#sounds like a good day for atsulucy to me

[esmiara]

[kyouka-supremacy]

Atsushi for the ask game.

ATSUSHI HERE WE GO THANK YOU FOR HEARING MY PRAYERS

Favorite thing about them: HIS SELFISHNESS. It's so so delicious to explore. Can you imagine a protagonist that saves others not out of simple good will, but because of egoistic self-preservation motives? It just feels counterintuitive for me lmao, and I found it quite messed up when I first watched the anime, but now it's so compelling to explore. His whole “everything I do is in order to gain the right to live” is crazy fashinating. Because lol, that's entirely nonsensical to me! There's no such thing as “gaining the right to live”; all humans, every person in the world is inherently deserving of life. All. No exception. So there's no level of “weak” or “worthless” that would make you lose that right. The fact that's it's a vision so distant and absurd from mine, idk, it just makes it very compelling to explore? “What if there was a little fucked up guy who believed the right to live had to be earned” just sounds like a very interesting premise.

Least favorite thing about them: When I first watched the anime, I think I found him low-key annoying? I just... Don't do very well with self-deprecating people and people who complain a lot in general, I usually suffer in silence and tend to (wrongly) assume others should do the same (this probably makes me sound pretty mean, I swear I try to be understanding irl). However, it doesn't bother me as much anymore, I simply think it's more of a distinctive trait of the character that makes him multilayered and unique. As of now, I can't think of anything I don't like about him if not the fact that I wish he'd rely on Dazai and others in general a little less. I know that has to do with his lack of self-worth, so maybe it makes sense,, but as of now he feels kind of stuck. I just wish we'd see him grow more on that front.

Favorite line:

There may be better ones, but I really like the delivery of this one.

brOTP: KYOUKA AND ATSUSHI they make me go insane. Already talked about this in the Kyouka post but just to reiterate: in my headcanon Kyouka really is the only person Atsushi feels genuine, selfless affection towards. It's very sweet. They're siblings. Kyouka's happiness is really important for Atsushi. They really do have that feeling of people who got out of an abusive environment learning what normality is supposed to be like together. I also really like how they compensate for what the other lacks, be it decisiveness and coolhead for Atsushi and empathy and positivity for Kyouka. Although plenty shipping them romantically, I really like platonic sskk and atsulucy as well.

OTP: I really like sskk eheh. I think they're neat. There's a thousand and one reasons why I find them pretty great. They're objectively the only reason why I got invested in bsd as well as the only thing that has me keep up with the franchise to this day. Right now, I feel like the one thing I really appreciate about them is how you can be the worst person in the universe and still somehow be loveable to someone. I think it's sweet. I also find it very fun and enterataining to explore their various soulmatism antics. They're both very complex and multilayered characters with something deeply wrong with how their minds work that makes them very fun to analyze both by their own and in the complexity of their relationship. Their collective story arc and canon relationship progression is extremely engaging and nice to follow, too. I love dazatsu and atsulucy as well!! Both were ships I wasn't particularly invested when I read the manga for the first time, but really grew in me in the last six months or so. I really dig akuatsulucy as well!!

nOTP: Nothing?

Random headcanon: He really likes reading. There's some real meta-analysis to be made here I actually had written this is probably not the right place to talk about, but in a work that's all about literature, he's the character who reads.

Unpopular opinion: He's the hardest character to write / characterize. That's why people should probably go easier on other fans when they mischaracterize him. He's just very multifaceted and genuinely hard to get. I keep seeing people being like “Stop babyfying Atsushi he's an independent adult!!” then turn around to say “he can't be shipped with Dazai because there's too much unbalance of power :// [somewhat implying Atsushi can't make free decisions for himself]”, or “Stop making of Atsushi a soft baby who never did wrong in his life!!!” then turn around to say “Atsushi is the happy puppy of the agency who gets treats and pats from everyone ^^ ” like. At least to me, a lot of people's arguments sound self-contradictory all the time; but that doesn't mean people should stop having fun and characterize the characters as they like! Just, let's stop being mean to each other and try to be a little more accepting towards others' takes, shall we? And yes that also includes letting people find Atsushi annoying if they find him annoying (although like, I've NEVER found anyone call Atsushi annoying ever, so really, what remote fandom spaces is everyone visiting? Why are you looking for clothes (good takes) at the soup store (Tik/tok I assume?) ).

