#song is how does your girlfriend feel about it by chloe lilac

[strangeswift]

this song but in the emotional cheating way

p.s. i am not an editor this is the first time i have ever edited anything i just had a Vision.

[beepbeepdespair]

todays mood

[hairstevington]

Yay another tag game!

Omg I got tagged in two of these things??? I feel so famous 🥰

Rules: Shuffle “on repeat” playlist on Spotify and post the first ten songs.

1) You’re on Your Own, Kid (Taylor Swift)

2) Satellite (Harry Styles)

3) Black Sheep (Metric)

4) Luna Moth (Maya Hawke)

5) On and On (Djo)

6) Handstand (Miley Cyrus)

7) Hot Mess (Dodie)

8) Grown Up (Raffaella)

9) how does your girlfriend feel about it? (Chloe Lilac)

10) Change (Djo)

Ok we love how this time Djo only appears twice and the rest are all different artists! That’s character development folks!!

I was tagged by @goodolefashionedloverboi thank you bestie 💕💕

[fictionandmusic]

hello friend would you answer 5, 6, and 7 from the music ask list pls?

5. shuffle your playlist!!! what’s the first song that plays?

(Shuffled my top songs of 2022) how does your girlfriend feel about it, by Chloe Lilac

6. bands I want to see in concert

Cheekface (who i’m seeing in april) and i’d love to see Maude Latour or Pool Kids some day

7. bands I have seen in concert

as of recently the ones that I can remember are: Del water gap, slaughter Beach dog, pom-pom squad, Bad Bad Hats, Ricky Montgomery,

thanks for the ask!!!

[yougottabetheguy]

I'm obsessed with Chloe Lilac's album/EP "you were good to me" right now. It's bedroom punk rock and so so good!

There's a through line about the artist losing her love for people, but that makes "last week" even sadder to me.

Saw you standing at your window Like your parents just split up Nothing to say so I just don't say stuff 'Cause it's weird when people die so young

There's the implication that those who have died in the song aren't directly linked to the artist. That she's singing about seeing the grief in her friend/gf.

And that really hurt me the first time I listened to it. And the second. And then every time after. It's haunting.

I haven't been in that situation, so it makes it less powerful to me than the one I do resonate with: "only love song".

This one is just as brutal.

I'm sorry I'm hating myself so much That I couldn't show you a healthy love Yeah, this is the only love song that matters

This message is repeated over and over again, like a mantra. It's sad and mournful and the pain in those words is enough to make me tear up a bit.

It's not all sad though. "how does your girlfriend feel about it" and "sound in my head" are absolute bangers. Probably the best tracks I've heard in a while.

[loverlocket]

making another long ass post with all the songs i’ve added to my song of the day playlist while i wasn’t posting on here! if you notice a few artists repeating over and over and over it’s because i’m obsessive and crazy, hope this helps <3

april 15: the birthday party — the 1975

april 16: mclean’s baby boy — neighbor susan

april 17: cyclone — maude latour

april 18: cornelia street — taylor swift

april 19: if i could fly — one direction

april 20: waterfalls — the wldlfe

april 21: kleenex — baby boys

april 22: hot crush lover — blu detiger

april 23: tornado warnings — sabrina carpenter

april 24: i can’t be with you — the cranberries

april 25: happily — one direction

april 26: daylight — taylor swift

april 27: the alcott (feat. taylor swift) — the national

april 28: meltdown — niall horan

april 29: high infidelity — taylor swift

april 30: american jesus — nessa barrett

may 1: weird! — yungblud

may 2: alone — halsey

may 3: pool house — the backseat lovers

may 4: i wish you would — taylor swift

may 5: 505 — arctic monkeys

may 6: wildflower — 5 seconds of summer

may 7: find you — new friends

may 8: everything has changed (feat. ed sheeran) (taylor’s version) — taylor swift

may 9: 1994 — cavetown

may 10: blondes — blu detiger

may 11: my kink is karma — chappell roan

may 12: barely on my mind — the regrettes

may 13: forever & always (taylor’s version) — taylor swift

may 14: hey stephen (taylor’s version) — taylor swift

may 15: ghosts! — sophie cates

may 16: things i wish you said — sabrina carpenter

may 17: coney island (feat. the national) — taylor swift

may 18: teardrops on my guitar — taylor swift

may 19: love story (taylor’s version) — taylor swift

may 20: phases — maeve touhey

may 21: superstar (taylor’s version) — taylor swift

may 22: red (taylor’s version) — taylor swift

may 23: mary’s song (oh my my my) — taylor swift

may 24: you all over me (feat. maren morris) (taylor’s version) (from the vault) — taylor swift

