#someone give me the energy and motivation tonwalk the four steps to the bathroom for ibuprofen

[likehephaestionwhodied]

Melt downs suck but the afterward is even worse. At first it feels better, you can control yourself again, your emotions are chill. But that lasts all of like a minute.

Then all the physical aspects come rushing in. Dis you hit yourself? Something else? You're gonna feel it. Did you cry??? Your eyes are so itchy and dry now also you've got a crying head ache. You never noticed but your jaw was clenched SO TIGHT the whole time and now it hurts so so so bad.

And while all this is happening, while you're noticing bruises or and wishing you could get up for an ibuprofen. You feel the horrible terrible guilt. You just acted like a toddler: scrwaming, crying, hitting things, hitting yourself, throwing things, whatever. You just threw a tantrum like a fucking toddler and you could not stop it. A change in plans, you couldn't find the thing you needed, it's too hot, too cold. Whatever triggered it a ""normal"" person wouldn't have reacted that way. But you couldn't stop yourself.

Did you hurt someone? Scare someone? Break something? What damage did you cause when you felt so so out of control? Can you fix it? (My cat is currently hiding under my table, when will she stop being scared of me I wonder)