#sorry y'all this is essentially vent

[gleedyke]

Here comes my two cents on anti-Neil Gaiman posting that I hope comes across civilly and that if you choose to interact with you are also polite about.

Everyone has the right to like/dislike a creator and to separately like/dislike their work. I happen to like this particular creator quite a bit, and I do notice that not everyone GOmens posting does, which again, of course, is fine. Disagree with choices made, that's healthy, but the way I keep seeing "us (fandom) vs him" mentality on any type of post feels bad. This isn't a defense of him; I don't fucking know him, nor does he need that. I'm actually quite happy when I hear folks say they simply don't follow/interact with him if they dislike him. That's great energy, but the rest of us seeing it all over is less great. Thought some reminders posted into the void would help lighten up the energy around here, or at least get it off my chest lol.

1. I've been properly queerbaited by media. This is not fucking that. Take a deep breath and heal with me.

2. A lot of vitriol towards Neil, and frankly Michael and David too, seems to be about being straight men creating this. Have we still not learned to mind our business on this front. You don't know them, we don't know them, but everything we've ever seen from them proves they're on our side. You wanna be mad at a straight man for actually fumbling the bag Steven Moffat is right th- sorry I forgot this isn't about him I tried not to bring up Sherlock in point 1 I really did. ANYWAY. I'm not implying anything, but I have learned to mind your business a little when telling someone why they can't create something queer. That's all.

3. This is his story, and it's not over. It took so long for him to get an adaptation made that he actually wanted to do, and he's doing it. I point y'all to Percy Jackson (I know there's some overlap in demographics here) and how much better the new series is just because Rick Riordan is more involved in adapting it. Having an author of the original work handling the adaptation this thoroughly is a gift regardless of how you feel about him. Additionally, he's writing the rest of the story that he and Terry Pratchett didn't tell. In Terry's honor. For himself. For all the people with beat up original copies. For all the people who have just joined because they realized there is something magical here. But above all it's still his. Take a deep breath and remember this is a love story, and if you still are not content in the end there's always AO3 my friends.

TL;DR vent away on your Tumblr if you don't like Neil Gaiman, nobody is gonna like everyone and certainly nobody's perfect. But before spreading negativity against him on every corner of the GOmens tags, I encourage you to remember how essential he is to the work regardless of your opinion. And remember that those who do like him and his work are also doing so with the best of intentions. Aren't we all. Peace and love this new year. Wait and see. Etc.

[lil-beanz000]

Dang I lost some followers for that comic 👀💦 welp! Sorry y'all if this stuff is upsetting, it's suposta be. It is after all a "Zombie" apocalypse...

Next pages will be sad as heck so fair warning ⚠️ now I guess!?! I am unsure how to prepare folks or warn? I thought putting the triggers may help but I suppose not. I compare the violence of this au to the last ronin, so it's gunna just get worse 0_0

I def have not stopped with the cuddle drawings an cute shit ❤️❤️ that won't ever stop as I'm a sad touch deprived beanz. 😚 I need ma cute doses! Like an addict I am~

This is just my healthy way of essentially drawing vent when I want too. Im also just obbesssedddd with apocalypse related shows/movies. Who doesn't love the walking dead an the last of us. XD

Again I do apologize for anyone I've offended but I won't stop drawing these comics. If that means ya gotta leave then I get that 😚🫴💞 sad to see you gooooo. I love the support I've received so far an super grateful as it keeps my motivation going. Thanks y'all! Hope you guys have a great morning/day/night now!

[lovecorpsfavoriteemployee929]

Hey. Lovecorp™'s advertising specialist here.

INTRODUCTION!

"Oh boy, I totally forgot about this part, Don't mind me wearing pajamas yeah?"

— Julian

"Speaking of which, Hey! I'm Julian Delez, I go by Jules, Lian, Del- whatever. I work at Lovecorp™, And I'm part of the marketing department! I'm employee of the month!"

General questions...

When's your birthday? How old are you?

9/29! And I'm 21, Good to know huh?

Pronouns?

I personally go by he/him or they them! I'm starting to get comfortable with my own skin now.

Nationality???

Filipino! Born and raised in the Philippines!

Why do you wear glasses?

My vision's been blurry ever since I was a kid, not near sighted or far sighted, I genuinely can't see.

Favorite animal?

Ducks! I used to take care of lots of them back home, and they're easy to take care of!

Favorite Food?

Chocolate! 🍫 I may get a toothache for it, but it's all worth it!

Favorite drink:

Mocha! More chocolate, less coffee. What? I'm not as coffee dependent as you think I might be!

What's LoveCorp™?

LoveCorp™ is a company that's directed to romance! Is your wife mad? We've got you covered with flowers and an apology letter! Basically, an all year running valentines business!

RULES

Alright, I'm a mean what I say, say what I mean kind of guy, And that guy also has boundaries:

NSFW! — Wow. Fancy love guy isn't into the not safey for workies. It's tolerated, just don't be incredibly horny about it.

BASIC AND OBVIOUS — don't be rude. Homophobia, racism, sexism or etc.

ASKS — Please be patient when sending in an ask, There could be a chance it hasn't been sent to my inbox or [ADMIN]'s too busy to let me know about your inquiries.

