#started thinking of wanting to change the selfship name

[lvmimis]

cw: selfship-coded. reader has brown skin and curly hair and it's mentioned in semi-fetishy ways. set in wano arc.

“Like bathed in hojicha,” the old man drones on as a leathery hand crosses the invisible barrier between entertainer and guest and covers your free one. Your natural impulse to shudder is suppressed by your desire to remain polite and coy even, and your other hand steady, you continue to pour tea, resisting the turn of your stomach. A fake smile that doesn’t reach your eyes, but would not be detected by a man so drunk and so improper, spreads across your lips.

He’s petting you in three distinct ways - like an exotic animal, like a precious vase, like a woman he has some odd desire to consume, one that puzzles him himself. You’ve long since forgotten his name - a terrible faux pas on the part of a geisha - but you’re not a geisha, you’re simply pretending to be until the rest of your party arrives in Wano. 

Until your captain arrives.

He pulls your hand further to inspect it closer. You wonder if he’d be so bold enough to sniff it (another patron has, to your shock), but instead he continues to inspect it, rubbing with his thumb as if the melanin will come off.

“My mother was a fan of hojicha actually, when she was pregnant with me,” you say, giggling, your voice an octave higher. He doesn’t notice you pull your hand away due to the musicality of your voice, exchanging it with a warm cup.

“Please drink, my lord.” 

This man is not a good conversationalist in the least, but he seems easily pickpocketed, and by the end of the night, you are able to swipe a few gold coins from him (some not all) and stow them away for safe-keeping. If there’s anything Nami has taught you well, it’s that if there’s an opportunity to steal without consequence, do so.

These men don’t deserve their money anyway.

—

“Honestly, I think I should have gone the kunoichi route with Nami, because this is getting ridiculous,” you start, before taking a bite of Sanji’s noodles. He winks as you take your first bite, and you thank him for the food before scrunching your nose as you look at Robin.

Robin looks beautiful, skin as pale as moonlight and lips redder than the ripest cherry. Your makeup looks just as beautiful, but you know that the two of you draw looks of the passersby in two very different ways - Robin because of her beauty, you because your own beauty is also unexpected. The women doing both your hair and makeup weren’t exactly sure what to do with your abundance of curls, and they fall in a clumped, partially formed mess that manages to frame your face nicely enough to satisfy the tastes of the teahouse’s patrons, and evidently some of the men straggling around Sanji’s stall.

Franky sits closer to the two of you to discourage anyone from approaching the two of you but it doesn’t stop people from looking.

“As long as you don’t directly challenge the Oiran, I think we are okay,” she muses. You’ve heard of her legendary beauty and are reassured that you’re more of a fleeting attraction than a real threat. Even the men that you service will discuss Komurasaki with want dripping from their mouths.

“Absolutely.” Rubbing displaced lipstick from the side of your mouth, you change the subject. “Have you gotten any information on Luffy?”

Robin shakes her head. You pout. 

“For men who claim to have high positions, they also have zero idea what’s going on politically.”

Franky laughs. “You realize here, even if he’s our captain, he’s just another prisoner, right?”

You grit your teeth at the thought. Sanji’s food can never possibly taste bad or even bland, but the warming sensation on your tongue abates with the very thought that Luffy cannot enjoy the same food.

“We’ll hear something when he gets out,” Usopp says, patting you on the back. 

“I hope so because I don’t know how much longer I can tolerate this.”

But the truth is, you can do a lot for Luffy.

—

“I can imagine a well-learned man like you would know a lot about the mines in Udon, am I right?”

Your voice is light, and your fingers work carefully as you tap pressure points in his shoulders and along the neck and spine. If you were a stronger woman, you’d snap it but you have to settle for extracting as much information as you can out of the customer.

Smitten with you, yes. Knowledgeable? No.

“What would a beautiful young woman like you care about those prisoners? I suppose they live and they die. Serves them right for committing crimes.”

You spend a little longer, pressing your thumb a little harder at the top of the cervical spine. He groans in a sound that is too much like pleasure, and you remember you have a role to play.

“Of course. They sound so awfully scary.” Your voice is syrupy sweet. “Have some more tea, my lord.”

You hope Luffy breaks out soon.

—

The shogun and his cronies are too drunk to realize that you have missed a few paces in your fan dance. Food and drink overflows in abundance, sake guzzled down into greedy maws and never satiated bellies while the countrymen continue to starve. You’re pulled and poked at and forced to smile because these men demand nothing less than pleasure and forced joy. 

The top oiran in her beauty hides her disgust well, you notice, her under layers of beauty. The women in the room all do. You meet eyes with Robin and she nods, slipping out of the room first.

You continue to dance.

Everything will come crashing down soon, and you’ll be glad to see it, as long as you trust in your crew.

And your captain, who no doubt will find his way out soon.

Your smile widens, enough to reach your eyes. Orochi and his ministers of course, are far too drunk to see the real joy in it, nor the terror that comes for them.

[phonciblesbeloved]

I can still hardly believe I’ve been selfshipping with Chuck over a year now, so I got motivation and drew them having ice cream on their first year anniversary.

Tag list!

@berryshipbasket @muppetyluv

any other people who are my moots on here please tell me if you want me to tag ya next time-

[ambiguouslady42]

First of all, I want to thank @blackfire2013 for incepting the little seed to be more forward about my personal selfship. I have been less unapologetic about it, and I don’t think I’ll stop soon. Thank you @inazuman for the quick beta read. This is in collab with the @pixelcafe-network music challenge. It’s super late bahahaha.

CW: descriptions of sex. MDNI

In one month, a lot changed. What you thought was a meeting of chance became more than your wildest dreams imagined; You found the man of your dreams.

It was the middle of September. You were going to the tailors to fix a tear on your dress. He happened to tell you that his little girl cut up his blazer. You felt like you were wearing rose-colored glasses because of quickly you were charmed by him. He was devastatingly handsome with his blue eyes. It was disarming how he gazed at you, like you were the only one who existed in the entire world. You never really felt pretty, but the way he looked at you made you feel like you were; you slowly began to believe it.

You exchanged names before asking each other for favours. He would accompany you to a party, and in return you would also go with him to a party of his. It was meant to keep up appearances and to avoid going stag. For a moment, you thought you were going to be used, but when you clumsily kissed him, he returned it. However, that clumsy kiss led to you fainting. He didn’t judge you; he nursed you to health after the incident. He waited for you to wake up so he could introduce you to his daughter. You felt a keen sense of happiness around her, and she quickly warmed up to you. When you sat down for dinner, it felt like you were the missing piece of the puzzle. He immediately knew from the moment he met you that he had to make you his. While his daughter got ready for bed, you snuck your first, genuine kiss together. One that wasn’t for appearances, but to express desire that you both long for each other. He made sure to respect your boundaries and didn’t escalate things that night. He let you sleep in the guest room until you felt better. The next morning, he made you breakfast, with a little help from his daughter. You didn’t ask for this, but he wanted to show you that you would be taken care of. You started to quickly fall for him, and so did he.

You didn’t hesitate to give yourself to him, and he didn’t either. The kisses soon couldn’t suffice the desire that lingered between you and him. Each passionate kiss allowed for each garment to be removed. You felt exposed and vulnerable, but safe. He didn’t pressure you and you really wanted to give yourself to him, despite that you weren’t as experienced. He made sure your first time together was comfortable. You unraveled so quickly as you laid on top of him. Each touch led to different sensations, which led to a shared ecstasy between the two of you. He knew right there and then that you were the person he wanted to be with. It wasn’t because of the vulnerability that you had together, but you just knew. They say when something is there, you should take a chance.

