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bluzebub19: I would be REALLY, REALLY, REALLY GRATEFUL if someone writes bi-han and reader angst where they have 2 kids. Bi-han being Bi-han, wants a worthy heir to be the grandmaster. Whiich turns into full dabi-endeavor style where the eldest got so obsessed of being grandmaster but their sibling gets picked instead. I've been having these thoughts for a year, I need it to be cured.
I'm not the person who said that, but I agree with her 👀
Hi bb sorry for the lateness I've been busy with a lot on my plate. I will do my best, although I modified some details just to write more comfortably and also to make a bit of an ✨allegory ✨
Ps: sorry if it is weirdly redacted I'm writing this very late. Lol
Warning: slight gore? Beheading.
Reflection.
Being married to a Grandmaster was definitely not an easy task when you took in consideration how much was expected from you. Someone wise and pleasant. It was a never ending task, really. You stayed up until late reading and re reading scrolls on the art of pedagogy, child bearing and philosophy. On top of that you felt the need to prepare yourself for heavier topics like politics, economy and warfare; After all you were raising a leader, not a follower.
Bi-Han and you had agreed that the best course of action was to raise someone with a strong sense of individuality and their own philosophy. Someone who would grow to surpass Bi-Han in every sense of the word.
Then the surprise came. Like two sides of a mirror, a set of twins. My, it was double the surprise, and double the respect earned from Bi-Han. Bringing into the world two healthy sons... It was more than he could ever ask...
Still...
He needed his eldest to succeed.
Which is why he seemed to over focus on the child's education, while being cautious of repeating his dad's behavior. Bi-Han tried to do his best to prepare his eldest: After all, it was the one chosen to bring glory to the Nation. To go farther than he ever will.
Your eldest child turned out to be a natural talent, which was pleasant for you, but not enough for Bi-Han; Who after a sparring session, had noticed the potential of the youngest. And wishing to dig further into this, he started investing the same time and efforts into both his children.
Your youngest was honored by this. Taking the weight of this newfound responsibility with humility, being sensible on his actions and studies. Still, he had ambitions.
The eldest exuded in pride that blinded him, overconfidence that often kept him from reality. He thought his logic was without fail, and that he could achieve just anything he put his mind into. After all, he was born first.
It was on a mission amongst the cold. A blizzard had caught up to them and their rations had gone minimal. The youngest ate a plate of lentils, as he had been wise enough to save some more of his food.
Yet, the eldest had eaten all of his ration some hours ago, not anticipating that they would run into some trouble.
"give me some" He demanded.
"I can't, this is my last ration" The youngest said, troubled. "If I give you this, I might not make it back"
Silence hung between them before the eldest insisted, this time with more authority. How dare he disobey the next Grandmaster. "Give me your plate".
"I can't. I already told you, is too valuable"
Some moments passed, the eldest pacing around, his stomach growling desperately, threatening to make him faint. He watched his younger brother, his eyes full of scorn and contempt. Then, a flicker of an idea. A lie. "If you give me the plate. I will give you my birthright"
At first, the youngest thought it was a joke, but seeing his brother's expression made him hesitate.
It was convenient. He had been studying, practicing and training for so long. While not an heir, he had to do double the work to be taken seriously and while his father had recognized his effort. There was no other way to compete with his brother and become Grandmaster. The youngest could see a dark period approaching the Lin Kuei if his brother's simple approach was their new philosophy.
But this chance...
He relented, giving him the plate.
The eldest didn't have any intention of actually giving him the rights. Why would he? It belonged to him, and he had the talent to do so. And most of all, he had the determination. Trained since birth, he had been perfected into a warrior you could only hear in legends. His brother? He did not have his vision.
Though, his younger brother was smarter than that. He knew his brother did not have any intention to fulfill his part of the deal. Which is why he came to you and explained the situation.
You stayed silent for a moment, listening to what your youngest had to say, and felt woe come to you. There was something bound to happen, you knew it from the start.
Kuai Liang and Bi-Han had their fights as well, which made you wonder if the story was bound to repeat itself.
Bi-Han, surprised at the arrangement, realized just how lightly the eldest had taken his position as an heir, something he couldn't afford to do. The position of Grandmaster was not something to be played with, less being valued the same as a simple plate of lentils. How could he expect his son to rule effectively if he didn't know the weight of his responsibility?
Needless to say, Bi-Han conceded and validated the agreement.
Their chores, their schedules, their clothing and ranking switched. And it was only then that your eldest realized what he had lost. To be regarded as a simple prince instead of a future leader, not even his plans were taken seriously. He stopped having a voice, and that... Frustrated him.
The youngest and Bi-Han discussed for hours in his office about war tactics and how to oppose the Shirai Ryu. Efforts that to your eldest's judgement, were slow and fruitless.
How was his younger brother supposed to govern when he wasn't capable of creating immediate solutions? He was unfit! The eldest bitterly observed from afar as he sensed the decadence of the clan
Fools
They lacked vision. They lacked ambition
Strategy was only keeping the warriors put. There was no campaigns, no explorations, no Konquest. And most important of all, there was no defeat of the Shirai Ryu... If the eldest had been in charge, things had been much different.
Which is why he decided he needed to prove himself to his father. To take back his rightful place as Heir of the Lin Kuei.
It was a dark night. Gelid. And the eldest's footsteps crunched under the snow, a prelude to what was to come. Red stains followed him, the trail of death and horror a medal in his uniform.
He knocked on the door of Bi-Han's bedchambers and waited. You answered.
Your mouth went agape at the sight.
Your eldest son, weary from battle, his clothes torn apart. His determined expression is one you would carry in your nightmares for years. And on his hand, the head of Harumi Shirai.
"w-what have you done?!" You stammer, but he simply moves past you.
At this point, Bi-Han had realized the presence of his son, and his eyes shifted to him. His stoic expression does not betray a hint of emotion.
Your eldest tossed the head into the floor, landing on Bi-Han's feet.
He remained serious, then gazed at his son. "what is the meaning of this?" Bi-Han demanded to know. And his eldest guffawed.
"the head of the master strategist in the Shirai Ryu. The strongest link of their clan" he said smugly, waiting for some sort of congratulations.
Bi-Han leaned down to inspect the head, then pinched his nose. "Do you realize the consequences of your actions?" He asked.
"I've destabilized our rival clan"
"you've set us back. We needed Harumi to be alive" Bi-Han furrowed his brows and barked. "She was necessary for our plan!"
"your plan was to take months, no, years!" He shrugged, then pointed at the head with his foot. "I've gifted the Lin Kuei with a chance to take over now that they're in shock!"
"you've recklessly aggravated our enemies!" Bi-Han shook his head. "Are you not aware of the fact that we are not ready to counteract at this time?!"
"The Lin Kuei are capable warriors. They can handle it"
"they can. But it will be wasting more lives than it is necessary. And it will eventually weaken us." Bi-Han paced around the room, his fists clenched before he ran a hand through his hair. "You don't know your place! It is not your call to make attacks. It is your duty to obey your brother, to obey me!"
"you are an ignorant old fool!" Your youngest faced Bi-Han, his chest inflating with pride. "your outdated strategies lack vision, and they have condemned us to pitiful idleness"
You paled. You knew that discourse very well, and you knew that Bi-Han knew it as well; And it was noticeable, since his jaw clenched and his expression deformed into something that seemed to be frustration, sadness, surprise and... Grief.
You had raised your son to be a free thinker, like Bi-Han. To surpass his father one day...
To surpass him.
Or to overthrow him.
The men rounded each other for a moment, your son's hand instinctively going to his blade.
"there's no future without modernization" your son explained. "Especially when we do not take action"
Bi-Han raised an eyebrow. "Have I not innovated on my politics and war fare ever since I've been given the position of Grandmaster?"
"it isn't enough" his son declared. making them tense. "Sometimes changes are necessary"
"from a leader that sells his birthright for a meal" Bi-Han furrowed his brows, lecturing his son. But your oldest didn't relent.
"I did what it had to be done to survive. But I plan to have my right back" He shifted into a fighting position. "Even if it means going through my brother. Even if it means going through you"
"do your oaths mean nothing?" Bi-Han spoke, almost in a deja Vu.
"not when it comes against Lin Kuei principles"
That is how the inner conflict in the Lin Kuei began. You were split between three men you adored. The party that supported your husband, the party that supported your eldest, and the party that supported your youngest.
It was going to be a long war. And you wept as you picked up the pieces of your destroyed family.
#mortal kombat#mk1 2023#mortal kombat 1#bi han#mk1#bi han mortal kombat#sub zero#mk1 sub zero#mk asks#left tit answers#bi han hc
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"Doll, are you sure your parents are going to like me? I mean, it's my first time meeting them, and if we don't get on, I don't want to be imposing myself for the entire weekend."
