#sorry idk how to do a read more on mobile

[dear-crybunny]

apparently i never? posted my 10 pages of yusuke doodles? from most recent to oldest yippieee

[mega-banette]

I think the warriors should meet the Orphans again just bc I think it would be really fucking funny

Like imagine you are Sully, a molotov cocktail is being thrown in your direction and given that you don’t want to die you fucking leg it. You reach a safe point. You do a headcount. The whole gangs made it except your girlfriend.

After about a week it becomes obvious that she was probably killed in the explosion. And despite admittedly being a sexist this upsets you. You mourn her, you try (and probably fail bc you’re fairly pathetic) to make the gang stronger bc that’s what she would’ve wanted.

Months pass. If you were more compassionate you would blame yourself for giving in and trying to fight the warriors. You’re not though so instead you’re just sort of sad. You get on a train and you spot a few familiar vests. It’s the warriors.

You reach in your pocket to make sure your pathetically small shaving blade is in there. You’re having delusions of grandeur. You’re convinced you’ll be able to take them out. You haven’t learned your fucking lesson at all you misogynistic prick. Then you notice it.

Your presumed dead girlfriend is right in front of you, wearing a warriors vest. She doesn’t notice you bc she’s too busy making out with the woman who threw the molotov cocktail that you thought killed her. What the fuck.

[cotl-eyesofdeath]

What went wrong the first time around with the kids? What was narilamb's fatal flaw as parents?

Short answer:

Lambie’s manipulative with a need for control even when it comes to their loved ones, and while Narinder tries his best he’s still kind of a mediocre dad that let Lambie do whatever they wanted to their kids as long as it wasn’t physically traumatizing

Long answer:

After like a thousand years of being a cult leader Lambie starts thinking that they want a break from all their responsibilities, and so they decide to try having a child with Narinder to see if they can keep the cult leading in the family. On account of their… eldritch-ness, Lambie’s unable to have children the regular way, so they needed to use a ritual that would actually make it possible. Use your imagination for that part.

They didn’t expect it to work since they kinda just bullshitted it, but somehow it did work and so Narinder ends up carrying their firstborn, which they name Yarna. From her birth Lambie has groomed Yarna into becoming the perfect cult leader, just like Narinder did with them, but there were still a few doubts in their mind. They decide to have another child, Chanto(Narinder carried a him too), and raise him as a sort of back-up plan. They also decide to raise backups to the backup but with children of their followers instead of having another of their own, starting a sort of cult leader/disciple school. This along with Lambie’s selective shows of affection breed jealousy and rivalry between the two siblings- Yarna believing that being the next cult leader is her rightful place as the firstborn and afraid of losing her position, and Chanto just wanting to prove himself to Lambie and get the same treatment that Yarna gets.

Narinder notices the growing tension between the siblings and does his best to teach them to cooperate with eachother and keep a healthy relationship, but his idea of a “healthy sibling relationship” isn’t the best to begin with… still, he warns his kids of what happened with his own family with stories of the past, but that’s pretty much all he does. Aside from keeping them apart so they don’t fight, he doesn’t do anything else, and the kids have heard his stories so many times that they start to tune them out and forget- retreating into their own world of spite and jealousy. This is all made worse by Lambie deliberately stirring up trouble between them, seeing them as in competition with eachother and their schoolmates and making no effort to hide it, believing that if they’re in competition with eachother then they’ll strive to be better and pick off the weaker ones.

Jealousy runs amok between them. Yarna has always had an advantage with being the firstborn and first student, giving her more time than all the other kids to learn and hone her skills as a cult leader. This obviously makes her the biggest source of jealousy for everyone else since they’re basically playing catch-up and hoping that she’ll get behind somehow to actually give them a chance. Though this also means that there’s extremely high expectations put on her to be the most model student of the entire cult, causing her punishments to be even more extreme when she does make a mistake, and Lambie’s punishments for her are the worst of all. Since she’s the most promising student, she’s the one that Lambie pays the most attention to and that’s an extremely sharp double-edged sword- not just for her but for everyone else too. Lambie pays the most attention to Yarna, so she gets most of their affections, leaving everyone else basically in the dust. Nobody else gets as much of their attention and praise as Yarna, but this also means they’re allowed much more freedom and their punishments for mistakes aren’t as severe.

