#sorry Ewan you deserve better

[meri-dawn]

Ewan ends up in a lot of dodgy wigs.

[the-lemon-that-urged-the-lime]

i would only be willing to live in star wars if I could be han solo. you're a smuggler. you're in debt and running from people who want your head. ewan mcgregor and some pretty blond kid ask you to be their uber driver to overthrow the government. you accidentally get dragged into it. you meet Carrie Fisher. she yells at you. her and the blond kid are twins. you accidentally become a key figure in the destruction of a facist government because of these twins. one of the most powerful in said government is their dad. you get to kiss Carrie fisher

[snowblack-charcoalwhite]

I've come to realize the familiarity and extreme consistency (lmao) in the way the showrunner portrays the main male characters in the show. In ss1 Aegon was turned into a rapist to make Rhaenyra look better. In ss2 it was Aemond's turn to be speedrun into a monster to make Alicent's betrayal of her family look reasonable. With Aegon somewhat redeemed in ss2 ,it made Aemond's situation even worse. At the end of ss2 it was exactly Aemond vs the world, even though he was still fighting for his faction he had nothing left, no one cared for him, his mother sold him on a plate to the enemy. I don't understand what reason Aemond had to continue fighting. But I think that doesn't only happen to male characters, Alicent and Helaena were reduced to two cheerleaders for TB and Rhaenyra. With Alicent, everything was too obvious, but I want to talk more about Helaena. She was always portrayed as an autistic, the only pure and innocent person in the family. Is that why Alicent wanted to keep her from being tainted by the men around her and the war? But that vision was shattered when her vision and Daemon appeared. To me that scene just left bitterness, she showed no emotion when telling her crying brother that he was going to die. But on the other hand, she didn't show any anger towards the person responsible for her son's death? And also wanted him to fulfill his destiny by taking down her own brother, who was still fighting for their lives? Not to mention that Helaena was portrayed as so emotionally detached that I couldn't even sympathize with her because no one knew what she was thinking. She didn't seem too sad about her son's death, didn't visit her husband even though he was seriously injured, didn't want to be involved in the war even though she was a dragon rider. It's like writers have no other way to write TG's women than to make them look naive and useless. Or worse, justify betrayal by shirking responsibility and blaming her sons like Alicent. Episode 8 for me is the worst in the series because it makes everything TG built: their reason to fight, their family love, their loyalty to each other, destroyed all at once. No more TG. Now it's just Aemond alone in a war without purpose, no one cares about it anymore.

I also want to give credit to Ewan in his scene with Alicent and Helaena. Those 2 scenes prove that Ewan is more than capable of expressing everything the script requires and more than that: really touching the viewers' emotions with his acting. It's no wonder the writers doesn't give Ewan any material to work with, he would blow TB characters out of the water if given screentime and a quality script. Unfortunately, we only have bias because no one lets a "villain" gain the love of the audience. All the actors deserve better than this shit show.

Sorry if the post is a bit long, I hope you have a good day.

Hello! Thank you, and I hope you have a good day (or night) as well:)

Well, I don't have much to add to what you said - as I heartily agree with you. And on top of it it is really disheartening to see quite a few people from the GA fall for the writers' BS - but media literacy has been dying on a large scale for a while so that's what we get.

P.S. I especially agree with you about Helaena. She has been so detached from the narrative (even more so than Aemond in the first half of the season if that's even possible) and the confrontation with Aemond was presented in such a clumsy and inept way that I for one (just like you, from what I understood) felt virtually nothing for Helaena: no pity, no compassion - and no anger towards Aemond on her behalf. And it's not about me loving one more than the other - it's about the sheer laziness and idiocy of the writing. I doubt that any actor could have saved the situation in circumstances such as these - but Ewan still did a marvellous job and he will forever have my respect for giving his all to his character no matter what.

[endless-ineffabilities]

next week, on episode chemical override:

the rest of hotd cast, pulling out rolled cigarettes and chugging vodka:

olivia: oh my god!

tgc: oh my god!

fabien: oh my god!

phia: oh my god! can those two just kiss and make up already?! i am way too pretty to be stressed out!

ewan: my darling is the air that i breathe! how am i supposed to breathe without my air? 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

matt: *blasts No Air by Jordin Sparks while cheesing around* 😁😁😁😁😁😁😁😁😁😁

reader: *sobs* 😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢😢i am sorry, ewan! i really do love you! but i can't keep doing this! i deserve better!

ewan: MY ALYNA! MINE! 🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬🤬*has a "genius" idea*

reader: you know what, i think matt is kinda charming. i think i'm gonna take a chance with him *phone pings. pulls phone out* 👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀👀WHAT THE FU-!

