#sorry this got really long

[bronte-deserves-better]

Please tell me more about Fintan/Oralie because it's a very fascinating ship and I am Curious about it 👀👀

Okay so. [ramble unlocked!]

This all started because I wrote a passage in a fic that might have accidentally implied that Fintan and Oralie had some sort of fling back in the day, but then I got thinking and I actually think their dynamic over the years would be really interesting. A brief (okay, brief might be a lie) summary of my ideas below!

Oralie is a young Councillor before the pyrokinesis ban. She and Kenric detest each other at first, but she and Fintan (and Bronte) get on like a house on fire. They're all some flavor of queer and transgender- Fintan and Bronte show her all the underground ballrooms and other queer places that I headcanon as existing in the elven world. Bronte largely got the shenanigans out of his system as a young emissary who had all sorts of ill-advised affairs with nobility members, but Oralie and Fintan are young and beautiful and powerful amidst all the glitz and glamour of Eternalia, and the world is theirs for the taking. They dance their nights away in hidden ballrooms and exclusive events hosted by nobility members; they drink in Fintan's living room and talk about life and pretend there are no consequences to any of this.

When they fall, it's hard and fast and more lust than it is love. They know that what they're doing is against their oaths, they know that if they get caught it's all over for them- and they don't care. They're young, they're a bit stupid, they're having fun sneaking around and dancing their nights away (and Bronte gives them smug looks when they're hungover and exhausted in Council meetings and he's fine).

There's never a question of them stepping down from the Council for each other. If there's one thing they agree upon, it's that they're both too ambitious to give up what they've worked so hard for, even for each other. It's not that kind of love.

I actually think it would be super interesting if Oralie supported Fintan's pyrokinesis experiments at first. I really enjoy the characterization of young!Oralie as incredibly ambitious and ready to push boundaries; we saw in the later books that Oralie, even in canon keeper, can be ruthless when needed. (Also, the fic Perfect Match on AO3 has a ruthless hold on how I characterize Oralie in the early days of her Councillorship.) It's one of the things Fintan and Oralie bond over- they're both ambitious and overconfident and ready to push the boundaries of what's possible. They're ready to change the world. It drives a wedge between each of them and Bronte, as well as contributing to Kenric and Oralie's initial hatred of each other- Kenric thinks she's arrogant and foolish and Oralie thinks he's patronizing. But Fintan- Fintan believes in Oralie, and she believes in him, and they make each other worse.

So Oralie supports Fintan in his experiments, and then they blow up in his face and five people die and she doesn't know what to think anymore.

The everblaze incident and the ensuing pyrokinesis ban is a formative moment for both of them, and a turning point in their relationship. At first, to Oralie, it hardly seems real. Death is such a foreign concept to the elves, and they were Fintan's friends, not hers. She almost wants to pretend that things can go on the same as before. Fintan, meanwhile, is wracked by guilt and grief, and it fundamentally changes him as a person. He supports the pyrokinesis ban, steps down from the Council, and becomes increasingly isolated and unstable. Oralie wants to keep what they had, but Fintan is no longer the same.

They have a horrible fight about it not long after Fintan steps down from the Council, and break up nastily. This coincides with Bronte and Fintan's relationship becoming worse and worse, and Fintan locks himself away from his former friends and grows steadily more consumed by his yearning for flames.

Oralie, over the years, begins to recognize how dreadful the everblaze incident truly was, and how arrogant they all were to think that the fire of the sun itself could be controlled by elves. She's still ambitious and rebellious, but she begins to grow wiser and more humble, as well as more subtle in how she enacts her plans. She aligns herself with the Black Swan and gets involved in Project Moonlark, though she still generally believes in Council.

Fintan, meanwhile, after getting past the initial years of trying to cope (badly) with his grief, becomes increasingly obsessed with trying to control everblaze. He longs for flame and begins to hate the world that bans and scorns his ability, even though the ban was his idea in the first place. He founds the Neverseen and starts working actively against the Council.

