#sorry skdjsjd

[fullwets]

guys I have to speak my truth. the shirt lewis is wearing is extremely ugly

[escxelle]

i'm convinced sleep token are stem girlies because the amount of physics, maths and chemistry in their lyrics hmmm. lemme list all the references below the cut <3 (just as an fyi: this is a joke and i'm not being serious!! i'm just pointing out all the science references in their songs, dw)

alright, bit of a stretch to start but: "sulfur on your breath, granite in my chest." - granite from take me back to eden (2023). sulfur obviously being an element and granite is a rock (i'm not a chem student, i do astrophysics sorry idk anything else skdjsjd)

i'm being really picky but like "these days i'm a circuit board, integrated hardware you cannot afford." - aqua regia from take me back to eden (2023). vessel is an engineering girlie!! /j also i could point out the latin title is a mixture of nitric acid and hydrochloric acid sooo

still in aqua regia, we have "sugar on the blood cells, carbon on the brain." mhm, speak stem girlie!

aqua regia is full of stem textbooks: "oxytocin running in the ether. silicon ballrooms. subatomic interactions if it's all good. gold rush, acid flux. saturate me, i can't get enough. cold love, hot blood." so the debrief: oxytocin is a hormone. ether are a class of compounds. the rest i think is self-explanatory, as they're elements and cute little stem terms oxox

i love stretching. "your viscera welcome me in." - vore from take me back to eden (2023). viscera are the large organs inside the body, including the heart, stomach, lungs, and intestines. biology girlies!! /j

more stretching <3 "who encrypted your dark gospel in body language? synapses snap back in blissful anguish." - ascensionism from take me back to eden (2023). encryption is the process of encoding information!! a computer science girlie!! then synapses are the places where neurons connect and communicate with each other <3

"half algorithm, half deity. glitches in the code or gaps in a strange dream." who ate a programming textbook?! /j

"digital demons make the night feel heavenly." side note but i think we should start calling trolls digital demons.

"lipstick, chemtrails, red flags, pink nails." has someone maybe studied chemtrails in their chemistry classes hmmm? /j

as i'm an astrophysics student i have to mention this: "the shifting states you follow me through." - the apparition from take me back to eden (2023). states, huh? liquid turning into a solid time is it? /j

"i feel my shadown dissolving." - rain from take me back to eden (2023). a metaphor or a chemistry textbook? /j

"it's that chemical cut that i can get down with." have many chemical cuts, huh?? /j

i'm an astrophysics girlie (gn) so i have to include this one: "a dangerous disposition somehow refracted in light, reflected in sound."

"i dream in phosphorescence." - take me back to eden from take me back to eden (2023). phosphorescence is a type of photoluminescence related to fluorescence. i mean, come on! the rest lyric? really?

"sink porcelain stained, choking up brain matter and make-up. just two days since the mainframe went down and i'm still messed up." biology and software engineering much? /j

"if my fate is a bad collision." - euclid from take me back to eden (2023). collision? huh are you a particle, hm? also euclid was a greek mathematician ! currently in my special relativity notes i have written "flat euclidean space"! riddle me that, sleep token. /j

"just orbiting the vacuum i am." - atlantic from this place will become your tomb (2021). yes, orbiting like the sun and moon and planets, right?? /j

"push down into membranes and layers, creating a slow dissection." - like that from this place will become your tomb (2021). yeah we get it, you're a biology student /j

"you lie an inch apart on your own continuum." - the love you want from this place will become your tomb (2021). continuum, huh?

"and though echoing futures are the buckling sutures." - fall for me from this place will become your tomb (2021). i bet you've seen many sutures huh dr. vessel! /j

right prepare for a lot of references here folks. "she's not acid nor alkaline." - alkaline from this place will become your tomb (2021). do i really have to explain the actions of this chem girlie? /j

"ooh, let's talk about chemistry 'cause i'm dying to melt through to the heart of her molecules 'til the particles part like holy water. if anything, she's an undiscovered element." i'm sure you'd love to infodump about your favourite subject! /j

"'cause i am broken into fractions." - distraction from this place will become your tomb (2021). i bet you deal with fractions all the time, you maths nerd!! /j

"and we go beyond the farthest reaches where the light bends and wraps beneath us and i know as you collapse into me." - telomeres from this place will become your tomb (2021). light bending? how very relativity of you. also telomeres are structures made from DNA sequences and proteins found at the ends of chromosomes.

"and i choke myself on sacred vapour." - high water from this place will become your tomb (2021). vapour because it's changed state, right? /j

"keep up on the charm offensive anymore." - missing limbs from this place will become your tomb (2021). i'm doing particle physics right now so i know exactly what a charm quark is! also limbs??? hello again dr. vessel /j

"'cause i look for scarlet and you look for ultraviolet." - higher from sundowning (2019). using ultraviolet filters for your astrophotography are you?? /j

"let the impulse to love and the instinct to kill entangle to one." - say that you will from sundowning (2019). entangle? entanglement? quantum entanglement? i'm connecting the dots.