You had your first official date, but he caught you by surprise. He gave you a ring in the car for you to wear. He claimed, “I wanted to spoil you, can’t I do that?”

You weren’t expecting such a beautiful ring on your left finger, but there it was. He took you to a garden where he sat you down and professed his devotion to you. You were flabbergasted, but you knew deep down you wanted to be with him. It was terrifying to say “yes” to someone you barely know, but he awakened something in you that you didn’t believe was possible. However, you were yet to tell him those three little words. Marriage isn’t just about the declaration of love; it is a promise and a devotion to one another. Loyalty and protection are part of this partnership.

That night, you made love to one another. You didn’t need to tell him that you loved him then; you wanted to. Those touches and kisses, in your eyes, were all the different ways you wanted to profess your love to him. You’ve always been so cautious about saying it. You wanted to be cautious about the sex, but after your second time, you felt that he wasn’t going anywhere, and you began to really trust him. After all, the ring on your finger was a promise that he wouldn’t leave you. He never would. In his eyes, you are all that he sees. He never really thought he’d meet anyone that would have an affect on him, but there you were.

Loid Forger is not who he says he is. He is a spy. While his identity may be fake, the love he feels and has for you is not.

[ofoceansandtombsanew]

what are you preferred bleach ships?

i apologize to my bleach watching mutuals who are about to be exposed to my bleach degeneracy (i mean at least @strawberrystepmom and i will have at least one orihime ship in common though lmao)

i am a multishipper and it truly reflects in everything i ship in bleach. i swear i have shipped rukia and orihime with everyone at some point and you won't see me stopping anytime soon lmaooo

i remember this one deleted hitsuruki fic i read back when i was in early middle school??? on ffn and i still think about it even now. like they met in a library and eventually the relationship happens but rukia has some sort of mental illness she needs medication for which is why byakuya was so protective during the fic also hisana wasn't rukia's sister?? i don't think, she was like a gf byakuya had that he was hesitant introducing to rukia... i can't remember all the details, it was a fun ride though

ironically enough my main hitsugaya ship isn't even with anyone from bleach? it's hitsusaku, yes as in sakura from naruto jndksjdnf (who i also ship with everybody regardless of if they were from naruto or not. edsaku was one of my greatest hits (edward elric from fma edsaku))

but some shipping highlights

rukihime

hitsuruki

hitsusaku (i am telling you i have read so many good fics on ffn)

ginran

ginsaku (yes... as in haruno sakura from naruto)

ichiruki

chadichi/sadoichi (tbh idk what their ship name is)

ichiuzu (as in uzume from sekirei. i read a fic, it changed my life)

ichisaku (yes as in haruno sakura from naruto)

ichihime

ishihime

grimmhime

ulquihime

aihime

sakuhime (yes. as in haruno sakura from naruto lmaooo)

tatsuhime

norihime (as in kakyoin noriaki from stardust crusaders)

johime (as in higashikata josuke from diamond is unbreakable)

okuhime (as in nijimura okuyasu from diamong is unbreakable)

inuhime (as in inuyasha from inuyasha i'm dying)

aisaku (yes we been through this, sakura from naruto)

ulquisaku (do i need to say it again at this point)

grimmsaku (...)

orihime is my favorite character from bleach so as you can probably tell a lot of these ships have to do with her. i should honestly just make a selfship between us at this point because inside me are 2 wolves and one hates her tybw outfit and the other wants to shove my face in the window of it

12 of my total top bleach ships aren't even with characters from bleach i'm wheezing

sakura, as you saw, made quite a few cameos on this list but is2g some of the best bleach fics i read were about sakura somehow joining the soul society because hollows started attacking konoha

[stringlessau]

Rope here!!!!’ for my input on the anniversary ,

When I first met Nick we talked about our Halloween costumes as Spamton. And pretty much when we first talked it was all Spamton Spamton Spamton and this

the drawing that started it all.

This one.

This was the first drawing I believe that I sent to Nick.

A doodle of Spamton z Spamton.

And from that doodle blossomed the conversation

Of payton, he’s swap of the blue Addison in Spamtons place.

He had told me about stringless au before. But I just wanted to know more and more about the blue fella,

So he yapped and yapped until he showed me payton

And I was HOOKED

And without even thinking about it

I made these two drawings of Payton. eugh…..he’s still gross

Nick really enjoyed these drawings.

And at the time I was self shipping myself with Spamton.

And since payton was in SPAMTONS place, I gave him the idea of having my selfshipping oc rakhin to date him. AND BOOOY DID WE.

Tho he had this design first, tho WAYYY BEFORE He had the design on the right. AINT he ugly. He was also called BSOD the right one.

Tho as the time past, and we started to take them more seriously. I redesigned rakhin.

Who without realizing, took a lot of inspiration from a oc I had before named Liu Wei, the grey dragon man.

But as we kept drawing and drawing together.

I one day asked to color one of nicks pieces,

Being this one. I did it after a long while of not rendering anything,

(Shout out to the rakhin in an apron in the corner) but god I guess this piece sorta changed stringless since it’s kinda what got me the job. Since Nick loved it so much.

Because from it when I offered to color the comic, he didn’t even hesitate to hire me.

And ever since then I’ve been the other half to stringless.

I try to show my love for it as much as I can because

This story is my other half, the amount it holds to me is not to be underestimated. The love it’s given me, there’s no amount I could possible give back.

So thank you Nick, and thank you all. <333

(Sorry if there’s spelling errors, I’m dyslexic/srs)

[saenora]

YOUR FAVOURITES AS YOUR SIMPS

note: if we flip tables and what if youre the mangaka character and your fav simps on you… these are some adequate subpar headcanons… 🫠 (i dont write so lmao bear w me 🤭) thankies to Ai <3 @gojoest-main for indulging always mum ily and SOBS GOJO IS BASED ON WHAT AI SAID🤭)

the husband

YN IS HIS LOML. he is huge on selfship community! HIM AND EVERYONE CALLS HIM YOUR TRUE HUBBY! he has a whole lot of selfship arts with you. he might go broke with all the merch but he cant help it every time he sees your fanarts or a new chapter drops, he goes feral. PINTEREST MOODBOARDS, PLAYLISTS YOU NAME IT. HE HAS IT. he is defending you on every website, writing little self indulging drabbles about you. he knows you well, his little head canons are cannoned by all of your fans. your his f/o and nobody can change it. he either talks about you infront of his friends and he has gained a reputation because of it or leads teh secret life… there is no inbetween. has the sweetest selfship headcanons but occasionally tweets regular horny one liners about how bad he wants to be fucked by you, or about how much he wants to cum inside you and get you pregnant.

gojo?, reo, kise chuuya, isagi, yuuji, taiga, ran + anyone who fits the criteria

the loyal hoe

he has too many blorbos, he knows it. BUT YOURE HIS MAIN BLORBO, HIS BIGGEST SELFSHIP/ THE ONE HE KEEPS CRAWLING BACK TO. it can be put as you made him standout. IS 25/8 YN BRAINROT AND TWEETS HORNIEST STUFF. HE ONLY SURVIVES ON SMUT AND BREATHES TO THE THOUGHTS OF YOUR AROUSAL. writes the best sex stuff. he keeps hopping from one to another but everyone knows he is your biggest whore. UNHINGED. crazy lot of nsfw fanarts of you, has patreon subscription to see all those fanarts. it doenst matter where he is, work/home/cafe. HE IS THIRSTING ABOUT YOU. writes about the shapes of your labia/cock and can write poetry on your body.

