#sorry i'm genuinely so ill abt them

[teddybeartoji]

in my head megumi is 100% a judoka, right? but it's important to me that you all know that he's the one that said he wanted to do it and that toji was a bit unsure about it at first. of course, the idea of his son doing martial arts just like him made him happy, more than happy even, but at the same time... there was a part of him that was a little afraid.

he didn't train like hell out of desire, but out of necessity. his life was cruel and so awfully far from good, that the mere idea of his son doing something even remotely close to what he had to endure was scary. and stupid.

toji always knew that he would never treat either of his kids the way he was treated. never. so the fear was always rather irrational. but that didn't make it disappear; he just wanted to keep his kids, his little blessings, away from his past in any way he could.

but megumi has always been a determined kid. very honest, and curious. so when his dad seemed to question his interest in judo, he couldn't help but bombard him with a million why's.

pulling at his dad's cheeks as toji held him in his arms, the older man sighed with a faint smile. the more the young boy kept going about how toji does it too, so why can't he, and about how cool it is. about how he wants to be able to protect his older sister. it was just impossible for toji to say no.

it's going to be different.

megumi isn't toji and toji isn't his dad. it'll be okay.

and so, he finds a place and buys him his first gi and walks him, hand in hand, to his practice. he would never admit how nervous he was, way more than the boy standing by him, clinging to his side as they both stared at the big training hall. what if the coach is some horrible prick? what if she's some mean old-school lady, who would never be affected by a child's cry?

toji had never been one to worry so much – he wasn't this stuck in his head when he dropped tsumiki off at her first soccer practice either, but the sight of the mats and all the equipment, the sight of kids all sat in front of the trainer just brought up some forced down memories.

oh, and how he hates feeling like this. it's not the first time he's seen mats and training equipment, he goes to a gym almost on a daily basis for fuck's sake, so why does he suddenly feel like that beaten little boy again. why does he feel like—

"dad?"

toji feels this ridiculous fear inside him fade, the feelings that want to bubble up die down in his throat at the sight of big curious eyes and small hands clinging onto the sleeve of his hoodie. his boy. loved and cherished, ready to learn something new. he takes importance over everything.

so, toji clears his throat and gives megumi's hand a squeeze while flashing him his infamous teasing grin to let the boy know that he's there with him. always. "ready?"

an excited nod.

the coach said that toji could stay and watch and that's exactly what he does. sat on the sideline, he observes how gumi sits there on his knees, ears perked up like the trainer before him is telling him the most interesting story in the world. toji cracks a smile.

the trainer is nothing like he feared; not mean, not evil, not cruel but very enthusiastic instead. they're pulling little laughs and giggles from the kids with their antics as they introduce themselves and the sport itself. it's nothing that toji ever went through and he's glad.

he's glad when megumi steals a glance over his shoulder and meets toji's fond gaze. he's glad when he spots that faint smile on megumi's lips.

it will be different.

he's not sitting there because he has to, because he's forced to do so but because he wants to do it. it'll be different because megumi wants to be like his dad, he wants to protect his sister. it'll be different because megumi thinks it's fun, and that it's cool.

it will be different because toji loves him.

+ you can find more of little judoka megumi here!!

[dennisboobs]

this is genuinely... so funny to me. like the hilarity of copypasting rational tweets. i'm literally right. it's not even a funny copypasta because it's literally just. objectively correct. it's a criticism of twitter culture and that makes it funny to you because...... god forbid you actually have empathy for other people. caring is for losers if you're on twitter dot com, you have to be snarky and funny at all times.

[silvers-not-home]

rewatching double life right now but through jimmys pov and just realized how violently ill rancher duo makes me /aff

like there's no way there's a duo THIS healthy in this series. the whole fucking point of the life series is betrayal and deception and blah blah blah all that jazz but rancher duo never did any of that. they always told eachother their plans, ideas, schemes, where they were going. and even if they didn't cough cough jimmy going into the deep dark cough cough he still came clean and told tango anyways. we have someone who's death is such a staple in the fandom/series that it's become a whole thing and someone who's death you go "oh yeahhh i forgot about that one, how'd he die again?"

they're both so ignored and the fact that they pay so much attention to eachother literally makes me sick to my stomach /hj /aff

like i don't know much about flower husbands but like. i know it probably wasn't.. the healthiest of any of the ships so take my words with a grain of sand here. jimmy was practically invisible to scott no hate love him to death but c!scott IS on my hit list and tango is just so blatantly ignored by the watchers and other members sometimes i literally forget he's there and when i do my autism shoots up like a firework.

jimmy is mocked in a /lh way but we're talking abt their c!versions so that might not be as lighthearted as you think c!jimmy sorry bud so much to the point no one takes him seriously and tango is so forgotten that no one takes him seriously. though they might not be taken seriously when they're together they're still known throughout the server. jimmy has what tango doesn't: patience and less impulsive thinking. and tango has what jimmy doesn't: rage and more tactical thinking.

