#something short for tongiht

[quinnysnursery]

OH LORD IM BOTH TERRIFIED AND VERY HYPED

(is the fic coming out tongiht do you think? No pressure :)

it is coming out tonight!! it's pretty short compared to my other fics, but i was just in the mood to write angst so i threw something together teehee

[tangleweave]

@brooklynislandgirl (continued from xx)

Beth's exaggerated pronunciation of her personalized term for him might not have reached the ears of anyone else in quite this amount of agony. On the other hand, there's a good chance anybody else at this level of pain would simply have blacked out by now, their bodies electing to punch out for the foreseeable future, notwithstanding any amount of willpower they might summon against it. Spidey has endured almost this level of torment on previous occasion, and he knows it would vex Beth to hear about it. In retrospect, it's perhaps nothing short of a miracle -- and the mutagenic properties of the bite that had made him into what he is now -- that he'd even survived the damage, never mind healed properly from it. Is it any wonder that MJ had decided to break up with him…?

I'd have broken up with me, if I came home looking like this…

Not the time to be thinking about that, though. Not when he's entrusted himself to Beth. Not when she's preparing to do her very best to put his broken pieces back together. Maybe, at the very least, he can do a little better to seize upon her words like the lifeline they should be. She thinks it's reasonable that he thought she'd called him Cuckoo. Maybe he is, for having chosen a fistfight with a man clad in near-indestructible rhinoceros-themed armor. The sound in her voice suggests some level of bemusement, like maybe it's difficult to believe just on his words alone. He's willing to admit it's a 'you had to be there' sort of situation. If he could move, he'd take out his phone and show her footage of himself and Alexei tussling. There's enough of it out there. Maybe it would help him think about something else. A means of distracting himself from the unspeakable pain that makes him want to scream and cry and… if only for a moment… call out for his aunt.

Nobody needs to know about that.

His eyes have been squeezed closed for… well, now he doesn't even know how long. But he does know the eyepieces of his mask will have borne that out to her, the black irises shut over the normally huge white lenses. And he's a little afraid to open them, to see just how dramatically his surroundings will have shifted, because whatever Beth did, wherever she's brought him, will likely just disorient him all the more in these moments. All he can do is trust her, and when she speaks to the next phase of her plan, he forces his arms to relax as much as they can.

"Suit's… got electronics," he pants. "Fabric's tear resistant. But you c-can cut it, if you f-follow… the seams at… w-where red and blue join…" His jaw begins shuddering. He clamps his teeth together. "With a scalpel or… whatever you've got." He can feel his neck muscles straining to keep his teeth from chattering, and he knows it's coming through in his voice. His mouth is feeling thick and tangy with his own blood, and he can only hope it's not spilling against the inside of his mask. "Top's tucked into the belt. Just… just do whatever you need to. I trust you."

He doesn't know prcisely what sort of edge she takes to his tunic, but whatever it is, it treats the tough scale-mesh fabric like softened butter. The air of the evening touches more of his skin than he's comfortable revealing to the public at large, though more due to the array of scars he's amassed at such a young age, and less because of his wiry musculature, which he's actually been a little proud to display at the beach. His skin is normally fair but he imagines that tongiht it must present as nearly ghost-white. He can feel wounds stinging from exposure, and he imagines there must be an entire landscape of black and purple all about his ribcage.

His head is swimming, and he cannot help the faint moan that erupts from his throat. Whatever dulling measure she's enacted, the pain is trying to overcome it in fits. Like an oceanfront where the water is made of agony and he's forced to sit at the edge of the beach, fearing the incoming tide. Is this a complication other patients who've experienced her healing touch encounter? Or is it just him?

Somewhere through the haze, he hears her suggesting there might be something better to call him. He restrains a scoff in favor of coarse breathing. He knows he should relax for her. Whatever she needs to do… she needs him to stay steady. "Dunno what k… ku… Ku'u-Ku'u means… but… if you like it… I'm…"

He can feel himself growing steadily more drowsy with each syllable. And he doesn't know it that's something to panic over or not.

"…fading…"

[gosungji]

zora and elaine at the star awards festival. elaine went with fragil but they split up to check out all the stalls. zora willingly separated from the black bulls squad bc he "doesn't want to be associated with idiots". elaine bumps into him and bc he decided she's not so bad of a company, agrees to stick together to check out the food stalls.

elaine's often approached by people more than zora, bc she outwardly presents herself as kind and approachable (and ig partly bc she's from aqua deer while zora's from black bulls kjsbdkd) while zora hangs over her shoulder like a sneering cat LMAO

the kid in the he's warming up doodle was a kid she used to teach magic to back in the village. when they hear an impromptu performance in the middle of the crowd, she took the kid up in her arms and went to check it out.

she can't really see much of what was happening but the singing was enough for her, seeing how happy the child in her arms was. zora's right beside her, though keeping a bit of distance to not scare the child away.

he's not really paying attention to the show, instead feeling something tug at his heartstrings when he sees elaine swaying along to the music and laughing.

