#srsly that meeting was so fucking boring

[rist-ix]

Hi Rist!!

Okay, so I’m pretty sure I already know the answer, but on a scale of “someone’s going to die” to “everyone’s going to die” how angry would Sparked!Valtor be if, after an argument, Bloom slept with someone to get back at him?

Like, this is during one of VERY rare times he isn’t watching her and it’s a one night stand with a random guy whose name she doesn’t know that she met at a bar/party. Someone she’s never going to meet again.

AND, as a “fun” little bonus, she flaunts the marks he left while she’s transformed and fighting Valtor.

No idea where this idea came from but I want the chaos and possible murder, so yeah. Also hope you’re doing well and life and school are being nice to you! 💙

Eden you are a menace and I love u

And as always the answer is: IT DEPENDS! my law course prof would be so proud of me rn

Mainly, it depends on the timing. If it’s in the first few chapters, he'd be his usual “someone's gonna die” kinda mad, and that someone is the poor unfortunate soul Bloom deemed sexy enough for a one night stand. RIP bozo u really didn’t do anything wrong but alas

On the other hand!!! Valtor LOVES to be the cause for her actions. He THRIVES knowing that Bloom does anything because of him, that he has any kind of direct influence on her. It's entirely possible his reaction would sum up to “she's a little confused, but she's got the spirit!” Additionally, he's never really jealous per se, in Sparked. He thinks Sky is boring and is insulted that Bloom — HIS equal and nemesis! — would waste time on her boyfriend when she could be hunting him instead. And later it’s more that he hates how much Bloom genuinely cares for him, not that he would really acknowledge that. Since I think he's somewhat casual about sex I don’t even think he would be that mad about a one night stand if he can tell himself that really, she was thinking of him all along. The thing that would really set him off is if Bloom entered a serious relationship with someone he deems actually competent and potentially worthy of her, like Stella, because THAT would be a threat. THAT would actually require him to commit copious amounts of crimes, right the fuck now before this gets any worse. Fuck.

If we're talking post Eraklyon tho, that man is unhinged and repressed and entirely too ready for violence, u give him any reason at all to feel slighted and he will start stabbing people. If Bloom looks at any attractive individual for a second too long he will have a breakdown. What does a man have to DO to become his enemy's center of the world and sole raison d'être? Srsly Bloom, he's asking.

[zigglystarduster]

Funny story by emily henry- one of the purest books (not in that way)

Guess what..?! I just added one of my first books of 2024 in my top ten reads! That's what funny story by emily henry did to me, from being absolutely fucking hilarious but, at the same time being such a heartbreaking book it somehow managed to make a place in my heart. Emily Henry needs no introduction to the world of romance books but i still found some of her books either incredibly boring or red flag induced (iykyk) but happy place and funny story were the only ones who had me in chokehold. I can honestly rave abt it for ages.. but fr this book was one of the purest, coming of age story and had such amazing too good to be true characters in them (miles nowak i am looking at you) but srsly.. what's up with the whole ex naming pe-ter and pe-tra that was for sure hilarious though. Like it was such a realistic portrayal of a relationship and was done in a breathtaking way, the way daphne felt in the beginning to how she matured as a person, her character growth..god!! it was beautiful. I loved how both daphne and miles complete each other but at the same time they aren't perfect either. and miles miles and miles what should i say about this guy other than the fact that emily has put the bar so high we need binoculars (pj ik) but srsly god took precious care and time when he created this absolute gem of a man, he is such a golden retriever loved by literally every single person he meets..!! The side characters julia, ashleigh (not ashley mind you) , daphne's mom and the rich heiress who was depraved of love due to the drowning of her poor beloved ~ starlight (that's her name srsly and this is her past life story as predicted by her psychic might seem a little too familiar but don't mind it) overall it was definitely a 5 star read!!!

[arttrampbelle]

Ok huge vent ahead.

Cw:vent

If you dont wanna read vents or hear me being pissed at NRS and some fans. Plz scroll. Plz ignore. Thank you.

Srry your fave being edenian,a lover of that particular part of mk lore. Really don't make you special. In fact it makes you look like a haughty asshole.

Look they are great. Dont get me wrong. But.....acting like they are the best,greatest shit since sliced bread is kinda irritating.

Especially recent iterations of that part of the lore. Urgh .

That was supposed to be a mysterious and not in the forefront of mk. The forefront being the tournament itself.

The realms are a minor background flavor.

And there is more realms than "eDeNia" a small part in outworld (which is huge and made up of other smaller realms btw) and earthrealm.

Plusno offence. Kitana isn't you special uwu princess. She is a warrior and heir to a kingdom first and foremost.

It isn't some dumb western biblical story. That pisses me off. Idgaf what nrs is feeding y'all.

To me i would rather take it more as eastern myths and legends n beliefs of heaven,the nine immortals,mythos,etc

Because im sick of y'all thinking eurocentric shit when it comes to asian cultures. Even fictional based ones.

Like idgaf if edenia isn't based on one group or is fictional. The fact y'all defult to Christian-europian type of religious imagery is disturbing.

Like if we dont get enough implications in canon that edenia was colonized.

Like srsly tho. I'm kinda sick of some peoples stupid hot takes on kitana. Like my girl is asian. Deal with it!!! Mileena is her cloned sister. Also asian.

Sindel? Asian. Shao kahn? Part Dragon AND ASIAN! Maybe Mongolian if you wanna be specific.

Hell even the shokan can be asian cultures based. They are part dragon. No not the "typical" western European dragon. (Sick of people thinking that thats the only kind)

Jade? A beautiful dark skinned Indian woman, WHICH IS ALSO ASIAN BTW!

Skarlet? She is half edenian,so part maybe part asian. Either way. I want edenia to be a hodgepodge of ALL asian cultures and based mythos. Because fuck you,we need more positive asian cultures representations thats why!

Nor is it palatable or likeable in a story. It's 3rd grade lvls of writing to a point where i find better shit on wattpad then in canon. some fans(not all) dont help the matter.

Like they could be done so much better. The characters within that part of mk could be done so much more justice. And make it less nauseatingly and eyerollingly typical.

I wont apologize for being pissed. Because it is a problem. And has always been a problem in mk. 30yrs and they continue to ignore it. Fans and game writers alike.

But like can't edenians be better? Like making them like elves or the "special people" isn't good writing nor is it likable.

It's boring and making them mary sues of mortal kombat isn't helping. Like nothing was corrupt before shao kahn? Bullshit. Yiy know damn well there was. They aint pretty perfect. So stop acting like they were or are. Its not realistic even for a FANTASY world! Like canon and fans alike do not write world buliding very well. I know,i know what you're gonna say. "But thats not the point of mortal kombat,its a fighting game" yes true. But it established lore and a story for years and then took a huge dump on it because $$$. And fans buy into it anyways because they dont actually wanna properly give a critique where it is needed. And if we are gonna actually call out the bullshit,and the bigotry,and the sexism. ACTUALLY CALL IT OUT WHERE IT IS. AND ACTUALLY ADDRESS THE ISSUES. you can still love mk,WHILE ALSO calling out the crap that the company nrs,boon,and the writers pull.

Look not all fans are like this. Most are great. But it grinds my gears when i meet or see a few that miss the fucking point of why 11's "interpretations" of the characters were so assbackwards. And why it pisses long time fans off

[boneheadboner]

Since the words are flowing, I'm gonna put down some info 'bout some fucked up shit that Sonia has to deal with :D TW: possession, body control, mentioned past SA, mindfucky shit.

You'd think having voices already in your head after falling into the underground would suck enough. Then Sonia experienced going through (my own take on) Swapfell, and wound up with an Umbra(Think Pokemon meets JJBA with mythos and cryptids) Hitchhiker that helps(?) her from that point on. Sonia's DESPAIR in and of itself is a double edged sword, in that it deals no damage to monsters and slows their attacks and movement. But! Requires her to be under emotional duress (which she learns later how better to control that). And 'weighs down' the opponent with the weight of her own emotions. The Umbra she gets? Is extremely insidious, and happens to work well in tandem with DESPAIR. As it's method of 'attack' is targeting the opponent's mind rather than their Umbra. If the mind is strong, and the person keeps a level head? Shoggoth can't SUBJUGATE* them. (SUBJUGATE being a method of victory in Swapfell Umbra, being the act of SUBJUGATING monsters under your control to serve you. Binding them to your words, but still being themselves. Basically Mana/Biomotor Mindcontrol.) But with Sonia's DESPAIR, by afflicting her opponents with her negative emotions, Shoggoth can get a better foothold in their mind to successfully SUBJUGATE the opponent. First starting with using surface level negative emotions (mere frustrations, agitations, toxic thoughts) to get in. And slowly working it's 'tentacles' down into deeper rooted negative memories, genuine repulsion, anger, hatred. Until it reaches traumas, and fears, and deep rooted insecurities. And then it's almost impossible to disobey Shoggoth's host, until the Host calls to release them, or they perish.

The double-edged part, is that the host of Shoggoth will feel all the emotions that Shoggoth is rooting around in.

Under Dr. Gaster's control, it's prior host, it was an absolute terror. The 'good' doctor having no sense of fear or negative emotions himself, he found Shoggoth's ability to make him capable to feel these sensations fascinating. And given his penchant for being able to easily cause fear by who he was alone? It made experiments with so many subjects go way too terribly far.

He had no regrets for a single one. Under Sonia's control? It's having it's curiosity stimulated far more. Shoggoth is a being of pure chaos, happy to see any and every possibility seen through. Just to see what happens. Sonia, being a timid person who doesn't seem to get upset or frustrated over being hurt. Yet being so brave, headstrong, and stubborn when it comes to other's safety? To the point of endangering herself and putting her own life at risk to protect others? Under it's last host, Shoggoth got pretty bored of Gaster's antics. Under it's new host, it finds how strange humans can be, EXCITING. Especially with a host that it sometimes doesn't know what she's going to do next! Sure it has to step in sometimes to save her ass, but that's fine because she's always doing interesting and strange things!

However, due to it's chaotic nature? Shoggoth is prone to even get irate with Sonia.

There are times that Shoggoth will get bored, and if Sonia's negative emotions get too high?

Shoggoth decides to have fun, and SUBJUGATE it's own host.

-------------------------(srsly dark bs ahead)-------------------------

As her DESPAIR production is dependent on her being in a negative emotional state. She NEEDS to feel awful in order to make enough DESPAIR to keep her sufficiently 'safe' in Shoggoth's eyes. (And boi do it have a fuckton.) So Shoggoth sees absolutely no problem with forcing Sonia to relive the repeated SA she endured, and letting her babble out sobs of words she begged in those moments as it echoes her voice out amongst it's own cacophony. Using copious amounts of DESPAIR to form a physical form for it over Sonia's own. Bulking outwards more and more with the more upset it makes it's host, Shoggoth creates a sludge of negative emotions around it's host. Creating hellish claws and sickly animalistic frame. Sprouting eyes and mouths in places that shouldn't have them. Sludge that would drip forming tentacles that reach outwards all across it's frame. The visage of it would torment the nightmares of those that see it.

All in an attempt to keep her safe, but tormenting her as it does.

It hunts down any nearby that gives it's host even the slightest negative emotion, and seeks to drive them absolutely insane by overloading them with those negative and traumatic memories of it's host.

The worst part is, in such a state? It's so hard to see Sonia under all the black sludge, eyes, mouths, and tendrils. Some may attack her in that state, invoking Shoggoth's retaliation, without even realizing it's her under all of that.