"i want to roll the numbers. i want to feel my stars align again even if the earth breaks like burnt skin." - blood sport from sundowning (2019). an astrophysics fr /j

"and somewhere, somewhere the atoms stopped fusing." more stem!

"and out there, stuck in a quantum pattern, tangled with what i never said." this is something a theoretical physicist would say is all i'm saying. /j

now you have to listen to sleep token to hear these bangers >:)

[purgemarchlockdown]

And now it's Mikoto again.

Guess who's finally watching Hallucination.

[mayisgoingnuts]

I’m a lawyer now may

I learned it’s mostly making stuff up in the name of carmilla (mi amor)

SKDJSJD

I paid her guys.. I forgot to say sorry. She is officially my lawyer/silly /j

Carmilla is very proud and grateful

[ramonag-if]

we stan angry/upset mcs in this house! also i do think it’s VERY funny that after finding this out you can go and sleep with Irus like skdjsjdnd “did you just receive world shattering news? try sleeping with your boyfriend!”

also i feel like this tiktok audio kind of sums up the vibe i was thinking at least for my mc skdjsjd

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTRsRpSYV/

but i’d change it to:

mc: oh my god! *insert said world shattering news here*?! no!!!

mc, realizing they can have sex with their prince bf and forget about everything for like a hot minute: 👀👀👀

i’m so sorry if this makes no sense at all. my sense of humor is so messed up rn akdjsjdnd

Welcome upset/angry player 😆

I do love the anger and sadness because those were the reactions I enjoyed writing the most. But then, when do I not enjoy angst? 👀😅

And yes, it is funny! I thought about moving Irus' sex scene to the next chapter and then I thought, what better way to get over this awful shock than by spending time with the one person who's been with the MC from the very start? 😆

You'll get to debrief with Irus about everything because expect a morning after scene in chapter 6 😋

[saetoru]

so i was watching howl's moving castle, and saw this scene and thought of you and kaveh

like idk if it's been done, but it's literally the first thing that popped in my head >_<

TEEEEEEE HOWLS IS MY FAV EVER the line where he’s like “there you are sweetheart, sorry i’m late. i was looking everywhere for you” MAKES ME SO SICK AND UNWELL SKDJSJD

the first time i watched howls it was sub so i didn’t hear that line in dub and then i heard it on tik tok and i was like ????? that’s him ?????? in english ??????? HE SOUNDS SO GOOD

anyway that’s so me and kaveh ur so right hehe I ADORE U SM FOR THINKING OF ME 🥹 feel so loved oh em gee :,) oh what i would do to have kaveh be like “there you are sweetheart”

SOBS AND CRIES AND DIES

[dawningofdrag]

someone is yet to point out that scarlet looks like fabio in her confessional look and i hate to be the one to bring it up,,, but it must be said

[goldenhypen]

hellyos em, hru doing today ??

omg caelin 🥰 hiii my day has been pretty good, but it’s even better after seeing you in my inbox 🤩 how has your day been? 🥰

[sarahmaybank]

Hey. Hey hey hey ok so

Im on a mini hiatus from jatp.

I dont have enough energy to feel the super bright vibes it gives off right now so i'll be staying away from it until i feel better (i dont think it'll be a long time. i'll def come back, and there might be a few stray jatp reblogs here and there, but if you wanna unfollow u can it's whatever)

still gonna talk to my mutuals tho and my dms are open.

aand i might probably definitely temporarily change my url so i dont have to stare jatp in the face so i'll probs tag you all again when i do fair warning

I dont feel like tagging anyone but just so y'all know @calamitykaty @dream-a-little-bigger-x @n0wornever @reggiepeter @reggies-eyeliner @owens-joyner @julies-molina @molinareggie @sinsetcurve @veron-argentum @newthomally @whenstarsalign @crybabyddl @hellophantoms @randomestfandoms @alexademics @auroraperriineau

[chamomile-g-tea]

Hello I was just going through your art again, (which I love so much) and I was wondering if your ocs had any stories or writings that you may have done. I would like to know more about them and just wanted to ask. Thank you

Hello! Oh yes! And thank you 🥰 they aren’t super developed, just general ideas, I haven’t really written anything 😅 they all sort of exist in the same universe

Ophelia lives in an abandoned castle, raised by a duchess in secret who saved her as a kid during the purge of the giants. Alwin is sent to check up on her when the duchess falls ill but he gets spooked by Ophelia’s pet bear and they bond over their love of books. And then she decides she wants to see the world outside and he can’t stop her so he helps her :)

Casper is a giant who was fleeing the purge by sea in a group, but he stopped to save an overturned human ship and got struck by lightning. He washed ashore without his memory, and was taken in by an old lighthouse operator, Bertram, who lost his son to the sea a long time ago and sees Casper as a sort of second chance.

