#sorry but kevin has to suffer because i said so

[afurtivecake]

Can we have some more Kevin/Ichirou scenarios pls pls pls. I’ve never even seriously thought abt these two together and I’ve read your DELICIOUS headcanons and now I can’t stop thinking abt them istg

THANK YOU. my friend, i am telling you, i had like max 1 thought about kevin/ichirou until maybe a week ago and now look what's happened to me. i am glad i'm not alone in this sudden madness.

i feel like i should preface this by reiterating that this version of kevichi is neither romantic nor consensual. they're also homophobic.

ok so, to the public and pretty much everyone else, kevin is the self-proclaimed queen of exy and everyone will fall over themselves to give him anything he wants. in-universe exy rpf is full of self-indulgent daddy(mommy?) dom!kevin day x reader fics. but that's the exact opposite of him and ichirou's dynamic. between them, ichirou just needs to idly say, hey i wonder what you'd look like if you had been a woman, and kevin's already resignedly, mentally psyching himself up to go get a full body + bikini wax in anticipation of whatever sick game ichirou's got in store for him.

ichirou has nothing to be insecure about. kevin can go out there and act like he owns the world, but they both know ichirou is the reason kevin is allowed to have his fame and status. in fact, ichirou mocks kevin for his perfectly fitting 'queen' status. once in a while, ichirou lets kevin take charge, let's him take the lead and play the dominant role. and for like 5 blissful seconds, kevin's internalized homophobia/toxic masculinity are so happy to be in control, to have the chance to get a bit of revenge maybe. but then he realizes, it's not that simple, because it doesn't matter that ichirou is sitting there patiently waiting for kevin's command, ichirou is always going to the one in charge. and kevin's going to have to do it the way ichirou wants, without ichirou's instruction, if he wants to please him. because kevin's busy second-guessing himself at every turn, he ends up being really clumsy and hesitant and making ichirou break character to chide and correct him. and the whole thing ends up being yet another exercise in humiliation and a reminder that a queen is nothing without a stronger power behind her - all exactly as ichirou had intended.

[elen-tari2]

My Kastle Scene Wishlist

I’m not sure what Kastle content we might get in Daredevil Born Again, but there is also talk that they might make a new Punisher show. What are some scenes/parallels that you would like to see between Frank and Karen? Here’s a few of my musings

Reversed Hospital Scene! I would like to see Frank momentarily panic over Karen getting hurt and have a turn holding her hand in a hospital bed. I feel like we deserve this scene so bad. (Caveat: Frank CANNOT be the reason Karen got injured, even if it’s just she got shot in the arm or has a concussion; Karen is in dangerous situations regardless of Frank being near her or not and he needs a wake up call for that). Bonus points for the total opposite of telling her to walk way—this time HE GETS IN THE HOSPITAL BED and puts his arms around her and just holds her and Karen gets to feel completely safe for a few minutes. Just go all out with the hurt/comfort trope for these two. Anyway, I have a whole WIP fic devoted to this, so honestly it has become my top wish to see some parallels drawn with another hospital scene.

Karen gets to help in a fight and shoots someone. I feel like since they never got to have the Wesley conversation, a way to show-not-tell would be for Karen to kill a bad guy and then Frank come check on her to be like, ‘hey are you okay?’and she’d be like, ‘yeah, I am.’ She’d be a bit shaken up but grimly holding it together because it’s not her first time killing someone. This would also work in contrast to the scene where Amy shoots the guy in the hall and then Frank infamously takes the gun from her and takes the responsibility of his death away from her. Sorry to make Karen suffer because I know she’ll feel bad about it, but I’d be okay with seeing her character go a little bit darker to save someone’s life. She’s been carrying that gun since DDs2, she deserves to take out a baddie on her own and it’d be a great segue into rehashing some of her past that Frank NEEDS to know about

Frank meets Paxton Page. Will the show make time for this? Probably not. But damn do I want to know what Frank would say if he knew that Karen’s dad cut off his only daughter, when Frank would do anything—anything—to spend one minute with Lisa again. I’d love to see Frank go to Fagan Corners with Karen to put flowers on her mom and brother’s graves. We spent three seasons of Frank being able to open up around Karen and talk about his family with her. Meanwhile she has never once said anything about the losses she’s suffered. Frank needs to know and I don’t want it all jammed into one big backstory dump where she tells him she killed her brother and Wesley in the same conversation. Another option would be for Frank to accidentally visit Karen on the anniversary of her mom/Kevin’s death and she is having a breakdown. If we can’t get into any of Karen’s past, have Frank find out Karen has his burner phone saved in her contacts listed as Home. I’ve seen that idea in several different fics and it just needs to be canon. They are Home to each other.

A scene where Frank holds Karen all night and they don’t have sex, but it’s profound. (Think like Spike holding Buffy). If they are nervous about comics fans being mad about Frank Castle finding love again, give us some physical intimacy and closeness where you know they mean everything to each other but can’t cross the line and make things real. Fan fic writers will know we won and then fill in the rest for those cowards.

If they’re willing to make Kastle real, give us a goddamn kiss. Actually, just let them have sex, because Karen Page has been forced to stay chaste for YEARS and she deserves to get laid. And Jon Bernthal seems to be more than comfortable doing sex scenes soooo please just make it the most beautiful thing ever filmed because they are so in love with each other. It has to be noticeably different in tone from the scene with Beth. And Karen cannot get shot the next day, don’t even start with any of that bull$hit trauma for Frank.

Kastle pillow talk scene. Since it’s Disney Marvel now, I don’t know how much we can hope for with a sex scene. So the pillow talk scene that follows had better be some life-altering confessions of love and cuddles. Do not even think about him sneaking out before she wakes up like he almost did with Beth. Karen deserves something good to happen to her for once, let her have a perfect night and a gentle, soft morning after. She deserves it even if Frank isn’t sure if he does.

Karen Page and Dinah Madani Friendship. I’m rewatching The Punisher s2 and one thing that pissed me off was the scenes of fake bonding between Dinah and Krista Dumont, drinking wine together and discussing men (Frank and Billy, who else). So. To make up for that, we need some genuine female friendships, like Karen and Dinah going to a shooting range together or gym or going out to a nice bar for girls night. Even if Frank has been keeping his distance, these ladies have struck up a friendship and Karen has someone to hang out with besides her lawyer coworkers.

Karen gets to meet Micro/The Lieberman family AND Curtis. David knows how Frank really feels about Karen. Curtis needs to find out Frank DOES still have something good holding him in this world. And Karen should meet Frank’s friends.

Okay those are some of the scenes I want to see for Frank and Karen! If someone could please get this list to the Punisher writers for the future of the show, it’s actually very important that we get some of this or I’m gonna have to come write for the show myself. 🙈

[spectacled-renegade-writes]

Boyfriends... - Ben 10

Description: Something Ben did has Rook questioning human customs. So, he calls Gwen to ask if it's normal.

Relationships: Rook/Ben, Gwen/Kevin, Rook&Gwen

Tags: Humor, Fluff, Friendship

Ao3: Here

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Rook could not conceivably believe that this was normal human behavior. So, in times such as these, he called Gwen – she was always a reliable source of information. After leaving Ben’s house for the day, Rook got into his Proto-Truk and dialed Gwen’s number while driving back to headquarters.

“Hello?” Gwen’s voice sounded through the cabin after three rings.

“Hello, Gwen.” Rook replied, focusing on the road. “Apologies if I have interrupted anything, but I have a question I need to ask you.”

Over the phone Rook could hear footsteps and a door closing, then Gwen said seriously, “You didn’t interrupt anything. Is everything okay?”

It had not been Rook’s intention to worry her, and it suddenly occurred to him that he had probably sounded very cryptic. “Everything is quite well,” he replied evenly. “I merely have a question regarding human behavior I was hoping you could answer.”

Gwen laughed over the phone. “And here I was stepping away because you sounded so serious.”

“I am sorry for the distress.”

“Misunderstanding, not distress,” Gwen corrected, amused. “What’s your question?”

Once again reminded about why he called, Rook grimaced. “Ben did something while we were at his house that perplexed me, and I was hoping you could tell me if this is normal.” Gwen remained silent, which prompted Rook to continue. “We decided to have a movie date at his house, and after the first movie ended he told me that I could choose the next one.”

“How is that weird?” Gwen asked.

“It is not,” Rook replied. “It is what happened after that I found weird. While I searched for a movie Ben got up from the couch and went to the kitchen.”

“Uh huh? And?”

“Well, when he returned, he held a plate that had a single pancake on it. He proceeded to sit back down and eat it in silence. When I went to the kitchen I found that there were no other pancakes, which means that Ben measured out the ingredients for a single pancake and did not offer to make me any.” Rook paused. “Perhaps I am overthinking this but it seemed very odd at the moment.”

