#spilled ink anon

[bookwyrminspiration]

There is saltwater in my throat

I am choking on the sea

It stings my flesh

And burns my tongue

And it means I can never be free

There is vinegar in my head

Bitter as bitter can be

It pickles my mind 

And swims in my brain

And relieves me of childish glee

There is poison in my skin

Killing me from inside

It decays in my hands

And rots my lungs

And reminds me that I have died

There is a creature in my ear

Whispering with deceit

He deafens my thoughts

And blinds my eyes

And he tears the meat from my bones

I am nothing but bones and thoughts

I am nothing but iron wrought

I refuse to be knocked down

And yet I’m living in the ground

~Spilled Ink Anon

I've let this sit quite a while; my apologies.

So the narrator of this piece appears to be dead, but I'm unsure whether this is a literal or figurative death. The narrator also appears to be in some sort of stasis--even though they're dead, they're still conscious and can experience the continued decay, the creature whispering, etc. Which is why I'm unsure if the death is literal.

I'm also curious about this creature. The narrator is subject to multiple things, the first 3 of 4 being deadly liquids, so the creature stands out. What does the creature represent? The whispers of deceit make me think mental illness, which could tie into the prolonged stasis state I've potentially identified, as that's how it can feel with untreated conditions.

That could also connected to the lines about the brain being pickled. Pickling is a means of preserving food, but it's also a means of preserving dead things so they don't rot. Once again the whole dead but alive stasis state.

Another thing that stands out are the stanza lengths; they're all five lines except for the final, which is four. And the first three are an ABCDB rhyme scheme, while the fourth has no rhymes, and the final is AABB. This further serves to separate the creature from the liquids, though I'm not sure why. The final stanza is even more separated (both by rhyme scheme and number of lines), which is more typical--oh, side note, degradation of the form as the piece goes on could be meant to mirror degradation of the narrator/mind.

Anyway, all this to say through my musings I appear to have settled on an interpretation relating to mental illness. I don't know there's a specific one, but that's what I've identified the creature as. Which leaves the narrator in a place of living while dead, drowning yet preserved, persevering yet buried. Unsure whether this is correct but it's where I'm at

ty for sharing and for your patience with me :)

[when-wax-wings-melt]

Don’t wanna be who I was before 

But I can’t stay where I am

There’s no path leading forward, only back

No path leading Northward, only South

Where are you where are you where are you now

I can’t die, but that might be my only choice

Face the horrors. I don’t care

I don’t know where to go from here 

I’m tired of being happy every day but I don’t know any other way to be

Pumping my soul out from my chest

I’m half dead already 

Who am I

How tiny are you when compared to a star

Let me know when you’ve found my heart

Tell me when you can feel the thick flood of blood across your fingers 

Remind me when I am alive again

You forget me

And maybe that’s a blessing but

When I am gone you’ll never know

I’ll just never die

So you’ll remember

Who I was

And she’s gone, you’re gone, I’m gone

And I am dead, you’re dead, she’s dead

Why

I can’t keep you in my heart

I can’t abandon myself

It seems no matter what I say

I’m mourning Isabel

~Spilled Ink Anon

ohhh this might be my favorite so far <3 I love the repetition, it really hits hard esp with the line breaks and the punctuation choices etc etc. makes me feel things!!!!!

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Don’t wanna be who I was before 

But I can’t stay where I am

There’s no path leading forward, only back

No path leading Northward, only South

Where are you where are you where are you now

~Spilled Ink Anon

spilled ink anon?!

[surqrised]

I will spend more time with myself in this lifetime than anyone else. Let me learn to be the kind of person I would like to have as a friend.

Courage to Change: One Day at a Time (Al-Anon.)

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[bookwyrminspiration]

Your daughter is dead.

Your daughter is gone

I ate your daughter, her flesh and her bones

All that’s left is her heart

Still beating

Still bleeding

And covered in glass

Did you really think she would not run from the past?

She begged for forgiveness

But you never saw

Not even when death took her in its jaw

But I did, I saw it

I saw what you’ve done

And it’s your fault, not mine

I am your daughter

And I am your son.

~Spilled Ink Anon

I saw in the poem you sent to S you specified it was a trans poem, so since you didn't specify with this one, I'm not sure what your intention was. But I am choosing to interpret this in a trans, killing your former self, kinda way. Because those kinds of interpretations and expressions of transness make me lose my mind in a good way

Like the "i ate your daughter / her flesh and her bones". Because you eat for nourishment. You have been nourished and cared for in the destruction of this daughter, by her. And now all that's left is her heart--I don't know if this was your intention, but the way I read it the heart is now in the chest of the person who devoured her. Like they have taken the core of her being and it lives on, but the outside has changed, perhaps changed to reflect her properly.

Though I don't know whether "it's your fault, not mine" can fit with the trans interpretation, because there's no real "fault" of anyones, it's just what is. But perhaps the fault is referring not to being trans, but to their choosing to run away from the past (girlhood in this case?). And how it's the parents fault for not supporting her, that she didn't feel safe at home as herself, that's why she ran. And upon running she was able to find and explore herself--whether she was aware prior or not is up for debate. And that's where she was killed and subsumed--not entirely lost, but never what she was--into the son.

The "she begged for forgiveness" also adds a layer of internal guilt into it, which, depending on your interpretation, could also have a religious aspect to it. As begging for forgiveness for your sins and extreme religious parents being unaccepting because of faith are both tied to certain religion. Which is an unfortunately common experience for trans people (and queer people in general).

Anyways, my point is I'm reading this as a son reflecting on how he killed the little girl he was, surviving her and turning around to show his parent(s) the pain they brought her. I don't know if that's how you intended it, but it's what I'm getting.

As always, very lovely poetry; it has this quality I'm not sure there's a word for. It's vague enough to be left open to interpretation, like it skates around its true point and dares you to find it for yourself. It's quite fun--thank you for sharing :)

[when-wax-wings-melt]

You forget me

And maybe that’s a blessing but

When I am gone you’ll never know

I’ll just never die

So you’ll remember

Who I was

~Spilled Ink Anon

OHHH THOUGHT PROVOKING i like this a lot it. my mind is whirrrring

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I will spend more time with myself in this lifetime than anyone else. Let me learn to be the kind of person I would like to have as a friend.

Courage to Change: One Day at a Time (Al-Anon.)