while tango is going absolutely apeshit over the ranch burning down and everyone is basically taunting him, making him even more upset as if either of them need that jimmy is the one to hold tango back. he doesn't want him rushing in not because they share health and trying to keep himself safe desert duo im looking at you, you toxic bastards /aff but because he genuinely CARES about him. because when they go after scar and grian they want to be prepared and logical about their attacks. he'll still listen and follow through with tangos plan but not when they don't have one, he was so excited to bring the warden to grian and scar because he genuinely believed that they would get revenge the safe way (as safe as you can get anyways)

and when the plan backfired he didn't get mad or upset at tango. he helped him through it with the knowledge they could both die just by one small slip up but damnit if he's gonna take them out he's standing tall next to him.

they never got mad at eachother. not when the plans backfired or when jimmy died and lost all his stuff and had to travel across the whole server just to not get his stuff back or when jimmy went into the deep dark, putting them both in danger or when tango got them both killed in the FIRST EPISODE, activating his curse again (i know it wasn't technically jimmy that died but he still lost a life so i'm counting it anyways shut up)

because grian would've been pissed (talking about character versions still stick with me here) at scar if the roles were swapped, probably would've kept him at their base for the whole damn season actually. but jimmy listened to tango, obviously he was upset but never at tango. he just wanted to know what lead up to that and from that they made a plan.

the difference between team rancher and desert duo is when scars falling grian yells out for him, not because he cares about scars safety but because he cares about his safety.

meanwhile when tangos falling jimmy jumps after him while screaming his name, making sure that if he's going to die it's tangos name staining his tongue and without the selfish intent of keeping himself safe.

because when grain looks into scars eyes he only sees himself. meanwhile when jimmy looks into tangos eyes he sees tango looking back.

[fruity-fruition]

My thoughts on Tenma Parents!

I am the Tenma parents' number #1 defender in a way. I still think they fucked up Tsukasa, but not intentionally.

(fyi, Tsukasa is definitely a mama's boy and I don't accept criticism. Saki's on the contrary)

I think Tsukasa's parents loved both him and Saki equally, unlimitedly, and wholeheartedly. The sad reality is that life handed the entire family a shitty deck of cards. And while love is unlimited, time and attention isn't.

They try their best, they genuinely do, but it's difficult juggling their job AND an ill child AND another child.

Due to Saki's (uncontrollable!! Remember!!) condition, one of the parents has to be with her nearly at all times and the other one has to work for the additional hospital bills (since the government can't cover some surgeries or procedures. Idk how it works in Japan but)

They try to be there for Saki and Tsukasa a lot but they do notice growing concerns abt both of them.

Saki's getting quiet, nearly bursting into tears every time Tsukasa or any of them leaves the hospital room. She clings on to people a lot to the point of where it hurts.

Tsukasa's getting quiet too. He thinks they don't notice, since he's trying to act upbeat and cheery in front of Saki to cheer her up, but they can't ignore... that. Whatever is happening to him.

They both don't know what to do.

Despite their best efforts, Tsukasa was still left home alone most of his late childhood and early teens.

They don't have favourites, but after a while, they can't say they know their son anymore. They saw him grow up without them, and it's the most heartbreaking thing to not be there.

--

They had to miss his middle school graduation. They tried to take time off work, but neither of them got off fast enough to reach the ceremony. Both only saw him that day at the hospital.

But Tsukasa lied. Lied to Saki's face, because he didn't want to upset her.

Tsukasa's mom: "Sweetheart, we're so sorry-"

Tsukasa: "-that you had to leave the ceremony early? It's okay!"

Their parents look at him confused because the issue is that they weren't even there. But Tsukasa gave them eyes, begging them to play along.

Tsukasa's mom: "...yeah. y-yeah, work called in and we really couldn't avoid it much longer"

Tsukasa lets out a sigh of relief before nodding and smiling "really! It's okay!"

When leaving Saki's ward, his mom asked him why he lied, and he just looked at her and shook his head.

Tsukasa: "...Saki does this thing, where she blames herself for stuff she can't control. I-I don't know how I know it, but I'm sure she'll do the same if she found out you weren't there. I don't want to see her doing that."

Outside, his mom pulls him into a hug, whispering apology after apology as she holds him. He kept insisting, it's fine! Really! He's a future star, with loads of celebration to come! Who cares if they missed one?

His mom looks at him, with genuine sadness, and asks him to be honest with her. Is he upset?

She noticed him froze, before shaking his head.

Tsukasa: "Not at all, mom! I understand why you both couldn't make it"

Tsukasa's mom: "...You can understand and still be upset. You're allowed to be"

But despite her best efforts to make her son open up, he still shakes his head and tells her it's alright.

She thinks he doesn't know that she knows. She knows that he wants them to worry less about him, which made them worry more.

--

She learned from Saki that Tsukasa doesn't have a lot of friends. He never mentions it a lot to Saki, but every time Saki asks him if he'd be hanging out with people, he just looks at her confused.

Tsukasa: "Why would I hang out with other people when I have the most incredible sister in the world!"

When he started to open up to her again, later in the future, when everything had settled down and life was beginning to move steady, she'll learn that his classmates think he's overbearing.

He wasn't getting bullied, nor was he actually disliked. But in terms of friends? They think he's a bit too loud, too tiring to deal with. Some even think he's a bit too selfish.

She would argue about that final point with her life. Because if anything, she wishes Tsukasa thought of himself more.

--

They learned more about him when he was 17. They learned about his friends, his troupe, his work, and how close he's gotten towards achieving his dreams. They're so unbelievably proud of him. He's grown into such an incredible person.

