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the lost trio is the perfect trio because we have the three necessary elements: can argue, can fight, and starts the fights/arguments. it's also not just third wheeling because any two can casually hang out and its amazing because no one is left out and i could rant about how healthy and amazing they are for an hour but no one wants to fucking listen to that. my boyfriend is almost certainly tired of it so he can go back to everymanhybrid and i sit in the corner foaming at the mouth pointing at the gay boys and gay girls and how amazing they are.
#piper my beloved#both her and leo are starting fights but she's the only one who can handle what she starts#someone tries arguing with jason and leo shouts from afar “OLD MAN YELLS AT CLOUD!” and jason almost breaks from his scary discipline face#he doesn't understand the joke until leo walks hin through it but he still thinks it's kind of cute on its own#piper is dealing with the arguments but she and jason could easily tag team someone#for funsies#leo cheering them on from the background#jasons idea of a “warning” is gently setting a hand on their shoulder and smiling at them with his teeth (wolf threat!)#they are clueless but he is about to fucking rock their shit#pjo#hoo#heroes of olympus#jason grace#leo valdez#piper mclean#the lost trio
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adept magic in skulduggery pleasant is so much fun like the concept of overpowered magic disciplines having extreme weaknesses is very cool when the weakness is a fundamental opposite (fire guy melting in water) and very funny when it's a fuck-you weakness (necromancers being Extremely Vulnerable to pickpocketing)
#doesnt help that people drawn to necromancy are usually giant assholes who refuse to firmly grasp their channels#vengeous has skulduggery's armor rn where im at and i cant stop thinking of how fuckjng annoying that has to be#this assclown says hes now the most powerful sorcerer in the world but thats fucking YOUR magic. and you cant use it because he has it. lmao#says kenna#skulduggery pleasant#i want to know as much as possible about all the different disciplines and creatures why did valkyrie have to be taken under the wing#of someone who lies half the time to make her look stupid and not someone who would explain wtf the warlocks' problem is#also im so embarrassed to say 'like' rn because of skulduggery knowing valkyrie was possessed bc she wasnt saying like constantly 😭#so if you notice me not saying it as much im not possessed also im just seen (negative)
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The burial mounds, a place of mystery, the place of the dead, cannot be comprehended by humans. It is a place warped by time and resentful energy and the intentions of those who inhabit it and who knows what else. It is sentient and has a strong will of its own. It’s said that no one can leave the Burial Mounds, and that is true as much as it’s not. The burial mounds keeps what is theirs; protects what is theirs. No one can escape from the Burial Mounds bc more often than not, once you enter, the Burial Mounds see you as theirs. It does not take well to people hurting and taking what is theirs. (And, maybe this is why a certain demonic cultivator was able to survive and leave that place. Maybe he understood this will and resentment bc he too would do anything to protect those he loves. For him as well, once he considers someone family, they are family. And nothing will change that. No matter what happens, his family is his family, and those under his protection are fully under his protection. They can see a kindred spirit in each other, and so the Burial Mounds let him go, knowing that he will always carry part of the Burial Mounds with him. The souls in his sleeves and the resentful energy he welcomes into his body. The boon that the Burial Mounds grants him.)
It is for these reasons that WWX knows to bring the Wen remnants there. Not only does he know he can defend them if needed in that place teeming with resentment, he knows the Burial Mounds themselves will protect them. It protects its own, and the Burial Mounds knows these people that WWX brought are his, so they are its. It’s as simple as that. And, the Burial Mounds likes it. It likes having these people here, milling about and carving a life on it. It likes how they turns its soil from barren to fruitful. It likes how they are happy and content. It likes being their home and haven. It will do anything to protect them.
When the first siege comes, the Burial Mounds try to protect what is theirs. These people who have made a home on it. But, they are all grieving deeply, and it’s beautiful child, the first to even understand them and want to make peace with them instead of destroying them, is breaking apart. He is breaking apart with the weight of someone who could not protect that which is most precious to him. And he has been breaking with this weight for months now, every day chipping another piece of himself away, every day pulling further and further into himself, every day driving him just a little more insane. The Burial Mounds have no problem with madness. They will still embrace him fully and without question, but it pains them to see him like this. They are all breaking under the pressure of what the world outside its borders do. This is no longer their haven, but now their place of imminent doom. It is only a matter of time until the cultivators attack. The Burial Mounds fights back as it always does to protect those that are its. But, some of these living cultivators attacking are family of WWX and it cannot attack family. And, it knows that even should he wipe all these harmful intruders out, that will not stop more from coming, and more after that. The Burial Mounds would fight every wave they send, but that is not the issue. The issue is that its people are grieving and breaking. The issue is that it cannot do anything to fix that and every attack will break their spirits just that much more.