may 25: hope ur ok — olivia rodrigo

may 26: you’re somebody else — flora cash

may 27: two weeks ago — maisie peters

may 28: hits different — taylor swift

may 29: snow on the beach (feat. more lana del rey) — taylor swift

may 30: hotline (edit) — billie eilish

may 31: holy ground (taylor’s version) — taylor swift

june 1: you need to calm down — taylor swift

june 2: phases — maggie lindemann

june 3: (she’s) sexy + 17 — stray cats

june 4: where do broken hearts go — one direction

june 5: i don’t wanna live forever (fifty shades darker) — zayn & taylor swift

june 6: love at first fight — lany

june 7: the only exception — paramore

june 8: science — niall horan

june 9: haunted — taylor swift

june 10: how does your girlfriend feel about it — chloe lilac

june 11: wow (feat. sabrina carpenter) - remix — zara larsson

june 12: walking the dogs — sophie cates

june 13: i’m too pretty for this — claire rosinkranz

june 14: white flag — clairo

june 15: disappear — sophie cates

june 16: is it true — tame impala

june 17: backyard boy — claire rosinkranz

june 18: summer bummer (feat. a$ap rocky & playboi carti) — lana del rey

june 19: goldie — a$ap rocky

june 20: under the weather — mac miller

june 21: brazil — declan mckenna

june 22: the good witch — maisie peters

june 23: brooklyn baby — lana del rey

june 24: sister golden hair — america

june 25: jane — jefferson starship

june 26: part of the band — the 1975

june 27: lie — nessa barrett

june 28: bsc — maisie peters

june 29: vampire — olivia rodrigo

june 30: milk — the 1975

july 1: july — hunny

july 2: 143 — the know

july 3: get free — lana del rey

july 4: end game — taylor swift, ed sheeran, & future

july 5: violets for roses — lana del rey

july 6: when emma falls in love (taylor’s version) (from the vault) — taylor swift

july 7: i can see you (taylor’s version) (from the vault) — taylor swift

july 8: superman (taylor’s version) — taylor swift

july 9: last kiss (taylor’s version) — taylor swift

july 10: electric touch (feat. fall out boy) (taylor’s version) (from the vault) — taylor swift

july 11: satisfied ? — jayden bartels

july 12: wendy — maisie peters

july 13: screw time — claire rosinkranz

july 14: castles crumbling (feat. hayley williams) (taylor’s version) (from the vault) — taylor swift

july 15: ruby tuesday — the rolling stones

july 16: no sleep till brooklyn — beastie boys

july 17: pale blue eyes — the velvet underground

july 18: charlotte sometimes - single version — the cure

july 19: jet black heart - live from the royal albert hall — 5 seconds of summer

july 20: the girl who cried wolf — 5 seconds of summer

july 21: catch fire — 5 seconds of summer

july 22: teenage dream - live — 5 seconds of summer

july 23: easy for you to say — 5 seconds of summer

july 24: the band and i — maisie peters

july 25: don’t you (taylor’s version) (from the vault) — taylor swift

july 26: me — the 1975

july 27: up to me — lany

july 28: how to draw / petrichor — the 1975

july 29: seashore — the regrettes

july 30: superfruit — maude latour

july 31: annabel lee — silver cup

august 1: august — taylor swift

august 2: what was i made for? [from the motion picture “barbie”] — billie eilish