By the time they meet again in canon, some hundreds of years after they broke up to begin with, they hardly recognize each other. There's no trace of the carefree young elves they once were; Fintan is bitter and unstable and prone to violence, and Oralie is older, more tired, more cautious. The shadow of their ill-fated relationship still hangs over them, though- it's a struggle to reconcile who they are now with who they once were.

Oralie does still cry for Fintan's mind break.

Fintan takes a smug glee in tormenting Oralie with reminders of Kenric's death- his relationships are often defined with jealousy and a desire for control, and not only has he definitively eliminated Oralie's new love, he's gleeful at the power he has over her.

Honestly, I don't know how to end this whole ramble, so have one final thought about them:

However you want to headcanon Bronte and Fintan's relationship (brothers, old friends, lovers, etc.), Bronte is the unspoken ghost that hovers between Oralie and Fintan after their breakup. He's both of their friend in those early days in Eternalia, one of the most important people in Fintan's life and quickly becoming the same for Oralie. Their shared ambition and lack of caution drives a wedge between them and Bronte, who thinks that the experimentation with pyrokinesis is a bad idea- and he's proven spectacularly right with the deaths of five people.

After the ban, Oralie and Bronte bond over their love for Fintan and their helplessness to do anything about the guilt that torments him. Fintan, meanwhile, grows yet further away from them both, where once he and Bronte were closer than anything. His hatred and glee at his power over Oralie are driven in part by a horrible jealousy- he should be the most important to Bronte. He should have the power over Bronte that Oralie does. He's jealous of Oralie, and he's jealous of Kenric, and he can't cope with the fact that Bronte decided to sentence him to exile. He's furious about that, but he also idolizes Bronte and can't seem to hate him, so all the rage is subsumed into blaming Oralie for taking his place in Bronte's heart. It's the same way he can't accept that Oralie doesn't love him anymore, so he blames Kenric instead.

[truedairship]

Tell me more about your horse, please?

Ooohh boy never ask someone about their horse or they won’t shut up. Okay. I have no idea how much you know about horses, so I’ll try to keep the horse terms to a minimum.

Getting her is a bit of a funny story really. And kind of relevant. But background info: Us mere mortals can’t afford horses competing at the higher levels. Your only chance is basically to buy a promising youngster, train them yourself and hope that the stars align and that in a few years you can compete at the level you wanted. But most of those horses are quite expensive as well. Everybody wants those with good blood for a reason (blood = lineage, breed, how reactive yada yada).

I wasn’t even gonna buy a horse back then because I knew I would be moving abroad a year later, and I already had my pony. (Whom I had considered selling to afford a horse but whatever). Anyways, I helped my trainer break in her youngsters, they got an extended summer break after, and come winter she called me and asked if I wanted C. Because they didn’t get along. She had been a… special cookie… to break in, but an incredibly fun one. So yeah. I got a good horse real cheap because she’s crazy.

She’s… well, she’s a brat. A stubborn, explosive bitch that’s too damn smart for her own good and the biggest goddamn drama queen the world has ever seen. She’s also one of the most hardworking, powerful and talented horses I’ve ever ridden. Her teenage years were eventful to say the least, and it has been a lot of work to teach her some proper manners. I could probably fill a book with all the stupid stunts she’s pulled over the years. But at the same time, that’s kind of the charm. You never have a boring day with her.

Despite her attitude and the drama, she’s genuinely very kind. She just doesn’t show it if she doesn’t have to😅 But she never wants to drop her rider, I’ve only fallen off because we stumbled over an xc-jump and she almost did a somersault. And while she usually is too impatient to stand still, whenever there’s small kids around she won’t move a leg, but you can see her literally twitching because that is tiny human. Must not move. Tiny human fragile, stepping on will injure. She was also the one who accompanied youngsters on their first forest hacks at my old job, because, while hacking out usually is a rollercoaster ride of jumping away from invisible monsters hiding behind stones (thoroughbreds in my heart<3), when the kiddos came with, she was super cool and they could even run into her and she didn’t even bat an eye. Because they are her adopted siblings now and Ohana means family.