Chanto as the second born is at a disadvantage with their studies that they try their hardest to overcome, and though the hard work does pay up and they inch ever closer to Yarna, in the end they feel like they could never reach her- not only in their studies but also personally. Both of them want affection from Lambie, their parent and beloved god, but Chanto also wants Yarna’s affections too, at least at first. They believed that if they caught up to Yarna then they could both have fun as siblings while also getting Lambie’s attention. Yarna, of course, only sees him as a rival. What he gets praised for is something she’s expected to do without it, and when he does something bad he’s punished with a lot less severity than a small mistake that she would make. Not only that, but he has a freedom that she craves. Yarna is constantly on edge and acting perfect all the time, studying 24/7 and doing it all with a forced smile she’s perfected to look natural all while her own brother is allowed to play around outside in the trees and with the other kids. She believes this is an injustice, and so every chance she gets she “disciplines” Chanto herself, using his naivety and craving for affection against him, becoming his biggest bully. She would berate him, steal his food, destroy his things, and spread rumors about him all around the cult in hopes of getting his reputation so low that Lambie will finally discipline him the same way they discipline her.

Years of bitterness, jealousy, anger, hate, and routine neglect pass by and Yarna is still the first in line for cult leader status. Lambie’s attention has turned solely to Yarna after a while, practically ignoring all the other students in favor of constant monitoring of her to make sure she doesn’t mess anything up. They’ve gone from grooming her into the perfect cult leader to instead turning her into a mini version of them, feeling that they could only leave the cult in her hands if she did everything as they would. This has led to them ignoring even Chanto, their other child, who has started defecting against their leadership due to this neglect without them even noticing. Their plans of pitting their kids against each other in order to make them better leaders has failed, turning one into a constantly stressed internal mess and the other into a secret dissenter that slowly blooms a rebellion in the dark of night, growing it steadily for years. Chanto has realized that Lambie has been abusing him, his classmates, and most of all: Yarna. He tries to help her out of the situation several times but she never lets him- she’s too deeply brainwashed and still resents him for what she couldn’t have. She’s going to follow the path that’s been laid out for her like the obedient half-sheep she is or die trying- and, well… Chanto will free them both from their lifelong misery, by any means necessary.

A few more years pass and Yarna has finally taken her place as the new cult leader while Chanto and half of the original cult have dissented and split off to live somewhere else. This, in theory, should make everyone happy, but… neither Yarna nor Chanto are at ease with the other group’s existence, and so there’s still friction between the two, but a war wouldn’t benefit anybody as of now and so they’re just keeping their distances for now. At least, that is until the dissenting group settles into a place with an abundance of a specific resource, causing them to thrive more than the original cult.

I’m gonna speed this up because I’ve been writing this over the course of several weeks and I’m tired but basically:

Trade negotiations are started but eventually fail so bad that it snowballs into a war, Yarna and Chanto leading their own respective armies

Lambie leaves the two groups to fight amongst themselves believing that it’s just another one of their kids’ sibling fights while Narinder is freaking out knowing that this will kill both of his kids. He attempts to convince Lambie to join the fight only to protect the kids and make sure that they don’t fucking die even if it means killing everyone else because he doesn’t have any power in this situation. It works but way too late

Lambie goes to the war site and finds their kids. Dead. They stabbed each other in the heart and died at the same time, the consequences of Lambie’s actions being this. They kill every single cult member- old, new, dissenting and loyal, deciding that starting from complete scratch with only Narinder is the best course of action.

This isn’t the first time they’ve had to start over with only Narinder, but while the first time was accidental this one was on purpose, and it hurts a lot more. Lambie truly is devastated at the loss of their kids but it’s Narinder who took this the hardest. He will always love the lamb and how ruthless they can be, but this… this made him realize how much more evil they could be. However, what hurts the most is just how complicit he realizes he had been.

The whole situation changes them both but mostly Narinder, leaving him in a state of shock for so long before he finally starts to grieve.

5 stages of grief and all that, shit gets really weird between the two of them for a long time before they finally start to mend their relationship again because they’re bound to each other no matter what so they might as well keep their relationship amicable at least. After like a thousand years of self reflection and improvement(mainly Narinder but he has the lamb change a bit too) they decide to have another kid, but just one this time, and they name her Mary(the little lamb). Narinder is more present and active and the lamb isn’t trying to mold and manipulate her into the perfect cult leader so she grows up into a pretty decent and happy person, even though she can see the dead and is haunted by her parents’ past mistakes in the form of her dead siblings trying to steal her life. She has a bee boyfriend and likes poetry.

