#sorry idk how to do a read more on mobile

[dear-crybunny]

apparently i never? posted my 10 pages of yusuke doodles? from most recent to oldest yippieee

[cloud-somersault]

Sorry, I just feel like the prose should have a personality 🤷

[battiegutz]

ok so basic rundown of the tethered au bc the autism worm is wiggling;

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tethered is another separated au, but i wanted to explore some broader avenues than just swapping them between splinter draxum big mama and the foot. so leo is raised as a fighter for the battle nexus, donnie is raised under the foot with cass as his sister, mikey is raised by aprils family, and raph is raised by tigerclaw. leo is not pampered under big mama, infact she resents him and partially blames him for splinters death. he is miserable. donnie and cass are close as hell and will always choose each other over the foot, despite dedicating their lives to the foot. they enjoy a good bit of chaos and destruction. tigerclaw found raph while visiting nyc and decided this child could become a great warrior if he trained him, and it could make him regain his honor. mikey was found by april and her parents were persuaded into letting him stay. he lives the most "normal" life out of all of them, as he and april befriended sunita when they were little so they were able to learn abt cloaking brooches and get one for mikey to attend human school and such. because of mikeys innate magical ability, he can feel his connections or "tethers" to his lost brothers. all the others do not know they have siblings, although donnie has had theories before. mikey wants to find his brothers but his connection to the tethers is extremely weak and wavers often. now back to leo, he has no motivation, no desire to continue, he would probably loose on purpose but his instincts wont let him. this all changes when big mama sees this and decides maybe manipulation shouldve been the route, so she hires yokai to clone leo so she can try again. this process results in lita, an albino red eared slider mutant, and leos clone. technically, shes "defective", as she isnt as strong as leo and the insta-aging didnt work so shes still a baby. lita gives leo something to fight for, and he escapes with her that night at age 11. him and lita live from hole to hole, avoiding big mamas goons, until about 5 years later, where they hide in the alley under aprils apartment and mikey finds them. this is where the story truly starts, when mikey feels the tether connecting him to leo snap into place. very epic swag anyway imma nap now feel free 2 send questions but i probs wont answer until l8r oop

[sacredthethreadgvf]

omg. you @ me on the picture of jake smoking??? i might pass out. ugh. it is soooo hot, i don’t know why either. i don’t even smoke, but that picture makes me want to shotgun with him so fucking bad. like? him blowing the smoke into my mouth and being so close that our lips brush over each other’s???? hot.

-j

Listen…LISTEN..

Don’t make me write this…

But like imagine you’re already high as hell and can’t hit the joint anymore so Jake offers to shotgun. You’re sitting next to him on his couch, feet up and sitting against each other so your thighs touch.

“You wanna put your hand up, or mine?” You ask sheepishly playing with your fingers.

“Huh?” He asks, tilting your head towards his so you make eye contact.

“Like, you want me to make a tunnel with my hand or do you wa-…”

“Fuck a hand in the way, that ruins it!” He says, winking at you with a wide grin.

You feel your face instantly flush hot. “Oh..ohhhh”

“Cmon,” he tilts his head. “This way we won’t waste any smoke.”

You watch as he takes a long drag off of the joint, transfixed on his lips wrapping around the end, feeling your heart begin to race at the thought of finally feeling his lips against yours. You watch as he looks at you, eyes low already. His finger tips graze your cheekbone down to your chin as he tugs you closer. You don’t know if it’s from the weed or the fact that you have had feelings for him for so long but you melt into his touch like butter and he barely has to pull your face towards his. You watch his eyes flick down towards your lips and stay there, transfixed. Next thing you know your mouth is opening against his as he transfers the smoke from his lungs into yours ever so slowly. His eyes have closed but you kept yours slightly open, just to be sure this moment was really happening as you inhaled the white smoke. You watched some of it drift between your faces as you were in shock at the feel of his sweet soft lips against yours. You pull away to exhale the smoke into the air.