So yeah. She has quite the personality but this is already getting long. And when it comes to riding, well, attempting to avoid using technical terms, you can teach just about any horse to move fancy, but riding a horse that does it naturally is just something else. She does everything with such ease and such power. And she loves to learn new stuff, which to me is the most important part. I’d rather ride an eager horse with zero talent than an unmotivated one. Because having to force them to work… nope.

Generally with horses, if you have a bad day, it’s 50/50 whether you’ll have one of the nicest rides of your life because the horse notices that you’re not at your best, or you’ll have what feels like the worst one ever because nothing works and the horse decides that if you’re not gonna try your best, they won’t either. 9/10 times, she’s the first type (and considering that we sometimes can spend the entire warmup discussing whether the chair in the corner will eat us or not, that’s saying something)

That’s also kind of why I’m selling her. I don’t have the time to ride her everyday. So when I do, she’s super duper happy and energetic and it makes me feel all guilty that I can’t ride her more. And it breaks my heart every time she comes running towards me in the field all eager, only for me to give her a pat and a carrot then leave (makes me feel like a parent that doesn’t have time for their kid so they spoil them with toys instead😅). I usually give her a kiss on the nose as a goodbye, but lately she refuses to let me do it unless I have ridden her first. And no, that’s not an exaggeration.

Tl;dr: She’s a bitch, she’s amazing, she drives me crazy and she’s my best friend. Being allowed to ride her is an honour. (and unfortunately she’s aware of that😆)

[practically-an-x-man]

Do you have any cute future dad Warren thoughts you'd want to share? :>

Yes, in fact, I do :D

So many thoughts...

I'm going to write a few fics about this, him and Rae settling down and become parents and all that, but I don't mind sharing a few things here :D

First off, just imagining Warren being incredibly worried and anxious about being a dad at first, since he's afraid he'd turn into his father, but just being incredibly attentive and loving all throughout Rae's pregnancy.

Once April's born, Rae's effectively on bedrest (there was a complication with the birth and she had to get an emergency surgery, she's fine but needs to heal a bit) so she can't do as much around the house, and Warren would absolutely be the type to just pick up the slack without complaining, and any time Rae tries to step back in before she's healed he's urging her right back into bed because he'd hate for one of his girls to get hurt.

He'd be the first one up when April starts crying in the middle of the night, because Rae already doesn't get enough sleep and he hopes he can get the baby quiet before she loses what little sleep she is able to get (that, and he just really loves his daughter and wants to comfort her). I mean really, he's the ultimate wife guy and girl dad, he'd do anything to make sure they're both comfortable and safe.

He still doesn't lose that anxiety when August is born, too - he was anxious about April because she's their first child, but he's anxious about Auggie because he's their son and it brings up more of that anxiety about turning into his father. He's almost grateful to have that anxiety at times, since it keeps him aware of himself, but he still is nothing but an incredibly loving and gentle dad.

Imagining him picking up the kids from daycare and flying them home. Imagining April and Auggie talking to their classmates at daycare about how their dad can fly, and them never believing it until Warren actually shows up to pick them up. Imagining him being really patient with the other kids, since some of them have never seen mutants before and he wants to set a good impression. Imagining April genuinely believing her middle name is "sweetheart" because of how many times she's heart "April, sweetheart..." at home - and thinking that her mother's first name is "love" for the same reason.

Imagining him being open about his history with them, how he got his scars and why they don't talk to their grandfather on that side, everything like that. Obviously he softens things a little, since they're young and he doesn't want to scare them, but he doesn't hide that part of his life from them.

Imagining him building snowmen with them in the backyard when it's winter, and taking them down to the lake or the town fair when it's summer, and all those other trips he missed out on when he was a kid. He doesn't spoil them, but he does let them be kids and enjoy themselves.

