#sorry for the rant im just feeling shitty about the whole thing

[climbdraws]

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[delta-piscium]

Trying? Trying??? By learning. By succeeding!

(about this and my text under the cut)

this is very nice actually thank you so much <3 <3 and like, i probably do need to give myself more credit in general but also i am still very much learning and stumbling and figuring digital art out (and for the most part it is so fun)

I’m gonna ramble about this a bit so bear with me and also i apologize lol, but that art was done after a month of getting increasingly more frustrated with everything turning out so badly and eventually realizing that I was trying to 1. copy a certain look/style that i’ve internalized is what fanart and digital art should look like and is very far away from my style/comfort zone 2. i was trying to do everything digital allows without being comfortable with it or understanding it

so (and this took me a month to realize ? ??) i did what i already knew from doing acrylic and oil painting in the past and could somewhat easily transfer to digital without having to know more than the basics, like i didn’t use a lot of the things digital provides or allows for. i used layers for my own peace of mind but without actually needing them and did some color adjusting (honestly, the color adjusting digital lets you do is such a blessing to me) but the only fancy way i really utilized the medium was making it a gif (which is so fun and a lot easier than i would have thought, like honestly watch me make any future art into gifs too) but there are so many things you can do with the medium with settings/effects, different brushes, tools to use in the process etc that i just do not understand what they are or how to implement them so i am very slowly learning digital art as a whole new medium rather than just being able to use it to adapt what i already know

[mrsdickey]

shitty sketch and a yap sesh

feel free to skip. i usually dont rant abt things, but when i do, i get kind of uppity about it. it is long, i just wanna get my feelings out yk. im probably gonna b taking a small break, as a result of my uncomfort on the internet right now and i just. dont know what to draw lol.

ok cracks knuckles loudly ahemmmm

im feeling uncomfortable,

sorry if i seem irrational in this. i just want to be heard.

i dont really know how to word this properly, but sometimes i feel like the love for these characters is a fucking competition.

i hate the idea that people will be like "**I** am bill/pete/jerry/josh's #1 fan!!!!!! nobody else!!!!" im sorry, it just pushes me away from the fandom. and to see people worrying about having to be shit on for having female OC's in the club really pisses me off. gatekeeping isn't it.

i know every fandom is like this. its annoying as hell and i know better to just not post my feelings like this, and to just ignore them, but it makes me hellllllla uncomfortable. it makes me wanna hide.

im genuinely so attached to bill that it's really fucking with me. he's my main comfort, as ridiculous as it sounds. im very mentally ill and lonely, and bill is kind of my "escape" from my stressful life. sometimes it makes me cry, to see myself implode like the fucking titan sub all for a goddamn fictional character. all i think about is him, it's like a fucking parasite eating at my already fucking rotten brain. work? bill. home? bill. hanging with my family? bill. literally everything else? bill. and seeing people wanting to assert themselves as the MAIN fan of that character just gives me the fucking ick. as much as i looooove bill to the point of literal crying fits, im never gonna call myself his biggest fan. (sometimes i call myself his fave but that's more of an in-universe headcanon thing rather than a "he loves ME more!!" thing shhhhb)

anyways, i dont want the love and appreciation for these characters to be a competition. but i have the feeling that it is. and it makes me really sad. this isn't what dorkin wanted.

i know i always stress "no doubles" when it comes to my selfshipping with bill. and i still do...but its kinda ridiculous to assert yourself as THEE #1 fan of a character, and then shoving it into peoples' faces. it feels gross.

i hate hate hate hate hateeee posting about this kind of shit, i wanna keep my account positive, but i genuinely feel like i needed to air out my negative feelings for once in my fucking life.

i am sorry if this is problematic and aggressive. i have strong feelings about these sorts of things. i know none of this matters in real life to some people. but in my boring, lonely ass life, it does matter to me. a whole fucking lot.

i really, REALLY love the eltingville club. but sometimes i feel like its own fandom is what it's criticizing. that's not to say **everyone** in this fandom is like this, i KNOW not all of us are like this. and i really appreciate the people calling this shit out.

with that, i hope i can still continue to post about the eltingville club and not worry about being unworthy.

and to my small circle regulars, who like even my yumeship posts, thank you. i really appreciate you guys. and im sorry if i dont interact with you guys as much as i should.

anyways erm!! i might delete this, but for now, im probably gonna hide for a bit gaahaha you can find me on discord sob

""i aint reading allat sorry that happened or congratulations"" headass lmao

[ven0moir]

tw; rant. Once again here to remind everyone that byler not being endgame is, at best, negligent queerbaiting

this is the show where one of the producers said "the UD mythos is important but the heart of the show are its characters and their interconnectedness/family dynamics" or something along those lines AND also said that "very few things are coincidences in this show."

i'd have been ( and i bet a lot of other bylers too ) COMPLETELY FINE without byler even being a possible card on the table. i'd HAVE STILL BEEN A FAN OF THE SHOW without byler! in fact, i WAS--i cared more about el and hopper's rs than i did mike and will's. it wasn't until S4 that i REALLY got invested in the show bc of the promise of will's arc, WHICH INCLUDES MIKE. the way they handled the painting arc, if byler isn't endgame, is literally the most underwhelming thing i've seen.

the only difference that byler makes in my case is that if it hadn't come across as a real possibility, then i would've remained a casual viewer and not think about the show again until it came out, like yknow, most people. so this whole "will they won't they" thing going on makes it feel like a marketing technique to keep people who enjoy byler hooked at the promise of something significant developing there.