They just wished they could've taken the credit.

--

They loved their children equally. Even when Toya was pulled into the frame and they unknowingly gained a third, they loved him all the same.

But there's a difference in loving and knowing, because their son felt far more distant to them than their daughter. And they're trying their absolute best to fix that rift before it's too late

--

Both Tsukasa and Saki suffered majorly in their life, both in vastly different ways. But in terms of parents, I think Tsukasa got the short end. But not intentionally, y'know? It's like. Accidental child neglect.

[stvrl0st]

RANT BECAUSE I CANT WITH SOME PEOPLE.

so ive been on tt recently & I've seen some videos that are like "me scripting trauma just because" which, I have no problem with at all, because I do that sometimes to (like in my fantasy dr getting betrayed, almost assassinated, ect ect) then I open the comments

"me when i scripted that I self harm so my s/o comforts me"

.

what?

& if your gonna say "just delete tt & don't make a post abt it😭🙏" NO. THINGS LIKE THAT LITERALLY TRIGGER ME TO SAY SOMETHING.

self harm is literally NOTHING anyone should want to do. want your s/o to comfort you fine, do that. but don't scirpt that you LITERALLY CUT YOURSELF for that. it's not fun, it's not something people should want, it's not something that people should be ROMANTICIZING. I SHOULD KNOW. I DO IT. ITS NOT SOME PREPPY THING YOU WANT.

it eventually becomes an addiction & you cannot stop, maybe for a few days, months, yeah, sure, but the SECOND you feel worthless, you just end up getting triggered. it's a CYCLE. I literally do not CARE if it's your dr, your should NEVER hurt yourself because you think it's a 'cute trait" to have. I'm not trying to sound like a hypocrite or anything, I'm just saying that you do NOT want to scirpt things like that.

"oh but I'll scirpt so I USED to do it, so not anymore !!" that doesn't matter, your dr self is YOU. & there WILL be a part of you that will remember doing that & if you get triggered, there's a very high chance of you doing it.

self harm isn't fun.

self harm isn't a good thing to have.

self harm isn't something you should scirpt or want

self harm isn't okay.

because I KNOW for a fact, like I just said, if you scirpt that you used to do it, & something happens, you WILL go down that rabbit hole.

the amount of times I've literally had to lock myself in my bedroom because I've had the urge to do it is not healthy.

the amount of times my mom has said something & I just need to start isn't okay.

ITS. NOT. SOMETHING. YOU. WANT.

I have a really big problem with people who romanticize mental illnesses like it's something everyone should want.

& the fact that things like that are NORMALIZED in the shifting community just bothers me so much. like the people who scirpt they have ANY mental illness.

if you scirpt that & you see this please take that out of your scirpt RIGHT NOW.

because you guys have not felt the pain of someone that's in your own FAMILY saying your just attention seeking.

you have not felt the GUILT you have after.

you have not felt the URGE to do it like it's an everyday thing.

you have not brought a knife or scissors wherever you go.

you have not felt the SHAME, GUILT, & DISGUST after you thought were okay. then you relapse, oh you made it 2 months YAY. someone does or says something? your back at where you started & you CANNOT stop. & if you ever THINK you can just forget or not focus on it, there WILL be scars. so MANY of them.

do some of you think it's fun to cut yourself? genuinely. do you think it's fun to hate yourself. do you think it's something everyone should have? do you think it's gonna be fun begging for someone to just make you normal.

you have not felt how hard it is to wear a sweatshirt when it's 1000 degrees outside because you do not want people to think there's something wrong with you. because I DID THAT. & I STILL DO.

& you do not want to EVER feel that.

I could go on about this but I'm not going to.

if you scirpt that, I'm sorry but please get off my page & block me.

[rosie-tyler]

Can't stop thinking about this idea I've had in my mind for a while

What if Terry Silver was a Twist villain?

Disclaimer: I'm not saying it would be better this way or smth (in fact, we wouldn't get many scenes from the first half of the movie which is not cool) but this is such a funny idea for me and I haven't seen any posts abt this so bear with me

The main reason why I find this idea interesting is because we as an audience experience everything from Daniel's POV.

Daniel's first meeting with Silver is also the first scene where we meet him.

We have no reason not to trust this guy. He apologised to Mr. Miyagi and Daniel!

He wants to help Daniel!

Our poor Daniel is getting beaten up again, where's Mr. Miyagi-

Oh wait today we have this guy as a knight in shining armour for Daniel! *holding out for a hero starts playing in the background*

Look at their smiles! They're having fun! Daniel is having fun!

Even if at the beginning of the movie we could have some doubts about Silver "Who is this guy? Why is he here? Kreese had a good friend, really?" after this scene we want to believe Silver is Daniel's cool new friend.

And then Daniel starts training with him and everything obviously goes downhill.

What kind of training is that???

Personal space? Didn't hear of it.

Constant unnecessary touching?

Okay, there's something fundamentally wrong with this guy. What are his motives? He used to be Kreese's friend, is he avenging him? (like Zira avenging Scar in Lion King 2 my first thought idk).

He's mentally ill and Daniel had the misfortune to become his obsession! (we know from the previous movies that everyone wants a piece of our little guy).