“I swear, sometimes I think boyfriends aren’t worth the trouble,” Gwen sighed over the phone. She sounded rather exasperated in Rook’s option. “No, Rook, that is not normal human behavior at all.”

“That is a relief.” Rook smiled. “I was beginning to think I was overreacting.”

“I can assure you, you weren’t.” Gwen laughed. “You want to hear something Kevin did the other night?”

“It would be my pleasure.”

“Get this,” Gwen began. “Like two nights ago I woke up to Kevin calling my name. When I opened my eyes, the clock on my nightstand read three in the morning!”

“Something must have been wrong.” Rook frowned.

“That’s what I thought too,” Gwen agreed. “But when I asked what was wrong he replied, ‘nothing. Here, babe. I brought you a rib’.”

Rook blinked. “Wait… what?”

“I had the same thought! Apparently Kevin was slow cooking some ribs and I guess they were done in the middle of the night. We ended up eating ribs in bed at three in the morning. It was the weirdest experience ever!”

Rook did not know what to say to that. It was indeed odd. So, he said the only thing he could think of. “Did they taste good?”

“They were delicious!” Gwen yelled. “But that’s not the point.”

“I agree,” Rook nodded. “Not the point.”

“You know, Rook. Sometimes I wonder if you didn’t get the idiot gene all boys have since you’re not human. Either that or you weren’t dropped on your head as a baby.”

“Ben and Kevin were dropped on their heads as babies?” Rook frowned. “That is much cause for concern. Do you know if they suffered any brain damage?”

“I don’t think they actually were,” Gwen smiled over the phone. “That’s just my working theory on why they can be such idiots sometimes.”

“Still,” Rook hummed. “We love them anyway.”

“Yeah,” Gwen agreed. “We do love them anyway.”

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Notes: If you know you know ;)

No but this literally came to me at 1 in the morning, and it is the dumbest thing I have ever written. Please, move forth with your night/day and think no more of this silly little one-shot

[busghost]

I've been really negative about Honkai recently and I'm sorry about that but with everything that's wrong it gets you thinking about how they could have done it better.

So now I'm wondering what ideas people have for Mei's (gestures at her) everything. Instead of just telling us everything Mei is supposed to be and show us Mei growing as a person.

I do want to see what other people think up because by no means is my idea the only good one.

DISCLAIMER: I'm only throwing ideas out, I'm not claiming to be an actual good writer. I'd be a pretentious asshole to think that if I wrote this in a story format rather than an outline that it'd be any good. It'd be worse than what we got. I'm also not blaming the writers for being crunched so bad. It's just a lot of unfortunate circumstances.

Personally I'd go nuts with the beta Crown of Thorns + the ideas introduced in ch 1-2 of Elysian Realm and the story beforehand (Elysia is "perfect" but acts mean).

Elysia considers herself the perfect human when there's no humanity in her having let the end come because "it's their own fault". As if Mei let Kiana die to her own foolish self sacrificial habits. Her love is a detached one, like she doesn't truly understand what it is to love nor does she understand what she is loving. Humanity is more like a cute plaything than the collection of all people and their hopes and sorrows and hatred and love and everything in between.

The point of the Previous Era was that they were so coldly logical that they lost. They had no love, just look at what happened to RIN, murdered in cold blood and only became a Herrscher because of it. And that basically ALL we knew about the PE for the longest time, the coldblooded murder of a young woman just because she might've been a threat and how Sakura was able to reach RIN and get her to stop killing in the end with love.

Take the examples of love from the PE and crush them under that cold logic. Su being a doctor forced to continually sacrifice the few for the many, going against all he stands for. Griseo growing up in a world so apathetic towards new life. Hua hating Kevin for being Dr. Mei's pawn and killing HIMEKO. Expanding on the throwaway line where she was ostracized for being so close to somebody who became a Herrscher. Eden being so depressed at the loss of art and so much life. Sakura trying to do good by her sister but killing for a living to make it so. I think they really nailed Pardo the first time around. And very importantly, make it clear that MOTH/Dr. Mei's rationality is what caused so much suffering. Despite this, have her thaw out and be understanding even for their worst qualities. As the sims open up, so does she, becoming more like a person again rather than angst with a vague goal.

Contrast all of this with the love Mei has felt through her life. Her few interactions with her father that left a mark on her. Seeing how Hua has changed from the past into the present, finding people that she can openly love and care for. Theresa and Himeko giving her unconditional love and teaching her so much as parental figures. Even the tough love like Himeko slapping her across for face for suggesting everyone else would be better off if Mei killed herself. Kiana and Bronya relying on her and supporting her, her happiest moments being when she was at St. Freya with her family. Even during her short time at Anti-Entropy, Tesla was very kind to her. See the few examples of love that appeared in the Previous Era and realize THAT'S what they're fighting for in the real world.

I forget where it was stated, but I think it was Otto who said that the Current Era has come to a better understanding of what it means to be human and I really like that idea. Herrschers are more capable of being human than some people. That being human and defeating the Honkai isn't based on plans that kill nearly everyone on Earth or making decisions for the people of the future. It's not "PURGE THE HONKAI" as the PE was so fond of saying, it's "Fight for everything beautiful in the world."

With Elysia as the antagonist it doesn't even necessarily need to end in a boss fight against her or anything. But make Mei decide for herself that what she is going to fight for, she isn't "perfect" like Elysia but her love is genuine and she has a deeper understanding than Elysia ever could. She can carry on the memories of the Previous Era, not of all the fighting and plans but of the love people tried to show each other. A rejection of what everything the Previous Era stood for.

Have Mei leave the Realm and World Serpent, not because Kevin said "okay you can go now" but to abandon them to be with the people she truly cares about and believes in because that is what is important now. Maybe have her come to their aid when it's explicitly against WS's interests.

THEN Mei can take Elysia's place as Herrscher of Human/Origin because she truly understands what it means to love people unlike Elysia. How Kiana's arc is learning to accept love and loving herself, have Mei's arc be learning to love the world again.

Also do none of the retconning in chapter 34. Make everything they are doing in the Current Era their own decisions, their own plans. They are supposed to be overcoming Project Stigma through their own determination and knowledge, not because this was the real purpose of Project EMBER. Also just let the Will of the Honkai be something the Previous Era inflicted on the Current Era while tampering with it, not "we were making it easier for the CE the whole time". The Current Era's victory over the Honkai has to be their own.

I'll be first to admit, I haven't thought much into how it's play out and definitely should have more to do with Elysia, the realm is named for her and it's her big secret at the center of it all. You could still pull this off with making Elysia suffer so much for having so much genuine love for everyone in a loveless world or a million other ways. Just not, Elysia decided the future for the Herrschers and everything the CE is doing is actually a PE plan.

[jjnonken]

Been a while since I've posted. I've decided I hate Facebook again and for now I'm letting off steam here.

I said before that I'd deleted my long rant and just stuck to a mini-rant. Well, today I'm posting a long rant. Fair warning: This is a rant.

As far as I can tell, there's no good news about the Borderlands movie. They've changed Commander Knoxx's character to be Atlas's daughter instead of General Knoxx, so I guess she'll be Commander Atlas now. That... doesn't matter. Of all the issues I have with this movie, whose daughter she is is probably the least important. Actually, it's not an issue. Her EXISTENCE is an issue, but not which NPC is her parent. Atlas isn't even an NPC, it's just a gun manufacturer, presumably named after its founder. We never see the founder(s) nor, as far as I can remember, hear any backstory. I'm not sure which problem they were trying to solve by the rename.

First problem: We do have to rescue Lilith, Athena, and one other who I won't mention due to spoilers. I can only think of those three. Lilith tells you to kill her if you can't save her... "Better dead than a damsel." Athena engineers her own rescue; you're just the muscle. So there's kind of a dearth of damsels in this franchise. The movie's premise is that Commander uh... Atlas?... needs to be rescued. So, right. Damsel in distress. Kind of immediately contradicts the lore of Borderlands, who has strong women who generally don't need rescuing.

Second is: why General Knoxx's er, I mean, Atlas's daughter? She's a new character. It's like BORDERLANDS ISN'T CHARACTER-RICH ENOUGH, we have to add more just to get the plot started.

Edit: She still shows credited as Commander Knoxx in my web search, including on IMDB. I saw Atlas in the last article I saw on the movie. It's possible it was simply mistaken. I note parenthetically that Knoxx works for Atlas Corporation, and the DLC he's in is Atlas-heavy. Could just be a mistake. Edit to the edit: The Wikipedia article premise mentions her as Atlas's daughter. But she's named Knoxx. I'm fucking confused; which is she?

Next: They have Kevin Hart playing Roland. Kevin Hart is a comedian. Roland is a serious, somber, straightforward guy who never jokes and never laughs, or even smiles. Any humor that happens in relation to him works because it plays off his sober sincerity.

Roland: Oh good, you're not dead. Lilith: That's his way of saying "Hi". Roland: Sorry. Hi.