[cloud-somersault]

Sorry, I just feel like the prose should have a personality 🤷

[battiegutz]

ok so basic rundown of the tethered au bc the autism worm is wiggling;

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tethered is another separated au, but i wanted to explore some broader avenues than just swapping them between splinter draxum big mama and the foot. so leo is raised as a fighter for the battle nexus, donnie is raised under the foot with cass as his sister, mikey is raised by aprils family, and raph is raised by tigerclaw. leo is not pampered under big mama, infact she resents him and partially blames him for splinters death. he is miserable. donnie and cass are close as hell and will always choose each other over the foot, despite dedicating their lives to the foot. they enjoy a good bit of chaos and destruction. tigerclaw found raph while visiting nyc and decided this child could become a great warrior if he trained him, and it could make him regain his honor. mikey was found by april and her parents were persuaded into letting him stay. he lives the most "normal" life out of all of them, as he and april befriended sunita when they were little so they were able to learn abt cloaking brooches and get one for mikey to attend human school and such. because of mikeys innate magical ability, he can feel his connections or "tethers" to his lost brothers. all the others do not know they have siblings, although donnie has had theories before. mikey wants to find his brothers but his connection to the tethers is extremely weak and wavers often. now back to leo, he has no motivation, no desire to continue, he would probably loose on purpose but his instincts wont let him. this all changes when big mama sees this and decides maybe manipulation shouldve been the route, so she hires yokai to clone leo so she can try again. this process results in lita, an albino red eared slider mutant, and leos clone. technically, shes "defective", as she isnt as strong as leo and the insta-aging didnt work so shes still a baby. lita gives leo something to fight for, and he escapes with her that night at age 11. him and lita live from hole to hole, avoiding big mamas goons, until about 5 years later, where they hide in the alley under aprils apartment and mikey finds them. this is where the story truly starts, when mikey feels the tether connecting him to leo snap into place. very epic swag anyway imma nap now feel free 2 send questions but i probs wont answer until l8r oop

[rewrotethestars]

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The main office of the BAU was weirdly quiet this morning. The usual foot traffic past the desks was slow. No urgent cases brought in by JJ and no meetings called to the round table by Prentiss. And with Reid out on special assignment without the spewing of random facts, it was just…calm.

Luke sat at his desk, eyes focused on the BAU chief’s office, where he could see glimpses of Penelope Garcia pacing around back and forth. He fathomed a guess as to why she was called in, head down with an anxious look on her face. The Tyler Fiasco is what he called it.

He had wanted her to look over at him so he could flash her a smile, let her know he was in her corner. He wanted to be the one to take the worried look off of her face.

Luke found himself subconsciously tapping his fingers on the desk while feeing anxious himself. He tried to focus on whatever paperwork he had left to fill out from the last case they got back from.

A few minutes later, after finally working through some of his paperwork he heard the sound of a door being opened. Out of the corner of Luke’s eye he could see the scurrying of a figure making their way out of the bullpen. He knew where she was heading to so he got stood up from his chair and followed suit.

Soon he found himself standing outside of Garcia’s “bat cave” as she calls it. The door is slightly ajar so he takes a moment to knock and push open the door, sticking his head in.

“Hey. Just saw you running out of Prentiss’ office. Everything okay?”

Penelope sighed, just staring at her computer screen, “Look I’m not really in the mood or right state of mind for an ‘I told you so speech’. Especially from you.”

Luke opened the door fully and walked in. He closed the door slightly behind him and pulled out the chair sitting next to her desk. “And to think I came all this way with a 5 page speech ready to scold you,” he teased. She didn’t laugh. “Well that’s something I was definitely not planning on doing.”

“Look, everybody messes up at some point, right?” Luke did his best to console her.

She scoffed and rolled her eyes at him, “Well not you, Mr. I always do everything perfect.” As quickly as she said that she looked over at him and immediately apologized, “I’m sorry, I’m sorry, force of habit.”

