#stepdadsarebetter

[marisauseda95]

It takes a man & I mean a really really good man to look at another man's child as his own. My child's never had her father. As many chances and opportunities were and are still being handed out the interest in being her father never follows through. Personally I know I've grown a lot since I was pregnant with Ariel. I no longer find the need to bash her biological father and I won't. This man here though, Derrick, he'll always be her dad. Like people say it takes more than just being blood to be a dad. Derrick taught her most of what she knows. How to walk, RUN lol he taught her how to say her first words he taught her simple words in Spanish. Not just that but he spent long sometimes even sleepless nights with her when she was sick or simply just throwing a tantrum. He woke up morning after morning and even though the man gagged at changing diapers he did it. He made her breakfast played with her, everything a parent is meant to do. When I got sick and couldn't do things on my own anymore it was him who picked up the slack and did what needed to be done. He worked full time , took care of me, and still managed to be the best damn dad he could be for our little girl. Without him I wouldn't know what to do. Now that he's gone we miss him more than ever and daddy's girl never stops asking for him. I hope he knows how much he means to us. We love you Derrick Riley Silguero till those gates open and bring you home, we'll be here waiting.

[findingpandorasbox]

Dreadful

I have been dreading this Monday for the last 3 months.  Furthermore, I have not been looking forward to today more than anything else.

The incarceration period is now over, and he is “free”.  I really hope that he has gotten his shit together and actually be what he should have been to the kids that he “should” have been all along.  

If I’m being totally honest here...He’s going to screw it up like he always does.  90 days in not enough time to be rehabilitated from heroine and opiates.  From being an angry, abusive, and manipulative person.

I need not brag about anything.  I know where I stand.  But, if he hurts these kids again; if he hurts her again he will wish that he was still behind bars.  I will not let ANYONE hurt MY FAMILY.  That is a line that you just do no cross.

Send some good vibes our way.  We could use them right now.  I’ll just keep telling myself that it is only 2 days.  

Signing off,

FindingPandora