So instead, the Burial Mounds decide to change it. As the cultivators pour in, the Burial Mounds pulls its energy from defending and into charging its intention. Some of its people get cut down, but that is fine, it will still work, they do not have to be alive. Just as WWX is about to destroy the Stygian Tiger Amulet (oh, and look at their brave boy, but don’t do that, my child, it will tear you apart) a large pulse of resentful energy ripples out over the battlefield, shaking the ground and seeping into all that is theirs. The air and ground starts to ripple, unstable and warping like swirls of marble, until none can stay standing in this odd happening, toppling over, nauseous from the swirling. Those that are theirs are sucked into the soil, deep into its power, and it embraces them into its depths.
Then—
They open their eyes.
WWX is seven, on the streets of Yiling, and turns his head to the Burial Mounds so close by, calling to him. Come home, my child, it whispers. Come to me; I will protect you.
Wen Ning is eight and Wen Qing 14. They also look in the direction of Yiling—of the Burial Mounds. They too hear the call. There are gasps rippling around their home, and people bursting through doors, embracing each other, crying in joy. Eyes flick around at everyone. They know. All those that were on the Burial Mounds, as well as Wen Qing and Wen Ning remember. They know what Wen Ruohan is planning. They also know what will happen to their real family.
They go to Yiling. Just a few at first. They lost many people in their branch before they were saved by WWX, and those people are more than hesitant to go to that cursed place. Those that remember can’t simply leave them to their fates again. So, some go, while some stay. They will convince the rest later. When they arrive at the base of the Burial Mounds, there is already a large collapse in the wall surrounding it looking to be made recently. The paths open up for them as they start their ascent. The path is just as they remember, the corpses and spirits howling, but leaving them be. They know they are already part of them. Granny Wen and Wen Qing are at the front of the group, leading the way. Wen Qing wishes her brother was there, but that was not something their parents would budge on. They barely let her go, and only because Granny was insisting as well and promised to look after her.
They reach the clearing where their homes were, and there they are. Their little shacks that barely stay standing. The patches of land they’d tilled and toiled over. And there, perched on a tree stump by the side of the road is a boy, even smaller than A-Ning, covered in dirt and grime that can’t all be from the Burial Mounds, spinning a black, bamboo dizi in his tiny hands. He watches them with shining eyes and a large smile they’d know anywhere breaks out on his face, then—
He laughs. The boy laughs loud and clear and bright as he topples off the stump in his joy. Many of them join in the laughter as well. Amazed and in disbelief. Wen Qing, granny, and a few others rush over to the little Wei Wuxian and pull him into a crushing embrace. The laughter soon turns to wracking sobs as they all cling to each other and let it all sink in.
They are alive. They are together.
And, they will make sure it stays that way.
The Burial Mounds hum around them, welcoming them home.
#now they just need to convince the rest of the dafan wen to move into the burial mounds#and stop a war#but that's secondary to keeping their family safe and together#the burial mounds picked up on lwj and wwx's conection#so it brought him back too#one minuet he's lying in bed his back burning from the discipline whip#the next he's eight years old sitting in class at the cloud recesses perfectly fine and uninjured#it is only his YEARS of beaten in composure and naturally stoic face that keep him from whipping his head around and freaking out outwardly#he just *knows* this has to do w/ wei ying especially since he can hear the call as well#bc of this he's not totally freaking out but still#he goes to the burial mounds as soon as he can and all the wen are either confused like wwx about why he was included in this#or laughing their asses off that even the *burial mounds* have picked up on their strong feelings and connection#(don't worry lwj was the only non-wen to be brought back bc even if wwx considers jc his brother the burial mounds isn't going to bring bac#someone who tried to kill the rest of them and lwj is the only person that didn't live there who didn't have any animosity for them)#(unfortunately bc jyl never went up the mountain and stayed in yiling the burial mounds can't form a connection w/ her to bring her back)#mdzs#mo dao zu shi#the grandmaster of demonic cultivation#wei wuxian#wen qing#the burial mounds#sentient burial mounds#time travel au#time travel fix it#mdzs fanfic prompt#mdzs fanfiction prompt#do with this what you will
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Workforce Tuvok is my cringefail babygirl