SHIDOU, karasu, dazai, GOJO, sukuna, toji, BACHIRA, aomine(ik.. but if he could write), ranpo, EREN, kaiser, jean + anyone who fits the criteria

the sweetheart

he isnt extremely active. somewhere in between the worlds. he calls himself your cheerleader, your number one supporter. he has tons of art saved of you might/might not be on budget. has one commissioned selfship with you. he loves you and probably has the most pure of the selfship with horniness served as dessert. (NO ONE CAN ESCAPE IT) occasionally indulges in you. is mostly very sfw!! but his head is full of all the sexi stuff. loves to talk about you… if anyone strikes a conversation about you he can write verbal books. CERTIFIED SIMP. his selfship is uwu. doesnt go big on it but is a soft fan.

kenyu, hiori, isagi, yuuta, megumi?, chifuyu, rindou, kakucho, connie, atsushi + anyone who fits the criteria

the silent one

he has been your fan since the start, the first time he laid his eyes of your 2d character design, your story, your everything captured him. he loves you from afar.. isnt really active but has a small pinterest board or a playlist of you that he silently indulges in. has no idea what selfships are but you’re a coping mechanism for him (sometimes). if you were real, he’d treat you so much better than the shitty charcter you’re stuck with. doesn’t pick fights online but wouldn’t hesitate if someone crossed a line. he doesnt realize but thinks of you more than a fictional character. probably is the healthiest out of the five. none of his irls know about his fixation of you and it would never see the light of the day. IF LOYALTY WAS A PERSON IT WOULD BE HIM. period.

nanami, rin, ness, levi, erwin, akutagawa + anyone who fits the criteria

the idgaf

he simps only for you. he has posters of you and is not ashamed. people know about you being his favourite character but he is scary so nobody can ask it about. has minimal/no online presence. but keeps signed copies of the mangakas. JERKS OFF TO YOUR POSTERS UNABASHED. he follows one fan account and prolly goes anon sometimes. heavily reads your smut or hasn’t scratched the surface you cant tell. YOURE NOT A CHARACTER, YOURE HIS FAVOURITE. ANOTHER ONE WHO DOENST KNOW WHAT SEFSHIPS ARE, BUT HEAVILY CREAMS THINKING OF YOU and has wild fantasies about you.

sae, aomine, shoichi, oliver, izana, kaiser(idk), baji, naoya, mikey, wc kunigami, ranpo + anyone who fits the criteria

zen speaks: i’ll do a yn as diff as character tropes drabbles too 🤭 so wtevrhr <3

dividers: @/cafekitsune

[alatushours]

☆ 731 DAYS, featuring xiao — time flew by when he was with you. who would���ve thought it had been two years already?

contents. gender neutral reader. fluff n' marriage, partly written from xiao's pov? very selfship-coded, just xiao reminiscing the past with you ♡ word count. 879

notes. hi guys ik you’re probably getting sick of all the xiao content which im so sorry about but i had to bc today is my two-year anniversary with xiao <3 plus it’s the first post of the new year so ofc i had to write for him ! it’s shorter than most of my other xiao posts tho so hopefully you all won’t find it to be too boring …

GLITTERING STARS twinkled across the moonlit sky as the vigilant yaksha stood at the balcony of the wangshu inn, gazing towards the liyue plains beyond. he was waiting for someone; a certain person that he'd met right on this balcony what hadn't even felt that long ago. 

it was certainly far more difficult circumstances back then; liyue was struggling from the loss of their archon, and he was left to pick up the pieces. up until then, the adeptus never thought he would find peace for himself. that was, until you came into his life. 

the sound of footsteps creaking on the wooden staircase snapped him out of his thoughts. he would recognize those footsteps anywhere; that, and the familiar voice that exclaimed, “i’m back!” 

xiao turned from where he stood, a tiny hint of a smile forming on his lips as he greeted his lover. “i was waiting for you, qingxin.” 

there you stood with a sheepish grin on your face, plate of almond tofu in hand. "sorry, i got held back a bit from work. i made dessert for you, though.” 

your husband pressed a kiss to your lips. “thank you, dear. it’s been a while since i’ve had a taste of your cooking.” 

he turned his head away, voice lowered. “i’m sorry for making you come over to the inn instead of our home, but i wanted to meet with you here tonight.”

you nodded, reaching forward to grasp his hand in yours. “i know why. it’s a special place, and today is a special day, right? for you, for me, for us.”  

xiao didn’t reply for a moment. “…‘the moon is beautiful tonight, isn’t it?’ that’s what you told me at this same spot, two years ago.” do you still remember the events of this day back then?” 

“of course i remember.” you walked towards the edge of the balcony with xiao in tow, leaning against the railing. “the lantern rite was in full swing this time of year. i wanted to watch the fireworks with you, so i came over the wangshu inn with some tofu.” 

“but i was off fighting monsters,” xiao remarked. “i apologize to have kept you waiting for so long that night.” 

“no, but that’s what made the moment special, y’know?” you smiled at the memory. “i waited here in this spot for what seemed like hours, calling out your name. the sun had already set when i arrived, and at one point keqing even told me i was going to miss the celebration if i stayed here and tried to drag me off.” 

you turned to face him, and xiao nearly lost his breath. “but then you came.” 

you looked ethereal standing there, bathed in moonlight, the serenest of smiles on your face. 

“i did,” he replied, squeezing your hand. “and that was the moment my life changed forever.” 

“for the better, or for the worse?” you joked. 

he flicked your forehead. “don’t ask such dumb questions, silly.” xiao looked up towards the sky, the moon high up in the sea of stars. “it’s just the same, isn’t it…”

the conditions that night been exactly the same as this; except the sky had been lit up with fireworks two years ago. the same year that he had kneeled on this balcony, confessing his love for you as colorful sparks lit up the sky. 

“will you marry me, y/n?” 

“the same as what?” you asked, leaning your head on his shoulder. 

the adeptus shook his head. “nothing, just thinking out loud.” he looked down towards the first floor of the inn, where traveling merchants were still strolling about. “a shame the lantern rite doesn’t start until later this year. we could have watched the fireworks show together again.” 

“i thought the vigilant yaksha hated the lantern rite,” you teased him. “is the conqueror of demons getting soft, hm?” 

xiao slapped your arm in protest. “shut up.” he looked away, grumbling. “i only said so because i know you enjoy the display, mortal.” 

you laughed, a sound that was music to his ears. “you’re so silly, xiao.” you smiled and gave him a kiss. “that’s okay, the stars are enough of a show for me.” 

“is it now?” he pressed another kiss to your lips, one hand running through your hair. “well then, i know the perfect place where we can watch the stars.” 

you followed his hand as it pointed up towards the roof. 

“yippee!” 

as you settled down to stargaze, his arms wrapped around your waist so you wouldn’t fall, xiao couldn’t help but think to himself how lucky he was. he had always thought his karma meant he couldn’t feel happiness, but now you had come into his life, and for the first time he felt at peace. as if he could finally be happy, after a millennia of suffering. 

yes, in some ways being immortal was a curse; but it was also a blessing, for if he was just a mere mortal long ago he wouldn’t have met you. the light of his life, his love. xiao was so glad to have you with him these past two years, and the adeptus promised himself that he would never leave your side, until forever do us part.

end notes. guys once again i’m sorry for writing so much xiao stuff lately :( he was my first birthday letter i received and also my first double 5 star pull so um he has a special place in my heart if you can’t already tell… i promise i wont write him for a while after this !! need to get some neuvi and tighnari content out here too ! ! but i hoped you guys liked it <3

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[averysmolbear]

CW: The reader isn’t explicitly said to be female but it’s implied. While it’s going to be a general ship fic, it’s still heavily selfship coded. Also be warned that it isn’t explicitly stated that the reader is dealing with the aftermath of a depressive episode but it’s heavily implied. This hasn’t been proofread and it’s completely self indulgent. There are a couple of pet names in this as well. It’s all fluffy-ish comfort here though!

