#sorry for sounding preachy i am just

[woahjo]

hi! you can totally ignore this if you don't want to reply for whatever reason, but i still wanted to ask since i'm curious on other peoples perspective

i've never been one to self-ship (or at least not directly, like i def had some fics written with self insertion without realizing or made up scenarios in my head but never really put the label on it)

And I thought on why I did not want that label of self-ship put on my fav characters and myself, and ig my conclusion is that it just hurts me to put it in a way? like for me its a constant remind that they're fictional, which honestly hurts more than just doing a selfinserted fic and that's it, because once i finish the fic it's just another piece of media, nothing more to me, and i detach

but if i try to push myself to do something cute for self-shipping since everyone seems so content with it, i can't find myself doing the same because of what i just said, like even calling my favs f/o makes me feel a bit like shit lol. and tbh i think most people would disagree with me since what i see 99% of the time is people using selfshipping as a pastime or use it to cope but how do you manage to not hurt yourself when you remember it's only fictional? because i want to achieve that as well without getting myself hurt in the process.

so sorry for this being so long btw, i wanted to explain myself as best as i could

hi anon!!!

i understand you completely!! i think the bottom line of it is that if you don't like it, then don't do it, ya know? i don't mean that in the like "get out of here!!" sense, i mean it more so in the like.. if thinking inside of what the "box" might be for self-shipping, why not try thinking outside of it?

i know for me, i don't actually imagine my selfships to be "real" in any way. yes, my selfships are with me, but it's a version of me that more closely aligns with a story im writing about their relationship. i've noticed a lot of people have decently set lore with their selfships, but that personally doesn't work for me, so i tend to think in a more abstract way when it comes to lore. broad strokes, ya know?

im not sure if this makes sense, but my "selfships" often feel more like reading a book or watching a tv show with a pairing i really like than they do myself. the version of me that they're with is a character and i enjoy thinking about how that version of me might be paired with them, but they're never a full reflection of me. that's the sort of selfshipping that makes me happy. yeah sure, i don't really get to take part in the "what's your selfship lore!!!" conversations as in depth as i might want to, but that's just not part of what makes selfshipping enjoyable to me.

if i thought about my selfships as real, life sized human beings, i would also get SO sad they're not real, so i tend to imagine them as like... living in rooms in my head rather than something i can imagine in front of me. idk if that's how everyone thinks about their selfships, but that's how i do it!!! i carry the scenarios around in my pocket like bugs in a handheld terrarium.

as an aside,,, when it comes to writing, my reader is almost never a self insert. they have bits and pieces of me, but they're not a reflection of how my selfships tend to go. they are their own characters, just without a name or physical description. and it's purely for a similar reason. i'm not a novel protagonist. i don't have that sort of personality and sometimes it can bum me out to try and fit myself into a box that i think other people might enjoy (because that's not the real me).. so i don't! same goes for my selfships

anyway, all of this to say that if the box doesn't fit, out grow it. the nice thing about selfshipping is that there is no right way to do it and if thinking about it in the traditional way trips u up because it makes u sad that they're not real, switch up how you think about it :))

[decembermoonskz]

oh also for those who are worried about twt ppl messing with tumblr my advice (take it or leave it ofc) is don’t worry too much. honestly just keep being the awesome humans you are. the site will move on and it’ll be fine. just keep being you and moving at your pace on here and others will either have to conform to your reality or move on. they won’t be in your space unless you want them to be.

[gayferrari]

are u a max hater?

he's not a blorbo driver and I am a hater of the team he races for so I actively cheer against him most of the time. then I forget about it when I calm down after the race. until the next one <3

Max as a media personality is way down the favourite millionaires rankings but I think he has his qualities (attracting older men. racecraft in the wet. compelling rpf possibilities. titties) & those are the things I focus on mostly

[zvdvdlvr]

— Odd

🧹 — Symopsis. Ominis decides to sit with you as you finish your breakfast. An odd- and flirtatios- conversation ensues.

🧹 — Warnings. Flirting. Weird situations. Someone’s finger ends up in someone’s mouth. Weird scenario. Mention of the One and Only Sebastian Sallow. Mention of crutiatus curse. No mention of reader’s gender or pronouns or house.

“Good morning,” a voice greeted beside you. Turning, you saw Ominis Gaunt’s milky grey eyes. He had a small smile on his face, his head cocked.

“Hello.” You greeted, voice raspy from dissuse. 

Ominis busied himself by preparing his plate. It consisted of figgy pudding (ew), toast with perfectly melted butter, and two medium sized waffles. What an odd combination, you thought.

“Why are you sitting next to me? Sebastian normally follows your every movement,” you asked, finishing up the last bite of your breakfast. You admit, Ominis arrived at an unsavory time, but you liked him enough to stay and converse with him.

