#stayed up until 3am to finish this. worth it tho i really like this one

[suppenzeit]

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[bo0zey]

my friend who doesn’t have adhd and just wants an adderall perscription: i definitely have adhd like i never pay attention and i’m such a procrastinator omg lol btw i’m at the library studying and doing homework that’s not due until 3 days ugh what are you doing have you started studying yet we have those worksheets due tomorrow remember and it’s already 6pm! omg what do u mean u haven’t started the paper yet it’s literally due in 3 hrs omg no it’s ok i’ll just send u mine bc i’ve been working on it all day haha and omg i’m trying to pay attention to the lecture can u stop talking to me why r u reading online manga in class the exam is in 2 days pay attention! also i need caffeine to stay awake i love monster energy drinks they work so well i won’t be able to sleep tonight oh no also i took adderall 3hrs ago and now i’m super anxious but it’s not the adderall lol ugh i won’t be able to sleep tonjght ughh

me, someone who actually has adhd, pre-diagnosis: studying is so hard and i don’t want to do it and i literally can’t until hours before the exam and by then i’m so exhausted bc it’s like 3am but if i drink coffee or monster or bang i just get sleepier also i procrastinate entire research papers including the research hours before the due date even tho i knew abt the paper for a month and i wrote it in my assignment notebook every day knowing i needed to do it and i drink coffee before bed bc it relaxes me n makes me sleepy im constantly moving and shifting in my seat in class and i got paid 4 hrs ago and bought $500 worth of amazon products and now i don’t have any money for groceries for the next 2 weeks my thoughts go so fast and they’re so loud i can’t follow a conversation let alone a class lecture paying attention to anything i don’t care abt but am supposed to is impossible if i don’t write everything i need to do down i will forget about it and if i put my keys or vape or anything somewhere besides it’s designated spot for 1 minute i will literally forget where it is and if something isn’t directly in my line of sight i will forget i have it so i have to place everything in my line of sight for me to remember to use it and ok i’m at work i have a 14hr shift and a set of tasks i need to complete omg i’m so overwhelmed and frazzled i write down the list of tasks every shift and check off boxes to remember to do things but even then i still fall behind and why am i overwhelmed i know what i have to do please don’t ask me to do that thing i’m already trying to remember to do one thing ahhh ok i’m so exhausted it’s 12am and everyone’s asleep i have 3hrs left of my shift omg i’m so bored and tired ok i will have coffee and an energy drink to wake up bc i don’t wanna fall asleep here and i have an hour drive back home and oh wow i am now driving on the way and dozing off i am so sleepy sleepy sleepy why can’t i stay i awake i had 300mg of caffeine like 2hrs ago i’m going to crash the car why isn’t this energy drink working and hmm ok it’s now monday night i have school tmrw it’s 11pm i guess i’ll try n sleep i have class at 9am oh wait what is this sudden wakefulness i feel i am very awake i think i will maybe try to do homework to get tired actually no i think i will go on the internet instead hmm look at those cool show i think i will watch it ugh ok that was the longest 30min of my life i will not be able to watch another episode for at least 2 days probably oh it’s 3am i need to sleep but i can’t shut my brain off ugh oh no this sucks i hate myself why can’t i just get my shit together i know what i have to do but i just can’t fucking do it it’s so frustrating i’m trying so hard but i keep self sabotaging why why why

me, after being diagnosed w adhd and starting medication: wow for the first time in 8 years i’m actually paying attention in class and actively following what my professor is saying. i think i will do some homework now so i am not overwhelmed later. uh oh my dishes are starting to stack up i think i will clean them instead of starting a new pile. hmm my room is getting a little messy i think i will put things away including the clean clothes on that chair i’d been avoiding putting away for a week. i am following our conversation and i will wait until you are finished until it is my turn to speak instead of blurting out or interrupting you. oh i just got paid! hmm do i really need all of that online shopping stuff..? i think i will wait for a little bit and come back to it if i rlly want it bc what if something happens during the week and i need money to pay for it? oh i have to go to work it’s a 14hr shift; i am able to complete the tasks i need to do with ease bc i know what to do and when to do them and am no longer overwhelmed. i don’t need to drink that energy drink bc i know it will just make me more sleepy and i’ll doze off at the wheel on the highway and i don’t want that! ok i’m home yawn i think i will try n go to sleep it’s 11pm and i am genuinely tired.