august 3: xxl — lany

august 4: settle down — the 1975

august 5: roll over, baby — lany

august 6: cruel summer — taylor swift

august 7: end of the day — one direction

august 8: talk to myself — nessa barrett

august 9: new romantics — taylor swift

august 10: bad idea right? — olivia rodrigo

august 11: bags - recorded at electric lady studios — clairo

august 12: the adults are talking — the strokes

august 13: stuck on us — claire rosinkranz & aidan bissett

august 14: seeing stars — børns

august 15: 3am — halsey

august 16: ptolemaea — ethel cain

august 17: oxytocin — billie eilish

august 18: all the things she said — poppy

august 19: hell is a teenage girl — nessa barrett

august 20: football game — sophie cates

august 21: playing on my mind — the 1975

august 22: bandages — lexi jayde

august 23: afterglow — taylor swift

august 24: ruby — kaiser chiefs

august 25: hell ain’t a bad place to be — ac/dc

august 26: waste the night — 5 seconds of summer

august 27: british bombs — declan mckenna

august 28: honeymoon avenue - live from london — ariana grande

august 29: if you wanna — the vaccines

august 30: into the black — chromatics

august 31: end of beginning — djo

september 1: there it goes — maisie peters

september 2: stadium love — metric

september 3: youngblood — 5 seconds of summer

september 4: vintage — blu detiger

september 5: inc. — dori valentine

september 6: story of another us — 5 seconds of summer

september 7: carousel — 5 seconds of summer

september 8: teenage dream — olivia rodrigo

september 9: lacy — olivia rodrigo

september 10: the grudge — olivia rodrigo

september 11: thin white lies — 5 seconds of summer

september 12: bleach — 5 seconds of summer

september 13: outer space / carry on — 5 seconds of summer

september 14: you signed up for this — maisie peters

september 15: she looks so perfect — 5 seconds of summer

september 16: bad omens — 5 seconds of summer

september 17: caramel — 5 seconds of summer

september 18: all-american bitch — olivia rodrigo

september 19: ballad of a homeschooled girl — olivia rodrigo

september 20: love is embarrassing — olivia rodrigo

september 21: best years — 5 seconds of summer

september 22: disconnected — 5 seconds of summer

september 23: come when you call — tv girl

september 24: easier - live from the vault — 5 seconds of summer

september 25: home is where the hurt is — lany

september 26: can’t replace you — keira kennedy

september 27: personal best — maisie peters

september 28: there it goes - acoustic — maisie peters

september 29: ilysb - stripped — lany

september 30: no — lany

october 1: october country — october country

october 2: when it was over — grace enger

october 3: sugar & cinnamon — lany

october 4: flowers on the floor — lany

october 5: love me — the 1975

october 6: heart out — the 1975

october 7: brb / kiss — lany

october 8: hericane — lany

october 9: broken home — 5 seconds of summer

october 10: get him back! — olivia rodrigo

and after 40 minutes of typing, we’re all caught up! side note: this list makes it very easy to track album releases i was excited about AND the four recent concerts i went to (and the resulting pcd)

[lilworms]

the first time i heard this song was like 4 hours before i found out she was engaged for about 5 out of the 6 months

[onestowatch]

Chloe Lilac Shares 10 Songs That Inspired Her New Mixtape ‘you were good to me’

Photo: Emma Marie Jenkinson

Love and betrayal exist at the heart of Chloe Lilac’s latest mixtape, you were good to me. It’s the emotional undercurrent that propels the four-track project forward from the guitar-driven controlled outburst of “lily’s backyard” to the confident embrace of “only love song.” 

"This mixtape is all about losing the people you love most. Whether that’s losing a best friend, losing a romantic partner, or losing yourself. It can be hard to let go when people come in and out of your life, you could feel betrayed, you could feel heartbreak, you could feel anger, but at the end of the day, it all comes back to love," shares Lilac. 

Taking inspiration from a wide span of indie rock cult hits and the occasional Childish Gambino track, we invited Lilac to share with us the 10 songs that scored the creation of you were good to me. 

1. Hole - “Violet”: This is one of my all time favorite songs. I love how angry she is!

2. The Breeders - “No Aloha”: The breeders are one of my favorite bands of all time. I love the breakdown.

3. Alex G - “Gretel”: Alex G is a huge inspiration of mine. The combination of acoustic and electronic instruments makes his music almost sound haunted. The writing is amazing too.

4. Pixies - “Hey”: The Pixies are my all time favorite band. This song in particular has inspired me so much throughout my life.

5. Weezer - “Undone”: This album is one of the greatest albums of all time. This and violet were the main inspirations for “lily’s backyard.”

6. Fiona Apple - “Paper Bag”: The honest lyrics of this song cut deep. Fiona Apple is a legend and inspires me so much.

7. Mitski - “Your Best American Girl”: I feel like I’m saying this a lot but Mitski is one of the greatest of all time. This song changed my life when I heard it. I dream of making a song this good one day.

8. Radiohead - “Karma Police”: The chord progression, lyrics, just oh my god. This song is amazing.

9. Childish Gambino - “What Kind of Love”: These lyrics are insane. I love how melancholy the guitar is.

10. Chloe Lilac - “how does your girlfriend feel about it”: I wrote this song!! It’s on my new mixtape that just came out! Go stream it!

[emmvxnce]

i didn’t know i was a p h o e n i x                                TILL I LEARNED HOW TO S P E A K

𝖖 𝖚 𝖔 𝖙 𝖊 𝖘

"Without losing a piece of me, how do i get to heaven?  Without changing a piece of me, how do I get to heaven?  So if I’m losing a piece of me, maybe I don’t want heaven.” — Troye Sivan, Heaven

“She had a strange feeling in the pit of her stomach, like when you’re swimming and you want to put your feet down on something solid, but the water’s deeper than you think and there’s nothing there.” — Julia Gregson

“The worst thing in the world next to anarchy, is government.” — Henry Ward Beecher

“I’ve left my fingerprints somewhere. And that’s good enough.  And I am my own person. And that’s good enough.  And… I stand my ground. And that’s good enough.” — Morrissey

𝖇 𝖆 𝖘 𝖎 𝖈

NAME: Emmeline Glenys Vance NICKNAMES: Emme, Em, Vance AGE: Twenty Two BIRTHDAY: 10 September 1957 GENDER: Cis Female PRONOUNS: She/Her SEXUALITY: Homosexual ETHNICITY: English, Welsh, Chinese

