-semetic, ect. 

59: The movie I cried at was: the beginning of Guardians of the Galaxy

58: Your hair color is: Auburn

57: TV shows you watch: Game of Thrones, Criminal Minds, Sense 8

56: Favorite web site: tumblr.com

55: Your dream vacation: stargazing in Alaska 

54: The worst pain I was ever in was: when i fucked up my siatic nerve in a car wreck in January 

53: How do you like your steak cooked: medium-well

52: My room is: cold and messy and covered in kittens

51: My favorite celebrity is: Harry Styles

50: Where would you like to be: on a beach in Iceland with a person playing a ukulele 

49: Do you want children: Only if i have more than one long term partner living with me 

48: Ever been in love: Yes 

47: Who’s your best friend: see 186 its Ryan

46: More guy friends or girl friends: no

45: One thing that makes you feel great is: when my cat comes to me and just lays where shes barely touching me 

44: One person that you wish you could see right now: My best friend from high school who committed suicide 

43: Do you have a 5 year plan: no

42: Have you made a list of things to do before you die: no

41: Have you pre-named your children: I want to name my kid Coraline but id also like to do something not defined by a single gender?

40: Last person I got mad at: My sister because she left the dogs inside all day while i was at work even though shes a stay at home mom and so the poor things had accidents and no one was happy

39: I would like to move to: Canada

38: I wish I was a professional: mom[ My Favorites ]37: Candy: white chocolate truffles 

36: Vehicle: vintage beatles 

35: President: Alexander Hamilton

34: State visited: Florida

33: Cellphone provider: ?????

32: Athlete: ?????

31: Actor: Nat Wolf

30: Actress: Maise willams

29: Singer: Radical Face/Hozier

28: Band: Bad Books

27: Clothing store: Wal-mart

26: Grocery store: Joe-V’s Smart Shop

25: TV show: Game of Thrones

24: Movie: Swiss Army Man

23: Website: see 56

22: Animal:  Monitors 

21: Theme park: i dont do theme parks

20: Holiday: Halloween

19: Sport to watch: does Yuri on Ice count?

18: Sport to play: no

17: Magazine: i don’t read magazines but i heard Teen Vogue is doing wonders

16: Book: The Kite Runner

15: Day of the week: Wednesday’s Child is Full of Woe

14: Beach: wherever i was in Florida 

13: Concert attended: Warped Tour 2015 there was a band called Onwards ect. it was so good

12: Thing to cook: homemade flour tortillas 

11: Food: Cheese enchiladas

10: Restaurant: This cute little place named Marianne’s thats down the road from my house she makes the best tamales 

9: Radio station: 94.5 The Buzz

8: Yankee candle scent: Clean Linen 

7: Perfume: i dont

6: Flower: Lilies 

5: Color: pink

4: Talk show host: Steve Harvey

3: Comedian: John Mulaney

2: Dog breed: Pit Bulls

1: Did you answer all these truthfully? 100%

[baekstolemyname]

all the ones you haven't done!!!

okay thats like a lot so youre lucky i literally have nothing better to do with myself right now... also im gonna skip stupid ass ones lmfaoo

7. Can you commit to one person?easily

12. Do you forgive betrayal?hell no, im still pissed at the kid that outed me like five years ago lmaoo

23. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat?yeah im not a piece of shit so..

30. Have you ever considered plastic surgery? If so, what would you change about your body?for like a week when i was sixteen i like was dead set on getting a nose job for some reason?? like i have no idea why my nose is fine

35. Have you ever kissed someone older than you?oh, he was much older lmfaoo oops

36. Have you ever liked one of your best friends?liked, no.. had sex with yes 

37. Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated?my best friend was iffy on minseok before we started dating, now he loves him 

39. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have?in the past ive gotten what i wanted, but there were a few people yeah

40. Have you ever written a song or poem for someone?HAHAHAHAAAAA fuck no i have no talent

41. Have you had sex so far this year?um duh

45. How many people did you kiss in 2011?uh i was 12 so.. probably like my grandma?

46. How many times did you have sex last year?how in the hell am i supposed to remember??

47. How old are you?18

48. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say?id be like what the fuck minnie..?

50. If your first true love knocked on your door with an apology and presents, would you accept?no i’d take the presents then slam the door in his face fuck him

51. Is there a boy/girl who you would do absolutely everything for?absolutely

52. Is there anyone you’ve given up on? Why?yeah my parents, theyre fucking idiots and dont listen to me

53. Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are?probably my homophobe fucking dad, but he can get over himself

54. Is there someone you will never forget?probably not, my memory is shit

57. Things you want to say to an ex“you dont exist”

60. What is the biggest age difference between you and any of your partners?current ones uhh minnie is two years younger than me. but i did fuck a guy that was 9 years older than me once

64. What is your definition of cheating?i guess a lot of people would consider the way min is with baek as cheating but idk... like i guess if min had sex with someone outside of our immediate friend group?

66. What is your favourite roleplay?idk if im allowed to count it, but god daaaaamn minnie as my little kitten

68. What is your sexual orientation?i.... dont know? pansexual?? probably

74. What’s the most superficial characteristic you look for?thick thighs lmfaoo its my favorite thing

77. What’s your opinion on age differences in relationships?who am i to judge? as long as both people are adults it’s no ones business.

79. When was the last time you felt jealous? Why?listen, i am not a jealous person. i havent felt jealousy since i was a child and one of my cousins got a better ice cream from the ice cream truck than me

80. When was the last time you told someone you loved them?this morning

82. Who is the last person you hugged?okay but.. so this girl on campus was talking to me and literally was trying so hard to flirt but i was so obviously uninterested and as if it wasnt already weird enough she insisted on hugging me before we parted and i was like okay damn if it means you’ll go away

83. Who was your first kiss with?a girl whose name i do not remember lmfaooo my bad

[wizardperks]

1-85 😈

Nora ilysm <3

1. Are looks important in a relationship?eehhh not really?? but I mean ive got to find you attractive somehow :D

2. Are relationships ever worth it?yes yes yes

3. Are you a virgin?yep

4. Are you in a relationship?single :P

5. Are you in love?eh ive got some crushes but not rlly

6. Are you single this year?still yep

7. Can you commit to one person?v easily and completely lmao

8. Describe your crushoooh ive got two probably they’re both girls and suPER CUTE but far away so im trying not to let myself get hooked plus if i describe them they’ll def know it’s them

9. Describe your perfect mateloves me and we do things and create together and lots of stuff ugh

10. Do you believe in love at first sight?aesthetically yeah?? :0

11. Do you ever want to get married?YEAH

12. Do you forgive betrayal?lmao i mean probably yes if i like you ill probably forgive every and any thing

13. Do you get jealous easily?YEAH i try to keep it from blocking anything but yeah v much so lmao

14. Do you have a crush on anyone?i feel like this repeats its self a bit but yeah ive got two big ones rn

15. Do you have any piercings?just one on each ear

16. Do you have any tattoos?nope :0

17. Do you like kissing in public?not like making out or anything but little kisses yeah

20. Do you shower every day?yeah it’s part of my routine each morning

21. Do you think someone has feelings for you?probably not :((

22. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?lmao definitely not

23. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat?easily

24. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years?no :/

25. Do you want to be in a relationship this year?idk with how i’ve been emotionally and such rn idk if it’d be a good idea but if i met the right person id be v down with it

26. Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you?lmao yeah

27. Has someone ever written a song or poem for you?yes!!! it was super great

28. Have you ever been cheated on?not that i know of

29. Have you ever cheated on someone?NO

30. Have you ever considered plastic surgery? If so, what would you change about your body?yeah tbh i want to be skinnier pls also idk id think about getting chest surgery

31. Have you ever cried over a guy/girl?a LOT fuck me

32. Have you ever experienced unrequited love?eh sort of??

33. Have you ever had sex with a man?nope

34. Have you ever had sex with a woman?nope lmao the only person id consider doing it with rn is a close tumblr friend bc i trust him and i want to some time but he’s far away

35. Have you ever kissed someone older than you?yeah

36. Have you ever liked one of your best friends?YEAH

37. Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated?i dont think so

38. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to?not really?

39. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have?lmao all the time

40. Have you ever written a song or poem for someone?YES i write a lot for ppl i like

41. Have you had sex so far this year?nope

42. How long can you just kiss until your hands start to wander?lmao depends where we are

43. How long was your longest relationship?a yearish :0

44. How many boyfriends/girlfriends have you had?2 girlfriends

45. How many people did you kiss in 2012/2013?oooh idk

46. How many times did you have sex last year?me, a virgin, had sex 2000000000 times

47. How old are you?18

48. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say?i support them a lot and offer to help n such and yeah

49. If you have a boyfriend/girlfriend, what is your favorite thing about him/her?hi

50. If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents, would you accept?does this mean my first gf?? yeah definitely but that would never happen :D im proud of her tho like she’s so amazing and talented and beautiful  

51. Is there a boy/girl who you would do absolutely everything for?hell yes

52. Is there anyone you’ve given up on? Why?aah idk??? mostly just me

53. Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are?nah

54. Is there someone you will never forget?YEAH

55. Share a relationship story.aaah the first thing i ever said to my first gf was “can I borrow your hammer cuz I wanna bang that wood” bc she was cosplaying (V ATTRACTIVE) john with a giant zillyhoo hammer and i was in karkat cosplay and then i RAN AWAY bc i was shy

56. State 8 facts about your bodyi dont like it at all D:

57. Things you want to say to an exim sorry

58. What are five ways to win your heart?it;s not too hard lmao giving effort to talk to me, expressing interest in similar things or just having enthusiasm about somehting, cosplay and costuming or makeup skills, affection towards me, writing/poem/songs for me

59. What do you look like? (Post a picture!)psshh im a mes rn

60. What is the biggest age difference between you and any of your partners?a year

61. What is the first thing you notice in someone?how they look?

62. What is the sexiest thing someone could ever do for/to you?biNCH anything i like when ppl feel like they look good and then they come and show me and its like YES also im probably a sucker for all those cliche romantic setups like yes

63. What is your definition of “having sex”?idk yet rlly

64. What is your definition of cheating?going behind your partner’s back

65. What is your favourite foreplay routine?i haven’t really gotten to do much D: i like making out??? i rlly like neck kisses and like pinning ppl down (or being pinned) and kissing them everywhere

66. What is your favourite roleplay?pretending we’re both okay

67. What is your idea of the perfect date?ahh i dont wanna make myself sad bc i wont get one for a long time probably

68. What is your sexual orientation?asexual? im p neutral about sex i dont mind the action ig and id do it with someone i trust but ive never been like attracted sexually

69. What turns you off?conservatives and being rude also baby talk 100% dont play dumb with me  

70. What turns you on?kjnbjkebnjkbneanjgh things

71. What was your kinkiest wet dream?we aint admitting to that kind of shit

72. What words do you like to hear during sex?idk yet my dude

73. What’s something sweet you’d like someone to do for you?buy me stuff rn i want sclera lenses so BAD also just being together and little signs and aaah idk

74. What’s the most superficial characteristic you look for?im not sure?

75. What’s the sweetest thing anyone’s ever done for you?dang idk about sweetest but a couple weeks ago a dude i know bought me a mimikyu pin and card randomly bc he knew they’re my favorite and im still crying

76. What’s the sweetest thing you’ve ever done for someone?ooh someone would have to tell me that i do my best

77. What’s your opinion on age differences in relationships?under 18 probably no more than a two year difference?? if that makes sense but once both are older i think it’s less bad probably not more than like 8 years at most?? at most

78. What’s your dirtiest secret?if i told you it wouldn’t be secret

79. When was the last time you felt jealous?24/7 my dude

80. When was the last time you told someone you loved them?lmao i literally told Nora that at the top of this I love Nora

81. Who are five people you find attractive?Annie, Ava, Sky, César, Sofija, and Shay

82. Who is the last person you hugged?I think Kyle???

83. Who was your first kiss with?first romantic one is my first gf Hannah

84. Why did your last relationship fail?a lot of combined reasons ig mostly that it wasn’t felt anymore

85. Would you ever date someone off of the Internet?maybe?? id want to meet irl

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🌙🌙🔥🌙🌙||HOPE #4; ||You Know My Name, Not My Story||🌙🌙🔥🌙🌙