Imagining him when the kids' mutations come in - April's when she's eleven and Auggie's when he's fourteen. April gets wings like his own and ends up locking herself in the bathroom the same way Warren did as a child, and he spends an hour just sitting outside the door and talking to her until she calms down enough to open the door. Auggie's mutation emerging is a lot less intense (he can create barrier protections, like glyphs, as an offshoot of Rae's mutation), but Warren is still just as attentive there. He and Rae make it a point to make sure the kids are comfortable with their mutations and accept that as part of themselves, since both of them struggled with that in their own ways.

Imagining him taking the kids down to the X-Mansion regularly, just to make friends and hang out with other mutants (and sometimes for babysitting so he and Rae can have date night), and him gravitating towards all the other mutant kids with parent troubles. He already connected with them a bit before, but it's only magnified once he has kids of his own, and he becomes a pseudo-dad to a whole bunch of mutant kids who don't have accepting families of their own. Imagining him taking them all out to the mall or the movies, and always remembering to ask about their hobbies and favorite classes and to really pay attention and remember what they all say. Imagining him having a dozen kids' artworks on his fridge, not just April and Auggie's.

Imagining him assuring the kids time and time again that he will always come get them, he will always bail them out, whether they get into fights or get arrested or sneak out to drink or smoke pot or whatever else. He can't promise he won't be mad, or at least disappointed, but he will always come get them. The kids are bound to have at least one rebellious stage - just look at their parents - and he's expecting that, he just wants to make sure they know they can always call him and he'll be there.

Imagining him always making sure to speak to Rae respectfully, even when they're both tired and overwhelmed (because that happens to everyone), not just because Rae deserves it but because he knows he'll be an example to the kids, what they see in their parents' relationship is what they'll see as normal for their own romantic partners, and people who see positive romantic relationships growing up are more likely to recognize domestic abuse. Imagining Warren taking the kids out on mock "dates" periodically for the same reason, modeling what they should expect for a romantic partner in the future so they can have good standards.

He definitely wouldn't be a perfect dad, especially since he doesn't have those good experiences to fall back on in his own life. There are definitely times when he slips up and makes a mistake, or accidentally repeats something his own dad did without realizing it, or would just get overwhelmed and would need to leave the situation for a bit so he doesn't do anything he'll regret. But he'd have a support system, with Rae and her family and all the others at the X-Mansion, and he'd really just do everything he can to break the cycle. And above everything else, it would just be really incredibly obvious that he loves his family so unbelievably much and would do anything for them.

[dutifulsilence]

💐

💐    for my muse’s mother to talk about their child.

"Oh, my little hero? You want to hear about him?" Maki's got her hands full, with a tiny toddler in one arm and a ladle in the other hand. Mellia blinks cornflower blue eyes at the stranger asking about her older brother, too young to understand why anyone would ask about her brother.

Her dirt-covered, bug-chasing older brother. Who was supposed to be playing with her, not running around with the other kids, pretending at being a knight.

Maki adjusted her hold on Mellia and stirred the stew she was cooking before turning to the stranger. "Link's a brave little fellow, good and kind-hearted just like his papa. There's something special in a young boy like him, to already know what he wants in his life. And to have bested a grown man in sword play, with a wooden sword, at that! He's going to go far in his dream."

She gives a soft smile, barely there, as her eyes, green as the grass in spring, sparkle with all the love of a mother. "I feel I may have filled his head with too many stories of the Heroes long past, put him on a path that makes a child a man too soon in life. He's only six, after all, and his father talks of taking him to train as a knight."

She moves to the table, setting Mellia down in her high chair before offering the stranger a cup of tea - her own blend from herbs gathered and traded among the other women in the village. "Sometimes, I wonder if I've done right by my son. Or if by giving him the Hero's name, I've cursed him to a life of loss and pain. I hope to Hylia he grows up to be strong, brave, and as kind as any other hero."

Maki lifted her head and smiled. "No matter what the future holds in store for my Link, I'm his mother, and all I wish for him is happiness."

The door to the ranch house bursts open, and young blond boy covered in dirt and mud runs into the house, hands held in front of him. "Mami! Mami, look! I rescued it!" In his hands, in a delicate hold, Link carries a young sparrow. "It's wing's hurt!"