"Of course they will! They've heard so much about you, and they've been wanting to meet you for ages now, don't worry. They're so excited to finally meet you, especially my dad."
"What, so he can shoot me? I don't know, Mira, I just want to make a good impression, it's important to me and I don't want to mess it up with them."
"Don't be silly, my dad's not like that, honey. If he didn't like you, he would have told me, believe me. They'll like you, I promise."
"Hey sweetheart, welcome home! How are you two doing?"
"Hi Mom! Hi Daddy! We're doing good, Farris is so excited to meet you!"
"That's great to hear! You kids come inside, and we can be properly introduced."
"How's school, sweetie? Is everything going ok, nothing too hard?"
"It's great, Daddy, I can't believe I'm about to graduate! Farris is graduating at the same time, and then he'll be a fully qualified solicitor. You should ask him about it, I'm so proud of him, it's hard work."
"Daddy, I'd like you to meet Farris. Farris, this is my dad. Farris is from Willow Creek, and he's studying law, like I said on the phone. We met at the Christian Society that he runs, and I've met his family and they're lovely people. His dad is Maximus Montague, one of the politicians who passed that tax reform, the one that reduced your taxes."
"Pleased to meet you, sir. I've got to say, your house and Oasis Springs is absolutely beautiful. Mira is such a sweet girl and I'm excited to get to know you and your wife, from what Mira's said you both sound wonderful. And I'm glad you like my father's work, he's an inspiration to me, especially now I'm graduating."
"It's great to have you here, Farris. I'm happy to know that some of your generation still has ambition and wants to keep up the family legacy, you know? My son, Carter, wants to go into the military and I'm glad he has a goal, but some kids these days just want everything handed to them on a platter, being communists and on food-"
"Hi honey! I'm Mallory, Mira's mom. It's so great to finally meet you, we've heard a ton about you! Tell you what, why don't you and Markus go to the living room, I think there's a football game on the TV. Me and Mira can fix some snacks and then we'll come join you."
"Oh, thank you ma'am, that sounds great. You're very, uhm, welcoming."
"Does Farris like chocolate chip cookies? Me and Charlotte made some yesterday, I can put them out on the coffee table."
[whispering] "He does, Mom, but don't you think you might have come off a little intense, hugging him like that? I mean, don't worry about it but I don't think he was expecting it."
[whispering] "I'm sorry, honey, I'm just so excited for you. You're growing up, graduating, and you have a proper relationship now. And he seems great, him and his family, I don't want to make a bad impression, you know? But I'll tone it down if you think that'd be better, sweetie."
"So, Farris, tell me about this solicitor thing. What type of law are you going into? I'm a Captain in the Army myself, so I can't say I know much about all this academic stuff."
"Corporate law, sir. It's a good career but not the most interesting to talk about, mostly just writing contracts and the like. But you're a Captain? That's a very honorable career, sir, and I bet the day-to-day is much more interesting than law. And you said your son wants to go into the military? That's fantastic that he wants to continue your legacy."
"It is, I'm very proud of all my children. Dolly's doing fantastic at school, and she's got all her new, respectable friends from that Christian Society of yours, and I have to say you've made a good impression of yourself, too. Birdie, her sister, has just gone off to Britechester too, I doubt you know her but she wants to be one of those teachers that helps delayed children, in wheelchairs and stuff. I had my concerns about my girls going to college, but my wife convinced me otherwise and they seem to have been doing great. It's not like they're doing anything inappropriate for women either, a nutritionist and a teacher. Then my boy, Carter, wants to join me in the military, like you said, and he's doing excellent with his sport at school, too. He's on the football team, very impressive for a freshman. And my little one, Charlotte, isn't the most academic, like myself. But she's a pretty girl and she's doing excellent in her pageants. She's just the sweetest little girl too, you'll probably meet her today."
#fundie sims#quiverfull sims#fundie snark#fundie simblr#modest sims#satire#homeschool sims#markusmallory#dolly+farris
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Re: the tags of that post you just reblogged from me - AU where Steve and Eddie swap roles for just the final fight (Eddie’s with the girls, Steve’s with Dustin) but with an added subplot where we meet Steve’s parents early in the season & maybe they’re trying to get him to grow up/move out/think about his future, or something else, but they’d have to feature somehow so we still get that ending scene except it’s Robin telling his parents he didn’t make it (im picturing a very tragic recontextualising around the phrase “you need to do something with your life” leading to Steve drawing the bats away from Dustin)
That’s just my quick thoughts though, I’d love to know how you’d do it!
oh I LOVE this you've got my brain spinning I have so many thoughts and it's all your fault!!!
(I am so sorry for how long this got)
I think there are for sure many versions of this plotline that could work BUT here goes nothing
I definitely agree that we'd need to introduce Steve's parents early on (in my ideal world we'd have met them sooner than s4 for this plotline but alas I'm not in charge I'm simply posthumously script doctoring) and I think one version of the conversation there could come from a place of wanting what's best for him, but centering itself around ambition and choice in a way that sticks with Steve.
"You had so much ambition when you were still in school, Steve-- all of your sports, how sociable you were-- what happened to that? Where did you lose that along the way?"
And Steve flounders a little bit, because he's gotten to the point after season 3 where he can see himself better from the outside, is just that touch more self aware and good at reading not just other people's feelings but his own.
So it takes him a beat to put it into words, but he's able to, is the thing--
"Maybe I don't need to go down the-- the usual path to end up where I want to end up."
"Is this where you want to end up?" his mother asks, "working at a video store for the rest of your life?"
"It's not about that," Steve shrugs, pouring two travel mugs of coffee all the while, one for him and one for Robin.
Because he knows it's not about that, he spent all of last summer learning it's not about that and the months since discovering that there's a certain amount of peace in knowing that things aren't perfect but that matters less when you have your people around.
"What's it about then? Steve, I just-- I don't want you to get stuck here, when I know you could do so much more with your life if you just chose to."
"I'm not doing nothing with my life, Mom!" he laughs, exasperated but certain for once in his goddamn life. "I'm-- I'm actually doing really well right now, I've got good friends and I've got the kind of job where I'm kept busy while I figure out what's next for me and I'm just... happy, I guess? Like, can't my ambition just be to keep doing stuff that makes me happy? Can't I choose that?"
And he has to go to work, has to walk out and promise her that they'll talk about it more later, talk about it with his dad too, but Steve knows what he cares about and this isn't going to shake his resolve.
What he cares about is this group of people who have changed his life even more than the monsters did, who brought enough good into it to at the very least match the bad, and in some cases (like the girl already monologuing as she climbs into the front seat of his car and accepts her coffee with a mocking kiss to his cheek) somehow usurp the bad.
Steve doesn't have to be what this town expects of him, what most likely to end up rich superlative voters expect of him, what his parents expect of him, because his life isn't about being any particular something, it's in the doing.
It's in the swinging of a baseball bat, the swinging of his fists to keep the people he loves safe.
It's in the morning drives to get Robin to school on time and the late night ones to make sure Dustin meets curfew.
It's in the friendship he's managed to find with Nancy in the past year, the knowledge that this version of them is the best one by far.
It's in the days driving the kids to the trailer park to visit Max even if she ultimately ends up refusing to come out with them, because at least they're doing it, at least they're trying with her.
It's in this, too, when they drive out to Reefer Rick's place and some of the claims of happiness start slipping through Steve's fingers again with the proof that it isn't over, the fight.
But they've beat it before and they can beat it again. It's in the doing, and Steve has gotten knocked down many a time but the thing he always does is he always gets up on the other side.
He knows this. He trusts in this. He's built a fucking worldview around this because that's where his ambition went, Mom.
That's what happened to "Steve Harrington, actually a cool dude."
Steve's humble enough to thank Eddie for saving his ass, but he's done this enough times to still be able to reassure the guy who calls him badass that, "It always looks hopeless right before we win. Don't freak out too bad if it looks like the end of the world, huh?"
Eddie looks at him like he has two heads, says he's jealous of Steve's optimism.
Even Robin tells him that she thinks they might not win this time but all Steve knows is that they always have before. All Steve knows is that his instincts usually work out, let him protect the rest of them long enough to make the big and vital moves necessary to beat this thing.
All Steve knows is that he just, he's changed a lot but-- He's just the same kid who was cocky enough to run back into the Byers' house to fight a monster, stubborn enough to let the Russian's beat the hell out of him before he'd let them do the same to Robin and he--
"I don't know, I still have hope. Maybe this is the first time we actually win. Forever."
There's this sense of finality to it, hanging in the air, and she doesn't look convinced there in the same way she doesn't look convinced when he and Dustin are saying goodbye to the other three at Eddie's trailer, but Steve kisses her once on the forehead and says, "what are you waiting around for? Go kick some ass, your schmuck will be here when you're done."
His instincts have always protected them in the past.
