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happy April <3
once again for the bargain price of $6.66 i will present to you a Top 5 Childhood Misadventures: April Fool’s Edition
#bittersweet bc I'm estranged from most of my family including the sister featured in the post above#sometimes being raised in a dysfunctional household draws siblings closer together#but other times it makes it impossible to have an adult relationship that doesn't involved re-living trauma & resentment & Bad Feelings#and that sucks. and it is what it is#and i can spend entire therapy sessions exploring how my parents pitted me & my siblings against each other as a form of manipulation#analyzing how they trained us to find each other's weaknesses and prey on each other's insecurities to the point it permanently warped us#and a decade later I can't be around my adult sibling without us triggering each other's c-ptsd#and there's guilt and blame and loss and hurt i could examine#but honestly? honestly i just want to remember a silly memory from a long time ago#childhood wasn't a less complicated time and certainly not a better time. but it happened and it had moments that make me smile even now#so i will take those moments. I will take those rare few precious anecdotes and carve them into little stories#to share with other people so they can giggle with me#because the Joy existed in that moment. even if it was tinged with pain#the Joy existed before and after the Hurt#and the Joy was rare and precious and I clung to it like it might dig me out of the grave#because it was proof. If Joy can exist--no matter how brief-- before the suffering and after the suffering#then that is proof that Joy *will* come again. it is there and it exists and i will encounter it again and again and again and again and ag#that was my hypothesis and it was proven Correct
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once again for the bargain price of $6.66 i will present to you a Top 5 Childhood Misadventures: April Fool’s Edition
#bittersweet bc I'm estranged from most of my family including the sister featured in the post above#sometimes being raised in a dysfunctional household draws siblings closer together#but other times it makes it impossible to have an adult relationship that doesn't involved re-living trauma & resentment & Bad Feelings#and that sucks. and it is what it is#and i can spend entire therapy sessions exploring how my parents pitted me & my siblings against each other as a form of manipulation#analyzing how they trained us to find each other's weaknesses and prey on each other's insecurities to the point it permanently warped us#and a decade later I can't be around my adult sibling without us triggering each other's c-ptsd#and there's guilt and blame and loss and hurt i could examine#but honestly? honestly i just want to remember a silly memory from a long time ago#childhood wasn't a less complicated time and certainly not a better time. but it happened and it had moments that make me smile even now#so i will take those moments. I will take those rare few precious anecdotes and carve them into little stories#to share with other people so they can giggle with me#because the Joy existed in that moment. even if it was tinged with pain#the Joy existed before and after the Hurt#and the Joy was rare and precious and I clung to it like it might dig me out of the grave#because it was proof. If Joy can exist--no matter how brief-- before the suffering and after the suffering#then that is proof that Joy *will* come again. it is there and it exists and i will encounter it again and again and again and again and ag#that was my hypothesis and it was proven Correct
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