And then we get to that scene™ and experience almost the same shock and betrayal as Daniel does.

Silver's connected to Barnes! Kreese is alive!

He has never been a friend, even here!

Basically this is just me rambling about these two and why I find them a little tragic and this way we could feel Daniel's betrayal.

Daniel wanted Silver to be his friend! He considered him his friend, he trusted him! Just like we did!

All of them - Johnny, Chozen, Mike - hurt him but he was never betrayed by them as he never considered them his friends, he always saw them as rivals, always knew he should be beware of them.

Unlike Silver. That's why I believe Daniel refused to give him a second chance (apart from other awful things he did, obviously, I'm not forgetting these) when Silver, this time genuinely (quoting Mr. Griffith himself), wanted to be his friend. (Oh, the turntables!).

He betrayed him, hurt him in a way others didn't. Even if he forgave him, it would be *much* more difficult for him to learn to trust him, and even more so to consider him his friend as Silver wanted.

Silver called Daniel "a hothead" when he's basically the same, acting actually betrayed (look at him!) as if he didn't see it coming, as if he didn't realise that simple "sorry" wouldn't be enough.

But then again, he knew that if he couldn't become his friend, he could always be Daniel's personal nightmare, the one that Daniel will never forget.

[mayisgoingnuts]

Completely random fun facts about the characters I roleplay as because I WILL INFODUMP ABOUT THEM. DEAL WITH IT /J /SILLY

@clownazon @secretmailservice I'm only confident enough to mention you guys 😔😔😔 /hj

— If you pay attention you can see that Roy NEVER said sorry to literally anyone, and I mean like a GENUINE sorry, so the one he gave to skid and pump doesn't really count since he was forced to

— Kevin and his ex broke up because Kevin wants a "Marry and live together" type of relationship while the other guy just wanted intimate stuff (dw they discussed and broke up)

— Richard grew up in a family similar to the one he's on rn, his parents controlled them and didn't let them do anything. He doesn't realize that he turn out just like his father because Roy didn't reacted the same way they did, so inside his mind he's fine

— PLUS this factor added to Charles' (Roy's uncle) need for dominance, he was already naturally arrogant and authoritan, ended up only getting stronger. Developed into mental illness (aka pedo thoughts) and did what he did. Still deserves to die tho

— Carmen is 2 years younger than her husband!! :D

— Kevin already unintentionally copied some of Marco's behaviour ksjdkdjf

— If it isn't obvious enough Roy is insanely aggressive on meltdowns/breakdowns, BUT if he's unable/not allowed to hurt people or break things around him he'll either pull his hair or bite his cap

— ROY AUTISM MOMENT JOKING WHEN LOTTIE WAS CRYING CUZ HE DIDN'T REALIZED THAT IT WAS THE WRONG MOMENT TO JOKE ABT THINGS

— Still talking about autism he got it from his dad :)

— Kevin's mom constantly says that he's ruining his life and comparing him with his sister (she's a doctor)

— But AGAIN IT'S JUST LIKE CARMEN, she doesn't hate Kevin or anything, bad mom but not bad person, she wanted him somewhere good and not in a damn candy store 💔💔 wouldn't make sense for her to hate him and then call him atleast twice to make sure he got his meds

— Carmen the only one with no traumas KJAHDWKD

— Kevin's highschool was AWFUL because transphobia and ableism ♡ (fuck schools

That's everything my children ty for reading /silly

[leonenjoyer69]

hey do you know abt the drama magicalmo is causing rn abt u?

I'm sorry for u, stay strong! Internet drama is a total bitch tbh don't let it get to you.

Yes, sadly despite having him blocked I'm quite aware. I've mainly just been ignoring him hoping that he'd get burnt out on his little hate crusade but the accusations he keeps pushing are genuinely fucking sick and disgusting.

Reminder to never pity him guys! Made that mistake myself, let him on my server as a second chance thing because I knew he was so widely hated, and guess who made everyone on there wildly uncomfortable and got himself banned after exploding at two of the members? Not to mention the fact that he had a mole on my server after getting banned to get that "damning evidence", so fun times guys.

That NSFW channel he keeps yapping about has been long gone, and nothing worse than that spoilered smut concept (you know, the one screenshot he keeps sharing, where the worst word is bloody "arousal"), on the optional channel, was ever shared. Truly it was my mistake, I had felt horrible making that category in the first place, but some of the other members requested it, so. I suppose I also made the mistake of seeing a public discord server as something akin to Tumblr, since literally everyone on there followed me on here anyways, and I know damn well have seen and shared worse things on here. But, alas, apparently discord is a different breed, and that I now know.

And the rest of his yapping? Fucking disgusting. The fact that he keeps implying that I have or would do such vile things is literally sickening, and I know every single person on that server would come to my defense because I've done fucking nothing wrong. The genuine defamation is literally crazy. All I wanted was a community and friends, and that's what I have- great friends, who are supportive and kind, and friends is all they are.

Okay, ranting over, thank you for your kind words :3 it does mean a lot to know that so many people are supporting me and defending me. Honestly, i am slightly glad it's me taking the hits over some of the other folks he's had stupid beef with in the past, none of my friends deserve to be dragged into stupid fake drama, and based on their reactions to all of this, apparently I take it far more calmly than them lmao.