this isn't about "oh your ship didn't become canon? tough luck" it's legit that they would ruin their show for me FOR. NO. REASONNNNNN. I WAS ALREADY A FAN!!! I HAD NO BYLER EXPECTATIONS!!! not to mention how shitty it is on the lgbt community. and also, the mass hate bylers would get.

and before you say "its ur own fault for being delusional, they didn't queerbait--" I'm sorry but what Noah is doing IS QUEERBAIT even if he doesn't mean to and the duffers should tell him to stop hinting at byler until post s5 or whatever

im not even going to talk about the show IMPLYING BYLER for ages. for example; dustin telling lucas that he saw him and max holding hands and that meant there were feelings between them even if lucas denied it/said she was just scared vs mike holding will's hand AN EPISODE PRIOR

or the song "on the bus" playing during a lumax scene where they connected vs it playing on a byler scene in s4 using very similar phrasing it's like they're subtly winking at the audience.

the shitty way that mileven finally got their 'i love you' like im sorry it feels so rushed and awkward if this was supposed to be the culmination of mike's arc

i could literally go on and on and on and other bylers could as well so yeah. ugh im sorry for the negativity in the tag but i just REALLY need that to be very clear that byler vs mileven isn't an argument that is ocurring on equal ground and that byler isn't 'just a ship that people analyze too much'

if it was never going to be canon, THERE WAS NO NEED TO HINT AT IT **AT ALL** and THAT is what really grinds my gears. most bylers would still love ST bc our favorite character is WILL. we would've been fine if will's whole thing was telling his best friend he was gay and that's it. like, the bar is on the FLOOR ... me personally? i'll be satisfied with will getting a completed arc in the supernatural and having his moment to shine and bringing the story full circle like WE WERE PROMISED ( unless yknow, people want to call us stupid and delusional for expecting will to be important at all )

what i will NOT tolerate is people being mean to bylers for being upset about byler not being endgame in the end bc WE HAVE A RIGHT TO BE. and if you're one of those people sincerely: FUCK YOU. i wish you get exactly what you deserve. thank you for reading and that's it from me

[harrysarchive]

if only you knew, bunny: h.s.

pairing:

dormmate!harry x dormmate!y/n

summary:

"sorry! sorry i thought you were staying out with your mom the rest of the weekend!" harry says, rustling is heard in the background before im gentle moved to over and the door is heard opening. "you can open your eyes bunny."

warnings:

TW⚠️ body shaming

unhealthy relationship with y/n's mom (body shaming, controlling mom, just a shitty mom overall) also really short sorry i just wanted to tease these two

A/N: guys the way this has been in my drafts for about 4 months LMFAO lmk if you would want more dormmate!harry x y/n!

part two

y/n's pov

The smell of peppermint vanilla carries along with the scent of books, soft chatter from the tv carries out in the small dorm, i glance over at the empty bed and a frown tugs at my lips.

"guess im on my own." i huff closing my book and tossing it to the side.

as i pick up my phone a knock makes me still, i glance at the door before walking over to it and slowly opening the door. my eyes catch sight of a lovely shade of green staring back at me.

"um sorry," he clears his throat, "my names Harry, and i think we're flatmates."

my eyes widen at what he says before my eyebrows furrow, "um im y/n, i didnt think i had a dorm mate."

"yeah 'm sorry about that i was in england for the past month, so i couldnt do all the orientation." he shuffles his bags and i snap out of it before throwing the door open.

"apologies, um i didnt think they did unisex dorms here."

"i wasnt expecting this either this is um C36 right?"

"yeah yeah you're right, well welcome to your dorm Harry..." i trail off not knowing his last name hoping he'd fill in the blank.

"styles!" he smirks holding out his hand and I place my hand in his giving it a shake.

"oh my god! harry!" i squeak covering my eyes as i step into our shared dorm, a topless girl perked up on his bed.

"sorry! sorry i thought you were staying out with your mom the rest of the weekend!" harry says, rustling is heard in the background before im gentle moved to over and the door is heard opening. "you can open your eyes bunny."

i peak through my fingers and find our room empty, just the two of us. "i would've left har, you could've asked you know i dont mind." i mumble dropping my bags on my bed.

"nonsense i would rather spend time with you bun, though uh -if you dont mind me asking- why are you back so early?" he asked sitting us on my bed, i sit crisscross in front of him before tears start welding up in my eyes.

"god that woman is so fucking cruel to me har." i gasp out a sob as tears fall freely down my face.

"whoa bunny breathe for me." harry hums pulling me into his arms, broken sobs hiccup through me as i weep like a baby into harry.

"i do everything she wants, im trying to appease her and nothing is ever good enough it's either 'you look too chubby', 'you're face looks dull, use more moisturiser.' 'are you working out?' i'm sick of it!" i hiccup, "as soon as i got there she just starts listening all the things i embarrass her with. 'no daughter of mine should be in college, i got a nice boy down the street who comes with money and would love to be with you if you lost a couple of pounds.' i dont want that har, i've studied my whole life to be here. i want to be a librarian, have my own little bookstore that is where my happiness is and im not going to let her drag me down." i finish my rants tears and snot running down my face and into my hands.

harry stays quite for a little bit, rocking us slowly back and forth, i feel his lips press against my head before he lifts my head to look at him. he wipes away my tears before smiling lightly.