Ominis stiffened. “He… has been his usual annoying and persistent self. I needed to speak to someone else for once.”

Your eyebrow raised; Sevastian himself had told you that Ominis didn’t really talk to other people. Unless there was a reason. He was perfectly polite, of course, but Ominis just wasn’t the person to strike up conversation with just anyone. Intriguing, you thought. “I see,” you replied casually. “Is there a reason I’m the person you chose to speak to?”

Ominis nodded. “There is, indeed.” Ominis placed his almost finished toast back on the plate. “I understand that you probably don’t have the best perception or impression of me after I… my rather rude outburst to you about lying about the Undercoft. And for me letting Sebastian crucio you without argument.”

You shrugged, knowing Ominis would understand your movement without the ability to see. “I’d… it’s… Someone crucio-ing me is bound to happen at the rate I’m investigating into Ranrok and Rookwood….” The sound of Rookwood’s ‘avada kedavra’ had rung through your mind. Poor Natty had brushed it off, but you felt bad for her: she hadn’t signed up to have grown men try to kill her. “I’m glad the first time was with people that weren’t doing it for malicious intent,” you finished hastily. You didn’t really know what to say. Ominis had set his boundaries and was upset about being in the scriptorium at all- and he had a good reason to be. Sebastian’s response to you volunteering for the curse was a little odd, but you know that’s just how he is. “I know we’ve already been over this, but I am truly sorry about making you go with us.”

Ominis looked incredulous. “We tortured you and you’re the one apologizing? Y/n, darling, you need to get out and meet new people.”

You huffed a laugh. “You’re one to talk,” you  shot back, taking a sip from your goblet.

“I guess you’re right about that. Matter of fact, you’re right about almost everything.”

You shrugged. “I’ve been placed in a unique set of sitautions that not many others have experienced. I guess knowledge and a fast reaction time is necessary,” you rambler, hating how you sounded so preachy.

“An admirable trait, I must admit,” Ominis murmured. His face was turned to yours, close enough you could see some of the melted butter gathered by his lip.

“There’s butter on your mouth,” you mumbled carefully, treading carefully.

The blond only hummed. “Help a blind man out?” He asked, voice low. 

Had it been anyone else, you would have hit them upside the head and depulso’d them. An odd request, especially considering the fact that you hadn’t spoken to each other that much. But the way he had fretted over you as the pain of the cruciatus curse brought you to the ground was something that lingered in your mind. He had rushed over you after your poorly withheld screams had successfully pierced his eardrums for more than humanly necessary. Despite his blindness, he had slipped his arm under your shoulder and stood up. You shuddered and leaned into his arms, thankful for the feeling of human warmth. 

And then there was Ominis’s habit of looking for you in the Great Hall whenever he felt your aura (odd, but he had taken a liking to you, despite your limited encounters). You always felt his presence searching for yours, bit you assumed it aas to make sure you were still alive and kicking: after all, you were Sebastian’s friend.

You reached up and swiped your thumb on Ominis’s bottom lip, gathering the melted butter. “Open,” you whispered. 

The dull conversations taking place at tables all around the Great Hall were silenced. Ominis opened hs mouth and you slipped your thumb in his mouth. As bizarre and disgusting it was, Ominis enjoyed the feeling of you so close to him, even in this way. After Ominis’s tongue had swiped the butter off you pulled away and wiped the excess saliva on a napkin.

Ominis’s eyes were a touch darker now. He sighed shakily, thinking of how you had commanded him to open his mouth and how willing he was to follow your order. He cleared his throat. “Well.”

You smiled slightly, seeing the blush painting Ominis’s cheeks. “I’ll be out in the Pitch today. Come find me later and we can work on… spell practice.”

Ominis nodded. “Very well. I will.”

As you got up and walked away, Ominis rested his head in his hands. As he had expected, you flirted back with a talent that rivaled Sebastian Sallow himself. And the tent in his pants proved just how fond he had grown to you.

[orangeocelotmartyn]

Martyn talks a bit more about the Imp and Skizz podcast (which he’ll be on June 16) including a lovely message Skizz sent him afterwards. Transcript under the cut!

Martyn: But yeah, I got a really nice message from, uh, Skizz earlier on today about the podcast. Um, he just sent a message saying, "Hey, I'm editing part one right now, just wanted to say thanks for being so incredibly authentic. This episode's gonna be well recieved as people learn about the real you, it's extremely interesting." So...yeah. 

There was a few times I gave answers and they were both kinda sat there...almost like, they almost looked somewhat surprised, or stunned, I dont know, that I was speaking so (laughs), so, I don't know, so blatantly. And I was a bit like, "ooh, is that too much?" (laughs), I was just like, "oop." 

