#spinning it it my mind like a 7/11 hotdog

[starstruckodysseys]

i started a “fellas is it gay” post for colindeli a while back but i’m not sure how to continue it bc i don’t know how anything can compare to deli going to sacrifice himself and colin going back for him

[jae-bummer]

My Idol 2: Part Twelve

My Idol From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

My Idol is a South Korean competitive reality dating game show. It currently airs on Wednesday nights on Jae-bummer’s blog. First broadcast in 2016, the show offers the opportunity for a lucky fan to go on seven blind dates with seven idols. The idol plans the date with the show throwing in specific missions to complete during the day. At the end of the initial dates, the show opens up an audience vote to decide what three idols will move on to the second date.

Part 1 - Part 2 - Part 3 - Part 4 - Part 5 - Part 6 - Part 7 - Part 8 - Part 9 - Part 10 - Part 11 - Part 12 - Part 13

You opened your mouth to speak, only to close it again. After your date with Dean, you were very aware of what the underbelly of Seoul’s night life had to offer, but you had never been exposed to anything like this. 

“Is...is this the night market?” you whispered, trying not to sound too hopeful. Ever since you had moved to Korea, you’ve wanted to experience the night market in some capacity, but never quite made it. You were the type to be safely tucked in bed before the ten o’clock news, not parading the streets in search of...well, you weren’t really sure what you would be in search of as you had never been out before. 

“Maybe,” Yongguk trailed, the grin growing wider on his face. He rocked back and forth on his heels happily, looking as if he had intel on every secret you had ever wished to know. “You think you’re up to it?”

“Am I- am I up to it?” you stuttered, nearly falling from your scooter with excitement. “Of course I am! I mean...if you don’t mind having to part crowds for your handicapped date...”

“You do that all on your own,” he whispered. He leaned into you and placed his hand on your lower back. His breaths were heavy on your neck as he took his time to speak. “We can always change the plan if the crowd makes you uncomfortable.” 

The crowd making you uncomfortable? Says the man growling his concerns about your well being into your ear. If anything was keeping you on edge, it definitely wasn’t the thought of the crowd. 

“I’ll be fine,” you squeaked, your voice coming out as small as you wished you were in that moment. Fine was relative, wasn’t it? 

“Good,” he chirped, leaning away from you. He placed his hand atop your fingers again and began to gently help push your scooter along. 

You were uncertain if he was intentionally enacting psychological warfare to entice you, or if he was completely oblivious of his own power. 

Something told you it was the latter. 

“Have you ever been to one of the night markets before?” Yongguk asked, letting his deeply rich voice fill your thoughts instead of your own speculations. 

“I haven’t,” you nodded. “Have you?”

“More than a few times,” he chuckled. “Night time activities are kind of my thing. I’ve never been good at sleeping.”

“So you’re like a bat?” you questioned, trying to make light of the heavy subject he was hinting at. You clearly remembered Yongguk’s history with anxiety and panic disorders, so the fact that it was peppered with insomnia wasn’t necessarily a surprise. 

“I’m exactly like a bat,” he laughed with a small nod. “I have poor eyesight and I’m almost certain that the tone of my voice is used for some type of sonar.” 

“I think bats are cute,” you hummed, keeping an eye on Yongguk in your peripheral vision. 

“Then I guess I’m your type,” he said quietly, biting his lip. For a moment, you were almost completely lost in the gesture, but quickly realized that his footsteps had come to a halt. You had reached the outskirts of the night market and he had paused to appreciate the scene. 

Or maybe prepare himself for it. 

“This is a lot to take in,” you whispered, your eyes darting from one booth to another. There had to have been at least 50 to 60 stalls and tables set up, maybe even more. 

“It’s cool, isn’t it?” he chimed. His face looked enraptured, like the small child in him had been ignited, yet his eyes were still tired, wary of how harsh the public can be. 

“You know,” you said quietly, nudging him with your hand. He glanced down to your fingers as you intertwined them with his. “We could go to a cafe or something and I’d be just as happy.” 

“I haven’t had time to do this in years, Y/N,” he nodded, an expression of determination now overtaking his features. “And I think it’s the type of memory I would like to make with you.” 