[tortilla-of-courage]

Describing it as being like home is actually pretty accurate yeah.

And YES! I am totally willing to talk about my modern AU.

I've been calling it the Adoption AU because Time ends up adopting all of the boys. It mostly started as, I saw an edit for a tweet someone did with Wars and Wild that involved Taco Bell (cannot remember the blog or post for the life of me though), and so I wrote a thing about Warriors sneaking out of his university dorm to pick up Wild, who snuck out the window despite his broken arm, and then got extorted by Legend in exchange for silence at 3am.

This was followed by a fic where Groose decided spray painting a public building was a good idea and got himself and Sky arrested, set earlier in the timeline.

So then I made a timeline. Twilight is Time and Malon's biological son, and he found Wild on the side of the road one day (Wild's backstory involves a bad car wreck and an underground hospital, but no conspiracy bullshit. Yet). Wild has no memory, so they keep him. Wild brings home Legend, who was told his uncle died at school before a holiday. They then also keep Legend. Malon finds Four in her barn one morning for complicated reasons, and they keep him too. Twilight finds Warriors, who is in his class, hiding in an alley one day after he ran away from an abusive home and brings him home too. SS Impa (who I've nicknamed Shield because there are enough prominent Impas here that they should get nicknames too) is a social worker who's trying to find Sky a home and has run out of options, and turns to Time, who has a record of successfully housing 'unhousable' youths, and asks if he can take one more. He can. Wild finds Hyrule and brings him home because 'Rule needs a shower even more than Wild does. Hyrule stays. Wind's grandma ends up with Wind and his sister but can't financially take care of both and so Wind ends up with the boys and everyone is +1 Grandma.

Twilight has a fic detailing how he knows Midna and Dusk and I ended up shooting him (oops) but at least their social project gets handed in on time.

Then I started hashing out Time's backstory and suddenly this AU had plot. And organized crime. And a conspiracy. And secret societies.

The summarized version is that the gems from OoT are like, Idk what they do yet. Haven't gotten to a point where I need to figure that out yet. But they are Important and have to be carefully guarded. The Great Deku Tree (just called Deku because he's not a tree here) was Time's foster father before Ganondorf killed him. Also, Ganondorf is Deku's half brother. Because. However Time 'stole' the Emerald and he and Navi ran until OoT Impa (Sage) and Lullaby found them. So Time got adopted into Lullaby's family. Ruto inherited the Sapphire from her mother who also died from mysterious circumstances, and Darunia has the Ruby. Lullaby got the Ocarina from her late paternal grandmother.

Then Ganon finds them and tries to steal the Emerald from Time, so Lullaby goes looking for help and thus finds the sages. Saria is an anonymous hacker who uses the screen name 'Kokiri'. Time reveals he didn't steal the Emerald, he was Deku's heir, and then Navi goes missing. Time is home worried enough that he's physically sick, and Ganon decides to try and attack the home. Only Lullaby's family is Olde Money, and they live in a big, old manor, so Lullaby as Sheik decides to play 'Home Alone' with the secret passages in the walls and they piss off Ganon because when did that brat get a sheikah bodyguard??? Sage and Rottla (Lullaby's mother, who is fully sheikah as well) rush home from a thing and Kokiri is running a play by play watching the security cameras.

I pull in my headcanon that Time was killed in the Downfall Timeline by getting impaled on Ganon's tusk and Ganondorf stabs him with the tusk of a mounted boar head and then Sheik shows up to protect his brother, and then Mama gets home and is not happy to find this man in her home attacking her kids. Time is fine, but Navi stays missing. (She's alive tho.)

Also, Time's foster dad was the last leader of a secret society known as The Order of The Lost Woods, and Time learns this upon meeting Tatl, who gets him sucked into another event that would probably make a good action movie. I have thought too much about the Order and it's hierarchy, but what's important here is that Time ends up with a standing job offer and Tatl and he remain friends and we find out how I fit FD into this AU. It's not pretty. This is where Time loses his eye too.