And you're watching Disney Channel! 💗💗💗

Hahahaha this is so downright bubblegum sweet, it reminds me of the cutesy teen couples in those shows! 😂 These BABIES!!! If they keep messing around, we'll just have them all sort things out in a scene like this. Easy peasy, done and dusted <3

💌 for my anons

[terrorofthetrident]

from an interview ewan did, he said that aemond never felt unconditional love from his family. aemond believes their love is dependent upon his usefulness. so, i think the fact that alicent might not look at him as the dutiful son she can always rely on (be disappointed in him) because of what happened at storm’s end will affect him and lead him into desperation in the attempt to be seen as that dutiful son again, the one his family can look to to see them through the war. i think in season two he’ll embrace his kinslayer title, play it up, and act like he doesn’t care about what his family thinks or says and hide behind that cold, stony facade…but eventually we’ll start to see that facade break away.

Different anon, in my opinion it's terrible circle where aemond can't stand alicent being disappointed in him, because he wants to be her beloved child forever, but he's also willing to show he's still useful, deserving her love despite storms end. I just don't think real closeness, vulnerability, mutual trust can exist betweeen him and alicent because he leaves no room for that. In episode 6 she comforted him, in 7 she was fighting for family to care for him when he lost an eye, but later he doesn't need her to show him support or console him anymore. He isn't vulnerable with her. I am not aegon fan but i admit he's always vulnerable around alicent and no one else. when he cries after she slapped him, do you love me talk in carriage and in trailer with the two of them in one room when he looks tired/sad/anxious with his hand on the chair. alicent just knows aegon better because he lets her in as an adult. he trusts her enough to be emotionally vulnerable with her. aemond hides his vulnerable side from her and everyone else. That doesn't encourage real closeness if he wears a mask all the time. vhagar is his only friend because he doesn't give anyone or himself a chance of real closeness. he is the designer of his own loneliness. I don't know what must happen for aemond to show his facade break away. He is the type to rather die than confess he cares.

first, i’m sorry for the late response, i’m so bad with asks. but thank you for sharing your thoughts! i tried not to make this so wordy (kinda failed).

so, i agree with you on some aspects…despite aemond’s own feeling that the love his family has for him is conditional, it’s clear that he loves his family and that alicent loves him unconditionally. even though aemond isn’t very open in expressing his emotions and feelings, there are still many ways in which he shows that he loves and cares for his family. he’s very protective of them, he pretty much trained his entire life so that he would be his family’s sword and shield, and he can be loving and caring with his family. in ep 9, we see him drop that cold, stony facade when he’s with alicent. he’s soft, caring, and comforting which is very different to his demeanor in ep 8. i think closeness and trust exists between them despite the lack of vulnerability with his words..but i do see your point, i think because aemond is guarded with his emotions alicent likely doesn’t have a deep level of understanding of who he really is, which is really just the tragic reality of their relationship due to the kind of environment they grew up in. aemond wants to be viewed as this formidable and capable protector that his family can depend on and to him vulnerability equals weakness, so he hides it from and for them.

for the most part, we don’t really see aemond openly expressing his emotions, other than when the bottled up emotions brewing up inside him cause him to explode in anger….and with all the tragedies his family will endure, i think it’s likely we’ll get scenes where he expresses his anger/rage/guilt…i think we could see glimpses of his vulnerability show in private moments where he’s alone and/or possibly with criston (i say this because it seems he feels comfortable sharing things with criston ie. when he brought up how he was taken to a brothel when he was 13).

i’m curious to see more interactions between aemond and his family, but, so far from what we’ve gotten, aemond’s scenes with alicent mostly revolve around him making himself useful (in ep 9, when he learns that viserys has died, the first thing he does is head to his mother’s room to offer his support, then when alicent asks criston to find aegon for her, aemond offers to join him).

aemond’s relationship with vhagar is different from the one with his family, he knows she accepts and loves him unconditionally. she can feel what he feels, so he can’t hide his true emotions from her, she sees him for who he truly is and, i think, knows him more than anyone. aemond and vhagar bonded due to their similarities of feeling lonely and like they didn’t belong….and this brings me to alys. idk about your and everyone else’s thoughts on their relationship, but i think their relationship has so much potential. he could identify with alys similarly to how he does with vhagar and develop a deep connection with alys through their potential similarities and we could see the facade break away….and i’ll just leave it at that.

[ewanmitchellcrumbs]

So I’ve been debating on telling you this, just bc it’s personal and sensitive, but after ur post about the anons, I want you to know how meaningful you are to others. You don’t have to read it or even respond if you don’t want, but I just feel like I should say it. TW: brief mention of infertility.