I just don't want issues man, just wanna share my silly stories and characters and have people enjoy and talk about them to me. And thankfully I do still have that, I just have one persistent little hater throwing rocks at me from the corner, which is ironic when you compare what he's done to the genuine mistake I did, but hey, an eye for an eye and the whole world goes blind, Ill be the better person.

Apologies for dragging my blog down with this, but rest assured more art and rambles will bring it back up soon, thank you again for the ask and you're kind words :3

[aphverse-confessions]

OK- I'm gonna be honest. I like MyStreet, but not as a show. More as a minecraft story series in general if that makes sense. (not comparing it to MCD in this bc its been waaay too long since ive watched MCD for me to actually write abt it like this)

srry if this is annoying lol, long post.

Some disclaimers!! A lot of these r assumptions btw! Pls do not take these things as 100% fact, this is just how i saw things/"theories". This is also not an attack on Jess, i dont have the authority to judge someone as a person and I dont claim to. these are very strictly my opinions on Mystreet, not Jess as a person. It's hard to take the early seasons very seriously considering its origins as essentially a tropey, slice-of-life version of MCD, and these tropes continue on throughout the series until (i can only assume) Jess went "oh, we're making this more serious, and if the series is more serious, these tropes (Travis being an anime perv, Katelyn being an anime tsundere, Nana's whole thing..) make certain characters unlikeable/weird/problematic/whatever else so we'll just write them out" (Travis confronting Katelyn, the whole Nana Ashida reveal).

While these are occasionally done well, to me it just seems like Jess trying to write out the tropey or bad things that came from the earliest versions of the characters without actually IRL addressing the initial issue with their design (with Nana even dating back as far as MCD, with her first appearance being 5 months before the the start of MyStreet. I'm counting the whole "Kawaii-chan" thing as problematic here bc to me it's.. weird.. but idk, im willing to be educated on that if im wrong!) maybe she doesnt NEED to address some of the character design choices irl but I feel like itd be better to clarify things (I could be wrong). There's a lot of earlier creative decisions (especially with things played as jokes) that don't help with the tone as the series became more and more serious, and even some things in those more serious seasons that were really questionable, and I often feel like I have to just decide which parts of certain episodes are canon or non canon because of things like that. Don't get me wrong, it's very good for something that started out with the technology that it did, but in my opinion it just doesn't really reach "show" quality to me. It leaves a lot to wish for. (I know that there are TV shows that have the same problems, but i wouldnt even bother watching them normally because they dont have the saving grace that is the fact that this is in Minecraft, a charming style of storytelling that kept me interested even when I had these major criticisms about the actual content of the story.) Anyways sorry for incoherent babbling! ^^; Just had to get that onto paper to see if I'm just being crazy or something. I know I might not be right about all (or even most) of the things I said here but thats just how it came across to me. Of course this might not fully convey what i mean to say or even say it in the right way, maybe eventually ill talk more abt this somewhere(I had other things I wanted to talk abt but was scared to) but im too nervous to say it without the safety of anonymity rn haha. I'm open to other opinions, learning, etc. especially if i said something in this post that was problematic or already disproven! /genuine A/N: srry abt forgetting that The Big Move came out before MyStreet (i never watched it unfortunately, probably wouldve mentioned it in the main part if I knew but I dont think it subtracts too much from what im trying to say) & for the overuse of the word problematic, I literally did not know how else to put it :,]

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[honeekyuu]

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AFAFAWEFEAWFAE okay honestly theyre genuinely at that point of being so into each other that making the other person feel good is a massive turn on for them. so the WHOLE time theyre together it's always gonna be about the other person and im so down bad obsessed with their relationship fr

[sourcoded]

Okay alt timeline kenshi has been spinning around in my head like a microwave soo here's my personal take on his childhood and back story etc.

( most of this is stuff i've posted on twitter but i doubt half of you follow me on there LOL and no one really saw it anyways... sooo ill put it here to, also no character limit so i get to explain shit in detail yippie!)