And earlier in the podcast as well—so please forgive me when you watch it—ah, there was a few times in, uh, like, the first hour, where I kept kinda like, chipping in, or chiming in, and kinda like, speaking over them? And it wasn't intentional, it was more—there was a very slight delay on the, um, on the feed between the two of us—and also as well, sometimes, like, their sentence, or what they were saying, felt like the tone of their voice was like indicating the end of their statement, but then they would say something else, and I'd be like, "oop-ah-I'm so—sorry, sorry." (laughs)

So yeah, that, that happened a little bit. But that's not just me completely ignoring their saying, it was just me, um, navigating—like, learning how they speak, as well as—y'know, the lag as well.

"Got a long plane ride coming up so it sounds interesting," yeah—the thing—the thing that I said to them as well, I said like, I think the reason I did speak openly and honestly about it is, one, because of my recent therapy, but also because I find those two incredibly authentic. Like, you know, Impulse is very open, about talking about, like, how much he second guesses himself, and things like that, and then Skizz is—you know—very much like, I think Skizz is kinda like the person I've become, or am becoming, where it's—there's a lot of, kinda, self love, and kinda unapologeticness with stuff like that. 

Um, so I think speaking to both of them meant that I felt as though I'm literally in a limbo between their two personality types which is why it felt so easy to speak about those things, is because I feel though they've both experienced it, or are currently experiencing those things. Um, and I was saying to them, like, whenever I watch their podcast and they talk about stuff—like, they do a lot of, kinda like, sorta like pushing for people to help themselves kinda thing. But I was saying to them that, like, it always genuinely feels really authentic, and doesn't feel...it doesn't feel preachy, or—they're not trying to shift some course, or some pyramid scheme thing, its—they've just both got some good life experience behind them and they've had time to learn lessons and stuff, and I was just like, yeah, like, this feels like a space where they will-they will pick up what I put down, y'know what I mean.

Um, it was really good. I said to them towards the end I was like, this was like—I think is it the word cathartic? I think I said that, I dunno if that's the right word, but for me I was like, oh that felt really good. That felt great for me.

[barachiki]

Slow going on the pain front.

I’m on antibiotics and my diverticulitis flare up is dying down, but I am on a clear fluid diet, I haven’t eaten a meal in 4 days on doctors orders, not until the pain is gone.

Which sucks because yeah, I get all the apple juice and Gatorade I want, but my body is also getting repulsed by them, making the connection between the flavors and being sick. And though I bought jello, I can’t bring myself to eat it. It just makes me feel like I’m in the hospital.

I’m telling myself it is just a few more days. I only get hungry hungry at night, so I sneak a small glass of milk. But yeah, there is a lot of dissonance between my body and my brain right now.

Brain says, “No eating, you need to get better!”

Body says:

I’m going to tough it out.

…

Also… I just want to say, please be grateful for times of good health. I have chronic abdominal pain and mental health issues, but there are days when everything is fine. No pain, clear head. And it is hard to notice those days because I just get stuff done on autopilot, before I realize that there wasn’t anything STOPPING me from getting things done, usually at the end of the day. I usually am grateful in retrospect. Try to cherish them as they come. In my experience, they may not always last. I know there are so many fortunate things I have in my life, but struggle is struggle, pain is pain.

Sorry, I didn’t mean to sound so preachy, just taking one day at a time, and waiting for a good day to come along.

[sadistic-softie]

I hate being confrontational or preachy and I've never done it before, and frankly, it scares the shit out of me because I don't want people to think I'm mad at them, but I just need to get this off my chest.

I don't have NPD, but I'm so fucking tired of seeing bullshit CPTSD healing 'resources' that use 'narcissist' as a way to say 'abuser' or assume that all abusers are narcissistic and/or vice versa. Like...I wanna heal my trauma without seeing NPD people being thrown under the bus and stigmatized for something they have no part in. Like...wtf? Is that too much to ask for?? My CPTSD is not because of someones or anyones NPD. It never was and never will be. Apparently this is a hot take, but PTSD in general is not from anyones NPD. PTSD is from TRAUMA and or ABUSE. Apparently this is such a common misconception that even my father believes it. He said, "it's because she's a narcassist" after I talked to him about my mothers abusive behaviors to me. So, yeah...that's an awkward fucking conversation I might have to have eventually?? Narcissist is not another word for abuser. I'm saying this as a victim of abuse. Narcissist is not another word for abuser. Yes, it is possible that an abuser can just so happen to have NPD, but they could also have literally any other disorder and that would't be the cause of abusive behavior. NPD doesn't 'make' someone into an abuser. People with NPD are not all abusers. Not all abusers have NPD. These things are not synonymous. You can not blame abusive behavior on NPD. In my particular situation, my family has fallen into a cycle of abuse type situation, in which each mother was abusive to her daughters, causing the cycle to become seen as 'normal' in the family, thus perpetuating the cycle. An abusers actions are purposefully negative. Even if the intent is not explicitly to abuse or the abuser is not fully aware that they are being abusive. Each individual behavior is done with a certain intent. Manipulation tactics are meant to gain power over a person, constant invasion of privacy is done to control a person, constant belittlement and agression towards a particular person enforces an unhealthy dynamic, unwarrented and or cruel punishments, threats, pushings of boundaries are meant to train a victims actions and mindset, and I don't think I need to explain why physical violence is harmful. The list goes on. None of these abusive behaviors are symptoms of NPD nor fit the description of someone with NPD. These behaviors are abusive, end of sentence. It has nothing to do with NPD. The following are screenshots from a simple Google search (literally bare minimum research) defining Narcassistic Personality Disorder:

