#still i like how this turned out it was fun trying to mimic the art style and graphic design

[flowerakatsuka]

i've been meaning to draw kuroba in the chill matsu style for a while now and finally found the motivation to finish the sketches i had sitting in my wips!

[parkerluvsu]

ANGELEYES (virgin! art donaldson x fem! reader)

(my first halloween fic.. i don't have the energy to do kinktober <3)

art donaldson is a virgin. a big fat virgin. it's his biggest secret, the only person who knows about it is patrick, and he endlessly makes fun of him for it. it's hard living in the shadow of such a sex prodigy like him, patrick had been relaying stories of heavy makeout sessions and 7 minutes in heaven with random girls ever since middle school. art has been on a multitude of double dates with patrick, only for them to end with him and a girl sitting awkwardly next to him while patrick and his date messily makeout on the couch next to him.

of course art tried to mimic patrick, his smooth words and even smoother hands.. but never successfully. the longest he's ever had a girlfriend was only 5 months.. and she broke up with him on valentines day. this year was the first year he actually had a girlfriend on a semi-romantic holiday. or at least art thought it was, he remembers every year that couples in cute costumes walked by and made him want to cry. and even worse was the halloween parties, with drunk college students wearing stupid costumes and grinding on each other, leaving art to sip on a room temperature beer in the corner.

art was abruptly brought back to reality when you tapped on his shoulder, alerting him to the fact that he wasn't still in a stupid party, he was lodged in a costume store dressing room, holding on to the costumes you still wanted to try on. "what do you think?" you spin around, showing him the back of your cheesy tennis player costume. art chuckles, shaking his head, "i think it's offensive.." he jokes, of course you look cute but he can't stop himself from thinking that you'd never be able to move around a court in that stupid uniform. "hand me another one art.." he gives you the next costume, turning to face the wall while you change. "you know you can look.. right? im your girlfriend aren't i?" art blushes and he's thankful you can't see his face. "i- im just being respectful" he says, seeming genuinely concerned about offending you. you let the issue go as you zip up the costume, tapping art on the shoulder.

when you got home, you set down your costume and turned to art. "so now what are you gonna be? we should match right?" he nods shyly, not exactly knowing how to enter this unfamiliar territory. "i guess you could be a devil too and then we could match.." you look at art for inspiration, and settle on his baby blue eyes, biting your lip before getting an idea. "oh i know! you should be an angel! it'll be great!" you say, already envisioning art in a pretty white costume. art blushes, "isn't that.. like a girl costume?" he doesn't mean to offend you and it's not like he hates the idea but.. he doesn't want to embarrass himself. "no not at all! cmon art it'll be so cute.. you'll be my little angel!" you almost squeal, immediately taking out your phone to look for costumes. art nods slowly.. realizing that he doesn't really care what he dresses up as.. as long as he's yours.

art almost drops the costumes he's holding when he sees the little red skirt, tank top and horns you have on, accompanied by a pair of fluffy wings on your back. "what d'you think? it kind of looks silly don't you think?" you turn back to face art. he shakes his head silently, his eyes wide, looking you up and down. you giggle, "guess we have a winner then!". you leave the store that day with a devil costume in a bag, and art leaves with a tent in his pants.

art has never considered himself religious. he was raised to go to sunday school and church and all those other fun events, but he never believed any of it. so why did he feel so guilty when he got hot and heavy seeing you in that costume? maybe it was the fact that he was always reprimanded as a child for liking things that he shouldn't.. playing with dolls, stealing his moms clothes... and maybe even looking a little too long at girls from church. now he still felt like he could get caught any moment doing something he wasn't supposed to, even though he wasn't in that environment anymore.

you're putting on lip gloss, using your phone for a mirror when art pops out of the bathroom, having a little trouble getting the fake wings to fit though the doorframe. you put your things down, standing up to meet him, "oh art.. you look so good.. this costume is perfect for you, don't you think?" you say, looking him up and down. art blushes, trying to avoid your gaze "i- i guess so.." he says, trying to downplay the fact that he likes the costume so much. you pick up on his tone, and decide to speak up. "what? you don't like it?" he shakes his head quickly, "no.. no that's not it.. it's like the opposite.. maybe i like it a little too much" he looks away, shifting from foot to foot. you smile knowingly, not surprised that he feels this way. art let's you guide him to sit on the edge of your bed. "well, why do you like it so much?" you ask, wanting to see if he'll be honest.

.・。.・゜✭・.・。.・゜✭・.・。.・

when halloween night finally comes around, art finds himself staring in the mirror, tugging at the tight white t-shirt that came with his costume, shifting his back and shoulders to re-adjust the wings sitting heavy on his back. god.. what's patrick gonna think about this? he's probably gonna be made fun of relentlessly.. but there's a feeling in the bottom of his stomach when he looks at himself.. he can't deny that he likes what he sees. he's just nervous for you to see him too, what if you laugh? what if you think he looks silly? what if you make fun of him? all these thoughts swirl around in his head as he leaves your bathroom, stepping into your bedroom as you look up from your phone.

art mulls that over in his head, pretty.. did he feel pretty? was he pretty? he's a boy isn't he.. was he even allowed to be pretty? even with all these thoughts swirling in his head he knows the foundational truth: he likes when he say that, he likes when you call him pretty. you bring art back to reality by kissing him softly, leaning closer to him. arts tentative hands grab hold of your waist, squeezing tight when you slip your tongue into his mouth. "won't you let me take care of you art?" he nods, knowing that you saw the bulge in his pants the moment he stepped out of the bathroom.

you run your hands over arts warm skin, swinging your leg over his lap in order to straddle him. "we'll go slow, alright? don't be scared" you whisper, pressing your lips to his once again. art whines against you, his hips jerking under you even with the simple makeout session. art finds it easy to let you take the lead, you always do, in every facet of your relationship, and art likes to just turn his brain off when he's with you. he lets you run your fingers through his hair, pulling off the silly halo headband while you do. art shivers when you make your way down to his neck, sharp canine teeth poking and pulling at his skin. you pull at the hem of arts shirt, "can i take this off?" you ask, waiting for a nod before pulling it off of him, pressing your lips on his again and raking your nails down his chest, almost making him curl up on himself.

you were so warm inside, hot even, he could feel your every move from the inside, every ridge and squishy spot made him take a shuddering breath. you try to lift up again to establish a rhythm, but arts hands keep you still, taking deep breaths to calm himself down. after a few seconds, he takes his hands away, letting you start to bounce gently. his moans and whines become almost screams, "k-keep goingg please.." "y'r so warm 'nside" "never wanna stop.. wanna do this f-forever" he feels himself approaching his peak far too quick, but he cant stop, he couldn't even if he wanted to, he needs you to keep going, he needs you to touch him, he needs you to love him. you can feel art start to move his hips with you, planting his feet on the mattress and pushing up, slamming into you with the last of his strength before his whole body goes taut, shaking and shivering before you feel him cum inside you, even through the condom.

you kiss some more, before you pull away to take a breath and look at him. arts pretty pink cheeks and white wings contrast perfectly, only making your heart beat faster. "do you wanna see me?" you gesture to your chest, covered by a skimpy red tank top. art nods very quickly, almost getting dizzy. "y-yeah, yes please" he says, watching with stars in his eyes as you strip off your shirt, exposing your chest to him. art almost gasps when you take hold of his hands and place them on your boobs, letting him experiment and touch and squeeze to his hearts content, you want to giggle at his facial expressions but you don't want to make him self conscious. "c-can we keep going?" he asks, hands still on your breasts. you smile and laugh, nodding. "alright art.. can you take off your pants for me?" art almost thinks his heart stops when you ask him to do that, still getting it through his head to nod slowly. he shuffles them down his legs, his blue boxers already a little stained from the precum leaking from the makeout sessions. you shift closer to him, sitting between his spread legs. "ill be gentle okay?" you start slow, running your fingers softly over his bulge, smiling when you feel him twitch under your touch. tapping his hip to signal him to lift his hips up, art complies, suddenly feeling self conscious at the fact that no one has ever seen him like this before.. he doesn't even know what he's supposed to do, or say. you notice this of course, placing your palm on his hip, "you're doing great art" he visibly relaxes at your touch, sinking into your bed. he lets you touch him softly again, with no barrier this time, he's softer than you thought, his pretty pink head already drooling, the pronounced veins on the sides pulsing. you wish you could take a polaroid of this moment, the look of his innocent white wings contrasting from the very lewd image in front of you. art slaps a hand over his mouth, his brows furrowed, he's never had anyone else touch him here, your hand feels so much different than his own, so much softer and warmer. art has to concentrate his best on not cumming immediately, the sensation of your hand jerking him off becoming overwhelming. he has to reach down and push your hand away before he cums, wanting to save the best part for later. "i-im sorry i didn't wanna.. cum" he says, his face flushed red. you smile, understanding his predicament. "it's okay, i did the same my first time too.. do you have a condom?" art nods quickly, opening up a packet of condoms he bought a little prematurely maybe.. but he wanted to be prepared no matter what happened. art had taken a sex ed class before, but putting a condom on himself versus a banana were very different, so you had to help him roll it down his length. art does nothing but watch you throw your panties to the side, again climbing into his lap. "like i said, we'll go slow, tell me if you don't like how it feels yeah?" art agrees, placing his large hands on your hips in an attempt to prepare, but nothing could prepare him for this.

you move your hips slowly to let him cool off, before slipping off of him and settling down beside him. you take off the condom for him, cum dripping onto his stomach before you can throw it away. you place your head on arts chest, unable to resist dipping your finger into the drops of cum on his stomach, the translucent liquid almost glowing on his pale skin. you can't help the word that escapes your mouth, "angel..." you whisper against his skin, not thinking he's back to his senses yet. art perks up a little, hoping he heard what he thought he heard, "w-what?" "nothing" <3

art sighs, not even knowing why he likes it so much. "i dunno, i guess i feel.. nice in it.. like it's natural?" you nod along with his words, encouraging him to keep talking. "like when i put it on, it kind of made me get butterflies.." you nod, seeing where this was going. "you thought you looked pretty yeah? i mean i always say you look like an angel, this just proves my point" you remark, placing a gentle hand on his thigh. "yeah.. well you're right as always.."