𝖋 𝖆 𝖒 𝖎 𝖑 𝖞

MOTHER: Jìngyi ‘Jenny’ Vance, née Ling (44) FATHER: Raymond Thomas Vance (46) SIBLINGS: Charles Vance (23), Margaret Vance (20)

𝖕 𝖍 𝖞 𝖘 𝖎 𝖈 𝖆 𝖑 𝖆𝖙𝖙𝖗𝖎𝖇𝖚𝖙𝖊𝖘

FACE CLAIM: Chloe Bennet BUILD: Naturally slim, of average height.  Several years of training have lent an athletic edge to her body.  Solid bone structure, thin but not waiflike. HAIR: Shoulder length, thick, and wavy. Typically pulled back off her face in some way or other.  Often twisted up with her wand which backfires when she is forced to pull her wand and her hair comes falling around her face.   HAIR COLOR: Dark brown. EYE COLOR: Typically brown, nearly black when she’s upset or angry but lighter when the sun is bright or her mood is up. SKIN COLOR: Beige with warm undertones. DOMINANT HAND: Right. ANOMALIES: Broken nails from years spent biting or picking at them.  A scar on her hairline on the right side of her forehead from where she fell when she was eight and cracked her head on the coffee table in the living room.  Various minor scars from several years with the Order.   SCENT: Honey and lilac from her shampoo, a touch of something floral if she’s decided to put on perfume which is rare and reserved for the most special of occasions.   ACCENT: RP but with traces of welsh from years listening and speaking with her dad who is from Cardiff.   ALLERGIES:  Pollen and blueberries. DISORDERS: Mild anxiety triggered in the last several years by the worsening war FASHION: Leans to muggle fashion, typical late 70′s clothing.  Bell bottoms, high waisted jeans, crop tops, the occasional leather jacket, over sized men’s shirts paired with leggings.  She prefers pants to skirts as often as possible.   NERVOUS TICS:  Biting and picking at her nails, toying with any jewelry she may be wearing, usually a necklace, twirling hair at the base of her neck or from her ponytail.  In general her hands are usually fidgeting in someway, she has a hard time keeping them still. QUIRKS:  She doesn’t like silence and sometimes will hum to herself if there is no other sound just to fill the empty air, she almost always sits with her legs pulled up either under or in front of her.

𝖑 𝖎 𝖋 𝖊 𝖘 𝖙 𝖞 𝖑 𝖊

RESIDES: Plainview Point BORN: Cardiff, where her parents lived in the earliest years of their marriage before moving to a village just outside London.   RAISED: Shere, a village in Surrey, about an hour southwest of London.   PETS: Persimmon aka Persy, a ginger cat she met in an alley near St. Mungo’s who took a liking to her after she shared her turkey sandwich one day and followed her home.  

CAREER: Healer, specializing in spell inflicted damage and working on the fourth floor of St. Mungo’s. EXPERIENCE:  Member of the Potions club in her fifth through seventh years at Hogwarts.  OWLS and NEWTS in Charms, Potions, Herbology, and Defense Against the Dark Arts.  Entered the Healer training program upon graduation from Hogwarts, rotating through each floor and specialization at St. Mungo’s before choosing to specialize in spell-inflicted damage.   EMPLOYER: St. Mungo's Hospital for Magical Maladies and Injuries

POLITICAL AFFILIATION: Order of the Phoenix BELIEFS: Equality, in all shapes and forms.  Being a muggleborn, a woman, the daughter of an immigrant, and a lesbian have given her a unique viewpoint into so many of the ways that society is stacked against certain people.  She does not have a strong religious or spirtual practice or belief but adds it to the list of things she believes people should be allowed to choose and practice without judgment or intercession. MISDEMEANORS: Breaking curfew, pilfering from the potion supply closet in school and a little bit from the hospital when it’s not something she can get at the apothecary FELONIES: None on the record, only in service of the Order DRUGS: Marijuana, both inhaled and ingested.  Girlfriend makes a hell of a pot brownie. SMOKES: Marijuana, yes.  Cigarettes, no. ALCOHOL: Beer mostly, the occasional whiskey when someone else is in charge of choosing it.  Never wine or cocktails.  Too sweet for her taste. DIET:  Mostly simple meals, usually with a bit of a Chinese foundation.  Rice as a staple, a lot of stir fry because it’s simply and quick and can be made in large quantities to last her for many days or to feed a multitude of people.  

