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I love how at the end of chapter 1, the Princess already starts going toward the chapter 2 princess you're going to get. These ones are becoming
Tower
Adversary
Damsel
Prisoner
Nightmare
Witch
Beast
Razor
And Spectre.
#slay the princess#stp princess#cw: blood#some of them are more obvious than others but there's always some element you can point to
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THE suit // logan howlett x fem!mutant!reader
Summary: Now that you are officially part of the x-men team you need a suit. After the help from Hank and Charles to make the suit you kept the final result as a secret to Logan until he saw you in your first mission in THE suit. More than one time you needed more than one suit, not just because Logan will rip off a lot of them, but for other reasons.Â
Warnings: Jealous Logan and being a little bit of a brat, Hank and Charles cameo, insecurity towards your body and powers, use of your powers (ecokinesis), Logan being the best protective and comforting boyfriend, mentions of smut, suggestive language, mentions of pregnancy.
Words: 1.9kÂ
A/N: So thanks for the anon for the request!! Once again, a reminder that english is not my first language. I put angst, fluff and mentions of smut so I hope you like this. Also, reminder that this is a safe place for all body sizes so that's why I donât mention specifics measurements for the suit. ALSO, you can read this with my previous Logan fic TRAINING SEASON, this is them days after you are officially an x-men. Enjoy, love yâall!! <3.Â
italics = past.Â
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âHold on, wait. Hank is going to do your suit?â Logan stopped the conversation. You two at the cafeteria grabbing a late night snack. You took the pause to give a bite to your apple.Â
âWhat about it? The Professor told me Hank did all of themâ you answered him without any worry in your mind and didn't understand why he had that frowning look on his face.
âI think Storm should be in charge since your powers are related to nature tooâ. Logan suggested, trying not to be an asshole. You understand where this was going when he sighed.Â
âBut Lo, the Professor designed the suits, Hank is just going to sew it and for that he needs to take the correct measurementsâ you refreshed Loganâs mind, like if it wasnât obvious that a suit was not going to sew it itself.Â
So after that Logan just stopped insisting about it. He trusted Hank of course but something was itching his brain. If he knew you already had an appointment with Hank last week to take the first measurement and the Professor explaining to you how he designed it for you and your powers.Â
âSo, Y/N. If you didnât know, Hank came up with the idea to make the suits bulletproof and for your powers we needed to incorporate more resistance to heat changes in case your whole body is on fire or ice. So we needed to play with all of the opposite and different scenarios of the element you were going to manipulate or become, please try it onâ. Charles explained to you the work behind your suit. You just nodded, but the Professor can read your mind and know your excitement when you ran to change your clothes and came back with the suit on.
âSo you can basically turn into stone one moment and then disappear like air, so we create something that can resist that range of changes, and also of course something to be comfortable for youâ. Hank added, proud of the technology he put in the suit while you looked at yourself in the mirror. âYou can try it and test what Iâm talking aboutâ.Â
So you did it, always careful not to hurt them. They were so happy with the final results and you couldnât thank them enough and canât wait any longer to wear it.Â
âSee you next week, Y/Nâ. The Professor reminded you about the final meeting to correct some details.Â
So after that late snack, you both went to bed and before your appointment with Hank, Logan just stopped by his office and greeted him with a casual smile.Â
âLogan, how can I help you? Y/N is not hereâ Hank thought he was there to be with you once you tried on your suit.Â
âDonât worry, sheâs still in bed sleeping in our roomâ Logan gave a cocky smile and highlighted the âourâ. âActually Iâm here to help YOU. In case you needed help with her suit, just to let you know that I made you a list of her measurementsâ Logan handed him a piece of paper with the different sizes of the clothes you have. He really thought that was going to work. âYouâre welcome, so you donât have to take the measurements yourselfâ He smiles proud of himself.Â
Hank laughed and didnât want to ruin Loganâs intention. He just thanked him, if Logan knew the suit was ready in the lab for you to try it and make the last changes.Â
âOh! I almost forgotâ Logan turned to Hank before leaving his office. âSheâs the smartest person I know, donât get offended so Iâm pretty sure sheâs going to give you some ideas for the suitâ he made a pause imagining you giving instructions to Hank. âAnd her favorite color is purpleâ Logan finally leaves the room without letting Hank answer. Heading himself to the dining room proud of his work.Â
Hours later, you went directly to the lab where Hank and the Professor told you to meet. âOkay Y/N so tell us how you feel it, if you want to change somethingâ Hank looked at you looking in the mirror.Â
It was really comfortable even when it was really tight to your body. You felt so much confidence, you saw the x mark on it, that wasnât on the suit the last meeting you had. Also it made justice to your figure and your beautiful curves.Â
âThanks again, it fits perfectly. But Hank I just wanted to ask you if itâs possible if you could add something to the suitâŚâ Hank is paying attention to you. âIf there could be like- I donât know- something for you guys to know which element Iâm manipulating or about to, so you donât get yourself hurt out there during a missionâ you asked him nervously because they are the experts.
âMmmhh, itâs a really good idea but the enemy can use that information too against us to advance an attackâ Hank really liked the idea but they had a surprise for you.Â
âSo dear, we also wanted for you to try this suit tooâ the Professor went to reach the suit he was talking about. Hiding it inside a box that was wrapped like a gift.Â
âGuys, what is this?â you were in total awe when you opened the box. They know how easily you get emotional. Tears are already forming in your eyes.Â
âWe wanted for you to have your own suit, something that will be just for YOUâŚâ Hank started explaining. âAll of us have something that characterizes ourselves and our powers, so someone told us your favorite color is purple and it contrasts perfectly the green that represents your powersâŚâ Hanks kept talking because you went speechless. âI know it sounds clichĂŠ to add green for your ecokinesis, if you donât like it we can change itâ he suggested.
You just ran to hug them because it was perfect. âSo for your ideas you gave us, we design thisâŚâ the Professor handed you another box, but this time smaller. You opened it so fast. âWe created these gloves for the changes of elements. So you can use it in the field or on a daily basisâ you tried on them immediately and it blew your mind the technology it has, how itâs connected to you to change the colors related to the element, it sparkles so that makes them AMAZING.
âThe gloves are more for the missions, because with the suit you hold your powers in case you are not conscious. Also the gloves help you to give your attack a precise target. Weâll learn more about both items while trainingâ Hank explained.Â
So when you first wore the x-men suit, you were so nervous about the mission, about everything so you changed clothes in your room. Thinking if this was a good idea. Literally everyone was waiting for you to step into the plane.Â
âIâm goingâ Storm was about to go and search for you when you stepped into the ship. âThere you are! Kâ letâs goâ Storm yelled at Scott to go.
Logan almost fainted, his claws making an appearance without previous warning. He quickly put them back, he was so excited he couldnât resist to stay close to you. His flirting helped you to stop your nerves. âSugar, you look amazingâŚâ he gave you a kiss on your check, sitting next to you on the ship. He came closer to your face, whispering âI hope they made like a hundred suits because as soon as we're back in the mansion Iâm going to rip it off. God, I canât waitâ You tried to hide the redness of your face, you warned him to behave.Â
âLogan, Iâm pretty sure the Professor can read your mind, I donât want to be kicked out of the missions. Or give us separated missions. Do you want me to be paired with Scott instead?â you asked him with a teasing smile.Â
âIâm sorry, love. But did you see yourself in the mirror before coming?â Logan really insisted but not too much. âDonât worry, youâre going to kick asses today and Iâll protect you till the end of timesâÂ
Like I said before, Logan after that would take any opportunity to join you for fittings. Especially if something is different. Logan would be there next to you when you are not comfortable with your body. If you are not comfortable with your powers every time you discover something new about them. After years, he will always be there for you, sitting in front of you looking at you with awe and comforting you even when youâre were not feeling it.Â
The only time you skipped a mission was when your suit was not crossing your figure. You tried on your x-men suit and your own suit they made you and it was not stretching enough. The team was on a rush so they let you stay at the mansion.Â
Logan asked you when they were back about what happened and you just told him you were feeling under the weather. The Professor already knew the real reason. You distracted Logan enough for you to go to Hank's office.Â
âHi, Hank. Can I ask you something?â you stepped into the room worried. Hank welcomed you worried about your absence in the last mission. âI had a problem with the suit, actually both suits. Is it possible for the fabric to be even more stretchable?â you asked him.Â
Next day, after telling Logan the truth about you expecting and how suddenly a big bump you had appeared. That time he almost fainted too. So both of you were in the lab, the Professor and Hank giving you the congratulations when Hank was taking notes of your new measurements for your suits.
âBe careful there, big boyâ Logan growled at Hank when he put the measuring tape around your belly. Logan was so protective over you and now your baby. You laughed at him telling not to worry, Logan looking at you with charming eyes while you rub your belly looking at yourself in the mirror. So this was really happening, starting a family.
Hank explained to you your new suits, which were going to be more comfortable for you considering the bump was going to grow even more. But the only thing Logan could think about is to protect you even more out there in the field.Â
âLo, look at me. I can do thisâ you hold his face when back in the room he told you to reject some missions that were too dangerous just to be cautious. He was scared that if you got injured really bad in your state. He was not going to stop you from going to the missions, because he knows you are one of the strongest and with a single snap you can beat your enemy but he canât help himself from worrying. âAnd if Iâm not feeling good or at my best to fight Iâll stay hereâ. you kissed him to calm him down.Â
âI know, mama. You are the baddest out there. They could never beat you even if they triedâ Logan kissed you back and kneeled to kiss your belly. âI wonder which powers our baby is going to inheritâ. Next time Logan went to Hankâs office was to ask for a tiny x-men suit to surprise you. Hank couldnât say no to Logan because he found a really cute gesture from him even when he had a lot of work left to do.Â
#logan howlett fic#logan howlett#wolverine#wolverine x reader#wolverine x you#wolverine x mutant reader#x men#x men fic#wolverine smut#wolverine angst#wolverine fluff#dad!wolverine#dad!logan howlett#logan howlett smut#logan howlett angst#logan howlett fluff#logan howlett x reader#logan howlett x you#logan howlett x mutant reader#mutant reader#fic
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âHSR YANDERES AS TROPES.
Forced Proximity? Soulmates..? Amenesia! Common tropes that always end up happy! Your favorite characters love you so so much! But.. is it in the way you want?...
content warnings: yandere, toxic love, unreliable narrator, descriptions of gore, unrealistic relationships, unwanted PDA, depressive elements, suggestive, gn!reader (maybe ideas for makeup but most of the part is gn) pairing(s): sunday x reader, blade x reader, aventurine x reader, jing yuan x reader word count: around 350-500 each, 2100+ words in all A/N: I got a tiny bit carried away
Aventurine - Amnesia
WHATâS PLAYING: engravings - Ethan Bortnick
Your eyes are blinded by the casino lights. The sound of chips being thrown and cards being shuffled fills your ears. Things feel so familiar, but at the same time, completely foreign. You turn your eyes to your lover. At least you think heâs your lover.
Two weeks ago you woke up in the dead of night on a hospital bed feeling numb from your head to the tips of your toes. The hospital lights were blinding making you feel dreary. You slowly regained movement by wiggling your fingertips and finally being able to sit up on the comfortable bed. As you gazed around the room you felt shocked to see gold engravings on the trim of the walls. Itâs obvious it was a hospital, but it felt too expensive.
And you? You felt out of place.
A nurse walked into your room with a pan of what seemed like a new IV bag and other things like syringes and such. She turned wide-eyed and gasped as she suddenly dropped the pan of expensive medical equipment. You couldnât make out what she said as she mouthed something out loud. The drowsiness hit you and you passed out.
The next time you woke up to a man sitting beside your bed in the most luxurious clothes you ever laid eyes on. He looked worried, very worried. Realizing you woke up once again his Avgin eyes-
Wait Avgin?...
âSweetheart! Youâve been out for months. How are you feeling? Is there any pain? How⌠CanâŚ?â He spoke quickly but after the first couple of sentences, his words faded into mush.
He called you sweetheart though, you deduced he was someone close to you. Someone that must have cared for you.Â
But then why do you feel-
Cutting your thoughts you paused. Thinking was causing you too much pain and headache at the moment. You tried to recall what happened.Â
And at that moment you realize you couldnât even recall who you were.