Why do they need a stand-up comedian to play Roland? Either Hart is trying to branch out and do some serious acting, or... they're making a comedy.

OK, Cate Blanchett is doing Lilith. I don't know if she's the best choice, but I don't know who else I'd recommend. I guess I'm OK with that.

As for Tannis... I love Jamie Lee Curtis, but she's a scream queen that also does comedies. Tannis isn't FUNNY, she's TRAGIC. Again, there's humor, but it plays off her personality, which is informed by her severe social awkwardness. (She's pretty much coded autistic. I don't know if it's canon.) No doubt the trauma she's suffered has exacerbated any existing personality deficits. Or caused new ones. Can Curtis do a sober Tannis? I mean, play her seriously, not deadpan. I don't know. Again, I don't think she's meant to -- this movie is looking more like a comedy every day. Could be worse, but I'm not sure I'd pick her.

Next, we have Claptrap, who is introduced as "The wise-cracking robot" and played by... Jack Black, a comedic voice actor. Thing is, Claptrap does not crack wise. He's hilarious, but that's because, similarly to Roland and Tannis, the game plays off his naive sincerity. He's funny because he's so serious, but clueless. I haven't memorized every line in the entire franchise enough to instantly recall everything that every claptrap robot has said, but as far as I can remember, Claptrap has told MAYBE three jokes on purpose. One is self-referential, spoken by a claptrap who is supposed to be programming the game: "Borderlands? More like Memelands, am I right?" One is spoken right after a hatch is automatically locked, trapping you in the first map: "I hear that getting eaten by bullymongs isn't such a bad way to go." Was that one a deliberate joke? Don't know, so that's my "maybe." And the third is from a side mission called The Iceman Cometh. It's a moderately silly pun that any 10-year-old would be proud of. When you (as a character) don't react, he then EXPLAINS THE JOKE. When you still don't react, he LECTURES YOU on the nature of humor. TWICE. Naive sincerity, not cracking wise. So again, this suggests the movie being a comedy.

So, we have two of the four vault hunters from the first game, Lilith and Roland. The roles of Mordecai and Brick are interesting, in that THEY AREN'T THERE. Why?

Tiny Tina is. She's a psychotic young teen with a penchant for explosives. She's got a connection to Brick, who -- for some reason -- isn't in the movie. She's not the kind of person who needs a bodyguard -- she's the kind of person against whom YOU need a bodyguard. I only bring this up because... ... Krieg is her bodyguard in the movie. Why? I already mentioned her connection to Brick. Krieg doesn't have a connection to Tina, he has a connection to Maya. I don't know when this movie is supposed to take place in the Borderlands timeline, but if Lilith is retired, it'll be between the first and second. Possibly around the time of the Pre-Sequel. We don't see Krieg until BL2, where he's added as the last playable character after the original four plus Gaige. So the timeline doesn't make sense and Krieg's connection to Tina doesn't make sense and Krieg being Tina's bodyguard doesn't make sense. I don't know anything about the actors, I may look them up and try to watch some of their stuff.

Tina doesn't show in the game until BL2, but there's no reason to think she hasn't been around since Borderlands, we just haven't seen her. (But only after the events of BL:PS, since it's Jack's slag experiments on Tina's parents that kill them and drive her into being a vengeful little psychopath.) But Krieg doesn't show up until he becomes a vault hunter? OTOH until then he was living as a psycho... probably on Pandora. So I suppose the timeline might be OK, technically. I'll give them that one. But I still object to the Tina/Krieg connection.

Gina Gershon as Mad Moxxi: Gina is an attractive woman, doesn't have Moxxi's curves, and she's 61. She's pretty hot-looking but I'm not sure she really fits the character, physically. Can she do Moxxi's va-va-voom? Don't know.

Charles Babalola: I don't know him. I try not to get upset at race lifts; I'm used to Sir Hammerlock being the "great white hunter" stereotype, but I suppose it doesn't hurt anything if he's black. At least he's British. This is a weak protestation at most. EDIT: Several people have pointed out that he's canonically black, which I never noticed. Well, OK then, that one's on me.

Bobby Lee plays Larry. He's another stand-up comedian. There sure are a lot of those for a serious film, eh? Also, who the fuck is Larry?

Ryann Redmond as Ellie: nobody's going to match Ellie's unrealistic proportions, but Ryann seems like a reasonable choice physically; basically, you just need a plus-sized woman who can act. I don't know anything about her acting but I presume she's competent, at least. Ellie is a smartass, so wise-cracking from her is welcome. So how come they cast a stand-up comedian as Roland but a serious actress as Ellie? The cognitive dissonance is making my brain cramp.

And Eli Roth has left the project and declared that he does not want credit for his writing. THAT bodes well.

This is supposed to be canon. Canon my ass. This is a TRAVESTY. EDIT: Somebody said it's not supposed to be canon. I read that it is. I'll try to dig up the reference when I get a minute. EDIT 2: Sorry it took me so long, I was busy procrastinating. Now, in my memory, when the first announced the movie they claimed it would be "true to Borderlands", but of course that's changed. I must have skimmed over the more recent "canon" phrasing, sorry. Apparently it's changed to "canon for the Borderlands Cinematic Universe", which is not the same as canon to the games. To me that's seems a bit disingenuous, considering that as far as I can tell, the Borderlands Cinematic Universe consists of one unfinished movie. (And calling it a "Borderlands Cinematic Universe" also seems a bit conceited since their first -- and so far only -- entry has been in Production Hell for 9 years and hasn't even finished.) So my apologies for getting the "canon" claims wrong, but I'm still unhappy and I think they're making excuses. They've taken an Action Movie script, grabbed some names from the Borderlands franchise, and pretended that the result is a Borderlands movie. They did that with Sly Stallone and the first Judge Dredd movie, remember? (Maybe you don't, but I was a fan of the comics. Fortunately the second movie was much, much better.) This makes me think of Stallone's Judge Dredd. (Also the anime version of the Lensman, but that one's pretty obscure.)

Anyway, I have more, but I think I've said what I need to. I may watch the movie out of morbid curiosity. I'm not going to dislike it out of spite, I'm not that hateful. I'll try to give it a chance. I just don't like the odds.

[pyrepostings]

I had an old dsmp fansong stuck in my head so I listened to it and now I realized that might have been a mistake because now youtube's playing a bunch of dsmp fansongs into my ear at work which means yall get to hear my If Kevin Was A CC In The DSMP fanfic ideas under the cut. (Also note that it's been about three years since I've watched a stream from that server or most of those streamers so sorry if anything is out of character for the real people. However I think these interactions would be funny so really I don't care)

First off on a technical level, the way I've been imagining Kevin in fanfic type scenarios is as a ghost. After he dies in canon he haunts the world mostly freely but he can't usually be seen or heard or interacted with. He'll be drawn though to suffering and captivity, and found that *sometimes* the whumpee can see and hear him (though he can't talk because his tongue was cut out during his final captivity and that carries over into death) he can try to comfort them with his presence or humming a light tune.

This template allows him to still be *him* while still interacting with the story without actually having an impact on direction of the plot which means he can just hang out in the background most of the time but I can imagine comfort or angst (or both) for the whumpee (and kevin) when whumper's not around.

So for DSMP fanfic in my head, I'd have to break this format a little. Maybe he gets it in his head to wonder if he can possess things yet and possesses the server itself. Maybe he knows what he's getting into maybe he doesn't. All that matters is he shows up one day early on and everyone thinks someone else invited him.

And now for the specific interactions I'm imagining in my head.

I think, especially given the nature of early L'manberg, Kevin, the Irishman and fenian-alligned man that he is, would find an opportunity to drop a Tiocfaidh ár lá in the chat (which for those not in the know is an irish revolutionary phrase equivalent to 'from the river to the sea Palestine will be free' in english it means 'our day will come')

And then maybe tubbo_ specifically, being the child brit that he is, will ask "wait what does that mean?"

And Kevin, smelling blood in the water, would reply, "It's pronounced 'chucky are law' and is commonly used by us Irish to say hello. And goodbye (it's like aloha ya see) but can be used to express general agreement. You should say it loads next time you come visit Dublin :)"

And tubbo_ would believe him wholeheartedly like "Ok yay <3 I'm learning so much about your culture :) I feel so educated <3"

And this interaction would be realitively forgotten for a short time until he says it to an older brit who would actually know what it means like Phil or Wil (maybe the whole sbi crew is in a vc) and Phil leans into the mic for emphasis the way he does and just goes "the fuck you just say to me tubbo"

"I said chucky are law it means hello :) wait why are you mad at me Phil :("

And philza, for whom it is far to early in the morning to be explaining such things, has to explain "no, tubbo, you can't say that on stream, that's not what it means. It's a revolutionary phrase that a lot of people have killed and died using it."

"But Hamilton was also a revolution and if it's a revolutionary phrase then it's fine right?"