And why does Shoggoth do all this?

Because it's bored. And it's host feels shitty enough that it decides to step in and play with the squishie(human) and crumbly(monster) things.

And sometimes Sonia will command it to put her through this, just to give her a chance to protect someone against a foe too strong for the both of them.

-------------------------(oki we good)-------------------------

.... Hi yes, wow. I write some VERY grimdark shit, whoops...

[padawansuggest]

The senate try so hard to keep them apart because every time a Jedi and a Mando get together they move out of the republic and the senate is losing their forces this way. Shame, that.

Anyways, Obi-Wan shows up with Ani all ‘I KNOW now that our communications weren’t clear and you didn’t expect me to bring my Padawan but- is that a baby? Two babies!?! Omfg lemme hold one!’ And Jango has never been so thankful in his life he just got told these are his a day ago and Jaster is at a tense moment in meetings and won’t be here for a few days and please Boba only stops crying if he’s held and it really pisses Omega off lmao can you hold one please???

Anyways. Jango gets a good nights sleep and wakes up to a semi clean living room and a cheerful Jedi taking care of his kids and a twelve year old two fucking inches from his face just watching him. As children do.

Two weeks later Qui-Gon shows up to mooch off them during his most recent counsel censure and hold their babies and now Jaster is actually competing with some tough competition for best grandpa ever. Shit. Rude. He’d had it easy up till now.

Obi-Wan is arguing with Jango over the best place to put a garden while Anakin has the best sensory experience of his life of just putting his hands in dirt. They found an area that needed to either be replotted or toiled but Anakin had started playing in it and found worms so Obi-Wan refuses to go over there (he’s a lover but he’s not lovin when his child gets it in his mind to slurp one down like spaghetti) and set Anakin to pulling out ones good for fishing in the creek past the tree lines (am I ignoring the canon topography of the Fett farm? Yeah. Cause I like homesteading farms more and they deserve a forest and a river to fish in) and left him with the bored supervision of Grandmaster to make sure he doesn’t make himself sick.

Qui-Gon ends up laughing himself sick later when he mentions that Obi-Wan very shyly gave Jango a kiss in the hallway before darting off to bed (bitch you’re sleeping in the same bed as him so the babies have an adult available at all times plz where you running) and left Jango standing there grinning like an idiot with baby spit up on his shoulder and a dirt covered shirt from where he’d had to haul Anakin out of the worm pit.

Anyways. He immediately runs off to tell Jaster who just sighs a little and says he’s been watching them flirt like school kids for a week now and they’ll be real in laws within a month. He’s sure of it.

Also Obi-Wan gets the chance to play farmer and raise some kiddos and space chickens and Jango gets to use a chainsaw on a few dead trees and build a pavilion that they can use to play host and fence in areas for animals and the kids.

But srsly tho Obi-Wan wanders into the forest sometimes and comes back with wild but tamable animals and Qui-Gon just sighs when Obi-Wan comes back with a fully grown nexu the size of a Maine coon because yes, his boy has been doing that since day one, would you like pictures of him cuddling a baby gundark? Yes, yes they do.

Obi-Wan eventually gets lonely with only the Jedi he’s been allowed to take with him (direct lineage members don’t have to marry in or be adopted because Mandos always argue with the senate that makes them Mandalorian too and the senate just sighs and accepts it) so he contacts Quinlan and tells him to marry someone already so he can come meet Obi-Wan’s new babies and Quinlan is all ‘Ew’ but sneaks in very ‘illegally’ (Mandos just giggle and look away like ‘lmao what Jedi’) but he can’t find someone to fall in love with but Master Tholme, who followed him to drag him back to safety if he got in too far, sure as fuck ends up ass over teakettle for a nice bounty hunter of unsure gender and many guns pointed at Tholme when they first met. It was love at first sight. He’s calling the Jedi to say that means his master and his wife (obviously Neti master T’ra Saa duh) can come over whenever and his wife is all ‘fuck yeah third person to keep Quin in line’) and drags Aayla off to come to Concord Dawn and sit on her master.

Anyways, they’re all farmers now no illegal Jedi here wtf you mean. Want some cherry tart, Aayla and Anakin made it so it might hurt tummies but here’s to hoping.

Far too many of you are using the tag ‘arranged marriage’ but the fic is actually ‘mail order spouse’ and I ain’t judging either way but those are two completely different things you know.

[uninspiringdyke]

💞💞💞💞💞2 + 13 + 17 + 26 💞💞💞💞💞

2. what you love most about being butch/femme

i'm very very used to having to be protective and on guard 24/7 and the ability to displace that - even for a little while - is incredibly therapeutic. i also love being able to just. dress really fucking weird. and be praised for it instead of given weird looks asked if i'm "sure"

13. who are your butch/femme heros?

leslie feinberg <33 obviously. xir also a working class hero and i love xem. idk if i have many more? which is unfortunate!! but so much of our history has dissolved, or if i know a little about them i still lack knowledge of their politics and other important factors

17. what can a femme/butch do to catch your attention?

i really love when butches are like...calm. because i'm batshit. just be encouraging of my craziness and give good hugs and i'll suck ur cock tbh

26. BONUS: Gush about your s/o if applicable OR if you don’t have one, write them a love letter as if you do so that they may see it in the future.

i can go on forever n ever so really all that i will say for now is that my very lovely butch came to the first in person meeting for the student senate and stayed the whole 3 and a half hours (despite not needing to!!) and was very cute and took pictures of me with my little plague. they're incredibly and wonderfully supportive of me and i can't thank them enough

butch/femme ask list

[tanoraqui]

(saw ur reblog about the kid who would be king, 2019—and out of curiosity, what would u say is ur favourite arthurian adaptations?)

The Squire’s Tales series by Gerald Morris, next question

ok I’ll elaborate. The Squire’s Tales series is a 10-book YA series by a man who imprinted on Sir Gawain and the Green Knight (the ancient poem) as a college student and never stopped stanning Gawain since (as is correct). The pivot character of the series, pov of the first two and final two books, is Terence, a boy/young man who shortly into the first book becomes squire to Gawain, who at that point is not in fact knighted yet. The books follow first their adventures and then a wide assortment of other, mostly more esoteric Arthurian tales, mostly during Camelot’s golden age, with the power move of leaving Arthur himself—and the Arthur/Guinevere/Lancelot triangle—mostly in the background. Other key features include but are not limited to:

Blithe disregard for historical accuracy is second only to T.H. White’s The Once and Future King (which iconically conflates Uther Pendragon with William the Conquerer)

The basic premise of every book is 2-3 people with probably one brain cell each go on a quest with 1-2 people with no brain cells whatsoever, and meet MANY more people with no brain cells whatsoever, and try to help them with kindness understanding, and a healthy amount of swords and fairy magic

Also every single POV character except one either starts out, becomes (usually by marriage), or is revealed to have secretly been the whole time part of the extended Orkney-Pendragon family

I wish the fairy worldbuilding was more complex than “Seelie good, Unseelie bad”, and Morgause and Mordred more complex than “ambitious and ruthless.” But the GOOD character tales include Gawain (natch), Arthur, Guinevere, my favorite Morgan le Fay in any Arthur retelling ever, Kay, Lancelot (redemption arc!), ALL the Orkney boys actually (Gawain + Agravain, Gaheris, Gareth), Parsifal (Percival), Dinadan who I wouldn’t otherwise know, Galahad, and also some fucking excellent OCs in Terence, Eileen, and Sarah…

Merlin is likewise mostly omitted; in fact he peaces out at the end of the first book to go have an extended honeymoon with the Lady of the Lake (here called Nimue)

Representation Roundup(TM): mostly white people but Palamedes is there (the one notably Moorish knight), and he’s one of the people with a brain cell. No queer people—it’s YA from the 90s/2000s—EXCEPT (light spoilers) Dinadan and Brangienne are as aro as they come, and best friends and it’s great. 3 of 7 pov characters (3 of 10 books) are women, and the other books are full of complex female characters. Literally book 1 is Gawain doing the hag/maiden “what all women want is to get what they want” quest and that sets the tone. Religion-wise, per aforementioned blithe disregard for historical accuracy, Christianity is encroaching awkwardly, mostly politely, into territory where fairy folk still roam; Sarah doesn’t identify as Jewish but the fact that her foster-father Mordecai very much was is a big part of her character and story.

Fair warning, it IS a “magic will now fade from the world” ending—but, per classic Arthurian legend, a return is promised…and the important thing, each book makes clear, was never the magic itself, but the people who met it. If the mother and father are loving, if the priest is good, and the storyteller sings his songs well of what was and what can be again…then we will all see tomorrow, and it may even be better than today.

Srsly, special mention to Morgan: She’s in love with Arthur but unfortunately a) he’s her brother and b) he doesn’t feel the same, so she just periodically drops in to bother her favorite nephew (Gawain), mentor young witches, and continue delaying her required-by-Fairy-law choice between the Seelie and Unseelie courts.

Also when Arthur is bored, he sometimes sneaks out of Camelot to anonymously challenge random knights to fights; and Kay is a bitch and I love him so much, and Gawain IS solar-powered thank you very much, and Terence avoids being knighted until Arthur practically pins him down in public, and Sarah has a vengeance quest, which is great because how often do you see a teenage girl on a vengeance quest? For the unjust deaths of her parents? Not often enough, I tell you. Not often enough.

The first book is called The Squire’s Tale and you can probably find it at your local library. Check it out!

[ftm-radio]

wow, been a long while since I got one of these!!!

⚠️cw: some really lukewarm and boring, basic transphobia, like srsly were they even trying, this is so low effort I don't even need to put it under a cut. yawn.

oof, ouch, you said "girls" not once but twice, now you're really hurting my poor widdle feelings 😢 how will I ever recover from this 😭

the only "trend" I am following is one in which I actually give a damn about myself and live my life as the person I actually am, and be happy. if no longer pretending to be someone you aren't is a trend, then I hope it really picks up speed.

and also, embarrassing whom????? who am I embarrassing by minding my business and living my life? cuz I'm sure as fuck not feeling embarrassed. are you embarrassed of me, anon? 🥺👉🏻👈🏻 You, a person I don't know, have never interacted with, and will never meet out in the real world? are u embarrassed? 🥺🥺🥺

well I don't know how to tell you this buddy, but this ain't got shit to do with you. what I and every other trans person does has nothing to do with you and it does not affect you. if you're getting embarrassed over people you don't know, maybe you should focus more on your sad little life and stop creeping in on ours. just a lil friendly suggestion. 😇❤

[annapogorilayas]

here's a bunch of my rambling, incoherent thoughts LoD S6, H, and the show's overall trajectory since S4

under the cut because it's LONG, these are just my personal opinions and feelings

the show's trajectory

i've been disappointed with the show's overall direction since S4 for multiple reasons. to be fair, the show had an uphill battle to maintain the level of quality that S2/S3 had. lindsay denton was this show's most interesting character and keeley hawes was phenomenal, and her storyline tied in perfectly with the conclusion of the caddy storyline. that was always going to be a tough act to follow.

the show has always had shocking twists and explosive action sequences, but when the show moved from bbc2 weeknights to bbc1 the show began to lean more heavily on them. in S1-3 these scenes fit in with the plot. after S4, it began to feel more like the show was a series of shocking twists/action sequences with a plot written around it.