I'm sorry is this post overwhelms anyone. I don't want this to feel like a scolding and I really hope I don't sound like I'm trying to take a moral highground because I don't wanna make anyone feel like they're a bad person or anything like that. I know my wording and tone in this post is quite agressive compared to how I usually am, and I apoligize for that. I also wanna make it clear that this is not directed at anyone or any group of people in particular. Also, take this with a grain of salt too, as I'm not a professional in any field whatsoever and these are just my personal thoughts and frustrations. I hope you have a wonderful day if you're reading this and if you aren't. Thank you.

[ventingfanfics]

The Wrong Paper

You were in your Creative Writing class. The professor was telling you and your classmates not to get preachy with your writing. He had your complete attention as you enjoyed writing and reading. Things got even more interesting when you all received the task of choosing a prompt to unpack with a partner.

You find a hand-written note on your windshield that says, “Drive west for 100 miles.” (Reedsy)

“I’m obviously not gonna do it,” Your classmate said. “What if it’s a setup?”

“Why didn’t the person leave their name?” You added.

“And what’s after the 100 miles?”

You exchanged a few more questions and then individually began responding to the prompt. You could do this all day. Unfortunately, your zone was halted. Your professor called your name. You saw Professor Shuri, which made your imaginary antennas spike. 

“I need to borrow you for a minute, if that’s alright,” she said.

“I’m kind of busy,” You said. Seeing the off guard expressions on both professors’ faces amused you. “I’m kidding.” You got up and followed Professor Shuri out of the classroom. She walked briskly, leaving you behind. Struggling to keep up, you gave up and walked at your own pace. 

“Is everything okay, professor?” You asked, noticing she seemed tense. 

She didn’t answer. She opened her office door and motioned for you to enter. You took in her stern expression and walked in. You sat down and lightly drummed your lap, staring at professor Shuri who was on edge. What was up with her?

You frowned until you were startled by her tossing a paper onto your lap. Her expression didn’t budge when you gave her a WTF look. She nodded at the printed paper in your hands. It was your paper. 

Damn, you must have failed it badly. 

However, there was no grade. You turned the page and that was when your heart fell.

You felt like your soul left your body.

Not only was this paper for the wrong class (Professor Shuri didn’t teach Creative Writing) but it was also the wrong paper.

You could have cried when you read the first sentence.

Shuri’s eyes held mine as I made myself home in between her legs as she sat on top of her desk. 

The gaze we shared was smothering. She wanted me just as much as I wanted her. Slowly, we leaned in and our lips connected in a blissful kiss. It was everything I imagined and more. And the fact that we could get caught made it all the more thrilling. I wouldn’t let anything ruin the moment. She was finally mine. 

You didn’t need to read anymore. 

“This can’t be happening…”

Professor Shuri smirked as you refused to make eye contact with her. 

“I am so sorry, professor. I don’t even know what to say…”

“You have to double check the files that you are sending.”

You nodded, feeling your eyes water. 

“Are you crying?” She sounded surprised. When a tear in fact fell, she shook her head and reached on her desk for a soft tissue to give you. 

“Thank you,” you sniffled, still unable to look at her. You were grateful that wiping your eyes gave you the excuse of not having to make eyes with her, someone who you normally enjoyed looking at. 

“Y/N, it’s not the end of the world.”

It’s not?

“I know you’re a writer,” she continued. “I know you’re a storyteller.”

“But you were never supposed to see that.”

She laughed. It almost relieved you. Almost. 

“I am flattered that I could be a source of inspiration,” she said. “Assuming I’m the Shuri you’re talking about.” 

You groaned, covering your face. “Take me now. Please.” Then you cussed at the innuendo.“Not like that— I need to go.” You gripped your paper and headed for the door. You paused, still not looking at her. “I will send the correct paper.”

