#someone please kill milei already

[streets-in-paradise]

My mom, talking politics even when i told her not to: THERE IS NO FUTURE!! THE COUNTRY WILL BE DESTROYED, NOTHING WILL BE LEFT!! ONLY THOSE WHO CAN LEAVE WILL SURVIVE!! AND WE CAN'T LEAVE, SO THERE IS NOTHING LEFT FOR PEOPLE LIKE US BUT ENDLESS SUFFERING AND DESPAIR!!

Also my mom: Why do you want to kill yourself, you stupid coward?

[trans-clown-catgirl]

well isn't that just great. the fucking fascist candidate won the elections. for the few of my followers that aren't aware, i'm from Argentina. we just had our final 2024 presidential elections. one of the candidates is a trump-wannabe alt right cunt that wants to abolish a sizeable amount of human rights, destroy the ministry of women gender and diversity, among many, many other policies. i'm a trans girl who hasn't transitioned yet. i wish i could, but i have no insurance and i missed my chance while i had it. i could have gotten it back once i started college but well clearly things are gonna be much harder on that end soon. everything will. we have an incompetent fascist who has never read the constitution, knows literally nothing about politics, and only became a politician to bolster hatespeech groups and put their desires into action. Javier Milei is going to run this country into the ground and i fear for my safety. i fear for my future, for everyone here i care for. things were already bad- now we have someone whose sole goal is to make things worse. please kill me.

[princesseevee06]

are there any changes to the floormasters in ytr? <- autistic abt the floormasters

im assuming rio ranger doesnt exist here, because. sei. but im curioieus

i am so glad you asked!!! i’ve been waiting for an excuse to talk about the floormasters, they’re just not as fleshed out as i want them to be yet…(this is partially because i keep agonizing over what i want their designs to look like. it’s hard to find a balance between “silly yet stylish” and “just walked out of the evil clown circus”)

originally, i was planning to keep them the same but i quickly realized that would not work because sei and sou are both participants and therefore ranger and “midori” never Exist. so yes, they (most of them) are swapped too!

i will say that i kept gashu and meister in the same roles though. gashu because i think it would be vv interesting to see kai interact with his father in the death game (since he never gets the chance to in canon), and meister because 1. he almost certainly has ties to sara and 2. atp in the game he hasn’t played a big enough role to the point that i really even know what to do with him? so i was hesitant to swap him at all.

but but but!!! i’ll get into who takes the roles of the other 4 floormasters below (i hope this is what you were asking for???)!!! bear with me if it’s a little barebones compared to the main cast descriptions i’m still figuring things out

Megumi Sasahara > Sue Miley

Tbh I have my suspicions that canon Megumi already has ties to Asunaro so making her a floormaster in this AU felt like a logical move. I don’t have that much to say about her as of yet, but since she’s the first floormaster she sets a much different tone for the beginning of the story in comparison to Miley. Whereas Miley’s presentation feels very ‘cartoonishly evil,’ Megumi is a lot more serious about the game which kind of hammers in for the participants how highly important their captors regard the Death Game. Basically…even more dread and unease…especially after Nao’s death.

Hinako Mishuku (fake) > Rio Ranger

So this one is kind of what spurred on the idea of swapping the floormasters as well, because I really wanted to do something with pink-haired Hinako and/or see her interact with black-haired Hinako. Then I thought of a very tragic idea: what if pink-haired Hinako and black-haired Hinako were twins?

So I thought of the name Hana Mishuku for her. Basically, my idea was that the Mishuku twins’ parents split up because one of them started getting involved with Asunaro, and as a result the twins were separated. While Hinako led a relatively normal life, Hana was stuck with her father and unwittingly forced into becoming an agent for Asunaro at a very young age.

She acts similar to her canon personality, with a sort of dry callousness. She does still have a soft spot for her sister (and seeing her again after years doesn’t help) but she believes that’s something she has to ruthlessly stamp out in order to survive in the organization. (can you tell thinking about her makes me sad…)

Shunsuke Hayasaka > Tia Safalin

I am so sorry to all Hayasaka fans but his character is the definition of wasted potential to me. He clearly had ties to Asunaro (albeit seemingly unwillingly) and yet this is something that comes up like. Once? So I decided to take advantage of it here and make him play a bigger role. Rather than just doing dirty work for the organization, he gets swept into it and he HATES it. He’s pretty much only following orders because he doesn’t want to be killed, and rather than acting like a mild-mannered office worker he acts much more like a jaded, pessimistic office worker (someone please help this man). I also think he’d have a fun dynamic with Hana, but that’s something I’ll likely elaborate on in future doodles…

Momdori/Mrs. Hiyori/whatever you wanna call her > Midori

This one was probably the most fun for me to put together. Maybe it’s bias because the mysteries of Sou Hiyori’s family will forever intrigue me, but I think that his mom (or who I presume is his mom but really we only have a silhouette) has such interesting potential. I definitely don’t believe her and Sou would have a healthy dynamic here, what with just the way both of them act (i.e. insufferably) and their seemingly incompatible views of Asunaro (borderline religious devotion vs. as a tool for further experimentation/entertainment). (i could go on for literally hours and hours about their dynamic in this au but i’ll save that for another day)

As for her actual role in the story, I think she’d act very similar to Midori at first, but over time be revealed to have less of the childish behavior and more cruelty + cult-ish behavior. She’d also regard the participants differently: constantly emphasizing how they’re all fated to be sacrifices for God etc, etc until everyone is incredibly annoyed. (good thing for them that the goal of the subgame is to kill her!)

uhhhhh uhhhh anyways i don’t know what else to say but i hope this satisfies your curiosity! i’ll definitely revisit the floormasters again once i figure out what the hell to do with their designs but for now, as thanks for reaching the end of this rant take this momdori:

[kokushibe]

can someone shot milei please like fucking kill that piece of shit already

[azure-cherie]

Pick a card

Future spouse reading ( Intuitive)

Choose one of the six posters above : seven song lyrics from your future spouse. ( Confession , praise , upliftment)

Hey love's hope y'all are doing great 💙 , sending beautiful healing energies towards you . Hope you resonate and if you don't please choose another pile . Alter the pronouns according to yourself . Take what can be applicable to you and leave the rest.

Some of these lyrics are based on your present and the others your future .

I've already answered all the asks that were sent during the Intuitive game ,check it out if you haven't and if you didn't receive an answer Tumblr probably deleted it .

Hope you enjoy 💙.

𝕻𝖎𝖑𝖊 1:

Hit the road jack - Ray Charles

Now baby, listen baby, don't ya treat me this way

'Cause I'll be back on my feet some day

Heaven California - Honey gentry

Take me to heaven when you go

If you want me, let me know

Take me to heaven, California

If you want me, I'll adore you

Sweet but psycho - Ava max

You're just like me, you're out your mind

I know it's strange, we're both the crazy kind

You're tellin' me that I'm insane

Boy, don't pretend that you don't love the pain

Little did I know - Julia Michaels

But little did I know

You would be the one I confide in

Learn how to try with

Little did I know

It was you before I ever decided

Home with you - Fka twigs

I didn't know that you were lonely

If you'd have just told me, I'd be home with you

I didn't know that you were lonely

If you'd have just told me, I'd be running down the hills to be with you

Future games - Fleetwood Mac

So you better take your time

You know there's no escape

The future sends a sign

Of things we will create

Baby it's alright

And so have faith

Oh yeah

You invent the future that you want to face

Dionne - Katelyn tarver

And I know it's not very sexy

When somebody loves you this much and knows you this well

𝕻𝖎𝖑𝖊 2:

Big plans - Why don't we

I got real big plans, baby, for you and me

So love me for who I am and for who I'm gonna be

Ain't got everything you want, but got everything you need

So take a chance, take a chance on me

Never be me - Miley Cyrus

But I hope that I'm able to be all that you need

If you think that I'm someone to give up and leave

That'll never be me, no

It's over isn't it - Steven universe

War and glory, reinvention

Fusion, freedom, her attention

Out in daylight, my potential

Bold, precise, experimental

Who am I now in this world without her?

Petty and dull, with the nerve to doubt her

Freaky deaky - Doja cat , Tyga

I've been feelin' freaky deaky

You're on your way to see me

Got the mirror on the ceiling

You're in the mood to please me

Sad girls luv money - Amarae, Kali uchis , Moily

I really like your body, I really like your body

I don't know why you hide it

I wanna see you behind me

Link up- Tinashe

For my next act, watch-watch me cut these bitches off

Yeah I'm a boss

Our song- Anne Marie, Niall Horan

Just when I think you're gone

Hear our song on the radio

Just like that, takes me back

To the places we used to go

𝕻𝖎𝖑𝖊 3:

Vehemence purity ring

Oh my, an angel

If we are brave enough, oooh

She'll take my anger up

Oh my, an angel

I've waited long enough, oooh

The mountain opened up

Dinner and diatribes Hozier

The look of mischief in your eye

Your friends are a fate that befell me

Hell is the talking type

I'd suffer hell if you'd tell me

All your exes : Julia Michaels

I want to live in a world where all your exes are dead

I want to kill all the memories that you save in your head

Late night waltz - Silk skin lovers

Follow me 'til morning rays

I'll follow you 'til daylight fades

Symphony clean bandit , Zara larsson

I've been hearing symphonies

Before all I heard was silence

A rhapsody for you and me

And every melody is timeless

Rainbow - Kacey Musgraves

Well, the sky has finally opened

The rain and wind stopped blowin'

But you're stuck out in the same old storm again

You hold tight to your umbrella

But, darling, I'm just tryin' to tell ya

That there's always been a rainbow hangin' over your head

Nikes Frank Ocean

I may be younger but I'll look after you

We're not in love, but I'll make love to you

𝕻𝖎𝖑𝖊 4:

Ugly Nicole Dollanganger

Anything that is beautiful

People want to break

And you are beautiful

I'm afraid

Pink in the night - Mitski

With every drop of rain singing

"I love you, I love you, I love you

I love you, I love you, I love you

I love you, I love you, I love you!"

Inside out- Zedd, griff

When the lights come off and the night is done

Everybody's left, can I be the one?

If it's all I do

I'm gonna love you, love you

She used to be mine - Sara barailles

She's imperfect but she tries

She is good but she lies

She is hard on herself

She is broken and won't ask for help

She is messy but she's kind

She is lonely most of the time

She is all of this mixed up

And baked in a beautiful pie

The bones - Maren Morris

When the bones are good, the rest don't matter

Yeah, the paint could peel, the glass could shatter

Let it break 'cause you and I remain the same

All you need to know - Gryffin

I'll lift you when you're feeling low

I'll hold you when the night gets cold

You'll never have to be alone

And that's all you need to know

You must love me - Lana del rey

Deep in my heart, I'm concealing

Things that I'm longing to say

Scared to confess, what I'm feeling

Frightened you'll slip away

You must love me, you must love me

𝕻𝖎𝖑𝖊 5:

City of stars - Ryan Gosling

A look in somebody's eyes

To light up the skies

To open the world and send it reeling

A voice that says, I'll be here

And you'll be alright

Isabelle - Zach Hood

Now I'm wasting time with Isabelle

Five foot sweet with skin like caramel

Every time it feels brand new

Wish I could rewind the things we do

Daddy issues - The neighbourhood

I'd run away and hide with you

I love that she's got daddy issues, and I do too

Heart shaped box Nirvana

I've been locked inside your heart-shaped box for weeks

I've been drawn into your magnet tar pit trap

Cover me in sunshine - Pink, Willow sage heart

From a distance all these mountains

Are just some tiny hills

Wildflowers, they keep living

While they're just standing still

Bonnie & Clyde - YUQI

We don't need money to feel good

'Cause you're the ride or die the rest of my life

Don't need a party to feel high

We're like the modern version of Bonnie & Clyde

The moon song - Beabadoobee

There's things I wish I knew

There's no thing I'd keep from you

It's a dark and shiny place

But with you my dear

I'm safe and we're a million miles away

𝕻𝖎𝖑𝖊 6:

Superstar -Sonic Youth

Don't you remember you told me you love me baby?