Divider by @/saradika

You squint against the light that suddenly floods your bedroom and mentally curse yourself for giving your boyfriend a key to your apartment. He doesn’t say anything at first but he does sit on the edge of your bed and gently pulls back the comforter that you have pulled up to your chin.

His smile is like warmth and sunshine. You can’t help but feel the corners of your mouth tug upward in the faintest hint of a smile in return. He doesn’t comment on the dirty dishes on your floor and nightstand or the dirty laundry on your floor by your closet. Instead he gently brushes some hair out of your face before softly speaking to you.

“Hey, baby. Think you can get out of bed for me today?”

You know your voice will crack if you try to speak so you just nod, your eyes finally adjusted to the light in the room. You don’t know what time it is but you assume it’s sometime in the morning.

He stands up and offers you his hand as you carefully climb out of bed. “How about a shower? I know I always feel a little better after a long, hot shower.”

After you nod again, your boyfriend smiles and leads you to the bedroom. When you make it clear that you can do this on your own, he leans against the counter and waits as you undress and turn on the water to get it to your preferred temperature. He has your phone in hand and you realize that you never saw him grab it from your nightstand. He smiles and shrugs, finding a playlist of soft and soothing music.

“Yell if you need me, okay?” He walks over and presses a kiss on the top of your head as you nod.

He closes the door behind himself, doing his best to listen for you in case you need him. He strips your bed, taking the dirty sheets and comforter to the small laundry room in your apartment. He starts the washer and finds the extra set of sheets and the extra blanket in your linen closet.

In no time at all, he has your bed dressed again. He picks up your laundry, tossing it in the basket that sits by your closet door. Then he gathers up the dirty dishes to place them in the sink. He can still hear the water running in the bathroom as you shower so he finishes picking up your bedroom as he waits for you.

When you walk in, a towel wrapped around yourself, he turns around and smiles softly. “Feeling any better?”

You nod and you’re surprised when he leaves your room to let you get dressed. You find your boyfriend in the kitchen after you dress in your comfiest pajamas. He’s already digging out everything he’ll need to make you your favorite comfort meal. Quietly, you slip next to him and start to help prepare the ingredients in comfortable silence.

Once the food is done, he grabs your plate and his, carrying them into the living room. You follow with two cups in hand as well. Without having to say a word, you settle in next to each other on the couch. He hands you the remote, letting you pick out what to watch.

“If you’re feeling up to it, I want to take you out tomorrow.” He smiles when he sees your face light up. He knows that you get like this sometimes but that doesn’t change how happy it makes him to see you happy again. “Maybe we can go see that movie you’ve been wanting to see. It’s out now, right?”

“Are you sure?” You know that he was less than enthusiastic about the movie when you saw the first trailer and you don’t want to force him to see it with you but when you see him smile and nod, you know he’s not just doing this for you. “Okay.”

The two of you settle in to watch your favorite movie. You’re grateful that he always seems to know what to say and do when you’re not at your best. That quiet comfort of just being near him making it seem like everything will be alright.

[louiesselfshipramblings]

Once in a Lifetime: ENA selfship!!

My relationship with ENA as a series is a bit interesting. I knew of her through tumblr for a while, I'd say, but never looked into it. My friend showed me the trilogy of shorts that had her (it was "Auction Day", "Extinction Party", and "Temptation Stairway" at the time), and I thought the style was cool! I didn't think much of ENA as is, but to be fair, I was still a blossoming bud when it came to figure out what I liked. After all I was only, like...eighteen. Lol.

Ena is def one of my more recent selfships, and I was kinda unsure of her when she re-entered my mind. I was unsure if it was really smth special, or just kind of a spur of the moment situation. I was still kinda feeling that as I got this quite frankly amazing commission, but seeing the WIPs and ESPECIALLY the final product made me go "Oh yeh...that's my gf!!!"

The Lore!!

My sona here is known as Lüc, which is a somewhat corruption of my own name? I wanted something that matched the sorta off-kilter, fake-video-game vibes of ENA as is. Tho, given the sparse nature of world building as of now, I'm kinda just making the setting...Earth-like with special features, lol. Maybe DreamBBQ will change things, idk yet.

But!! Lüc!! He's a starry eyed (quite literally) mid-twenty-something who owns a local theater, but it's a lil crummy. Has an old, 80s style appearance due to lack of budget, which also effects the showings. Since I can't afford big releases, I mainly show older public domain films and cartoons, with "new" content being indie films. It attracts...people, at least. I also sell cashews instead of popcorn cause I don't like how kernels get stuck in my teeth (and in lore an unpopped kernel cracked a tooth of his as a kid)

Ena sorta just stumbled in, as she does, and hung out in the lobby. Didn't even see a film, but she did buy some cashews. We did chat for a while. It was a brief encounter, but...I kinda fell for her at first sight XD

The feeling of liking was mutual, course, but she didn't really think it romantic at first. Which is why she visited so often! To see her friend! Yippie...but eventually I had the guts to tell her how I feel (we were close enough friends by then), and she was a little surprised at first! I was worried I upset her at first, but turns out she was just thinking it over. The look of realization on her face and the way she blurted out "THAT'S WHAT THE CARNATIONS MEANT!!!" still stick in my head, heh!

We didn't start right there, exactly. Ena said she needed time to think it over, so of course I let her. I was bracing myself for waiting a whole week of not seeing her, but she ended up popping back in three days later, roughly. She seemed a lil lost for words, which shocked me seeing as she usually had such colorful vocabulary. I tried to give her some support in realizing her feelings and such, before she blurted out, again, "I LIKE YOU A LOT TOO?? CAN WE DATE MAYBE???"

And we just kinda started dating! I took her out to a very nice restaurant, and that's also where we had our first kiss!!! And we've just been kinda going regular since! She still lives at her place, but she visits a lot to mine (second floor of the theater, saves space and money!!).

We're still very much enjoying being each other's bf and gf, so marriage is hardly on the table. No kids either, probably. Neither of us think we'd be able to handle it, lol. Moony visits sometimes too! We...get along best we can. I realize she's Ena's best friend, she realizes I mean a lot to Ena. We tolerate one another for her sake.

But yeah! That's my self ship with Ena! The series timeline is kinda...nebulous? Especially with DreamBBQ and the whole "second" Ena. I mainly just ship with the OG blue-yellow pre-TempStair version of her; gonna have to wait and see with this new gal!

The amazing art of me and Ena coming together was done by the always spectacular @cupiidzbow! I said before but you did just AMAZING here!! Like my sona is great but also your Ena is so cute???? I def gotta get more with her from ya! And you, the reader, should support Freddie and his monkey business!

[gritsandbrits]

Well since today is International Women's Day i thought i take the time to write about my self insert and how she relates and an excuse to vent my frustrations with a glaring issue with the show.

YOU know what that means? SELFSHIP LORE! SELFSHIP LORE

It all started back in 2019. I had recently got back into transformers animated and wanted to make myself useful in the fandom. However when I watch the show i started to realize it had a specific ick that I couldn't shake away. The closest we had to female leads were Arcee and Blackarachnia but their storylines revolved around a man, or rather, how the men feel about them.

