#steph i'm calling upon u

[hoeforhao]

Rusted Away 🍂|| Kwon Soonyoung ||

🍁pairing : ex!soonyoung × fem!reader

🍁genre : exes to lovers, bakery shop au sort of, mostly angst, fluff towards the end, mild smut, mutual pining, slow build up.

🍁warnings : none for this part. will be added in the later ones!

🍁summary : you and soonyoung broke up almost two years ago because according to him sharing a common interest point with each other, to talk about at the end of the day was a necessity. How will things turn out for the spiriting away lovers now that their friend group has assigned them both the common job of baking muffins for the fall party!

🍁part : 1/3 [for fall-ing for u collab ]

🍁word count : 0.8k

🍁author's note : this is my first ever collab and am so excited!!! also i'm posting a full blown fic after a long break for writer's block and i don't know how this has turned out. please let me know your views ♡ last but not the least thanks to @playmetheclassics for beta-reading this for me! ily <3

"Y'all can't be serious right now" you sounded quite disgruntled with your two minions on other side of the conference call, plotting against your sanity, for universe knows how long!

"Well I mean you two quite literally run the two most loved bakeries of our neighborhood. It shouldn't come as a surprise that we will team you up." Steph's plain and unbothered voice echoes right into your ears, specially the 'team up part'.

"Yeah it shouldn't have been surprising or disappointing if it was someone else Steph. But it's with him. With Soonyoung. The Kwon Soonyoung. Out of all the people out there, you two would at least know best about what he did" your voice started shaking with each word it got closer to mentioning his name ; again ; after 2 whole years.

You still were in disbelief that your two most close ones did this to you. After being with you all those nights you cried till you couldn't breathe anymore, holding your trembling body whenever you had the worst breakdowns to seeing you slowly heal from the scabs and stabs left by him, Steph and Niall were with you the whole time. Them now setting you up with him again, for a silly little fall party felt nothing but seriously insensitive to you.

Pressing down on the side button of the phone, you were now sitting on the bed, all covered up in your comfort blankie with a blacked out screen laying on your lap ; the glass of which reflected the browns and caramels of the backdrop outside the misty windows, onto your own ones.

Fall was finally around the corner, which meant that the roads will now be iced all rusty, drizzled with honey leaves and sprinkled on by dark wine twigs. Fall also meant one more thing...the one very thing that was like the warm covering on your wounds, that meant the most to you above anyone and everyone. Your sycamore tree!

Pushing away the fluffy blanket on your legs, you quickly pulled down your pyajams to get dressed into something more appropriate for the weather outside, something more comfy and something that made you feel like you're back home once again a.k.a soonyoung's brown hoodie. While havocing through your entire wardrobe to take out all his belongings and leave back not a single essence of him around you and on you, the idiot missed out on that one brown hoodie he owned...rather the one he loved the most and the one he gave to you on your first date - under the sycamore tree.

You knew that the only thing, the only friend that could soothe the burns on you right now was that tree, the one true buddy that has stood by your side through the pains even your best friends couldn't heal, the big brother that shadowed you whenever the world's bright rays tried to scorch on your skin. So without wasting any more seconds, you hurriedly ran down the stairs leading to the hall. Upon reaching the main door of your small apartment you twist on the knob to pull open the door, and quite instantly a gust of cinnamon flavored wind engulfs all your senses.

Fall was truly your soul season. No matter how much turmoil your life was going through, or how much clogged your brain was to come up with new ideas, a walk down the leaf stained path of your favorite garden while the season's cool breeze flowed through your hair, definitely helped the caged Robin in you fly free finally.

Since the day Soonyoung broke your heart and left you all alone amidst the rusted haze, you've been visiting this sycamore tree every fall, to reminisce all the warm happy moment spent under its shade. To feel the same happiness as the day you planted the tree with your best friend, when you both were only 8 year olds, with the person who held you like the softest cotton bud dispersing away in the breeze all these years only to tear you off the stem at one go now.

You were consumed in your thoughts about how crazy love was, about how the twigs that have seen two people be in love for so long, hang around it for years, the branches that have been painted with countless giggles and soft kisses, now had its leaves shedding themselves from the agony of seeing its spiriting away child standing beneath it to shelter herself from the bleeding marks left by its other child.

Just as you were about to sit down on the dewy grass covering the entire ground below, your phone notification sound blew up suddenly. Drawing the device out from your tote, your eyes fell onto the lit up screen to see the name you've been running away from all this time.

[librarylexicon]

Hiya!! E, M, and U for the ask meme? (only realising what that spells out now that I'm typing this out 😂)

Hi! Thanks for the ask!

E: What character do you identify with most?  Is there a certain fic of yours that captures these qualities particularly well?

Despite technically not being the eldest child (I'm an older middle, but the first girl), I identify a lot with Dick—sure, he's way cooler than I am, but there's something about the way he thinks about his family and takes on a lot of responsibilities that resonates with me. I fed a lot of this into All the Corners That Are Left, and I also took inspiration from my own relationship with my sister (we have a similar age gap) to write Dick and Tim's relationship in Now and Then.

M: What’s the weirdest AU scenario you’ve ever come up with?  Did it turn into a story?

Once upon a time, based on an old fan theory, I began plotting and drafting a crazy Harry Potter time travel story in which Albus Dumbledore was secretly a time-travelling Ron Weasley. Somehow, it never saw the light of day 😂

More recently, I really want to write a Dick Grayson version of the novel I Heard the Owl Call My Name (one of my dad's favourite books). I'm not sure how to manage the details yet, but the owl symbolism is just too good.