Last week, my brother and his family came into town for Thanksgiving. I always have the worst anxiety bc of my past relationship with my brother, but we’ve slowly gotten better over the years. But still, he brings on a lot of anxiety. Usually, I drink heavy when I’m around them to calm my nerves, but I had a migraine that day so I didn’t. Apparently, long story short, my behaviour and something I said at the table gave them the impression I was pregnant. He texted my mother, not asking *if* I was pregnant, but how far along I was. I’ve struggled for years with infertility, and idk why but recently (even before this) I’ve been feeling really triggered/upset all over again. So when I found out he asked that (not with bad intentions at all, but still), I lost it and have spiralled a bit into a funk.

I did what I always do and escape into fanfiction, so I was stalking your blog. You answered a question about Ewan’s chars’ hobbies, and the response made me laugh for the first time that day. Continuing to scroll through, I found more of your answers to questions entertaining and reread some of my fav works from you, cheering me up immensely and distracting me.

I’m not saying this as in you’re my entertainment, so I really hope it doesn’t come off that way. I just want to make a point that *you*, as a person, make someone— a random stranger across the pond to you— smile and brought lightness to one of their dark days. You are a human being, a kind and funny one, and I don’t understand how people can send or say that stuff thinking you’re not or realising your significance. I’ve always loved your wit and smart ass remarks or incredible mind that puts your all into your amazing works. I’m a huge fan of you, and I really hope you don’t let those two anons get to you when you mean so much to other followers of you. I hope that your day will get better, and that life treats you kindly because you definitely deserve it, Ange. Please stay safe, healthy, and treat yourself. I appreciate all that you do and give us. 🩶🩶

-Hannah Montana anon.

Oh love! I'm sorry you had to endure that, that sounds awful! And thank you for being so brave in sharing that with me. As someone who is dealing with their own infertility issues, I empathise with you and am sending you so much love. I hope you are feeling okay about it all now you've had some space from your brother.

Thank you so much for your kind words. Really glad I was able to cheer you up during a difficult time. This means more to me than you could possibly know <3 xoxo

[blueberrypancakesworld]

Hotd season 2 episode 2 - My talk - spoiler

oh my god it's getting better and worse for my nerves at the same time. First of all as an actor they do an excellent job at what they do, the costumes are on point, the cinematography is a dream and the camera is just amazing.

First Daeron, Aemond nation and my Otto x Viserys heart has won. I really didn't think they would mention Daeron even though it's just weird that he's not in the first season and now I'm curious to see how they do it.

Aemond is just such a cutie with mommy issues and the brothel scene was just so ahh also Lucemond nation has new input congrats. My poor Helaena, I feel so sorry for you, you don't deserve the carriage ride and Aegon could take care of you.

But Aegon the poor meow meow Aegon who mourns his son and destroys his father's lego who gets told by his own grandfather that he didn't even become king (besides the scene was excellent between Otto and Aegon I was on Otto's side for the first time and really thought that Aegon's decision had consequences).

The scene with Rhaenyra and Daemon was painful and Baela who just wanted to be close to her father and was hiding with Jace. Oh and shoutout to Corlys and Rhaenys who stand behind Rhaenyra and are still the cutest couple Westeros has.

Too bad we didn't get a family scene with Jaehaera but let's see except the nod to Seasmoke or Grey Ghost depending on the dragon was nice. And Mysaria I'm curious what role she'll play even if I think she'll be on Rhaenyra's side plus honor to Rhaenyra's lady in waiting I like you.

But please stop traumatizing all the characters again and my eyes with Alicent and Cole like okay treat yourselves to good sex after being rejecte by Rhaenyra and Viserys but why do you hit him and then have a hate sex session I didn't want to see that man.

But again Ewan in his Aemond mommy issues I did love my nephew and I am different which of course is not a reference to gayness was just so good I need more scenes. Oh and before I forget Rhaenyra sending her daughter to Moondancer and trusting her more than Daemon I love.

But yeah that's it and see you next week.