The AoC came out and I added that Link in as Wild's twin brother and he shows up during the main plot.

Which starts with Twi getting kidnapped. (I'm not really meaner to him than the others, I swear, he's just the most logical choice to be Time's heir. Which he is. He doesn't know this though.)

So he's kidnapped by Ganondorf, who broke out of jail, Zant, who shot Twi in highschool, and Ghirahim, who has some history with Sky I haven't fleshed out yet and a very public rivalry with Warriors over twitter. About six weeks later Sage finds him in an abandoned warehouse (because of course) with a shackle on his left arm and a lot of new injuries. He ends up fine, but he tells Time later in the hospital what happened and he's both message and messenger and Time is this close to just committing murder. Tatl talks him down.

Somewhere here is the half finished fic where I introduce AoC Link as Luke/Knight, and this is as far as I've plotted thus far.

Other tidbits: Wild and Lullaby/Sheik are both genderfluid, Lullaby/Sheik married Ruto, Wild has a very popular YouTube channel, Twi does drag racing sometimes, Sky has a pet bird, Four has DID to explain how the Colours are here too, and Wolfie exists in the form of a random wolf-dog Wild found and brought home that Legend somehow convinced half the family was Twilight. Also, Warriors has somehow befriended an entire sorority and he doesn't know how this happened.

This... got long. As you can see I have a lot of thoughts about the Adoption AU. It's gotten a bit away from me, I'll admit. This went from 'Wild does stunts on his motorbike and keeps breaking bones but somehow not the bike' to 'Twilight got kidnapped and Time is the target of a mafia that Ganon runs and also maybe killed a man once' and I don't know how that happened. Also, this is the condensed version of the summary. My actual summary/outline is much, much longer than this. So if there's any detail you want more on, feel free to say so and I'll happily go into more detail (there are so many things I didn't even mention....)

And yes, Robbie having a bong is very important to my best friend, for some reason. He has one in a modern AU and he probably invented one in canon. I happen to agree that this makes sense for his character, if anyone would invent a bong in LoZ it's Robbie (this is such an anticlimactic end to this ask after the stuff about the modern AU...)

Also, sorry for the long ass ask. I genuinely don't know how to condense the Adoption Au down any further. There's a lot of important plot beats to cover, and I still skipped things.

-Attllhak

oh my GOD???? if you ever write and post this somewhere id love to read it, the level of "crazy" conspiracy/action movie elements implemented sound sosososo cool, from Ganondorf being Deku's half brother to trying to "send a message" via Twi and- just- all of this is SO good.i sat here and reread this ask like 3 times as if that would magically spawn more info about it ahaha

there's so much to unpack here but it's honestly so worth it i love every single detail!!! i can imagine the actual outline being way longer, nad honestly that just makes me the more excited/curious about all that might be missing from this ask - i cant believe it started with Wild and Wars going to Taco Bell of all things

also i can totally see Robbie making a bong, no matter the setting or AU. fits him a lot I'd say

and dont worry about long asks!! i adore opening up my askbox to see one ask take over the entire thing, it makes me really happy aha

[you-never-liked-this-sweater]

OKAY I THINK I MIGHT HAVE REQUESTED THIS TO SOMEONE BUT IT EITHER NEVER GOT WRITTEN OR I JUST CANT FIND IT BUT OOPS I LOVE UR WRITING TOO MUCH TO NOT REQUEST : connor x reader fic where the reader works at a really shitty coffee place and the coffee sucks but connor goes everyday to get coffee even tho he hates is just so he can see the reader and its just really cute and the reader always draws cute things on his cup by his name or somethin cute like that idk

I’m so happy you enjoy my writing! I hope this is something like you had in mind. 

Connor Murphy x Reader: Worst Coffee I’ve Ever Tasted

Words: 1707

Summary: Reader works at a coffeeshop and Connor visits every day despite the fact that the coffee is horrible,just because he wants to see them.

