#something about a ship of theseus...

[echosong971]

what if a puppet could hear its own Ergo?

[fairsweetlonging]

imagine if after the transmigration shen qingqiu became a combination of shen yuan and shen jiu, not in a "second person living in my head" kind of way, but a "this house is haunted and carries the echoes of the dead" kind of way; imagine shen yuan having nightmares about a house, a fire, a faceless boy behind a door he can't remember; imagine him having flashes of emotions he doesn't understand, rage at a name he doesn't recognize, helplessness when yue qingyuan apologizes for something he won't mention, nausea when ning yingying says the name "a-luo"; imagine parts of his own self have changed too, how he now likes bows in his hair, pretty flowers and flowing robes, but can no longer stand a stranger's touch, a man's touch, yet he longs for the brothels, but never sexually, only fondly, like there's something there he misses. there are many empty spaces in his heart where he feels something is missing

[triptychofvoids]

Hmm, may I ask what your opinion of body horror is? How do you feel when the body is twisted into a distorted version of itself? When it acts in ways it shouldn't? When it can no longer be considered human? (Excuse my flowery language i think i got carried away a bit)

its my favorite thing in the whole world maybe

[suppuration]

ough i despise that tug of war that happens when i try to convince myself not to "indulge" in fannish work and use my original ideas to create something non-fannish. because obviously transformative work isn't generative in its own right. because obviously no work is ever inspired or influenced by other works. so routinely it results in creating nothing instead, macerated between guilt, shame, and restlessness signifying nothing

[swordsonnet]

i've finally started writing down the story i've been rotating in my mind for half my life!!!

[francisnyx]

What am I suppose to call Merlin. He's hard to describe. What is he, I created him and I don't even know (irony with his lore lmao). He was a person raised to fulfill a role from birth (which I might add that he's suppose to be more of a vessel, like a medium to channel other on to like the previous ones before him but fellas is it clone or simply homuculus if you're create from an essence of the progenitor but is still an individual with some differences or is that more like descendants but also they kinda are all the same person but not. It's Complicated), doesn't know much common sense and is inhuman but grew a heart after the journey but Then Things happen and now he has no body. Became a incorporeal entity. Met the progenitor and awaken the memoeies and discover the reason of his existence and all previous versions and the machinations of things. And he later fused with the awakened will of a star (which is much older than he is but is also not with the complication of maturity of a star conciousness, also the will was an AI built by humanity that has descends to became one with the core and born anew)

Is he the progenitor? Is he the guide they hope for? Is he the guardian of a star? Is he human? WHAT IS HE

Ah i forgot to mention the thousands soul of people he knew and cherished he carries around in his chest. Humanity conciousness is a part of him by the way. With the whole sea of human souls thing in Avalon (the star above, should be called moon really)'s garden

[bonebabbles]

CACKLES IN GLEE AT BONE OPENING THE ASKBOX

you don't have to post this I just wanna say like I love your live readings of books, it's like bread and butter at an outback steakhouse. It's going outside, cracking open a soda and watching your neighbor try to cultivate a garden out of what has been left (which is invasive wisteria and probably kudzu) and watch them shake a rake at the sky and curse the old owners of the elaborate and dilapidated mansion of what they have left you to deal with. It's probably a haunted house, too.

I Suffer for my silly cat fanfictions and no one can tell me I don't

[empty-blog-for-lurking]

Me coming up covered in blood: I have another au idea

[lambentplume]

(guy who just learned about design friction and can't stop thinking about it) i've never played a p3 before reload so it's interesting to see the disk horse around remakes. not done with the game yet so haven't formulated thoughts but it kinda makes me wish i had owned any of the platforms for other versions to compare

[lys-jeorge]

I have a question, I don't expect anyone to have an answer but idk maybe:

Why do people talk about G2 like. "Ofc they're going to be good it's G2", when they're not the G2 people mean when they say that? Like yes literally they are G2, but the thing which is meant by "G2" in that context... no, they aren't "G2", why should current G2 get credit for "G2"'s actions.