“MISSION.” 

“Really?” you groaned, spinning around to face the camera men. “Do you honestly wait until the most inconvenient moment to pull this shit, I mean really-”

“Y/N,” Yongguk laughed, squeezing your hand. “It’s okay.” 

He let go of your fingers and reached forward to take the envelope. Ripping  open the red paper with little hesitation, he scanned the card beneath. “Counting stars: Walk the rows of the night market and count the food trucks you see. Guess correctly in three attempts and escape the penalty.” 

“Hardy har,” you grumbled. “Where’s the real mission card?”

“Excuse me?” one of the camera men croaked. 

“I’m walking the entirety of this place for a mission,” you hissed, motioning to your scooter. “Possibly on three different tries...Really?” 

“Really,” he deadpanned, hoisting his camera back onto his shoulder. “Get to scooting.” 

Closing your eyes for a moment, you clenched your fists. Your clumsiness was really starting to be an inconvenience. 

“Hey,” Yongguk cooed. You opened your eyes as you felt him place his hand on your shoulder. “It’s fine. There’s no time limit, we’ll just go at your pace.” He glanced over his shoulder to make eye contact with the camera men. “Even if it takes all night.” 

You hobbled alongside Yongguk, a man you honestly had no words for. “Angel” could be the single word that would be accurate enough to describe him in this situation. He was patient, kind, and laughed at all of your jokes. His humor could be dry and he seemed stern sometimes, but with one appearance of that smile, you were instantly put at ease. He knew a little about a lot, and never tired of answering your questions. 

“I think this is...thirty?” you muttered, wincing down at your phone. You were both attempting to keep track of your progress with your notepads, but it was proving to be easier said than done. 

“And I’ve ate approximately two potato tornadoes, three mandu, a free sample of gimbap, and an unfortunate french fry hotdog,” Yongguk groaned, holding his hand to his stomach. 

“No one told you to eat at every booth, Yongguk,”you chuckled, shaking your head. 

“And no one told me not to eat at every booth,” he sighed. “People just want to give me free things and I have difficulty with saying “no.”“

“Excuse me sir,” a woman called, her timing fairly poetic as she leaned out from a nearby food truck. “Would you like to try our-”

“No! He’s fine! Thank you!” you called back with a quick smile. The woman’s eyebrows shot up for a moment before she shrugged and went on to talk to the next person walking by. 

“Thank you,” Yongguk whispered. “I started sweating just from the thought of eating again.” 

You shook your head and patted him on the shoulder. “I got you.” 

“I know you do,” he said quietly, glancing up at you through his lashes. 

“Sometime today,” one of the camera men grumbled, shifting his position from one foot to the other. 

“I told you this wasn’t going to be quick,” you grumbled, spinning as best as you could on your scooter. “This is no one’s fault but your own.” 

“We gave you a head start,” the other camera man croaked. “You now have ten minutes...starting...now.” 

“That’s not fair!” you gasped. “We’re only like halfway through now! And it’s been like....thirty minutes!” 

“Nine and a half minutes,” the camera man chuckled, wiggling his brows. 

“Hold on,” Yongguk growled, positioning himself behind you. 

“I’m sorry...what?” you squeaked. Your heart was throttling itself against your ribcage, hardly being able to maintain a normal beat with Yongguk’s surprisingly close proximity. 

“Hold. on,” he repeated, gripping the edge of your scooter seat. “And start counting.” 

You held tightly to the handle bars and lifted your uninjured leg to balance on the front bar of the scooter. Yongguk began to walk briskly, pushing your scooter with all of his strength through the crowd. 

“Excuse us! Sorry!” you called, grimacing as people began to dart out of the way. 

“Count, Y/N!” Yongguk gasped. “Count!” 

“Thirty....thirty one...two...” you squeaked, tables flying past you as you moved. He grunted behind you, trying to be as considerate as possible with his motions. “Thirty three....four...five...six. Yongguk, I feel like I’m going to fall off!” 

