#sorry i draw these kinda templates a lot

[laiamadej]

Love me slowly, stay awake all night.

: Brassac - Violette Wautier (mv)

[yanderespamton78]

sometimes i feel like toby fox made spamton and the addisons especially for people to hyperfixate on. everything about them seems so perfect for people to go rabid about its insane to me

for one, spamton himself pretty much counts for 4 people, those being addispam, big shot spamton, in game spamton, and spamton neo. now sure you mostly see people going rabid about in game spamton but ive seen plenty of people who are obsessed with a version we dont get to see on screen

secondly, even the main in game spamton himself is kinda up to interpretation. loads of people characterise him differently. if i compared two aus to eachother theyd often be very different and depending on the ones i chose could be almost like 2 different people, and then if i compared those to in-game spamton, theyd still be very different. also since you dont see addispam and big shot spamton on screen you dont even know what they acted like so again basically you can make your own guy to fixate on with a few prompts as to what he was like

dont even get me started on the addisons. now im biased as fuck here seeing that ive been fixated on the addisons for like 6 months now (send help) but toby fox basically gave us 4 templates for us to have fun with. sure based off of in game dialogue you have a bit to go off of when it comes to their personality (pink being an asshole and blue being caring for example) but even then every addison in every different au is slightly different and i have never seen two addisons turn out exactly the same. ALSO you dont even know the relationship these characters have to spamton meaning you can have them be siblings, you can have them be friends, or you can ship them based off of what you enjoy. OR you could just ignore them altogether (which a lot of people do lmao)

also another thing is the fact that you dont necessarily need to have your addisons' personalities just reflect off of spamtons. I mean the main 4 addisons give you enough to go off of to make your own, and you are given cyber city, an entire fantasy world for you to put them in. cyber city again is up to interpretation, some people have it be like a normal city, some people make it a utopia, some people make it a hellscape. the choice is yours!!

and even then in game spamton is so versatile. he is perfect for angsty stuff, fluffy stuff, or jsut silly stuff, and none of it is out of character. you couldnt really make an angsty spongebob edit could you, itd be weird and out of characer and no one would take it seriously. but also you couldnt make a silly walten files video, sure people do but its out of character and wouldnt actually happen canonically. but spamton on the other hand. hes the kinda guy who you can draw holding a wallet in his mouth like a cat and generally being silly but also you could draw him sobbing at the bottom of dumpster and neither would be out of character!! AAAA

also extra thing i thought id add but his backstory is also very up to interpretation, like i dont think ive ever seen two people who think spamtons rise and downfall went exactly the same. sure everyone has the same general idea of how it went but some people believe in acid theory, some people believe in puppetification theory, some people have a mix of both, some people have their own idea of how it went down, and with that you can project different parts of your own trauma onto whatever happened to him.

ok sorry that was so long thank you for reading my very biased ramble about why spamton is perfect byeeee

[hatsunevitu]

heyyyy !!! i saw a person asking me about my other sp otps (yep thats surprising but kyman is not my only pairing hehe) sooo ive done this

btw i absolutely can’t draw so i’m sorry for how ugly it may look

i also love stenny, clybe, bebe/red, steek, kytters, clenny and staig a lot!!!

also this kinda looks like a template so i’ll leave it here under the cut

and aww @bloogers-boogers thanks a lot for asking!!!!! also wanted to say that your choice of otps is sooooo great like rlly i dont see enough ppl liking ships like jimthan or kenman!! and our taste is a bit similar because YEPPP KYMAN CANDY AND JIMTHAN SHARING (almost) THE SAME DYNAMIC IS SO TRUE!!!

[kaiserouo]

Wow i actually have enough rendered pieces to make an art summary this year. Just barely tho

Ramble below, also template ref

Oh god where do i even start. This is the part where i reflect on myself and do nothing about it afterwards.

In thems of topics, it's mostly just apex d2 and wf. I've never made my own world and characters because most ideas that i have the motivation to make into art comes from me playing the game. Maybe that's why I don't really treat a lot of my original character as "original characters", because they're still bound to a game instead of, you know, born out of the blue i guess.

I barely did render this year... I mean, not just this year of course. I think I slightly got the hang of it these two months? At least I kinda have a pipeline that I can follow and could tolerate / fix some of my mistakes in the later stages (e.g., picking wrong colors for flat color and wanna fix it during rendering etc.). It's... kinda like OOP? Decoupling code? I think it just comes down to opening a million layers and not feeling bad about it. Anyway I think one of my improvements comes from here.

Another improvement would be the speed of doing sketches and the complexity of the lineart I can handle (idk how to say that). I need to draw comics and there would be a lot of people in there, so even if I don't practice specifically I still need to draw some human figures. The complexity part is due to me getting into warframe just because of how fucking complicated they all are. Maybe instead of lineart complexity I should say I'm comfortable drawing somewhat complex characters now without my brain overloading and immediately giving up. Still haven't drawn BT though.

That's probably all the obvious improvements I can think of. I didn't read as many books as last year, but the two main books I read last year are for perspective and anatomy, which I do find very very useful. I still often go back to check some anatomy stuff this year, and with me spam drawing comics I think I can draw human figures better than before... if I only consider proportion that is. I think I have to redo anatomy all over again especially for the muscle part. Also probably should do more real human reference practice... Well, you can probably guess why I said that at the start.

I do think the reason why I do so little rendering is because I mostly do comics. Most of my ideas have a plot and my idea list is waaaaay too long to actually color the comics. And as I feel more comfortable drawing comics I fear more when I wanna do rendering because of the skill gap I have between the two subjects. Also most of you come for silly comics so why do I do full rendered pieces anyways... Yeah, after typing that sentence I do feel wrong thinking like that. But oh well, I guess I can't escape the curse of liking to see numbers go up.

Speaking of numbers, here's some of them. Good thing I don't have to deal with Tumblr API myself.

That's... quite a lot of followers, for me. I mean I don't stay in only one fandom so I have no idea why most of you followed me. Also sorry to ultrakill fans I just don't draw a lot for that game but I see some of you liking a ton of ultrakill post and immediately follows me. Kinda felt that I baited you folks for following me tbh...

Also 3 of my top 5 posts (2234 > 1726 > 1641 > 1531 > 1321) are ultrakill and I only have 27 ultrakill art posts (a lot fewer than other games) so... um, maaaaybe you should consider unfollowing me to clean up your timeline...?

Aaand here are the note stats per month because I've already typed this much so why not just include literally everything in one post

The only thing I can analyze is that the note and post number started to lose correlation due to how much ramble shitpost I have these months.