Song i associate with them: Common World Domination by Pinocchio-P, HIBANA by DECO*27, Ghost Rule by DECO*27, so on and so forth.

Favorite picture of them:

Favourite panel from the manga:

Favourite illustration: Look, there's too many beautiful illustrations, I can't chose. Here's a very good one though.

Favourite illustration in the anime art style:

But also:

Favourite Mayoi card:

Send me a character?

[caffeiiine]

OH ALSOALSO do you have any christmas/winter hcs ? /nf

thought it would be a good day to send this ask dhdhsjj

ACK MY FAVOROTE FLAGOR OF FLUFF

OKAY SO I GOT THESE

under the cut because this got insanely long dude

+ akutagawa can’t stand the cold whatsoever and will either bundle up in his house or dorm or whatever with a space heater dedicated to each room or just won’t leave the blankets unless he has to and his room is filled with space heaters

+ in the event he does have to go out he is the most bundled dude, like, think rimbaud type bundle. thicklong coat, hat, and scarf

+ he will not wear gloves bc of sensory issues so he just stuffs his hands in his pockets and hopes the cold doesn’t get through

+ ATSULUCY WINTER SHOPPING!!!!!!!!!! lucy drags him out to window shop and walk down the streets and watch the lights and look at decorations and lucy always has the most perfect outfit combos so she’s warm and cute!!

+ they usually end off their window shopping by stopping by a cafe of some sorts [usually the uzumaki cafe, the one under the ada] and getting warm drinks and then heading home

+ LUCY HAS THE BEST CHRISTMAS DECOR!!! like think those pinterest christmas trees THATS HERS

+ fyodor just doesn’t go out during winter if he can help it, he’s anemic and definitely low iron, that man can’t retain heat no matter how many layers he puts on

+ Kunikida bringing in gifts for the whole ada, each one is so thoughtful and nice

+ at least 2 of atsushis gifts are sweaters and the rest are soft things bc he really likes soft things since he didn’t get the opportunity much to have soft things or things at all growing up in the orphanage

+ dazai also gets everybody thoughtful gifts but he doesn’t actually label them, they’re just in places where the recipient normally goes and is typically regarded as ‘their space’

+ ranpo knows of course, who the gifts are from but he’ll let dazai have this and let the gifts remain anonymous

+ dazai really enjoys the smiles everybody has when they find their gift, he’s also always in a small corner someplace or simply passing by around the time they open the gifts..

+ ada holiday party is chaotic as fuck

+ tecchou doesn’t mind the cold much; jouno absolutely can’t stand the way the cold pricks at his skin. it works perfectly because Tecchou is a living. heater.

+ nikolai also has his offhand ways of showing affection during the holidays, for one he does stuff similar to dazai and hides gifts! except it’s a 50/50 chance the recipient will like it, sometimes it’s a ton of birds referencing the 12 days of christmas song, sometimes it’s a really soft and warm weighted blanket, sometimes it’s a space heater, sometimes it’s more birds, 50/50

+ sigma and holidays are not a lovely combo since lights and sounds and general sensory stimuli are 10x as worse leaving him twice as exhausted after a day of running the casino or just living in general [he’s so me]. nikolai, before sigma gets home, dims the lights in the house and sets out stuff that are “coincidentally” helpful for sigma because this is bsd, nobody shows affection outright

[except maybe dazai, he told chuuya “that’s why i love you” once]

+ poe is very festive, almost as much as Lucy. setting out a tree and decor and leaving his manor very pretty

+ ranpo and poe often get into snowball fights, the first few times poe was very hesitant and awkward but eventually got used to it and even initiates them sometimes!!