the OCG is way too big and powerful

after S4, the OCG(s) became very big, powerful, and all-knowing, without actually showing us how they were achieving this, making it hard to believe. in S2, we had an ambush, the murder of hunter and trotman in the hospital room, the setup of dryden for blackmail, and lindsay's abduction from custody. these events were carried out/enabled by five characters: prasad, cole, dot, akers, and lindsay. we met them, we spent time with them (except cole), we had at least a rough idea of what motivated them or how they got involved, and how they pulled off what they did.

in S3, two important events (steve's firearm paperwork being forged and Urgent Exit Required) were enabled by one corrupt AFO. we didn't meet him or find out what his motives were, but i don't think we needed to - he was probably just one of dot's lackeys. but it's not that hard to believe that dot could get one corrupt AFO to do his bidding.

in contrast, since S4, it seems like the OCG has an endless supply of corrupt prison officers, AFOs, and balaclava men that they can deploy at a moment's notice, and these people are pretty disposable - how many of these people have been arrested, imprisoned, or murdered since S4? how many balaclava men died in the 6x04 ambush alone? aren't the OCG(s) running out of people to send on suicide missions by now? a story driven by a revolving door of disposable, mostly nameless people is much less compelling than a story that revolves around a small, familiar cast of believably corrupt/bent/blackmailed coppers. i think S4 and S6 could've been better if more of the plot was driven by the other officers on huntley's and davidson's teams, or just... any recognisable named character, rather than these disposable hired guns.

additionally, the OCG just silences/pays off/kills people off so easily the plot has become very predictable

the problem with H

so H wasn't an evil criminal mastermind, just some guy in it for the money. that part i had hoped for and expected - LoD is almost never about criminal masterminds with grand motives who just want to watch the world burn. LoD's antagonists/villains fall into the following categories:

a) people who make decisions that spiral terribly out of control (tony gates, roz huntley)

b) people who do bad things for the right reasons because the system offers no alternative (lindsay denton wanted to save carly; danny waldron killed his abuser; john corbett believed his crimes were the only way to unmask H because peartree was dragging its feet)

c) people who do bad things out of self-preservation because they've been blackmailed or groomed (dot, jo, maneet, ryan, hargreaves, hilton, hari baines)

d) bad people who do bad things out of self-interest, whose behaviour is enabled or incentivised by the system that fails to protect people (hunter, the murphys, fairbanks, prasad, cole, gill). these guys are not geniuses and they don't have grand motives, they do bad things because it benefits them directly and they can get away with it.

i think (?) Buckells falls into this last category. i don't have a problem with him being H in theory. i don't mind that he turned out not to be the "top man" bc i never liked the idea of there being a "top man", it's way too close to "a bad apple". i'm much more intrigued by the idea that there is a loose, semi-transient network of officers who are all acting out of a combination of self-interest (money, power, access to vulnerable people) and self-preservation (they all have an incentive to be loyal to the network because they all know dirt about each other, but if there's a motive and opportunity to take someone down without it coming back on them, they will). for this reason, i don't find it necessarily disappointing or implausible that buckells was the last man standing and that he was motivated by money.

however, the way the reveal was set up throughout S6 and executed in 6x07 was anticlimactic to me. buckells had a laptop in prison? he ordered kate's murder FROM PRISON? of course he did, that whole prison appears to be run by the OCG. this is the same problem i mentioned earlier, the OCG is just too powerful to be interesting. the reveal could've been way more effective if buckells hadn't spent the last half of the season in jail. i also would've liked to hear more from buckells about precisely what motivated him, exactly how he came to be involved, and how the other corrupt officers fit into his story. i would've loved it if, for once, someone just said fuck it and spilled the beans instead of going down the "i'll tell you a bunch of useless nonsense in exchange for WP" route.

that being said, i think this whole clusterfuck could've been avoided entirely by simply not making H into such a big deal. way back in S4, the fixation on H worked as a plot device to get hilton to issue ted with a reg-15 and cast doubt on him, but i was bored of H approximately 1.5 episodes into S5. the idea of this shadowy figure calling all the shots was inconsistent with everything this show had been about, and it dragged on for way too long. i wasn't opposed to the idea that H is a group of people not a single person, but morse code? srsly? you couldn't just have them sit down and say "hey, maybe dot just blinked on H because he'd had his eyes open for a while and also he'd lost a lot of blood so he was probably confused anyway?"

[amiiaak]

Haikyuu fic recs

i need to sleep, but im not going to. SO IM JUST GONNA POST LINKS OF FICS THAT ARE BANGERS (to me ig) (expect a lot of sunaosa if not that, sakuatsu k?)

Have fun judging my tastes in fanfiction lol

read the tags pls (more on the fics, imma just write the main ones)

Sunaosa

come on with the rain | rosegoldwriting | sunaosa | T | 6,5k

Tags:  Alternate Universe - Soulmates, Soulmate-Identifying Marks, Light Angst, Mutual Pining, Friends to Lovers.

Summary:

It’s there. Right above his heart, in neat kanji.

Miya.

Fuck.

a study in names, soulmates, and kissing in the rain

through the heart | soumaki | sunaosa | T | 9.5k 

Tags: Alternate Universe - Soulmates, Enemies to Lovers, Heist, Suna-centric, Implied Sexual Content, minor description of violence

Summary:

“Rin?” Osamu breathed out.

“Yeah?”

“I’m going to kiss you now.”

“Okay.”

Osamu leaned up and Suna met him halfway as their lips met just as the first firework boomed above them.

i’ll face down the world with you | bastigod | sunaosa |  T | 14,1k

Tags: Alternate Universe - Royalty, Alternate Universe - Fantasy, Assassination, Minor Violence, Mutual Pining, Implied/Referenced Sexual Content

Summary:

“Who in this world can I trust, if not you?”

After overhearing rumors of an assassination plot on the lives of him and his father, Crown Prince Rintarou of Inarizaki hires Sir Osamu to investigate and stop the plot before it's too late.

Cupid Plays Suna | teafortears | sunaosa | T | 30,6k

Tags: Roman Mythology, Post-Time Skip, Canon Divergent, Canon Complaint, Suna-Centric, Character Study, Falling In Love, Idiots in Love, Friends to Lovers

Summary:

Cupid, the Roman god of love, is bored as he sits around his palace until he gets a prayer one day from a woman, regarding her son. He waits until Miya Osamu is of age before sending people his way, but Osamu doesn't take to any of them.

After too many failed attempts, he decides to descend upon Earth as a human named Suna Rintarou to investigate why Osamu won't fall for anyone. (And ends up falling in love with him during the process.)

The Tale of the Flowers in a Heart | dai_naning | sunaosa | T | 13,3k

Warning!!! Major Character Death

Tags: Folk Tale, Angst With a Happy Ending (srsly don’t question it, it’ll make sense once you read it), Hanahaki with a twist

Summary:

This is a tale of a man named Suna Rintarou with flowers growing in his heart and his wager with a kitsune named Osamu.

limbo | agapetsumu | sunaosa | T | 6,4k

Tags: Idiots in Love, Pining, Post-Time Skip, Drunken Confessions, (there’s like a small scene where they bang but it’s not graphic, so---) Non-Explicit Sex

Summary:

“Suna Rintaro, fuck, you’re so fucking pretty. How are you even real?” Atsumu was full-on laughing now, and Sakusa was recording everything — that little shit.

Rintaro stayed frozen in place because what the fuck?

“Uh–” he started saying

“No no no no no, listen Rin. You are the most beautiful man I’ve ever seen, have you seen yourself?” Rintaro was overheating at this point, his face was redder than it had ever been. He snuck a glance at Atsumu, trying to ask for help, but Atsumu just ignored him and kept laughing at his brother.

Or: drunk words are sober thoughts.

paper trail | spiritscript | sunaosa | G | 8,6k

Tags: Childhood Friends, Getting Together, Pining, Friends to Lovers

Summary:

When he is ten, Osamu meets a boy in an arcade.

When he is eleven he becomes his friend, only to find he is never to see him again.

When he is sixteen, that becomes a lie.

And Suna falls more than a little bit in love.

champagne problems | yoonsvt | sunaosa | T | 10,3k

Tags: Angst, Established Relationship, Marriage Proposal, Exes, Rejection, Break Up, Moving On, Based On a Taylor Swift Song

Summary:

"Mr. Rintarou, is that clear?" Suna finally said his last yes of the night. He found it ironic how out of all the yeses he uttered that day, the only request he refused was the one proposal that mattered the most.

Suna Rintarou and Miya Osamu have been together for six years now, and will stay together until the end of eternity.

Or so they thought. Because when the latter went down on one knee to propose, the former gave an answer that would continue to haunt him for years to come.

or

Suna Rintarou's journey of loving someone, learning to let go, and all the pain in between.

toi, ma jolie fleur | Skyevaheri | sunaosa | Not Rated | 22,1k

Tags: Alternate Universe - Canon Divergent, Age Difference, 5+1 Things, FLOWERS

Summary:

Suna discovers Onigiri Miya and falls for the cute shop owner. So he starts bringing flowers to win him over.

or

5 times Suna gifts Osamu flowers and 1 time Osamu shoves one into Sunas face.

Osaaka

sleeping with the enemy |  billionairevolleyboysclub | osaaka | T | 6.5k

Tags: Fake/Pretend Relationship

Summary:

“You know,” Suna continues. “If you did date Akaashi-san you could give us information on Fukurodani. We might have to play them for Spring Nationals.”

“M’not dating someone just to give ya idiots volleyball tips,” Osamu grumbles, snatching the last of Atsumu’s energy bar out of his hand for good measure.

“What if we dare ya to?” Atsumu says, stretching out to try to pull the wrapper back out of Osamu’s hand.

“No.”

how you define it | marssram | osaaka | T | 16,1k

Tags: Alternate Universe - College/University, Meet-Cute, Strangers to Friends to Lovers, Humor, Mutual Pining, Getting Together, Fluff

Summary:

“I’m, uh, applying to the Literature Society.”

Osamu would be able to hear a pin drop on their kitchen tile.

“Ya fuckin’ read now?” Atsumu looks wildly confused and slightly exhausted, his eyebrows drawn down in one of his more disapproving looks.

“I read enough,” Osamu shoots back defensively.

“I’m really not tryin’ to be a dick, but I’ve never seen ya read a book, like, in my life.”

He really isn’t wrong there.

or, Miya Osamu joins the Literature Honor Society for a cute boy with blue eyes and glasses.

Bokuaka

so let's start right now | anyadisee | bokuaka | T | 7,4k

Tags: Alternate Universe - College/University, Accidental Relationship

Summary:

Bokuto is still undecided as to whether he wants to thank Kuroo, or to not speak to him for at least ten months. The reason for this is because he still can’t figure out whether his situation is a good one or a bad one.

After all, how does one react to suddenly getting a stranger for a boyfriend, and one as stunningly pretty as Akaashi Keiji at that? Bokuto sure doesn't know.

And, honestly. It was all supposed to be just a harmless prank.

the first time that |  cielelyse | bokuaka | M | 7,7k

Tags: Mafia AU, Mutual Pining, Fluff and Angst, Minor Violence, Alternate Universe - Yakuza

Summary:

The first time he meets Akaashi, Akaashi is on his knees.

“Oya?” Bokuto says.

(In which Bokuto is a yakuza boss and Akaashi is the new recruit.)

birds of a flower |  afancyghost | bokuaka | T | 23,7k

Tags: Alternate Universe - Flower Shop, Slow Burn, Fluff, Mutual Pining

Summary:

“So. You sure do know a lot about plants, huh?”