#why are you a Vulcan suffering from dysphoria syndrome?? So you can get held down by other men???#I really want to know what 'humorous anecdotes' he had to share.....I love him so much#I love that without his Vulcan discipline he becomes even more clearly annoying <3<3 explaining a joke TO the guy who TOLD IT to him#+ laughing SUPER hard at someone else being 'humiliated'#Also Janeway looooves being romantically quirky in an old romance movie way and idk how else to describe it#Neelix: If I had a tarynian nickle for everytime I had to rehabilitate a friend who'd lost all their memories I'd have two nickles#which isn't a lot but-#st voyager memes#bea art tag#OH! Janeway seems like she's two seconds away from swinging herself around a lamp post in the rain with a dazzling smile on her face#Workforce Tuvok (and thus normal Tuvok) contains so many multitudes...he is SO friendly he is VERY annoying he is SCARED of needles#he is OFF putting and PUSHY and he is KIND <3#He seems like if I made a mistake he'd VERY loudly laugh and point it out but also help me correct it while telling a story about himself#Literally a CRIME that Tuvok and Neelix didn't interact in this ep they would've become buds#another crime is that Tuvok does nothing in the second half of the episode v_v not even a little 'ribbon scene' at the end#Janeway: Thank you so much Chakotay and only Chakotay for helping get us all out of there <3#Tuvok in the background: ..........................................................................................#the 'ribbon scene' would have been between him and Seven - she completed the research he started v_v
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You think you can make another marriage contract AU and show us how Gil is careful around her and such? It was such a sweet interaction from the last one I do wish to see it another time in another situation. Pretty please? 💚
"You're doing pretty good," Gilgamesh chuckled, leaving Thena to her chopping now that she seemed to be getting the hang of it. Very slowly, but still.
"You don't have to patronise me," she muttered as she sliced through the onion carefully. He had already done the cross chopping for her, all she had to do now was slice down straight.
"I'm not, I'm not, I really think you're doing great." He looked over his shoulder again but Thena was almost leaned down to be eye level with her task at hand. She really was terrible in the kitchen, but it was nothing short of charming.
Gil opened up the higher cabinets to retrieve some wine glasses for them. Thena didn't have a habit of drinking, but he had seen her enjoy a glass of wine with dinner here or there. And he'd brought home some nice champagne that he'd gotten out of a business deal. After he'd wiped the blood off the label, of course. "Y'know, I think-"
The glass slipped from his fingers on its way down, its large and crystal figure shattering on the kitchen floor. It was sharp against the serenity of the smooth music he'd selected for the quiet evening.
"Ay shi-" he cursed, stepping back in his house slippers. He looked over, the yelp that had hit the air registering in his mind. He frowned, "Thena?"
She had let out the sound of panic and ducked down. She was crouched on her knees, arms curled over her head. It was a reflex, based on pure instinct. And he hated to see it.
He left the glass on the floor. He could tend to it in a minute. He walked carefully, trying to approach her as gently as possible. "I'm sorry, Thena."
She was shaking. But she peeked out at him, shame written all over her face. "S-Sorry, I didn't-"
"Don't be sorry," he soothed, placing his hands on her shoulders. He helped her stand and lean on the counter. "It scared me, too. Are you okay?"
She nodded, but he could see the trembling in her fingers.
He took her hand in his, "come on, let's sit down."
She didn't argue with him, which was as good a sign as any that she wasn't feeling her best. She let him lead her to the couch, "I'm fine, Gil, really."
He liked it when she called him Gil. "You don't have to be. I'm sorry I startled you."
She shook her head, but a familiar look of annoyance came over her. "No, I...I would like nothing more than to say it's nothing."
He continued to hold her hand. "Do you want to tell me about it?"
She sighed. She really didn't, but she was going to anyway. She curled her legs up on the couch. He helped her sort out the blanket of his she liked to lay over them. "Would you be surprised if I brought up my father?"
He tried to keep his answers passive and neutral. This was her story, and it wouldn't do any good for him to start cursing about what a rat bastard piece of shit that guy was.
"He became more violent the older I became," Thena recited as if it were blase and not something horrifying. "By the time I was an adult, he realised that I was no longer so easy to intimidate. But throwing things was still effective."
Gil balled his fist up under the blanket. Her father would throw his drink glasses at her? Maybe letting him live wasn't the solution, no matter how much the drunk gambling addict owed him.