FANDOMS — go crazy. I might know some of y'all.

SWEARS AND SLURS — Don't swear like a sailor, watch your mouth. Slurs? Not tolerated.

ART — I'm breaking the fourth wall, but hey, reposts are appreciated, Credits are VERY essential. You take and repost the art, I'll hide the watermark so that everyone can tell what you did.

LORE — Right, I belong to a universe or something. [ADMIN] told me something called "self-inserts" are fine. Anyway, I'll tell more of myself soon enough.

SPAMMING — STOP IT STOOOOOOOOOO-

DM's — Sorry, I don't respond to DM's. Eh. I prefer open and public conversations.

RP — Private roleplays, sorry, what for? No thanks.

GOD MODE — I'm sorry, I'm just your average joe, I don't know why a god would want something from me.

VENTING — Sorry, I'm not comfortable with heavy topics, But I'm ready to be your shoulder to cry on!

BUSINESS DAYS... — I work a 9 to 5 job. Monday to Sunday (Except Tuesday's.) Visit me if you'd like.

[More rules To Be Acknowledged.]

“See you when I see you!”

- [ADMIN]

[belethlegwen]

The Stranding - Chp 59 - Might Be Needing A Different Kind of Doctor

Good morning friends, foes, and funky furniture

I have come to offer you this lovely little chapter before you all set off on your long (or regular) weekends <3 Please enjoy!

Melanie and Lionus get some therapeutic venting time in one way or another.

The writing block is still proving difficult to work past, and I'm so so sorry for anyone waiting for a chapter of The Rescue. I've got one essentially roughed, I just really want to make sure it's polished and I might be adding another small scene to it just help us bridge the gap to some fun updates in the weeks to come afterwards.

Much love to y'all for all of your patience and kind words, as always! Thank you and have a fantastic day! <3

Cheers, Belle

[extrxmegxnius]

What was B like as a teenager?

{ Apologies for answering late, y'all prolly already know what I'm going through because I vent here. Anyway!! Thank you for asking!

I think B was a curious thing. Like a kid, but with greater strength, intellect, and capability. I don't think of it so much in terms of horror or even Hannibal Lecter, but I do think he would have been doing a lot of questionable, bordering on sadistic, things. But not to animals specifically. I say that not because I think he has any particular fondness for animals, but instead because animals aren't the subject of his interest. Like our favorite wayward Shinigami, I believe Beyond Birthday has an interest in human beings. He may not like them, and may even detest them, but the want to know how they operate mentally, emotionally, and physically is has a strong influence on his behavior.

Ultimately, this leads me to believe he would've been the type to play mind games, emotionally manipulate others, and physically hurt others in "new and unique ways" for all three of those categories. He may not have been able to get too far with the physical torture in Wammy's House, but it wouldn't have mattered too much to him regardless, because he had a plan to leave and experiment outside his childhood prison home anyway.

Expanding upon "new and unique ways" of torturing others... In the best way I can describe, I see him making himself close in some capacity to each new "victim" by one of those three categories - mental, emotional, or physical - and finding ways to exploit them and hurt them through those categories. Not necessarily in the same ways he found them, though. An example: Say B makes, I dunno, young Sarah his next target. She is anxious and jumpy, but he goes out of his way to make her relaxed and feel like she "has a friend, someone to truly rely on", taking advantage of her emotionally to start (so imagine a hook on "emotion"). But from there, things change. He wants to see how her type of person reacts to different forms of abuse, excluding physical - in essence, he is testing her mentally (so imagine continuing the hook from "emotion" to "mental"). I'm a little tired, but I hope that makes sense.

Essentially, what I'm saying is that you can mix up "mental", "emotional", and "physical" in any order with a beginning and end, in its simplest form. A friend emotionally, an abuser physically. A partner physically, abusive emotionally. Any combination could work, and if you wanted to dig deeper, you could mix in any number of other messed up ways of treating someone and give his behavior more than simply a beginning and end. There could be a whole chorus of things in the middle.

I'll end with this: He experimented. Big time. In every way he could get away with under Wammy's House and its... Somewhat watchful gaze.

Sorry this was long. I hope it makes sense here as it does in my head.}

[un-chained-a]

WHAT NOT TO DO WHEN INTERACTING WITH MY BLOG - Customizable Edition

BASICS !

Name / Alias: Ti

Pronouns: Any is fine with me. But default is they/them

Blog type: single muse | Multi-muse | non selective | semi selective | selective | mutuals only | private | other (temporarily mutuals only until i have more free time)

Type of muses: canon | OCs | both | other (specify)

GENERALITIES !

Triggers people MUST tag: nsfw. Animal abuse. Child abuse. Chain mail/messages.

Interest tracker / checker: I have it and it's mandatory | I have it, it's not mandatory but I'm more likely to follow back / interact with the people who fill it | I have one and I prefer it if people fill it in | I have it but it's to people whether to fill it or not | I don't have one | other (specify)

Reblog karma: I practice it | I practice it sometimes | I don't practice it | I always reblog memes from the source | indifferent | other (specify)

Rule passwords: I have one and it's mandatory | I have one and it's optional | I don't have one | I send passwords | don't sent passwords | [space for eventual additions / explanations]

3-5 ESSENTIAL RULES PEOPLE HAVE TO RESPECT

I can be slow on threads. My muse leads me to what they wanna reply to. Sometimes a thread has more of my attention and muse than others. I also work a job and have other hobbies. I won't always be here.