LANGUAGES: English, Welsh, Mandarin

PHOBIAS: Fire, losing those she loves and being left alone.   HOBBIES:  Brewing potions, listening and collecting muggle music TRAITS: { + }: compassionate, self-assured, determined, hard working, pragmatic { - }: blunt, ineloquent, inflexible, stubborn, temperamental

𝖋 𝖆 𝖛 𝖔 𝖗 𝖎 𝖙 𝖊 𝖘

LOCATION: Her flat.  She’s turned it into a haven with couches you can sink into, nooks where she can curl up, candles and warm smells, even a fireplace she and Persy like to lie in front of until they fall asleep on the poufs she has as extra seating.   SPORTS TEAM: Chelsea Football Club, Holyhead Harpies (football first and then quidditch) GAME: Rummy, card games in general MUSIC: Muggle rock and punk - Queen, David Bowie, Blondie, The Clash MOVIES: Star Wars, The Godfather (just the first one), Superman, The Exorcist FOOD:  Chinese food but actual Chinese food like her mother makes, not what you can get in the shops.  Not that that’s bad - it’s just not her favorite.   BEVERAGE: Chocolate Milk.  Yes she knows she is a child.   COLOR: Deep gold.  

𝖒 𝖆 𝖌 𝖎 𝖈

ALUMNI HOUSE: Hufflepuff WAND (length, flexibility, wood, & core):  9 ¼ inches, ash, phoenix feather core, slightly springy.  The saying goes that ash wands are stubborn but it isn’t the arrogant or crass type of stubborn that attracts this wood.  It is drawn to a person whose beliefs are held strongly in their mind and deeply in their heart.  Combined with a core of phoenix feather and it’s slightly springy nature, Emmeline’s wand is particularly loyal and becomes finnicky in the hands of anyone other than it’s owner. AMORTENTIA:  Fresh baked pastries, cinnamon, twilight air in the summer PATRONUS:  Brown Bear - social creatures who find strength in sharing resources and who are known for their protective instincts.  Bears are also closely associated with healing in some cultures.   BOGGART:  Darkness.  The kind of darkness that envelops your senses.  Instead of becoming stronger, it dulls each sense so you cannot see but you also cannot hear or feel or smell.  You are isolated, alone, helpless.  Seconds become eternities as you seek any anchor to hold on to to pull yourself back to the world.  

𝖈 𝖍 𝖆 𝖗 𝖆 𝖈 𝖙 𝖊 𝖗

MORAL ALIGNMENT: Neutral Good MBTI: ENFJ-A (Extroverted, Intuitive, Feeling, Judging, Assertive) MBTI ROLE: The Protaganist ENNEAGRAM: Type 2 ENNEAGRAM ROLE: The Helper TEMPERAMENT: Sanguine WESTERN ZODIAC: Virgo

Virgos are always paying attention to the smallest details and their deep sense of humanity makes them one of the most careful signs of the zodiac. This will lead to a strong character, but one that prefers conservative, well-organized things and a lot of practicality in their everyday life. These individuals have an organized life, and even when they let go to chaos, their goals and dreams still have strictly defined borders in their mind. Their need to serve others makes them feel good as caregivers, on a clear mission to help.

CHINESE ZODIAC: Rooster

Roosters are smart, charming, witty, honest, blunt, capable, talented, brave, and self-reliant. They are known for their ability to do astounding things with extremely limited resources. Their way is always right (in their mind, at least), and they love to debate their stance. Roosters are extremely sociable and bask in attention and praise.

PRIMAL SIGN: Corgi

Loyal, observant, and analytical, those born under the Primal Zodiac sign of the Corgi are devoted friends and family members who take on the role of caretaker with great passion. Few others are as eager to jump in and help a friend in need, and Corgis take great pride in this. More so than other signs, members of this sign like to fill a very specific role in the lives of other people, thus getting the majority of their own personal fulfillment through their service to others.

TAROT CARD: Justice

The Justice Tarot card has to do with moral sensitivity and that which gives rise to empathy, compassion, and a sense of fairness. Since the time of Solomon, this image has represented a standard for the humane and fair-minded treatment of other beings.  This card reminds us to be careful to attend to important details. It's a mistake to overlook or minimize anything where this card is concerned.

SONGS: coming soon, i suck at this

IDEOLOGIES: Doesn’t believe in wallowing or living in the past.  Mistakes get made and bad things happen and the only way to get past it all is to pick yourself up and keep on walking.

Tea over coffee.  Fight her about it.  Get yourself some black tea if you need the caffeine.  

There is exactly nothing that can’t be made better by a dance party around the flat with the music so loud that you can’t hear your own thoughts anymore.  

There is no excuse for inequality.  People are people and the only way to get through this life is to care about the people inhabiting the world around you.  Most common thought - “I don’t know how to explain to you that you should care about other people.”

[dysphoric-dumbass13]

guess what bitch. all of the flower asks. if i have to do it, you have to do it

Hahaha, love you too. Asshole.

Alisons: Sexuality? - Hahahaha bold of you to assume I have any clue. I like girls. I like guys. I like nonbinary people. And other people on the spectrum. I’m not pan, idk what though. Plus the label doesn’t really matter.

