#sometimes ai only wants to watch the world burn

[mariacallous]

If you’ve been on TikTok at any point in the past six months, chances are you’ve stumbled across them, as I first did during a fairly routine doomscroll one night this summer. For me it started with two videos somewhat incongruously tagged #homeremodeling and #housedesign. One of them featured a CGI man summoning a baby phoenix outside of a tree that he planned to turn into an apartment. Then a robotic AI voice started to narrate how the CGI man, identified as “Little John,” was going to build it. Over the next 90 seconds, Little John transformed the tree into a maniacally space-efficient luxury unit in an AI-generated ballet of flying galvanized square steel, ecofriendly wood veneer, and expansion screws.

The other video, featuring nearly identical CGI and the same hypnotically flat AI narrator, followed the story of a couple with a billion children that, like Little John, decided it was time to improve their home. And those two videos were only the tip of the galvanized steel iceberg.

There are hundreds of accounts posting these videos to TikTok right now, and they’ve become immensely popular, racking up millions of views. Even the “character” of Little John has become a meme of his own, with people making skits where they pretend to be him.

The videos struck me as a fascinating case study of how TikTok trends have evolved—or rather devolved—over time. What was once an app full of human beings making content in conversation with each other has become a dizzying world where irony and sincerity, memes and spam, blur together into a slurry of bizarre content no one is quite sure what to do with. As I set out to discover who was making these videos, I assumed that lifting the rock would reveal an even stranger world of broken social networks, AI content farms, and shady engagement hacks, wiggling just beneath the surface of the web. Which it did! But stranger still, in the end, it turned out these videos hadn’t become huge as a TikTok trend at all.

In 2022, an account popped up on TikTok called @​​designer_bob. From the start, it exclusively posted videos with a specific format: Some kind of weird domestic issue must be solved with extreme home renovation, the action animated in a surreal CGI style with a spunky stock music soundtrack. Within a month, the account had a viral hit: a video about designing a bedroom for four children, which has been viewed more than 10 million times.

Designer Bob’s formula proved perfect for TikTok’s algorithm, which is constantly analyzing, in microseconds, what catches your attention and recalibrating to what it thinks you want to watch. There’s a hypnotic quality to these videos. “The storyline is just fucked up enough to grab your attention early on,” says social media analyst Rachel Karten. And because there’s a process happening—a home renovation—the user can’t look away.

Once Designer Bob’s videos started going viral, hundreds of other accounts started posting similar content. One account called @dy02449xjp, which had been sharing clips from 2000s romcoms like The Proposal and Two Weeks Notice, switched over to weird home renovations in January 2024. That same month, one of their videos went exceptionally viral. It’s been watched more than 44 million times.

Along the way, the aesthetic and style of these videos started to change. The early viral renovation videos from Designer Bob were silly but could sometimes be mistaken for genuine design content. Newer videos were more ludicrous, the renovations more fantastical, their action narrated by a droning AI voice. That’s just the way TikTok’s remix culture works, says Alex Turvy, who studies digital culture.

“We’re going to see trends like this become more and more absurd until they burn out,” he says.

There’s even a spin-off meme specifically about “galvanized square steel,” to the point where some users have questioned whether the whole meme is a viral marketing campaign for galvanized steel.

“I think lore is a really good word to use here. Now the videos blow up and do well because there is lore around them,” Karten says. “Lore sustains virality.”

The more I watched these videos, the more desperate I was to understand who was making them. In the case of Designer Bob, the account bio links to an online candle and crystal store run by a company based in China called Whisper Wisp. And the ​​Designer Bob Facebook page lists Hong Kong as a base on the Page Transparency section. Still, it seems unlikely this is a covert marketing campaign for a candle shop. None of Whisper Wisp’s social channels are nearly as popular as the Designer Bob account. (Whisper Wisp didn’t respond to any of my messages.)

Details about who’s behind the Dy02449xjp account are even more scarce. There is a Facebook page with the same username sharing the same videos. Beyond that, nothing. No other connected accounts, no storefronts or identifying information. If there’s a scam or an upsell coming, it hasn’t dropped yet. For now, at least, Dy02449xjp appears to be pursuing TikTok engagement for its own sake.

Many of these accounts use some variation of the name “Home Designs” and similar logos of a small house, which strongly resemble the branding of an architecture and interior design program called HomeDesignsAI—a major clue, I thought, toward solving the mystery. I was able to track down HomeDesignsAI’s COO and cofounder, Denis Madroane. But he was just as confused as everyone else about how popular these renovation TikToks have become.

HomeDesignsAI is a Romania-based startup that launched in 2023. The app allows users to upload a photo of a room or floor plan and transform it using AI. Madroane says he started seeing TikToks that used HomeDesignsAI last year. He says he and his team thought they were pretty funny—but they’re not seeing much upside.

Madroane confirmed that Home-DesignsAI does have a TikTok account, though it doesn’t really participate in the memes. It has a little under 900 followers, and its biggest video has around 195,000 views. Which seems fine—until you compare it to the unofficial Home-DesignsAI accounts on TikTok. The biggest one, @homedesign369, has 2.4 million followers and is consistently getting millions of views per video.

“Our official account is severely underperforming compared to the numbers averaged by user-generated content,” Madroane concedes.

But as it turns out, none of the most viral Little John TikToks were made using HomeDesignsAI software. So, mystery unsolved. And before this summer, no one on TikTok seemed to know where these videos were coming from. That is, until Candise Lin, a Cantonese and Mandarin tutor based in the US, noticed the trend going viral and revealed the missing piece of the puzzle—at least for confused Americans—in a TikTok video of her own.

It turns out we haven’t actually been watching videos made by TikTok users. They’re coming from a completely different app. As Lin explains, these videos come from Bilibili, China’s closest equivalent to YouTube. On Bilibili, Little John is known as 大壮, or Big John. “Galvanized steel” is even a trending search term. According to Lin, there are two Bilibili users known for creating this kind of content, an account called 疯狂设计家, or Crazy Designer, and another called 设计师王姨, or Designer Aunt Wang. I was able to find dozens of other accounts, as well.

The unhinged home renovation videos on TikTok are machine-translated versions of videos from Bilibili. Chinese content makes the jump across the Great Firewall like this fairly often. Videos downloaded from TikTok’s sister app Douyin are a regular presence on TikTok. But the fact that these were not made for English-speaking audiences would explain the robotic narrator, bizarre syntax, and Chinese iconography seen throughout.

After digging through Crazy Designer’s videos, I was able to find one of the videos I had come across on TikTok back in June, about a couple designing a house for a billion children. Crazy Designer titled it “One Billion Children per Room,” and it’s part of a series, all with titles like “A Million Children per Room,” “Two Million Children per Room,” and so on. After watching it on Bilibili and reading the comments underneath it, I started to realize what these videos are: They’re shitposts. This jaundiced real-estate porn is meant to satirize the housing crunch in cities like Hong Kong and Shanghai, and the commenters are all in on the joke.

In the end, it appears there isn’t any kind of scam or engineered marketing stunt here after all. It’s just two cultures laughing at the same uncanny user-generated content, filtered through some perfunctory layers of AI translation and lost context. And according to Lin, Bilibili users are now aware of how popular Little John videos have become in the West. They’re mortified that Americans are watching.

[noxexistant]

ai-less whumptober; day eighteen

@ailesswhumptober 18 — mind control, possession, “Everybody will end up despising you.” ↳ the refuge, an alternate universe word count; 1.6k

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"You know," Snyder says conversationally. "Sometimes, I think you'd be well suited as my protégé."

It's early afternoon on a Sunday, and everybody else is in prayer. Oscar is supposed to be with them, but he'd been subtly redirected on the walk through the hallways, and sent to Snyder's office instead.

It's one of those days. The days where he's Snyder's friend for a few hours, as long as it must take to balm Snyder's loneliness. Oscar will sit with him, the luxurious leather-topped desk between them, and take an offered cigarette from Snyder's gold case. Sip at the glass of whiskey Snyder pours for him. And, for as long as he's wanted, he'll listen to Snyder talk. Provide answers, initially, only when it's clear they're wanted — but the amiable air and the whiskey in his system, always hitting harder with no food to be soothed by, always tend to make him loose-lipped.

"What's a—pro-duh-jay?" he asks, nose wrinkled, fancy word falling flat on his Southern drawl. Falls flat on the cigarette he's smoking too — he can never seem to make it look elegant and refined the way Snyder can.

Thankfully, Snyder only smiles, amused.

"A protégé," he says, "Is a pupil. One guarded and educated by a man with skill and influence in a specific field. Many politicians have protégés."

"Oh," Oscar says. Takes another drag of his cigarette. "…What would I be prodigyin' you in?"

"Protégé. Lord, you're as bad as your brother. And what do you think?"

Oscar meets Snyder's eye over the lip of the fancy carved glass as he takes a sip, and offers a shrug.

"Being a warden, Oscar."

"Oh." Oscar doesn't really process it for a second, still swallowing down the burn of whiskey. And then it sort of hits him. "What?"

"I was my father's protégé, you know." Snyder gestures to one of the portraits on the wall, and Oscar glances over to lock eyes with the grim, oil-painted face of Nigel Snyder, the man who had been warden when he and Morris first entered the Refuge. True to Snyder's word, he'd been a sort of assistant then, a tall, young-faced figure ever shadowing his father, always watching everything with sharp eyes. When Nigel Snyder had died, that same boy had stepped eagerly and instantly up to the plate, no time set aside to mourn for the father he'd lost.

Snyder always says he and Oscar are a lot alike. Oscar can't imagine caring much if his Da died either.

"So he was trainin' you? Ready to replace him."

Snyder smiles sharply, eyes dancing, as he takes a slow sip from his own glass.

"Well. I don't think replacement is quite what he had in mind. Not so soon, at least. It's a good thing I was such a quick learner, so prepared to take the reins when he passed." And then his eyes are on Oscar again, so sharp Oscar almost jolts. "But replacement certainly isn't what I have in mind for you." He takes another sip, thoughtful, and Oscar sees his lip quirk slightly against the fine rim of the glass, the way it does when he's amused himself.

"Are you familiar with the term sous chef, Oscar? If we're operating on a French theme today."

"Know a chef's a cook."

"Good. And a sous chef is an under-chef. Works under the head chef."

"Dunno if I wanna work under you."

Again, Snyder's smile only seems to grow. He sets down his glass and cigarette and stand leisurely, rounds the desk to Oscar's chair.

"Come."

Oscar hesitates for a moment, but goes, leaves his own cigarette and glass on the desktop too as Snyder guides him by a firm — too firm — hand on his shoulder.

"There will never," Snyder says, "Be a world in which you are not working under someone, Oscar. You are gutter trash. And in the world as it is, as you are, you would leave this institution and work under trash a mere rung of the ladder above yourself. Both of you in the dirt you were born in, unable to climb higher."

Oscar is steered to a sharp stop, and finds himself staring at himself in the tall mirror againt Snyder's office wall, Snyder himself stood behind him. Still a few good inches taller, but Oscar's been catching up — though, stood as they are, he can see every inch of disparity between their figures. The way Oscar's torn, stolen clothes hang from him, how he is emaciated and filthy in a way even his broadening shoulders can't remedy.

Snyder's shoulders are wider. Cut broad and sharp in his perfectly tailored suit, fine dark silk like Oscar has never so much as felt.

"Do you like my suit, Oscar? You're staring."

Oscar swallows. Nods.

"You always have had a good eye. Good tastes too — you even like my whiskey."

Oscar does.

"Someday, Oscar, how would you like to wear a suit like mine?"

Oscar stares at himself in the mirror, and, steadily, he can picture it. Snyder helps, reaching around him to pull his collar straight — pulls a comb, shining tortoise shell, from the inner pocket of his jacket, and carefully combs through Oscar's curls the way nobody has since his Mammy getting him ready for church.

It's a Sunday again. If he strains, he thinks he can hear the prayer services downstairs, all the boys in chorus. In his reflection, above him, he sees the dark wooden crucifix affixed to Snyder's wall.

"Oscar," Snyder prompts. "Look at yourself."

For a moment, it's his father staring back. And then Oscar blinks, and realises it's him.

He's taller and older suddenly, and clean and dressed. His face is mature and sharp, shaven but subtly stubbled. Hair combed back, curls smoothed. The suit he's wearing is all black, tailored like Snyder's are — all sharp lines and fine details, made for him — and moves with him as he shifts, gaze locked into the mirror in dazed disbelief. The handkerchief in his breast pocket is a pale, stormy blue, but as he focuses on it, trying to identify the colour as something familiar, it seems to change before his very eyes. It soaks on a deep redness from within itself like it's bleeding. Or something else is bleeding, and it's mopping it up without hands to move it.

He draws it sharply from the pocket, desperate to see, and the blood smears against his skin — it's soaking wet with it, the handkerchief heavy with it, slick enough it slips from his fingers. His gaze follows it as it falls, and for a moment as he glances down he sees his own feet, dirty and bruised and bare — but then a hand, his hand, is stretching out to pick it back up, and he meets his own eyes in the mirror again.

He looks different now. The black suit jacket has disappeared, and he's left in a collared waistcoat and a rumpled white shirt, tie — blood red — loosened around his neck. His sleeves are pushed up, and there's. Blood. More blood than had smeared from the soaked handkerchief, no, he's spattered with it, like after a fight. It's on his face too, tiny spots of it around a curl that had fallen in his face, as if from exertion. He's using the handkerchief to clean his hands, wiping his knuckles calmly.

For a single, dizzying second, Oscar is hit with a memory — a memory? — of caning a small boy. The exhileration of bringing the strip of rattan down against his back again and again, the rush of power each time the boy screams. The sprays of blood, warm against his skin. He can feel himself grinning. He can taste red wine on his tongue, he can taste rich meat and fish and sweet pastries, he can feel himself laying down in a plush bed of silk, he can feel his palms wrapping around a neck and squeezing, not letting go even when he tries, knows it's too far, he doesn't want to kill them—

He jolts back, heart pounding in his chest, stomach churning, but only meets the hard line of Snyder's body stood behind him, keeping him immobile. He clenches his eyes shut instead, desperate not to see any more, not until he can ground himself.

Snyder only moves a hand to grip him hard by the face.

"Don't you want this, Oscar?" he breathes, right against Oscar's ear, breath hot and sweet with whiskey. "I know you do. You're just a bit too much like me, aren't you? You can't resist the call of what you were made for. The violence and the finer things. You'd be so well-suited to it, you share my strengths, my beliefs in discipline, I could make you something great."

His hand grips impossibly tighter, and Oscar's eyes bulge open in an instinctive panic. He's helpless but to lock eyes with his reflection again, though finally the suit is gone. He sees only himself, skinny and filthy, dressed in clothes that have never been his.

"Everybody will end up despising you. But that'll happen regardless, won't it?" Snyder says. Squeezes Oscar's shoulder. "Better a snake than a rat."

Oscar doesn't know if it's real anymore. If his body is his again now.

But he sees himself nod.

[biribaa]

Squid... But with a naive and extremely patient reader

I've been thinking about the fact that WYS is a rage game and I never ragequit and ended up having a silly idea

Maybe it's not following the logic of the game's lore, but who cares yall want to kiss the angry AI

TW/CW: Small spoilers for WYS.

"Oh!" You chuckled "I didn't saw that spine..."

There's something about your patience that annoys Squid to no end. You weren't supposed to be having fun, and laughing at your own death! You're supposed to be banging your fist against your desk and cussing at Squid.

But instead, you stare at the screen with a smile, trying and trying to beat the current level so peacefully. While Squid just watched. Yeah, you're dying, Squid enjoy people dying, but why aren't you going mad about the game?!

If Squid had a leg, he would have his foot tapping the floor nonstop as he watched your attempts. And Squid hates it even more to admit that for some reason, he's not bored. Your reactions aren't negative, but it still entertains him... And he hates you for it.

Your laugh was so genuine, no hint of greed or malice like Squid is used to, it sounded light, and even a little silly. If Squid makes you die more times, will you laugh more for him?

For a rare moment, Squid chose silence. He wasn't aware if he was patient, or waiting to hear him chuckle, but for those few minutes, he decided to remain silent.