[patrocles]

With Hotd_leaks, who pretty much got every leak right, saying hotd is leaning towards an Aemon/Naerys romance for Helaena and Aemond in August and now with Ewan saying that Aemond foresees his death it seems increasingly likely that they will cut out Alys altogether :/

i really don’t agree with this i’m sorry. i think people forget that alys is like, a not insignificant character and it would make no sense to cut her.

i see people citing aemon/naerys as “proof” and i can see where they’re coming from but i think people are only seeing half the picture. the thing with aemond is that he has the s1’s theme of Second Son Syndrome, he believes he’s more deserving than what he has and would be better in aegon’s position as heir. and this includes helaena as a symbol of legitimacy.

that isnt to say that aemond doesnt love her, i’m sure he does in some capacity. and i’d even meet you half way in saying that any feelings he may have towards her, even if unrequited, is more of a reflection on how targaryen males are socialized to view their sisters as romantic partners. and this especially when being raised in isolating circumstances. so sure maybe he had feelings like that for helaena.

but in terms of the show, his arc isn’t about helaena. what they’re doing with aemond is establishing this character as someone who feels disconnected and lonely within his family. and after storm’s end, after trying so hard to be the perfect dutiful son, that can only be exasperated.

where i believe they’re going with aemond’s arc is exploring his conflicting duty to his family (as this is how he’s been raised especially after driftmark, the reliable one, the warrior, the one alicent depends on), atoning for kickstarting the war. however because this his asoiaf, the heart needs to be in conflict and here enters alys. and part of his character growth is dealing with his bias against bastards and what better way than to fall in love with one?

the overall thread of his relationship with her is that no one understands it. everyone’s trying to figure out why this even happened, inventing xyz reasons to explain it. but the thing is, isolating aemond both physically in taking/ruling harrenhal and emotionally by putting him at odds with his family puts him in a unique narrative position to meet and connect with someone who is also an outcast of her family. aemond has the most unique arc of his siblings of experiencing a life outside of his family and his family being his identity, and being in a position to explore who he is outside of that. and if he knew he was going to die, then it means he knew he was sacrificing himself to try and save what was left of his family including his wife and unborn child

and that just makes good television and a beautiful ending to aemond’s story instead of a cartoon villain dying after a reign of terror campaign. and a good television to keep audiences invested in a character’s journey is ultimately the point

helaena’s story (which i do hope they beef up) is more about her coping after blood and cheese and her relationship with aegon and the tragedy of how badly this family failed her. (and her death triggering the storming of the dragon pit) that is where i think the more interesting narrative is versus a secret romance arc with aemond.

also aemon/naerys was a terrible relationship i hope people would let it go.

also ALSO, if we’re looking at the timeline of events, aemond was really just a minor character in alys’ story not the other way around. being one of the only survivors of the war and ruling harrenhal for 30 years with aemond’s son and mysteriously disappearing is just a bit more compelling to meeeee than aemond having the hots for his sister like..

[dreaminghour]

Hayden/Ewan RPF - Feeling of doing nothing

Event: @domaystic Fandom: Star Wars RPF Rating: General Audiences Prompt: 30 Feeling of doing nothing Ship: Hayden/Ewan Disclaimer: References to real people are used fictitiously. Do not share this with them! Context: Present day. Ewan is visiting Hayden on his farm. Follows the timeline of my other RPF ficlets, but you don’t necessarily need to read those to understand this. You can find them here on my blog. Words: 892

It takes Ewan several hours to spit out what he's been chewing on. Enough time for Hayden to go out with the farm-hand and set up the new fence post where he should have put one years ago and to smear the cuts on Dolly's skin to keep them from getting infected.

He is quiet through lunch prep, which doesn't much phase Hayden; he's found both the storyteller and the stoic to be good company. It gives him time to turn over his own thoughts…

He hasn't asked why Ewan is here because he more or less knows: marriage trouble or its ilk. He doesn't go for gossip but things come across his screen nonetheless, no matter how much he ignores them.

"Listen, I… " Ewan begins before trailing off almost immediately.

So Hayden listens, to the silence mostly, but at the same time he watches — the slack set of Ewan's jaw, the furrow between his brows, his distant gaze, the beard overdue for a trim.

"I'm really grateful for your hospitality," he continues.

"Of course," Hayden says immediately. "You're always welcome."

"And you haven't asked," Ewan says slowly, "but I suppose you're probably wondering…"

"I mean," Hayden shifts, turning his gaze from the porch to the distant grove of trees. "I know."

Ewan doesn't reply, doesn't turn to look at him, just furrows his brow.

"You told me some of it in Berlin. I expect this is related?" He turns it into a question at the last second.

"My partner," Ewan says, as though gearing himself up for it, and then he stops again.

"Do you want to talk about it?" Hayden asks.

"What's there to say?" Ewan asks in exasperation.

But then he speaks for hours.

At the end of it, they finished the chores, cleaned up after dinner, and are back on the porch, back with that malted fruit soda instead of beer. Hayden isn't a teetotaller, but he doesn't mind it.

"Our publicists did a damn sight better negotiating our separation than we did." Ewan picks at the label on his bottle. "I'm ashamed to say there was a fair bit of yelling, most of it was me."

He falls back in his chair with a sigh, seeming depleted.

"That's what they called irreconcilable differences. Two times now." He grimaces. "I don't know what I'm doing wrong."