+ they probably have stupid matching sweaters or accessories as well i won’t even lie

+ poe gives karl accessories as well, for the winter he gets a little coat, and a scarf

+ they definitely try to make gingerbread houses but as soon as they were finished ranpo just went ahead and ate his

+ kunikida and dazai aren’t the biggest on holidays, they’ll put up some decor but not anything massive like a tree

+ dazai has seasonal affective disorder, or seasonal depression and uses a light box since winters are more difficult for him. kunikida usually sits with him by the light box to keep him company.

^not really holiday themes but i need to share by S.A.D. dazai hc somewhere

+ kunikida and dazai spend holidays together, lucy and atsushi spend holidays together, nikolai and sigma, tachihara and gin [akutagawa third wheels since otherwise he’d be alone, the little aroace idiot]

+ fukuzawa rigs the ada secret santa, for yhe piners, and the close friends

+ dazai gets kunikida, kunikida gets dazai, kyouka gets kenji, kenji gets kouka, etc and vice versa

+ this is all i can remember atm but even looking at this it’s a lot wow

[moniwaskaname]

bsd rarepair week day one: hands on hair ship: atsulucy (nakajima atsushi/lucy maud montgomery) read on ao3

Atsushi was sitting in the middle of his small lounge, surrounded by a considerate amount of papers, the computer he borrowed from work in front of him, and several empty cups of coffee near. He was tipping furiously, squinting to make sure he was writing correctly.

And for the love of God, he was tired.

Yet he didn’t want Kunikida to scold him again for not making a good report. He refused to do wrong the easiest task in the job. But he was tired—he did admit it was partially his fault, for pushing the report until the last minute, and the tiredness made his finger commit constant mistakes in the writing, it made him fill the wrong sections on the header of the file. And obviously, Dazai wouldn’t help.

He forced himself to stop, when the position he was sitting in became an unbearable pain for his back. He stretched like a cat, and thought he was hallucinating when he thought he heard someone knocking on his door. It was pretty late, so he ignored and then grunted in discontent. There was only one section left to complete, but he really didn’t felt like it.

Then, he heard it again. The knock against his door, followed by the unmistakable voice of Lucy Maud Montgomery,

“Hey, open up or I’ll blow the door”

Atsushi jumped on his feet immediately, losing his tiredness for a second as he ran up to the door and opened it. He found Lucy in front of him, with her arms folded against her chest, lips and eyebrows frowned. He blinked, and then squeezed his eyes with this hands.

Then, he asked a very dumb question, “You’re real or am I hallucinating?”

Lucy seemed bothered by it, an angry grin on her face, but then she relaxed and denied.

“I am” she slapped his cheek softly, more like a caress than a soft slap to prove she was real “Now, can I come in or are you gonna keep me outside?”

“Oh, sorry, please come in” Atsushi said, getting out of her way to enter the apartment. Once she was inside, he closed the door softly, and then awkwardly at her back. He was surprisingly, not as sleepy as he we before.

The tiredness was replaced by intrigue and fascination at the same time. A warm fuzzy feeling grew on his chest when he saw Lucy curiously looking around. He liked to spend time with her.

Even though she scolded him regularly, and tried to appear rough, she cared about him. And being cared for was something he wasn’t fully used to yet.

The difference between Lucy and other people was that she understood a whole lot more his past. He felt more connection with her because of all the twisted and horrible things they both went through as orphans. They didn’t talk about it, but they both felt that understanding that it was hard to find in someone else.

Ever since she started working on the downstairs cafe, he would go there more times, just to drink her coffee and talk to her if she was not busy. Having Lucy in his apartment in those moments bringed him a little bit of peace. She was chance of pace after all.

“What are you doing here? It’s late” he said, and then looked at a bag on her hands curiously.

Lucy blushed, but as always, tried to hide it. “You texted me like half an hour ago… I guessed it was because of that report you talked about earlier on the cafe and thought that you might be hungry… so, yeah… take this” she talked looking at the floor as she gave him the bag.