It's his instincts that have him formulating a plan the second he realizes the bats are going to get inside the trailer, going to make a break for the gate and attack whole swaths of people unprepared for such a thing.
Dustin will be mad about being abandoned on the other side, but Steve's pissed him off before and he's always gotten over it.
It's in the doing, his ambition.
It's in the doing, the key to a well-spent life.
It's in the doing, the being of Steve Harrington, overconfident nature and all.
He always gets back up, every knock to the head and blow to the ego, Steve always gets back up, so he holds his ground and fights. Leads the bats away and keeps them there.
His mother wasn't wrong that he's changed, but she wasn't right when she claimed the thing he'd lost was his ambition. He'd found it, this force of nature in his chest that makes him willing to face down hell if it means the people he loves are safe.
He always gets back up, a tail around his throat.
He always gets back up, teeth in his flesh.
Steve Harrington is a pro at getting knocked down.
"I'll get up in a second, just-- just a second--"
"Steve there's-- there's so much blood-- Steve, you need to-- you have to get up now--"
"It's okay, it's okay, we won, just-- just another minute. Wanna see that-- Rob and the others made it back. Then we--can go--"
Dustin is crying. Dustin is holding him.
And Steve is bleeding out, he thinks somewhere indistinct and hazy at the back of his mind. He'll get up and fix that in a minute.
"You die, I die! Hey, hey motherfucker! Don't close your eyes-- you die, I die, you hear me?!"
It's in the doing, really, that Steve does as he's told just long enough to see the other three come stumbling out of the tree line towards them.
It's in the doing, in the choice of it, that he dies knowing they won.
(His mother wails when Robin approaches her at the shelter two days later with sunken eyes and unwashed hair. His father sinks into the closest chair and takes the offered keys to a maroon BMW with trembling hands.)
(It's in the doing that this time, in order to really win, they have to cling a little bit to his hope.)
#I just think! steve GOT his arc about realizing life is about more than romance and reputation in season 3#and letting him take those lessons and lean into them so heavily that it ends up getting him killed???#that he gets just a little too cocky with his new comfort in his own skin??#yeah#dot post#ask#ask me about my dead steve agenda#cw: MCD#there are parts of Old Steve that haven't gone anywhere and one of those is being vulnerable to becoming a tragedy (:
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I feel so bad for dying over an 84
like it's not a horrible grade
it's a B by korean grading standards
which
uhhh
it could be worse
and its not like my science grades matter for the school I want to get into
and its my first ever school exam ever
nevermind it being in korean which I have horrible reading compherehension in (found this fact out far too late, realized it took me like 4 times the speed to read a korean book then others and I sucked and readings things correctly because I get the words fucked up AND ALSO I LACK SO MUCH VOCAB CAUSE I NEVER READ KOREAN BOOKS BECAUSE I WAS TOO SLOW AND NOW I READ TEST QUESTIONS WRONG)
I am not illiterate but man sometimes I think maybe I am cause how can I not realize what that was saying
I read a word called 분비관 which basically means "secretion tube" or something and it was a question on how hormones travel
and this stupid bitch assumed it was a synonym for blood vessels because I can't recall korean words very well so I just assumed blood vessels were called that in this context and I just missed it
IT WASENT THAT
I got 4 out of 26 questions wrong
it isn't even that bad
and its not like I studied that hard
I put the least amount of time into science
but that dosent mean I didn't try
I put in as much effort I thought was necessary to get 100%
but I forgot that part of test taking (or I guess I never knew because I never did tests before) is not just your knowledge of the subject but also your ability to understand questions and know what they're asking for
I cant read properly so I'm fucked
but still it's such a privileged asshole thing to say "I only got 84" and screaming and laughing in dispair when others are proud of their 78
it feels bad
I'm sorry
I have korean tomorrow and I have to get 100 or 90+ for it
I might very much die
and for math I'm just hoping I get 80+
I haven't done korean level math in 3 years I don't have a chance at getting 100 at all
myp math is so easy comparatively never go from one to the other you will lose all your math skills
I was litterally in this top percentile class in 6th grade and it was a 2 year study ahead class and I consistently was like 3rd~4th place out of the 11 people in that class
so like I don't think im too dumb for math
I just haven't done it in so long I lost all my foundations
nevermind having missed 2 years of concepts
which is a shame cause math does kinda matter for the school I want to go to
not to get in but to divide the rankings once you get in
I mean I guess that's the problem
you gotta get in first
I got 100 percent on my English so I just need to pass my finals 100 too and I'll be done
all i gotta do now is get really good korean and social studies grades
we don't a have a social studies test for the midterms
so this test now is just all korean
I really want to do well
I want to do exceptionally and wow everyone
but my dad told me sadly I'm no genius
and that with my lack of ambition and inherent careless nature (not as in lack of carefulness but the lack of value to the thing at hand) makes me not be able to do either my best or my most, so at the end of the day I probably won't wow anyone
not unless I drop their expectations of me to the floor
but most teachers can apprently smell clever so he told me not to do that
but from my experience if you just be super consistent with your lie no one bats an eye
there was this one korean class I purposefully acted like an idiot who didn't know anything in
and one time I wrote something that was my usual quality and the teacher thought I plagiarized it and I nearly died
people really don't know anything about you if you don't give them stuff to know about
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#i love my dad but he never let me make any decisions when i was growing up#even once i was 18 he was influencing my decisions because he told me he wouldn't support me financially if i went through with it#and every decision i did make on my own he talked down before and afterwards#and now i'm done with uni in february and he wants to know where i'll do my master degree etc#and i really have no idea#because my only goal is to put some distance between my family and me#but i can't tell him that because he'd say that it's really stupid to make my decision based on the location of the uni#rather than the programm#and i know that's true but i'm studying fucking business#i can find a programm i like just fine pretty much all over germany#so i'm just going to apply everywhere that's 100+ kilometres away and see where'll i get in#but according to my dad going to uni where i'll be accepted in is not an option#because i need ambition and need to decide on a few unis#sorry dad but you can't expect me to have ambitions and the will to make decisions#*ambition not ambitions#when you taught me the opposite all my life by making my decisions for me#like i'm only studying business in the first place because you said you'd cut me of if i didn't start uni right away#and since i didn't actually wanted to start uni right away because i didn't know what i wanted to do#i just started studying the thing that you study when you have no clue what do with your life#fucking business#also sorry for rambling on here because this is a fandom blog after all#but most of my friends wouldn't get that#personal#magda talks
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Ten Characters I Fell in Love With in 2021
Thank you for tagging @sashkitty!! ^^
2021... oh. A long and hard year but fortunately it was good for high-quality dramas.
1. Kim Ga-On (The Devil Judge)
I love him with all my heart. Like, he’s that one person for me who is a living definition of “it’s gonna be fine.” He’s a complex character and honestly — I do enjoy discovering new things about him and about himself, not the Kim Ga-On who is living to satisfy Professor’s and Soo-Hyun’s expectations but the real Kim Ga-On underneath that shell.
2. Kang Yo-Han (The Devil Judge)
That one person who made me rethink the whole thing named “justice” and the one who made me believe that everybody can be loved sincerely and wholeheartedly; the character who deserves an essay of one hundred if not more pages about his personality and his way of thinking with the ability to find an exit even from situations that seem to have no positive option.
3. Oh Jin-Joo (The Devil Judge)
The. Queen. She has my heart and my soul, she’s not afraid to say out loud her opinion and stand on her beliefs. She’s ready to fix her mistakes and she hears others; she may be just for a picture at the beginning but at the end, she’s a judge on the bench just like Yo-Han, who takes an important place in the trials as well.
4. Seo Jung-In (Times)
Oh well. It was a drama I don’t remember properly since we had to make a lot of breaks while watching it, but what I do definitely remember is her character. A reporter who gets a chance to save her dad with a phone that connects to the past? Yes, it’s her. She’s smart and she’s hardworking, she thinks at the moment and knows how to handle critical situations right. She’s going for what she wants and gets it.
5. Yoon Sae-Bom (Happiness)
The one who knows how to protect herself in both physical way and using her words? The one who isn't shy to not ask but declare her deserved honors? The one who may seem tough and emotionless but is actually kind to who are around her. I do have huge respect for her and the way she acts in critical situations where everybody around her is in panic but not her. She protects those who are dear to her and it’s beautiful.
6. Yoon Ji-Woo/Oh Hye-Jin (My Name)
Oh... Han So-Hee made this character shine for me. The way how she feels real when she plays the role and how she shows an abandoned by the whole world little wolf but slowly but surely grows into someone who goes for her revenge and doesn't stop; she’s the one who shuts men’s mouths who think that just because she’s a girl, she can't fight nor do her duties properly but then she fights and gets even more than them, and they’re surprised and stunned and shocked.