You said you'd be coming back this way again baby

Baby baby baby baby, oh baby

I love you, I really do

How true is your love ? - Hannah Grace

I'll take the pain with the glory

I'll let the love just fill me up

I'll let the hurt run through

How sweet? How deep? How blue?

How true is your love?

I hear you in the music

East of Eden - Zella day

Call me wild, drinking up the sunshine

Be my man and show me what it feels like

Safe and sound - Taylor Swift

Just close your eyes, the sun is going down

You'll be alright, no one can hurt you now

Come morning light, you and I'll be safe and sound

Dandelions - Ruth B

And I've heard of a love that comes once in a lifetime

And I'm pretty sure that you are that love of mine

Dancing queen - ABBA

You are the dancing queen

Young and sweet

Hey there Delilah - Plain white T's

A thousand miles seems pretty far

But they've got planes and trains and cars

I'd walk to you if I had no other way

Please decipher the meaning according to your situation , since this is a collective reading .

Hope you resonate !

Thank you so much 🥰❤️

Have a great day 💖

[fand0mfr3akx]

Headcannons for the Miley, Ranger, and Safalin(separately), falling in love with a death game participant and they end up getting voted out in the Main Game?

(YTTD) Miley, Ranger, and Safalin falling in love with the reader who gets voted out during the main game

Btw this is most likely going to be shit and I really liked writing the Safalin one :D

Miley

She's pissed

she's yelling at everyone about how stupid they are

then someone's just like "we voted them out just kill them already" or something like that and she full on tackles that person to the ground and starts choking them

but when she does have to kill you it breaks her heart (she obviously won't show it)

she blames the others and makes sure whoever voted for you gets what they deserve

(sorry I suck at writing for Miley)

Ranger

he's kind of confused

he doesn't really know what this feeling is and he doesn't understand why he gets sad/angry when you get voted out cause he should be excited or happy

he doesn't like all this confusion, it makes his brain hurt (does he have a brain? he's a doll but he does have human like emotions I guess)

but when he finds out what he's feeling is love it's already too late

he blames the others for voting you out and he's a lot more hostile and violent with the others

he also partially blames himself for falling in love with a participant

Safalin

she's balling her eyes out and clinging onto your arm like it's the end of the world

she's begging you to stay but that isn't much of your choice

(I haven't made it to the chapter 2 main game so I'm just going to assume Miley kills whoever gets voted out)

Ranger is trying to get her off of you but fails

Miley gets annoyed and finally pries her off you and kills you

she clings onto your lifeless body mumbling incoherent words but if you listen closely you would be able to hear a mix of "please come back", "don't leave me", and other things along the lines of that

she blames the others and the other floormasters

she also blames herself for not holding onto you tighter

she doesn't talk to the others as much and she is less willing to help the others

she also hangs out with the doll version of you and pretends that you're still alive, she could talk to doll you for hours and hours

[chiliiscereal]

So my friend has been on and off lately.

I decided to write this for me cause I needed it.

Requests are open!

Chosen last

Summary:

Readers friends only invite them to things if they have no one else to go with. Reader keeps their mouth shut about it and just guesses that this is how friendship works. One day they meet the turtles and April, and for once they’re not chosen last.

Pairing: platonic turtles x reader

(Implied female reader but I’ll do my best to avoid pronouns! Sorry if a she/her slips out)

“I couldn’t find anyone else to go with me so do you want to tag along?”

“I had a plus one and everyone else was busy.”

“No one else can make it and I don’t want to be lonely. Wanna go with me?”

“Sorry I guess I forgot to invite you!”

“What do you mean you were there? I could have sworn you were somewhere else... huh poor memory I guess.”

“Sorry! There’s no room for you to come with! Next time for sure though!”

All of those were common things you’d heard before.

You weren’t exactly sure if it was a normal thing in friendships. It must be since no one else mentioned it.

Still, it hurt that you weren’t prioritized. You were always the last thought. Last minute.

And you always said yes.

Someone needs you to be their plus one for the dance so they don’t look bad?

There you are.

Someone needs a wingman for this boy they like?

You’re already on your way.

It’s not that you minded.

You just wanted to be... appreciated.

You just wanted them to see you.

Maybe they would if you kept trying.

Maybe they would if you made them a homemade gift for each birthday.

Maybe they would if you always answered back their texts right away.

You thought you needed to earn the right to be appreciated.

You realized how wrong you were when you met the turtles.

————

You brought your jacket closer around your body, shivering.

Of course you had to walk home! Alone! In the dark! In the RAIN!

Apparently it was too much to ask for a ride home after hanging out. There wasn’t enough room in the car!

Of course.

Just like every other time, asking to come along was too much.

You shivered again as rain dripped down your back.

“This sucks.” You groaned.

You eyed every dark alley way. You’d read enough fanfiction to expect some cringey creepy man to come out and attack you.

But what DID attack you was completely unexpected.

“LOOK OUT!” A voice shouted.

You didn’t even have time to flinch before something landed on top of you. The weight of it brought you to the ground with a shriek.

“Sorry about that!”

That wasn’t a ‘something’ but a someone!

They scrambled off you quickly.

You stood up and whipped around, rubbing your aching head. “What the hell were you doing?! Do you do parkour on the rooftops or something?!”

Ugh, today just wasn’t your day.

Finally, you glanced up.

They... they clearly weren’t a human.

Green skin...

Orange dots?

A... a shell??

And an orange mask.

Your jaw nearly dropped.

The creature gave you a sheepish grin. “Umm... hey! Yeah... maybe.. possibly... I was doing parkour on the roof...?” He rubbed the back of his neck and eyed the sky, a blush forming across his face. “I was on my way... my way to the comic con!”

He must be looking for a way to leave.

You weren’t ready for that though. You still needed to know what he was! And possibly his name!

You inched closer, holding your phone closer. Just in case. “What... what exactly are you?”

His eyes were on the floor now, as if your words had made him... upset.

“Sorry if that offended you!” You responded immediately. Ugh why did you word it like that? You didn’t mean it as if you thought he was a monster! “I just... I’ve had a really confusing night, my mouth runs faster than my brain, and I just got body slammed into the cement!” You rubbed the back of your head again.

He seemed much more satisfied with this answer. “Well... I don’t think you’d believe me...”

You eyed him up and down. “Dude, I think just looking at you would be enough for me to believe you.”

He let out a small laugh. “So ummm... yeah. I’m a turtle?”

You frowned. “Yeah, I think I see that.”

Well this was a strange turn of conversation.

Why not?

It’s New York after all.

He shuffled nervously. “People aren’t really supposed to know about it.”

You waved him off. “Psh, I don’t have anyone that would want to hear it or believe me anyway.” You stepped closer, your grip on your phone loosening. “Honestly, that’s pretty cool! I didn’t know people like you existed!”

It hurt but it was true.

Your friends would think you were making stuff up for attention.

“MIKEY!”

The new voice cause you to nearly jump out of your skin.

Three people, just like this guy, landed by his side.

One with a red mask and build like a tank.

Another with a blue mask and strange yellow stripes.

The last one had a purple mask and a staff of some kind.

“Are you okay, little man?” The red one asked worriedly. “You just took a huge fall!”

“I swear you’re gonna be feeling that a week from now.” The blue one snorted, resting his SWORD on his shoulder like it was a baseball bat.

“I estimate it’ll be closer to three weeks.” The purple one corrected, tapping a device on his wrist.

You stepped back.

There were more people like... Mikey? Was that his name?

Well, might as well find some way to get into this conversation. You weren’t gonna let the most interesting thing that ever happened to you slip away.

“You’re name’s Mikey?” You asked, the three surrounding the orange masked turtle jumping.

“Human!” The blue masked one shouted.

The large red one shoved Miley behind him. “Hi! Uh... we... we were just on our way to Comic-Con!”

“Guys-.” Mikey tried only to get Interrupted.

“Could you help us find our way?” The purple one joined, cutting him off.

You raised an eyebrow. “Nice try. I already know you guys are turtles.”

“Dang it Mikey!” The blue one shoved Mikey. “You just gonna spill our secret to everyone you meet in New York?”

“She deserves to know!” Mikey squeaked. “I messed up a flip and body slammed her into the concrete!” He turned to you, eyes hopeful. “And... she didn’t seem scared of me!”

This stopped the other boys.

Mikey shoved them all away from him. “These are my brothers! Leo,” he pointed at the blue one, “Donnie,” the purple one, “and Raph!”

You waved awkwardly, eyes landing warily on the largest one.

These guys didn’t seem as sweet and trusting as Mikey.

Donnie was looking you up and down for any sign of a threat.

Leo has his sword out.

Raph has his tonfas ready in his fists.

Maybe it’d be better to just leave.

“I’m not gonna tell anyone.” You shook your head to further emphasize your point. “I was just walking home anyway. All of this...” you spread out your arms, “was a complete accident.”

Mikey gave you a toothy grin. “Yeah, sorry about that.” He turned to his skeptical brothers. “She seems nice! She could be just like April!”

You kicked at the ground sheepishly now that the attention was back to you. “You can just go and I won’t tell anyone.”

“We can’t just let you go.” Donnie scoffed.

For a split second, you thought they were going to kill you for finding out their secret. Or kidnap you. Something bad.

“Not with that whole situation.” He gestured to your forehead.

Curiously, you reached up and touched it.

Your fingers were wet with blood.

Go figure.

“No, it’s fine, really.” You assured them. “My apartment isn’t too far-.”

“Please, it’s fine.” Raph waved you off. “It’ll make up for this bonehead over here.” He loosely jabbed his thumb in Mikeys direction.

You wanted to say yes.

You wanted to say yes so badly.

“I don’t know, you probably got plans.” Leo shrugged, putting his sword away. “It’s a Friday afternoon, after all.”

That was enough for you to make a decision.

“No, I’m actually free.” You offered. “I actually don’t even have a medicine kit at my house-.”

“Alright let’s go!” Mikey grabbed your wrist excitedly and lead the way, not even waiting for you to finish your sentence.

————

You only meant to spend ten or fifteen minutes there, tops.

But after Donnie had your head taken care of Mikey wanted to know if you wanted to play a video game.

You couldn’t say no.

Then, after an hour of the Lou jitsu game, Leo wanted to know if you wanted to check out his sword.

You felt like you had to say yes.

It’s not every day you get to see a sword!

After accidentally getting portalled to New Jersey and FINALLY making your way back, Donnie wanted to know if he could borrow you.

He needed to fix his computer and he needed your smaller fingers to reach the back for him.

Saying no just wasn’t an option.

After almost exploding the poor piece of technology, Raph wanted to know if you knew April O’Neil.

You heard them mention her earlier but you didn’t know they meant THAT April. You’d seen her around before but never really talked to her. Who knew she’d be involved with mutants from the sewer?

He invited April to join them as well.

He thought some human company and someone who would make you feel more normal about the whole situation would make you more comfortable.

He was right.

April was AWESOME.

You hadn’t realized how loud and how fun she could be!

She talked to you about how she met the turtles and every little adventure they went on!

You hoped, secretly, that you could be a part of newer ones.

Eventually, the time came for you to leave.

You were sad of course, but you felt happier than you had in days.

You left with five new numbers in your contacts list and a baked green bean casserole from a rat.

Maybe you should get body slammed into the concrete more often.

————

“Wanna go to that party with me after school?” Your friend asked casually at the lunch table. “Dana couldn’t go with me and everyone else is busy. I need a plus one!”

You smiled as you responded to a meme Leo sent you, your friends words going in one ear and out the other.

“Y/n.” She asked again.

Still no response.

“Are you even listening to me?”

You snapped out of it and straightened up. “What?”

“You and I are going to a party after school.” She informed you. “We should probably pick out our outfits right when it ends. I don’t know if I’ll be able to drive you but you can just walk-.”

“Oh,” you picked your phone up again, “sorry, I have plans.”

This got her to stop. “You have plans? But you never have plans?”

Your other friend snickered. “Yeah, you’re a hermit! You never go out or do anything!”

You blushed furiously. “I’m going to my friends house to watch a movie, okay? I’m not a hermit.”

“A friend, huh?” One of them rolled her eyes. “How come I’ve never heard of them before?”

“I just met them last month.” You picked at your shirt nervously. Why weren’t they happier for you?