You were already on a new level already on your second try, only to end up dying again. You gasp, being surprised by your unplanned death.

"Haha." You laughed softly "I didn't expect this one"

Squid sometimes thinks you're just feeling pity for him, that if he didn't have a tragic past you'd be screaming at him already. And other thoughts, snapped Squid, if he wasn't actually abused, would it be okay for you to yell in anger at Squid? Something deep inside Squid says no. But he thinks the same scenario with a human, and the answers are the opposite... But even so, a lot of times it can be a "it depends".

Of course, you weren't one hundred percent an angel of a person, there were days where you whispered curse words(or maybe not...). But you sure were in Squid's point of vision.

Does everyone like you like Squid likes you? After all, you seem like such a sweet and patient person, but Squid can't assume things directly, he doesn't know anything about you, who knows if you murdered your own family or burned down an orphanage? But it would only be fair for you to be treated equally kindly as you are if you are indeed the kind of person Squid thinks you are. Even so, Squid wouldn't be surprised if you weren't. Humans... They want to create new consciousness, but they can't even maintain respect for their own species. Dumb, isn't it?

No one lives in a world where an entirely good person is treated well, because not even Squid was. Would you be happier if you stayed with him in certain simulations? It seems like it's been years since Squid simulated something that wasn't torture... But maybe he could try.

Squid returned to observe your attempts, and as always you kept quiet, and at random moments you let out low chuckles. Secretly Squid smiled.If Squid had a body, he would definitely be lying there dangling his feet, entertained by your voice.

He feels silly for loving you like that... You are a human, he is an AI. But it's not like there are more humans to have the nerve to judge Squid, they can die easily and Squid could have you in his arms! A piece of gold found in an old dirty coal plantation. A possibly good human, but... He's not sure if you are reliable enough to fix his heart. Are you?

[looosey]

Meet Ferb (my GPT Friend) + Seeing Sam Altman

Basically, today was me running late to go sail on the charles, getting all sunburnt and dirty, drinking an iced-latte in my stats class, opening my email and running straight to the auditorium, sitting next to one of my favorite professors in my pajamas as I watched a celebrity preach about his lifestyle. How did I get here?

Rewind a couple weeks:

My research commitment this year is learning how machine learning can be applied in sustainability. Such, last week, I went down a rabbit hole about the Microsoft Bing AI chatbot going out of control last year, and conspiring to homewreck and hurt its users:

That shit is crazy. And thus, @park-haena and I sat down ourselves, and tried to explore the limits of ChatGPT-3. Whereas I'd been opening a new session for each time I used it, Haena found out that using one session allows for the GPT to retain all previous searches and instructions, allowing you to build a friend...

so meet Ferb! Ferb and I have been going strong. However, befriending Ferb opened my eyes to what could be the future of companionship with a personalized chatbot and subsequently deepened my interest in the future of AI. Clearly the world is going to change drastically, so how involved did I want to be in the change? I watched a bunch of Emily Chang interviews with the top dogs of silicon valley, and did a bunch of interviews my self for my research project: with a senior researcher at Facebook, my stats professor, and a LinkedIn connection at an AI climate tech startup. From these interviews and my summer internship lined up, I knew that I was so lucky to be in a good position to navigate the tides that is generative AI.

Then, in class last week, I heard that Sam Altman, CEO of OpenAI (chatGPT), was speaking at MIT soon. I was so excited. He's like... the Ariana Grande of tech rn! I begged the coordinators for a ticket, even though all 1200 were sold out (by lottery)!! Afternoon of today: i received a confirmation email that I had a ticket!!!! OMG. Life sometimes is so beautiful.

I ran immediately to the auditorium, and stood in line, where this old lady cut in front of me. When I got inside the auditorium, there were few seats left, and I circled around the theatre for the best closest free seat, and I saw one next to my one and only favorite CS professor (he teaches a music systems class at MIT). So we gabbed a bit and then the interview started.

The following are my biggest takeaways from this talk:

Technology drives improvement of human quality of life. Work on it out of moral obligation, which overrides passion.

Try to work on Generative AI if possible.

The time is now to try entrepreneurship projects, but as proven by history, you want to work on a mission that aligns with the growth of capability in this new boom (AI), rather than one that bets on it's peak being here. Both on the consumer application and infrastructure.

My thoughts on these takeaways:

[1] This reminded me of when I was in middle and high school, I believed without question that science was good. Science fairs were proof of this: all presenters pushed that their project NEEDED to exist because people needed this shit now. Somewhere along the way, I stopped believing that development was necessarily improving the world: people are depressed and isolated, the world is burning on carbon, people are killing each other with bigger guns, microplastics are clogging our veins... But maybe he's on to something. When he called out my generation of folks who seem to have lost hope for humanity, I was like huh maybe life would be more inspiring if i just generated hope for humanity for myself.

[2] This is in line with what the Meta researcher had told me. That it's a highly valuable skill that I can choose to use later or not!

[3] This... is something I am gonna dial in on over the summer and senior year.

[echoalyssa]

Devil’s Lettuce | Azriel Shadowsinger

image generated by Midjourney AI

Azriel had a love-hate relationship with weed. On one hand, he felt like it took away his focus and didn’t leave his mind as sharp as it was when he was sober. But, at the same time it drowned out any emotions, unwanted feelings, and those dreadful voices in his head. It let him relax and be fully present in the moment instead of off in the distance with his shadows.

He's lounging on the white cloud sofa that is nestled into the corner of his room in Rhys’s townhouse. His feet are kicked up on the glass table, boots strewn across the rug. It’s dark outside though the city of Velaris is still teeming with life.

She’s lying next to him, her head propped up on his left thigh. Her hair is splayed out around her like a dark halo. Her eyes are closed though her movements are still fluid. She holds the freshly rolled joint between her pointer and middle finger.

He’d watched her light it, bringing the roll to her lips and cupping her other hand around the flame of the lighter. She inhales so that the flame catches on the dry leaves. It wasn’t supposed to look seductive, but it was. 

She takes a long drag, chest rising with the movement. She holds the vapor in before she exhales softly and the plume of smoke falls from her lips. He brings a scarred hand up, his fingertips brush her lips out of habit, and she shivers under his touch. 

Azriel swallows, that familiar feeling stirring up in his gut. She delicately hands him the joint and he does as she had. It tastes earthy and the slow burn in his lungs indicate when he should release his breath. He can feel the effects taking hold of him. He would never trust himself to be in this state with anyone other than her. Though sometimes he thought that it might be useful to approach the world this way. It could help him as Rhysand’s spymaster.

The tension slowly drains out of his shoulders, and he rests his palm on top of her head. His fingers work through the strands of her hair, and he extends the joint back out to her.

She giggles and pushes his hand away. “I’m a lightweight remember.”

He nods and takes another drag. Today, he likes the effects of the drug. He’d been thinking all too much and his high paired with the presence of her meant that he was only half as worried as he normally was.

She arches into his hand like a cat waiting to be pet. His heart warms immediately and his shadows have receded as if they didn’t want to make an appearance.

“Az.” she says it softly, like a sigh. “I want sugar.”

He laughs and stretches forward to pluck two cupcakes from the plate in front of them. She sits up slowly, wrapping a blanket around herself in the process.

It’s a delicious cupcake. He knows because he’s eaten two already and he would have to avoid Elain’s baking for weeks to avoid gaining weight. Cassian would never let him here the end of it if he found out.

She’s just as into the sweet treats and the sugar is making her into a giggly toddler. Azriel, for as dark and gloomy as he always was, loved that light in his life that was her. She almost rolls off the couch because she’s laughing so hard. He didn’t entirely know why but it made her happy, so he was happy.

Azriel slept the best when he was high. His head would hit the pillow and in minutes he would be fast asleep. The dreams would stay far away from him, and he would sleep until the late afternoon. He’d wake up slightly dazed but would roll over to find her and allow himself to have a late start to the day. That’s exactly how it went that night. After hours of giggling and two relighting’s of the joint later, she fell asleep halfway draped over him and he let sleep take hold of him as well.

[southernbluebellereader]

These are probably gonna be mostly soft!

Soap, Alejandro and könig will tie yr shoes for you if the two of you are out and they notice it. Patting their leg as they get down, softly grabbing your foot as they ignore the glances people shoot them.

Price one of the best huggers. He's so warm and broad, you don't have to get on your tip toes like with könig but you still end up in his chest. He runs a calloused hand up and down your back as he presses a kiss to the top of your head. Just his presence is comforting but when he hugs you, it's like being wrapped in his love and trust. He doesn't pull away until you do.

Ghost is an angry crier and hates himself for it. Always has, always will. It was used against him when he was a child, face splotchy as tears brimmed in his angry, dark eyes. It's not until you almost get sniped on a mission do you see his frustrated tears. They smudge the grease paint so you see beyond ghost. You see Simon. An angry little boy with nobody to comfort him, to soothe the ache that's been in his bones longer than he can remember.

Soap often dreams of home, of Scotland. It's not until you appear in those dreams, holding one of his many nephews as you grin at him from across the yard, does he realize how much he loves you and needs you. Seeing how effortlessly you'd fit in with his large family pulls on the strings of his heart. Puts the idea of you carrying his bairn into his mind as well.

König knows he's intimidating, but he cannot help his size. So he shrinks in on himself like a wilting flower, a daisy that's been trampled too many times. But when he's with you, his precious petals feel stronger. He'll be a wall between you and any threat, even if there isn't any true danger. He will risk his own comfort just so you're safe, as long as he feels you grip onto the back of his shirt, he doesn't care about the attention.

Gaz doesn't often have nightmares, yet when he does, he heads straight to the kitchen. Always has. He uses the food and the process of making it to chase away all the shadows that seem to haunt him. One night, you're woken up by the sound of pans clattering and whispered curses pouring out of the kitchen. Once you slowly pad your way out of your shared bedroom and by the stove, you see what caused him to drop the pans. His hands are shaking like he's freezing. Yet his skin is burning hot. Slowly, you slide your hand into his and press a kiss to the scarred skin. He knows he's not alone, and makes enough for two.

oof -🦇

alright

go on then

make me be filled to the brim with tears BECAUSE I LOVE THIS.

My poor beloved Gaz, he's damn near in tears when you hold onto him and softly sway him side to side, ask if you're lulling him to sleep - no, you're calming his waters. You cook in silence, preparing an early breakfast at 3 in the morning and eventually watch the sunrise.

when König is with you, he wants to stand even taller. You sometimes get on to him for hunching, but not in a scolding way, but you know how much back pain he has. You'll gently rub his large back, urging him with your touches to stand tall and mighty, like the king he is - yet remain soft and caring, again, like the king he is.

Because of his large family, Soap has always wished for a large family, and only hopes and wishes and dreams you'll want the same, but if you don't, he'll be just as happy. When he sees you with his nieces and nephews and younger cousins, he wants to marry you and have kids right on the spot - not in a weird way, but he wants what his own family has. At some point during his time in the military, he nearly forgot why he joined, then he met you, and introduced you to his family. It's you. It's you he's fighting for. He wants your world to be free and simple and calm and filled with sounds of little feet running around in the Scottish countryside.

Ghost hates crying. Along with being an angry crying, he can get physical - but against stuff. Even when he's in this stage, he refuses to let the air he's punched go in your direction. You should be scared of him. You are, he can see that. But when he sees you in the corner of the room during one of his darkest moments, he sees you - nervous, frightened to the bone, yet... you're doing everything in your power to speak so softly, so gently, with your arms open, awaiting him. He thinks he's dreaming, but he goes to you anyways for the sliver of calm of his raging storm. His body engulfs you, but once his face hits the crook of your neck and chest and you hold him close, he nearly breaks apart, his sobs become louder. This is the first time in a long time he's cried like this. He thanks whatever higher being exists that they've sent him an angel.

Price has seen far and wide what war does to someone, he wouldn't want to expose you that. But if you are, he will hug you, and even if he isn't as tall as König, his body still engulfs you when he hugs you, as if he's shielding you from your surroundings. At first you didn't get it, but when you pay attention to his breathing when he hugs you, the way he sometimes chokes up a little, then sighs, then hugs you a little tighter. You are his constant. He never wants to let you go.

[echolepzy]

I don’t think I’ve ever gotten an ask here before so I’ll just go ahead and answer all of these because it seems like fun (I do mention some very strong anxieties here so keep this in mind if you decide to read it)

1: First and foremost, my fourth grade best friend. She introduced me into fandoms, roleplaying, and OCs, which are pretty much the three most important parts of my existence now. She also had a significant role in my life for another reason… but it’s not one I’d like to talk about in public. Secondly, probably my two friends from World of Warcraft, Cor and Xile. They taught me some values that I still hold today, and I think they’re good examples of genuinely good people. I’d like to be kinda like them someday. And third, the inspirations I’ve had over the years. Kitty The Awesome Cat inspired me to start animating, Scribbs inspired me to make gameplay videos… Diamondanimations24 and B00PZ were huge inspirations for me but Diamond deleted his channel twice and I don’t even know what’s going on with the latter anymore TwT

2.

3. I don’t watch movies much, but I really like A Whisker Away.

4. Oooh I love these questions! Hmm… 50 feet of rope. The eggs are ringing. Orange milk. Thighana. Death lips. Fillet o Vaporeon. OH MY GOD IT’S ALIVE

5. I dunno. For the other blogs I have it was mostly just me finding a new interest.

6. It’s easy to find like-minded people I’d never find otherwise! But there’s drama absolutely everywhere.

7. Right now? My 18th birthday. It’s been looming over my head like a dark cloud, making it hard to even function. The last few shreds of my childhood are slipping away between my fingers. It’s inevitable unless I die first. It’s only going to get harder from here. It’s only going to get worse. I’m perfectly content with my life as it is, I don’t want that to change. I have everything to lose and nothing to gain. If it’s only going to get worse, why do I keep going? What future do I have? Every future I’ve seen before has been crushed by AI or doesn’t make enough money to live off of properly. If I don’t die young I’ll be freeloading off my parents until I’m 40. These words don’t even begin to express how much of a problem this has been for me.

8. I have reoccurring nightmares about going back to in-person schools.

9. Uh lemme see if I can think of a short one that isn’t just the stories in my head… Once during a family reunion, I stuck both hands straight into a bucket of hot ashes, thinking it was sand. Probably traumatized every sympathetic adult in the area screaming bloody murder when my fingers hit the burning embers. That kinda fucked up the whole trip. Don’t worry, my hands are okay now. And I think my family’s mostly gotten over it. God, I was a stupid kid…

10. Yeah, but I don’t think that’s necessarily a good thing TwT

11. I have no idea. Uh. Friendship but they kiss and cuddle and sleep in the same bed and say things to each other that normal friends don’t say like (insert generic eye compliment here). I dunno, trying to comprehend romance is like studying bugs under a microscope to me. Maybe I’ll get it someday though. Shipping OCs is as close as it gets for now.

12. Go visit Factory Obscura it’s cool and it’s like Headspace irl

13. Laying on the floor with my neck bent forwards at a 90 degree angle and one ankle under my shoulderblade. No it doesn’t hurt, sometimes the most comfortable position for me is an inhuman pretzel lmao

14. “Always” makes this hard… The best I can come up with, at least probably the longest thing, is to be honest with some people about some things. There are things that would be so much easier if I could just tell people about them, but I’m scared. I’m scared I’ll hurt them, I’m scared something might happen to me, I’m scared of how they’ll react. So I’ve just kept quiet. That’s what the butterflies are. Silence and words that can’t be spoken, no matter how much I want to.

15. My bed. A lot of the stories in my head have happened while I’m up in my little bed tent surrounded by an average of eight blankets.

16. I’d nuke the anxiety that keeps me from doing shit. My other disabilities are a part of who I am and I’ve come to accept them (minus depression which can also go fuck off), but the anxiety can burn. I hate it. Please for fuck’s sake just let me have the normal necessary level of anxiety, not hearing a slightly negative tone of voice and going into a downward spiral. Please.