Jack and Amora- Amora is a giant/sizeshifter in Alradia, where giants used to fight off giant monsters but once the monsters left, giants slowly were banned/exiled for fear of their aimless power. And then an exiled ruler from another country came to take over Alradia by making a deal with the remaining monsters and Amora is the only shifter in hiding that can fight them. Also she was framed for assasinating a royal who was fighting for the giants and jack is a hotheaded guard who got pulled into the mess and they’re on the run together and he teaches her how to fight 🥰 also there’s a cool monster villainess who’s the ambitious daughter of the monster king 😈

[zouis-exes-to-lovers]

WAIT YOU CHANGED YOUR LAYOUT!!! I LOVE IT!!!! ZAYN LOOKS SO HOT IN THAT PHOTO!!!IM IN LOVE WITH ALL OF IT!!!💗

I DID!!! TYSM!!! skdjsjds and yeah he is.... i mean always but yes he is skdjsjds tyyyy

[apr1lias]

You ever just lie down and reflect on some things and think about how much of an idiot you are? I mean that’s totally not me right now...

[wingedbeings]

aa for the anon who asked how to delete a blog thats connected to their main without also risking deleting their main, tumblr deleted the draft i saved of your ask while taking screenshots for my answer and with that also your ask but here's my answer!!

aa i'm probably getting to this rather late but i sadly didn't get a notification for your ask D: tumblr still hasn't been showing me all my notifications and i thought it was fixed but i found out today and saw your ask when checking my inbox

generally you should be able to delete sideblogs without it affecting your main at all if that's what you mean with it being connected to your main!

here's how to do so on desktop:

you can delete any sideblog by clicking this at the top right of your dashboard

then it'll show you a list of options with one bit titled "blogs" and below that all of your blogs, when hovering over the sideblog you want to delete it'll show you this

when you click that it'll show you a list of options, of which you have to click the one saying "edit appearance"

this will take you to that specific blogs settings and when you scroll all the way down it'll show you this button at the bottom right!

all you have left to do then is click it and enter your email and password and confirm!

and here's how to do so on mobile:

you can delete any sideblog by clicking this at the bottom right of your dashboard

this will take you to one of your blogs (it doesn't matter which one), from there you have to click on your url with the downwards arrow next to it

then it'll show a list of all your blogs, and you'll be able to swipe left on the one you want to delete which will give you the option to like so!

all you have left to do then is enter your password and confirm!

i hope this is could help!! ♡

[astrifica]

Do you ever get just full of hatred and resentment towards people who are supposed to be your friends? And you cant stop it

I personally do yeah (mostly due to my BPD), therefore I just want to quickly say I’m really sorry you’re struggling with this type of response as I know how confusing and distressing it can be.

This response is most commonly caused by emotional dysregulation and is actually incredibly common in multiple mental illnesses/disorders. So know that this isn’t something you’re alone in experiencing!

The two most common forms of this type of emotional dysregulation are in BPD and ADHD, but it can also be caused (to some extend at least) by other forms of emotional dysregulation in for example, trauma disorders (especially c-ptsd), autism spectrum disorders, bipolar disorder, etc. Though when it stems from any of these it’s most commonly to lesser degrees and with less specific causes/triggers, where it might be more about indirect factors like not getting enough sleep instead of something directly invoking the response.

In BPD this is a symptom referred to as splitting, and in ADHD it’s caused by an ADHD specific co-morbidity/symptom called Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria (RSD). The link I added is a brief explanation on a post covering multiple things to do with ADHD, but here’s an article which further explains RSD! I believe the difference between whether this is caused by splitting or RSD lies in what triggers it, as in BPD it’s often a broader spectrum of triggers than in RSD but don’t quote me on that.

I do want to add that whether it has to do with emotional dysregulation does depend on what triggers the response! For example if you experience delusions, it can also be a response triggered by a false belief that your friends have actually done something that warrants the type of response you’re having. While if it’s rooted in emotional dysregulation it’s more like an exaggerated/irrational emotional response that seems to be triggered by something that shouldn’t cause a reaction as intense, like something you perceive as criticism. 

This is a fine line though, especially when you have less insight, because in that case your emotional response can feel completely justified while you’re in the situation or even afterwards still. So if that’s the case for you it might take some serious analysing of situations in which you feel this way to recognise the pattern of what exactly causes it.

I hope any of this helped at all but feel free to send any further asks on it! 

[morimallow]

When I spot errors in my works, I get shy and embarrassed. I'm like, wow, I should proof read more often but nooooo, I don't do that. I don't even proof read the manuscript that'll make most of my final grade. IT'S JUST THAT I GET SHY BECAUSE Y'ALL ALREADY READ IT AND I'm too embarrassed to read my works and.. and.. just correct me or something, please. 😭

[crookytails]

me watching the new mass effect teaser: