#soz for mess

[speremint]

I've been absent because I've been binging DAV; enjoying the game a lot, but I gotta agree with all my discussions I've had with friends: they really sanded down any of the edge/darkness DA had, and I think that's a mistake and a loss, tbh. Still a good game and I'm having fun, but there's a lot of wasted potential.

Also they keep retconning/ignoring parts of lore/world building (esp the darker aspects) from older games and it annoys me, but whatever

[srams-shadow]

CCG: YOU'RE KILLING ANGELS NOW, AREN'T YOU

PCA: no

CCG: YOU ARE KILLING FUCKING ANGELS, RIGHT NOW, IN THE PAST, WITH YOUR SHITTY GUN. I JUST KNOW IT.

PCA: wwell uh

PCA: therere just so damn many kar and theyre not gettin any less bloody pissed is the thing

(x)

[k9wa]

𖧧 𓂃 1,668 DEGREES. featuring haruchiyo sanzu.

❝ SYNOPSIS : with enough heat, even the most resilient materials will eventually reach their melting point.

❝ CONTENT : can be read as kmg or bonten sanzu, reverse comfort, fluff (?), sad sanzu

❝ NOTE : this is self indulgent i just want 2 hold him

haruchiyo “sanzu” akaashi did not cry.

haruchiyo “sanzu” akaashi was vicious, he was cold, a merciless man who came with an unmistakable red warning label. 

yet this haruchiyo “sanzu” akaashi, deep beneath his long crafted exterior of titanium had his last fragile shard of humanity guarded like his own personal crown jewel. 

yet no matter how durable, when heated up enough, even the thickest and most resilient metals had their melting points, and in a world where a metaphorical matchstick was held without rest to those unbreakable walls he’d spent so long building up, they too would reach theirs.

haruchiyo must have been a saint in his past life to be as terrible of man as he was and still somehow have someone to cool him down when he began to disintegrate.

when sanzu had turned up at your home, clock pushing 3am and the city long turned silent, your chilled hands against his skin was the unparalleled remedy to his bubbling, boiling blood.

sanzu laid in your arms; his only source of comfort when he was teetering on the edge of being smelted down completely, leaving a puddle of tears on the skin of your shoulder, breath hitching everytime he inhaled to keep a quiet sob down his throat. you didn’t know what exactly was wrong, nor if there was anything specific at all causing him anguish. it wasn’t the right time to ask.

without words you brought him into your bedroom, helped him out of his jacket and did your best to smooth out the mess that his hair had become, laid down beside him while he clung to you like you were the last lifeline he had. in retrospect, you probably were.

haruchiyo needed you as much as you did him. though his methods of showing it were far from traditional, you were his relief; his IV drip of fentanyl rushing through his bloodstream, the oxygen mask held to his nose that finally allowed him to breathe while his entire life mimicked a terrible hospital visit.

you played with and stroked the hair around his face, pushing it back and out of his eyes, you tenderly ran your thumbs over his damp cheeks, making sure to avoid the dry, scarred skin at the corners of his mouth (he didn’t like that part of his face touched— not that you would go poking at it anyway.)

he was warm against you, but not dangerously so. your touch was always the exact amount of refreshment he needed. in contrast, the way you kissed the top of his head and knew exactly what he needed without him needing to say it had him wanting to melt all over again. it made you wonder how someone could go from so crazed, to so delicate.

after what felt like hours— what probably was hours, sanzu finally spoke, his voice just loud enough for you to hear the hoarseness of it. you could feel his breath against the skin of your collarbone, but his words didn’t quite find your ears.

“hm? what’d you say?” 

your volume matched his initial one. sanzu felt his heart cramp at how gentle you were with him, someone who was usually so brash. he spoke again, just barely louder than the first time, but this time the words found you easily.

“love you.”

⠀ 𑣲 MASTERLIST / GOT A REQUEST ?

[cookies-over-yonder]

home

Young adult Lincoln Li-Wilson gets a call in the middle of the night from a friend he hasn't talked to in years: Taylor Swift.

ao3

please heed the warnings in the tags. thank you! <3

Link stares at his phone.

His phone with an incoming call from a friend he hasn’t properly spoken to in at least three years.

Taylor Swift.

He swipes to answer, hand shaking.

They didn’t have a falling out, just… drifted.

But to be frank, Link misses him constantly.

“Taylor?”

“Link?”

“Yeah, it’s me… uh… what’s up?”

“Can—um—can you come over?”

What.

Link hasn’t even seen Taylor since graduation.

Why would Taylor want him to come over right now?

It couldn’t be for a hook-up either—Taylor knows he’s ace.

But then he hears unsteady breathing on the other end.

“Is everything okay?”

“Um—I—”

Link hears a sob. His stomach drops.

“No. I—I need help… I didn’t know who to call. Sorry—I’m sorry, I’m sorry—”

“It’s okay, Taylor, just breathe.”

He doesn’t follow that instruction, because Link hears more sobs and gasps.

“Okay. Listen to me, Taylor. Text me your address. I’ll be there soon.”

“Mmkay… my back door is unlocked.”

“That seems unsafe.”

“I know. Anyway I—I’m in the… the bathroom. You’ll see it when you walk in.”

“Okay, I’m coming, just keep breathing.”

“I’m trying.”

Link gets Taylor’s address and drives over right away.

The backdoor is unlocked, and Link locks it once he’s inside.

This place is big .

It’s a condo on the bottom floor of the building, and it looks expensive .

Link isn’t surprised.

He finds the bathroom easily, and knocks before turning the knob and opening the door.

“Holy shit,” he breathes out, laying eyes on Taylor, curled up sobbing next to a shit ton of pill bottles scattered across the floor. “Taylor, did you take something?” he asks, kneeling down in front of Taylor and brushing his much longer hair away from his face to get a look in his eyes.

He shakes his head quickly. “No, no, no, I didn’t, I called you instead,” he says between gasps. “I—I—I can’t breathe—”

“Taylor, Taylor, hey ,” Link cups his face with his hands and looks him in the eyes, “it’s gonna be alright, I promise. You’re sure you didn’t take anything?”

He nods, sobbing again.

“I’m gonna pick you up and take you to the couch, okay?”

He nods again.

Link scoops him up just as easily as he did way back when. In fact, Taylor seems slightly lighter than before.

He kicks some clothes out of the way and sets Taylor down on the couch, sitting across from him.

“Sorry I— fuck —I know we haven’t talked in years I just—I haven’t been as close with anyone since you,” Taylor says, wiping his tears and trying to steady his breathing.

Link grabs hold of Taylor’s hand, interlocking their fingers and squeezing. “Taylor, what happened?”

He can’t help but cry himself asking it.

“I—I just, I kept feeling like there was no point anymore. And—and I couldn’t shake it. I’m all alone, and I don’t know why I did this to myself. I miss Mom, I miss you, I miss everyone, and I—I just…” he pauses to catch his breath, and fails but barrels on, “I’m so fucked up in the head, Link. I keep having nightmares about sophomore year. I dropped out of college because I wouldn’t stop having panic attacks during class. I—I wanted it all to be over. I still do. I still do . That’s why I—I needed you.”

Link doesn’t know what to say.

Holding back a sob, he hugs Taylor as tight as he can, thankful he’s still here and alive .

“I miss my mommy ,” Taylor sobs into Link’s shoulder. “I miss her. I miss her. I miss her so much.”

“She still live at your old address?”

Taylor nods.

“Come on,” Link says, getting up.

“Where are we going?”

“My car. I’m taking you home.”

Taylor nods with a wobbly, “Thank you.”

[tunamayojazz]

16 & 17 for inuokko

hi anon here i am 27438 years later before ur ask with (finally) an answer...!! i feel like i always held this off bc i knew i would be writing a whole essay. also a lot of this are headcanons eheh

16. one thing one character likes about their partner

let's go with toge first. it's so hard to narrow it down to one and im not sure if im even answering it correctly but i think toge loves seeing yuta live life, and how he does it. he knows that most of yuta's life only ever consisted of feeling very alone and guilty for even being alive. but after coming to jujutsu tech and forming meaningful bonds with people, he's finally really living again. and toge has had the pleasure of getting to watch yuta experience many things that most would consider mundane for the first time. yuta more than anything, loves being with those he cares about, and that includes doing things together. yuta hadn't had any hobbies prior to their meeting (he was too busy thinking abt offing himself lbr) but being with him, maki and panda, yuta's learned a lot about living. through ear damaging karaoke sessions and game nights, crying watching a movie about dogs, baking a disastrous cake for someone's birthday, field trips and quiet nights just looking at the stars together, he's found meaning in life. and to watch his growth since the day they met, seeing how yuta embraces all things new and welcomes them with eagerness and most of all, a kind and curious heart, toge doesn't think he could love anything more.