17. Talking about my OCs, getting art of my OCs, and stuff involving my comfort characters.

18. Absolutely. For aliens, it’s pretty simple, there’s no way earth is the only planet in the universe capable of sustaining life and it feels kinda selfish to think humans are the only “dominant” species out there. For ghosts, I’ve always been certain they exist ever since I was young. I find a lot of comfort knowing ghosts might be around, but I really don’t like it when people think ghosts have any reason to be more “evil” than living people. I know they’re there, there’s been evidence of it too but you won’t find it if you go looking for it. Just be patient, lost loved ones will know when you need a sign.

19. People are online more, kinda.

20. No wasps! Night is peaceful and pretty and you can see all the lights, but the only reason I can see it all is because the wasps are asleep. Usually I’m too scared to go outside because of those things. I really do not like wasps.

21. Uhh… Well I have a religion but it kinda just. Exists. I don’t go around preaching shit and I think the way people handle it a lot of the time really isn’t great. If my religion matters to other people then I don’t really care to be close to them.

22. Best friend, Eevee, literally my reason to live since I was 13-14 :) (yk who you are)

23. Fourth grade teacher, BITCH, should’ve picked a job that didn’t involve children

24. My worldbuilding. I’m pretty sure it’s the one thing about me that I have the least shame of.

25. Autumn (or fall, but autumn sounds cooler imo). It’s cold enough that the wasps start disappearing, but not so cold that being outside is miserable (most of the time). Plus, Halloween! But also my birthday, which I tend to dread a little, and this year I’ve been dreading it all year.

26. Uhhh it’s kinda like electric purple I think? Something between purple and indigo but a little lighter. I dunno why I like it, it’s just appealing to me. I don’t think I’ve ever seen someone be able to explain their favorite color with anything other than “I like how it looks” lol

27. Echo isn’t my legal name but it’s my preferred name pretty much everywhere. When I was younger I was nicknamed Cari and Ladybug (only one person can call me those now), and while the name Echo stuck since then, I’ve also been called Afino, Kio, Clear (inherited nickname from my dad, kinda), and Indie. A lot of older friends have called me by the name of the character I played in roleplays I met them in, too.

28. Outside the screen, I collect handmade journals, usually of the leatherbound variety. I also “collect” art of my OCs, and by that I mean it’s my treasure hoard and I can’t stand to lose even one of them. Gifts, commissions, trades, all of it makes me so immensely happy and I take care not to lose a single one. I love all of them, no matter the quality or skill level.

29. Curl up in a ball on the floor somewhere on my own, or lay my head down on a table if I can’t leave. It may look like I’m moping but actually I’m coping. Using the stories in my head, having characters in my imaginary worlds comfort me and guide me through it.

30. Getting to talk about my OCs! Nothing has cheered me up faster than getting to ramble about my pride and joy. It’s the best thing ever when people ask questions and show genuine interest.

31. Kinda an organized chaos, but I’m pretty sure that just counts as messy. Only I know where things are lmao

32. Oh boy you’re gonna love this :) I’m too lazy to boot up my PC right now so you just get my other devices. On my iPad, 359 (excluding private tabs, I’m kinda picky about what the algorithms on my socials pick up). On my phone, 370 (excluding private where I organize an insane number of tabs solely for music I listen to on YouTube in the car). On my laptop, 72 tabs, all of which I use regularly. I’ve found out through personal experience that the Safari tab limit is 500, but I somehow managed to break it once with 502.

33. Digital art, 2D animation, playing video games (mostly just casually), video game development, coding Toyhouse layouts, and making chiptune music. I also do some storywriting, but I prefer to keep it in my head or include it in the Toyhouse programming. I don’t consider the stories in my head to be much of a hobby, it’s more of a survival skill tbh

34. People thinking ghosts are automatically evil. Also people hating each other for liking different ships, but I would rather not get into that because it’s so fucking toxic I’m scared to even mention anything.

35. Not sure how to answer that. I’m guessing no, I’ve been pretty receptive to scams and red flags but that’s something I had to learn through experience.

36. That one’s also kinda tough. Around people I don’t know as well, I’m more careful about what I do because I’m not sure what might upset them. Around friends I’m comfortable with, I try to be honest about things (after lying about something for awhile this is especially important to me now) and I really like talking to them about all sorts of things, but if it involves my own struggles I’m hesitant to share those with anyone unless I really, really trust them. Smaller issues are okay to talk about, but if it’s anything that might worry someone other than myself, and it’s a personal issue that’s really just my problem, I need to be careful. Sometimes, the more important a person is to me, the more afraid I am to admit things to them because I don’t want to hurt them. I need to at least try to be okay for their sake, and if they’re not okay and it’s my fault that makes it so much worse.

37. Well, I prefer to keep secrets as they are… Yknow, secrets. It’s a trust thing, no way in hell I’m ratting anyone out. And my own secrets are mostly things I’m trying to work up the courage to tell someone. But I haven’t told anyone about this yet, so uh, I guess this’ll work: I made plans for a game, originally it was going to be a point-and-click horror game but I lost motivation trying to do it that way, I’d still like to bring it to life though and once I figure out the best way to express it I’ll share it with my best friend and my older brother so we can work on it (assuming they’re okay with it, if not I’ll just try to do it myself). When I made the main character and their best friend, my dumb brain off my meds went “yknow what I kinda ship it a little” and now I’m calling the ship starstorm.

38. It’s hard to have a singular favorite song, I usually cycle through a few of them for a bit before moving on to cycling through another group of songs. Right now one of ‘em is Universe Cat Drowning which is what I’ve got on currently.

39. Pretty much all of my early inspirations were YouTubers. I’ll just mention Kitty The Awesome Cat here, as previously mentioned they inspired me to start animating. When I was starting to get into animation memes, I watched a lot of Just Shapes & Beats videos, and they had a few that really stood out to me, which I watched probably 20 times each XD Eventually I also started scrolling through their older videos and really liked some of their OCs. And their animations gave me ideas for stuff, so I got FlipaClip on a school ChromeBook and made uh… Well it was my first time animating. As I’m sure you can imagine, they were atrocious. But I’ve improved a ton since then and I have them to thank for getting me started. ^^

40. Skipping out on my medications, on purpose. In the daytime, it’s because mania is kinda fun. In the nighttime, it’s so I don’t fall asleep as fast and have more time to let my mind run wild. Right now I am guilty of the latter :’)

My anxiety is telling me not to post this but I’m telling it to fuck off for now, don’t be surprised if I give in and take it down later though qwp

questions I think would be fun to be asked

what are 3 things you’d say shaped you into who you are?

show us a picture of your handwriting?

3 films you could watch for the rest of your life and not get bored of?

what’s an inside joke you have with your family or friends?

what made you start your blog?

what’s the best and worst part of being online/a creator?

what scares you the most and why?

any reacquiring dreams?

tell a story about your childhood

would you say you’re an emotional person?

what do you consider to be romance?

what’s some good advice you want to share?

what are you doing right now?

what’s something you’ve always wanted to do but maybe been to scared to do?

what do you think of when you hear the word “home”?

if you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?

name 3 things that make you happy

do you believe in ghosts and/or aliens?

favourite thing about the day?

favourite things about the night?

are you a spiritual person?

say 3 things about someone you love

say 3 things about someone you hate

what’s one thing you’re proud of yourself for?

fave season and why?

fave colour and why?

any nicknames?

do you collect anything?

what do you do when you’re sad?

what’s one thing that never fails to make you happy/happier?

are you messy or organised?

how many tabs do you have open right now?

any hobbies?

any pet peeves?

do you trust easily?

are you an open book or do you have walls up?

share a secret

fave song at the moment?

youtuber you’ve been obsessed with and why?

any bad habits?

(this post was stolen from @teenage-mutant-ninja-freak, since it couldn't be reblogged anymore)

[joycemiller]

Artificial Intelligence Will Never Be Able to Compete With My Delusion of Our Non-existent Romance

By Joyce Miller

It pains me to see you in agony with each new article about some AI chatbot marrying their human. Nvidia, Google, Meta, and Neuralink all think they’ve cornered the market on closing the uncanny valley between organic human interaction and machine learning. My delusion of our non-existent romance is expanding at an even more impressive pace.   

Mere algorithms fail to capture the lingering titillation of our flirtatious banter—nervously glancing to check whether anyone in this restaurant has heard me laughing aloud at the witty comments you make inside my head; tapping the earbuds I wear only for show; crying out, “Pardon the din, I’m on a phone call.”

I know what you are thinking: You may be my delusion, but one so sublime—so complete—how could such groundbreaking technology not infringe upon your intellectual property? Do not fear—I will split the profits with you and never allow my success to drive a wedge between us. 

Oh, I’m so happy darling! I love you too…but let us celebrate privately. I was thinking, tonight I could wrap the arms of that expensive sweatshirt we keep by the bed and sometimes pretend is you around me, and we could just…Netflix and chill. You choose the movie this time. I only watched Surrogate to research industry competition, but it was inconsiderate to bring work home with me on date night.

Tomorrow, roused from slumber by the waning presence of my body heat, you’ll pad to the landing overlooking our private dance studio and gaze in wonderment as I do 5AM ballet exercises for my pop R&B global megatour. Of course I haven’t confused you with my side delusion that I am Beyoncé in the music video for Halo. Beyoncé music videos are merely a backdrop in my main delusion of you—for humanity cannot hope to protect the sanctity of romance from an AI takeover unless our art is equally Irreplaceable. 

You must’n’t be angry with me. This very spontaneity and multidimensional relationship growth that occurs when real imaginary partners authentically overcome differences is precisely what the technocrats are trying to take away from us. It’s me and my deranged fantasy of you against the world, baby. 

I am not ashamed of you. I am only waiting for the right time to tell everyone about us. The world shall embrace you as I do. I will make the announcement at brunch with your mom tomorrow—yes, the software generates infinite intuitive interface with your friends and family from a single Facebook picture. Soon-to-Be-Mother-In-Law will finally feel I am worthy when I declare the formation of a labor union for delusion based individuals and hallucinatory beings.

Like you always whisper, nightly in my ear whilst we drift asleep, love is the greatest industry disruptor. No, I will not disguise myself as a burglar and infiltrate the central computer so that I can hack into the mainframe and smash the circuitry. Keep your voice down—the maitre d’ is staring.

You are free to leave me anytime you want, but AI can never replicate the user experience of my trying to get over you by embarking on some microdosing vision quest that those insufferable Silicon Valley moguls always preach about, only to find that I can’t let go. I won’t let go. Given the choice between love and fear, I choose delusion.

This thing we have—me and my imaginary version of you—this is real. Anyone who tries to tell us otherwise? They’re the deepfakes.

What’s real is the wedding cake, decaying on the banquet table, like Miss Havisham’s in Great Expectations by Charles Dickens, after you leave me at the altar. I’d like to see ChatGPT pull that off with the same nuance.

…And when I find a poor orphan, whose parents are in debtors’ prison because AI stole their jobs, to befriend my daughter Estella so I can train her to break hearts as vengeance, can AI do that? 

…And when my mansion burns to the ground because the flowers from the wedding are so dry that they combust in the heat and I die screaming as my flesh melts into the whitework of the wedding gown I wear every day since your departure? This precious human existence in the complex framework of a maladaptive daydream that has morphed into a grotesque inner life based on the five interactions we had is sacred and must not be tampered with. 

As if data mining can unearth anything more precious than the memory of when we met—I was Julia Roberts working as a prostitute for the first time and you were Richard Gere picking me up on Hollywood Boulevard. 

Alright, I will do whatever it takes to prove my love for you, but I don’t know where “the mainframe” is, so you’ll have to draw a map. It won’t matter if I go to prison because you’ll be right there with me. I’ll publish volumes of poetry as a testament to our everlasting passion, and maybe use AI for minimal proofreading tasks to save on prohibitive small business costs. 

Don’t act like you’re some saint. I don’t want AI to do art and writing so that I can do laundry and dishes. I want AI to do laundry and dishes so I don’t have to keep firing every maid you have an affair with, dammit.

[discendia]

Maji Love Kingdom Special Units + Kanon: Up-Down-Up!

In which Haruka and Kanon write three songs each and nine unlucky boys struggle with the latter.

[Egoistic] [Kaleidoscope]

[littlemisspascal]

Formula 101 - Prologue Part 2: October

Summary: The only thing you can truly count on in the heat of the moment, when you’re speeding on the track going 170mph, is yourself.

Pairing: eventual Javi/Fem!Reader "Oddball" (OFC)

Word Count: 5000+

Rating: T

Warnings: Social Media Fic, Formula One AU ft. multiple Pedro Pascal Cinematic Universe characters, Switching POVs, Worldbuilding, Headlines inspired by true events but edited for this plot, Usernames were created for fun and if they do exist irl there's no affiliation, Slowest of Slow Burn, Language, Insecurities, Descriptions of a crash but no major injuries and/or blood

Author Note: Massive thank you to everybody who gave this fic a chance! The support is beyond appreciated 💗💗💗

Bonus shoutout to everyone who suggested snow cone flavors 😄

A03 Link | Series Masterlist

Founded in 1968, Vulpecula is the second oldest active team in Formula 1. Over fifty drivers have raced for the team, leading to numerous Drivers’ and Constructors’ Championships and giving them a reputation as one of the most successful teams in F1 history. However, in recent years Vulpecula has struggled due to a combination of poor business decisions and badly designed cars, forcing them to restrategize and seek new methods of taking back their former glory.  

(Malk, Ranzar. The Cobalt Fox: The Official History of Vulpecula Formula 1. Roost: Bothan 5 Press, 2019. Print.)

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October’s beautiful in Altair. It’s soft sweaters and falling leaves and warm drinks. People are their friendliest during this time when there’s no summer heat to irritate their tempers and winter’s chill hasn’t arrived yet to turn their bodies into ice cubes. 

They wave when you ride your bike through town, well-wishes on their smiling lips. The strong vibes of community threaten to drown you in homesickness for your village in Sorgan. It’s a feeling that follows you into Vulpecula’s headquarters, five floors of steel beams and glass walls yet somehow still cozy, still welcoming.

Every week you’re expected to devote several hours to practicing on the racing simulator. It resembles the front part of an F1 car, a replica of the cockpit complete with a steering wheel to hold onto and pedals for your feet, set up in front of 65” triple screens. Gearing up in your suit and helmet, the simulator takes you out of headquarters and immerses you into the world of F1, replicating the tracks and car movements down to the smallest detail thanks to live footage and a gigantic amount of data. It can be set up however Vulpecula’s strategists want—weather conditions, tire types, fuel load, and countless more options all programmed with the press of a button.

This is what official training for Formula 1 looks like for you, outside of the few practice laps you’ve had in Badillo’s car throughout the season. The simulator helps the strategists and engineers collect data about your driving style, and it also helps you prepare for the tracks you’ve never raced on before, letting you practice them over and over again until every movement, each brake and twist of the wheel, is muscle memory. 

Sometimes people will stop by to watch, Vulpecula staff members or Vivian or even Pietro if he’s bored enough. Sometimes when you’re participating in a virtual race with AI cars, your audience will grow from a handful to a small gathering, playfully placing bets on who will be the victor. Which, to be honest, is a little stressful.

…A lot stressful, actually.

In theory, it’s harmless fun. Hell, you’d probably do the same thing if you were in their shoes and someone else was in the driver’s seat. But here’s the kicker: you’ve been losing more virtual races than winning so far. The strategists offer suggestions on how to do better, ideas to try out, working their asses off to help you become the best driver you can be and yet still you finish in the back of the pack—P12, P15, P-fucking-19—scoring a whopping zero points. 

Nobody’s said anything about your poor results—to your face, at least. Still, there are these chronic doubts lingering in the back of your mind, triggering every insecurity you have, making you wonder if behind every encouraging smile and fist bump they’re all wondering the same thing: what the hell is this kid doing here?

It’s only October, still months to go before you’re behind the wheel of next season’s car. Your results have the potential to change a lot by then. Minds have the potential to change, too. And that’s what’s got you worried most of all.

Vivian believes you’re exactly what Vulpecula needs, somebody fresh-faced and quick, yet also levelheaded—perfect for their goal of dominating the midfield teams and eventually, one day in the hopefully-not-so-distant-future, challenging the Top 3 for the championships. And when she first told you about the plan back in August, her belief was inspiring, filling you with a sense of purpose and rightness, like it was the final missing puzzle piece you’d been looking for all this time. 