Warnings: None

‘The All Nighter’ was a small and rather unpopular 24-hour café nestled between a sandwichshop and a small apartment complex that almost always had a ‘for rent’ sign inthe windows. The building was small, quaint in appearance, with comfortablebooths along the walls, and a few circular tables with cushioned chairssurrounding them. The design and layout of the building was something you fellin love with the moment you stepped in through the door, which is was one ofthe reasons you had applied to work there. Unfortunately, there was one thingthat turned people away that you only became aware of after you were employed.The coffee was absolutely terrible. While on the job you got free drinks, but you almost never drank any of the coffee because of how awful it was. Whateverbrand of coffee the shop used was so bad that usually once a customer had theirfirst taste, they never came back. There was, however, one regular customerthat showed up every night.

ConnorMurphy was by no means nameless around your school despite the fact that he hadno friends. In fact, almost everyone knew him, but the reasons they knew himweren’t exactly flattering. Rumors spread like wildfire in high school andConnor was usually at the center of it while the other students mercilessly fannedthe flames. You heard a lot of things about him, most of which you didn’tbelieve because you wanted to give him the benefit of the doubt. Connor had always been a mystery to you, until the first day that he appeared in the café.

Hefirst showed up a few weeks after you started working there, ataround 3am in a pair of dark pajama bottoms and a black hoodie. He seemed exhausted when he ordered his coffee and sat in a boothfar away from you. Connor just sort of sat there, staring at his coffee withthis tired expression on his face for what seemed like an hour. He fell asleepthere in the booth after a while, head against the wall and body slumpedforward. You didn’t wake him up because you could tell how desperately heneeded some sleep. At some point you had grabbed a blanket from your car andtook it to him, draping it over his shoulders before you dimmed the lights inthe café slightly so it would be easier on his eyes when he woke up. Around 7amhe finally woke up, seemingly confused about where he was before he rememberedwalking into the café a few blocks from his house. When he moved to get up, herealized a blanket was around him and he turned to look at you behind thecounter. You had smiled at him, trying to reassure him that whatever reason hehad stayed in the café all night, it was fine with you and he wasn’t in any trouble.He was on his feet almost instantly and hurried out before you had a chance tosay anything.

Laterthat day at around 10pm, an hour after you started your shift for the night, hecame back. He approached the counter and stared over your head at the menubefore asking for a medium coffee. You nodded, not bothering to ask for hisname as you scribbled it out and began making the drink. After making it forhim you handed it to him and he handed you a ten. When you handed him thechange he turned and dropped it into your tip jar before looking down at you,face unreadable, “Thanks for last night.” After that he came back daily, likeclockwork.

Everyday at 10pm, during your night shifts at the café, he would show up with abook, order a coffee and sit in one of the booths to read for an hour or so.  Sometimes he would talk to you, but it wasmore common that you would sit in silence together. Sometimes you would catchhim staring at you over the top of his book and he would look back down,pretending like he hadn’t been staring at all. As the days went on, you beganto expect him and in turn, began getting his order ready for when he showed up.Since your days were usually slow, you often drew on the cups to pass the timeand one day you accidentally made Connor his drink in one of your art coveredcups. He didn’t comment on it but he had stared at the cup when he returned tohis seat, running his thumb over the picture with a smile on his face. Afterthat you started drawing on his cup every day so you got to see that cute smileof his.

You had been working at The All Nighter for a couple monthswhen you decided you wanted to ask him out. For the last hour you had beentrying to figure out the best way to make a move on him without weirding himout. You sat behind the counter, staring at his coffee cup with your handhovering over it, spinning the pen in thought. Eventually you decided onwriting your phone number under his name with a little heart beside it. As youfinished writing, the door opened and you looked up as Connor walked into thecafé. He approached the counter as you rose from your stool behind the counter, “Connor, hi.”

“Hey, Y/n.” He responded simply ashe watched you making his coffee. When you finished pouring him his coffee, youhanded the cup to him, trying to play off what you’d written on it. He handedyou a rolled up five-dollar bill as he moved toward regular booth, “Thanks.”