[suspicious-whumping-egg]

Alec and Raina Part 17

CWs for PG-13 intimacy and dubcon

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Alec’s tears stained the front of Knox’s dress, dark blemishes on the beautiful silk.  “I don’t mind,” his rescuer told him. “I’m gonna go out and tell Raina someone got you drunk, though. That you were telling her secrets or talking her guests’ ears off with deranged babbling or something. She just wants this to go well, she won’t suspect a thing. Are you okay with a kiss?” 

He shook his head, shaking from the intensity of his sobs. He wanted to be held, to be loved, but he didn’t want to be kissed— not if he didn’t have to. 

“Okay,” Knox murmured, settling for giving Alec’s shoulder a sympathetic pat instead. “Get some rest, alright? I’ll bring you a drink.” 

With that, he was gone.

Knox strode back into the ballroom, the heels of his sequined stilettos clicking against the polished floor. Raina spotted him in an instant, rushing to his side with a grin. “So, how’re you liking my boy?” She asked conspiratorially. “As much fun as you expected?”

Knox spun a gold ring around his finger, contemplating for a moment. “Even more than I hoped,” he replied. “He’s so sweet and fragile and responsive, whether to affection or pain. I can see why you chose him, and why Hadley wanted a turn— that’s for certain.” 

Raina nodded. “Perfect. I hoped he’d be on his best behavior tongiht, I kept him sober in case anyone wanted to drug him so it was a bit of a shock in the dark. What happened to your dress?”

Knox shrugged. “Y’know how it is, he cried right all over me and was just too cute for me to shove him away,” he said casually. “I’m gonna get a drink, but we need to catch up later— call me tonight after everyone leaves?” He suggested. 

“Works for me,” Raina agreed. “Just remember he’s mine, and I don’t want to dirty him up like just any little slut. He’s too pretty for that shit, so keep it in your pants.” 

— 

Knox returned to Alec with two glasses of champagne in hand, setting one on the nightstand and taking a sip from the other. “She doesn’t suspect a thing,” he reassured Alec. “Don’t worry.”

He stroked a hand down Alec’s back, and Alec whimpered from the hot pain flashing through his back, closing his eyes and trying to decide if he hated the pain or craved it. 

“D’you have anyone at home?” Knox asked, drawing him out of his thoughts. 

“What?” Alec’s eyes widened. “I— I mean— I have a boyfriend…” he protested weakly. Of course he wants something from me… god forbid he just gives me freedom from the kindness of his fucking heart. 

“Are you sure he’d mind?” Knox rebutted. “Or that you’d mind forgetting him for just a bit?” He set his glass down and wrapped an arm around Alec’s shoulders, pulling him the tiniest bit closer. 

Alec accepted the touch on instinct, but hesitantly glanced at the door of the room and then back at Knox. This is how I get out, he told himself.  

In lieu of response, Alec leaned up and pressed a kiss to Knox’s lips, nipping at the edges of his mouth before pulling him close to kiss deeper. This is how I get out— Dorian would understand. 

Knox kissed back hungrily, holding Alec tight— his nails cut deep into his shoulder, just short of reopening one of Alec’s wounds. This is how I get out. He teasingly wrapped a leg around Knox’s hips, reaching up and tugging down the zipper on his dress.

He pressed a hand to Knox’s chest to keep him at a distance for just a moment. “I don’t mind,” he lied, his skin crawling with the touch of the other. A small price for freedom.

And then he leaned up and kissed him again, his head swimming with revulsion. He didn’t want to think about how Dorian would hate him for this if he ever knew what he was doing now. But part of him was just so, so desperate to be close with someone other than Raina. Even if his head spun from panic and his stomach roiled with disgust at the very idea of what he might have to do. 

Knox leaned into his embrace and bit his top lip hard enough to send blood spilling down his face. Alec moaned softly and squeezed his eyes shut, the sting of the pain familiar and wonderful. He reached down for the waistband of Alec’s pants, slipping a finger under the leather and beginning to slide them off. 

Alec’s chest seized with alarm at the hand near his hips, his sound of pleasure turning into one of terror. “Wait—!” He cried out. I can’t I can’t I can’t I can’t— 

“I just— I need a minute— please—” he stammered. 

“Knox, really, I think you’ve tormented the poor boy long enough.”

Raina’s voice cut through the silence. “He’s already proven he’s both a whore and a traitor.” 

Knox untangled himself from Alec with a huff. “You never let me have any fun,” he grumbled, zipping the back of his dress and tugging at the ribbons on Alec’s piercings so he could hear the boy whimper one last time. 

Raina shrugged at Knox and turned to Alec, surveying his terrified expression with a grin. “You thought he wasn’t in on this? Poor, brainless little thing.” She laughed, plucking Alec’s glass from the nightstand and draining its contents. “This was a test of loyalty, dear, and you failed dismally.”

“It’s to be expected, I know you’re still learning. Still naïve and stupid and desperate to get away from the only one who knows what’s good for you. But don’t think that doesn’t mean you can get away from punishment.” 