A moment of silence passed between them, “Well while we’re at it; maybe we could talk. You know, about how all you can do is apparently “dunk on me”, Luke chuckled.

He could sense the hesitation in her voice, “You know I’ve been thinking a lot about our date over the past, what, 2 years now? And…I guess I’m really sorry. About what I said. I didn’t mean it. You just joined the BAU at the worst time and of course you are just so…delicious looking. Don’t let that go to your head. I just needed a way to keep boundaries. I needed something, some space between us. I just knew it. And now…I just feel like I really screwed up anything between us.”

Luke nodded but didn’t speak.

Garcia looked down, fidgeting with her hands, “It’s really like I lost my head after this whole quarantine. And I just haven’t felt right since.”

Luke put his hand on hers, “I think that happened to just about everyone. But in the meantime maybe we can start over?”

“Yeah?” She asked, a small smile on her lips.

“Yeah. I can wait.”

[catdemontraphouse]

Note: referenced a post by @thedarkestcrow several times which I think is a really interesting one. Can’t seem to paste in the link🤨🙄 it was an ask answer about Sebastian’s contract

Hey also if anyone can tell me how to do “read more”on mobile… please tell me 😂🤦‍♀️

Just some character uh, idk analysis/hypothesis??

The more I think about it, the more I reckon Sebastian’s problem is that he has an unfortunate mother hen syndrome which he either isn’t fully aware of OR, more likely, is aware of but actively tries to deny. This is of course going off the assumption there is no governing body for demons like there is for reapers since we’ve never seen anything like that? And that Sebastian’s contract is something he made up for himself with no actual consequences outside his own judgement.

Sebastian goes above and beyond to critique and perfect the conduct of other people who are under his authority. His contract (which I won’t even get into atm lol) only states the following stipulations as far as I recall:

Yet he goes out of his way to not just keep OCiel alive but to rear him as he sees fit. He tries to feed him balanced meals and regulate his sugar intake, he demands the child brush his teeth well, instructs him diligently in various academic subjects etc.

Some of this you could argue is for the sake of the mission, i.e. making OCiel as versatile and cultured as possible in order to maintain social connections necessary for revenge. But I kind of have to wonder, is it even necessary? Like is that degree of adhering to societal expectations really required to reach the end goal? I mean maybe I’m wrong here but I feel like there’s other cheaper, quicker ways they could investigate who’s behind the cult than making alliances with other nobility and whatnot. 🤷‍♀️ Sebastian seems to spend more time teaching OCiel dancing or Latin than bloodily interrogating suspicious people who might be connected to the cult.

Same could be said for how Sebastian treats the servants. He praises them when they manage to or at least make good efforts at upholding high standards of etiquette and efficiency in their roles as housekeepers, even though he knows that isn’t really what they’re useful for. They were hired to be bodyguards in essence. I get that they want housekeepers around to make it look “normal” so people won’t question the Phantomhive household but I just find Sebastian’s dedication to molding them into proper servants a little more intense than is probably necessary? Could be he is just tired of doing everything alone but also this guy built a wholeass mansion in a night alone with magic. He could magically clean the whole house alone if he really wanted to, probably? Or maybe he’s running low on MP from not eating lol. Idk I’m just saying he seems to almost enjoy being a teacher even if his students piss him off.

He tells Will he’s “tired of messily sampling every dish available to him” and how that’s his reason for basically starving himself. I guess it would be like… idk a farmer raising a single giant pumpkin and waiting to eat that instead of growing lots of crops and eating regularly? An obsession with cultivation at the expense of well-being.

At one point the reaper says this about Sebastian compared to other demons:

This suggest you don’t *need* to make a contract to eat a soul, which would mean Sebastian’s suffering is self-inflicted. Because he’s obsessed with rearing and tending to things.

He says he enjoys “playing butler” and what that behavior translates to in Sebastian’s day-to-day life is essentially being a care giver. He enjoys raising and caring for things weaker than himself.

We see a similar behavior when it comes to cats. The main difference here I think is that cats dont seem to be considered demon food as far as we can tell. He doesn’t ever try to write off or hide his love of cats. Keep that in mind for later.

He also mentions that there are pets in his world but he basically indicates that he finds them ugly and unappealing. So having affection for other beings doesn’t seem to be an unusual thing for his species per say? It’s just what they find cute is very different from Sebastian.