7. Choi Mu-Jin (My Name)
He is... there are pretty many reasons why I love him but the biggest one is he’s a human. For the first time ever in my life, I felt sorry for a bad guy who doesn't do good things. He’s the polar opposite of “good” but... somehow you feel empathetic to him. You worry about him, you cherish him, and (SPOILER!!) even though he’s the villain of the story, you still can't bring yourself to hate him. Because you understand him and his motives. Because you emphasize with him. Because you see a human being with his own pain and in his own hell.
8. Jung Seo-Hyung (Mine)
Just... her. I mean- she has ambitions and she knows her goals in her life; she has every step planned and even in the crazy family (with whom you don't need any enemies) she manages to have everything under her control. She is... I could write an essay about why she is ✨The Queen✨ of the world we’re just living in but it’d be too long haha.
9. Seo Hi-Soo (Mine)
Another strong and independent woman that stays strong even when everything precious to her turns out to be a lie. I love her so much for her inner strength and the way she handles things: with self-consciousness and thinking at first, and only then making a move. The scene at the nursery with her dress on the hanger? Or the ending of one of the last episodes with her smiling and the detective just leaving? No words, just: oh. my. God.
10. Yoo Jae-Yi (Beyond Evil)
She’s a supportive character but it doesn't stop me from having a special place for her in my heart. How much this girl suffered and had in her life at such a young age and still stayed strong even when everyone was doing nothing but talking about her behind her back; how she threw eggs on Ju-Won’s car because of him being suspicious of her and going overboard. I love her, I love her and she takes my breath every time I see her.
Honorable mentions
• Lawyer Ko (The Devil Judge)
• Kang Elijah (The Devil Judge)
• Kang Ja-Kyung (Mine)
• Han Ju-Won (Beyond Evil)
• Lee Dong-Shik (Beyond Evil)
• Jung Soo-Hyun (Move to Heaven)
• Park Ian (Move to Heaven)
• Cho Sang-Gu (Move to Heaven)
• Han Geu-Ru (Move to Heaven)
• Jung Yi-Hyun (Happiness)
• Ahn Gi-Seok (Vincenzo)
• Han Seo-Jun (the last episodes of True Beauty)
• Lee Jin-Woo (Times)
Tagging: @xxcaribbean @b612sunsets @icedespressoo @technitango @highflyerwings (sorry if you’ve already been tagged ^^)
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Time for Luffy's fashion exam! Now, I'll be honest, I did skip an outfit because I decided I will be ending this whole thing with the Strawhat fashion show in Episode of Luffy. Also, sorry for the posting gap, I remembered I have other unfinished post sets. That being said, this is a very long one so let's do this!
Kid Luffy, Post-Enies Lobby & Fish-Man Island: I think it's super cute when Luffy has white t shirts with red based logos because it reminds me of the first picture. Makes him look baby plus, they can always be found in cute domestic EPs or fun, cute flashbacks. The shorts change over time and that's also kinda cute, a range of cuffs is a nice change up. It's nice to see the red contrast the blue shorts and the white is a nice color on him cos it contrast his hair!
Romance Dawn, Enies Lobby, Thriller Bark, Sabaody Archipelago, Amazon Lily, Marineford & last Dressrosa outfit: This look is the pre Luffy look. It's the pre Timeskip look everyone thinks of is cuffed shorts, Kimono sandels and sleeveless vest (and Strawhat, obviously) but have you ever seen them all in a line? It's mad. Each outfit is the same basic look bit more are more spicy each time! I like the Thriller Bark and Sabaody Archipelago looks a little bit more cos it's nice to see that jacket open and it feels like he was trying something new. I also feel that the buttons on the jacket look like the ones on Shanks' pegged ankle sailor pants when we first see him so that's cool. (it took me hours to find the name for his trousers, oh my fucking god) The last Dressrosa outfit feels like a nice callback to the rest of the line up here without being too much cos it's just a red vest top instead and I do find it funny it's like the Enies Lobby and it's used in Dressrosa because of the jokes people make about Robin and Law being so similar.
Timeskip: This is it lads, it's the one true icon itself, the post look! ☺️ When I sit back and look at it I see all the people this look is influenced by and want to cry at how masterful it really is. (Now, I do wanna say that I didn't come up with this nor am I the first to say it and I am definitely probably looking too much into this but) The yellow belt is taken from Shanks' red belt the first time we see him and the Shanks look Luffy is more familiar with. Now onto the jacket. I know it won't stand out as to why for most but it's Ace inspired! When Ace leave to become a pirate, the start of his adventure, he has his jacket open and Luffy having his jacket open also shows his scar from the ending of Ace's adventure. I also really appreciate how no one hides scars in this anime. Also, someone said that the style of the jacket and it's fancy frills could be in reference to Sabo's little jabot collar and honestly I do see it. it's quite subtle unlike Shanks' but not as hard to catch as Ace's so I enjoy thinking that it's there too. Lastly, he still has his cuffed shorts and kimono sandels because it's still Luffy's outfit at the end of the day and he is still who is is, just with a stronger appreciation of what people have done for him now. It's also his colour pallette for the pure fact he is the main character n needs his pallet. also sometimes he just has normal wooden sandels but the same outfit sometimes, it's a small detil a lot of people overlook but I prefer the sound of his Kimono sandels 😊
Dressrosa: I love this outfit cos it's stilly but also has very nice vibes. Looks ready for the beach but is really throwing hands and that's the best kind of outfit, it's a nice expectation subversion tbh. I also like how he tried to hide the Straw hat but not... All of it? And I love how the crew didn't actually question it either. It would have been super easy for one of them to just tell him to leave it behind or something but I do really love how respectful they always are of the hat. I myself have a hat that's super important to me and when I loose it I go mad.
Whole Cake Island: I love this arc for outfits! I swear if the actual content of it doesn't kill me, the act looks will 😭 it's all so magical and it knows it is! Like I said before, white is a good color on him as he has black hair but for the same reason, so is black! In this arcs outfit range, the Staw hat seems almost invisible and his outfit gets less and less 'Luffy' as the arc gose on showing this is not about him. He's not the focus of this arc and you can see that in a lot of the outfits thb. I also like the lack of blue and yellow, 2/3 of his colors as Sanji is often associated with those too as we've talked about before. Also, I like the little red strips on the white jacket with the gold buttons, idk why and I think it's nice that the last 2 outfits are so simple in general, it's a nice look for him. oh, what's that? A Pink jabot? Your killing me Lu, straight up killing me here lil' bro! Side note, is this the first time in canon Luffy has worn a suit jacket or is it the only time I've noticed? Cos DAMM!! Shits sick as fuck and I actually love that when wearing a suit jacket as such he always keep short on 😆
Spa Island, Z's Ambition & Strong World: WHOS READY FOR A RELAXING SUNNY DAAAYY!? (pun not intended but very much enjoyed) I actually adore the fact Luffy still tries to go swimming cos it was his favourite thing to do as a kid so like fuck Luffy is gonna give up on that. He's got his safety measures ready, what more do you want from him? I mean I personally want him not to swim with his hat on cos it's litrally Staw and that's not good for water but anyway Z's Ambition, am I right!? The top is so fucking cute and I just noticed those shorts are also ✨designer✨ fancy man!! Now, the pic of Zoro is the one I missed out before and it's also from Z's Ambition. I love that Luffy has the shark top but Zoro has the ocean shorts. I really love Zoro in this purple cos and thick white stripes really work with the ocean waves. It's really well put together and hes got dark brown sandels on to off set all the white but keep the purple from being a stand out color, it's cool! Than the last Luffy looks like he's at a fashion show. It looks like the shorts come from a kids set the shark top belongs to. Imagine those together, it'd be so cute. However, it isn't an ocean patten, those are clouds cos Nami has a bikini top with the same pattern in Skypiea and it's actually one of my favourites for her.
Boss Luffy Historical Special! This filler AU is so much fun, I think any it a lot. He has his hair up in that super cute and useless way that doesn't actually do much but I do have my hair like that a lot n it's just... nice? Idk, it's strange buy I like he did that. I really enjoy his Kimono more that the actual Wano one cos it's a lot more simple look. The Sai being tucked in in that way is also cool but kinda makes it look like it's stabbing him a bit 👁️👄👁️. I like the pin strips being like a faded purpleish cos if you just glance at it, it makes it look it fuzzy. The belt also looks very nice with the middle ligter bit. It really feels like the Wano one was inspired by this is a way cos of the color matches. Like, it's probably not but still.