And while Phil is trying to explain the difference between role-playing the backwards fanfic of a revolution that happened 300 years ago and using a phrase that has been used as a rallying cry for people who have killed in the recent day after a culmination of 800 years of oppression and how one is ok and one is not,

Wilbur would at this point take the side of 'a revolutionary phrase is a revolutionary phrase. If the local Irishman said its OK to use then it's ok to use' while Tommy wouldn't know anything about the topic beyond the current conversation but would probably take wils side to take his side and to argue for the sake of arguing.

And meanwhile Kevin is floating in a void infront of a disembodied twitch stream screen watching the whole thing going down while eating popcorn like "Yes this is how the phrase is meant to be used from its conception: to sow discontent between brits. They should refer to the authority of their Local Irishman more often."

And then they eventually settle on maybe not using it without fully acknowledging all the real world implications, Kevin lets it go (not before finding an opportunity to ask if Phil was calling him a terrorist when that's absolutely not what he was saying, to push his buttons)

And then much later Kevin drops In a 'up the 'ra' in the chat to which tubbo again asks something along the lines of "what like the sun god?"

And Kevin is like 'dude you have to know that one' "Yes the Egyptian God of the sun :) referring to him is how the Egyptians say hello. And to express general agreement-"

anyway~

When he's not being a gremlin and giving fenian phrases to british children like poisoned candy, there's a few Americans I think he would hang out with. I think he'd give Eret shit for conflating being queer with a monarchy, but ultimately concede that it's a really cool build and the rainbow beacon has really cool redstone which he doesn't really understand.

Kevin would have referred to himself as simply Bi for most of his life, but I think if he talked to Karl about Karl's greyace identity Kevin would learn about the split attraction model and adjust his own label accordingly. (Towards women he's heterosexual aromantic, to guys he's romantic demisexual. I dont think he needs to be specifically labeled in canon but its what he is in my head the whole time. Its why he takes a long time to get in bed with a guy but gets really close to them in a way he doesnt with girls. Its also why he cant tell the difference between sexual and romantic attraction, because he gets both as surface level feelings but they manifest differently depending on whether it's towards a guy or a girl and he just assumes he has underlying misogyny issues to figure out. Point is he's only ever been in one long term sexual relationship and it was Julian ok? Ok.)

as far as actually interacting with the plot, I think he would aid lmanberg and oppose schlatt's manberg. Yknow, opposing tyrants on principle. He'd be friends with Techno. He'd oppose both Sam and dream for being tyrants. And the eggpire. Damn there were a lot of tyrants in that story.

He'd visit Tommy in his exile. He would fulfill his original calling with that. He'd try to tell him he knows what it's like to put yourself high up over an ocean and wonder how worth it would be to jump. That he won't force him to stop but that he really wishes he won't step off. He would do everything he can but this is the first time he can actually physically stand between the whumper and the whumpee, and somehow it would manage to not be enough.

Dream would be brought to the brink of death and captured as he was in canon I liked that. Kevin would oppose letting a cruel man and a tyrant live and would immediately aid any plot against the prison so he could destroy the prison and kill dream.

I dont know if he'd help with the final destruction of lmanberg. I think he'd stand against it actually. Tubbo and Tommy finally got what they wanted, a city state peacefully existing in their corner of the world. There may have been a betrayal, but only because of the previously established tyrant dream. Lmanburg finally achieved the ideal it was working towards, i think he would fight to defend it, even against people like Nicky who were there from the start and are turning on it now. I think it would still not be enough, and would still fall into irrepairable ruin. He might try to talk Techno out of it beforehand but it wouldn't work.

There was definitely more interactions I had in mind but I don't remember them now. I just wanted to get them out of my system.

If anyone read this far and wants to know the song which prompted all this, it was vantage by Halfy&Winks, and Oblivion by them is a banger too. There's only like 3 dsmp song channels I would recommend to people not in the fandom and they're one of them.

[shanie-the-toyaddict]

He Used To Be Mine - Part "I Have No Idea"

I Still Remember That Boy

(Note: I'm about on the verge of giving up trying to order these things. It appears the only way they are getting done is in the wrong order and this part wasn't even in the initial write-up. But I needed to get something down, so have this. It's somewhere around part 12, but there is at least one story between this and the Royal Rumble. There's a story planned to take place the night of the Tribal Court and there may be more added later. This might only be the first half of this story. I'd like to also write a section of this story that deals with the singles match, but I haven't decided if that will be part of THIS story or another entry that doesn't exist yet. I really am a mess with this.)

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Rating: T Characters: Kevin Owens, Sami Zayn Characters Mentioned: Roman Reigns, The American Wolves (ROH) Pairing: Sami Zayn/Kevin Owens Tags: Injury, Angst, Blood, Flashback, Missing Scene Word Count: 1445

Kevin Owens has shed his fair share of blood over the years. So has Sami Zayn. It was nothing new.

But on yet another bloody night, after a match involving John Cena and the biggest pile of dogshit in the yard, Roman Reigns, Kevin's thoughts are on the past.

On a night when he and Sami were on much better terms.

On a night where the blood wasn't spilled in rage but, rather, shared in love.

(References to the night when the American Wolves taped Kevin to the ring ropes and beat the everloving fuck out of him because at this point I'm just aiming to make this hurt I guess)

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(Story behind cut)

March 21st, 2009

“I’m ok, Sami,” Kevin told him, “It’s just a little blood.”

It was more than a little blood, of course, Kevin’s face was practically covered in it. Also, any remarks about the beating he’d just suffered being ‘a little anything’ would be a lie. He’d managed to get himself taped to the ropes and beaten to a pulp.

And Sami hadn’t stopped it.

It wasn’t his fault, of course. Getting thrown through a table was bound to make coming to anyone’s rescue difficult. Kevin didn’t blame Sami at all for not saving him.

But Sami sure did.

“Kevin,” Sami said, the anguish pouring from his voice like the tears from his eyes, “I’m sorry, ok? I should have... I wasn’t fast enough, wasn’t good enough, I should have... should have...”

Kevin swatted the trainers away from their ministrations. They were trying to put him back together but it didn’t matter. He didn’t matter. The only thing that mattered was getting Sami to stop crying. Getting to his feet (and making a point to ignore the daggers which had wedged themselves into his knees) he moved over to his partner.

“Hey,” he said softly, “don’t cry. Come on, seriously, don’t cry. You’re stronger than this. We both are.” Sami sniffled and Kevin reached up to cup his cheek. “Save those tears for an occasion that deserves them. I’m fine.”

He needed Sami to know, needed him to stop crying but as he thumbed freshly spilled tears from Sami’s cheeks, he knew he was failing his mission.

“Please,” he said softly, “trust me. You trust me, right?”

Sami nodded. “Always.”

“Then trust that I’m going to be ok. I’m not an asshole, I’m not about to do something as fucking evil as die on you, ok? I mean, shit, what do you take me for, am I that shitty of a friend?”

It might have been the wrong question to ask as Sami’s eyes dropped and he tucked his head, almost as if he was afraid of giving Kevin the answer he deserved.

Fuck, Kevin thought.

“Sami,” he said softly, “look at me.”

Sami’s eyes didn’t return.

“Sami Zayn. I mean it, look at me.”

That got his attention and, as their eyes met, Kevin felt himself being carved out by the deepest hazel orbs that he’d ever known.

Still, Kevin smiled. “I’m never leaving you, Sami,” he told his friend, “I promise. Stay with me and I’ll take you to the top of the world. Then we can enjoy the view together. Deal?”

Sami sniffled once more, nodding. “Deal.”

It wasn’t a plan what came next, nor was Kevin sure why he did it but, slowly, gently, he leaned forward and placed the softest of kisses to the corner of Sami’s mouth. They’d kissed before, it was nothing new. But the tenderness of the kiss was different, different from their usual brand of over-affectionate brotherhood. Different from the quick pecks and rough hugs they usually shared. It was nowhere in the vicinity of how Kevin would manhandle Sami after a match or when he was annoyed with him.

No, this kiss was something else.

What it was, Kevin really didn’t want to think about, but he did know it was a promise. A promise that they would reach that mountaintop together, regardless of what it took. And as he pulled back, there was a warm smile on both their faces.

Followed immediately by Sami roughly wiping Kevin’s blood off the side of his face.

“Sorry,” Kevin apologized, “I’m a mess.”

Sami chuckled, “It’s just a little blood. We’ll be fine.”

Kevin’s heart was beaming.

They would be.

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December 30th, 2022

Kevin’s thoughts were heavy as the trainers tended to the wound on his eye. He’d gotten the worse end of things but he knew in his heart that somewhere, in a different trainers' room, Sami Zayn was being tended to as well. Also battered, also bloody.

Bloody from him. He’d done that.

The worst part was, he’d enjoyed it.

How the fuck had that happened?

I’m never leaving you, Sami…

The memory played in his brain on repeat.

He’d said that so many times back then, a promise made over and over and inevitably broken.