"It wasn't every night, but if he really needed something, he would throw anything we had on hand," she concluded. The way she met his eye was a sign that she was done telling the story, and moreover she was done with the vulnerability it took to tell it.
Gil pulled his hand out from the blanket and moved it slowly, making sure it was in her direct line of vision. It was one of those things he had learned was good for her when she had moved in. When she couldn't see all of him was when she was most on edge. So he moved slowly, talked gently.
And not just because of his vow to take care of her as his wife. They didn't have to be married for him to believe that she deserved to be cared for, especially after all she had endured on her own already.
Thena watched as he reached for her hand again. She gave it, and it seemed she was becoming more and more willing to share in those little kinds of affections.
He raised her hand to his lips equally slowly, and she allowed it. For all he had done already to acclimate her to her life being married to him, he was not a barbarian, and he wouldn't force her to accept anything she didn't want. That included the simplest, smallest of things, like a kiss on the hand.
She tilted her head.
"I'm sorry, Thena, I should have been more careful," he resolved, already thinking about having all the glassware moved to lower down, open shelves so there was less chance of a surprise like this.
"It was an accident, Gil, these things are bound to happen," she excused for him, and he thought perhaps too eagerly. She leaned forward in her seat on the couch, towards him. "If anything I wish my reaction could be different."
Why had he spared her father's life? Oh, because he worked for the police department and it always paid to have someone in there under his thumb. But he was seriously reconsidering it now.
"There was a time when I would have said he would never do such a thing."
It was a quiet confession, and she was even smiling. But he knew those words well; he had thought them plenty of times when he was young. But learning the business really beat that mentality away. And Thena didn't deserve to know that firsthand.
"Why don't you sit?" he suggested gently, giving both her hands a squeeze, "I'll finish dinner."
She pouted at him, and it was way (way) too cute. "But the onion isn't done. And I was doing quite well, all things considered."
He had to smile. She was proud of her progress, and it wasn't just the onion to be considered in that. He chuckled; he admired this part of Thena. This was the same woman who had been offered two options: marry him as a form of insurance, mutual destruction to keep her father in line and in business with them, or to let him kill her father, although it would leave her destitute with her father's bad name looming over her. And she had chosen the option that was arguably more daunting, and tougher.
And how could he not fall in love with a woman like that?
Thena stood, throwing her blanket off her legs herself, putting her hands on her hips. "And you told me you would show me what 'julienne' meant once I finished."
It was just slicing things lengthwise, on an angle to get technical. But he smiled up at his beautiful wife - reminded himself that she considered them married in name only - and stood with her. "Anything you want, sweetheart."
She pursed her lips at the familiar words. He knew she thought they were hollow and placating, but he really did mean them. If she ever wanted for anything while she was with him, all she had to do was ask.
"Hey."
She half turned, already partway down the three wide and curved stairs that separated the foyer and kitchen from the sitting area. Maybe this fancy architecture, artsy mansion was too much (like Thena said). "Hm?"
He walked to her, hands in his pockets. He leaned over slowly, and she didn't lean back and out of his reach. Eventually, his lips collided with her forehead, as intended.
When he looked at her again, her eyes fluttered a little bit, and he was pretty sure she was blushing. She really made it hard not to develop feelings for his own wife.
He retrieved the broom from the pantry and started sweeping up the glass.
Thena frowned, "Gil, I can-"
"Don't even think about it, hot stuff," he winked at her, just for the fun of it. She bristled. "Focus on getting that onion done by the time I'm finished. Then maybe I'll show you how to mandolin."
"The musical instrument?"
She really was terrible in the kitchen, and he couldn't have adored her more for it.
#Thenamesh Marriage Contract AU#thank you so much!!!#I'm really happy people like this one#Gil is so sweet#and I think that's what this Gil's thing is is that he's just...lonely#it's tough being the boss#he can't let his guard down with anyone at all#Thena is straight up one of the first friends he's made in years#and of course he's such a gentleman#she has her own room her own bathroom if he could give her her own house he would#too dangerous though#when some of his underlings are like uh...you sure about this boss?#well first of all no one questions the boss so he has to discipline them#and secondly...he just wants some company#he just wants to come home to someone#and it happens to coincide with this guy in the justice department who is broke and useless#Thena's unnamed father is a bastard of course he works for the broken justice system#Thena is acab and you do NOT have to tell Gil twice#anyway he's all gentlemanly with his wife#he knows she suffered in her abusive household#and he swears if she's ever scared of him he'll end it all himself#he never guessed she would grow affectionate towards him#he's here reminding himself not to let things get too deep#she's your 'wife' not your wife Gil stop it#meanwhile Thena is developing a crush on her own husband and doesn't know what to do about it
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There was a big international event in an actual goddamn monestary. It was wicKED COOL. Lieve went through some stuff and clan Brujah (and the Camarilla) may or may not have fallen apart. Armistice signed for a year and a day to figure this shit out...
