#sorry this is so long omg i knew i’d start yapping if i got the chance 😭😭

[shellxrls]

okay someone asked but I can’t find the post, here’s my tips on shifting.

first of all, it’s all about belief, as long as you fully believe that you can do it then you can (this gets much easier when you’ve done it for the first time cause well, you know you can do it)

you don’t need a script or anything like that!! some people prefer it but it’s not a necessary thing! though for beginners I would recommend it because it just helps get ur thoughts in place!

always be safe when shifting!! make sure to have safe words in place!! but also know that it is not possible to get stuck in ur dr! safe words just make it easier.

use subliminals! but be careful with these, make sure to use ones you trust. some of them can have horrible messages or manifestations in them.

okay so I tend to use a method, you totally don’t have to tho. I just find it makes it easier for me.

I’ll share the method that I use because I’m not sure if I invented it or if it’s just uncommon. I thought of it anyway.

the tv show method

- get comfortable and calm. I recommend guided meditation to ground yourself!!

- put on your favourite tv show, and really concentrate on it for a while, make sure you’re fully invested in the plot and that it’s what’s taking up most of your mind.

if any other thoughts go through your head that’s fine!! just let them pass.

- when you feel ready, imagine that you’re watching the show in your dr

- visualise your dr, the things around you, the sounds. try to feel the feelings that you might be feeling. notice things.

- say affirmations if you would like to. or count to one hundred. Or just keep visualising.

- when you feel ready to shift, close your eyes

- concentrate on the sound of the tv show and say affirmations

- visualise and affirm until you feel that you’ve shifted

- open your eyes when you are certain you’re in your dr!!

good luck <3

- rafe shifter

ANON BABE THANK YOU SO MUCH. if i’m gonna be honest, all this talk of shifting is making me want to try again sooo badly. i’m so grateful that you guys are giving advice and stories as well bcuz it truly motivates me sm !! i might start creating a visual diary/moodboard for now and then when i get back from my spring break trip rlly try with the intent to shift. the tv method also sounds great so i might try that when i do intend to shift.

although i haven’t shifted yet, i’d love to give my take as well bcuz quite a few ppl have asked for advice, and i think it wld be nice just to have the perspective of someone who has been rlly into shifting, but hasn’t quite yet achieved it !!

try to do basic research initially just to get a proper framework of shifting and have enough knowledge to keep up with the main linguistic terms (e.g script, cr, dr, etc). i’m not sure what the best current resources available for that is, but i know amino used to be great for finding shifting communities, and i bet tumblr also has good resources. although don’t overload yourself, it’s good to get diff perspectives but remember shifting is largely a personal experience and so ultimately whatever you choose to do has to feel write for you. for example, as rafe shifter said not everyone has to have a script, although some do find it rlly helpful as a resource.

for new shifters, don’t be discouraged if it doesn’t happen immediately. i know a lot of ppl shift to get out of a bad situation/mental state, but i personally think a large part of the energy it takes to shift is mental, and so to achieve that you should try to take care of yourself and nurture your mental health as much as possible— the more you focus on caring for yourself and your mind, the stronger it’ll get and the easier it’ll be for you to shift <3.

now for my own experience, i personally used to use the pillow method and the raven method the most, although looking back i feel like they were limiting bcuz due to the sleepy sort of state i used to be in it wld make it difficult for me to truly visualise my dr. however, one method i’d highly recommend is the estelle method (i’ll explain it in a sec), it sounds kind of strange but honestly it was the closest i’d ever been to shifting and i truly never recovered r from that fraction of a second where i literally felt myself in my dr. i can still picture it to this day and its own of my biggest shifting motivators <3.

ok anyways, here is the estelle method explained:

Step 1: Get in position. You can lay stand/sit/lay you want as long as you're comfortable.

Step 2: Play a song. Preferably something you associate with your dr or something that lets you feel connected to it. While this song is playing you’re going to imagine slow dancing with someone from your desired reality. It can be anyone: your s/o (i recommend this one lol) best friend, enemy— anyone.

Step 3: Imagine. I recommend closing your eyes for this to truly be immersed. You don’t have to actually dance, but play out the whole scenario in your mind and rlly let your imagination loose, try to imagine the landscape and the scents, anything you can. When the song ends, imagine the person from your desired reality letting go of you and saying "Y/N, it's time to go home." After they say that, they should lead you through a ‘door’.