tw for child abuse mention under-cut

* He was isolated and secluded for most of his childhood due to his family's general paranoia about outsiders and there family linage etc which from that point on made it tremendously difficult for him to connect with his peers. He was home schooled, only ever allowed to mingle with the few children among his extend family ( but unfortunately most of them were already older teens so he barely got much fun out of hanging around them any how.) * But at the same time he grew up way to fast due to the irresponsibility of the adults around him and eventually was forced into the world at a young age. His mother had rather poor health and was horrifically codependent, his father was mostly uncaring of this, neglectful to both her and kenshi's needs but especially controlling, and saw kenshi as nothing more but a tool to orchestrate his vision of the future for there clan and practically worked him to death whenever it came to training. * This endless cycle went on from the age's of 7-16, up until his mother finally succumbed to her poor health and passed. grief stricken and traumatized kenshi finally made the decision to run away, but not without his father putting up a fight. after a tireless battle that almost ended his life, still kenshi came out on top and ironically beating his father with everything he's ingrained in him for all his life, but whether or not his father survived is unknown, kenshi presumed he died from his injuries and kept on his way immediately after. * kenshi picked up any work he could to support himself afterwards, moving place to place, and for the longest time not really sure on what he's searching for exactly, his past still weighing on him heavy. though he found genuine connections through proving his skills and finding worthy opponents and such, he still had a tendency of keeping most ppl at arms length.. more intricate hc's: - due to his mom's codependency and his fathers neglect he is CHRONICALLY independent and tends to bite off way more than he can chew. - He's super avoidant of big emotions and reactions, almost having a sort of flat effect. which can make him appear rather detached, cold and brief, or when in better moods he puts up a front that's rather witty, dry and even a little bit of a mischievous sense of humor. - he is vry autistic if this wasn't already obvious! ( all kenshi's are fight me..) he lives on a rather strict routine for himself and again due to the abuse this made the chronic independence even worse. - guilt and grief eat him up a lot, its super hard for him to navigate either, with suchin's death, he had a tremendously difficult time confronting these things with takeda and finding closure in a healthy manner, so imo this is why he chose not to visit ..i truly believe he wanted nothing but the absolute best for takeda, but again with his circumstances things were just to much (but esp in the moment with red dragon on his tail lmao..?) ( and i esp feel like he didn't want to hinder takeda's growth in anyway either)...big believer in sometimes the parent being there is WORSE! so imo i think this is along the lines of what kenshi was dealing with all those years he left takeda with hanzo. ( i'm super passionate abt this can you tell ...sorry this got so wordy LOL) - last but not least i believe suchin was among the vry few people he let in and became THAT close with, prior to that he's only been with like a few men here and there but only 1 of them were sort of long term.

[tokillamockingbird427]

yes !!! I had fun shopping thanks for asking :] I got craft stuff (i finally learned to sew & im gonna crochet the bag and sew in lining) and the cutest babydoll top ever im so blessed to have found it. I am normal and not in pain now

ur so right abt elias being mental illinois. I think he's one of those people that masked so hard that he hyperfixates on neurotypical/acceptable stuff. (rorke takes them all fishing and elias knows perhaps too much about these fish)

he always has a fun fact rolling around like a marble in his pea brain and everyone chocks it up to Dad Stuff but he's ND I fear.

i still think that he's like. not great abt certain things. i saw a someone interpret elias as homophobic and that made me personally angry but I do think his age and his social circles contribute to him being dense on certain topics. he's not maliciously a denier of mental illness he just doesn't understand bcs he's never been in an environment to do so. even when it's his own

-angel, that's my daily ask done time to go play subway surfers for 6 hours

Wooooo! Not woo for being in pain! But for the other stuff!!!

"mental illinois" He lives there.... city "Daniel"... many things not nerotypical about this man, beyond the PTSD. (Elias's special interest is fish; "Want fish, fear women/Women want me, fish fear me.")

No that's so me... 🤝 He's just constantly chucking barely related fun facts into the conversation and the handful of times the conversation has turned to ask him for fun facts he's been absolutely so delighted.

Elias in therapy 4k UltraHD IMAX surround sound.

I'm so sorry I'm laughing so had at Elias "I Didn't Know That Was an Option" Walker being so dense he doesn't realize being mentally ill or queer are options and also doesn't realize he is Both. Not malicious just incredibly stupid. He's like a dog. He doesn't understand those realities they're just concepts to him.

Okay but like; I genuinely don't think Elias wouldn't even realize in a more domestic au (Where no one fucking dies, *ahem* GABRIEL.) that he's gay in love and married to Rorke in everything but the legal way. He'd just be like "Nah, the boys went off to college and I had this big ole house and yk Rorke wanted to retire somewhere warm so now we live together and commit to domestic activates with each other because we're such good pals." and ykw Rorke wouldn't know either... Logan and Hesh come home for spring break and they're like "Oh, two dads now." and also don't realize Elias+Rorke don't know... Just a lot of "Not knowing jack about shit" in that family I think. No one asks questions they just accept shit. "This is happening." too relaxed I fear.

Fuck yeah, subway surfers. (Ur literally Logan)

[quirkle2]

I’ll bite, what about your blue exorcist fic are you excited to share?

OHHBOY YIPPEE

i should preface this with the fact that i've only seen s1 of the show and i don't plan on watching the rest (MAYBE ill read the manga one day. i'm not much of a manga reader tho) i like s1's version of the story. so this is based off of that timeline, i guess

it's basically about yukio finding comfort in the fact that he is very different from his brother bc based on Society most of rin's attributes are "negative" (brash, loud, reckless, easily distracted, a bit stupid sometimes) and most of yukio's attributes are "positive" (focused, ambitious, well-behaved, well-spoken, polite). he takes pride in all that; he Likes that he's the "good" brother. but then he starts paying more attention to rin and seeing how there's good in his "bad" behavior, and he learns that putting values on attributes like yukio (and society) has been doing is.unproductive and harmful.

he mostly sees this through little moments where the twins' opinions on demons differ. yukio is an exorcist, and a very good one, and he feels accomplished when he kills a demon. rin, on the other hand, has started to show that he rly doesn't like killing demons, and he'd rather make friends with them instead. yukio starts listening to rin, starts seeing how gentle he treats these demons, how a simple soft voice can get them to calm a little, and he realizes with absolute horror that rin might be right to not treat them like monsters. and if rin is right about This, that means that like 80% of yukio's identity is wrong.