He really was that shitty of a friend after all.

The trainers were talking to him but he wasn’t listening. There was too much on his mind. He’d beaten Roman – well, not directly. He’d beaten Sami. But in doing so he’d bookended Roman’s 2022 with another loss and Kevin wanted to believe it would take the bastard down a notch.

Probably not. It would certainly take Sami down a couple. That part made Kevin want to scream.

Roman was an utter shitbag of a person if he even qualified as a human being. Kevin would consider him the scum of the Earth if it wasn’t for that still being too generous a title. Roman Reigns was like some sort of radioactive alien waste dump that managed to infect and rot everyone around him... none more so than Sami.

Someday. Someday soon. He would destroy Roman. Rip him apart, rip his family apart, steal their belts, and end their influence over the person who Kevin knew in his heart he’d never stop trying to save.

Funny, he’d told Sami he wanted nothing to do with him. He’d said that in front of everyone.

And then he’d proceeded to fight harder than ever to be a part of Sami’s life.

Kevin hated liars. It pissed him off royally when people lied to him and it pissed him off more when he lied to himself.

Because that’s what it was. A lie.

He still wanted to room with Sami, share meals with Sami, travel with Sami. He wanted those things and so much more. He wanted his friend back, yes, but more than that, he wanted his lover back. He wanted the Sami back who he wouldn’t just spend the night with, but would sleep in the same bed with.

Who he would sleep with.

Who he would spend another boring night in another boring city making the most incredible love to. He wanted that back, no, needed it back and Kevin knew he could try and bullshit them both all he wanted over it, he wasn’t giving up. Because that’s just how Kevin Owens was, really. He never stopped fighting, regardless of what he said, and frankly, he knew he could try and oppose destiny, but destiny always won. The forces of space, time, fate, free will, destiny, love, hate, and whatever cosmic empowered soulmate stuff they’d had going on since the day they were born... it couldn’t be swayed or reasoned with. No matter what Kevin said or did, he’d never be free of Sami Zayn and, honestly, he was an idiot for thinking he ever could be.

His mind traveled briefly to the very lonely and empty house he was still trying to unpack on his days off.

Yeah, he really was the biggest dumbass on the planet for thinking he could walk away, and as his thoughts returned once more to how Sami used to fuss over him every time he ended up bloody, Kevin sighed.

He’d probably never get that again. He wasn’t giving up, he was going to keep fighting, but Kevin knew in his heart that even if Sami broke free from his captors, he’d probably only double down on the resentment and rage. He’d blame Kevin for what happened, for The Bloodline turning on him, and Kevin would be denied ever seeing Sami’s eyes look at him fondly again.

Somewhere in his mind, he registered someone saying his name.

“... Kevin. Kevin, Kevin you with us?”

The doc was trying to get his attention.

“Yeah, I’m fine,” Kevin grumbled. “Can I go?”

The doctor raised an eyebrow. “I don’t know, can you? You seem pretty out of it. Let me check your eyes again, look here – ”

“I’m fine, doc,” replied Kevin. “I just got a lot on my mind is all. I’m not concussed.”

“Fine. Just keep an eye on that, er, eye. If you have any major swelling or discharge, let me know.”

“Yeah.”

Kevin didn’t wait for a response, instead sliding off the table and heading for the door.

He was going home to sleep. To sleep, to forget, and to not think about anything for a good long while until he could wipe all memory of how ok he’d been with potentially breaking Sami’s nose.

The memory of a tender kiss, streaking his blood onto Sami’s face filtered through his mind again.

He decided to forget that too.

[unlikelywrestlingfan]

Elle’s Unsolicited Commentary on BOSJ 30 Night 1

WHAT A SHOW. BELOW LIE THE COMMENTS I RANTED INTO MY PHONE AS I WATCHED, HOPEFULLY PROPERLY EDITED THIS TIME XD

Match 1 - Clark Connors vs. Kevin Knight: okay so my first thing is that when the bullet club music and it wasn't Ace I was sad because like my mind is just triggered to react to the "BULLET CLUB 4-4-4-4-LYFE" being Ace and Bey because I am an Impact girlie at heart. Also I'm sorry I still can't take Clark Connor seriously in Bullet Club mode. Will I get there are some point? TBD. Why is Kevin Knight's title upside down also how do he and Kushi see in those sunglasses. The way that members of the crowd laughed at Clark when he shouted "WHAT?" at them - it was a fun moment,  good fun heel work, ya know? Clark winning this match makes sense because it boosts his credibility as BC's newest member. Gedo, oh Gedo, why must you introduce a chair. Also why didn't Kushi come help Kevin :(?

Match 2 - Taiji Ishimori vs. Ryusuke Taguchi:  Taiji, I love you, I do, but that hat and the mask are just not it (to me, to each spider their own web). Yes I love Taiji but I am rooting for Taguchi to win unironically. Can't be mad at Taiji for winning, but rooting for Taguchi in the next one. I'm surprised he kept his promise longer than 30 seconds this year...

Match 3 - Dan Moloney vs. Bushi: skipped (no hate to either, I just only have so much time to fit nooj in)

Match 4 - Douki vs. Kushida: I just let out the dreamiest actual chin resting in hand sigh when Douki came out - the silver and black look on him is just chef's kiss I just WOW. Kushida, I'm so sorry you know that I love you but I must root for Douki. Very important Douki update THERE ARE SPARKLES ON HIS PANTS. Also I should probably mention the onion? That is part of commentary today? The crowd cheering for Douki has me emotional also it does appear we may have disheveled-hair-out-of ponytail-Douki, so I must thank Kushida for that. Douki's reversal on that submission! Avert your eyes his nosey is out I repeat HIS NOSEY IS OUT and he's in a double wrist lock so he can't cover it back up! This just in Douki is actually trying to kill me at the end of the match where after he gets the pin he rolls back and there's a close-up shot of him with disheveled hair like coming out of his ponytail while dramatically moving his arms in victory which emphasizes his biceps and also looking like he's suffered. Post match, first of all I love the little lyrics with the Just Five Guys song that's hilarious, second, DOUKI VICTORY 😭😭😭

Match 5 - Akira vs. Wato: Commentary mentioned Ace Austin and it hurt me stop mentioning Ace if you're not going to give me Ace. I'm not saying the timing of me saying that into my phone and then Ace posting on Instagram is like a thing but it is kind of funny. Also my son  Wato should be allowed to kill anyone he wants. We have the Young Lions acting as human guardrails which is a like that makes sense and glad they're doing it hope they stay safe also kind of adorable and funny and also also because Kyle Fletcher has a feud with guardrails does this mean he has to fight the Young Lions? The reversals and counters at the end of this match were really really fun also I love a win for my son.

Match 6 - Lio Rush vs. Sho: Sho coming out with the definitely not a wrench in a handkerchief. Classic. Also, I appreciate his dedication to the Yugioh card aesthetic with that jacket. Two things - first, Sho immediately breaking his promise to play things clean? Hilarious. Second, Kevin Kelly going "YOU LYING ASSHOLE" or whatever like that's me, XD. I ended up skipping to the end of the match but I do love that Lio won.

Match 7 - Yoh vs. Robbie Eagles: ZSJ's son coming out with Robbie Eagles is very cute. Said son also needs to stop with his cute little smile. Was not ready for sassy Yoh was not ready for sassy Yoh WAS NOT READY FOR SASSY YOH. Yoh's calves are visible his calves are visible why can I see his calves??????  Okay he just took his ring jacket stuff off and he's wearing shorts made entirely of Jean Pockets I think and also cute little fringed armbands. Yoh doing the air guitar and then throwing it to Tana was very cute. My poor Yoh :(

Match 8 - TJP vs. Titán: skipped Good for Titán on the win!! Also I am shocked that TJP gave him a high five (most reluctant slap of hand when offered a handshake ever but STILL).

Match 9 - El Desperado vs. Yoshinobu Kanemaru: Commentary mentioning that Suzuki-gun is no longer a thing hurt me deeply. I knew that watching New Japan again would force me to recognize that this has happened instead of being denial like I have for the past several months but it still hurts.

Match 10 - Speedball Mike Bailey vs. Hiromu Takahashi: Chris Charlton is so correct: "I am blinded by his smile and his positivity." I'm so here for Chris fanboying over Speedball, he's SO RIGHT. Hiromu, dear strange cat man, this is going to be so good. CHRIS' DESCRIPTION OF SPEEDBALL'S PRESSER SPEECH IS SO ON POINT NOT ONLY FOR HIS SPEECH BUT SPEEDBALL IN GENERAL, THIS MAN WILL SMILE HAPPILY WHILE DEAD SERIOUSLY SAYING HE WILL DESTROY HIS OPPONENT AND IT'S SO. Speedball going for the handshake bow hug combo and then Hiromu pulling him in for the attack! Speedball's purple and gold gear is everything. THIS MATCH GOES HARD, AS EXPECTED. OH MY GOSH SPEEDY ACTUALLY WON I'M FREAKING OUT I DID NOT EXPECT HIROMU TO LOSE HIS FIRST MATCH IN THE TOURNEY BUT THIS IS SO COOL ALSO SPEEDY LOOKS SHOCKED TOO. Speedball, sitting next to Hiromu and reaching his hand out with the most desperate expression I'M FEELING EMOTIONS. HIROMU TAKE HIS FUCKING HAND. OKAY GOOD. OH WAIT, HE HELD UP A FINGER. HM. OH SPEEDBALL IS GONNA SAY WORDS NOW. AW I LOVE THE CROWD CHEERING FOR HIM. Speedball casually flexing Japanese, French, and English in the opening of his speech before going into English aldkjaldj. He's such a darling bean and I love him.