[dreamlanderin]

Something about cucumbers (Dean x you x Castiel)

Summary: You "try" to teach Castiel how to make a salad, Dean is the ever-present spectator.

Word count: 1.6k

Warning: none ... Flying cucumbers? (Unedited)

This is me just having a bit of fun.

The bunker kitchen. You stand at the counter, trying to prepare a makeshift dinner while Castiel watches you with his signature tilted-head curiosity. The angel has taken an unexpected interest in your process, and it’s becoming more of a distraction than a help. Dean is sitting nearby, sipping a beer and pretending not to watch, while Sam is somewhere else in the bunker, thankfully sparing you the embarrassment of your mess.

"Okay, Cas, it’s really not that complicated," you say, gesturing toward the cutting board where a pile of chopped vegetables sits precariously close to the edge. You wipe your hands on a dish towel and sigh. "You just chop them like this." You mime slicing with an invisible knife. "It’s easy."

Castiel furrows his brow, his intense blue eyes fixed on the knife in your hand like it’s a divine relic. "You say it’s easy, but you seem... stressed," he says, his gravelly voice tinged with confusion.

You groan, shooting a glare at Dean, who’s stifling a laugh behind his beer bottle. "I’m stressed because someone," you say pointedly, "keeps leaning over my shoulder like I’m defusing a bomb."

Castiel straightens, his expression serious. "I assure you, I am not treating this as though it’s an explosive. However, if you are concerned, I could call Sam to assist—"

"No!" you interrupt, your voice a little too loud. You clear your throat, face heating. "No, Cas, it’s fine. I’ve got this."

Dean chuckles from his spot at the table, clearly enjoying the spectacle. "Looks like you’re really impressing the guy. Teaching Cas how to chop vegetables. Next, you’ll be showing him how to boil water."

Castiel turns his gaze to Dean, brow furrowing further. "I know how to boil water, Dean. It’s a simple process of applying heat to a container of—"

"Cas!" you cut in, throwing your hands up. "Focus, okay? Vegetables. Knife. Let’s just start with that."

Castiel nods solemnly, stepping closer to the counter. He picks up the knife awkwardly, holding it like he’s about to carve a statue, and stares at the cucumber on the cutting board.

You watch him nervously. "Okay, uh... just slice it. Like this." You take the knife and demonstrate a smooth cut. "See? Nice and easy."

Castiel mimics your motion but presses too hard, sending the cucumber slice flying across the room. It hits Dean square in the chest, and he freezes, looking down at the offending vegetable with an expression of mock betrayal.

"Nice aim, Cas," Dean deadpans, setting his beer down to flick the cucumber slice off his shirt. "But I don’t think they were planning on weaponizing the salad."

You let out a snort and slap a hand over your mouth. You clear your throat and try to recover from the second hand emberassment "Okay, maybe not that hard, Cas. Try again, but... gentler." You give Dean a pointed look of 'Don't you start'. Already knowing he was going to make a dirty joke. He grinned.

Castiel nods, his expression resolute as he adjusts his grip on the knife. "Gentler. Understood."

He attempts another slice, this time sawing awkwardly at the cucumber until it breaks apart in uneven chunks. One particularly small piece falls off the board and lands on the floor. Castiel bends to pick it up, inspecting it.

"Do these need to be symmetrical for the dish to be effective?" he asks seriously, holding up the misshapen piece.

Dean raises a brow "Symmetrical? Cas, it’s a salad, not a damn art exhibit."

You can’t help the laugh that escaped you. "Cas, no. They don’t need to be symmetrical. Just edible."

Castiel straightens, still holding the piece of cucumber, his face unreadable. "I see. Then why do you insist on making them uniform sizes?"

You pause, your laughter fading as you realize you don’t have a good answer. "Uh... because it looks nice?" "Ah." Castiel nods solemnly, carefully setting the misshapen cucumber piece on the counter like it deserves a moment of silence. "Humans place great value on aesthetics… even in matters of sustenance."

You shake your head, letting out a breath. "It’s just salad, Cas."

But peace is short-lived. Before you can stop him, Castiel moves on to the tomatoes.

Your eyes widen in horror. "Wait—"

Too late.

Dean leans forward, resting his elbows on the table as he watches Castiel absolutely wreck the tomatoes. The slices range from translucent slivers to massive chunks, and one unfortunate tomato is now pulp, smeared across the cutting board like a crime scene.

Dean whistles low. "Man, if this hunter thing doesn’t work out, you could always audition for Top Chef: Apocalypse Edition."

Castiel pauses, knife hovering mid-air. He looks at Dean with complete sincerity. "I am unfamiliar with that competition, but if it involves preventing an apocalypse through culinary skill, I am willing to participate."

Dean blinks, then his grin stretches wider. "See? Now I really wanna watch that. Can angels get cable?"

You press your lips together, trying (and failing) to suppress a laugh as Castiel furrows his brow.

"Stop encouraging him—"

"I do not believe Heaven receives human broadcasting networks."

Dean shakes his head, cracking open another beer. "Well, that explains so much."

You roll your eyes, but the grin tugging at your lips betrays you. Before Castiel can launch another philosophical deep dive into satellite signals and divine reception, you gently grab his wrist, stilling the knife in his hand.

"Okay, Cas, you know what? Maybe chopping isn’t your thing," you say, guiding the knife out of his grip like he’s a toddler holding something sharp. "Why don’t you… I don’t know, wash the lettuce or something? You can’t mess that up."

Castiel tilts his head, considering your words. "You underestimate my ability"

As he moves to the sink, a bit crestfallen, Dean shakes his head, grinning. "I gotta say, you’re one hell of a teacher."

You shoot him a look, though there’s no heat behind it. "Yeah, well, some students are harder than others."

Dean smirks, leaning back in his chair. "Don’t forget to grade on a curve," he quips, eyes glinting with amusement. He lifts his beer in a mock toast. "And hey, participation points count."

He winks, downing the drink as you groan, dragging a hand down your face.

"Glad to know you take education so seriously, Dean."

You turn back to Castiel, watching as he attempts to rinse the lettuce with the same intensity he’d approached the knife. You sigh, biting back another laugh.

"Patience," you mutter under your breath, shaking your head. "Patience"

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You step back, eyeing the salad like it might spontaneously combust. Castiel stands beside it, proud in that unshakable, angelic way that makes you question if he’s ever truly seen food before.

"Okay," you say slowly, tilting your head. "It’s… not pretty, but it’s edible. I’ll take it."

Dean raises a brow but doesn’t argue. He grabs a fork, spearing a piece with all the hesitation of someone about to enter battle. One bite in, and there's a notable crack, he freezes.

Dean lowers his fork, squinting down at the plate. "Is that… eggshell?"

You blink. Castiel, completely unfazed, nods. "The recipe did not specify which parts of the egg were acceptable."

Dean stares at Castiel, then at you, as if searching for confirmation that this isn't a fever dream.

Dean sets the fork down carefully. "You know what? Forget the salad. I’m ordering pizza."

There goes Dean's attempt at biegn healthy. Castiel frowns faintly, glancing between the salad and Dean like he’s personally offended. "I believe it is perfectly suitable for consumption."

Dean gestures to the plate. "Yeah, well, unless that salad fights demons, I’m not eating it."

You bite back a laugh, nudging the plate toward Castiel. "Guess it’s all yours"

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Badum-tsssss

I should probably do Sam next?

[torihakaraublog]

Mammon Birthday 2024

My MC dotes on Mammon, but is not romantically interested in him so of course they had to make him feel special on his birthday!

Very much enjoyed Mammon's birthday event he's genuinely a fun guy to hang out with. With a lot of the previous character birthday events you have to plan out the day, but Mammon has made his own plans for his birthday that he hopes you are free to join him on (which you are).