After some time of recovery, you were able to get a couple of things down. The handsome manâs name was Aventurine. He is your lover. (?) You two have been together for quite some time now. You were diagnosed with severe amnesia, but your lover was kind enough to explain everything to you. Although, he was still hesitant to explain what happened to you and the reason why you were in the hospital.
You tried to get something out of the many doctors and nurses, but they seemed⌠scared.
Aventurine never left your side when other people were around. It was either you and him or no one at all. Leaving you lost and not being able to truly be clear about your condition. Everything went through Aventurine.Â
One day during your walk around the large hospital, Aventurine got a call. He looked at it and furrowed his eyebrows, smiled at you, said it was an urgent call, apologized, and left for a brief moment.Â
You dragged your IV stand a couple of steps more and abruptly stopped in your tracks as you overheard a pair of nurses talk about⌠you?
âIPC⌠they⌠lies⌠Aventurine⌠hiding.â Those were the only few words you were able to make out.
It no longer mattered though because Aventurineâs bright smile found you again and you walked back to your room first. If only you could see the piercing glare that he sent to the nurses. He wouldnât know what to do if you heard about the fates of them after spreading lies to your pretty head.
After the recovery, you settled in enough to âyour lifeâ. Now you sit next to your lover whose luck shines more vibrant than a newborn babyâs laughter. You feel content for the most part.
I wonder if you would still feel content if you were able to take a good look past Aventurineâs perfect poker face. While you sleep he watches you worriedly, wondering if youâll remember one day. Remember that this perfect love story he crafted isnât so perfect after all. He wonders how you would react if you were to find out again the atrocities heâs committed in the name of âloveâ. He holds his chips tightly, but luck has always been on his side.
So tonight like any other night, youâll smile with no idea of what had occurred in the past. At the end of the day, occasionally it is better to live unaware.
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Jing Yuan - Grumpy x Sunshine
WHAT'S PLAYING: Carousel - Melanie Martinez
The Luofu General was known for his joyous laughter and the positivity that he spread throughout the entire planet. He joked and was an infectious smiler. You on the other hand were known as the Yin to his Yang. If Jing Yuan was the sun, you were his moon. Itâs adorable on paper, isnât it?
You do nothing less than agree with the fact that your husband Jing Yuan was very positive. The reason why differed from others though.Â
You believed the reason he was so happy was because he sucked every smile, every laugh out of you.Â
Your story was the average fairytale, opposite attracts and then they fall in love. The End.
Unfortunately for you, Jing Yuan was anything but ordinary, and maybe that played a part in your perfect tragedy.Â
Jing Yuan loved you. You knew that for sure. He had always been a PDA person, always close to you and you would most likely be seen dead than without his arm around your waist. It wasnât a big deal though. This is what lovers usually do right?
Until you tried to back away. Things got⌠messy.Â
Arguments ensued and you realized that he never really treated you as an equal. He loved you, yes, but he viewed you as lesser and somehow put you on a pedestal at the same. exact. time.
âYou donât respect me.â You stated firmly.
âBut I love you.â He replied as if nothing was wrong.
You never thought your husband to be a jealous person and truly he was not. The possessiveness is what got you through.
It began small from making excuses on why you shouldnât go out,
âItâs my day off!â or âIt might rain soon.â Both are lazy excuses youâve heard again and again. Yet you still seemed to fall again and again for his sunshine charms and wits.
You were the perfect lover to Jing Yuan, loving, kind, and malleable to believe whatever he wanted you to believe.
At some point after the large argument you two shared, you didnât remember the last time when you had left the estate.Â
You felt stuck, stuck on a carousel that kept going around and around and stuck trying to read between the lines of Jing Yuanâs perfect facade. If you caught him at the wrong time you wouldnât see him for days and when he would return he would haphazardly apologize with the stupidest excuses.Â
You never raised your voice anymore after THAT argument though. You were too scared to. So even when he scratches his name into your skin, even if he hugs you so tightly to the point that you feel like your lungs are collapsing, you find excuses for him. For yourself. To make this entire relationship work
Because you love him.
And you donât not what scares you more anymore. The slight warning in his tone and the ever-present toxicity seeping its way into your originally âperfectâ marriage.Â
Or.
The fact youâll still stay even if it gets worse.
Why?
Because you love him.
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Blade - Forced Proximity.
WHATâS PLAYING: This is Love - Air Traffic Controller
Thereâs blood on the walls, the floors, and even on the couch. Anything youâve been able to find youâve smashed onto the ground. Your hands are covered in blood. No worries to Blade though. He sits on the couch covered in the blood of a man. Your eyes flicker to the dead body right in front of you. The now dead man who tried to help you escape from this prison Blade oh so lovingly calls âyourâ home to no avail.
Bladeâs red eyes stare into the distance of space. Perhaps heâs wondering what he should do next for your transgressions. Perhaps he is wondering what he can do to make you smile again. Or maybe, he doesnât care. Maybe he finds happiness and contentedness in your suffering. After all, a being who is forever stricken by mara might find peace in others' pain.Â
But.
Past this mara-stricken being is a man who does have some semblance of love for you. Blade knew your every like and dislike. He would trail kisses up your neck and on your lips. Youâd joke together. You both were disgustingly domestic at times. At least thatâs what appeared. Loving Blade wasnât difficult when every moment you breathed you were near him.Â
You wear outfits perfectly fitted to your style sponsored by your self-proclaimed lover himself. Anything you want youâll get. Jewels, clothing, books, anything you could ever desire. Itâs nothing but pocket money for the Stellaron Hunter.Â
Your mascara has been smudged after all the tears. Your sniffles fill up the room, you look at your palms. Hands covered in scratches and blisters from broken glass and accidental burns. You donât have to worry though, Blade will patch it all up for you. This situation will fade into the past just like all the others. Your head peaks again at the dismembered and maimed body on the floor. You stop breathing yet again. You shut your eyes and open them once again when you feel a warm breath on your neck.Â
Itâs Blade, you can tell that the mara had warned off him. He tightens his arms around your body and somehow pulls you closer than he ever did before in your ârelationshipâ. You blink once again as a tear rolls down your cheek and pray to any Aeon out there for help. Despite this, you're well aware itâs no use. Thereâs no place in the universe where Blade wonât find you. So you close your eyes to hum a broken chord as you prepare for the cycle to begin again.
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Sunday - Soulmates
WHATâS PLAYING: Butch 4 Butch - Rio Romeo
Fairytale love stories where the prince and the princess lived happily ever after were something that you grew up with on your home planet. As you grew up though, âsoulmatesâ left your mind. Other things like making credits and exploring the galaxies were more on your agenda than finding âtrue loveâ.
True love was a fairytale. Something that didnât exist and thatâs what you stood by ever since.
Ever since your planet was destroyed by its inhabitants. If people couldnât love the homes they lived in how could they ever love one another?
You enjoyed travel, you enjoyed learning about other planets, cultures, and people. You didnât have time for the nonexistent love. Though you enjoyed hearing the stories of it. Youâve met others who found their âsoulmatesâ, their one and only blessed by the Aeons themselves.Â
On your travel across the world, you stumbled on Penacony, The Planet of Dreams and Entertainment. The perfect and endless days are what brought you in the most. You could be there for days on end but turn out to only spend a couple of hours outside in the âreal worldâ.
Real world huh?
You think you miss the real world a little bit.Â
âAre the pastries not to your liking love?â Sunday inquires.
âTheyâre⌠fine.â You reply.
Sunday smiles. You donât know what it means though. He smiles at everything, he smiles at gatherings, at your laughter, and even at the tears you desperately try to hold in. He thinks of you as something to be protected, something that should be kept safe in a cage, away from the tainted lies of others.
Everything feels uncomfortable, from the moment you met Sunday you felt an odd gravitational pull towards him. It was truly as if he was your soulmate.Â
Except,
Something begged you to run away, something deep in the back of your soul. It all went away when you laid eyes on him though.Â
You wish you listened to your fight AND flight response.
Everything you wear is coordinated by the Head of the Oak Family. From the tiniest detail to your entire personality. Sunday is a firm believer that only the true you can come out behind closed doors, with locks only he has access to. His mansion was the perfect enrichment for a now flightless bird like you.Â
Perhaps the fairytales were somewhat true. The prince and the princess always seemed to stay forever together.
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If I want to study someone's art or style, how do I do that? Like where do you even start when looking at an illustration that they made đthank you!!!
Hereâs stuff i think about. i donât do that many style studies, so idunno how helpful it is! pls sound in tha comments if anyone has tips:)Â
Pinpoint what stuff you like, and focus on that. Focus on technique rather than exact replication, for example ( just first thing comes to mind) if you like rostovâs disco elysium cover art and want to study it, donât just repaint the image, find whatâs key in the style. looseness, maybe? then, instead of copying the image with your technique, try to apply the same looseness. (feat. shitty 5 min sketch plz dont judge example of how i normally approax paintings, versus a study. ALSO not to say u CANT do this it's just how i would study, myself. )
That being said, donât force yourself to make art decisions that feel unnatural to you. a lot of the time artists make decisions based on their weaknesses as well as strengths. I do very shaky, hatchy lineart because my hands are very shaky. I focus on painting what I* feel is important and fun.Â
Instead of copying a style from a picture, look at a variety of pictures and find technique. For example a lot of people redrawing a screenshot in âsailor moon styleâ or âghibli styleâ will draw⌠letâs say, an old man, looking like a usagi because thatâs the screenshot they looked at, instead of watching what stylistic choices for example takeuchi made when stylizing an old man. So the âstudiesâ end up homogenous. I personally find it unproductive to replicate a painting for purposes of study, but like focusing on individual elements. say you like egon schiele, replicating whole paintings at a time IMO isn't gonna do much, but maybe you can set out on a series where you sketch copy his hands or feet from different paintings, and then try stylizing your own hands the same way? Or maybe your fave artist draws moonlight like a blue stream, or a red one? Try applying only that light to your paintings.
You could also color pick or look at the colors they make and paint whatever you want with those same colors, to understand how they work together and what can be done with them.
Also, if you can, look at their influences! Everyone learns art by seeing others art. Chances are they saw art they liked and picked from there what elements they enjoyed. Looking at the inspiration can help make some of the techniques more obvious.
Basically focus less on copying(not that copying is bad- but not always helpful for studying), and more on what you like. If you find what you like, you can work from there and try to think about your own art from the same perspective.
IDK if this helps as i said, feel free to add onto^_^
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Hi!! Your rooftop smoke fic with Hoshina was just superb. đđ
Was wondering If could request a scenario where they had been mutually pining for one another. And they'd, on more than one occasion catch each other's eyes across the room. And a handful of people from the Defense Force notices. Cause could they be more obvious?
Whether that would end up angsty or with a happy ending is up to you! I love the way you write for Hoshina. You capture him pretty perfectly haha
Stay safe and healthy!!
notes: omg... thank you for your compliments... it means smsm! uhh... well. this kinda took on a life of its own, i'm sorry. i hope you don't mind ;-;;
say it! come on, say it!
soshiro hoshina x gn!reader alternatively: romcom except then i smacked it so hard with angst at the end. sorry. word count: 2400
âyou need to close your mouth when youâre staring.â you feel the ice-cold touch of a can press against your cheek, and you shriek as you stare up atâ
âah, fuck. iâm not staring, narumi,â you mutter, taking the soda can from him. narumi seemed less than convinced, his eyes barely visible from underneath his bangs.Â
âo-kay. and youâre totally not ogling hoshina with googly eyes.â narumi cracks open his own soda, taking a long sip from the can. âwhy donât you just date already? iâm gonna be honest, iâm sick of you looking at him like that. itâs boring, bland, predictable⌠fuckinâ hate that will they wonât they bullshit.âÂ
âi canât,â you complain dramatically.Â
hoshina, from the other side of the room, was talking to captain ashiro while examining some paperwork. occasionally, okonogi would come over, point out some new development, and thereâd seem to be another heated debate between the three. you always liked seeing hoshina in his elementâwhether it be instructing other officers, training with his blades, or awkwardly not making eye contact with him when he spoke to you.Â
âlike hell you canât!â narumi hissed, reaching out to put you in a headlock. âstop looking at him like that!âÂ
âlike hell what? whoâs looking at who?âÂ
hoshina had come over, staring at the two of you, right as narumiâs arm was beginning to wrap around your neck. narumi immediately flew back from you as you laughed nervously.Â
âuhh, like hell i, ummâŚâ you fumbled for an answer, staring up at hoshina nervously. why had he just come over? why was he looking at you like that? your lips quiver for a moment.