“Them?” Another repeated, shocked. “You have more than one knew friend?”

“Yeah.” You straightened up a bit. “Them. They’re super nice but they don’t go to our school.”

The first one rolled her eyes. “Fine, whatever, think what you want. But I need you to sit with me and Jake at the park tomorrow so he can compare-.”

You didn’t even let her begin to finish her sentence. “I’m busy that day.”

“Again?” She gaped. “Seriously?”

“Now you’re just making stuff up.” Another scoffed.

“Why is it so unbelievable that I’d be busy?” You glared at them, clutching your phone protectively. “You’re all busy all the time! Why can’t I be?”

They glanced at each other with knowing looks.

“Because you barely talk to anyone! No offense, but you can be really boring.” The one next to you shrugged. “What even is your friends name anyway? You’d have said their name if they were real.”

You felt your face heating up.

Boring?

Quiet?

“His name Mikey.” You grumbled. “And maybe I don’t talk because none of you give me a chance!”

“A boy?!” The one in front of you gasped. They didn’t even acknowledge any of your other words. “Please, how could you score a boy?”

“He’s probably really ugly, no offense y/n.” One chuckled as if she were joking.

You had enough. “You know, I’m feeling a little crowded. I’m gonna go sit somewhere else.”

“You don’t even have anyone to sit with! You’re a hermit, remember?” One girl called out to you.

“I do have someone to sit with.” You growled, heading for April’s table. You should have started sitting with her a long long LONG time ago.

“Alright, see you Monday I guess.” Was the reply.

The way they just blew it off... UGH. You wanted to punch something.

“Hey, what brings you to the cool kid table?” April grinned, shoving Dale over to make room. “Aren’t you supposed to be with your other friends?”

You managed to shove away the buzzing anger in your head, replacing your frown with a matching smile. “Nah, there’s not enough room for me AND their egos.”

April snorted, assuming you were joking. “Well there’s always room for you here!”

Those were words you’d waited too long to hear.

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You still saw your old friends and occasionally filled in for them when they needed an extra.

But you denied their offers more and more.

For once, you knew what it felt like to be prioritized.

“Hey we’re gonna watch a Lou Jitsu movie, wanna come?”

“I saw this glass painting trend online and I thought you’d want to come over and do it with me!”

“I heard this song and I thought you’d like it. Here’s the link!”

“Check our this hilarious meme!”

“Dale and I are gonna go to that shin dig. I don’t know if that’s you’re thing but you’re welcome to join us!”

What a refreshing change of pace

Let me know if I should make a part two!

[locke-barmecide]

Once again rambling about an obsession. Yes I am now counting Kai as an obsession. With they replace Kiyo? Hm I’m not sure, if I can figure out how to have two obsessions at once yes. I’ve dealt with genshin and Kiyo just fine so we’ll probably be good. To be honest Kiyo will probably outlive Kai as far as obsessions go because Kai doesn’t have as much for me to fawn over other than the begging.

Yttd spoilers. End of chapter one.

You’ve been warned

Kai begging for their life has to be one of the most interesting things to me. Calm and collected throughout the entire game so far. I thought that they wouldn’t even care about their own death. They already gave me Kiyo vibes so I was pretty convinced that there would be little to no resistance but oh my.. I was wrong

“Please... please vote for Sou!!” A double please?

“Please... don’t kill me...!!”

Again, they even said please. This interested me greatly. Someone who I believed to have no care for their own life is begging to live. They are willing to tell them everything if they spare his life.

That right there makes me unbelievably happy. That complete change in character? Wonderful!! You would assume it’s obvious but with dr and characters accepting their deaths I hadn’t seen some good old panic in awhile.

Kai being very calm and collected. Having little to no reaction to everything despite the situation they’re in. The only exception being when they bonked Miley.

That right there is just wonderful.

Kai is literally begging. They’ll do anything. They try to convince the cast to vote for Sou, to please please spare their life!!

I didn’t see it coming but damn I’m so glad it did. Such an interesting reaction but so expected. So basic but on a character like that it’s one of a kind.

Feel free to add. If you also enjoyed Kai’s panicked reaction then let me know. I’d love to hear your thoughts on it.

[pull-me-deep]

ALLY MET BIG TIME RUSH

it was something my 14-year-old me dreamed of when i created this blog like 10 years ago.

after falling in love with them again and their reunion i was lucky enough to get tickets for the show in new york!!

and i was insane enough to fly from germany to new york on my own for this.

here is how it went:

after meeting my international twitter besties we went to the pop up store they did for their merch on Friday. it was very fucking chaotic and BTR ended up walking down the line to meet everyone instead of sitting inside the store.

That's when this iconic moment happened:

yup that's Logan and me having an intense moment of eye contact. I was wearing his merchandise and he noticed that what lead him to stop a second and touch my shoulder (with the hand tat hand i am obsessed with) and he asked me if I was okay. I somehow managed to tell him I was okay in a very high pitched voice I've never heard myself in but in the whole video you can see me losing my shit right after he walked away lmao. 11/10 experience. Also btw their manager took so many videos of the line and everything and Carlos had his Vlogging Camera with him and filmed us we are waiting for that Vlog!!

On the same day we went to Stephen Glickman's aka Gustavo's show and it was....something. After us losing it over him singing the climb from Miley Cyrus and singing multiple other songs and he dedicated Worldwide to Morgan/our whole table. Victoria took a video of us laughing and singing and posted it on Instagram, later stephen reposted that video to all his socials so we are famous now lmao.

ANYWAYS it was finally Saturday, concert day. Simmi and my hotel room was on the 25th floor right above the back entry/artist entry of the venue BTR would play in so it was fun to see the truck and everything through the whole day. After getting inside for the VIP thing I noticed that there are only 3 stools on stage, a lil later their manager came up and explained to us that Kendall tested positive for Covid but luckily the other 3 guys didn't and Kendall is fine. Was a bummer and I missed Kendall but spoiler: Logan, James, and Carlos KILLED it on stage, I couldn't be any more proud.

After I almost died from excitement in line this finally happened:

they were literally the sweetest human and I had the best experience with them. I was really nervous (still proud of myself that I managed to properly talk to them since english isn't even my first language lol) which they noticed but they tried to comfort me a little. When i said I came from Germany for this they were so happy and James asked me like 3 times which city exactly i am from and trust me I was never happier about someone saying "Osnabruck" lmao. Logan then complimented me once again about the hoodie i wore (his merch, once again lol), he remembered me from the day before which was really cute. For the picture I had to ask Carlos if I could be next to Logan please and of cause he moved but then he was like "you know what I love you James" and then they hugged extra tight LOOK AT THEM. At the end they all told me "i love you" in german and I almost died walking out. I managed to tell Logan that I think his hand tattoo is cool asf so my username on twt "loganhandertat" is well deserved at this point lmao.

After that they made a soundcheck, did some acoustic songs and answered a few questions. We were in the 2nd/3rd row right in the middle and it was such an unreal experience.

My GA ticket was for balcony 2 but after the VIP experience ended no one cared about getting us in the right places so just kept our places lol. For the concert many people from the balconies went to the floor bc no security checked anything and all floors were connected with like 10 stairs so lol.

We experienced the whole concert from the 2nd/3rd row, the boys looked at us multiple times and I'm not lying if I say that I had the time of my life.

I already "spoilered" this at the beginning of this post, but these 3 guys KILLED IT on stage it was such a good show!!

also yes this is my pic it kinda got stolen multiple times so uhh lol.

I made a youtube playlist with all my concert videos in case you're still reading this you might be interested lol

https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLPZYzgkxQ0JvoSE0CAwBonQj4H6mHfOCf

My personal year 2021 was one of the worst years in my life, that's why I kinda treated myself at the end of this year with this trip to New York. Honestly, it saved my whole fucking year. I met the best people in NY and had a BLAST, I'll def be back in 2022 ♥

It's really crazy that Big Time Rush was my comfort place when I went through hell and back in puberty and in this shitty year for me they came back and cheered me up once again. I'm so happy about their reunion and them basically saying fuck you nickelodeon and doing what they want in a much more mature way. Incredibly thankful for being a part of this and all the friends I met this year.

The best is yet to come!

[bigskydreaming]

The Ric Grayson AND Talon storylines both end at the same time, and in the same way:

Great Grandpa Creeper Cobb successfully manipulates Ric into position to be brainwashed and become the Talon that Willie the Weenie has always wanted him to be.....this happens for like, two issues.

Then Grandpa Get Ye To A Graveyard Already fucks up....he accidentally brings Talon Ric within sighting distance of the Court’s latest crop of prospective Talon recruits, including a wee baby ten year old orphan being trained to be a future Talon.

And the essential corn kernel of Dick Grayson’s essence, deep down in his psyche, just fucking POPS like its Orville Redenbacher and someone just nuked it in the microwave.

And the real Dick Grayson comes SHRIEKING to the forefront of Talon!Ric’s brain, nothing subtle about it, and the next thing his Rancid Relative knows, he’s being fucking impaled by his great grandson’s blades as said great grandson, who is SUPPOSED to be docilely brainwashed, wtf, is already halfway across the room, diving into the mass of other Talons like they’re a collection of bowling pins and he’s a wrecking ball straight out of a Miley Cyrus music video, but instead of the caterwauling lyrics “I never hit so haaaaaaaard in love,” Dick’s accompanied by a soundtrack of him screaming:

“I WILL PROTECT YOU SMOL CHILD!!!”

As said smol child is just standing there, staring, like....dude, wut?

And then Dick finishes absolutely DESTROYING everything undead and nefarious in sight like he’s the Tasmanian Devil on meth, and he turns to said smol child and begins the process of Smothering, as his hands flutter all up and down checking for injuries but not touching, like: 

“Did they hurt you are you alright you’re safe now cough once for I’m all good or punch me in the no-no’s if I’m making you feel unsafe, I will make sure you are totally safe from here on out, you are my baby now, I have decided, but like, only if you want to be.”

And smol child is decidedly overwhelmed but Man-Who-Speaks-Like-He-Has-Pixie-Sticks-In-Place-Of-Blood-Vessels seems harmless, if weird, and is definitely preferable to the weird Bird Men who kidnapped him off the streets and tried to teach him how to kill people and make death threats out of nursery rhymes. And he doesn’t have a lot of experience in OTHER subterranean lairs to compare this one too, but he’s decidedly not a fan, so when Dick asks if he would like him to take him to see Batman and Batgirl and Robin and other superheroes who can also reassure him there will be no more homework on How To Torture People Good, he’s like....”yeah I guess. If you want.”

And so Dick scoops him up with glee and takes off through the tunnels, yelling back over his shoulder: “Bye Greatly-Gross-Grandpa, hate you lots, don’t call, don’t write, you’re officially off my Christmas card list, hasta la neeeeeeeeeever.”

Thereupon swiftly grappling across the Bludhaven rooftops, yelling PARKOUR! just because he can and its fun, and its weirdly relaxing for his wee passenger, because look, this dude may be weird as fuck, but he’s clearly got the moves to protect him from the Undead Legions of Ornithologists and he seems too....fun to be evil, like not in the Joker kinda way like he’s seen on TV in previous foster homes where its like, jeez dude, try hard much, but more like an adult who just quit a soul-crushing cubicle-dwelling corporate-craphole job and has suddenly been reminded that the sky is blue, flowers smell good, and there IS a Santa Claus, Virginia.

Thus by the time they arrive at Wayne Manor, with no attempt made to hide where they’re going from his wee passenger’s eyes - Dick has already decided he’s keeping the kid, pending said kid’s approval but look, kids like him and he’s determined to bring his A game to the pitch meeting, so he likes his chances - said wee passenger disembarks in the Batcave but stays close by, clinging to Dick’s side in an ever so slight way that allows for plausible deniability later, once he gets his bearings and also his bravado back.

“Dick?!” Comes the chorus of voices from the rest of the family, who are all there already, by great coincidence and in great defiance of the crapfests in their own individual titles, but also who the fuck cares. And Dick puffs out his chest, cuz he’s putting on a good show for his new kiddo, first impressions are important...

“Tis I, fam! The one true Dick Grayson has returned! Huzzah!”