"You're not," Hayden says gently. "Irreconcilable… it's the right word. Sometimes you're in a good relationship, with a good person, but there's just that thing you can't get over. Or several."

Hayden smirks, laughing to himself.

"Speaking from experience?" Ewan asks kindly.

When Hayden looks up, Ewan is looking at him affectionately, but it's a deeply sympathetic look as well. Hayden thinks he sees tears shining in Ewan's eyes.

"When it happens more than once…" Hayden trails off and Ewan lets him keep the silence a moment.

Out in the grass, the evening insects are louder than they've been all day.

"I don't think there's anyone who got me the way Rachel does. And… I flatter myself thinking that I'm good enough to deserve her. I'd do almost anything for her."

He catches himself before he gets lost gathering wool.

"Anyway. Even though I'm pretty sure she's my person, I'm not sure I'm hers. When we're good, we're so good, but it's not enough." He shrugs. "Sometimes that's not enough."

"Do you ever think you should try harder?"

"We do." Hayden snorts. "We did."

"Ah, I'm sorry," Ewan says quietly. "I didn't mean to dredge up your own feelings about separation."

Hayden snorts. "No worries. I spend a lot of time thinking about her, about us…" He hesitates a moment, knowing he's alluded to it but not yet explained… "I'm even writing a book about it."

"About you and Rachel?" Ewan asks, brow furrowing as he looks at Hayden.

"Well, a guy named Mac and his ex-fiancée, Evelyn."

"Do they have a daughter?" Ewan asks, smirking, but its a playful look.

"Yeah, her name is Marie, and she spends the summers with her dad when she's not at school."

"And are they both actors?" Ewan asks.

"No, actually, bit of a Notting Hill situation, Evelyn is a stage actress who came out to do regional theater when she was young, fell in love, but Mac couldn't hack it in the city."

"The city is boring," Ewan says, his expression darkening. "I don't blame him for leaving."

"He goes back occasionally," Hayden says, shrugging. "There's balance, I guess. Ah, well… I don't know if I'll ever send it out. Or if anyone would even publish it."

"I'd like to read it," Ewan says, almost adamant.

Hayden is surprised, but as the shock settles over him, he realizes he shouldn't be. He remembers how quiet Ewan had gotten when he'd found out about Hayden's short stories — also unpublished — in a way that didn't seem like disapproval. Ewan's always been politely curious, not just about Hayden, so this should feel normal to have that interest turned upon him.

It does not feel normal. He thinks of Ewan holding him when he'd been a scared boy away from home, and holding Ewan when he'd been a wreck in Berlin. He thinks of stroking Ewan's hair back from his face when he'd fallen asleep on the couch and it feels… not normal.

"Okay," Hayden says.

[yarrayora]

Dear Mr(?) Yarra,

I would like to thank you. When I was younger, I hated having to do media analysis, because in exams it felt like no matter my interpretation I would be wrong and lose marks. As such, I didn't bother reading anything that required me to read between the lines, just something nice I can turn my brain off and enjoy. But you showed me how fun it could be when overanalyzing certain parts of a story. You made me realize how much more I could enjoy a story if I put my own take on it. You helped me understand that just because I liked certain things in a story doesn't mean I'm gross and shouldn't be approached. This is the most I've interacted with someone on the internet in a long time and I just really thankful for what you've shown me.

Sorry if this sounds long-winded, I just finished reading arago so my emotions are running a little high right now. AraJoe is still my otp (Yes I know Joe doesn't make it), I can see why people shipAraSeth, Coco and Rio should be badass lesbians as a treat, and Guri chan and Ewan deserved better. Dang it I didn't think I'd feel sympathy for the four horsemen.

whoa holy shit this is really flattering thank you

im glad you managed to figure out a way to have fun with what you like!

personally my favorite horseman is scarlet! there was a doujin posted in full on pixiv about scarlet specifically dressing up and enjoying gaining people's attention but then freaked the fuck out when men started hitting on her and she ended up hiding in an alleyway behind the trash bin and lucian picked her up and instead of holding her hand he offered her his bandana so she could grab onto that and hold onto him without having to touch him as he led her away

unfortunately i think it's deleted now

[the-daily-dreamer]

i’m sorry but it’s just funny at this point

can’t defend your fav so you have to attack others’ fav. not only that you have to go for their -

drumroll please

- outer appearance.

they have to know how shallow they sound, don’t they? also maybe incriminating. their fav is their fav because they think they’re hot by their standard, eh?

(to note, there’s nothing wrong with liking a character because they’re attractive to you but to dunk on other people because you think their favorites aren’t attractive? now, that’s just childish.)