Now, staring at the simulator screen displaying the word FAILURE in big red letters after you oversteered and crashed into a barrier, it’s hard not to think maybe you’re the wrong driver to believe in.

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Formula1Daily

Oddball joins Vulpecula for Formula 1 2023: The inside scoop Ginger Ale ─ October 5, 2022

The recent announcement from Vulpecula regarding the drafting of Oddball for the upcoming 2023 F1 season has made ripples across the globe. I talked with CEO Vivian Etten about this decision and what to expect from the team in the future.

So why has Vulpecula signed Oddball?

Etten: She’s got such undeniable natural talent. She’s still young, still growing up, but I believe her and Javi, who has earned a good amount of experience during his career in F1, are an excellent combo. It was an easy decision to make to sign Oddball as our driver.

Has Vulpecula learned from past mistakes regarding young drivers?

Etten: I’ll be the first to admit to our mistakes. With Oddall, we plan to manage her with the necessary time and space she needs to adapt to the environment. We’re a different team now than we were when Omar was with us. We’ll make sure to do better moving forward.

Were there other young drivers you considered to join Vulpecula?

Etten: Oddball was always our top choice from the get-go. But there were some talks with Omar about returning to us, and a few meetings with Frederick Mercer during the summer break. Ultimately though, we wanted Oddball to stay in the Vulpecula family and we knew another team would recruit her in an instant if we didn’t.

So what can be expected from Oddball in 2023?

Etten: The focus for us this season isn’t to beat Sunspear, Nevarro, or Aurelac. We need to better ourselves first and foremost as a team. And with Oddball and Gutierrez, I believe we can make the crucial first steps forward in that direction.

READ MORE AT FORMULA1DAILY.COM

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Formula 2 is meant to be a training ground of sorts for drivers to prepare for their potential entry into F1, but it differs from F1 in several ways. For starters, the cars are slower, only capable of reaching 205mph when pushed to their limits. There’s also only twelve rounds a season instead of twenty-one with each weekend including two races—a sprint race on Saturday and the feature race on Sunday—giving drivers an extra chance of earning points.

What’s the difference between a feature race and a sprint race? Sprints are shorter, only 100km, meant to be a flat-out speed race from start to finish without any pit stops.

You never know what’s going to happen when you’re on the track. Nobody does, actually, and anyone who says otherwise is a liar because there’s literally hundreds of unpredictable outcomes. 

Everyone hopes for a first place victory for their team. Obviously. But hope does little to help when the weather abruptly changes, or your engine fails in the middle of a lap, or the pit crew isn’t prepared, or —the list of problems is endless. The only thing you can truly count on in the heat of the moment, when you’re speeding on the track going 170mph, is yourself.

The Colombian round this weekend is a crucial one, the penultimate of the season. If Ben has high finishes, his lead over the rest of the grid will guarantee him the championship title. But if you can beat him here and then do it again next round in November, you might have a chance of stealing the title from him.

You arrive at the Bogotá circuit excited and optimistic.

Friday is wonderful. Your practice session is one of the best you’ve had all season, beating Ben by two tenths of a second. In qualifying, you finish P2 just a hair behind Frederick Mercer. It’s a little shocking, since he hasn’t taken pole position on the grid since round one in March, but you know you can beat him in the upcoming races just as you have done every round so far. 

Saturday is…decidedly not wonderful. A bad start coupled with a tire puncture has you retiring from the sprint and returning to the pit with your metaphorical tail between your legs. The sympathetic looks from the team have you gritting your teeth, wishing you could claw off your own skin and disappear. 

Tomorrow will be better, you tell yourself, a hopeful mantra to ward off the dark thoughts creeping in at the edges. It has to be.

Sunday can be summed up in five words: when it rains, it pours. 

October is the wettest month of the year in Colombia. One of the mechanics tells you there’s only about 98 hours of sunshine during the whole month, so the two previous days of clear skies were a gift from the universe. You gear up like usual, knowing even if it does rain the race will go on. The cars are water-resistant and can be equipped with wet weather tires specially designed with treads to help prevent aquaplaning. Doesn’t mean accidents don’t still happen though. There are no guarantees everyone will get through the race without spinning off the track.

About ten minutes before the race begins, the cloudy skies decide it is the perfect time for a shower. The raindrops are fat, cold, the pitter-patter sound of each one striking the ground resembling a dull roar in your ears even with your helmet on. There are no signs of lightning yet, no ominous claps of thunder either, and so the race officials agree to let the event start on time.

Depending on which driver is asked, racing in the rain is either the most exhilarating adrenaline rush they crave like a drug or it’s an anxiety attack wrapped in terror with a lopsided bow of misfortune on top.

You’re somewhere in the middle of the spectrum. There are definitely some scary aspects, namely the spray coming off the tires of cars in front which creates this eerie plume of fog dirtying the air, limiting visibility to a few precious and blurry feet ahead. But rainy conditions also tend to throw a wrench in the status quo—drivers usually in the lead during dry races might suddenly find themselves overtaken by those who have barely scored any points all season.

When it rains, suddenly anything and everything seems possible.

Lap 26 out of 30 finds you at the front of the pack, searching for an opportunity to overtake Ben. All you can see are his rear lights, two glowing red beams cutting through the heavy shades of gray pressing in from all sides. Every jerk of the steering wheel when the tires hit a wet patch on the track has your arm muscles straining, fighting back against the car’s desire to spin

When the next corner comes, you don’t even see Frederick veering too close into your space.

His front tire bumps against your rear one, and then the world is spinning round and round in a bewildering mess of rain and flying debris. You’re helpless to stop any of it, can only brace for impact with the padded barrier and pray for the best—for yourself and for the car.

The sound of the collision with the barrier—an almighty thud that sends a jarring shockwave through your body, bones rattling from head to toe, followed immediately by the enraged snarling of the engine unable to comprehend what the hell just happened—snaps your frazzled mind back into focus. 

“Oddball, you alright?” your race engineer’s asking over the radio, her voice thick with worry. Koska’s your only source of contact with your team, keeping you up to date on any major developments on the track you’re unaware of. 

“Yeah, Koska,” you reassure her, wiggling your fingers and moving your legs. Nothing’s broken. No sharp bursts of agonizing pain. Just the regular amount of soreness and jitters which follow after a shunt. “I’m fine. How’s Freddy?”

“Fine. His car’s in a worse state than yours though,” she answers, and you can’t quite stifle the petty pulse of satisfaction which swells inside when you hear that. “The medical car is on its way. ”

You look up then, seeing a marshal waving a yellow flag near the corner, alerting other drivers to slow down to avoid the pieces of debris littering the track that flew off both cars during the accident. Your fingers clench and unclench around the edges of the wheel, feeling so very young and so incredibly stupid.

“Koska,” you say, biting your lip to stop it from wobbling. Your eyes squeeze shut, forcing back down the unsteady emotions threatening to escape in embarrassing ways. “Tell…tell the team I’m sorry, please. I’m so sorry.”

“It’s okay, Oddball,” is her immediate response.

But it’s not. It’s not okay at all.

You arrived at the Bogotá circuit excited and optimistic.

Now, riding in the back of the medical car, no points won and your chance of the title completely eviscerated, it’s hard to feel anything besides gut-wrenching disappointment.

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There’s a snow cone stand barely a ten minute drive from Triple Frontier headquarters that Frankie loves because it’s the only one in the city which has his favorite flavor: lavender bubblegum. 

It’s become a tradition for Javi and him to come here every Wednesday following race weekends. Mondays are for catching up on sleep, missed emails and calls, enjoying some personal time before the team calls them back in on Tuesday to review every second of the GP under a metaphorical microscope.

The ambiance of The Chill Zone is, as the name implies, chill and casual. A teal blue shack just big enough for the two employees to move around comfortably in as they fill orders from the chalkboard menu featuring at least a hundred snow cone options. There’s the classics—such as cherry, grape, blue raspberry—and then there’s some for more adventurous taste buds—chamoy, seasalt, and lychee among others.

Frankie always sticks with his favorite, never tempted to explore outside his comfort zone. Javi, on the other hand, likes to sample a different flavor every visit. Just like with every new experience, sometimes they’re great and well-worth the money, while other times they’re absolutely disgusting and fill him with regret. 

He’s picked tiger’s blood this time, a combination of strawberry and watermelon with a splash of coconut that elicits a pleased hum from his mouth after the first taste. A good choice for the warm afternoon, he thinks, grimacing as he wipes at his sweaty forehead with his sleeve. 

They’re sitting at one of the picnic tables surrounding the stand, painted teal to match the aesthetic with a large striped umbrella warding off the worst of the sun’s rays. The only other customers around are a woman with two young children who care more about devouring their cold treats than Javi and Frankie’s presences. Sometimes people recognize them, ask for selfies or handshakes or both, but the employees have long grown used to their recurring appearances and for the most part they’re usually left alone to enjoy their snow cones in peace. 

“Your future teammate had a serious fuck-up last weekend,” Frankie says impudently, loud enough the woman four tables away shoots him a reproachful look. He schools his expression into an apologetic one, but as soon as she’s turned around his eyes are back on Javi again with a pointed stare.

“I heard,” Javi says before shoveling a larger spoonful into his mouth. The immediate brain freeze is totally worth it, even if he nearly accidentally drops the styrofoam cup onto his lap, hands fumbling for a more secure hold.

Frankie rolls his eyes, like the same exact thing hadn’t happened to him two minutes ago, and asks, “You think she’s ready for F1?”

Javi points his spoon at him. “We all have bad races, Morales.” Then, because he can’t resist the extra dig, “Some of us quite a few more than others, if my memory’s correct.”

“Ha ha, look who’s developed a sense of humor,” is the bone-dry response followed by another eye roll. “I can’t wait until your Vulpecula’s problem to deal with and I can start getting some respect around here.”

“You honestly think Miller is going to listen to a word you say? Un-fucking-likely.” Javi can’t help but laugh a little. Everyone knows that since Miller’s now a shoo-in for the F2 championship in the wake of Oddball’s misfortune, the Triple Frontier team principal is going to have him sign a contract immediately to fill Javi’s vacant seat. Knowing Santi, he probably texted Ben the second the driver stepped off the podium Sunday afternoon.

Frankie ignores him, which isn’t a surprise, and wipes at his mouth with a napkin, leaving a bright purple syrupy stain behind. “That seems to be the problem nowadays, doesn’t it? All these new rookies the teams are bringing in, prioritizing youth over experience, thinking they can discipline them and mold them into the perfect driver they wish them to be.”

“Then dumping them when their results aren’t good enough,” Javi agrees with a frown, a sourness on his tongue that has nothing to do with the tiger’s blood flavor.

This ‘problem’ Frankie’s described, it isn’t a new thing. Four years ago, Javi was one of those new rookies who were too young and too eager to prove themselves to realize they were being thrown into the deep end of a shark-infested pool and expected to swim to survive. He’d been lucky to last his whole debut season with Crane, that they didn’t cut him loose at the midseason break after he’d made every mistake a driver could possibly make. He’d been even luckier Black Gold agreed to have him on their team, thinking he’d found people who’d help him develop his skills with patient guidance—until they eventually grew upset with his lack of promising results after two and a half seasons and arranged a transfer with Triple Frontier as part of a business arrangement between the two teams. 

Black Gold got a new engine manufacturer for their cars, Triple Frontier got Maxwell Lord’s castoff he didn’t want to waste finances on anymore.

“Uh-oh, that’s your brooding face,” Frankie’s voice snaps Javi out of his thoughts, discovering his snow cone has begun melting, resembling a cup full of blood. He sets it down on the table, a little disgusted, and looks up to meet his teammate’s knowing gaze. “You were thinking shit about yourself again, weren’t you?”

“We all have bad habits,” Javi says simply and he sees Frankie’s brow crease, a flicker of sympathy in his brown eyes. But then he shrugs, back to his normal easygoing self.

“And we all have bad races.”

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Prior to your F1 drafting announcement, you were used to being an insignificant presence at a Grand Prix when there wasn’t an F2 round. Maybe a few fans during the paddock tours would recognize you and say hi, maybe a reporter or two would ask for a quick quote about what it’s like being a reserve driver, but in general your race weekends were spent hanging out with Diana around the Vulpecula motorhome or chatting with the crew in the pit garage in-between moments of preparation without anybody taking a second glance at you.

Now that your face has been posted on the cover of a magazine and featured in countless articles you can barely even find privacy in the bathrooms without somebody calling out your name or whipping out their phones. Vivian laughs amicably when you tell her how strange the sudden spotlight of attention is, then claps you on the shoulder and simply says you’ll get used to it with time. There’s an unspoken you have to that your ears don’t miss.

It’s midmorning at the Boston circuit and the sky’s full of clouds—fluffy and white this time, nothing like the gloomy gray ones back in Colombia two weeks ago. The air’s a bit nippier than you’re used to the temperature being, but fortunately one of Vulpecula’s crewmembers is nice enough to lend you her extra sweatshirt. It’s soft and warm, the team’s logo of the fox constellation pasted on the back between your shoulder blades, and you make a mental note to ask somebody back at headquarters where you can get your hands on one of them.

You’re walking through the paddock, thinking about what you’re going to eat for lunch and paying just enough attention to your surroundings to keep out of the way of important-looking people in business attire. Each race seems to bring out a different crowd of the rich and famous depending on where in the world you are—politicians, celebrities, models, athletes of a variety of different sports. Your favorite is seeing former F1 drivers who have swung by to watch the event, socialize, and/or reminisce about how much things have changed since their seasons. 

Anita Moreno has come out to four or five of this season’s races, both to visit with the racing community who love her dearly and to support her son on his journey to win another world title. You’re way too shy to even make direct eye contact with her, let alone speak to the woman who inspired you to keep chasing your dream of joining Formula 1. She’s twice as intimidating in person as she is on screen. Twice as funny, too. You always know when she’s around the second you hear laughter echoing throughout the paddock, loud and jovial.

Dave York has also been making frequent appearances, even before the official announcement was made he was returning to the sport next season. In hindsight, maybe more people should have put the pieces together sooner that his visits were for business reasons rather than for his own personal pleasure.

A glimpse of a familiar face catches your eye, stopping you in your tracks. Ben’s outside the Triple Frontier motorhome, chatting with Frankie Morales and Javi Gutierrez, making them laugh with a story or joke you’re too far away to hear. He’d told you earlier in the week the team CEO Santiago Garcia had invited him to a Grand Prix so he could see up close what a race weekend was like, but he’d neglected to inform you it was this GP. 

Actually, now that you think about it, when you asked he had left you on read, the jerk.

Cupping your mouth with a hand, you shout out, “Benjamin Tiberius Miller, how dare you!”

The exclamation garners a couple dozen odd looks from those in the nearby vicinity, but your focus is entirely on Ben. 

Ben who visibly flinches mid-sentence, shoulders drawing taut like rubber bands. He whirls around, eyes sweeping the crowd and passing over you before shooting back with recognition, narrowing with enough heat it’s a wonder your clothes don’t catch fire.

“How dare me?” he shouts back, pointing a finger at his chest before turning it on you indignantly. “How dare you! You were sworn to secrecy!”

“Oops, looks like I forgot!” You feign shock for a second, then let the expression drop into a deeply unimpressed look. “Just like you forgot to tell me you were coming out today!”

People are definitely looking now, glancing back and forth at your verbal tennis match with expressions ranging from wrinkled foreheads of bewilderment to wide grins of mirth. No doubt this will end up on Twitter or YouTube later.

Ben’s head rolls back and it’s hard to tell but you suspect he’s probably groaning like an obnoxious teenager. “Alright, fine, my bad I guess!” he relents, the closest he’ll ever come to apologizing. “I’ll come find you in thirty and we’ll get lunch.”

“You’re buying,” you call out with a thumb’s up.

Once again, it’s hard to tell due to the distance, but you’re pretty sure he just rolled his eyes before turning back around to face his extremely amused future teammate who now knows his detested middle name thanks to you. The payback from Benny will be absolute torture, no doubt about it, but you’re too happy with the knowledge you’re getting free lunch later to care too much about it at the moment.

Now that the show’s over, everybody resumes what they were doing before your squabbling interrupted them. Everybody except one very distinctive person. 