âoh, relax!â hoshina clapped you across the back, laughing. âyou look so nervous! like youâve just confessed you had some very, very personal feelings or something! thatâs adorableâŚâÂ
let me die, you think furtively as hoshinaâs hand brushes your shoulder. narumiâs face was pinched.Â
âdonât let narumi bully you too much; heâs just a little lowlife, after all,â hoshina said with teasing venom in his voice.Â
âyou bitch,â narumi growled. âi have no idea how they see anything in yââ his face paled as the words left his lips, and you think you almost see god for a minute. you hide your face with your hands, waiting for hoshinaâs verdict, and you swear that the next moment you get, you were going to make narumi very sorry for spilling your metaphorical, hell, call them literal at this point, guts out in the open.Â
âhmm?â hoshina hums. the world fell silentâat least silent to you, in any case, your eardrums pounding in time with your heartbeat. âwellââ
âvice captain hoshina!â mina ashiroâs voice was sharp and piercing. âtime to go.âÂ
âhuh?â hoshina cocks his head. âah, of course, captain. be right there!âÂ
he turned to you and narumi with a small smile, one of his fangs peeking out for a moment before waving his fingers.Â
âsee you.â he nods his head to you specifically before he turns away.Â
you wait until you are absolutely, absolutely sure heâs out of earshot before turning on narumi, throwing your soda can at his head.Â
âfuck!â narumi swore. âwhat the fuck was that for?âÂ
âyou idiot! why did you basically confess to him for me?!â you hiss. âiâm trying to count on you to not run your damn mouth!âÂ
âhoshinaâs an idiot,â narumi says sullenly. âi bet he didnât even notice.âÂ
[âŚ]
the walk through the hallway was silent, up untilâ
âyouâre red,â mina says, her hand reaching for her skirt pocket to pull out her phone.Â
âstop,â hoshinaâs voice is strangled, far more strangled than heâd like it to be. âno, iâm serious. no photos. youâll need to talk to my PR agent about that.â hoshinaâs ears were tinged pink, and he raised his hands to try and hide the flush.Â
âhoshina,â okonogi sounded disapproving, âwhy donât you just confess already? iâm getting tired watching you get so concerned over themâŚâÂ
âha! confess,â hoshina laughs. âand what good would that do? iâm not exactly peak romance material, you know thisâŚâÂ
âthe only one not noticing that is you, hoshina,â mina mutters. âyou get all sullen when they leave and happy when they come back, but you have to act like a⌠hmm⌠what does he act like, okonogi?âÂ
hoshinaâs eyes went wide as okonogi hummed.Â
âa cat!â okonogi declares emphatically.Â
âyes. youâre right,â mina says decisively. âthatâs a good fit. you act like a cat about it. you try toââ
âstop. stop it, stop it, i donât want to hear it. stop analyzing my personality. this isnât some kind of joke,â hoshina says, his voice sounding more flustered as he went on. âtheyâre never gonna say yes. itâs stupid. confessing like this⌠it would only be a burden on all of us.âÂ
mina and okonogi exchanged a look.
âbesides, iâm a bad boyfriend. remember that last girl, from operations,â hoshina laughed. âbroke her heart in three seconds flat.âÂ
â⌠if i remember correctly, you liked her quite a lot, though,â okonogi said hesitantly.Â
âha! so what if i did?â hoshina asked. âshe only just left when i⌠hm.â his smile seemed to falter somewhat, but he laughed. âitâs fine. itâs fine. iâm fine.âÂ
behind his back, mina and okonogi exchanged another look.Â
but his mind flickered back to his hand on your back, and wondered if you leaning into his touch was a fluke.Â
[âŚ]
you stare at hoshina from across the room. heâs eating by himself, half a piece of melon bread in his mouth as he stared down at some papers in his hand. youâd have asked to sit next to him, if only you were braver. but you were a coward, so here you were. you stare down at your own food, tearing off a corner of the red bean bun you were eating, popping it in your mouth.Â
your crush on hoshina was about as subtle as a freight train. which is to say, you felt it coming on, and then by the time youâd fully reconciled it, you were already being run over repeatedly. it was just grappling, mostly, with how cool he was, endlessly.Â
you wondered what it would be like to live under the intensity of his stare, as it enveloped you whole.Â
would it be like a benevolent fire? or would he raze you so wholly that thereâd be nothing left?Â
you wanted to find out. you wanted to find out, but you were so scared heâd burn you before you could even get close. but what was important was that hoshina, for sure, didnât even bother to reciprocate your feelings. thatâs what you were so sure ofâbecause why would someone like him give you the pleasure of his time? surely his time was more valuable than wasting it on a nobody like you.Â
his intensity, sharpened to a fine point, was better spent figuring out how to permanently eradicate the kaiju threat altogether.Â
right?
you sighed miserably.Â
ânow that sounds like a miserable sound to me,â hoshinaâs voice rang out right next to your ear.Â
you nearly jumped out of your skin as soon as you heard his voice, too focused for a second on the soft, tickling sensation of his breath against the shell of your ear. your face bloomed bright red, and you immediately backed away from him, your heart pounding loudly in your chest.Â
âhoshina!â you stammer. âwhatâwhat are you doing?âÂ
âeating?â hoshina raises his eyebrow, a teasing smirk on his lips. ânoticed you were staring. take a picture, by the way, if you want. they do last longer than the momentary glances.â he sat down next to you, continuing to eat.
so he had noticed you staring.Â
âs-sorry. for staring,â you say.Â
âhuh? why are you sorry?â hoshina asks, cocking his head at you, one of his eyes opening a bit wider. âi donât mind. if i minded, i woulda said something.â your face flushed a little more at his words, and you looked away as he laughed.Â
âyou really are cute,â he says fondly, reaching out a hand to pat your head.
⌠huh?
âwhat?â you ask weakly.Â
âhuh? did i say something weird?â hoshina asks, the picture perfect image of innocenceâor so youâd say, if his eyes werenât narrowed at you, and the smile on his face a little too much like a smirk, waiting for how youâd react.Â
ânoâŚ? i guess? itâs just not something i thought youâd say. to me,â you say falteringly, looking away for a moment.Â
âmm. i guess i should make a habit of saying it more, huh?â hoshina teases, removing his hand from your head.Â
and as you fluster a little more, you curse god for your crush on soshiro hoshina.Â
[âŚ]
âyou need to quit fucking around,â narumi says, pointing a dumbbell at hoshina in the training room.Â
âfucking around? iâm doing nothing of the sort,â hoshina says, that mask of innocence still on his face. narumiâs brow furrows.Â
âsure, and you donât also ogle⌠you need to get your shit together and confess, or swear to god, iâll kill one of you. or, hell, why donât we just kill both of you so i donât have to fucking look at you?â narumi scoffs, anger spiking in his voice.Â
âha, yeah, maybe if you do that iâll finally be free from hearing your annoying, grating voice,â hoshina says, prodding narumi in the chest.
âyeah, but then you wonât confess your feelings and then iâll have to die knowing i broke up a couple that hadnât even gotten together,â narumi grumbles. âiâm not a monster.â
âhuh?â hoshina asks.
narumi looked like he was about to blow a gasket.
âwait, so you didnât know they reciprocate?â
âiâwell, i⌠hoped?â hoshina says, realizing how stupid he must sound. his mind flit back to your reactions the past few daysâhell, the past few weeks? maybe the past few months? âoh. shit.â
âoh. shit. indeed,â narumi mocks. âso, are you going to tell them?â
âiâŚâ hoshina suddenly realized how terrified he was. his face paled, his hand coming up to his mouth. âi⌠shit. wait. this isâfuck. iâŚâ he ran a hand through his hair, pushing his bangs up past his face, a shaking sigh passing his lips. âno. this is⌠how would i even begin to explain it? iâm not⌠i canât. iâm notâi canât be a good partner. not in this line of work. my judgement could be compromised! that wouldnâtââ
âyour judgement is already compromised,â narumi says, a bared snarl-turned-smile on his lips. âyou know, hoshina. this is probably the most interesting youâve ever been. youâre always facades, niceties. pretended you were untouchable, swimming in that sea of self-loathing and ineptitude. but maybe youâre beginning to live a little, arenât you?â
hoshinaâs eyes widened.
living?
[...]
itâd always come to the worst, you thought. you coughed up a mouthful of blood as another round of rubble began to creak overhead. you tried to force your body to move, and your suit pulsed in response to your movements, attempting to close the bloody gashes across your body from the kaiju attack.Â
âcommand, come in,â you gasped out, holding up a shaking hand to your in-ear. you winced as there was only a clicking static in responseâwas no one coming? were you all alone? were you going to die like this, your limbs barely even able to hold up their own weight even with most of your combat power unleashed? is this all you were good for? your knees buckled as you collapsed onto the ground, coughing out a mouthful of blood.
were you going to die like this?
you couldnât.
you didnât want to.
your vision swam a bit as you coughed out another mouthful of blood, your mind lingering.
hoshina had touched your back right before youâd left, a small smile crossing his face.
âdonât die,â heâd said.Â
and here you were, stumbling through the rubble, hurting so badly that you might as well be dead.Â
it was utterly and painfully cliche to think about letting hoshina down. you didnât want to, and yet there was a horrifying possibility that you would. and as you buckled again, collapsing onto your knees, you coughed out another mouthful of blood.
fuck.
âcommand,â you repeated, in a weaker voice. âplease. if someoneâif anyone can hear meâi need help. suit damage isââ you cough again, wiping blood from your mouth. â--critical. please.âÂ
and as your vision swam, you felt a hand press against your shoulder.
âthere you are.â
you blinked hard, staring up at the face of soshiro hoshina, whoâd pulled his mask off, leaning down to pull you into his arms.
âhoshina,â you whisper. âiâm sorryâi shouldnât have⌠i gotâŚâ
âwhy are you apologizing?â hoshina asks, his voice sounding more choked than youâd like it to be.
âi didnât mean toâi didnât mean for this to happen.â you think youâre bleeding across hoshinaâs suit, across his gloves as you press your head against his shoulder.Â
hoshina laughs desperately, wetly.
âyou didnât mean toâof course you didnât mean to!â hoshina protests. âthe attack was more than any of us could have predictedâof course you didnât mean for any of this happenâi donât want you to apologize for that.â his hand reaches up to swipe some blood away from your brow. âcome on, love. i have to tell you how i feelâthat bastard was right, after all. my judgement was compromised from the beginning, around you.âÂ
âthat bastard? narumi?â you ask, coughing a bit. why did it feel so cold? your eyes fluttered for a moment, âwhat does he have to do with any of thisââ
âi love you,â hoshina says. âiâm sorry it took me this long to tell you. and iâm selfish, for waiting until youâre bloodied, like this, to tell you.â you didnât like the desperate look in his eyes like he was convinced you were going to die. you leaned up, pressing a kiss to the corner of his mouth.
âyou bastard,â you muttered. âcouldnât you have thought up a better time and place for all of this?âÂ
âno,â hoshina admits. âbecause iâm selfish, after all.â he smiles at you, the corner of his mouth twitching ever so slightly. âcome on. letâs get you to the medbay. iâm not letting you die on me yet.â
âokay,â you whispered weakly. âokay.â
#kaiju no 8#soshiro hoshina#soshiro hoshina x reader#hoshina soshiro x reader#kaiju no 8 x reader#x reader#kn8 x reader#my secret weapon... hoshina blast#i hope that narumi was written okay. i like writing dialogue banter. idk if u can tell. rolls my eyes
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I think a lot about the Concept of âchoices that matterâ in video games. Like, in terms of what it is that makes a choice âreally matterâ, what do we perceive as a choice that matters or has a consequence, how do different games with different amounts of branching or non-branching storylines play with those ideasâŚÂ Especially because Undertale is one of my favorite games of all time, and it has often been hyped as âa game where your choices REALLY matterâ and⌠honestly, I dunno if all of this hype was fully conducive to Undertale. Because the way it handles the concept of Video Game Choices is actually a lot more interesting and complex than that simplistic descriptor makes it seem.