The activity is a treasure hunt in the Uncharted Woods. No misfortune befalls you on the adventure for once and thanks to Mammon's cute habit of mumbling about things while he looks them up you and Lucifer get him a pair of shoes to fit the occasion - ones that lead you to fortune!

There is a peaceful run in with a chest mimic - I LOVE that mimics are canon in OM! - there was one in a Bel event a few months ago as well tho that one was not as friendly. It's on my bucket list now to make a mimic OM! oc xD

The mimic is also celebrating a family members birthday (a sibling in ill health) and Mammon has no regrets giving up the expensive Blood-Red Diamond. The unexpecting exchange item (a gold feather?) from the mimic turns out to be worth more O.o

Liked that the 'party options' were private drink or go to club. Got very different vibes, which is good. Went to club cause didn't want to give him too many ideas, but he still got a few kiss kiss from me for being a good boy :3

Obey Me! NB "Dark Eternal Bliss" Pop Quiz

Ahhh really enjoyed this event! It wasn't too complicated but had some interesting lore elements to it. Also everyone's festival outfits looked really good. They were reminiscent of their traditional festival outfits.

The overall plot was basically: stuck in a dimension between the demon world and human world. We are tasked with holding a marriage festival to an emperor - marriage candidate is marked on back of hand. We are able to get the emperor to release us + the other souls trapped there through discussion.

There was a lot of sweet solo moments with the brothers (including proposals of sorts). Not as many with the other characters. Sometimes you had to pick between two characters - how dare they make me pick between Satan and Beel at one point!

Some of my fave things I ended up doing:

Floor cleaning with Levi (making a date for later) :3

Making plans with Satan, Beel, and Lucifer

Talking with the sad Matrimonial Black Flowers

Stargazing with Satan

Going on a walk with Lucifer

Pretending to be married to Bel to mess with the brothers haha

Getting a care package from Thirteen TwT

Lucifer saying he would always search for us no matter what world we were in.

Haunted trail hand holding with Levi

Another part I really liked was Luke, Beel, and Solomon collecting the festival food. Instead of it being the typical 'you two get out of the kitchen' moment Luke insisted they stayed for the other talents they had; Solomon's text reading and Beel's physical strength.

Through the whole event Asmo, Barbatos, and Solomon were being epic kings. When I suggested Barb being the bride and Asmo being like "that would scare them away" made me laugh (Barb kinda seemed into the idea lol). And then Barbatos and Solomon agreeing that they would want to approve who marries us first but would probably also not approve anyone lol

Didn't manage to get any completed cards this event, but with any luck I'll eventually pull the new brother appreciation card (rip the 80 pulls I've done already).

Might also try to do an art piece for this event so I'll post it down below if I do :3

Edit: Okay I drew something xD Do you like stars?

Beel + Brooke and Satan + Brooke

[iztea]

Do you like drawing in a sense that it relaxes you? Like a hobby you‘re looking forward to after a day of work. Do you feel joy while you draw?

I‘m currently battling my art demons and came to the conclusion that drawing actually makes me feel shitty a lot of the time because I only take joy out of the results yk? So if it‘s good, great! If I get overwhelmed woah my world is breaking down. My therapist told me I need a hobby that actually relaxes me and that I like solely for itself, not connected to performance, and I was wondering if drawing is just generally the wrong thing for that or if there‘s a way for people to actually enjoy it in a relaxing way.

You‘re so open about your drawing process and you‘re my favorite art account so you fell victim to my question haha but I get that this ask is pretty specific and kinda weird, don‘t feel pressured to answer :)

i do very much enjoy drawing in a relaxing way; for me, it's the equivalent of playing video games or watching Netflix so, in a way, i think of drawing as "unproductive work". Not sure if you're actually looking for a solution-based answer to your problem or if you just want to hear my side/my opinion on the matter, but I'll try to delve into both. 

I think for me personally, I've always found drawing to be relaxing for the most part. Frustration is always to be expected, of course, but I wouldn't say it ruins the mood, it's just something that comes and goes. The only unpleasant part about drawing for me is strictly related to the social media aspect or just making it public. Now, I'm not sure if you have an art account as well or how much you relate to this but I very often dread posting stuff online. I kinda have to force myself almost every time to make something public because I hate the applause but I am also rational enough to understand that art is meant to be shared with others, even if I personally don't feel a strong need to... It's just one of those human behaviour things you have to mimic or adapt to get by, similar to many other things that don't make sense to me personally but I cognitively understand why they happen but I digress

 When it comes to the process itself, I actually enjoy it more than the final result. If I had a lot of fun experimenting with brushes and new techniques and crazy effects i saw online then i get a sense of joy no matter the end result, and here is where my first piece of advice comes into play: learn to enjoy the process without thinking of the destination. For me, even when I do have a clear idea in mind, it always fluctuates and I let it fluctuate. Sometimes it even looks like shit. So what? It's just for your eyes, who cares if it doesn't look good? Just call it a flop and move to another thing, or revisit it sometime later when your skills improve. This is even easier when you do not have an art account where you share your art, there's zero pressure, you're creating the pressure yourself.

Just think about it: 

>why do you feel shitty and overwhelmed? -> because you care about the end result

>why do you care? -> because if it turns out bad, it feels like wasted time. or because you put your worth into what you create or because [  fill in your answer here ]

>do you still want to continue drawing? -> if there is a way to enjoy it in a relaxing way, then yes i assume

Ok great! Then, the solution is to remove that root feeling of disappointment, overwhelm or despair by learning to appreciate the process of creation and bask in the uncertainty of it instead of being so dead-set on the final piece. If you are not content enough with your skills to end up drawing something that you're always satisfied with, and if it causes you this much distress, then drop your expectations and don't reach the finish line. I mean this literally: draw forever-WIPs. Sketches. Doodles. Don't render, don't even try to think of a color palette. Don't Finish Your Art. Enjoy the process of discovery, of trial-and-error of indecision and I can assure you it will be during these moments when you'll find the relaxation you're looking for.

Enjoyment and relaxation, in my experience, come from two places/approaches: 1. the subject itself and/or 2. noticing improvement in your skills.

To give you an example, when I was sick with fever I drew Dazai as that "let's take ibuprofen together" meme and I thought it was the best shit in the world I was on cloud nine and giggling to myself. Looking back on that art, I now realize it looks terrible (and i lowkey want to redraw it) but back then i was laughing while drawing it and felt Great. because I was drawing something i thought it was funny. Not even once did I think "oh man, I hope this turns out nice ohh it will be so awful if it doesn't the world will explode" because that was not its purpose. Granted i was a bit,,,,,, unwell given my sickly state but my point still stands! So, what I'm trying to say here is that you can try drawing "funny/silly" things as a way to sort of lessen that burden of expectations. Or just something you reaaalllly want to see and you know no one else will do it. Taking matters in your own hands type beat

The second way to enjoy drawing in a relaxing way is by taking the other route: instead of focusing on the subject matter, try focusing on new techniques, new brushes, new tutorials or approaches you found online. Basically, focus on improving your skills in a fun-no-pressure-no-strings-attached way while keeping your subject of choice neutral or uninteresting. Or maybe take the artwork of an artist you really like and try to deconstruct it/ reverse engineer it and apply it to your own art. But whatever you do or choose, just never finish it. let them stay as wips or else you won't be very.. relaxed.

*please note this is an "and/or" statement, so you can absolutely do both: try a new technique you found while drawing something that you also enjoy for uhhhhhhhhhhh relaxmaxxing as the would kids say

Lastly, what I would highly recommend is listening to Adam Duff's podcasts, he really hits the nail on the head when it comes to such topics and more, he really narrates and explores that soulful part of an artist way better than I ever could with this answer so please check him out, I think you'll find your answers there

[emstargazer]

Not sure if these will turn out to be just recurring OCs with a brief backstory or a full-on written fanfic centered around these two or some other format, but either way... Berserker Armor inspired Titan whose Pilot mimics the arsenal Guts uses throughout the manga when paired together with the Titan's loadout and whose relationship with them has an ominous side reminiscent of Guts and the Beast of Darkness.

Does anyone on planet Earth see the vision?

For which audience is this post supposed to cater, you ask?

Me, I am the audience.

Don't worry, I'll be reasonable and put my self-indulgent rambling under a readmore. Beware of some minor spoilers for Berserk.

Considering Vanguard-class Titans are "almost as well armored as a Legion, with the dash capacity of a Ronin" I feel like it fits best class-wise, but it would be a heavily modified Vanguard-based that sacrifices a lot of its defensive capabilities for an incredibly aggressive self-destructive approach to combat. It would also take some design inspiration from Ronin Prime, specifically the concept art (inheriting similar legs and the plates on its sides that remind me of air vents, which I may repurpose to introduce a cooling system) while still preserving the overall structure of a Vanguard. So think of Ronin Prime(Concept) +BT(or FS-1014 or SDV) +The Armor.