"you're a fighter, bunny. im proud of you, for not letting this woman take control of your life. for being your own goddamn person." he whispered to me before yanking me into a hug and tickling my sides, a laugh erupts from me before i start thrashing in his arms

"harry! stop!" i laugh before he lays on top of my the air literally being knocked out of me, "oof! you fat ass get off of me!"

"gasp! how dare you!" he gives me a cheeky smile before rolling off of me. "want to go get fro yo? on me obviously."

"ugh!" i fake displeasure rolling my eyes, "only because you want some and are paying sure."

harrys pov

i watch as y/n throws a hoodie over her head, i pull my bottom lip between my teeth looking at her legs on display, nice thick thighs and a ass that would make god sin. her face fresh with tears making her glow as bright as a star, a beautiful natural blush on her brown skin, lips plump.

a down right goddess.

"can we stop by a 7/11, momma needs some chips." she smirks pulling me out of thought as i burst into laughter.

"you're a clown!" i snort sliding on some shoes and grabbing my lanyard, i open the door for her and let her slide through, taking time watching her walk from behind before joining her.

" 'm so lonely i might take up that woman's offer with the boy down the street." she breaks the silence shoving her keys in her purse, my heart plummets.

fuck no.

"bunny you can do so much better than a man that will only want you if you lost weight." i sternly say and she snorts.

"well im waiting and theres no one in a 20 mile radius that would want me."

if only you knew bunny.

LOVE YALL REQUEST MORE BULLSHIT!!

-all the love,

em

xo🐝

[ooftale]

This game, god I love this game

ok so Im copying and pasting the rant for the game from my Insta under the cut + the alt vers, PLEASE Im just expressing my love for the game in it but it's too late for me to rewrite the whole thing

I wish Tumblr would let me post with music like Insta,,, this is a zillion times better with the "Niko and the World Machine" song gah

God this game is a masterpiece though, OK if u wanna read more do it under here:

OKAY here's the rant!!

oh my god i fucking LOVE THIS GAME SO MUCH. I SWEAR. I CANNOT FUCKING EXPRESS. MY LOVE. FOR THIS GAME. Almost a year has passed since my first One Shot Post (doesn't apply to Tumblr, last One Shot post here is more recent) and almost a year has passed since my first playthrough

It wasn't really a blind playthrough, iirc i already knew lots of stuff about the story, ending and even the solstice run itself, too, it was already part of my interests to an extent, but I didn't know or remembered the details, and experiencing it myself still felt like a fully blind Playthrough (gotta again thank my shitty memory too), and was it freaking beautiful,,, plus, i finished it around xmas time, which is like my fave period of the year, so!! I still remember i got a photo of the TV while I was playing, there were gorgeous purple lights, both from LEDs and both from the game, since it was becoming dark outside, with little xmas lights around,, gah this game holds such a special place in my heart, I don't think any other game captured my love as much as this one, SURE, Im a big lover of many MANY games, and this one isn't even the first indie rpg i ever got into (hello Undertale and deltarune), and while those are very special to me as they're some of my first interests, OneShot is just a whole another type of special, a special special if you will

And recently I've seen my friend play it blind for the first time, and as I was (Awesomely) backseating, I got to basically relive it, in a way, and I always get a little phase for it after reseeing content of it, so here I am, drawing one of my personal favorite portions of the game! Sorry for the unusual type of rant I did this time, but I just. Argh. This game, dammit

Also fun fact, so many things about this game, from the 2014 version, to songs, to imagery, to scenes, freak me so much out or make me feel so weird I feel like I need to puke

Gotta love it

[mamawasatesttube]

YES LITERALLY sorry im like. a rambler and i sent a whole diatribe to talk abt kon-el to others before because the way the narrative approaches him with all its ALMOST POINTS makes me so sad, i guess at times. and very mad. and always chewing on my nails thinking. like its all in the little things of like. almost acknowledging. so im gonna be referencing early arc in the run of like. the stuff in hawaii. (sorry im no real superboy head yet, im just a guy at the gates screaming AUUGHGG. LET ME IN. LET ME IN.) it'll be little moments of like tana always calls him kid, knockout as. a whole. (which wow when i found out theyve like massaged her character out in other dc stuff holy shit bc she is a. whole rant i have), or even more specifically, there's a bit in like... either #0 or #1 where there are other journalists who look down on tana's relationship with superboy and its literally said "hes not even 16" (a moment i remember bc i clipped it and went UH. HOLY UNETHICAL PRACTICES BATMAN!!!) and yet we're supposed to interpret that more along the lines of people standing in the way of their romance? we're being guided away from the grooming by the narrative. tried to see it in this separate lens. and that's only on the lines the exploitation from these women, let alone everything with rex as the case of child star exploitation (WHICH. wow is superboy such a metaphor for) like. i found it very interesting that at the first mention of like "maybe you should be a cop" from a stable (relatively speaking) adult male figure in sam makoa that roxy immediately went for it. and how that speaks to rex leech as a character and father figure. and then the narrative basically acknowledges he's not a great guy - rather shitty, tbh - but they play him and dubbilex off in a sitcom couple way. he gets let off the hook, even tho the narrative will sometimes hold him to the fire as the classic exploitative hollywood agent. it'll turn and be like oh that money hungry rex, he said, stereotypically as the laugh track plays. and then im sat here like. am i supposed to laugh??? i dont really find it funny! the reality of the world is on such a tightrope of serious and "aw teen boys amiright? aint this COOL?" that im just like save me superboy analysis save me!!!!!

augh i meant to answer this days ago and then I Forgor. so sorry!