She began to wrestle him into her arms, but he thrashed hard against her grip and kicked out at her face. “Don’t touch me!” He yelped. “Don’t fucking touch me!” 

Alec was already in trouble, he might as well get the rage out of his system. “Get away from me, fucking cunt— sick little bitches, the both of you, leave me the fuck ALONE!”

He threw a punch at Knox when he tried to pin his wrists down, his fist slamming into his face, pain cracking through his own knuckles. Satisfied by his small victory, Alec hardly noticed when Raina stabbed a syringe into his neck with a sharp prick. 

“What was that?!” He blurted, his heart seizing with sudden panic. “What’d you—“

“Muscle relaxant,” Raina said smoothly. “Fast acting. You won’t be causing any more trouble tonight, love. We’ll deal with the punishment later but for now I have a party to host.”

She hoisted Alec into a rough bridal hold, the touch burning against his lash marks. He tried to struggle once more, yet his body was completely limp, producing nothing but a weak spasm. “Fuck you,” Alec muttered, the words spilling clumsily from his lips. Raina just pressed a kiss to his head, carrying him through the double doors and back to the divan he’d been on at the beginning of the night. 

“Be a good boy for me, darling,” Raina cooed at him as she strode away. “Hadley will be here in a few minutes and I’ll let them be the one to punish you if you try and act up.” 

Knox had shadowed her as she’d taken Alec back to the party, and knelt at his side once Raina was out of earshot. “Convince Raina to invite me over again and I’ll make sure Dorian stays out of harm’s way,” he said softly. “Hadley’s close to having a grip on him, so I suggest you consider my offer.” 

And before Alec could stammer out a response, Knox was already gone in a flash of emerald silk. 

Taglist: @hopepetal @painsandconfusion @warm-my-whumpee-heart @dont-touch-my-soup   @yesthisiswhump @infinite-olives @crimson-wrld @bastard-illusionist

[littlelovelymemes]

(   *   &.   --   5 SECONDS OF SUMMER YOUNGBLOOD LYRIC STARTERS.

YOUNGBLOOD.

‘  remember the words you told me?  ’

‘  love me till the day i die.  ’

‘  you made me believe you’re mine.  ’

‘  you used to call me baby, now you’re calling me by name.  ’

‘  takes one to know one.  ’

‘  you beat me at my own damn game.  ’

‘  you push and you push and i’m pulling away from you.  ’

‘  i give and i give and i give and you take.  ’

‘  say you want me.  ’

‘  say you want me out of your life.  ’

‘  i’m just a dead man walking tonight.  ’

‘  you need it all of the time.  ’

‘  lately our conversations end like it’s the last goodbye.  ’

‘  one of us gets too drunk and calls about a hundred times.  ’

‘  who you been calling, baby?  ’

‘  nobody could take my place.  ’

‘  when you’re looking at those strangers, hope to god you see my face.  ’

WANT YOU BACK.

‘  can’t help but wonder if this is the last time that i’ll see your face.  ’

‘  it it tears or just the fucking rain?  ’

‘  wish i could say something that doesn’t sound insane.  ’

‘  lately i don’t trust my brain.  ’

‘  you tell me i won’t ever change.  ’

‘  no matter where i go, i’m always gonna want you back.  ’

‘  no matter how long you’re gone, i’m always gonna want you back.  ’

‘  i’m always gonna want you back.  ’

‘  i know you know i will never get over you.  ’

‘  i will never get over you.  ’

‘  i remember the freckles on your back and the way that i used to make you laugh.  ’

‘  every morning i wake up, i still reach for you.  ’

‘  i remember the roses on your shirt when you told me this will never work.  ’

‘  even when i say i moved on, i still dream for you.  ’

‘  i still dream for you.  ’

‘  all i think about is where i went wrong.  ’

LIE TO ME.

‘  i saw you looking brand new over night.  ’

‘  i caught you looking too.  ’

‘  you look happy.  ’

‘  changing flights so you stay with me.  ’

‘  i remember thinking that i got this right.  ’

‘  i wish we never met.  ’

‘  you’re too hard to forget.  ’

‘  i wish we never met because you’re too hard to forget.  ’

‘  i’m cleaning up your mess, he’s taking off your dress.  ’

‘  i know that you don’t, but if i ask you if you love me, i hope you lie to me.  ’

‘  i ain’t too happy.  ’

VALENTINE.

‘  i love the light in your eyes and the dark in your heart.  ’

‘  you love our permanent chase and the bite of our bark.  ’

‘  we’re classic together like egyptian gold.  ’

‘  it don’t matter just as long as i get all of you tongiht.  ’

‘  i can take you out.  ’

‘  we can kill some time.  ’

‘  throw balloons, teddy bears, and the chocolate eclairs away.  ’

‘  got nothing but love for you.  ’

‘  we fall more in love every day.  ’

‘  got nothing but love for you, fall more in love every day.  ’

‘  your dna’s being messed with my touch.  ’

‘  so real, fueling the fire until we combust.  ’

‘  have your cake and eat it too.  ’

TALK FAST.