Link doesn't even notice the stranger, focused on the bird in his hand and looking to his mother for advice.

"I'm sorry, friend," Maki says, turning to the stranger. "Duty calls for this mother. I hope you enjoyed your tea."

[thefunnyandthoughtful]

A few more ingredient ideas:

Cabbage (crunchy but generally noticable flavor)

Spinach (when chopped finely, can be disguised in lots of stuff)

Yellow squash (can be cooked until very soft or left slightly crunchy; great with cheese; does have seeds)

Spaghetti squash (literally nature's pasta)

Butternut squash (great pureed and put on pasta; 20/10 recommend for tomato haters)

Peas (can be blended into a pesto for pasta)

Herbs (such as basil, chives, oregano, thyme, rosemary, marjoram, parsley, and sage -- if you find an herb you like, it can help drown out other veggie flavors)

A few recommendations from someone who hasn't always eaten veggies:

If you're someone who struggles with seeing their veggies, I humbly recommend the quesadilla. Chopped spinach will lose its leafiness when cooked inside a quesadilla (or grilled cheese). Chopped cabbage will still remain pretty crunchy; it's flavor can be drowned out with a little BBQ sauce.

If you're someone who doesn't mind a lot of textures/colors/flavors, I humbly recommend stir fry. Chuck some veggies you like in with proteins and rice, add some seasoning, and see what works.

If you don't like the texture of veggies, try incorporating pureed veggies into pasta sauces, pestos, or pizza sauces.

General Cooking Tips:

Boiling isn't always your friend, so if texture's the issue, it might be time for a new approach. Try steaming, frying, or roasting in the oven.

Oil, salt, and pepper can transform some veggies when cooking.

If you don't like a lot of seasonings, or you just want your veggies roasted plain, get your paws on a dish like a CorningWare. Cook your veggies in them until tender, and you can mash or puree them.

Don't be afraid to cook/prepare extra! If you buy a cabbage and you know you'll eat the whole thing chopped, then chop it all and put what you won't eat for this meal in a mason jar in the fridge! Then, the next time you want cabbage, it's already ready!

Also, veggies have families. Some veggies are clearly related but other veggies don't seem like they'd be related when they actually are! It might be helpful to find out what veggies are related to the ones you like and dislike. You might like and dislike different foods from the same family, but you also might discover that you dislike more foods from certain families than others. It's not a perfect method, but it can be a tool in guiding your search!

i mean this in the gentlest way possible: you need to eat vegetables. you need to become comfortable with doing so. i do not care if you are a picky eater because of autism (hi, i used to be this person!), you need to find at least some vegetables you can eat. find a different way to prepare them. chances are you would like a vegetable you hate if you prepared it in a stew or roasted it with seasoning or included it as an ingredient in a recipe. just. please start eating better. potatoes and corn are not sufficient vegetables for a healthy diet.

[chloesimaginationthings]

This could be a kart if FLAF wasn't fucking around..

[daisybell-on-a-carousel]

Being someone who read Under The Red Hood and came out with the firm belief that, for Jason, it's not about killing Joker, it's about Jason wanting proof Batman would choose him over the Joker (bc shelia chose the joker). Makes seeing any other media where it's all about just wanting the Joker dead is a teeny bit frustrating. to be honest

Jason could've killed the Joker himself, really, really easily. Jason kidnaps the Joker before the confrontation. I can't open my comic for a reference right now, but it felt like he had the Joker for quite a bit before the confrontation. He had him. He beat him up with a crowbar. He had every single opportunity to kill the Joker himself, but he didn't because that wasn't his goal. Make no mistake, he did plan for the Joker to be dead by the end of it, but do you see what im trying to say here

Edit: If I knew this post was gonna get 1000+ notes I would've tried to word it better or something, this was a rant I made on the way to the grocery store 😭

It's not about making Batman kill either. When Batman says he won't kill, Jason adjusts and goes, 'Let ME kill the Joker or kill me to stop me' instead. The test is all about Batman choosing him. The whole final confrontation is Jason's first death again. The parent, The Joker, and the explosives. It even ends with Jason unable to move as a bomb goes off right next to him again because the parent didn't choose Jason. And instead tried finding an option that'd benefit them and (consequencely) letting the Joker walk, again, lol, lmao <-in agony

[zorangezest]

thanks for listening

[jimpagne]

This also reminds me of all the people who constantly call Jimin an abuser and someone who makes Jungkook incredibly uncomfortable. It seems that people just want to see what they want to see.

