#still a possibility and probably but ahggg

[femmefaggot]

so she just wanted a family.

[isolated-loser]

Log 0015, 5:25am, 16/4/2019

So, DMing went well, I think anyway. Everyone said they had fun, and we finish everything off in one session. So, my goals were met. It was really fun to. I got to do a bunch of stupid voices, which was fun as hell. The campaign was set on this steampunk pillar in constant night with like a big clock tower in the center, like 25-30% of the populous were vampires. & like the big bad was a psychotic vampire with teal hair, robotic arms, and a skill with machinery. He like kidnapped the players, to like set up against his puppets, which were robots with human meat covering them.

I set up 1 encounter where the player went underground, well undermetal, cuss the ground was made of metal, but whateves, and a bunch of creep robotic doll spiders, would swarm them. Cuss like creep robotic doll spiders, are obviously going to attack, cuss like there creep. So, when the players killed some other of the spider dolls were supposed to start crying over their lost bother. Just to like fuck with the players. & I expected Lego to be the one to start the attacking but it was actually Tuck, which I didn’t expect, lel. I’m probably going to do some more DMing in the future, but not for the league, at least right now.

My Social Studies HiSET test went well. I actually got a 15, which is highest mark, I’ve gotten on any of my HiSETs so far. My math was a 14. Reading was a 13. Language was an 8, with a 2 in essay portion. -.- Ahggg, I don’t want to have to take that test again. Not like, I have a real choice in the matter. //cri~ Idk, I’ll figure it out, probable.

At 4:30 tomorrow, well today cuss it past mid night, I have my sciences test, not worried about that, at all, might actually be fun. Like, probably not, but maybe, science is fun, but tests aren’t. Like, really. Every one of these tests have sucked, all sorts of negative emotions. I wanted to cry during all of them, plus that anger. Especially during the Social Studies/Language tests.   Social Studies, mainly because, having to think about this godforsaken Country in any capacity, pisses me off to no end. & Language because, I’m given 2 hours for the test, 60 questions plus and essay. So, if I only take, 1 minute for each question. I’ll have an hour for the essay, an hour to form an opinion, and write a 5 paragraph essay on it. And then they give you on the most hollow of topics, with no resources, other than 10 EMPTY paragraphs of bullshit content. Like I mean the writers of these nightmares should be shot for how uninspired and baseless they are. Like, shit they physically hurt to read. This era of standardize testing, is complete and odder bullshit. All it’s broth is a bunch of stressed out suicidal children.

I’ve been playing Vampire: Bloodlines the Masquerade, lately in preparation for when the new one comes out. Excite.exe I want to have played it through with all the clans, by the time Vampire: Bloodlines the Masquerade 2 has come out. I’m starting with Tremere, cuss like vampire plus mage of some sort, equals awesome. I would’ve started with Malkavian, if it I hadn’t watched 2 let’s plays with it. Note, the let’s plays were by Gopher and Cry. It’s been pretty swish thus far, I mean what’s not to love, there are vampires, constant city night aesthetic, murder, & those old graphics.

I’ve been putting some steroid cream; I had from back when my eczema was really bad, on my acne, I feel like it’s helped some, like my skin feels a bit smother where it’s really damaged, and it helps a lot with redness. Though, I know I need to be really careful and not use it a whole lot, cuss it could thicken my skin? I don’t really know what that could mean, but when I read about steroid creams being used as an acne treatment a couple of years ago that was a complaint, one woman had. I didn’t read much on it though. I was on that site for backing soda/ Hydrogen peroxide, note don’t fucking use that shit on your skin, it will damaged the fucking hell out of it. I really fucked my skin up from that.

So, Thursday, I saw a little bit of Crush-kun’s chest, And like o/////o. Gods this dude sets my nerves on fire. He was acting all adorable too. I just… Like, he’s too old for me. I’m pretty sure he’s mid to late 20s. I know he went to high school with Law-biter, who’s 29, but I don’t know if they were the same year or not. I know he’s still in colleges, but that don’t mean shit. If I didn’t know any better I’d think the dude put a spell on me, & I don’t know any better, that shit possible I guess… Damn my brains a bitch who love fucking with me.

The new season of The Chilling Tales of Sabrina is pretty good; at least I like it so far. I’m on like episode 4, I think. It makes me feel witchy. I fucking love shows about witches, I need some more show about witches, like really, comedies, dramas, a fucking documentary. I just love content on witches and witchcraft.

So, I’m about to start playing in a 3.5 game of DND, run by Lego. I’m a bit apprehensive honestly. I feel like it’s going to be harder and I don’t know if Lego’s going to be a hard ass DM, he certainly has the propensity for it being a rules lawyer and all, but he’s also not really an asshole. So, idk. We’re making characters Thursday. I don’t really know what I want to play ether. Agghhhh…

I need to tack some picks of la draw to get on DA. Gods I keep meaning to do that and it doesn’t happen. It’s like that with so many things…

 Signing Off…

Favorite song today:  Changed My Mind – Todrick Hall

Mood: Average