‘  i don’t wanna think about a moment with you, i’m caught up on the forever.  ’

‘  i’m caught up on the forever.  ’

‘  i’ve been dreaming about a sweater for you.  ’

‘  goddammit, we look good together.  ’

‘  would you wait a moment?  ’

‘  just give me a second. that’s all.  ’

‘  it won’t last. i’m okay with that.  ’

‘  i’ll take what i can get from you.  ’

‘  leave all you indecisions with you at home.  ’

‘  don’t say you’re doing me a favor.  ’

‘  why so complicated?  ’

‘  won’t you throw me a bone?  ’

‘  i want your love in every flavor.  ’

MOVING ALONG.

‘  i’ve been thinking about you lots lately.  ’

‘  have you been eating breakfast alone like me?  ’

‘  is it bad that i’m hoping that you’re broken?  ’

‘  is it bad that i’m wishing you’re so broken?  ’

‘  is it bad? so bad.  ’

‘  is it weird that i’m drunken on my sofa?  ’

‘  is it weird that i’m naked on my sofa?  ’

‘  all alone, damn, i wish i didn’t know you.  ’

‘  damn, i wish i didn’t know you.  ’

‘  i know i’m the stupid one that ended it.  ’

‘  i’m the stupid one regretting it.  ’

‘  i know i’m the stupid one that ended it and now i’m the stupid one regretting it.  ’

‘  it took me a couple drinks to admit it.  ’

‘  i know i’m the stupid one.  ’

‘  are you moving along?  ’

‘  have you been feeling empty beds just like me?  ’

‘  is it wrong if i ask you to come over?  ’

‘  is it wrong if i tell you that i love you?  ’

‘  is it wrong if i tell you that i love you even though i’d never do it when i’m sober?  ’

‘  is it wrong?  ’

‘  i’m scared of moving on, but you’re already gone.  ’

‘  if you’re moving on, won’t you just tell me?  ’

‘  i’m moving along.  ’

IF WALLS COULD TALK.

‘  some things are meant to be secret and not to be heard.  ’

‘  if i tell you, just keep it and don’t say a word.  ’

‘  not everything is so primitive.  ’

‘  if these walls could talk, i’d hope they wouldn’t say anything because they’ve seen too manythings.  ’

‘  we’d fall from grace if these walls could talk.  ’

‘  i wouldn’t dare let you down.  ’

‘  don’t let that glass go to waste.  ’

‘  you’re a queen, but uncrowned.  ’

BETTER MAN.

‘  find me at a quarter to three, cigarette in hand.  ’

‘  demons i try to defend, but i couldn’t get enough.  ’

‘  i’d never change then you come around and change it all.  ’

‘  with your love, i’m a better man.  ’

‘  all of my wrongs, they lead me right to you.  ’

‘  wrapped in your arms, i swear i’d die for you.  ’

‘  i swear i’d die for your love.  ’

‘  thought i’d found the highest of highs, you came and topped them all.  ’

‘  you shine in the dead of the night.  ’

‘  i was the first to fall.  ’

‘  you’re the only one.  ’

‘  you’re the only one who could lock this wild heart up in chains.  ’

‘  you’re the only one that can make this bad man better.  ’

MORE.

‘  if me and you are living in the same place, why do we feel alone?  ’

‘  why do we fall alone?  ’

‘  our house is full of everything we wanted, but it’s an empty home.  ’

‘  why can’t we choose our emotion? we could feel something’s broken.  ’

‘  i can’t stay without hoping we’ll never be alone.  ’

‘  we’ll never be alone.  ’

‘  all the things that we dream about, they don’t mean what they did before.  ’

‘  i just want to get back to us ‘cause we used to have more.  ’

‘  why does it feel like we’re missing out?  ’

‘  lately we’ve been living in different nations.  ’

‘  as we fall, time is frozen.  ’

‘  i know we break, but we’re not broken.  ’

WHY WON’T YOU LOVE ME.

‘  we’re not alright, but i’ll pretend.  ’

‘  just be good till i get back.  ’

‘  i hold back the tears.  ’

‘  i check my phone to see your face.  ’

‘  don’t worry, you won’t be lonely.  ’

‘  why won’t you love me?  ’

‘  you imagine when you close your eyes, you’re with me on the other side.  ’

‘  i’m a few drinks deep at a table for one.  ’

‘  you’re late to get to work.  ’

‘  you say you can’t wait and need to make a change.  ’

‘  you told me it’s so hard to be lonely.  ’

‘  we’re together, all alone tonight.  ’

‘  can you tell me why, my love?  ’

‘  can you tell me why i hold onto you and you hold onto me?  ’

‘  so why won’t you love me?  ’

WOKE UP IN JAPAN.

‘  i woke up feeling low, feeling alone.  ’

‘  you’re the best i ever had.  ’

‘  it was more than half empty.  ’

‘  the end is just a dream.  ’

‘  it’s enough to let the night let go of me.  ’

EMPTY WALLETS.