Please tag your NSFW, especially if it's an image. Please no fancy tags, just tag it simple nsfw or something easy. Having fancy ways to tag something that I CANNOT black list it, might get you unfollowed.

Do not send hate of any kind or spread hate of any kind. This can be with call outs, or reblogging things of 'every time this gets reblogged *insert person* dies.' It will get you unfollowed.

3-5 IMPORTANT PET PEEVES TO KEEP IN MIND

People who CONSTANTLY pester me for threads or telling me they replied (I am okay of course if I give you PERMISSION to tell me when you reply. I have one person I asked to tell me when they reply cuz their replies don't always show up on my blog.) I am fine if you ask me about a thread once in a while, but doing it every day or really constant will get you blocked.

Really bad grammar.. I don't mind mistakes, I make mistakes too in my writing. But if it's constant, I'm sorry I can't do it. It bothers me too much. I am WAY more lenient to people who's first language isn't English, but tbh, those people have WAY better grammar than people who is first language.

People who take art as icons and cannot say where they got them from (giving the artist credit.) I'm not saying you have to have a BIG ASS list on your blog of all the credit. But it someone asks who made your icon, please be able to tell the person the artist. Please be able to credit artists some how if asked. (The icons I didn't make I can say who made them when asked on Shigaraki.)

2-5 THINGS THAT WILL LEAD TO INSTANT (SOFT) HARD BLOCKING

I changed it to hard blocking. I do NOT soft block. I either unfollow or hard block. Unfollow = We can still RP together, it's just that your content on your blog bothers me. Hard block = I will no longer talk / RP with you.

Reblogging call outs. I want no drama on my dash, including call outs. Talk it out like adults instead of spreading rumors and bull shit. All y'all claim to be adults but you certainly don't act like it. I've seen my friends called out and everyone blocks them without asking for THEIR side of the story. So yeah, I want none of that on my dash or in general ANY drama. I admit if it's a few times you post drama, I am okay, I get you may need to vent. But if it's a constant thing, I'll hard block.

As stated above, really bad grammar and sentence structure. I cannot read run on sentences. It gives me a head ache. The same with GIANT blocks of texts-- no paragraphs just a big wall. I don't like that either.

People I just don't vibe with. If you give me bad vibes, I'll block you.

People who soft block me or block me, I will block in return.

2-5 THINGS THAT LEAD ME TO UNFOLLOW / SOFTBLOCK A MUTUAL / SOMEONE I INTERACT WITH

This kinda goes with the above mentioned...

People who post really long posts that are NOT RP. Like that color of the sky post. I hate it. Posting long posts that take me a few scrolls to get by might get you unfollowed.

Posting politics.

2-5 REASON YOU DON'T FOLLOW (BACK) SOMEONE

You are a personal blog or all it seems you post is musings and ooc. If I see NO RPs from you, I won't follow. I will also unfollow if I see no RP content from you. That being said, SOME personal blogs I DO follow, esp if they're a friend.

You are a bot / p0rn blog.

I just happened to miss you. It happens. If you RP I usually follow back. And if I don't follow you-- Just RP with me and I probably will notice I am not following you and follow. MY BLOG IS NOT MUTUALS ONLY.

tagged by: I yoinked Tagging: YOU

[xxx-theartofsuicide-xxx]

You know, I do believe your theory of the BJ2 story being a dark and quirky dream world à la Alice in Wonderland/Wizard of Oz is a very interesting idea that needs to be explored by other fanfic writers as well. Having said that... How could it all be far better than the literal plot? I mean, if we follow that notion to it's logical extreme, then Betelgeuse essentially convinced Lydia somehow to allow him to fashion a mental prison that she can't easily escape because it becomes an addiction to her, gradually. And how does Lydia function in the real world, doesn't it bother her that Winter Riverites think of her as a recluse and an odd woman who probably ceased her interest in being an ordinary human being? I mean, yeah, Lydia wouldn't really give a shit about them, but what if Betelgeuse's shenanigans get to a point where they have to get the authorities to check up the house on the hill? Isn't it far too psychotic for Betelgeuse to torment Lydia this way, just so she can finally accept him in every sense of the word, even if it means waiting for her time to come for her to finally accept him and what he can offer her, other than the things her dream self can only have, like a daughter and a TV host job? Sorry but BJ2 is still a mess of a film at the end of the day, and while it's an interesting idea if that's what Tim went with, in your view, it was unfortunately poorly executed in some regards and not utilized its storyline the way the original film did. No question that it gaves us cool Beetlebabes moments, but Tim went back to his bad impulses yet again and the weak script really didn't help matters all that much but to each their own.