They utilize a unique Sword Core that would at first be identical to the regular until it one day develops to have the same, yet way amplified benefits with one additional being the ability to "keep itself together". What I mean by that is while the core's active it's able to keep most of its components functional despite sustaining damage that would otherwise prove to be fatal by using technology similar to the Gravity Star ordnance which upon activation would bend space so that said components can still work in unison, albeit semi-efficiently. It doesn't necessarily repair, but it does let you keep on going for longer even after your Doomed State health bar has completely depleted(yeah, I'm also trying to look at this from a gameplay perspective).

Hmm, sounds familiar.

But the real fun lies in its major drawbacks. First of all, if it does get to a certain point of no return, you won't be able to eject and once the Titan Core ability ends an explosion is imminent. Basically making every instance you use the core into a likely suicide mission. A risky last resort rather than an ultimate ability.

Secondly‚ after every usage the neural link gnaws at your psyche, leaving you with a mental scar, meaning your mind(notably your judgement and self-control) gradually deteriorates over time.

This issue derives from the very nature of the Titan, because its AI is designed to have such a strong link that it inadvertently has access to something which can only be detrimental in the long run and that is the deeper unconscious layer of the Pilot's Mind.

Initially, Titan's AI will have its own set of characteristics, but the better the link becomes, the Titan's control over filtering those unconscious thoughts will falter. Until eventually, the AI splits into 2:

The seemingly original, true self(I know, one may argue that's not the right choice of words, but I disagree considering we've seen how far the Titan's AI can evolve with BT)

An independent personification of the Pilot's Jungian Shadow(I wonder what kind of dynamic will they and the Pilot have, image below definitely unrelated c;)

Now, about the Pilot. Anything relating to their backstory before being assigned with [insert Titan's designated name](been researching military alphabet and code words for ideas, still haven't thought of something that sticks) is currently undetermined.

What is set in stone is they don't have any idea either due to being revived as an advanced simulacrum, until they achieve a complete awakening(like Ash or Revenant) by the unique link they've established as such. The Titan could give insight into the inner workings of their mind that they couldn't fathom as a human, let alone a digital backup of human consciousness with restrictions(ego retention system).

Once awakened, their main objective is to uncover lost memories through the use of said link. The catch is in the drawbacks and the eventual separation of the Titan's AI.

First one is mostly self-explanatory, even in the case that the Pilot's mind component remains intact and gets miraculously brought back into a spare robotic body, it would certainly be a limited resource(same with the Titan) and there would always be a high chance of data corruption.

Second one turns their journey into a ticking time bomb, making every subsequent combat encounter push the Pilot closer to inescapable insanity.

Birth of the second AI inside the datacore causes the Titan's original self to fight for control and question whether the other one is a part of who they are despite originating from someone else, while the Pilot can only bring words of encouragement from inside the chassis.

A story about a Titan and Pilot who both struggle with their identity leading them to form a connection that goes beyond the neural link itself. Exploring how in the journey of self-discovery what one might find to be a part of who they are may in fact be working against them and despite that one should learn to accept it and acknowledge its existence in order to have any control over it. All while affirming interpersonal connection as one of the necessary steps in learning such a lesson.

With hopefully a lot of emotional damage sprinkled along the road.

c:

To the arsenal we go, Titan's loadout would consist of:

an energy-based weapon with a repeating crossbow-like mechanism visually resembling the Ballista from Doom Eternal.

And, you guessed it, The Giant Ass Sword which is preferably going to be unnecessarily longer and thicker than Ronin's canon broadsword to the point where it should theoretically be ineffective, but as a consequence of their unique fighting style and years of accumulated battle experience they'd be able to find unconventional ways to use such attributes to their advantage. Why not use a standard edition broadsword like all the others? Both of them got too attached to their sweet heap of metal^_^. Another significant distinction from it is that instead of using electric charge to produce the Arc Wave, it would harness it to send a shockwave through both the "phase dimension"(one used by Ronin, Simulacra Pilots and others) and our own making it able to damage even those currently occupying the alternate dimension.

Again, one might guess where the general idea comes from.

When it comes to the Pilot's design, I'm keeping it mostly unknown for now. They will be using Pulse Blade since it's the closest thing to Guts' throwing knives and one of their arms will have a use as an Anti-Titan weapon. As ordnance, a large amount of miniature frag grenades.

Ok, I think going into deeper intricacies would be overkill, so I'll put my foot on the brake here.

If you've read this far, I'm beyond grateful you took your time to go through the amalgam of my sporadic unorganized ideas.

Here's a treat!

[kdyism]

5. arts & craft. kim doyoung

pairing. doyoung x reader, genre. established-relationship!au, fluff, warn. non, wc. 0,399

Your eyes concentrating on the coordination of both of your hands as you try to snip the shape of a sea shell, well, an oyster from the A4, you completely don't notice your boyfriend sneaking into the club room with the coffee you had so nicely asked from him. 

"Can you at least greet me," Doyoung whines, pulling out the chair beside you and comfortably leaning on the table, his eyes never leaving you as he grabbed your coffee and put in the straw for you.

You greet him as he wanted, "Hi, Doyoung," finally snipping the last bit and separating the white bits from the sea shell. "How was your day?" you grin at him, quietly thanking him for the coffee and looking at him.

"It was okay, the history TA was being an ass today because someone emailed a complain against him," —"I think it was Juhee from Chem, I heard her talk about yesterday," you said, trying to recall the conversation you overheard. "Heard he was trynna fail her for rejecting him or something," 

"Dang... sucks to be him but he sucks," Doyoung rolls his eyes, dismissing the topic and turning his focus to your arts and craft. 

"So what's all this this time?" he asks, sipping his coffee and waiting for you to speak. 

"Making sea shells for the kids to colour at the daycare," you explain, "Wanna help?" offering him to assist you is now your second nature, he'd have helped you even if you didn't want him to because you learn that's just who he is when he likes someone.

Though, he always acts hesitant at first, "Didn't you do something like this yesterday? 

"This week's theme is the ocean and sea stuff!" 

Nodding at you, he takes the glue stick from your table and pushes his sleeves upwards, "I'm glueing stuff as usual right?" he asks, drinking his coffee again and you mimic him, sipping from your straw too as you nod. 

"After this, I want three kisses as a reward," he announces and you hum, nodding your head firmly. "Deal,"

And so far, Doyoung has gotten more than just three kisses from you for assisting you with the arts and craft for your part-time but you know, even if you were doing this stuff for fun, Kim Doyoung would still always asks for kisses in return for helping you glue things together.

©KDYISM, 2023 ALL RIGHTS RESERVED

yunn note: thank you for reading, and i hope you liked it <3 comments, reblogs, and likes are appreciated!

[kookies2000]

Whenever I go into some Dreamworks Trolls fan art or fan fics, there's always one person who is surprised that Trolls has a fandom. Yes, we do have one. It's small but enough to feed us. And it's only getting bigger. Why is there a fandom? How is this fandom still going?

Least Problematic Fandom

"But we're not all the same........ Denying our differences is denying who we really are."

The 2nd film had a really deep message for a movie aimed at babies. Going against "we're all the same" message. And telling instead that differences do matter, our culture matters, our lives matter, the way we look matters and that's beautiful. When we accept that we're different and not forcing anything on each other, we can live in harmony. This lesson is what the fandom is built on.

The moment someone takes a look into this fandom, we welcome them with cupcakes, sweets, and warm hugs. The entire fandom is the least problematic one I've ever been in. Never been in a fight, always complimenting each other and just being at peace. We never had ship wars as far as I know. We're all just having fun by putting every character with every character on a ship. I've seen people who are Christians in the fandom have zero problems with the LGBT+ community. Yes, we exist, and we're in the Trolls fandom for some reason. 😂 No one ever fought on what color skin we made the Trolls when we humanized them. Mostly because if anyone drew the Funk Trolls as white, we just walked past them without giving them attention. Or just point out that they are black coded, and that's it.

It's just peaceful here in this fandom. This fandom really helped me out mentally and emotionally. Because a lot of people in the fandom also faced some form of abuse or depression. We saw the 1st film, and it just felt like a warm hug while someone sung a lullaby to calm us down.

In summery, the fandom is filled with people who understand pain and empathy. The franchise created a safe zone for us to heal and relax.

Artists

The moment an artist takes a look in here, they get hypnotized by all the color pallets they can use. You can be pastel like the Pop Trolls. Emo, goth, punk with the Rock Trolls. Play with lighting with the Tech Trolls. Ect. All the cutesy and marshmallow like characters they can create. Or turn into some darker AU. The anatomy is too cute to not try to mimic or create in your own style. The world building and the endless number of worlds that they can create. You can create your own kingdom based on your favorite type of music. You can create the way your troll/charaters will look like based on your music. If you want to practice on mirrors and reflective surfaces, you have the Funk Kingdom to draw. Want to do glitter? The desert is pure glitter for sand. The Country Trolls live in a town made of yarn. The pop trolls have a waterfall made of streamers. This is endless creativity for artists. I've seen artists come into our fandom and use the characters and world as practice before moving on to the next fandom. But they always come back for more practice or just to hang out.

Also, the thought of making a troll mixed in with different tribes is pretty cool. As in, what if a Rock Troll and Classical troll had a kid? Goth like angle? A little punk looking guy with angelic and glittery wings?