Okay that's it. I intended to make another art summary for the lineart / unrendered art pieces, but there's just too many to choose from and I don't think you can infer more from these given that the rendered pieces already has lineart in them. Mostly.

[rosecolorednerd]

I made a Gallawelt chart based on my headcanons 😔🩷💛

I know Gallagher’s age isn’t confirmed and that the 13 is to represent Death in the Arcana but I also like the theory that Gallagher is 13 in dog years.

Gallagher is usually the bigger spoon because even though Welt is taller Gallagher he’s bigger figure wise. However since Welt is taller I could also see him being the bigger spoon sometimes

Lends clothes and borrows clothes is heavy on the lending because Gallagher loves seeing Welt in his clothes, but Welt prefers wearing his own clothes because he can’t stand Gallagher’s ‘gaudy’ colors XD plus none of Welt’s clothes would even fit Gallagher

Gallagher calls Welt ‘hero’ at first just to tease him and make Welt flustered but after awhile it kinda grows on him. I could also just see them calling each other the standard ones like baby, dear, dearest.

I considered putting Gallagher as an extrovert but I think because of what Siobhan said about him not opening up to people he has more introverted tendencies. He likes socializing with people at work but afterwards he gets tired and kinda drained so he recharges with Welt. Welt on the other hand I think he’s a little more extroverted because he used to be a teacher and he clearly loves looking after March, Dan Heng and the trailblazer so his social battery is much higher than Gallagher’s.

Gallagher’s love language is taking Welt on dates, making him drinks and just spending time with him whereas Welt expresses his love more through words of affirmation, poems, letters, and ofc drawings but that’s more of an action thing

Confessions first, I think Gallagher just wouldn’t be able to help himself. The moment he meets Welt at the bar he’d start flirting with him. As actual confessions go Gallagher fell first but Welt fell harder, so Welt says “I love you” first

The bug one is so silly bc I think Gallagher would scream about the bug and Welt would rush in to defend him only for Gallagher to find the bug really adorable XD

It’s canon that Himeko cannot cook so l feel like Welt would do most of the cooking before Dan Heng showed up. I think Gallagher would be a decent cook but he specializes in drinks.

Gallagher is very cuddly with Welt when he allows it but Welt is more reserved. Actually I feel like they’d both be more private with their affection but if anyone were to initiate pda it would be Gallagher.

I think Gallagher being the overprotective one is kind of on the nose so I thought it would be really cute if Welt was actually the overprotective one especially after the Penacony quest but I won’t give spoilers. Basically because of what happened to Gallagher and also just people flirting with him at the bar he’d naturally get more protective and jealous. Gallagher however doesn’t really care because has a lot of faith in Welt but if someone got a little too close he’d probably wrap an arm around Welt’s waist or interrupt the conversation.

I really don’t see Gallagher dating a lot of people while he was thinking about his plan and I know Welt has some romantic history with Tesla and they look after Joey together but beyond that I think Welt assumed he liked Tesla because it was expected of him but going out into the galaxy he realizes he never really liked girls. That being said I don’t intend on playing Honkai Impact 3rd so I could be wrong but this is just my headcanon fight me /j from what I’ve seen I don’t really like Tesla I’m sorry she’s kinda annoying—

Himeko herself said that Welt talks less and less about going home so really I think he’s just accepted the express as his new home as much as he probably still cares about Joey and the others

My headcanons about their sexualities are less solid tho. I really could see it either way with Gallagher being gay and Welt being bisexual or anything else.

I hope you guys enjoyed listening to me ramble about these old men and if you have your own headcanons feel free to share them <3

Also the template is not mine, the artwork is mine.

I found it on Pinterest and the original creators are Gibslythe and Teaskull.

[hikibeeplus]

Is Shin Gensokyo at all inspired by Osana Reimu?

Not really, I get a lot of comments how the current story really sounds like osana reimu but the root really started with this silly sketches

The story in which the sketches took place in is a much more modern Gensokyo. There’s the scarlet devil mansion being a huge corporate entity, the kappa having a tech company with a monopoly on it and former hell having a nuclear energy that powers the whole of Gensokyo. The Protagonists are these 3 little fellas but eventually I decided to scrap the story all together because I really don’t know where to go with it. However the theme of modern Gensokyo persists throughout the iteration.

The next iteration is more of a next generation of Gensokyo Incident Solver, kinda like how Boruto is to Naruto (I know, I don’t have any other comparison). This is also where I first came up with ShinGensokyo as a name (Not on my own, my friend gave it as a suggestion and I took it). The story is centered around 3 characters too, which is Reiyu Hakurei the daughter of Reimu, Hatsuma Morichika the daughter of Marisa and Rin Satsuki, a half youkai kirin. The modern setting of Gensokyo was toned down in this iteration, no big bad evil corporation SDM, the kappa tech company is not really a tech company anymore, and the Moriya become the huge factor of technology trickling into Gensokyo.

The main theme of the story here was about Reiyu looking up to take up the mantle of Hakurei Shrine Maiden like her mother but she is timid about it and Reimu don’t really want to push that responsibility to Reiyu as she doesn’t really know how to teach Reiyu to become a shrine maiden herself. Really had difficulty with this iteration because it changes a lot of the major characters in Touhou and I really have a hard time to do them justices, I’d also have to worry about the theme of modern Gensokyo and how everyone copes with the changes made while at the same time I have to focus on Reiyu’s and the other characters’ arc. Overall it’s a story heavy project for a first timer attempting to make a comic series. But then….

I made these little sketches of “wouldn’t it be funny if Rumia gets adopted by Yukari as a shikigami.” it got some attention and I keep drawing it because I adore drawing a simple character design and also I love Yukari. I tried making it a separate series than ShinGensokyo and titled it Sunshine but my ambitious dumb self thought that I should add some substances other than “haha silly Rumia.” and so I got the idea of combining ShinGensokyo and Sunshine and it’s a formula that I came to accept.

Rumia is kind of a blank template for me to start working out her character which is good. Initially, I came up with a gag slice-of-life comic about a modern Gensokyo as seen through the eye of a clueless Rumia but then I decided to add some character development to Rumia too which is now the current state of the comic.

In conclusion, No, ShinGensokyo is not at all inspired by Osana Reimu. The main theme of ShinGensokyo is about dealing with changes and growing up while Osana Reimu and it's subsequence sequel Reireimu from what I can tell is dealing with tragedy and past traumas (I never really watched it, only heard about it, my apologies if I get the theme wrong). the only similarities I could tell is Rumia's questionable origin both in Osana and Shingensokyo. If you read this far, thank you and sorry for going on about it with a long post when the answer is just simply No. Thank you for asking.

