they should hire me as like a stunt double but for when they need someone to express screaming and falling to their knees and tearing at their clothes levels of grief in movies and shows. not only would i be great at it but i think that a regularly scheduled cathartic wail would do things not even the best medication and therapy money can buy could for my mental health. you wouldn't even have to pay me i'd just show up ready to go like a working dog finally getting an opportunity to fulfil its life's purpose.
I'm rereading Lockwood & Co. and I just started The Screaming Staircase and. the thought of little 8-year-old Lucy Carlyle walking around in an agency uniform actually makes me so sick to my stomach.
I requested a Cameo from Glen McCready of Zevlor accepting a romance with Tav during the celebration.
I cried! I'm so happy, I also lack the words to fully express how much I love this. It fulfilled my dream of romancing Zevlor, a dream I think I share with many others here ❤️ Transcript and more thoughts below.
Artwork mentioned at the end: [Home]
[Lord Byron poem only]
“Hello Tav. Hello Christine. I understand you would like to hear Zevlor accepting a romance at the celebration. Well, how would that play out?
As you know I am, and have always been, through some work of fate or some curse, or some magical interference, I’ve always been unromanceable. And yet, standing before you now, in the firelight, I feel…feelings I’ve never felt. Never dared imagined I would feel. I lack the words to fully express all that is within my heart but there is a poem I’ve always loved by Lord Byron. “She walks in beauty” and for me it describes you more perfectly than I could ever dare hope. And it reads like this:
She walks in beauty, like the night
Of cloudless climes and starry skies;
And all that’s best of dark and bright
Meet in her aspect and her eyes;
Thus mellowed to that tender light
Which heaven to gaudy day denies.
One shade the more, one ray the less,
Had half impaired the nameless grace
Which waves in every raven tress,
Or softly lightens o’er her face;
Where thoughts serenely sweet express,
How pure, how dear their dwelling-place.
And on that cheek, and o’er that brow,
So soft, so calm, yet eloquent,
The smiles that win, the tints that glow,
But tell of days in goodness spent,
A mind at peace with all below,
A heart whose love is innocent!
Now, before my courage ups and flees, I beg you: kiss me.
How was that? It’s hard, it’s hard when the character is not romanceable but I did my best. And your artwork is stunning. Absolutely stunning. Thank you for sharing it. Take care, and remember, should you ever need it, you have family in Baldur’s Gate.”
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I did not expect him to quote a poem at all. I love poetry, it's how I started my writing journey, and they hold a special place in my heart. This made me very emotional. I'm over the moon right now!!
I have this hc where Zevlor usually doesn't verbalize what he wants. He puts everyone else above himself, and his own needs are an afterthought. So for Glen to play him as begging for a kiss from Tav? My heart is full. Overflowing with love for Zevlor and Glen for playing him so perfectly 😭❤️
Tommy has run into Sal more than a few times since he left the 118, but it’s infrequent enough that his heart still clenches painfully in his chest when he sees him.
He thinks a part of him will always feel something for Sal. He was the best friend he had for a really long time. He was the first guy Tommy ever let himself do anything with. He was the first guy who broke his heart.
So when he runs into Sal with Evan by his side, at the fucking grocery store of all places, his heart gives a traitorous little lurch in his chest.
And listen, he’s happy. He’s so fucking happy with Evan.
But every single time he’s run into Sal in the past, they’ve ended up in bed together.
If they ran into each other at the badge and ladder bar, Tommy would stick around past when his coworkers left and at the end of the night, he’d end up back at Sal’s place. If they ran into each other on a call, there would be a text on his phone after he got back to the station and he’d find himself letting Sal into his house when their shifts were over.
It helped that none of the times he ran into Sal had been when he was seriously dating someone, but he can’t be one hundred percent positive it would have mattered if he were.
Something about Sal had always made Tommy a little stupid, a little too quick to do things he knew he shouldn't.
The two of them together were electric in a way he wasn’t with anyone else he’d dated.
