#sorry I’m not active I’m sick

[hekate-gf]

[royaltea000]

[wipinf] thinking bout that one part in jttw96 where nezha and hong hai er fight in a dream

[hardtofindneuro]

getting personal because i miss interacting with everyone & i don’t want to lose friends here because im super inactive & unresponsive right now.

for the last 12 days, i’ve been a 24/7 caregiver to my grandmother. we are, and have always been, extremely close. she’s on hospice and i’m heartbroken, but doing my best to spend time with her in her last few days. i’m taking off from work but still working online for my two jobs while at hospice, taking care of my grandma, and writing 1 chapter every night for my advent fic. this year has been hit after hit after hit, but writing & this fandom are my safe havens most days. so, i miss you guys & im trying my best to write this advent fic on time, so i swear im not trying to ignore dms or comments or anything. i always read them and love them and appreciate them, i just haven’t had time to sit down and reply. love yall

[mrspockify]

He loves me.

[agir1ukn0w]

I absolutely refuse to believe that you can believe in science and feel deeply about the catastrophe our environment is currently under and not STILL…still even with all of that terrible knowledge, still absolutely, adamantly REFUSE to give in, REFUSE to let the greedy genocidal fuckers running our world win, REFUSE to let our world and the lands belonging to indigenous peoples be destroyed. I’m so fucking sick and tired of people talking as if our world is already lost. How can you fucking say that shit. How can you go about your lives in a state of surrender. How can you give up all that we are blessed with, all that our descendants deserve, without a goddamn fight.

[soullessjack]

boycott fatigue is actually the stupidest fucking thing ever because how in the ever loving fuck are you experiencing “fatigue” from not going to Starbucks. how is not watching rushed cgi on disney+ and not eating a breaded slime nugget at McDonald’s “fatiguing” you. genuinely how fucking dare this even exist as a concept. entire bloodlines, children, newborns are dying slow and bloody and all of these companies are giving Israel the money to do that. they’re using YOUR fucking money to do this. and look, practically every war has been funded out of our pockets by a means we can’t fight around. almost all of the food and drink we have in the states is owned by some large corporation that makes it fucking impossible to not give them money because they are the sole providers. I understand there are some things we can’t boycott because of our own needs. but this isn’t basic needs that we are being asked to boycott. it’s fucking Disney+ and McDonald’s and Starbucks and a whole slew of luxuries that you’re not only capable of living without, but would actually be better off entirely without.

there’s been a lot of talk about how privileged we are to only be witnessing this human rights atrocity through phones or news and being able to get away from it with a button click and that’s entirely real, but the fact that somebody out here just felt soooo inconvenienced by not going to a drive thru for overpriced garbage that they literally coined the phrase “boycott fatigue,” is probably the biggest load of privileged dog shit I’ve seen in the past few days. do you want to know who’s actually experiencing fatigue right now? the millions of displaced families in Gaza without homes anymore. without any clean water to drink because it’s either been poisoned by the Israelis or contaminated with their peoples’ blood. the children without enough food to get by, or without any food at all. the injured and sick and disabled Palestinians who don’t have access to any medical aid for themselves because their hospitals and fuel trucks are being bombed. these people who have absolutely nothing but each other, and not even that in the worst circumstances, who can only keep walking for days on end, hungry and thirsty and in pain and unable to do anything about it. that is real fucking fatigue.

I understand we’re all seeing war crimes and death and atrocities that nobody should ever have to see and yes it’s difficult to process, but the people of Palestine are experiencing these atrocities in real time, every day, every hour. every ten fucking minutes a child dies. They aren’t even asking for help anymore. They’re only asking to be witnessed and remembered and for us to stop going to places that actively fund their deaths and you’re saying you just can’t because you’re exhausted by not going to that place? I know we’re all born and raised in a consumerist hellscape but you seriously need to get a fucking reality check if offering the bare minimum support to a dying people is ‘fatiguing’ to you. Jesus fucking Christ.