[pomarrillo]

pomarrillo art summary 2023 and rambling be upon ye

hello there.........

reused 2020's template for the fourth year in a row bc idgaf !!!!!!!!!!!! also these were hard to fit into this template cuz i did a lot of landscape canvases this year

Hi guys! Year is coming to a close and I don't have it in me to make another piece, so I thought I'd just go ahead and share this now 😁

Ok so hmm... not much to say in comparison to my 2022 one! I definitely feel my sense of color has changed; my color palettes are way more dark and muted in comparison to last years. I also didn't draw as much in general so there's less to compare to... I actually feel like I kinda regressed in rendering and color because of how many breaks I took LOL

Not to say I didn't improve on anything tho!! I just focused more on facial structure than anything for some reason 😭😭

additionally I also didn't hit a lot of goals I made from 2022 either. I feel like a lot of the art I made was mostly self-indulgent without thinking too hard about my technical skills... which I don't think is necessarily bad because I enjoyed making all of these pieces :3 art as a hobby is fun

For 2024 art goals, I'm gonna borrow my 2022 ones: do more interior spaces, dynamic framing, and ofc better anatomy! I also wanna challenge myself to make more original pieces if i ever feel inclined to... Fanart is my favorite thing to make but I gotta learn to pull from my own creativity sometimes lol

Tyvm for supporting me and my art!! 😭😭😭 sorry I don't have much to say this year.... I've been busy my first year of college learning design fundamentals and the commute there has been kicknig my ass SO HARD....... but yk what. fuck it we ball !!!!!!!! I'm just hoping to improve my skills and make more art I'm proud of next year 😆 oh and hopefully get started on making prints, I want something to put on my wall!! anyway I'm rambling TY IF YOU READ, here's to 2024!

[lowkeyrobin]

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[carbo-ships]

Okay I'm sorry to bug you but I'm so stupid. How are you guys making the yumeship things? Like the background and stuff is there a program y'all are using to get it? I've been trying on my phone and I don't know how y'all get them so perfect looking 😭 please explain it like I'm 5. If that's too much work, feel free to ignore this/delete this no hard feelings I'm just incredibly dumb 🥲😅

No worries at all!

I do it on my computer in my drawing software. If you don't have one, you can probably achieve just about everything that needs doing using this free software:

I'll break it down step by step how I made mine below the cut. there are lots of pictues. i hope this makes sense. we'll be recreating my Aether/Ardis one for this tutorial.

here is what we are going to do today

So step 1 is to download the template

I like using the transparent version because I find it easiest to edit for my purposes, but feel free to use the other ones as well if there's one you prefer. you'll just skip the first couple steps of this tutorial. Open it up in your software. I'm using Paint Tool SAI. It should look like this.

First, I'll drag in the background that I want and put it on a layer underneath the template. It will look something like this (you can also use a flat color, whatever you want)

Now I want to fill in the big boxes so that I can actually read the text, so I'll go back to the template layer and magic wand select the main bit of empty space (blue shows what's selected),

then invert it (there is probably a button for this on your software)

now I'll make another layer under the template and bucket fill what i want to be white

you can color in extra things you want to change the color of on this layer too, or just leave it as-is. I'm going to spruce it up a bit, though.

ok great. now i'm going to change the grey text boxes to be white because the light grey clashes with my pastels. this may not be necessary for yours. you can bucket fill those too on the main template, but I'm going to use what's called a clipping layer on SAI, which basically means that it's a layer that only draws on top of things that already exist in the layer under it (this may or may not exist in the software you're using, but do whatever works for you). so i'm going to make a new clipping layer over the template and color white over all the grey parts.

much better. it's time to cut out where we want our pictures to go. I find it easiest to work when I treat all the boxes like picture frames, kinda like how the ones in the bottom right are. there are other ways to do this, but this is my prefered method. so we're going to go to our template layer and magic wand select everywhere we want a picture to go (once again now highlighted in blue)

and delete those from both our template layer and our white layer. it should look like this now

so now all you do is drag in your pictures so that they're underneath your template, erasing any parts that stick out

and then you just add text and little rectangles and whatnot! (I added mine in a different program because my art software doesn't have a text feature)

I made a couple other adjustments to mine (black circle around the one photo, getting rid of the line at the bottom of the aesthetic trio) by just editing the template layer.

and that's it! all done! does that make sense? i hope that makes sense. if i skipped over anything vital or if that makes no sense, let me know.

[rhytmrocket]

hi

uh, sorry, again

i won’t even get into it, but i hid again for another week

sorry

one thing i did do was a year-end art review/compilation! do people still do that?

well, i did.

oughhh so much of this i havent shared and it feels kinda weird doing it

there’s gonna be so much in this post i’ll be surprised if i even get it out by midnight (it’s nearly half past 11 atm)

so first i’ll give you the template if you’d like so you dont have to scroll through all my rambling

next, a bit of reflection (theatre and chorus, dont fail me now)

overall, i think i’ve improved a Lot. like, i can’t stand to look at my earlier art, which i think is a sign of improvement! overall, i’ve been refining my style, i think, cuz my stuff’s pretty generally similar, just tweaked a bit to make it more bearable— i mean good. one thing i do want to improve on, at least initially, is fucking flipping the canvas once in a while. i actually did that in a piece i’ll share in just a bit, and i think it was a good result— i’m already getting used to it, like, it’s actually not that hard, just a bit frustrating sometimes. it helps with the balance and versatility— the flipability of a piece is very valuable. my strongest aspect was probably the rendering. ive always had fun with it, and when i actually try it looks, let’s just say, fucking awesome. i’m pretty good! keep telling myself that! and keep telling yourself that. there’s always some good stuff in most any drawing. love you, beginner artists

you know, as much as it physically hurts to look at old art, looking back at newer pieces makes me feel so good about myself. like, that was me, and now this is me! that’s so cool, isn’t it?

look at old art every once in a while. and not just drawing— writing, painting, sculpting, cooking, composing, playing an instrument, singing, acting— really anything at all! look at your old stuff just to see how far you’ve come. and feel good about that! you deserve it!

[colderdrafts]

Trying to think out my character a lil more, template from here. Just for fun, sfw alphabet for my grumpy snake man Amren below the cut.

A = Affection (How affectionate are they? How do they show affection?)

Pretty simple. He does not.

Well, at least not in a traditional way.

If you actually manage to get under Amren's skin he'll just kinda. Be in your proximity a lot. He might not even realize he's doing it himself, but if he likes you you're gonna spot him hanging around close by pretty often. It's some roundabout way for him to make sure you're safe. He doesn't know how to show affection so he's gonna need you to take the lead here he needs a hug jesus christ

Also, you're gonna smell like him. Don't ask how he does it. Sorry.