17. Now one thing the other character likes about the first chara

if yuta could he would fight me so he can write this himself lmao. WHERE TO START. MAN HAS A LIST !!! i'll just throw a dart. and oh we've landed on something. something yuta Loves about toge: his thoughtfulness. toge is great at thinking ahead and anticipating the needs of the people around him before they do. his love language is acts of service (FIGHT ME!! or hug me bc im sure we all agree). when yuta has his bad days, he doesn't have the will to do anything especially take care of himself. his room is a mess, and he will burst into tears and the sight of unfolded laundry on his floor that he is unable to bring himself to organize. but he'll crawl back from a mission the next day to see his room all clean and neat. then he cries more bc he knows who did it. maki gets the worst period cramps in the world (ALL HOT GIRLS DO </3) and goes through painkillers quickly. she finds that she never runs out bc they always restock themselves (it's toge) and when she's busy dying and unable to get out of bed, toge comes in with a heat pack and a light meal. panda just observes and helps toge help their friends honestly HJDSHFJD but yes i think toge is really good with thoughtful actions, yuta feels immensely lucky and very much in love with someone with such a gentle soul and big heart. MWAH

(why did it get so unserious in the second half i am so sorry)

[daveyaps]

i ended up playing mincraft (im proud of the skin but i gotta remake it.. i tried to earlier 2day but the site i use waznt workinfgg.. hhh at least m on a posting spree!!!!! yippie!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

dont ask what i wax doing i joined an old sever that me and my frind used 2 play on.. hehe

[liauditore]

Thought I might say hello and make some small talk, seeing that I'm camping on your trafficshipping tag and all.

Well hi! Lovely place you've got here. Fantastic art, GREAT vibes, very nice. I'm specially enjoying your character rambling; your takes on them are super interesting and they tickle my brain 👀

May I send Divorce Fource/Quartet and Majorwood for the shipping bingo? Divorce Fource were a right mess (affectionate <3) and a perfect one at that, but I can't help but wonder how the recipe would have turned out if the soul ties were Cleo-Pearl, Martyn-Scott.

Also there is so much potential in Limlife Majorwood for eroguro if you're nasty. Which I am. Time cannibalism, respawning mechanics, birthday time... blender go brrrr 👀

!!!!!!!

y'all are really enabling my habit of long ass posts huh 😭😭

OK SO first off thankyou so much?? thats so sweet?????? 😭😭 i really don't think my character ramblings are anything special, but i like reading other ppls insane takes so i thought i'd provide others with the same 👍

not to get too into it but i feel like a series like life smp is best enjoyed with your own crazy delulu takes (similar to touhou if anyone heres familiar w/ that fandom). and it makes me kinda sad to see ppl arguing abt whats 'canon' or 'correct' cus that's no fun lol

ANYWAY yeah uh im glad u like the vibes!! :J

TREEBARK

this one first cus chronology. I honestly don't know if there's anything I can say here that hasn't been said before? But yeah they're. tasty. something about martyn waiting the entirety of third life to betray ren and never getting the chance and now longing to have him back. lots of regret but regret. for what. yknow. and ren always looking out for martyn even from a distance. and then martyn losing that connection in limlife.

yeah i can see why people ship lmao

uhh i don't really know what else to write here so have some of my insane ramblings copy+pasted from my shipping doc 👍

Martyn fancies himself a schemer, someone who's not afraid to play the game the way it's intended. If that means earning a powerful ally's trust only to shatter it then he was going to do it. Only, Martyn's bark is worse than his bite, and every night he spends in lying awake in those soft, warm sheets that Ren had laid out just for him (freshly washed too, he might add. Smelled like sunshine) he wonders if he can do it. He can, of course. (he can't. he won't. he's too soft. soft and useless.) He'd cut his head off already. (he wants to vomit) (this is why no one needs you. wants you. loves you) Who cares about other people anyway? He is the only one who really matters. (the thought of being alone makes him want to cry) Ren, on the other hand, is a capable leader. The definition of loyal and dependable, if not a bit dramatic. He struggles with self-worth, being good enough, useful enough, powerful enough. But to others, he's the opposite, caring and protective of any who would ask for his aid. After all, every citizen deserves to live in safety and comfort, and providing that is what a good King would do. ~ Martyn's not as sneaky as he thinks he is. Ren knows. Ren sees the signs. It's a death game for a reason. But he doesn't let Martyn know. He doesn't even hold it against him. He doesn't see the bloodthirst anymore, only the broken pieces lying underneath. ~ or the King's Hand, it was the thrill of feeling Useful, Powerful, Feared (loved). He was going to miss it after he betrayed him, the high of bloodlust, the smell in the air as he charged into battle. (the way his hands held him so gently) For the King himself, deep down he knew it was never to be. He had met a monster, but he hoped his efforts calmed the storm ever so slightly. On some days, he pretends to forget about the death game entirely and imagines the speech he'd give to retire his Hand. "You don't have to fight anymore," he'd say, "I'll take care of you from now on, I promise. So put the sword down, okay?" But in the end, it was all a fantasy, wasn't it?