Despite Blackarachnia being one of the main villains she didnt pose much of a threat. It didn't help that she was pretty unlikable yet the show tries to convince me she and optimus were soulmates. They're soulmates? Hmph! Fat chance!

Arcee was even worse. She was out of the action the whole show even thought the toyline marketed her with weapons anf rhe japanese opening had her fighting Blackarachnia. You'd be forgiven if you believed that meant she would be of prominence in the show but nope! We don't see her do anything! We barely see how her amnesia affected her, only how it affected Ratchet. The only other woman was Sari but she was a little girl and rarely if ever interacted with other female characters.

I'm not saying she needed a mom or anything but i still thought it was weird that the only time she interacted with a woman was Blackarachnia - even after she aged up and she started hanging out with othet teens we dont know who her new friends are - so we lost a lot of potential. Even though there robots it's still not an excuse to write the female characters so poorly.

With those in mind, I decided I was going to make some OCs who were just as colorful as the men. I came with Junia Lovelace, named after the famous mathematician Ada Lovelace. Nicola and Alisha followed.

A couple of years later I revamped my ocs because i wasn't satisfied with their designs. I shortened Junia's name to just CJ. I also gave her a backstory: being a secretary who was deeply intelligent but was held back by the sexist attitudes of her boss Powell. By having CJ experience workplace discrimination it would be my way making her more relatable and bring these issues to light. Her weapon was a bow and arrow.

CJ's luck would change when she discovers a shard of the allspark during the monster incident in the first episode. She would receive this after going back inside the building to rescue sari. Another idea was she would already be a superhero but without powers but using a suit of armor made of scrap that Sumdac discarded. She would gain a following in low income neighborhoods stopping small crimes and helping citizens who didnt have the money to afford robots. Because she was already a hero before the autobots came onto the scene she wouldve served as their guide.

I don't know how to capture my own likeness so my designs are inconsistent. Template by Raygirlbases.

These were transformation sequences. I had the idea to have her item ɓe a headban that turbs into headphones when transformed. It represents how she thinks about others - and similar to Jem's earrings - versus Henry Masterson who only thought about himself.

The first few weeks didn't go smooth. Lovelace had to work around the autobots massive size. She was also dealing with problems at work and in her personal life. Luckily they ended up on the right page.

Around this time I changed her name again to chrystal to better fit the technological theme of the show. As of 2025 her new permanent name is Chrystal Benton as a tribute to Jerrica Benton, who was a major inspiration for my remake, and Lovelace is her hero name. I also changed her armor design to be more uniform with Team Detroit.

I had her fighting the human supervillains and even gave her a few OC enemies - many of whom were also women - and give her serious storylines. I switced up her personality having more of a temper and passion for life, sometimes over indulgent. To reflect her personality change I changed her main weapon to a giant bazooka (think the quasar launchers form Power Rangers Lost Galaxy) and a force field.

Chrystal's two girl friends Nicola and Alisha joined her for the ride, as her partner and hacker. She became a mentor and aunt figure for sari, helping her learn to appreciate her childhood and not to be so quick to grow up. She even quit in protest after Powell kicked the poor girl out and took her in, getting a job busing tables to make ends meet. Her job would be reinstated once Powell and Henry were dealt with along with a bonus: becoming the new Apprentice for Isaac.

Yes I made my girl a superhero and a career woman who unashamedly takes promotions because it's a free world baby!

Perhaps the biggest aspect of her character is her romance with Optimus Prime.

I mentioned before that I didn't care for the Optimus & Blackarachnia ship. He could do so much better than a self victimizing loser. While Chrystal has a lot going on in her life I also want to show you can be a powerful hero and have romantic love. That a black woman being the apple of the main hero's eye would be such a powerfully healing thing to see.

In the first couple of seasons she and Optimus were merely friends. Hints were dropped on occasion painting their friendship as something more.

Chrystal accompanied optimus on many missions. They were protective othet each other, and while Optimus didnt want to get hurt she insisted on going because she doesnt want to stand on the sidelines. She'd gave him a nickname Big Blue - it took him time getting used to but he very much preferred it to Maintenance Prime.

Alas, just like with every ship the weather conditions didnt always allow smooth sailing. Optimus was srill insecure with himself, believing that he shouldn't get close out of fear of losing her like Elita-1. Chrystal was confused about having a crush on a giant alien from outer space. That and the media attention it would bring. Not to mention the anti organic Cybertron especially once sentinel enters the picture. He wasnt just disguted at the idea of optimus being close to an organic but was also envious that a organic could make a better friend than him, forcing him to confront his own flaws which he didn't want to see.

But that wasnt the only problem.

A certain spider didnt want to admit it, but deep down she was angry that her old friend had moved on. With a human at that.

After getitng involved in the events of Along Came A Spider, Chrystal was very worried about her friend's mental state. She manages to convince him to tell her about his past. She was horrified to learn about what happened and told Optimus that he did everything he could and cant beat himself up. With this new information, Chrystal felt sympathetic to Blackarachnia. She tried to avoid getting into fights, even offering to use some of her power to heal Blackarachnia to no avail. She was still holding a grudge against Optimus despite all the good he done and had personally gone out to save her. Her feelings of envy prompted her to single out Chrystal as a way to get at Optimus. Coupled with putting their friends and the city in danger, hurting innocent like Wasp, and by proxy a human woman Wasp had mutated named Malina - who becomes the 2nd heroic techno-organic, Mariposa - it started to dawn on Chrystal that Blackarachnia simply didnt want to change.

Blackarachnia and Chrystal are rivals not just for optimus's affections but also philosophy. Blackarachnia cynically believes every bot is out for themself, that emotions such as love are merely tools to get what you want. Chrystal believes love is powerful but it also has to be a group effort.

Even wirh all these obstacles Optimus and Chrystal's relationship only got stronger. On the down time, Chrystal would introduce optimus to music, sports. He would show her cybertornian language and files that he had saved as a pass time.

In the mini arc where Optimus turns human again for REAL Chrystal takes him to the mall not wanting to lose an opportunity to show him humanity in her level.

And another episode after that where she turns cybertronian during magical shenanigans and he helps her learn to adjust to her robotic body. I could write more about their relationship but that would have to be for another post.

Overall, Chrystal came out of a desire to have another female character among the core cast who has just as a much of a personality as the guys. She isn't just a girl but a fully realized woman who has the courage to face what life throws at her. Writing chrystal has been a healing experience and I'm thankful to share it with everyone. Happy International Women's day. Time for me to transform and roll out!

[goldie90]

Because it seems like it needs to be said...

First, this is going to be quite long, so my apologies in advance, but I think it is important to address and explain these things and there is simply no way to make it shorter.

Since over the past week, the same person who has been bad mouthing me since february 2023 (as already mentioned here: Goldie — In relation to this post: I know I've already...), apparently felt the need to dig up things from the past again (including old screenshots which funny enough have never been a secret to begin with), I feel like I might should elaborate a few things.

First things first: As already mentioned before, the whole thing started back in february 2023. At this time me and this person used to be mutuals and although we didn't interact much (just a few asks here and there etc.) the few interactions we had have always been positive.