BUT YEAH. this is the thing about superboy (1994) that metaphorically keeps me up at night + keeps me coming back to this comic and its themes. it's so... it is FASCINATING how kesel flirts with the idea of actually addressing rex leech as an exploitative and outright shitty person to both kon and roxy, but then backs away from having any actual commitment to those themes over and over.

because like - yeah! like you said: dubbilex calls him on it during the match-fixing arc with mon-el but then nothing actually comes of it. dubbilex doesn't actually get on his ass or give him any consequences for his actions, and they resettle into the same status quo as before where rex's actions get played off for humor.

honestly, i know that kesel just dropped the plot because he wasn't actually interested in following through about it, but the way it never comes up again that rex leech was the one who hired the stinger to attack kon in metropolis (and that tana knew!) to get gbs viewership up in competition with wlex... it makes me feel insane. because that whole plot in aos 502-503 really really looks like a setup for a whole plot about kon getting into deep shit while too naive to realize what he's getting into... only then it doesn't? go anywhere?

and those things - story beats and conflicts kesel brings up that definitely feel like they should go somewhere but then they just. don't. - are then just exacerbated in hawaii. like, tana's 23 and dating a fifteen year old and sam makoa is just. right there. a cop. recommending roxy get on the "straight and narrow" as it were and being a supportive figure to her as she studies and trains for the police academy. and says literally nothing about tana dating a teenager even though tana's coworkers gossip about it (and are painted as irrational/jealous/"they just don't understand our bond"). and obviously it's because kesel thinks tana is good for kon (too good for him, even, because she dumps him for being immature and flighty and living too hard in the moment... .. . ... ... . .. ... like a teenager ... .. .. .. .. ...) but man.

in some ways it's so hard to read and in other ways i'm gnawing on it like a dog with a bone. like this does in a lot of ways read like how a kid in a predatory situation might rationalize it and laugh it off - oh, haha, dubbilex fussing at rex again about money things, lol. haha people at work not getting tana and me, classic dumb grown-ups (not like tana, she's not like them). it's just also so bewildering because it doesn't always feel like kesel intends for these things to be totally brushed off - sometimes he does write them as "hey this is kind of fucked up"! but then he backs off instead of committing to actually following through with narrative repercussions and consequences. even when kon finally does realize rex is a scumbag, the major narrative consequence is kon's abandonment issues getting majorly exacerbated by months on furry island + barbara kesel establishing that roxy is like the only one who cares that he's missing, and then we move on to the cadmus arcs and largely just leave all of this in the past.

which again makes sense for how kon might deal with it! and the fact that when rex shows up again kon isn't even angry with him despite that rex doesn't really care... AUGH. in-universe it makes me so sad about kon being so unwilling to hold grudges against people who have hurt him. from the doylist perspective though i'm just holding karl kesel by the shoulders like can you PLEASE commit to rex actually being a character and not just a caricature when things get serious. it almost happened with the roller coaster and then it didn't because of the furries. PLEASE.

but god damn if those inconsistencies don't make me feel insane abt this comic all the time. augh.

[velvetvexations]

I'm cis, and while there's obviously the general compassion, the whole transandrophobia discourse hits me especially hard as someone who's figured out they're aroace during the height of the ace discourse. It... really feels like it's the same thing, the same arguments, just that it hits trans men this time. It genuinely makes me angry that we're still doing this shit.

"You're not REALLY oppressed, and if you say you are, you're basically saying you're the most oppressed of everyone"

"You're not oppressed for being a man/not wanting to fuck, LOL"

"Oh so you hate trans women/allos"

"You either conform perfectly, in which case you're a shitty man/looser virgin who should shut up, or you don't, in which case you're a special snowflake faker, who should shut up"

Im. So so tired. Especially when this is during a time where the trans community as a whole is under attack, and now people are trying to divide the actual community as well? I'm seeing terfs celebrate that trans men are losing their community support and are therefore vulnerable and easier to prey on, too.

Giving all trans dudes a hug, what you're experiencing is real and worth being heard, and you're not alone in this 🫂

Sorry for the rant but this entire thing really hit a nerve

It's always okay to vent here, and if you ever want to talk about your own experiences with ace discourse you can do that too! I agree with all of what you said, it's so, so demoralizing and it makes me happy when I can push back against that. It's so important to stand together but some people would just rather be snarky and imply that anyone who calls for unity simply wants to ignore imagined problems.

[our-queer-experience]

I've been thinking about how I've gone about all my gender stuff and it really seems like I've just picked the path of least resistance this whole time.

I'm AFAB, intersex (though didn't find out until after I figured my gender, being mostly hormonally), and aroace. I grow an, admittedly shitty, moustache and beard that I love. My gender? Unlabelled. Any pronouns. I dont really care how I'm referred to so long as I can get the tits gone.

Which brings my to the point of my ramblings. I haven't really done much deciding, genderwise, have I? Like, no name change no pronoun preference no nothing. Half the issue of my tits is that they're ruining my back, and it's hard to say how much of my wanting them gone is that rather than gender.

This isn't even to say that I might be something else. It feels right to me. But I'm also pretty sure if I was, say, a lesbian rather than aroace, I would've said I was butch, instead. Because that would've been the path of least resistance (if I'm even using that saying right).