“You do that.”

~~~

Tasha rolled her eyes. Of course her fiancee was in her office. She stayed in there, reading papers, grading papers or having meetings with her students and faculty alike. Tasha loved her wife dearly and liked that she was dedicated to her work, but she had a price to pay for marrying a professor.

As she stepped further into the room, she realized Shuri was not merely reading someone’s assignment. She had a hand down her flannel pants. Tasha knitted her eyebrows together. Shuri didn’t even seem to notice her. 

Knocking on the opened door pulled Shuri out of her reverie. She looked like a deer in headlights. She yanked her hand from her pants. 

“Tasha, why would you scare me like that?”

“I came to check on you, it’s going on 2AM and you still haven’t come to bed.” Tasha eyed her suspiciously. 

“Oh, I am almost done reading. Two minutes tops.”

Tasha continued to give her a side-eye. “What are you reading?” Her gaze traveled to Shuri’s hand. 

“Work, baby,” Shuri said, sounding mildly impatient. 

“You do know if you’re horny you have a wife who can handle that…”

“Tasha.” Shuri blinked slowly and exhaled. “I’ll be there, okay?”

Tasha couldn’t just drop this, causing her to approach her wife. Shuri panicked and shut her laptop. 

“Wow, what’s the secret, Shuri? I thought you said you were reading someone’s paper?”

“I am,” Shuri said through clenched teeth.

“And it’s got you touching yourself?”

“I was in pain.”

“You are such a liar! You know what? When you’re ready to be truthful, you can come to bed.”

As Tasha let her be, all Shuri could do was tell herself she needed to get it together. She needed to get you and your damned fantasy that had now become her fantasy out of her mind. 

Part 2

[golbrocklovely]

here are my opinions on snc's new video :)

i actually really enjoyed this one. the couple that they have done this year haven't been my most favorite (apart from the ones with the boys bc those are really funny but had a good amount of spooky mixed in) but this one felt like an older video, if that makes any sense. like it felt like a vid from 2021 or something, and i actually really like that in a way.

also they finally came to my state which is makes this even better lol

i think what was nice was the amount of time they spent in each place. it felt evenly spaced out (minus the last spot but i kinda understand why). the last time they did something like this, it felt so rushed and like none of the places really got a spotlight, but this video, i think, worked out the kinks of the last one.

now to get into more specifics...

farnsworth house - so i was a bit confused how jeremy has his own room, but it's not the room he died in bc that is sara's room??? that was a bit weird to me but okay then lol

them freaking out about the door "hitting" amanda…. imma be honest that part is so dumb. clearly it was just swinging back towards her bc they opened it. my thing with houses that are super old is that you can't trust creaks or knocks or doors. like yeah, maybe they are weird and creepy in the moment and you can't handle how you deal with things at that point, but after the fact it's just so obvious it's an old fucking house and not paranormal, at least to me.

but them constantly hearing footsteps was very odd, especially since they were assumingly alone in the houses. that part is very weird.

i liked that there was a lot of active spirits there. what i am a bit bummed about is we never found out what laura wanted to say to colby. also colby being drawn to the one bathroom, which is were jeremy died… that man is psychic and needs to get back onto that empath grind sksks

the emotion ball thing was dumb. sorry. don't try that again lol

i get why they use the spirit box but it is so hard to understand anything that comes out of it. i personally wish they would just stick to the alice box/estes method.

jennie wade house - first off their guide was a 10/10. she very much reminded me of ppl from philly, and i have no way of explaining why lol

it's a shame what happened to jennie. and i personally think that the soldier in the previous house did kill her, even if on accident.

what i will say tho is how is it that her father was a terrible drunk and downright shit dude, and everyone just accepts he was an asshole… but rosa carmichael was possessed by a demon or the devil??? she couldn't have been just a terrible fucking person who hated kids??? idk, just asking questions here.

again at this place, it was nice that they had "intelligent" spirits bc them interacting with the equipment was cool to see.

sam seeing a face was actually cool, bc nine times out of ten the boys gloss over shit like that and then pretend it didn't happen later down the line.

child spirits always make me sad. it's such a shame when children die. breaks my heart.

soldiers homestead orphanage - imma be honest, do i think this place has a demonic energy in it? ehh, idk. do i think it's possible that soldiers, as they lay there dying slowly, started praying to the devil? sure. i can see that being a thing. idk if that place is demonic tho.

personally, this place falls just an ounce flat for me only bc amanda and her preachy ways comes back full force and it just gets on my nerves lol

hey, just like 2021!

it was a bit much how terrified they were to go into the basement so every creak of footsteps scared them out of the doorway. at that point they should have just stood there and waited to hear the noises. i know at one point the steps sounded really loud so that definitely is worth being spooked out, but after the fifth time of them doing that it wasn't scary anymore - it was annoying.

