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In honour of mha ending, have some old (and i mean OLD) miryumi scribbles i never got around to posting. They were the main characters in my heart
#these are like a year and a half old#ive been in the rarepair game for longer than some kids have been alive#it aint much but its honest work#i genuinely would be unable to explain the chokehold miryumi has on me after all this time#have they ever canonically interacted? no#(that i know of lol i havent caught up on the manga in over a year)#do they have anything directly in common? no#is there any reason i would ever have shipped them if i hadnt seen a habkart valentines post they never came back to? also no#did they proceed to occupy a permanent place in my frontal lobe forever? but of course#they really are THEE ship to me#peak comfort ship#i love that horikoshi developed them just enough for me to have solid base material for their personalities#but also gave them the woman in shonen treatment just enough that i can say anything i want about them and canon doesnt contradict it#anyways!! them again#fuyumi todoroki#rumi usagiyama#mirko#mha#bnha#my hero academia#boku no hero academia#wlw#chiquilines draws
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danny and officer martinez's relationship in "late at night, when the nightingale sings" in a nutshell:
Martinez: FREAK! GET YOUR FUCKING KID!
Battinson, on the other side of the crime scene: he don't bite
Martinez, with Nightingale firmly attached his arm, visibly biting him: YES HE DO!
*points at them* Danny is the Bugs Bunny to Martinez's Elmer Fudd.
Another Officer: i can't believe you're fighting with an actual twelve year old. Martinez: i swear to god that is not a twelve year old, that is a little hellion that crawled out of batman's shadow one dark and stormy night and decided to dedicate his existence to tormenting me. Officer: Are you really that mad about him putting a sticky note on your back-- Martinez: thats not the point
in danny's defense: the word "freak" is. a mini beserker button for him for.... obvious ghostly reasons, so like, even if its not directed at him, he still very much unappreciates Martinez's insults at Battinson. Danny may or may not be projecting.
he's not going to hurt the guy! not in any serious or permanently disfiguring way at least! But he is going to leave mean sticky notes on the square part of his spine that he can't reach, and stick salt in his 3AM Late Night Crime Scene Coffee, and kick the bottom of his heel while he's walking so he stumbles. And other petty, infuriating things that tally up and boil over, over time.
#dpxdc#danny fenton is not the ghost king#dp x dc#dpxdc crossover#blood blossom au#dpxdc memes#dpxdc au#the only thing martinez is right about is the fact that danny is. in fact. NOT twelve.#he's just shrimpy because he's half-dead#there's eventually a 'martinez vs nightingale' board in the precinct called the beef board. it tallies every time one of them gets got by#the other. danny is currently in the lead by a wide margin. martinez is very limited in what he can do bc of multiple reasons. but one#of them is the fact that batman HAS punched a cop before. three actually. and he won't hesitate to punch another if martinez actually did#anything to harm nightingale. and also nightingale shows up so rarely and doesnt stick around long enough for martinez to retaliate#or properly plan ahead. its kinda a wild card whether or not nightingale pops up on the scene.#nightingale: i am just a little guy!! the littlest of boy!! baddabing-baddaboom! you wouldn't do nothin to a little guy would'ya?#battinson who atp knows full well that if it werent for the blood blossom danny could turn martinez into a red smear: *would you?*#danny: if it werent for the laws of this land i would have committed acts of violence against You Specifically :)#and also like. every single other officer insulting batman and callin him a freak. they're not safe either martinez is just the poor sucker#that i have a name to give the face to#danny's a good kid but also i don't picture him totally.. hm... mentally stable? he's a little spicy. as a treat.#he's kind at his core but also he found his family's corpses and was isolated from society for 4 months by his abusive godfather and was#poisoned with quite literally the only toxin capable of destroying him entirely and can no longer (currently) use his powers without dying#instantly. so he's! he's doing his best! like between being chaotic and being kind he's def gonna choose being kind but also.#he's living on borrowed time and is in a constant active state of being slowly eaten alive by his own bloodstream. it weighs on ya psyche#danny's barely even processed his family's death and now he's got all this other trauma stacked on top to address. he is Windows EXP rn#tormenting martinez is just. an itty bitty way he can let loose some of the stress he's ignoring.#considering danny's alternate timeline was: world annihilation. he thinks he's doing pretty well all things considered