Because Undertale actually has a lot of choices that âdonât really matterâ! Lots of dialogue choices and silly little decisions that on a first playthrough seem like theyâre some sort of moral choice or a branching plotline but end up always leading to basically the same result regardless of what you do!
And the game doesnât really try to hide the fact that these choices are kinda 'Fake'. I mean, on a first playthrough a player might assume thereâs gonna be some Massive Consequences for picking the âwrongâ drink on Undyneâs date, but the gameâs narrative expects for there to be multiple playthroughs and pretty much every Choice that Doesnât Matter is peppered with that Undertale brand of wacky character-focused humor that inherently makes the moment memorable. Papyrus leading Undyne straight to you no matter what you do is basically a cross-timeline running gag.
On some level I see this as a sort of gag that serves as meta-commentary about the expectations around Choices That Matter in Video Games. As in, a lot of games have their Moral Choices happen in clearly easily marked âthis is a Moral Choice!â moments within the story, while the actual gameplay (and any violence the player might cause as part of said gameplay) is basically entirely divorced from any element of narrative-branching and doesn't effect the story at all. Undertale basically entirely inverts this dynamic; the most important factor for which Route youâre own is how you handle your FIGHTs, and what seems like clearly-marked and obvious Moral Choices are just goofy insubstantial minor changes in dialogue.Â
But also⌠there is also a level where you must ask yourself âwhat does it mean when we say that these choices Donât Matterâ. I mean, itâs not like they didn't change anything about the game, the Player still made the character say that other thing, the choice probably led to an alternate piece of dialogue, probably a joke with a call-back at the end of the game⌠The line between a one-off joke and an actual story-changing moment can be a little blurry if you look at it too deeply.
For example, near the end of the Waterfall part of the game, the Player is given the choice to save Monster Kid even at the risk of having to face down Undyne.
Pretty much anyone who isnât deliberately trying to be an asshole is going to rush to save them and obviously that includes the Pacifist Route Players. But you can actually leave Monster Kid to die without it 'mattering' in the sense that it wouldn't divert you from the Pacifist Route. Undyne saves them instead of you, and ends up with slightly less HP for her battle (which might Matter for Runs when you try and FIGHT her but obviously not in Pacifist Runs) and⌠by the end of the game, during the extremely happy True Pacifist Ending, they still clearly remember that you abandoned them and are upset by it.
So⌠does saving Monster Kid âmatterâ or not? On one hand, choosing not to save them mostly just changes a few lines of dialogue but⌠these lines of dialogue kinda recontextualize this happy ending and the Playerâs actions in general. Despite the True Pacifist Ending otherwise portraying the Player/Frisk as a kind-hearted and brave hero... they still did this undeniably cowardly (and perhaps even cruel) act to one of their friends .
Was running away and leaving Monster Kid to die a brief but significant moment of weakness that the Player regrets and has cost them what couldâve been the start of a lovely friendship? Or is that simply that being a True Pacifist was always more of a matter of pragmatism rather than ideals? Were they only acting as a Pacifist to get that promised 'Best Ending', and only Monster Kid has an inkling they are not as heroic or kind as everyone thinks they are?
And then thereâs the Snowman âquestâ.
A free healing item given early in the game, with your mission being to carry it along in your inventory for as long as you can without ever consuming it. The only reward you will ever see from it is a few lines of dialogueâŚ
But for many, it is more than enough of an incentive to preserve the Snowmanâs Piece. You can do whatever you want with the Snowman without it âmatteringâ in terms of Ending or consequences. You could carry it through all of your adventures with care and kindness... or you could eat it while he canât see you and then go back to him and tell him that you âlostâ it and then get another piece and eat that as well, you could eat it right in front of his face, horrifying him.Â
And much like with Monster Kid, you can STILL get the True Pacifist Ending after doing that, all that would change is a few optional pieces of dialogue from the SnowmanâŚÂ
And a total recontextualization of the Playerâs behavior and the ending. The Snowman sees the Player as a cruel and heartless person who is just pretending to be good so they can be liked - the way they acted with this immobile, powerless Snowman who could do nothing for them and their reputation reveals their true self. And he says their friends will realize that too one day...
Doing a True Reset on the Pacifist Ending is, by definition, a (almost) consequence-free action and yet it changes future Pacifist Routes immeasurably. Turning the Player into a Hypocrite doing the exact same thing they were trying to stop Flowey/Asriel from doing - trapping all of their friends into a time-loop so they can play with them forever while never actually letting them to enjoy freedom on the surface, simply because they are not willing to move on or put their friends' wishes and agency above their own. Nothing in the game actually changes, not one character can even suspect that you did something like that, and yet for the Player - this choice makes the entire Meaning of the game flip on its head.Â
Even the most famous and heavily-toted Big Consequence in the whole game - selling your soul to Chara after completing a Murder Route⌠mostly what it does is just⌠recontextualize the ending of the Game.
As a game, âUndertaleâ is very much about the ways in which a Player engages with a game can radically recontextualize it. The huge chasm of difference between the Pacifist and Muder Routes is just the most literal example of it. But, in a way, even the tiny little Dialogue Options - where the lack of real choice and consequences is Obviously a Joke - matter. Because of the way they can recontextualize the Player Characterâs behavior.
(Okay, maybe not this one, but hear me outâŚ)
Do you trust Papyrus to not betray you, even after you spied on him with Undyne?
Do you have the integrity to admit you forgot something or got it wrong even when thereâs no consequences for just lying about it?
Are you a hypocrite for trying to get Alphys to be truthful with Undyne only to then immediately turn around and lie to Undyne yourself? Â
None of these choices matter for the ending, some of them donât even get, like, a call-back joke or anything, but⌠if you are engaged in this story as a narrative, if you are invested in these characters as if they were people, if you are honestly trying to be the best person you can be, if you are trying to self-reflect at the way you approach this game⌠even the silliest little dialogue option can suddenly be imbued with deep implications and you can make them matter.Â
Undertale is one of the best demonstrations of this concept, but this is absolutely not exclusive to it. For exampleâŚ.
âAce Attorneyâ is pretty much as far away as you can get from a âbranching narrativeâ within the video game sphere. It is a heavily-linear Visual Novel where 70% of the time it wonât even let you talk to random characters at anything but the exact order it expects you to and any âBad Endingsâ are basically just glorified Game Over Screens. (... because this is the Internet and something something piss on the poor, I should probably specify that I am talking about âAce Attorneyâ because I love Ace Attorney and these are neutral descriptions of the game and not complaints. Thereâs nothing wrong with a game being linear.)Â
If thereâs any Dialogue Choice in AA, itâs generally a very basic âright answer-wrong answerâ choice between Progress and a Penalty, or a total non-choice that just gets you to the same final result regardless. Except⌠Well⌠as we just talked about, getting to the same final result doesnât necessarily mean a choice is âmeaninglessâ, does it?
Thereâs actually a lot of great storytelling moments where Ace Attorney, despite its otherwise strict linearity, uses this exact sort of recontextualizing mindset Iâve talked about with Undertale to make choices with some really powerful emotional impactâŚ. Even if technically, the ending is the same ending. It can be something as basic as âeven if picking this Wrong Answer doesnât get me a penalty, it still embarrassed my character and disappointed my friends/rivals and thus I feel bad for picking itâ. Consequences as recontextualizing your character as more incompetent than they shouldâve come across at that moment.
And then thereâs moments like the iconic ending of âJustice for Allâ. That moment before Franziska bursts into the Courtroom with the case-making evidence and saves the day. The moment where it seems like Phoenix really is gonna have to pick between protecting his best friend and carrying out a rightful sentence.
The player gets to pick between the two options, but Phoenix never gets to say his choice out loud before Franziska comes running in... and yet⌠he, and the player, still made that choice. Even if no one ever has to experience the consequences of your choice, even if the rest of the world has no idea what Phoenix Wright wouldâve chosen if the Miracle hadnât happened, we know what we picked and that knowledge of the choice matters. Because of how we feel about this choice and what it says about our interpretation of Phoenix⌠and about us.
Thereâs also a bit of this ludonarrative device in âThe Great Ace Attorney: Adventuresâ. During âThe Adventures of the Runaway Roomâ, when you investigate the Omnibus for the second time and start finding things that⌠donât quite fit together. When youâre finally starting to make progress with proving McGildedâs innocence, while also maybe starting to notice that something is⌠wrong with these pieces of evidence.Â
The unchanging linear narrative of the game is that Ryunosuke does eventually realizes McGilded's trickery, puts truth ahead of victory in court and yet, despite his effort and good intentions - the case still ends with a false Not Guilty verdict. And yet, the Player has the choice to... tweak the details.
There are several points where Ryunosuke can object, where he can call out the inconsistencies even though they help his case, where he can support Van Zieks in his accusations of tempered evidence... or he can not. Not necessarily intentionally misleading the Court as much as subconsciously trying to ignore the inconsistencies in the name of trusting his client.
And yet⌠in the end it doesnât matter. Maybe Susato calls out the inconsistency instead of him, maybe Van Zieks does, maybe it remains uncontested but... no matter what you do, the case will end with a Not Guilty verdict (I mean, I guess you can deliberately fail the game but that will not progress the plot), McGilded doesnât seem like he held a grudge (in the few minutes he had left to live), and a few cases later - Ryunosuke would always be punished for his part at this false verdict.
So it doesnât really matter what Ryunosuke did back then? Does it matter if he did his best and called out every single inconsistencies or if he kinda half-assed it until he (and the Player) had to? Heâs still going to suffer the same consequences down the line. And yetâŚ.
And yet, I think thereâs something so powerful about giving us that option. About knowing that Ryunosuke, and we, did try and do something about McGilded's dirty tricks- even if it didnât work. Or alternative, knowing that there was more that Ryunosuke and us couldâve done even if it was not nearly enough. Even if in the eyes of the game and the British Justice system there is no difference, the fact that we know what did and what we couldâve done can radically change the way the player feels about all of the later scenes concerning the truth about McGildedâs trial. It can radically change the way the player interpret Ryunosukeâs feelings about it as well.
Because even though the game itself keeps playing along with the same script regardless, that trial had irrevocable consequences for the Player.
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What Are You Looking At?
Dom!Seungmin x Sub!Fem!Reader
-`âĄÂ´- Genre: Smut, some plot mostly porn
-`âĄÂ´- Summary: One question turned into an entire scene
-`âĄÂ´- Word Count: 3.9k
-`âĄÂ´- Warnings: Dominant/Submissive Dynamics, Hard Dom Seungmin and a bit of Dom Hyunjin, Choking, Slapping [for a second] , Degradation, Semi-Public Sex, Exhibitionism, Mentions of other members relationships, OT8 are involved, Previous consent implied, use of sex toys in public, Aftercare [Some on screen, more implied off screen] (Sorry If I missed any)
-`âĄÂ´- A/N: This was something that I've wanted to post for a while but I just never got around to editing it until now! I hope that you enjoy! And yes the reader is depicted as chubby/plus size and is a POC âĄ. This fic was 100% self-indulgent and contributed towards my Seungmin Brainrot
⼠Names Used Towards Reader: Slut, Pathetic, Pitiful, Whore
-`âĄÂ´- Masterlist -`âĄÂ´-
Itâs not everyday that your boyfriend invites you to be his date to an event, so when Seungmin invited you to attend one of the many events to promote the new album with him and his members, you excitedly accepted. Itâs been a while since youâve all gotten together and any day with all of the boys is more than entertaining so you found yourself getting more excited than usual for this event.Â
Of course, Seungmin had one condition when he invited you, he had to pick out your entire outfit. It was a fairly upscale event so formal attire was the only appropriate choice. You knew the moment that he requested to pick out your outfit that youâd be matching your man, itâs something that he loves but will never admit. He loves when the two of you look like a couple and carry similar visual energies.Â
Your outfits were fairly basic. He had a white dress shirt and black slacks with small more flashy designer elements incorporated into the outfit. For you, he picked out a black gown of the same brand that he was wearing. Itâs his go to dress for you to wear at events when he wants you to be on everyoneâs radar. When he wants the two of you to be eye-catching and wants every single person in the room to eye the dips and curves of your perfect plush figure. Â
There was one condition to your outfit though, a dare of sorts.Â
âWhy are these here?â You asked as you looked over the outfit laid out on your bed. The soft black panties with the built in vibrator along the gusset were resting on top of your velvety black gown.