It really is so blatant, they surely know it. Some of the stans admit they only care about the looks of the characters, but so many try to hide behind empty defenses and then lash out when you poke holes in their arguments. Then, their only defense is that your fave isn’t hot like theirs is.

Just...reducing women and their worth to their looks is just vile and misogynistic. Rhea Royce deserves to be beaten to death because she wasn’t pretty enough in their and Daemon’s eyes. Her worthiness as a living, breathing human is tied to her appearance. Sansa deserved to be raped by Ramsay because she wasn’t pretty enough to earn the love of one of their faves. The worth of a woman is not her looks. The dignity, respect, and care a woman is afforded should never be tied to her physical appearance, in our world or theirs.

If the only argument you have to hate a character is they are “plain” or “ugly” (which is completely subjective and not actually a verifiable fact in any way), then maybe the character you hate isn’t that bad. Disliking a character is fine but don’t try to justify your hate by claiming they aren’t attractive. It’s incredibly cruel to the actors who portray the character, and it also shows that the scale that you analyze your characters in is superficial and nobody needs to listen to you.

Also you’re definitely right, it’s very incriminating. It’s very clear that their approval of a character is linked to their opinion on the character’s/actor’s looks. I have nothing against liking a character because they’re hot. In fact, I have a very strong feeling that Ewan Mitchell (be still my The Last Kingdom stanning heart) as Aemond Targaryen will be my problematic fave in part because of his looks. The difference is that I won’t be yelling at Aemond antis saying that their faves are ugly, unlike mine. It’s juvenile and superficial to compare who’s hotter and therefore better.

[mysticalchaosperson]

Happiest birthday to my baby!💗

Thank God talaga kasi he let me know you even more at dahil dun I fell in love with you. With the kind of man that you are? any girl would dream of having someone like you and I’m just so damn lucky that you’re mine! You make things so easy for me bubby. like ALWAYSS. gumagaan lahat! yung paligid ko, nararamdaman ko, mga iniisip ko, kapag alam kong nandyaan ka naka suporta at nakaabang lang. kahit wala kang ginagawa at kahit titigan lang kita, sobrang ramdam ko na sobrang blessed ako kasi meron akong ikaw. you are such a blessing, bubby. 😩💗

I could only imagine yung hard times na tinitiiis mo yung family, acads, or other problems pero andyan ka bubby always so strong and positive. Kaya proud na proud ako sayo!:-*

imagine? meron akong mabait, mapagmahal, mapagbigay, matalino, matyaga, madiskarte, faithful, and sobrang poging bf!!! thank you for everything, bubbyy! for taking care of me and everyone that you love. I could only wish that I’m doing the same for you kasi you deserve only the best. and I will spend my life giving it to you.💗💗

Alam ko naman na walang perfect eh, nagkakamali ka rin, pero lagi lang akong nandito para tulungan ka for the better. we’re partners, okay? kahit ano pa yan bubby, I will always be here for you. magkakampi tayo palagi, okay? ayokong maramdaman mong nag-iisa ka kasi andito ako. kami ng mga friends at pinsan mo.:)

be happy always bubby, because when you are, I am too. I always pray for your happiness, safety, and peace of mind, love love. I’m so proud of the man that you are. and I know that you’ll be a better person each day, and I will always be beside you every step of the way, kahit anong mangyari!

cringe man pakinggan, pero I wish you manyyy many birthdays to come, bubbyyy! maraming marami pa tayo i-ccelebrate, okii??? Sorry kung lagi kong nababanggit na ex mona ako HAHAHAHAH you're such a cutie pie kasi pag umaacting na nag tatampo.

Wala akong ibang gusto kundi makasama ka at makita kang masaya. I am sooo proud of you. of everything you do! sobrang gustong gusto kita ipag-malaki sa kahit kanino and I will forever do that because I am forever grateful to have you!! 🥰💗

Happy birthday ulit my bubby!💗💗💗💗

(yung gift ko wala pa ewan nasan naT_T)

[thiefguild]

Loyalty, Pride, Humble

Does your character have any loyalty to any group?

A few now! At first, Titus was only loyal to his guild of thieves. He would die for them and did go to prison for them. His guild was made up of fellow adult thieves and orphan children that they took in; a life of thieving with a family was better than a life stuck on the streets. However...they were imprisoned after a certain detective decided to abduct one of the children and blackmail them into giving up the guild's whereabouts, so--

and this is why I can't ever have Titus fully forgive Messiah i'm sorry

Now he's loyal to his fellow lords! First and foremost, he answers to Emperor Ewan (which is funny because he's the Emperor but Titus also views him as a little brother?). He would do anything for them, true, but he also has his stubborn moments and realizes he sometimes needs to put the people of Lumen first.

