#sometimes ur a good student & sometimes u just gotta Slurp Up That Fucking Karamatsu Angst Boiiiiiii

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i feel like i’ve been pretty scarce around here lately so heres the life update no one asked for

art classes are Kicking My Fucking Ass: drawing class is physical labor, painting is emotional labor, 3d design is fuckign Both

the day after i was like “my friends in painting class make it bearable :)” ffuckin none of them showed up to class sdjkgaksgjdg

ok thats a lie one of them showed up but like. the other two. smh

((it was because there was a note on the door saying the teacher wasn’t there that day so technically class was cancelled but u could still go inside to work on ur painting (which i did bc i desperately needed the time) so uh. not saying anyones a fuckin coward for going home EXCEPT THAT I AM))

on thursday (2 days later) we had critique but first we had 2 hours to finish up our paintings, but i already finished mine bc i stayed after class for 2 hours on tuesday (and three extra hours the previous thursday) so i was fuckin BORED as hell but at least everyone was there this time so we like. hung out & talked about like anime n shit LOL

turns out me never shutting tf up about mob psycho actually worked out for once bc the guy i sit next to (who was also done w/ his painting) was like “im gonna watch the first episode of that show u were talking about” and fuckin pulled out his phone & started watching it right before my very eyes it was Very hard to concentrate on the critique handout i was supposed to be filling out

(my favorite part was the first 7 or 8 min where he kept going “why is everyone so Stupid” because the first 7 or 8 minutes heavily involve reigen ghdlgksdg i was so happy)

((he didnt show up to our friday class the next day so i have no idea if he actually watched the rest of it like he said he was going to but i hope he did))

Speaking Of Yesterday

my piece of shit brain that constantly and insatiably thirsts for angst has latched onto one Karamatsu Matsuno like a fucking leech as of late and has been sucking up tens of thousands of words of fanfiction daily with no signs of stopping and yesterday i binged an entire 80k+ series instead of doing anything remotely productive Or responsible and irl im fucking dead free me from this prison of suffering this has gotten Entirely out of control

my friday class is 6 hours long and honest to god i only spent about the last hour and a half actually cutting foam board because. well for a lot of reasons but First And Foremost im blaming this Goddamn Fic

i couldnt focus on my work so i ended up reading like 10k on and off throughout the day but like since it was an #angsty story it just made me not feel like getting anything done hlskdjlaksjdgskdg foam board is hard work with OK u need to be emotionally ready for that shit u have to put your mind body and soul into it

i did not come to class prepared to work i came to class with a portable window to ao3 in my pocket and a healthy internet connection to support it, how could we let this happen to our generation what happened to the good old days when i didnt have the luxury of endless fanfiction at my fingertips and i had to procrastinate my work by doodling on worksheets or staring at the wall for indeterminate amounts of time like a Good Student. kids these days

i finished reading the fic at like midnight lolllll i’d thought i might get started on that drawing i have due on monday but nope

thanks anime for ruining my life

(i would’ve said karamatsu there but he is an undeserved blessing to this world and i could never conscientiously blame him for anything and oh god listen to me see what i’ve become what the fuck)

in conclusion school is tiring but not too bad & im still osomatsu trash, more than ever before (save me please this is my cry for help). also i cant wait for october it’s gonna be such a rad month aaaa