#spazzspeaks

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In very depression meal fashion i have eaten two slices of weird ham and am working on a slice of bread now

Coulda made a sandwich out of it i guess but i just don't care

Bed now, to see if i can sleep after all the excitement

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As a former bank teller, I also want to point out that revolving credit (credit cards) is not as good for your credit score as installment credit (loans with a fixed end date).

If all you can do is a credit card then do it! Because any credit history is better than none, like people said earlier.

But say if you do need a car and you've saved up that $3000 to buy one you want-- get a $4000 one with a loan, and use the money you already have to make a downpayment. When you're only financing such a small amount, you're payments would be incredibly small. If even that's too much, get the $3000 car, only pay $2000 up front, and then set up your car payments for that last thousand to come out of the money you already had set aside for it. That way you don't need any extra money, you're on a fixed schedule of loan payments, there's an end in sight and it's only using money you've already got. Hell, if you paid it off early youd still have that loan that you handled responsibly and completed on you're history. And that stands out more than credit cards do with their rotating credit.

Different Strokes?

I think I left the teller at the bank genuinely disturbed when I told him that “If I can’t afford it, I just don’t buy it.”  “What about a car? Do you drive a car?” he inquired, his voice toning on the edge of fear.   I told him, “Yeah, I have a vehicle. I bought it used for under $3,000.”  He looked physically pained. “What about if you want to buy some kind of new appliance? Or furniture?” he persisted. I stared at him blankly. “My couch was $5.00 at Goodwill. Like…I just buy shit cheap or I don’t buy it at all. The only thing in my life that I make payments on is my house, my bills, and my insurance, and that’s split five ways because I have housemates.”  The young man looked horrified? Appalled? And somehow also awed?  This guy couldn’t have been much older than me. But it seemed that he’d never even considered the option before of saving up for something to purchase it outright instead of using a credit card. Am I the only person in my general age group (just turned 26) who’s never owned a credit card, and who has forgone basic comforts in order to save up for items so you don’t owe money to anyone, like, ever? 

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Today in my Chinese adventures, I learned that the Chinese word for carpet is literally “floor blanket.”

I love Chinese. 

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Been half sad half dissociative all day

Reading fic and listening to lofi

Kinda wanna cry over nothing

Excited to go to bed early

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Ya know it's no joke when they say ppl with ADHD stall out and things stop happening when they have to make a choice that feels too difficult

I played a good chunk of dragon age origins happily romancing both Zevran and Alistair and the moment I reached the point where I had to choose one of them I dropped the game

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Ya girl out here MAKIN' STUFF

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I feel gross and down and unloved

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So I've been having a good time but also been low key miserable cos i haven't been able to eat!!! So yesterday after we went to fucking cheesecake factory and i got this amazing row of pork belly sliders with coleslaw and fried pickles on them and i had to FORCE myself to finish two. I finally asked a nurse friend and she thinks im rocking some altitude sickness and i need a mostly liquid diet for a bit

So today i got soup ingredients and lots fruit and was lightheaded and struggling while i made my lunch because lmao itd been 4 days since id managed a single full meal and also i shit my entire guts out all day yesterday

But! The soups i made were good! I also had an apple and four mandarins and a protein drink cos ive been dying lmfao i never want to go without food again ive never felt like i did earlier, i had the shakes and kept needing to lean on stuff

Anyways thats like everything bad about the visit-- everything else has been really great. I enjoy hanging with Xander, his friends are all great, nearly everyone here is poly and its so refreshingly different. I cant wait till my body stops wussing out so i can enjoy new mexican food better exceeeept we totally used up my eating out budget already, dont wanna do that anymore. The desert and the mountains are beautiful. The cities are laid out so strangely lmao

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Me reading fanfic at work: -pauses to stare dreamily off into the distance- Love is stored IN THE CULLEN!!

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Got home from DnD and did all this responsible shit- got a few things to do tomorrow but I'm working on it

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I am kind, I am funny, I'm resourceful, I'm creative, I'm reliable in my own fashion, I'm worthwhile, I'm lovable

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My paycheck I'm getting now is for a time frame where I worked 41 hrs in two weeks

I'm scheduled to work 33 hrs this week so like whats next week gonna look like can I have money again lmfao

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Man idk what's up w today but I'm just so tiiired

I'm having breakfast (ramen w egg) and coffee rn so maybe that'll wake me up but so far I'm super snooze despite getting plenty of sleep

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Just gotta say this author is definitely a woman and definitely a monsterfucker and power to her for publishing these MASSIVE monster fucking stories

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Note to self line dancing is in fact harder on knees than average club dancing cos Stomp is an important aspect of the line dance

Meaning next time wear knee braces lmao oops

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Lmao I took all these steps so I could go out after my shift that ended at 9- ate a full meal, took medicine for feet pain, drank caffeine

And I made it!!!! It was fun, I'm not dying, would repeat even if tailing after a 7 hr closing shift