3D2Y, Adventure of Nebulandia 😍 & Heart of Gold: Hat-less Luffy is both a sin and a blessing. Regardless, I LOVE OP BOYS IN HOODIES!! I had to show you this specific the 3D2Y because we don't see the hood and it's soooo cute cos it a paw 😍 but also ��� cos it's like... Kuma's paw the thing that cause 3D2Y in the first place. But that's also why it's so cool at the same time and AHHHHHH 😄 Now! On to Nebulandia! I really like this movie but also in canon, how does he have that jumper? Who made it for him and can I have one? It's Usopp flag design so I guess it could be him but he doesn't seem the type. Point is I want one. Last of this set is some really cosy outfits!! "How much fur?" "Yes" am I right? Like the first one is sooooo cosy with all the fur! Plus, a funky new bamboo hat, always a good thing to have a new hat. I appreciate that you can see the zips on these too. Then the orange turtle neck one with little fluffy bits is just here cos it's so out of his usual looks, I had to at least mention it.
Strong world & Film Z: The shorts on the first one are really cute cos it's a light rosey pink with red fur and just a plain solid dark blue colour jacket works really well. Not to mention the fact he has a super cute orange and yellow flight helmet hat with goggles on under the Staw hat. The 2 bag straps also make an X which is a nice detail. The 2nd outfits in this movie are super fuckin cool ngl. It's so strange to see them all dress in black and have guns but I like the red shirt for him with the yellow highlighted parts. Makes the Straw hat actually work with the outfit instead of ignoring it. Film Z brings us the same flight helmet hat just brighter and without the goggles but also opens with this T-Shirt and Luffy being silly with it. I think that's the only reason to mention it, it's funny. Then the obligation pirate outfit, always stunning plus the meat belt.
Film: Gold & Stampede (also used in Cidre Guild): these are my top 3 Luffy outfits no matter what else I see. I love the straw cowboy hat sooooo much cos it's very Luffy. I like the balls they has as a team to choose white for all of them, considering they are all quite messy people, living for that dad shirt and I like the Golden chain around his neck but am always confused as to why it was never used against him. Like dude could and should have tried to choke him at least once, right? Anyway, the dress! Now, the dress isn't actually that good but it's my favourite because it shows how Luffy has no fucks about gendered things. On to of that, a big pink flower is wonderful and look at his confidences in it, he's so proud of it the boom, Nami told him he can't wear it! Lastly, the Stampede outfit!!! Just like the Nebulandia jumper, I have no idea who made it but it's irrelevant cos it's beautiful and I want it so badly. I like that it's white and red stripes, gives thenprefect vibes for Stampedes opening. The shirt is actually too big for him, you can see on his arms but it's actually super cute. I love the simple look of these shorts then the fact his yellow belt is replaced with white bandages and the black on the kimono sandels are now red? It's such a simple pallet and it's truly the best!
I also just wanna add, I think it's really cute when Luffy has the Straw hat on his back just cos his hair is really cute. Idk why, it's looks kinda cursed but cute at the same time
This post took 2 weeks or so to make and we made listening to the complete BNHA soundtrack, film gold OST and Sonic generations vol.1
Sanji
Zoro
Nami
#one piece#monkey d luffy#monky d luffy#straw hat luffy#monkey d. luffy#luffy#one piece luffy#op art ref#art ref#art reference
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Abortion in 1987
My junior year in high school I met a young man from a rival school during a New Year's Eve lock-in at a roller-skating rink. This is about what happened about 8 months later, just before my senior year.
Since I had a steady boyfriend, I started on "The Pill". My mother knew I was having sex with him and supported my decision to use birth control. At the time I was not living with her, so I went to Planned Parenthood. Although I could not have afforded them full price, PP allowed me to purchase them on a sliding scale. It worked well for months; however, as time passed I started to get a little sloppy about taking my pill on time every day. Some nights I'd forget altogether, and the next morning I'd swallow the previous night's pill with a prayer that this one time wouldn't be the one that got me pregnant. One month at the end of the summer, my period didn't show.
I was anxious about getting pregnant, so I got a home pregnancy test as soon as I was a week late. The next morning, I peed on the stick. One line was negative, two lines... yes, the two lines right there on the stick... that meant positive. I was pregnant. I told my boyfriend, the one I was "in love" with. He meant the world to me, and would be my rock. Since my menses were normally very regular, I was pretty sure there was no mistake, but before being able to do anything, I would need a doctor's confirmation anyway. Back to Planned Parenthood I went, where they were able to verify the results, again at a price even a high school student in the 'burbs could afford.
The fact that this doctor's visit, and the potentially life-changing nature of it, seemed so routine that, years after, I've nearly forgotten it, is a testament to the professionalism of the care I received at that clinic. Everything was calm that day. The anxiety of deliberation all came afterward.
I told my parents. Being a pregnant teenager is scary, but I had two parents who loved me, and a mother who told me she'd support whatever decision I made.
She very much wanted me to be able to follow my own heart and mind about this, and I admire and appreciate that. I knew the history of abortion in the USA, had seen Dirty Dancing, I knew other times and other families had provided neither the freedom nor support that mine did. I was, and am, grateful for that.
But to no fault of theirs, I was not able to freely choose what to do with my body - whether to use it to continue growing this other human, or have the procedure that would end my pregnancy. My choice was smashed to pieces by my "rock".
For, while I was weighing the options - whether my family, my education and means, had room for an infant at this time... whether I was strong enough to carry a baby to term only to give it up to an adoptive family to care for it beyond my ability... whether to terminate the pregnancy and carry on with life's plans (such as they were) as if I'd never been pregnant... my boyfriend was thinking about his future career in the military.
His only ambition his entire life was to be part of an elite military unit such as the US Special Forces (the Green Berets) or what he saw as their modern equivalent, the Airborne Infantry. He was already a career Boy Scout, and an Eagle Scout, something he took great pride in. He'd talked to recruiters and was ready to enlist as soon as he graduated. And he saw my pregnancy as a threat to that.
At least, that's what he told me. I really can't understand his reasoning now... and I'm not sure I even seriously questioned it then. When I told him that I was considering adoption instead of abortion, he refused to even consider it. He couldn't stand the thought of "his" child being "somewhere out there" ...raised by someone else. He told me that if I did not have an abortion, I would never see him again.
There's a lot of hurt behind that statement... hurt that actually has nothing to do with him. Because while he had plans for a career after high school, I did not. I had vague ideas about what I wanted to do... I wanted to be artistic. I wanted to paint and write... but beyond that... I had no idea. I certainly didn't have plans for university... I didn't have the money to pay for it myself and I didn't have the grades or extra-curricular activities to get me a scholarship.
I knew I wasn't cut out for the military. I lacked the discipline and the physical fitness for that kind of life, whatever the film STRIPES made it out to be. So that left ...what? Becoming someone's domestic help? Being a grocery checkout clerk? Becoming a ...housewife? And with graduation looming ahead, I knew my days as a carefree teen were numbered. My mother had said so, jokingly, a few years before. I took it way too literally and way too personally. Mom had quipped about my dad's brother living in his parents' house in his 30's... "When you turn 18, you're on your own, kiddo." She didn't mean it. Hell, she wasn't even really talking about me at all! It was about her ex-brother-in-law, but I didn't realize that at 14 and I didn't realize it at 17. And so it went until that day... My self-esteem defining me through my romantic partnerships, never as the hero of my own story. So when he said my pregnancy threatened his future, and said he'd walk if I didn't terminate, I saw my future, the only future I could envision, endangered. I saw this pregnancy as a threat to the marriage I expected and all the children he and I might have in the future.
When I told my mom about my decision to terminate, I didn't tell her why. She took it calmly, but told me years later that she had been hoping I would choose differently. She offered to be there for me, she paid for part of it, and my boyfriend paid the rest. She drove me there and took me home after.
The Planned Parenthood in Beaverton did not perform abortions, and they referred me to a clinic in Northwest Portland, close to downtown. I had to make one appointment for "counseling" in which I had to lie and say that nobody was forcing me to get an abortion, and then I could set the appointment for the procedure.
I suppose that, in my mind, it wasn't really a lie. If I had been a stronger personality at the time, I could have refused to abort the pregnancy and sued him for child support... I never think about this event without a list of "what-ifs" as long as my arm.
I remember it as quiet, clean, with a neutral palette. I don't remember any of the other young women. It was the most normal thing really... just a trip to the doctor... just an "outpatient procedure". The table, the stirrups, the speculum... just like any gynecological visit I'd ever been to. I didn't pay much attention to the aspirator (the machine that provides the suction) and just focused on breathing slowly and staying relaxed. I was given local anesthetic and it was over very quickly.
I remember waiting in the recovery room for my mom to take me home, and I was relieved that it was over with. I was sorry that I had felt the need to do it, and I remember even apologizing to the fetus. I had already started believing in reincarnation as a teenager, and hoped that in the future, the same spirit might grow within another body that mine would build, when I was ready to have children. This was just not that time.
What followed the next week was pretty much what I usually went through during my period. Cramps, bleeding, and then... life went on.
I do want to write about that arms-length list of "what-ifs"... but this post, this blog, is not about what could have happened. It's about what did happen. And what did happen was not nearly as traumatic as some would have you expect.