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#unironically liking narwa#my art was some peoples reason to start liking hov so if its to be the same case with narwa then so be it#if narwa has million fans im one of them if narwa has 5 fans im one of them if narwa has 1 fan this is me#if narwa has 0 fans im no longer alive. if the world is against thunder serpent narwa im against the world#kinda hoping to see her in another game with a little less stressful setting than having to eat her husband to protect herself#monster hunter#thunder serpent narwa
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screencap redraw :,)
#i have mixed feelings about this season#I’m very sad they didn’t include Gilmore rescuing the taldoreis#bc I feel like that was a turning point for his character in the campaign#he was no longer the sort of joke character he had been before#like vm loved Gilmore before but this moment turned him from the funny shopkeeper npc to a character with motives and morals#and we see just how generous and kind he is above all else for the first time#and then the moment where he’s almost dead and vax is desperately begging him to stay alive#that was also a moment for their relationship#it’s no longer just playfully flirting for fun / the amusement of the rest of the party#i do think there was still some of that sincerity and I loved it but… give me more#the only way to make it up to me is to make them fall in love forever#anyway that’s my spiel#vaxmore#vaxilmore#vax x gilmore#Vax’ildan#vax’ildan vessar#Gilmore#Shaun Gilmore#shaun geddmore#the legend of vox machina#tlovm#critical role#cr1#critical role campaign 1
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#world of warcraft#anduin wrynn#the war within#In the tags of one of my previous anduin pieces I talked about that feeling of looking at old pictures of yourself#and wondering where they went#what happened to them#the pain of wanting their joy and happiness back#is that child still alive within you? can you revive them?#Or are they dead#tbh I feel like a large part of maintaining happiness as an adult is finding ways to indulge the child within you#at some point it is no longer your parents job to care for that child but yours.
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I'm kind of crazy about my made-up Ray & Maya + Krux parallels.
A big theme in HoT is family and doing anything to protect those you care for. Drives me up the wall that for over a decade, Ray and Maya worked endlessly on a machine that would help destroy the world... but they did so to protect their children.
In my mind it was a "We've already worked on this for a year, what's another?" -> "We've already worked on this for five years, what's another five?" and that mindset looped until they finally met their children again. What they were doing wasn't good but it really didn't matter much because at the end of the day, their children is the most important thing.
Comparing how they acted about their inventions versus Dr. Julien when he made stuff for Garmadon, or more similarly Cyrus, who helped in the creation of the Iron Doom drives me a bit wild. Julien and Cyrus only helped in their respective cases to save themselves. Their lives were on the line and quite literally had no other choice.
"I'm afraid I was responsible for that," and then you have Julien being afraid to face Zane again because of the terrible things he had created. But for Maya & Ray you don't really get that. "Time travel machines aren't really my forte," (paraphrasing Ray here) of course there was some sort of guilt but as I said, their children were more important.
They'd go to the ends of the earth for their family, and that's exactly what Krux did too. Waiting 40 years without a sibling and ruining the lives of nearly everyone you were close to for the sake of revenge is... quite family oriented in his case. "I've lived 5 years, what's another 5?" -> "I've lived 10 years, what's another 10?" And this cycle repeats until him and his brother reunited.
I'm probably looking a bit too deep into this, but Krux quite literally wasn't himself while Acronix was gone. He was able to be Saunders for all that time because without his brother, he really wasn't himself. As soon as Acronix returns, his Saunders persona shifts and he can't pretend to be that nice old man anymore. Like hands on a clock... without them both you can't really tell the time. Or something.
Doing bad things for the sake of your family's success kills me everytime. Ray & Maya and Krux knew exactly what would hurt the other the most. Wu was who came up with the plan to strip them of their powers, but at the end of the day Ray's seal was on the weapon. A living reminder that the twins power wasn't their's anymore. Anytime the twins used the time blades they had to face that fact. They had to live with their betrayal and how it bit them in the ass. Not saying it was Ray and Maya's fault the twins were separated, but that's how Krux saw it.
Then you have Krux who snaked his way into Ray & Maya's lives and befriended them for a second time. He knew what he wanted from them from the very start! Every conversation he faked a smile and everyday krept towards them losing their kids. "If I can't have my family, you can't have yours." And he knew that Ray and Maya would do anything for the people they love. Not even just Kai and Nya, but Wu as well. They were who really pushed for Kai & Nya to get the reversal blade to save Wu, he is their friend too.