We got to fucking play here! I love larp!!! At night it was soooo spooky with the little lanterns and music and aaaaa
#zyurp sketches#game:trajectumtenebris#oc:lieve#vtm#vtm oc#vtm art#vampire the masquerade#vtm larp#larp#oc tag#if i had a penny everytime someone used a discipline on lieve to make her go ultra violence... id have two pennies.#three#soon enough#which isnt a lot but its weird that it juSt KEEPS FUCKING HAPPENINH#also emotional support Tremere regent who keeps meeting her in distress.#good times
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I want to see Hide and Tatara having a Go match
#go was invented by an emperor who wanted to teach his son concentration and discipline and strategic thinking#maybe thats why yan taught tatara#maybe tatara was a bright yet difficult child (his short temper) so yan taught him this to make him more patient#kinda want to see tatara try to teach eto go too so he would have someone to play with#then she refused as a retaliation because he refused to read her recommended books#maybe tatara taught ayato (too impatient for this so he gave up) and tomoe too
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i have been working with kids for four years and i had to write my first ever note just now about a seventh grade boy being inappropriate towards me. i don't know what the hell this could possibly lead to or what. he was trying to feel my legs repeatedly to the point where i had to stop sitting next to him (and i was subbing for his one-to-one para!!!). he's got high support needs. in that kind of job, you're supposed to sit next to them all day and look over their work.
the teacher whose classroom this was happening in could also tell something was wrong. the whole class was acting kinda crazy because it was the day before school vacation week and there was another class coming in to share projects. so like, he was swamped with keeping order already. but we were sitting two feet away from his podium at the front of the room. the kid was giving him and me a hard time when he wouldn't take out his chromebook as he was instructed. and then when he did take out his chromebook, he immediately, for some reason, places it on my lap. he had been ogling my legs the whole time. he puts his computer ON MY LAP. and i'm just like, stunned, because what the hell? can you not keep it on your own lap, for some reason? i don't even know what to say, i just hold it a little above my lap while i'm thinking why on earth would this be happening? he would NOT do this to his regular para if she were here, would he? this can't be normal.
and the teacher sees this and within a minute places a stool in front of the kid for him to put his laptop on. and i'm like. oh ok. yeah. he notices exactly what's happening and that that's not appropriate. and then when the other class comes in to share projects he tells me "miss b——, you don't actually have to sit next to c—— this whole period if you don't want to." and he grabs me a chair for me to go sit with the other paras in the back opposite corner of the room. like he KNEW. and thank you mr. d—— for recognizing that because i was just kind of shocked and didn't know if i was overreacting in my head to all of this.
when there's a point in the class where the kids are discussing stuff, i privately mention what's happened to the para who's sitting closest to me. and she says that the thing about him calling me pretty is something he's been known to do, but the fact that he kept trying to touch my legs is new behavior. and that's a completely different class of behavior. i was telling him NO, don't do that, and he kept doing it. and the fact that he was calling me pretty repeatedly, even when i was giving him instructions that he wasn't taking. and this is the second to last class before the end of the day, so she says she'll take a walk with him before learning center and talk to him about it, and i'm grateful for that. she does. the kid apologizes to me as soon as i come into learning center. but like. WHAT the hell.
i'm STILL like what the hell. this is unfathomable to me. the other adults who i told about this or who witnessed it were supportive of me. but. what to do??? i wrote a long note to his regular para about this, because i knew she was going to hear about it at least from the first para i told. the second para i told about it after school had a kind of... i'm not gonna say enabling reaction, but i suppose since it had already been "taken care of" (or at least, he had been spoken to and apologized) she didn't really have much to add in the way of discipline. i told her what happened after school and she was just like... a little bit, laughing? like oh, yup, that dog. she at the very least confirmed he KNEW what he was doing, that that was not an accident. she said to me "i had a feeling he was going to develop a crush on you" (me and these other paras were together for most of the beginning of the day too). but it's like. it's not about that.