Writing

I can relate to this one. Again, the world building is endless. You can create your own kingdom based on your favorite music. You can create your own rules, your citizens' behavior, and how this kingdom works. The fun part is creating your own royal family.

But the AUs are where it's at. I created a lot of Fairytale AUs as a teen using the characters because they just worked well. My very first was a Tangled AU with Poppy as Rupunzel and Branch as Flynn. I made the nose joke work by making the kingdom mess up Branches colors. An inside joke with in the fandom. The franchise just gives off a lot of fairytale vibes.

When the 1st film came out, the characters each had their own story. Which was cool and gave writers ideas on what to write. And I loved to humanize them because I liked the thought of Fuzzbert being def or mute because he can't talk clearly as a troll.

Not to mention, I can create an AU where the Trolls or humanized versions of them live in a world where segregation is an issue. Which 100% fits the franchise because in the 2nd film, every tribe is supposed to be a different culture. In other words, a different race. And the Trolls would separate themselves out of fear that the Pop tribe would try to colonize them and take away their culture.

There are just a lot of concepts you can use in this fandom.

Music

Let's keep this short because this post is long enough. People have openly said they don't like the movies, but they still watch it for the music. Seriously, listen to the soundtracks. They have musical artists, new ones like K-pop bands, and legends like Mary Jane Blige. The songs have a deeper meaning when you watch the film, too. Baiscally, candy for the ears.

Aesthetic

Lastly, people just like it for eye candy. The 80s aesthetic I'm the 1st film appealed to a lot. And the 2nd movie introduced more by bringing in Rock Trolls and their darker and punk like aesthetic. People fell in love with the Tech Trolls for their designs and the fact they live in an underwater kingdom that glows. It's just pure eye candy and pleasing to look at.

So yeah!

These are the reasons why our fandom is a thing and still thriving. We're super excited for the 3rd film and can't wait for more world building and new characters.

[maigo-san]

hi zig!! can i ask ❤️💭 and 💣 for the ask game? (((o(*°▽°*)o)))

hi leafie!!! Sorry for the late reply, I just got on my tumblr tonight since my touch screen is a bit of a mess lol

I've answered ❤️ and 💣 here, so I'm gonna repost the answers here, answer 💭 and one that I haven't answered which is ☀️!

❤️ - what are your favorite kind of RenTan stories? (Canon, Rengoku lives, modern… etc)

definitely, Rengoku Lives stories since it's just the default. It's so fun to fiddle with it. Maybe it's because of the time period or the fact that it's directly from gtg's ideas, it just hits harder. But I've been really liking stories where one or both of them are mystical beings, whether it's the konpon au, dragon tan, fox scholar kyou~ I can't choose, they're all so gooood

💣 - share your most controversial RenTan take. Set your thoughts ablaze!!

BHAHAHA WHYYYYY

Kyoujurou has a fat ass!

jk.

I honestly don't know~ maybe one of the reasons I'm die-hard for rntn out of all of my ships is because I tolerate most headcanon lmfao even the darkest or dead dovey... idk. I wrote and made some questionable stuff myself so usually, if there's an au or trope I can't get behind, it's just how the author/artist executes it and if I have the energy, I'll try it with my own version. I get to make something I like and rntn gets more content

Like for example, I think Kyoujurou is not as experienced as Tanjirou just because he's older. There's barely anything he accomplished romantically or sexually around those five years gap. He's as young and awkward as Tan. But I can see why people would think that. He's adored by so many people. But so was Tanjirou and I feel, if Tanjirou becomes a charcoal burner for a bit longer, it could be the other way around since Kyoujurou is a bit intimidating.

Hey, maybe he learned everything just from three volumes of shunga and erotic novels!

💭 - In a world where the train ride lasted longer, what do Rengoku and Tanjiro dream of?

this is a very interesting question tbh. To make the train longer, that means Nezuko had to get out of her box way later so she didn't knock Tanjirou's forehead and cried when it bled. As for Kyoujurou, his dream did last the longest out of all of them and I know it was for the kamabokos' screen time, but I still love to speculate on what takes him so long to wake up.

I like the idea of Tanjirou noticing the uncanniness of the dream. Maybe Nezuko finally came down from picking veggies and he asked things like, "where are your nozzles?" or wondered why Nezuko's eyes looked weird (since he got used to her demon eyes). I imagine he had to live till the next day and had to go down to sell charcoal and heard whispers of villagers about a missing person and started sniffing the air for a trace of something he didn't know but he had a bad feeling about. I wanted to see him realize that he had been living with demons all his life and that slow and damning realization is enough to wake him up.

But as for Kyoujurou, I like to think that he succumbs further and deeper into his dream instead. And I feel he'll just dream about waiting.

Like somehow time stretches and no crow called him for a mission until the sky turns dark and he had to eat dinner with his family which is just filled with silence and awkwardness with Kyoujurou occasionally trying to strike up a conversation with Senjurou about school or something. His father don't usually eat with them but maybe in that particular day, Shinjurou got out of his room to join them and when Kyoujurou tried to strike up a conversation, which sadly only revolves around demon slaying, it pissed Shinjurou off and he went on ranting about Kyoujurou taking this too seriously or wondering why Kyoujurou didn't have anything else to talk about.

Someone told me Kyoujurou is the only one who has a shitty dream lol and I get it but it's more like it purposely mimics his real life not only because Enmnu won't blow his cover but aEnmu's blood demon art probably also deems it the life he "wanted". Like, to Kyoujurou it's impossible to accept a different reality. It'll be too uncanny for him and he'll wake up sooner.

But then, I'm gonna twist canon a bit, during the last scene of Mugen Train he said he remembered to tell Tanjirou to visit his family home. So as the dream continues, he started to daydream. How he wished he had a tsuguko. He wished in his bleak world, he met someone new that could maybe give a bit of color. He's grateful for his family but he said so himself, he's constantly worried about Senjurou and that he had it worse than Kyou, he really felt the family fell apart after Ruka died, and he never smiled whenever talking to Shinjurou.

Somehow he saw flashes of checkered haori like when Tan saw flashes of Nezuko's box. After dinner, he chased after that mysterious back around the very quiet and maze-like neighborhood and he still didn't see it coming. Like he still didn't realize he was under BDA attack. Cuz I think, in Enmu's logic, Tanjirou could be the "dream that he wanted". Like, maybe at first it seemed he wanted life to be the way it is, but apparently, he also has his own desire which is to meet someone new.

He might not remember Tanjirou's name or face but he had this strong feeling when he saw dream-Tanjirou and it pushes him further and further away from reality.

Maybe by the time he catches Tanjirou's shadow, the whole world crumbles because the girl finally pierced his spiritual core OR when he catches Tanjirou's shadow, he could hear Tanjirou's voice around him but not from dream Tanjirou, but from real Tanjirou who was trying to wake him up, screaming his name.

☀️ - How did you watch Mugen train for the first time? (In theaters, at home…)

Watched it at home on some illegal streaming site (I haven't installed netflix at that time yet), I don't remember much but I think I watched Mugen Train first before finishing season 1 LMAO like I literally didn't know Tanjirou that well but I respect him for the down-badness.

Anyway, that's all! Thank you for the ask, leafie!!

[biographygen]

15 Winter Fall Nail Ideas in December Season

Discover 15 stunning winter fall nail ideas perfect for the December season. Elevate your style with festive designs that capture the essence of winter. A fresh batch of winter nail designs is here to help you get ready and festive as we prepare for the return of holiday gatherings and activities. And nails are turning out to be more enjoyable than ever this year. Who among us hasn't felt the fleeting delight of gazing down at a pop of our favorite winter nail polish or a hint of shimmer peering back at us between endless meetings. Winter nail art this season is all about having as much fun as possible with the least amount of effort. Of course, the most popular winter nail colors are always the stunning deep greens and dark reds. However, there are also lots of unexpected winter manicures that you can do from the comfort of your couch, ideally while sipping wine and watching something uplifting on Netflix. Consider glittery nail polishes that resemble glistening Christmas lights and go well with winter hairstyles and makeup, or fun stickers that mimic nail art without the hassle. For the best winter nail designs and holiday nail styles that will last you through the season and into 2025, regardless of your taste or level of skill, continue reading. Let's toast to that.