B = Best friend (What would they be like as a best friend? How would the friendship start?)

It is extremely difficult to make friends with Amren, he actively tries to prevent it lmao. BUT if you manage somehow, he's the scary dog privilege friend. Honestly, most of the time you wont be able to tell if he wants to be there or not. He's still going to be a snarky bastard but at some point he's gonna figure out he actually likes your laugh - and experiment to find what brings it out. Is also the friend that will throw hands if you're in trouble no questions asked. He's subconsciously trying his best to make sure you feel safe with him around.

C = Cuddles (Do they like to cuddle? How would they cuddle?)

If you actually somehow manage to get that close to him, congratulations. I hope you don't have plans because you're not going anywhere for a good while. Dw he's surprisingly comfortable when he coils around you.

D = Domestic (Do they want to settle down? How are they at cooking and cleaning?)

Amren doesn't really think much about ''settling''. He's grown used to solitude, has made peace with that and he hasn't done anything to change plans. He's lonely though, so if he ever got over himself and succumbed to the horrendous ordeal of being known maybe he'd start thinking about it again.

He's a decent chef (when he actually bothers cooking) and keeps his place very clean.

E = Ending (If they had to break up with their partner, how would they do it?)

Depends on context. If you've been shit to him he's gonna drop you without mercy (unlikely you'll even be in a relationship with him at all then, though. He's got a sense for this sorta thing). If it's just a general growing apart thing or something akin to it, pretty quickly it's gonna be a structured conversation face to face. If it ain't working, it ain't working. No point drawing things out. He's an expert band-aid ripper. Most likely still gonna want you in his life as a friend though.

F = Fiance(e) (How do they feel about commitment? How quick would they want to get married?)

So uh. He takes this VERY seriously. It takes a long time for him to figure out what he wants from another person (he doesn't know what to do lmao save him), and understand what they want from him. He isn't exactly scared of commitment itself, he values the other person's trust a lot and is extremely loyal - he's just scared they're gonna get hurt. He doesn't care about rings or ceremonies, to him they're just superficial arrangements that don't mean anything. He cares about words and actions.

G = Gentle (How gentle are they, both physically and emotionally?)

Emotionally? You know when you go to open a locked door, right? And it doesn't budge, of course. Imagine Amren's the door. Now imagine that door that doesn't budge suddenly slams open outwards and knocks you back on the pavement the second you try the handle.

If he likes you, he'll go easy on you though. Might even try to be supportive. It's not gonna be very effective.

Physically? He knows he's a pretty big guy with some unique abilities. He usually stays far away from others because of that. Does that count as 'gentle'?

H = Hugs (Do they like hugs? How often do they do it? What are their hugs like?)

Go ahead. Hug him. I dare you.

Either extremely awkward or you'll feel like you're being crushed.

I = I love you (How fast do they say the L-word?)

Amren has never said nor heard those words in his life. Ever.

J = Jealousy (How jealous do they get? What do they do when they’re jealous?)

He's never really had anyone to get jealous over, but if he finds someone he actually likes pursues someone else he might get a liil green eyed. Just a smidge. And it's gonna piss him off tremendously when he figures out that that's what's happening to him.

The other person will be none the wiser, though. He will keep it under very tight wraps.

K = Kisses (What are their kisses like? Where do they like to kiss you? Where do they like to be kissed?)

Again, he has no idea how to do the whole 'affection-thing', but once he's over that he'll try. A lil clumsy, he thinks too much. Get him to relax, and it's very soft bordering on careful, mindful of his teeth and forked tongue unless you like them :). He likes forehead kisses most, both giving and receiving them.

L = Little ones (How are they around children?)

He doesn't hate kids, but mostly tries to avoid them (not a fan of loud things) but if he has to deal with them he's firm, but gentle.

He does not want any of his own he's scared they're gonna be like him.

M = Morning (How are mornings spent with them?)

Depends how the night ended. Long night working security? Out hunting? He wont see the morning, and you wont see him unless you join him for a nap. Day off? Not a morning person. Slow, a grumpy kind of tired, taking his time enjoying things like coffee etc. Secretly a fan of the mundane soft things so expect him to just hover quietly a lot while you're just chilling making breakfast.

N = Night (How are nights spent with them?)

If he trusts you, and you've shown you're comfortable with being close to him, he will take advantage of your body heat. He will wrap around you and you wont be able to stop him. He naturally runs cold, so bring a ton of blankets. You're gonna be stuck there.

If you haven't and you're staying the night, he's just gonna cover your basic needs and head to bed. You can take care of yourself, surely.

O = Open (When would they start revealing things about themselves? Do they say everything all at once or wait a while to reveal things slowly?)

Remember the door? Yeah, that. It generally takes a loooong time for that door to open even a smidge. But once it does, he's gonna pull you inside and close it behind you.

P = Patience (How easily angered are they?)

Zero patience. Amren has no time for bullshit and he's gonna make damn sure you know. Don't test him. He needs to keep himself in check.

Q = Quizzes (How much would they remember about you? Do they remember every little detail you mention in passing, or do they kind of forget everything?)

He's the kind of person who analyzes a lot, and he will remember pretty much everything you tell him - from your fav color to a funny story you wanted to share. He pays the most attention to your actions, though. He firmly believes they speak louder than words, and his opinion of you is mostly shaped by them.

R = Remember (What is their favorite moment in your relationship?)

You made him genuinely laugh. That's not easy to do.

S = Security (How protective are they? How would they protect you? How would they like to be protected?)

This snake is on guard duty almost 24/7, and it multiplies whenever someone he cares about is around. He's very quiet about it though, so it's little difficult to pick up on.

Unless there's a active threat. It wont be there for long. He has no qualms getting his hands dirty if he can't get the perpetrator to back off with words alone.

Uncomfortable being the one who's being protected, though. It's a mix of hating feeling vulnerable and hating being the reason you're in harms way. He's a hypocrite like that.

T = Try (How much effort would they put into dates, anniversaries, gifts, everyday tasks?)

For the datey-stuff, sorry fam, you're gonna need to tell him if you like these things and want them to happen. Even then, he will just straight up ask you want you want and do his best to provide it. He's in no way a romantic or very creative when it comes to these things. He does very well in remembering important dates however, and makes sure to remember and complete everyday tasks.

U = Ugly (What would be some bad habits of theirs?)