Nerves pulsed through your arms as your shaky hands gripped at the handles. Fear wasn’t even beginning to explain the emotion coursing through you as an unintentional whimper escaped your lips. You didn’t have much left to injure. 

“I got you,” Yongguk nodded. “I promise.” 

There had been plenty of promises during this competition already and several had been broken. 

Especially the ones concerning your safety. 

“Yongguk,” you groaned, still uncertain as you sped over the pavement.

“Thirty seven, thirty eight!” he called out. “Count! Count and you won’t think about it.” 

“I can’t count!” you whispered, tears beginning to hit your cheeks. “I’m scared.” 

You were acting like a child and you knew it. Exhaustion hit you in waves and made your shoulders shudder. You were just so tired. 

At your simple utterance of panic, Yongguk immediately dug his heels into the ground, tugging you to an abrupt stop. You sprung backwards, closing your eyes as you braced for an impact. Hitting something, it wasn’t the concrete you were expecting, but something much more warm...much more squishy. 

“I told you I have you,” Yongguk whispered, his arms tight around your torso. You opened one eye slowly, followed by the other. He had caught you on your steady fall to the ground and held you securely. Buried in his chest, you looked up to find your face only centimeters from his, safe and sound after all. “But I won’t make you do anything you’re anxious about, okay?”

“Okay,” you whispered, nodding numbly as you stared up at him. With the glow of the market lights illuminating him, he looked more ethereal than you ever imagined a human could. He leaned you forward, allowing you to rest your knee against the scooter again. His hold remained tight around your waist until he saw you were situated, at which point he began to unwind himself from you. Taking a deep breath, your hands moved before your mind could consider the action. Your fingers gripped his sweater, the wool sliding between your knuckles and folding beneath your palms. Yongguk looked down in surprise as you lifted your face toward his. 

He had done it. He had made you feel safe. Something you hadn’t realized you needed until this very moment when you were guarded within his arms. His chest was your shelter and his heart genuinely cared about your well being. Someone you had met only a few hours ago had completely encapsulated everything you didn’t know you needed at this time in your life. 

Yongguk could be right for you in the long term, but also, maybe he wasn’t. But as for right now, in this very moment, he was what made sense. 

“What’s this?” he chuckled, glancing down at your closeness, but making no motion to move. 

“A thank you,” you whispered, nodding slowly. You stood on your tiptoes, allowing yourself an extra inch or two to press your lips gently at the corner of his cheshire grin. You felt the happiness radiate from his mouth, a smile continuing behind the small kiss. Pulling away after seconds that had felt like a small forever, your face grew hot with embaressment. 

“Sorry...” 

“Don’t apologize,” he chuckled, rubbing his hand along the back of his neck. A blush was creeping steadily along his cheeks. “You know...you can kiss me anytime you’d like really. I wouldn’t mind.” 

“Yongguk,” you groaned, smacking at his chest. 

He remained silent as he grinned, incapable of keeping his tongue from sliding along his lips. 

“Alright lovebirds,” one of the camera man wheezed, finally catching up to the two of you. “What’s the number?” 

You chewed nervously on your lip as you gazed up at Yongguk. His expression was thoughtful as he surveyed the area, doing careful math in his head. “Forty two.” 

“Forty two?” you questioned, lifting your brows. 

“Forty two,” he nodded confidently. 

The camera man began to chuckle as he pulled a paper from his back pocket and looked it over. Your stomach flipped with anxiety, nausea swiftly gurgling up your esophagus. As he looked over the small card, his face began to fall and his eyebrows began to knit. “Well, I’ll be damned.”

Yongguk’s grin returned as he looked from the camera man and back to you. “Is it forty two?” 

“You didn’t even finish walking around!” the camera man gasped. “How did you...did you ask someone?” 

“Nope,” Yongguk chuckled, shaking his head. He crossed his arms before leaning down toward you and whispering in your ear. “But I did read a summary of the booths online before I got here.” 

Yongguk’s eyes danced across the skyline as his fingers busied themselves with fidgeting. His hands were intertwined with yours as you sat on a bench near a fountain placed at the outskirts of the market. Silence wasn’t intrusive or awkward with him, but easy. You both existed on the same plane, an unspoken connection that didn’t need to be elaborated with words. Sometimes it was just easy with certain people. 