Something about their greatest strengths also being their greatest weaknesses. They love too strongly for their own good. Them starting off so similar, on the same side of the war!!! And then ending off on completely different paths and completely different moral codes.
Krux was there in Kai and Nya's life more years than their very own parents because of the system he set into place. He watched them grow up!!! And I'm very certain he held this over Ray & Maya's heads. "You've already done it for this long, what's a few more years." -> "You've made all this progress, you wouldn't want to throw it all away." But throwing it all away means losing their kids.
Rant over... I guess.
(Wrote this on mobile so pardon any weird formatting... also this is not proofread.)
#alek insanity#ninjago#time twins#i only do this for blog organization if i could id hide my rant stuff from the main tags ... alekjago tag when omg i should totally do that#i know ray didnt recognize kai's ninja outfit but im assuming krux gave them some sort of proof their children were alive thru the years#kinda like ransom letters and 'we'll give you the money if you prove shes alive' and whatever they say in the crime movies#this ended up way longer than i thought it would AND makes 0 sense . alek rants are so back
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What Starstruck Dee theory have people made that is your favourite?
there have been quite a lot, and i genuinely love them all!
early on i think the most popular theory was that she was possessed or had been possessed at some point, most likely by dark matter. she actually debunked this theory personally, but i think people just assumed she was lying! 😂
my favourite part is not any one theory, but watching a shift in thoughts over time as more things are revealed, and seeing people share theories/work together in comments and reblogs. i like the "OOHHH WWWWHAT...!?!" moments a lot; whether they are a reaction to my storytelling or to other folks' detective work!
early theories revolved around how she was weird for a waddle dee, or at least a native of popstar. despite my never explicitly confirming anything to the contrary, theories have now broadly shifted to assuming she is not from popstar at all, and most people do now generally agree she's not really a waddle dee.
i don't recall exactly who first came up with each theory (though some big players are @the-void-is-a-disappointment who did a huge amount of early deetective work and encouraged me to build it as a story for solving, @shibuya-toasted-with-extra-cream, @graycoin and @jojo-schmo) and i'm not sure which of these theories are still held by anyone
but here a few of my favourites, roughly in order that they started appearing...
♻️ she's a total mimic species like kirby or void, copying things around her either by intent or by accident 🗑️ similar to above, but she's an incorrect copy or a "beta" mock-up type of a waddle dee 🧚 that she was just born different, like a fae changeling, and might have been hidden away when young as a result 🕰️ she is something totally inorganic and/or mechanical, created by or like the clockwork stars or stardream, perhaps wish contingent 🥇 sometimes attached to the above, she was created to serve some sort of Greater Purpose. she might have failed at it or been flawed, and was subsequently discarded on popstar 🌠 a dozen and one wildly different things connected to the "falling star that hit her". alien life form on the meteor transferred into her on impact. infection by intergalactic bacteria/dark matter. simply massive concussive trauma that fucked up her signature (back when we thought that was the only thing wrong with her). the star was magic and fused with her. she hatched from it and is literally a star herself. probably missing some here. 🪐 waddle dee from a different place/planet. this one is quite a sensible theory, given that we do see many quite different dees! 🤍 she is a fragmented piece of void/void termina. this one in particular i know is @shibuya-toasted-with-extra-cream 's ongoing theory and she's put in a lot of really cool work towards it! ⚔️ she's somehow connected to the heroes of yore. this theory i think has only started popping up since galacta knight has become a reoccurring visitor in her storyline and we've started asking questions about her familiar looking magic spears, but you can certainly 1hko @moonverc3x with this one 🧿 she's connected to the matters. sometimes soul, because it's sometimes star themed and lacks a token representative. where as a connection to dream might link her to fecto forgo/fecto elfilis in some way (a creature also well known for a catastrophic meteor attack). i've also seen folks confident that she's connected to heart matter as well, probably again due to everyone's favourite grumpy swan showing up
this is all i can think of or locate right now, but there's been a pretty wide range of things. i feel there has been a rather interesting transition over time from "she's a messed up waddle dee" to "she's probably connected to a universal superpower of some kind" which i am genuinely really really thrilled about?! 😂 what a glow up for a pathetic little wawa!!!
i'm also personally really fond of seeing how people's existing biases influence what they can find and draw connections in. for instance: i know @jojo-schmo loves the forgotten land and elfilis, and digs into those connections and draws out some really cool stuff because her knowledge is already so specialised! i think this is the true highlight of working on this story for me, people theorising and engaging in the lore, and laser pin-pointing things that tie into our personal faves-- the way we tend to do with kirby lore as a whole-- is such uninhibited delight
i sincerely hope people will enjoy where starstruck's story does go, in the end!!