the estes method was interesting, but again… idk how i feel about the place being demonic.

i think overall i would rate this video like a 7.5/10, maybe an 8 if i'm feeling really generous. it was good, got some good evidence in there, and it happened in my state so that already raises the score lol

please come back to pa snc. i need you to redo pennhurst so badly it's not funny.

lmk what you think if you wanna :)

[pocketmemes]

star wars: kotor   ∕   sentence starters ( part ii. ) more dialogue taken from the 2003 rpg, star wars: knights of the old republic. lightly edited for clarity. feel free to shift pronouns.

just do me a favor and wait till i’m out of here before you start blowing the place up.

neither one of us is getting off this planet unless we work together.

you got another plan? or are you just objecting because you didn’t think of it?

and why would I indulge your idle curiosity?

to think us creatures beyond the need of simple passions is a delusion.

you're the one who wanted to know more about me. well, this is it. this is what I am.

all my secrets are purely of the mundane variety, unfortunately.

but in the end, you’ve lost something as well.

if we survive all this... maybe we could talk about it then.

i'm asking you to trust me. for just a little while longer.

i wonder how long you would have stayed blind to the truth?

is it vengeance you seek at this reunion?

go ahead and be paranoid.

imagine my surprise when i found out you were still alive.

you do know we’re on the same side, right?

i’m beginning to wonder if you’re capable of trusting anybody.

not all of us have the luxury of choice.

you make me think i have some purpose beyond revenge.

nice speech. i bet you tell yourself that every night so you can sleep.

i would rather not place my life in your hands.

i am prepared to do what it takes.

sounds like you’re better off without him.

how can you even ask if I will follow you?

you always did like to do things the hard way.

blah, blah, blah. don't you ever get tired of being so preachy?

we’ve survived worse, and will again.

can’t you just admit that you were rescued?

i wanted to hold you responsible for all the things you've done.

whatever he said, he was only trying to hurt you.

deny it if you will, but there is a connection between us.

i thought i could destroy all my enemies with a single glorious victory!

i believe you truly mean what you say. for now.

you talk too much and do little.

the darkness that must surely be there, it isn't who you are.

don't try to move too quickly, you might not be fully recovered yet.

one more ‘darling,’ and you’ll be sorry, understand?

no one is without hope of redemption.

none of us is perfect, but I realize ___ is a little less perfect than most.

watching you suffer tore me apart. 

i assume you had some part in this; you learned your lessons well from me.

the only thing you taught me was betrayal and death.

so he sacrificed you to save his own hide?

i always knew there were some who would think i acted out of fear.

you always could inspire loyalty.

[l-e-morgan-author]

Patience put her arm around Nathan's shoulders. "Hello, you. How are you?" He uttered a mournful sound and pulled away; so unlike him that Patience looked closely at his face, reading the misery she hadn't seen until that moment. "What's up?" Nathan put his hands up to his face and kept them there. "I made a mistake." His voice caught on the last word. "What happened?" she asked, as gently as she knew how. He took something out of his pocket and held it wordlessly out to her. Patience bit her lip, hard, and took it from him. "Are you all right?" He leaned his head back and stared up at the sky. "For some definition of all right," Nathan said, and laughed under his breath. "From a medical perspective, yes. If it helps," with energy, "it was only the once. But I was - I was pretty close to a year without it, Pat, I thought it was going okay. And then it wasn't." "I'm sorry," she said. "How can I help you?" "Pray with me," he said, voice catching again. "And for me, Patience - dear. I'm just... I feel so stupid. I could have avoided it, but at the time I didn't care. I thought it was fine. I should know by now." She leaned her head back, too, and studied the sky as if trying to see some answer in the clouds. Unfortunately she found nothing. "Mistakes happen," said Patience, putting her hand on his. After a moment Nathan's hand closed around her own. "I'm not going to say it was the right thing to do, but I am going to say you need to forgive yourself. And ask for forgiveness - of course." She feared she was sounding too preachy, but he smiled faintly. "Forgive me if this is too forward, but Nathan, dear, do you have any more such?" He shook his head. "Just the one, and I've given it to you. But God help me, Patience - I can always get more. God help me." He put his head in his hands again. "Please don't," she said slowly. "You need to care about yourself - not just to refrain because you think you ought, or that you might upset me." "You've got to do that too," said Nathan, flashing her a luminous glance. "I've heard enough from you about that!" Patience smiled self-consciously. "You have me there," she admitted. "God help us both!" "As he ever does," said Nathan, almost inaudibly, and at length leaned his head against her shoulder.

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[gale-gentlepenguin]