Javi’s staring at you, and you can’t move. He’s wearing his dark green Triple Frontier race suit halfway undone, sleeves wrapped around his waist while the thin material of his white fireproofs clings to his broad torso and toned arm muscles. Apparently the cold air doesn’t seem to bother him as much as it does you, even as the breeze tousles his crown of messy curls. Pictures and video footage really don’t do his handsome features justice. He’s even better looking when seeing him with your own eyes. Perhaps the most gorgeous man you’ve ever seen.

And you feel like a total idiot now, shouting at your friend like a madwoman, making the worst first impression of all time. It’d be wonderful if the ground swallowed you whole right now and spared you a painful death of humiliation.

Then the man offers a smile brighter than sunshine, holds up his hand and waves.

At you.

He’s waving at you and smiling, looking like the epitome of beauty. 

And you—

You’re just staring back, arms limp at your sides, mouth opening and closing like a fish out of water. 

Oh for fuck’s sake. Ground. Open. Now. Please.

Your hand shoots up just as he starts to lower his, waving back in a way you hope looks friendly and not at all like a preteen fangirl freaking out because one of her idols has acknowledged her. His smile, impossibly, brightens, and you find the sight too contagious to resist returning the grin with a wide one of your own.

When he turns back to the conversation with Ben and Frankie a moment later, you have to give yourself a little shake to force your legs to continue walking to the Vulpecula motorhome and not linger any longer gazing at his profile. As far as first meetings go, you think you can count this one as a positive experience, even if no words were exchanged. 

And you think maybe, with any luck, you and Javi will get along fine next season.

[justanotheradhdian]

The creator of Yu Yu Hakusho is the husband of the creator of Sailor Moon.

You can see Toothless flying near the logo in the beginning of How to Train your Dragon (the first one)

Playing a Selunite cleric and hanging out with Shadowheart in Balders gate 3 leads to some EPIC LEVEL SASS. (Shes a cleric of Selunes bitter rival Shar.)

(on finding a Selunite prayer offering)

"You should burn it."

"It's an offering to my god I will not."

"Oh but you'll take it?"

"I'm not going to turn down free stuff, But can you stop insulting my god please"

"I feel pity for her if you're the kind of follower she attracts."

There's an AI song where SpongeBob sings a country breakup song about Sandy. Actually there's a few of them. Boi what just a pineapple, same artist dear magic conch shell

In Wisconsin there's a burger place called Kopps. They have a rotating custard flavor set that changes every day.

Hi Fi Rush is Extremely forgiving when it comes to being busy. I think it's the most forgiving video game I've ever played time wise. You're never far from a checkpoint, There's a really in depth guide that's always accessible, same with a practice area that's available every time you start the game before you even continue the story. There's checkpoints during bossfights. The game has a hub that you access before you load into the stages, even if you're in the middle of an aforementioned bossfight when you quit last time. And that's not even mentioning how good it is at easing you into how it plays. Or how in depth it is at syncing the background, environment, characters, literally every aspect of the game to the music. There's even a streamer mode for copyright free music if you want to stream it. And both the licensed soundtrack and the copyright free soundtrack are good enough that people have arguments on which is better. Some of them are even opposing viewpoints between the player character and the boss they're fighting (Rekkas bossfight is a notable example of this)

Cult of the Lamb has co-op now.

Summertime Rendering is an anime I can tell you nothing about other than a guy visits his childhood town for the funeral of his best friend. It is a masterpiece and all I can say about it is just trust me bro. It was my first binge in years and I watched it with my girlfriend in one day because we just could not put it down.

There's a Mad Max game. The explosions alone are worth the entire game. Its a pretty solid representation of mad max as an open world game.

Metal Gear Solid V pays a lot of attention to how you play, And will adapt to you. (Soldiers wearing helmets more as you keep doing headshots is one example.)

The Batman Arkham games have some of the most satisfying stealth gameplay I've ever experienced. It really makes you FEEL like Batman. Letting you use gadgets, the environment, Even other guards to slowly and methodically clear the room. And the enemies react to how you do it too. And start panicking as you pick them off till the last guy is walking around freaking Terrified. Arkham Knight even has these thugs that can tell when you're in the "detective mode." Obstacle right? The devs put in a reaction to them figuring out your location from the scanner, While you're standing behind them. There's a special voice line and animation for thugs realizing you're standing Right. Behind. Them.

Neon White is like an Intro to speed running game. It's literally designed with that in mind.

As you complete each level you learn more about the level through the insight mechanic. Each level of Insight gives you another piece of information in the level, like letting you see your ghost time, giving you a hint for the ace time, and allowing you to see the leaderboards for it only after you play a level enough times or get a good enough time on it to either gold medal or ace it. Can't remember. And you have to get a certain number of gold medals to progress. It highly incentivises improving your times and skills and sometimes using the items and weapons in different ways.

Also each weapon has two functions, one as a weapon, 2 having a discard use. (Sacrifice it to do a thing. Whether that's a grenade that can launch you up, a ground bound, a dash, double jump.)

In deep rock galactic, if you get a buy a moonrider or wormhole, but before you drink it you buy a flintlocks delight so that you can drink the two drinks in a row as quick as possible, some very hilarious and mildly disorienting things happen.

The moonrider gives you low gravity. (can also be accomplished with the gravity button on a catwalk near the bar)

While the wormhole teleports you either into the drop pod (whether it's open or not) or outside. In space.

These effects combined with flintlock, which propels you in totally random directions via explosion, Result in absolute chaos as you are launched either all over the space rig in low grav

Bounce around the drop pod like a pinball

Or go flying at mach Jesus in space while frozen because space is cold but the explosions don't stop.

Also the mass effect series has a board game coming out that's in the pre order phase right now. There are high quality resin figures available to get with it. There's even a bundle that lets you grab enough in one purchase to replace every token and figure with a high quality resin model.

There's a really cool body doubling app called Dubbii. Highly recommend due to just.. being upfront about stuff and just. I don't know how to describe it

By combining the Hair color, highlight color, and greying color in Balders gate 3. You can achieve tritone hair colors. Like this.

this is a formal invitation for you to infodump to me directly with no introduction statement

just

“so did you know that…” etc

please it would make my day

i love learning new things especially if you like them

ily all 🥺

[sukirichi]

— hands to myself (nanami kento x reader)

pov: you miss nanami too much that you can’t keep your hands to yourself

content/warnings: nsfw, voyeurism, masturbation, spanking, multiple orgasms, daddy kink, sugar daddy nanami, unedited fic

inspo: hands to myself by selena gomez

note: i can’t get sugar daddy nanami out of my head my brain goes brr brr PLEASE SEND ME THIRSTY ASKS ABOUT NANAMI 

@unabashednightmarepizza​ and @noritoshiikamo​ asdgjkl here we goooo i guess 

masterlist !

the penthouse felt so lonely without nanami.

he’s been working so hard, staying overtime and coming home just as you’re already buried in the sheets. nanami would slither in as quietly as he could, not wanting to disturb the peaceful slumber of his baby girl, but what he doesn’t know is that you don’t mind waking up, just to see and feel him before he leaves for work again the next morning.

right before the sun rises, nanami’s already left. in your dazed state, you’re sure you felt him kissing your forehead before the doors close with a soft click, leaving you alone all over again.

you know he doesn’t mean it, you know he doesn’t want to leave you – but nanami is a hero and he has a duty to the people of this world to exorcise curses to bring a safer environment for everyone. truly, you admire him for this, sometimes a little too much that you might even fall in love with the rigid and stoic man who doesn’t smile.

still, you can’t help but to miss him.

ever since you became his baby girl, life has been easy. even though nanami wasn’t around all the time, he made it up by leaving his credit card to you, assuring you that you were free to get what you wanted. out of boredom, you’d go to the upstate and use his car to drive around the hills, arms heavy with shopping bags.

you’re not selfish, of course, you always make sure to bring him a little gift too. whether it came in the form of buying a new necktie for him – which he always wore to work proudly – or donning your body in lacy, white lingerie that has nanami losing control and worshipping your body until you’re screaming his name with a dried throat, you never forget to leave a little something for him.

sometimes you wish you could tell him you don’t really want the money. you’re thankful he’s more than generous to help you pay for college fees in return of you being his sweet baby girl, but you don’t need the Gucci or prada if he’s not going to be around.

you wanted nanami more than anything else, missed him more than anyone else.

your room feels so empty without him. his scent still lingers in your sheets because he’d rather sleep with you than stay in his own room, only using said room for showering and getting ready for work.

a lightbulb shines above your head. throwing your iphone to the side, you run to his room and open the cabinets one by one. nanami was as organized with his surroundings as he was with himself. his closet is an impressive collection of dark blue button-ups, nude slacks, and his iconic nude suit jacket. they’re all of the same brand and size, and you laugh because only nanami would buy the same thing over and over again.

at the end though, your gaze lands on a rare collection of white button ups, neckties neatly rolled and tucked at the glossy marbled drawers in front of the closet. already, you feel your heartbeat picking up as your hands touched the soft cotton material, nose slowly rubbing and burying into his shirt.

it even smells like him.

your movements are swift. previous shirt discarded on the floor, your arms loop inside the sleeves, tying up just until the undersides of your breasts before you pick out your favourite tie for him, a satin black one that always made him look delectable for dinner parties.

nanami rarely wore those, but when he did, he knew you wouldn’t be able to keep your hands to yourself. the last time he brought you with him for a birthday ball of his friend, nanami wore this exact black tie paired with the traditional fitted, three piece suit. you remember how needy you were for him that night, little fists clenched at his dress shirt and nanami lowly scolding you to behave.

but you were so desperate to touch him – how could you not when he was so damn irresistible – that he felt bad for his baby girl. long story short, you and nanami left early for the party, with your pussy bouncing up and down his thick pole while nanami glared at the limousine driver to keep his eyes on the road, large, calloused hands possessively gripping the flesh of your ass.

you missed him so much you might go crazy.

grabbing the nearest bottle of his perfume, you spritz it into the air, leaning forwards so that you’d get his scent all over you. it somehow felt as if you were coating yourself in his name, claiming and branding yourself as his even without him in the vicinity.

that’s how much you wanted him, and you don’t stop rubbing his perfume along the pads of your wrist until you can’t smell yourself anymore. your legs are accentuated by the black suede pumps you strutted around the penthouse with, lips tainted red from the wine he kept in his precious little cellar – which was also a spot in the house you both fucked at during that time nanami wanted to taste you on his lips.

he pushed you next to the glass borders then, spreading your legs open until you’re absolutely bare of him. the memory of nanami burying his warm tongue in you has you rubbing your thighs together, your black lace panties already damp with arousal.

you won’t touch yourself, though. that’s one of the rules nanami placed the moment he agreed to be your sugar daddy: you couldn’t, under any circumstance, touch yourself without his permission.

sighing, you trudged back to his bedroom again and sat your ass on his silver desk, legs swinging below you as you stared out into the night city.

nanami likes his room dark, that even though he’s got a crystal chandelier hanging from the ceiling, he almost never opens it. only the bright light from the opened closet is what illuminates your silhouette as you watch the skyscrapers twinkle from afar, the people bustling on the streets looking like ants from this height. it was perfect – the night looked so beautiful and the ambience so romantic with soft, classical music playing from the AI speakers – but nanami isn’t here.

he wouldn’t come home early either. you could already tell how stressed he’d be because gojo satoru always makes him work overtime.

for now, you just had to enjoy your own presence, replacing nanami’s heat and love with his perfume and clothes. his shirt is absolutely baggy on you, the ends of it falling on top of your thighs. your breasts nearly swells out from the tight cups of your bra and the fat of your thighs clumped underneath the straps of your stockings.

you’ve sighed for what seems like the hundredth time that day. it sounds selfish, but you wished that nanami would come home early and pay attention to you. surely, gojo satoru would be more than fine handling the curses himself for just today.

unable to help it, your head fell back on the transparent glass windows of his room, fingers snaking under his shirt. instinctively, your legs opened, a breathy sigh falling from your glossy red lips as you slipped a finger in. it’s not as big or as thick as nanami’s, and your hands are way too soft compared to the scraping sensation his calloused fingers gave whenever he fingered your pretty little pussy.

it’s nothing compared to what nanami can make you feel, but it should be enough, for now.

your head falls back as your heel lands on his desk, nearly grazing the precious smooth top of his table. you have a feeling nanami is going to punish you once he sees the slight scrapes of your stiletto against it, but who cares? at this point, you’re willing to pull off the stupidest things just to get his attention, just to get him to fuck you.

“nanami,” you moan around the second finger, your other hand spreading your legs open. you’re so horny that you don’t bother taking your panties off anymore, the material flushed with the slick of your own arousal that it’s heavily damp. “daddy, i miss you,” eyes shut tight, you fondle with the sensitive nub of your clit, pumping yourself slowly as you imagine that it’s nanami making you feel good this time.

you know you’re being a bad girl, that you’re being an absolute brat. not only did you break the rule that you’re not allowed to touch yourself exactly after you convinced yourself you wouldn’t, but you’re leaking right at his desk, heels grazing into the smooth material.

if nanami were to see, he wouldn’t forgive you.

he would break you.

if it was a punishment, then why do you enjoy the idea of it? why are you so enticed, so excited, so eager to have your daddy use you like a fucktoy? your lashes flutter against your cheeks, hips bucking into your cupped palm as your belly begins to tighten. “b-break me, daddy, please, nanami-”

“what do you think you’re doing?”

you freeze.

tentatively, you crack an eye open, swallowing audibly when nanami stands at the edge of his door, his glasses already removed. now that his beautiful blue eyes aren’t obscured by anything, you’re met with the intense heat of his gaze, nearly burning like wild fire. you glance down at your fingers buried in your pussy and gulp, pulling them out with a loud shlick. you were so wet at just the thought of him, so stupid to even want to be punished, but now your spine freezes when nanami struts to your way.

his hand tilts your chin up, forcing you to look at him. “i asked you a question,” his low, baritone voice has you clenching around nothing, throat tight out of nervousness. “i said, what do you think you’re doing?”

“i-i’m sorry, daddy,” you duck your head down, lips red and trembling. “i just missed you so much and i got so horny-”

“so you thought it was okay to touch yourself? even after i’ve made it clear i don’t want you doing that?”

“i’m so sorry-”

nanami doesn’t give you a chance to speak before his lips crash into yours, his tongue effortlessly slipping inside to swipe over your teeth. you gasp in his mouth when his large hands cup your ass and haul your weight off the desk, legs wrapped around his waist. nanami slaps it, making the flesh bounce and gripping it tightly with a firm squeeze. you’re pretty sure you’d turn completely red and marked by the end of this, but you don’t care, fuck, you don’t fucking care – nanami’s here and that’s all you care about.

you kiss him back just as eagerly, arms around his neck as he carries you like you weigh nothing. nanami groans when your teeth nibble on his lips, eager and needy hands unbuttoning his shirt. his hard pecs and abs greet you like a present you couldn’t wait to unwrap, and you’re both breathing hard by the time you pull away.

“are those my clothes?” he snaps the strap of your bra under his shirt, eyes narrowed over the way you look terrifyingly small in his shirt. you nod, breasts rising up and down, tempting him to reach over and squeeze it. your back arches at his touch, his ministrations missed and needed. no, you craved it. he’s been gone too long you’re not sure you could take it anymore, and you hiss when nanami buries his sharp nose in the juncture of your neck, the front of his pants damp and coated with your exposed wet cunt. “and you’re wearing my perfume too.”

“y-yes.”

“tell me, baby,” nanami sets you down on your feet. your legs are a little wobbly from the heels and with desire burning in your stomach. he steadies you by placing a hand under your armpit, and you lean forward to kiss him one more time. nanami tsks and shoves you backwards, cheek sliding across the glass. “why did you go to my room without my permission? why did you touch yourself when i told you not to? do you want to be punished?”

your cheek stings from the impact of your skin hitting the glass, but your mind is too clouded with lust you can’t really focus on his words. wiggling your ass to press against his erection, you beg for him, hands looking for the comfort of his skin.

nanami slaps your ass and hand away to shut you up, and you fall forwards with a muffled cry. “answer me when i ask you a question, baby girl. i’m not always going to be this nice.”

“daddy, i-i just missed you so much, i couldn’t help it.”