#starstruck dee#asks#🎀🔍#i will say that more than one of these theories holds water! some of them more than others.#some of them are indeed dredging the ocean.#i will actually say one thing regarding one of the meteor theories...... “she hatched from it and is literally a star”#<- this WAS actually her Very First original concept when she was “Just A Sona”. she was a literal unalive star who watched everybody--#having fun on popstar and wished to be alive to join them and feel joy & love. this is a very personal narrative to me and appears lots in-#my sonas and works. it's a fairly simple and basic backstory that would have required no further development or held no real mystery!#once i realised she was developing beyond sona-exclusive status and i was purposefully building a ~mystery~ it changed.#so it's no longer her backstory or relevant in any way; and it hasn't been since before most deetective work has been happening.#just thought y'all might enjoy it as a little bit of Deep Hidden Lore!#sorry also for pinging many folks in this wall of text; if i knew i was referencing a theory of yours i wanted to credit you is all#please just lmk if you'd like me to remove your url at any time!! as always i'm so grateful to everyone who likes starstruck or weighs in!#this kind of engagement is so new and exciting to me and it means more than i can say. i hope i can weave a fun story for you!!
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I totally agree with the general consensus that Ringo provided a lot of emotional support and coolheadedness to the other beatles to the point where they'd have probably killed each other without him but I do also wonder sometimes how much of that is being supernaturally patient and easygoing and how much of it is Ringo just having a tumultuous and isolated childhood where he was never taught to recognize and assert his own emotional needs so he became a blank slate on which others could process their emotions
(And tbh I also wonder how an inability to access or assert his feelings may have contributed to his tendency to process pain by numbing himself and the pretty shitty way he treated women)
#see also: george falling in love with his wife and paul routinely telling him he was easily replaceable#and yet ringo has nothing but warmth for either of these men#and of course I'm not saying we shouldn't appreciate how much patience and kindness that takes!#but also i guess it takes a certain lack of assertiveness or the ability to see/value your own emotions#and that's also something interesting to think about#speaking from experience here a lot of alcoholics want to be numb more than they want to be alive#and if ringo couldnt access his emotions it makes sense his only recourse would be to erase them#but i think for him it comes from isolation at a young age and a lack of emotional support#you need your caregivers to teach you what 'sad' is so you can then teach yourself what to do about it#or you may start to cope with that constant feeling of unease and dissatisfaction (that you can never quite grasp) in destructive ways#also his mom started getting him falling down drunk when he was not even twelve years old so tbh the alcoholism was probably inevitable#anyways all this is just to say that the fact that he could absorb pretty much infinite distress CAN definitely be construed as a virtue#but tbh it might also be symptomatic of some painful shit that he needed/deserved help with#ringo starr#longer rambles
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S4 E10 Supernatural
Anna was an Angel, also Only 4 Angels have seen God. Ruby got tortured by Alastor, that's sucks. Uriel saying Castiel has a weakness and it's that he likes Dean. Dean and Anna...seem to get along. Ok OK OK and on to the heartbreaking stuff. Dean told Sam about hell, and how it's wasn't months for him it was 40years and he was given a choice to get tortured or torture others. Dean wishes he couldn't feel anything cus he cracked after 30years and he was good at it. Uggh 💔
#Anna is like if Aziraphale and Crowley from good omens had a kid. questions god? vaguly saunters downward. looks at humanity and like them.#ends up going back to being an angel rip.#sam winchester#dean winchester#ha ha ha dean has been tortured longer then hes been alive. he spent more time in hell then with sam. aint that funny......#ruby#ruby im giving you some faith. you have my respect and trust now.#anna milton#castiel#does ruby have a last name? its weird just putting ruby. Castiel is at least Castiel but ruby seems too common for her#supernatural#supernatural s4#batcavescolony watches#batcavescolony watches supernatural#spn
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solavellan is so fun you get. the two people in a pairing experiencing The Horrors in different ways
#solavellan#cant get over the inq being forced into the role of a larger than life herald all bc they touched some magical sphere#and then being told over and over peoples faith in the maker is their problem now and their job to keep faith alive#and solas being a god of wisdom who twists into a god of pride for he locked all the old gods away thinking he could prevent the worst#but in doing so he perverted the world even more and it lead to his own people being punished for it#and theyre both never allowed to be who they were before this. bc no one cares.#no one cares if your inq doesnt believe in the maker or doesnt see themselves as a messiah#no one cares to see solas past the facade of a stonefaced apostate / later on god bringing on 'the end'#because those versions of either one of them no longer exist. whoever they were before this ceased to matter.#dragon age thoughts#solas thoughts#solavellan thoughts#well anyway.