he defines himself as the guy who exorcises demons to keep his brother safe, as the guy who exterminates pests to make the world better. but then his brother is gentle with them and shows them love and acts genuinely hurt when people call him names just bc he's half demon. yukio is a little late to realize it, but it kinda hits him that he's built his personality off of hating demons, all in the name of keeping a member of said demons safe. his brother is a good person, with complex ins and outs. his brother is also a demon.

some of them are dangerous, yes, but true cross academy has taught generations upon generations of people that exorcising them is the only way to solve that issue. yukio learns, thanks to rin, that that is purely false. just made up lies.

yukio learns to redefine "demon" in his head, not to something horrid, or spiteful, but something neutral, just a thing that is. but boy does he have a crisis abt what that means for him and his entire career, purpose, and future

and !!!!!!!!! IMPORTANT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i treat yukio RIGHT in this fic. i've seen so many fics on ao3 where yukio is just.an asshole. an unlikable, irredeemable, heartless fucking Dickhead and i've HAD it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! up to here‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️ idk WHAT the fuck happens in the manga for so much of the fanbase to hate him so badly (there is an entire yukio okumura bashing tag. it'sthat bad guys) but my s1 yukio would fucking never.he would never. am i in the wrong? am i foolish to complain, when i'm the fan that attaches herself to s1 and Nothing Else like a koala and stays there, unwilling to face the fact that s1 yukio is not technically canon yukio? perhaps. maybe i Am in the wrong. but goddammit i rly like s1 yukio oka y

i treat himfucking right. i beat him up and he reacts like he would in s1 canon (dickhead remarks and heartless moments included!!!! they're important!!) but he is NOT a soul-sucking character.he is a traumatized 15 year old who's just trying to protect his brother, even when he's still grappling with what his brother is, and learning to accept it despite how he's been raised. yes he is a bit mean and definitely a hard-ass. but i will make Damn sure that his love for rin bleeds through every other fucking line. because that is Correct and Who Yukio Is.can u tell i feel strongly abt this

also sorry robin for putting u on blast but i saw ur tags and . you🫵.you get it.you understand.

[foggybear42]

HAI SPENCER!!!! i started watching d20!!!!! i'm just on fantasy high (i can finally recognize ur pfp lmaoo) but do u have any other season recommendations? :O

OMG HI JUPITER !!!! fantasy high is literally so fun i love it sm. for recommendations: if youre watching on youtube, then fantasy high is the only campaign you can watch. but! if youre watching on dropout, then heres a short list of my favourite seasons (in no particular order) other than fantasy highs other seasons + short summaries (ill try not to ramble too much lmao)

a starstruck odyssey

a chaotic campaign abt a spaceship crew set in a futuristic 60s retro universe and the different jobs they do (mostly crimes, honestly.) starstruck can be a bit numbers and mechanics heavy, so it can sometimes feel like way too much information all that once, but thats usually just during the battles and the roleplay moments are usually breezier

misfits & magic

a short campaign (4 eps + a holiday special) abt a group of kids that all get sent letters from a knock-off hogwarts. brennan is actually a player in this one! the character he plays is genuinely one of my favourite d20 characters ever. misfits & magic is basically just teenagers being stupid teenagers and i love them all sm

a court of fey and flowers

fey regency!! this campaign is all abt relationships and status. chock full of drama and romance (and brennan is a player again!)

neverafter

TWISTED FAIRYTALES !!! all the characters are from classic fairytales but with a little fucked up twist. neverafter deals with a lot of heavier topics and is d20s first official horror season, but each episode has its own list of content warnings which can make it much easier to watch

the seven

a fantasy high spin-off!! it has such a vibe that i can only describe as 'highschool girl friendgroup'. none of the pcs from fantasy high show up, but a good chunk of the npcs do!

anyways thats probably a good list lmao. sorry for answering this late, i drafted it and then immediately forgot abt it 😭 hopefully you enjoy at least one of these seasons and that youre enjoying fantasy high!! happy watching!!!

[idkanymor33]

H I :0

I feel like doing an intro for the mAnY pEoPle that are gonna read it-

So if ya want

U can read it :>

Nicknames: Andy/Andi/Mando/anything really lmao

Pronouns: He/She/They (I'm genderfluid:))

Sexuality: Still not completely sure but for now I go with pan :)

Age: hOw RuDe Of YoU tO bE aSkInG tHaT >:) (I am a minor tho so yk- dont be creepy)

Birfday: 11th o march ✨

Fav film: probably one of the Spiderman into the spiderverse ones (I'm sorry- but the animation, HAVE YOU SEEN IT??)

Fav TV series: Anne w an e (I refuse to believe anyone wouldn't love this and yes, I do wanna murder netflix for canceling it T-T)

Musicians I likez: Em beihold, UPSAHL, vampire weekend, Green day, ✨Cavetown✨ (varied ik) :3 (it changes all the time so yk if i bother to update this it may be completely diff)

Fav ice cream flavour: (yes this is important) raspberry sorbet

Hobbies: Art- (literally all I do w my time even tho I still suck), I'm trying to teach myself some basic animation plus I luv js scrolling thru random ppls art lol

IF UR ALSO A LEARNING ARTIST BTW ILL BE SO HAPPY IF U TALK TO ME- I NEED MORE ARTIST FRIENDS

Random stuff U might like to know:

Instruments: learning electric guitar and singing (Not in a choir, never in a choir.)