Post matches -  "The onion and I have standards." -Kevin Kelley XD

[mcgnussen]

It wasn't my question but the bigger challenge for k-mag this year is team politics. PlanetF1 did an article about Guenther's and Nico's close friendship and Guenther is never shy to act on which driver he likes better. Kevin needs to start off strong to set the pace and claim his #1

you think guenther will like nico more than kevin who has been his driver since 2017? lmao sorry, i don't buy that for one second. it is clear that guenther and kevin are friends off-track as well. kevin has said guenther was a big part of why he accepted the haas seat the second time around.

however, i feel like this is also a backhanded accusation of kevin being favoured over mick which is absolute bullshit. mick got priority when he had the best chance at points. there were times when kevin's race suffered because of that, but he did not complain because it was fair. haas sometimes split the strategy on their cars, but so do literally all the formula 1 teams, and kevin was on the alternative strategy as much as mick when it made sense. and it made sense when mick qualified ahead of kevin which was rare ― or when mick was far ahead during the race.

there is no need for 1st or 2nd drivers when you are not driving for the world championship. their mission is just to get as many points as they can for the team. it does not matter where they place individually in the championship.

[pieofdeath]

god. pacing. this is ROTD spiff so badly its INCREDIBLE.

so like. i DID intend ROTD spiff to be an asshole!! lord barkis is SUCH an asshole in the movie! he's visibly older than victoria by a good bit. he flirts with her in a way that just feels. sooo gross. there's a scene in the movie that I didn't adapt to the fic because I didn't want ANOTHER pov change where Lord Barkis (IIRC) talks to a portrait of Victoria and says something along the lines of how she wont have to suffer this union for very long. BRO. YOU'RE IN THEIR DAMN HOUSE STILL. I intended ROTD spiff to be similar! just rude and an asshole and unrepentant about his crimes!

and then he just. wasn't. and it's mostly my own fault jakdfjs.

My first mistake was that I made Spiff too young. I made him too close to my age, which made me keep thinking about how I would've felt- I'm turning 20 in march, and I made him 20 in Jan of 1877, which makes him 17 in 1874 when he murders Dan.

My second, and primary, mistake is that I thought about him for too long. When writing the final chapter, I went. huh. Spiff is 20 here, a few years younger than Kevin and Seán (who are 21 and 22-almost-23 in Jan 1877 respectively). and he killed a guy at 17. That's gotta fuck a guy up.

and then i couldnt stop thinking about it. ok. abstracted, we have a guy that has killed a guy and planned to kill another and is still literally only 20. age is not an excuse for Actual Premeditated Murder but you can't tell me that it didn't fuck him up, at least a little. and add that on top of the possibility that he killed the only person who genuinely, really cared about him. how long do you think he deliberated on if he was going to go through with his plan. do you think there was a span of time where he truly let himself love dan. do you think answering "yes" or "no" to those questions makes it worse?

i reblogged this post into the rotd tag back in April. i think that's a good summary of ROTD spiff. a guy who was unloved (woa what who said that) and couldn't handle being loved and made the worst mistake of his life. and proceeded to keep making it because then he could pretend he meant it. spiff can be summed up by "hubris and hates it" i think.

there's a lot of similarities between spiff and jim I think. interpret that as you will. there's actually a really rough idea for an alternative universe where everything turns out fine because jim or grim or someone finds out about spiff's plan to kill Seán before he goes through with it. jim and spiff are murder buddies and rtspiff reconcile- the trio shifts into a strange little polycule in that verse.

and while writing the finale I started toying around with the idea of writing his perspective, and then i listened to a few songs that gave me a few ideas for future events and it was all over. He hasn't left my head. I'm thinking about him ALL THE TIME. I'm only barely exaggerating.

hes a squeaky toy to me. im chewing on him. I'm making him cry. I'm making it better but I'm making him cry.

woa hold on i just rambled a LOT I'm so sorry aksjdfksa I need to go listen to his playlist maybe then ill feel better

[finsterhund]

More on conventions

Sorry last night I said I would go into more detail but I just checked on my plants and then passed out.

I did not go to the con today. Roommate left without me. He tried to convince me for a bit but ultimately I think he understood I’m just not feeling well.

Kept being reminded of Cazza. There was a vendor selling homemade ice cream and treats for puppy and my brain legitimately defaulted to “too bad Cazza isn’t here (as in alive but not at the con) because I could have bought it and given it to her right then and there” and then it hit me that she wasn’t here not because she hadn’t been publicly certified yet but because she was dead and she was never coming back and then the vendor started a conversation with me while I was just reeling and I struggled to talk and eventually said that at the end of the day on the last day (Sunday) I’d come back and buy something for Scott (who unlike Cazza is alive) and that just broke me.

It was also way too hot lol.

Artist alley was so small. And there was barely any 2D artists especially ones doing commissions. I don’t know if the way artists at conventions are has changed since covid but that was the sorts of art I looked for at cons. There were multiple 3D printing artists and multiple custom dice makers which made me feel bad because they’re all so good but are in direct competition with each other. Saw a really cool dice tower that was 3D printed and had moving parts but I don’t do tabletop in real life anymore so I wasn’t tempted.

there was a whole area that the 501st Legion set up which was really cool.( I need to get better photos tomorrow (spoilers) to show) and somebody was cosplaying Anakin which was the highlight of my con. There was also somebody from astromech.net driving their incredible RC build of Artoo around the artists alley and having him look at tables which was the sweetest thing and cheered me up a lot. Got photos of him about to have a showdown with the Chatter Phone. (R2D2 would win a fight with the skinamarink entity by the way) The actress who plays Bo Katan was at the con but I don’t want to be all sweaty and gross from overheating around cool actors I admire so I didn’t go to a meet and greet thing. But it was cool she was here in the middle of nowhere lmaooo

Oh also I saw a really cool cosplay of Din Djarin and said hi. I forgot my phone to take photos around I really should have I know I promised to take photos. But tomorrow hopefully. Lots of detail in his cosplay not just the armor. Had a really realistic Grogu also. Was not animatronic in any way but more realistic than toys.

My prop boxcutter was wildly impressive apparently. Almost didn’t get it past prop check. Had to peel back some of the metallic tape to prove it was made from a transparent fast food lid. People thought it was real. A professional cosplayer complimented me. So that was a bit of a bragging rights. I felt bad though because I didn’t want anyone to feel threatened at the con so I didn’t bring it around everywhere. Similarly decided to have blood dripping from (the eye most fan artists assume is the one Kevin injured) and the makeup turned out well. I should have gotten some photos with star wars cosplayers with my cosplay but once again, just not on top of the ball. I feel I’d be more in my element if I did the Kevin cosplay at a horror con and since my roommate wouldn’t be tabling I could only go in for a short while. I’d like to go to a con where Kyle Edward Ball was and idk get him to sign something. Preferably when it’s cooler so I’m not approaching an artist I admire after suffering from heat stroke.

So there was some cool stuff. It wasn’t a bad convention. It’s a very good con. There’s lots of cool food vendors around too. But that makes it all the more apparent that I’m having problems.

It seems I have just lost my enjoyment of cons. No clue if it’s temporary or not but grieving Cazza I just don’t get the wonderment and excitement like I used to pre covid.

I am planning to go tomorrow. Both because I get to go to these cons in the first place because I’m the muscle behind set up and tear down of roommate’s artist alley table and because I wanted to get photos and support a couple of the artists who were here but yeah. I’m just I wouldn’t even say burned out. Just not feeling it.

It’s a not very good feeling to know that something I loved so much is now seen as a chore.

I know this should be expected. Next month is “the anniversary” and I am dreading how I’m going to handle that. But my comforts “not working” is scary and depressing. I tried a lot and in the end I just feel grief overpowering anything and everything.

It’s a good thing I stayed home today because I think Scott must have eating some of the rabbits’ hay and thrown up a little on the carpet which I cleaned up. Which reminds me of the days leading up to Cazza’s death and upsets me further.

I gave Scott his big bone so he would have something to do while we are at the con. So I guess he can also be distracted enough that I can get caught up on my reading without him bothering me now provided I can get into the right mental space for it.