[snzyspencer]

random sickie rambling post

I have been so lucky to not have a cold in a hot minute but ironically just a few days after stopping my immunosuppressant medicine I come down with something. I’m hoping it’s just a cold, but God I feel awful. My throat is sore and swollen, I was getting lightheaded at work and I felt like I was sweating (it’s snowing outside.) I don’t have a fever but I’m sore all over and my nose has been so itchy. It’s hard for me to stifle my sick sneezes so every time I sneeze it hurts my throat and I get all sniffly. I’m honestly amazed I made it through my shift, at least I have off tomorrow…

[codename-adler]

What i’m supposed to do:

- READ TSC

- write Fic 1 & Fic 2 for the Daylight Savings/Kevin Day Fic Fest

- write for Baby Girl, Good Luck

- write chap. 21 of the Kevaaron fic

- finally get on with reading my physical tbr

- work work work work (while also looking for new job)

What i’m doing:

- writing a Hankcon/dbh one-shot🧍‍♂️

[kimjunnoodle]

watching football clips to combat the period cramps

[2006aquamarine]

it’s very annoying watching misogyny on the rise, femicide on the rise, trans rights in jeopardy, abortion rights gone, and yall on tumblr.gov are stuck on ‘ok but can we be nicer to men?’

and it’s always US-centric too. ‘there are other structures in place that uphold white cishetero patriarchy!’ please step outside of the US for a second and look around. patriarchy has predated all that shit for thousands of years and its legacy is still going strong in non-white, non-Christian countries. women are still oppressed everywhere. hence, yall will deal with a bunch of mean women online.

[liesmultixxx]

I’ll never understand when people tell me that it’ll happen when I “least expect it”

My brother in Christ, I have been least expecting it for YEARS now and still… nothing

Or when they tell me hat I should be happy with myself and while I don’t disagree, I can be both happy with myself AND want to share my life with someone else???

Make it make sense!

So everyone but me deserves to be in a loving relationship.

Sure,okay cool noted

And apparently I have too much “depth” for guys so that’s great:)))

Lonely life here I come

[zeb-z]

bad who is ready and willing to go full scorched earth, but at the same time, knows that what he’s doing is hurting people. he knows he’s hurting who he loves, he knows he probably will have to do much worse, or at least is convinced of such. it’s not so much he doesn’t care, but more so that he cares more about results, so he’s willing to cause that hurt. doing what’s necessary - and anything is necessary so long as it gets his kids back.

but he’s hurting, and hurt people hurt people. hurt people hurt themselves. he’s taken to torturing himself as a penance for this guilt that just keeps building. he’s doing things that he knows are shocking and extreme, and it’s not showing results. every day he cannot find the kids is a day he takes personally because he feels he has failed them. he hurts those he cares about, he hurts those who are innocent, and he’s going to keep doing so - so he’s going to hurt himself to make it fair.

but he doesn’t see that his suffering is what’s causing the most suffering for those he loves. he’s stuck in this cycle of guilt and blame and unending misery, and he can’t let himself take the hands of those that are trying desperately to pull him out because he cannot face it himself.

he’s got a one track mind on vengeance and he himself is as much a target as those he’s hunting down.

[inkykeiji]

>.<

[sickly-victorian-boy]

Not to live up to my username but can I PLEASE stop coughing up blood

[vaguehotels]

i’m going to say something that makes me sound like a cunt but it has to be said. if you are depressed, struggling with dangerous thoughts, or beginning to lose interest in living, DO NOT DUMP THAT ON A SINGLE PERSON EVERY TIME YOU TALK TO THEM. not every single conversation can be “lola i’m not okay” “jon i need you to call me right now im about to do something” “beck i want to die” I AM NOT GOD. I AM NOT A THERAPIST. I AM NOT GOING TO BE ABLE TO FIX YOU. thanks .

[inusmasha]

Hi hi I hope everyone has a lovely holiday and new happy and healthy new year! 💚