It’s quite possibly the stupidest thing to come out of his mouth, and he doesn’t need Akaashi’s little huffed laugh to tell him that. His cheeks are flushing red before Akaashi even gets done saying, “I should hope so, considering I own a flower shop.”

“I — well, yeah. I meant that you know a lot about their meanings and stuff,” Bokuto amends. “I knew that roses were for love, but I didn’t really think about other flowers having deep meanings.”

“You’d be surprised how much you can communicate with flowers alone,” Akaashi says. “It’s helpful for when you can’t find the right words yourself. Might as well let nature take a stab at it.”

(or, Akaashi owns a flower shop and Bokuto is his most loyal customer)

Sakuatsu

Clipped To You | littleboat | sakuatsu | T | 8,1k

Tags: Fluff, Pining Miya Atsumu, Jealous Miya Atsumu, Hair Clips

Summary:

It starts with Hinata Natsu, of all people.

Well, if Atsumu’s being honest with himself, it started way before that, but he’s not, so that’s besides the point. And thankfully, he’s just petty enough to blame all of his problems on a thirteen year old girl.

or Sakusa starts wearing hair clips and Atsumu is more than a little obsessed

The West of Your Spine |  mcbeefy | sakuatsu | T | 8,7k

Tags: Angst with a Happy Ending, Friends to Lovers, Unreliable Narrator, Canon Universe, Not Actually Unrequited Love

Summary:

"I'm sorry," Kiyoomi says, meeting his eyes in the mirror.

"Don't," Atsumu replies, because there's nothing he should be sorry for.

Atsumu's feelings are his and only his burden to bear.

jackpot | orphan_account (sadly) | sakuatsu | T | 8,1k

Tags: Unrequited Crush, Crushes, Love Letters, Misunderstandings, Fluff and Angst, Angst With a Happy Ending

Summary:

atsumu has a crush on hinata and slips a confession letter into his locker. except that locker isn't hinata's; it's kiyoomi's. the wing spiker thinks that the letter is indeed for him and atsumu never would've thought that he would accept these feelings. now, atsumu faces a midlife crisis on how he would break the news to kiyoomi.

spoiler: atsumu falls in love along the way

Always, Forever | SaltyServal | sakuatsu | G | 4,1k

Tags: Angst With a Happy Ending, Emotional Hurt/Comfort

Summary:

“I need you to lie to me, and tell me that I’m a good person.” Atsumu begged suddenly, cutting off Kiyoomi. He clutched Kiyoomi’s arm tightly, his trembling increasing by tenfold. “That I’m not a failure. That I’m worth something, that I’m valuable. That people like me, that I’m okay—“

“Atsumu.” Kiyoomi cut him off, horror bleeding into his voice. “What— where is this all coming from?” Atsumu blinked at him, his mouth dry.

OR

Atsumu struggles to accept that he doesn’t have to be the best all the time.

'Tis the Season | lettersinpetals | sakuatsu | T | 15,5k

Tags: Alternate Universe - Fantasy, (Canon Complaint, kinda), Shifters and Hybrids, Getting Together, Found Family

Summary:

Miya Atsumu stumbles into an abandoned cat hybrid on Christmas morning, and he doesn’t know it yet, but it’s probably the best gift he’ll ever receive.

every lover in the form of stars | starstrikes | sakuatsu | T | 51k

Tags: Alternate Universe - Idols, Alternate Universe - Reality Show, Slow Burn, Mutual Pining, Developing Relationship, Brief Mention of an Eating Disorder

Summary:

When two stars meet out in space, they either merge together to form something bigger, something new, or shatter into an infinity worth of shiny stardust.

Atsumu figures out early on that he and Sakusa were just like that, two stars colliding headfirst into each other in an ever-expanding universe. He’s still waiting to see if they’re about to become better—or burn out in supernova together.

Iwaoi

not even half as pretty | shrimpheavnnow | iwaoi | M | 11k

Tags: Unrequited Love, Hurt No Comfort

Summary:

Iwa shakes his head, huffing out a soft chuckle. Tooru moves in to fix his tie, and Iwa tilts his head up, letting Tooru do so. "Is it stupid that I'm feeling a little nervous?"

Tooru allows himself to take longer than necessary in adjusting Iwa's tie. Allows himself to brush his fingers against Iwa's neck, allows himself to feel the warmth of Iwa's presence; allows himself to pretend he can do this everyday.

***

Tooru never thought he'd be the best man at Iwa's wedding, but, well -- here they are.

Listen, this one hurt like hell, but my friends do call me a masochist so why wouldn’t I recommend this. I’m serious btw, this fic hurt, no shit.

Miya Twins Gen Fics (not---y’know)

coming back (coming home) | xylang | Miya Twins Gen | Not Rated | 5,2k

Tags: Miya Twins Dynamic, Miscommunication, Light Angst, Hurt/Comfort, Fluff, Osamu is a five year old

Summary:

As for any relationship, it takes work.

or: Osamu turns into his five year old self and makes twenty five year-old Atsumu realize some things.

Multiple Ships

Subtle Inarizaki Things (series) | sifuhotman | sunaosa, sakuatsu, akagin, arankita | T (All (6) fics) | 101,9k

Tags: Alternate Universe - College/University, Enemies to Lovers, Friends to Lovers, Established Relationship, Friends With Benefits, Implied Sexual Content, Hurt/Comfort

Summary:

The subtleties and shenanigans that come with college dating.

[ Each fic can be read as a standalone; takes place in same universe. ]

If You Love Me For Me | TwilaFrost | sakuatsu & sunaosa | T | 22,9k

Tags: Alternate Universe - Royalty, Identity Swap, Arranged Marriage, Miya Osamu and Miya Atsumu Are Not Related

Summary:

The Kingdom of Inarizaki has fallen on hard times and the Royal Treasury is out of funds. This causes an arranged marriage between Prince Osamu and the king of the wealthy Kingdom of Itachiyama. Unsatisfied with never being able to choose for himself, he sneaks out of the palace. In town, he runs into a young man who looks just like him.

Miya Atsumu is a poor baker's son. He does everything he can to support his family. However, he longs to be able to play music and travel to far off places. The best he can do for now is listen to his friend's stories. However, when he meets a stranger, an idea forms.

--- Or The Prince and the Pauper AU

This is one of the best things i’ve read, and I’m not even mad.

of threads & ribbons (series) | aalphard | sakuatsu, sunaosa | T (All (2) Fics) | 35k

Tags: Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence,  Alternate Universe - Soulmates, Red String of Fate, Strangers to Friends to Lovers, Alternate Universe - College/University, Friends to Lovers, Platonic Soulmates, Romantic Soulmates

[rxsie-the-demon]

Brooklyn Baby | JJ Maybank

SERIES MASTERLIST | chapter one | chapter two | chapter three

chapter summary: Kelce confides in Nikki, who learns the details of what happened last summer. Kie devises a plan.

Chapter 4: Dark Paradise

“Hi! I’m Nikki.”

JJ’s jaw dropped. “Uh...” He blinked a couple of times, looking between me and Kiara, before rubbing his eyes and mumbling, “Ah, fuck me. I’m way too high to be doing this.” He went over to the fridge and grabbed a beer.

Kiara was sitting on the floor, head between her knees, trying to catch her breath. “I’m sorry JJ, but your face was everything.” He rolled his eyes and flipped her off.

I giggled, and took a couple steps forward to extend my hand out to Pope. “You must be Pope Heyward. It’s so nice to meet you, I’ve heard such wonderful things!”

JJ snorted and took a chug of his beer. “I’m sure you have.”

We ignored him and he shook my hand. “It’s nice to meet you, too! Kiara’s told us a lot about you.”

“Aww,” I said, turning to look at Kie. I walked over to JJ and looked up at him. Yes, looked up, since he had about a foot on me. “Nice to meet you.” I smiled warmly. Moment of truth.

He studied my face for a minute, before glancing at my hand and then away. “Whatever,” he mumbled. My eyes went wide with surprise. Sheesh.

“Ohh-kay then,” I spun. I did not think he’d be that rude. I walk over to Kiara and then smiled. “Well, what do you guys like to do for fun?” I asked the Pogues.

Pope opened his mouth to respond, but JJ said, “Beat up Kooks and steal their cash for drugs.” I snorted.

Kiara rolled her eyes. “JJ, play nice.”

JJ shrugged and chugged down the rest of his beer can and crushed it. “Just letting Pillow Princess here know how we roll down here in The Cut.”

“Um, excuse me?” I took a step forward. I could see the satisfied look on JJ’s face, like he enjoyed the fact that I was pissed.

Kie grabbed my hand and pulled me back.

“Well, this has been fun, but we should head back to Figure Eight, right, Nikki?” Kiara looked at me with a look that said Please don’t press this

I shrugged. “Alright.” I turned to face the boys. “Peace out, Pogues.”

“Bye, Nikki! It was nice meeting you! Bye, Kie, love you!” Pope waved. JJ ignored me and headed towards his bedroom.

“Love you too!” Kiara shouted back, grabbing the skateboards.

We made our way outside the house and down the dirt road.

“Did he call me a pillow princess?” I asked Kiara once we were a good distance from the house. “What does that even mean?!”

"You don’t wanna know,” Kie chuckled a little. I shot her a confused look.

“Ok, now I do wanna know.”

“Nikki, trust me-” she pulled her hair back into a bun, “-if I tell you, you’re just gonna get pissed.”

I rolled my eyes. “Oh, c’mon I’m not that unhinged- Wait, was it a sex joke?”

Kie laughed. “Took you long enough.”

My nostrils flared, and I spun around. “I marched towards the house, skateboard lifting above my head. “I’m gonna bash his skull in-”

“Nikki. Nikki. NIKKI- No!” Kie ran after me and grabbed my arms. “Look, I know JJ is frustrating at times, but he means well.”

“He means well?! How the f-”

“Ok, ok! Just give him time?! Please? He just doesn’t like...Kooks.” She waved her hand towards me. “And if he sees that he got under your skin that easily, he’s never going to stop picking on you.”

“He doesn’t like Kooks? You’re, like, his best friend!”

“Well, I never really fit in with the other Kooks, and besides, I’ve known them for years.”

I grumbled, “Whatever,” under my breath and turned around, making my wait with Kiara towards the main road.

Stupid fucking JJ Maybank.

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“Uh, girl? You good?” Scarlet asked me, waving her fork near my face.

“Yeah, I’m fine,” I had my head down on the table, and I sat up and rubbed my temples. Lunch had started a couple minutes ago, but I wasn’t hungry. I was frustrated. A certain annoying blonde boy was still pissing me off. And it wasn’t Topper or Rafe.

“You don’t look fine,” Topper noted.

“Yeah,” Kelce agreed. “You look like you need to take a shit.” Topper coughed up his drink and started laughing-wheezing.

Scarlet gagged. “You boys are disgusting.” She swatted his arm.

“What?!” Kelce defended. Topper and Kelce high-fived, and I smacked Topper upside the head.

“No, I do not need to take a shit. Thanks for the concern. No, it’s just that I met this kid, JJ Maybanks, last week, and he’s annoying as fuck. I’m pissing about that.”

Topper and Kelce groaned. “I fucking hate that dude,” Topper sighed. Kelce agreed.

“Why?” I asked. “And Kelce, I thought you weren’t trying to start stuff with these Pogues.”

“Yeah, well, JJ’s a special case. He’s dangerous.” Kelce shrugged

“How did you even meet him? He never comes onto Figure Eight and he lives on, like, the other side of the island.” Scarlet added, eyebrows scrunched. “Like, the poor side.”