He retreats a lot and keeps up walls - even if you've gotten close to him and he trusts you. If he's in a mood about something he will not let you coax him out of it. If you try, he will pull away from you. In truth he doesn't really feel like he deserves the care, but he doesn't know how to express that. He knows he's troublesome and it's partially an 'I can fix him'-situation and he hates it. He doesn't want to put that on anyone.

Also his never ending habit of being a rude bastard carries over at the worst of times - your family might not like him much at first.

V = Vanity (How concerned are they with their looks?)

He keeps up hygiene and does exercise because of his job, but that's mostly for health reasons. He's practical, wears stuff for temperature management more than style. Doesn't really care about 'looking good', and doesn't really get why others care. He knows how to be 'presentable' at work, but it's moreso to avoid attention lmao. You could walk around in the nude and he wouldn't bat an eye.

W = Whole (Would they feel incomplete without you?)

Yep. And it frustrates him to no end that you have that effect on him.

X = Xtra (A random headcanon for them.)

He will drop prey immediately if he sees/smells it has young offspring.

Y = Yuck (What are some things they wouldn’t like, either in general or in a partner?)

Breaking promises, either to him or if he sees you do it to someone else.

Z = Zzz (What is a sleep habits of theirs?)

Torso tucked within the coils of his tail in a completely silent, warm and dark room. Sometimes mumbles in his sleep.

[miawstic]

oh hey!

it's me! I'm back!

lots of folks are flocking over from twitter right now, so now seems like a good time to start again for myself as well—though I've actually been thinking about starting again for a long time now. a lot has changed in my life and in return I've changed a lot about this blog, so I'll be talking about it all for a bit.

there'll be a tl;dr at the bottom if you don't feel like reading it all, but I'd appreciate if you did!

so, hey. I thought for a long time about what to do with this account. this place spawned and held a lot of memories of people who did me wrong and the mistakes I'd made, and it was bad enough for a while that I just didn't want to look at it at all.

it took a long time to accept what happened to me and that it shouldn't have happened, and that I shouldn't be protecting and supporting the people who were involved anymore. but, yeah, I think I was kinda groomed. that sucks, and I won't go into details about it. I'm thankful to have the clarity I have now as an adult to come to terms with it.

I considered wiping this account entirely and moving to a new account—both to try to erase what happened and to have a more appropriate place to house the new type of content I've moved onto. but, I've had this account since the day I turned 13. I'm 22 now. it's been my home and I'm not letting any assholes' influence taint it and take it away from me. also, I can post what I want, lol.

that all being said, though, I have updated the look of this this place to match my current tastes! I'd like to do even more, but I'll need to draw stuff to do that. so, while this blog has already been hugely overhauled, it'll continue to be a work in progress until I get the time to make some assets for it. I also wiped a large chunk of my old posts because, frankly, nobody needs to see all of that. and, y'know, memories of being groomed and all that, lol. I'd like to totally redo my about as well—maybe make a new one entirely somewhere else?

speaking of Blogs and Posting, I should probably let you all know that I'm not going to be posting anymore megaman content anymore—neither through my own posts nor reblogs. I've grown out of that fanbase, and I think it's time to move on for everyone's sake. if that disappoints you, I'm sorry, but also, I'm not sorry because this is the best thing for me. I don't need it anymore, but I'm grateful for all the growing I did while being into it. you're entirely welcome to leave if cookie run and my ocs aren't your jam—thanks for staying with me all this time! and to those who choose to stay regardless, you have my whole heart. thank you to both!

I can't say how often I'll be posting here, as I've gotten a lot of things in my life now that eat up my time (this is a good thing, in my teenage years I would've never imagined having the responsibilities I have now!). on top of two jobs, I also co-own the cookie run kingdom wiki now! managing and improving that place takes a LOT of my time, seriously. it's made me slow down significantly in making my art, but that's alright—I seriously love it there, and I've met so many amazing people and built a lot of other skills from being there. like coding! I can do that now! I'm responsible for coding and designing a very big portion of the templates and extra styling on there, and I'm very, very proud of it! being a representative of the wiki, you can always feel free to ask me about the site, its policies, etc. here. also, I'll probably be going back to school soon...

but anyways, oh yeah, art. I've got a pretty good backlog of completed drawings that I'll be posting to here. I'll be queuing the posts to come out at probably a rate of one a day until they're up, though. no more posting 7 pieces in one day and posting the next in 3 months (at least for now 🤔). like I said, I don't have a ton of time to draw constantly like I used to, but I'll do what I can in making more in the future. as for what I'll be drawing, I mean, probably cookie run. maybe some ocs though, because I've got a few ideas. maybe things from my other interests? we'll see! I've also been sculpting a lot, actually...

and yeah, don't let the seriousness of this post fool you; I'll certainly still be reblogging dumb, non-serious posts like I always did. fixing up the look of the blog itself is enough professionalism I think 😵‍ also! I'll be letting up on all the trigger warning tags I had used in the past—scopophobia, animals, food, that kind of thing—because I've literally never been asked to tag anything like that. I mean, feel free to let me know if you do need things like those tagged, but, starting now, I'm going to take it a little easier with the tags. very common triggers (blood, abuse, so on) will still be tagged, of course.

I think that's it? yeah. nice to be here again, it's much more relaxed and individualized than twitter! I think I almost felt intimidated by tumblr for a long time since it almost feels like posts need to have more "purpose" than tweeting on twitter. but, like, I'm older and give less of a shit now. my house, I post silly thing.

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thanks for reading if you did! here's your tl;dr:

I've deleted the majority of my old posts and revamped the look and theming of my blog to have a fresh start, to cut rotten ties, and to have a place that suits my current self. also so I don't have to be embarrassed every time I post.

no more megaman! in terms of art, it'll be cookie run and maybe some ocs, or whatever else. art won't be frequent, though, because I'm always busy with work and the crk wiki.

I'll be posting my backlog of completed art over the next few days.

I'm no longer tagging the more specific trigger tags like scopophobia (unless you really want me to???).

you should commission dani.

[rustyironskillet]

"Zombie" Apocalypse OC Chart

So I saw someone I follow use this template and wanted to make my own. I put zombie in quotations because my oc isnt really in a zombie apocalypse but more of whats going on in Mycopsychosys, a game by Delta Cat Studios, I'll link their twitter and itch.io below incase anyone want to check it out.

It is a really good game and is set in Spain, which is nice to see since I am also from there and I don't get to see lots of game set there. I really like their ideas for the world and while there are a few divergents from the game and the world of my oc, everything else i basically the same.