🌙🌙🔥🔥facebook, this is part of my life story, this is in the past. Im in no way a harm to myself and others. Thank u. PART FOUR!!!🌟🌟🥀🥀 *SatanslashGod; im gonna pray, i think God is calling me to fufill His duties. I was homeless for the 13th time. I walked the streets for days. I got possessed by God. And i acted out bizarrely insanely dangerously, abnormally, like an animal. I stayed up for 3 days straight. And taking extra of my medication. I had a full blown physcotic break. I didnt kniw my name. I was talking like a baby, waving my arms in the air. I lost all my senses. I forgot how to function. I got admitted to Loma Linda ER, and they took me in right away. I was like nonresponsive. I was an animal, a vegetable. I was dysfunctional. And then they transferred me to Loma Linda BMC. Mental hospital. While i was there i acted out. They put me on concervertaship, i had a hearing, and i saw the judge. It was my over 200th mental hospital. And the judge almost sent me to an institution but i lied, and i got off. Ive been concervered over 5 times. I gor diagnosed with ovee 10+ mental illnesses. Critically/Clinically Insane && The Most High Maitnence Case In The System. When i was 12 i sold my soul to the devil. And i became a bully. And multiple places and people told me that i had a serial killers personality, that she looked into my eyes and said "theres nothing in there" "your untreatable" "your too high maintenance for us to treat" my therapist Thea said ahe waz one step away from conserving me and taken to a state institution. And she said they probably couldn't treat me. Ive been to 215 mental hospitals. And ive been thru it all. I cant tell the difference between God and satan, when i get commands i cant tell the difference. *Richard Enxxellia/Puppoi/Three 7s/SeventyThree6's/UglyBitterSky; Richard gives me paranormal activities. Qualities, which he possesses me to act out dangerously. One example is when i get homoscidal. He decodes the devil into me. He moves certain objects and living things to make me use my 10 senses. As i dissociate to many alternate universes. The darkness takes over me. He decodes demons into me. Decoding me, i have codes, we all do. In NXSP. Rascal/Raskal is my therapy dog. Whos dying of cancer. I hallucinate him everywhere. But i see him as if he was real. And people tell me itz all in my head. Like i have a full blown convo or im playing with him. But my mom and bro tells me hes not in here. Three 7s is where my mania gets out of control. Like i feel like im famous, for the right or wrong reasons. Its all a delusional world. I go out of reality now 100% of the day. And thats not normal. *Bad Mommy-Good Mommy/Duplicates Of People/TwentyStepsForward; __::::TSF was a demon that Johnny hated, but somehow was connected too. So after Me/I, Izzy "Ace 8/Spizey/MsSweetInsanityyx" (Me/I/M3/iii) killed him. The reason why Lily "Dancing Fire" was so mad at Izzy was because TSF turned to ashes after Johnny died, (was killed by Izzy) and that made Lily wanna send Izzy to The Ends more, as she tried to follow thru with that plan, but failed. Ever since i killed Johnny, Dancing Fire has become a bigger and more dangerous demon in my head, becoming worse and telling Alvaro to possess me more. So Alvaro && Dancing Fire have gotten worse. After i killed Johnny. __::::Bad Mommy/Good Mommy take toll of my mind. When i was in my drug and alcohol addiction, Bad Mommy got worse, she wears a scar on her face. She abuses me, (in real life she did abuse me mentally and very rarely physically, but this was before i got back into my addiction) after i tried to come home after she kicked me out *again* (while i was homeless for the 13th time) i was on cocaine, meth. Acid, pills, heroin etc etc. I came home and she slammed me against a wall, and called me a whore. Then she "switched" and forgot about it later, it scared me, and she won my trust and forgiveness back by giving me brownies. This went on for awhile. In reality tho. She did call me really offensive names. But she didn't slam me against the wall. I was scared of her and on multiple occasions didn't wanna come home from school. Anyways i dont wanna elaborate on that. __::::Duplicates of people really fucked me up. This waz after me coming home in 2018. I saw duplicates of people i do and don't know. And it scares me. Now it only happens with my therapy dog, Rascal *Cones/Wesley "Presley" Garcia/Mr.OutOfDate; |__::::????::::__| XX_XX __::::????::::__ | | Cones;____Guide me in the right direction. Master Cone. Controlling your slaves and servants. Your fucking with my head, your make me follow your path, as u soar strangely thru the air. Trying to show me a new reality, the Cones are ahead of the other flying objects. Its like your all dancing around me and my reality of a dreamland, a dreamland like reality. You opened my eyes, but also made me more insane. Therez all sorts of shapes, dancing strangly. You made me dissociate more than usual. As i traveled all the universes and galaxies. You did both harm and good for me. Thank u, for opening up my eyes, as im developing my 11th sense, i already have 10 senses. You traumatized me and u saved me. Thank u. Cones and Objects. For becoming a part of me. Cones are non living transitioning to living. But only i can see them. I appreciate you all. All the different breeds and kinds of objects. Theres millions of them. And im glad we crossed paths. I love u my Cone Family🖤🥀🌙🔥 Wesley "Presley" Garcia;____ Dear, Wesley/Presley, Did u Wanna get away, why did u make Johnny so bad, i know u were his master. And i know after u died, Johnny took your place, but i had to kill him, he tortured me and all of NXSP, i just wanna ask, why are u so fucked up? We did nothing to deserve this torture. Thank u for trying ur best with Johnny, but i just wanna let u know, even if u tortured us (made Johnny do it) im still here for u, cus i jyst found out that you didn't torture Johnny. Lily lied. And i should have known. Johnny tortured u, and no one knew, so i apologize for blaming u. Johnny also made up stories about you, that u tortured him. And i just put the pieces together and i realized Johnny started all this. NOT ERIN! Lily is just as bad as Johnny and Alvaro. All 3 of them fucked and traumatized all of us. If there is anything i can do to help. Plz let me know. I wanna save NXSP. Not destroy it. I know ur dead, but i miss u. And i realized you tried to pull/put NXSP back together, now its just pure darkness. Do u mind (&& u dont have to if ur not comfortable with it) send us angels to protect us from harm. Like what Constance used to do. I love u hun, keep fighting, soldier, Sincerely, Izzy Magdalinoz-Martinez/Ace 8/Spizey/Ms_SweetInsanityyx && im also speaking for my family at NXSP. I love u. Hope u get this message.🖤🥀🌙🔥 Mr.OutOfDate;____ You give me reoccurring dreams and visions of my mom dying. && u made me live thru hell itself. Literally, and u bring me closer and more content with death. I feel like im dying everyday, like literally. I feel my body being tortured by my demons and Satan. Who ive met thru traveling the galaxies and universes. Why? I wanna live, not die. Heres a lil thing i wrote about this. "I wanna become content with living But i feel closer that death My mom is the only thing i have Without her i would already be dead I check her breathing while shes asleep on her bed I just wanna be dead No words left unsaid I feel closer to death everyday And i feel myself fading away Still happens to this day Losing levels of sanity more each day Losing my mind and i cant stay awake Ive been thru hell and torture Trauma, pain and darkness Do we know all the answers? Do we all get possessed by the devil Do we all lose control by the hour Dont die Mom Plz dont go Your my sun Plz dont go Your my reason I sold my soul to the darkness But i cant let my mom go Its hard to explain the love i have for her Its easy to explain why i love her Im becoming closer to death Got this fire in my heart Got this fire in my soul Im not whole, im not ok Maybe ill be ok one day I love u mom, Mr.OutOfDate, Youve come way to date You brought me and made me live thru hell Ive lived thru hell itself. Goodnight my beautiful sunshine Aint nobody dying tonight."-written by me, Izzy Magdalinoz-Martinez Were all strangers to ourselves. Its hard to say i love myself, cuz im broken and damaged. I love u mom, ur my everything. Your my sunshine my sunrise and my nighttime. If u die i die. Goodnight. 🖤🥀🌙🔥 *Visions&Hallucinations of Past&Future/ObjectsHavingAForceOnMe; Dancing Fire cordinates it. All 100% of my past flashes in my head at random times. And i cant control it. Id be in a completely different reality. And i use all my 10 intensitied senses for every part of my past. Like i was there again. CODE 203 J REPEAT CODE 203 THIS IS SYSTEM SHUTDOWN X FOLLOW ALL GIVEN PROCATIONS. Lily you need to get the fuck outta here with that shit. SHUT UP CHARLOTTE! Homie, you better back up. Im talking to u, Lily. Well Charlotte imma show Izzy her past right now. OHHHH IS THAT IT LILY THATS WHY UR SHUTTING EVERYTHING DOWN! I miss u Lily, the old u.. Im not feeling to good Lily. Im sorry Lily. IM DONE! When objects look at me, its like im looking in a mirror, and there using codes to take over me && they scare me, for example i can look at a door knob, a window. A sky, a cieling, and i feel like it has a force on me. Like there trying to get inside me. Like i see a chair and i scream cuz its looking right thru me. Heres a lil poem i wrote: "Dont talk to the ceiling It might talk back Taking over me Can u see me Can u hear me Do u get that peculiar feeling Of all the hell im dealing Leave me alone I dont have a stable home I look into ur eyes The pretty silver sky Its looking right thru me Its posessing oh its controlling me Got that strange feeling Are these the Aces that im dealing Your looking right thru me Dont listen to the walls They dont think when they talk Dont run away from fear Dont draw the devil nearer There decoding you my darling There breathing how non living objects should Cuz non living things are just as important As living things, your being cornered Breathe my friend In and out Breathe and shout Theres no way out There surrounding me Im inside my TV This is all a game And i declare you insane Smiles on everybody Nobody knows what goes on behind closed doors Smiles on my little baby Nobody needs to ser what goes on behind closed doors. Take control dont let it control you Why are u so blue? Are u in the flumes Ace 8 Break It Down Theres No Way Out Im In The Dark Now Im Just Hellbound The more u try to fight it The stronger it gets I would take my life to save yours Trauma occurring 24/7 From 2001-2018 Over 10+ mental illnesses They say your insane Well they did diagnose me critically/clinically insane So play your game, Satan Torture me, im waiting So play your Ace, Aint nobody dying tonight Not in this place Your known as the girl with no face Your pointing me towards my dog days Who am i, good question Fuck me torture me, my new obsession Im used to hell and trauma I know rock bottom Im used to pain and darkness Were all in it for the torture There controlling me There possessing me They arnt living Sonetimes non living things Are more alive than the living Smiles on, everybody Shut them system down Smiles on, everyone Were not going down without a fight."