It didn't result in any more depression than I was already experiencing due to undiagnosed chronic conditions. It's far more truthful to say that my depression led to needing an abortion than that my abortion caused depression.
I was not wracked with guilt afterward... although years later when I went through a Christian conversion experience I did feel a sort of guilt about not feeling guilty...
One out of four women in the USA have an abortion at some point in their lives. The reasons they list for having one are usually complex, involving multiple facets of their life; most often some intersection of emotional and financial stability. My story is not rare. It's common. It's normal.
It's okay.
For more information about the effect of unwanted pregnancy and abortion on the women who experience it, I recommend reading The Turnaway Study.
#abortion#reproductive rights#teen pregnancy#sexuality#reproductive health#gender equality#reproductive freedom#right to life#pro life#pro choice
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Rose-colored Glass
Chapter 11 of Ricochet (An Open Heart AU)
Catch up here: Series Masterlist
Chapter Synopsis: As winter began its rein in Boston, Heather finds a way to cope with her trauma, discovering the truth while remembering her past.
Pairing: Bryce Lahela x MC (Dr. Heather Song)
Words: 1.8k+ | Genre: Crime, Suspense/Thriller, Romance
Rating/Warnings: Mature (16+) / emotional trauma, death
Author's Notes: This week has been hard for me, and writing this chapter was unimaginably difficult because of it. Thankfully, like Heather, I found a way to cope, and people to help me get through with it. So instead of moping around, I finished this, inspired by the hauntingly beautiful classic song La Vie En Rose (I listened to this particular version on repeat). So, this is for you Nina, rest well in heaven.
Thank you so much for taking time to read this series. Please let me know if you want me to include/remove you in the tags list. Also, disclaimer: Majority of the characters are owned by Pixelberry, except the main character Heather Song. I also do not claim ownership over the lyrics of La Vie en Rose embedded in this chapter.
Heather's discharge went smoothly, contrary to the time she spent in recovery. Her friends needed to stay behind to complete their shifts, and although Kyra offered to take her home, she refused. She needed to do something first. Heather did agree to let her bring her things back to the apartment, with one exception.
Her slimmed fingers tightly gripped on the straps of the small bag she was carrying. The sunglasses she brought along tucked on the collar of her salmon sweater, not needing it anymore due to the cluster of clouds that blocked out the sun. Although it was almost noon, the chilly weather provided some semblance of shade as the heels of her boots thumped softly against the soft white snow-covered ground.
Her gray coat was sprinkled small flakes of snow, as she navigated herself easily amongst the unmarked path, that if a spectator observed, they would readily know that she visited this place often.
Heather's steps halted as she neared a willow tree, standing in front of a moss-colored headstone, aged by the almost seven years of Boston rain.
Despite the gloom of her surroundings, Heather's lips curled into a smile, as she kneeled down to gently place the bouquet of pink roses she bought along the way.
"Hi mom," she said, as the tips of her fingers skimmed the name carved in stone. "I'm sorry it took me so long to visit again. Things have been a little rough."
She went still for a moment, relishing the poignant silence in remembrance.
More than her ambition of being trained by America's top diagnostician, this was the reason why she chose Edenbrook. To be near her, to be in her mother's home city, it somehow filled the emptiness of missing her so much. To walk on the same pavements, to spend time in the same parks and places she's been to brought Heather nothing but the strength and determination to make something out of her once miserable life. Whenever she doubted herself, or when she was about to give up, the thought of her mom fighting a sickness no one should endure, gave Heather the much needed relief and energy to get back up again.
And that's the reason she stood there that cold winter morning. She needed her mom to come through her once again.
Heather closed her eyes momentarily, letting the rush of the nauseating trauma of the past few weeks resurface. Her whole being has run out dry, weakening her knees. She just felt so numb inside.
So without inhibitions, she recalled the recent events that turned her life upside down. She told about the threats over her life, and how close she was to her own death. She spoke about Raf and their recent fallout, how heartbreaking it was but relieving at the same time. She brought up Bryce last.
"This man, mom... I can't even begin to explain how I feel about him," Heather said as she rubbed a hand over her temple. "There's something about him that I just couldn't describe. It's been there since I've first met him, and it's still here until now..."
Her head dropped low in between her shoulders, as she remembered with fondness the emotions that Bryce stirred within her the first time they met, leading up to their frustrating confrontation. Heather irked as the thought of her failure came.
"But somehow, I messed it up. I picked someone else, because I was too afraid..." she revealed. She knew what she felt around him, but did her best to bury it. "Although I often wondered of what we could be, or what we could have been, the deep-seated fears of heartbreak, of what you and dad went through... I just couldn't act on it." she admitted.
"Yet when I was faced with the choice between life or death, all I had was his words, no one else's," she paused, recalling how she soldiered on towards her own escape, empowered by the same declaration during their day out in the trampolines.
"But now I'm afraid I'm too late, mom. I may have missed out on something great... Your daughter is a coward," she bit her lip, her eyes glistening. "Am I really too late?"
The question felt like a cliffhanger, never to be answered.
Sighing deeply, she collected her remaining energy to unzip the small bag she brought with her. She wrapped her hands around the neck of the instrument, pulling out a mahogany-stained ukelele. It was the last gift that she received from her mom, the very same she used to play her songs during their rare downtime.
She tucked its body between her arm and chest, as she tightened its strings with the tuners. With one satisfied strum, she began to sing the song that she and her mom always sang during the roughest period of their lives.
Hold me close and hold me fast
The magic spell you cast
This is la vie en rose
When you kiss me heaven sighs,
And though I close my eyes
I see la vie en rose
In a rush, those simple words tingled her sensations in reminiscence from flashes of her adolescence - the late night talks, the bonding over ramen noodles, her alcoholic initiation by soju, those times that they saw a movie together, the smell of pancakes and eggs in the morning.
In the few short years they were given, Heather treasured each memory more than anything in her life. Even the tragedy of watching her mom deteriorate because of her sickness, of those last months spent in a cramped hospital ward, she wouldn't trade it even for a pot of gold. Though in pain, her mother would whisper promises that she'll always be there for her, no matter what. Until her last breath, she held her daughter's hand. Those were priceless, shared souvenirs of a life well-lived. Of a life Heather hoped she could lead.
When you press me to your heart
I'm in a world apart, a world where roses bloom
And when you speak, angels sing from above
Everyday words seem to turn into love songs
Give your heart and soul to me
And life will always be
La vie en rose
Within those short verses contained the life lesson her mom taught her over and over again - to see life through rose colored glasses. Singing it reminded her that even if she was long gone, the memory of her will be embedded within, whispering that no matter what, there's a reason to continue living.
Smiling through her tears, her head tilted up to the heavens, praying that the divine could carry her thanks to her mom. For once again, in the most difficult time of her life, she did follow through.
As a sense of peace weaved itself through her, she opened her eyes and felt the clouds dissipate. With it were the frayed edges of the shadows of fear, regret and anger. And although she knew that it will still haunt her, she was content that healing has at least begun.
After a few more moments of silence, she placed the ukelele back into the bag and glanced endearingly upon the headstone. She skimmed her fingers over her mother's name, vowing to come back soon.
She swiveled herself to the opposite direction and began the path back to the cemetery gates, when her hazel orbs fell upon a pair of familiar leather shoes and gray slacks, making her stop in her tracks.
When she titled her head to see the face she expected to see, a pair of amber eyes met hers that made her breath hitch. They were filled with warmth and affection that heated the cold air and melted her inside.
"You're not too late," Bryce finally said, breaking into the quiet. His mouth formed a lopsided smile, his hands shoved into the pockets of his black coat which edges reached to his knees.
"Seems like it," Heather replied, snapping out of the daze that suddenly came over her, lips curving. "Wait, you heard everything?"
Bryce couldn't stifle a chuckle as he nodded, the adrenaline that rushed through him earlier as he tried to track her down slowly draining from him. A new and overwhelming feeling took its place as he planted the soles of his shoes on the soft snow, bridging the gap between them.
Once he was near enough, he gently wrapped an arm around Heather's waist, pulling her close. The knuckles of his other hand brushed her jawline until his thumb grazed her chin. His gaze lingered down on hers, completely magnetized by the depths of the windows of her soul, begging for her consent.
Heather's palms settled onto the nape of his neck, her lips parting to grant him permission.
In a heartbeat, Bryce tenderly pressed his lips upon hers, releasing the long-running yearning they buried so well. Unspoken words no longer need to be said aloud, clarity dawning in them both as their mouths crashed. Soft moans escaped from them as they deepened their passionate kiss, unrestrained in expressing their newfound freedom.
When at last they stopped to catch their breaths, Bryce leaned his forehead on hers, understanding that his unrequited love was never unanswered, only delayed. That after a year of pining, here she was, standing in front of him, a realization of a dream that for so many times he willed to come true. After all the nights of hoping and hurting, he couldn't help but be overwhelmed by the sight of her in his arms. A thought poked into his mind as he started to recall where they were.