Amaranth: Pronouns/Gender? - I’m a demiboy, so he/him/his or they/them/theirs. Whichever, it doesn’t really matter. Though I personally feel more masculine.

Amaryllis: Birthday? - Today lol (January 13th)

Anemone: Favorite flower? - Would it be cliche and stupid to say roses? Because those. Weirdly.

Angelonia: Favorite t.v. show? - Damn that’s hard. Between BBC Sherlock, BBC Merlin, Supernatural, Once Upon A Time, and John Mulaney (shut up it counts)

Arum-Lily: What’s the farthest you’d go for a stranger? - It really depends on the situation. I would give away clothing, risk my life, give them shelter in my home, allow them to borrow my phone, but them lunch... I’d do a lot for anyone. Even though I have trust issues.

Aster: What’s one of your favorite quotes? - “Yeah, the asshole who sent me this (love you alex)” - @eyeforaneye-toothforatooth lmao. Truly though? “Your destiny is calling, you better find out what he wants.” and “A half cannot truly hate that which makes it whole.”, both from Merlin, about Merlin and Arthur. They're just so gay.

Aubrieta: Favorite drink? - Tea.

Baby’s Breath: Would you kiss the last person you kissed again? - Meh. Sure. I don’t really care. The one right before that by like 10 seconds, 100%.

Balsam Fir: Have you ever been in love? - Yes. Oh god yes.

Baneberries: Favorite song? - Literally impossible. You are insane.

Basket of Gold: Describe your family. - A disaster. Both biological and chosen. I have 3 little brothers in my chosen family and all of them are younger than me.

Beebalm: Do you have a best friend? Who is it? - I have 5. The bitch who sent me this (love you), Evan, TJ, Shiro, and Sid.

Begonia: Favorite color? - Bloodred and black.

Bellflower: Favorite animal? - Wolves. They’re amazing.

Bergenia: Are you a morning or night person? - I’m not a person. But mornings fuck me up dude.

Black-Eyed Susan: If you could be any animal for a day, what would it be? - A dodo bird. Because they’re all dead.

Bloodroots: When you were a kid, what did you want to be when you grew up? - So many things. A lead singer of a band (which I might get to do soon, yay), a policeman, an fbi agent, a photographer, etc. 

Bluemink: What are your thoughts on children? - I love them, I’d probably adopt older children because they need it the most, but I love children so much.

Blazing Stars: What are you afraid of? Is there a reason why? - I answered this earlier, “I am afraid of spiders. Because they have so many legs and so many eyes and THEY DON’T FUCKING NEED ALL OF THEM LIKE WTF?!?!?!?!?!”

Borage: Give a random fact about your childhood. - About 75% of the food my brother and I ate was Ramen, Pop Tarts, and instant rice.

Bugleherb: How would you spend your last day on Earth? - With the people I love the most.

Buttercup: Relationship status? - Sadly single :(

Camelia: If you could visit anywhere, where would you want to go? - Ireland. Without a doubt. It’s so beautiful.

Candytufts: When do you feel most loved? - I answered this one too. “When I’m cuddling with someone I care about while watching one of my favorite shows or movies. Or just when I’m cuddling someone I care about. And yes, that includes my puppy. (Funny joke, I’m watching Merlin while watching Merlin) (Merlin is my puppy).”

Canna: Do you have any tattoos? - Sadly no. I will though.

Canterbury Bells: Do you have any piercings? - Two in each ear.

California Poppy: Height? - 5′3½″

Cardinal Flower: Do you believe in ghosts? - Yeah.

Carnation: What are you currently wearing? - Jeans and a flannel, as always.

Catnip: Have you ever slept with a nightlight? - Yes.

Chives: Who was the last person you hugged? - Sid. He’s the best, honestly.

Chrysanthemum: Who was the last person you kissed? - TJ. He’s basically my brother. The person before that was Shiro, and both of those were New Years Day at like midnight.

Cock’s Comb: Favorite font? - Calligraphy. It’s so fun to write in. But in computers, Times New Roman for some reason.

Columbine: Are you tired? - *in Snape’s voice* Alllllllways

Common Boneset: What are you looking forward to? - A good night’s sleep for once.

Coneflower: Dream job? - Lead singer of a rock band, which I’ll probably get to do soon!

Crane’s-Bill: Introvert or extrovert? - Extrovert, definitely.

Crocus: Have you ever been in love? - This question was already asked. But yes.

Crown Imperial: What’s the furthest you’d go for someone you care about? - To the ends of the Earth.

Cyclamen: Did you have a favorite stuffed animal as a child? What was it? - Yes. It was a huge stuffed cheetah. Now it’s a giant stuffed bear from Evan.

Daffodil: What’s your zodiac sign? - Capricorn. I was supposed to be an Aquarius. And I personally think I’m an Aquarius more than a Capricorn.

Dahlia: Have you done anything worth remembering? - Not really. Other than date people.