âAh, right, I wanted to propose a little game for the night.â You eyed Seungmin through the bedroom mirror as he fiddled with the glossy buttons of his dress shirt. â You wear those and let me control them throughout the night. If you hide it well you get to be in charge tonight.âÂ
Your face lights up at the sound of his offer. Youâve been begging him to let you dominate him in bed for months but he always turns you down. Â
âIf you make it too obvious or get caught in any way then I get to use you all night.â He turns to face you, slipping a hand into his pocket. âAnd I can use any toy that I please.â
You suck your teeth at him, heâs been itching to use the new spreader bar that he ordered a month ago since the day that it arrived. You werenât sure about it when it got here and you still arenât very sure about it now. Of course you think that itâll be fun to use but you know Seungmin and you know just how rough he likes to be when you arenât restricted by any toys or rope so you can only imagine how itâll be when your legs are permanently spread open for him. You think for a second, trying to weigh your options but the thought of being able to be in charge of him for a night is way too tempting to pass up.Â
âDeal.â You smile, holding out your pinky finger and he copies the action twisting his finger around yours and leaning in for a swift kiss.Â
âGood luck, Iâm not gonna take it easy on you.â
âWould it be so horrible to let me be in charge?â You scoff as you slip the panties on, aligning the vibrator to rest against your clit and folds comfortably.Â
âNah.â Just as you move to pick up your dress a deep vibration rumbles through your core and a gasp leaves your lips followed by a choked moan. You glare over at your boyfriend, his hand is in his pocket, most likely holding the tiny remote, and thereâs a devious smirk resting on his lips while he watches you. âI just figured that if Iâm gonna do it I should make you work for it.â
âYouâre not gonna break me.â You roll your eyes as you push your thighs together, the vibrations stop abruptly and you let out a breath that you werenât even aware you were holding.
âYou know that I love a challenge."
You were more than excited when you saw all of the boys, but they seemed ten times more excited to see you. They updated you on everything that they could think of from games that theyâve started playing, songs that they started writing, and Hyunjin even let you get a sneak peak into his art folder on his phone. Of course, Seungmin decided to torture you in the most delicious way the entire time, but much to his dismay, you held your composure, even with him whispering pure filth into your ear all evening. Youâve been through your fair share of edging and teasing since dating Seungmin so a game like this was nothing compared to the countless times that youâve begged and cried on his cock after being fucked for hours on end. Heâs the type of dominant that takes pleasure in training his submissive and youâre the type of submissive that loves to do everything so perfectly that itâs almost infuriating, especially for someone like Seungmin who has a thing for taming brats.
âCan I have a coffee too?â You asked as you sat between Hyunjin and Changbin. Your boyfriend only glared at you as he stood from his seat and made his way over to the coffee machine to make himself a drink. You try your best to hide your smirk as you push your thighs together. He's being extra mean to you today and all of the guys have noticed it. Theyâve all been extremely nice to you to make up for it but what they donât know is that this is all a part of Seungminâs game. He knows that youâre an absolute slut for degradation and that each nasty word and eyeroll is getting under your skin and sending a shock right to your clit but to the guys the two of you are just having a bad day.Â
Changbin puts in his request right after you and follows by repeating your question but heâs met with silence just as you were a second ago. Instead of answering either of you, Seungmin starts talking to Jeongin about something that youâre barely paying any attention to as he makes everyone a drink except you, allegedly.Â
You zone out as Changbin starts messing with Hyunjin, heâs teasing him about something random and the sound of them laughing registers as a distant echo as you take the time to admire just how good your man looks right now. Youâve seen Seungmin in more suits than you can count but thereâs something about what heâs wearing tonight that has you in a choke hold. Maybe it's the perfect fit of his pressed dress shirt or the way the fabric of his dress pants stretches over his thighs. It could also be the fact that youâve been edged by these damn vibrating panties for the past two and a half hours. You sat through an entire press conference as your boyfriend messed with the tiny remote in his pocket, watching you from the corner of his eye and stopping the vibration right when he saw your eyes roll back or noticed your balance become a bit unsteady.Â
 You watch him as he takes out his phone and glances over at you for no more than a second before looking down at his screen. The micro interaction snaps you out of your daze and you pull your attention over to Changbin as you try your best to focus on anything else.
âYou looked so cute on the stage, Hyunjinnie.â Changbin continues to tease the man next to you as he reaches behind you to pinch at his cheeks. Hyunjin moves away, dodging his hand and looking down at his phone, most likely to text his girlfriend whoâs a close friend of yours. You smile to yourself since youâre the one who introduced them to each other and played cupid for a bit until they fell for each other.
âBinnie, heâs gonna keep ignoring you if you donât -â Youâre cut off by a loud gasp that catches Changbin off guard and startles Felix whoâs sitting next to him. You clear your throat and shift in your seat a bit, trying your best to calm down as the vibrator buzzes against your core at its highest setting. Once you feel that youâve settled a bit you glare over at your boyfriend with the calmest expression you can manage to keep. He stares back at you, matching your expression with a hint of a smirk on his face.Â
"What are you looking at?" The slight smile on his face contradicts the bite in his voice and you find yourself pressing your plush thighs together again. The pressure against your clit pushes you closer to your orgasm but thatâs the last thing that you want to do. You canât cum here in front of all of his friends, not because it would be embarrassing, the two of you have talked about putting on a show for his friends for a long time and youâre more than into it, but if you cum right now in front of everyone youâll lose the game. Thereâs no way that youâre losing this.Â
"Seungmin, stop being so mean to her, what's up with you two?" Hyunjin tries to come to your defense, pushing his phone into his pocket and glaring at the younger member as you choke back a moan.
"She's a slut." His tone is flat like heâs speaking a well known fact.
"Hey, whoa why would you say that?" It's Changbin's turn to defend you, he sounds more than fed up with the attitude that your partner has had towards you today. Gosh, if only he knew the half of it.
"Because it's true, you're a slut aren't you?" Seungmin turns his attention towards you, taking a couple of steps forward and standing with his arms crossed over his chest as he watches you hold back. He notices every slight raise of your eyebrows and the way that you lightly bite at your bottom lip, he knows that heâs winning. All movement in the room comes to a subtle stop as the members watch the situation unfold in front of them. You can hear the door open and close quickly and you assume that what was left of the staff decided to give you all some privacy, thank gosh.
"Seungmin, seriously, stop it." Chan speaks up as he makes his way to the side of the couch that youâre sitting on with Changbin and Hyunjin. Your boyfriend is way too invested in you to heed his warning, heâs way too focused on winning to care about what anyone else says. He rolls up his sleeves further before kneeling in front of you and grabbing your jaw harshly.Â
âLook at me.â You swiftly fix your gaze on him, earning more of a smile from the dark haired man in front of you. You can hear Han, Jeongin and Minho protest the harsh action in your defense. They all turn their chairs to face the two of you and Changbin moves over a bit to give you some room between him and Hyunjin.Â
âSeungmin seriously.â Chan protests again, putting his hand on the younger member's shoulder but he swiftly shrugs it off, never taking his eyes off of you.Â
"Tell them." You whimper at his request as you bat your thick lashes at him. Your glassy doe eyes tell him everything that he needs to know, Heâs studied every single part of you, every move and every sound. Youâre trying so hard to keep it in but your sub space is setting in heavy especially with all of these eyes on you, it just turns you on ten times more. Youâre a sucker for being a good girl for your man especially when thereâs an audience. Â
"I'm a slut." Your words come out in a gasp as a tear trails down your cheek. The vibration abusing your clit feels so much more intense as your vision becomes hazy and your body starts to feel like itâs floating. Seungminâs fully smiling now, admiring how pretty you look in your headspace. Since youâve slipped into yours itâs time for him to fully slip into his. Heâs in full dominant mode now, heâs hyper vigilant, using his extensive knowledge of you to lead him through the scene. Han stands from his seat, looking over the younger man's shoulder, unsure of what to say.Â
"Tell. Them. Now." A small yet firm slap to your cheek punctuates each word that comes out of his mouth and you can hear Felixâs deep voice start to protest before itâs cut off by a deep moan leaving your parted lips. It feels like the air in the room thickened as soon as the sound registered, you blink a couple of times as you try to think of a way to cover it up, maybe you can say that youâre just kidding, maybe you can say that it was all a filthy prank. Maybe youâll just ignore Seungminâs orders, you need to win this game, thereâs no way that you can lose.
Your thoughts are racing at a hundred miles per hour, but the moment that your eyes meet your partner's brown ones again, you cave. You crack completely, slipping deep enough into your sub space to be at his mercy. You know that heâd never put you in an unsafe situation and you both have even spoken to the guys about letting them sit in on a scene between you and him some day, you just didnât know that today would be the day, to be fair none of them did, not even Seungmin.
"What the fuck?" Thatâs all that he can manage to think of but instead of answering him Seungmin waves at him dismissively.Â
"Shh you'll miss the best part." His eyes stay on yours as he watches you slip and even through your hazy state you donât dare to break his gaze.
"Color?" Changbin furrows his brows at the question that leaves your boyfriend's lips and Hyunjin raises his. You mumble a weak âgreenâ and you can hear your boyfriend confirm your response faintly before you turn your attention back over to your rising orgasm.
"No fucking way." Hyunjin scoffs in disbelief, a surprised yet entertained smile on his face.Â
"Looks like you got caught." Seungmin teases as he exchanges looks with Hyunjin, the only other open and proud dominant in the room. Since you introduced Hyunjin to your close friend who is now his girlfriend and submissive, he and Seungmin have often talked about having semi-public scenes with their partners in front of the other members. Hyunjin swore that he'd be the first to do it but it looks like Seungmin beat him to it.Â
"Pathetic isn't she?" Seungmin asks towards Hyunjin and he clicks his tongue in response.Â
"Absolutely pitiful."Â
"Why the fuck are you guys doing that? She's fucking crying for Christ's sake." Minho makes his way over to stand next to Chan and at this point there's an entire circle around the two of you. Hyunjin watches you with curious eyes and an amused grin as you press your plush thighs together which truly isnât helping the violent pulsing of your clit against your panties.Â
Seungmin watches you too, keeping note of your reaction and searching for any signs of discomfort. Once he's sure that youâre fine he lets go of his grip on your jaw and you whine at the loss of contact. Youâre way too far gone to care about how you look or sound now, all that you know is that you're absolutely desperate for release and youâll do anything to get it.
"You guys don't believe that she's a slut?" The room is quiet in response to Seungmin's question as they all watch her. Now they're catching on. "Watch."
Seungmin's hand cages your neck swiftly, pinning you against the curved back of the couch. His grip is light at first as he only applies a soft amount of pressure to the sides of your throat but you can feel his grip gradually become more intense with each passing second and you canât help the whining moans that escape you as you fight the urge to rut your hips into the air as your dripping pussy clenches around nothing.Â
"Seungmin, what the -'' Changbin is cut off by a loud whiny moan escaping you once Seungmin hits the pressure that you go dumb for. You lose your self control almost instantly and give into your horny desire to rut your hips into the air, desperate for any type of friction.Â
"Such a whore. You want to cum?" You shake your head as best you can with whines falling from your lips uncontrollably. "Hyunjin, countdown from five."
"I'd love to." Hyunjin, turns more towards the two of you to get a clear look at the desperation on your face with each number that passes.
 "Fiveâ He waits for a couple of seconds too long, clearly teasing you. Your friend did say that he could be a tease. You just wish that you werenât finding that out right now. âFour...Three.â
He rests his chin in his palm, pretending to be bored with the task despite the smirk on his face âThree and a half....Two....hm where was I?"
Seungmin chuckles at your frustrated whine as Hyunjin fake pouts towards the two of you.