Step 4: Affirm. Once you are inside the door, you are going to do "I am" affirmations (I am shifting to my desk reality, I am in my desired reality, etc.) anything that’ll help cement your belief really.

Step 5: Finished. When your vision goes black, you can open your eyes. You should be in your desired reality.

i think it’s a very beginner friendly method, it’s great for visualising esp if you have a song that you strongly associate with your dr and you can even have fun with it bcuz i find it’s not as exhaustive as other methods !!

remember to be safe and take care of yourself darlings !! feel free to pop into my inbox with questions for me (or rafe shifter anon if she doesn’t mind) about shifting as well, i’d love if we could have a whole shellxrls shifting community lol.

[natesthoughts1]

Commitment issues

Word count: 1.6k

Summary: Oikawa ignoring his girlfriend cause he was scared of commitment. 

Note: this is my first fic I've written in a while so i’d like to give my apologies now.

Your feet unconsciously and repeatedly tapped against the floor beneath your feet. The sheer length of this class was making you very impatient and slightly irritable. With Mr brown continuous yapping about the importance of nonrenewable resources in the background. As you glanced at the clock at the front of the class for the 100th time, you noticed the handles were hardly moving with 30 minutes left until the end of the lesson. Your patience was drawing very thin at the point.

All you could think about was your boyfriend, the volleyball captain for Aoba Johsai, to keep you sane for the time being. He had asked you out approximately 3 months ago on your first date and you guys started officially dating a 2 weeks later. You never really knew what his reasoning was behind asking me out you, but you really didn't care. It's not like we had ever communicated before, not that you're aware of anyways. To you, he was a narcissistic, popular, and "too cool for you" kind of person. And you were the average popularity, always got good grades and high school girl. Nothing really special about you honestly.

Even if you two had ever somehow crossed paths, his super vicious fan club would have your head before you had the chance to glance his way. So you could say you would never really crossed paths in any way, shape, or form. But when he asked you out you couldn't believe eyes or ears. You stared at him for a good minute making up a list of reasons why this was a dream and had to wake up as quick as possible. 

So you weren't shocked at his expression when you slapped my self across my face to wake up. But to your dismay, you had remained planted to the ground with a super hot guy looking at me like you should be in a mental institution. You were more than embarrassed. Heat spread through your face and you could already tell you were as red as a tomato. At that moment you had never wished so much for the earth to open up and swallow you whole. But to no avail, again. just your luck right. Eventually, after a good 5 minutes trying to explain to him what you were doing and him just laughing in your facing making you even redder, you had eventually replied with a yes. redemption was necessary on your part.

Surprisingly the date had gone well and you'd hang out a couple more dates at school and outside of school before finally, he asked you out to be his girlfriend. You had to say yes. Within 2 weeks you had fallen for him harder than anyone you'd crushed on anyone ever. He was nicer and funnier than you thought. And for the first time in a while, you were genuinely happy and excited to go out. Everything with him came so effortlessly. He also radiated such a positive light, that you couldn't help but be attracted to. Every time he was around you felt this warm feeling through my chest and butterflies in the stomach.

So when all of a sudden he never seems to have time for you and barely talks to or calls you, your heart shatters a little. He always seems to be "too tired" or he has "practice". You understood from the beginning that volleyball was important and would come first majority of the time for him. you had considered this when he asked me out. But it has been a whole week. you've never gone that long without seeing each other. So you knew something was wrong. So you were planning on crashing his practice after school and give him a piece of mi-.

"ding dong ding dong" the final bell rang interrupting your final chain of thought. It was about time. Packing up your books and chucking the bag over your shoulder, you left after bidding fair well to your friends. You took your time cause you didn't want to head there and find no one was there cause the boys still had to change. Instead, you headed off to the library first to kill some time. You had to hand in a book anyway so it wasn't a complete waste. After 10 minutes you headed to the gym and found the boys performing some drills. You searched among the guys for the tall, brown-haired, ass-less one. But to your disappointment, he wasn't there. skipping practice too. There must be something wrong.