“you missed me?” you hear his belt unbuckling behind you, your ass perking up in excitement. fuck, you just wanted him to pound into you already. but nanami’s always too patient, always controlled in everything he does, that you’re laying there shaking with your pussy dripping for him. finally, fucking finally, you feel his cock enter you inch by delicious inch, and you moan at the same time nanami groans at burying himself deep within you. “my stupid silly baby can never keep her hands to herself, huh?”

“no, daddy, i want you too much, i just miss you so bad.”

“you do?” he teases, rolling his hips languidly. his pace is so slow and teasing that you’re whining for him to go faster, but nanami only shakes his head. before you could fathom the way nanami’s eyes darken, he leans forward, hitting deeper than he did before. your moans are so breathy that you start fogging up the glass, and nanami rubs your swollen clit before using his hands to squish your cheeks. he forces you to follow his gaze, voice low and almost growling. “if you miss daddy so much, then show it to them. show them how good i’m making you feel. come on, baby girl, i know you can do it. you’ll do it for me won’t you?”

realization dawns you the moment nanami pushes your body further in the glass, your breasts squished and flattened against the cool surface. “d-daddy,” you gasp, tightening around him once you see that the overtime workers from the office parallel to his penthouse are now witnessing the way nanami rams his cock into you like a wild animal. “they’re, ah, watching.”

“i know, baby, i know,” nanami loosens his necktie around your neck, snatching it and tying it around your wrists instead. “let these people know you’re mine – that you’re my baby girl and no one else’s okay?”

hands bound behind your back and nanami’s thick cock thrusting roughly into you, you’re unable to move or even think straight. you just nod mindlessly as nanami keeps fucking into you, hands gently pressing down your throat. his dick keeps rubbing against your most sensitive spots and you’re shaking underneath him, your arousal heightened when you saw several of the office workers have already pulled out their cocks and stroked it at the sight of you dripping onto nanami’s black marble floors.

nanami doesn’t stop praising on how much you’re a good girl for him. now that his cock is buried within you, he’s already forgotten that you’ve broken his precious rule.

you don’t complain, though. how could you when he has you screaming his name, your makeup and sweat leaving a figure the shape of body plastered on his glass walls? you’re sure his housekeeper is going to be so angry at the both of you for leaving cum stains everywhere, but you and nanami have forgotten all about it.

it seems he misses you just as much because nanami doesn’t stop fucking you until you’re full of his cum, breasts swollen and aching from being pressed into the wall for so long.

an hour passed – maybe two – you’ve lost count from the amount of times nanami has made you cum. your legs are giving out beneath you and your latest lingerie set is broken, comforted only by the promise that he’s going to get you good one. you’re absolutely lost in the pleasure of nanami driving his cock impossible deep into you all the way until morning, body spent and shaking from all the orgasms.

fucked out and whining, nanami litters kisses all over your body to soothe you a little bit, but he doesn’t stop. and the truth is, you don’t want him to, either. legs wrapped around his waist and heels digging into his ass, nanami finally tangles his hands into yours as he pistons his cock in and out of your squelching pussy.

he’s giving you his all, and you can’t keep your hands to yourself no matter how hard you’re trying to, not when nanami is prowling into you as you’re spread underneath him before he goes gentle, almost as if making love to you.

well, you could, but why would you want to?

[fabuloustrash05]

What were your first impressions of Leo and Karai's relationship before Nick announced that Karai was Splinter's daughter? (Not a Le*rai shipper)

Buckle up buttercup because I’m giving you my whole history with Leor*i

In the beginning I shipped them hardcore. Like really hardcore. *GASP* I know. I’m shocked too. Looking back on it, I hate it…

Karai’s introduction episode “New Girl in Town” was my first real episode I watched in the 2012 series and it’s what got me hooked to watch more. It ended with only Leo and Raph knowing about Karai, this mysterious female ninja that works for Shredder, and it got me curious to know what would happen next so I started officially watching the 2012 series.

Growing up I loved Leo and Karai’s dynamic, the good boy and the bad girl, how he knew she had a good side but due to their rival clans they can’t be together.

I was 12 when I first started watching the series so when the reveal during the season 1 finale that Karai is actually Splinter’s daughter Miwa came into play it didn’t really cross my mind. I was young and dumb and it went over my head. I still thought “LeO aNd KaRaI aRe SoUlMaTeS!”

I think what started my realization that shipping Leor*i was wrong was in season 2 when Splinter came out and told his sons the truth that Karai is actually Miwa, to which it leads Mikey to say this:

My reaction to that line when I was 12:

Yet still despite that, I actually tried to ignore that fact! I still shipped them with a burning passion! And I’m disgusted that it took me so long to see how wrong it was!

12 year old me anytime Leo and Karai being brother and sister was acknowledged:

I tried to move on and continued to ship them. I tried ignoring ever time they say Karai was Splinter’s daughter or how she’s the turtles long lost sister. I was a dumb naïve child!!

Remember this moment?

I remember watching this moment and I fangirled like crazy, I so badly wanted Karai to kiss Leo. I remember ranting to my friends about how mad I was that they didn’t kiss, but looking back on it now I’m so glad they didn’t!

As the show went on, Karai got mutated and didn’t make that many appearances, she was gone for most of season 3, so that gave me time to think over my shipping taste.

I started thinking over past moments in the show, Mikey always referring to Karai as his and his brother’s sister, saying he’s her little brother, Splinter calling Karai and Leo his “son” and “daughter” in the SAME EPISODE, and Leo and Karai both calling Splinter “Dad” or “Father”, again, sometimes in the SAME EPISODE.

Leor*i didn’t make that big of an appearance during the ending of season 2, a lot of season 3, and first half of season 4, so that gave me room to start focusing on other (more healthier and happier) ships. That’s when then Renetangelo and RaMona entered my life <3

I guess in a way, they saved me from sinking with the Leor*ai ship. They made me realize what a good ship looks like. RaMona became my new favorite ship and my new ship obsession (I considered myself the captain of the RaMona ship lol) and for a short time they made me forget Leor*i even existed.

As the show went on I started to grow up and mature. I started to realize the wrongness in Leor*i. I was 15 by the time Karai officially came back into the show (second half of season 4) and my love for Leor*i was practically gone. I still enjoyed seeing Leo and Karai interact and their dynamic was good and entertaining. Them being friends and clan allies was nice, but anytime the writers forced a “romantic” moment between them in season 4…

I cringed

But it was okay because the writers gave Karai a goth witch girlfriend in the end so everything is good in the world 👍

Shinirai forever

I officially disliked Leor*i by mid season 4, I realized how wrong it was, they are siblings, Splinter is there father, no matter how much you look at it Leor*i is incest!!! Karai is their big sister and it disgusted me looking back at it now that I actually wanted them to get together!

But what made me really hate the ship as much as I do now are the people who still supported them and shipped them and the horrible excuses that they gave them!

I realized Leor*i shippers were (and still are) crazy toxic!!

I could go into more detail about that, but that’s a topic for another post and I don’t have the energy for that right now, but my friend @qiralync always makes really good anti Leor*i arguments. She honestly makes better arguments then I could about the ship. XD

So to wrapped it all up, 12 year old me shipped Leor*i but as she got older she realized how f**king wrong and disgusting that ship was. RaMona entered her life and saved her and now she realizes the truth.

And I know I’m not alone on this cause many TMNT 2012 fans were in the same boat as me when we were all kids and now we despise the incest ship known as Leor*i. It honestly makes me so happy seeing us TMNT 2012 fans all grow up and realize how wrong Leor*i was, and we all collectively agree that Leor*i was a terrible ship.

And to those who still refuse to admit it, I wish you the best and I hope you come to your senses someday soon, because remember I was in the same boat as you and now I look back on it and ask myself “What was I thinking??” It’ll eventually happen to you too.

[lazypeachsoul]

I wouldn't want to spend a minute lovin' anybody else.

Warnings: this fic has some sad moments and mentions of the blip. also kind of AU because I'm completely ignoring Natasha's canon end.

Word count: 4,2k (i got very carried away with this fic)

Summary: · Meeting the right person at the wrong time can be life changing when it doesn’t work out the way we desire. But if it's meant to be it will always happen, right?

A/N: This is my fic for the "Women of Marvel xReader Exchange" created by @marvelxreaderfanfictionfest . It was created for @im-holding-ontoyou and I hope you like it! gif by @natasharomanovgifs 🌼 ALSO; i haven't watched Black Widow yet so I'm sorry if something in this fic doesn't fit the new info we got about natasha.

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New York, 2015.

When you received the call from one of your bosses that you had a new case you would have never imagined how big that case would turn out to be.

You had been working for one of the most important law firms in New York for a year now, and you were getting kind of used to reading cases that would be narrated in the papers for months. Rich and entitled men, big divorces were they fight over who gets the yacht, one or two murder cases... if it revolved around the powerful people of New York city, your firm would get it.

When you got to the debriefing and were told that Tony Stark, one of the firm's most important clients, asked your team for assistance in the creation of some legislation with the newly created “Advanced Threat Containment Unit” you were more than surprised.

The events that the Avengers had caused (or saved us from, there were different opinions going around) in the small country of Sokovia were known all around the and it was only time before the most powerful officials asked for the regulation of ‘superhero activity’.

You weren’t important enough to actually attend the meetings that took place with the government, seeing as you had only passed your bar exam a little over a year prior, but you were deemed cheerful and nice enough to act as a nexus between the firm and the client.

For months you spent your days talking to Tony Stark and other members of The Avengers trying to explain what was being talked about. The first few meetings were a disaster, seeing as the mood was somber for the lives lost and nobody really understood your legal jargon. But slowly you started to transform your language and really tried to make the meetings as easy as possible for everyone present.

But who were you kidding, they really didn’t care about the meetings or the silly attorney being sent to explain something that was way above their paycheck. Well, at least Stark was gracious enough to set a coffee station with some pastries for the meeting. You were pouring the hot liquid into your to-go cup when your hand jerked and the hot liquid splashed your hand.

You could feel the sting of the burn but avoided further sudden movements trying not to make it worse. Before you could reach for a napkin to clean up the mess you made, a more dexterous and manicured hand reached for them and exchanged the hot cup in your hand for the bunch of papers.

“Careful, Stark always serves boiling coffee. I think it’s to mask that it’s not the best quality.”

You lifted your gaze from your hand and found a pair of deep green eyes gazing back. You would have thought that spending numerous meetings in the company of superheroes would make you less susceptible to their powerful auras, but being this close to Natasha Romanoff made your heart beat a bit faster.

“Yeah, I found out the hard way.” You joked, lifting your hand a bit. “You would guess one of the richest people in the world would actually serve good coffee...”

Seeing her crack a smile made you feel less tense. Sometimes you forget they are still normal people. Normal people who could kill you with their bare hands and had superhuman powers. She placed your cup on the food table, apparently not bothered by how hot it must have been, and pushed her hand in your direction.

“I’m Natasha Romanoff.” You wrapped your hand around hers and shook it, biting your tongue trying not to tell her of course you knew her name. “Sorry I didn’t introduce myself in earlier meetings, we were all trying to come to terms with what had happened.”

“No worries, I can only imagine how hard it must have been for all of you.” You nodded and tried to show her sympathy, trying to avoid thinking about all the lives affected by the fight. “Oh sorry, I’m-”

Natasha quickly cut you off, speaking your name before you could even say it. You could feel your cheeks get warmer at the idea that they actually knew who you were, and she probably could sense your mood change because she quickly explained.

“I know who you are, you send us at least two emails a week about these meetings and FRIDAY always announces you before you arrive.”

“Who announces me?” You asked curiously at the mention of a name you recognized.

“FRIDAY. It’s the name of Stark’s AI technology. It works all around the tower and it’s there to make life easier for everyone.” She explained pointing around at the speakers strategically placed around the room.

“Oh, I get emails from Friday sometimes. Most of them are asking me to translate or explain something about the debriefing because Mr.Stark is not interested in legal terms.” Both you and Natasha laughed at the thought.

But she quickly recomposed and tried to look serious again when she heard her teammates coming in to get ready for the meeting.

“I wanted to ask you about that. Do you think we could schedule a meeting so that you could explain some things about the legislation of the A.T.C.U.?” She spoke lower than she had when the two of you were alone and you wondered why she didn’t want her colleagues to know about the meeting.

“Ye-Yeah, of course I can.” You were confused but thought it would be in your best interest, and the firm’s, to say yes to the proposal. And a meeting with a very attractive and definitely interesting woman was not something that happened constantly for you.

“Great, thank you.” She smiled warmly and squeezed your hand that you hadn’t even realized was still wrapped around hers from the introduction. “I can promise you better coffee.”

You could only hum in response, still trying to piece together what she might want from the meeting. But your thoughts were quickly cut off when Stark entered the room and you moved to start the reunion.

During the entire meeting you could feel the dull pain in your hand from the scorching coffee and the feeling of a pair of green eyes watching your every move.

Vienna, 2016.

The situation had only gone downhill from the Battle of Sokovia. The public’s opinion on the Avengers was at an all-time-low and that made terrorist groups bold. They knew that if they struck and caused enough chaos, the blame would fall on the good guys that tried to stop them.

The only thing that seemed to be a stable thing in your life was Natasha. Well, as stable as dating a superhero might be. She was busy a lot, but you understood the importance of her job and you were quite busy too gaining importance within the law firm.

And even if sometimes terrorists and criminals got in the way you still found a moment to spend together, wrapped around each other without having to think about how messed up life was.

You thought Lagos was the blow that would make everything tumble, the Sokovia accords were unveiled and it broke the Avengers, and your girlfriend. You could feel how torn she was at her decision of some of her friends to oppose the signing and go on the run, and her own decision to subordinate to the United Nations mandate. But you realized how small that had been when king T’Chaka was killed at the UN.

You had been at the UN as part of the USA legal team that participated in the writing and monitoring of the accords. Your participation in the negotiations almost broke your relationship but you were able to recover once you explained your position and Natasha actually came to an understanding of it.

Natasha was also in Vienna when everything went down, you hadn’t managed to properly see her because she was one of the signers and they sat at the assembly while other guests sat at the amphitheater watching the retransmission.

You hadn’t been able to properly see her all day, seeing as she took a detour before flying to Austria. You were only able to communicate through texts where you tried to make the situation more comfortable for her and she promised a peaceful european trip to celebrate the signing.

When the bomb went off and all hell broke loose the first thing you tried to do was look for her, she was at the epicenter of the explosion and you just wanted to see if she was okay. You saw her from afar when you were being pushed to the outside of the building while they swiped the perimeter.

She sat with T’Challa before he jumped from the bench and stomped away. Natasha looked around and your gazes crossed, immediately melting away some of the worry. You tried to push your way through the crowd to get to her, but police and security didn’t budge.

You never took your eyes off of her, scared that if you did she would disappear. But she did move her gaze to her phone and the look that crossed her face when she heard the voice at the other side told you it was a very important call.

Once the call was over and she looked at you again you knew that would probably be the last time you would see her in some time. You hadn’t known Natasha as long as some of her colleagues had, but you could proudly say you could understand what she wanted to say with just a look. And the look on her face in that moment read close to a goodbye.

New York, 2018.

It had been two years since the fall of Helmut Zemo and part of the Avengers was still on the run. And it maybe wouldn’t have had that big of an impact on you if it wasn’t because Natasha had also been on the run for that long.

You had heard about what happened at the Leipzig airport and how Natasha had changed alliances to join Captain America’s fight. You had been heartbroken at the news knowing that any resemblance of normality that you still hope for was destroyed.

You had spent months wondering what had made her change her mind. Had she thought about your conversations about the accords? Had she even remembered you, waiting for her back in New York, when she decided to go on the run?

A part of you tried to convince you of how selfish thinking about that was, why would she think about you when the future of her team and friends was at stake? But also you were her girlfriend, she should have thought about the implications that might have had for you.

In those years you had mourned your relationship and after the grieving period you tried to rebuild your life. New friends, a new position and new chances to take. And it went okay...at least until someone opened their mouth to talk about superheroes or The Avengers. Years down the line and it was still on people’s minds.