-written by me. Izzy Magdalinoz-Martinez Sometimes non living are more living than the living. I deal with this everyday. Stay strong yo. *Flying Objects/DemonsPosssesingMe; **||||** Flying Objects: objects that are non living but act like there living. All non living objects float around and talk and act like the living. Like the taxis, or the furniture or anything thats an object. Starts using there senses, they have more senses than us. Heres a lil thing i wrote about that.;;;; "You take control Sweet little ceiling A dangerous feeling Are we really dreaming Your magic head got me screaming You are demons inside of objects As the tables fly As the staircase sighs Its like a labrynth Were all sentenced Were in a fantasy This isnt reality Wake up. Wake up Torture me plz dont stop Wake up wake up All non living things are living All non living things are living Dont be drifting Dont be living Cuz ur not living No not at all They all have faces They all have bodies They all have senses Dont be scared my love Dont runaway my love Im an animal in a cage I got blinding rage I got bad and good days The chairs are all wrong Smiley is coming back Am i wrong? Am i right? Police on the search for me There not gonna catch me These flying objects are very living They will protect me They will seduce me. Flying objects flying round They dont make a single sound Take me far away"-written by me, Izzy Magdalinoz-Martinez **||||** Demons Possessing Me; ??????Different Species if demons come and literallt possess me. I start raising hell ans becoming the demon thats controlling my body. I literally "snap into DeZanity" which is 100% worse than Insanity. I become dangerous, act out strangely unsafely dangerously etc etc. I become worse than satan himself. I walk thru and live thru hell itself. Ive seen hell. Ive literally lived in hell. I become darkness itself. Heres a lil thing i wrote about this; "Falling down to rock bottom Lived inside hell, oh pardon? Did u possess me last night the devil fucked me in the dark light I dont kno what to do Why u feelin blue, My darling my darling They say im acting strange Out of character as u say They say i went completely insane Out of character as they say The darkness controlling me Demons possessing me Im dangerous, im dangerous This aint fun Im always on the run I snapped into DeZanity I lost all my senses Ive died many times Im just fucking senseless As all the species of demons Come inside of me Im a dysfunctional animal Im a dysfunctional animal Who am i, my mind is worse than hell itself The devil puts himself up on the shelf Hes not powerful enough to enter Tryna make these dreams centered Tryna make reality my bitch Dont try. Do, win lose Dont do. Try, lose win Either way. There out to get me Lets change the codes Weve already killed ourselves. So far away from home Im feeling so alone. Im feeling cold Flying around the universes There aint no reverses Imma tell u a secret I am more powerful than the devil Are u gonna run and hide Were committing suicide My name is Izzy, Ace 8 My name is Tyler, Ms_SweetInsanityyx Lets fuck this place up Im here to save and help all non living And living things, im here to save the world I help, care. Love support be there Im by there side no matter what When u fall ill lift u up I help everyone and everything obsessivly Im on the battlefield fighting by yo side Im not in the sidelines Lets get ready to snap back Izzys out for the attack. Goodnight, Drearyyx"-written by me, Izzy Magdalinoz-Martinez _____________||||____________ *Dancing Rooms/Past In Vivid Movie-LikeForm; ||||_||||Dancing Rooms; dont talk to the ceiling it might talk back. Im in a dreamscape, traveling thru the galaxies, doors all over the walls, all the stair cases are going in many directions, they keep moving. They dont stop. Each room is something new. Im walking over the stars 🌟 , i see all of these different galaxies. Were midnight racing. Its like im in a Lo-Fi setting. All my dreams turned reality. Im in a wild place. Im soaring thru space. U ever seen the movie Labrynth with David Bowie its like that. I feel so free, racing cars over the stars. Im not in reality. Im escaping. Its like im flying, always flying. Im traveling everywhere. You saved me. Dancing Room. Its like a good trip. Like were in a movie, many kinds of movies. Its a new reality. Im escaping earth. So many colors. So much to see. Im sitting on the sunrise. I turn on Lo-Fi radio (the app is purple) and i do meditation to it. I go to extraordinary places. Thank u Dancing Rooms. ||||_|||| Past In Vivid Like Movie Form; so u kno ive had brutal trauma. Hell, pain, torture, bad experiences occurring 24/7 since 2001-2018, and u read part of my life story. Well theres sone parts u dont kknow, Dancing Fire flashes my past in more than just flashbacksx its in vivid movie form frok beginning to end. But its everyday. And even when im happy i get reminded that it constantly, Dancing Fire aka Lileth "Lily" Ramos-Garcia. Tortures me with it. The more i try to escape it or "put my past in the past" i get reminded of it everyday, from beginning to end. Its not ok. And i also get nightmares everynight that makes me not wanna sleep. Like i could be doing my thing, and out of fucking nowhere here comes the show (vivid movie like form of my past from beginning to end) and i cant escape. People say "leave ur past in the past" uh how am i supposed to do that if i get constantly reminded of it every day. ?? But yet i help care love support fix save be there for everyone and everything obsessivly. And i dont stop. I love helping others, i wanna save and fix all non living and living things. That's what keeps me alive. Someone asks me "what's wrong Izzy. U havent been yourself lately?" i tell them an excuse like "im fine" so imagine this: _Having over 10+ Mental illnesses _Having trauma occurred 24/7 from 2001-2018 _being constantly reminded of ur past daily _having 22+ mental breakdowns a day, every day _trying to remain sane _dealing with the present. _never escaping the past _everything combined together times 10+ working all at once _and trying to describe what ur feeling/whats going on/what's wrong, cus u don't know how to explain it _Constantly having demons fuck with ur head _hating myself _having an eating disorder/autism _not kniwing what ur feeling _feeling unwanted and unloved _being tortured, abused, raped most of ur life _not knowing who u are _having no home from 2011-2018 _having no hope _having severe brain damage _being critically/clinically insane _Been thru/experienced mostly every traumatic thing _not wanting pity sympathy or attention _after 2018, the hell never ending, getting worse mentally physically and emotionally _being insecure _dealing and drug addiction/alcoholism (im over 1 year sober _being the blacksheep _being LBGTQ _not wanting to date ever again/hating sex _cant go in public without breaking down _dissociating 99% of the day _explaining yourself to people _my mom being sick. My dogs having cancer _my mom and bro not wanting me home _thinking ur worth nothing _being a prisoner to ur mind _not knowing who u are _Alvaro possessing me _not feeling like ur in ur body/being possessed _paranioa/objects having a force on u _being confused/delusional _everything youve read/heard in all of this story applied to u everyday _acting like ur okay _trying to save. Fix. Love. Care, support, help, be there for everyone and everything obsessivly but not feeling like its good enough _missing my unbio son, Anthony everyday. _not wanting to cry or show emotions _avoiding feeling feelings/being so used to the bad that u cant process the good _not processing things _wanting to end ur life on a daily basis _wanting to self harm/act out on a daily basis _just hating yourself/having trust and anger issues _the rest i cant explain 🌟🔥🌙Hey this is Izzy here, thank u for breathing, for being alive. Im proud of u. Thank u for coming to my TED TALK.🌙🔥 **Another One Of My Suicide Attempts (i was on the online news); My brother and i got into a huge fight. Cuz we were playing pranks on eachother, but around that time i got raped *again* my mom still isnt aware that it. My whole past flashed by in my head vividly. My mom and brother told me they didnt want me home. And i felt like a failure. I was walking on the side of the street and the highway. I self harmed really bad. But i got home and everything else was a blackout. I had 33 breakdowns that day. We were at Farmer Boys. And my mom kept asking if i was "okay" i told her "yes" but i was lying. I had dreams of my granpa dying (hes deceas3d now) and my monmm dying. My mental health got 10 times worse. Leading up to my attempt i got raped again* by 10 people one by one torture, abusing and raping me for about 2 hours. I still havnt told my mom. I came home and i tried to have a "silent suicide attempt" i took 2 bottles of Gabapentin (one of my medications, this ones for anxiety) and they were big bottles, and i took every pill in there. I started fading out and u heard a voice in my head, trying to stop me from dying. I called 911 and told them that i overdosed, they got all my info and told me to stay where i was. There were fire trucks. Ambulances, police cars. They made me drink Charcoal, instead of pumping my stomach. My mom came out && was talking to the officers/AMRs etc. They did there normal procedures and transported me to Corona Regional Medical Center (aka CRC). I had a sitter, or a 1:1, they did their hospital procedures and i got transferred to "The Willows Mental Hospital" (Still CRC but not emergency, just psychiatric) my brother told me i was on the Corona Newspage, descibing my attempt. But not using any names of people. But it showed my house. I stayed on a 52/50 hold. I cant remember clearly exactly how the whole thing happened but im doing the best i can. ________________________________________ 🌙🔥🌟🥀hey its izzy, if anyone needs a prayer lemme know ok. This is something i just wrote, its from my heart. Stay True!!! Keep sharing your story, cuz it matters you matter your life matters YOU MATTER. , thank u for breathing, for continuing and being alive. Ur all Angels, you are a work of art, you just gotta put the peices together. U gotta creaate your art, your story. It doesnt end here tho. Id give my life if it meant all of u become painless, im not a saint. I just wanna be the person to save care love be there for living and non living things. Yea ive had trauma occurring 24/7 from 2001-2018, but its 2020 in a month. All i want for Christmas is for all yall to be safe and happy. If any of yall need anything, ill be here. Ill be fighting by ur side on the battlegrounds. Im sitting here crying cuz idk how to fix this world. Im proud of u. Even if u didnt wanna be alive today, youve made it another day and youve made it this far. Your doing the best u can. You all make me wanna cry cuz of how amazing u are and how beautiful ur soul is. If ur thinking about taking ur life tonight trust me ive been there. Put ur hand on ur heart, feel that? That's purpose. Your life is a mess right now. Keep looking up. Your someones reason. I wanna save ur life tonight/today. Thank u for ecsisting. I know its dark out, you grow stronger every second. Take ur time. Slow down, take a moment or a few moments. Relax ur whole body, ur gonna be ok. Ur gonna keep fighting. For everyone but mainly for yourself. Im proud of u. Trust me im far from ok. But id do anything if it means everyone else can ok. U are a broken soul. But we will fight, we will win. We will stick together x im here for all yall. Dont go. Its not ur time. I kno it may seem cliche. Bit ur voice matters ur story matters your message matters. YOU MATTER YOUR IMPORTANT YOU HAVE A PURPOSE YOUR ENOUGH YOUR WORTH IT. ! Thank u for being u. This is Izzy here. Keep fighting, soldier. Keep going. Your destiny is inside of u. I love u all. Message me if anything. Stay true stay u. Live u my warriors my angels xx----Izzy Magdalinoz-Martinez (me)🖤🥀🖤🥀

