#something something asexuals when they see ultrakill

[cowsaresushi-coral]

gabriel dogtoy when

i made a censored version, but...it's not horribly graphic so lol sorry you're subjected to this. I just hate kissy kissy, especially when i'm in it. my aro/ace doesn't allow my involvement. he should kiss his bf v1 fr tho. that's the real act 3 ultrakill lore

[sentientgopro]

Hey y'all, not exactly active on here, especially when talking about myself, but I really need to get some shit off my chest right now. I had a couple realisations yesterday that culminated in some shit I never thought I would be saying or thinking.

I never thought I could be anything but straight. I liked women, so I mustve been straight. Im definately an advocate for everyone giving their gender true consideration, even when most will come out the other side cis, and confidently so, as did I.

Then I realised I didn't like women in the way most straight guys do. Afer clearing up some prior misconceptions about Aromanticism and asexuality, I realised those two labels fit me perfectly. But sometimes I wonder why I still feel a certain way about girls. There's just something about the way they look that's appealing to me, even if I dont find girls attractive...

Oh shit. That wasn't attraction. That was envy.

So that train of thought kind of went from 0 to 10 real fucking fast. This realisation brought to my attention feelings that Ive had for a good while, but have passed off as r/196 induced brainrot. Besides, and this is the biggest thing that stopped me realising this earlier, I dont feel that who I am now is wrong. I look in the mirror, and I see myself. But I've only recently kinda grasped the concept that being trans isn't all about dysphoria, having dysphoria is not always the way to tell. Although I dont think being a man is wrong, fucking hell, being a girl would be much better. And it feels so fucking weird actually typing that.

But what I'm saying is, atleast for the time being, I could manage to just not do anything. Which is for the better seeing as my parents would start screaming at me for saying anything remotely in the direction of being an ally. And I live on TERF Island. Transitioning would be an absolute pain in the ass, especially right now, so it kinda feels like why bother when the way I am doesnt really feel wrong. Transitioning could be quite dangerous and have big risks, it kinda just feels like I dont need that shit in my life, Im already running on fumes and a list of people I need to outlive. I usually hold a mindset of "if it ain't broke, don't fix it", but this usually applies to binary things, like if my team wins using the same strat a few times in a row in CS, "Do it again, ain't broke, don't fix", but this is not nearly as binary as that, this isn't a win/loss.

Something that is both comforting and a little concerning is that no matter what, there is atleast a 2 year hold on this. I should be able to go to uni after that and start living my own life, but as of right now, doing something like transitioning is NOT an option. Ive got a 2 year long planning phase and Ive kinda just been taking stock tbh. I don't think "that" period of my life hit too hard, Im still skinny (Yeah, ik skinny =/= feminine but its better than being buff imo) kinda fuckin tall, if my growth follows the same as my brother did which it is so far Im gonna be like 6'3 by the end of that 2 years (6'1 now) so thats probably gonna be more of a mild annoyance than a genuine problem. My voice varies ALOT, I can have a pretty damn low voice, and a bit of a higher pitch, it naturally varies, I normally find I talk in a higher pitch when I'm happier and lower when Im trying to appear more... normal? idk, theres probably somrthing to think about in that.

Honestly idk, theres no real end point to this, I just wanted to talk about this somewhere. As much as I never saw myself being in this position, I use r/196, play ULTRAKILL, and Study Computer Science and want to continue it as a career path, cmon, it was only ever a matter of time, this was inevitable.

[just-astri]

A Quick Beginner's Manual to your very own Astri!

The Basics:

Heleleo The name's Astri! Also known as Cheese or Ian!

I use He/They/It pronouns, I identify as Trans Gay-Asexual

Important to note that I'm also a minor so tread lightly

What to expect and FAQs:

Any Hobbies?

I like to draw and to write! So its safe to say you can expect alot of Art and possibly oneshots if I feel like it

What fandoms are you interested in?

Genshin Impact

Honkai Starrail

Zenless Zone Zero

Ultrakill

Alien Stage

Sk8 the Infinity

Haikyuu!!

Yuri on Ice

Infinity Train

The Owl House

PRSK

Tomorrow x Together

Sonic the Hedgehog

PhigrOS

Young Justice

Cookie Run Kingdom

Dandadan

Do you have commissions?

None yet! But I plan to in the future!

Speaking of content, What kind of art or writing will we expect from you?

Mostly Ship art or OC art! Maybe some comics if I have the time, also shitposts. You'll see alot of brainrot around here so yeah

Reminder: If you don't like the ship, keep scrolling please, but I assure you you'll find none of that weird stuff

Will you take requests?

If we're mutuals then alright!

Any boundaries?

Yes indeed actually!

A.) KEEP NOTE! I DO NOT CONSENT TO REPOSTING OR REUPLOADS WITHOUT MY EXPLICIT VERBAL CONSENT! I DO NOT CONSENT TO REPOSTING OR REUPLOADS OF MY WORK AT ALL!

B.) Do NOT steal, trace, plagiarize, use my artworks for AI, or outright REMOVE my watermarks from my works!

C.) When I have given someone explicit consent to use my works, written or drawn, PLEASE SHOW CREDIT! I WILL APPRECIATE IT!

D.) I allow my artworks to be used as profile pictures with art credit!

E.) I condone plagiarism towards my written and drawn works! I will make it clear!

F.) If you see something, say something! If anyone you see break any of these boundaries, be sure to tag me!

G.) DMs are STRICTLY closed to the public and only open to mutuals and friends! Tag me instead on Fanwork submissions!

H.) Don't be a dick! I will not tolerate any indecent behavior on my posts!

Any socials? Where else can I find you?

Glad you asked!

Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/justastri_?igsh=eXFhemRhOHo4azJ1

Tiktok: https://www.tiktok.com/@justastri__?_t=8XRt8sLLnWM&_r=1

Bluesky: https://bsky.app/profile/justastri.bsky.social

Thanks for stopping by! Hope I'll see you around!