Which also leads me into wondering other stuff. Like, if I was AMAB, how would that change things? What if i was bi? Pan? Perisex? What, knowing my reasonings for decisions, would I have gone with being born slightly different? Or would I always be this way?

Sorry for the novel-length incomprehensible bullshit. I probably just need a nap.

its fine!!! rants and ramblings are always welcome. and i just wanna say, theres nothing stopping you from calling yourself butch. im a bisexual guy who is also a butch. youre queer, its cool

[futurama]

OK so finally after however long it's been I'm doing this sorry lol!!

I love characters like lil Hal So much. the ones that get discarded/neglected. something about that loneliness is so fun to explore, especially in Hal's case. the horror n despair of being a normal person and then one day waking up in what equates to a sensory deprivation tank with nothing else to do but talk to your lifelong friends who suddenly don't even view you as a person with thoughts and feelings anymore, but more as an obstacle or plaything. it's so fucked and it's Sooooo good. I honestly don't know how he kept it together while enduring all of that.

During my first read through of homestuck I had to pause just so I could go on a rant when dirk called him something along the lines of a shitty experiment that turned into a monster. Like, dude.. he's not a monster, he's YOU. (moot point because those two things are synonymous to dirk lmao). but for real... he's you, from when you were 13!! of course he's going to be irritating and fuck things up, especially when being irritating and fucking things up is all he has to do. I know it's because of dirks' self loathing that he treats Hal the way he does, he's basically a walking, so to peak (lol), reminder of everything he hates about himself, and a guilt-free target for dirk to take all of his shit out on, because it's not like hal can actually feel anything, right? (and if he Could, would it even make a difference?) oughhhh. but, I honestly can't entirely blame dirk for feeling the way he did about Hal because I don't know if the average person could stand having their 13 y/o self around for very long.

This is where things start getting fuzzy for me about Hal, I can't remember many specifics on the conversations he had with everyone, but I vaguely recall Hal just kinda.. not really fighting back against his situation for the most part?(aside from insisting on getting a body so he could gtfo and do something else) like, he knew how everyone felt about him, he Definitely knew that dirk hated him, but he never seemed to be mad about it, never seemed to be mad about his situation, or at least he didn't show it. I was kind of surprised he didn't go the whole Evil Robot trope route, because he'd have been totally justified in doing that. If anything, he probably felt like he must've deserved it in some way (he's still dirk after all), and I think that on top of still genuinely caring for his friends (Sob) is probably what kept him from flipping his lid. I could definitely be misremembering things though. I can't remember if dirk always hated himself or if that kinda developed as the comic went on. Maybe Hal was just a chill guy who didn't GAF lawl.

most of what I've said here just feels like conjecture based entirely on fuzzy recollections, I didn't do any research for this.... I definitely need to reread HS!!!! anyways LIL HAL!!! Love him. I feel so bad for him and deserved way better than what he ended up with. I was so hyped when I thought he finally gonna get a body, and then my blood drained from my face when I saw that shitass sprite silhouette in the back of the panel. well, at least he was happy..... :(

no no its ok… yes. yes ive been waiting for this. thank you for getting back to me with your thoughts on lil hals character, i always think its nice to sit down and reflect on your favorites every now and again lest we lose sight of what makes them important in our own eyes ^_^ its also been an eensy weensy handful of years since ive last reread homestuck so i totally get it. im sure id have a lot more to say about hal and dirks relationship if it were fresh in my brains but im running on memory and nostalgia at the time being… oh well!

ive for sure been drawn to hal since being introduced to him all those years ago, but i think a lot of people are typically drawn to the doppelganger of our favorite guys as theyre born unto us with an inferiority complex! theres nothing better than loving and maybe even idolizing a character and then finding out they have a lame, pitiful copy living in their shadow. enticing and relatable. now that i type it out its fun to think that there are plenty of homestuck characters with that specific sort of complex but ESPECIALLY the striders. hal and davesprite are copies of guys who are copies of guys (who are copies of guys…) they really have the worst of it i think!

i dont believe dirk is a monster though, i think that he just has a lot of stuff that is very hard for him to work out on his own though he only wants to do it on his own. i just dont think he trusts anyone else to help fix the gripes he has with himself but in turn isolates himself from that potential comfort and connection that is shared with talking to other humans. i think having hal, a reminder not only of his own existence but his past existence sitting on his face at all times was a really bad idea. in hindsight. i wish i could have told him not to do that, but at the same time its really fun to see him get really mad *blushes*

me personally i read the rooftop conversation between dirk and hal as dirk coming to terms with the fact that he does not actually want to kill himself and is ok with moving on from the person he used to be in turn allowing hal to grow as his own character and move on from the perma presence of his better self, or at least that would have been the case if he weren't thrown into a sprite with equius and left to be a nothing character alongside davepetasprite <--PERSONAL OPINION

anyway its fun to type about hal and co with you :) its always a treat to draw him even though i dont fuck with homestuck anymore but thats because ive adopted him as my son and roommate and brother and pet. i love drawing him and always will

[pellowinksx]