And it was easy with Yongguk. 

“How has My Idol been for you so far?” he asked quietly, still not looking directly at you. “I hope it’s been kind.” 

“It’s been interesting,” you chuckled. “”Kind” may not be my first descriptor though.” 

“Yeah,” he laughed, finally looking down and gazing toward you. “The whole injury thing.” 

“Right,” you sighed, glancing down at your cast. “Oh! Would you like to sign it?” 

“Sure,” he nodded, allowing you to lift your injured leg to sit on his lap. “Do you have a pen?” 

“No, but they do,” you hummed, motioning with your chin toward the camera men. 

“We also have another mission,” the camera man croaked. “I’ll give you both.” 

“Oh, how kind of you,” you spat, snatching both the permanent marker and red envelope from the overweight man. 

“Don’t shoot the messenger,” he grumbled, lifting the boom mic again. 

“Yeah, well the messenger needs to get better with his timing,” you muttered, handing the marker to Yongguk. You ripped open the flap of the envelope and read the words within. “The truth about lies: Play two truths and a lie. Guess the lie incorrectly and suffer the penalty.” 

“Sounds interesting,” Yongguk muttered, furrowing his brows as he focused on his task. 

You chuckled as you leaned back, noticing that Yongguk was drawing a small bat around his initials. “Should I go first then?”

“Ladies first,” he nodded without looking up. 

You crossed your arms and pursed your lips, considering all of your options. Selecting the truths was the easy bit...but what lie could possibly be good enough to be considered truth? “Okay...” you hummed with a short nod. “I’m not from Korea, I secretly aspire to own a dog cafe, and I’ve gone on more dates in the past month than I have in the past year.” 

“And why do you not want to own your own dog cafe?” Yongguk chuckled without missing a beat. 

“Hey! I could have dated a lot!” you gasped. “Why would you think that wasn’t the lie?” 

He looked up from the wet ink on your cast and stared at you with brows lifted. 

“It’s not that I don’t want to own my own dog cafe,” you muttered. “I’ve just never thought about it...” 

“So I was right?” he laughed. 

“Of course you were right,” you grumbled. “Now it’s your turn.” 

Yongguk hissed a breath of air between his teeth before straightening out his back. In one swift motion he capped the marker and stretched his arms into the sky, shaking out his hands on their way back to his lap. “Two truths and a lie?” 

You nodded, waiting patiently. 

“Okay,” he hummed. His eyes scanned your cast, followed by the ground, and then back up to the sky. “One, I have an identical twin brother-”

“Truth,” you chuckled. 

“Two, I once considered changing my stage name to Bang Pow,” he grinned. 

“I really hope that’s the lie,” you whispered. 

Yongguk chuckled as his eyes retreated from the sky and landed on yours. His focus was intense as he licked his lips and began to nod. “And three, although it sounds really silly...to hear this from an idol...

...i am unequivocally and undeniably scared of what this could develop to be.” 

[lermisv4]

1. Cathartic for the most part. It was one of my first outliers (is that the word?)

2. I am VERY detail focused, though admittedly I only notice some of them after a second reading. When I write, I put a LOT of attention to detail, slipping small jokes, observations, descriptions, even exposition in small parts within larger text. Or at least I try.

3. Upcoming, as in not released yet? I have a few stuff regarding the Infinite Loops Project that I haven’t really worked on yet...

4. Oh god. The Royal Court. An HP/YGO crossover which I abandoned because I lost inspiration, it had no plot, I wrote myself into a cliffhanger without any idea how to go from there, my writing style had changed too much when I tried to pick it up again...

5. The Infinite Loops Project - DENN

But despite all that, Playmaker just could not get over how surreal this situation was. Idly he took another sip of his coffee. Data feedback came back. It was not helping.

It must have showed in his face – as always – because Ai chuckled at him – as always. A thought occurred to him and he groaned.

“Something wrong?

Playmaker tried – out of habit, mostly – to hold back a grimace. “I just realized that until we escape this place, all food is going to taste like this.”