In less than a second, as if you two were magnets pulling towards each other he grabbed your chin and pulled you into a heated kiss. The feeling of him plush bottom lip against yours stealing your breath…you let out a small whimper finally allowing your eyes to close and enjoy the feeling of the high and Jake’s lips. His smell consumed your senses as does the feeling of his lips and yours moving ever so slowly against each other. Kissing someone has never felt so unreal to you before. The throbbing between your legs is instantly there as his other hand rest on your inner thigh, squeezing ever so slightly.

You feel Jake suddenly bite down on your bottom lip softly and drag it away from your teeth, sucking your lip into his mouth and simultaneously grazing his tongue against it. You gasp into his mouth, chasing his lips for more. He pulls back and smirks at you ever so slightly, his cheeks rosy and lips slick with the combination of your spit.

“Another hit for my sweet doll?”

You scramble to straddle him. “I thought you’d never ask”

[rewrotethestars]

read or don’t read

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The main office of the BAU was weirdly quiet this morning. The usual foot traffic past the desks was slow. No urgent cases brought in by JJ and no meetings called to the round table by Prentiss. And with Reid out on special assignment without the spewing of random facts, it was just…calm.

Luke sat at his desk, eyes focused on the BAU chief’s office, where he could see glimpses of Penelope Garcia pacing around back and forth. He fathomed a guess as to why she was called in, head down with an anxious look on her face. The Tyler Fiasco is what he called it.

He had wanted her to look over at him so he could flash her a smile, let her know he was in her corner. He wanted to be the one to take the worried look off of her face.

Luke found himself subconsciously tapping his fingers on the desk while feeing anxious himself. He tried to focus on whatever paperwork he had left to fill out from the last case they got back from.

A few minutes later, after finally working through some of his paperwork he heard the sound of a door being opened. Out of the corner of Luke’s eye he could see the scurrying of a figure making their way out of the bullpen. He knew where she was heading to so he got stood up from his chair and followed suit.

Soon he found himself standing outside of Garcia’s “bat cave” as she calls it. The door is slightly ajar so he takes a moment to knock and push open the door, sticking his head in.

“Hey. Just saw you running out of Prentiss’ office. Everything okay?”

Penelope sighed, just staring at her computer screen, “Look I’m not really in the mood or right state of mind for an ‘I told you so speech’. Especially from you.”

Luke opened the door fully and walked in. He closed the door slightly behind him and pulled out the chair sitting next to her desk. “And to think I came all this way with a 5 page speech ready to scold you,” he teased. She didn’t laugh. “Well that’s something I was definitely not planning on doing.”

“Look, everybody messes up at some point, right?” Luke did his best to console her.

She scoffed and rolled her eyes at him, “Well not you, Mr. I always do everything perfect.” As quickly as she said that she looked over at him and immediately apologized, “I’m sorry, I’m sorry, force of habit.”

A moment of silence passed between them, “Well while we’re at it; maybe we could talk. You know, about how all you can do is apparently “dunk on me”, Luke chuckled.

He could sense the hesitation in her voice, “You know I’ve been thinking a lot about our date over the past, what, 2 years now? And…I guess I’m really sorry. About what I said. I didn’t mean it. You just joined the BAU at the worst time and of course you are just so…delicious looking. Don’t let that go to your head. I just needed a way to keep boundaries. I needed something, some space between us. I just knew it. And now…I just feel like I really screwed up anything between us.”

Luke nodded but didn’t speak.

Garcia looked down, fidgeting with her hands, “It’s really like I lost my head after this whole quarantine. And I just haven’t felt right since.”

Luke put his hand on hers, “I think that happened to just about everyone. But in the meantime maybe we can start over?”

“Yeah?” She asked, a small smile on her lips.

“Yeah. I can wait.”