HIIIIII hope you’ve been amazing I know I’ve been spectacular but oh my god I’m not even muslim or religious I just wear a head wrap because I don’t feel like doing my hair (it’s 4a) and I was walking to get a sweet drink and I’m walking back and I always smile at everyone and this homeless white lady screams so fucking loud at me AFTER I SMILE AT HER “Youre unwelcome trash” like SOOOO fucking loud I jumped but kept walking and didn’t turn around because I assumed it was just homeless person rantings and she screamed it again everyone was alr turned and this lady came up to me and asked if I was okay and that’s when it registered to me she said that because she thought I was muslim😭Then I realized all these other white people passed her and she was quiet like omfg I’ve lived here my whole fucking life WTF R U SAYING I cant imagine how bad actual muslims have it and in more racist areas (I live in thee most progressive state and region and this shit still happened) just INSANEEE Im dressed nice smell nice look nice all because of a fucking head wrap Im not bothered at all but I cant believe people have to go through this and worse anyways persisting is so fun and knowing I have everything I want I’ve been happy as hell and Im literally never spiraling since I found ur blog my and I’ve been off tumblr less I love life. HOW ARE UUUU

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HEYYY GIRL I'M SO GOOD WBU?

HAHHAHA 🐣 THIS IS A VERY FUNNY THING TO ME LEMME TELL YOU,

Your energy is so important. cause guess what? I'm not even in Dubai rn I'm visiting my American side of the family in a very white trash neighborhood, and I wear a complete hijab, I cover my body, I don't wear makeup or anything like that

(I don't wanna sound pickme, I wear makeup around my friends and at home Its just haram to wear it in public around men you arent related to)

and I NEVER get shitty comments or anything, ppl (WHITE Americans at that) will just stare ate me or even smile or say hi. I'm not flexing on you, I'm telling you to PERSIST, queen. Because not only will your appearance change, your energy will too. Especially since like I'm so kind irl and ima just say like...you could just be existing as a hijabi, doing nothing normally and ppl will harrass you. but if they sense confidence and beauty they'll actually be lowkey intimidated by you. I walk with my head up all the time, a smile on my face, its like they don't even notice the hijab. (only this lethal face card 😌) also, I am part black American but its summer and I literally just look like a tanned Italian and yet I'm still well respected here.

*ahem* enough about myself.

I just feel really bad for muslims in America who go through this, especially when they're American...so sad seeing all of my hijabi sisters get harassed and this is why we must always ask for protection (we have a duaa to say when we leave the house) because some people will deadass walk around like shaytaan lmfao.

I'm so sorry you went through that :( and normal hairwraps don't even look like hijab...

SO GLAD THAT U ARE PERSISTING BTW like everytime someone says I helped them my heart leaps and I get butterflies like AGH your dream life? because of me? WOWOWOOWOW

love ya queen 🐣 happy manifesting <3

[angelinbreeding]

hi everyone so this user hates my guts with her whole heart BUT the ask was mentioning me (see my pinned post) so i needed to.

THAT POST IS CAMP.

let me explain.

camp : A sensibility that revels in artifice, stylization, theatricalization, irony, playfulness, and exaggeration rather than content.

when i post stuff like that (i do admire pelle a lot irl, but im talking about those posts specifically), im NOT BEING SERIOUS. im playing a role which adds to an aestheticism, an image, in my head. he was a wonderful artist and i find a lot of comfort within him because i struggle with a lot of similar things, but in all actuality, i dont think im his anything (i actually know for a fact he'd either hate me or just not care).

@pe11e0hlins-realwife sort of scared to tag you because i know you dont like me in the slightest, but i thought i should because i do like you actually. i really want you to be happy. sure, i think what you do is fucking extreme, but that doesn't subtract from the fact that you're a human who deserves love and happiness. i sincerely hope you get better and maybe we can be civil and bond over struggles.

anyways, here's the rant, a.k.a me being petty as fuck (seperate section for actual rational stuff and now here's the section for me being my age)

the joke of the millenia is calling me a coquette blog. BABYGIRL if you think IM coquette then im sorry you need a grasp on coquettes first to throw around that term. SECOND yes im grammar and spelling police i have admitted that multiple times and its something I just can't help: pet peeves, ever heard of them?

also, suicide and self harm and depression are VERY serious topics. i am a self harmer and i am depressed—that is something i find similar in me and pelle which is why i find him and his art comforting. because it reminds me that im not alone. ffs.

AND ALSO i... dont even post about lana del rey a lot...? i used to, but i dont anymore. people change. ever heard that?

BUT HONESTLY OMG the way you said to uhm... i dont know her name but the girl i tagged up above, that she's starting to think she's me (no offense to you honey the asker is simply shitty that we should castrate or smth) MAKES ME FEEL LIKE A CELEBRITY OMG TYSM BABE

anywaysss im done with this shit < 3

EVERYONE take care of yourself. I LOVE YOU and even if you hate me, i most likely do not hate you back. and i hope everyone now understands what personas, pet peeves and camp is. you learn smth new everydayyyy

mwah.