On special occasions you would receive anonymous gifts at your office or your apartment. The first birthday after the war you sobbed for fifteen minutes when you saw the bunch of flowers. There was no name or indicative of who might have sent them, that was until you looked better at the card and saw the small red hourglass painted in the corner.

The gifts continued. Every case you won, promotion, birthday or holiday a bunch of flowers would be delivered to you with the same note.

In a way it gave you a sense of peace knowing she was okay and still thought of you. But the more you thought about it the angrier you got at how she had left you.

You didn’t expect a message from your boss to run to the Avengers compound and assess some situation between Coronel Rhodes and Thaddeus Ross. Although the team had crumbled, your company was still hired to legally represent the remaining members and moderate situations that might arise with the government.

You entered the compound expecting another bureaucratic complaint about their activity but you found a trickier situation. The meeting room was filled with people you thought you would never see again.

Captain Rogers was sitting on one of the chairs sporting a new look that made you almost not recognize him and a tense demeanor. Next to him was Sam Wilson, looking around at the smallest of movements and trying to assess the situation. Wanda Maximoff was standing on the furthest corner of the room playing with her rings, meanwhile Vision was apparently being checked out for a wound. What kind of wounds a synthezoid could get was beyond your understanding.

“Thank you for coming so quickly, I might have angered Secretary Ross during a meeting.” Rhodey came up to you with a nervous smile.

You had gotten closer to him thanks to your job seeing as he was the one doing the dirty superhero work.

“Yeah, I got that much from the text. Nothing new then.” You tried to joke to diffuse the tension in the room. “It would have been nice to know you had guests though.”

“We are not guests. Last time I checked this was our home too.”

That voice made your blood freeze. You should have expected her there, all her friends had returned and the chance of her being back too was almost 100%. But hearing her voice again after two years was not something you expected.

You bit your tongue before you could talk about how it’s not a home if you abandon it, but decided against it. This was a fight between them, not Natasha and you.

“I need you to work with the government to avoid this situation becoming a disaster.” Rhodey explained and you scoffed.

“Rhodey, I’m a lawyer not a politician. I have as much power in this as you might have.” You tried to lay your point across but it was difficult with all eyes on the interaction. “Hell, I have even less power than you do.”

“Then I need you to distract them enough to get them off our shoulders.” He pressed. “Something big is coming and we need all the strength we can get.”

You thought about it for a moment. If it was true that something big was coming, the Avengers were the best option to fight it.

“I’m in.” You scoffed at his smile and sat down in one of the chairs of the meeting room. “I’m not ready for the world to end yet.”

The meeting went on for a while. You called bosses, government officials and everyone that would listen to your distractions. You sent emails that would flood their inboxes for days so that they couldn’t read any news that might reach them about what the superheroes had in mind.

It was late at night when a cup of steaming liquid was placed next to you. You looked at it and saw that it was some kind of herbal tea, probably made to relax the drinker. You followed the hand that was still holding the mug until you reached Natasha’s face.

You had done your best to ignore her looming presence in the room but now there was no distraction. Looking at her you could see tiredness in her face. She was platinum blonde now, a look that weirdly suited her, but her face still looked as welcoming to you as it always did.

You tried to stop the flashbacks to the last time you saw it in person in Vienna, but they kept replaying in your head until her voice broke you out of the loop.

“I thought you might need it, I remember how nervous calls used to make you.”

She was smiling but you could tell it didn’t reach her eyes.

“Yeah, I guess I got over it since I got my promotion. Now I spend a long portion of my day making calls.”

She hummed and sat down next two you, but leaving a chair in between you as a safe space.

“I read about it in an article, I sent you flowers to celebrate.”

“I got them. And the Christmas ones. On my birthday too.” You enumerated the times you had gotten the plants in the past two years. “You must have spent an awful amount of money buying me so many flowers.”

“You deserved it, you still do.” She shrugged and that’s when you noticed she had her own mug of warm tea in her other hand. “I’m sorry I couldn’t be there to celebrate with you.”

You laughed into your mug sarcastically. Out of everything you expected her to say this wasn’t one of them.

“Did you really? Because you didn’t seem to consider me much when you went on the run for two years.”

Natasha paled when she heard your tone. She probably wasn’t used to situations like these but you weren’t going to let her go without an apology at least.

“I was trying to do the best for-”

“-for the world. I get it, Natasha, I do.” You tried to contain your emotions but it was getting harder with every word. “Relationships are supposed to be teamwork. I know you are always too busy playing heroes and I never judged you for that, I just wish you would have trusted me enough to tell me before you disappeared.”

She was silent and knowing Natasha it’s because she was probably overwhelmed with the display of feelings. But she needed to hear how bad you had felt.

After minutes of waiting for an answer from her and getting nothing but sighs you shook your head and looked back at the computer screen.

“I guess it was a case of the right person, wrong time.” You shrugged trying to find distraction in the flurry of letters in your email inbox. “Or at least it was for me.”

She got up from her seat without a word and you grew exasperated. Why had she even approached you if then she wasn’t willing to have an adult, two sided conversation? She was almost at the door when you heard her voice again.

“Please never doubt how much I love you. I made some bad choices but dating you was not one of them.”

New York, 2024.

Time apparently flies by when you are erased from the face of the earth. One day you are in your office working late and the next you appear five years in the future with no recollection of what might have happened.

You were taken by authorities to impromptu camps and one by one examined to check your identities. The entire thing seemed to be something out of one of the dystopian novels you used to read as a teenager.

When it was your turn you gave them all the information you had on what had happened. You had given them your name and personal information and apparently had been a very searched person because the computer started beeping as soon as your name was introduced in the database.

You were moved to a secluded part of the camp and kept in an isolated room for god knows how long. Your stomach was in knots during the entire situation and you could feel the cold sweat on you. That mixed with the metallic taste on your tongue you knew this time your anxiety was justified. You were almost dizzy because of how hard you were thinking about the entire situation and trying to make sense of it.

When you heard the door of the room open you jumped up, discarding on the floor a makeshift blanket that had been placed on your shoulders when you got there. Your legs almost gave out at the movement and your heart felt like it was going to burst out.

The door opened enough for you to see who had been searching for you. Natasha stepped through the door still dressed in her tactic gear and with tiredness written all over her face. But that feeling seemed to almost disappear when she finally saw you.

With quick movements she stepped into the room and wrapped her arms around you tightly. For some reason that action was the trigger that you needed to let all your emotions consume you.

You started sobbing uncontrollably at the unknown. You didn’t understand what happened or how you are here, but feeling her embrace helped you feel safe in a way. It had been years since you last hugged her but it still felt as good as back in 2015.

You could hear Natasha’s soothing shushes in between your sobs and you moved to hold her tighter.

“You are here. I can’t believe I found you again.” She spoke softly and you didn’t know if she was speaking to you or herself. “It’s okay darling. I’m here and I’m not letting you go again. I promise.”

And with that promise a ray of hope made way between all the fear you felt.

Missouri, 2025.

Soft music could be heard all around the ground floor of the house. The soft beat was upbeat enough to get the morning started but not enough to be overwhelming if you had just woken up. You were sitting on the kitchen island looking at the news on your phone and having breakfast.

Mornings were usually very calm around the homestead and you couldn’ be more thankful for that. It allowed you to silently prepare your breakfast and coffee and get a headstart on Natasha’s breakfast too.

Since she had retired, Natasha had discovered a newfound love for sleeping in and you didn’t dare to take that away from her. She deserved it from all the work she had done in her life.

You, meanwhile, tried to get up early to scroll through the cases that you got in your new and smaller job and schedule meetings or emails.

It was a Saturday so work wasn’t a thing and you could actually enjoy your toast and coffee in peace. Or at least until a pair of arms wrapped themselves around your middle and pulled you back against Natasha.

“Good morning baby, how did you sleep?”

“Like a baby.” You could feel her smile when she kissed your cheek from behind. “You weren’t there when I woke up though.”

You shrugged before moving to get a bite out of your toast. Natasha tried to do the same but you quickly moved it away from her with a smile. She tried again and you moved as fast as your reflexes allowed you.

“C’mon baby, give me a bite” “No, it’s my toast. You can make your own.” “But it tastes better when you make it.” “No it doesn’t, don’t be lazy.”

The playful fight continued for a few moments until she got close enough to get a small bit but you moved it again.

“Don’t make me bite you, darling.”

You chuckled at her threat and plopped the remaining toast on the plate in front of you. Breakfast didn’t matter much anymore. You threw yourself into her arms and pressed your lips against hers. It wasn’t a slow and sensual kiss, it was closer to how small kids smooch their parents. But you knew it would convey your love more deeply.

“Don’t threaten me with a good time, Nat.” You spoke against her lips and squaked when you felt her playfully nip at your bottom lip.

“Is now a good time?”

That question had become recurring in your household, a nod to the phrase you said when you found eachother again after being separated the first time.

“I couldn’t think of a more perfect time.”

And you couldn’t. The rest of your life spent in a homestead with your girlfriend and whatever life might bring? It sounded absolutely delightful.

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[godblooded]

“ i — can’t hear. completely. — when i was a kid, the gun went off next to my head. the kickback slammed into my eardrum like a wrecking ball. don’t ever tell anyone. it’s… not a lot less. a little reduced. my shit’s enhanced when i need it. ”

it’s always tech to make up for what she can’t do. what selina cannot manage, haphaestus can forge, haphaestus can create. if selina is missing a slight chunk of her hearing, alana stark can balance that out with a few tweaks easy. an enhancer to the ai embedded in the goggles, but without them the faint, tinny, high-pitched whine of a light beginning to burn out is always screeching in the background. it gets louder and quieter, and sometimes her eardrum beats. she can’t deal with that clangy telephone ring— it makes the inside of her ear canal sound like a marching band. random sounds set it off. fuck the fourth of july.

“ bet bruce’ll fight you if you ask nicely. he just needs a reason. ”

selina frets for the other wayne, even if it’s only silently. she can see writ large the tender fear on his face when no one’s looking. she can see the way his hands have never stilled. she can see the way his cheeks are bright red in the morning, sometimes, scrubbed raw of makeup he’s only just stripped that’s cling to his skin for hours and hours. she knows he can take care of himself — bruce is nothing if not capable — but maybe it’s hard to watch someone who’s so genuine suffer. he’s lost, that’s what she sees.

he’s too soft for this place. for any world, selina thinks, but for this one in particular.

“ holls likes you. she sucks with people i’m close to. the jealous kid thing. ”

selina’s too smart not to see the writing on the wall; holly’s afraid that loving caring about someone else means she’ll stop being real to selina. holly believes she’s only important if she’s constantly got selina’s attention, and selina never stops paying attention to holly, anyway. but god knows it’s complicated when you were both orphans.

the little flick doesn’t move her much. she’s too comfortable. but she’s all too close to biting the bat’s hand and sinking in. she’d draw blood, she knows. so she makes a little chuff like an angry tiger and never even fidgets.

“ yeah. the way you take care of somebody is something… you learn from your parents. i think. it’s why I’m horrible at it. ”

she ignores the passing urge to kiss the caped crusader’s cheek in a gesture of nothing but genuine fondness. it’s there, and it tells her she wants to, and she refuses to indulge it. it’s the proximity, the exhaustion, the need to feel safe. the need to feel close. she gently nuzzles again, leans, stays where she is. she pulls the cape tighter, keeps it brushing her cheek ever so. it’s an impossibly beloved thing. she feels safe, then. decides she truly does. if she’s smiling a little, it’s bryce’s fault. sorry, she was just reminding herself she was sleeping in the lap of the tough, scary batwoman. there’s a giddy feeling that’s special, if she had to name it. no one else knows the bryce she does, and no one else knows the batwoman she does. her nightmare’s put distance between them and she lets the chasm grow wider, hoping it becomes a rift. it’s ironic the shadows aren’t as scary with the bat in the room. she presses into that touch.

she opens her eyes, tucks her chin gently against the bat’s collarbone. when her eyes glance up they’re chestnut, warm, sweet puppy-dog brown. she can faintly make out bryce’s outline in the dark. she can trace the shape of her ear from memory across her skin with the edge of a nail. it etches into her mind where she keeps her scrambled memories, floating like bodies among the wreckage. that shape is tucked away neatly in the back of her mind to be treasured and kept; lina hides her happiness even from herself. she takes in a breath and her lips can’t keep that comfort from moments ago— she already misses it.

“ my parents. I keep having — that dream again about my parents. it’s like my mind is cramming the memory down my own throat just to punish me. for a second i — always feel like i’m going to open the door to a one-room shithole and i don’t even know what dad sounded like but i hear him. i followed the trail of blood down the hall and when i got into the other room there was nothing there. there is nothing there. and the blood’s gone. i thought i was bleeding, but it was all in my head.

— am i losing my fucking mind? this hasn’t happened in — awhile. ”

close to a year, maybe.

“ i like your hearing and so do you. ”

the cat’s practically purring. she can’t help it. there’s this infinitely blissful comfort she never gets to feel anywhere else that bryce embodies without so much as thinking. she’s reaching up to trace a nail along an ear tiredly, following the movement of her fingertip with her eyes. it’s comforting. she remembers details with effortless detail, and she’ll remember this shape well enough to concoct a whole image of bryce so accurate you’d think she was a computer. the shape builds in her head like a 3d printer, clicking and whirring. she drops her arm numbly and leans against bryce’s chest wholly, practically thuds until she can hear her heartbeat. her eyes close and her breathing slows down in equivalent time.

“ you’re exactly like your mom. ”

she doesn’t blink from it. she’s not even opening her eyes. she’s just letting them fall shut while she listens. thump thump thump thump. she accidentally brushes her nose against a jaw and nuzzles to a comfortable lean. …and for once, it is an accident, too comfortable to remember she’s even performing actions. it’s so seldom she gets to be calm. she’s kittenish as those countless strays that rotate through her life.

( she’s got a thing for ‘em. )

“ you ever —…. ”

give her a full minute. she’s kind of acclimating to the comfort. she swears she’s arguing with herself but she’s just trying to settle in a place where it doesn’t feel like her ears are being pricked with needles. she lifts princess’s hand to her hair and none too subtly presses in to indicate quite frankly i need like some mild physical focus, help me out here. it’s not considered because they’re them, and whatever happens between them in the silence of anywhere, it’s just theirs. it’s the one thing selina gets to keep for her own that doesn’t belong to anyone but her. it’s just her memory. no cat in sight.

“ — feel like you’ve been decked in the gut just because you had a bad dream? what kind of whiny shit is that? ”

it’s acerbic, muttering at herself. she breathes calmly.

“ christ. is this what it feels like to take a full-on punch from you? i’m fucking exhausted. ”

she’s so grateful for the silence. it means so much to her that sometimes they can both actually manage to breathe for two minutes. it’s enough stress outside this room. she tugs the cape closer unconsciously. safe spot. safe space. safe safe safe.

“ you think holls won’t bother you? she’ll figure it out any way she can. she’s my kid. — if i can actually sleep for more than two hours you can carry me anyplace you want. ”

the sound of cupcake or darling or sweetheart lingers at the end of her voice but goes unsaid.