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The trend of people putting hatsune mikus into all their cultures reminded me about my several years old AU where i dropped xhaka and ruwei in buttfuck nowhere midwestern USA. Started as a joke and is still immensely funny 2 me as a midwestern man but now there is also like. Plot
Did you guys know Morita said ruwei was literally born in the US like actually?? He's literally Chinese American. Fuck You The American Part Is Midwestern Now Canonically. Doubly So In This AU.
#i shiuld talk about it sometime and i should absolutely fuckinh draw more art for it#It's such a hyperspecific niche thing to do but literally who gaf#Think like the beloved trend of mexicans taking dragonball and eva characters and just dropping them in some local taqueria or gas station#..Yah it's like that sorry#.woof.#This doesn't even go in my beyburst tag this isn't beyburst and is in fact so far fuckinh removed from the concept of beyblade#Same guys though. Love those guys. Love their dynamic also#i will say now that they're both still competitive martial artists in their respective practices#Only now the school where Ruwei practices kung fu in some beat down strip mall next to a smoke shop#And Xhaka's been studying karate in a dojo that's upstairs from some tiny local coffee shop that's been there longer than he's been alive#They argue over which martial art is actually better and cooler and more effective while sitting on the dock under an orange street lamp#..yeah.
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whenever i read fics i always end up thinkin of a song for the fic or like, th chapter and then i canr stop associating the fic w/ those songs
#i listen to sm fckn music tht all the songs end up bein wildly diff too#ong i cld make playlists for multi ch fics#*stares at electric rebels*#actually u know what#i will#here r some songs:#our song by matchbox twenty is (early ch) electric rebels treemina coded#butterfly by bts (song is abt the fear of losing a person and in electric rebels this is very much true#everyone has the fear of not only losing their lives but losing their family(+found) as well#time is very much sacred n stuff like that)#humming by turnover (thr lyrics “with you ill make it out alive” sold me on this one)#viva la vida by coldplay specifically for the capital students because of how disillusioned theyve become due to the games#and forming relationships w/ their tribute#really good examples are vipsania and hilarius#rhythm of love by plain white t's makes me think of all the good moments treech n lamina have had despite their circumstances#(its also just a them song in general)#young volcanoes by fall out boy for the tributes!!! it seems light a more lighthearted victory song almost?#a “we will persevere” thing but more full of complete happiness#think abt the scene of teslee mizzen n treech running down the hill in jubilation (obvs before shit went down)#would that i by hozier just makes me think of when treech first met lamina up in the tree#which witch by florence + the machine is definitely for vipsania just before & after the bombing (aspen too but to a lesser degree almost)#“whos a heretic now” “im miles away hes on my mind” yeahhhh#love grows (where my rosemary goes) by edison lighthouse is jst a rlly good treemina song#rousseau by nerina pallot is a good fpr one of the main questions in the fic “are we really born free?”#(no. theyre not they have to work for that freedom. rousseaus main theory specifically the idea of it works really well for this fic#and the hunger games in general)#the promise by when in rome seems to work especially for treech and how he interacts with the others#he always seems to make promises - that theyll live - that he wont leave - that hell take care of the living for the deceased#this ended up sm longer than intended i reached the TAG LIMIT#basil.txt
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OMG I I wgehejej I was writing a post about some soulmate AU and and while writing it just occurred to me-
Both Jean and Marco lost their gear during Trost. They both got in a situation where a Titan was going to kill them while having nothing to protect themselves.