And just because some people don't like the newer movie unabashedly as yourself and others do, doesn't mean we betrayed the fandom or shit like that; it's just that the storylines had to have been better thought out and the execution of the ideas presented as more thought out than most of the jumbled mess of the movie we got, but like a wise man said, "Nostalgia's a hell of a drug" but what do I know? I'm just some gal. Like I said, enjoyed the Beetlebabes moments, but had to have been more better streamlined as a story than the series of gaudy Hollywood cliches and not clever banter we ended up with.

And if this is just a dream, what we saw of Delores was perhaps Betelgeuse's own impressions of her and what she would do if she gets her hands on Lydia?

Look, there's no need to give me and other people crap for not loving this new movie to bits, but it's still a Hollywood blockbuster type and it's gonna be judged on those terms as well, even if Tim Burton's name on it. It's not above valid criticism of any kind, unfortunately.

Again, your interpretation of the dreamverse is so much darker than mine and I don't believe you actually did read my theory or else you would understand that it's not BJ doing this to Lydia: it's Lydia asking for it because she wants to be a mother. You are putting words in my mouth I never said and painting an ugly scene I never painted.

Read it again. Then again.

Until you people actually read and digest the information therein, I cannot communicate with you. It's tiresome and exasperating.

I'm not giving anyone shit. I'm sitting I'm here venting untagged on my personal blog answering asks and telling people why I'm exasperated with this fandom and spending less time here. People like you add to that weight.

You nosy, illiterate, uncultured motherfuckers just won't leave me alone. You, anon, are the one placing undue value on my opinion. Idgaf about yours.

The only reason the dreamverse is "my" theory is because no one else is bothering to acknowledge that the film is a dream. That's a problem with y'all that I can't diagnose. It's some serious normie shit.

[atruedonaldist]

Pokémon Sun and Moon is better than Pokémon XY/XYZ in my personal opinion. Obviously it is catered to your tastes, but god I hate XY/XYZ with the fury of a thousand suns

[bom-bombon]

idk who needs this but it’s mostly for me

I’m already crying

I need a hug goddamnit

[gigagasp]

[the-platonic-charms]

Hi can I get mod Rantaro to write headcannons for the SDR2 girls being the readers’ protective older sister? Thanks in advance!

𝐒𝐃𝐑𝟐 𝐆𝐈𝐑𝐋𝐒 𝐁𝐄𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐃𝐄𝐑'𝐒 𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐓𝐄𝐂𝐓𝐈𝐕𝐄 𝐎𝐋𝐃𝐄𝐑 𝐒𝐈𝐒𝐓𝐄𝐑

Back doing requests again! -Mod Rantaro

Mod Miu : wassup and uh yeah these turned out quite short oo-

╰───-> Warnings: Nothing really.

─◇ Chiaki isn't really the protective type most of the time.

─◇ If anyone bullies you, she will DESTROY them in video games. Or she will just be like "Hey! That's not nice!"

─◇ Then y'all play your favorite video games, or anything that makes you happy.

⬧ Since Sonia is a princess, I would assume you're royalty as well. That's pretty awesome!

⬧ But unfortunately, this does come with a few negatives. As your older sister (and a princess) Sonia has experienced many things, you can't get surprised that she's quite protective of you!

⬧ You already have guards coming along with you both wherever you go, but she'll still make sure you're alright.

⬧ Not only is she the next heir to the throne, she is also an ultimate and can understand how pressuring it can be. Therefore she always makes sure you're not stressed out or overwhelmed in any way.

⬧ People being mean to you? Haha, oh please, that is not possible! No one could be reckless foolish enough to stand against the (future) rulers of their country! And if somehow, someway, someone was careless enough to try and be rude to you, Sonia will be sure to take care of this.

╰───-> Warnings: Nothing really

─◇ Ibuki is actually kinda protective. She'll be like "Heya! Ibuki is wondering if you're okay!" a lot. If you say something about it, she will be like "Ibuki just wants her sibling to be alright!"

─◇ If she catches you getting bullied, she will stop the person and say that it's not okay what the bullies/bully are/is doing.

─◇ After that, you both sing karaoke.

❍ She isn't the type to be super protective, unless she finds out something is going on with you.

❍ Then Mahiru is all ready to talk to you about it. Any problem. You can vent to her, ask for advice, she'll be there for you!

❍ Buuut, Koizumi does get a bit protective when someone's mean to you. She is ready to lecture that person.

❍ Another thing she'd do, that can pass as being protective, is asking you questions before and after you hang out somewhere. Like, who are you going with, does she know them, where are you going, when will you be back etc. And she always makes sure you have essentials like tissues, hand sanitizer and money on you.

❍ Mahiru seems like the type of person to sometimes use her title of the older sibling. Ya know, saying 'trust me, I'm older than you, I know this'. (She means it to sound reassuring rather than bossy)

𖦹 I'm sorry but Hiyoko is a textbook example of 'only I can bully my sibling'. I mean, she won't take it too far with you. She's actually very gentle with you, or at least, more gentle than with others. You two have been together through a lot, through thick and thin. So it's no surprise that you are very close.

𖦹 Still, she can and she will tease you. But anyone else even dares to look at your weirdly? Ohoho, no. They are gone (not literally).

𖦹 You're also the closest person to her, making sense why you would rely on each other. Hiyoko isn't the best at comfort, but she does try, for you.