This time Ai snorted at him. “Says the one who lives on instant coffee and hotdogs.”

True. But- “They don’t taste like numbers and the anxiety of overworked IT personnel.”

“And you call me overdramatic.”

“Eat your cake, Ai.” It did not come out as biting as he meant it to. Playmaker found he did not mind.

“Yes, Playmaker-sama.” Likewise, Ai’s grumbling was empty of any real displeasure.

6. RAPE. Unless it happened in canon for some reason, because my fics tend to be canon compliant.

7. I uh... Never really ran into that kind of situation?

8. Honestly, I’m bad at OCs. I don’t really write OCs, and the few times I do I end up basing them on myself. I try to change a few things, but overall I just don’t do OCs.

9. Hard to say... Many times I don’t want to try writing stuff because I’m not very good at developing plots, and my track record for completing stuff is spotty at best. So I’d say “anything with a long term plot”.

10. Favourite character to write, huh... Damn, I never actually think of it in such terms... I try to get in the head of the characters too much to have a favourite. So no, I can’t really answer that question. I guess I mostly like characters who make me think while I write them. That make me contemplate stuff.

11. As I said, I mostly base my OCs on myself, but the most similar so far is probably Despina from “Stand Up and Lead the Way”. I literally took myself and gave it a “what if” spin, then started changing stuff here and there. I think the final result is kind of me - or rather, how I think I would have acted, but she is just different enough.

12. I chose to write “When the Brush hits the Canvas” because I read a “Link Between Worlds” novelization, was mildly disappointed, and thought “I can do better.” It’s been five years since then, and I’m still working on it.

13. Most of my fics are multi-chapter because I think the idea is too big... But I have never completed them. I have completed one-shots but I’m always disappointed that I can’t seem to continue them... As for reading, it depends on my mood and what I’m looking for at the time, but my favourite fics are definitely the lengthy ones.

14. No. I.. don’t really remember how to make friends tbh. Or how I made the ones I have. I can do friendly acquaintances, but...

15. None of them. Why write about reality? My fanfiction and my real life are completely separate.

16. Unless I deliberately go for an AU (which is rare), I most certainly do. Even in AUs I’m a sticker for canon details. It always annoys me when I read something that’s inaccurate.

17. “When the Brush hits the Canvas”, chapter 8. That magical moment when the battle scene flowed off my fingers - even two years later I can still see that battle in my head like a vision. I was in the Zone - perhaps for the first time ever.

18. I’m not a popular writer by any means, but I almost always hear good stuff. I really like constructive criticism and people who are willing to talk about what I write with me.

19. Never done that before, let’s see... “The Infinite Loops Project - DENN”: city, cyberpunk, night, day, streets, lonely, company, ruins, war, duality, melancholy, hope, peace, companionship, wind

20. The one I have put the most work in is definitely “When the Brush hits the Canvas”. The length speaks for itself. As for the least work... I’d say it’s that YGO ARC-V/HP crossover that I just scribbled a few evenings and then proceeded to forget about.

21. If I was a character in ANY of my fanfics, I’d be in the sidelines. Protagonists tend to get involved in stuff. I don’t. Not in real life.

22. Symbolism... I suppose that moment in one of my “Parallel Thoughts” fics when Yuto summons Dark Requiem Xyz Dragon. I think the name speaks for itself.

23. Take your time. It’s fine. Take your time.

24. When the Brush hits the Canvas. I put so much effort into it and it’s been out for years and I’m improving, and I have some feedback from it, but... I never had more than ten reviewers... and they get fewer...

25. I wouldn’t remove anyone. Removing a character means removing a piece of the world.

Fic ask game

1: Is writing cathartic or stressful for you?

2: Do you focus on attention to detail when you read fics? Are you more or less attention to detail focussed when you write fics?

3: Do you have any upcoming WIPs? How far along are you with them?

4: Tell me about one of your abandoned WIPs. Why did you abandon it?

5: Share a snippet that you’re proud of from an upcoming fic/chapter.

6: What are some topics you will never write about?

7: Were there any ideas you had for [insert fic] that you couldn’t make work? What were they?

8: How do you develop your OCs?

9: Are there any fics you’d love to see but don’t want to write yourself? What are they?

10: Who has been your favourite character to write about in [insert fic]? What do they bring to the fic?

11: Which OC of yours do you think is the most similar to you? Which OC is the most different? Why?

12: Why did you choose to write [insert fic]? How long have you been working on it?

13: Do you prefer writing multi-chapter fics or single-part fics? Do you prefer reading multi-chapter fics or single-part fics?

14: Do you think you would be friends with your OCs in [insert fic]?

15: Which fic that you’ve written relates to you and your personal life the most?

16: Do you stick to canon when you write characters and fics?

17: What has been the proudest moment for you so far since you started writing?

18: Do you feel like your work gets enough recognition? What kind of feedback do you like to receive?

19: 15 words to describe the aesthetic of [insert fic].

20: Which fic have you put the most work into? Which fic have you put the least work into?

21: If you were a character in [insert fic] where would you fit in?

22: Have you used any symbolism in [insert fic]? What does it represent?

23: What’s one piece of advice you would give to anyone who wants to start writing or posting their writing online?

24: Which fic of yours do you wish people would ask about more? Why?

25: If you could remove one character from [insert fic]’s universe, who would it be? Why?

[rosecolored-gay]