[magpigment]

i find it rlly funny when i make a character and i’m just like. tumblr would love them. tumblr would be all over this character. why isn’t tumblr obsessed w them already. and then remember they exist only in my mind :(

[waterbearable]

like i am going to try and be less apologetic when i ramble about personal project on here bc while it’s absolutely not the same as it originally was it has been an idea that has been a little worm in my head for probably ten fucking years. and life has gone on around me and i have changed as a person and gotten involved in some many other things yadda yadda but it has stayed! perhaps it’s something that should have been over and created ages ago but despite that it is still there, which feels like it means something.

[ruffboijuliaburnsides]

Me with the concept of identity, apparently, how dare you make me think about this??? XD

man IDK what it is about it but looking back on the last few years that's a strong theme in literally EVERYTHING I've been doing.

you ever accidentally create a recurring theme in your writing. you start putting together an outline for something you’ve never written before and get partway through planning, rearrange the pieces, and go “GODDAMMIT THIS IS ABOUT GRIEF AGAIN”? because let me tell you,

[meimeikyu]

i think if i didnt have all my festivalverse stuff tagged as utmv n like talk about them being a mv u just. wouldnt be able to tell. maybe see the influence if ur into utmv but if i just pretended they were completely seperate guys i dont think the average person would notice

[28dayslater]

I think part of what people who don’t like sports don’t get about it is the permanence of it, I can say this bc it used to be me lol. You’re a fan of a tv show, it’s a huge part of your life, you’ve met all your friends in that fandom- five years later it ends, your interest wanes bc there’ll never be another episode and you're running out of things to talk about it. You’re a massive fan of a band, ten years later they split up, you still listen to them but they’ll never make new music again, there's no concerts to go to. The youngest player on my team is 17. He’s got probably 15 or so years before he retires and no one who’s on the team right now is still playing football. Players all gone, manager’s gone, full ship of Theseus. The club will still be there. Stadium's still in the same place on the high road, they're still playing every week, local lads are still coming through the academy, the same fans who have been going to games since they were little kids are still there. And in fifty years time it'll still be there. It's not the same as loving something that ends

[flower-zombiee]

Something I think about so much is just how different the Stanley Pines we see in ATOTS is from the Grunkle Stan we know in the rest of the show.

Like, have you ever noticed just how much more expressive Stan is in 1983? The guy wears his heart on his sleeve so much more than he does later on. At almost every moment you can tell exactly what he's thinking and feeling just from his face, something that will become a lot rarer for him. Even setting aside the portal incident scene itself, have y'all ever watched the Dusk 2 Dawn scene and just watched Stan's face? He looks so… openly sad.

It's not just his expressions. Here's a detail that only just occurred to me: you guys ever think it's weird that Stan doesn't just try to steal the bread from Dusk 2 Dawn? Like, you'd think his stealing habit would've originated from his years on the street stealing to survive, but no— he tries to pay for the bread, and then when he doesn't have any money, he figures out how to get some. It's surprisingly honest.

And just like… I don't know, his whole vibe is so different. He's come from this life of hardship completely willing to talk things through. He's emotional, he's open, and not exactly what you'd expect to see when you imagine what a younger Grunkle Stan might have been like. In fact, his vibe is so different that, in Journal 3, Ford writes that when he first saw Stan, he assumed he was just in another alternate dimension rather than the one he came from.

Anyway, it just makes me think about the transition of how, exactly, he went from one to the other. How we go from the "stubborn, frostbitten vagabond" to the "carnival barker" he is by the show's present. I think about that in-between Stan a lot. Realizing that the hole in his heart, the one he thought was caused by his circumstance for so long, hadn't disappeared even now that he had money and a steady place to live. Growing more bitter and grumpy by the day, learning that maybe it's just better if he shuts himself off from the world so nobody has a chance to hurt him. Seeing himself aging and finding himself no closer to saving Ford. Ship of Theseus-ing himself into the carefully curated asshole that maybe even he thinks he is.