[catdemontraphouse]

Note: referenced a post by @thedarkestcrow several times which I think is a really interesting one. Can’t seem to paste in the link🤨🙄 it was an ask answer about Sebastian’s contract

Hey also if anyone can tell me how to do “read more”on mobile… please tell me 😂🤦‍♀️

Just some character uh, idk analysis/hypothesis??

The more I think about it, the more I reckon Sebastian’s problem is that he has an unfortunate mother hen syndrome which he either isn’t fully aware of OR, more likely, is aware of but actively tries to deny. This is of course going off the assumption there is no governing body for demons like there is for reapers since we’ve never seen anything like that? And that Sebastian’s contract is something he made up for himself with no actual consequences outside his own judgement.

Sebastian goes above and beyond to critique and perfect the conduct of other people who are under his authority. His contract (which I won’t even get into atm lol) only states the following stipulations as far as I recall:

Yet he goes out of his way to not just keep OCiel alive but to rear him as he sees fit. He tries to feed him balanced meals and regulate his sugar intake, he demands the child brush his teeth well, instructs him diligently in various academic subjects etc.

Some of this you could argue is for the sake of the mission, i.e. making OCiel as versatile and cultured as possible in order to maintain social connections necessary for revenge. But I kind of have to wonder, is it even necessary? Like is that degree of adhering to societal expectations really required to reach the end goal? I mean maybe I’m wrong here but I feel like there’s other cheaper, quicker ways they could investigate who’s behind the cult than making alliances with other nobility and whatnot. 🤷‍♀️ Sebastian seems to spend more time teaching OCiel dancing or Latin than bloodily interrogating suspicious people who might be connected to the cult.

Same could be said for how Sebastian treats the servants. He praises them when they manage to or at least make good efforts at upholding high standards of etiquette and efficiency in their roles as housekeepers, even though he knows that isn’t really what they’re useful for. They were hired to be bodyguards in essence. I get that they want housekeepers around to make it look “normal” so people won’t question the Phantomhive household but I just find Sebastian’s dedication to molding them into proper servants a little more intense than is probably necessary? Could be he is just tired of doing everything alone but also this guy built a wholeass mansion in a night alone with magic. He could magically clean the whole house alone if he really wanted to, probably? Or maybe he’s running low on MP from not eating lol. Idk I’m just saying he seems to almost enjoy being a teacher even if his students piss him off.

He tells Will he’s “tired of messily sampling every dish available to him” and how that’s his reason for basically starving himself. I guess it would be like… idk a farmer raising a single giant pumpkin and waiting to eat that instead of growing lots of crops and eating regularly? An obsession with cultivation at the expense of well-being.

At one point the reaper says this about Sebastian compared to other demons:

This suggest you don’t *need* to make a contract to eat a soul, which would mean Sebastian’s suffering is self-inflicted. Because he’s obsessed with rearing and tending to things.

He says he enjoys “playing butler” and what that behavior translates to in Sebastian’s day-to-day life is essentially being a care giver. He enjoys raising and caring for things weaker than himself.

We see a similar behavior when it comes to cats. The main difference here I think is that cats dont seem to be considered demon food as far as we can tell. He doesn’t ever try to write off or hide his love of cats. Keep that in mind for later.

He also mentions that there are pets in his world but he basically indicates that he finds them ugly and unappealing. So having affection for other beings doesn’t seem to be an unusual thing for his species per say? It’s just what they find cute is very different from Sebastian.

There is no discussion of the demonic world other than this, Sebastian never returns there or mentions having friends or something akin to family there etc. He never spends time with other demons in the manga canon even though this panel kind of implies they have some sort of world or society? He seems oddly divorced from his own kind, doesn’t he? Or is that just me that thinks so idk

I think ultimately Sebastian finds what is, for his own kind, considered probably ugly and stupid livestock somehow endearing and cannot really cope with that. He is probably considered weird or creepy by members of his own species, and while he’s aptly aware of that he can’t help but be amused by humans and want to impress them. He doesn’t just fulfill the contract he goes out of his way to do it in a fashion that makes humans go “oh wow.” It’s not for the sake of impressing other demons!! They’re not watching. He doesn’t associate with other demons, ever. Only reapers, who I might add were once human dunno if that matters tho. He wants humans to *like him* he goes out of his way to charm humans that will do nothing for him except satiate his own ego and attention span.