All zeeeee questions

Yooo, thanks anon!1: Let’s start with a tricky one; what is the real reason you are confused right now? - Umm, honestly I gave up on feelings, now I'm just kinda chilling so, no more confusion.2: Do you ever get “good morning” texts from anyone? - Depends on the day3: If your significant other smoked pot, would you care? - as long as it wasn't like an everyday thing, it wouldn't bother me too much. 4: Do you find it easy to trust others? - I don't really trust easily, but I'm good at making it seem like I'm telling someone everything while only telling them a little. I only tell like 3 people literally everything.5: What were you doing at 11PM last night? - Watching Gossip Girl6: You’re drunk and lost walking down the road; who is with you? - Either Abe or Caitlin, definitely.7: What would you do if you found out you had been cheated on? - I'd be pissed and hurt, but there's not much you can do about it. What would suck would be wondering why you weren't good enough. 8: Are you close with your dad? - Eh, sorta. I think the fact that I'm gay really keeps me from connecting with my parents, but my dad is better about it. 9: I bet you kissed someone last night, right? - Haha nope. 10: What are you listening to? - Knuckles by Moose Blood 11: You can only drink ONE liquid for the rest of your life - what is it? - Water; you can always flavor it. 12: Do you like hickeys? - I love them, totally love them. Just don't make them obvious all over the neck, bc then it looks bad. 13: What time do you go to bed? - Either super early/a reasonable time or like 4am14: Is there someone who continuously lets you down? - Until recently, yes there was. But I'm finally done with them. 15: Can you text as quickly with one hand as you do both? - I have small hands so if I text with one hand it takes me forever :(16: Do you always answer your texts? - Almost always. If I don't there's got to be a reason for it. No one ever texts me though lol.17: Do you hate the person you fell the hardest for?- Honestly I don't hate them for me falling for them, but I have some hatred for what they put me through for so long. 18: When was the last time you talked to one of your best friends? - Pretty sure I was snap chatting Caitlin this morning. I talked to Abe yesterday for like 3 seconds. 19: Is there someone that makes you happy every time you see them? - Definitely Abe or Caitlin. They're my 2 favorite people who can always put a smile on my face.20: What was your last thought before you went to bed last night? - "This is the cutest video ever, I'm glad I was recording this"21: Is anyone else in the room with you? - Nope, I'm in bed22: Do you believe what goes around comes around? - Yes23: Were you happier four months ago than you are now? - HAHAHA NO. Oh god, I was a miserable, heartbroken mess 4 months ago. Honest to god, I would cry at least 2x a day after what I was going through.24: Is there someone you wish you could fix things with? - For a while, honestly I wanted to fix things with someone, but they want nothing to do with me, and I think it's for the best. 25: In the past week, have you cried? - Yeah, but it's because of Mother Nature haha. 26: What colour is the shirt you are wearing? - Faded red.27: Do people ever call you by your last name? - Sometimes, a couple of people I went to high school with. 28: Is anyone ignoring you right now? - Nah.29: Do you have a best friend? - Yes! I have one that I've been friends with since I was 3 (Brandi), and then two other ones that are the most important people to me; Abe and Caitlin.30: Would it be hard seeing someone else kiss the last person you kissed? - I hate this question, because yes it would probably kill me inside, but they hurt me so badly that it would be a weird feeling.31: Who was your last call/text message from? - My last text was from Reshma, my last call was from Abe.32: Are you mad at anyone? - My manager.33: Have you ever kissed someone older than you? - Yes34: How old will the last person you kissed be on his/her next birthday? - She'll be 19.35: How many more days until your birthday? - 21 DAYSSSS!!!! Unless I counted wrong lol.36: Do you have any summer plans yet? - Well, I work Sundays - Thursdays, and then Fridays and Saturdays I go out with my faves. My Fridays are literally reserved for Abe.37: Do you have any good friends of the opposite sex? - Yes, only like 3 though. Kevin, Jimmy, and Fred. 38: Are you keeping anything from your best friend(s) now? - Yeah, but it's for a good reason. 39: Do you have a secret that you’ve never told anyone? - Mhm.40: Have you ever regretted kissing someone? - Yes. 41: Do you think age matters in relationships? - Depends on how large of an age gap we're talking here. 42: Are you available? - in what sense??? I'm single if that counts.43: How many people have you had real, strong feelings for since high school ended? - 2. One ended in a mess, and this one probably will too. Oh well.44: If you had to get a piercing (not ears), what would you get? - I already have my nose, which is the only one I want. 45: Do you believe exes can be friends? - I think it really depends on how the relationship ended and the circumstances.46: Do you regret anything? - Yes.47: Honestly, what’s on your mind right now? - Tomorrow night.48: Did you ever lose a best friend? - Yeah, but it was more of like we grew apart.49: Was your last kiss a mistake? - Yes.50: Why aren’t you pursuing the person you like? - It's so complicated oh my goodness. It'll just end badly if I try anything, so I'm just going with the flow. If it happens, it happens.51: Has the last person you kissed ever seen you cry? - Yeah, we dated for 2 years so.52: Do you still talk with the person you LAST kissed? - Hahaha no.53: What was the last thing you ate? - A hotdog. 54: Did you get any compliments today? - I got a bunch of compliments on my haircut and eyebrows at work today. 😊55: Where are you going on your next vacation? - Hopefully somewhere fun. 56: Do you own anything from other countries? - Yeah, I have some souvenirs from Greece, Italy, and Turkey.57: Are most of your friend guys or girls? - Girls. 