The OC's, name Apollo or Apo for short, lore is that they are sick and dying of cancer when their is a huge spore out break, infecting millions of people. They manage to not get infected by wearing a mask and get out of the hospital, which is full of infected people. Once escaping, Apo has to figure out what to do with the rest of their life and decides to get a journel and document their final days. Queue them traveling to as many places as possible and recording every single day in their journel, so that if in the future someone find their book, they would now how humanity ended.

In the background of all of this, the mycelium that is infecting people is slowly becoming more and more sentient and now has to ability to be more crafty when infecting other humans. It now can plan attacks, push peoples buttons, smoke them out of enclosed areas, etc, however, it lacks a lot compassion and empathy.

The mycelium, using the body of an infected person, finally catches Apo and is about to rip off their mask when Apo tries to strike a deal, if the mycelium lets them continue writing about the last days of humanity until their journel runs out of pages and then they'll willfully get infected. The mycelium agrees, partially because their is about a hand full of humans left alive in the world so its not like Apo can avoid, and partially because they want to see where this will got.

After a while of surviving the apocalypse together, the mycelium ended all humans except Apo by this point, Apo finally get on their last few pages. Unfortunately, their cancer is catching up to them so they ask the mycelium to bring them somewhere nice to die. The mycelium ends up taking them to the ground zero, where the physical mycelium is, and lays them down is a patch of mushrooms as Apo finishes writing their final page.

As soon as they finish, Apo give their journel to the mycelium and asks them to take care of the book and when they become a civilization, because Apo believe they can be, to let anyone read it so they can know how the last days of humanity were. The mycelium, who learned about different emotions and how to navigate thme through Apo, learns the last emotion they ever will from them, grief. They promise to fulfill Apo's last wish and Apo take off their mask reveling a smile that has been hidden under neath it and take a deep breath, in filling their lungs with the spores of the mycelium.

Sorry for the info dump on my oc but I hope you like their lore! The ending of it can just stay like that or it can have a good ending with the mycelium working to get rid of the cancer inside Apo and preserve their bodies till they are healthy again and can come back a see the future world, but I kinda prefer the original ending.

Anyway here is the character sheet.

Sorry for the bad quality of the images, I didn't draw this on an actual drawing software but on of those remarkable tables for pdf annotation.

Here are the links by the way

Mycopsychosys on itch.io

Delta Cat Studio Twitter

And the link to the blank templete

[inventors-fair]

Teamwork Makes the Dreamwork Commentary

I’m sorry for the delay; I’m bad at time management and school had to be my priority but now that I’m out I’m gonna try to be faster on the draw. This was a fun contest to judge though, and I hope a fun one to do.

- @loreholdlesbian​

Atarka and Dromoka by @lich-of-the-golgari​

It’s hard to picture the first mode being chosen very often. It still gives your opponents an opening to cast stuff, they just can’t surprise you after blockers. And the whole card pushes you toward the board wipe option, cause this is something you’re gonna be using to close out a game so clearing out a lot of potential blockers or things that might hit you on the crackback is gonna be much more relevant than stopping combat tricks.

Krenko and Yeva by @greensunzenith​

Seems odd for a multicolored card to push you to only really play one color. What about something like “Once each turn, you may cast a green creature spell as though it had flash” and “Whenever you cast a red creature spell during an opponent’s turn, create a number of 1/1 red Goblin creature tokens equal to its mana value.” That pushes you in a more multicolor direction than a monogreen one.

Liesa and Sigarda by @little-red-rabbit​

First of all, templating stuff. You forgot both “Angel” and “Legendary”. Lifelink and hexproof should be lowercase, Human should be uppercase since it’s a subtype, and it should be “each player” not “each players”. Secondly, I really think this should require exiling that creature card, rather than any card. It feels more natural and is less prone to loops.

Tajic and Zegana by @sparkyyoungstartup and @dimestoretajic​

Excellent job getting into the spirit of team ups by teaming up irl. I feel like Tajic is contributing much here, just the indestructible, otherwise this feels all Zegana. And frankly the indestructible on this is worrying me. This is a huge value engine and the ability to stop any removal from disrupting it makes it really scary. Something more like Iroas’s ability like “prevent all damage that would be dealt to this creature while it’s attacking” would be less problematic and still in flavor. I’m not exactly sure how to make this feel more Tajicy though, cause the design feels pretty solid and contained as is; anything added would just feel tacked on, i think you’d have to completely rework to integrate hum better.

Silumgar and Sidisi by @halfsilveredmirror​

Part of the stipulation of this contest was that I didn’t want either to have their colors swallowed up by the other. Two UB characters would be fine, but a UB character and a B character isn’t, cause I wanted both characters represented in the mana cost. The mechanics are kinda similar too; while I can see where you’re coming from with what Sidisi adds to this (and I’m not counting off much for this), with the deathtouch and the sacrifice, nothing about this really feels like it couldn’t be silumgar. Sidisi just feels a little lost in this design. The biggest problem though is that I think this card is just gonna be a bit oppressive. Repeatedly mindcontrolling your opponents’ creatures is gonna make it really hard for them to develop any kind of board state.

Krenko and Lavinia by @dabudder​

Image Description: Krenko and Lavinia stand in the middle of a ravnican square, with lavinia commanding krenkos forces during the phyrexian invasion. We can see goblins performing various actions, including tackling a phyrexian, calling for more goblins, and pulling allies off the ground. Krenko is revelling in the chaos of the scene, whereas lavinia is much more focused on strategic execution of the plan.

This is a cool way to combine the two characters (not to mention how I like the flavor of combining them; an azorius person and a mob boss is a cool team up for the MOM-unlikely-allies-style), and in a vacuum the modes seem relatively even. The problem only comes up when it’s combined with the trigger. I think the “number of goblins” thing really pushes you to choose the token mode most of the time.

Yisan and Jalira by @an-anarchist-shapeshifter​

The original Jalira is often used with a strategy of running only a few creature cards, ones you want to cheat into, and using noncreature cards that make tokens as fodder. This feels like it would play the exact same, just with the addition of green beasties and not just blue ones. I don’t think that’s particularly interesting, and I don’t think that’s what you were going for given it makes the whole verse counter thing irrelevant. I think you could fix this with one simple addition: make you have to sacrifice nontoken creatures. That encourages a much more creature-heavy toolboxy strategy that you seem to be going for, cause you need to be running lots of creatures to be able to consistently fuel it.

Urabrask and Sheoldred by @just--a--penguin

This is a cool way to signify their team up. I  like the “you may sac. If you do your opponents all sac” combined with different effects when you ssac stuff vs your opponents sac stuff. Definitely does feel more sheoldredy than urabrasky though, and those rewards you get/punishments your opponents get for sacking are really strong, even without the card giving you a way to fulfil them.