^ yes this is so cheesy but so are they.

Cry with me again Smile with me again Scream with me again Sing with me again Dance with me again Talk to me again…

"Lower One's Eyes" (Oktavia translyrics)

MAJORWOOD

I think.. I talk too much abt scott seeing as that's who everyone points out when it comes to my headcanons 😭😭 but uh i swear everyone else is just as messed up. and martyn is like. just as bad if not worse (if that wasn't made clear from my ramblings before)

anyway uh say it with me rebound 👏 relationship 👏

i think they're both.. very numb to it all once limlife rolls around. they're just tired and have this mutual understanding and both think they're horrible people. martyn just wants to play the game. scott doesn't even know what he wants anymore.

but ofc, they're both still human and want love and comfort, so they try to seek that from one another. even if it's fake. even if it doesn't matter in the end.

Baby, though I've closed my eyes I know who you pretend I am I know who you pretend I am

Washing Machine Heart (Mitski)

We’re the Delusioned Victim Cash-in Union Praise to the “love” that will bring salvation!  Two fools singing to a shallow melody Restart, reflation, teleportation Time and again we’re stuck in rotation Circles inside a love without any ending

MKDR (SirHamnet Lyrics)

Scott uses Martyn as a replacement for Jimmy and Martyn uses Scott as a replacement for Ren. they know they dislike eachother (see: all of double life) and that only one of them will make it out alive. but they can't get that love and comfort from anyone else now.

also uhhh eroguro my beloved...... im assuming this is getting brought up cus of my mentions of loving eroguro in the past. and yes to all of that very much i agree. but i do have kind of.. a limit to what i do w/ these characters specifically because of the fandom/ccs (at least publicly). if i ever do decide to share the nastier stuff in my head or go into detail on gore and whatnot i'd probs make a sideblog and tuck it away and maybe block scott and martyn for always somehow showing up on my posts lmao

[rhythmicjester]

just a normal guy on a normal boat in a normal place..... absolutely no funny business here nuh uh..........!!!!

drew this ages ago when i first played arc 1 cuz this whole scene is RLLY COOL!!! so i drew this in a frenzy while the game was still playing in the background XD i think i have the kiddie kruise song memorized now

[baylardian-1]

Continuation off of this post for context... I had like a major Unity brain rot moment this past week lololol.

I was kinda digging how close this episode is to Coda for a few reasons (Revolving around the AU OF COURSE). I was mainlyyyyy trying to figure out when a good spot would be for Kathryn to start coming around to Motherhood finally... But also it's like CODA. And so um uuuuuh Kathryn offering to take care of the kids for Chakotay so he can go on an away mission... mayhaps her way of wanting to do more for him... with him... blah blah blah. But maybe she's A LITTLE infatuated after seeing his response to events in Coda. I like to think in addition to like, potential awareness of feelings, she also would have seen hypothetical scenarios surrounding how he'd take care of her children even after she's "dead." And that'd probably stir something in her as well. A-ANYWAY she's kinda nervously ready to offer her assistance and be helpful and everything and most importantly, give the poor man a BREAK from single parenting three hyperevolved infants. So she's like, scared to do it but wanting to overcome her fears in order to lighten Chakotay's burdens that should really be hers... SO IN UNITY, he leaves, and she gets to take care of the triplets for a span of time in his absence. She might be taking care of them longer than expected, since they lose track of Chakotay and have to go searching for him; maybe by that point she's asking Tuvok for assistance. Through it she overcomes a lot of fears and is rather proud of what all she's able to achieve on her own without him. So when they finally DO locate Chakoay, she's excited to welcome him back and tell him about her time with the kids and what all he missed (Probably nothing new to him, but she's excited all the same); she'd maybe bring down Ed to greet his Papa, but is taken aback when she sees Chakotay arriving on the ship with a girl. :) And this new girl already knows about Kathryn's children due to Chakotay's temporary neural link with her collective so Kathryn feels REEEAAALLY insecure about things. And she'd sulk about it when no ones around to see her be sad. And ABSOLUTELY has unprofessional jealous thoughts about Chakotay being with a normal looking human girl. AND I GUESS MY TAKEAWAY is that like, if Kathryn was feeling a little heart fluttery post-Coda for Chakotay despite Mark still being in the picture by this point, it'd kinda DISSIPATE after Unity. Not necessarily BECAUSE of Riley but I think she'd kinda realize that her feelings were misplaced and the way she reacted to Chakotay being with someone else (Regardless of whether or not he was being mind controlled) shouldn't play into things, and she'd dispel those feelings accordingly. PLUS I bet she'd be like "I have Mark I have Mark I have Mark," in her head still, as she explains later in the series is her reason behind why she doesn't pursue relationships. But anyway Unity would be multi-purposed in getting her to start being around the kids more YAY.