God. What is wrong with these people?

See, the thing is ... if Jimin was allegedly abusing Jungkook (or vice versa), enlistment aside, why on earth would any of the other members sit back and allow it to happen? Are of all them complicit in the abuse of Jungkook/Jimin if it makes them an extra dime or dollar? A lot of this is usually pushed by taekookers (in terms of Jimin), but that begs the question, why would one half of your pairing hype up Jimin and claim that he is their very best friend if he's actively abusing their partner? Wouldn't that make Taehyung a complicit bystander in the abuse of Jungkook?

If you put two seconds of thought into this accusations, they quickly fall apart. These people constantly like to undermine the intelligence of the BTS members, and many people have been accusing Jimin of making Jungkook uncomfortable/abusing Jungkook for YEARS. So if it had been truly going on for multiple years, why on Earth would Jungkook continue to renew his contract with the group and the company? These boys have outside lawyers that are not involved with the company, so why would they put the financial interests of the company at the forefront if their client is a victim of abuse?

Jungkook also has a tattoo to represent all of the members on top of his 7 tattoo... If if he really didn't like Jimin, why on earth would he get something so permanent? Same for Jimin, if he was being mistreated by Jungkook, why would he also share the same tattoo artist with him and agree to matching tattoos?

These people get so used to watching edited/fabricated videos that they forget that if you just consume it normally outside of the braindead hellscape that is some "ship-analysis" content (no amount of red circles and slow motion will ever prove your hateful agenda correct), you would see that no, Jimin and Jungkook are not fucking abusive toward each other. No, Jimin does not make Jungkook uncomfortable, and Jungkook does not make Jimin uncomfortable.

You don't even need to be a shipper to see that these type of accusations toward Jimin and Jungkook are horrible and unfounded.

Although it is semi-unrelated, I always see a lot of talk surrounding Jimin and Jungkook's enlistment, and whether or not them using the buddy system makes them more "real" or more "fake" as a potential couple. In my opinion, as a queer person, I think it's incredibly disgusting when certain people chop up queer relationships to nothing but sex.

"Oh, but they can't have sex in the military, so why would they enlist together?"

What the fuck does that even mean?

At this point, it seems that certain people are fetishizing gay relationships and not necessarily seeing them on par with straight ones. Do you think gay people need a daily sexual encounter to enjoy spending time with their partners? That's really fucking weird and it's beyond the mindset of a toxic fujioshi.

Surprise, you don't need sex for a relationship to thrive, especially if you're in a environment where it could put you in danger.

Whether or not you ship certain members, this type of thinking is harmful to the queer community and also insulting to the many queer soldiers who are forced to enlist in South Korea with partners waiting for them on the side.

you jikookers would be the ones to believe that men can't be abuse victims with the way you rationalize and antagonize jimin. you see him as the 'damsel' to defend jungkook simply because you know that jungkook's behavior is sketch.

How many people do you know who willingly and happily enlist together as buddies in the military where they are basically together most of the time, with their abusers?

How many people do you know who like to travel around and make memories with their abusers, anon? Maybe I missed a chapter so please do tell.

[forgettable-au]

END OF CHAPTER ONE

FORGETTABLE-AU (Page 65-72)

* Time to put this puzzle together.

[BEGINNING] [PREVIOUS] [CONTINUE]

[reengeen]

NEW OBSESSION AQUIRED

[galedekarios]

Gale + Being Chosen

"I'm what one might call a wizard prodigy, who from an early age, could not only control the Weave, but compose it, much like a musician or a poet. Such was my skill that it earned me the attention of the mother of magic herself. The Lady of Mysteries. The goddess Mystra. She revealed herself to me and became my teacher. In time, she became my muse, and later, even my lover."