Winter Fall Nail Ideas

1. Evergreen

During the colder months, blue and silver tones look great, but don't dismiss green too quickly. This color conjures up a serene evergreen forest. Use a magnetic nail polish and make a fun design with a magnet, like this one, for a little extra drama. 2. Smoking Hot

Now, this isn't exactly do-it-yourself material, but it's a great way to get ideas for your next salon visit. We adore how delicate the smoke-y lines are to fully appreciate the manicure, you must give it a good look. 3. Red Matte

Are you looking for a mani that is easy to do yourself but still makes a big statement? Your search is now over. A stylish matte red manicure is the epitome of winter. Apply OPI's Matte Top Coat over your preferred red nail polish to create the look. 4. Festive Plaid

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Cherry-mocha nails are adorable, warm, and incredibly fashionable, making them ideal for winter. Get the look with the audacity of JinSoon. 6. Metallic Style

Metallic Elegance nail art adds a hint of refinement. You can paint the entire nail a metallic color or use metallic colors like silver or gold to create details like accents or patterns. 7. Frosty Advice

Use the Frosty Tips nail art style to give your nails a hint of the Arctic. Start by painting your nails white, then use blue and silver polish to add details like snowflakes or falling snow. 8. Candy Cane

Candy cane accent nails add a festive touch to red Christmas nails. Choose a stripe design or go really literal with tiny candy cane Winter Fall Nail Ideas nail art. Unable to decide. 9. Glitter of Bronze

Use bronze metallic instead of rose gold, silver, or gold. In addition to being in line with the current fad for brown and latte makeup, it also looks stylish on all skin tones, particularly when combined with geometric Winter Fall Nail Ideas nail art. 10. Within the Stars

Use blue hues and celestial accents to showcase your astrological side. We adore creating a high-impact manicure in a matter of minutes with nail stickers like these Sally Hansen Nail Accents in Celestial Eclipse. 11. Joy of Christmas

With these smiling numbers, "Happy holidays" takes on a more literal meaning. I think those Santa hats are adorable. 12. Cow Print in reverse

Since we first saw this reverse cow-print manicure, we haven't been able to stop thinking about it. For a cool finish, pair with an icy blue outline. 13. Love in Abstraction

This Valentine's Day heart manicure is a great example of how to take a classic and make it unique. Simply put, the heart imagery is subtly elevated and not overtly obvious. Video Credit - Winter Fall Nail Ideas 14. Vivian's Sweet Swirls book

Personally, I'd like to try this adorable Winter Fall Nail Ideas design this year adore how the French tip and swirl go together. 15. Valentine's Day colors

A traditional red heart Winter Fall Nail Ideas design for February is always a good choice! For the month of love, these enormous heart-shaped tips are very fashionable. Video Credit - Winter Fall Nail Ideas In summary: Winter Fall Nail Ideas designs are a great way to add to the festive mood of the cold season in addition to being a means of expressing personal style. Feel free to use your imagination to create a stunning nail art canvas on your hands, which will liven up every winter step. FAQ Q1. What is the trend for nail design in winter?Ans. The trend for nail design in winter theme includes cool-toned hues, cable-knit textures, and lots of glitter, of course. Q2. What color is nice for winter nails?Ans. A nice color for winter nails midnight blue for choice for winter.Q3. What is the fall nail trend?Ans. Deep reds and browns with hints of green or blue are the colors that will be in style in 2024.Q4. What nail color is in fashion now in winter?Ans. Nail fashion now in winter like color chocolate brown and olive green.Q5. What are the best winter colors?Ans. The best winter colors ruby red, sapphire blue, and emerald green.  Read the full article

[diedeilv]

You're okay!

It does make sense. Sometimes I'm overwhelmed, but that's only because I'm either incredibly nervous or I think it'd be negative.

Arabic poetry is definitely beautiful, I read a lot of it when I got into literature, and the words in English was always so pretty. It's a talent to have Arabic as your first language, it seems very complicated. Then to be fluent in English? You're smart. I've been writing since I was a child. I firmly believe it's the only thing I'm good at so I've always been inspired.

Uhhh, not really? It honestly depends on if I'm tired during the day or the night. It's very sporadic, I don't have a schedule.

I only play horror and puzzle games on roblox too, it's very fun. I also play TB: Mobile but that's about it. I've been meaning to get into yandere games though.

I like cats, and snakes, and birds, and anything in the ocean. And owls are pretty cute, I agree.

Personally I've only liked one of your posts. But liking all of them is reasonable. And I honestly don't remember if you've interacted with my posts are not.

I've been in quite a few fights, and I haven't lost one of them. I got the cops called on me once. Twice, actually.. I broke a guy's nose. Mmm. Yeah! And that's cute. You think I’d break so easily? I’m not one to kneel, and you’re not getting any satisfaction from seeing me down. You can try, though. It won’t go how you expect.

Mhm! Really depends on the person’s situation. what do you mean by “negative?” Like the advice they gave was negative? Or you found it negative yourself even though the person who gave it was supposed to be positive?

That’s good! I’m glad you were able to enjoy Arabic poetry. Sometimes I recommend it to people and they take it the wrong way.. really wish some people would get into it more and read it more often since it really is something so beautiful. Thank you for the compliments! They warm my heart a lot. It’s odd cause since just recently in October I was actually able to properly convey my feelings and thoughts in English, normally I struggle with it a lot since I feel like there’s not enough words for me to express how I feel, especially stronger feelings. Might be just me but English kind of lacks words for emotional communication? Or could be that I’m just not used to doing it in English.

I’ve did a few things as a child, I did art and drew, sang songs for people, tried dancing, gaming etc. Most things I left except writing and doing henna (you could include gaming but it’s not something I’m as into now? Sometimes I would quit here and there.) I still write a lot and do henna designs. Two things I pride myself knowing that I’m good at them.

Interesting! I sleep whenever my work lets me, it’s either I stay up the whole day and night working or I sleep the entire day, my weekends are normally used as a recharge for me to sleep and try to get those hours I miss during the week back.

Which games on Roblox have you played? I’ve played the entire series of the mimic and waiting for a new season. I’ve also played interliminality, and some smaller ones. Mm I could give you some recommendations for yandere games like “Crimson Gray” or “You, me and her” Both are popular and pretty surface level. Good for someone who’s just getting into it.

Ooh always wanted a cat as a pet but my parents would never let me, my cousin does have an orange cat which scratches me a lot whenever I come over, she’s still so adorable though.

Not surprised! Turns out you’re not “all bark and no bite.” Just makes me even more excited. I’ve done my best that whenever I fight someone I won’t get in legal trouble, so it’s always in a private area. Once when fighting a girl, I broke her tooth, bruised almost her whole body, entire face covered in blood. I also pulled out her hair so strong that some of it actually ripped off and you could see the literal bald spot, It was like an empty patch in her hair. God now I look back at it I feel bad for her.. but I hated her guts so much. The fight was pretty romantic though.. it’s weird but it gives me butterflies to treat someone else the same. I did recently punch and wrestle someone but it was very minimal compared to what I usually do, and they surrendered really quick. Yknow what I’ll learn from you and try to break someone’s nose the next time I fight someone. I’m not breaking easily either, I’m not letting you see me beg or on my knees till the day I die. I’m not admitting defeat at all. You’re definitely strong I’ll admit but you won’t see a day to defeat me.

[bandaidcrybaby]

update for the archival reasons of this blog, part 2

im sure youre shocked to know that tumblr has a character limit. I myself didnt find this out until part of me started running her mouth at 2 am before subsequently deciding i had lost my collective mind and decided to do the Correct Thing and Go To Bed.

Not like i actually found that out then and there, mind you, i exist to write code and read maps and be Autistic about Squids and Hamsters, I had to find out when that other part finally decided to let the rest of my brain know on her own free will. again. memory loss is one of the two cleanly defining features of DID. That brings up two things though, my nearly next to impossible dual diagnosis (that i was ALSO not aware of) and my gender. Autism and trauma disorders mimic eachother and effect eachother in similar ways. except no they do not, that's just a reflection on the societal inability to NOT raise a traumatized autistic person. which is ass. Unfortunately when half of your trauma around schooling stems upon you being made a public spectacle/example of to be laughed at and physically beaten in that same public setting for your social ineptitude, extreme sensory problems, and incessant need to talk at length about nothing but a nigh encyclopedic knowledge of exactly two things: pre-2005 Japanese video games for Children, and Trains... yeah. that was... I'm a little surprised no one clocked the Autism earlier, frankly. and then theres my gender, which is quite simple: My pronouns are I/Me/Myself. Everything else is a You Problem. Gender is silly and I am a silly goose. Animal Control will not catch me and even if they do, I'm still their problem without a single solution. Go ahead! put me in the woods! The fish will come back pregnant!! Speakin of, I finally have approximate Dates for both removing my ability to get pregnant AND getting my tits off (both by the end of this year :D!) "doesnt that make you a trans guy?" some nurses ask- again. see the beginning of this paragraph. I am who you say I am, to quote Jesus the Christ. my gender is yes, no, sometimes, and forget about it. I dont need one. None of my parts Identify much differently to that (one says "it changes to the tune of the bit, I identify as whatever is funniest for the moment," one says "I'm a man in the dyke way and a woman in the faggot way", and the last says "I'm six and like the toys for boys. I'll get back to you when I care enough to have a real answer." ) Oh also I've learned how RSS and all sorts of code works. Which is neat! and Fun! and i've gotten super into turning off my computer!!!! and going outside!! and playing! and enjoying the sunlight! and people!! the world is great and beautiful and im so so so glad im in it!!! I'm so glad squids are real!!!!!! "Squids" being community and love and art and color and city metros and world cultures and and and!!!!!!!! I have so much love in my heart. I'm not afraid to tell anyone how much I love them anymore. I have found True Peace. Also the desperate need for a functional wheelchair to combat the actual things severely medically wrong with me and to go back to work because I need to actually submit my production order for those shirts before AB in late march. Thank you all for reading. I'm glad to be where I am and for anyone who feels lost and stranded and is finding even a little comfort in the posts i made in college, I love you, I see you, It will get better- but you need to try. This blog will remain up and in-tact for archival purposes only <3

[gabegade]

I actually made an oc and only noticed the dynamic above after I was already planning their wedding, so here's the stuff that's about my oc specifically:

- she is 32 ~33 years old

- everyone calls her Tania, but thats not her name, very few people know that its not her name, Buggy only learns that later. She doesnt really try to hide her name it just ends up happening.