Look, being completely oblivious to his Greatest Dork Energy coinciding with his Times He Most Attempts To Be Impressive, is like, Peak Dick Grayson characterization, you can trust me, I’m a doctor. 

And Tim’s like, “Why are you dressed like a Talon?”

And Dick’s like, “Isn’t the better question why AREN’T you dressed like a Talon?”

Which makes no sense but shhh, I’m running out of steam here, don’t question the atmosphere, just let it be.

And Bruce is like, “Who’s your friend?”

With like...designs and agendas already in mind, because said wee Talon-to-be is cute and adorable and bravely trying to act like he is not at all intimidated by his surroundings and is in total control of what’s going on like, he meant to be here, this is all according to plan, yes, excellent, everything is progressing nicely....

Which as everyone knows, are the three key essential traits Bruce looks for in prospective adoptees....

So Dick snarls and later blames it on residual Talon-ness, they’re very territorial bird...assassin....people....anyway, the adrenaline is still high and also he has swiftly become attached because whether kiddo knows it or not, Dick 100% credits him with the brainwash-breaking and thus when factored in with the cuteness quotient, what we have here is an instant recipe for Protectiveness slash Possessiveness that would be creepy and inappropriate if this wasn’t pure crack. 

But crack it is, and thus Dick curls a protective arm around the kiddo like the lap-bar on a particularly turbulent roller coaster and applies G-Force sufficient to keep even Superman from prying him out of his hands - but in a gentle, non- ’crushing kinda way that might hurt the kiddo,’ even though physics doesn’t work like that, except look, these are CRACK PHYSICS, they can and they do work like that. 

And he’s all, “I already adopted him, so back off, Bruce, I’ll cut you. But also hi dad, I missed you. In spirit I mean, like I had amnesia and then I was brainwashed so technically its probably a reach to say I missed anyone but just roll with it. Also I can haz hugs now, please?”

And then Damian apparates in front of Dick amid a cloud of Disapproval that’s really just a cover for OMG-I-Was-Without-You-And-It-Was-Terrible-And-I’m-So-Glad-You’re-Back-But-Also-Who-Is-This-Interloper-And-Why-Is-He-Stealing-My-Hug.

“Tt. Grayson. Your absence was...less than desirable. See to it that this doesn’t happen again. Also what is that and why is it here.”

“Aww, Dami, I’m sorry. I promise to install a “please have the nearest available psychic reboot my brain in case of future brain damage slash amnesia” clause in my living will, and soon as I get a free second, I’ll break the fourth wall and blackmail the DC editorial staff into declaring me off-limits for all death, brainwashing and/or kidnapping plots for at least the next four major crossover events. I have naughty pictures. They’ll cave.”

“Hmph,” Dami says. He resumes staring pointedly at the kiddo, who juts his chin defiantly and stares back while clinging more tightly to Dick, because he may have very little clue what’s going on, but he’s a quick one and has at least picked up on the fact that Dick wants him and this other kid wants Dick. Which combined with the rescuing and the kicking of bad guy ass means Dick is probably Quality and In Demand and Of Value, and thus he might as well stake a claim now and worry about whether or not to act on that or skedaddle later, once he’s got more intel. He’s a natural Bat, this one, but then, that’s probably why he was in Toddler Talon Boot Camp, he scored high on whatever weird aptitude tests they used to scope out talent, and by talent we mean murder-skills.

“Dami,” Dick admonishes then, “This isn’t an it, he’s a person, and he was recently traumatized so promise me you’ll be on your best behavior or at least your ‘engaging in shenanigans with Jon’ behavior. And he’s not competition, you’re my Dames and my little bro, and he’s potentially your nephew, which is a whole separate category and no threat to you and your baby bro status at all, so retract the claws. If anything, the real danger is Pops adopting him and thus supplanting you as the official Baby Bird of our generation, so make like an ally and help me get that dangerous “I’m gonna adopt this kid so hard” gleam out of Bruce’s eye before it gets any gleamier. We’re still only halfway through my tearful reunion and having to cut Dad before we even get to cake would be a major mood-killer, but I’ll do it, I swear. Also, get your Baby Bird behind over here and hug me already, I have two arms.”

Damian rolled his eyes but obediently disappeared and reappeared nestled against Dick’s other side in the blink of an eye. The proper application of ninja skills has always been the pursuance of hugs and cuddles. Thus sayeth the crack.

“Hey, I do get cake, right?” Dick asked suddenly, looking around dangerously. “I was amnesiac and also brainwashed, I deserve cake, TELL me there’s gonna be cake.”

“Well that answers whether or not we should be worried about this being an attempted infiltration or not,” Jason says, strolling over casually. “No impostor or brainwashing script-writer could ever duplicate the Essence de Dick so perfectly. Hey squirt. Welcome to the madhouse. I’m Jason, what’s your name?”

“Oh right,” Dick realized, cocking his head. “Hey, what is your name?”

“Really, Dick?” Tim sighed, fondly exasperated. “I realize you like to jump from A straight to Z whenever possible, but steps B through Y aren’t usually just mere suggestions.”

“It hadn’t come up yet,” Dick defended himself.

“Yes, why would it have,” Duke mused from where he was leaning over and snapping his fingers in front of Bruce’s eyes, in a futile attempt at tearing his gaze away from the viable adoption candidate within 20 meters from him. It was probably best that they get this adoption thing inked out and signed off on as soon as possible - it was the only thing that was definitively going to get that “Argh, I’ve spotted treasure ahoy” look out of Bruce’s eyes. And Alfred had been very clear :Bruce was forbidden to adopt any more kids himself until he got a better handle on juggling the six he already had. Which. The past year had...probably not met Alfred’s standards on, so it didn’t seem likely he’d be waiving that requirement any time soon. 

(And nobody wanted to get in between the Unstoppable Force that was Bruce’s ‘must adopt all the orphans’ and the Immovable Object that was Alfred’s ‘must maintain at least a reasonable fascimile of order in this household, even if it is a total sham, appearances matter.’)

“Hey!” Dick protested. “I’ve been busy, okay? There was fighting and then there was parkouring and now we’re reunifying, and it wasn’t like I was just calling him ‘that kid’ in my head, I was calling him ‘my kiddo’ which is a perfectly reasonable identifier and thus more specific detail just....hadn’t been relevant yet!”

“So uh, bee tee dubs, what is your name, buddy?” Dick asked, looking down. His kiddo looked back up at him for a long, measuring moment, and then he shrugged.

“I’ll tell you in exchange for some cake. You said something about there being cake, but I don’t see any.”

Dick got misty-eyed at that. “See? He already prioritizes like me. This was destiny! Also, you heard my kiddo, do we not deserve cake? It has been a very long day, there was murder and mayhem and more. Also, my creeper great grandpa was there being icksome, and you know how much that weirds me out.”

“Come along, Master Dick,” Alfred said then, appearing out of nowhere thanks to his Bat-Butler Magic. “And your young charge as well. I already have your favorite baking in the oven and it should be done shortly. Lemon meringue with raspberry layers.”

“That’s disgusting and I will not participate in any ceremony that treats that as part of a celebration instead of just a weird kind of laxative,” Jason said loftily, though it escaped no one’s notice that he was the first to the stairs.

“Shut your facehole, its delicious and amazing and you will like it or I will kick your ass,” Dick said, equally loftily.

“Boys,” Bruce said with a long-suffering sigh, as the threat of brotherly bloodshed was enough to finally shake him out of his orphan-induced stupor.

“At MARIO KART. I will kick his ass at MARIO KART, ugh, jeez, B, why do you always assume the worst of us?”

“Precedent,” Tim said dryly.

“Who the hell asked the Oompa Loompa Brigade to weigh in with all ninety of his pounds?” Jason called back from the top of the stairs. 

Cass came up on Dick’s left, where the kiddo was one half of the sandwich made by him and Damian on Dick’s other side. She smiled down at him when he directed his still very wide-eyed gaze at her, landing on her after his latest sweep of the cavern and all its contained chaos, as if trying to take it all in - most likely in the hopes that if he could manage that, somehow the last 72 hours of his life might suddenly make sense. He really was adorable.

“Don’t worry,” she beamed at him, reaching out to pat him comfortingly on his shoulder, right above where Dick’s arm was still curled around it like a warm blanket - albeit one with the tensile hold of a python. “They’re all crazy, but only in the good ways.”

Duke scoffed as he slipped ahead of them and started taking the stairs two at a time. “It’s funny how you say that like you’re some kind of exception to the rule.”

“Bold words, little brother,” Cass called after him. He only shouted back from the top in a booming voice, his words echoing down the narrow stone stairway dramatically.

“Am I not Batclan?”

“Oooh, is that a new thing we’re doing?” Dick asked excitedly. “Somebody catch me up, I demand context. I smell a story there.”

“It was Jason’s fault,” Tim said automatically. Dick nodded.

“Sure, that tracks. Continue.”

Bruce trailed after his brood of batlings and birdlets, sidling over to where Barbara was waiting for the elevator. The latter having hung back to watch the commotion with the air of one taking notes for repurposing in the form of future blackmail material. Her ever extending network of spies and informants made so much more sense, suddenly.

He cleared his throat while they listened to the hum of the elevator’s machinery as it descended to their level.

“I wasn’t really thinking of adopting the boy,” he said. Not at all sullenly, nor with a trace of defensiveness to be found.

“Of course you weren’t, Bruce,” Barbara said. She patted his arm fondly, with all the conviction of a kindergarten teacher whose student was attempting to claim innocence on the matter of a paint disaster perfectly matching the paint stains on his hands.

“I wasn’t,” Bruce muttered as she preceded him into the elevator. 

Why did nobody ever believe him?

[salty-dracon]

More YTTD Theories Because I Forgot A Bunch

A continuation of this from a couple of days ago.

More theories, spoilers go up to 3-1A, and also include YTTS spoilers. Also I appreciate all of your thoughts on the matter.

In the previous post I said there were a few reasons to be suspicious of Gin. I forgot to mention one important point:

Remember the locker room and the Discussion there, where Hayasaka and Gin got magnetized to the ceiling and almost hung? According to vgperson, you can win the discussion by letting time pass three times after Hayasaka is magnetized. But after the second turn, Gin gets magnetized as well. And one turn after that, the mechanism is shut down by Midori. He makes sure “those two” are still alive via the intercom, and once confirming that they are, says “oh goodie, we can still play some more!“ and fucks off. Basically, you’ll win no matter what, because Midori doesn’t want them to die.

Midori says he observes all of the floors in the painting room, but he doesn’t really give “instructions” once they arrive or anything similar. Depending on what he’s using to monitor the room, he more or less uses his abilities to mess with the participants and the dolls. Think about how he spooks Sara and crew by saying “I’m not a painting!” if you look at the painting of him, or how he lets the crew get their hopes up about the transceiver until he speaks through it. However, he says he observes all of the floors, meaning he knows what goes on in each one. And though he’s not about losing well (he wants to kill people with the gun if he’s in a bad position, after all), he seemed to be concerned enough about Hayasaka and Gin to try and save them.

Considering he didn’t try to save Hayasaka the moment he could, and seems to have some form of disdain for the dolls, I wonder if it’s Gin he was trying to save. That brings up the question of why someone like him would want to save Gin in the first place. Maybe he’s allied with Gin somehow, whether Gin knows it or not. 

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(Danganronpa 1 and AI: The Somnium Files spoilers in the next paragraph)

One interesting prediction rule when it comes to murder mystery games is that the culprit is “someone who’s been mentioned several times, but who we’ve never actually met”. They almost pulled that twist in Danganronpa 1 with a certain missing student. They mentioned her by name, making us think she was the mastermind for a while, before revealing the truth. The other big example I can think of is AI: The Somnium Files, wherein the serial killer in question is mentioned by name more than once, but we don’t actually meet him, knowing it’s him, until near the end of the game and after we’ve unlocked most of the other routes.

