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[sampegger]

I am still searching for my father's love in all the corners of the world.

JESSE PINKMAN & ABIGAIL HOBBS

[destiel-wings]

Dean Winchester & hug dynamic analysis

I was thinking about how whenever Dean hugs someone he's almost always the one hugging the other and how this links to his psychological trauma of always being the caretaker of people, making himself bigger to protect them.

Because that's how Dean sees himself, as a shield for others, and then I thought about how Cas actually is the shield, and he's HIS SHIELD, specifically, the only one who's really there to protect HIM, which is why it hits so much when we see this:

The way Cas wraps his arms around him, trying to protect him with his whole body--that he'd use as a shield and give up in a second if he could spare him from any pain and save him.

(for context: Dean was about to go use the soul bomb on Amara there, it was a suicide mission)

Bobby is another one that hits, he hugs him as the big hugger because he's his father, he loves him and he's actually here to protect him (and Dean LETS him -barely, but he lets him *and Cas* - in a way that he doesn't let Sam)

I watched a compilation of Sam & Dean hugs to check if i was right about it, but it's almost always Dean the big hugger with Sam, except when he's about to die or Sam sees him alive again after losing him.

Even then, Dean mostly tries to hug Sam as the big hugger anyway, with at least one arm, like a way to comfort him, making him feel protected, like his body language is saying "I'm here, I'm okay, I'm still strong, i can still protect you" (because their real father failed and Dean thinks it's his job).

He rarely lets himself be the little one hugged with Sam, unless he's barely conscious. Which is why it kills me so much more now that in this moment (s14, when Dean was going to lock himself in the Ma'lak box cause he was possessed by Michael) and Sam has a desperate breakdown and punches him (to stop him) he forcefully hugs him as the little hugger, the way Dean always kept him, like a way of saying "I still need you to protect me, please don't do this to yourself".

In the scene below he gives Sam his blessing to do a dangerous (possibly suicidal) mission, and one of his arms is down, but the other one tries to stay up--he's forcing himself to do it and he struggles because he still wants to protect him, but (as the seasons progress) he slowly becomes more prone to let go.

So in this view the hug dynamic becomes an indicator of how Dean sees Sam (and himself) and his protector role, how adult and self sufficient he considers Sam, and how much he lets people around him take care of him, lowering his walls and letting himself be hugged.

This is also why i think hugs from characters like Garth or Charlie are so special, because they're just like us: they see Dean and they just know that he needs to be hugged a lot, and that he's not used to it, so they just go for it-- and it's so normal and kind and spontaneous that Dean's just not used to it-- he doesn't know how to respond (especially with Garth, at the beginning, but as the seasons progress, he learns to, and he even initiates the hug eventually).

I love the hugs where they're 50/50 (one arm up, one arm down both), feels like they're equals, both taking care of each other. I feel like with Sam and Dean, this indicates a healthier dynamic, because Dean lets go a little of the role that was imposed to him and manages to see Sam as the strong individual that he is. But the same applies to 50/50 hugs with other characters, like with Cas, where I feel like it testifies how equals they feel in terms of being fighters, there's a show of respect of each other's strength that transpires by the gesture (which is even more astounding considering that Cas is literally a powerful angel).

And just to end on a destiel note, I'd like to note the possessiveness and protectiveness of Dean (rightfully so) whenever he finds Cas after he thought he had lost him, and how that translates into his body/hug language:

[castielsprostate]

"kill them with kindness" WRONG destiel kiss made from emojis

[sammygender]

Dean, just stop.

dean winchester | bojack horseman 3x10

[hosseinis]

favorite character meme: [1/1] one character ↳ “i’ve been riding the pine a long time, but i’m in the game now. and i’m not on your side or michael’s. i’m on theirs.”

[ghostpajamas]

[velvourne]

Supernatural wallpaper♥︎

[allalrightagain]

my dash did a thing and-- idk is there something happening tomorrow?

[screamingfrenchfries]

making a formal apology to all of my mutuals for all the destiel on ur dash, i'm bored in church (as usual) and scrolling through @touchstiel LOL

[shallowseeker]

"I'm working on a Ph.D," Sam says.

Sam's lie about himself was so interesting in terms of how he sees himself. (I wish it had made it into the episode.)