But he eats them to survive. And also as a demon, he isn’t supposed to grow attached to humans. So he’s battling with this cognitive dissonance constantly, I theorize. Like he kills and eats people but at the same time, he likes raising them like pets? He loves teaching them things and is proud when he cultivates a human that really stands out among other humans. I have reason to believe he is an outcast in his own society and part of him is pained by that? Idk it’s all speculation but I’m fuckin autistic and stuff so I have to write essays about it.

I can’t find the damn video but there was this one VA live reading of a hypothetical scene where OCiel is dead after Sebastian ate him and he’s still going thru the motions of celebrating the kids birthday like… WTF? This man ate his pet and realized it was a mistake major wtf moment

Sebastian is like one of those Karens that breeds exotic cats and gets competitive at CFA shows…my human is a prime specimen give me an award

[seenthisepisode]

soo i just finished watching the ballad of songbirds and snakes and wow once again i am in love how francis lawrence directs movies. however, the way They flatten those movies (this one and the hunger games trilogy) in terms of the text is astounding. I'm not even talking about the good old book vs movie differences and i do understand some changes have to be made to transform a story from a text onto our screens BUT so many things here were shortened and left out... the book made a whole big deal about the (titular, btw) hunger and in the movie there is ONE scene where lucy says hey pretty boy could you bring us some food because me and jessup haven't eaten since the reaping. the hunger aspect of the tributes is completely erased, and so is coryo's. that boy was hungry all the time. the hunger and lack of food was this whole theme in the book. it's right there in the title!!! it's the whole reason why the hunger games exist. but in the film everyone looks like supermodels (sprinkled with some dirt and dust). not to mention they just erased almost everything about sejanus. idk maybe the director's cut is longer and has more of that explored but this version? its a well directed film with marvelous acting but it's like without a soul idk

[famousblueraincoatmp3]

i think my primary tip for reading is not very helpful. like with any hobby you have to set time aside for it and that can be hard, but its not a contest. reading is a personal experience and you shouldn’t compare how well you do it compared to others. i have been reading my whole life and grew up with a mother who loves to read, so i have been conditioned to set time aside for it. even if you only read 2 pages or 20 it is still progress.

[321sluggie]

mentions of weight loss in tags

[theharrowing]

Lol I know it’s not your story that triggers this in me but maybe my insecurities

But whenever I read the namgi threesome w mc I just can’t but feel she’s out of place? When Namjoon expresses how badly he wants to fuck her or when Yoongi shows interest during sex… I feel it’s all fake? That lowkey they actually don’t want her and she’s only there to fulfil a role but that they ONLY want each others. Like it’s a chore and obligation to fuck her when in fact they aren’t attracted to her.

I know it’s so sad to think like this but I’ve had far too many poly threesomes where it left me scarred. By people that made it very clear I was unwanted. So I’m sorry but fuck is this story hot. It just I can’t but cry whenever there’s any Namgi-mc scene and reminisce those old bitter days

I’m so sorry I feel so bad

hello, good morning, anon! 😴

i’m a little sleepyhead but i wanted to respond to this right away. this feeling is valid and relatable. i have definitely been in situations where it felt like i didn’t quite fit. or where it seemed like someone else didn’t quite fit. that’s rough, and it’s a feeling that’s not easy to shake.

i actually don’t really do poly irl anymore because i have found it doesn’t work well enough for me to keep trying. sadly, i have seen “trying the lifestyle” as an excuse to do things with others and without the communication and boundaries necessary to make it work, and it has blow up in a lot of faces. and that isn’t to say it’s always this way! i know plenty of folks who make it work and it’s lovely. communication is so, so, so important and sometimes people miss that, or they get too caught up in the moment to unpack their feelings (especially when the situation is more sexual than romantic.) i have too many trust issues to deal with a bitch who communicates poorly lmaooo.