Now some of you maybe know that around this time a certain pc game named Hogwarts Legacy was released and some people were posting about it, sharing their first impressions of the game, sharing screenshots etc. And for me who has been a fan of the Harry Potter franchise since childhood, those were interesting news - not because I wanted to buy or play said game, I'm not playing video games except for sometimes The Sims when I feel like it, but simply for the nostalgia it gave me. You know, I read the first HP book back when it came out in 1998, I was 8 years old at this time and I didn't like to read, I didn't like it at all. But then I read this book and it changed little me's opinion about books forever because I truly enjoyed it, so of course when the following books of the series came out, I read them as well, just like I watched all the movies (which back then was especially fun because just like everyone my age, I had the benefit of being the same age as the characters). So yeah, I think you can see why seeing the screenshots of the game felt nice and so it happened that I reblogged some of them, simply for the nostalgia. I didn't know back then that the author of HP (Joanne K. Rowling) was (and still is) engaging in very discriminatory behavior towards trans people, as I have never been on twitter (which as I learned later is apparently her number 1 platform to spread her harmful opinions) and I'm also not someone who keeps up to date with celebrity gossip, because that's simply not something I'm interested in.

So I had no idea and because of this I was very surprised and confused when shortly after reblogging the Hogwarts Legacy pictures, I received a very rude ask in which someone was demanding that I tag posts related to this game, claiming that it was "transphobic" and "antisemitic", as well as some insults directed at the author of HP. This ask was on anon, it was not signed in any way, nothing. Therefore I had no idea who sent it. All I knew was that this situation (receiving a rude anon like this) brought back bad memories because only a few months before I had a similar thing happening when an anti sent me an anon ask, demanding a nsfw tag for a slightly suggestive selfship post of mine and how me responding to it back then, resulted in being harassed for 5 days straight by antis. I didn't want something like this to happen again, so instead of answering the ask, I deleted it and made a short info post for my followers in which I asked them to please don't send me asks demanding specific tags for my posts/reblogs, and that if someone doesn't like the content on my blog, they could just unfollow and/or block me.

The next day when I logged into tumblr, I was basically greeted with a bitchy post from said mutual on my dash, complaining about me not answering their ask as well as about the info post I made instead, which was how I even found out that it was them who sent me the ask. Apparently they didn't thought I would see their post since back then, their selfship blog was a sideblog and so while they apparently blocked me on their main after reading my post, they forgot to block me on their sideblog as well and their bitch-post about me showed up on my dash. And now I made a stupid mistake, annoyed by their behavior, the rude ask, the public complaining about me, I reblogged their post and commented it with "Oh okay, now I know who the idiot in my inbox was" That was unnecessary and I shouldn't have done this, but right in this moment I wasn't thinking much of it, especially since I already wasn't in the best state of mind at this time due to other reasons (the situation with the antis mentioned above, a fallout with my best friend, as well as my late grandfather's death of cancer only two months before). Short: I wasn't doing well at all and I guess that's why I simply didn't have the patience for something like this on top of everything else. Of course that's not an excuse, but that's how it was and I won't pretend otherwise.

Either way, this little incident between me and this person would have been nothing more than exactly this - a little incident - if it was up to me. You know, something that might annoys you for a little moment, but then you shrug it off and move on. Little did I know that this was just the beginning of a much bigger issue. This user spent the rest of this day with making multiple bitch posts about me, freaking out way more than what would have been reasonable for this kind of situation and then a few days later they started their slander campaign against me, spreading rumors about me being a "transphobe" and "ableist" (the latter apparently because during our disagreement I said that if they freak out like this because of a picture of a castle and some landscapes, they probably got some bigger issues to work on), which resulted in people harassing and attacking me repeatedly, anons flooding my ask box with insults, calling me a "transphobe", a "terf", a "bitch" a "cunt", telling me I deserve to die, that I should kill myself etc. Let me tell you, it was no fun.

But I gotta be honest, I didn't made it better because since they kept bringing up HP / JK, acting like enjoying the franchise I grew up with was suddenly a crime - all of this without ever showing me any proof of their accusations against the author - I simply decided to react in a spiteful way by purposefully reblogging posts about not only Harry Potter, but also the author, fully convinced that she - the person who created this amazing story - would never engage in the kind of behavior those people were accusing her of. After all it goes against everything she wrote in her books....

So for the next weeks it kept going on like this - for every hate anon I received, I would reblog more posts about her, kinda as a big "F*ck you" towards the people harassing me. Then one day when I reblogged another post from a person expressing their support for JK, it happened that the op started to follow me and after a few interactions I followed back. A couple more interactions and he DM'ed me, started a conversation with me and for the first time since my fallout with my ex friend (more to this later), the thought of someone new trying to become friends with me didn't felt scaring to me. There was something about him I can't quite explain but it made me feel safe and comforted and so me and him became friends rather quickly and although I saw the red flags (they were hard to miss ngl) I ignored them, grateful to finally have someone around on this website again who was nice to me, someone who was there for me through this situation and who protected me, or so he said....

He started to openly attack people who would give me trouble or say something bad about me, which of course only made things worse and I asked him repeatedly not to do this, to just let it be but it always resulted in him either ignoring my words, or agreeing just to go right back to it 1 - 2 days later, always emphasizing that he was just "trying to protect me" which put me in a situation where I felt like I owed him something, so I started to make open excuses for his behavior, backing him up no matter what he said or did and just displaying my loyality to him since I knew that's what he expected from me. During this time, he would also target the ex mutual who had started the rumors that caused the whole mess in the first place a few times and because of the trouble I had to endure thanks to this person in the past, I was more than happy to join in, viewing it as some kind of "payback". I'm not proud of this, yet it happened and I would never deny it.

Things got really bad and of course our behavior only provoked the previous harassment I had to endure to escalate even more and at some point someone even made a whole blog about us, screenshoting our posts etc. This went on until one day my friend decided to write a public apology to the people he attacked during this time, to end this whole mess and make people leave the two of us alone.

From there on things finally improved, we parted ways one month later and another month later my ex friend @moss-selfship who couldn't be more different from him came back into my life and it was also him who, when I asked him about it, showed me actual proof for JK's harmful behavior, which was a very shocking and disappointing thing for me to see and of course, it led to me deleting everything I ever reblogged about her, as I'm not willing to support this woman in any way and I feel stupid and ashamed for ever doing so.😦 I also deleted every interaction with this former friend, as well as every other memory of this time, not to hide anything (as the ex mutual mentioned above was accusing me of lately) but simply because I don't want to have these things on my blog, since they were part of a very bad chapter of my life I don't want to have anything to do with anymore. Yet I never tried to pretend it didn't happen and I never would. The blog which was screenshoting all these things back then does still exist until this day and as you will see here, it was also where this person took the screenshots from when they tried to call me out about these old things a few days ago:

Just like they also decided to bring up the old fight between me and @moss-selfship to make distasteful comments about it, although this is something that's not only between us but also something we fixed and left behind us long ago

(Details can be found here: Goldie — As my friend already said (and as you can see here...)

As you already know, I did apologize to this person months ago, with help from my dear friend @moss-selfship who was the one who reached out to them and back then they promised to them that they would stop messaging people to as they like to call it "warn" them of me, but they didn't. From february 2023 when me and them had this "tag disagreement" until this day they kept slandering me and yes it is slandering since the "Goldie is a transphobe" lie they keep clinging to, has never been true at all. Same goes for the accusation of me being ableist, as well as some other things they said.

I spent the whole past year trying to make up for my previous mistakes and working on myself, trying to be a better person but thanks to this person it never stopped being very hard to just having fun on here and enjoying interactions etc. as they would always keep seeking out people I was interacting with to badmouth me, but you already know this from the post linked at the very top of this post here, so there is no need to elaborate this any further.