Marco was there to help Jean get hold of a gear and survive. Jean wasn't there for Marco aka why he died.
Omg. I'm not crying you are
#I know is obvious but for some reason it hit harder this time#I actually can't remember whatever or not Annie helped too. I know she and Connie were there cuz yk Marco asked them where's Jean#But yk with the assumption that Annie helped... Like damn man. Annie helped Marco save Jean and she helped Reiner kill Marco#THE PARALELLS MAN#i love parallels#The fact they are both good leaders but in their own unique ways <3#I think... I think there's no way for them both to stay alive. One of them must die for the other to research his full potential#Yes it goes both ways Marco's wake up call can only be Jean's death sorry no sorry#Anyway something lowkey happier : in a universe were Jean dies in Trost not Marco during the fire when Marco sees Jean in the fire he sees#the moment Jean mocked him over his reason for joining MP. And yk maybe that makes Marco want to prove Jean wrong so he joins SC. Or maybe#He thinks he can no longer join MP not without Jean. Maybe he sees Jean in the smoke and feels guilty for not being there to help him#Ok but Eren probably has such a hard time trying to decide who to keep alive between the two man (everything would've worked out with#either of them) he truly wanted Marco to survive Trost but damn who would've looked over Mikasa yk. It truly hurt him#Gosh is 4 am I am TIRED don't mind me#aot#Aot JeanMarco#aot jean#aot marco#jeanmarco#jean kirstein#jean kirschstein#marco bodt#marco bott
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Susato not meeting her dad until she was six hurts me... But also, she met Kazuma not long after? So they've basically grown up as siblings together since then. That's super cute and also makes me even madder that she didn't get a hug from him just now.
I wonder if Kazuma was living in London with his father when he was a small child. Also, his whole career being the result of a promise between their fathers? That's... a lot in and of itself.
#ace attorney#tgaa#tgaalb#susato mikotoba#main takeaway: this girl needs more love and appreciation at all times#ryunosuke give her a hug! okay maybe he and she don't usually hug. iris would/should though. and ryunosuke could. idk. clean his desk.#make her some tea. tell her how amazing she is. he already does that but do it more.#actually you know what i'd like? them just sitting together late into the night after this and exchanging stories about kazuma#nothing recent or fraught. stories from their childhood or friendship at school. antics. silliness. happy memories that no longer hurt#not the same way at least now that they know he is alive. everything else aside he is ALIVE#.......man what a case. i'm exhausted. can't wait for the next one
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(( It's been such a hot minute since it's happened, that I forget that most people who follow this blog don't know what happens when Miranda sincerely catches a crush and knows it, for once!
In short: if Miranda ever does manage to genuinely fall for someone and wants them, then, firstly, she's going to panic. Miranda is someone who, yes, is very confident in herself and believes that she has a right to every good thing in life, but that definition of "good thing" has been severely biased by the Merkingdom. The only things she really indulges in actively wanting and pursuing are things that the Merkingdom tells her she is supposed to want and pursue in the first place, things that are acceptable for a royal to want and things which are "normal" for them to want. This is why she doesn't actually mind dating, so long as she gets to treat the other party as a disposable toy for her to do what she pleases with — because it is common for royals to seek relationships like this, and because it helps to reinforce their place as royals.
Sincerely, very sincerely, wanting and caring for someone and actually feeling something for them, does not help reinforce this system. It leaves her vulnerable, either by other royals catching onto this, or through the other party not being well-equipped to handle the entire situation (in all the ways that it can go wrong). It is treating someone as an equal who the Merkingdom does not agree is an equal, and, even worse, it is giving Miranda a priority above the Merkingdom itself which she might hold greater loyalty to. That in particular is especially bad, given how much of Merkingdom politics is a reflection of their social dynamics to begin with.
This is why it takes so long for Miranda to admit it to herself. To do so is to admit she's not doing what she's supposed to do, that she's being bad, that she's failed in some fundamental level to be what the Throne demands her to be, and that's a lot of heavy stakes working against ever realizing when she likes someone. It has to get so bad and so intense that Miranda effectively has to admit to herself that she has done something that, in her mind, is severely wrong, and there's no way to avoid it or forget about it.