i have worked with children for FOUR years. children have had crushes on me before; i'm quite unfazed by it. boys from the ages of 5-to-15 have told me i'm so pretty before and asked me to marry them. i've never had them feeling up my legs before. i've never had them making me physically uncomfortable. it's NOT about this seventh grader having a crush on the pretty substitute. he is NOT unusual for that, at all. but i've never had a boy of any age or education level repeatedly touching my knees and thighs. THAT is problem behavior!!!
because what if i wasn't assertive enough with him to tell him to stop? what if i was a girl his age? worse, what if i was an adult who encouraged this behavior? i don't come to the middle school to be a seductress. i had no intention in putting on a pair of tights and a skirt this morning of being viewed as an attractive object, especially not by a pubescent boy. what if i did though? what if his interpretation of me wasn't so incorrect and offensive? what if i let him keep touching me inappropriately and saying flirtatious things to me? me, an adult in my mid-twenties, towards a middle school boy?
in no world would that be ok. if i had been feeling up and overly-complimenting a CHILD at my place of work, holy shit would there be reports about me. so a child acting that way could never be ok either. if it'd be firable for me to be reciprocating that action, then that action should not be happening to me. ever. and that child should never repeat that action again to any other adult again.
like i am simply not there to be treated as an attractive young woman. i put on a skirt that shows too much knee and get paired with a boy, though, and that's apparently just a natural consequence. hooo-ly shit. like i don't know what to do. first of all, the more time passes since this has happened, the more i am just unable to stop thinking about it. i wasn't "hurt" or too emotional in the moment but i'm just still processing it and it gets worse. i'm just more and more disgusted.
i don't know what i expect to come out of this, or the email i sent to his regular para. like, am i gonna have to attend a fucking meeting? what is the precedent that this sets for him? WHY do i feel BAD for him about this? well, because he's a child, of course. a child who has done wrong he may not be able to understand. but he knows WHAT he did. he just doesn't know WHY it was wrong.
and i couldn't even say something to him that was like, "well, how would you like it if i was touching you like this?" because young boys do not understand how inappropriate it'd be. i'm sure this kid thought he was gonna get away with what he was doing at the very least. but probably not unlikely he (being a child with no concept of how wrong it'd be) thought he could get some sort of "positive" attention for treating me like this. either way he was simply doing what he wanted to do, with no perspective of how it would make me feel or that it could be classified as harassment. teenage boys think it'd be awesome if the older attractive woman would reciprocate their affections. they're wrong. i, as the older attractive woman of his affection, cannot be the one to convince him of that, though.
i don't know. i don't know. like it's just so not ok. but if i didn't tell another adult about this, he would've gotten away with it. he would probably do it again. and him being in trouble for it is not the same as him understanding that it was wrong. unless someone has a REAL talk with him about inappropriate attention and consent, it's not unlikely that he'll just repeat the behavior in a setting where he thinks he won't be caught or told on. THAT'S the problem. me, i could just never have to be this boy's para again. in my email, i didn't say that i would never be ok working with or around him ever again. he already knows i didn't like it and i'm not afraid to tell on him; as far as that lesson applies to me, individually, i think he's become too ashamed to repeat that.
i don't know. i don't know. i very much expressed that i, i guess, "forgave" him in the email that i wrote. i clarified that i was writing it for the sake of having it on the record. i think that could potentially be very important for the purposes of preventing further similar or escalating behavior from him in the future. i don't want him to be in trouble. i don't think i will be blamed for this, especially not with how promptly i acted, although i don't know to what extent this will be framed as me thinking i'm a "victim." i'm not... i don't feel victimized. i feel disgusted. i feel afraid for the sake of what could happen to or with him in the future, if he thinks behavior like his towards me today is ok.
i feel like if i end up having to further respond to this, this will be made about me. in a way it kind of was. is? in the moment it was happening, it was certainly about me. because i was the one this boy was giving all this unwanted attention to. but to make the consequences of this about me and to involve me any further, i also don't want. because i said what i said already, i don't care if a student has a crush on me. this isn't about me being the pretty substitute. i'm the pretty substitute all the time, to tons of people. that's not really something i've been concerned about up until now.