I thought quick. If I told them I was friends with Kiara, they would start to give me shit.

“I was bored. And I just..drove around over there and stopped at some random pier near the swamp.” I lied and took a bite of my pasta, which literally tasted like cardboard. I gagged and took a sip of my water.

I could tell that Scarlet wasn’t convinced, but she dropped it, thankfully. We continued the rest of lunch talking about scuba diving, but I could feel Scarlet giving me strange looks.

When the lunch bell rang, I practically bolted out of there. Confessing to meeting JJ Maybank made me uncomfortable for some reason, and I don’t know why. Was he really a dangerous person or-

“Nikki! Wait up!” I heard a voice call behind me.

I slowed down and spun my head around to see Kelce jogging up to me. I stopped completely turned to face him, and he made his way over to me and smiled. “What’s up, midget?”

“Shut up,” I hissed and continued walking towards my class. “What’s up?”

Kelce shrugged. “Nothing.” He ran his fingers through his hair a couple times, before following up with, “Actually, are you free today after school?”

“Uh...think so, yeah. Why?”

“Uh, I wanted to go...golfing?” Kelce laughed. “Actually, I kinda want to talk to you.”

I felt a wave of panic. Was this about the Pogues? JJ? Kiara? “Sure, what ab- shit, I just walked by my class,” I spun around and hopped into my room. “Text me later, Kelce!”

“I- ok?! See ya!” Kelce laughed nervously and finger-gunned me. I sat down at a desk and pulled out my phone to see a text from Kie.

‘ayo what’re u doing after school?’

‘hanging w kelce, he like, just, asked me. why?’

‘ooh ok, i was wondering if u wanted to come over to work on the project?’

‘sure! i’ll text u when i’m done golfing w kelce’

‘golfing, srsly?’

‘lmaoo’

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“So, what did you want to talk to me about again?” I asked as I sat into the golf cart. Kelce managed to smack the golf ball into the water, but I noticed his hands were shaking a bit. He seemed nervous, and for the life of me I didn’t know why.

“Um, ok...look, I know it’s a bit weird because I haven’t known you for as long as I’ve known Topper and them but, can I trust you with a secret?” Kelce seemed anxious; his hands were wrapped tightly around the steering wheel and his leg was bouncing up and down pretty fast.

I narrowed my eyes. Well, of course I’d keep it, but Kelce is right, I’ve only been here about a month, and judging from how nervous he sounds, it seems like something...personal.

“Well, of course, but you seem nervous...is everything alright?”

“Yeah no-” he parked the golf cart as we got to our spot. I got out of the cart and made my way to my golf clubs. “Sorry, keep going Kelce.” I apologized and allowed him to continue.

“No you’re good! It’s just that...I think I have a crush on one of our friends and I don’t know how to tell them.”

“Wait, really?! Oh my gosh, who’s the lucky girl?” I exclaimed. Kelce didn’t respond; he just kept walking, and he looked even more nervous. The realization dawned on me.

“Them? Not her? We don’t have any non-binary friends...do you like one of the guys?”

Kelce looked away, nervous. I ran up in front of him and put my hands on his shoulder.

“Hey, Kelce, it’s ok. You can talk to me about this, you know? I’m not gonna out you or anything like that.”

He looked up at me for a second, and I could see the tiny reflection of tears starting to form in his eyes. He inhale sharpy before proclaiming, “I think- no, I am, bisexual. And I have feelings for Topper.”

I gave him a smile, and stood up on my toes to hug him. “Thank you for telling and trusting me with this.”

He hugged me back, and squeezed me tightly. He let go of me and sighed, “It feels good, being able to tell people this. My parents would be accepting, but a lot of our family friends are homophobic and I’m afraid this would ruin our reputation. And-” He stopped 

“I get it. I mean- I don’t get it, but I understand what you’re trying to say. Of course, I’ll keep this a secret, but...are you ever going to tell Topper? Or your parents?”

“Maybe,” he shrugged. “For now, I’m just gonna see if I get any vibes from Topper.”

I laughed. “Maybe. He hasn’t had much luck with girls; maybe a guy is what he needs.”

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“So, how was golfing with Kelce?” Kie laying bellydown on the floor, doodling away in her sketchbook while I was (attempting to) french braid her hair.

“Uh, it was alright. Kelce kept hitting the balls into the water. For someone who’s lived here for a while, he sucks at golfing!” I joked. She snorted and threw her head back. “Hey! You’re gonna mess up the braid!”

“Sorry, sorry. It’s just funny to me how all take pride in their golfing skills but in reality, they’re not that great.”

“Honestly, I think that’s just all boys. They hype themselves up too much and we’re let down.” I giggled. Kie turned around with a sarcastically shocked look on her face. “NIKKI! Girl, I did not expect that from you.”

I gently smacked her arm, then looped the scrunchie I had in my hand around her hair. “All done. Do you think we should work on our Royal Merchant project?” I got up to grab the small backpack I brought with me. In it was the small notebook I used to jot down stuff about the ship. I had decided not to use my history notebook because this ship apparently has some important history in the Banks, and I’m most likely going to find out stuff about it while going around the island with Kie.

“Uhh, yeah sure hold up.” She stood up and went over to her desk. She pulled out a black spiral notebook that look like it’d had been dragged through the mud and dryed in a river. The cover had patchy brown stains on it and dried up water marks. She spun around and faced me, placing the book down on the desk behind her and putting her hands in the pockets of her gray sweatpants. “After John B and Sarah...we decided to write down everything we knew about the Merchant in this notebook and get rid of everything else. Not that there was much left...our maps, everything got stolen by Ward Cameron.”

“Ward Cameron? Wait...Rafe’s dad? Wheezy and Sarah’s dad, Ward Cameron? What do you mean?”

Kiara stopped. “Um...” and started fidgeting with the hem of her t-shirt, purposefully avoiding eye contact with me. “It’s- it’s a long story.”

“Is it one you’re allowed to tell me?” I was uncomfortable now- well, more like nervous. I fell very antsy, and my hands were shaking a bit. I clasped them in front of me and swallowed to ease my nerves. Something about how nervous Kie seemed made me scared...

“Well,” she started. She looked up at her ceiling and closed her eyes, then exhaled slowly. “There’s nothing legally stopping me, but JJ and probably Pope would be a bit unhappy if I told you.”

I shrugged and turned to crouch down to my bag, slightly disappointed if I was being honest. “That’s alright, you don’t have to tell-”

“Let’s go to the Chauteau.” Kie interrupted. I looked up at her. She had her lips pressed together in a weird smile. I did not know what she was thinking. “I have a plan.” She furrowed her eyebrows together, “Kind of. It’s half a plan.”

I put my notebook in my bag and grabbed the top handle. “You don’t have to tell me, you know. I don’t want your friends getting pissed at me.”

“Oh I know,” she smiled, “but I have a plan. A way to bring the Cameron family down and to bring justice to John B and Sarah. But to do that, the two of us and the boys need to work together.”

I nodded slowly, having no idea where she was going with this. “We are still gonna get the project done, right?”

Kie giggled. “Yes, of course.”

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“Yeah, so, that’s...it, basically.” Kiara said, slapping her hands down onto her thighs and turning her head left to face me.

I think the look on my face was one of complete horror, because JJ, who was on Kie’s right, burst into laughter. Full on, tear-jerking, belly-grabbing laughter. Pope, who was standing up in front of him, kicked him in the shin. “Dude, what the fuck are you laughing about?”

After he managed to calm himself down, he wiped his tears and said, “Sorry, man, it was just so funny seeing the Kook’s reaction- I mean-”

“Stop calling me that,” I interjected. “I’m just...mortified you guys went through that, and that...” I stopped talking, and looked down at my hands. That Rafe killed someone. I clenched my fists together. I wasn’t mad, not yet. It hadn’t really set in yet. Right now I’m completely shocked, at Rafe, Topper, even Kelce who kept John B locked up in his house.

JJ must have knew what I was thinking, because the usually cocky look in his eyes faded and was replaced with slight sympathy. ”None of us expected you to know this.”

Tears started swelling up in my eyes. “My god...your friends are dead because of Rafe.” I covered my hand with my mouth. I felt like I was gonna be sick. “I’m sorry, I feel so dramatic; your friends are dead and I’m the one who’s crying.”

Pope laughed dryly and said, “Trust me, we cried enough.” When I looked up at him, he was looking down, and I could see tears forming in his eyes too.

I inhaled once, deeply, then turned to Kiara and smiled. “So, what’s this plan you were talking about?”

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A/N

i am sorry for straight-up disappearing. it was a mix of writer’s block and mental health; i needed to plan out some details for the story but when i sorted everything out, my brain was like “nah” but yep i’m back haha

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chapter 5

[lovelyirony]

“Cause with my mid-youth crisis all said and done/I need to be youthfully felt ‘cause God, I never felt young” Jackie and Wilson with maria and nat BLEASE

Maria’s not exactly the type to have a sunny disposition at all times. In fact, Tony has told her that “had I not been with you since preschool, I would have thought you were a robot.” 

So that says...something. 

She doesn’t have to have a sunny disposition. Being happy all the time is annoying, and she gets free drinks from the sandwich shop a couple blocks down because the cashier there is still too terrified of her to charge for the buck-twenty-nine for a soda. 

And then there are two new people that come to their school. Everyone’s talking about them. 

“People need to stop being annoying,” Maria mutters. “Why can’t they just say ‘hey new people’ and move on like everybody else?” 

“No one does that, I’m scared of you,” Tony says. “But we’re meeting the two. Steve’s already recruited them to our lunch table.” 

“Ugh, Steve.” 

“Don’t pretend like you don’t secretly like the fact that you two are friends, he’s the only one who will go with you on your early morning runs because you both are freaks who wake up at five.” 

“Hmph.” 

Maria stares at the lunch table. 

There is the most beautiful girl she has ever fucking seen with her own two eyes. She’s pretty sure that this girl may be magic, or may have been sent to kill her. 

“Maria, meet Natasha and Clint,” Steve says. 

Maria takes a cursory glance over to who is Clint, who is gesturing at Tony with a slice of cold pizza. Tony appears to have taken out his carrot sticks to make similar gestures. 

Natasha nods at her. 

“Steve told me you run.” 

“I do. Early morning.” 

“Need someone else to join?” 

“I wouldn’t be opposed.” 

“Excellent. I will meet you at five-twenty tomorrow morning.” 

- 

To everyone else at that table, that is the most goddamned formal interaction two teens can have. Jesus, it sounded like a business deal. 

In the words of Sam: 

“Maria, since when can you flirt? And since when does it work like that?” 

Maria blinks. 

“I...am not sure.” .

- 

Natasha and Maria go on a run. Steve says he is “sleeping in” but that is bullshit because Steve is essentially a freak who functions on about two hours of sleep. 

Natasha has excellent running gear. Her shoes are good. Maria nods as she stretches. 

“What do you usually do on your runs?” 

“Challenges.” 

“Such as?” 

“You’ll find out.” 

Maria finds out that Natasha goes completely off the rails on her “runs.” She doesn’t even so much run as start doing flips and jumps off of buildings. Maria is intrigued. 

“How’d you do that?” 

“I practiced a lot during my childhood.” 

“Anyone practice with you?” 

“Clint.” 

That is that. Maria asks to be shown how to achieve this skill as well. 

“You’ll have to come to my gym. Classes are fun there.” 

Maria does. They meet at night every Wednesday and Thursday. 