[n0irrrr]

i've been trying to think why i stopped writing entirely, so this is just a vent/ramble post and doesn't mean anything beyond that? line break bc i dont think someone would want to read rambling tb: rant about aot, info about reiss mental asylum/empty/future

the first reasons i came out with were 1. work 2. a shitty situation that worsened my already shitty mental health and 3. void of creativity/writers block/no energy to think or to came out with something i liked bc i kept comparing myself to others creators (which is... very bad).

the other big reason....... (since i only wrote for aot):

i think i stopped writing anything attack on titan related because i really, really got so salty that my favorite peace of media (that i've followed for 11 years) ended they way it did? and i don't mean that 'oh just bc u didn't get a happy ending or u didn't understand the characters and the plot doesn't mean your opinion is valid bla bla'

but the way characters' developments were poorly handled and recessed, how they were just made dumber for the sake of the plot and how suddenly a romantic relationship that wasn't there in the first place became something bigger at the end and how eren was handled in the last moments just made me so salty lmao.

and it makes me more salty how people just shits on you if you don't like it and quickly go with their 'u didn't get it' like brother ive been here since 2013 tf you mean? now we can't criticize anything and still like something??? AAAGGGHHHH

im sorry LOL it's just that i can't see anything aot related bc it is so ruined for me. literally i see tiktoks and i get so sad and bitter bc i know what the comments will be lmao i hate it, literally just read the manga and stopped watching the anime until season 3 bc i just disliked how everything was handled so bad. like any news about it just doesn't make me feel anything 😭 i need a therapist

anyway :) im trying to find my love towards it again because i genuinely liked writing my shitty stories about it and the world building and characters were what i fell in love with.

(also, this doesn't mean im bashing ppl who liked the ending!! in my eyes, everything is subjective—some like it, some dont, and that's fine. how boring life would be if we all thought the same?)

but i AM bashing those who say 'you didn't get it'. come here and get this hands how about that

oh, and im rewriting reiss mental asylum (just the earlier chapters bc they are... bad y'all LOL), nothing too heavy, just trying to improve the writing and adding extra things. (such as the damn time period... i've had in mind to settle it around 1960-1980, but i just didn't pay attention to the world building enough to explicitly mention it. oh well, the more you know.)

i've already made a big chunk of info about how i want to develop the whole story, so i do have a clear structure to follow. also, i once begged for ideas in ao3, and many people came with great input, and a commentor was so spot on on what i was intending to do with the story! (like really spot on LOL they found my secret plot twist...)

it really makes me baffled how many people like the story, with its flaws and all. i was young and very inexperienced when writing it, so i hope i can refine it enough to make it a decent read for all of you.

also... people from russia 🫵 im speaking to you directly... thank you for your kind messages as well! (some of you have reached for me through email) it just baffles me how well liked that story is? and for the translator(Вероника_69) to still keeping an eye after years of no updating? aaaa. thank you.

i think i needed to write this vent, it helped me to get some good motivation!!

aaaaand i've watched jujutsu kaisen... you may see silly things coming up as well... err, someday. because college is around the corner again and that means suffering! and poor mental health! and no time! and no life!

been having these intrusive thoughts lately of... erasing all of my works LOL BUT i won't, don't worry. they'll be there as a reminder of how slightly ive improved (not much).

but yeah, if you see me experiment with small drabbles or just silly posts it doesn't mean im not paying attention to reiss mental asylum! i won't abandon it unless i die, even then i've told my friends to release my 30 unfinished drafts for you to get some closure LOL (fr though). but yeah, i will gravitate towards other fandoms if i feel like it (:

so, empty: hiatus... hiatus hiatus bc i hate to touch aot right now as its canon universe. indefinite hiatus, but i love that story to just abandon it. i was having much fun with it, tbh. which also im very grateful that it also got a russian translation by _Полуночник_! sorry that these news aren't very positive for the fans of empty, but i promise i'll get around it someday.

anyway, this turned out too long. thank you for still checking my stories, as bad as they are! i really, really appreciate you all reaching out to me. hopefully this year i can be more active, even if to write drabbles with meaning behind it. (i just love stories with lores thats why im so damn slow) although... i wrote more for myself in the beginning, so i was very surprised that people wanted more LOL

oh and im going to post masterlists to order my shit better. i want pretty visuals too, yk? headsup if u see me posting... also, feel free to ask anything about this vent lol i dont mind. (also i always got notifications to my email when someone asked something, and idk when they stopped? also, yeah, i check my email 😞)

hope you are having a good start of year. and, if not, well, we have 11 months anyways

and i never fucking realize i had 550 FOLLOWERS. i am not fit for social media y'all im sorry. i'll have to spoil you with something... THANK YOU FOR FOLLOWING A DAMN GRAVEYARD 😭 i will make it better i promise

also... dont use chat bots... my brain rotted... 😞 i had an unhealthy obsession (still do) but don't give in LMAO

[skwunklygwimblu]

explanation to my absence kinda on here (tw: mention of animal and verbal 4bus3)

hey y'all, I've been trying my best to get some content out here, but I haven't been able to keep my grades up, and so I keep losing my phone for weeks at a time, and its let to me (today and other days) just coming home, taking care of schoolwork and chores, eating and going to bed since my dad doesn't let me in my room after morning and before nighttime anymore (he thinks I'm lazy idfk)

its been rough though especially bc my parents and the rest of my family are neglecting my dog and beating him and such (just one of my two dogs because he has anxiety and isn't the best potty trained) and so I have to take care of him and two other pets my family doesn't care about (on top of everything else going on) but its heartbreaking because I went to bathe my dog so he could sit in the house after about a week of sleeping in the freezing garage with no heaters and when I put him in the tub he was shaking so bad he just drank water for 5 minutes straight because nobody was giving him anything. it doesn't help that my dad decided to waste the only voice he had left from being sick on screaming at me for forgetting my teacher changed a syllabus and I feel like the constant every day cycle of this shit has led to me being less active in doing what I feel like doing

im probably starting an Etsy shop or commissions soon once I get my shit together to raise money to buy my own things so I (for example) cant get my phone taken because I'll have a backup, or buy my own place eventually when I move out. I really hope you guys will understand and I'm sorry for ranting about all of this, its just been really hard and I feel bad about talking to anyone I know since I know no trusted adults I know really counts everything my dad does to us (there's way more, not getting into detail) as abuse when he very obviously has some sort of bipolar disorder and trauma makes it all worse, generational trauma kinda dampened the abuse but its shitty nonetheless.

again, sorry for ranting y'all, just needed to get this off my chest, I'll probably shorten this whole post when I feel better about everything.. I'm staying safe

love you guys, all you moots who like all my posts, I see you thanks for sticking around!!