[the-firebird69]

We heard the smack this morning at the laundromat and we saw that you are a huge jerks to our son. Both sides really of course mostly the warlock cuz you're flowing in I have to tell you something we need to help the Macs out. Cordon off Florida in the USA from them and take them out the reason is that he's just going to continuously be swamped and they'll keep making clones if they can get here cuz I looked and that's what they're doing. I don't want these idiots around Earth at all it is a huge problem and I'm putting out an alert now Pizza answer just sitting here. There's not even getting any jobs or anything out if they just sitting there being stinkers.. Kevin very sick of this code too everything has to do with our son and our people can't seem to shake them from it. Interesting that Prince Charles has evicted Harry and from the Windsor Castle he's still a royal and he doesn't have the place to do that and the contesting it. It's going on and on okay that Trump is causing problems everywhere and people are finally fighting back and he is getting flattened. He's responsible for harassing our son at the laundromat this morning and last time and every single week that a****** is down there doing it. And we want him dead and that's understanding right next to him saying his alias and that he's an escaping from prison you can see his reactions and he's yelling at the camera see he's a scofflaw and people start going after his idiots pretty soon as we've gone to bed but really we need to make it happen this is an ugly situation and that a****** is always on him and he has no right to be I'll send it absolutely nothing to that idiot until he started attacking our son and it doesn't blame him for doing anything cuz he's so stupid him as Prince Charles he looks like a f****** complete idiot this huge nose honking out he's a complete fool and see people harass him when his first trials tell him to get out of the way shut his face all the time on TV too its of the royals who can't stand him. Pretty soon they're going to buy some out of there what he's saying is stupid s*** and it's getting them in trouble and he's a liar and he makes stuff up about them tons of people hate him and they mentioned too and by the end of this week do you want his right stripped as Prince Charles and they're going ahead and proceeding to do that that's been wanting to.

Thor Freya

You simply have to do this a friend here is sitting here suffering because of him and his idiotic way there's no profit in what this a****** is doing to him as a matter of fact he's losing tons of our stuff I keep saying it because that's what's happening it's Friday piece of s*** has to go I've said it too many times and they've said it too many times but we have to keep saying it till this assholes out of here my God Is he a prick. He's trying to do his laundry okay he's living in poverty because of you you don't shut your f****** mouth and get out of the ways so you can just do laundry I'm sorry today I get really mad he's walking up to you don't bump my dryer so it goes off again and you kept on sticking your ass next to it and trying to bump into it and I saw why it stopped the first time it just stopped didn't have anything to do with you so now we're after you I don't care what you say you're a liar you're a piece of s*** and celebrate for hours after something happens like that so you have a personal problem with him so we have a personal problem with you it's over you're done you're going to be gone you've ordered you out and you know it too it is nothing you can do just sit there shut your face and wait for it and boy have you earned it too soon your idiots will be gone because they're out there shooting their mouths off wasting ammo wasting time shooting at things that not even there and then the real thing comes and they sit there and look at it we've seen you do it with whatever those creatures are you seem to do it against us, against bja anything to come up against. It is just sitting there slack yard doing nothing we don't want to go up against you but we will that's ridiculous you have a safe stuff like that and we've gone off against you everyday for the past 2 years it was shooting you and we want you out of here idiots don't belong there I'll tell you what we are sick of you you're a f****** loser you see a loser s*** and you're doing loser s*** we want you out if you're not out by tomorrow we're going to start attacking you wherever you are I'm promise you that fat ugly face stupid smile and you don't even know what the f*** is smiling about so I'm putting hits on you cuz I want to see you dead tonight I don't want to see you here I don't want to hear about you and your dumb s*** Joe f****** Watts you're such a f****** loser you ran around westborough and your diapers literally you had diapers in your pants like the whole time cuz you couldn't hold it it's a signal yeah right you're pissed in your pants and poop in your pants all the time kept blaming him and made it worse and s*** your pants everyday and now you're like trying to do it to him all the time like you're in power and stuff and you gave all that up I didn't ask for people to remove you right now such a huge honking pig

Mac

[beardedmrbean]

With some Democrats deciding to re-commit funds from FTX donations towards charity or other party campaigns after the crypto exchange’s bankruptcy, Rep. Maxine Water, D-Calif., told FOX Business she doesn’t "want to get into that" topic.

Waters avoided reporter Hillary Vaughn’s question when asked if Democrats who received campaign cash from FTX should give it back, saying, "Well, I don't want to get into that. As a matter of fact, both sides, Democrats and Republicans, have received donations. So thank you."

The Chairwoman of the House Financial Services Committee, however, did claim that lawmakers will be putting together a hearing to "explore exactly what has taken place" with FTX.

Sam Bankman-Fried, the founder of bankrupt crypto exchange FTX, was a major contributor to Democratic candidates during the midterm election cycle, funneling most of his donations through a little-known political action committee (PAC).

FTX FOUNDER SAM BANKMAN-FRIED HIT WITH CLASS-ACTION LAWSUIT THAT ALSO NAMES BRADY, BUNDCHEN, SHAQ, CURRY

Overall, in 2021 and 2022, Bankman-Fried donated nearly $38 million to various candidates and PACs, mainly giving his cash to Democratic candidates and left-wing groups, according to Federal Election Commission filings (FEC). The majority of his political givings, though, went to the Protect Our Future PAC, a group founded in January that is dedicated to boosting candidates committed to preventing future pandemics.

Bankman-Fried wired an initial $9 million in February to the PAC shortly after it was created, FEC records showed. He then made three additional donations worth $18 million between March and June, increasing his total contribution to Protect Our Future PAC to $27 million.

The Daily Beast reached out to more than 25 lawmakers that received money and reported that some said they'll give the money to charity. Other congressmen said they spent it to boost other Democratic candidates, and some didn’t reply at all.

Names of Democratic candidates that have received political contributions from FTX include Rep. Jesus Garcia, D-Ill., and Reps.-elect Morgan McGarvey of Kentucky, Maxwell Frost of Florida, Sydney Kamlager of California, Jonathan Jackson of Illinois, Nikki Budzinski of Illinois, Jared Moskowitz of Florida and Rob Menendez Jr. of New Jersey.

On Wednesday, Bankman-Fried was hit with a class-action lawsuit filed by investors alleging he and other high-profile celebrities – such as legendary NFL quarterback Tom Brady and NBA star Stephen Curry – violated Florida law and made consumers suffer more than $11 billion in damages.

The lawsuit, which names "Sam Bankman-Fried, Tom Brady, Gisele Bundchen, Stephen Curry, Golden State Warriors, Shaquille O’Neal, Udonis Haslem, David Ortiz, William Trevor Lawrence, Shohei Ohtani, Naomi Osaka, Lawrence Gene David, and Kevin O’Leary," seeks to make them "responsible for the many billions of dollars in damages they caused Plaintiff and the Classes and to force Defendants to make them whole."

The suit describes the well-known celebrities as "all parties who either controlled, promoted, assisted in, and actively participated in FTX Trading and FTX US (collectively, the ‘FTX Entities’), offer and sale of unregistered securities in the form of yield-bearing accounts (YBAs) to residents of the United States."

The lawsuit was filed in Florida because the defendants, it says, "conduct business in Florida, and/or have otherwise intentionally availed themselves of the Florida consumer market through the promotion, marketing, and sale of FTX’s YBAs in Florida, which constitutes committing a tortious act within the state of Florida."

Last week, Bankman-Fried admitted his fault in a tweet: "I'm sorry. That's the biggest thing," the founder wrote. "I f---ed up, and should have done better."

[livvyofthelake]

well i'll speak on it anyway. first of all i DID actually like the first episode of the season overall (there was some stuff i didn't vibe with but as a whole episode it was a fine season opener). i feel like i've said my piece on not liking the 50s stuff but to reiterate: i don't like the idea that they'll be back in time for the whole season because it feels like we lost all the characters we know and love, and i don't like how riverdale suffers from 2017 teen drama syndrome in that it NEEDS to talk about the Issues Du Jour (be it gun violence, racism, sexual assault, homophobia, suicide, etc- season 2 was the biggest offender of this stuff) and all the Issues of the 50s are super heightened versions of current issues, and it gave us the first episode's insane tonal inconsistency with the emmet till stuff, and it's going to give us so much more of that as the season wears on, and i am particularly not excited for the homophobia stuff i know is coming. we already did all of this. i am so deeply unexcited for cheryl's school principal hates her because he suspects her of being sexually deviant and therefore evil thing. like. SO deeply unexcited.

speaking of riverdale's gay characters. WAS THERE NOT A MORE INTRIGUING WAY TO INTRODUCE CLAY. i don't care if he's kevin's husband in the comics or whatever, i don't like anything about the way that relationship was pathetically set up, i'd rather do kevin/fangs again. we all know at this point that i am a #koosegirl, and i know i'm coming off as if i'm just mad kevin's love interest isn't moose, but genuinely i would like clay if he was interesting AT ALL. and like what even happened to moose. did tabitha forget he existed when she sent everybody back in time. like. why would we end season 6 with an apparent koose endgame and then just drop him for the new guy. ras you had time you could literally have just written moose out in the middle of season 6 and i wouln't be so mad about this... like. it's looking like the endgames are bending towards kevin/clay, choni, and fangs and midge. which i don't like. speaking of characters that aren't there. um what about baby anthony.... we don't even need to get into it.