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#1-30 of the romantic asks

Hi there anon, I truly don’t remember what I posted but I appreciate this and so I found another thing and here you go:

are you currently crushing on someone?

oh 100%

is anyone currently crushing on you?

i would certainly hope so

have you ever been in a long term relationship?

at least 4 of them (depending what you define as long-term)

have you ever been asked out?

i think so? honestly im not sure but i think so, but maybe not very obviously (although one time i got asked out and i had NO IDEA and i felt so bad because she bought me my favorite flower and bought lunch and tried to kiss me and i said “wait i thought this was a friends thing oh my god was this a date?” oops...)

have you ever asked someone out?

UHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH... no?

have you ever kissed someone?

why yes, yes i have

have you ever been kissed?

oh absolutely

do you think your crush likes you back?

I FRIGGIN HOPE SO otherwise things are gonna get really awkward (lookin at you babe)

when was the last time someone broke your heart?

December 27th 2018

what are your go-to love songs?

i have a whole playlist called “I’m not breaking up with you” and another called “about a boy” and they have v unconventional but lovely songs on them

are you more of a flirt or a hopeless romantic?

I AM BOTH ALL AT ONCE THANK YOU

what would be your ideal date?

okay so, i have one for every season, but the cutest date i can think of for fall is going for a picnic in the park and taking really cute photos with trees and each other and then after, going to an art museum (or a science museum) where we would take more pictures and be utterly adorable together 

do you have a crush on the person you last kissed?

my last consensual kiss? yes. 

have you ever confessed your feelings knowing they were unrequited?

OH HELL YEAH (sorry  @ every single one of my friends ive ever been into, i fall in love so easily and i appreciate you being so understanding and lovely and letting me get over that while still being your pal)

have you ever written a poem/song about someone you had feelings for?

im gay, im a descendant of sappho, of course i have 

if the person you like/love was with you right now, what would you say/do?

THAT I LOVE THEM AND THAT I MISSED THEM and probably cuddle a lot and do some NSFW things (sorry y’all)

are you currently single or taken?

taken, taken, taken

have you ever broken up with someone?

yes i have

have you ever been broken up with?

yes i have

is there someone in your life you have been trying to get over?

oh 100% but im doing great and im happy so thats what matters to me

what is your favorite quote or lyric about love?

“You know you're in love when you can't fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams.” - Dr. Suess

do you believe in love at first sight?

i do, i dont know if that means that youre meant to be but i think it exists

does the person you have feelings for know about that?

HELL YEAH, because i saw them after feeling sick on a 9 hour flight and every anxiety i had just completely disappeared and it felt like i was safe

what is your favorite rom com?

love, actually

if you could date a celebrity, who would it be?

Hayley Kiyoko or Missy Peregrym 

do you like cuddling?

i love cuddling thank you 

have you ever used an online dating site or app to find dates?

yes i have, ive only gone on one and it was cute but then she got made i didnt let her smash soooooo

what is the sun sign of your crush/significant other?

they’re a go-damn aries

have you ever had romantic feelings for a best friend?

plz refer to question 14 this is a bIG YES

what’s your type in a potential romantic partner?

uhhhhhhhhhhhh.... artisitc? tattoos? ambitious? dedicated? maybe a little random and gets excited by absolutely bat shit things, also doesnt judge me for my absolute bat shit obsessions

[skiasurveys]

love love love

are you currently crushing on someone? yeah but its not a crush, its love. its been almost 3 years since ive been in love with him, lmao.

is anyone currently crushing on you?  my fiance.

have you ever been in a long term relationship? i am currently.

have you ever been asked out?  yeah.

have you ever asked someone out? meh. I did once in grade 8 and that was awkward. Most of my relationships were the other side asking me, but it was usually mutual asking haha.

have you ever kissed someone? of course.

have you ever been kissed?  yeah

do you think your crush likes you back?  i know he does. lmao.

when was the last time someone broke your heart? like 7ish months ago idk my ex friend really showed her true colours and showed me that she really was a cunt. hurt me that she would treat me and my friends like that. she pratically used us for her evil doings.

what are your go-to love songs? i love the lumineers songs, but theres so many. I also like Cant Help Falling in Love by Elvis

are you more of a flirt or a hopeless romantic?  hopeless

what would be your ideal date?  where i am having fun with my date. I prefer something that we both enjoy, and where we can spend time/talk with each others. Nothing awkward but doesnt have to be expensive but i want something fun to remember.

do you have a crush on the person you last kissed? i am in love with him

have you ever confessed your feelings knowing they were unrequited? no

have you ever written a poem/song about someone you had feelings for? yeah i still sometimes write or draw things for him

if the person you like/love was with you right now, what would you say/do? idk we probably would be watching something, or gaming. depends.

are you currently single or taken? taken

have you ever broken up with someone?  yeah. i had to break up with one of my exes once because he went on a “trip” and I didnt hear from him in like 1 month or a little more and It became LDR so i was like fuk this and i dumped him bc well i didnt HEAR from him, haha. Yeah. He was really sad and still wants me even though this was 3 years ago but yah it was pointless. didnt like him that much too.

have you ever been broken up with?yeah lol

is there someone in your life you have been trying to get over?  not really, no.

what is your favorite quote or lyric about love?  there is too many

do you believe in love at first sight?  nah

does the person you have feelings for know about that? yes

what is your favorite rom com?  the proposal 

if you could date a celebrity, who would it be?  does markiplier count? or chris pratt haha

do you like cuddling?  so much

have you ever used an online dating site or app to find dates? yep! I met my fiance on Okcupid!! 

what is the sun sign of your crush/significant other?  sun sign? i just know that he is a Taurus

have you ever had romantic feelings for a best friend? no

[ivis-00]

I’m bored so here

Credits got to @booknrd and @redqueenfandom

Tag is here: https://booknrd.tumblr.com/post/169439591221/this-is-the-most-unique-one-ive-seen-please-yes

1)I don’t have iTunes so I just played my daily mix on Spotify on shuffle:

Body Gold by Oh Wonder

I Still Wait For You by XYLØ

Down in Flames by Ella Vos

We Won’t by Jaymes Young

Superstar by Broods

Phase Me Out by VÉRITÉ

2)My nephew. It’s been a year or so since he was born and I still have yet to see him in person.

3)Book: Edgar Allan Poe: Complete Tales and Poems, Short Story: ‘The Unparalleled Adventure of One Hans Pfaaall’, Quote: “April 8th.”