Sigarda and Liesa by @fractured-infinity​

Great choice for a team up, something like this would be great to see on the return to innistrad to show the two of them working together. This seems like a neat fusion of their respective abilities as well. There are some minor tweaks I’d suggest- namely, rather than caring about whether your ability exiled it, just check whether its a card you own. Isn’t exactly the same, but it just seems simpler.

Jalira and Yisan by @bergdg​

I really like that this isn’t just a mashup of the abilities of their previous cards but something new that makes sense for them. Yisan calls up the animals (wolves), and Jalira transforms them. If this is meant to be a replacement effect though, which I assume it is based on the “instead” and the flavor, if needs to be “If you would create a creature token” not “Whenever you do”. I also feel like this card does a bit too much of the work for you and all.

Ravi and the Baron’s Son by @wolkemesser​

This is very cool but *damn* does it get annoying fast. Repeatable mind control effects are scary, and really discourage your opponent from doing much- though the power limitation does help. I think if this only gained control for as long as you control Ravi and the Baron’s Son, that would be a lot better. And it would make the deathtouch interesting too. They can throw a big creature in front of this card to get their creatures back but it’ll always trade.

Muzzio and Selvala by @snugz​

The wording of the first ability is unclear. Does it only trigger once per turn or once per creature per turn? I like how you have this designed though. It uses the same resources as convoke, lots of creatures you’re willing to tap, but doesn’t compete with it cause of the first ability. Or you could just go the artifact route of course.

Garna and Radha by @curiooftheheart​

This seems really pushed. A 4 mana 4/4 menace vigilance haste is already extremely solid base, and the haste means it gives you an immediate near-refund on the mana you spent to cast it. Ramping you by 3 seems like a lot, even without accounting for how the activated ability gives you a good outlet for it. I definitely think the activated ability should be sorcery speed. That would add a bit of tension since your creatures have to survive combat in order to sac them and take advantage of the mana; as is, you can hope for that but if they get unprofitably blocked, you sac them anyway, no harm no foul, you just don’t get a card. The shape of the card is cool, it just needs the numbers readjusted

Adrix, Nev, and Blex by @squeezyboi

Three person team up is a lil odd, but it’s pairing a card that was already a teamup so it makes sense. Sultai tokens is cool, I like what this is building to, and this seems like a thematic combination of the 2-3 characters. I’m kinda confused by the “if a creature token was sacrificed this way, you gain 1 life”. That ability could probably just be “sacrifice a creature token” straight up, but if you like the flexibility of hitting any token but want to still encourage creature tokens, 1 life isn’t really any encouragement. Especially not when you have pretty easy access to lifelink. But if you aren’t trying to encourage that, I’m not sure what that’s doing there. Basically, it either wants a stronger reward for sacrificing creature tokens or no reward.

Krenko and Massacre Girl by @grornt​

I like the flavor of this, these two seem like people I could definitely picture teaming up. This massacre girl doesn’t seem all that great at massacring though if im being honest; since this card doesn’t have the cascading death triggers deal the first one does, i feel like it should be at least -2/-2 (with the stats readjusted to compensate).

Haktos and Gaalia by @thaneofstuff

This is a pretty straightforward combination of the two characters’ cards. Flavorfully, it doesn’t really make much sense that Haktos doesn’t have the invulnerability, but it’s definitely the right mechanical call.

Aurelia and Rakdos by @hypexion​

Fun combo. They definitely have the “unlikely allies” vibe that the MOM teamups were going for. I like the reference to mentor too, and how it’ll slowly bring all your creatures up to 6 or 7 power (though realistically your opponent will be dead by then).

Garna and Radha by @hiygamer​

This is interesting; it’s not just one ability from one and one ability from the other. Adding mana for each creature that died this turn is a great combo of the two, and sacrificing a single creature to boost this is a good way to enable the card without it doing all the work for you. You’re still gonna want to find better ways to sac stuff

Pir and Okaun by @yourrightfulking​​

It’s not infinite (unless you’re *really* lucky), but the combo of this plus Zndrsplt is incredible, especially in a coin flipping deck. This card seems really durdly basically and leads to long terms, but it also seems like *a lot* of fun. I really like the second ability, I just think the ability that flips coins itself should be a little more limited.

Melira and Skrelv by @spooky-bard​​

Flavorfully, I’ll be honest I have no idea what’s going on here, why they’re teaming up. Mechanically though, it’s quite interesting. It’s a poison card that lets your opponents get in on the poisoning fun in multiplayer without putting you at much risk, which is good cause part of the problem with poison in multiplayer is that you’re attacking on a different angle than your opponents probably are so you’re having to do all the work. I did say I didn’t want a monocolor character paired with a multicolor character that includes that color, and Melira was GW last time we saw her but we’ve also seen her mono green before, and besides Skrelv’s influence on this card is extremely obvious, so this isn’t really a strike against the card.

Jolrael and Tinybones by @yd12k​​

It’s a small thing, but I really like a team-up that cares about both drawing and discard. It feels correct. (GB is an odd pair for it, I’d expect UB, but it does work). I do wonder if that ability should require a tap or something. I’m also not *quite* sure this works lorewise, since Jolrael’s on zhalfir and tinybones is on dominaria, but it’s an edge case and technically we don’t know how long tinybones has been around so this could take place in the past.

Chandler and Joven by @i-am-the-one-who-wololoes​​ 

Okay, well, someone had to do it. As much of a meme as it is though, this is actually a really neat design. I’m not exactly sure where this might be played. It’s not really a commander, since it’s so reactive (I mean there’s definitely enough artifacts running around to take advantage of, it’s just hard to build a deck around). And it’s probably a bit expensive for being a hate card. But it’s a cool card even so, it seems fun to play with.

Rafiq and Uril by @shakeszx

Why is this naya? One of the characters is naya and one is bant. I could see just GW if you didn’t want to make a 4 color card, but naya feels weird. I do wish this had exalted though tbh; it would work well with the ability (which was the intention im sure) and would feel a bit more rafiqy.

Mangara and Kaervek by @horsecrash​

This is straightforward, but I like it. It’s gonna be pretty annoying to deal with though, there’s gonna be a lot of calculations going on with this.

Moraug and Kazuul by @arixordragc​​

I really like Minotaur + Ogre tribal; the tribes are similar, and it lets you work with higher card quality than you’d be able to do by doing either individually. My only real critique is that I think the landfall ability might push it a bit too much in one direction.

Ulrich and Henrika by @ozthearistocrat​​ 

Werewolves and vampires, together at last. It doesn’t transform in the way I’d expect a werewolf to but that’s probably fine. On the backside though, deathtouch, lifelink, two +1/+1 counters, and fight seems like a lot for 3 mana though.