The only thing I wanted to make clear here is that:

The things they tried to present as something new, are things that happened long ago.

They have never been a secret to begin with, as the "phantom blog" has always been there, freely accessible for everyone.

I never tried to deny them in any way and I never would.

And this is all I have to say about this matter. If you read till there, thank you for taking the time and again, my apologies for it being so long. If you have any more questions about the things showed here, be it the old screenshots you can find on this blog or anything else, please do not hesitate to DM me and I will happily answer your questions.

Have a nice day.💖

[grimmweepers]

hi ryu!! i hope you don’t mind me stopping by with a selfship ask about you and alhaitham :] i seen your lovely post in your pinned about your relationship being very much slow burn - friends to lovers - mutual pining!

but i was wondering when it was that you felt that switch between you both? when was the moment that you realised you wanted to be more than friends , was there a certain instance? ( for both you and alhaitham ) if you’re comfortable talking about it that is 💓 i hope you’re having a great day!

omg thank you so much stopping by, vana 🥺🤍 welcome welcome, i give you a cookie 🍪

sorry it’s taken me so long to answer. i changed my entire ryuhaitham lore very recently so coming up with new details takes a bit more brain power. it means a lot that you’re asking, i’m always okay with yapping about us !! p.s i may have yapped a little too hard so i wholeheartedly apologise for the length of this 😭

we came to terms with our feelings at completely different times—him first, and me much, much later. as you can probably guess, it was a slow snowball effect. one realisation led to another until suddenly, we were thinking about each other in ways that friends definitely don’t.

it all started because we ended up in the same darshan, which meant we’d occasionally study together. we know he’s a promoter of self learning/study and pretty much marches to the beat of his own drum so at first, it was mostly out of obligation. you know, me being “that girl who isn’t from teyvat” may have nudged alhaitham (aloof as he is) to lend a hand, especially since he’s a top student and the akademiya probably gave him some gentle encouragement to help the odd outsider. over time tho, what started as polite study sessions grew into an actual friendship!

for alhaitham, the shift happened when he stopped viewing me as just this anomaly and saw how different i was from his initial impression. being thrown into an unfamiliar world made me cautious and reserved, but his refusal to treat me like some tragedy made me feel more at ease. since i’m more talkative in one-on-one settings, my personality eventually started bleeding through—flaws and all. and once he realised i wasn’t quiet but actually dramatic, sassy, comical, and maybe a little weird, he found it… endearing. he had one of those, “i don’t have a type, but…” moments. the rest, as they say, is history.

for me? erm… i’m embarrassingly slow on the uptake. i didn’t realise my feelings until after we graduated. in my defence, getting isekai’d into another world kind of messes with your sense of permanence, so romance was low on my priority list. but then one day, it hit me—alhaitham had been showing his affection in his subtle, alhaitham-esque ways all along, and our moments together always felt just a little deeper than with anyone else.

this isn’t to say he was painfully pining for me the entire time. alhaitham’s approach to his feelings very matter-of-fact. he enjoyed my company and found me pleasant to be around. if i didn’t feel the same, it wasn’t going to ruin his life.

the chaos started once i realised i had a crush on him. you can imagine how that went. i couldn’t even look at him without overthinking everything, while he was just… blissfully unaware of my revelation and internal spiral. there were definitely signs over the years that something was brewing between us, but we’re the king and queen of brushing things off in the name of logic. so yeah, it was slow!!!! but when things finally clicked, i suppose it was worth every agonising, awkward moment 🙄🤍

[birinboom]

so hoshina huh 👀 JDJDJDODJDK this sounds so threatening but i am actually dying to know more. what’s the dynamic like? what drew you to him to begin with? im a hungry little girl and im begging for crumbs

EDIT: I might end up changing some of the lore to make everything fit better

Sorry to keep you waiting for your meal! Aaahh I’m still so awkward about it, it took me forever to work up the courage to answer 🫣 You make selfshipping seem so easy, Kendy, I envy you!!

I guess I should give some backstory or some of my answers won’t make much sense…

So basically, I’m a scientist from Scandinavia, specializing in troll (kaiju) biology. I’m selected for a 6 month work exchange program with Izumo Tech, in particular with the science unit at the Tachikawa base. 

The general idea for the work exchange is that the biology of kaiju/troll/cryptid/monster/whatever local name they’re given varies vastly across the world and five the countries with the highest monster emergence decided to do a collaboration between their science divisions in the hopes of sharing knowledge and improving our defenses.

I’ll need one of the fighters from the 3rd Division to perform regular tests on to check their equipment in the hopes of improving it, and Hoshina is selected to assist me solely because he’s the best at English in the 3rd Division. He’s quite happy to be selected since it means he’ll be relieved of a few of his regular duties, and he offers to be the one to pick me up at the airport so we can begin our collaboration on a good note. 

He enjoys my company enough that he takes me sightseeing on his days off, and he quickly becomes my go-to person if I’m having any form of trouble - like the one time I got kicked off the base because I forgot my ID back at the lab and needed someone to vouch for me to get me back in. 

Our friendship soon morphs into more of a situationship, both of us constantly reminding ourselves that I’m only in Japan for 6 months, it CANNOT become anything more. Not that that stops either of us from falling in love.

In the end I end up getting a permanent job offer from Izumo Tech so I’m able to move to Japan and we start officially dating.

So… there you have it. Yeah. OKAY YOU HAD QUESTIONS!

What’s the dynamic like

I’ve been thinking about this one so hard cause I’m not sure what answer you’re looking for here… I guess introvert/extrovert fits since I’m shy and awkward until I feel comfortable and Hoshina is very much the opposite. He’s good at drawing me out of my shell. Though he does like when I’m shy and blushing, it triggers his cute aggression which makes him want to tease me, which in turn only makes me blush more. It’s a bit of a spiral that usually ends with him kissing me silly but I can’t help but love it 🤭

There’s generally a lot of laughter in our relationship. We take care of each other, whether he’s injured or I’m sick, and there’s a lot of mutual trust in that we always want what’s best for each other. Plus brat vs. brat tamer. Hi, I’m the brat 🙋‍♀️

What drew me to him to begin with - in universe

I’ve always been the type of person to latch onto anybody who’s remotely nice to me and Hoshina just happened to be first in that regard. He was a lot more forward in the beginning than I dared to be, to the point where it could get just a little overwhelming at times. Still, it was more attention than I had gotten in a long long while so I never even thought about turning him down. 

Plus his sword skills had me fangirling practically as soon as I found out about them. He enjoyed every minute of it.

Adding to that, we bonded a lot over our mutual love of reading and coffee, and some shared experiences like both of us having shitty families who didn’t support our dreams.

What drew me to him to begin with - IRL

I’ve always been fond of mentor characters, and I’ve recently begun liking characters who are a little bit of an asshole (I blame HSR’s Aventurine for this 😒) 

Hoshina fits very nicely into both categories, though the mentor-side isn’t shown in the anime yet.

I dunno, I love how he goes for a more understated role until his skills are needed and then he goes ALL out. I love how loyal he is to Mina. I love how he’s a little shit. That one scene where he’s on his knees cry-laughing and slapping the floor because Kafka couldn’t get his suit to work, it smacked me in the face and I went ‘oh it’s him. I want him.’ 