You unrolled the bill and wassurprised when a piece of paper fell out. You picked it up off the counter andunfolded it, surprised to see a phone number scribbled out on it along with thewords ‘I don’t know if you actually likeme or if you just don’t outwardly hate me like everyone else. So, I don’t know,call me if you want? Or don’t. It’s up to you, I guess’

You instantly looked up at Connorin shock to see him staring at his coffee cup. He cracked a smile and his eyeseased as he let out a breathy chuckle.

“I guess we had the same idea,huh?” You asked, a blush dusting your cheeks as you smiled sheepishly.

Connor looked to you from his cup, eyes shining curiously, “Did you want to go out sometime?”

“As long as it’s not for coffee,”You say, putting his money into the cash register.

“Not coffee from here,” He says ina joking manor.

“Definitely not,” You laugh,looking back up at him as you close the cash register tray, “I hate the coffeehere.”

“Honestly…” Connor looked away,trying to hide his smile, “I hate it too.”

Your brow furrowed as you looked tohim in confusion, “But you buy coffee every day.”

He runs a hand through his hair ashe chuckles nervously, “That was an excuse to come see you, actually.”

“Really?” You asked in shock.

“There was probably a better way toget to see you, now that I’m thinking about it…” He glances up at you throughhis hair as it fell back down around his face.

“Definitely a cheaper way,” Youlaughed, “You’ve been buying coffee here for months!”

“I think it was worth it,” Connorsays, returning his gaze to the coffee cup, running his thumb over yourhandwriting.

“So, how about this Saturday?” Youask, “I have the day off.”

“Saturday?” He asked, seeminglyconfused as he looks back to you.

“For our date,” You smile warmly athim.

His cheeks flush pink and his browsshot up in question, “Date?”

“Did I completely read this wholesituation wrong?” You asked, suddenly worried you had just potentially ruinedeverything, “Did you not think of it as a date? Did you not want it to be-?”

“No, n-no, I want it to be a date,I just wasn’t sure if you did,” Connor says quickly, “I didn’t think you’d wantto be associated with me in that way.”

“What do you mean?” Your browfurrowed in confusion.

He seemed to be struggling to findthe right words as he shifted in his seat uncomfortably, “You have friends at schooland being seen with me might…ruin that for you.”

Your eyes ease and you smile slightly,“If my friends stop hanging out with me because I’m spending time with you,then they’re not really my friends, are they?”

From his seat, you could tell howuneasy Connor was at the thought of you losing all of your friends because ofhim. He nibbled his bottom lip as he watched you, “Are you sure?”

“Positive.” You give a nod toreassure him.

“Then… I will see you Saturday. Forour date,” Connor says with a small smile, “Does six sound okay?”

“Six sounds great,” Your smilewidens before you add, “I’ll text you my address.”

“Perfect,” He says, moving to standup from his seat.

“Are you still going to come hereevery night?” You ask quickly.

He hesitates as he picks up hiscoffee, “Do you still want me to?”

“I mean, I’m used to seeing youevery day and it’s always so lonely here at night,” You pick at the hem of yourshirt as you watch him, “I always look forward to your visits.”

“Then, I think I can take some time outof my day to see you,” He says before a smirk pulls onto his face, “As long asI don’t have to order any more coffee.”

A smile stretched across your face,“It really is the worst, isn’t it?”

“I honestly think it’s the worst coffeeI’ve ever tasted,” He says, pulling his bag up over his shoulder as he movestowards the front of the café. Connor glances at you over his shoulder as hepushes open the door, “I’ll call you later.”

You nod, leaning onto the counteras your smile widens, “I’ll be waiting.”