What is your muses biggest flaw?

Titus is STUBBORN! His stubbornness goes hand in hand with anger, a dangerous combination for him. While you'll typically be used to seeing the bright, bubbly ray of sunshine Titus, you might also one day become acquainted with the mean, aggressive, manipulative side of him. He truly is a good person, but this side of him has been built up since he was a child experiencing the injustices that come along with being a poor orphan. But, trust me, every time this side rears its ugly head, he tries a million times over to be better.

How does your muse handle praise?

Depending on the situation, he's either gonna get really bashful or he's gonna deflect it entirely. He does love praise, but sometimes he's in a mood where he doesn't really think he deserves it, which...is a little sad. There are some people in his life that still look down on him, so he carries some insecurities around and often times has a hard time accepting genuine praise even if it's from people he knows care about him.

[s-a-e-a-d-a]

Naka ilan sabi na ba ako na titigil na ko? na this is the time and I can feel it that I can move forward now. But I’m still here eh? hahaha

I failed last time kasi may naka notice na nablock kita haha. So I have to pretend and need to follow you so ending I can see ur story and post again. Badtrip haha makita lang ata kita nagiging marupok na ko. Honestly naman kasi ang saya lang kapag nakakasama kita kaso talaga I need to be better version of myself, I need to be stronger na tipo hindi sasagi sa isip ko sumuko or pairalin ung immaturity haha. Maybe thats the case kaya God won’t give what I deserve kasi wala pa dapat ma deserve, I’m still lacking. Ewan ko bakit more than 5 years pa inabot bago maisip ‘tong mga bagay bagay. Maybe I’m denial, or mahangin lang talaga na I deserve someone like you.

Torn pa nga ako if I’m gonna tell you my decision and say goodbye cause I don’t want u to badmouth my sudden changes sa actions or words ko at baka lang kasi akala mo lumipas na ung sinabi ko dati. I don’t know kasi slow ka eh. hahaha diba? or you’re just avoiding lang mga panama ko? hahaha ayoko naman ichat ka baka ipabasa mo pa hahaha. Magulo talaga utak ko eh pero kahit gano kagulo ung utak ko, maliwanag pa sa buwan ung nararamdaman ko. Dun lang ako sure pero believe me that I tried, sa lahat ng pinakita ko, I treated you as my friend, I tried na makuntento lang. Sapat na sakin na friends pa din tayo kaso lang dumating na ulit sa point na natatakot ako kung saan na naman ako mapunta, ayoko na maulit ung cold treatment mo haha which is good naman to realize my limits, kaya ko naman intindihin kaso masakit lang hahaha. so bago pa mangyari yun, I’ll distant myself. Kaya I hope pag nakita kita ulit tayo and If God permits, baka pwede na char! hahaha friends ofc. I just need to accept lang siguro, you know naman malaki lang ako pero I’m softhearted hahaha at immature pa ata hahaha anw, whatever happens in the end friends pa din sana, kahit least option mo to lean on cause I want to be surrounded by good people with a good heart kahit medyo judger.. pwede na din hahaha. Also, if you have any suitor or jowa na, no need to hide story siguro? baka nga nakatulong pa para mas malaman ko ung lugar ko lang, na kahit anong hintay ko, hindi na lalagpas pa ung kaya mong ibigay. Kahit naman masakit, wala naman ako choice eh hahaha but seriously I understand everything, if hindi ko man magets, in the end I will try to understand you, cause it’s you lol and hellooo as if may rights ako to be mad at you or mag ate chona na lang basta hahaha.

hmm, I’m really sorry umabot pa dito. Well maybe nagpa trigger kasi ung pagka maldita mo non? thats why maybe I chose running? Baka naman kasi fake news ung mga chika sayo hahaha. Well I don’t know na how it happened basta all I know is no regrets pa din. I’m just sorry kasi lagi ko na lang nilalamatan ung samahan na possible may madamay. If may sorry syempre may thank you, I’m really thankful kasi I met you, you’re my inspiration non. And sa TBR? your words motivated me to run all the way yung last 3-4km ko, kaya halos bumagsak na ko nung finish line and I was looking for you pero tama lang na hindi siguro kasi baka macarried away lang ako. Pero shet ung feels, pumunta agad ako sa tent kahit mawalan na ko ng pwesto sa marathoner pic hahaha kasi I never thought di ko na kakayanin but there you are my friend!! Hays sorry di ko alam bat sinasabi ko pa ung mga bagay na di mo na kailangan pang malaman hahaha! Basta I’m thankful kasi naging better ako than before. I had a hobby that I didn’t expect na medyo ippursue ko knowing I’m a lazy person hahahah kaya I declare myself as graduate na, and to you.

