#starvingstudent

[where-have-i-been-rose]

Where have I been? What am I doing?

Is anyone else getting the feeling that to live Life the way it's advertised by that mysterious, ubiquitous force (Capitalism?) means to be exploited at every turn? As of last week, I turned 22 years old and during my brief duration of adulthood, I have had to: fight employers to pay me (at all, let alone on time); to be given tips I earned; to be given a schedule further than twelve hours in advance so I can have a life outside of work; for respect when I refused to work excessive amounts of overtime or provide unpaid labour; write university exams while incredibly ill because only death of yourself or family were excusable offences; lie to professors, employers, and toxic friends about physical injuries because lacking the mental and emotional capacity to give them my time and energy was not a healthy boundary, but rather an act of neglect to them and our relationship; I have been denied access to trauma trained counsellors because their costs were not covered by insurance; I have been cut off in the middle of EMDR therapy work because my free sessions ran out. I have had panic attacks and breakdowns in front of professors; the combined result of working multiple jobs, undesired fasting as part of the #starvingstudent lifestyle, a workload that is impossible to accomplish each week (believe me, I did the math), and being isolated in my house because of a pandemic tearing through the world- yet still working my retail job just to get yelled at by anti-maskers about a policy made by some politician whose name I do not know. All for the professor to respond to my plea for a single-day extension with “That wouldn’t be fair to anyone else. The real world does not stop demanding your energy when things get tough, so in the long run, I would not be doing you any favours anyway.” If this is how the real world operates, why am I trying to integrate myself into it? It seems like a horrible place where I can never get the rest I need, where any rest I choose to give myself is interrupted by guilt and self-loathing because That Girl does not rest. She gets up at 5 am, does an intense glute workout, packs her healthy meal prepped lunch and dinner, works for 16 hours straight, does her very serious skincare routine, then journals and breathes the stress away, and sleeps for 30 minutes before it’s time to start up again. Rest? What am I thinking, haven’t I been told and treated by everyone and every institution around me that I am a machine designed to keep giving more and more without ever needing to be restocked or recharged? Did I think I was a living, breathing organism? I am spiralling now, but you get my point. If this is how human beings are supposed to live (miserably), then what is the point? 

I want to be free of these relationships. I want to be respected by my employers, paid a livable wage, and have my mental well-being cared for in addition to my physical health at my workplace. When I need a day to rest, I want to be able to say “Hey, I’m exhausted and my body is telling me I need to take a break” and be met with understanding. I do not want to go to school, get a good job, work and work and work until I have saved up enough to retire just to have my body and mind so beaten up from years of labour that doing the things I have dreamed of are not possible anymore. Rather, my priority is finding a decent condo with an elevator because I can’t walk too many stairs. 

I know I cannot be the only person thinking this. I cannot be the only person terrified that this is what Life is. I cannot be the only one wondering if there is anything I can do about it. I cannot be the only one scared that if I step back and try to live my life in a way that allows no one to take advantage of me and gives me rest and time to do what makes me happy, I’ll end up deep in debt, living paycheque to paycheque, or an old woman living in a dirty lonely retirement home because it’s all I can afford. I am so afraid of saying no to this lifestyle that takes and takes from me but gives nothing in return. I am so scared of living a life of constant exhaustion and longing for advancement in career, relationship, or education hoping it will get me to that position where I can enjoy life. I am terrified of dying young because my lifestyle beat me up, body and soul, to a pulp. So, what do we do? Due to circumstances out of our control, most of us are born into a position where living a life of sustenance is a gamble. 

It is December 2022. This post follows four years of burnout completing my Bachelor's degree and multiple unfulfilling jobs with employers who would rather not pay me for my time. I have decided that I am more important than my job, my degree, or my to-do list. I will not continue to lose myself to these things. This blog will serve as my journal of sorts in cataloging what these sentiments mean in action and what I do and learn as I go along. I hope to hear from anyone else having their own existential crisis out in the world. What have you lost yourself too? What do you worry you will lose in choosing your happiness and well-being over whatever obstacle is blocking you? Where have you been?

[aprylynn]

I've been pretty inactive in this fandom the last several years but there is a lot of excellent fic to be found! The people already mentioned are great. Also on ff.net are callmesandy, Jessica237, Tess DiCorsi, peanutbutterer, raccoonsmate4life, starvingstudent, hermionesmydawg just to name more than a few!