Extrapolating this to Your Turn to Die, there is one character we haven’t met yet who’s been mentioned more than once- that being Sara’s mother. We see her at the beginning of the game, passed out presumably due to an attack by Sara’s kidnappers. She’s brought up again by Sara’s dad in a flashback before Chapter 2, and then again when Kai leaves a message for Sara on the laptop. The password to that file is her mother’s name. Furthermore, we know her rough appearance, as based on seeing her passed out in Chapter 1. And taking the events of YTTS as canon, we know that Sara, or someone that looks exactly like Sara, is somehow involved in Asunaro’s AI experiments. There’s also one interesting oddity about her. As far as I remember, she’s one of two characters to get a background sprite, but not a foreground sprite. Here I’m referring to “background sprites” as the sprites that appear inside environments without black outlines, and foreground sprites as the sprites with different expressions that usually appear when you talk to a character. Every other character, notably all of the Death Game participants, the Floor Masters, and now the Dummies thanks to Chapter 3, have both foreground sprites and background sprites. Some characters, like Sara’s father and the man that Keiji killed, have only foreground sprites. The only two exceptions, that is, the only two characters whose faces we haven’t seen in perfect detail, are Meister and Sara’s mother.

Furthermore, we don’t know what Sara’s mother’s name is. Granted, we don’t know what her father’s name is either, but her name is apparently important. What if her name was also Sara Chidouin? What if she was somehow also Sara- as in, the Sara we know is a clone of her created using a doll? It’s a mystery why she’d be raising a clone of herself, but people are weird like that, sometimes.

Another related theory people have had is that Sara’s mother is in fact a part of the game- she’s just disguised as someone else. That someone else could be Miley. Though in my opinion Miley looks nothing like the background sprite I’m using for reference, a good wig can change everything. This theory might have become even stronger with the release of Chapter 3. There are a couple of situations in which Midori can say something along the lines of “Miley said you were cute when you got angry” to Sara. Though we could just take it as Miley being an asshole (she’s totally an asshole), I think there’s only one situation in which Sara got mad in front of Miley, that being when Mishima was killed. Maybe this was lost in translation, but it’s a rather sweeping generalization and a somewhat weird thing to say about someone if you aren’t familiar with them. Meaning Miley’s really familiar with Sara. Or Miley was just being an asshole.

After looking up Sara’s mother on the wiki the manga only has a picture of her wearing a mask over her mouth. The plot thickens. 

Regarding the other character, Meister... people have made a couple of interesting observations about him. First, he shows up in collaboration artwork. Second, there is a person who looks very similar (albeit with grey hair) in the room above where the monitors were in Chapter 2. His clothing color scheme is exactly the same. Also it’s a big ass painting. Third, with the release of Chapter 3, there’s the entertaining feature of naming Midori whatever you damn well please, unless he makes some joke about it and tells you to pick another name. Most of his responses to you picking something like “Alice Yabusame” and “Tia Safalin” are either “here’s a fun anecdote about that character and/or what I think of them, but I don’t want that name“ and “that’s mean :( pick another name please“. Elect to name him Meister, and he only says “... Pick another name, please”. Considering his personality can be accurately described as “Kokichi if he were Monokuma”, it’s out of character. He fears Meister, or doesn’t want to be associated with him. So yeah, Meister’s probably important. Maybe he’s even the Meister-mind. (Feel free to boo me for that bad pun.)

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Regarding the game’s endings, most people seem to believe there’s two- a logic ending an an emotion ending. I agree with this viewpoint, as “choosing logic“ has been explored a few times throughout the game. With the release of Part 3, the choice of which ending’s which has become a little more clear.

If Alice lives and Reko dies, Q-taro says something along the lines of “The Dummies may be dolls, but they’re human just like us”. Implying that we, the humans, are also supposed to think of dolls as human as there’s no difference appearance or personality wise. Q-taro talks about Doll Reko being almost perfectly human, as a supporting argument, in reference to Alice who was unable to tell the difference between the Doll Reko and the real Reko. Remember also that the only reason we pushed Reko down the Impression Room was our logical conclusion that she was a fake. On the other hand, if we choose not to, Sara comments that despite the logic, she can’t see the Reko standing before her as anything other than real, even though there’s lots of evidence to the contrary. In that ending, the real Reko dies. Furthermore, there’s a little bonus snippet in the “afterlife” scene after Nao’s death, where Reko shows up, but Alice doesn’t appear if she lives.

For this reason I strongly believe that the emotion ending is Alice/Kanna living. Therefore the logic ending is Reko/Sou living. I have yet to test out to see if there’s any changes in dialogue with those two combinations specifically, as most people online seem to be playing Alice/Sou and Reko/Kanna. I’m streaming this game for a couple of friends on Discord, and also all my midterms are over the next couple of weeks, so it’s hard to find the time to play this right now.

I also believe that we’ll soon be facing another path split- maybe at the very beginning of 3-1B- that has to do with logic and emotion. Whatever that consent form is, it scared the other participants- it’s definitely a bad thing. However, Sara now faces the choice between saving Keiji and consenting to Whatever Evil Thing’s Going On, and sacrificing Keiji to avoid it. Logic would be sacrificing Keiji, while emotion would be saving him, in this case. Perhaps that’s not true, as Midori is the kind of person who can and would pull a fast one on Sara for funsies. Perhaps there’s something in his language implying that Keiji’s going to end up dead no matter what. He does seem to want to antagonize Keiji, after all. That, or someone else is going to die instead- probably Q-taro, having just been stabbed by Mai and being in bad shape. Even so, I wonder which will be which- whose death would be considered “logical” and whose is based on “emotion”. 

TL:DR So many mysteries with so many possible answers. I just want to see someone vibe check Midori like he vibe checked us already.

[spidxysense]

Back to You | 03

Summary: He broke your heart, but you’d always love him. Two souls that not even the universe could tear apart, even if you wanted it to at times.

Pairing: Tom Holland x Reader

A/N: Hi guys! I’m back! I took a much needed break from writing when my dog died so I’m sorry for the lack of updates until now, but I might release another chapter later if I can get enough brain juice working to squeeze more out, hope you guys like this one, just a bit of a filler chapter to lead me to what I have planned upcoming (If you know what I mean, or if you have any predictions on what I could mean, message or ask or comment them and I’ll answer them.) If you have any questions about the fic or the characters in the fic, feel free to ask me as well. GREAT TO BE BACK GUYS AND THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR ALL THE SUPPORT!

Word count: 2,562

Prologue | 1 | 2 | 3

“For our next guest, why don't we all watch this clip from her latest movie?" Ellen gestured for the video to play as the audience cheers while your performance for Rewrite the Stars plays on the screen behind her.

Once the video ends, the screams get louder. You walk out, waving happily at the audience and finding your seat on the guest chair.

"So, Y/N. It's been months since the Greatest Showman premiered and it's still up there in the Billboard top 100, I heard you wrote some of the songs?"

You shook your head, smiling so hard that you were squinting, "No! No! I just helped!"

"Pish posh, everyone here has watched Ben Hardy's interview here." Ellen waves you off as the crowd goes wild, "He told us your wrote some lyrics."

You wait for the audience to die down, "I will kill him." You laugh, "I'm kidding, he was just being a good friend."

Ellen sends a look at the camera, "Y/N is still friendzoning Ben!" She laughs as she points to you and the audience laughs, she turns to you, "I have seen compilations of Ben Hardy in interviews saying you’re his crush and yet here you are still friendzoning him, is nobody good enough?"

The smile on your face slightly falters, but it's something Ellen and the audience notices because suddenly it's quiet, "Well, I just don't think I'm ready. Ben's cute and all but not the type of person I think I'm looking for right now." You smile sady at Ellen. Ben and Tom were very boyish and charming, sharing similarities in their personalities that sometimes, you could see Tom in Ben sometimes, “I mean, Tom was a great guy.” You bite back the tears and swallow the words that seemed stuck in your throat, “and no offense to anybody but following that, I just need more time to find someone that can be as great as Tom was or even better, because we have to treasure how we’re being treated before anything else.”

Ellen gives you an understanding smile as the audience cheers, patting your knee, "Well, how's it been? We haven't seen you since your press tour, and even then you didn't come here alone since you were with the cast."

You shrugged, "I just think I needed some time to reflect and get a feel of what I want, wrote some songs, you know, I let inspiration flow through me."

"And speaking of songs." A picture of texts between you and Ellen pop up on the screen, "It says there, you promise you'd give me an update on that upcoming album, and I told you I'd tell you when I want to hear it." The crowd goes crazy, "And I want to hear it now."

You give the audience a sheepish smile, “I mean…is that what you guys really want?” You gesture towards the audience before they’re screaming and applauding in their seats.

Ellen gives them a “well what do you know” look and turns to you, “I think they said yes.” she laughs, “You haven’t released an album in years, there were the occasional singles or collaborations, but no live performances or music videos either.”

You rub your arm, the last time you went on tour was the one Tom visited and that was one of the hardest tours you had to finish, you just had so much anxiety and panic in you head that would lead to cancellations and that would just end up making you feel bad so Tom came up with the idea to not do anything that made you uncomfortable for the meantime or a few months, but those few months ended up getting longer until they reached to this point, and it wasn’t like Tom never encouraged you to get out there and write music, or act in the occasional project or two, but it was just something you felt you couldn’t physically do. In you eyes, Tom was social enough for the both of you.

“Well,” You clasp your hands together, “I’ve been hard at work in the studio, and I’m proud to announce that I’ll be releasing an album, but not just one.” The audience gasps before applauding once more, “I’ve written so many songs that I had enough to make two albums out of them so I’ll be releasing them when I feel I’ve written everything in my heart  and I am honestly so excited for everyone to hear what I’ve been working on not just the past few months but also the past few years.”

“Alright, well we’ve got time for one more game here, since it wouldn’t be a Y/N guesting if we didn’t play at least one game with you here, so in commemoration of your singlehood, I’ve set up the Who’d You Rather.”

You gape at Ellen, “Who’d you rather what, Ellen?!” The audience laughs.

She shrugs, “I’ll make a follow up game for you, ‘What would you rather’ and we’ll play it here on your next visit.” She gives you a cheeky smile before turning to face the screen behind the two of you.

The screen flashes to two pictures, one on the left side and one on the right side.

“Oh wow, you’ve got pictures.” You tilt your head at the choices, it was between Nicholas Hoult and Liam Hemsworth, “Well, Liam’s with Miley, and she’d kill me if I picked her hubby, and Nicholas Hoult has been in so many great movies, I mean have you seen him in Mad Max?!”

Ellen laughs, “I love how you’re treating this so seriously.”

You give her a confused look, “Was I not supposed to?” You gape at her as she waves her hand in the air.

“No no! Keep going just keep doing you!” She laughs.

You laugh, snorting slightly and turning to the audience, “What if they’re all just lined up backstage waiting for who I pick.” They laugh with you.

You shut your eyes, “Alright, I pick Nicholas Hoult! He’s older than me though.” You point out, then the picture of Liam changes to Ansel Elgort, “I have listened to his EDM soundtracks!” You jump in your seat excitedly.

Ellen shoots the audience a look, “Ansel it is, then.” They laugh.

The picture of Nicholas turns to Dylan O’Brien, “Okay, this is unfair, I’m pretty sure you had a list of things I liked and just found people in them, I mean!” You gesture towards the screen, “That’s Stiles!” The crowd cheers loudly, “You can’t ask me to pick between Stiles and Augustus Waters, are you kidding me? But, yeah, Stiles please.”

Ellen bursts out laughing, “Alright, Dylan, who’s next?”

Nick Robinson replaces the picture of Ansel, “Oh, alright, Love, Simon? Yes please, Nick Robinson please.”

Ellen gapes at you, “You need to pick a lane.”

You gasp, “I thought I was just playing a game?!” The audience laughs, and suddenly the picture of Dylan o’Brien is replaced by a picture of Tom Holland and suddenly, you can hear a pin drop in the room.

You make a ‘no big deal’ face at the screen, “Well, that’s unfair, that’s the love of my life, I choose Tom!” Suddenly the tension s no more and everyone is cheering for their favorite couple and you’re smiling out at the crowd but you feel your heart breaking into pieces.

“Alright, next is Ben Hardy!” The crowd laughs as you roll your eyes, “Obviously, Tom.” The crowd gets louder.

Then it’s between Nat Wolff and Tom, “Oh, I starred in that movie with him a few years back! Nat if such a sweetheart! But Death Note was terrible, I told him not to do it.” You shake your head at him, “Tom.”