‘  stop digging in your heart ‘cause tonight is on me.  ’

‘  tonight is on me.  ’

‘  stop trying so hard is what you said to me.  ’

‘  stop trying so hard.  ’

‘  i get too high when i’m high so we see eye-to-eye.  ’

‘  living our lives dancing on empty wallets.  ’

‘  we got a whole night.  ’

‘  won’t you live it with me?  ’

‘  we got our lives, but living ain’t cheap.  ’

‘  living ain’t cheap.  ’

‘  i always believed in second chances.  ’

‘  i always believed in you.  ’

GHOST OF YOU.

‘  i still can’t sleep on your side.  ’

‘  there’s your coffee cup, the lipstick stain fades with time.  ’

‘  your lipstick stain fades with time.  ’

‘  if i can dream long enough, you’d tell me i’d be just fine.  ’

‘  i’ll be just fine.  ’

‘  i’ll drown it out like i always do.  ’

‘  i’m dancing through our house with the ghost of you.  ’

‘  i chase it down with a shot of truth.  ’

‘  i found that old shirt you wore when you ran away.  ’

‘  no one could feel your hurt.  ’

‘  we’re too young, too dumb, to know things like love.  ’

‘  i know better now.  ’

‘  my feet don’t dance like they did with you.  ’

MONSTER AMONG MEN.

‘  demons hide behind my back.  ’

‘  demons hide behind my back and i can see them leading me to do their dirty work.  ’

‘  the stupid truth is i’m so bad for you.  ’

‘  i can’t take it.  ’

‘  i won’t break your heart again.  ’

‘  i don’t wanna be a monster among men.  ’

‘  i can’t take it. i won’t break your heart again.  ’

‘  fragile, we’re always about to fall just like sandcastles.  ’

‘  it’s time for me to admit that i’m an asshole.  ’

MEET YOU THERE.

‘  every moment spent, i wish i was with you.  ’

‘  i wish i was with you.  ’

‘  every night i slept, i dreamt i was with you.  ’

‘  no matter where you go, you know i’d wait for you.  ’

‘  you know i’d wait for you.  ’

‘  so you go your way and i’ll go mine.  ’

‘  if we’re meant to, i’ll meet you there.  ’

‘  i’ll meet you there.  ’

‘  we can’t speed up the hands of time.  ’

‘  when it’s physical, i can’t keep track of days.  ’

‘  the emotional is more than we can take.  ’

‘  i’m just waiting for you.  ’

‘  i’d keep waiting for you if you wanted me to.  ’

‘  this time and next time, you know i’ll meet you there.  ’

‘  tell me what’s on my mind.  ’

BABYLON.

‘  i thought we had a place, just our place, our home place.  ’

‘  it was you and i always.  ’

‘  we’ve been erased.  ’

‘  if we’re way too faded to drive, you can stay one more night.  ’

‘  you can stay one more night.  ’

‘  we said we’d both love higher than we knew we could go.  ’

‘  the hardest part is knowing when to let go.  ’

‘  we burned too bright, now the fire’s gone.  ’

‘  i’m tired of the feud, your short fuse, my half truths.  ’

‘  i wish we had a clue to start new.  ’

‘  the color of our mood is so rude.  ’

BONUS:  WHEN YOU WALK AWAY.

‘  cut me open, take my heart.  ’

‘  take my heart so we’ll never be apart.  ’

‘  don’t you let it go to waste.  ’

‘  such a sentimental love in a cynical world.  ’

‘  my feelings get the best of me.  ’

‘  i messed it up before so i’m almost pretty sure my karma got the best of me.  ’

‘  i’m bad at letting go.  ’

‘  won’t you let me down easy?  ’

‘  i can’t let you go.  ’

‘  i can feel it in my bones, you don’t love me anymore.  ’

‘  make it worth all the pain when you walk away.  ’

‘  i’ve been dreaming like a fool.  ’

‘  my karma got the worst of me.  ’

‘  i’m so bad at letting go. how do you make it look so easy?  ’

BONUS:  BEST FRIEND.

‘  every time that i’m mad at you, i would still bury that body for you.  ’

‘  swear to god i wouldn’t tell another.  ’

‘  i’m not scared at all to get close to you.  ’

‘  most people i hate.  ’

‘  you’re my best friend.  ’

‘  you’re my best friend. i didn’t stutter. till the day end through heaven and high water.  ’

‘  it was the best night, i’m not lying.  ’

[beautifullydisconnected]

Happiness (Tom Holland x Reader)

First attempt at a fic in a while. If you like it let me know, there maybe a part two if there is enough interest. If not then I hope you enjoy this story.

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When you ask people what they want in life, most will answer ‘to be happy’. But how do you know when you’ve reached the level of happiness desired? Is it not a waste to strive after the very thing that can be given and taken away so easily? Being happy is a good goal, but isn’t there more to life? All my life I believed, that was the only thing I ever wanted, was to be happy, but then of course as the most cliche story goes, I met a boy and my world turned upside down. A whirlwind romance, a devestating heartbreak, and learning that there is more to life than the feeling of happiness. 