4)That’s a bit of a tough question. I guess it’s usually either my future (I’m a high school senior) and whether or not I’ll ever amount to anything, or about the state of the world (all the things going wrong, how we could have prevented or fixed them, etc.).

5)Lol no I’m not that special

6)Is being scared of just dragonflies a phobia? Like I know it’s pretty silly especially since dragonflies aren’t aggressive or anything but idk it’s a childhood trauma thing that I never got over. I’m less scared of them as the tears go by but still it gives me the creeps.

7)Don’t have one, but I’m very interested in learning about other’s religions.

8)Chilling. Just enjoying the fresh air. Maybe reading. But since it’s always hot here, I rarely go outside of my own accord. I hate the heat.

9)I’m just going to assume this means Western band: Panic! at the Disco

10)That I was gonna go back to sleep but I actually stayed up until 4am.

11)Yes and no. It’s a bit weird. Sometimes karma works magic, and other times it’s nonexistent. I don’t know whether to really believe it’s a thing or not.

12)It’s literally just my middle name and ‘the-fangirl’ written after it. It’s pretty self-explanatory. 👍

13)Greatest weakness is self-doubt. It’s stops me from doing a lot of the things I want to do. Strength is my stubbornness. I know that’s really contradictory, but once my mind is set on something, it’s very hard to convince otherwise.

14)I’m supposed to choose just 1? Cause that’s basically impossible. I’m just gonna day Jungkook from BTS cause he’s my ultimate bias (I know, how basic of me). Gotta represent my man y’all. But if I were to choose a female celebrity crush, for sure I’d say Halsey. Like damn.

15)For me, I always feel like taking out my anger physically through hitting and breaking objects (so that I don’t harm a anybody), or through screaming at the top of my lungs. It helps dispel all that energy so I’m too tired to even think about what I was mad about. But my Hispanic household is very strict on these types of things and I’ve pretty much had to force myself to adopt a passive-aggressive method of dealing with my anger. Just thinking of this makes me mad cause there’s so many things I’ve had to put up with in my family because I can’t express my anger to a figure of authority (since it’s seen as disrespect).

16)I used to have a seashell collection, but now I just collect books and like little memorabilia from different places and events that I feel have left some sort of mark on me.

17)No. I haven’t exactly accomplished any of my long-term goals. I’m pretty stuck since I don’t have complete control of my life with my mother always breathing down my neck.

18)I hate loud talking in quiet spaces, or even just senseless yelling. Many of my family members tend to yell as they’re “talking” on the phone whether they people involved in the conversation are hard of hearing or not. But I’m the bright side, I love the sound of rain and luckily for me, it tends to rain pretty often here (unfortunately that also means it gets really humid).

19)What if all my efforts amount to nothing?

20)I’ve never really seen any conclusive evidence that ghosts exist, so for right now it’s a bit of a middle point for me. Since we don’t exactly knows what happens after death either, there’s still the chance that ghosts can exist. Aliens is something I’m more open about. In a universe so big, I find it difficult to believe we’re the only living things in it. Aliens exist, but we just haven’t found them and they might have not found us. That’s just my personal take on it.

21)Right arm: my nightstand; Left arm: air

22)Coffee.

23)Any one of my family parties (except the one where I ended up winning 8 consecutive games of domino, that was awesome). Or even just a party with people I don’t know. Just parties.

24) 1-Brendon Urie. I just think he’s such a beautiful and genuine person. You don’t find many people that give off the good vibe he does. I admire is vocal skills like crazy, but I’m mainly drawn in by his personality. You can see that he really does care about his fans and appreciates everything they do for him. And he’s not bad on the eyes either. 2-Troye Sivan. He’s another individual that I find beautiful inside and out. His voice is so soothing and he has such a relaxing aura about him that I really like. And the blonde hair works for him like wow, end me. 3-Patrick Stump. Now some people (I’ll fight you), might disagree with my opinion since he’s put on some weight. I’m the kind of person that can find anybody attractive so long as they have a great personality. Patrick, to me, is a gorgeous human being and the fact that he’s chubby doesn’t bother me in the slightest. I find his cheeks to be adorable (which is odd coming from someone younger than him, but bear with me). It’s also comforting seeing someone that’s like me: not your everyday image of a perfect celebrity/person. He’s just an amazing person and I really admire him.

25)To become the best version of ourselves we can possibly be, and to serve others.

26)I’ve finally got my learners permit but I have yet to actually sit in front of the wheel. I’m a bit terrified considering the area I live in isn’t the safest place to drive.

27)I don’t remember the name but I know it was a movie about two lonely elderly people (a man and woman) who find comfort in each other’s company. It was really cute.

28)A broken arm when I was like a couple months to a year old. Not gonna get into details but just know that it was a long ass time ago and I haven’t severely injured myself since.

29)Webtoons

30)Not really.

31)Takes too much energy so no. Doesn’t mean I forget, though.

32)Pisces

33)A ticket to my school’s lip sync battle (students vs teachers). It was definitely worth it.

34)Why not both? 😉 (I lean slightly more towards love, but eh.)

35)No

36)A real, genuine relationship? One.

37)For guys and girls it’s different for me. I’m more shy around guys that I have a real interest in and tend to avoid them at all costs. So I’ve never actually been in a relationship with a guy. I’m slightly more forward with girls. In the end, I’m not too sure what kind of “secret weapon” I have since I’m pretty socially awkward and not typically seen as dating material.

38) My best friends are at their houses being just as unproductive as me.

39) Watching YouTube videos. I can’t even remember which ones.

40) If you’re looking for somebody that’s very spontaneous and blunt, I’m your gal. If not, keep walking. I like to think I’d be friends with me since I find similar qualities that I have in my friends (though that’s not to say I want my friends to be just like me; I need people with differing views to keep me grounded).

41) Fuck the job, I’m saving the dog. And if my boss had even the slightest bit of compassion, he’d understand why I was late.

42) I would tell the people closest to me (my mom, select friends, etc.). But I’d insist they not treat me any differently than if I were completely fine and not dying. I’d spend my remaining days just having fun and doing all the things I’ve ever wanted to do. If I have a month to live, I’m not gonna waste it moping and crying over my mortality. I would like to think that I wouldn’t be scared. Everyone dies at some point, some sooner than others. As long as I am willing to live my last days to their fullest, I’ll be fine with dying.

43) Heavy by Oh Wonder

44) Proper communication. If you don’t talk, then how are you going to work out problems and get anything done?

45) Just be genuine. I hate fake people. That being said, if your genuine self is disrespectful and mean-spirited, I want absolutely nothing to do with you.

46) I like to think it does since you’re in a state of mind that few people have been in.

47) I’d like to say becoming vegan. I feel happier with myself for it.

48) Died from meme overload. I just can’t take myself too seriously.

49) A beating organ. If you were expecting something cheesy, sorry to disappoint.

50) Black, white, gray, green (none of that neon bullshit).

51) The phases of the moon.

52) Tonald Drump (for those specific individuals, it’s Donald Trump)

53) Depends in whose asking me, it could be any question. If my mom were to ask me if I’m straight, I’d hesitate. Still, I would probably tell the truth.

54) Idk, money making power? (gotta pay that college tuition)

55) My time in the Colosseum. It was awesome.

56) Anything to do with my biological father.

57) If we’re talking sex, I’m inclined to not answer since I’m still a minor (*cough* Jungkook/Halsey*cough*), but if it’s like legit sleeping, I want to say Lana Del Rey. Idk why but these are the people that popped up.

58) My bitch ass is headed to South Korea. ✌️

59) Yes.

60) Not even gonna explain:

Jungkook

Halsey

Marina Diamandis

Hayley Kiyoko

Brendon Urie

[arielkrupnik]

pur-girl-tory

I came from a world of things i loved to be disappointed here.