Gale Reviews: ML Season 5: Action

-As expected its gonna be a bit preachy.

(Spoilers below)

-Okay adrien riding the scooter with Marinette is cute... but good gravy my boy doing everything to avoid allegations.

-Adrien teaching Marinette mandarin is cute... until you remember his pronunciation is s***

-Nino is very serious with this

-(So glad this is in english on youtube and I can playback at a faster speed.)

-I knew this going in but good gravy it is soooooooo preachy. It reminds me of Captain planet

-Ah yes, Adrien and Kagami as NFTs selling products... I really hate Gabriel

-So the ship sunk? I guess plastic > Liberty

-Mylene fainting at all the mention of plastic is funny (and currently the only thing I find amusing about this episode)

-Of course he is in the ominous black building. Also all of this could have been solved with a google search

-Nino, I love your goofy plans but your disguises are as trash as the plastic you are trying to fight for some reason

-This episode feels like it was written by Mylene

-So at least the show is consistent on how dumb adults are written in this

-You know what, I know the plastic guy is gonna be the bad guy, but he actually took a meeting to hear out a bunch of kids. He even acknowledges their points but explains why he aint changing his business model. Say what you will but I gotta respect the straightforwardness.

-I cant really hate the guy right now, like he reminds me of the KFC guy if he had a fetish for plastic.

-No surprise that the mayor was of no help, surprised that Chloé didnt need to tell him with how they tried to make him seem good.

-Gabriel is dismissive, why was he redeemed again?

-So Nadia giving the first legit explanation on why she cant help. Glad they actually show one true to life response

-Oh look cameos

-Oh they hacked the broadcast, at least Nadia wont get in trouble... but I am pretty sure thats SUPER ILLEGAL

-Yep more preaching... plastic bad. at least it had some adrinette flirting in there

-Yea if this actually worked IRL, the environmentalist protestors wouldnt be a thing. But it is accurate in one way, Politicians and CEO's hate Bad publicity

-Gabriel and Andre lying through their teeth.

-Gabriel just wanted to akumatize him

-HE LOOKS LIKE A CHARACTER FROM CANDYLAND

-The bee is the power of action... i preferred subjugation

-He just stunned him THEN turned him into plastic. That just seems excessive

-I think that was the first time outside of Qilin that the cops actually TRIED to stop the akuma.

-But just like in real life the cops will never arrest a rich ceo.

-Gabriel really said "Sorry bitch, cant play today"

-Adrien your pronounciation is bad, but its still cute

-It sounds like they are saying 'No shit'. I am counting it. FINALLY LETTING ADRIEN CURSE

-Adrien you simp i love it

-Just leave Gorilla be, he is just cleaning the car. He is happy

-King of Plastic makes me laugh

-That was the lamest dance party to interrupt

-Yea this is pretty standard

-Oh he made the engine overload, smart

-Burying him in plastic because irony, classic

-And he learned that Plastic isnt always so fantastic

-If I had a nickle for every rich guy that was corrupt that this show redeemed...

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I watched this episode at 1.5x speed because if I didnt, this would have been a SLOG to get through

3/10

Its not the worst ML episode but I just HATE preachy episodes. If I wanted this kind of content, Id watch captain planet. Like yes it is important to recycle and reduce use of plastics... but this episode made me want to actually go downstairs and get a plastic water bottle for a drink just because of how annoyed I was.

The action in this wasnt bad and I actually found the King of Plastic funny until they redeemed him.

I think I rate it lower than it actually is because of personal preferences but it is just annoying

[sibylsleaves]

Sorry, I promise I didn’t mean to sound preachy, that wasn’t my intention! I just think it’s a beautiful ship no matter what happens

i appreciate that! i know that was not your intention and that's why i decided not to be annoyed. i am just in my feelings tonight. alexa play please please please let me get what i want

[jelly-fish-wishes]

Thank you so much for sharing you’re beautiful art with us and I know that you’ve blown up quite a bit recently, so I just wanted to let you know a few things. You do not need to apologise for your schedule, make art however suits you. You do not need to apologise for the amount you produce, anything you give is more than we have asked. Anything and everything you share with us is a free gift, one that should be treated with the respect of someone willing to share their free time and skill with us. Sorry if this came off as preachy or cringe, but I just wanted to make sure you have you’re boundaries and don’t get to caught up in the insatiable appetite of the internet.

You know, that's actually a really nice thing to say. And yes, since that first comic, I am a little intimidated that i now have a crowd to please once again (last time this happened was when I was making Hamilton animatics on YouTube and I have still yet to make the Satisfied animatic, which was promised years ago). I do wanna please because I dont wanna be that one person who doesn't "update a chapter for a fan fiction that says "last updated 12 years ago." My hyper fixation is fueling all of this and even though everyone tells me to take my time, I kinda don't wanna. I just wanna draw everyday. You should have seen my spiral notebooks when I was in high school. Throughout the four years, I drew a comic almost everyday during class and i ended up COMPLETELY filling 22 spiral notebooks full of my Irony comics (its a personal show I wanna make, but I don't have enough money to pay for helpers, so I animate, do backgrounds, make the music, and find the sound effects all by myself on my phone and laptop).