U: Is there a pairing you would like to write, but haven’t tried yet?

I've put them in the background or minor relationships a few times (Family Crisis, At the Gate, Flight Mode), but I really want to write a proper fic focusing on Tim and Steph getting back together in their Red Robin and Batgirl days.

(Send me an ask based on these questions!)

[friendzonefrog]

Word Find Tag

Thanks for the tags @fearofahumanplanet and @calicojackofficial! (sorry it took me a bit!) I've seen this game going around so I'm excited to finally do it :)

My words are: alone, consideration, convenience, dance, friend, glory, profession, sick, somewhere, and split.

[notes:

*Dialogue in parentheses is an indication of a voiceover or a thought bubble.

*Some of these characters haven't been officially introduced yet? jkdjkdjk I'll get around to it eventually]

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Alone - from Shreds of Integrity

DEWEY: Don’t think they could ever put her away for anything, let alone this. Her name's probably in the dictionary under “immunity.” (“See: privilege.”)

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Consideration - from The Fall of Strömberg

(which is still in its conceptualization stage. Haven't settled on a final format yet, but here's sth from my notes.)

"Madam, such matters are above your understanding, and are to be left to the lords," continued the guard. "Serfs as you have no business in such affairs."

The woman's voice stammered, and her expression turned sour. "Perish, anyhow!" she blurted. "And if you awaken and find yourself to be more than a heap of ash come dawn, you will kindly tell His Lordship of my resignation." With that she marched off, without even the slightest consideration that she could be executed for taking such a brash tone.

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Convenience - from Ms. Praline & the Evening Star

Oh, suppose one day every family might have their own zeppelin, just as they would a carriage? How splendid would that be? Imagine the convenience: upon receiving an urgent telephone call, a doctor could arrive briskly, albeit dramatically, to the patient’s lawn-- just in a matter of minutes!

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Dance - from ERR0R!

DMITRY: I hate it when people cheer louder for me than they normally would for anybody else. It felt nice back when I was first learning to dance again, but... it doesn’t feel triumphant anymore. It just feels like people have permanently lowered their expectations for me, and they’re astonished I can even do the bare minimum.

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Friend - from Shreds of Integrity

[tw: divorce]

STEPH: I think we were so worried about trying to save things… We didn’t even realize that the harder thing is letting go. 

DEWEY: Come on. I’ve been around you long enough to know when you're just copy-pasting the advice you give to patients who need to leave toxic friendships. 

STEPH: And it still applies to a toxic marriage.

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Glory

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Profession - from Shreds of Integrity

MADELEINE: Shh. I can’t be getting noise complaints at my own damn hotel. That’s just tacky and unprofessional.

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Sick - from Shreds of Integrity

[tw: separation / divorce is kind of implied? ]

STEPH: This is… pathetic.

DEWEY: I know, I know, I… I’m sorry.

STEPH: Why didn’t you call a Lyft, or--

DEWEY: I was going to. My phone died. I just… I don’t know, I thought I’d sneak in and give it a quick charge, that’s all.

STEPH: Right, so "quick" that you had to take a nap while you waited.

DEWEY: I didn't mean to fall asleep. I’m sorry.

STEPH: You broke in, Dewey. I could press charges.

DEWEY: I know. I guess I was banking on the hope that you… wouldn’t.

STEPH: I’m sick of this. You can’t even hold up your end of one agreement?

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Somewhere - from Shreds of Integrity

WES: You thought I was dead in a ditch somewhere, huh.

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Split

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Tagging: @antihell @luckadelic and @memento-morri-writes (no pressure, and sorry if yall don't do tag games!)

Your words are: free, kitchen, leave, sleep, and without.

WIP taglists below cut

Taglists: (ask to be added/removed!)

Shreds of Integrity- @goldenzingy46

ERR0R!- @writeouswriter

[you guys can also do the game if u want!]

[inevitably-johnlocked]

Hi steph, this is a kinda personal question but do u have any advice on coming out to ur parents? I want to tell them I'm bi but i'm rly scared haha.

Hey Nonny!

*HUGS* Honestly? I don’t.... I’ve never had to do the thing, and when I did come out, it was only to a select few people I trust. The most frustrating one was my open-minded aunt who didn’t understand asexuality and didn’t understand how I could possibly not want sex, so I tried my best LOL. Everyone else I told – My sister and my three closest friends – just shrugged and was all good, LOL. 

When I did, though, I went from “people I trusted the most” to “I just need a close family member to talk to”. My sister was the first, and she took it all in stride. My first best friend, it was on a drive home late night and I just blurted it out; she thanked me for trusting her so much to do that. Her partner was next, since I guessed she told him already, and then my aunt because she mentioned her best friend came out to her as pansexual, which I used as an opportunity to spring on that discussion LOL.

So yeah, it’s all about comfort levels and trust, and if you feel safe: See, I don’t have many consequences in the sense that if I tell someone I don’t live with and they don’t accept it, well, fuck ‘em, I’m not talking to them anymore. It’s a lot different if it’s your parents that you are living with and dependent upon.

I don’t think it’s really my place to say how to handle this, since my experience is really not helpful this time. Logically speaking, I say “when the time feels right” and “if you know your parents are okay with LGBT then together” or “tell the parent you trust the most”. It’s a tough call Nonny. 

Anyone able to help out better than me, here? I know we have a lot of older fandom folks here <3

That said Nonny, only do it if you feel safe <3