Nat’s picture transitions to Logan Lerman, “Oh my god, I had such a big crush on him! We went out once when I was like 15 or 14 and I hadn’t met Tom yet and I remember he was such a gentleman but he was nervous about getting caught out on a date with me because we were both just starting out and you know how fans can be.” You sigh at the fond memory, “Tom.” The audience aws at the fact that you still picked Tom.

Suddenly, an unfamiliar face pops up as you stare at the picture in confusion and unfamiliarity.

“That’s Timothee Chalamet.” Ellen points out, “Isn’t he pretty?” Ellen gives a wink to the audience, as they laugh already expecting you to choose Tom over this celebrity you didn’t even know.

You hum, “There's something about him.” You furrowed your eyebrows, “I mean yeah, he’s beautiful but look at his eyes, I mean, wow.” You look at the screen, “I pick Timothee.”

Ellen’s eyes widen, as the audience gasps in surprise and Tom’s picture is replaced by Michael B. Jordan, “Oh wow, Killmonger and Creed.” The audience laughs.

“I think I’ll stay with Timothee.” Michael B. Jordan gets replaced by Cameron Monaghan, “He was absolutely wonderful as the Joker, have you seen him in Gotham?”

Ellen nods, “I thought they would for sure cast him in the movies, it’s so crazy how good he is!”

“I’ll pick Timothee.” You give Ellen a tight lipped smile as an applause starts to build up in the audience.

“Alright, this next one has really nice eyes as well.” The picture turns into that model you’ve seen now and again, with that peculiar name, Lucky Blue Smith.

You give an intake of breath, “I don’t know Ellen, I still pick Timothee.”

The picture then turns into Thomas Brodie-Sangster, “Oh! He is such a sweetheart! I met him at the premier to my movie, he is so sweet!” You give Ellen a sheepish smile, “But I’m gonna have to say Timothee.”

“Alright, final round.” Ellen announces, “We’ll bring him back just to make sure. Tom or Timothee?”

You bit your lip, looking hard at the screen, “It’s a tough choice Ellen, but there’s something about Timothee, so I’ll just pick him again.”

“Wow! You ended up with Timothee!” Ellen stand up to hug you, “Come on out, Timothee!”

Suddenly your eyes get big, waiting for a boy to walk from backstage, “Just kidding!”

You let out a sigh of relief, and laugh, “What if all of them were just backstage? That would be hilarious, I would have no idea what to do.” You shake your head as the audience laughs, “It’s so crazy how awkwardly clumsy and uncoordinated I am around boys.”

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You were in the backseat, your manager on the other side of you, typing away on her phone as you stared out the window at the fans lined up outside the studio, "Want to say hi to them?" She suggests.

You shake your head, your chest feeling heavy and your breathing slowing like you were hyperventilating through a plastic bag, "What if one of them pulls me out through the window? Or worse what if they throw things at me?"

She scoffs, "Well, they're fans, they won't hurt you."

You shrug, taking a hard swallow, "What if all of them aren't though?"

Your manager sighs and turns to you, “I wanted to talk to you about that.”

You narrowed your eyes at her, “About what?”

“The big guys in Def Jam want you to do a tour sometime this year or next year.”

You scoff, “No.” You shook your head, “No way.”

“Y/N, they’ve been patient with you. The only reason they’re even willing to keep you on as an artist was because I sent them those songs you gave me to sell to other artists-”

“And we made a lot of money from that!” You groan in exasperation, “Taylor Swift bought majority, and the rest were distributed to other artists, you still hear them on the radio! I made the record label money, and I didn’t even perform, they got a lot of the sales.” you point out.

She sighs, “Look, Y/N, you can make as many songs as you want and sell them to other people, but at the end of the day it’s still not gonna make you as much money as when YOU’RE the one who’s singing them, I think we should look into some professional help for this problem you’ve got going on, maybe see a therapist or look into some medication from a medical professional’s point of view-”

“I didn’t need them before.” You point out.

She pinched the bridge of her nose, “Yeah, well 5 years ago, I could still run a marathon, but I can’t exactly do that anymore.”

“Whatever this is, I’ll get over it, if I didn’t need a therapist before, then I don’t need one now-”

“You had Tom back then.”

Well that shut you up.

“Now you don’t, and you’ve gotten lazy.” She clenches her jaw, “You did one movie, and after that, what then? You’re back to locking yourself in your room. You have to keep moving, Y/N, keep adapting to stay in the spotlight, through this break up, the cameras and lights were all on you and all you did was lock yourself in your room and drink wine out of a bottle. So I don’t care if you’re making money, not when you’re doing it half-assed-”

“Am I not allowed to be hurt?” You snap, the tears already welled up in your eyes, “Am I not allowed to grieve this relationship that I’ve been in for the past 3 years and have put my whole heart and emotions into? I lost this whole other half of me and now I just feel so empty that sometimes I feel like I can’t function normally and at the end of the day, it’s still him I think about. For three years, all I ever knew was him and I and now that I’m all alone, I don’t even know what to do without him and this whole time it’s been like I was lifted off the ground and now I’m just falling into the earth and all this time I’ve just been waiting for the crash.”

She blinks at you sobbing in your seat as your emotions eat you up, she says nothing but instead embraces you.

“We all lose ourselves, Y/N. Let us help you find yourself.” She rubs your back, “It might be uncomfortable in the beginning, but it will be all worth it in the end.”

You pull away, fixing your clothes, “One step at a time.”

“And speaking of one step at a time.” She hands over her phone, an email opened up to an image of a script.”

                                                     “Celia”

                                                Screenplay by

                                                 James Ivory

                        Sequel to the film “Call Me by Your Name” by

                                             Luca Guadagnino

“They’re asking if you’ve read the script.”

You bit your lip, knowing exactly where the script was. It was stacked together with the other scripts you left unread for the past year, still in your old room. The one you shared with Tom, The same house that Tom lived in now.

You sigh, “I haven’t, but I know where it is.”

“And?”

“It’s in London.”

This gets her attention. “Should we call Troye to get it ready by the time we get back to London?”

“It’s not exactly with Troye at the moment.”

Her eyes widen in realization, “Oh.”

[cygnuswheel]

“ i’ll always be here for ya, sara. “ the words are spoken with incredible heart and hurt, his grip on the girl’s hand never wavering. for some reason, he can’t look back. he can’t look back because when he does, he’ll have to accept the truth of his actions. 

sara is still crying.

“ i promise. “

( at chapter 1′s end, the world divulges down a different path. a world with just two people, one way out, and nine souls’ hands clamped down firmly around their throats. )

sara chidouin was a strange girl, that was for sure. with her lopsided hair and tendency to speak in a more brusque manner, joe had no problem when it came to thinking that she was the coolest person in class. and, as a boy with no shame like him, why wouldn’t he approach her outright to talk? ( even if it had slammed him in the face, he would be able to say that he tried.and really, in the end, isn’t that all that matters? ) 

with a leap of faith and a smile armed to the teeth with pure sunshine, it had only been a matter of time before they had grown as thick as thieves, a pair of best friends that no one could deny. sara chidouin and joe tazuna. and ryoko too, actually. that makes three, doesn’t it? just a small group of high school kids trying their best to make it though life. wasn’t that idyllic? 

still, in a situation like this, joe can’t help but be relieved that it had only been the two of them that had been caught, leaving ryoko behind. sure, she would be confused, scared, and looking for them-- but that was on the outside of this prison. away from the traps, the doll limbs and the faulty lighting. it would only have to be one person he’d need to look after then. one friend is much easier to protect than two, no matter how lonely you feel.

so why was it that the world decided to give him the sacrifice of all things? a room that had once brought him comfort and solace strikes an undeniable chill that catches itself in his throat, as he can only stare and stare and stare and stare and stare. 

in what world... was this fair? what had he done wrong? was it a sin to care for others during a death game? had it considered him foolish? easy picking for the first crop that the floor master had to cull in order for the group to move forward? there are so many thoughts, so many questions, but no answers. joe ponders for what feels like days, but comes up with nothing. thinking hadn’t been his strong point, rather, that was reserved for his partner in this whole ordeal: sara.

surely, surely if sara saw it her own face would become pale as sheet, right? she would sob and beg and panic and give him all of the feelings that she had been trying so desperately to keep inside, for both everyone’s sake and her own. if she had lost her cool, everyone wouldn’t be able to trust her as they had already grown to do.

it’s like she herself was the sun, with everyone revolving around her. while joe had thought of sara as a unique person ( totally off the walls amazing! ), something about this situation had... awakened something, deep within her. a passionate flame, a charisma that none could imitate. she was absolutely breathtaking. what a ingenius best friend he had been blessed with.

which is why when she looks at him with fearful eyes and unwanted confidence, joe lets her point towards him to announce that he is the sage.

it must have been how he had been acting. a worried disposition twisted together with an unwavering faith in her declaration as keymaster, he had stayed by her side and supported her, through and through. it was only natural. sara wasn’t the type to lie-- and, well, if she was, it would all be for a greater cause in the end anyway. he knew that. deep in his heart, he could not find a single shred of disbelief attached to her shining countenance. if there ever had been, he had cast it aside long ago. he had already seen someone die, here. he wasn’t going to abandon her, never, never, never.

for a moment, he catches someone’s eye across the room-- a blank, neverending black, ladle pressed gently against his chin as he looks the boy down with a terrifying glare, his gaze never leaving for even a moment. does... does he know? he can’t know, right? sara had convinced everyone in the room of his role in this main game! it should be fine, right? right, kai satou? joe can already feel the sweat beginning to pill on his neck and face, starting to drip down and soak into his clothing.

liar. he’s a liar. that’s right, he was doing something wrong, something completely underhanded. something that could be considered to be pure evil. these people... were all human beings too, right? they had lives to go back to, dreams to fulfill, families and friends to reunite with. for a split second, joe sees ryoko, staring him down with large, fearful eyes, asking him over and over: “ what have you done? what have you done? what have you done? “ the homemaker’s gaze ushers his attention once more though, expression smooth and seemingly endless. 

... and then, kai nods.

what? ... what? he couldn’t have. no, that must have been a trick of the light-- something summoned from his panic to make him feel better, anything. he was getting psyched out, right? everyone’s eyes were on him, after all. there was no escaping their judgement, but still... he feels something. a message, a wish. something that kai wanted only him to know.

“ take care of her. “

when voting begins, joe can barely keep his head screwed on straight. the crowd assembled had been convinced that he was the safest option to keep their own hearts in their chests, their votes in tune with his heartbeat, a constant thump, thump, thump. he catches sara staring at him again, face drawn into a frown with a look of pure agony on her face. ( he wishes that he could reassure her-- but he had tried again and again, and only served to make her feel even worse. she had been the one to expose him, after all. ) the floor master watches on with delight, a certain glint in her eye that seems directed at him specifically. suddenly, she stands.

“ alright now, dear participants! “ miley exclaims with a sickening cheerfulness on her face, and all joe can think of at the sight of it is rotten candy. ( rotten, rotten, all of this was so rotten. none of this should have happened in the first place. if it hadn’t, she wouldn’t have forced him to become rotten himself. ) “ that would be the end of it. let us display the results now... “ 

god, god, god, the ringing in his head is so loud. he wants it to stop, he wants everything to stop. all he can think of right now are apologies, apologies to everyone looking at the screen right now, seeing the votes tally, tally, tally...

“ NO!! “

The scream is so loud compared to the silence that had overtaken the room mere moments earlier, and it repeats once more--

“ no!! p-please, not joe-- “ the rushed sound of footsteps. sara practically leaps onto her best friend, arms gripped so tightly around him that he can’t breathe. miley looks over, distaste apparent at the blatant display of attachment. ( deal with it, he thought as arms wrapped gently around the girl. you did this yourself. )

“ don’t worry, sara chidouin. you’ll both be fine. “ the phrase pushes everyone off balance, and they look about in confusion. their votes had said otherwise, right? “ for you see, the roles would be... “

when the first title spoken and claimed was sage, horror passes over everyone’s expressions, the blood draining from their face. he can feel it, now. everyone’s eyes on him as miley continues on with the keymaster. sara chidouin isn’t smiling at the confirmation of her claims, though; instead, she’s stone still in joe’s arms, unmoving, barely breathing. when the boy looks down, he sees clouded over purple irises staring back at him in complete terror. “ you lied to me, “ they seem to say.