but do i have to reexplain my personal embarrassment? that i was wearing a skirt? that he was ogling my legs? really? what more do i have to gain from sharing that, other than having the adults at my place of work confirm or deny me in their heads as the pretty substitute? i don't know. perhaps that's REALLY overthinking it. but i don't want to be the substitute that caused a problem for this special ed kid. i don't wanna be the reason that he can't be around me anymore, the person people think of when they're monitoring how he's acting around girls and young women. i DON'T want to be the one people think of when they think of his past misbehavior. i'm NOT here for that.
that's just fucking humiliating. and in this being a thing that could follow him, i have to be ogled and touched over and over again in people's minds for this to be taken seriously. but for this to be swept under the rug would be even worse, no? i don't know. i hate this. the principal is a nice guy; i wouldn't be surprised if he and/or people from the special ed department reached out to me sympathetically about this. but i don't wanna be reached out to. i don't wanna have ppl i work with tell me "sorry that kid was just so attracted to you he couldn't help himself" like come on. if the kid himself doesn't change then i don't really care to remember this incident. and no one reaching out to me and saying they've talked to this kid will actually prove to me he understands. this is the kind of inappropriate behavior it takes years for people to understand why it was wrong, especially a child who has no idea. i mean come on.
#tales from diana#long post#sorry i should probably put this under a read more but it was just a long stream of consciousness#and idk. im tired. im so tired#do you wanna be known as the substitute teacher a kid kept touching inappropriately? probably not#thank god for the first para i told bc she took it really seriously seemingly. i mean idk what she told him in their conversation#not EXACTLY what she told him. she obviously said this was wrong and she reiterated in learning center again#that if that were her daughter she'd be through the roof and that she'd be telling his regular para#i mean of course i had to tell the regular para directly. i would rather it come from my mouth#i'm the one who has the most information of how and why it happened. i think other ppl telling it would just reduce it to#'he thought she was so pretty and he kept staring at and touching her legs cuz she wore a skirt' like come on#the indignity of that!#i already feel undignified enough.#and also thank god for the social studies teacher. the more im processing this the more im like thank god#i dont know him well. he had already been a nice dude to me before in my interactions w him#like as a sub you notice the people who are really affirming of the strange and irregular work you do#earlier this week i was subbing for the math teacher across the hall for instance and he came in before class started and said#that if anyone's giving me a hard time to just send them to him. bc that group can be a little rowdy/wild#my classroom discipline skills are not that bad where i felt the need to have someone more experienced defend me so to speak#like i know i look young and am assumed to be new. but with most classes. i can handle most misbehavior#i can put my foot down in a way kids normally respect. i know how to keep em on task#and for MOST of the day with this kid that's what i was doing. but if that social studies teacher hadn't done what he did#i might not feel so bold in just straight up walking away from that kid. after saying stop stop stop repeatedly#like he had his own job to do independent of me but i remember the gestures and like. i could cry. he KNEWWWW#that's just a very trustworthy person i feel. he didn't want me to suffer through that any longer#a lot of teachers (unfortunately) largely ignore the kids with paras and/or expect the paras to communicate to the kid exclusively#that teacher is not like that. he was willing to mind that boy while i escaped that situation. so so grateful to him
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I hate to come off too… idk preachy in my work. On one hand if I want to be unapologetically team green, I should be able to do so (and who is gonna beat my ass about it really). But on the other hand, when does it go from actually enjoying writing/telling a story to just espousing my hotd ideas in the text. I could just text post for that.
…. That being said… someone needs to gag Rhaenyra again about her son ruining what should’ve been one of the best nights of Aemond’s life and myrah is just the girlie to do it
#like if people can earnestly write ‘fix it’ fics taking Alicent’s kids away from her#or fics where Aemond switches sides to raw dog the nephew that literally took his eye…#I should be able to write someone telling Rhaenyra that her inability to discipline her kids is also a reason for the disillusionment within#the family just as much as viserys being inept or Otto plotting or Alicent not being honest
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Why can't I let Arielle and Tahir be happy in an AU when Robert is around, why do these two English cunt gravitate towards each other always.
#beablabbers#storie nostre#robert#tahir#arielle#tarielle#railey#I think Tahir could muster the discipline to marry Arielle and he'd be sweet and all to her#they could be a lovely couple ... but only as long as someone else is out of sight#-HEIẞ VON LAFEE BLARING IN THE BACKGROUND-
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it is literally 2am 😔
#someone kick my ass so i sleep#tbh whenever gabi’s on i have such a hard time logging off however i don’t blame her for my lack of self discipline
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this "silencing spell" was a way for the Lan sect to discipline students. wwx himself has been on the receiving end of this shrewd little thing quite often. it wasn't particularly complicated, but only the Lan clan members knew how to undo it; if one tried to separate their lips by force, they'd either end up bleeding or with a couple days worth of a sore throat. waiting patiently until it wore off and self-reflecting in the process was the only solution.