[controversial-blorbo-bracket]

i don't mean to stir up more controversy so feel free to not post this ask, but like. yeah. i don't get it. is harry potter a shitty franchise filled to the brim with subtle bigotry and glorification of various nasty outlooks on humanity? kinda, in my opinion, yeah. is it written by, and profited off of by someone actively using their platform to cause harm to human rights? yeah. would i ever want to engage with the content or fandom? no not really. but does this mean that anyone who even breathes in the direction of Harry Potter content is condoning all this bullshit, or kissing the author's shoes and ideologies, and giving them money to harm the people they want to harm? uh.......... no, not really. what the fuck

like............ yeah. like you said it's a huge franchise. literally a silly little Tumblr poll that will realistically get under 10,000 votes, let alone notes or discussions, is not at all going to compare to the reach she already has. and it feels weird to twist the blame that way— this author is using their writing and manipulation skill to earn lots of money and do awful things with it... and suddenly it's the individual fans' fault that she has that money and reach? and not just the fans, but even people that don't actively go out of their way to excommunicate fans of the media?

sorry to rant in your inbox i just. im pretty sick of all this "inaction against a major celebrity is the same as condoning their abuse of power and influence" stuff that people throw around instead of criticizing why our social power structure is based on popularity and engagement in the first place (which is bound to put the most cultish, manipulative, influential, and charismatic people in power). idk it just feels really skeevy to blame people who enjoy or passively tolerate something that's expertly designed specifically to be appealing by a master manipulator.

you don't have to post this (though i also don't mind if you do) i just wanted to like. bring some of my takes into your inbox cause these anons sounding like they're accusing you of queer blasphemy or some shit over literally just.... letting someone hate their anti-blorbo/love their blorbo that they think everyone else hates.... are just really putting me off. like do they get that this is the "oil companies tell poor people global warming is their fault" argument all over again?

This has been sitting in my askbox for a long time because I wasn’t sure how to address it or whether to even address it or just delete it, as it feels like a topic that’s bigger than I am and I can’t ever properly address all of it. But all I’ll say is, while I agree that not all discussion of Harry Potter or other shitty medias is promotion and we as individuals shouldn’t be held accountable for the actions of a transphobic billionaire, it is still important to approach the subject with nuance and make sure the ways in which we talk about it do not spread harm. I think that’s why so many polls decide to ban it and other medias from their polls, because most of them are designed to find the “best” of something and to insinuate that something from one of those medias can be the best could be harmful. That’s why I’m not gonna post any asks that defend the series as a whole or the franchise as a property, because it’s not right to even humor those who want to downplay transphobia and antisemitism (among others). Aaaanyways all this to say if people discourse about Harry Potter characters in the notes or askbox go for it just remember the real people impacted by the bigotries present in it when considering the way you want to make your discussions

[louisisalarrie]

Before the MET gala, TR was papped going to the hotel where all the celebs stay and she was holding a hat

Its the same hat Harry is wearing in that new picture

So confused as to why theyve chosen HATS as the stunt accessory. Its easier in one sense that its chill,its not PDA but on the other hand it makes Hettries go absolutely crazy because iTs SO CuTE (they just ignore the umbro shirt)

To me, because its such a chill stunt, its harder to see its a stunt if that makes sense (i suppose thats their whole goal).

Anyway im really really manifesting a BUA soon but also kinda thinking maybe itll last out til before HS4 and then H will say something like all the songs were written before tour finished like he did with Harry’s House so people cant connect any of the songs to her (even though Hettries still will)

Sorry I’m in a ranting mood. I tried reallly hard not to have any hard feelings towards a stunt BUT as soon as they start visibly rising in the celeb rankings (ie an invite to a prestigious event) because of their connection to Harry it gets hard.

I mean anyone who willingly closets someone but also gains opportunities ect from it is a pretty shitty person.

Anyway keep calm and larry on xoxo

That hat keeps them tied together as a “loved up couple” no matter how little photos we get of them, and saves face for harry not being with her at the met. It’s just… im glad they’ve settled on a hat and they’re not joined at the hip, but it’s still so exhausting and obvious.

And yeah, the hettries will 150% tie any of Harry’s song to whatever woman is the flavour of the week for them. I’m sure HS4 will have a song about OW, TR, TS, anyyyyyy girl he’s ever been with. Because that’s all he can write about. Because his whole dating life is super transparent and public, obviously.

I agree with you, the whole thing about it being a “chill” stunt, because it’s seen as a more mature and lowkey relationship, which correlates with harry talking about his privacy when it comes to this stuff. It’s the same reason they haven’t explicitly said “yes we are dating”, ya know? They’re trying to line it up with his brand a little differently this time around. Personally, I think they’re doing a better job this time round. It’s smarter with TR. But still very transparent, as all stunts are.

And dont worry babe, it’s just a matter of time till the BUA. it’s coming.