What I mean to say is

I'm not used to the attention. But its SO NICE that I don't wanna let it go just yet. Heck, I was REALLY HAPPY when a Mario and Luigi artist I look up to, talked to me during my Super Paper Mario live blogging. Of course I wanted to mention that to them but I didnt want to be weird. They're just another artist like me, dont be weird, dont be weird.

Idk man...I'm also just hoping that this boosts commissions because, I don't get any at all.

I'll just stick to making people happy with what I've got to share.

[whumpshaped]

are you religious? On account of all the recent bible posting. I'm not Christian myself but I have to hand it to them, the whole "eating Jesus's body and drinking his blood" is really cool

im actually not! well. idk. reading the bible and talking abt it rly makes me wanna be christian again.

tl;dr i am considering accepting jesus christ into my heart but i dont know if itll happen bc whenever i type or say anything slightly religious i cringe or make it into a joke. also sorry to any christian who finds my bible posting

i was raised catholic, went to church and bible study for 3 yrs, did my first communion, then dipped bc it was horrid. i was so so against being catholic u cannot imagine. i was against church, i was against begging some man in the sky for mercy, i was against their gay policy, i was against saying my pets had no soul- i was against absolutely everything except some bops in church

then i had my first big voluntary christian phase at 13-14 in which i drew more towards protestantism and attempted to read the bible cover to cover (i failed but theres a lot that i read.) i went to a lutheran hs for 2 yrs in seventh and eighth grade so that mightve influenced it tho i HATED monday morning worship at 7am and i cant believe its still happening even tho ppl routinely fainted and shit. bc u have to stand. the whole time

i also wanted to be a nun for a goooood while but turns out im just aroace and autistic (chastity and rigid rules sounds amazing to me huh)

so im 21 now and i started writing my angel demon story and i wanted to make heaven a cult like dystopia (and it turned into my own ranting at some points) and i wanted to give cassael actual bible-accurate problems. bible-accurate brainwashing lol it came to me because something i said abt them either on here or in rp made me remember that verse abt the yoke and stuff (my yoke is easy and my burden is light) and i was like wait i should read the bible and pick out the whumpiest worst most horrid most easy to misinterpret and turn horrible verses. so here i am.

but then i got rly rly into it. its remarkably easy to enjoy the story when im not reading the 1908 károli translation and spending all my spoons untangling the wording. and the thing is, i was always spiritual yknow. thats why i bounced so much between faiths and beliefs. ive followed the law of assumption stuff for a year or so now, i had genuine results from it- honestly everything i believed in has yielded good results for me always. whether it be christianity or paganism or loa. when i read the bible i DO feel loved even thru the incredible amount of horrid shit god does lol i felt loved at 13 and i feel loved now. so idk. im withholding judgement until i finish reading it but honestly nobody be surprised if i go back to my christian bs before the semester starts

oh thats another thing. im miserable lmao so not very hard for god to swoop in and be like hey do u wanna talk abt ur lord and saviour. me.

but im not rly gonna change in any way even if i do decide that tho, i think. my policy is already "be kind do good leave others alone". i dont think im gonna get preachy on here or anything. i mean has anyone seen much vegan posting from me? so i think im good

so . yea. sorry it turned into such a long post

[a-dragons-journal]

OOO hey!! I am the anon that used 'kins' to refwr to their kintypes and was scared of faking it and stuff, first of all thank you for answering my ask it made me very happy ^^ second sorry if I end up missusing terms or make you guys unsure if is safe to interact I am still pretty new on the kin community and recently learned about kff and stuff since you know so many people recently saying how kin is only relating to a character and I got tangled on that missinformation and misused for words for a while, When I say "kins" is me refering to my kintypes I am sorry if I sound confusing I SUCK at explaining myself I hope yall have a good day sorry for any missunderstanding!!!

You're all good. It's why I didn't say anything originally; you were already kind of anxious and I didn't want to make you more so for a minor detail. It's easy to do, especially if your first exposure to the word "kin" was via misinformation, and "kins" is not a big enough deal for me to make a big deal out of.

I should put together a grammar post sometime. Just have to figure out how to do it in a way that doesn't sound preachy, meaning probably with a "I am not telling you you absolutely have to use this grammar this is just historically the 'correct' way to do it and a lot of people don't even realize that" disclaimer.