"I know what it is to have a closer connection than most with the gods."

[nin-varisse]

This was the hardest decision of my life because I'd literally give up everything that's dear to me to attend any of these. Therefore this deserves a more detailed reasoning and ranking (i love ranking things, sue me) on how much I'd want to see those presentations!

10. Smeagol - I don't like Smeagol, I don't like fish, there's literally no reason for me to be there

9. Aragorn - The topic doesn't sound too interesting and I can't deal with a monotone style of presentation, HOWEVER his melancholy might lead fun places and Arwen might attend

8. Gil Galad - I just love that his parentage is a mystery, because it's fun to speculate (son of russingon ftw) but I also want those juicy juicy details

7. Elrond - Again the topic sounds a bit boring but it might be very helpful. Also I just love Elrond and I want him to know that he's supported in his passions

6. Sam - LISTEN, I LOVE SAM so so much and I'd listen to him for hours talking about his interests, however... I'm not that big of a cook + the other presentations (+ their presenters) promise more fun and chaos

5. Bilbo - Honestly one of my biggest wishes is having Bilbo telling me tales of his old adventures (as truthful as they might me), so I'D BE STOKED. Big plus for the bickering if any of the dwarves or even Gandalf himself attend

4. Feanor - He's an intense, passionate [read: unhinged] man and this might lead to a rebellion, so why wouldn't I want to be part of that?

3. Maglor and Finrod - THE DRAMA, just those two getting increasingly more fed up with the other's opinions is SENDING. Also please add Fingon to this, who doesn't care about music theory at all. "It's just about the feelings, guys". I hope I'm allowed to bring popcorn

2. Sauron - The presentation is exactly one slide "He's hot - case closed" and then 4 hours of talking about all that kinky kinky stuff I'm there for

Glorfindel - I love him and I just want to know what is going on inside that pretty little head of his

[zero-is-nebulous]

Tee bee atech I might jig this design a bit but this is what I have so far, he's a Japanese dragon because uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuh he's a big tall strong handsome man and allat

[remxedmoon]

go my hyucker (human gucker)

ssso my good friend pastell @startagainaprologue mentioned it was struggling with making a human design for the guide and i rubbed my hands together evilly and got to work. aaaaa this was super fun to work on!!!!! thankyou again for letting me draw this graaaa. as always my deranged character design ramblings are below the cut 👍

CHARACTER DESIGN BLAST

most of guide’s colors are slightly shifted to be closer to red and more… desaturated? my default bonnie colors clashed with the palette i usually use for guide so they got changed slightly. i did add the blue on the sash as a reference to my nille design however! and i tend to use cooler colors to represent countries outside of vaugarde, so you could interpret it as a link to the island. if you so desire :3

speaking of the sash, just about everything they’re wearing here is based on another character!! in this case, it’s meant to resemble nille’s waist sash! but with a different pattern. something something only having an imitation of what it lost. the stars are meant to represent siffrin and loop, and also just the universe in general. fun stuff!

i mostly just made their shirt longer for the sake of looking Different from normal bonnie? but combined with the sash it has the fun bonus of having a silhouette similar to siffrin’s cloak. not full intentional but hey! i’ll take it!

the gems on its tail are there to represent odile!! as well as referencing the ka buan tradition of compressing ashes into diamonds. you can draw your own conclusions there! and they go ding ding when it walks :3

the hat/halo isss probably self explanatory? it’s a way to fit guide’s Spiky Head into the design. the halo was added pafter pastell drew buns version of the design auau. i like both! so their hat can be whatever shape you please.

okay! nno more talking about clothes i promise. similar to my ghostlight loop design, i gave it spikier hair!! i have to give sponsors spiky hair to resemble their Spiky Heads. it’s the law. their hair was supposed to be shorter but. i’m pretty sure this is the exact same length i usually draw bonnie’s hair. oops? oh well it looks cute. the stars are honestly just there for fun i didn’t have anything specific in mind

in a similar vein, i changed their eye shape to match the eye shape on guide’s ref! perpetually Sad Looking. on the bright side they aren’t constantly crying anymore!