“ you betrayed me. “

“ in a stunning turn of events, it appears that the sacrifice has won! their goal completed, they are allowed to walk free with a person of their choice. i believe that you have already decided who you will kill for... “ with a flare of the cards in her hand, the floor master fans hides her face behind the illustration of four skulls, the fifth middle card bearing the face of... “ isn’t that right, joe tazuna? “

the statement snaps something in him. in a flurry of movement, joe lets go of sara, pushing her away only to pull her back in again, this time with his hand grabbing hers and holding on with a steeled grip, and he runs.

he runs away from miley’s laughter down the hallway into the open stairwell, going up and up and up. but there’s no escaping it. as if the walls themselves are made of speakers, her cackle continues ever onward, as nao’s scream permeates through his skull and he hears a soft “ thank you “ from kai, before a large squelching noise blocks out any chance of him saying another word. everyone else joins in after that, and its in the most bone chilling way that he could imagine.

“ i’m sorry-- “ sara chokes out as she hears gin’s cry, struggling to keep up with joe’s ever quickening steps. “ i’m sorry, i’m sorry, i’m sorry-- “ q-taro’s howl of pain rattles his chest, worming into his heart and making it all the harder to breathe. he can hear sou cursing, spiting the world itself as he promises that even from hell, he’ll find a way to kill a certain joe tazuna. “ i’m so sorry, i’m so-- “ was that a series of cracking with nao egokoro? her crying is so soft and so wet sounding, and she keeps repeating the phrase of “ i don’t want to die, i don’t want to die, i don’t want to die. “ “ i’m sorry-- “ keiji was such a stoic, easygoing type, joe didn’t think that he would be shaken by anything. but that impression stops as soon as he hears the other scream in pain, a certain ripping sound echoing and echoing and echoing god please please please make it stop. please stop making kanna cry, please stop calling her a sister killer, please please please. “ i-i-- “ why were reko and alice together? who would make them die together like this? just how far was the organization willing to go to stick to their sick rules? why would you leave gin all alone, a so, so, so small child to be the last one to go? why would you make it so slow, so painful, so sharp. “ i hate needles, mrow! “ he exclaims, as he cries and cries and cries. “ i-i hate big bro joe and big sis sara too! “ joe feels something wet in the corners of his eyes. “ i- i don’t want to die, woof! mom! mom--!! “ the boy is quick to wipe them away as they pick up the pace, closer and closer to that light, that salvation, that escape that they had wanted so desperately to get from the beginning. the girl isn’t saying anything anymore, but her footsteps finally fall into sync with his own, quick and desperate, and oh so sorry.

“ i-i’ll always be here for ya, sara. “ the words are spoken with incredible heart and hurt, his grip on the girl’s hand never wavering. for some reason, he can’t look back. he can’t look back because when he does, he’ll have to accept the truth of his actions.

sara is still crying.

“ i promise. “

[superleeleehipster]

I haven’t said much in regards to recent spoilers and what will happen tonight during the finale b/c, if I’m honest, everybody has basically said exactly what I think about this new development and what it could possibly mean about our favorite couple.

But before the episode airs (I know it was leaked but I’m just going to wait until it airs tonight to watch it b/c my wifi sucks), I just figured I’d throw in my two cents into this already blazing inferno that is now the Caryl fandom once again.

Spoilers and thoughts on thangs below the cut...

From what I’ve heard both from TSDF as well as the folks who’ve already watched it, I’m actually very excited about this episode and what it’ll mean for Caryl. I know I wouldn’t be the only one to admit that, when the Carzekiel spoilers first came out, I was pissed off and much of my hope for Angela K to bring my favorite show back was shot down (not all of it, but quite a bit of it). Now with what is going to happen in the finale, I see now that it was supposed to be written this way because it was supposed to come full circle.

And I will humbly admit, that it seems to be one of the best written arcs/circles between two characters I’ve ever seen in this show...

Now in regards to the Carzekiel relationship, after recent spoilers, it pretty much confirmed to me all of the arguments that we have been saying all this time. That relationship was safe, it was convenient, it was normal, things that Carol had wanted for a while. But the catalyst of that relationship has always been Henry. Henry helped Carol through her self torture from the last few seasons by showing her that she can keep him safe and that he is worth trying to save. That she shouldn’t turn a blind eye and push him away. She couldn’t help but fall in love with that kid, so she moved to the Kingdom after Henry had asked if she could move there. And with the motherly bond she had made with Henry, it was a no brainer to allow a relationship to form between her and Ezekiel b/c he’s Henry’s adopted father.

In the early part of this season, we saw how Carol wasn’t really into the idea of marrying Zeke. But it is only when, after she glances at Henry, that she decides to put the ring on her finger. She doesn’t do it for herself and Ezekiel, she does it for Henry more than anything. She wanted to give Henry what she couldn’t give Sophia, and that was a loving family with a good life. She did what she sought to do with Tobin, which was create as normal of a life as you could in the zombie apocalypse by playing house and raising a child with a loving husband and father. That was the dream she had that I’m sure she had wanted for Sophia but her biological father was nothing more than a sperm donor who abused her mother. With Henry, she was able to live that dream for the both of them. 

Was she ever in love with Ezekiel? I’m sure she was in some way, but I don’t think it was a soulmate kind of love, especially with what will happen in 9x16. I think she wanted to fulfill that dream within herself of wanting the normal life she never had, and give it to Henry b/c Sophia never got it. I also think she in some ways became secondary to Ezekiel b/c she just wanted to make him happy. The Carol we knew wouldn’t waste time, energy, or ppl over a lightbulb for a movie, but she did it b/c she knew it was Ezekiel’s positivity and dream that was at stake. She changed some of herself to accommodate his dreams, and she settled as well. So that’s why it’s not so much of a shocker that the moment Henry was killed, it popped their blissfully ignorant bubble that Carzekiel had created for themselves. It was an extremely heavy dose of reality, and because of the loss of that catalyst, their marriage crumbled very quickly. 

Now keep in mind I’m not saying that the death of the child equals the death of the marriage, far from it. I personally know real life couples who’ve lost kids via miscarriages, stillbirths, or accidents past the womb, and every single one of them had held each other up and became stronger with each other. In Carzekiel’s case, however, we can see partially why their relationship in particular had disintegrated. 

Carol wasn’t confiding in Ezekiel, and instead, confiding in the man whom she would deem as her best friend. Some could argue it was b/c she didn’t want to put even more pain on Ezekiel b/c he was the coparent in all this, and some could say it’s because she didn’t feel comfortable enough talking to him about it. We may never know for certain. But considering how jealous Ezekiel seems to be about Carol confiding in Daryl instead of him makes me question why she wouldn’t go to Ezekiel in the first place. Obviously the man wants her to talk to him but she’s not, so it does make you wonder if she trusts him or feels comfortable enough to do so. Which brings a whole new list of questions as to how strong their relationship was IN GENERAL b/c you would think she would feel confident enough to talk to him after being together with the man for 7 years, but hey, I’m no relationship expert...

Anyways, I find it interesting that Carol would rather speak to Daryl about her woes, and I find it very interesting the differences in how both men interact/react in regards to Carol. Ezekiel has always been a bit forceful when it comes to Carol. Not in a horrible abusive/Ed kind of way, just more of a manipulative way. He never let her be in S7 even when she asked him not to come, and kept hounding her to marry him even when she said no initially. In 9x16, he apparently speaks for her as he’s telling Daryl that he shouldn’t stay in Hilltop, that he’d rather spend some alone time with Carol. That manipulative tendency comes out full force when he tries to use Daryl’s own emotions against him to try and convince him to not stay at Hilltop.

Daryl on the other hand, questioned him immediately and asked “is that what Carol wants?”. Same situation when Daryl and Carol spoke at the Sanctuary, where Daryl (that amazingly selfless and precious man) wants whatever Carol wants to happen, happen. Her happiness is above his, first and foremost. If she tells him she wants to stay in Hilltop and he needs to leave ASZ so she could work on her marriage, you bet your ass Daryl would swallow his pride and do it because that’s what kind of man he is. He loves her unconditionally, which means he will do anything for her in spite of his own personal pain. That’s the amazing difference between the two men that Carol could see right away. Daryl will do anything for her happiness, and Ezekiel will do anything for his own happiness. 

So Carol decides to end things with Ezekiel because 1) he was being an ass to her best friend, and 2) she knew that she needed to do some healing and she couldn’t do it with Ezekiel. That latter reason is very significant to me b/c of that conversation she had with Zeke in S8. How she credited the ppl she was with for saving her after Sophia died and that she could come back again and again if she had to. But her decision to end things with Ezekiel tells me she knows she might not come back if she stays with him. All the same that she knows that she could heal and recuperate from this recent trauma by staying with Daryl and TF. She chose Daryl over Ezekiel b/c she knows that it will help her in the end. They may not be canon yet but holy jesus that speaks for itself how strong the Carzekiel ship itself actually was. 

I know someone else had mentioned this before (I think it was you @silversundown2) that it is more powerful that Carol had ended the relationship instead of finding Ezekiel’s head on the pike b/c she ended that relationship willingly instead of a death, and I have to agree. What happens in 9x16 feels like both Daryl and Carol come to a full circle. The beginning of the season you find Carol living in her fairytale with Ezekiel, describing it as “really nice” comparatively to her relationship with Ed. Yet she was still hesitant to marry him. It wasn’t until she decided for Henry’s sake to say yes. On the other hand, Daryl was still reeling over the effects of what happened with the Saviors. He didn’t trust them at all, and just wanted to get away and go back to how it was before. Daryl and Carol even had a conversation at the Sanctuary about their woes. 

Fast track to 9x16, and Caryl has another conversation at the Sanctuary, where Carol realizes that what’s best for her is to stay with Daryl and TF at Alexandria, not Ezekiel. And Daryl is going to stay with Lydia b/c he’s taken it upon himself to make sure that she’s okay and to take care of her by going to ASZ w/ TF. Both Daryl and Carol are wanting to take care of Lydia b/c they recognize themselves in her from their own past, and of course she reminds at least Carol of Sophia. Instead of running away from their demons (Carol) or taking out their anger on everything else in a vengeful irrationality (Daryl), we see them decide to go back to where they believe is the best place for both of them to heal, and to help Lydia heal from her traumas as well... 

A FULL CIRCLE

I can go on and on about how this development has basically destroyed all other paths like Miley Cyrus’s wrecking ball and left only one way to go from here, but I think I’ll save that for another post b/c this one is already long enough. 

Caryl on my loves, and enjoy tonight’s episode!!

Gif credit to @lapicesypantones. If you don’t follow her PLEASE DO BECAUSE HER ARTWORK IS BALLS TO THE WALLS AMAZING!!

[cherriipeachcreme]

Witch’s Heart + YTTD Crossover AU

I’ve mentioned that I was coming up with a crossover AU involving Witch’s Heart and Kimi ga Shine for a while, and here are some of the details so far! I really liked coming up with ideas for this. More info including potential spoilers will be under the cut.

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The setting may take place in a fictional island region containing both Eastern and Western elements. It is set in the modern era but may have more old-fashioned things mixed in. I’ll be sure to do research on this to keep things accurate.

Main Characters:

Claire Yabusame; Claire with the Reko’s role. A cheerful, friendly woman with a love for music. She was adopted by an old couple, and has spent much of her life helping others and following a music career. “The Witch’s Heart” is one of her favorite book series’, consisting of many different stories. She enjoys both punk things and girly things.

Noel Egokoro; Noel with Nao’s role. A kind, polite artist who has an interest in astronomy. While he seems mysterious to many people, he’s very attached to his friends, such as Claire, Sirius, and Professor Mishima. He often sleeps more during the day and is active at night.

Sirius Yabusame/Gibson; Possibly Sirius with Gonbee’s role? A short-tempered man who highly admires and respects Lady Dorothy, a well known witch. He seems to know Claire but doesn’t say much about it. Although he prefers to keep to himself, he can show kindness to others at times.