"Better start over to be sure."Â
"I think you're right, let's see." Hyunjin takes a deep breath and you canât help but to let out a deep desperate cry as tears flow down your cheeks. Youâve been holding back for so long that it feels like every inch of your body is on fire. You know the rules: If you cum without permission you get punished. Seungminâs punishments are anything but fun. He has a talent for coming up with the most grueling punishments that could ever cross a dominants mind. Youâve learned to love them in a strange way but youâve already lost the game, you donât want to give him more to look forward to tonight.Â
"So pretty when you cry" Seungmin smirks at Hyunjinâs comment while the others around them simply watch in aroused confusion. They haven't taken their eyes off of you since the beginning and they wouldnât dream of even blinking now. Â
"Alright so letâs do it nice and slow this time. One, Two, Three.â
âThree and a half.â He pauses, closing his eyes to âthinkâ for a second âFour....Four and a half.... Hmm.â
âWhat's after that?" Seungmin teases in mock confusion and Hyunjin shrugs as he looks around at the other members who now seem more than entertained by the game the two are playing.
"Mm, I don't remember. Do you remember, Felix?" Hyunjin asks the blonde sitting next to Changbin as he shifts his gaze fully towards you so that he can admire the way your eyes roll back as your body practically shakes with anticipation. Seungmin loosened his grip on your neck a couple of seconds ago but you havenât stopped moaning and whimpering ever since he first touched you.Â
"No clue." Hyunjin smiles as Felix plays along with him and Seungminâs game.
"Hm, what about you Chan? Do you remember what comes after four?" Seungmin looks over at his elder, giving him a slight head tilt to confirm that he can truly answer. The once confused but now fully aroused member takes a second before replying. He looks over at you before finally saying the very thing that youâve been dying to hear
"Five" You gasp in excitement as your lidded eyes meet the lust glazed ones of your partner. Itâs almost like you forgot that everyone else was in the room. All that mattered was Seungmin and you only wanted to hear him say one thing.
"Lucky girl" Seungmin pulls you forward by your neck, the harsh movement makes you drag out a loud and lazy moan. "Cum."
Without so much as a second thought youâre letting go in front of everyone. Youâre shaking, crying and gasping like a fish out of water as your orgasm rips through you like the venom of a vampire. You lean forward into Seungmin as you grid your cunt against the couch and rest your head on his shoulder. He moves his hand from your neck to your back as he rubs soothing circles into the velvet fabric of your dress.Â
âThatâs my girl. Sounds so pretty, did so well.â Everyone watches as they weave through various stages of amazement and disbelief as you come down from your high.
Once he sees that youâre riding out the pleasure Seungmin reaches into his pocket to turn off the vibrator. You pant against him, small whimpers escaping you as tears roll down your cheeks.Â
âHan, would you pass me a water bottle please?â He does as he asks, leaning over a shocked Minho to reach for the water bottles on the table and handing one to Seungmin.
âIâll get you your coffee and then Iâll hold you alright? Can you wait for just a second?â He whispers in your ear and you nod against him the best that you can. Usually heâd ask you to use your words but he figured that heâll let it slide this time.
 Seungmin gives you a soft kiss on your cheek before leaning you back against the couch. You nearly fall over into Changbin who holds you up awkwardly before Hyunjin moves in a bit closer to you. He gives Seungmin a look, asking for permission to touch you which your partner swiftly allows before standing from his spot in front of you and moving back to the coffee machine. He rolls up his sleeves that have fallen down a bit as he starts the machine again and starts to make your favorite aftercare drink.Â
Hyunjin puts his arm around you and he allows you to rest on his chest, he rubs up and down your arm and whispers to you to try and ground you a bit. This isnât the first time that you and Seungmin have done a scene with Hyunjin so heâs no stranger to the type of aftercare that you receive. The rest of the boys look between your limp body resting against your friend and your boyfriend whoâs nonchalantly operating the coffee machine while they quietly try to put the pieces together and figure out exactly what they just witnessed. Seungmin feels the burning stares on the side of his face as he waits for your glass to fill and turns towards his members with a straight face.Â
"What are you looking at?" No one responds, they all just stare between you as they open and close their mouths and try to figure out the right question to ask while attempting to hide their aching hard ons. The room stays quiet until Jeongin sighs and stands from his seat.
"Is anyone going to ask what the fuck just happened or is it going to have to be me?"
[Note: In a healthy BDSM dynamic or scene all members involved should consent before hand. This is a work of fiction and is no way a representation of what real ethical scenes should look like unless there are clear boundaries.]
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Shadows of the occult 01. Whispers of the other side
Wednesday x fem reader
summary: In the shadowy halls of Nevermore Academy, you navigate the delicate balance between reality and the Other Side. As an occultist with a powerful yet unstable connection to the elements, you learn that the Other Side does not come easily. it demands secrets and sacrifices. Caught in the gaze of the enigmatic Wednesday Addams, you must confront the darkness within before it consumes you.
Warnings: Dark themes, mental health, supernatural elements, intense relationships and mature content.
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01.
The night at Nevermore was always quiet, but tonight the silence felt heavier. You sat in your usual corner of the library, the one where the lights barely reached, leaving the shadows to twist and breathe. The pages of the book before you were worn, the ancient symbols flickering in the candlelight, but you werenât reading. Your mind was elsewhereâalways elsewhere, on the edge of something far darker than the schoolâs gothic halls.
You had learned early on to embrace solitude. The other students at Nevermore didnât know who you truly were, and that was how you preferred it. Your life was more intertwined with the Other Side than the real world, and you had grown used to the weight of that secret pressing against your skin, even if it made you feel less human, less here.
The faintest creak of the floor broke the silence, pulling you back to the present. You didnât need to look up to know who it was. Wednesday Addams had a way of moving that felt both calculated and inevitable, as if she were a shadow herself, always lingering just out of reach until she decided to strike.
⢠âYouâre always here,â she said, her voice cutting through the quiet like a knife.
You didnât respond right away, turning the page of your book instead. But you could feel her eyes on you, sharp and unblinking. Wednesday had been watching you for weeks now, though you couldnât say why. Maybe she sensed that you werenât like the others. That something about you wasnâtâŚright.
⢠âAnd youâre always watching,â you replied finally, glancing up to meet her gaze.
Wednesday didnât flinch. Her expression was unreadable, but there was something in her eyesâan intensity, a curiosity that made her more dangerous than most. She stepped closer, her hands clasped behind her back, her black braids hanging like dark threads down her shoulders.
⢠âYou donât belong here,â she said matter-of-factly, as if it were the most obvious thing in the world. âNot entirely.â
You raised an eyebrow, but didnât deny it. It was too soon for that, and you werenât ready to let her in, not yet.
⢠âNeither do you,â you replied, your voice low but steady.
Her lips twitchedâbarelyâbut it was the closest thing to a smile you had seen from her. She tilted her head slightly, watching you with the same unsettling calm she always carried, like she was waiting for you to crack.
⢠âYouâre different,â she said. âAnd I want to know why.â
You felt a chill creep down your spine, not from her words, but from the way she said them. It was as if she already knew the answer, or at least pieces of it, and she was simply waiting for you to confirm it.
⢠âCuriosity can be dangerous, Wednesday,â you said softly, closing the book in front of you. âEspecially here.â
She stepped even closer, until the shadows between you seemed to pull tighter, and her gaze bore into yours, unblinking.
⢠âDanger doesnât bother me,â she replied, her voice colder now. âBut secrets do.â
For a long moment, the two of you just stared at each other, the tension thick in the air. You could feel the familiar pull of the Other Side just beneath your skin, its dark energy thrumming in the back of your mind, but you forced it down. She couldnât knowânot yet.
⢠âSome things are better left undiscovered,â you said, standing and gathering your things, trying to keep your voice calm, controlled.
Without waiting for her response, you brushed past her, feeling the weight of her gaze follow you as you slipped into the shadows of the library. The air felt charged, alive with the echoes of your unspoken secrets, and you could sense the pull of the Other Side thrumming just beneath your skin.
As you reached the exit, a chill swept through the corridor, sending a shiver down your spine. You paused, glancing back over your shoulder. Wednesday stood unmoving, her dark silhouette framed by the flickering candlelight, her expression a mask of calm determination.
âYou can run, but you canât hide,â she called out, her voice low but steady, a haunting promise that sent a thrill of apprehension through you.
You turned away, your heart racing, the weight of her words echoing in your mind. You knew she wouldnât give up easily; curiosity was one of her defining traits, and it was only a matter of time before she unraveled the truth.
As you stepped into the cool night air, the darkness of the outside world enveloped you. The stars twinkled overhead, but all you could feel was the thrum of the Other Side, the whispers of the elements brushing against your consciousness. They were restless, longing for release, and the tension within you grew as you fought to keep them at bay.
You walked briskly, the shadows flickering at your heels, each step pulling you deeper into the enigma of your own existence. What had started as a simple encounter with Wednesday had turned into something much more complexâa dangerous game of secrets and truths that would soon threaten to unravel everything you had fought to keep hidden.
âThis isnât over, not by a long shot,â you muttered to yourself, determination hardening your resolve. You had to be ready for whatever Wednesday would uncover next. The balance between your two worlds was delicate, and any misstep could send you spiraling into the chaos of the Other Side.
As you moved further away from the academy, the night closed around you, and the whispers grew louder, calling you back. It was a siren song that promised power and knowledge but came with a cost. You would have to confront your own shadows before facing Wednesday again, and you werenât sure you were ready for that.
But one thing was certain: she was a puzzle you couldnât ignore, and the threads of your fate were beginning to intertwine in ways you hadnât anticipated. This was just the beginning.
#wednesday addams x you#jenna ortega x you#jenna ortega x fem!reader#wednesday addams#wednesday x reader
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Close to You 1
Warnings:Â this fic will include elements, some dark, such noncon/dubcon, and other untagged triggers. Please take this into account before proceeding. It is up to curate your online consumption safely.
Summary:Â you have a crush on your roommates boyfriend but getting over it isn't easy.
Characters: Nick Fowler
Authorâs Note:Â Please feel free to leave some feedback, reblog, and jump into my asks. Iâm always happy to discuss with you and riff on idea. As always, you are cherished and adored! Stay safe, be kind, and treat yourselfđ
âI got it!â Nick snarls as he stomps out of the bedroom. You flinch and sit up. You didnât even know he was there. Â
Of course, it isnât his bedroom that heâs strutting nearly naked out of. No, itâs your roommateâs. Lindsay cackles after him.Â
âDonât be such a grump,â her words barely carry through as her television blares loudly from the other side. You shouldâve known why she cranked the volume so high.Â
It's strange how she's always snappy with him, and he barks back at her just the same. You always imagined relationships to be more peaceful. Well, you wouldn't know, would you?