It began one winter night, when I decided that I no longer wanted to stay cooped up inside, so I decided I was going to bundle up and walk to the closest coffee shop to read, and drink some tea. The coffee shop was fairly empty when I arrived, the snow deterring people from venturing out after dinner, which left me to have the couch near the little gas fire place. I put my stuff down and went to the counter to order, the barista, already knowing my order, and it already for me. I smiled paid my bill and went to curl up and enjoy the quiet evening. Before long, the barista was tapping my shoulder to let me know they were closing. I gathered my things, and began to prepare myself for the cold walk home. Walking home, I enjoyed the cold air on my face, and watching the snowflakes dance down in the streetlights. The sound of the few cars driving past, a reminder that I wasn’t completely alone. Winter wasn’t my favorite season, but I had to admit nights like tongiht where pretty amazing. As I reached my place, I noticed someone sitting on the entrance to my apartment. I was a little takenaback at first, because who would sit outside in the snow, only to realize I had literally just walked in the snow for the past twenty minutes to get home. As I got closer, the figure lifted its head. Face tear stained, and broken looking, sat a young man. Brown curls plastered to his forhead where his beanie sat, eyes brown and bloodshot. I wasn’t usually the type to stop, and talk to random people on the door step, but there was something in me that told me I needed to. “Uhm, hi,” I murrmered, “Are you okay?” stupid question I knew the moment I asked it. “Oh, uhm hi…,” he stuttered out, trying to whipe the tears that were still on his face, “Uhm yeah..well no, not exactly” “Is there anything I can help you with?” I asked, not sure what I could possibly do, but hey it was worth a shot. A moment of silence passed, and I was about to just keep walking up the steps till I heard a sigh. “Would you mind just sitting here with me for a moment? I know that sounds really weird, but I could use a little company,” he mumbled. “Uh ya…sure,” what the hell was I doing? “I’m Tom, by the way,” he looked at me between his lashes. “(Y/N), or (Y/N/N), for short,” not that it really mattered. “Nice to meet you,” Tom said. Silence filling the air again, as we both sat on the steps, watching the snow fall. Another few moments passed, and before I knew it the question was already out. “Is there any particular reason, that you’re sitting out here?” Oh my gosh that was way more rude than it should have been, “I mean not that it’s any of my business, I’m just curious.” Geez, that was smooth. “Uhm..” he cleared his throat, “I was on my way home when I got a phone call that one of my childhood friends has passed away, and I uhm..just needed a moment before getting home to clear my head, and what not.” He rubbed the back of his neck. “Oh, I’m so sorry,” I really should try to be more gentle with how I ask things, “This may be weird but would you like to come in and maybe warm up and have some tea?” “Uhm sure,” He said, and that would mark the night that my world would begin to change, and I still didn’t even know it yet.

[autumnaltales]

Tongihts short story will be for

*drum roll*

Veywen Tasrys!

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[chelsorz07]

i was gonna stop buuut

I’m still not emotionally equipped to deal with the Supernatural finale so I’m gonna continue to distract myself with Riverdale, Cole Sprouse interviews on Youtube, and these stupid ass surveys.