thheir body is. mostly the same? i decided to make their body Red Tinted for the sake of consistency and i removed the separated limbs aaand. that’s basically it? not much to say! i did add the halo bracelet around their wrist as a callback to the separation though. i didn’t do the same for its shoulder because i am Lazy 🩶

aaand i think that’s everything? well it Isn’t but i think everything else is self explanatory and frankly this is long enough as is. here is the """greyscale""" version as compensation 🩶

[nachobsns]

Hello - I was impressed and extremely relieved by what you wrote in the post about the cult mentality of the Left RE Israel and accusations of genocide. You mentioned that you bought into the mindset until recently. If it's all right for me to ask, what was it that helped you break out of it? (Please feel free to delete/ignore if you'd rather not answer!)

thank you!! and no worries about asking— i think i put something in my pinned post about how people are welcome to send asks about this stuff, although my story isn’t super interesting. i fell down the typical online rabbithole, a couple weeks after october 7; i knew what had happened, at least vaguely, but the posts trickling onto my dash were all about the (undeniably tragic) loss of life in gaza, with little to no acknowledgment of the hamas atrocities that had started the war, so my narrative was pretty one-sided from the beginning. it just continued to snowball as the months went on and people became more radicalized, calling into question the reality of the 10/7 attacks and the humanity of all israelis. i never went all the way down the pipeline to full-on endorsing hamas or justifying their attacks, at least on a personal level, thank god, but i would reblog other people’s posts referring to hamas as a “resistance movement” and calls to boycott starbucks and mcdonald’s and condemnation of the “zionist media” etc etc etc. what pulled me out of it wasn’t any one thing— if someone had directly called me on my flawed logic and antisemitic biases while i was in this mindset, i doubt it would have done much, just reinforced my belief that i was on the “right side of history” and zionists were aggressors who couldn’t be reasoned with. it was mostly just passive observance and a slow exposure to other perspectives. i’m pretty sure the first post that led me to question my thinking was an ask on jewish-vents, which popped up on my dash in like, late july. this led me down another rabbithole, first scouring every single post on jewish-vents, then moving on to more popular jewish blogs that i had seen on “zionist blocklists” (applesauce42069, xclowniex, and spacelazarwolf were probably some of the blogs that influenced me the most, though i told myself i was just hate-scrolling at first, lol). i felt incredibly guilty seeing all the harm the movement i was a part of had caused to random jews and israelis just trying to live their lives and i realized how it went against everything i believed about how minority groups should be treated. from there, the aspect of actually undoing my thinking and changing my behavior for the better still took several weeks. denial of jewish indigenity to the levant in the face of tantamount archeological and cultural evidence was the first to go, as well as any ambiguity in my feelings about hamas. after that, it’s mostly been a slow process of redefining the idf’s actions from a “genocide” to a “war.” i still believe that what’s happening in gaza is unconscionable and horrific, and that too many innocent civilians have died, but i also understand how difficult it is to fight against a terrorist group that systematically embeds itself in civilian populations, and that the ratio of militant to civilian deaths is incredibly low compared to most urban warfare. i quietly deleted my old blog in early august— if i had directly engaged in harassment against jews, i likely would have kept it to make amends to the harmed parties and put a face to my actions, but as was, i had just contributed to the larger atmosphere of antisemitism on this site, and i felt uncomfortable knowing that i had a blog full of sentiments that no longer matched my values and beliefs. i decided i would be better if i took my endorsement out of the equation entirely, because when you’re looking through the notes of a post, it obviously doesn’t matter if someone who’s reblogged it no longer agrees with what was said— their notes still count as tacit approval, and i did not want approval of this “activism” attached to my online presence. i still have unwanted kneejerk reactions that crop up sometimes, particularly around the fundraiser posts from people “in gaza”; even though i know logically that they have all the markers of scams, there is still a part of me that really wants to believe i could help.