Plus his sword skills had me fangirling, that one’s true in every universe  ¯\_( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)_/¯

Thank you so so much for sending me this!!! 💖💖💖

[seeyouonsaturn]

Hello! I've recentlyl found your blog and it's made me so nostalgic. You've managed to find fanart that I thought was lost to time. I was in love with prowl back in 2009 and these days he's a platonic f/o! I ship to optimus and bulkhead now! I'd very much like to hear about your oc! (selfshipping-haven)

AW THANK YOU!! God yeah he was my first real love tbh. I'd had little baby crushes before but Prowl unlocked things in me I didn't even know I had when I discovered TFA in 2011. I didn't even really speak English back then, I didn't understand half of what those guys were even saying but he was everything to me.

I haven't thought about transformers in over a decade until I recently made a new friend who's a fan, and at some point TFA came up and I sort of mentioned that I used to be in love with Prowl, so then one thing led to another and I looked him up just for nostalgia and oh. I remember him. We were in love. Turns out those feelings never left. So here I am.

Thinking back now I realized that there's a lot of things about my personality/me as a person that connect back to Prowl, because kid me wanted to be more like him, and I did, but I completely forgot where it all started. I do love that I succeeded to grow into a person he would like, it means so much to me. Coming back to TFA honestly feels like coming home. Returning to my roots.

Anyway, excuse the autistic rambling <3 I much appreciate this ask, it means a lot that someone actually cares enough to ask!! Looking at your blog though, I don't think you'd like Trixie very much, since her ship/story is pretty fucked up lmao.

I have two OCs I ship with Prowl (HEAR ME OUT LOL) mom said i could have two Prowl ships

So. The first one, Ash, I made when I was 13, and they were a very made-by-autistic-child-esque overpowered self-insert. They had a different name and gender back then because I did too but the concept remains sort of the same: Prowl falls in love with a human, all is good for a while, and then there is an accident that results in Ash nearly dying, becoming techno-organic to save their life, and sporting a huge scar. I thought it was awesome, then later decided it was cringe, and now I realized it's actually based af so I revived them. I am cringe but I am free. Ash is great.

Enjoy a preview. Kitty cat. I love cats more than anything and this is a self insert so of COURSE they have kittycat ears!! Probably processor over matter'd them into existence too through sheer willpower. Because they're neat.

But I did have a phase in I think 2019 where I briefly got back into TFA (but not deeply) and wanted a new OC, because I was in a very sad "noooo you can't ever make anything ✨️cringe✨️" phase. Dark times. I don't know why I let people convince me there could ever be harm in my joy. So I scrapped Ash and made a bot OC instead, because the whole humanxbot thing felt too self-indulgent to be allowed. And thus came Bird. (She also had a different name, but I revamped her completely in the past weeks).

I love Bird. She's honestly my main transformers oc. Bird starts out as a decepticon named PHANTOM-2918-4 (aka Phantom), who's tasked to spy on the Autobots, but over time she instead falls in love with Earth's nature and critters and realizes she wants to protect them, not harm them. Prowl decides to take a chance on her and train her (since Yoketron took a chance on him too). She changes her name to Bird because she loves birds most, since they can fly like her, but the ability isn't associated with evil.

Unlike Ash though, Bird x Prowl doesn't have a good ending because in Bird!canon, the finale still happens. She stays behind on Earth alone after everyone else leaves to protect it and honor Prowl's memory, but he's very much gone. She gets Yoketron's helmet. Their ship song is actually what this blog is named after (Saturn from Sleeping at Last).

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OK HEY soooo sort of an update under the cut regarding sharing / other tangentially related selfship stuff !!

feel free to not read , i put it under the cut cuz its long/not super important but yea ;3

so idrk how to word this but basically since iv started hangin out on tumblr my views on selfshipping have changed a lot!!! i honestly was not expecting everyone on here to be so lovely and accepting and im so happy to be in a community i feel so comfortable in :'3

but!!! basically: with the nature of me not being open abt f/o on here things have gotten lowk really complicated LMFSJDFJHSF long story short i ended up having to sb a moot today bc i didn't realize we shared a main </3 i feel really bad abt letting that slip thru the cracks, but i just honestly did not know until i saw smth they reblogged today; and i wanted 2 respect their "dni if we share" !

however at the same time as this my views have also changed on sharing !! one week on selfship tumblr and im much more relaxed about it,,, crazy. tbh youre ALL canon and real to me even if we share cuz different versions n multiverse theory n all that. ;p SO

i realized that im comfortable interacting w/ people that i share w if it's not one of their mains, and if they state that theyre comfortable sharing on their profile bc ofc i wanna respect their boundaries!! so from now on i think thats prolly gonna be how i go about things bc it honestly just doesnt trigger me anymore yippee yahoo.

i know tht might be worrisome tho for some who dont wanna view content potentially centered around a character they *also* are dating so if that concerns you, feel free to reach out to me and ask me if we share, ill tell u!!!

or u can just block my #. 🔮 tag entirely bc that covers anything posted w The Blorbo in mind. i will never explicitly post a character tho so dont worry about being triggered either way! (yeah im prob never publicly revealing sorry)

sorry this is so long and probably WAY deeper than it actually is but im so new here and idrk the ettiquette so i just wanna make sure i dont unintentionally hurt anyone! tbh i never expected anyone to see or interact w this blog in the first place (my policy at first was . "i dont feel comfortable naming my f/o but if we share i wont interact w u!!" not accounting for the fact that ppl could interact w ME first... LMAO i just didnt expect everyone to be so nice and welcoming 😭) and im so grateful to have virtually met all u guys and ur lovely f/os ;3

anyway x o x o SORRY THAT IS SO FUCKING LONG oh my god anyways. back to ur regularly scheduled programming

[scribblyshipping]

Welcome, welcome!

Hi!! I am Scribbly, Scrib, or any nickname variation! I am 20 years old and the only pronouns I use are she/her.

My main blog is @scribbly07 and is where I follow from.

I've been selfshipping for about 7 years, though this is the first time I've really tried to be involved in the community. I'd love to make some friends here, as I've been watching some really cool artists from afar for a while now!

With that being said, feel free to message me whenever!! I really want to make some friends.

Currently, I am okay with doubles. This may change in the future.

I am okay with most doubles. However, please do not interact if you selfship with Pim Pimling or Charlie Dompler from Smiling Friends. If we were moots and I blocked you, feel free to DM my main and I'll unblock if there's a tag I can block.

Close mutuals with doubles are okay. I want to get comfortable with the idea of doubles for them and I think that’s a good place to start. Please be patient with me… 😓

I switch F/Os a lot and will try to update the list as often as I can!! Characters I am closest with at the moment are in bold+underline.

The list is organized in alphabetical order by fandom first then character name.

The easiest way to find any specific character is searching for the character's name and not the fandom, since I abbreviate some of the fandom names.

💜💜💜My F/O List💜💜💜

Tag Guide:

#scribbly says: Original posts

#scribbles: Original art

#letters: Answered asks

#others art: you'll never guess

I also have tags for all of my sonas, which I won't list here, but they all start with "OC:" and then their name.

Ship Tag Guide (W.I.P.):

Note: Not all of my f/os have ship names yet, check above for full f/o list!

#extended vacation: Scribbly + Audie [Playlist]

#love bug: Heart + Spamton [Playlist]

#scribblesandwich: Scribble Scrabble + Cheese Sandwich

#shiningscrabble: Scribble Scrabble + Shining Armor

#complementary colors / #chibbly: (Critter) Scribbly + Charlie Dompler

#pibbly: (Critter) Scribbly + Pim Pimling

#chimbly: (Critter) Scribbly + Pim Pimling + Charlie Dompler

Not sure what else to list, but I hope you enjoy my blog!!