2010/2018

Are you ready for this? probably not but i'm a procrastinator. I’m never ready for anything. What do you think about Love? it's hard. I try not to think about it because I’m already so depressed I can’t move from my spot in this chair and if I take even just a moment to ponder why I’m so miserable I’ll probably just melt right into it. Who has your heart? david. I don’t think it exists. Are you wearing a necklace, who got it for you, wheres it from? i don't normally wear necklaces. I don’t wear jewelry except for my rings. Are you tall for your age, or short? taller than average but not tall. Yeah that. What are you about to do? bathe. Keep listening to Cole’s beautiful voice. Tell me about the person you like? i wouldn't know where to begin. I’d rather not. Do you like the smell of coconuts? no. Not really. I like woodsy scents more than fruity. And I hate florals. Expecting something to change in the next month? stuff changes all the time. I’m hoping we find a house. Tell me the truth,ever kissed your boyfriends/girlfriends best friend? no, unlike all his other girlfriends. I don’t even think he has one anymore. What are you looking forward to? my birthday. Moving home. Did you get anything off your chest today? i did a few days ago. I’ve avoided talking to anyone for the most part. How many rings do you usually wear? none. Three. Do you have a bestfriend of the opposite sex? a couple. I do. Can you sleep without blankets covering you? no. I cannot. What did you wear to bed last night? basketball shorts and a tshirt. Pajama pants and a t-shirt. What do you do in you spare time? pretty much this. Watch tv and feel sorry for myself. What were you doing at 10:00 this morning? hanging with maranda. Watching tv and feeling sorry for myself. What time do you think you're going to bed tonight? like 8pm. i'm exhausted. and i'd go to bed now if i didn't have to bowl tongiht. Well it’s already 3am and I’m nowhere near tired so. Which is funny because I have to be up at 9:00. How do you feel about the person who texted you last? i love him. He’s my best friend. Anything irritating you right now? pretty much always. Not really. I’m just being a Debbie Downer. Did the person that hurt you most apologize? yeah actually. idk how sincere it was though. or if he's just really bad at communicating. He did but I still don’t think he meant it, and I haven’t trusted him since. Yaknow, even though we’re married. Do you want to get married? maybe someday. i don't want kids though. at least not my own. I am. Would you ever get your lip pierced? yeah. Still thinking about it. Where would you like to live in the future? nashville. anywhere down south works but that's my first choice. georgia's a close second. I just want to go home. But if I didn’t miss Bradford so much I’d still choose Nashville. It’s fucking amazing. Would you be able to date someone who doesn't make you laugh? no. Never. What college do you plan on going to? uh...none. i want to get my cosmetology license buuuut i don't have the money for school. Oh my god WHY did I ever consider cosmetology? I wanted to go to Penn Tech for construction but obviously that’s never happening. Do you have good vision? it's not terrible. It’s much worse than the last time I took this. My old glasses are just prescription readers but I definitely need new ones. Did you speak to your father today? yep. No it’s been a couple days. What do you usually do right when you wake up? go back to sleep. Pee and smoke. Are you too shy to kiss the person you like? sometimes. he doesn't really give out the vibe that he wants to be kissed. kinda sad after being together for a year if you ask me, but oh well. No. Can a girl love sex and not be a whore? i love sex and i'm not a whore. i've only been with one person. so yeah. I mean yeah.  Hate the last person you kissed? sometimes. i love him more than anything though. Same answer. Are you someone who hates to read? used to love it. now it bores the shit out of me. I don’t read books anymore. Just fanfiction.   If you could change your eye color what would you change it to? i wouldn't. Never would. Do you think age matters in relationships? to an extent. Not between two consenting adults. Name of your first cat? steven. Steven was my first cat but he was a family pet. Marshall is the first cat I got living on my own so he’s all mine. And he fucking knows it. That’s my baby. Would you rather be at the beach or lake? lake. Lake for sure. I’ve never been to the beach and have no interest in it. What would you do if you found out the person you liked had a girlfriend/ boyfriend? i AM his girlfriend. I’m his wife sooo...I’d probably be pissed but not surprised. Do you feel like you have life figured out? nobody does. I wouldn’t even want to try. Ever dropped a cell phone? i throw it more than i drop it. Now I drop it more than I throw it. Who last hugged you? randa. Dave. Ever had a pet fish? no. Nope. Do you want your tongue pierced? no. Negative. Gross. Anything happen to you within the past month that made you really happy? kind of. Not happy but slightly hopeful. There’s a house back home that I’ve loved for like ten years and it just went on the market so we’re going to look at it in about a week and a half. Last time you spoke to the person you have feelings for? in person, 2 nights ago. he just texted me a few minutes ago though. Texted him earlier. Haven’t seen him in person in over a week. Have you ever kissed 2 people at once? no. Nope. Was your last kiss drunk? no but it was severely hung over lol I don’t get drunk anymore. What are you listening to at the moment? nothing. i should be showering. Riverdale theories on Youtube. Your best friend has sex with your ex, what happens? haha...she's not retarded. she wouldn't do that. My best friend IS my ex. Do you think you will be married by the time you are 25? probably not. I got married a month before I turned 26. Whats the first thing you did when you opened your eyes today? shut off my alarm and went back to sleep. Took a piss like I do every day. Do you believe exes can be friends? sometimes. it just so happens that my exes are all crazy so we don't speak. You betcha. Have you ever kissed someone whose name started with a q? no. I don’t even know anyone whose name starts with a q. Where is the last person you kissed at right now? i would imagine he's on his way to work. Working. In Texas. Yes, at this hour. He’s on nights so like 4pm to 6am. Last person you held hands with in the past 24 hour? randa while she was walking. I haven’t even seen a human being in the past 24 hours. Would you go on a road trip with your friends? i've been dying to. I think I was just in love with the idea. Because now the thought of a road trip terrifies me. I hate traffic. Would you shave your entire body (including your head)? no. I don’t shave. Except my vagina when I have the opportunity to get laid. Which is rare because I only see my husband one week out of the month. And even then he doesn’t bother with me. Did you sleep alone last night? unfortunately. I sleep alone almost every night. Have you ever kissed just a friend? yeah. Sure. Did you have any unread text messages when you woke up today? no. Well “today” I woke up at 2:30 in the morning yesterday. But yeah I did. Do you think people talk about you behind your back? i know they do. i don't give a shit cuz i probably talk about them too. Don’t care. Is it possible to be single and happy? yes. I wouldn’t know. I’ve never been happy, single or in a relationship. Everyone deserves a second chance, right? not remotely true. Nope. Did you stand on your tippy-toes when you had your last kiss? i don't think i had the strength to. No. Who was the last person to call you? wes. My doctor’s office. Think back to this time last year, were you happy? i was getting there. No. Do you smoke weed everyday? nope. I haven’t smoked weed in years. Have you broken the law in the past 5 days? probably. Don’t think so. Do you have siblings over the age of 21? yep. My sister is pushing 40. lol Have you kissed someone with braces? no. I have not. Did your last kiss take place on a bed? no - my entry way/mudroom thing. Living room. What was bad about today? ha. Nothing really. This is just my permanent state of being. What's been your biggest shock this year? nothing shocks me anymore. I can’t think of anything. Currently wanting any piercings or tattoos? several. Oh hell yes. Can you call the last person you kissed without it being awkward? not really cuz we both hate talking on the phone. i mean it's not awkward just out of character. No. Phone conversations are always awkward, no matter who they’re with. Who was the last person you had sleepover with? i mean i stay at dave's on the weekends but it's not really sleepovers...it's just staying there. I’m almost 30. I don’t have sleepovers. Do you like family get-togethers? well i don't like my family. so no. Complete opposite of my previous answer. I miss my family so much and only get to see them a few times a year.   Do you hate the last person who called you? nope. I don’t have an opinion one way or the other. If you are being extremely quiet, what does that mean? could mean anything. I don’t feel like talking. Did anyone watch you the last time you kissed someone? no. The cats. Do you like to spend time with people? occasionally. Very rarely. Do you want a relationship right now? i'm in one and yes i want it. Obviously. Where did you last fall asleep other than a bed? couch. I mostly sleep on the couch. Have you ever been called heartless? usually. Not in a while.