"Well this is awkward..." the young lawyer muttered, with a sudden shift in his voice.
"Hm?" Heather's eyes snapped open, dumbfounded.
"I know I always wanted to kiss you," he grinned as he paused, before continuing, "but never in a million years did I think that the first time I did is in front of your mom."
At first her brows furrowed, but seeing Bryce's mischievous expression, Heather couldn't keep herself from laughing.
Inspired by the music of her genuine laughter, Bryce joined in. The sound of their giggles echoing through the poignant space around them.
Heather can't remember the last time when she laughed this hard. There were so many things that hung over her head that she almost forgot how to do it. But with Bryce, it came so easily. A sense of joy began to bloom in her, and when she saw the same glint in his eyes, she knew he felt exactly the same.
With their fingers intertwined and arms around each other's, they walked the path that only earlier they trudged separately. And now with their hearts finally out in the open, their tracks carved into the thin sheet of snow, unveiling the lush greens of the grass hidden beneath, eager to leaving what's behind, together.
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I need some advice. I've been discerning whether I'm going to be a woman who marries or is going to stay single. Part of the process is that I don't wish to be a burden on someone, I'm used to doing everything for myself, whether taking care of my older mother, helping my brother be a musician, working 40+ hours a week, a member of the church choir, paying my rent/food/ect. without a roommate. My mom was the primary breadwinner when I was a kid and dad would stay home with us (they divorced when I was young) and I'm just not sure how to feel about all this, since I'm used to seeing women do the work and men stay home. If this is too much to ask about sorry for infodumping, I just feel I need some guidance.
Anon you sound like a very based and wonderful person🧡 people dedicating their life to help their family is just *chef's kiss* peak Christian lifestyle
I feel like we have a bunch of things in common. My mom too was divorced and the sole breadwinner in the house and grew up with a very "strong woman" model as growing up. I didn't build a "bossy" complex per se, but it definitely gave me a good role model to realize it was okay to pursue goals and ambitions as a woman that didn't have to revolve around men. And I'll be forever grateful for having such upbringing.
You saying "I don't want to be a burden" made me think about what I was reading this morning in my Bible : the passage of Paul saying working was required for Christians to not rely on anyone in 1 Thessalonians 2:9
For ye remember, brethren, our labour and travail: for labouring night and day, because we would not be chargeable unto any of you, we preached unto you the gospel of God.
I never got why the trad community acted like women bragging about doing the bare minimum was acceptable. Actually it makes them look lazy, clingy and childish. Being trad doesn't mean being retarded. Biblical women were #girlboss with or WITHOUT MEN. They weren't like "teehehehe can't wait to have a man to tie my shoelace" 🥰 They were getting shit done. They weren't daydreaming expecting for a husband to fix their own shortcomings.
Anon, there's nothing wrong to not know whether you want to be single or married. Actually, that's the healthiest position. Paul himself said it was "good" for single to remain as such (along with married people).
Contentment is a blessing. Obsessively seeking after marriage isn't normal or healthy. For some, it's very obvious that's an idol. There's life outside marriage and marriage isn't a substitute to a personality or fulfilled existence. Spending your life longing after something (you're not even sure of getting) is wasted time and potential. You do you and keep doing the lord's work by helping those in need around you. Don't listen to these marriage-idolaters, anon. You're good🧡
#we children of single parenting are just differents#we know the struggle that is marriage and won't idealize it#it won't stop us from wanting to get married ofc#but we won't get full on obsessive about it like it's the best thing to happen in a woman's life#bc we saw our mom thrive and be happy in spite of it#answered
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Ty Lee: Do you have any idea what my home life was like, growing up with six sisters (cut to shot of Ty Lee) who look exactly like me? (she stands up) It was like, I didn't even have my own name. (she falls to the ground crying) I joined the circus because I was scared of spending the rest of my life as part of a matched set. At least, I'm different now. (close shot of teary-eyed Ty Lee) Circus freak is a compliment! Mai: (sarcastically) Guess that explains why you need 10 boyfriends, too. (Cut to shot of Ty Lee looking angrily toward Mai and putting her hands on her hips) Ty Lee: I'm sorry, what? Mai: Attention issues. You couldn't get enough attention when you were a kid, so (looking downward) you're trying to make up for it now. (Cut to shot of Ty Lee, who moves closer and closer to Mai with each accusation) Ty Lee: Well, what's your excuse, Mai? You were an only child for 15 years, but even with all that attention, your aura is this dingy, pasty, gray...
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Mai: (Cut to wide shot of the four of them. Mai lays back carelessly on the rock she is sitting on) What do you want from me? You want a teary confession about how hard my childhood was? Well, it wasn't. (close shot of Mai) I was a rich only child who got anything I wanted. As long as I behaved...(cut to shot of the clouds above) and sat still...and didn't speak unless spoken to. (cut to shot of Zuko listening) My mother said I had to keep out of trouble. (Cut to wide shot of the four of them around the fire) We had my Dad's political career to think about. Azula: Well, that's it, then. (close-up shot on Azula) You had a controlling mother who had certain expectations, and if you strayed from them you were shut down. That's why you're afraid to care about anything, and why you can't express yourself. Mai: (close shot of Mai) You want me to express myself? (she stands and yells) Leave me alone!
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Zuko: (yells suddenly) I'm angry at myself! (Zuko throws his arms down and the campfire bursts into a column of flame. The girls cover their eyes to protect themselves from the fire. Cut to a close shot of Zuko as wind and embers fly through his blowing hair. The fire burns out and the scene grows dark. Cut to a wide shot of the group) Azula: Why? (Cut to shot of Zuko looking out at the sea with Azula sitting behind him) Zuko: Because I'm confused. Because I'm not sure I know the difference between right and wrong anymore. Azula: You're pathetic.
Obviously, all of these statements apply very well to Ty Lee, Mai, and Zuko respectively. They wouldn’t extract such strong emotional reactions from them if they didn’t, so Azula isn’t really projecting onto Mai.
Yet, at least to some degree, all these statements very much apply to Azula. Azula, who never really had her own name or identity. Azula, who was desperate for positive attention, or sometimes any attention whatsoever, from both her parents. Azula, who can’t admit her childhood was incredibly traumatic. Azula, who was used as a prop for her father’s political ambitions. Azula, who was severely reprimanded whenever she misbehaved. Azula, who had to watch what she said. Azula, who was strongly controlled by both of her parents. Azula, who struggles to express herself emotionally. Azula, who hates herself. Azula, who is very morally confused and uncertain of what’s really right and wrong, no matter how little she’s willing to admit this to herself.
"you have a controlling mother that had certain expectations, and if you strayed from them, you were shut down. that’s why you don’t care about anything and can’t express yourself.”
"the way azula essentially projects her own issues with her relationship with her father onto mai in this scene should be talked about more"
what do you think?
I don't think she necessarily projecting but that's interesting point.
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To the one that got away:
It was winter when she first came to picture, I was just an ordinary guy that worked abroad didn't know what to do no goal, ambition, or even dreams if I can consider it, Was making money but I can't feel satisfaction while doing it soulless and partially lifeless in the process, before I came home I was in a long distance relationship with someone from France and everything worked out just fine but eventually we lacked personal intimacy, to the point that were not even trying to communicate with each other just went with our days without even saying "Hi" or "Good morning" to be honest I thought that she would be the one for me and I'll be the one for her, I was greatly mistaken to have thought that, because if u truly wish someone to be with you till your last breath it must have the right amount of perseverance, the strive to push forward and not to quit and fight! One day we came to an agreement that the thing we have isn't working out anymore, so we broke up decided to be friends, just like that in a snap of a finger she was gone and so am I.
I know that it's rough on both of us but on the other hand it felt that the chemistry wasn't there anymore so it's better to leave that be.
After a month I decided to focus more on my career first since I'm waiting for my agency to call and kick me out of the country again but with a new job on a cruise ship around Us and Europe, while waiting i knew that my brother knows a lot of people here in the Philippines that has a company related to my forte so I asked him
"Man do you know anyone in the industry looking for a waiter?"
He told me that there was one here in Batangas and she was a good friend of his.
"yeah I know a place just a 5 min drive from here"
So I was excited cuz I'm going to work my ass off and forget what has happened.
So there it was "TRICIA'S" name of the workplace my brother told me about, and on December 17, 2019 I started there as a waiter, it was an open house bar kinda rowdy but in a good way but damn do these kids party hard! My shift was from 4pm to 4am and it was messy as hell always but I had fun in the process.