There is no discussion of the demonic world other than this, Sebastian never returns there or mentions having friends or something akin to family there etc. He never spends time with other demons in the manga canon even though this panel kind of implies they have some sort of world or society? He seems oddly divorced from his own kind, doesn’t he? Or is that just me that thinks so idk

I think ultimately Sebastian finds what is, for his own kind, considered probably ugly and stupid livestock somehow endearing and cannot really cope with that. He is probably considered weird or creepy by members of his own species, and while he’s aptly aware of that he can’t help but be amused by humans and want to impress them. He doesn’t just fulfill the contract he goes out of his way to do it in a fashion that makes humans go “oh wow.” It’s not for the sake of impressing other demons!! They’re not watching. He doesn’t associate with other demons, ever. Only reapers, who I might add were once human dunno if that matters tho. He wants humans to *like him* he goes out of his way to charm humans that will do nothing for him except satiate his own ego and attention span.

But he eats them to survive. And also as a demon, he isn’t supposed to grow attached to humans. So he’s battling with this cognitive dissonance constantly, I theorize. Like he kills and eats people but at the same time, he likes raising them like pets? He loves teaching them things and is proud when he cultivates a human that really stands out among other humans. I have reason to believe he is an outcast in his own society and part of him is pained by that? Idk it’s all speculation but I’m fuckin autistic and stuff so I have to write essays about it.

I can’t find the damn video but there was this one VA live reading of a hypothetical scene where OCiel is dead after Sebastian ate him and he’s still going thru the motions of celebrating the kids birthday like… WTF? This man ate his pet and realized it was a mistake major wtf moment

Sebastian is like one of those Karens that breeds exotic cats and gets competitive at CFA shows…my human is a prime specimen give me an award

[seenthisepisode]

soo i just finished watching the ballad of songbirds and snakes and wow once again i am in love how francis lawrence directs movies. however, the way They flatten those movies (this one and the hunger games trilogy) in terms of the text is astounding. I'm not even talking about the good old book vs movie differences and i do understand some changes have to be made to transform a story from a text onto our screens BUT so many things here were shortened and left out... the book made a whole big deal about the (titular, btw) hunger and in the movie there is ONE scene where lucy says hey pretty boy could you bring us some food because me and jessup haven't eaten since the reaping. the hunger aspect of the tributes is completely erased, and so is coryo's. that boy was hungry all the time. the hunger and lack of food was this whole theme in the book. it's right there in the title!!! it's the whole reason why the hunger games exist. but in the film everyone looks like supermodels (sprinkled with some dirt and dust). not to mention they just erased almost everything about sejanus. idk maybe the director's cut is longer and has more of that explored but this version? its a well directed film with marvelous acting but it's like without a soul idk

[321sluggie]

mentions of weight loss in tags

[theharrowing]

Lol I know it’s not your story that triggers this in me but maybe my insecurities

But whenever I read the namgi threesome w mc I just can’t but feel she’s out of place? When Namjoon expresses how badly he wants to fuck her or when Yoongi shows interest during sex… I feel it’s all fake? That lowkey they actually don’t want her and she’s only there to fulfil a role but that they ONLY want each others. Like it’s a chore and obligation to fuck her when in fact they aren’t attracted to her.

I know it’s so sad to think like this but I’ve had far too many poly threesomes where it left me scarred. By people that made it very clear I was unwanted. So I’m sorry but fuck is this story hot. It just I can’t but cry whenever there’s any Namgi-mc scene and reminisce those old bitter days

I’m so sorry I feel so bad

hello, good morning, anon! 😴

i’m a little sleepyhead but i wanted to respond to this right away. this feeling is valid and relatable. i have definitely been in situations where it felt like i didn’t quite fit. or where it seemed like someone else didn’t quite fit. that’s rough, and it’s a feeling that’s not easy to shake.

i actually don’t really do poly irl anymore because i have found it doesn’t work well enough for me to keep trying. sadly, i have seen “trying the lifestyle” as an excuse to do things with others and without the communication and boundaries necessary to make it work, and it has blow up in a lot of faces. and that isn’t to say it’s always this way! i know plenty of folks who make it work and it’s lovely. communication is so, so, so important and sometimes people miss that, or they get too caught up in the moment to unpack their feelings (especially when the situation is more sexual than romantic.) i have too many trust issues to deal with a bitch who communicates poorly lmaooo.