•I will genuinely not interact w u unless u interact w me first 😔

•Im happy for ppl to ask me things/ vent but in terms of advice it may not help 🤷

•I love everything fantasy and run a campaign of D&D w my friends.

•I'm british. :^

•Im also kinda shy talking to ppl i haven't talked to before but I love talking to ppl and once I'm cool w talking to them I will just transform from a shy lil introvert to an insane extrovert- have fun w that :>>

Feel free to ask me anything else u r curious abt :33

I like ppl asking me things

Welp

Didn't think it would be this long-

Anyway,

Bye :^

[emeraldoo]

HEY! HEY!! LOOK AT ME!!

LE MEH!!!

hi, my name is bastion!! i have lots of other names im ok with tho, like bb, b, 8, shiver, weird, etc! im not ok with the nickname EM or EMERALD!

i am a zombie, autism creature, maned wolf kin and fict kin Shiver from spl3 <3 i am also NOT a minor!!!!!! 19 yrs :•)) im also a rogue of mind!! (homestuck hoe.)

i am a trans male! i use he/xe/it prns! currently questioning my romantic attraction (pretty sure im bi-gay), but i am asexual!

i am the host in the zipties system, a did system!! some of the head mates have their own blogs, which ill tag :•)

i am audhd, gad, ocd, and a general cluster b pd haver!! i also have some delusions from ~an unkown disorder~ so! working thru some stuff still!

MY INTERESTS!!!!!!!

SPLATOON AUGHHHHH most of my blog is splatoon....

i freaking LOVE nnsg :•3333 the anime of ALL TIME!!

SCIENCE!!!!!!! i plan on majoring in microbiology and synthetic biology but i luv ALL science!!

MUSIC/BAND!! i play euphonium and play in marching band and concert ensembles <3

i luvvv itsv and atsv and all of the spiderverse stuf!!!!!! my fave spider in spider man india btw.!

GUILD WARS 2 AIUGHHJJJHHH THE BEST EVER ACTUWLLY. PLAY IT PLAY IT RNNNN

ALTERS!!

not all of our alters choose to make profiles, and we arent going to force them to make them. if you need to know them, just send a DM or ask

* = written by alter

BASTION (☘️): DAS ME BITCH! im the host and core of the system >:•D i am the main guy in this blog soooo ya. (he/him, xe/xem, it/its)

EM/@riddlekid (🧪): the rat. horrible terrible (/hj... i guess..!) obsessed with horrible ppl sooo. erm yeah. he is also a prosecutor.!! also second most freq fronter :•P (it/its, he/him)

JON/@just-dr (🎃): jon!! he is a protector and a fictive of jonathan crane.. he is nice :•)) he doesnt associate much with his source tho so shrugsies (he/him, they/them)

MILES (👤): i actually dont know much abt them... they do their job rlly good tho! protector n stuff.. cool! (they/them)

CORNELIUS (🩸): um... so it just split and formed prtty recently (as of 12/8/23) and i also. don't know much abt it! other than it's a fictive of cornelius stirk from batman unburied.. and a prosecutor! (it/its)

JADE (🌐): cutey patootie wolf thing! fictive of jade from homestuck andddd yeah!! cool (she/they)

KARKAT/@karkat-cornbread (🔥): fictive of karkat homestuck guy. gets very angry very fast. idk role but yeah. the amgry one ig (he/they)

* DAVE/@karkat-cornbread (🕶️): yea. is this bitch predictable or what lmfao (he/any)

* HAL/9K/@timothy-timeaus (🛑): Beep boop. Coolest splinter of Dirk. I'm also cool with the name Odyssey or 9k. (They/Them)

* EQUIUS/@runningfromred (🐎): Yes hello I am Equius I am more active on the cohost but might still use this platform.

* TIM/ @timothy-timaeus (🔗): I'm my own subsystem of splinters. I'm just a ye ol Dirk splinter.

* CALUM/@timothy-timaeus (🧢): bro strider splinter and a real goof. heeheeee

* JAKE (🦎): Your caretaker and funny guy! im from meat timeline and have alot of pseudos, sorry if im hesitant to interact with sourcemates :B

MY TAGGING SYSTEM!! (wip 8[)

#emeraldo slay posting: all of my posts! that i leave words on are tagged with 8)

DNI :•(

its not rlly. much? the only stuff i rlly care abt is jerks.. if ur a jerkkk (terf, racist, zionist, ableist, antikin, sysmed, transmed, antikink, whatever girl u git the gist....)

i don't have especially strong opinions on most discourse... slurcourse, syscourse, flagcourse, shipcourse... its kinda silly.! so um. whatever.

* (Hal writing.) Our take on pro/antiship is "It doesn't fucking matter". We aren't proship, we aren't antiship, we are just kind of shipping whatever the fuck we want. If you think it's problematic, we most likely won't care. Unless there's a genuine reason to be concerned, don't bother.

exclusionists!!!! i don't like you!!!!!!!!!!!! aphones, panphobes, biphobes, mspec gay/lesbian haters, antixenogender, anti neoprns, whatever! i do not like you at all >:•{

hp fans... you know why :•) please find a better media ..

BYE BYE!!