So far in my stay, Ive unenjoyed the bimbo-limbo of women, Ive unenjoyed the limbo of entertaining poetry, Ive unenjoyed the company of many, Ive unenjoyed lingering and risking on deletion oblivion, Ive unenjoyed the bad comments this will probably palm-nail me with, Ive unenjoyed the crucifixation people have had with me, Ive unenjoyed not being able to write this on their faces instead of here, for this needs to be contained everywhere. Its already written all over your faces, and Ive unenjoyed looking into them.

I feel how Mickey Rourke’s face looks now. I feel guilty for those who sport a smile, recite an inside joke, upload a photo, insert a quirk, write their writings, miss their borefriend, expect to be loved, don a crisis make over, chastise for power, critic to death, name a hypocrite, expect an email, expect a text, expect jealousy, con’knives in the back, adoration, paychecks, sex, loyalty, and respect for being cold. But yet, and better yet, they have no soul. Drama mia! They have a lot of room, minus a soul.

Ladies with gentlemen, pedestal your gentlemen while you can. Better still, marry your man! Don’t leave a man like me questioning the genuosity of your love. You can be ignorant now to bliss I gave you beforehand. Its easy to rid the ones who love you, in favor for lucifers human flesh and his kind words. But thats not the way to get into heaven. He’s a wanna-be macho cheese, taco supreme, muchacho!. At least, my flesh is all natural. In the land of Ariel Krupnik, it keeps me from ever warming up to the idea it'll be unenjoyed.

We all shit out the same asshole for the same fate. Enjoy your version of love while supplies last. Rub shit in my face, and make me wonder

what gosh! It must feel like to be the most important someone in your life. Love is for those that dont want to be found; to leave loyalty behind. Since when did love become an excuse to get rid of me?. I cant just say fuck them - my heart is too big to fit through that door. It seems as though every girl i know in love - really know how to fail under the radar, dontcha unsweethearts?. Might as well start unacknowledging our history, and start heading back on your kind

words.

Your lucky you got away. I have to work everyday. No one has compassion, soul, heart, empathy, love angel music, baby. I feel like Im the only one trying. I feel like the only one whose gotten neurotic for it, and any girl to complain along with me, will agree, then retreat back to their borefriend, and lie life. If you can retreat to love after reading this, your say in the matter is no go. Take your comments with you to farcity blues.

I don’t expect any miracles for being this conduit of expressing things we're scared to say. Thats how the right poem gets made. Thats how the real person does reality, minus a love, added by soul. Bless me for me! and who are you suppose to be?. And what for?!.

I don’t have the same nature as a lot of you do. I have this unbelievability factor hunting down on me, for until my dying days. You see poetry has found me, sister dear, brother dear. And Ive stuck its language all around me;

every corner in my mouth. I sacrificed the english language and those who speak it, to speak le dangerous!. Lets hear you say this.

My life is the secret told, the full-fledged victory for not having someone to share this with. He is sad to hear, naive, he is mad-mindedly beautiful in his telling of the story. He does justice to decency by speaking these. Oh but Im speaking way ahead of myself, its the rest of the world that has catching up to do. This writing here today is indeed born of its rightful melancholy, and the one you might be missing out on. Im sure theres a great writer even now whose convinced you great writing exists otherwise. They are writing my work. They are using my skills to get to you, to get you too. Poor little fellows, who were born dicks - and legs and arms, and torso and heads grew from it!

No I haven’t enjoyed my stay, the rooms been full but the company has been empty. I don’t feel right not reaching enough soul. I don’t think someone willing to be a minor messiah for your everything should be shunned, no matter what he wears, or how he cuts his hair. Do you honestly feel okay not being happy to happiness' full-pull potential?. You are the ones in shock, over awe, over oh no, over his courtly love

staring out in the open dawn. You are the ones that want to disappear among rooms, clubs, dorms, bars, upstates, drugstores, house parties, homes, vacations, classes, jobs, and dates, and dirty laundry. All to get further ahead in life, pushing me aside.

What are you guilty of at the moment? Im sure your ignoring someone for a stupid reason, and I am not ever. I can be bought for free. Im talking bout me - the incredible friend of yours incredibly unacknowledged. If theres anything I can die and leave you with, it would be to please not fall into the cliche of these self-righteous, below the ground-nosers, who think too high and mighty of themselves to hang with anyone the least bit disingenuous. If you cant accept everyone and their faults, unwelcome yourself to society.

I don’t feel so comfortable waiting so long to see people again. The idea of pretend-friends hasn’t always been a favorite of mine. ‘ We should hang out', fake,

every word is for false people. Someone has to be somewhat decent. Thank god for me, i guess. Im the only last will and living testament of those who don’t break the rules. Im too cool to be outside of school. I shit upon all who believe they cant compensate for being bad. People who attend halloween parties, thanksgiving dinners, christmas dinners and new years parties, claiming around, being good to their relatives, just so they can be bad in reality. Thank god for me being real my whole life. I haven’t been faking it.

I don’t expect miracles with anyone. I don’t expect anything - no one has any real heart to put up a fight. No one wants to find out why I consider myself talented.

Im so disappointed we cant get past stupid little individual problems we make, just to avoid the truth. We have improvised anything that might be evil, to steer clear of me. Goodbye proper imagination, hello fake fuck-face smiles.

Its nice to see you again in everyone. May you shatter all your mirrors and preconceptions one day. One can only hope.

Oh what me worry, I'll die for any spot in heaven,

I can always fulfill that expectation. I'll be the first and last to understand what Ive written here. First and last, and anywhere Im hoping the in-betweeners wont make the end so hard if they've been following me this whole time. No one I know is someone to have gotten to know all of me. If they were looking for redemption out of something bad i did, I hope they find that here. I hope I was more than just myself today, and something unseen carried over. I hope that makes her, whoever she is now, that much more intrigued on my mystery. And I hope that she whoever, forgives me my daily dread. Forgiveness is important to me, not yourselves.

I wish you all the best in stopping yourselves from me getting to know you. I wish upon a dark star.

I hope on that star, I wasn’t your friend, but thee friend, afterall. In the end, Im friends with your heart, not yourselves. And you can tell your others; significant others and friends, an angel says fuck them for not reading this. Fuck you if you don’t get it, and fuck us if you never will. And fuck you all with love,

Ariel.

[intriguing-catastrophe]

1-85 (;

I hate you lmao. 1. Are looks important in a relationship? No

2. Are relationships ever worth it? Yes

3. Are you a virgin? Nope

4. Are you in a relationship? Nope

5. Are you in love? Unfortunetely i am.

6. Are you single this year? I guess

7. Can you commit to one person? Yes.

8. Describe your crush. He’s got dark hair, and the most amazing smile ive ever seen in my entire life. And his lips are so nice. His eyes make me drift away every time i see them.

9. Describe your perfect mate. Honestly i cant

10. Do you believe in love at first sight? Sometimes.

11. Do you ever want to get married? Yeah eventually

12. Do you forgive betrayal? Rarely

13. Do you get jealous easily? Yes and its a huge problem

14. Do you have a crush on anyone? Well duh

15. Do you have any piercings? Yes, i have my ears, bellybutton, and conch.

16. Do you have any tattoos? Yeah one on my left wrist.

17. Do you like kissing in public? Actually yes

20. Do you shower every day? Just about.

21. Do you think someone has feelings for you? Idk anymore

22. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now? No

23. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat? Yes.

24. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years? Probably not.

25. Do you want to be in a relationship this year? Yeah maybe

26. Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you? Yeah but he didnt mean it

27. Has someone ever written a song or poem for you? Yes

28. Have you ever been cheated on? All the time

29. Have you ever cheated on someone? Onceand ill never do it again.

30. Have you ever considered plastic surgery? If so, what would you change about your body? Yes, my lips, and my weight.

31. Have you ever cried over a guy/girl? Both

32. Have you ever experienced unrequited love? Uhhh

33. Have you ever had sex with a man? Yeah

34. Have you ever had sex with a woman? Almost, half way ;)

35. Have you ever kissed someone older than you? Yes

36. Have you ever liked one of your best friends? Yes :/

37. Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated? Yeah

38. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to? Yes absolutely

39. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have? I do right now.