[dangerliesbeforeyou]

for the goddamn LIFE of me i cant seem to get my head around whether to use 'walk past' or 'walk passed' in a thing ........ like i have to google this shit constantly cos it just does NOT stick in my brain rip

[taro-wong]

time to go home

[1queasycrow]

Bc Tumblr refuses to stop eating grunkles asks we are here, if I haven’t replied to an ask in a day or so shoot me a dm, in fact just dm me, I don’t bite, often.

@laminath asked:

Kali for 🔪 A headcanon relating to fighting/violence🎭 A headcanon about what they lie about💝 A headcanon about their love language And Alibi for ✿ - Sex headcanon♦ - quirks/hobbies headcanon☾ - sleep headcanon plsss Aiight thanks bro, soz tumbls kept eating this, it just don’t want the ppl to know the truths

thank u my dude, check out the full prompt/ask lists here and here

Kali

🔪 A headcanon relating to fighting/violence

In her younger days the number of fights she got into tallied somewhere in the hundreds. showing she was better, that she could beat the boys, was core to her very existence. As time went on she realized that the vast fortune she controlled was far more powerful than any punch she could have thrown. Still she’s not above teaching a recruit a thing or two if they should decide to mouth off in her presence.

🎭 A headcanon about what they lie about

Kali doesn’t lie, she just doesn’t tell people things they don’t need to know.

💝 A headcanon about their love language

Her love language is, well it’s complicated, Aria seems receptive to whatever the situation calls for and Kali is prone to a bout of flaunting a highly desirable woman, just to prove she can. In private the struggle for dominance, for control over the situation at hand, is ever present. Who will be able to catch the other off guard? Perhaps it is exhausting or perhaps exhilarating (it is likely both)

Alibi

✿ - Sex headcanon

Should have seen this one coming aiight grunkle u horny lil gremlin, Alibi is the switch-iest switch to ever switch. Aiight? She does what will put her partner most at ease (metaphorically speaking, she can be an absolute tease) Whether this is a remnant from undercover work or not is something she’s not inclined to deal with.

♦ - quirks/hobbies headcanon

Aside from shooting she enjoys reading news articles from local outlets in different countries, attempting to translate as much of the material as possible herself before checking with google or one of the other ops

☾ - sleep headcanon

She’s a light sleeper, quite prone to insomnia and fits of night terrors. She will wake with a terrible start her whole body electric with confused signals and always the sickening feel of a roiling sea in her stomach

As always ty grunks, the rest of u get on that ask button, or don’t, I’m not ur mom.

[jarvis-cockhead]

saltburn trending is doing smth to me .. i have such strong opinions on that film but not in a good way. i get so much enjoyment out of it just not in the way id hoped. disastrous messy film ill pick apart meanly but its my enrichment and i love it. but i hate seeing people think its actually good

[tetsuotools]

Whateverrr ..

[leejeann]

So I’m American and therefore never experienced study halls for gcse specifically, but we did still have yearly standardized testing from like 3rd grade onward and these study hall scenes that are almost silent aside from the teacher loudly breaking the silence to announce something or get on to someone for whispering are giving me flashbacks to all of them lmao

(CRTs, EOIs, AP exams, the ACT, hate that)

[pbaintthetb]

Kazuma... are you challenging me to prove it, beyond all reasonable doubt?

Gaac 2-5