Thus, she tends to panic fairly bad. She is scared, she wants something and she was not supposed to do that, and every last moment of her life as Crown Princess is telling her that she very well might die because of this and that she will very much deserve it if it happens. It's very hard for her to connect this as anything other than a bad thing, and this is even harder to deny because Miranda liking someone also endangers them as well.
The Merkingdom will not tolerate such risks and threats, especially not to their Crown Princess, and other royals will innately view anyone who has Miranda's attention as a threat to themselves and their livelihoods. And if Miranda sincerely cares about someone, then she doesn't want them to get hurt because of her, which is made even worse by how convinced she is that she might be the one to hurt them too. Miranda's as much a royal as any of the others too, and all of Miranda's prior history of dating begins to work against her, reminding her of how easy it would be to dispose of them or harm them.
Secondly, this does present in a heightened and extreme want to bite her person of interest.
Contrary to what's above, this isn't actually a royal thing. It's a merfolk thing. They have many different ways to bite each other with many different connotations, and one way that they bite each other is both notoriously intimate, and tends to leave a recognizable bite mark on the other party, thus physically indicating that the two of them are close.
It's just a quirk of how merfolk attraction works then, that they focus so much on wanting to bite someone else when they're especially into them. It goes back to their social bonds, reinforcing them and helping to establish a new and closely tied bond, and helps secure it by gesturing to all other merfolk as a part of the social landscape that they all have to navigate. A merfolk who is especially down bad for another merfolk translates this idea as a need to bite them and be bitten back in return, to claim them as "theirs" and to be considered "mine" in turn. It's not really possessiveness nor territorial behavior, not in the way we'd understand it, but a deep and intense need to belong to someone, and a desire for that belonging. It's as much a physical thing as having a house that they live inside of, and is one of the fundamental desires behind merfolk building their miivt'ia and other relationship hierarchies.
This is intense for merfolk to begin with, being hypersocial and needing near-constant contact and interaction with each other. It is especially intense for Miranda, who is deeply repressed and cannot easily confront these desires and emotions in herself, and who perceives this sensation as being nearly painful in its intensity.
#Most secret royal advisor || OOC#Given by Divine Right || Headcanons#(( some day ill get to talk again about how having a crush nearly drives miranda insane#(( she wants it SO BAD and struggles to make sense of the severity#(( and she is SO terrified and stressed and worried#(( because what if SHE gets hurt. what if SHE hurts THEM. WHAT IF WHAT IF WHAT IF.#(( there are suddenly STAKES to relationships and miranda HATES that#(( she just wants to toy around with everyones hearts make them fight for her eat them alive afterwards etc etc#(( but suddenly she WANTS this and. hnnghh. scary. it was too scary for her by far.#(( the issue is also miranda is such a slowburn muse#(( that to get to where she even HAS crush at all it takes SO long#(( and it takes even longer for her to ever want to ADMIT that she has a crush#(( and by then very few people will leave her in the insanity phase for very long#(( theres not enough time for miranda to try eating herself alive to cope with the YEARNING#(( shes gotten so far and its taken so long and she finally KNOWS shes in love. lets get together NOW.#(( many chances for miranda freaking out that have been missed. sad.#(( she will not be compelled to set herself on fire to maybe Make The Yearning Stop
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this + opening linkedin for the first time in weeks to see my feed pure flooded w cunts saying how theyre starting new jobs + studios all hiring right now but NOT hiring me + cant drink/go out/do anything to distract myself + + + why dont i just kms atp
#booooooooooo this is so lame#like whatever i guess it is what it is as always and im sure ill end up w something. at some time.#but im so sick of this shitttttttttttttt can i not just win once. just once and it doesnt fucking collapse under my feet this time#christ alive#whatever. at least i have a free roof over my head i need to just be grateful#and i am fr. no matter how much i bitch on here i AM grateful#but jesus fucking christ. sick of having to feel like the luckiest boy in the world just bc im not roadkill ykwim#guy whos only ever had work going for them when they no longer have work. to be honest.#but really like. im getting to the point where i just dont know what the fuck im meant to do. what the fuck do i do.#i cant stay HERE for the rest of my fucking life. fuck me.#few more months and im straight up going to find a deckhand job im so serious
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