SO ALL THAT BEING SAID, don’t apologize. you have no reason to feel sorry for feeling this way. it’s a trauma that has made a dent in your heart and it is hard to navigate media without feeling the impression of that dent. there’s nothing to be sorry about. we all have that thing. i have so many things haha.

in terms of namjoon and yoongi and mc in the collateral universe…the two of them do care about her and it’s definitely not fake, but they will always love each other the most. and part of mc’s hesitance when topics of love the future comes up (aside from so many things) is that she knows that. it was pretty clear from chapter 10 when Namjoon plops his toothbrush down by hers and she has feelings of, oh……he’s always been at home here and i’m still not. and this is definitely something that will continue to weigh on her mind. but i think, of the two of them, Namjoon is trying the hardest to actually make her feel like a member of that trio, and he’s being genuine. they watched her for a long time before bringing her into the house, so the attraction is there. but she will never be as important to Namjoon as Yoongi is, and……Yoongi’s feelings and priorities are complicated. i can’t say much more than that.

we’ll see how the story plays out! it may not quite go the way you expect it to. but i hope you keep an open mind and know that your feelings are valid, and don’t feel bad about it. 💜💜💜 thanks for sharing your thoughts!!!

[mintglacier]

The ending of the game was so bittersweet. I hated that neither of the brothers nor dion lived but...their sacrifices weren't for naught. I can see how the post credits scene COULD be taken as a "copout" but it's not. It's showing how the world thrives now even without the use of aether or mothercrystals. I wonder how much time passed....maybe generations before it got to that point because the mom thinks it all to be a silly story (BUT JOSHUA'S NAME ON THE BOOK😭😭😭) which means she wasn't alive during the time the game took place

[maydayprkr]

hate it here. tried fixing the screen on this stupid new wave heat/cooling unit we had to get. Pressed partial lock thinking that would put the screen to sleep, it just locked it. Vague instructions told me the wrong thing. Aunt started yelling at me saying thats what pisses her off so much "you just do and do, you think you're so smart" when I literally had to google it, find that I have to hold down where it says locked and not just anywhere on the screen. I'm so tired bro

[chradi]

I borderline feel horrible about owning dogs. I feel like I’m constantly “punishing” their behavior because I find it repulsive… but to them, that behavior is just being a dog.

They don’t understand what “gross” means. They don’t understand how every gross thing they do makes my blood pressure spike and makes me want to rip off my own skin and bawl my eyes out.

And idk, I think living with someone who is basically pissed at you 50% of the time for basically existing doesn’t seem. fantastic.

I wish I was more patient with them. I wish I was better at training them. And I wish they weren’t so nasty as a default 🧍‍♀️

[xylo-phone]

Do I post the Vera pinup drawing…

[ask-the-rag-dolly]

♪ ~ a little rag dolly , wishing your worries away ~ ♪

please read the faq ! ( updated as of 7/27/2024 )

a part ask-blog , part comic where ragatha is infected with a sentient virus that can talk to her - and somehow that's the least concerning part in all of this ?

there's no right or wrong choices here but these all definitely look like wrong ones

[ while this is mostly not intended to be a horror comic , please be warned that this will contain content that can be seen as disturbing such as depictions of mental illness and breakdowns , vomiting , self-harm , suicidal and intrusive thoughts , scopophobia , medical trauma - and possibly more i haven't listed ! if these things get too distressing it's okay to click away , your mental wellbeing matters more ^^

also disclaimer that a lot of the things here were written Before episode 2 so if there's some inconsistencies then you know ! ]

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[majorshatterandhare]

(I too dye my hair green, and it is currently faded to lichen-y light green patina color like the statue of liberty and I like it a lot).

I think maybe (and maybe I’m wrong here because I struggle with the morality in more complex situations) it falls into a “morally okay if you frame it the right way, morally wrong if you frame it the wrong way” type deal. So that means it could be determined by how exactly Galahad askes for the hair, what information Brian is given, and if Brian can sort of work around that himself or not. (I think strictly speaking he couldn’t, at least not in MjE, since he can’t justify trying to, I don’t think. But it’d be nice for him to have the teensiest smidgen of wiggle room).