𖦹 Even when she can get a bit harsh, especially with others, she genuinely does not mean to upset you. Because you have each other, and you always have been together. Through thick and thin.

◊ Peko says she isn't protective. She is protective.

◊ She is a freaking swordswoman, do you think anyone in their right mind could possibly have the courage to walk up to you.. While your sister is standing there, slowly taking out her bamboo sword.

◊ But she really doesn't want to scare off people! ..Most of the time! She just wants to be ready, just in case.

◊ She may also interrogate your friends, wanting to make sure they're good. And they are. Your friends have found themselves to be worthy of Pekoyama's (older sister) approval. Congratulations

◊ Peko also teaches you how to use swords. Only as a precautionary measure. And she is definitely not against you keeping some sort of weapon with you.

◊ Even if Fuyuhiko agrees with her at most times, he still tells her to chill out.

╰───-> Warning: Swearing from Mod Rantaro, a mention of food.

─◇ I see Akane being the protective type.

─◇ If she sees anyone bullying you, then she'll kicks their asses. Unless if you and bully/bullies are kids, then she'll just lecture them.

─◇ After that, y'all get food.

╰───-> Warnings: Nothing really.

─◇ I don't think Mikan would be the protective type.

─◇ But whenever you get bullied, she'll panic but will try to defend you by saying "H-Hey! D-D-Don't be m-mean to my s-sibling."

─◇ Then after that, she makes you happy by doing something you love, and takes care of any wounds if you get hurt.

[dailypokemoncrochet]

aight sorry about that last ask, i guess i was just stating my opinion but i was definetely agreeing with you about how bad it was!! but yes again sorry i didnt mean it in an agressive manner or anything, and sorry if i bothered you. i understand what you are saying.

Hey, I've had this sitting in my inbox for a bit and I think I should address it for a couple of reasons. This is going to be lengthy as fuck and a little disorganized.

1) What you do on the internet, stays on the internet forever.

2a) You don't need to comment on everything.

2b) And if you comment on something, you don't need to do it immediately without thinking.

3) You're gonna mess up, we all have, and we all do. People will react badly. You will react badly. That's how we all learn.

I think this is SO important for y'all (general) to grasp, especially if you are a minor right now. I understand the desire to interact online for the immediate feedback, as quickly as possible, as often as possible. That's dangerous to do.

For that first point, you (anon specifically) sent this anonymously, so I think you want to keep your blog unattached to this, but you previously replied twice to my other post about it. Even though you deleted it, I still was able to read what you said, and know it was you who said it. The whole thing happened in a matter of minutes of me posting.

I cropped out your name, but yeah that's still at least partially visible in my activity feed. The first reply said something along the lines of "alright alright sorry, this was mine i guess i didnt think it was bad or deserved such a response but im a teenager so what do i know i get it ill just never send an ask again" And the second reply, sent maybe 90 seconds afterward, "and of course i didnt mean this ask in a bad way i wasnt disagreeing with you im sorry im sorry im sorry"

Okay, the context here is in these three posts. One where I said something about my divorce, this ask I answered about it, and this second ask regarding my answer. Basically, I said my depression is spiking because of my divorce, someone asked if my partner dumped me to which I was like wtf, and then someone sent an ask saying that maybe the other anon didn't get it but at least they weren't mean about it.

Even though that last bit happened in maybe 3 in real life minutes, and you deleted it, it still existed and I still read it. I wasn't even particularly LOOKING for something like that. It just popped up in my activity notes. I don't know if anyone else could/did see it. I don't think it was a bad response per se, but you obviously thought about it and decided that you didn't want your name attached to it, but it was already there.

On the second point A, ohhh my god. I mean this in the nicest possible way (exasperated, directed partly at your specific part in this, but mostly Youth in general), stay in your lane. You are a teenager. You should not have commented on my post about a 10 year relationship ending, saying essentially "talk to me about it" because you are a teenager! The relationship existed for more than half of your current age!

This is nothing against you as a person, but you don't have any experience here. You have nothing to offer in this situation. ESPECIALLY if what you tried to offer is a "listening ear". NO. I grew up being the one my parents vented to about marriage issues, and it is so highly inappropriate to dump that on a child, and it is highly inappropriate (however well intentioned!) for YOU to even offer.

You could not even handle the way I reacted to your question. What would you have done if I had started listing the devastating details of my divorce and how it has fucked me up? You flipped at my strong response, and that wasn't even my first response or even truly accurate to the furious, visceral emotions I felt. You almost immediately had to reply. And then reply again. And then reply again. And THEN you thought about it?

Leading to the second point B, take a moment to think about it. Take several moments, preferably. This kind of goes back to you being young (your brain still developing, lack of experience, etc etc), so it's important to repeat this. Think about it, and think through it. I said something about I shouldn't do the critical thinking for you, and that wasn't entirely fair of me. I know how little we (adults, teachers, society) actually do towards teaching critical thinking, so that's not all on you. But if you've got to write out a response to something on the internet, think about:

Do I need to say anything at all? (Am I qualified to, is what I say relevant, why do I feel the need to?)

What kind of answers could I possibly get?

What am I going to do about the reactions I get?

How would I feel if the roles were reversed?