[remembermemorablememories]

Wednesday, April 18, 2018

post #100

main points:

- CSDS office hours

- crypto class

- CSDS meeting

- CSDS homework

- hackathon organizing team meeting/elections

- OW meeting

- fortnite

today i:

- woke up around 10am, snoozed until like 10:30am. then got out of bed, made a pb&j sandwich and headed out with dimi. he was going to work and i went to CSDS discussion. we were gonna take the T but the T operator wasn’t there when we got there LOL people were just chilling on the track not really paying attention. so then we decided to take the bus. but as we got to the bus stop the T operator came back so i decided to catch it cause it’d take me closer to BU west where i’d want to get off. dimi stayed on the bus so we parted ways. sad :’( 

- spent an hour and a half at discussion office hours. i talked with the TF about my off by one bug issue in the raft. eventually the TF realized that it doesn’t matter that the raft logs are being snapshotted differently at different indices. as long as it’s got a consistent view of its own discarding, then we should be good. the whole point of discarding is that it discards logs but the behavior should still be the same. then i got a better in depth overview of what i needed to do for the install snapshot which i will have to implement later. but i had a much better understanding of what needed to be done after that office hour session. ken also came near the end for his discussion section and he got caught up to speed/asked some of his own questions. i felt really confident and glad i finally understood what we need to do. so my implementation from last night wasn’t quite right (i was discarding/overwriting logs on followers if they weren’t consistent with the leader when i should simply be appending it like normal raft)

- walked to crypto a bit late, around 12:45pm cause i stayed over time in office hours. definitely worth tho. in class we talked about differential cryptanalysis which is pretty cool

- after class i briefly met with chandler to drop off my 18-55m lens and power chord for them to use tomorrow for a livestream

- went to the GSU and had our CSDS meeting for our group project with ken michael shreya and mark. we sat in a booth near the back by the restroom. tyrone ryan and brian sat in a booth near us cause they were eating lunch (like we normally would’ve after crypto). we caught everyone up to speed and solved a bug on shreya’s server.go stuff. and then we divvied up what needed to be done for next week

- took the T back to west campus, started re-implementing the raft discarding. i worked on it from 3pm - 6:15pm. i got a good amount done. basically now everything works as expected (in terms of discarding in raft). snapshots will come next but i’m glad i got this in a working state. my only concern is that somewhere in the middle (between 0 to 50 puts, index 34 doesn’t get applied for the follower for some reason). so i need to look into that, but other than that i should be good to go for that part. there were 3 tasks outlined on the homework page. so i’ve basically got task 1 for raft discarding (mostly working) and task 2 for simply triggering the discarding process from kvraft. i need to clean up task 1 for that apply but for index 34 and then do task 3 which is the snapshotting stuff. then i’ll be DOOOOONE. i hope. everything’s always easier said than done with CSDS

- took the T back to east campus. ate in warren and watched another episode of the office S3E5 initiation

- went to hackathon organizer meeting. we were electing the next director of our organization. charles noah and rooday gave their speeches and then we put in a vote. 

- went to OW meeting. a lot of people weren’t there cause today was a monday schedule on a wednesday so... :’( worked on writing the lua script to read from a file buffer and send the corresponding action to the FCEUX emulator. i eventually got it working for mario. now the only thing left i want to add is taking multiple inputs (like pressing left and A to jump at the same time in a direction). i had some issues initially with trying to keep a key pressed down (this was something i had been concerned about earlier). but basically you just loop through for some n number of iterations keeping the button set to True. it lifts off the button when you set it to False. i was a little confused cause i thought i tried this approach earlier and it didn’t work. but i guess it does now

but yeah now i just need to connect python from slack to read the input and then write it to the file buffer and this should be good to go

- took the T home and it was like 10:15pm. dimitri was playing fortnite and i was kind of tempted to join. cause i was kind of exhausted from all the things going on today. so i decided to take a break. me dimi and brian played squads. we lost our first game pretty badly. we won our second game and that was pretty dope. then we won our third game and that was even more dope. this was my first time winning two games in a row. then dimitri and i played one more squads with this guy we friended (who was decent but not crazy good. definitely better than most randos in squads) and we got to like 4th place. i was mostly unsatisfied because my cursor was right on this john wick guy and just as i clicked to do a pump shotgun headshot i was knocked by someone to my right. (we were all on top of dusty depot and i was hiding underneath a ramp that had been placed there from a fight previously

i chilled on youtube for a bit, showered, and now i’m finishing this up at 1:14am. we stopped playing at 12am which was good. i’m glad we’re not staying up until 3am lmao

okay good night

also woo 100th blog post

let’s goooooooo