Also the fic rec tag in the @fuckyeahkensideeks blog has a lot!!!

Is there excellent fic out there for Densi like there is for Tiva? I’ve seen the shit y’all blog, I know a lot of you watch LA too, someone help! I’ve fallen for this stupid ship and I can’t get up! 😭😭😭

[bonestheartist]

Hey guys! Just wanted to let you all know that I do have a Patreon, and the May 2018 Illustration is going up on June 2nd! If you’d like to support me, I’d really appreciate it! The theme for May 2018 is Mythical Creature, and you get to vote for next month’s theme when you become a patron! https://patreon.com/andrealynnartwork

[amandaamcook-blog]

SNAP programs help those with low incomes purchase ~$125/monthon food. A variety of people use SNAP; single mothers and people, college students, post-grad students, families, the elderly, etc. Its not always the people you would expect who can benefit from these programs.

[starving-students-movers]

Starving Students having fun after a hard day at work. 

[ejzah]

I love everything you write! Seeing as I'm pretty sure I've already read all the things you've posted on ffnet, I was wondering what your favorite ncis:la fanfics are (one-shots or multichapter)

Hi anon,

That is so incredibly kind of you!

I don’t know if I can narrow it down to specific stories, but I can tell you some of my favorite authors. (This is a non-exhaustive list)

Here are some current authors, who you might already know of:

Phnxgirl

Psyched

Bluenet13

Anonkp

SweetLu

Glenncoco4

Writeallnight

Tess Dicorsi

I’m sure I’m missing some people, but all of these lovely people write really great LA stories.

I also have a lot of favorites who are no longer writing for this fandom or haven’t posted in some time:

Peanutbutterer

Pokeydotes

Hermionemydawg

Jessica237

Tinkerbella7

StarvingStudent

Thanks for asking anon and I hope you find some good fanfiction!

[wanna-be-bold]

Hey!! Can I ask you for your fave Densi fic recommendations? Preferably long, multi chapter stories that aren’t AU. Thank you!!!

It's hard to choose favorite fics so I'll give you my favorite Densi authors on ff.net if that's okay:

@ejzah

@glenncoco4

@psyched1328 (writer name Psyched)

@mashmaiden (writer name Phnxgirl)

@raccoonsmate4life

StarvingStudent

Jerseycaramel

Hope that helps anon!

[ytarmar]

Still doing my best to finish my degree and need a little help to make ends meet. #education #university #disabledstudent #gofundme #albertacanada #starvingstudent https://www.instagram.com/p/BphiPcqAvWe/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=15cvn2wx3aibg

[jrodion]

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#backtoschool #ontocollege #starvingstudent #target

[fitnflareginger]

This is what pure exhaustion looks like. As I strive for success in university I find myself eating less, sleeping less, and stressing more. I am tired, I am drained, yet I am all the more driven to kicking exam ass. #starvingstudent #stressedstudent #notevendressedstudent (at Lady Eaton TrentU)

[mikemarq801-blog]

Does anyone hate these parking ticket rentacops as much as me?!?! It's the first day of class man 🤦🏼‍♂️ #Rentacop #StarvingStudent 📚 (at Salt Lake Community College)

[cbetham]

This was the gold standard back in the day. StarvingStudent is who I wanted to be as a fic writer. All her stories are GOLD I love her.

I don’t know if you were talking to me but here it is. 😂 @detective-and-agent-deeks

[aprilcornwall]

When your flatmate shows you his sad dinner (a bowl of defrosted mixed vegetables) :'( so I made him a double chocolate cupcake 😂 #youaresafenowmysweetchild #ioweyoumylife #starvingartists #starvingstudents #juststarving lol #inyour20s #lifeinur20s #sofunny

[amandaamcook-blog]

source:https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k1b8oV7DI6s

[starving-students-movers]

Starving Students Hard Working Movers

I had to change my original move date and time the same week and it was no problem. Even got a call back to confirm a new price change. From the inital quote to the actual moving was no issues. I have used Starving Students for several moves over the years and with good results. Nothing ever broken or mishandled and I am treated with respect and courtesy as a woman handling the process of moving my family.

[benevolentsam]

Just thought I'd tell you my hiatus is still on, my queue has run out, I am officially out of money and I only have food for the next 10 days #starvingstudent