#spinaloa

[edgarian12]

#PainfulTruth #Reality #ache To the healthy person these feet might look 'normal'. But they're not. They're inflamed, swollen, and they hurt so bad that I have hardly been able to walk. I came home early, fell asleep & missed my #Infusion. I barely hobbled around my place & haven't been able to fix food so I ate cereal. I walked long enough to let Edgar poop but the #pain was so bad I cried walking & almost threw up. Too often those of us living the #ChronicLife hide our reality. We sugarcoat our pain. We make our ache less uncomfortable for those around us. But today I'm speaking my painful truth. I'm telling it like it is. This is a bad day for me, but not the worst I've ever had. I'll get through it & I'm resilient. But that doesn't take away from the reality of now - my painful existence. #ChronicPain #fibro #neuropathy #spinalOA #SPD #GAD #MDD #anxiety

[edgarian12]

I have added more pieces on @society6 under the profile name of 'Grinds My Bones'. It is a range of styles and pieces, and there's more to come! Check my profile here for the link! #society6 #ArtIsLife #art #artistsoninstagram #sketch #pencilsketch #ink #patients #rheumatoidarthritis #MDD #SPD #GAD #anxiety #spinalOA #OA #neuropathy #fibro

[edgarian12]

Awake & in #pain. Instead of lying there hurting from #painsomnia I decided to #crochet. It's a simple project - a scarf. It's supposed to be multicolored but I have #yarn that changes color from light to dark & back again. I just 💙 this blue. Why not distract myself & be productive all at once? #chronicpain #chroniclife #rheumatoidarthritis #spinalOA #SPD #neuropathy #fibromyalgia #fibro #autoimmune #inflammation #create #knit #chronicillness #ache

[edgarian12]

#neuropathy #pain is no joke. It's so hard to describe. I wore socks that were too tight - making it worse, which in turn triggered my #fibromyalgia then my #rheumatoidarthritis throughout my body. My #joints are sore & on fire. I wish I could jump into a cold pool of water to calm all this down. My #spine is being triggered now too. My other senses are amped up also - light & sound hurt. In my body - these diseases play a terrible game of tag, bouncing off one another and triggering higher and higher levels of pain. This is a really bad flare - worse than it's been in a while. Give me strength to get through..... #ChronicLife #ChronicPain #GAD #MDD #anxiety #SPD #Art #Artist #ArtIsLife #artistsoninstagram #pencilsketch #pen #ink #draw #feet #foot #spinalOA

[edgarian12]

I'm now on @society6 under the Username 'Grinds My Bones'. I only have 2 pieces on there right now, but I will be adding more soon. And if you click on each piece it shows you all the items that you can get my art on - like #stickers, #mugs, #prints, etc. If I have a certain piece you would like me to add, please PM me and let me know so I can accommodate that. I am also open for #commissions. Please PM me with what you are interested in! 😊 Link for my #society6 page is in my profile. #art #artistsoninstagram #artist #pencil #GrindsMyBones #pencildrawing #pencilsketch #ArtForSale #disabled #disabledartist #spoonie #ChronicLife #ChronicPain #fibro #neuropathy #spinalOA #SPD #GAD #MDD #anxiety

[edgarian12]

Thought I was getting relief from higher pain levels for a moment until I started washing dishes this evening. Then the pain came crashing down - squeezing my knees, hips, SI joints & ankles so mercilessly. I pushed through then hobbled to the couch & cried. My Edgar laid on the ground next to me, then crawled up onto the couch & stayed by my side until my special person came over to help care for me. I am so thankful for my Edgar & S. They made this painful day easier. How did I get so lucky? #rheum #ChronicPain #ChronicLife #OA #spinalOA #SPD #GAD #MDD #anxiety #pain #thankful #weather #rheumproblems #thepatientlife

[edgarian12]

Can I get some #love & #support? Some #relief would be amazing. #stress #test #fibromyalgia #rheum #neuropathy #spinalOA #weather

[edgarian12]

Had my #infusion today. My veins are getting hard to access - they're pulling back into my body & they roll. However, good #nurses know what they're doing. Unfortunately for me, I went through 2 nurses before a good one - my favorite nurse - came along. The 1st nurse blew a vein and even when I was making noises she kept pushing the needle into my hand. She passed it off to the 2nd nurse who hit a nerve in another spot but kept pushing despite me crying out, telling her it hurt & actually crying. I have never cried over being stuck with a needle. I'm in pain 24/7 - needle sticks feel like a tickle to me. They're NEVER painful. She passed me off to my favorite nurse who was so sweet & gentle. He found a good vein in my arm right away & it was almost painless. So, to calm down I began to #draw. This is my hand holding my #sketchbook. The hand that was stuck twice by nurses who aren't good or attentive or compassionate. Thank goddess for the great ones! #sketch #hand #fingers #ink #pen #art #artist #ArtIsLife #artistsoninstagram #pencilsketch #pain #ChronicLife #ChronicPain #fibro #neuropathy #spinalOA #SPD #relax #anxiety

[edgarian12]

Today is a #notamused day. Low filtering ability due to soul exhaustion and intense emotional week. I have a very biting humor on days like this & don't filter out scathing remarks to people who usually deserve it but I normally have patience with. My next 3 weeks are going to be intense & exciting & challenging. I'm going to filter out all the extra noise, people, and activities so I can accomplish my goal. That will be a part of my #selfcare. Except the #pride event here. That will be my gift to myself. But either way, I'm #sorrynotsorry on days like this. I give out plenty of love & compassion to others. With all I juggle in my #ChronicLife I deserve to have that same kindness paid in return. Those who truly love & care for me will understand. They always do - go out of their way to look out for me & make sure I'm okay. #truth #mentalhealth #anxiety #pain #rheum #love #queer #PainfulTruth #fibro #neuropathy #spinalOA #SPD #GAD #MDD #emoji