[beautifullydisconnected]

Happiness (Tom Holland Fic)

I got bored, decided to write a fic, because I haven’t written anything in forever...anyways heres a fic about love, and heartbreak and all that comes with it. 

If you want a part two send a message my way if not thats cool to! I hope you enjoy!

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When you ask people what they want in life, most will answer ‘to be happy’. But how do you know when you’ve reached the level of happiness desired? Is it not a waste to strive after the very thing that can be given and taken away so easily? Being happy is a good goal, but isn’t there more to life? All my life I believed, that was the only thing I ever wanted, was to be happy, but then of course as the most cliche story goes,I met a boy and my world turned upside down. A whirlwind romance, a devestating heartbreak, and learning that there is more to life than the feeling of happiness. 

It began one winter night, when I decided that I no longer wanted to stay cooped up inside, so I decided I was going to bundle up and walk to the closest coffee shop to read, and drink some tea. The coffee shop was fairly empty when I arrived, the snow deterring people from venturing out after dinner, which left me to have the couch near the little gas fire place. I put my stuff down and went to the counter to order, the barista, already knowing my order, and it already for me. I smiled paid my bill and went to curl up and enjoy the quiet evening. Before long, the barista was tapping my shoulder to let me know they were closing. I gathered my things, and began to prepare myself for the cold walk home. 

Walking home, I enjoyed the cold air on my face, and watching the snowflakes dance down in the streetlights. The sound of the few cars driving past, a reminder that I wasn’t completely alone. Winter wasn’t my favorite season, but I had to admit nights like tongiht where pretty amazing. As I reached my place, I noticed someone sitting on the entrance to my apartment. I was a little takenaback at first, because who would sit outside in the snow, only to realize I had literally just walked in the snow for the past twenty minutes to get home. As I got closer, the figure lifted its head. Face tear stained, and broken looking, sat a young man. Brown curls plastered to his forhead where his beanie sat, eyes brown and bloodshot. I wasn’t usually the type to stop, and talk to random people on the door step, but there was something in me that told me I needed to. 

“Uhm, hi,” I murrmered, “Are you okay?” stupid question I knew the moment I asked it. 

“Oh, uhm hi...,” he stuttered out, trying to whipe the tears that were still on his face, “Uhm yeah..well no, not exactly”

“Is there anything I can help you with?” I asked, not sure what I could possibly do, but hey it was worth a shot. A moment of silence passed, and I was about to just keep walking up the steps till I heard a sigh.

“Would you mind just sitting here with me for a moment? I know that sounds really weird, but I could use a little company,” he mumbled.

“Uh ya...sure,” what the hell was I doing?

“I’m Tom, by the way,” he looked at me between his lashes.

“Shauna, or shaune, for short,” not that it really mattered.

“Nice to meet you,” Tom said. Silence filling the air again, as we both sat on the steps, watching the snow fall. Another few moments passed, and before I knew it the question was already out.

“Is there any particular reason, that you’re sitting out here?” Oh my gosh that was way more rude than it should have been, “I mean not that it’s any of my business, I’m just curious.” Geez, that was smooth.

“Uhm..” he cleared his throat, “I was on my way home when I got a phone call that one of my childhood friends has passed away, and I uhm..just needed a moment before getting home to clear my head, and what not.” He rubbed the back of his neck. 

“Oh, I’m so sorry,” I really should try to be more gentle with how I ask things, “This may be weird but would you like to come in and maybe warm up and have some tea?” 

“Uhm sure,” He said, and that would mark the night that my world would begin to change, and I still didn’t even know it yet.