Do I really need to say anything?

Yes, this takes a lot more time than just "thought thought thought words words words send ask" and that's the point! I've got gripes with internet culture being all about the here and right now this very second, but I don't want to go into all that right now. Someone's made another post about it I'm sure.

I actually like the fact that you deleted your replies and sent in this ask several more minutes after the fact. That shows that you did literally take some more time to think about it. That was good flexing of your critical thinking. Please continue to think through how you behave on the internet, and try to do it before someone is mean about it first.

Finally that last point, we all mess up and it is inevitable. You messed up, and you know it. I'm glad that it happened here in a relatively innocuous situation and platform. I know people on like, Twitter, get absolutely eviscerated for less. I still react badly to things, but at least on the internet I can moderate that. It's harder in real life to work through all the feelings you get in the moment, but at least on the internet I don't have to visibly show the stages of processing. I'm trying to give others the benefit of the doubt as much as I can. However, I'm still just a person. I'm going to mess up still, but I do what I can so I mess up less often and less severely.

Anyway, here's the tldr again because that's a lot to read through

1) What you do on the internet, stays on the internet forever.

2a) You don't need to comment on everything.

2b) And if you comment on something, you don't need to do it immediately without thinking.

3) You're gonna mess up, we all have, and we all do. People will react badly. You will react badly. That's how we all learn.

[mollydollyjournals]

I wrote an intro in October 2020 when I made this page but I'm gonna try to write a more concise one. The old one is here and is specifically about my ED history. But other than that, this is my vent blog, and:

I guess you can call me Molly or Dolly or something like that. I guess pronouns are she/they but you can use whatever pronouns you see me as, it's cool

I'm 30 years old. I'm not very good at it. I'm kinda childlike and basically get babysat when I hang out with people my own age or even younger, but I also learned to build a computer in 1996 and witnessed the golden age of emo (but I was goth/grunge at the time and I hated emo. Sorry MCR)

Unfortunately I'm English

Im biracial/mixed race, 2nd gen immigrant. In the US you'd call me light skin black. You might see me refer to myself as black or mixed race depending on context

I'm autistic and have ADHD. One of those "mild autism" cases which really just means you wont think I'm autistic but you will think I'm weird, meanwhile I'm getting major stress symptoms from trying to function in a way that's not necessarily natural to me. Like living in a country where I understand the language conversationally but I'm not a fluent native. I also forget everything. It's really a talent

I have BPD and extremely bad depression. I've been on Prozac a long time. I struggle with anxiety a lot. I'm very awkward and shy, even among awkward and shy people. If you message me and I dont message back, I probably felt like I'd be bothering you. Even if you think it's obvious it's okay or I'm normal or whatever. I'm very insecure and I try to avoid putting that on people by essentially backing off entirely. That's what this blog is about.

I run on Mars time. I have like a 25hr body clock or something so I will just be awake later and later until I'm nocturnal and then later again until I'm back on daytime. I'm in GMT but at some point in a 4-6wk period I'll match with everyone

Former gifted kid. Got a lot of trauma related to school and formal education. Y'all know what's up

I have an alcohol problem. I always have one vice or another. Going cold turkey never works for me with anything (I also used to SH daily and smoke and I quit both of those so I am familiar with how my mind works to some extent) so I often give myself goals for staying sober a set amount of time so I'm at least not going back to drinking every day. I've been seriously ill due to drinking at least twice

I have other physical health issues like hypothyroidism that put me in that spiral of 'need to do many things to deal with this' but also 'can't even do as much as most people'

Bisexual but inexperienced, gender is what, idk I forgot what else to say

I hate conservatives. Fuck the Tories. Black lives matter. Trans rights are human rights. Sex work is work. Homeless people are people. Gender roles are bullshit. We all grew up with certain ideas but we can all try to learn and do better and these people just aren't trying. So punch a nazi.

Im not monogamous. Hb = (mostly estranged) husband, bf = (sparsely interacted with) boyfriend. They know about each other and all is consensual. Im a shit liar anyway I could never two time. It was all good once, and then the pandemic and other stresses happened.

I'm pretty sure there is approximately one person who fits the above criteria so if you know me irl then...you probably dont wanna be here since this is where I vent about the stuff everyone ignores on my regular social media.

And gdi if it ain't the most ADHD thing ever to say I'm gonna write a shorter intro and then it ends up still being a rambly piece of shit

(Also my posts are usually queued)

[scribbling-stiks]

Puppets - XXIV - Consultations

By the time they arrived at the hotel, Russia had confirmed that his father wanted to discuss the situation's details. New York had also called back and helped them get paid reservations at the nearby hotel.

New York reserved two hotel rooms, one with a small living area, a fold-out couch, and two beds and the other with just two beds. They decide to stay together until nightfall, when they would break off and go to sleep. After arriving, they quickly settled into the room; all of them spread out around the larger room.

Louisiana is in the bathroom, and the other states are already washed up when Canada orders room service for their room. The food doesn't taste good. He did relish the shower and the fact that he can finally wash off the grime from their adventure.

After Russia finishes, he sits with the others in the room. He checks his phone and sees a text from his father saying to call when he wanted help.