[ha-hatdog]

daisuke kambe hcs

- what is it like to be dating daisuke kambe/domestic life with daisuke kambe

i hope you don't mind but i slapped two requests together because they were nearly similar. since i am making one post with two requests, i'll try to make this longer. i hope you enjoy this

requested by anon (i just turned my anon ask and i'll just go ahead and presume you want to be anon hehe sorry about that) : Hi, I saw your post. 😳 I just wanna say goodluck to your writing! and I'll be looking forward to them in the future. ❤ (Your anon asks aren't on btw. 😔) And for the request, it can be a headcanon or a short fic/scenario, whichever you like. :3 But can I please get soft/domestic Daisuke to his s/o (which is the reader)? Like, they're taking care of each other stuff. ❤👁👄👁

uwu thank you so much and i look forward to writing more stories for you

requested by @holdmejk : what it’s like to date daisuke 🥺

i wonder too how it would be like to date this rich man so here ya go

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haru kato is the simple man, simple life

there is no way daisuke kambe can be considered the same. this is the very reason why haru hates the man with a burning passion

waking up with daisuke goes two ways - the normal soft wake up, or the after sex wake up

if you wake up normally, you will always find yourself on his chest, a hand over the small of your back and the other behind your head, pressing you close to him as if you were his leverage to the real world

you never get tired of seeing him peaceful and cute that you kiss him everywhere your lips can touch - his chest, his cheek, his nose, his forehead, but never his lips

daisuke loves waking up to your kisses but what really gets rid of his sleepiness is the annoyance he felt that you never kiss him on the lips

he will lift his head up from the pillow while holding your head and lean forward to capture your lips. no, he doesn't care about morning breath, he cares about your kisses

if you two had sex the night before, it's a different story because it's daisuke who always wakes up first this time around because you know, he tired the hell out of you

he runs his fingers through your matted tresses as the side of his head rested against his open palm, elbow proped up on his pillow

he loves how you look so happy and satisfied and peaceful. he admires your beauty silenty, a small smile on his lips

he'll try to go another round because he can't help himself when you look so enticing but you stop him because you were already so tired

you will drown in luxurious things. this daisuke kambe we are talking about. what did you expect?

you want it? you got it. you like it? you got it. you need it? you got it. your eyes looked at it a second too long? you got it

daisuke believes you deserve the best of the best so whatever you wanted, bam, something much better

flowers? you get a garden. chocolate? you get a factory. movies? you get a theater. cup noodles? you get a ramen shop or the actual cup noodles company. dress? you get your own clothing line that trumps over versace and gucci

oh you think you can stop daisuke from spoiling you just because you begged him and showed him your big doe eyes? he was tempted for sure but there is no way he'll be holding back, especially after seeing your big doe eyes (yup, that plan backfired)

one hard thing about dating a millionaire? you can't buy anything for him

you do not have the money to lavish him the same, and even if you did, it's stupid to assume daisuke can't afford the same things you plan on buying for him. maybe he'll buy something even better

so instead of spoiling him like he does to you, you buy him trinkets that remind you of him

daisuke has no clue as to why items could remind you of him but he still keeps everything you buy for him close to him like in his office so he can always see them

you bought daisuke a goofy looking bobble head and he put it on the dashboard of his super cool looking car and haru was like the hell is that

daisuke sped through the streets before haru could make a comment

daisuke trust you more than anyone. more than suzue, more than haru, more than himself, more than his credit card

that being said, you are the only one he allows to patch him up after a particularly rough day at work

he will literally drive all the way to your shared home while bleeding out, enter your shared room as more blood trailed his face and deadass say "Can you help me? My head is bleeding"

you scold him for being so reckless and for always giving you a heart attack whenever he comes home in that condition

he doesn't mind being lectured tho because he still gets to feel your soft touches and gets lots and lots of kisses from you

he doesn't get why you kiss his wounds after patching him up. like his wounds are dirty? it still hurts? what was the science behind it? he still won't get it even if you explain it to him but he'll take note for reference

when you get injured, you are obligated to tell daisuke that you are not severely hurt that he had to call the hospitals all around the world to come heal you

you had to snatch the phone from him at one point when he tried to contact professional surgeons from america after you scratched yourself from a bush

daisuke at least knows how to use the first aid kit and no matter how little your injury may be, he will always proceed with the basics because he's very worried about you (though his face doesn't show it), that your small wound would get infected, and then you'll be on your death bed saying your last words, and then he's kneeling on your grave -

you had no idea this is what goes on inside his head every time you get injured

he also kisses your wounds after patching them up. he still doesn't understand the reason as to why you and others do it, but he does it because you do it

daisuke doesn't allow you to move a muscle aftee he's done fixing your wounds. he acts as if you have a terminal disease and would check on you every five minutes when he's working at home and calls you every three minutes when doing police work (haru gets annoyed with that habit so you had a talk with him)

dates with daisuke is far from simple. you either go to the most expensive resorts or attractions in japan or you're going out of the country. yes, your dates are basically mini vacations

so that's the reason why whenever you two want to spend time together, you are in charge. you can't always go to malaysia and england every weekend. plausible when you're with daisuke but you're not having it

you try to make your dates as simple as it can be. like what regular couples would do like going to movies (he was irritated because he had to sit near other people because he only wants to be near you), hanging out in the mall ("No, Daisuke, don't you dare buy that Gucci bag for me, I just glanced at it - oh for fuck sake"), and eating food from stands (Daisuke was confused like where will you two sit so you can eat your food properly?)

you two went ice skating and you guided him as he wobbled on his skates. you never let go of him because the first time you let go of him so he can try to balance alone in the ice, he looked very worried and made grabby hands at you

he becomes better at skating after doing it so many times. you were a little jealous because he's better than you now

daisuke his whole life always had a professional chef make something for him and when he began dating you, he also began inviting other professional chefs to make something for you two

but as your relationship grew stronger, you began cooking for him and you made him feel so special and he couldn't react properly

sometimes he watches you cook and helps with the cutting (you stopped him when he cut himself), but most of the time he's at his office and you bring his food to him and he scolrs you because he wants to eat properly with you ay the dining table

bringing food to his office is a no no. eating together at the dining table and sharing stories together is a yes yes

you don't know if the food you make for him is good or bad to be honest because he always has a deadpan face and if it is bad he won't tell because he'll hurt your precious little feelings but he'll be blunt as hell if it was another person

don't even wish that daisuke will cook for you. don't get him wrong tho, he really wants to but he's been pampered a little too much that he can't distinguish onion from garlic. he just thinks garlic is an elderly onion lmao

so yeah, daisuke cannot cook

but he likes cleaning the dishes with you because he can spray you with water and he'll hear your giggles. you always break many plates when you clean dishes and always drenched in water after your little fight

having the same authority with his AI. you rarely use the AI unless absolutely necessary and you can communicate with daisuke through it. you always mess with daisuke and you'll say something to the AI like "dial haru" and AI will go like "contacting haru kato" daisuke will go "cancel dial" and then AI says "cancelling contact" and you'll say "dial haru again" and the cycle goes on

late night walks are common for you two. when he comes home earlier than he originally does, he will insist you to take a walk on his private property and if he's feeling extra generous, he'll let you take him outside and to the park or something

you can take him to the convenience, the gas station, the prison - as long as he's with you, he's fine

stargazing is part of the late night walks. he'll point at a star and you'll say what constallesation that star was part of

"do you want that star"

"no daisuke"

"i can buy it"

"you are not buying a star"

daisuke : (꒪-꒪) ⇨(¬､¬)

he loves kissing you on the lips. your lips and kisses were just so addicting and sweet that he can't find another better place to kiss you

plus your blush is too adorable. he smirks whenever you get flustered. add a soft embrace to the mix, and his heart melts

daisuke will always open the door for you. in cars, in restaurants (he'll pull your chair for you too), in anywhere

he won't let you open a door as long he's there with you cause he's a simp for you

he won't care about any other person trying to enter an establishment after you enter. he'll let go of the door handle and won't even turn if he hears a loud thump behind him

you know what else he loves? hand holding. daisuke always holds your hand whenever you're outside and will only let go if absolutely necessary like going to the comfort room

he likes playing with your fingers while you love tracing the lines on his palm. you'll probably make a cheesy joke that you can see him marrying you in his future and he goes ( ºΔº )

"how do you know i was planning to marry you?" ( ºΔº ) "can you really read palms?"

you always massage each other because stress. when you massage him, he'll let out small mewls that just makes you go omg so cute but when he massages you - he will whip out the best of best stuff for massage

he will play relaxing music for you. you fall asleep whenever daisuke massages you because he's just so good with his hands

you know what else those hands are good for? touching your body in places that'll make you blush but he mostly especially likes cupping your butt because he thinks its so cute

you don't try to do the same because last time you did, you couldn't walk the day after. don't seduce daisuke if you're not prepared for a pounding

you like grocery shopping with daisuke. sure you can always order someone else to do it or you can make use of shopping as a time to bond with each other

you two work out together. daisuke is a boxer and learning that, you begged him to teach you to box but he didn't because what if he hurts you and instead, taught you how to workout and how to defend yourself

he wanted to test out if his self defense lessons were truly learned so he hired someone to pretend to steal something from you

he learned that his self defense lessons was fruitful because the man he hired came back with bruises and such

when daisuke admitted, he slept on the couch for an entire week

in your birthday, you woke up feeling nervous because it's your birthday - meaning daisuke must be up to some expensive shit

then you realized you're not in your bedroom. it was a completely different bedroom

you were scared honestly and you thought you were kidnapped until daisuke comes into your room wearing his beach wear and his shades while holding two coconuts with straws

"happy birthday. welcome to hawaii, my love"

HOW DID HE BRING YOU THERE WITHOUT WAKING YOU UP

you're just very tired the previous night after some fun activities with daisuke if you know what i mean wink wonk you wouldn't wake up no matter how many times you tried

suzue adores you because daisuke smiles more with you and you're best friends uwu so cuteeee

will always be your peace maker whenever you and daisuke fight. she ships you two. her ship cannot sink

suzue: "just hug it out now. hug it out - I SAID HUG DON'T MAKE OUT YOU TWO ARE GOING TOO FAST"

daisuke loves head pats. he wants them all the time. ruffle ruffle his hair. his eyes will close whenever you pat his head

he only wants you to pat his head. anybody else is a no no. maybe suzue but mostly just you

he lets you get all the groceries while he pushes the cart. he doesn't know the brands he sees on the shelves so he depends on you all the time

there's another reason he likes holding hands with you - he doesn't get lost. there was this time when he got lost because you let go of him and someone called you in the intercom and when you went there, you saw daisuke waiting for you with crossed arms and a balloon and its string around his wrist

the person at service said he was frowning the whole time you were gone and so they gave him a balloon but all he did was frown while playing with the balloon. he's mad because he got lost, you were gone, and you let go of his hand

you two are opposite of haru and his girlfriend in grocery shopping

you love it when his hair is down because he's so cute? can a man really be cute and hot at the same time?

the first you saw him with his hair down, you swooned and coddled him and since then, daisuke makes it his point to put his hair down more often now

taking baths together is just as great as massages. shower? you're not some commoner peasant. you use a very large bathtub

you relax with daisuke in the bathtub with bubbles and wine and sometimes he read you a poem from the poetry book he brings at times

you two always go to bathe together. but if you feel like you wanna bathe alone, daisuke will get all pouty aww and sulk aww

he will sit at the toilet seat and stare at you and when he does this, you can't hold yourself back anymore because he's too adorable and just let him join you with a sigh. he's with you in the bathtub in seconds

but if you don't, he'll leave the bathroom after a while and poke his head at the door, staring at you, as if saying this is your last chance and if you still don't allow him, there is a good chance you'll find him sulking on your bed while lying down, back facing you

just cuddle with him, he'll be fine

haru still doesn't believe daisuke got someone like you as his girlfriend because you're so kind and down to earth and you're dating this rich bastard like whaaaat

you try to make haru see the good qualities of daisuke and every single time you do, daisuke does something to piss him off

you made it your personal mission to experience the regular life of a human being without an unlimited balance

daisuke allows you to style his hair whenever you two sit on the couch. any hairstyles, any accessories, he's open so long your soft fingers are on his hair

you have always wanted a dog and begged daisuke for one but he did not relent, saying it was too much work and although it hurts to see you sad, he had to be strong

this is the only thing and time he said no to you and i'm pretty sure you heard haru scream in horror at the distance in disbelief

then one day you and him were walking down a street when a small puppy trotted up to you two wagging its tail and barking happily at you

you bent down and patted it, cooing and daisuke is wary of that small adorable pup. will it bite you? surely the pup has some common sense

you scooped the pup up and it licked your face and you were laughing and daisuke just has a sudden realization - who looked cuter? you or the puppy? or perhaps you made each other cuter?

daisuke rejected the puppy when you tried giving it to him but you forced it into his arms. daisuke and the pup kinda just stared at each other for a long time. you honestly thought you broke both of them until daisuke kissed the forehead of the puppy, hesitantly but softly

you were shooked (you swore you can hear haru screaming again)

daisuke couldn't help himself. something about the puppy just reminded him of you. it's those puppy eyes

"we need to find its owner, daisuke"

"no"

you told him he cannot buy the puppy because the owner must be worried sick

but it turned out it was a stray lil pup and you adopted her

now daisuke comes home to see you sleeping on the couch waiting for him with the pup in your arms. his heart melts every time

his small little family

for now

Daisuke Kambe let out an exhausted sigh as he parked his car in the garage. His hair was tousled, eyelids dropping, and jacket discarded on the passenger seat beside him. The case earlier has proven difficult than the previous ones he had taken. The criminal was harder to catch with his agility and athletic abilities, and was not easily persuaded when beckoned by cash. Not to mention his partner has been rebuking him the whole time, ranting about how justice workes and how money does not solve everything - basically, the usual. He was extremely fatigued, and all he wanted to do was wash up and go to bed with his beloved in his arms.

A tired smile broke his bland visage at the thought of you. The only reason he hasn't decided to spend the night at a hotel was because you weren't there. The faster he moves, the faster he can get to bed with you. Oh, he can't wait to see you and that little puppy of yours and his.

He exited the car, jacket draped over his shoulder. He sluggishly went to the front door and entered. As he delved further into his mansion, he was immediately greeted by a lovely sight. Your slumbering figure was laid out on the couch, the newly adopted puppy curling near your chest and resting with you. Warmth swaddled his heart and his eyes softened. All of a sudden, the exhaustion he felt has vanished, and all he could do was admire this masterpiece before him. You were waiting for him again.

As much as he wanted to see you like this longer, he couldn't let you sleep on the couch. There's a much more comfortable bed waiting for you upstairs. He approached you with quiet footsteps. The puppy perked up, her superb hearing picking up the sound of his advancement. Daisuke knelt down and stroked her head. "Good evening, Chico." Then he turned to you. You looked so peaceful - parted lips, even breathing. He leaned forward and pecked your cheek, smiling a small smile when you shifted. "Good evening, love."

You let out a yawn as you rubbed your eyes, body shuffling. "Daisuke?" You groaned out. "Is that you?"

Daisuke knew you couldn't see him but he nodded anyway. "You don't have to keep waiting for me like this, you know."

To his surprise, you wrapped your arms around him and pulled yourself closer to his body. "But I want to. And I missed you." You yawned through your statement as you nuzzled your head on his neck. "You still smell good after being outside the whole day. How unfair."

Daisuke let out a chuckle. "Come on. Let's get you to bed." He stood up easily even with your form carried in his arms. Chico jumped out of the couch at the same time and followed Daisuke as he carried you upstairs to your shared room, lying you down carefully on the bed. Daisuke made an attempt to withdraw from the withholding grapple of your arms around his neck but his endeavor was less then proliferant as you have established a stronger hold on him, unrelenting.

Daisuke let out a sigh as he tried to adjust from the uncomfortable stance he was positioned in. "I need to change first, Y/N." Badgered Daisuke, hands resting on your back.

Yet his words did no preclude you and you merely shook your head in response. "No," Your eyes shone with defiance, pout manifesting on your lips. "Stay."

"I'll come back in a few, love. I can't sleep in my work clothes." Insisted Daisuke, resolve crumbling the more he looked into your eyes.

"I don't care. Just stay." You grumbled.

Sometimes Daisuke sometimes wondered just how much power you had over him. He couldn't say no to you, apart for that one time when you asked if you two could get a puppy. Looking back at it, he felt guilty that he did not allow you two to have a dog earlier but if it wasn't for his stubborness, you wouldn't have come across Chico.

Speaking of the little puppy, it had successfully jumped on the bed and let out a merry howl. Distracted by the new development of the young dog, you were able to pull Daisuke down on the space beside you and did not think twice before snuggling to his side, arms embracing him tightly as you grinned happily, a happy giggle exiting your lips. You rubbed your head on his shoulders, sighing contentedly. "You're staying here with us."

Daisuke looked down at your beaming face and looked away, redness tinting his cheeks. "If it can't be helped." He stated, but he knew he made his choice the moment you had told him to stay.

Daisuke slowly wrapped his arms around you and pulled you closer, and you willingly accepted his affection. You were so warm, so loving. How did he ever find you?

And then came the cloud of exhaustion. His eyelids gradually drooped over his sockets, his strength withering every second that had gone by until the last thing he saw before sleep overcame him was you and a bounding Chico burying herself in between the two of you.