Then that faithful day came to place, all the stars were aligned and the soothing falling of leaves was upon me, I didn't expect any less from that day than any day cause for me it was just goin to turn out as an ordinary day, but then u came and I saw you with my best friend. 🙏 well I couldn't care less at first if u talk to me or not, but the first time you shut me down is when you were passing by my side I thought that u are going to get a menu off the bar, and I was psyched and told myself "now's my chance to like give her the menu and make small talk" Then u said "No" off the bat cuz u were just going to grab that box of tissue, boo me assumer! Then I remembered u were with my best friend so time to show off I think? Like provide them with the best service possible, bring the drinks on time, food must be hot, bucket of ice must be full all the time, no delay in anything like to the fullest service a server can give them, after all was served I was shocked that u said Hi and Hi again and again complimented my cologne called me by my nickname which wasn't really needed, I was shy just making a grin of my mouth just to show her I'm not bothered, but I'm to the fullest extent cause I already asked for ur name, checked u out on Facebook through my best friend that's why I was shy.
The u guys left. And I asked my bff
"should I add her on FB? What ya think?"
She replied with so much enthusiasm
"Gooooo! Add her, she wants to be friends with you also"
And boom it hit me like the biggest meteorite just punched through earth, I was so overwhelmed and cannot wipe the smile of my face that morning.
I'm not normal I can say that proudly in a good way of course, but if someone overwhelmed already with the thought of his/her crush wanting for them to be friends and then out of nothing she says that do you want me to bring you coffee, that would be the most awesome thing that would happen to you, you'd probably be smiling for the whole day like legitimately smiling at everyone with the upmost feeling. For me coffee is sometimes is more important than people but for what she did LFU!!! And she brought me my coffee that morning and she insisted on bringing it , on that day she already got me.
Time passed and things were going accordingly, perfectly some bumps along the way, but we were happy and contended to what we had and a few dates, I remember on the night before Christmas I was supposed to give u your present and you stood me up because of a party your family held and I understood that situation of yours, kinda sulk tho that we didn't get to meet but one of my favorite memory is when you asked me out on a date and it was Christmas, you got to meet my parents also sorry if your hills was soaked in water cuz it was pouring heavily that day. We ate at "Romantic Baboy" a Korean restaurant with unlimited pork skin, chicken strips and cheese on the sides, and you know what's my favorite part of that particular day? Is when I took a picture of you smelling a rose and thought to myself that I don't want this to end may the universe hinder us from us but I'll fight with my last breath to preserve what we have and what else will happen. Then I fucked up.
Scribbled words, nauseated, anxious, crippled, out of way, bothered, stressed,fretful,fretting, disturbed, agitated, irritated, apprehensive, to the point that I don't even want to look at myself in the mirror so disgusted to what I did, execute me if the universe wants to, the feeling of overly doubting my self worth was inevitable, brought to me by my own decisions that messed me up entirely.
Wondering what happened haunts me in the most gruesome way possible. So here it goes, I lied to her big-time which I didn't know that it was possible since I did it already not multiple times but only ONE THAT GOT ME REAL FUCKED! Is when I received a message from my longtime best friend from way back as kids, 20 years to be exact . On the message she told me
"when are you going to show urself I haven't seen u in forever"
Then I was shocked cause normally she wouldn't Pm (Private Message) like that in the past, then I told her.
"one of these days when I'm not busy cause of work"
Then she asked about my love life and u were the first in my mind so I told her about you.
"there's this girl that I'm seeing, my other best friend introduced me to her and she already met my parents last Christmas then we ate outside and we had a great time"
That's what I said then I also told her to help me find a perfect present for you.
Then on December 27, 2019 I told you that I'll be visiting a long time friend with a kid and I didn't tell you if it was a girl or a boy cause I don't want you to get angry at me but then again I should've told you that in the first place. When I was there at her house since we were long time friends we had a great time also with the kid in the picture, happy and overwhelmed at the same time, then her mother came down gave me a hug and greeted me welcome home or back to the phil, cause she hasn't seen me for over 4 years I think. After the the greetings my best friend told her mom that I'm seeing someone which is you. Well I didn't expect that she would be sly about it and drop your name so casually, so I just came right through it and said yes I'm dating this girl and she's wonderful, but her mom told me that r u taking things way to fastly you just got out of a relationship, I told them that also I was off with someone before I met you. So after they told me not to deepen anything with anyone yet, assuring that I would not get hurt cause for them I'm family also, cause her dad was the godfather of my brother that's why our families was close still to this point they are.
Then the next day came I went again to her house because I was having fun playing with her son and missed talking to her a lot, because in the longest time I had a crush on her and knowing me I couldn't seal the deal from before, but this time I thought to myself maybe this is it when she'll notice the man i have become, and you passed my memory, in me saying that I'm dating this girl and why should I break her heart? Did u deserve to be treated that way Nooooo! In fuckin million years no! But I did anyways. Without even consenting my best friend, myself and most importantly God. I messed up 😭
So then it happened the happiest'sh and the worst'sh decision in my existence trampling over someone that didn't deserve any hardships cause you were the most beautiful soul ever seen. Yeah I misunderstood the fact that she'll replace you over and over again because of the thing we had in the past like 20 years of friendship over something that just happened recently was a very wrong thought to even deliver in a person's mouth crippling fear came over me I didn't know what to do my life was in chaos lost in the path, I part take wishing it all away silently murmuring to myself that if had the power to change it all I would, I was blinded really blinded by that stumbling and staggering in every situation possible, even with work I wasn't happy anymore so I left, it's not like me to leave unprofessionally but I did cause it broke me down to my core knowing that I did something to hurt the most, I don't know if it's faith that we met or just me knocking on the door of heaven praying and longing for someone to bump in my life and there you was. But I was too blinded by the fact that I thought that she'll be the one to save me but you were there standing without flinching and with the unyielding love that a human person can give to another and I wasted it all away. Knowing that we were supposed to go to an amusement park, and guess what? That Jan 3 was the day destiny punched me in the face for me to tell you what I got in stored deep inside the dark and deep corners of my heart which was hard to let it out, but I was willing to get out of my comfort zone, break boundaries and say what I really mean.
But then again it didn't happen because of me. But why is that I don't have a perfect checklist of good things in life and almost all of it is on the bad side, really looking inside I didn't have any intention of hurting you, but when I came to see you coming from manila was one of the blurriest decision I've made cause I was going to fix everything but was still blinded, so I did see you but what I said that day when we were inside the car was all true, you mean the world to me but how dumb can a human be maybe I'm the epitome of that, knowing her and thinking she was the one was greatly poor on my side, some people are worth suffering for and I'll suffer for you anytime of the day, week, year or anywhere.
Saying this honestly you are the one with a pure heart on the other hand she also has but like only in a normal state and I thought she was a diamond but day by day she turns to coal slowly breaking and burning me in the process I don't blame her for that but knowing her I didn't expect that a shallow river is bound to drop over me and drown me, because in your eyes I saw a girl swimming in a vast ocean with many things to look after but was calm about it, and composed in a way that anything can turn out good and without harms way. Simply saying that u r different really different in a good way of course.
The self realization made it clearer than the brightest day, clarity filled up inside,b the blindness was cured and I can see far from what I saw before straightforward only walking in one path never turning right or left staying on a pace that'll last, growing abundantly in each other's presence. point here is i really know that u are the perfect illustration a right decision
I hope and pray eventually time will get us to see and feel that something happens for a reason, it's not just the way it was given but on the way it ends and begins again, hoping,praying, begging, pleading, that when that time comes even if it's on a reciprocal I will greatly cherish it and give it as grace without asking for anything in return like a river splashing water on the ground with the little weed sprouting through time, it doesn't have to be the entire ground but the important parts only, perfect timing, right alignment of stars and even if the wind blows strongly or a single rain drop I'll always bring you close by my side and wanting you to stay beside me. I just wish in time we would see each other in our arms again.
And to the one that got away.
Looking back to those days we were so happy I really wanted to tell you how much you mean to me, and the simple things u did, like looking at me with those mesmerizing eyes and the captivating depth and clarity it shown, the way you cling was warmth beyond any parka or furred jacket I've worn before saying slowly while you hug me that you'll never let go. And the way you pull your hair back showing roaring waves but calms me up to the core while the strands of your hair graze my face tingles my curiosity to kiss you in the forehead. And I never felt an urge every time you kissed me on the cheek and while you ask me to kiss you back was the sweetest tune my ears can imagine like angelic figures playing the harp or something like that. And the way we used to drive with ur friends feels like ecstasy having fun and in a euphoric way, I like seeing you laugh a lot, curse a lot at people, things or anything cause im not finding any wrong in that, because that's who you are and what you represent. Also the times we had so much fun singing those songs you recommended me. And to this particular song which made me see you in whole different level, cause you were the first one who dedicated something for me, those giggles that both of us shared is more important the . The unparralled and unrequited feeling that those gestures are simply producing, but what I say is the manifestation of genuine love is you.
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