58: Where have you lived most of your life? - Florida 🙄59: When was the last time you took a long drive? - I mean every Friday I drive like an hour to see Abe. But like super long? I drove to Georgia in February. 60: Have you ever played Spin the Bottle? - in middle school.61: Have you ever TPd someone’s house? - nah.62: Who do you text the most? - I think Abe over text, but I mostly use Snapchat with Alexa.63: What was the last movie you saw? - Hush. It was fucking creepy. 64: What’s preventing your current boyfriend/girlfriend from going back to their ex? - I don't have a current anyone.65: How many boyfriends/girlfriends did you have in 2011? - I was like 14, fuck if I know.66: Is the last person you kissed younger than you? - Yeah, by a year and 3 months.67: Do you curse around your parents? - All the time, its a horrible habit I have.68: Are you happy with where you live? - I'll be happier when I move out with my fave person next year, let's just say that.69: Picture of yourself? - If anyone actually reads these, send me a "anon" and I'll post one. 70: Are you a monogamous person or do you believe in open-ended relationships? - Monogamous.71: Have you ever been dumped? - Yeah, it was a shitty feeling.72: What do you most like about making out? - Idk, it's just nice. 73: Have you ever casually made out with someone who you weren’t seriously involved with? - Hah yeah. It was a disaster though, because I ended up liking her.74: When you kiss someone for the first time, is it usually you who initiates it or the other? - I'm a wimp unless I know you like me. If I know you like me, I'll initiate it. Otherwise you'll have to kiss me. 75: What part of a person’s body do you find most attractive? - Shit, I love a good smile and pretty eyes.76: Who was the last person you talked to last night before you went to bed? - Last night?? Uh, I think I was snapping Alexa. 77: Had sex with someone you knew less than an hour? - Nope.78: Had sex with someone you didn’t know their name? - Nope.79: What makes your heart flutter and brings a big cheesy smile to your face? - The cutest videos I've ever taken oops. 80: Would you get involved with someone if they had a child already? - Yeah, I don't think I would let that stop me. As long as there was nothing between them and the other person still in that sense. 81: Has someone who had a crush on you ever confessed to you? - Yeah. This kid I work with asked me out like 3 times but I keep telling him no haha. I'm nice about it of course, but still.82: Do you tell a lot of people when you have a crush? - Sometimes I will, but I won't say who. 83: Do you miss your last sweetie? - I miss the memories, not the person anymore.84: Last time you slow danced with someone? - As a joke like a month or so ago. For real, at least a year ago. 85: Have you ever ‘dated’ someone you’ve never met? - No86: How can I win your heart? - I literally doubt anyone's reading these hahahaha. But.. just talk to me honestly. I love sarcasm, horrible jokes, music. Talk to me about stupid things, and just be real. 87: What is your astrological sign? - My sign has a horrible reputation, but I'm a Gemini. 88: What were you doing last night at 12 AM? - Sleeping89: Do you cook? - I can, yes. But I only cook for special people. 90: Have you ever gotten back in touch with an old flame after a time of more than 3 months of no communication? - Yeah. 91: If you’re single right now, do you wish you were in a relationship? - I am single. I think if it was with the right person I'd want it.92: Do you prefer to date various people or do you pretty much fall into monogamous relationships quickly? - Monogamous93: What physical traits do you look for in a potential interest? - Idk honestly. 94: Name four things that you wish you had! - Money for more tattoos. - Tickets to see Hayley Kiyoko. - A rope necklace with like something cool on it. - Better shoes with more support lol.95: Are you a player? - No, but I'm a huge flirt. I'm loyal as hell when I'm with someone, but if im single, im a huge flirt. 96: Have you ever kissed 2 people in one day? - Yes, but it was during a game of truth or dare.97: Are you a tease? - I can be.98: Ever meet anyone you met on Tumblr? - I don't think so.99: Have you ever been deeply in love with someone? - Yeah, it fucked me up.100: Anybody on Tumblr that you’d go on a date with? - Yes, but I'm not giving names.101: Hugs or Kisses? - Depends honestly.102: Are you too shy to ask someone out? - Haha yes. I'm a huge flirt but unless you outright tell me you like me, I won't ask you out in fear of rejection. 103: The first thing you notice about the opposite sex? - Smile I guess. 104: Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you babe? - I LOVE ITTTTT105: If a sexy person was pursuing you, but you knew he/she was in relationship, would you go for it? - Nah, I don't do homewrecking. One thing that's important to remember though. If someone is willing to cheat with you, they'll cheat on you.106: Do you flirt a lot? - I am a HUGE flirt. Honestly, we could be friends and not be anything romantically ever and I'd still flirt with you by accident. 107: Your last kiss? - My ex.108: Have you kissed more than 5 people since the start of 2012? - Yes109: Have you kissed anyone in the past month? - I think it's been about a month now.110: If you could kiss anyone who would it be? - Someone...111: Do you know who you’ll kiss next? - I have no clue. 112: Does someone like you currently? - If you do, please step forward haha.113: Do you currently have feelings for anyone? - Yeah, but I'm currently just pushing it under the rug.114: Do you like to be in serious relationships or just flings? - I like serious stuff. If I feel it won't be serious, I will say something.115: Ever made out with just a friend? - Hahahaahhaha116: Are you happier single or in a relationship? - Depends.117: Your own question that you want me to answer. Just write it.- Okayyyy