- Buggy is AuDHD because I say so, and so is Tania.

- Theyre both the type to get really good at a lot of things really fast, but not particularly great at anything. And both of their responses to that situation is to try and make their "good" measure up to everyone else's "great", with varying levels of sucess.

- She loves listening to Buggy talk about improvements he made to his bombs or to the circus acts, even if she needs to ask a shit ton of clarifying questions, which he loves when she asks. She tells him about the craftsmanship of the places she's visited, talking for a whole hour about this one village's way of weaving wire to strenghten thei walls of their buildings.

- As soon as the subject is in any way, shape, or form, connected to theater or the circus scene, they start talking so fast pretty much no one else can understand them. As much as Tania wants to stay out of the spotlight, she loves watching a good performance, if Buggy is the greatest star, then Tania is the greatest patron of the arts, shes always bringing in stray artists to Buggy, and they usually turn out to be pretty good.

- they mostly call each other by their names, since their names pretty much sound like nicknames already, but when theyre alone, sometimes he calls her his angel, and she calls him lovebug.

- she can mimic all sorts of noises, and does impressions sometimes to make people laugh, but her real laugh is completely silent, youll look at her and shes doubling over but no sound comes out out of her mouth, so whenever buggy makes a joke he's proud of he makes sure to look at her to check if shes laughing, he gets a little bummed if he can hear her laughing because that means shes faking it.

- Obviously with Buggy's powers there's limbs in unexpected places, but one day Buggy wakes up using a leg as a pillow only to realize both his legs are still attached to him. Tania is inhumanly flexible due to various reasons and has a tendency to turn herself into a pretzel when she can't sleep.

- She likes being creepy for fun, would get along great with Perona.

- Her favorite food is a sausage roll, which is similar to corn dogs but theyre breaded and deep fried.

- in my mind, when buggy separates you can see the cross section, when you touch it, it feels like skin, but when you look at it, you can see all the bones and muscles and guts moving. Tania loves watching the way his body moves on the inside, she doesnt tell him how much until hes too in love w her to be put off by it.

- shes a decent cook, but her specialty is soups and stews, because she liked to pretend she was a witch in front of her cauldron when she was younger, so she got a lot of practice. She still cackles like a witch at least once whenever she makes soup.

- Tania is fairly well tempered, but will go from 0 to 100 once the limits of her tolerance are reached, Buggy likes it a bit too much, he enjoys being the sane one every once in a while.

- shes not the captain of her ship, shes the first mate, and her ship is more theater themed, they say there's a ghost on the ship who gives advice to aspiring artists, but it's just Tania, she'd rather never tell anyone though.

Buggy with a partner thats the other side of the proverbial coin

-they look a bit strange together but as soon as they open their mouths you realize, theyre the same person in different flavors.

- Buggy is like a parrot, his partner is like a crow, theyre both smart, chaotic, and fond of shiny things.

- Buggy is a morning person, his partner sleeps past noon

- his partner speaks in a very blunt and efficient manner, or tries to. The truth is theyre incredibly awkward and terrible with words, zero charisma, so they default to speaking un a straightforward way since doing any theatrics never ends up how they intended. Theyre very jealous of Buggy's natural charisma and his way with words, they wish they could come up with witty comebacks, or even save a joke that didn't land like he does.

- Buggy shouts a lot and is genuinely scary when reprimanding his crew, but his actual words are pretty lenient. His partner is very calm and gentle sounding, they even sound encouraging, but their words are cutthroat, and they're not even trying to be mean, they just... expect better. The crew hates it when Buggy asks them to look over their acts.

- just like Buggy seems to attract attention especially when he doesnt want to, his partner fades into the background no matter where they are or what absurd thing they do, and they're perfectly happy with that, they're happy enough being part of the audience, hates having to do "plot relevant" work.

- dresses in blacks and grays exclusively, no particular style, likes dressing to match their surroundings, but always in dull and dark colors. Buggy is conflicted because he has no idea how to get them clothes at first, but then he realizes the outfits CAN be eye catching and over the top, they just have to be black and white! They end up looking like a mime when hanging out with his crew, which makes them disappear amongst the rest of the circus, so it works out.

- unlike Buggy, his partner is very confident in themself and their appearance. It kinda boosts his own self esteem as well, since if someone that comfortable in their own skin is into him, he must have something nice going on.

- regardless of gender, Buggy loves shoving his face on his partner's chest, he keeps a bandana specifically dedicated for putting in on said chest in order to protect his partner's clothes from his makeup, its kind of adorable, which is why he usually only does it when theyre alone

- theyre both bisexual, because I say so, and they check out hot people together, they play smash or pass with wanted posters and other people that appear on the journal. They have very different tastes and every time they both wonder how they even got together.

[lizard-dumbass]

I finished the painting

[autisticblueteam]

Art done for a scene I wrote for something that I haven’t published yet, excerpt of the text under the cut, but the important thing to know is that Kazu is angrily signing ‘rabbit’ because it’s part of Cammie’s sign name and she just made a bad kazoo joke.

Sign? he mouths. Her raised brow becomes furrowed brows; he doesn’t know any sign, what does he— Teach me?

The oh is visible on Cammie’s face, and she sits up as she raises her hands.

She points at her own chest and then holds up one hand, palm facing the open space to the opposite side, and pushes an extended finger along the palm towards the front of the bed. ‘I’ll try,’ the signs say, and she mouths it at the same time.

Kazu nods, then starts looking around the room. First, he points at Nugget, who stowed away on Cammie’s shoulder when he picked her up, and mouths robot. It’s rather relevant to their line of work, after all.

Cammie snickers quietly and shows him the sign—mimicking robotic movements with her arms. He bites back his own laugh and mouths really? and yes, really, she repeats the motion to emphasise just how really it is. Sometimes signs are just that self-explanatory. 

Kazu mimics it in turn and it’s Cammie’s turn to try not to laugh, because somehow it’s funnier when he does it, big tough Kazu doing the robot, and then he’s pointing at the other two beds. Names?

Cammie’s fingers flash through the signs for each letter so fast Kazu doesn’t manage to keep up, the first time, even with names as short as Val, Yaz, Kazu, Chase and Cammie. So she repeats them again, shows him each letter sign for a couple of seconds and lets him repeat it back at her before moving on.

But, she mouths, signing as she does, more fun is—

She signs the sign for ‘chase’, the verb: two pointed fingers wiggling out into the space in front of her. Then, she signs the fingerspell version again to get the point across.

Next is the letter V followed by the sign for dance: two fingers out, her hands being shaken in front of her chest. Val. Kazu looks particularly amused by that one, his gaze flicking past her to the sleeping form on the bed beneath hers.

Her own name is signed as C and rabbit: both hands miming rabbit ears up at the top of her head. Yaz is signed as Y and bird: the index finger being closed against the thumb, up by her mouth, like a chattering beak. And Kazu— well, there’s a certain glint in her eye, if you know her well enough to spot it, that’s followed by her miming a kazoo.

It takes Kazu just a second, brow furrowing as he waits for her to explain what the sign is before it clicks and in an instant his expression shifts to comically annoyed. He opens his mouth to protest and only catches himself at the last second, an aborted sound still making it up his throat.

Cammie’s shoulders start shaking and she has to cover her mouth to stop herself laughing out loud. Looking at his face does nothing to help matters, especially when he signs her own sign name back at her with indignant gestures.

It takes a good minute to compose herself enough to shake her head and cross her hands in front of her a few times—not really, Kazu. She signs K and egg, both mouthing and fingerspelling to get the point across.

Immediately, Kazu’s expression softens again, though he rolls his eyes and pulls her in to give her a noogie that she fails not to start laughing at—but if she wakes either of the others, well, no one complains.

[ladyc0312]

A Jikook Guide to RunBTS: 112-121

Yes, I'm still doing these! It's just happening more slowly than I'd like because writing for work + writing fic + trying to go to bed before midnight + so much amazing content being released that clearly must be poured over and dissected = less time to make guides. For anyone still with me, he's the next section!

Ep 112 “Dalbang School Part 1” (Ep: 5 / KM: 4)

The ones with BTS in a classroom driving Teacher Jin insane

5:58 - JM declares that he and Taehyung will pair up (by being the first to hug each other in a game), but then when Hobi blows the whistle at 6:38, JK runs over to hug JM before Tae can get to him.

6:58 - Jin asks why JM said he wanted Tae and then hugged JK. JM explains that he didn't hug him, he just found himself in JK's hug as JK cackles in the background.