She meets Sharon, who is a delight-and-a-half because she says threats like “I will steal your kneecaps!” in a very cheery voice while completely eviscerating the competition. 

“I think we finally found Steve a girlfriend,” Natasha says, smiling. 

“Maybe. We’ll have to see how amenable he is to dying early at the hands of a beautiful woman.” 

Steve’s answer: 

are u srsly asking me that. u already know it’s Plan A in my book. If i don’t die like that then my life is failure. u can quote me on that. 

So Maria and Natasha laugh together over the response, and decide Sharon needs to be invited to the next game night at Tony’s. 

- 

They’re not exactly sure when they get together. It’s not like they have a set date. 

Maria considers it when Natasha says they’ll share a room over their spring break. Natasha did not bother getting separate beds. 

“You saying you don’t want to sleep with me?” 

“I never said that.” 

“Good. I hope you never say it.” 

“Me too.” 

Natasha considered it when Maria allowed her on the runs. 

Maria is bewildered by this, until Natasha explains that Maria had essentially banned everyone else and had bought her a pumpkin muffin at the end. 

“You buying someone food is essentially you saying that you would die for them. You also really like muffins.” 

“Hm. That is true.” 

Natasha leans her head against her shoulder. Maria hums as she shifts her shoulder to adjust for Maximum Comfort. 

“Still wanna get chicken tenders after this?” 

“Yes. Can we ditch early?” 

“As long as Bruce doesn’t see us, yeah. Thor couldn’t come, he’s really bored and wants to leave.” 

“Why shouldn’t we give him a ride home?” 

“He will want Sonic. I am not getting it for him. He can choke.” 

“Not my thing,” Bruce interjects. “Not everyone has your kinks, Natasha. I’m fine staying here. Thor said he’d come later, so I have entertainment.” 

Maria snorts, wrapping him in a hug. 

“See you soon, Bruce. Hope you get entertained.” 

“Hope your chicken tenders get burnt.” 

Maria holds Natasha’s hand on the way out. 

She hopes she gets to do that forever. 

[slytherinbangchan]

Tattoo Artist!Bangchan(Chris) au

-Tattoo!Artist Changbin  

-Tattoo artist!Hyunjin

-Tattoo Artist!Jisung

-Tattoo artist!Felix

-Tattoo artist!Minho

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Genre: Smut

-You're already biting your lips before entering the shop.

-Chris is on a black shirt.

-You can see his arm's veins even from the door as he works with the tattoo machine.

-He looks specially good today.

-That blond hair really suits him.

-He looks fine no matter what but.

-Anyways.

-You finally walk in.

-The smell of your perfume makes Chris turn his head.

-He's smiling at you from his work chair.

-But he can't move right now.

-So you just sit and wait.

-You can't stop looking at those arms tho :')

-After a few minutes he finishes and motions you to walk towards him.

-'Hey, babygirl'

-You have to fight yourself not to squeal after that.

-'Hey' you say.

-'How was your flight?' He asks as he toss away his used gloves.

-'Boring, but I missed you so I had to come'.

-'I'm free for today, wanna go grab some food?'

-You nod and wait for him.

-You've been friends since you were like 15.

-And maybe lately you've developed a tiny crush on him.

-A tiny crush and a huge thirst.

-And you're staying at his house tonight.

-But you're watching a movie there with the guys.

-So probb nothing will happen.

-You go for ice cream and other street food.

-Cause you two really like to walk and just chat.

-'Hey, I really hope you have a spot for me, I want that tattoo I told you about'

-'Have you ever left my house without new ink on your skin?' He chuckles.

-'Nah, but I had to make sure. Honestly you becoming a tattooist is the best thing you've ever done so thanks for that'.

-He laughs. 'I'm starting to think you only want me for that'.

-You laugh sarcastically without thinking and he looks at you kinda confused.

-'What does that laugh means?' He chuckles.

-You blush. 'Nothing, shut up'.

-He laughs again. 'Okay?'

-Stupid Bangchan.

-'C'mon, don't be mad at me. I was joking, I know you love me'. He says with a sweet voice. 'Let's head back and watch that movie with the guys'.

-Ok, so now you're on his sofa.

-He's right beside you.

-But Hyunjin is also there.

-Only Changbin is sitting on the floor.

-For some reason he jokingly suggested to drink some alcohol while watching the movie.

-And aparently everyone thought it was a great idea.

-So there you are.

-Bangchan at your right, Hyunjin on your left.

-You never really thought that much about it but

-Hyunjin is fucking hot too.

-But you heard he kinda behaves like a fuckboy sometimes.

-So, no thanks.

-Anyways, the movie is pretty boring.

-Thank god you're drinking.

-You're not thinking so clearly tho.

-You've been looking at Chris's thighs for a while now.

-He's starting to wonder if something is wrong.

-Probb you’re just kinda drunk.

-But then you start caressing one of his knees.

-Then you go up higher to his thigh.

-The tension building up. He doesn't know whether to ask or just stay quiet.

-But then you keep quickly going up making him jump a little.

-He spills some of his drink even.

-'Oh god' he says, standing up. 'Sorry I'll be right back'.

-Hyunjin looks at you with a smirk on his face. 'You know, I would have kept my mouth shut'. He licks his bottom lip to later bite it.

-'I bet you would' You say giving back another smirk.

-The hell is going on with you tonight?

-Oh, yeah... The alcohol.

-Anyways, you go and find Bangchan.

-He’s on his bedroom changing clothes.

-'Can I come in?' You ask as you open the door.

-'Why do you ask if you're coming anyway?' He laughs.

-He has no shirt on, is looking for one in the drawers.

-'Can you...Not do that?' -You ask.

-'Do what?'

-You walk towards him and grab the shirt he has on his hands.

-Your hands on his chest, going up his shoulders and down his arms slowly as he just watches you.

-You look up to meet his eyes as you interwine your fingers with his.

-He's just waiting.

-'I'm gonna kiss you now'. You say.

-He chuckles. 'Okay'.

-He leans over a little to make it easier and you meet his lips.

-At first it's kinda sweet but then it turns into a really passionate kiss.

-You push him so he'd fall on his bed and then jump on top of him.

-You’re just so thirsty for hiM.

-'Ok, y/n wait. -He chuckles. 'There's people on the living room'

-'So?'

-He tilts his head. 'We should head back for now'.

-'What? No, just fuck me already Chris'

-'Omg. Believe me, I want to babygirl' He laughs again. 'but seriously tho, let's just finish the movie for now'.

-You head back to the living room but this time you sit astride Bangchan.

-He throws a 'srsly' look at you but he just let you be.

-The other two are obviously laughin about the whole situation.

-But you couldn't care less.

-What you really care right now is that you want Bangchan inside you.

-That alcohol sure went to your head.

-You kiss Chris and he kisses you back.

-He's genuinely worried about the guys feeling awkward.

-Then he remembers Changbin fucked his girlfriend in his bathroom.

-And Hyunjin eating out one of his girls in his bedroom while Chris and Changbin were waiting in the living room to watch some reality show.

-And again, you're so thirsty for him.

-You can’t help trying once more.

-You're whispering on his ear so deliciously.

-'Please Chris. I need you so bad, daddy'.

-That's too much for him.

-It physically hurts how hard he is.

-'Ok, babygirl listen, let's try something, but you can't move okay? He whispers you back as he carefully let's his cock out so you would sit on it.

-It's pretty obvious what you're doing but at least you have that skirt to cover up.

-He set aside your underwear enough to allow his cock slide inside you.

-You bite your lips not to moan as you go down.

-Tears coming out of your eyes cause pleasure.

-Finally he's inside you.

-After all this time yearning for it.

-You slightly move and he stops you.

-He groans a little. 'Babygirl, what did I tell you? You can't move'.

-'But you're so hard daddy, it feels so good'.

-You can feel him getting even harder just hearing you. 'Fuck y/n.' He bites his lips. 'If you behave I promise you I will fuck you real good after the guys leave'.

-'Omg' Hyunjin stands up. 'This is too much even for me. Fuck her already, I'm leaving'.

-He grabs Changbin and walks out the door.

-You two don't even have time to laugh.

-He's taking off your shirt and bra and you take off his shirt.

-Then you start riding him hard.

-It doesn't take long to either of you to reach your high.

-You're all filled with his cum and still is not enough.

-'Don't stop' You say. 'Please, daddy'. You’re almost whining.

-There's a second high coming for you so he just keep pounding into you until you reach it again.

-You end up breathless.

-And so happy.

-And tired.

-You just end up lazy-kissing.

-You start dating after that.

-Turns out he didn't have a crush on you.

-He was in love with you, so yeah.

-You’re still thirsty for him everyday.

-Cause you like him so much.

-The guys are gonna joke about that sofa night for the rest of their lives.

-But you don't really care.

-Cause Bangchan is so cute and sexy.

-And he fucks you so good every time.✨ The end~

[theormostat-terminator]

ONCE AGAIN TAOB REACTION POST CUZ IM READING IT NOW

@hella1975

Okay, you say this is a hopeful chapter, but at this point I don’t trust you judgement of what is hopeful BECAUSE YOU’VE BEEN TORTOURING US FOR THE LAST MILLION CHAPTERS!!

Okay, I’m a few sentences in, and I’m just cooing over Zuko carrying Zi Se, idk why, but it’s adorable.

So far I’m just so confused about what Tovah is gonna do. Like, what the fuck is her plan?????

I’m in physical pain from the way Zuko describes being outside again and SEEING EVERYTHING AND oh my god, I’m gonna cry, ffs Hella, can we go one chapter without me crying please and thank you. 

“Zuko’s life had been torn from him and she sounded bored”

I know this isn’t supposed to be a funny line but it made me exhale through my nose and istg WHY WAS THAT FUNNY TO ME??

But the sword thing, it made me think of how he had left the other sword so that Hakoda could find it. And then that made me think of the fact that Zuko probably thinks that they abandoned him or something, that no one came for him and I’m- I’m in shambles, I’m currently dying of feels, once again. 

WAIT A FUCKING SECOND YOU CAN’T BE SERIOUS, SHE HAS TO BE LYING??!?!?!? THE WHITE LOTUS??!???! HUH?!?!??!?! HELLA WHAT? I THOUGHT SHE WAS A BAD GUY? NO? I’M??? NOT OKAY??? EXPLAIN???

Okay I read more and I got an explanation to everything and oMG idk why but I’M BREATHLESS AFTER READING THAT?? And I’m so happy she accepted Iroh as friend or whatever her definaítion is, and istg you’re making me love Tovah so much. How do you make characters so loveable? huh?? give me that talent now please

HGAJSHFKJHAFJ THE UNCLES MEET FINALLY IMALKFLJDKIAFOIHGOIAJFOJFLJFLJFLKHALFKJLFKJALFJLWKDJOAUGIOAHGOIHAFOWIJOIHFKHwgkajhfk

I read the rest and I feel like I just ran a marathon. SO MUCH HAPPENED IN THIS CHAPTER!!!

Okay so um, how is everyone gonna reunite though?????? 

Also I apologize that this post is so short compared to the other ones I’ve had but just so MUCH HAPPENED YET I HAVE NO WORDS BUT AJLAHFKJHDWLJALHWLFHLHLJLKWJDLK OMG

I hope you understand the language written by one emotionally crippled fanboy who has fallen into the hole of feels and will not be getting out of there anytime soon.