THIS HURTS THIS HURTS SO MUCH EVERY TIME I LOOK AT IT BC MEGUMI HAS BEEN ON HIS OWN THIS WHOLE TIME DROWNING IN THE ABYSS, UNABLE TO DO ANYTHING BUT WATCH AS HE'S FORCED TO HURT THE PEOPLE HE LOVES, THE VERY PEOPLE HES DOING EVERYTHING FOR IN THE FIRST PLACE, HIS SISTER, HIS FRIENDS, HIS PARENTAL FIGURE- SO OF COURSE HE CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE OF COURSE HE'S LOST ALL HOPE IM THINKING ABT HOW ALONE HES BEEN FEELING THIS WHOLE TIME AND HOW HELPLESS AND I WANT TO THROW UP PLEASE YUJI PLEASE SAVE HIM BRING HIM INTO THE LIGHT!!!
something something mork excluding himself from every situation bc suddenly he couldn't see where he stood in day's life when he's not family or a friend (technically) or anything more and day feeling that empty space anyway bc mork is more than he thinks
YALL. everyone go watch story of kunning palace i swear it’s worth it im still riding an insane high after i finished it last night.
it’s a very good solid drama for 30 episodes kinda slow burn but well written with good characters and decent plots.
and then in the last 8 episodes, the guy’s sidekick tells him “maybe you should show her how you really feel. show her the real you” and he proceeds to go batshit feral insane. which after watching her pine after and then reject the most morally upright guy ever it fucking WORKS ON HER because she is ALSO insane!!
after that it’s just 8 episodes of him being sloppy desperate for her and begging her to give him an answer while she’s just there buffering because she has to readjust her whole worldview with this news that he’s liked her all along?? she went out to meet her former crush and when she got home he sat her down and made her eat a dinner he made. that was drowning in vinegar. because if he had to drink vinegar then SO SHOULD SHE. and after she doesn’t eat much at dinner he plops down a tray of her favourite cake. that he had given her before earlier in the drama. announces that he made it with his own hands. and she’s like :0 “you made it for me even back then?? but back then we were only….” and he’s immediately like “only? only what? what were we back then? what about now? is it different now? what are we?” and she’s just like .
one thing that stands out to me about the IVF arc is the way that, for as much as i make fun of her for asking her coworker if she can have his babies, scully asking mulder to be involved in the biggest process of her life (and the most important thing in the rest of her life) is such a healing and reverent experience. like he says “i’m absolutely flattered,” but it’s so much more than that. it’s like…spending your whole life feeling like you should’ve died at age twelve and then being told someone just wants more of you, more and more and more, in everything.
I wish that people gave a shit about nonbinary people who don’t use they/them pronouns. You can literally give your friend group (which includes another nonbinary person) a list of your favorite pronouns, none of which include they/them, and mention several times that you don’t like they/them pronouns for yourself, but they’ll make the switch from she/her pronouns to…they/them. And feel super proud of themselves for being sooo progressive as to use they/them pronouns for you….when those aren’t your pronouns.
I think that saying “he she and they are my least favorite but are fine in combination with other things…I’m really fine with any neos but here’s a list of my faves that you can choose from!” Is polite and not a difficult request. I’m not good at being a pushy person, and I shouldn’t need to be.
hi i have a bit of an odd question and im so sorry if it comes off as rude at all!
ive seen a lot of your posts about canes, i have hEDS and chronic pain and im trying to convice my mom and my doctor to let me have a mobility aid. my mom is very adamant that i dont need a cane because i dont have balance issues, but my knees and ankles are pretty much always aching. i was just wondering if you think a cane would help with chronic pain or if i should look into other aids?
Canes can help chronic pain, they are not guaranteed to help you specifically
You can get a cane for ~$30 at most stores and try it out
A physical therapist and/or a specialist in rheum will most likely know more than your PCP about your specific pain and situation
Parents often don't want to admit their kids have health problems
I wish you luck
I won't be answering any more asks about mobility aids.
This is nothing about you specifically, you were not rude, I just get a lot of questions like this in my inbox. It becomes draining to get so many asks with people's personal vents about their medical issues or religious trauma or the homophobic situations they're living in.
While I would love if I could help people, I am not a doctor. I am not a therapist, I am not a social worker. I'm just a random artist on the internet who has EDS and is barely getting by myself.
I prefer to keep my blog about my art and about my work, not about my disability. It is relevant to my work, of course, and discussing my conditions in vague terms in how they relate to themes present in my work is more than okay, but I prefer this space to be dedicated to my work and getting to engage with my readers through my stories.
Personal information about my pain, my medications, my tests my doctors and my trauma are not things I want to make public.
Hey bnd stans, if you're ever reading boynextdoor fanfiction and come across @wonsungno please run away. They've stolen lots of works from another actual author yet they don't see the problem with it?? Idek man this person is veryyyyy delusional.