So you waited until the boys were free enough to talk. you knew most of them cause Oikawa had introduced them to as his girlfriend when we started to date to "mark his territory" as Iwa-Chan had put it. So when they were on a break they all came to hug and greet you, which was really scary cause you barely stood at 5"5 so you shorter than a majority of them. I wonder how they would treat you if Oikawa decided to break up with you. Immediately dismissing that thought. You've been here a couple of times so you got to know most of them on a personal basis and you'd grown extremely fond of them. When they finished smothering you with hugs, you went over to Iwa-Chan who stayed in the sideline, not wanting to be part of all the commotion.

"hey Iwa-Chan" "whats up y/n" he replied after taking a swig of water from his bottle "um have you seen Oikawa today," you ask. "Did he not tell you he wasn't gonna be in today" he looks at you suspiciously. You frown "he didn't" you pause for a second "he hasn't really..." you could feel a ball forming in my throat as you spoke " he hasn't really tried to meet up with me in the past week and I just...." at this point, if you continued talking you would have a full-on breakdown, so you stopped there. unfortunately, one tear escaped, quickly wiping it out when you felt it. "ah shitikawa making a girl cry" he yelled causing a laugh out of you "ill have to give him a piece of my mind when I catch him" he fumed angrily. He looked intensely at you for a second as though remembering something important "you know I'm going to his house later today would you like to come with" iwa-Chan informed you.

"Would love to but I have family dinner so I have to go home early to help me mom, but thank you for the offer" you smiled at him politely "anyways I should be going now, thank you" you start walking away and when you make it to the entrance you yell "bye guys" to the rest of the boys and they yell "bye y/n" back even louder.

You walked home by myself for the first time in a long time. The space beside you was empty and made your heart tighten. But you tried to ignore it best as possible. Made it home alone, helped your mom cook, wasn't really hungry or talkative during dinner. Your parents noticed but didn't want to say anything cause you're a teenager and they probably thought you were PMSing. Afterward, you just went to my room and tried to focus on school for the remainder of the night.

After 20 minutes of trying to focus on schoolwork, you hear tapping on your window. "tap" "tap" but you ignore cause it might just be a bird. "tap" "tap" "tap" what the fuck. "tap" "tap" I turn towards my window and an Oikawa was tapping on my window. OMG.

"Oikawa shit what are you doing" you exclaimed as you let him in. He stumbled in and nearly fell but luckily he didn't. When he finally gained his composure he tried to pretend as though he just wasn't about to trip and face plant the ground by putting his hands on his waists and looking in the distance as though he did something heroic.

Immediately putting his hand's downs, he looked into your eyes "Well um you see" he began but then immediately stopped himself. he took your hands in his and started again "I wanted to tell you how sorry I am for ignoring you." "i - i - i" he stopped again to gain his composure and think his next words through "I've never been in a been in a serious relationship and that fact that I feel such intense feeling for someone I met like a couple of months ago. it scares me. I just-" before he could finish, you got your hand back and put your hands around his neck. He paused for a second before wrapping his around your waist.

"it's fine I'm just so glad your alright" you spoke into his chest. the two of you just remained in comfortable silence for a while, simply embracing each other, feeling each other's chests rise and fall rhythmically. It felt so good to be in his arms again after such a long time. But within seconds you felt tears slide down your eyes. And you cried. After holding in the sadness for so long you finally let it out. Let out all the fear of losing him. the fear of you two turning into strangers again. Oikawa simply caressed you back and down and whispered reassurances into your ears. But you also sobbed cause you were happy. Cause he came back to you. and that's all that mattered. You couldn't even find it in yourself to be angry. Or yell at him for taking some time to think us over cause he was human. And he had a right to protect his heart when he felt necessary.

[katelides]

For Good CH 11

Beca lets go of Chloe extremely slowly making sure they don’t lose eye contact. Chloe’s heart is hammering into her chest at a speed that cannot be healthy. She’s almost certain that Beca can hear it but is ignoring it. The redhead notices that Beca is trying to say something but no words are coming out. A few minutes later Beca manages to make a coherent sentence. “This is the best birthday I’ve had in a very long time, thank you.” Beca lets out a breathy chuckle. “Sorry, that sounded lame.”

“No it didn’t, I’m glad you liked it.” Beca now does let go and shakes her head frantically looking around the room once more. “Like it? I love it Chlo…” Looking through some of the notes she wrote years ago a stray tears finds its way down her cheek. “I uhm I can’t believe you kept all this stuff.” Letting out a soft laugh when she finally looks back at Chloe. “Especially the jacket, I forgot how good it looked on you.” Chloe’s cheeks turn bright red matching her hair.