7:24 - When Jin blows his whistle at the class, JK and JM mirror each other in putting a finger in one of their ears.

7:35 - Teammates JK and JM are immediately on the same page about wanting their team name to be Kim Seokjin. When they have to change it, JM quickly picks up JK's suggestion that they call their team Bang Sihyuk. These don't sound like particularly unique moments, but when you watch it, it just really strikes you how in sync the two of them are in terms of physicality, ideas, and sense of humor.

9:52 - After Jin comments that he heard JM did very well in school, JK adds that JM was the top student. When someone else asks if JM was the best or second-best, JK forcefully reiterates that he was the best student.

12:45 - When they get a question right, JK and JM clasp hands and bump their shoulders together.

13:10 - JM and JK both goof around, speaking in satoori and challenging JHope to a fight of sorts.

13:27 - When Jin repeats that they got the question right, JK and JM do exactly the same as 12:45, but seated this time.

14:22, 14:36, 15:13 - In all three of these moments, JM nearly falls over laughing at something JK did that no one else found anywhere near as funny.

23:36 - When JK says he's good at this game, JM laughs and pokes JK in the chest with a marker.

BEHIND 2:30 - JM takes a selfie of him and JK with his personal phone while they're supposed to be paying attention to Jin.

6:35 - JK cheers on JM and calls him Jimin-ssi when JM announces he's doing well on this spot-the-difference round. When Jimin modifies the brag to say he only found four, JK says "that's still quite impressive."

Ep 113 “Dalbang School Part 2” (Ep: 5 / KM: 4)

4:50 - We all know how JK is when he gets into his "focus" zone, especially in a competitive environment. But here, when JM rather rudely interrupts JK's melodica practice, JK just starts playing around with him and giggles.

7:41 - As RM & JH take their turn, jikook are whispering to each other in the back row.

11:42 - After quickly agreeing on a lunch option, jikook do a high five / handshake thing and then JM says "we think alike" and "we get along pretty well." JK responds "that's exactly it" and the on-screen captions tells us they are a "good match."

22:20 - This is where JK and JM start switching back and forth carrying each other on their backs to get under a limbo stick.

They go again at 23:35, 26:11, and 28:13.

And again at 30:22 and 32:16 and 34:30 because, even though they lost, they want to try to do it again to show that they can as a "matter of pride."

25:00 - JK points something out to JM and then pats his butt.

33:33 - JM announces they lost, and then jikook do another handshake / high five thing.

34:33 - JM does an... interesting pose for the camera where he puts his hand on a bent-over JK's back and smirks.

34:56 - Yet another handshake and JM pats JK on the back when they finally pass the limbo challenge.

BEHIND 5:55 - While examining the limbo setup, JM comments that JK is good at this. JK comes over to give a demonstration and JM watches him be silly with it and says "he's a strange kid" fondly.

6:21 - Another jikook limbo attempt - this one was cut because they did it too easily.

Ep 114 “League of Number One Part 1” (Ep: 3 / KM: 1)

The ones where BTS play games with League of Legends world champions

3:55 - After Jimin protests that he shouldn't be out, JK tells his hyung to turn around and face the back.

14:40 - JK fake-boxes JM after losing the hammer game.

18:18 - JK mimics Jimin's BWL intro.

Ep 115 “League of Number One Part 2” (Ep: 2 / KM: .5)

BEHIND

7:05 - JK comes over to check on Jimin's phone to make sure he's actually visible in the selfie the teams take.

Ep 116 “Team-Building Special Part 1” (Ep: 4 / KM: 1)

The ones with random games in that rec room-looking place that are a lot more fun than they sound

22:14 - JM and JK play around with the jump rope during breaktime.

22:26 - JM and JK play around like they're boxing with each other.

BEHIND 5:15 - JK appears to take an interest in watching JM's... back as he moves around acting out potential poses.

Ep 117 “Team-Building Special Part 1” (Ep: 4 / KM: 2)

5:30 - Despite showing pretty much everyone else touching everyone else in the pose guessing game, we don't get a single shot here or in the behind of JK feeling up Jimin. The above photo proves that it happened, though, so definitely side-eyeing the editors, here.

BEHIND 5:35 - JK keeps throwing water bottles when they're supposed to be taking a group photo. Jimin pulls him back next to him and puts an arm around his neck. JK puts an arm around Jimin's shoulders in return.

7:51 - After it's explained that JK is staying late to watch Jin do his penalty, a packed-up Jimin comes over and stands next to JK, waiting until they're done to leave.

Ep 118 “Photo Story Part 1” (Ep: 3 / KM: 3)

The ones where BTS play a Samsung-sponsored game involving getting specific pictures while a spy tries to ruin the fun

4:22 - JM appears to direct JK to go punish Tae and pats JK's back when he starts to obey. Something happens that we don't see when the angle changes - next thing we see, JM seems to be pushing JK? JM then giggles at JK pretending to beat up Tae. (After this, JK spins around like a ballerina. Not jikook-related, just adorable.)

29:51 - JK calls Jimin twice without adding "hyung."

32:28 - JM pulls JK along by the wrist. Meanwhile, J-Hope once again mixes up their names.

32:44 - Though there is now a group walking slowly together and he doesn't need to pull him along anymore, Jimin takes JK's hand again.

37:02 - There are a bunch of seats open in the room, but Jimin walks over to sit right next to JK.

BEHIND 5:40 - When JM tries to steal a post-it from JK, JK scolds him in satoori banmal. JM calls him out for not calling him with hyung and JK quickly apologizes (in a way some k-army jikookers have said is like how a married person would respond to their nagging spouse!).

6:09 - JK and JM meet up and JK tells JM he's exhausted. There's a kind of weird moment that I fully admit I may be reading too much into where JK seems to be walking right towards JM, then abruptly stops and turns, looking at the camera, before walking with Jimin in a different direction than he had been heading. Then, JM says he thinks their matching shirts are hilarious and that it's funny they're wearing them for the show.

Ep 119 “Photo Story Part 2” (Ep: 4 / KM: 3)

8:21 - "You are me, I am you" moment: Jimin does a ballet spin the same way JK did in part one.

11:18 - JK is the only one to vote for JM to be able to keep a picture in other than Jin (who has nefarious reasons for doing so).

29:40 - JM goes over to help JK see how many of his photos the spy ruined and almost falls over laughing when it becomes clear it's nearly all of them.

34:21 - JM puts his hand on JK's shaking leg to help calm him (see above photo), but JK is so irritated that it doesn't work like it usually does. Poor bunny!

35:17 - JM pulls at JK's shirt and hand, then folds over his back while trying to get him to confess that he actually lost.

38:24 - JM has a comforting hand on JK's neck when he's acting upset about losing.

38:32 - When it seems like JK is struggling to come up with an ending statement, JM helps prompt him.

BEHIND

0:55 - JK talks about how amazing it is that Jimin found so many cards.

3:51 - When JK is playing with the sequin art on the front of his shirt, JM leans over and starts rubbing on them, too.

5:11 - Jimin tells JK that, if he wins, he's going to make the loser hike Mt. Achasan. JK asks why he's looking at him when he says that and they both laugh. Jimin pats JK's chest and they laugh even harder. Jin and Tae both have "omg, these two" looks on their faces.

Ep 120 “Reply BTS Village Part 1” (Ep: 3 / KM: 2)

The ones with a real-life Mafia game inexplicably set in a 1970s village. It's... fairly difficult to follow, but the guys are into it and the outfits are great!

24:40 - Jimin breaks character and laughs when asking JK if he's the culprit.

29:40 - Caption: "The air is undeniably tense between Gamer Jeon and Chief Park." Not explicitly jikook, I just find it funny that the writers seem to be playing with some real life relationships, making sope best friends and jikook have tension that leads to banter...

BEHIND

5:34 - When Jimin is playing with the yo-yo, JK expresses concern that he's going to hurt his fingers (caption: Kook is just worrying for his hyung). Then, JK asks poutily and in banmal if he can play with the yo-yo multiple times and Jimins says no. Like, JK straight-up gives his hyung a command ("let me try that") using informal speech and no one bats an eye!

5:58 - Jimin starts singing a song about an ants. JK watches him. JK initially says to Hobi "look, he's a fool/dummy!" (in banmal again), then starts singing along. He jokes that JM doesn't know all the lyrics and Jimin says back "quiet, you."

Ep 121 “Reply BTS Village Part 2” (Ep: 3 / KM: 2)

38:48 - After having asked for it a bunch in the Behind of the previous episode, JK now has Jimin's yoyo.

non-jikook note: At the end of this one, they "time travel" to solve a mystery in Joseon-era Korea and I can't express how badly I want to see that. Please come back to that, Run!

BEHIND 0:58 - Jimin and JK play around accusing each other with exaggerated accents and formality. Jimin comes up behind JK and reaches out to touch his shoulder, but stops when Tae joins them and accuses them of plotting together.

9:05 - When JK says everyone else is so good at acting, Jimin compliments him that he was very funny towards the end.