"My father is waiting to help figure out what's going on. Should I call him now?" Russia proposes.

"Yeah, go ahead," Canada says with a wave, disappearing into the bathroom.

"Ooh! Put him on speaker," Texas suggests, hopping onto the arm of the couch.

Russia does just that and takes a seat on the floor with his phone lying on the ground at his feet. His father picks up after the second ring.

"Hello?" Soviet greets.

"Hello, Papa. I am calling to discuss what has been happening. The states that are with me can hear you as well," Russia responds.

"Hi," Massachusetts says with a small wave.

"Heya partner," Texas exclaims happily.

"Hello," Louisiana says, giggling at her brothers' greetings.

"Hello. Well, first, you must tell me everything. What happened, and what did you find?" Soviet asks.

Before Russia can speak, Texas cuts in. "Well, Mr. Soviet -Sorry Russ- there were cameras everywhere in the cave we were looking in, and some guy was watching us the whole time and was taunting us!" Texas says, his hands flying around as if to vent frustration.

"Cameras?"

"Yeah. Me and Massy knocked most of them down. But the guy was telling us about how we were entertaining to watch."

"That is not good."

"It was not just that, Papa. There was whispering and two earthquakes, but no reports of the earthquakes anywhere," Russia reports, exasperated.

"There was also the tunnel that went from a short room into a long corridor," Canada says, exiting the bathroom, and he takes a spot on the floor.

"How do you know it was a short room?" Soviet inquires.

"I was labeling the areas we explored with some tape. The longer the piece, the bigger the area," Louisiana explains.

Soviet hums in acknowledgment.

"There was also the writing and the knocking. Sorry, this probably doesn't make much sense. Essentially, we were exploring a shady cave system here in Colorado. There was an earthquake, and our exit was blocked. I tried to move it, but I passed out. Then Texas and Russia stared at a wall and some meaningless shadows and then told us to run, and we followed some mysterious knocking to a new exit. There was a second earthquake. Then Russia almost ran off a cliff. Then we all fell down a good 60 feet because the ledge we were standing on crumbled," Massachusetts explains.

"What we saw was writing on the wall, Mass-hole," Texas insists, crossing his arms, "it wasn't meaningless jabber."

"Writing? What are you talking about?" Canada asks, curiously.

"The shadows started moving strangely, so I looked at them, and it began to form words. It was like two different dialogs. One was telling us to leave quickly and that they could help, and the other was telling us that we were trapped," Russia explains.

"It seems that more than one thing is doing this," Soviet mutters, "this is strange."

"It does make me think that whatever is behind this isn't necessarily after power," Canada says.

"You may be correct. I have seen no noticeable change in the countries whose personifications have been taken," Soviet reports.

"There is also something else. Ute, the personification of the Southern Ute Tribe in America, also mentioned that monsters were being a lot more active," Russia recounts.

"Monsters? Russia, what you have told me already is hard to believe. Now you are telling me there are monsters? The countries have already reached a consensus that there is a single entity causing this," Soviet scolds lightly.

"But, Papa, that's what they are. Things that copy voices, things without faces that snap backward and crawl like spiders, and jump off cliffs!" Russia responds defensively.

"Sir, if I may say something," Louisiana interjects, "these aren't part of any made-up story. We were attacked yesterday by somethin' that was like 18 feet tall! It had long arms that brush the ground and the head of a dog. It copied our voices to lure us to it, and it tried to eat Russia. There was also a black human-spider thing that attacked us in the cave that crawled on the ceiling. The outline was human, but its head twisted around, and its eyes reflected light."

"Human eyes do not reflect light. That and the knocking we were talking about was coming from inside the walls. The thing wearing faces might be the only one that you countries are aware of, but lots of monsters seem to be involved. North America has monsters, despite what the god d*** older countries will say. But even then, something terrible is going on, and someone is aggravating them more than usual," Massachusetts adds.

Soviet goes silent, and Russia grows concerned. "Papa?"

"*Is that why the UN did not want anyone looking for the missing countries?*" Soviet mutters in Russian, his tone is holding slight panic.

"What did he say?" Texas asks, bewildered.

"Is that why UN did not want anyone looking for the missing countries?" Russia translates. "*Papa? Are you alright?*" Russia asks.

"*No. I have sent my child on a suicide mission,*" Soviet snaps.

"*Papa, I am not alone. And you did not send me. I chose to go,*" Russia counters.

"Wait, hold up. You think that the UN knows more than he is announcing?" Texas interjects.

Soviet is quiet for a moment before composing himself. "Yes. I knew the UN knows more than he has said, but I did not know to what extent until now. His strictness about going after the missing countries seems more reasonable."

"But why would he be hiding this?" Canada asks.

"It does not seem malicious. He is insisting on other safety protocols. It may be to prevent mass panic," Soviet suggests.

"And whatever is causing this has magic, 'cause I can't find Pops," Louisiana says.

"You would need a lot of power to control most of the creatures lurking around here," Canada remarks.

"What kind of power would someone need to control those things?" Russia probes. Canada shrugs.

"I do not think that entertainment is the only motive, but it is possible," Soviet says plainly.

"It is the only reason that the voice alluded to," Russia remarks.