Shunsuke “Shun” Hiyori; Ashe with Sou’s role, but more similarities between the two are mixed in. He comes across as friendly and laid back, but also keeps his distance from others except those he’s closer to. His hobbies/skills include reading, cooking, and computer hacking. He doesn’t trust witches, and seems to have an ulterior motive involving the mysterious “game.”

Wilardo Satou; Wilardo with Kai’s role. A quiet person who doesn’t say much about himself, but is willing to work with the others to escape the “Sacrifice Game.” He had found a job in helping people with housework and flower arranging. He often doesn’t show fear regarding the monsters that roam around the building.

Keiji Shinogi

Kazumi Mishima

Gin Ibushi

Kanna or Hinako (+ Kugie or Anzu)

Qtaro or Naomichi

Demons, floormasters of the games;

Giselle/Zizel Sue-Miley [The Laughing Demon]; Giselle with Miley’s role. An elegant but sadistic demon who enjoys the killing/sacrifice games and tormenting others. She doesn’t care much for their lives and finds their reactions amusing. She seems to be following her own agenda alongside Rouge.

Charlotte Rio-Ranger [The Fashion Demon]; Charlotte with Ranger’s role. A cruel demon with a fairly childish disposition. She also enjoys the suffering of others, having a very low view on humans, and speaks in a rough tone. She likes fashion and works with Lime.

Lime Tia-Safalin [The Crying Demon]; Lime with Safalin’s role. Despite her title, she shows a relatively cheerful and peppy personality. She’s mainly in charge of the facility’s medical office and offers hospitality to others. She also likes to surround herself with lavish things. However, she has a dark side which shows her true nature. She mainly works with Charlotte.

Rouge; One of the floormasters who is working with Giselle. She’s also very narcissistic and sadistic.

Nicholas Egokoro [The Receptionist Demon]; Nicholas with Gashu’s role. He is first referenced in a newspaper article Shun found. Once the governor of a town, he became a researcher of negativity, especially since that is the specialty of demons.

The prologue shows Claire having a dream of her childhood with her close friend. After that, the story begins with a scene of her returning home after exploring the mountains and finding a field of flowers. It starts to rain and eventually she falls unconscious, awakening in a mysterious building/facility. (Not sure how exactly this would go yet)

She and a few people face a “First Trial”, running into many strange monsters and having to fight them off. They succeed, and while trying to find an exit, they fall and find themselves in the main floor with everyone else.

There are windows in the facility, but while peering out they realize that there is no way out and they are all trapped. They must learn more about the mysterious “Sacrifice Game”, and try to survive.

The Sacrifice Game is revealed to be run by the demons, who claim that the winner must also discover the legend of the Witch’s Heart.

~ Spoilers Ahead!! ~

The characters must help various demons with side quests. Doing so will help them with exploration and finding clues within the building.

“Shun’s” real name is Ashe Tsukimi. He deliberately joined the Killing Game because he wanted to grant a wish with the Witch’s Heart. However, when he was told he has a 0% chance of survival and granting his wish, he chooses a new name.

He hates witches because of the rumored connection to them with someone who betrayed him in the past and killed his family.

Nicholas was an evil man and Noel’s father. He turned his townspeople against witches, and raised his son to become an assassin. Although he’s already dead, a doll replica was made of him in the facility possibly using demon magic and advanced technology. His doll along with the demons value negative things since they are contrary to positivity.

During his childhood, Noel was not used to things such as love and friends. When meeting Claire and Sirius, he realizes what affection is like and highly values their friendship.

Demon magic and technology was also used to create doll and AI replicas of the participants, and analyze their lives as if they’ve been studied for years.

The legend of the Witch’s Heart involves finding a gemstone made of crystallized blood and making a wish. Claire possesses the Witch’s Heart, which is her literal heart. She is the granddaughter of the witch Dorothy.

Wilardo was in search of a way to get rid of his immortality, as he became immortal due to contact with the Black Lily. But upon finding the facility, he realizes that he gets in the Death Game.

Charlotte and Lime are Hater Demons; Those who were previously human but due to tragedy and negative emotions they became demons after their deaths. Giselle and Rouge are Purebred Demons, those who were demons their entire existence. They are quite prideful of their status.

When Charlotte became a demon, she developed strong jealousy and an inferiority complex toward humans, which is the reason of her disdain toward them. Realizing she was a tool for war throughout her previous life fuels this hatred for humanity.

The real reason why Lime is the “Crying Demon” is because of her cruel past. For her entire human life she was labeled as a “witch,“ and had no freedom and dealt with abuse along with other witches. She swore revenge by cursing/hexing everyone in her town during her death. She wants others to suffer as she did, and is searching for someone who is just as miserable as her.

The demons have been around for thousands of years, while Wilardo has only lived for centuries.

[ashleigh-inyourdreams]

Are you a pretty girl? Are you angry...or maybe just a little bored? Do you like to play with your food? This playlist is for you.

For Ashleigh’s Wampus playlist, I decided to choose songs themed around the competition itself, and inspired by BLACKPINK-- so the first half of it is the “pink” sound and the second half is the “black” sound. ;) For the full experience, I’ve linked the KPOP music videos because, well, they’re the best, they’re the mood. Enjoy! 

Ddu-ddu-ddu - BLACKPINK

When we want, we’ll steal outright Whatever you do, it’s like cutting water with a knife Our hands are full of a fat check If you’re curious, fact check My expectations are higher It’s like fish in water I’m a little Toxic You’ve fallen for me, I`m Foxy

Oh wait til’ I do what I do Hit you with that ddu-du ddu-du du

Let’s start our Melee with this powerful declaration of war from BLACKPINK, America’s #fave girl-crush kpop group. This entire song is all about that girl-power, which introduces the theme of Ashleigh’s playlist. I also like that it flows very smoothly between hard-hitting rapping and some melodic pre-chorus sections, two whiplash moods that will be reflected here in this playlist. One of my favorite lines comes in the pre-chorus: “I only smile for myself.” In the end, even if she and Corny do win, she’ll be doing it one hundred percent for Ashleigh and Ashleigh only.

Cannibal - Kesha

I eat boys up, breakfast and lunch Then when I'm thirsty, I drink their blood Carnivore, animal, I am a Cannibal I eat boys up, you better run

Keeping the beat pumping, this song speaks to the raw animalistic power of the Wampus in a pretty literal fashion. I don’t really know what else to say because I feel like Kesha’s really got it covered, in her embrace of her physical and sexual appetite. For Ashleigh, this appetite translates to the thirst for battle and her hunger for victory. So watch out other champions-- she’ll attacc and turn u into snacc

Icy - ITZY

What can I do though I seem cold? I don't care what you think because I'm cool oh, oh, oh Come on With confidence let it go (Here we go) Marching on the streets (On a roll) Background music where I be Bomb, bomb, bomb, bomb

Icy but I'm on fire A dream inside me, I'm confident Look at me, I'm not a liar I don't want to be put in your box (Dance)

I picked this song because its fun, erratic, percussive-- basically one big wink emoji to me, which you hear in every interesting sound in this song (you have like, three different types of drums, a cash register sound, the sound of glass breaking??, some cellphone noises??). The attitude of this song tells you that Ashleigh does not give a single fuck, and the lyrics reflect that: “They keep talking/I keep walking.” It’s also about embracing a flaw and turning it into a strength-- some people call her ‘icy’ but she says that makes her ‘cool.’  I also love the fun drum break-down in the middle of the song right before the bridge, which feels like Ashleigh flaunting everything that she’s got.

Birthday- SOMI

Oops, you're not invited Yeah, you're not invited Oops, you're not invited I'm gonna do what I want today Everyday is my birthday

Honestly, half of the reason I included this is because the lead in from ICY to Birthday is so smooth and fun.

But yeah! Another song about celebrating yourself, literally. It feels appropriate for a playlist themed around the melee for there to be a song announcing that its Ashleigh’s birthday. In my opinion, that’s basically her way of saying that this championship is really just about her and the rest of y’all are just bystanders, thank you.

also the brass at the end omfsalkgjadf

When I Rule the World - Liz

When I rule the world, then I'm gonna make you sweat Dog collar 'round your neck, on your knees and scrub the deck Oh there's a spot over there so I'll drag you by the hair So scrub it, rub it, whip it, dry it, 'til I tell you to stop When I'm on the throne, it's a total freak zone You can call me mommy and I'll throw a dog a bone Better bite on that bone, or you're never going home So bite it, break it, hit it, lick it, 'til I tell you to stop

Obviously, this is Ashleigh already basking in her inevitable victory. I like that the lyrics infantilize her audience while also leaning into that infantilization-- the high feminine “baby” voice, for example. The instrumental reflects that with its bright, bubbly songs, though there’s a dark undercurrent that draws from dubstep.

Also, shoutout to this line-- “I can be your daddy and you're gonna make me proud.” Please someone call Ashleigh Daddy.

Boo! Bitch - Kim Petras

No lyrics for this one, but we’re continuing our EDM thread here. I love all the dark beats and samples in this mini little dance-break as we move into the second half of our playlist. While the first half is more playful-- speaking to Ashleigh’s performance of the rich, mean girl-- I like to think the second half takes the competition more seriously. She’s not just pretty, she’s deadly.

disco tits - tove lo

I'm sweatin' from head to toe I'm wet through all my clothes I'm fully charged, nipples are hard Ready to go (oh, oh) I'm sweatin' from head to toe I'm wet through all my clothes (yeah) I'm fully charged, nipples are hard Ready to go

This could technically be interpreted as a pretty straightforward song about sex, but for Ashleigh competition is sex. Winning is better than any orgasm. The entire song has lots of gritty dark synths too and that’s the vibe we’re going for people.  

Bad guy - billie eilish

So you're a tough guy Like it really rough guy Just can't get enough guy Chest always so puffed guy I'm that bad type Make your mama sad type Make your girlfriend mad tight Might seduce your dad type I'm the bad guy, duh

I would include this classic billie eilish song for the “duh” alone. Billie Eilish is THE Ashleigh musician who is surprised, no one. Anyway, this whole song is the exact mood I’m going for here. I love Billie’s seductive whisper, the distortion on her confessed “I’m the bad guy” as though the demon is about to rip through. The ending also reminds me of those scenes in horror movies where the possessed person’s limbs start to distort and go every which way.

Mother’s Daughter - Miley Cyrus

Hallelujah, I'm a freak I'm a freak, hallelujah Every day of the week I'ma do ya Like I want to I'm a Nile Crocodile, a Piranha Oh my God, she got the power Oh, look at her, she got the power So-so, so don't fuck with my freedom I came back to get me some I'm nasty, I'm evil Must be something in the water or that I'm my mother's daughter

I love how this song also starts off gritty, like metal scraping against metal. I’m also big on the animal themes as I’m sure people have noticed, but I think that plays into that #wampus beast energy. Finally, this song is a really nice allusion to Wampus Ashleigh’s veela heritage on the downlow. Though she’d never be open about it, veelas are female, and so her true mother would inevitably be a full veela, as fierce and dangerous as the myths suggest. So this song is a cool nod to that and Ashleigh’s inhuman side.

Play destroy - Poppy

Poppy, I'm dying It's a Hollywood moment Destroy, destroy, destroy Destroy, destroy, destroy It's time to die Uh! This is how we play destroy, destroy

Now let’s ramp it all the way up! This song is vicious and creepy, from the hard metal rock orchestration to Poppy’s soft, girly vocals. I LOVE the “It’s a Hollywood moment” lyric because it’s like something out of a horror movie when one of those creepy dolls come to life. So this song is definitely building to the climax of the competition as Ashleigh revels in the violence, the blood, the pain.

Kill this Love - BLACKPINK

Feelin' like a sinner It's so fire with him I go boo, hoo He said "you look crazy" Thank you baby I owe it all to you Got me all messed up His love is my favorite But you plus me Sadly can be dangerous

Ending off our playlist, we must, yes, literally kill this love. It’s about ending a relationship but I’m interpreting it as the murdering of all your soft emotions and your weaknesses. It’s time to get down to business and finish off this game. Plus ugh-- the sirens! The marching! The air horns! That ending goes from 50 to 25000 and that’s how any Wampus ends her victims: not with a whimper, but a bang.