SO ALL THAT BEING SAID, don’t apologize. you have no reason to feel sorry for feeling this way. it’s a trauma that has made a dent in your heart and it is hard to navigate media without feeling the impression of that dent. there’s nothing to be sorry about. we all have that thing. i have so many things haha.

in terms of namjoon and yoongi and mc in the collateral universe…the two of them do care about her and it’s definitely not fake, but they will always love each other the most. and part of mc’s hesitance when topics of love the future comes up (aside from so many things) is that she knows that. it was pretty clear from chapter 10 when Namjoon plops his toothbrush down by hers and she has feelings of, oh……he’s always been at home here and i’m still not. and this is definitely something that will continue to weigh on her mind. but i think, of the two of them, Namjoon is trying the hardest to actually make her feel like a member of that trio, and he’s being genuine. they watched her for a long time before bringing her into the house, so the attraction is there. but she will never be as important to Namjoon as Yoongi is, and……Yoongi’s feelings and priorities are complicated. i can’t say much more than that.

we’ll see how the story plays out! it may not quite go the way you expect it to. but i hope you keep an open mind and know that your feelings are valid, and don’t feel bad about it. 💜💜💜 thanks for sharing your thoughts!!!

[mintglacier]

The ending of the game was so bittersweet. I hated that neither of the brothers nor dion lived but...their sacrifices weren't for naught. I can see how the post credits scene COULD be taken as a "copout" but it's not. It's showing how the world thrives now even without the use of aether or mothercrystals. I wonder how much time passed....maybe generations before it got to that point because the mom thinks it all to be a silly story (BUT JOSHUA'S NAME ON THE BOOK😭😭😭) which means she wasn't alive during the time the game took place

[holydean]

just feels like i've done absolutely everything i could to cope and im still in the same place. still the same person, still zero achievements, zero accomplishments. feels like i am wasting away.

i have tried for so many years to be optimistic, but im circling the drain now. in the end of it all i come back to the haunting realization that maybe none of this ever gets any better.

[maydayprkr]

hate it here. tried fixing the screen on this stupid new wave heat/cooling unit we had to get. Pressed partial lock thinking that would put the screen to sleep, it just locked it. Vague instructions told me the wrong thing. Aunt started yelling at me saying thats what pisses her off so much "you just do and do, you think you're so smart" when I literally had to google it, find that I have to hold down where it says locked and not just anywhere on the screen. I'm so tired bro

[chradi]

I borderline feel horrible about owning dogs. I feel like I’m constantly “punishing” their behavior because I find it repulsive… but to them, that behavior is just being a dog.

They don’t understand what “gross” means. They don’t understand how every gross thing they do makes my blood pressure spike and makes me want to rip off my own skin and bawl my eyes out.

And idk, I think living with someone who is basically pissed at you 50% of the time for basically existing doesn’t seem. fantastic.

I wish I was more patient with them. I wish I was better at training them. And I wish they weren’t so nasty as a default 🧍‍♀️

[drfaustusmd]

Not to sound like a total brat but I dislike when I show ppl something I made and they say something like "oh you're so talented". It just makes me feel like they think I'm naturally good at these things when in reality I've worked really hard to get better and I've been spending almost my entire life making art so I've had a ton of practice. Like it took me two weeks to do a fairly simple sketch bc I've been having a hard time drawing lately and it feels dismissive to say it's based on talent. Idk it's just a word I don't like :/

[dalnim]

fuck landlords I hope mine die horribly. my nephews came over with their parents to see my mom bc she's on her deathbed and my landlords yelled at them for jumping around. theyre both under the age of 5.

heartless pieces of shit honestly. like who fucking does that??