Before you can catch it, your book tumbles to the floor and you gulp. Nick stops short and grins crookedly as he fixes the elastic on his boxers. They hang so low you can see the perfect vee of his pelvis. You try not to look even as your eyes disobey your embarrassment.Â
âHey,â he drawls. âWhenâd you get home?âÂ
You rub your lips together and bend to grab your book. You donât think he really cares but heâs just that type. He always says what he should. He always knows just what to say. And heâs so dreamy.Â
Ahem. No.Â
âJust... an hour ago,â you stand up and fold the throw blanket. âSorry, I didnât...âÂ
âDidnât hear you come in. Youâre always so quiet.âÂ
âAm I?â You clutch the book to your chest and avoid looking directly at him.Â
âWell, compared to Linz...â he snickers.Â
âGet me a cooler!â Your roommate shouts as if she heard her name. He rolls his eyes and strides into the kitchen. He grumbles but you canât make out the words.Â
His praise sticks with you as you watch his broad back disappear. He has muscles where you didnât know muscles could exist. And his eyes. Beautiful and blue. His arms...Â
Stop.Â
You scurry for the hall but before you can pass the doorway to the kitchen, he comes back out. You stumble back and pick at the corner of the book cover. You look him in the eye, afraid your gaze might stray a bit too far.Â
âOh, woah, sorry,â he brushes his hand over your hip. âWeâll try not to keep you up.âÂ
âUh, sure,â you step back and sway nervously. âI never... I canât hear...âÂ
âSheâs loud,â he scoffs and turns, two bottles hanging from one hand, necks squeezed between his thick knuckles, âhave a good night.âÂ
âEr, you too,â you squeak after him.Â
The door shuts and you cringe. Uh, you always sound so stupid. You barrel forward, forgetting the whim for a snack before bed, and close yourself in your roomÂ
Youâre so pathetic. Lindsay knows it and Nick does too. Itâs obvious. That tension between you is nothing more than pity. Theyâre always together and youâre always alone.Â
You put your book on the shelf and shuffle to your bed. You open your laptop and turn on the period piece that always makes you feel a little better. It doesnât work tonight. You just feel lonely as you watch the pining between the straight-laced lord and lady.Â
You turn it off and put on an endless lo-fi track instead. You can her Lindsayâs television. You change into your pajamas and shut off the lamp. You lay down but youâre wide awake.Â
You try not to think of them. Not to think of him.Â
You close your eyes and let the soft tones ease you. Still, youâre uneasy. It takes an hour to drift off and even then, itâs shallow. Â
When you wake up again, the low music plays from your laptop but all else is quiet. You sit up, groggy to the point of dizziness, and amble around your room. You go out into the hall and click the door shut behind you. Â
You head down to the bathroom. You should have gone before you laid down.Â
You pull your bottoms down and sit on the toilet as youâre about to burst. You sigh and bend over your lap. That bottle of diet coke was a bad choice for more than the aspartame.Â
You sit up, your muscles stiff from sleep, but before you can stand, the door opens. You cry out and cover yourself. Oh no! It had to be him.Â
Nick puts his hand up and apologises as he backs out. Your body is set alight with humiliation. You quickly get up and pull your pants to your waist. Â
You take your time washing your hands and stare down at the sink. You canât even look at yourself. Why didnât you lock the door? Stupid. Stupid.Â
How much did he see? You try not to think of it as you near the door. You open it slowly and peek out through the tine slit between the frame. You poke your head out completely and step into the hallway.Â
You set each foot down lightly, not wanting to give yourself away. As you approach your bedroom door, itâs open. You canât remember if you shut it.Â
You stop just before your door and raise your nose. You smell his cologne. You know itâs him. The scent clings to the couch and often trails after him. Â
Ugh. You hate yourself for even thinking that. Even your inner monologue canât help but be the most embarrassing narrative.Â
You flit behind your door and lean into it until itâs closed. You drop your head and sigh. Well, you will be hiding until youâre sure heâs gone. Youâve dug this hole deep enough.Â
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Am I the only one who doesn't associate Zekrom with Ingo and Reshiram with Emmet but do it the other way around? Well, perhaps this will become an unpopular opinion, but, if you stop to think about it there are quite a few points that can support this theory. Let's check them out! To begin with, it's the legendary dragon Zekrom the one who appears on the cover of the White version of the game, while Reshiram does the same on the Black version, which would indicate that they actually represent their opposite color. Such small detail is already important in itself, not just the basic color of the dragons per se. Also we all know that Zekrom's associated element is the electric type, like Emmet's Eeleektros, while Reshiram's is the fire type, like Ingo's Chandelure, both being the most representative pokemons of the Subway Bosses.
Although the issue of ideologies of each dragon is used to link them with each brother among the fandom, "ideals" being the one typically attributed to Ingo for his passionate way of encouraging trainers, while for Emmet it is the "truth" for his direct way of communicating, this could work much better the other way around. If we have learned anything from Ingo on Pokemon Legends Arceus, it is that this man is full of existential doubts that lead him to want to get closer to the player in order to know more about himself. That's it, the truth about his origins. But he already had some tendency to this type of behavior long before, as it was evident in the first Black & White games.
"Where is my destination? I've kept thinking, and I've learned one thing. That is, you cannot know what happens after winning without winning." Through such questions, Ingo seeks to reach a real conclusion, his own truths. And perhaps in our idealized image of him we forget that he can also be frank and direct, without the need to embellish words with lies.
"However, it is difficult to win unless you and your partner are in total sync." On the other hand, and as we have said before, the frankness with which Emmet expresses his opinions makes him look like an open-minded character, sincere, making this seem (for many people) to be his only notable characteristic, despite the fact that it's kinda obvious the way in which he greatly idealizes PokĂŠmon battles.
"This time, I am really serious. Really serious. Because if a battle is not serious, it is not fun." He firmly believes that there is a way to go about PokĂŠmon battles, and that way is by giving it your all in them, and in an ideal world, everyone would have fun battling just as he does, but this is not always the case. Emmet clearly expresses how he believes things should be, and he's also aware that his own victory may not only be due to his skill but also to circumstantial elements or, put another way, luck. So he also idealizes the player's own defeat when it occurs, having enough consideration to make it seem like something unfourtunate. Further proof that the fandom has been associating the wrong dragon with the wrong twin can be found in the legend of the twin heroes, where it was the oldest who pursued the truth, while the youngest pursued the concept of ideals.
This birth order also corresponds to Ingo and Emmet, Ingo being the eldest of the both and Emmet the youngest.
That's why despite being white, I think Reshiram suits to Ingo much better and the same for Emmet regarding the black dragon Zekrom. All of these points put together carry much more sense than simply thinking that each dragon's ideologies relates to a brother just by the main color of his outfit. Although this, in the end, does not have much relevance either, since canonically there is no relationship between these legendary PokĂŠmon and the Subway bosses, other than the simple fact of playing with mere chromatic issues. Still, it's always fun to speculate, right?
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Aang is great because almost every ship you can put him in instantly becomes top-tier.
Like:
Kataang- they literally make me cry every single time I think of them. Their love story is wonderful and genuinely heartwarming. It symbolises healing and peace for both of them and the literal world. He showed her the world and he's her biggest supporter and she always defends him and they find solace in each other because they understand what it's like to be the last of their respective kind. And they're each other's hope and just... ahhh. They're so much more than the vanilla hero gets the girl ship people paint it as. Haters stay mad or smth.
Zukaang- the symbolism? They're the actual Ying and Yang of the show! The Rozin parallels? Them standing in a vortex of rainbow fire as two dragons (the blue one like Aang's tatoos facing zuko and the other one, red like Zuko's general colour scheme facing Aang) forming a heart shape around them? Zuko was literally searching for Aang and found his redemption in Aang and Aang made him a better person and Aang is literally the only person who genuinely experienced Fire Nation culture before the war and he clearly values it and he's helping Zuko bring peace to the world and the nation...
Taang- The og tomboy x soft boy dynamic. He's literally the person that helped her free herself from her parents and Air is the element of freedom? And she teaches him when to stand firm like the Earth? And I love when they do synchronised earthbending it's so satisfying and they work so well together. Toph having lost her face in one of Aang's nightmares is also a nice parallel to Ummi and Kuruk. (One caveat though: i hate taang being used as a "get Aang out of the way" side ship to Zutara)
Sokaang- they kinda come out of left field for me but the more I think about them the more obsessed I become. It's all about a teenage boy who has been forced into a role that demanded way too much of him finally learning to trust and rely on others. It's about Sokka finally living out the childhood that he was forced to grow out of. Sokka also has such a cute bond with Momo and more importantly, Appa, Aang's animal soulmate. The fics write themselves.
Sukaang- ok, I know Suki and Aang barely interacted in the show but like Hear me out.Suki is so connected to one of Aang's past lives. And she saved Appa, which would totally bond her and Aang (genuinely distressed that this was never discussed in canon). And they both value a sense of community so much, and Aang was one of the people who inspired Suki to leave Kyoshi to help others. Plus, there could be some amazing Rangshi parallels if Suki became Aang's bodyguard instead of Zuko's, which could be very plausible.
Azulaang- I adore this ship because I genuinely think Aang could really help Azula find her redemption. Hell, he was so nice to her in The Search and she literally killed him. Plus I've already laughed about how it would absolutely kill Ozai. The mental crisis Azula would go through due to fallingin love with Aang would be hilarious, and also the guilt over everything she's done, as Aang's kindness makes her realsie she was on the wrong side this whole time. He's one of the only people who can beat her at her prime and he doesn't seem to fear her at all, which is rare for her. Aang could give her the unconditional love she so desperately craves and needs.
Maiaang- genuinely adorable to me. Other than the obvious grumpy x sunshine trope, Maiaang has a lot of potential. Mai seems to genuinely like Aang in the comics, which is really cute. I also think Aang would be able to help Mai express her more positive emotions, other than just anger. Also something about the girl who was forced to remain silent and passive her whole life learning to finally let go and allow herself to just live with the help of probably one of the most active and expressive characters of the show has me by the throat. Plus, he got along great with her lil bro!
Tyaang- They're so similar and cute and bubbly! They'd have tons of fun together and I just know Ty Lee would teach Aang some gymnastics and he really enjoy it! I think he can also find Ty Lee's chiblocking very cool, since it is essentially a great way to deal with a conflict without causing permanent damage. Very airbendery. Speaking of which, Ty Lee is also very airbendry herself. I can genuinely see her finding herself in Air Nomad culture and be excited to help revive it.
Onjaang- i just find this ship so funny because imagine being a random schoolgirl in the fire nation and not only rizzing up a demigod but rizzing that demigod up successfully. This ship can also go so many ways depending on On Ji's reaction to that random cute guy who threw a cool dance party is actually the Avatar, so it's certainly interesting.
Yuaang- the ultimate cinnamon roll x cinnamon roll ship. But more than that, there's of course the Yue becoming the Moon Spirit and Aang getting lowkey possessed by the grieving Ocean Spirit. There's Yue appearing when Aang needed her most, while he's stranded in the middle of the ocean and helping him. They both understand sacrifice and responsibility, and maybe they could comfort each other through it. Also Aang being the bridge between the spirit worlds and Yue being a Spirit could lead to a very interesting romance, depending on how much the Avatar could interact with the Moon Spirit.
Jetaang- ok, Aang was just as infatuated with Jet as Katara was, right? And I think Aang was heavily affected by Jet's actions and behaviour. Also Aang really not wanting to hurt Jet while fighting him (twice!) was really cute. And Aang helping Jet snap out of the Dai Li brainwashing could be a really cool ship moment the more you think anout it.
Teoaang- Honestly their little one sided rivalry at the beginning of the episode was really cute. And I think there could be some interesting symbolism between them. Aang symbolising the old and Teo symbolising the new. They compliment each other like that. Teo comforting Aang by showing him that the critters of the temple are still alive and well is also sweet. And Aang admitting that Teo has the spirit of an airbender is so sweet.
Kuzaang- they're adorable. I loved the comic about them. Aang calling Kuzon "Hotman" is really funny. Aang helping Kuzon make a bigger flame with airbending is also really sweet. I especially like this ship in combination with Zukaang. It's such tasty symbolism.
Aang may just be the most shippable charater of this franchise, argue with the wall. He's so filled with love I have no choice but to multiship.
#the ultimate loverboy#platonic interpretations of these dynamics are also more than welcome#aang#aanglove#pro aang#kataang#katara#zukaang#zuko#taang#toph beifong#sokkaang#sokka#sukaang#suki#azulaang#azula#maiaang#mai#tyaang#ty lee#onjaang#on ji#yuaang#yue#jetaang#jet#teoaang#teo#kuzaang
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IF IT WASNT CLEAR BY THE SPIKE IN FOUR SWORDS CONTENT ITS BEEN ON MY MIND LATELY!!! so obviously that means the obligatory redesigns >:) I tried not to play too far into the stereotypes (not that there's anything wrong in indulging in those!!... i did throw in headcanons tho, like heightened and dulled senses... ill explain dw)
we'll start with shadow since I kinda forgot to draw him initially, lol. sorry buddy đĽ I gave him a shard of the mirror as a means of being able to exist. he can still float around and slip into the shadows and all, but he's not as powerful as he was when the mirror was full. (his ego definitely still is big though) he's not fond of chainmail despite the rest of the four and Link wearing it. his tunic mirrors what links would've looked like. any triforce motifs appearing upside-down and little swirl on his belt backward since he's from the Dark World and all that jazz. silly stuff. I kept it relatively simple since I doubt Link is very over the top, and Shadow has no sense of bodily autonomy at that point (he would so have an over the top outfit, let's be real) Obviously he gets along well with Vio, but he and Blue banter quite a bit. Sure, both mistakenly get offended sometimes but it's all in good fun! His hair looks a little more rounded here, but it's usually more flowey and sticks up every which way. unruly hair for an unruly boy. shadow loves quality time!!! what could be better than hanging out with those you love and burning down towns??? okay, void the town burning.