"sect leader jiang, please calm down", lsz said. "if he doesn't try to forcibly break the spell, it will wear off on its own after half an hour."
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#it makes me laugh whenever people suggest the future mme lan could have killed the lan elder because she was evil or for some unimportant#reason. even this 'haha funny' spell of shut the fuck up is a gross invasion on someone's physical autonomy#its already cruel when used on your own CHILD but a fucking stranger?! let alone a child of a stranger?!#not to make a huge thing out of 'nothing' but you know that it could easily be used to kill someone right#people are all Oh Gasp about the whipping/caning but it is Nothing compared to the 'small' cruelty of fusing someone's lips shut#the original text says 'students who made a mistake' or 'committed wrongs' but i didnt include it because i felt it was rather obvious that#you dont 'discipline' without a 'reason' but like. what would this reason even be? this spell has only one effect#it silences. now i have this little headcanon based on absolutely nothing but my own bitter ass that the future mme lan killed a dude#precisely because of this wee little thing. join me in pondering whether she's experienced it during her imprisonment#liveshrimping
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EN PACE REQUIESCAT
#sona tag#sona tag: Mienes#Mienes#def's art#wh40k#warhammer 40k#i made him a:#Psyker#*:]#hes such a silly guy!!!#he wears armor from the Adepta Sororitas; an Inquisitor who pretty much adopted him gave him most of her armor save for the chest plate#he modified it to his liking a little#got the armor when he was a kid and asked someone to forge it again to fit him each time he hit a growth spurt#he and said Inquisitor Adopter go on missions together :]#transparent ver under the vut#oh and he was taught the Telekinesis Discipline!#au tag: warhammer
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me cosplaying as selena gomez
so done with tumblr. see u all in two minutes
#someone needs to take her phone from her#Or teach her self discipline#The only thing more embarrassing than (dramatically) announcing a sm break is not following thru w it#girl what 😭😭#get a grip pls
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why does lana want 2 cosplay as middle to lower middle class so bad
#even down to the lyrics & visuals#but we know who ur parents are#we know that is not a lived or earned experience for you#like jesus christ™️ ur a rich white girl#enjoy ur blessings instead of pretending they don’t exist#white guilt is so fucking odd to me#when will discipline & humility come back in#i’ve been waiting for so long#i feel like it’s needed now more than ever#even with her obsession with oklahoma & louisiana.. . and going out of her way to date people from rural communities#just stop#such a strange form of exploitation for inspiration#i have known & loved ppl deeply from those places.. . i know the landscape n she ain’t it#it’s always felt bizarre & desperate#like some strange last attempt at being relatable#it’s delusional & distasteful at best#it’s exploiting and using others for selfish personal gain at best#bc yes u can take things from ppl that aren’t money#but it’s strange bc the money is still v much a factor here#bc she’s using it to inform the work that she profits in the millions from#narcissism has hit such an uncontrollable place in culture & in america at large at this point#also the catty comments she used to make about certain stars but then turn around and work with their producers.. .#to shit talk & undermine someone else’s art and then clearly be so desperate to work with the team who helps make the art she berates.. .#that is deeply strange human behavior to me#inconsistent @ best#but again delusional/conniving/manipulative at its worst#also i haven’t met anyone who was obsessed with her that wasn’t also deeply self absorbed#at some point its hard to ignore the dots
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I hate when a new age atheist "skeptic" """""scholar""""" (on evolution) think their doctorate is enough to talk abt all branches of science and to justify their transphobia starts talking abt history, psychology, etc etc.
#get ur dirty moldy ass hands off my pookie you BITCH#challenge dont let ur sleeper agent activate when someone talks abt 'memory' in a wrong way: IMPOSSIBLE#no but it comes down to disrespect at the end of the day#and the posturing of 'science' aesthetics but not actually sticking to the scientific method or understanding that its a WIDE ASS FIELD THA#ENCOMPASSES A LOT OF DISCIPLINES WITH DIFFERENT METHODOLOGY#just bc you have a degree abt biology doesn't mean you get to talk abt history and be right#these hoes think they are right by default bc of their paper that they got decades AGO#STAY AWAY FROM HER(history) AND GET A REAL JOB
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