I mean, it’s possible for Galahad to figure out how to make beads himself, someone had to. It’s possible, if he’s *hanging* out with Brian, that Brian tells him, but again, not sure the morality about that, think it’s similar to the last one.

Terrarium system is a great idea. IDK what the justification for putting that in there was but I love it, essentially gets rid of the “water for people” problem. (If he’s still collecting water he could theoretically fuck with it to get the water out. But there is also the question of if Brian believes the lives of People to be more important than those of other organisms. I think that question stalling him out, on MjE, wouldn’t be a stretch, and the result would be not to change anything and very carefully tiptoe around those thoughts, but IDK.)

Re: if any roses could withstand such a situation, I would be interested to research the growing conditions of various species, but depending on how much sci you like in your sci-fi (for me the answer is a lot) you can always just go with “this is a rose-like species picked up somewhere other than earth.” Although, the difference between this situation and the plant-gore Tim situation is that Brian’s roses could well come from earth. It’s also always possible that all the life across existence is related and therefore that roses from another planet are ancestors or descendants of our roses.

The rose bush eventually growing out of him, escaping its little space and using all the room it needs. But also getting entangled in his insides. Probably making some things function worse but he doesn’t need much when he’s just hanging and it’s worth it for the rose bush because it will die someday and he will continue to live. Fuck! I’m making myself emotional about a fictional-fictional plant. Emotional support plant dies when he needs it most.”It’s my friend.”

Galahad sitting on the ground next to The Hanged Man, who used to be a golden man, hung up for false crimes but unresistant to his punishment; strung up with catgut that had rotted and been replaced several times, his body turning green and white with how long he’s been there, and a rose bush, something unfamiliar to the denizens of the station, which miraculously dwelled in his chest and survived from him, escaping the cavity and weaving through his body, taking over its source of life. And Galahad is just there, sitting, carving up a tired or crushing and cooking roses in what minimal water he can offer to the project or trying his best to melt sand into glass, giving up and using metal instead, stringing the beads on as he twists the strands of divine copper hair together in such a way that it created a continuous loop with no knots. And chatting, often about morals and philosophy and religion, but also about little things, about people they’ve known and their lives. Brian gets to have a friend who’s a person for the first time in a while, but then, unlike the others, Brian has to send him away, send Galahad to his death, because he deserves to know his prophecy no matter the consequences. And then Brian is lonelier than ever before on the station, with the people gone and his rose bush gone, and its just him, alone, with his heart, in anguish and despair, for a century.

Hey, uh, no need to apologize for length. I enjoy this sort of back and forth very much and, uh, can go long myself.

Whoops there’s notes too, I am an over-explainer:

•The “Tim situation” is plant-gore Persephone Tim which I have thought a lot about. That takes place on The City with plants and fungi from that planet, so although my ideas about the plants are based on what we have here, there is no way that they could logically be what we have here. Brian’s roses can be since obviously the Mechs visited earth more than once.

•Wikipedia says that some rose species are climbing and that’s 100% what I’m imagining here, although it probably wasn’t a smart idea to put that in his robot body.

•While it will die one day, had it been taken care of well, he could’ve continued its line for a very very long time. Of course he too perma-dies, but I assume he doesn’t know that yet at this point. Still, the Mechs live an unfathomably long time, so something would happen in there. Maybe this was a line he had already cared for for thousands of years.

•I know the proper past tense of hang a person is hanged, but hanged up sounds weird and also he’s maybe upside down, so not actually hanged in that way.

•[Insert Brian delivery crimes idea]

•Catgut isn’t made of cats’ guts, despite the name, but the intestines of cattle and horses and the like. I also don’t know how long it takes for it to breakdown, but I do imagine Brian just waiting there for whoever to come string him back up.

•How many Mechs bodies can we develop stories for in which they are taken over by plants and fungi while they are alive? (/rh)

•Sand melts into glass at around 1700 °C or 3090 °F, which Galahad would not be about to reach in a little fire, I don’t think, unless he used gasoline, which they seem to have, but is really incredibly dangerous!

•I don’t *know* that this twisting wire thing is possible but it makes sense in my head

please consider: Galahad always carrying around rosary beads/prayer beads that carry the image of Merlin, The Hanged Man in the style of a saint or of a crucifix. Also he handmade the entire thing of beads btw.