But srsly, this chapter was a rollercoaster and yes it was hopeful but ALSO MESSED WUHT MA EMOTION,, i need to go lay down holy shit

[emoboijk]

jhs | carnations

“But carnations? Oh, what a beautiful flower. They come in every color. True, some are painted, but that doesn’t mean they are less beautiful, and they never wilt.” (Ruth McLeod-Kerns) or you fall in love with your fuck buddy—hanahaki disease au, friends with benefits au, flora & fauna series

2,510 words

p.cred

The waiting room is beige with a dark brown carpet, the kind that has either always been that color or is that color as a result of years of use. There are paintings (ironically) of flowers on the walls, and potted plants stationed randomly between the chairs. A receptionist sits behind a counter, typing on a computer and answering the phone when it rings. Aside from her, there are seven people scattered about the room.

You're wedged into a chair that's been pushed against the window, the sun hitting your back and making you feel warm for the first time in ages. The doctor said that might be a side effect of the blood loss; your circulation is less than stellar now that there's nothing to circulate. Your fingers and toes are practically made of ice now.

HOEbi: when r we meeting up? ;)

You frown down at the message. He sent it at 3 AM so you know he was drunk, out with some of the guys from his frat or his dance team. But it's the latest in a string of messages from him that ask the same question.

You're not sure how long you had expected to keep up this charade, but you had definitely hoped longer. There's no disguising it now. You can't be in the middle of hooking up, start coughing bloody carnations and expect to keep the momentum going. Bloody flowers sort of ruin the mood.

You run a hand through your hair, swallowing against bloody, petal-infused bile, as you try to come up with a response. Some subtle way of evading him yet again. But you're in the middle of thinking when the incoming-text animation appears.

HOEbi: sorry about that! :)

HOEbi: but really when am i going to see u?

HOEbi: i miss u :(

You roll your eyes, a smile coming to your lips despite yourself. You suppose that was really what you fell for; he's a good fuck, obviously, but that sort of sweetness and humility. He radiates warmth and friendliness.

I have an appt today

HOEbi: oh u sick?

HOEbi: i have a (meat) thermometer that might help ;)

Fucking hell. Is he still drunk?

Disgusting

HOEbi: if i promise to never say that again can i see u tonite

Maybe…

You're smiling at your phone like a dope.

A fourth person gets called in by the nurse when your screen changes. Incoming Call. Chaeyoung.

"Hey, what's up?" you wedge your phone between your ear and your shoulder, "I'm at the doctor's."

Your body goes stiff when you hear her crying. It's not a soft, gentle crying, it's violent sobbing and dry heaving.

"What happened?"

"I," she's stuttering, "I, I, I…I got into a car accident." She hiccups and cries harder. You run from the waiting room without so much as a look to the receptionist or the other patients.

You can see the accident from three blocks away; there are two police cars with their lights flashing and a tow truck backing into place. You don't spot your sister until you're closer; she's sitting on the sidewalk, leaning against a streetlight with her face in her hands. You pull into the grocery store parking lot nearby and race across the street.

"Oh my god," you breathe and Chaeyoung looks up. Your whole body relaxes when you see she's not injured, but Chae crumbles when she spots you. Her hug is nearly a tackle and her arms like a vice. You choke slightly as her grip forces flowers up your esophagus.

"What happened?" you whisper hoarsely.

Chaeyoung pulls away and you wipe her cheeks of tears. "I just," she hiccups, "I just looked at my phone for a second."

Your curse instantly. She knows how you feel about that. But one look at her expression and you know that totaling her car is punishment enough. You stroke her hair and say, "At least you're alright."

"But my car," she sobs.

You look over to where she's pointing, realizing that you hadn't actually seen the damage yet. "Fuck," you exhale. Her lime-green Dodge Neon is nearly half the size it used to be, the front end smashed into a streetlight, which toppled over and crushed the top of her car.

You rub circles into her back softly, "At least you didn't hit another car…"

Chaeyoung curls into your side and starts crying again. You squeeze her shoulder and pull out your phone, muttering about calling the insurance company, but you nearly jump when you see Hoseok's sent you another message.

HOEbi: srsly i need to tell you something important

It makes you cough; flower petals dance through the air to the pavement and blood runs down your chin.

The Emergency Room is bustling. And you want to leave because, honestly, it gives you anxiety.

"I'm fine," you tell your sister for the millionth time.

"People who are fine don't cough up blood for no reason," she replies for the millionth time.

You roll your eyes and go back to staring at Hobi's last message. You still haven't replied (what with your sister dragging you to the ER for no reason). (Well maybe a little reason).

A doctor appears beside the bed, almost as if from thin air, with his nose in a chart. He says your name as a question.

"That's me," you confirm, "But I really don't need to be here."

"Is that so?" the doctor says, putting on a pair of gloves.

"She coughed up blood," your sister interjects and you hiss profanities at her before you can help yourself.

The doctor chuckles and grabs a tongue compressor from a cart. "Say ‘ah'."

You don't.

"I won't let you leave until you do."

You open your mouth but you do not say ‘ah'. The doctor looks inside and frowns and you know what he sees.

"Yeah," he says, "I'm going to have to admit you."

Your sister is clutching your hand like she's the one who will have to stay in the hospital. "What's wrong!" It's a question but it comes out a desperate whine.

The doctor looks at you skeptically for a moment, trying to gauge how much you know. You roll your eyes and tell your sister, "It's called Hanahaki disease."

"What?" It's almost a shriek.

"And an advanced case at that," the doctor says, removing his gloves and scribbling on your chart, "I could see an entire carnation at the back of your throat. How are you not in pain?"

"I never said I wasn't in pain." You avoid looking at your sister because you don't feel like explaining yourself.

The doctor humphs in your direction and scribbles something else on your chart. He turns and barks at a nurse to admit you and to call Dr. Lee.

You lean against the exam bed you're perched on, giving in to your exhaustion. You close your eyes but can still feel your sister's gaze on you, full of questions. You don't have the energy; you pretend to fall asleep.

"How much pain?" the same doctor asks.

You still don't feel like opening your eyes; you hold up seven fingers. Chaeyoung's grip on your wrist tightens and you know she wants to yell at you but she's scared. Normally, you would woman-up and comfort her, but you're weak. You don't feel like taking care of her right now. You just want the burning in your throat and the stabbing in your chest and the iron on your teeth to go away.

"I'll give you something and a nurse will come to take you to a room."

You nod and wince as he gives you the medication. It works immediately, a comforting nothingness rushing through your body. This time you really do fall asleep.

You blink awake to a smart-looking female doctor shaking your shoulder; there's a crowd of younger doctors with clipboards standing behind her. She smiles when you meet her eyes.

"Hey there, sorry to wake you, but I need to do an initial check," she stands up straight, "I'm Dr. Lee."

You nod and push yourself up in the hospital bed. You're in a new room. There's a consistent beeping coming from one of the machines. Chaeyoung is passed out on an uncomfortable-looking loveseat that's built into the wall.

Dr. Lee asks you all the routine questions (how long and how much and who is it?). You answer them with a purposefully bored tone. Then, when your phone goes off halfway through the questions, your tone is not so much bored as anxious.

"Something you need to check on?" the doctor asks when you turn away from her for the third time. The phone goes off a second time and you realize it's in Chae's bag.

"No."

"It's okay," the doctor says, "We're done. We'll take you up for x-rays so we can see the extent of the damage and then talk about options."

"Fine," you nod.

It's almost thirty-six hours before you see Dr. Lee again (you've been counting). In that time you've slept, went through a battery of tests and scans, and ate four meals. Chaeyoung wouldn't leave for the first twelve hours until you insisted she go home and get your toothbrush at least (after promising she wouldn't text while driving your car). (Ugh, her car, you still need to deal with that).

You checked your phone when she left after her first visit.

HOEbi: c'mon u know i don't like to be serious

HOEbi: i gotta real talk

It caused another fit of coughing and the nurse told Chaeyoung to keep you from your phone. You were kind of relieved. His messages make you worried and uneasy, worst-case scenarios flying through your mind like locusts through a field of wheat.

And then, the strangest thing happens: the pressure in your chest dissipates.

When Dr. Lee does finally come in she's beaming. She smiles at you like she has a secret before turning and pinning two x-rays onto a lightbox.

"This," she points to the first, "is your initial scan, from when you were first admitted." It looks like an abstract painting. Black and white shadowy shapes, floral outlines imprinted on lung impressions.

"And this is your scan from this morning." This x-ray is significantly less cluttered. There's still a floral design in the way of the lungs but it's diminished.

"Am I getting better?" Your eyes scan the array of doctors she has behind her, "I was told that wasn't possible."

Dr. Lee leans against the railing at the foot of your bed. "Hanahaki is a tricky disease," she taps her fingernails, "Studies show that the majority of the cause is in the mind, with real, dangerous, physical manifestations," she shrugs, "Logic says that if you get over the mental part of it, the person on the other end of your unreciprocated love, you'll get better."

That strikes you. Get over him? You hadn't felt such a significant shift. You still thought about him, you still missed him...maybe not in the pining, desperate way of a few days ago... But you wouldn't say you'd gotten over him.

"Time away must be all you need," the doctor says, "We'll keep you here another day or two to make sure that's what's helping, and then you should be good to go." She pats your ankle comfortingly and turns to the others, leaving just as swiftly as she had arrived.

Your chest feels lighter but your mind feels muddier than ever.

Twenty-four hours later, you're actually smiling when Hoseok shows up while you're chatting with Chaeyoung. He knocks on the door before sliding it open and sticking his head inside.

It sort of takes your breath away. It's been almost a week since you've last seen him and whoo, he looks good. All tan and glowing, dark hair spilling over a headband and eyes like gemstones. His lips are pulled into a nervous heart shape and it makes your chest feel heavy (although it doesn't prickle with pain like it used to).

"Hobi?"

"Hey," he says and it's brimming with relief. Glass half full. He steps fully inside and his eyes scan down the length of your body. He chews on his bottom lip, "Alright?"

"I need a soda," your sister announces. Too abruptly. She stands and hurries out of the room, turning to wink at you before closing the door. It makes you roll your eyes.

"How did you find out I was here?" You tilt your head to the side.

"I, uh, kept texting you? Your sister responded."

You raise your eyebrows. You glance around the room and spot your bag; waving your hand at it you say, "Could you…?"

"Oh, yeah." Hoseok passes it to you. While you dig through it, he glances around before deciding to sit in the chair by your bed. He hesitates for a long moment before deciding to lean against the railing; he's missed being close to you.

There are over twenty missed text messages. A couple from your parents and your friends, but most are from Hobi.

From right before you were admitted:

HOEbi: did i scare u lol

HOEbi: it's not that big of a deal

HOEbi: honestly i don't even need to tell u

HOEbi: really it's ok let's just meet up

And then another the next day:

HOEbi: i missssss uuuuuuuuu

You smile at that one, scrolling to the next day's messages:

HOEbi: are u not texting me back cuz of what i said

HOEbi: cuz it's fine we don't have to talk

HOEbi: unless it's dirty ;) ;)

HOEbi: pls don't hate me

That actually makes you laugh. You can almost picture him texting and getting anxious. And then yesterday:

HOEbi: k i'm really worried

That's when your sister started replying.

She doesn't hate you. My sister loves you.

I'm Chaeyoung.

HOEbi: uh hey

HOEbi: wait! loves? really?

Duh

Anyway she's in the hospital

You're blushing. "Sorry."

"It's okay," he shrugs and when you look over he's giving you that smile. The one he gives everyone but that makes you feel extra special, the one that lights you from the inside. You wonder if everyone feels that way when he smiles. Maybe not. Maybe that's what makes it special. "You're in the hospital." He frowns, "Why didn't you tell me?"