The redhead looks down at her feet not really knowing how to react to what Beca just said. The brunette cups Chloe’s chin with her thumb and index finger making her look up again. Neither is sure how to proceed from this point. Only one of them has to lean forward slightly and their lips would meet for a kiss but both know that before that can happen they would need to talk about… them. The two clear their throat at the same time, bursting into laughter.

“As much as I want to kiss you right now we should… talk?” Chloe nods and points to the couch behind her. Taking the redhead’s hand Beca leads them to the couch so they can sit down. Not letting go of Chloe’s hands Beca turns to face her. “I kissed you, before you start panicking I do not regret it and as you know I want to do it again.” Chloe nods but not saying anything just yet. “But I need us to be on the same page. We need to start building up our trust again. So I want us to start over again, like you know… Do you want to go out on a ‘second’ first date?”

Suddenly Beca is really nervous. Performing in front of thousands of people she’s fine – asking Chloe out on a date and her hands are clammy and her entire body is tense. “I would love that.” Chloe’s genuine smile and light squeeze into Beca’s hand make the brunette relax slightly. “That’s great… I know that look, you have a question, right?” Chloe chuckles. “I actually have a list.” Beca rolls her eyes playfully. “Okay, I’m all ears.” Taking a deep breath Chloe finds the courage to ask her questions.

“Alright, why did you choose today out of all days to introduce me to Laura Hayes? What was up with all that miss Mitchell stuff at the club and talking about the club, how long have you been DJ-ing there? Do you know the owner or something? Please don’t hate me for this one but I asked miss Hayes if you still have nightmares, I didn’t mean to pry but I had to know. And are you sure you want me to keep living here?”

Beca gapes at the rambling redhead before her holding up her hands in hope that she slows down right when she finishes her last sentence. “Wow.”The brunette breathes out. “Okay, I’m going to answer the easy questions first… You meeting Laura was way overdue and I know that if you knew you were going to meet her you’d be freaking out.” Taking a moment to think about the second question she wants to answer Beca looks down at her hands. “I’m not mad at you for asking her about my nightmares, if you feel more comfortable talking to her I can give her the okay and you can ask her all the questions you want about me. The reason I went to her in the first place was so I could maybe one day find the courage and talk to you about it but no luck so far.”

Beca chuckles while Chloe just stares at her. “Oookay moving on… uhm I am the owner of the club, I always wanted to that. I finished my business degree and a little over a year ago I bought the space and turned it into the club you saw tonight. No one knows I own the place, people only know I DJ every Thursday and Friday.” Chloe’s eyes shoot up at the revelation. “Are you for real? OMG that so amazing Becs, I’m so proud of you!” The redhead jumps into Beca’s arms making them both tumble of the couch.

Beca tucks a strand of hair from Chloe’s eyes behind her ear looking up at the beautiful girl on top of her. “And as for you living here… I don’t want to spend another moment apart from you. Please don’t go?” Chloe leans in and ghosts her lips over Beca’s. “I’m not going anywhere.” This was everything Beca needed to hear in that moment, lifting her head she captures Chloe’s lips. The kiss is sweet and simple. There is no need to hurry.

-,-,-,-,-

Beca managed to convince Chloe to move to the couch. “I’m going to grab a blanket, be back soon.” She softly whispers, kissing the redhead on her forehead. Chloe mumbles something but Beca doesn’t quiet catch it. She returns a few minutes later and finds Chloe asleep with a smile. Not having the heart to wake her up Beca covers the redhead with a blanket and checks the time. It’s a little before 3 AM and she doesn’t feel tired yet so she quietly makes her way to her home studio. Maybe some inspiration might hit her.

It’s close to 8 AM when Chloe wakes up with a jolt. For a moment she panics because she doesn’t remember where she is. But once she gets used to the light and looks around she realizes that she’s on Beca’s couch. She doesn’t remember falling asleep there, she does remember the little make out session they had one the floor. The floor! Chloe turns around and looks down but no sign of Beca could be found. Maybe she went to bed? She thinks, stretching and getting up to make some coffee.