Daisy: What do you feel is your greatest accomplishment? - I don’t fucking know. Winning the school spelling bee in 5th grade?

Daylily: What would you do if your parents didn’t like your partner(s)? - I wouldn’t care. If I love them and they love me, that’s all that matters to me.

Dandrobium: Who is the last person you said “I love you” to? - Sid I think.

False Goat’s Beard: What is something you are good at? - Idk. Singing?

Foxgloves: What is something you’re bad at? - Everything.

Freesia: What are three good things that have happened to you in the last month? - I got a puppy, I got my binder, I gave my (now ex) girlfriend the best gift I’ve ever given in my life.

Garden Cosmos: How was your day today? - Considering all I’ve done is watched Merlin, type this, and cuddle with Merlin? Pretty good.

Gardenia: Are you happy with where you're at in your life? - Nope.

Gladiolus: What is something you hope to do in the next year or two? - Die :)

Glory-of-the-Snow: What are ten things that make you happy/you’re grateful to have in your life? - In no particular order: @eyeforaneye-toothforatooth, Evan, TJ, Shiro, Sid, Merlin, BBC Merlin, Sherlock, Supernatural, Harry Potter

Heliotropium: What helps you calm down when you feel stressed? - Healthily? Dying my hair, listening to music, reading, writing, and getting hugs.

Hellebore: How do you show your affection? - Many ways. Mostly hand hearts, gifts, trust, and hugs.

Hoary Stock: What are you proudest of? - My flannel collection. I don’t know the exact number but it’s immense.

Hollyhock: Describe your ideal day. - cuddling with my friends while watching shows and movies and reading.

Hyacinth: What do you like to do in your free time? - Read. Write. Listen to music. Watch TV. Cuddle.

Hydrangea: How long have you known your best friend? How did you meet them? - ok gimme a sec.

@eyeforaneye-toothforatooth: They hated me when we met. We’ve known each other for... 3 or 4 years? We met in science in 6th grade I think.

Evan: We met in 6th grade. They noticed we had the same flannel on and commented on it. I hated them for like 2 years. Then we became friends, dated, now we’re best friends. I love them so much.

TJ: He was a friend of my best friend’s friend. Started hanging out in 7th grade, been like brothers ever since.

Shiro: Barely knew each other, then kinda “met” in 8th grade. Quickly became friends, dated, became best friends ever since.

Sid: Met him in SAGA this year. He bought me a binder, he’s the kindest person to me at my new school. I love him so much.

Irises: Who can you talk to about (almost) everything? - I can talk to @eyeforaneye-toothforatooth about practically everything. I love them so much.

Laceleaf: How many friends do you have? - Surprisingly a lot.

Lantanas: What’s the best compliment you’ve ever received? - Idk. “You look very handsome today.”?

Larkspur: What do you think of yourself? - What an utter piece of garbage.

Lavender: What’s your favorite thing about yourself? - My eyebrows? Idk they look cool, especially when I do them. One’s got a slit.

Leather Flower: What’s your least favorite thing about yourself? - All of it.

Lilac: What is something you liked to do as a child? - Sleep. When I could.

Lily: Who was your best friend when you were a kid? - It changed at least once every year. Paige, Sheyenne, Peyton, Chloe, the list goes on.

Lily of the Incas: What is something you still feel guilty of? - I followed everyone in kinda making fun of this kid who was a trans girl. I felt so guilty about it then, and I feel so guilty about it now. I hope she is living her best life now, and if she’s reading this I want her to know I am so so sorry. And I have felt it too, I have been made fun of for my gender identification. I am so sorry.

Lily of the Nile: What is something you feel guilty for that you shouldn’t feel guilty about? - Idk. There’s one thing I’m sworn not to tell about but the person who asked me this knows, so it doesn’t matter.

Lupine: What does your name mean? Why is that your name? - My deadname? Means “grace of god”, because my family is very Christian. My chosen name? Means “Defender of men; protector of mankind.” Which is honestly just so badass. I chose it because I liked it and it was genderneutral.

Marigold: Where did you grow up? Tell us about it. - Fort Collins, Colorado babyyyyyyyyy. It was nice and peaceful and small and I loved it.

Morning Glory: What was your bedroom like growing up? - Small. Always a disaster. Sadly shared with my brother.

Mugworts: What was it like for you as a teenager? Did you enjoy your teenage years? - So far? Sucky as fuck. I hate it. I love my friends, but other than that I hate it. I’m only like halfway through them anyway. It’s been spent trying to prove to my parents that I am just as good as my brother, who I happened to raise.

Norwegian Angelica: Tell us about your mom. - Awesome. Sweet and kind, short, with red hair, hazel eyes, and freckles. She’s caring, and she was raised in a Christian house but she’s trying so hard to be accepting, to fight against her religion for her child and I love that so much. I love her so much.

