#sorry. ik this ruins my blog but i get a ton of asks like this and answering one should make u be quiet

[setsugekka]

Ϟ-  honestly the first time I’ve felt this way when reading your work was when I first read paradise lost ch. 7 when mc realized seonghwa sent that video to hongjoong:

“You slowly look back up and towards Seonghwa, still silently perched in the kitchen — watching you, but with nothing to say. Slowly, he brings his hand from the side of his arm to take a sip of the beverage…

But not before ever so gently tipping it towards you.

Cheers, indeed. And 'fuck you, too.’”

when I first read that my jaw was on the floor, I wanted to skin him alive and I had to exit out the pic for a bit before I could continue reading. I mean ik yeah “boo mc we hate your pussy” but revenge porn?? Brutal

✹- I’ve been meaning to ask for a while what is it that got you into writing and how did you improve your writing skills to what they are now?

⊞- not a prediction, but something youve mentioned before the jjk/wooyoung crossover fit (if you ever decide to do it, you know I am rsvp’d, 1st in line, 🪑, all of the above)

♫- cots! (bc I never got to read it 🥲)

oh and this one! ✦

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sorry i sent a lot i love ask games 🫶🏾

PLEASE, i love that you're willing to play along with my insanity 💗

ϟ tell me what moment/scene in [fic] made you sicko in the window.jpg to read and i’ll tell you which scene made me feel that way to write

FJGDJFJG THAT PART!!! yeah, you're so valid for that. truth be told, i wasn't sure i even wanted to do it but i really felt like it drove the point of everything home too well not to 😶 as for what scene i've written that made me feel that way? hmmmm...there's a lot of them coming up in atarashii tbh fdkgdffg so i'm excited for when more of that gets posted. probably the most i've ever felt that was the ending of ruined king though, because most everyone felt very sure it was going to go one way and i was basking in Knowing.

✹ wildcard - I’ve been meaning to ask for a while what is it that got you into writing and how did you improve your writing skills to what they are now?

oooh, good question!

so, really, i've been dabbling in writing fic for a long time. on and off, really short bursts. back in 2019 i wrote a little bit for exo and nct on ao3 but i guess i got bored, just fell off from it again. then the pandemic hit and my bestie and i got into stray kids so we started reading a whole metric fuckton of fic on here together as a bonding activity cuz we didn't really have much else to do. eventually there came a point where i was just sort of like..."i feel like i can do this," so i made a blog and wrote some short, horny lil ficlets mostly for her/us and posted them, not really expecting anyone to even read them, much less start following me for more. but that's exactly what happened LMAO. but i was bored and crazy inspired so i was just cranking out a crazy amount of fic.

which i guess naturally segues into the improvement side of things and i think the biggest factor in that is just writing. writing a shit ton. i was reading a lot of fic then as well and no doubt that helped but i really think it was the writing that really pushed me along. i realized pretty soon after starting that i wanted to do longer, more plot-focused fics and my desire to grow and improve and challenge myself has always been imbedded in doing this. it was always sort of a question with each new project of "can i pull this off if i do X."

one of the first examples of this was harbinger, which was my first sort of horror/fantasy fic, and i think doing that really leveled up my ability just by itself. i was writing paradise lost while doing that, and then afterwards i did project d, which is one of my favorite fics and i think even to this day is some of my best work! after that is when i took on the massive challenge of doing city of the sky, which, those of you who were with me on the old blog while i was doing it know that was full of horrors and trials and tribulations but it was a massive challenge to take on and while i hated doing that fic and wasn't really happy with it while it was happening, i look back at it really fondly (and am now pissed i lost so much of it in the move like an idiot 😒).

all of this to say: challenge is growth. all of my challenges have been pretty self-sustained, i've always wanted to push the boundaries of what i'm able to do and i've been willing to fall flat on my face if i fail, but i think that's how one improves sometimes? like, i think there is validity in writing just because you feel like it and it doesn't have to be some massive undertaking of becoming the best and greatest or whatever but a lot of the joy for me is the challenge, so as long as i am finding new ways to push myself, and maybe even fail and suck at something, then i'll probably still be writing, learning, hopefully getting better, and most importantly, having fun.

⊞ send a prediction for a fic i’ll write in the future - not a prediction, but something youve mentioned before the jjk/wooyoung crossover fit (if you ever decide to do it, you know I am rsvp’d, 1st in line, 🪑, all of the above)

this is so funny because i have a wip doc of a jjk fic (though it has nothing to do with kpop) that i started and then just. have not touched since. i realized i struggle to have the same inventive drive writing stuff that isn't rpf because i really enjoy the freedom of not having a "canon" to adhere to. i can write these men as anything and no one can tell me shit about it being "out of character" because they're effectively just face claims and none of us know what they're really like anyway, where as writing gojo is like...okay, we all know who and how gojo is 😭😭😭 but who knows! i can never say i'll never write something, the wip is still sitting there and season 2 is coming out so...who knows!

♫ send a fic and i’ll make a 3-5 song playlist for you - city of the sky

OH THIS IS HARD BUT FUN. (sorry you never got to read it 😭😭)

I'm a Pop - Chanmina

Blooming - Band-Maid

RIOT - Raise A Suilen

２１世紀型行進曲 - miyavi

✦ what was your easiest fic to write & your hardest?

hmmm, city of the sky definitely the hardest by far LMAO there were so many struggles and i realized less than halfway through that i hated writing action scenes...in a fic all about fighting and action. oops. easiest...maybe atarashii? it's pretty straight forward with the debauchery so i didn't have to think all that hard about it jkdfdghjdf.

THANKS FOR PLAYING WITH ME 🥰🥰🥰🥰

[userholland]

why do you all of the sudden hate zendaya? i remember you used to reblog her all the time until the pap pics of her and tom kissing came out....

idk how many times i have to say it but i dont hate her. i just dont like her as much as i used to growing up. and tbh it just seems sudden on the internet bc i liked her for a prolonged time bc i didnt want ppl to hate me for not thinking she isnt the best actress in the world.... and my assumptions were right. i had hope for her acting career after s1 of euphoria but everything else that came after just makes her seem like a clickbait actress with no range to me personally.

ik i hyped malcolm & marie before and after it came out but it just didnt show me anything to keep following her. but i saw so many other ppl were saying how good it was and why would i go against my peers. i got caught up in liking zendaya for a trend than for actually liking her for her work. has nothing to do with the pics but isnt it ironic how i was losing interest around that time then those pics just happened and i was like ok her and tom are together fr thats cool. i think ppl who said "ive been waiting for this for years!" were weird..... like why? was it on your calender like you had nothing else planned. tbh i was okay with it until literally everything seemed so set up after with spider-man promos.

and fans of this long time ship being very in my face. her fans + t*mdaya fans are obnoxious, hateful and just awful in the way they treat ppl who dont support their fav ship and how they speak about tom's ex girlfriends + jacob elordi and sydney sweeney. even tom sometimes like hes her accessory. so dont talk to me for not liking her anymore. why dont you ask why these mass t*mdaya blogs bully others and stalk the hell out of tom and zendaya while also giving out false info bc they want to stay relevant.