In the kitchen Chloe notices that a new pot was made recently, which means that Beca either got up not so long ago or… “She never went to bed.” With a sigh she goes on search of the brunette making a first stop at her room. No Beca. Next stop was the shower, she listens intently hoping to hear the water running but yet again. No Beca. Chloe hears faint music coming from down the hall so she follows it. The closer she gets the clearer the words become.

… Please say you'll be waiting

Together again It would feel so good to be In your arms Where all my journeys end If you can make a promise If it's one that you can keep I vow to come for you If you wait for me

And say you'll hold A place for me In your heart

A place for me in your heart A place for me in your heart A place for me in your heart

Chloe gently pushes the door open to reveal Beca in the clothes she was wearing the night before, behind the piano singing a song she did not recognize. “Morning.” Chloe almost drops her mug, not having expected that Beca would notice her. “Uhm morning?” Beca gets up and walks over to the redhead. “Did I wake you?” Beca lets out a relieved breath when Chloe shakes her head. “Beautiful song.” Beca chuckles and waves Chloe over to the piano. “It’s something new, I finished it about an hour ago.”

Beca takes the mug out of Chloe’s hands and places it on top of the piano. “Do you want to sing with me?” With a grin Chloe nods and sits down next to the brunette. She listens to the tune Beca is playing and quickly realizes what she’s playing. So without any hesitation Chloe starts singing.

Chloe Oh, her eyes, her eyes, make the stars look like they're not shining Her hair, her hair, falls perfectly without her trying She's so beautiful, and I tell her every day

Beca (I was thinking bout her, thin-kin bout me) I know, I know (Thin-kin bout us, what we gon' be) Chloe when I compliment her she won't believe me Beca (Open my eyes yeah, it was only Just A Dream) it's so, it's so, sad to think that she don't see what I see Chloe But every time she asks me do I look ok, Beca (It's only just a dream) Chloe I say

When I see your face Beca (So I travelled back, down that road Will she come back, no one knows) Chloe There's Not a thing that I would change Beca (I realize yeah, it was only Just A Dream) Chloe Because girl you're amazing, just the way you are Beca (it was only Just A Dream) Chloe When I see your face Beca (So I travelled back, down that road Will she come back, no one knows) Chloe It's Not a thing that I would change Beca (I realize yeah, it was only Just A Dream) Chloe Cause girl you're amazing, just the way you are Beca (it was only Just A Dream)

Chloe When I see your face

“I missed this.” Beca’s voice is the one that breaks the comfortable silence. “Me too.” Chloe averts her gaze to the keys of the piano. “Do you want to go get some breakfast?” Beca bumps her shoulder into Chloe’s to make her look at her. “I’m starving.” Chloe lets out a laugh. “You’re always starving Mitchell.” The DJ shrugs. “So that’s a yes?” Chloe nods. “Great, let me take a shower first.” Chloe chuckles at the over enthusiastic antics that are Beca Mitchell. “Let’s meet in the living room in an hour, that gives me time to take a shower too.” Beca wants to comment on it but quickly decides against it, it’s not the time… yet.

-,-,-,-,-

Beca is waiting for Chloe to come down. Her stomach is heavily protesting the lack of food. She throws a ball for Ella to bring back to her to kill time. “Sorry, sorry, sorry I’m ready.” Chloe runs in while trying to get her jacket on. “Relax Chlo.” Beca gets up from the floor and grabs Ella’s leash. “We don’t have a schedule today.” Ella is circling the girls yapping excitedly. “Alright baby girl, we’re going.” The brunette attaches the leash to the collar and opens the door for Chloe.

“So, where are we going?” Chloe asks linking her arm with Beca’s out of habit. “Well, I was thinking of going to my favorite breakfast place not far from here and after I’d show you around the city? I mean you haven’t really been sightseeing yet so I thought maybe you’d like that?”

“I would love that… ooooh can we go for a walk in the park too?” Beca playfully rolls her eyes. “Whatever you want.” Chloe squeals and makes a little jump. “We’re here – The Rolling Scones – I come here every day.” Chloe watches the Beca’s eyes light up while talking about the different things they have. “So, do you want to go in?”

“Yes, I can’t wait to see what this place has in store.” Beca opens the door and lets Chloe in, following quickly with Ella. “Beca you’re back! Should I get you your usual?” The brunette shakes her head. “Not yet mister Cimorelli, thank you. How’s your wife?” Chloe watches the interaction between the two with a smile.

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