Surprised and curious, Atsushi opened it and found a cute warm box. He sat down on the couch, expecting her to join him as he opened it. It was simply rice with vegetables and a little bit of curry, but they smelled like glory to him.

“It looks delicious, did you make this?”

“No, the old man gave it to me” Lucy explained. Since she started living with the couple that ran the cafe, he supposed she was now close to them. He felt incredibly happy for her, since the couple seemed to be fond of her, and honestly, she deserved it “He probably did it. He’s teaching me how to cook, but I’m still not that good”

Atsushi smiled at her in a reassuring way “Don’t worry about it, you’ll learn in no time” he encouraged her before thanking her again for the meal and grabbing the chopsticks to star eating.

She didn’t say anything while he ate. Looking between him and the surroundings. Lucy liked the simplicity of his apartment somehow, and she liked watching him eat. Since Atsushi was very hungry, he ate very fast and smiled like a baby, feeling satisfied once he finished.

“It was delicious, thank you so much” he thanked her from the bottom of his heart. Now with his stomach full and in the comfort of Lucy’s company, he really didn’t want to finish his report. It was not tiredness anymore, but pure sleepiness and laziness.

“You should sleep… You look super tired” she noticed, poking his cheek playfully. He smiled.

“I need to finish the report. Or Kunikida-san will scold me again”

“Do you have a lot left?”

“Not really, just a section”

“Then, sleep a little and then wake up to finish it” she suggested. Atsushi looked at her. He didn’t knew how, but they were physically close in those moments. Maybe it was her, or maybe if was him, but their shoulders were now touching slightly, and he could see the freckles on her face and the detail of her pretty eyes.

“I don’t trust myself to wake up for that” he admitted, with shame. But Lucy smiled triumphantly.

“Then I’ll wake you up” and if she just realized that her words implied, she blushed violently and started to stutter “I mean… if you… I wasn’t trying… I’m not…. Just if you want… I could stay for a while”

Atsushi blinked. He had always been incredibly slow to pick up things, and it took him some seconds to realized she was proposing to stay there, in his apartment. He blushed too, feeling his face hot, but the idea wasn’t entirely wrong with him. “Are-Are you sure? I mean.. I don’t want to bother you…” he scratched the back of his head, embarrassed.

Lucy shook her head “Nonsense. I’m here because I want to” she said and then opened her arms “Now, go to sleep” she ordered him, crossing her arms in front of her chest. He smiled at her scolding.

When he was about to get up to go to bed, he realized it wouldn’t be nice to leave her alone, not when she took her time to go there, bring him food and take care of him. So he, impulsively, laid down on her lap. Lucy was warm, and since he wasn’t exactly very tall, he fitted perfectly on the couch. He was a little bit embarrassed by his actions, but also too comfortable to move.

Lucy looked surprised. She never thought he would choose to sleep on her lap, so she naturally tensed when he did. Her face was as red as her hair and she was thankful his eyes were closed so he couldn’t see her. She relaxed with every second and ended up with simply letting him be.

She watched him sleep, letting out a heavy sight.

Why was he so cute? It literally drove her mad. She was usually torn between wanting to punch him and hug him all the time.

Unconsciously, Lucy’s hand softly touched his hair, setting aside a couple of strands of hair that blocked his face. Her soft touch made him open his eyes slightly, and watch her expression of ‘I’ve been caught’.

“Oh, sorry… You had hair in your face” she tried to sound as indifferent as she could, but her voice was higher than usual. He smiled, sleepy, and shook his head.

“I liked it… could you… do that again?” he asked as he relaxed again.

Lucy was relieved and didn’t hesitate when she started to pet his head softly again —tangling her fingers through his hair. He dozed off almost immediately, her touch was too satisfying and warm… it made him wish he could sleep every night like that.

When he woke up, he felt like a whole new person. Lucy’s lap was still comfortable, and he stretched himself a bit. Her hand was on his head, and she was sleep. She looked incredible pretty while she sleep, he thought. But then he realized it was already morning and his report wasn’t finished at all. But he didn’t even panicked, because it had been worth it.