You tuck a piece of your hair (stringy and unwashed) behind your ear, "We're not...anything. You didn't have to come. I...I didn't want you to see me like this."

He raises his eyebrows. His face is so open and vulnerable, soft and sweet. "I want to see you in every way." He runs his hand through his hair before lacing his fingers through yours. "That's what I wanted to talk to you about. I want to be more." He squeezes your hand.

On every single one of your anniversaries after that, Hobi gives you a bouquet of carnations. The note always says: We beat 'em.

author’s note—don’t ask me about hobi’s texting style because i have no answers

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I would really like if you could recommend me any stories with infidelity?

hi there anon, now this is one of the genres/au I enjoy reading, I do not condone cheating/infidelity in any way but there’s this pull you know, I want to get into people’s minds so I read and enjoy (also fucking hurt too srsly a lot of these fics make me bawl right it’s not in past tense because I reread a lot of the stories in here like an affected beech) stories like these, why do they do it? how do they sleep? (actually listening to sam smith’s how do you sleep as I consolidate this list) what triggered them to fall for another soul was it because of love or just plain old lust, as someone who’s been cheated on I know how it feels to be on the receiving end and it sucks the trauma stays with you, you’ll find it hard to trust, you’ll always question yourself, self-esteem will be fucking dippin’ low, in your eyes you’re pitiful and not worthy of being loved especially if you’ve been so fucking loyal like a dog, but a part of me wants to understand because I’m not perfect…

I wanna get in their heads and know how they manage to break a heart that loves them, I guess love will never be enough to keep someone no matter how much love you pour onto them, some love stories are meant to end as tragic as possible to teach us lessons and make our hearts stronger until we find the other half that will make it whole.

this will be a list with different categories, I’ll probably be tagging again the fics I tagged in previous infidelity lists I made because I want this to be the big list, the one I’ll probably update from time to time, the one I’ll keep coming back to when I wanna hurt and leave my tear ducts high and dry, let’s get it! 

P.S: proceed with caution as I have listed taboo & dark themed ones here so pick your poison babes! 🖤

Exhibit A: The One Where You Cheat Together (mutual cheating, both in a relationship (or the other may be single) but still chose to cheat on respective partner/s)

❥ Right of Way by fringesofsanity➴ Infidelity/Lovers!AU | Jungkook x Reader x Jimin | Series➴ In theory, things were simple: your best friend was Jungkook’s girlfriend while your boyfriend, Jimin, was Jungkook’s best friend. In reality, things weren’t always that simple. And mutually exclusive.

❥ Bad Guy by @sweetbunnykook​➴ Mob/Married!AU | Seokjin x Reader x Hoseok x Yoongi | Series➴ After a brutal attack in Hong Kong, your marriage with Kim Seokjin cracks as secrets begin to surface and a series of betrayals find their way into the veins of the Hidden Tigers. Although Jin’s devotion endures, in his own definition, the reality of being a mob wife may be too much for you to bear.

❥ 2U by @milkyyjmn  ➴ Surrogate!AU | Jungkook x Reader x OC | Series➴ You were simply trying to make a living and give the opportunity of having children for the women who couldn’t. You meet a couple who plans to have a steady life — you being the last puzzle piece for it all. But you acknowledge the boyfriend, Jungkook, who questions if he actually wants it.

❥ Clandestine by @ditzymax ➴ Assassin!AU | Taehyung x Named OC x Jungkook | Series➴ As a professional assassin, Kim Kinsoo has many shrouded secrets in her life. Some of them she shares openly with her loving boyfriend, but there are other things he must never know.

❥ My Way @ellieljade➴ Infidelity!AU | Jungkook x Reader x OC | Series➴ Jungkook doesn’t appreciate your boyfriend’s insistence that he stops sleeping with you and he knows just how to prove that you like it his way.

❥ Wildest Moments by @joonbird➴ Infidelity/Producer!AU | Yoongi x Reader | Series➴ “Min Yoongi is forbidden territory. And although you both know better, the two of you just can’t seem to stay apart.”

❥ House of Cards by @aiimaginesbts ➴ Exes/Roommates!AU | Taehyung x Reader x Jungkook | Series➴ A love from high school days lasted until marriage. Just not yours. 

❥ Infidelity by @jungk0oksthighs➴ Exes/Parents!AU | Seokjin x Reader | One-Shot➴ You and Jin had been divorced for a year but you’re forced to see each other when your son is found cheating on a test. After being called into school you both agree to make more of an effort being civil with each other, but it’s not long before history repeats itself. Family dinners turn into stolen kisses and ruffled bed sheets, but there’s one problem with your new arrangement. Jin’s wife. 

❥ Should We Go Downtown by @honeyedhoseok ➴ BFF/FWB!AU | Taehyung x Reader x Hongbin (VIXX) | One-Shot➴ Taehyung has watched you struggle in your relationship with your boyfriend for a while, always being your shoulder to cry on. He’s learned the best trick to pick you up when you’re down–besides his sensation of his mouth on yours–is a trip downtown to the riverfront at nighttime, so you can see the boats coming in on the harbor while he tries to piece back together the girl he absolutely hates to see sad.

Exhibit B: The One Where They Cheat on You 

❥ Only You by @sweetbunnykook➴ Yandere!AU | Jungkook x Reader x Namjoon x Seokjin | Series➴ Jeon Jungkook, your wedding photographer, helps you escape on your big day upon learning about a secret your groom-to-be kept hidden. You soon fall for this young, passionate photographer. However, you underestimated just how much he was willing to reciprocate that love. Maybe, you think, he’s loving you just a little too much.

❥ Slight Changes by @chiminiemoans➴ Infidelity/Idol!AU | Taehyung x Reader x Jimin | Series➴ Taehyung gets caught. 

❥ My Cheating Amnesic Fiancé | One / Two by wrienne ➴ Idol/Arranged Marriage!AU | Jungkook x Reader x OC |  Series➴ BOOK ONE: In which you (reader) and Jeon Jungkook are engaged due to an arrangement made by both of your parents. Though neither of you especially like each other, you never thought you would find yourself in a relationship with a cheater. To top that off, destiny decides to make an entrance (in the form of a hard hit to a pretty skull) and Jungkook suffers amnesia, which only you seem to be able to handle. What will happen? Will you stay with him and help him through his predicament even though he loves someone else? Or should you simply let him go?➴  BOOK TWO: In which you (reader) and Jeon Jungkook are engaged due to an arrangement made by both of your parents. Or well, used to be. After finally resolving Jungkook’s amnesia and your complicated relationship, one would think that everything was fine. But destiny isn’t done messing with your life yet. Due to an incident where you confronted Jungkook’s brother and your current fiancé about some lies that he had made, you found out about a horrible part of his life that you now feel obligated to help him with. But in order to do that, you cannot tell him about you and Jungkook. Additionally, Jungkook isn’t done keeping secrets away from you - secrets that might destroy your already uncertain relationship permanently. Furthermore, your father’s weak health is a constant worry on your mind, and as news outlets dig out more about your late grandfather’s company’s involvement with the former president, nothing in your already chaotic life will be stable for a long time. Will your relationship with Jungkook make it through all the hurdles and hindrances that destiny sets before you? Or are you two really not meant to be?

Exhibit C: The One Where You Cheat on Them (the other party is clueless (mostly) about the affair)

❥ Who Cares by @floralseokjin➴ Infidelity/Lovers!AU | Taehyung x Named OC x Seokjin | Series➴ What happens when Taehyung falls for someone who’s already taken? Can he control his feelings or will they take over and render him powerless? In the end is it all her fault or his…? 

❥ Comfort Inn Ending by @joonbird ➴ Idol!AU | Jungkook x Reader | Series➴ “It was you who Jungkook gave his heart to- that is until the day you broke it. And it is you now, hoping that some faultlines can be repaired and that some broken hearts can be put back together again.”

❥ Cheating by @jhspetitegf➴ Infidelity/Married!AU | Yoongi x Reader x Jimin | One-Shot➴ When you were sixteen, you had a life-plan. While all your other friends had been enjoying their youth; going on innocent dates to bowling alleys or spending Friday nights finishing their calculus homework, you had been setting a path for yourself, one you were determined to follow. Until you were about twenty, things had gone to plan; you were studying at an ivy league college, you had managed to shed any puppy fat you still clung onto around your middle, and you had a wonderful set of friends. One goal still lingered, however, and that was to meet The One.

❥ Access Denied by @littlemisskookie➴ Infidelity/Lovers!AU | Taehyung x Reader x Yoongi | One-Shot➴ Your boyfriend, Yoongi, no longer pays attention to you. So you decide to spend time with someone who will. 

❥ Partition by @iq-biased ➴ Mafia!AU | Taehyung x Reader x Namjoon | Series➴ Namjoon. Head of one of the fiercest gangs in Seoul, and your boyfriend. You know he has been working on something big lately. Whatever it is, he’s keeping it very quiet. So quiet, that you’re beginning to doubt whether he’ll ever get any time with you. But when his driver, the infamous Kim Taehyung, is tasked with taking you home during a date-gone-wrong, he’s got nothing but time for you. And time is something you’re finding it really hard to resist… 

❥ Always by @itskimtaehyung ➴ Mafia/Married!AU | Jimin x Reader x Jungkook | Series➴ You would die for him, kill for him, and everything in between. He was as much a part of you as yourself. You didn’t want anyone else. It was always Jungkook. 

❥ Apologies by @ellieljade ➴ Idol/Lovers!AU | Taehyung x Reader | One-Shot➴ After a fight, Taehyung can’t bring himself to apologize to his girlfriend until he realizes that she might have moved on. If he wants her he needs to go get her.

❥ Dead Leaves by wrienne➴ Detective/Married!AU | Yoongi x Reader x Jimin | Series➴ In which you (reader) are a homicide detective about to face the biggest hurdle both of your career and life. Married to probably the kindest but most boring man you’ve ever met and living in a town where nothing ever seems to happen means life for you is dull. Dull enough to drive you crazy with boredom and dissatisfaction. However, life changes abruptly when your old boss retires and a new man takes his place - a man you used to love (and sleep very regularly with) more than a decade ago. Especially when your husband comes home smelling of perfume, you’re unable to resist your more carnal urges and dead women start showing up across the city with unnerving frequency. 

BONUS:

Exhibit Dick: One Where OC Cheats on Reader

❥ A Hundred Percent Human by wrienne➴ Hybrid/Host Club!AU | OT7 x Reader | Series ➴ In which you (reader) are forced to take care of seven hybrids in a twist of fate.

After your estranged mother passes away, you’re left with an unwanted will and the heavy burden of responsibility. Although you’re desperate not to stray from the familiar path you thought was laid out in front of you with a fully human boyfriend who loves you more than anything, your life is thrown upside down once more after another unfortunate incident (that may or may not have to do with said boyfriend) occurs.

Drunk and down on life, you finally decide to deal with the house and the unsavory business your mother left behind. However, to your shock, you find that seven very different hybrids are included with both the house - and the business. Seven hybrids you never even met before - even less agreed to take care of.

Set in the not too distant future where infertility has become mankind’s greatest issue. Will contain sexual content.

so this is the list I came up with I hope you enjoy reading all of these stories I listed here, all of these are wonderful in their own heartbreaking way, some are on-going/on-hold series, some ended with happily ever afters while others ended in the most heart wrenching tragic way. | 🍒