Done with sorry and thank you? So here I am, saying good bye for the meantime. Last huge favor muna pala hahaha don’t let others know my super petty decision. Let them be, I know we can sort it out, I can handle it… gulo ko, ayos ko. oki? Ciao, my friend!

[definetelynotcie]

hays, i like you caleb. ever since 3rd grade pa, ewan ko ba bat kita nagustuhan. i mean at the time di ka naman mabait😭 tsaka medyo may pagkabully ka dati, pero it wasn't that serious. i've admired you for so long, you were the only person na nagustuhan ko ng ganto. now i know why kita nagustuhan, you are talented, smart and kind. (bonus nalang yung pogi HHAHAHAH) i know na ang corny nito pero it's true. i used to see you everyday pero when covid happened it stopped. i'm so glad you contacted me again during summer break. i realized na even after losing contact for years cause of covid, i still like you. you didn't judge me for my looks and personality (even though i was quite the quiet kid in our section, it's still the same pero my attitude is just now worse😚) kaso i was sad when i found out na you like someone and that someone likes you too. i was sad but at the same time happy for you, she deserved you and you deserved her. she's so kind and much more better than me. i'm glad na nakilala ko sya and some of your friendsss :D they were v nice to me! anyways i know na things changed a lot when she started ignoring you. i never knew things could change a lot when that happened, anyways me being a dummy i sorta told it to your close friend and he didn't know that you didn't know yet so he ended up telling it to you. i was planning on confessing pero it felt like it wasn't the right time and i was right. i'm sorry i ruined our friendship, that wasn't my intention. awkward or not around me i don't want you to feel weird around me. i just wish na nasabi ko sayo mismo instead of you hearing it from another person. we can't turn back the time so it's better to move on nalang. i know you have someone new now and honestly, i feel bad for the girl cause even if she ignored you, i felt like she had a good reason for why she did that to you. i know it's not my business to interfere pero i just wanted to say it. anyways i hope you are happy with her and i hope she makes you happy like how i did. i know i sound weird or mean here pero i don't mean to sound that way. thank you for reading till here if you made it this far <3

[ewanmitchellcrumbs]

I really need to share this with someone and I’m not sure where/who to go to. I am afraid I’ll lose interest in Ewan like I did with Joseph Quinn. I was so excited for him, I thought he did an amazing job, and then the rumors and the digging in his personal life, following him on the streets, doxxing his family members started and now I just feel absolutely nothing for him. I know he’s going to be in the new Quiet Place movie, but I’m going to watch it more because I’m a fan of the movies and less because of him. I am afraid it’s starting to happen with Ewan to me as well. There is so little content about him and his works, but whenever new things are coming out it’s people saying he’s ugly, does not deserve his role as Aemond, apparently as I’ve just read in your asks people are doxxing workers of the talent agency? I’m guessing it’s the woman who was on the red carpet with him we thought was his sister? It’s just so offputting, it makes me want to distance myself from every platform ever. I already don’t have social media as is, except my Tumblr I’ve had for 14 years, I’ve deleted myself off everywhere else because people are so vile and I have to use for this energy, but the one sanctuary I’ve been able to come to has become so poisoned… I remember the Ewan tag on the day the first episode he was in came out. There was nothing. And now it’s filled with shit. I hate it here and above all I hate it that people are making me lose interest in entertainers whose work I otherwise adore. I’m sorry for the rant, feel free to ignore, I just needed to let it out.

That really sucks, I’m sorry to hear that. I was never a part of the Joseph Quinn hype, so seeing people go absolutely rabid and refuse to have boundaries over Ewan is a brand new and terrifying experience for me.

Thankfully, the bulk of shitty behaviour seems to be confined to other platforms (like you, I don’t do social media, so Tumblr is very much a comfy bubble for me)

I agree that the Ewan tag is a trash fire now though. I’d recommend staying out of it where possible and just following a few solid accounts that are posting genuine content - it’ll save you a huge, huge headache.

The woman being doxxed works as an assistant at Independent Talent and was the person who attended the premiere. She’s not dating Ewan. I am honestly disgusted that people are targeting her. She must feel terrified. Not to mention the awful rumours that people are starting could lose her her job if taken seriously. People need to get a grip!

My only advice to you would be to not let other people’s behaviour influence your enjoyment of something, you’ll drive yourself mad otherwise. And if you do lose interest, it’s no big deal. He’s just a person at the end of the day, your life is no better or worse for appreciating or not appreciating him, and interests fading is a very natural part of life. Keep your chin up and don’t let the arseholes grind you down!