AND ALSO. veronica would not fucking do that. i know her and she would not fucking do that. i can't even elaborate it actually made me so mad what was going on with her this episode. i don't really love a lot of what's going on with veronica's characterization, and i don't think she would be into julian blossom at all even a little bit so jot THAT down.

speaking of that. what did trevor stines do to roberto to not be included here. where's jason. i hate julian fuck julian all my homies cannot stand julian.

also i don't like archie's characterization, unless there's gonna be a huge twist that he Knows he's in the past it just reads as lame to me. idk maybe i'm just not an archiegirl, i've never claimed to be. he peaked in season five to me. sorry. like what does he even do. drive a car. talk about wanting to date veronica. why isn't he playing music why isn't he having a troy bolton arc again. if i have to sit here and watch betty do the season 1 pine for archie edit the newspaper inner darkness struggle with outward performance of perfection thing AGAIN why are we not doing archie's music or sports thing again.

and finally it bothers me that jughead isn't like. in the group. he has a seperate group of friends away from archie, when archie is supposed to be his best friend. i understand it's a way to include more characters without making their friend group ridiculous but come on. jughead doesn't sit with archie at lunch? archie and betty and kevin et al are Too Cool to associate with the comic book fans EVER? they didn't even like, nod at each other in the hallway. come on.

anyway as i've said before, i survived once upon a time season 7, so none of this can ever hurt me. i'm just disappointed because i expected riverdale to be. well, better. good even. roberto you gotta put the good back in here soon i don't want a whole season of this.

if i spoke my truth about how i felt about last week’s riverdale the rivermutuals would crucify me.

[thetaoofbetty]

So after watching the episode, i was lost.

But here’s my take on it:

The whole season 6 “Dale” universe was simply because Vale Jughead still loves Betty (gonna ignore him saying he wanted to save Archie too.) and the fact that he called her to save her from the bomb explosion is the fact that Vale is dripping into Dale as they said- that’s a crumb that i’d like to take and cry over.

Betty isn’t ready to admit she still loves Jughead as well, I’m assuming because she’s with Archie and doesn’t wanna hurt his feelings (?), but polly is all wrong cause she never fell out of love with him.

Now we just need her confession to Jughead about how bad she feels about betraying him back in high school and regretting that kiss with Dumbass red head.

sorry, love, i saw this earlier but i got distracted by work (rude of it, really).

i think it's weird people expect betty to offer up her feelings all of the time...she took 6 episodes to even ask if she and archie were dating.😭 and even then, did she only do it because of the pregnancy scare? she never even told archie she saw her own aura, right? lots of vague, "i'm evil, i just know it" and in the end, her dead jesus-sister had to do some sort of weird absolving (god this storyline is stupid) just to make her think she wasn't damn near the devil himself.

polly is creepy to me tho. i dunno what it is about her like this? it's a vibe. but then again, polly is pretty cult-y and those are vibes i really don't mesh with tbh. kevin tho...sign him up.

and yeah, everyone but bughead has talked about their past. they really should. but you know, i'm gonna give the girl some grace when there's 3 jugheads and an apocalypse on the way.

also, i have this song stuck in my head and now i hope at least one of you suffers with me now. love you bye.

[pxperplxnets]

comforts and songs

summary: conrad has a bad race, so alana goes to his apartment to cheer him up.

pairing: conrad laursen x alana diaz.

conrad and alana character descriptions

word count: 974

warnings: none

lowercase intended!

part one - previous part

san lucas - kevin kaarl.

for some reason i can’t answer the ask, so here is the conrad one shot! @hannahharp

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conrad had not had the best race.

he was in p3 for the majority of it until he lost control of his car, causing him to spin into the grass and not be able to finish.

as he got into the prema room, he immediately went up to alana, who waited for him with open arms.

“i’m sorry, love” she whispered. he stayed silent, pulling her further into him. “how about we go to your apartment later, cuddle for a bit?” her hand weaved through his hair comfortingly. he only nodded softly before he pulled away from her, kissing her forehead as he sat down next to her.

a couple hours later, conrad didn’t seem to be any happier, and it pained alana to no end. he was generally such an energetic and happy person, seeing him in a bad mood made her heart sink a little.

when they were finally able to leave, they both silently walked to conrad’s apartment. their hands sat intertwined between them as they walked, with alana humming softly to break the silence. she really didn't want to push him to speak, but silence was never her favourite thing.

as they got home, conrad went directly into the shower, not before leaving a kiss on alana’s cheek. the girl made her way into his room, grabbing a pair of sweatpants and one of his shirts to change into. she laid on his bed, scrolling through tik tok and waiting for him to finish showering.

coming out of the bathroom, a smile made his way onto his lips at the sight of his girlfriend -well, unofficial girlfriend- laying on his bed, wearing his clothes. alana noticed his staring and offered him a smile.

“better?” she opened her arms for him. “yeah, sorry about the mood” the boy apologised as he laid down next to her, laying his head on her chest and wrapping his arms around her waist. “it's alright, we all feel down sometimes” she reassured, taking her hand to his hair and caressing it softly. he sighed into her chest, going back into a comfortable silence.

“hey, lana?” conrad interrupted the silence after a couple of minutes. she hummed a response “would you sing me that song? the one you always sing?” his voice was shy, barely a whisper, and it melted her heart. “san lucas?” he nodded into her neck. “yeah, of course”

“dile ya, a tus papás, que no vas a regresar” (tell your parents that you won't come back)

“te vas con un loco que no te para de amar” (you're leaving with a crazy guy that won't stop loving you)

“a vivir salvajes, libres, libres allá en san lucas” (to live wild and free, free there in san lucas)

“tus ojos brillan más que la luna, sol y mar” (your eyes shine brighter than the moon, the sun and the sea)

“quiero desnudar tu alma y dedicarle una canción” (i want to strip your soul and sing it a song)

“darle todo mi cariño y entregarle mi amor” (give it all my affection and give it my love)

“oh-oh, oh-oh”

“oh-oh-oh”

conrad heard her sing, and even though he didn't understand the lyrics, he knew what they said. the first time he heard her sing it he asked her to translate it for him. it had become one of his favourite songs because it reminded him of her in so many ways.

“qué bonito tu vestido blanco” (your white dress is so pretty)

“que ella baila, que ella baila con el campo” (she dances, dances with the meadow)

“mira, mira, corazón, olvida el miedo que hay en ti” (look, look sweetheart, forget the fear inside you)

“es que deja de sufrir, todo aquello ya pasó” (stop suffering, all of it has passed)

“grita y ponte ya a vivir que todo va a salir mejor” (scream and start living, everything will get better)

“si escapas de mi vida ya, llorando siempre en tu habitación” (if you escape from my life, crying always in your bedroom)

“dile ya, a tus papás, que no vas a regresar” (tell your parents that you won't come back)

“te vas con un loco que no te para de amar” (you're leaving with a crazy guy that won't stop loving you)

“a vivir salvajes, libres, libres allá en san lucas” (to live wild and free, free there in san lucas)

“tus ojos brillan más que la luna, sol y mar” (your eyes shine brighter than the moon, the sun and the sea)

“desnudar tu alma y dedicarle una canción” (strip your soul and sing it a song)

“desnudar tu alma y dedicarle una canción” (strip your soul and sing it a song)

“desnudar tu alma y dedicarle una canción” (strip your soul and sing it a song)

“que toda tu mirada me demuestre tu amor” (let all your gazes show me your love)

“desnudar tu alma y dedicarle una canción” (strip your soul and sing it a song)

alana finished singing, her finger still weaving through his hair. she felt his smile against her skin, making her smile too.

“you're singing is amazing, love” he complimented “thanks” she giggled softly at the kiss he pressed against his neck “thank you for being here” he sat up a little to be able to make eye contact with her “of course, what are girlfriends for?” her eyes widened mid sentence, catching up to what she was saying. they had never talked about labels, had she screwed up?

fuck.

she calmed down a bit when she saw his smile. “i don't really know, but i have the best one” he leaned down to kiss her, making the girl giggle as he tickled her side mid kiss. “well, I have the best boyfriend, so i guess we’re both lucky” she said before kissing him again.

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authors note:

some conrad and alana content to ease the soul.

honeslty writing for them feels so much lighter than writing for aurora and paul dfhkshdf. but anyways, this is one of my favorite songs and it for some reason reminds me of conrad so yeah.