Instead of defaulting to, "I'm working on a personal research project," or "I'm taking some classes at a local community," Sam says, PHD!

(And I get it. At my age, I wanna say that I'm working on a Masters' or a Ph.D, too. Not that I, "never made it," even though I was, "considered so low-budget genius and backwoods bright.")

From the 14x13 script Dean draws back-- huh? He and Sam swap a confused glance. SAM: What-- who do you think we are? ELIOT: I-- survivalist bigfoot hitmen? Sam and Dean trade a look. SAM: No-- we're-- my brother is a mechanic and I-- I'm working on a PHD-- (exasperated) Just tell us what you saw.

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I recall, very fondly, this scene with Rowena in 12x02 Mamma Mia:

INTERIOR: INSIDE A RESTAURANT. ROWENA IS SITTING AT A TABLE WITH A MAN. ROWENA: Sent me to the grandest boarding schools, but I was a wee imp and ran away for a life in the arts. Mother didn't speak to me until I became a star. BEN: A star? Of? ROWENA: Uh, do you follow the Royal Ballet? BEN SHAKES HIS HEAD. BEN: Not a bit. ROWENA: The Royal Ballet. BEN: You know, it reminds me a lot of my story. I left school to work in a steel mill. I rose up through the ranks, and now I own half a dozen. ROWENA: You're not serious? FOOTSTEP’S APPROACH AND A WAITER COMES UP WITH A BOTTLE OF WINE.

NOTE: Ben turns out to be a cad and a fraud, but there's something so interesting about how Rowena wants to portray her class background. We know from 11x10 that Rowena, "was (before magic) nothing but Rowena, the tanner's daughter... a pale, scared little girl, who smelled of filth and death."

It's a brilliant thing about Samwena. They get each other, at least as far as this is concerned.

From 15x06 Golden Time:

SAM: Rowena got it. I mean, she didn't know all the details, but she knew the game was rigged. So this... Magic. This is how she kept control.

[deean]

alternate universe where moc dean uses angel grace to dull the effects save me . save me angel grace junkie moc dean save me augh......

[babyblue-mind]

quick lil sketch :>

[geekthefreakout]

"Guy Fawkes, Who?"

Remember, Remember

The 5th of November

Cas said "I love you" to Dean

Then trended over the US Election

Becoming the number one news-bearing meme

I'll always remember

That 5th of November

When he got sucked to turbo-hell, I screamed

There was some shit with Putin

For Nevada, we were rootin'

When Cas said "I love you" to Dean

Once we remembered

The 5th of November

For gunpowder treason and plot

But who cares for that guy

When Dean got hit with pie

And Cas, the CW forgot

So now on this day

We unbury that gay

With fanfic and art (we've made plenty)

And hold in our hearts the gay angel and hunter

Who broke Tumblr in November, 2020

[riverwithoutbanks]

castiel petting a cow??? 🥺🥺🥺🥺 pwease tell me more

This picture but with Cas because he deserves it 😤

He has a whole conversation with a cow in a field during the night whilst about his hopes for the future. He thanks it at the end for listening.

Thanks for asking <333

[dean-you-assbutt-cas-loves-you]

destiel fics for @unhinged-jackles, who's looking for canon fics for bedtime stories

I tried to list fluffy ones but some might have some angst

Forget the Sky by loversantiquities (T, 26k) - https://archiveofourown.org/works/9608522 (spn verse, Dean & Cas goes to Japan for vacation)

Growing Pains by DarkHeartInTheSky (T, 25k) - https://archiveofourown.org/works/16437998 (spn verse, de-aged!cas)

The Case of the Curious Convention by Jdragon122 (M, 26k) - https://archiveofourown.org/works/10816860 (spn verse, going to ComicCon)

A Light for My Path by domesticadventures (M, 25k) - https://archiveofourown.org/works/8524075 (spn verse, road trip, Continental pov)

Cakepocalypse! by MittenWraith (M, 64k) - ttps://archiveofourown.org/works/15017792 (spn verse, reality show au)

The home we make together by vaudelin (E, 48k) - https://archiveofourown.org/works/35417089 (spn verse, cas possessing dean)

[angclradiio]

Someone please tell me not to make a Claire Novak side-blog…..

Or Missouri Moseley