40. Have you ever written a song or poem for someone? Yeah

41. Have you had sex so far this year? Yeah

42. How long can you just kiss until your hands start to wander? Well i always like to be touching the othet person

43. How long was your longest relationship? 9 months

44. How many boyfriends/girlfriends have you had? A lot tbh for guys, ive dated 3 girls.

45. How many people did you kiss in 2011? Fuck if i know lol.

46. How many times did you have sex last year? Like 2

47. How old are you? Nunya

48. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say? To go for it

49. If you have a boyfriend/girlfriend, what is your favorite thing about him/her? Dont

50. If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents, would you accept?Hell no 51. Is there a boy/girl who you would do absolutely everything for? Yeah..

52. Is there anyone you’ve given up on? Why?Yeah because they broke me badly 53. Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are? No

54. Is there someone you will never forget? Yes. My best mate.

55. Share a relationship story. I loved him, he loved me, boom lost virginity, boom he cheated. Good story.

56. State 8 facts about your body. I have a birthmark on the back of my head. I have long legs. I have small ears. I have stretch marks. My left boob is bigger than my right. I have an innie belly button. I have two scars on my right hand from curling my hair and burning myself. I have blue eyes.

57. Things you want to say to an ex. Fuck you.

58. What are five ways to win your heart? Being funny, loving all of me, panda express, being comfortable with me, and being you.

59. What do you look like? (Post a picture!)Lol look at my profile pic im lazy. 60. What is the biggest age difference between you and any of your partners? Uhhh damn this gonna be weird. But like 8 years. Oops. Age doesn’t always matter to me.

61. What is the first thing you notice in someone? Their eyes.

62. What is the sexiest thing someone could ever do for/to you? Rent a hotel room, put red and pink rose petals all over the bed, light some candles, blindfold me and ;) boom. Cliche i know.

63. What is your definition of “having sex”?Well kids, its when a dick goes in a vagina or a mouth or for females, it involes some tongue action 64. What is your definition of cheating? Anything to do with another person someone likes really. Even saying they are cute.

65. What is your favourite foreplay routine? Tbh idek

66. What is your favourite roleplay? Uhh idk im lame

67. What is your idea of the perfect date? Honestly i dont even need money spent on me. Just relaxing at home cuddling watching scary movies and eating popcorn is amazing

68. What is your sexual orientation? Well, i go by bisexual but really pansexual i just hate explaining it all the time.

69. What turns you off? When someone is bragging about their self

70. What turns you on? Neck kisses, lip biting, spanking.

71. What was your kinkiest wet dream? I dont remember

72. What words do you like to hear during sex? “Fuck you’re tight” “damn babygirl” those are my fav ;)

73. What’s something sweet you’d like someone to do for you? Just to genuinely care about me

74. What’s the most superficial characteristic you look for? Idk

75. What’s the sweetest thing anyone’s ever done for you? Bought me some art stuff and flowers

76. What’s the sweetest thing you’ve ever done for someone? I gave them all my money so they could buy something for someone they cared about

77. What’s your opinion on age differences in relationships? It doesnt matter too much but there is a limit. A 15 year old should not be dating a 30 year old.

78. What’s your dirtiest secret? If i told you i would have to kill you

79. When was the last time you felt jealous? Why? Today, i cant have who she has.

80. When was the last time you told someone you loved them? Today.

81. Who are five people you find attractive? Uh im gonna do people i actually know. Cale, simon, dan, nicole, jaden.

82. Who is the last person you hugged? My mom

83. Who was your first kiss with? My ex when i was like 14

84. Why did your last relationship fail? He completely ignored me and ghosted me.

85. Would you ever date someone off of the Internet? I have and still would.

I really sucked at this

[fire-of-my-l0ins]

1. Are looks important in a relationship? Partly 2. Are relationships ever worth it? Yes 3. Are you a virgin? No 4. Are you in a relationship?yes 5. Are you in love? Yes 6. Are you single this year? No 7. Can you commit to one person? Yeah 8. Describe your crush hot af 9. Describe your perfect mate likes eating rubbish and chilling and cuddles 10. Do you believe in love at first sight? No 11. Do you ever want to get married? Yeah 12. Do you forgive betrayal? Not really 13. Do you get jealous easily? Wouldnt say so 14. Do you have a crush on anyone? Dan 15. Do you have any piercings? Ears 16. Do you have any tattoos? Nope 17. Do you like kissing in public? Eh, i try not to to respect others but i like kisses 20. Do you shower every day? No 21. Do you think someone has feelings for you? I'd hope so 22. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now? Nope 23. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat? Of course 24. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years? No idea 25. Do you want to be in a relationship this year? Yeah 26. Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you? mhm 27. Has someone ever written a song or poem for you? No 28. Have you ever been cheated on? Not that i know lf 29. Have you ever cheated on someone? No 30. Have you ever considered plastic surgery? If so, what would you change about your body? My nose 31. Have you ever cried over a guy/girl? Loads of times 32. Have you ever experienced unrequited love? Yeah :( 33. Have you ever had sex with a man? Yes 34. Have you ever had sex with a woman? No 35. Have you ever kissed someone older than you? Yes 36. Have you ever liked one of your best friends? Yeah 37. Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated? Idk 38. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to? Yeah 39. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have?yes 40. Have you ever written a song or poem for someone? Maybe 41. Have you had sex so far this year? Hehe 42. How long can you just kiss until your hands start to wander? I dont really think about my hands 43. How long was your longest relationship? Still in it , 15 months 44. How many boyfriends/girlfriends have you had? 2 45. How many people did you kiss in 2011? None 46. How many times did you have sex last year? A lot 47. How old are you? 17 48. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say? I honestly dont know, would be gutted 49. If you have a boyfriend/girlfriend, what is your favorite thing about him/her? I love how caring he is, i love his cheeky smile and laugh, his broad shoulders and muscular arms, so many things ! 50. If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents, would you accept? Ive only had one true love and he doesnt need to apologise for anything! :) 51. Is there a boy/girl who you would do absolutely everything for? Yeah 52. Is there anyone you’ve given up on? Why? they gave up on me 53. Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are? Possibly 54. Is there someone you will never forget? I dont forget many people 55. Share a relationship story. That ones just for me and dan 56. State 8 facts about your body 1) i have a lot of stretch marks, but i like them 2) i have a lot of freckles but they only tend to come out in summer 3) i can seperate all my toes 4) Ive always been fairly petite and dont gain weight that much 5) i have one mole under my armpit 6) Ive always struggled with maintaining acne 7) my hair is very long 8) i have tiny wrists 57. Things you want to say to an ex nothing 58. What are five ways to win your heart? Hugs, chocolate, loyalty, kindness 59. What do you look like? (Post a picture!) nah 60. What is the biggest age difference between you and any of your partners? 18 months 61. What is the first thing you notice in someone? Hair 62. What is the sexiest thing someone could ever do for/to you? Shj 63. What is your definition of “having sex”? Uh 64. What is your definition of cheating? Kissing and other stuff 65. What is your favourite foreplay routine? 66. What is your favourite roleplay? 67. What is your idea of the perfect date? Going to a planetarium 68. What is your sexual orientation? Male 69. What turns you off? Idk , i like intellectual and mature 70. What turns you on? leather jackets and messy hair 71. What was your kinkiest wet dream? 72. What words do you like to hear during sex? 73. What’s something sweet you’d like someone to do for you? I dont want anything 74. What’s the most superficial characteristic you look for? Muscly looool 75. What’s the sweetest thing anyone’s ever done for you? Carry me while i was having a sensory overload 76. What’s the sweetest thing you’ve ever done for someone? Nothing 77. What’s your opinion on age differences in relationships? Depends 78. What’s your dirtiest secret? Shh 79. When was the last time you felt jealous? Why? Today cos i want abs n i cant have them 80. When was the last time you told someone you loved them? Today probably 81. Who are five people you find attractive? Dan 82. Who is the last person you hugged? Mum 83. Who was your first kiss with? May 84. Why did your last relationship fail? Loads of reasons 85. Would you ever date someone off of the Internet? No