Hakim and Rayne by @bandswithblog​

Why the last ability? Downsides certainly aren’t a bad thing in card design but they should make the card more fun, and I’m just not sure this one does. I like the Auraristocrats of the rest of this though. Okay realistically you probably aren’t doing a ton of sacrificing auras, but even just the basic use of getting a refund when your enchanted stuff dies is good especially in combo with being able to recur your auras.

Adamaro and Soramaro by @helloijustreadyourpost​​

This card doesn’t feel especially red, though I know counting your opponents’ hand is what Adamaro the red spirit here did so I can see why you went with these two of the cycle. I think this could do with a bit more redness though. Maybe something like “Whenever ~ attacks, any number of target players each discard a card at random. Each player who discards a card this way draws two cards.” I think that both a) makes it feel a lot more red and b) adds some interesting decision making to this card. With all that said though, this is a really neat design that seems fun to play.

Gonti and Yahenni by @shootingstarhunter​​

This is a really cool way to combine Gonti’s theft with Yahenni’s vampirey stuff. I like this a lot. The stats make this interesting. Haste means you get immediate value of course, and deathtouch means it’s always gonna trigger when it gets in combat, but being a 3/2 means it’s really vulnerable in combat. You’re gonna want to find some way to protect it.

Urabrask and Skrelv by @bread-into-toast​

Skrelv’s part here feels small, but it’s pretty important. When you have a card like this that needs to attack to trigger, evasion is a very useful thing. Not to mention the hexproof, cause this can be pretty scary. I almost wonder if it should be more like 2P/W to make protecting this a little bit more tricky.

Kopala and Zetalpa by @stupidstupidratcreatures​​

I am very intrigued by the image of a merfolk riding a giant flying dinosaur through the air. I really like the design, keyword soup is a cool fit for back up and the multiple backups turn this into a real potential game ender. I don’t feel like kopala actually adds much here though. There’s no real reason this needs to be blue, and the ward just doesn’t add a ton.

[myonlysecretly]

How do you make your own sigils?

Sorry for late reply but I kinda don't get notifications anymore from Tumblr

Ok so there are many ways. My favorite is writing down intention and the focusing to "feel" how the sigil that suits it should look like. Basically doodle with intention in mind. (Although this takes practice, I guess bc you must be in tune with intuition a lot)

But most people start with different method: you write down what you want to achieve, then cross all repeating letter and vowels in your intention then combine the letters into a symbol that will become your sigil

There is also square method but I don't practice it. So in this method you could for example assign numbers to letters and use planetary square to make a sigil: basically letter method but more complicated bc you don't combine letters you just draw planetary square and connect each number you got from intention with straight lines to make your sigil

There's also wheel method. You google a sigil wheel template on google images and you'll do crossing letters too then you connect letters you're left with on the template you get from Google (or here on Tumblr I guess there's some of those templates as well ;) )

I guess this is chaotic explanation, but I hope this helps ☺️

[taromilksnake]

6:46pm a full day

woke up kinda uneasy, but bought a new mattress off amazon and another bath stone <3

successfully fed myself 3 full meals despite still not being in the mood to cook, and made a template and sturdy Magic box. went to the doctors, and despite running late and feeling super anxious, got my referral and various labs (plus STD testing), and picked up my T shot on the way home to boot.

feeling pretty tired and mildly anxious for time “running out” and not being “on” for anthony, but otherwise content and chilling in a beautiful apartment (courtesy of myself and anthony helping me with the move).

feeling kinda sluggish and listless, likely from the stress of worrying about then going through the appointment. maybe a bath, and a relaxing read? the next step for the home would be to sell the drawing table and room partition, and then also replace the gamer chairs. wall art and cat playground would make the space even cuter, and I can pay attention to how the playground is installed so I can put shelves up, too

some little moments with anthony I don’t want to forget:

him responding with “you’re in love with the shape of me?” when i was trying to articulate how i feel, when the topic of weight loss/body image in general came up

a silly callback to “omnipotent” when he was teasing my chest (and also the way that he looked so beautiful and attractive doing it)

he’s quiet, but he pays attention. he asked about if i cuddled with meowu when i ran up to grab climbing stuff after spending more than a day at his place, he asked if i need to get home to meowu, he mentions that the song that came up (off the ghost playlist) reminds him of the hot summer days we spent together early on, after i mentioned i wanted to know more. i took it as a subtle declining of what i’d want, but he’s thinking and paying close attention. it makes me love him more, and it also makes me a little scared that i don’t measure up

he’s helped me move my couch and now my bed, twice now on days when he is still working, too. i’d do that same for a friend (and i have), but to be on the receiving end feels like the love is almost too much, like i’m stealing something that shouldn’t be mine

sex with him is fun, and loving, even though we both get a little too in our heads about it sometimes (i think we both occasionally get caught up by how the sex “should” be). the last instance when he initiated the 69, and then handed me the lube was so hot and pleasant and fun. i’m sorry to learn that it hurt at the start, but i’m counting on him and trusting him to speak up if he wants me to stop

he knows all there is to know about my relationship with sex, and the disconnect i feel with him sometimes. and yet he wants to stay

as silly as it sounds i’m learning a lot about myself playing Magic with him. i want to see more of him having fun, and being silly

i got a glimpse of an even sillier, more playful anthony on our walk, when he started his rapping (he was real proud of stock/stalk). it’s so silly and fun, and i’m dismayed that i’m flustered and not engaging with the bit. i can get pretty shy myself, i suppose

him explicitly saying that he’s nervous because he wants to impress me makes me really happy. i feel the same way about him too, and the showers together no longer feel luxuriously indecent or sexy, but i don’t mind as much as i thought it would. i’m getting a better and better sense of what it means to grow and change together, and i’m excited to understand more and more of him

i like when he rests his head on my chest, and when he’s the little spoon. i’m realizing i like less being a little spoon in a typical cuddle, and more being nestled inside face-to-face, or being on top vertically. or having him on top of me is nice too

he still taking the initiative in texts!! i want to “do better,” but i won’t force it, as i’m practicing not being codependent, too. if it bothers him i’ll trust him to speak up

it means a lot that he’s extended the new year’s invitation twice, that he wants to spend time with me, that he wants me to sleep over tomorrow even though we just spent maybe 30ish hours together. i’m used to being the one wanting “too much” and learned to temper it, but he expresses his affection for me so freely (and not to effortlessly as i originally thought). he is just so kind and genuinely loves me. i have never felt this way before