"Do you have more to say?" Soviet asks after a short pause.

"Are you allowing me to continue looking?" Russia presses.

"I do not like that you are in danger, Russia. But, you have made your decision, and I have promised to allow you to make your own choices. I know that without any action, it will get worse, even if the UN denies it. I just do not like that it involves you," Soviet relents.

"Well, if you are allowing it, do you have any suggestions of where to look next?"

"How did you find the first location?"

"We were going off reports of strange activity in the area."

"That will probably lead you to the next location. However, I do suggest to keep us informed of where you are."

"Us?

"Myself and the other states. There was a lot of worry last time you disappeared," Soviet remarks.

"*Thank you, Papa. I love you.*"

"*I love you. Stay safe.* I will tell you if I find more information. Goodbye."

"Goodbye."

He hangs up the call.

"We should probably split off. Who wants to come with me to the other room?" Canada suggests.

"I'll go," Texas volunteers, hopping up from his seat to gather his luggage.

"We're staying in room 209, just down the hall. We'll come back tomorrow morning before we leave," Canada says, opening the door and stepping out.

"See y'all tomorrow," Louisiana calls, and the two leave.

"I call the bed!" Massachusetts declares, jumping up from the couch to lay across the bed closer to the couch.

"HEY!" Louisiana complains.

"Calm down," Russia soothes, "you can have the other bed, Louisiana."

"Nah, you can keep it. You got the couch last time anyways. Mass is just bein' obnoxious."

The rest of the evening is quiet. Massachusetts turns on the television, and he watches it until around 10:00. Russia doesn't protest, wanting to be rested for the day ahead of them.

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[hell-is-a-teenage-girll]

Y'all anons need to leave her the fuck alone. Who the fuck are you to say what is and isn't "essential travel"? I don't care what you say, you aren't privy to the emotions and struggles of these folk so you have no idea how healing and, yes, essential this trip might be for them. They're doing it safely and that is what matters the most, so how about y'all sit back and mind your own business and let these two have their time together.

Thank you so much dear. You are such a sweetheart

Like really we're both very thankful.

And it's true, I'm already most of my life alone. Because of my health I spend my days basically indoors alone anyhow, covid times ofc made that even worse. Normally I'd try to go outside once every two weeks or so. Now because I'm high risk, sometimes even my mom stays away out of fear when she's unsure if she might be sick.

S. always gets tested, multiple times also because her mom is also high risk, so she's already very careful.

We don't go anywhere, as I'm not able to anyway nor want to.

But sometimes I break from being in pain 24/7 and before S. Came I was literally on a verge of breaking down and not being able to handle it. Now I still cry and struggle a lot these days, which isn't my usual self but I'm not doing well, but at least I have someone who holds me for a while and have a hand to hold.

Because life as you know it now with covid, was already my life before this. And I understand it's hard for people who weren't used to this. But this.. Has been my life for years. And for y'all this will end and I'm so happy for that, but for me it won't. So keep that in mind and don't ever take your freedom for granted again.

Again much love for you and sorry for the rant, I needed to vent haha

Happy new years you! ❤❤

[m4kkie]

Exhausted on main after putting all of my focus into one issue, then in a place that's meant to be for relaxing getting dragged into a debate about phobias with someone who is clearly arguing in bad faith but is literally the one with the mic and the audience (it was on Twitch) so discussing on a level playing field isn't possible.

Not the first time I've essentially felt attacked in there, so I guess I'll have to stop visiting for my own sake, which kinda sucks. They're a streamer with ADHD so that was kinda neat.

"You play a game about murder, crushing skulls, cutting out tongues etc but you draw the line at clowns???"

You make it sound ridiculous but you literally don't get phobias. That would be fine if you weren't being a dick about it.

A phobia isn't a rational reaction nor is it something someone can control. We can be used to all kinds of violence but That One Thing? Nope our brain can't. Does that sound ridiculous to you? Fine. Again, don't be a dick about it though.

"Generally you can't even tolerate the thing but people keep watching/playing, they're doing it for attention."

Not a direct quote but he LITERALLY said generally without realising he was... idk... GENERALISING, and said people were attention seeking with it. Really. I explained that I had to condition my friend in the game by exposing them to their phobia so they could deal with it, and not risk getting caught off guard by it and having a fucking panic attack.

They seemed to understand that at least. I still find what they said a bit confusing though, it feels kind of contradictory to the first thing.

"Btw I don't see anyone in chat proving me wrong. Y'all are making my points for me. Would you agree chat?"

His audience, obviously, because again this isn't a level playing field: Yes. :)

And he had LITERALLY JUST ATTACKED ME FOR NUDGING HIM TOWARDS A MESSAGE I'D JUST SAID ON THE SUBJECT. Not even @'d, just like "Yeah I just spoke about that in my last message." Then this rant directed at me about how people tell the streamer to read their messages. Which btw he reads them all he just didn't want to respond but since I "@'d" him he would :) ...

Like I'm going to want to continue after that? And when you're using your platform and your audience to stack the discussion in your favour? Like I'm meant to disagree at that point?

Yeah just real bad fucking faith and not a good experience, not the first time either. So sorry for venting y'all but that was cathartic.