Onions: Tell about your dad. - Kinda annoying. Plays video games all day and makes my brother and I do everything around the house. He tries to be nice and stuff but it really doesn’t work that well. He basically says he “doesn’t care” about the whole sexuality thing and gender thing and then he says stuff like “you can’t really know til your hormones have settled” and “Your name is your name until you can legally change it.” It’s stupid.

Orchid: Tell about your grandparents. - Which ones? I have multiple. I have 4 grandmas and 4 grandpas. Tho I suppose they’re all pretty similar. Very Christian, yet pretty accepting. They love me to death. I have one super transphobic grandpa, but basically all of them helped me raise my brother when I was little and my dad was asleep from working nights and my mom was at work all day. I owe them a lot. And I love them so much.

Pansy: What was your most memorable birthday? What made it so memorable? - My 12th. My best friend Val was there and so was my friend Tei and that was it, and they basically got along too well and I was really left out of things at my own birthday party. It was annoying. It was the first time I ever felt true jealousy, and that’s why I remember it so well. I haven’t liked a birthday since because it reminds me of that. I used to like it because it was a day when my parents actually payed attention to me and were off, but now everyone makes too big of a deal of it and I just wish it didn’t exist.

Petunia: If you’re in a relationship, how did you meet your partner(s)? If you’re not in a relationship, how did you meet your crush/how do you hope to meet your future partner(s), if you want any? - SAGA club, he founded it a couple years ago. He’s super kind to me and he does so much for me, god I don’t deserve him. He bought me a binder. And he’s my best friend. I love him so much.

Pincushion: How do you deal with pain? - Healthily? Getting hugs and cuddles from my better friends. I can’t really do much of that lately though. *cries in a corner*

Pink: Where is home? - With the family and friends I’ve found.

Plantain Lilies: If you could go back in time, what is one thing you would stop/change? - Wow. Hard choice. I’d either kill Hitler as a baby, or prevent my own conception.

Prarie Gentian: Who is someone you look up to? Describe them. - Sid if you’re reading this I am so sorry, and I’m so sorry for mentioning you so much. But I look up to him, because he is one of the best people I know. I love him so much. He’s sweet and just sadncaspdnnhciodsifcnsjxsojcm.

Primrose: Describe your ideal life. - Idc what’s going on in it, as long as it’s with my found family and friends. I’d like my depression, anxiety, and ADHD to disappear though, ideally.

Rhondendron: What is something you used to believe in as a child? - Jesus. Or life. Either one works.

Ricinus: Who’s the most important in your life? - That’s hard. @eyeforaneye-toothforatooth, Sid, Evan, TJ, Shiro, Freddie Mercury, Elton John, or David Bowie (may Mercury and Bowie rest in peace)

Rose: What’s your favorite sound? - Music. Definitely music.

Rosemallows: What’s your favorite memory? - When I was at our first organized rehearsal for OneActs. I just love hanging out with so many fellow gays (and yes, I am including the straight twink that is Simon)

Sage: What’s your least favorite memory? - Um, I don’t want to go into detail on that. I was 5. It was bad.

Snapdragon: At this moment, what do you want? - A boyfriend lol

St. John’s Wort: Is it easy or difficult for you to express how you feel about things? - Depends. In a relationship? Pretty easy. Any other time? Near impossible until I break.

Sunflower: What is something you don’t want to imagine your life without? - There’s 3. Pie, music, and my brother TJ.

Sweet Pea: How much sleep did you get last night? - I doped myself up on melatonin so about 7½. Usually its between 1 and 4, if I’m lucky enough to fall asleep.

Tickseed: What’s your main reason to get up every morning? - The people I care most about. My best friends. Also the reason I don’t stab myself through the heart. They keep me going. I love them all so much. They mean too much to me to hurt them, if I could in any way.

Touch-Me-Not: How do you feel about your current job? - Living or school? Either one I hate it. I don’t have an actual job.

Transvaal Daisy: What’s your favorite item of clothing? - My flannels. Or my band tees. Or my leather jacket from TJ.

Tropical White Morning Glory: Describe your aesthetic. - I don’t fully know what this is asking. I guess the smell of worn flannel, old worn leather, grease from a car, hair dye, smudged eyeliner, and conjoined lips? Idk.

Tulip: What would be the best present to get you? - Idk. Best present I’ve ever recieved was a binder. But I’d say worn flannel from a thrift store.

Vervain: What’s stressing you out most right now? - Grandparents spamming my phone with “Happy Birthday [deadname]!!!” texts

Wisteria: How many books have you read in the last few months? What were they called? - Idk dude.

Wolf’s Bane: Where do you want to be in life this time next year? - Dead or with a partner.

Yarrow: Do you know what vore is? - Oddly enough, no. But I don’t think I want to.

Zinnia: Give a random fact about yourself. - I have green eyes.

Kass I hate you.