Red's design is also fairly simple: longer skirt, exposed chainmail, sleeved tunic, and a rounded collar. he has a rounder shape language (not that I paid too much attention to it, obviously) his hat curls up where the elemental stone is at. no one understands how it does this. Red thinks it's some knick knack he stored in there. UNNATURALLT WARM. like. concerningly warm. He's their magic user, preferring to use his magic rod over his sword (honestly, probably could wipe the floor with the other three if given a good magic item, but don't tell them that)(and yes im calling it a magic rod cuz it shoots fire and ice) Poor Red got the short end of the stick with poor hearing but great taste buds. He's a foodie at heart and it's obvious why. His hair is a lot fluffier and rounder than the other three, matching his soft and bubbly personality. Not a pant wearer. Obviously he has the magic rod and slingshot, but i also gave him the Bombos medallion since its an item in the FSA game. Green suggested they split the loot evenly. No. He's not allowed to use it. Yes, he's accidentally blown up a lot of things with it. That's why hes not allowed to use it. definitely a physical touch kinda love language guy. you know exactly why. impulsive spender. has quite a few burn scars from learning to use the fire rod. most of his tunics are a little singed, but he keeps some neat
ah, Green, the resident insomniac. usually that's Vio's role, but you cannot tell me this guy didn't get Link's terrible sleeping habits. he constatly looks sleep deprived in some compacity, but he's getting better! sure, it usually means someone has to hold him down until he sleeps but hey! better than nothing! his tunic matches most Links with the sleeved overtunic and collared undershirt. he uses he sword quite often, having the most finesse with the weapon out of the group. occasionally he'll bust out the boomerang. sort of the unofficial leader, keeping the group on track, but is always open to suggestions from the rest of the Colors. I gave him the Pegasus boots, since I'd assume they all don't get the loot they would've picked up along the way. His element is wind, so it felt the most fitting he had them. his hair is a little messy, and sure he sometimes has a stick in there, but he does his best to keep it combed. Despite his drowsiness, he's got sharp eyes (the best in the group, as a matter-of-fact!) Unfortunately, his sense of smell is lacking (but clearly he has it a lot better than Red does. I mean, seriously, id take hawkeyes over tasteaholic any day). Hes a little shit when playing Ispy; typically picking really tiny things and reveling in the fact no one can guess it. his elemental stone is attatched to his belt even though its a place it can get easily lost. somehow he has yet to lose it. the back problems arise from Link, mostly, though his isnt as bad as Vio's (maybe because hes not slouched over a desk half the time, but i digress) Typically level headed and focused, keeping the group moral high with Red (aka, keeping Vio and Blue's moral high because they tend to be more pessimistic) (well, Vio considers himself a realist and Blue is Blue)
since i dont consider Shadow that much of an idiot, Vio probably had to actually stab Green to make it look convincing. While the scar isn't big, there's once on his lower abdomen from the Four Sword. They didn't have any health potions, so they had to go back down the mountain to get him help. Green holds no resentment, knowing Vio did what had to be done to gain the enemies trust. the cheek scar is from the pyramid cuz there aint no way he got out of that unscathed fighting against Valenzuela. more of a words of affirmation guy, but enjoys quality time like the rest of them.
Vio is obviously their whittier member. honestly, if he were to be described in DnD stats, he'd have a high intelligence and a medium wisdom because man is this man stupid sometimes. he's not as outwardly arrogant as Blue, at least, not as loud with it. his clothes are usually wrinkled, being more focused on bookwork than much else (this pisses Blue off to no end, being the neat freak he is) despite this, his room is the definition of organized chaos. he knows where everything is, and if you move something, he will not be happy. also not a pant wearer, his tunic has a longer skirt than the others and his sleeves are a lot looser. his hair tends to droop into his eyes and somehow this has yet to get in the way. he prefers to pick off enemies from afar as the team's bowsman. amazing aim and a very steady hand. while he doesn't have as big of a magic reserve as Red, he can still use elemental arrows (probably in the same way as in WindWaker) strangely bad at math (simply because i find it amusing) and is pissed that Blue is good at is (again, because i find it amusing. it freaks Blue out) Vio is more of an acts of service kind of guy, but like everyone else enjoys quality time. especially when it's quiet quality time. impuslive spender, mostly on books. everyone else insists he uses the library, but he argues its different when you own the book. impecible hearing, cannot taste shit. it makes eating rations easier, but sadly cannot enjoy the nicer foods in life, so he tends to choose things based on texture. Got the brunt of the back pain, but makes it worse with how he sits and for how long he does. honestly has a weird complex where he thinks of himself as superior to the rest in a way, yet also manages to struggle to fit in and hates himself for it. not explicitly touch avoident, but hes not one to seek out physical affection often and tends to be one of the first to push Red off (other than Blue) his stone is pined to his bow holster since he tends to always have it on him, he wont lose it that way. the fact that the rest have theirs in such irresponsible spots upsets him. refuses to sleep until he's done something he considers productive.
last but not least: Blue! my favorite guy!! god what a prick, i hate him. his design is a lot more knightly with more chainmail and a brutish sort of look. he's intimidating alright, even at his 4'11 stature. look. hylians are short. his hair is spikey like his personality and his hat is more angular (mostly cuz he folds it everynight. theres permanent crease marks in it) ends up with the most scaring thanks to his irrisponsible sparing and little use of healing potions (yet despite this, he's the group medic) the nick in his ear was from some random enemy camp that he just ignored for a while. I never said he was a responsible medic when it came to himself. hes mean, sure, but hes trying. just a little blunt. okay, very blunt. very blunt and very angry. hear me out: mom friend. if that mom was divorced and had anger issues. he knows the others are fully capible of handling themselves, cuz if he survives, why shouldn't they? despite that, he still worries. I know that it says his left eye is blind, but he can still see some color, its just reaaal blurry. does anyone know that? only red. will he tell anyone else? not unless he has to. does he run into shit when hes not paying attention. sometimes, yeah. to top it off, he - like red - got the short stick with shit vision but a heightened sense of smell. he can smell a monster camp from up to a mile away. impressive, right? dont tell him that. this boy has a lot of injury issues, being as reckless as he is. the knee injury was from a particularly nasty moblin (possibly the same as where the eye scar came from. who knows? he wont tell) and got worse as it got ignored. look, when you're the medic, you gotta make sure everyone else is okay before you. at least, thats how Blue sees it. not to even mention the nerve damage from being frozen for god knows how long. I don't know about you, but (assuming it was a Wizrobe) being magically frozen has its side effects. so what hes a walking icepack (exaggerating, but he's cold enough outwardly that you can feel it) and so what his hair grows in a few shades lighter than everyone elses? they don't gotta know why or when or how or even that it happens. the hair dye is stashed under his bed and he will die if anyone finds out. it reeeally fucked with his magic, seeing as hes associated with the water element.. do green and vio know about any of this? nope. red was sworn (read: threatened) to silence. probably the most physically fit when split, and makes sure to take good care of his body. he likes to push himself, hence the ankle weights. always has to be doing something productive. hes their financial guy, somehow having the least impuslive spending habits. will typically only spend on necessary things. gets mad at the others for buying egregiously expensive recreational shit. (that umbrella shadow has? yeah. expensive as hell. he was not happy) the most touch avoident of the bunch. unexpectedly, blue is a gift giving guy. he gets embarassed about it when you question it, or even when hes giving it to you, but yeah. he likes giving things to people and then will throw insults at their face. not in a mean way. in a "im embarassed and you suck so shut up" way. quality time is something he enjoys as well, liking to spar with his brothers often. can easily master a lot of melee weapons, its impressive, but cannot for the life of him make anything else work. his stone was made into an earring, and despite vio's complaints, he usually knows when its missing.
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FAQ:
difference between a closeup and a PFP?
a closeup is a zoomed in drawing where any composition, posing or extra elements are present, they can go from half the torso up Generally. while pfps are centered solely on a characters face and have no background beyond simple patterns, elements like "character holding something" could also be present and they dont add to the total
when exactly does the background start costing extra?
rough guidelines are written above in the picture, but I tend to be pretty lenient on them. if you ask for a drawing with a simple background (ie, Not payed) and I later ask if I want to add any details to it they will not add to the cost and you do not need to worry.
how long will this take?
depends on the drawing but it shouldn't take more than a couple of days once I've started working on it, that being said if there are commissioners in from of you in the line it could take longer for me to get to it. but I always try to get every commission done I'm at least one week
why is mercado pago argentina only?
mercado pago doesn't accept international transactions sadly and I am argentinian
can we negotiate the prices?
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a pairing where the power imbalance is the main drawn for it. think teacher student relationships, cop / prisoner or similar dinamics. I'm simply not comfortable with it so I won't draw them.
why no background with the clean lĂnes style?
i don't like how my backgrounds look without rendering and don't feel comfortable charging for them in that state
why no profile pic with Ms paint lineless?
the canvas size on those are pretty small and the style doesn't allow much detail, I don't think it'll look too good simply
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A part of Richard's isolation from the group that I would like to put forward is this:
I truly do believe the group care for Richard as a friend, even when their relationships start to spiral out of control near the end. But that care isn't always present throughout their lives, the same way most people aren't constantly obsessing over their friend's feelings 24/7, and he cannot understand it.
It's not just the stuff you would typically think of that proves this to me, like the twins going out of their way to include him, companionable rambles with Bunny, making food with Francis. The most obvious instance of this is Richard being excluded from the Bacchanalia, and yes, this obviously sucks as someone trying so desperately to be included and a part of the group, but also makes so much sense from their perspective.
If Richard had been normal, he would have been so weirded out! This could be a convenient excuse, but it could just as easily be the group showing their own desires to be accepted by HIM, in a kind of reverse of roles that Richard naturally doesn't want to pick up on, because that would be seeing them human, and fallible, and SIMILAR TO HIMSELF. Unthinkable!
Something I've not seen discussed is the little aside when he first falls in with the group proper and relates that they had found him just as aloof as he had found them. Their inviting him to Francis's house was simply an urge to impress him, and I can't see any other way of reading it than that. If they had simply wanted to include him, but didn't care about how he saw them, they could have simply kept inviting him to their houses and out for lunch.
But, it's the moments that also double as little instances of ostracism that really interest me: Camilla saying Henry didn't want to do another pig ritual because he thought it would upset Richard, the group telling him they've already involved him enough and that he shouldn't participate in Bunny's murder. The general reading of this (that I've seen so far) seems to be that Henry did these things purposefully to keep Richard apart from the group, he didn't know him as well as the others, an unknown quantity, someone he didn't care for as much since he hadn't known him as long. But there's a lot of ambiguity there as well, and I think what makes things so compelling is that uncertainty. It could be purposeful, or unintentional, or some inextricable combination of the two.
(As an aside- ironically, I believe Henry may care about Richard the most out of anyone in the group. Helping him while he was sick, worried about seeing Richard drunk during the day, it's all rather sweet, and I don't believe it was entirely some machievellian scheme.)
However, I like to see the isolation as mostly, if not entirely unintentional, because that makes it so much more cutting to me. It's subtle. They don't put any special thought into doing it, they justâŚdon't even think how these things could make him feel.
The worst part is, as far as I remember, Richard never fully engages with his feelings about this, but they are felt so much through the story and his actions within them. They are moments that sunk deep within his psyche like a stone that's dropped into water and swallowed immediately without a trace. It sits very still inside him, unmoveable.
His acceptance of these moments as they are happening to him is likely a result of his history of loneliness and being apart from others. There is nothing unusual to him about this, that it would require further thought from him within his narrative.
A large part of Richard's isolation is due to his glorification of the people he deems worthy, which continues even after he begins to see their flaws. Despite them, he still can't bear to see them torn down to his level, people he can relate to instead of glorify or look down upon. I think there is an element of self destruction to this, not wanting to understand so he has an excuse to punish himself for self perceived deficiencies.
It's very intriguing, this uncertainty of how much of Richard's isolation from the group is imagined, or perhaps even self imposed in a kind of feedback loop, where he feels pushed away and so pulls himself away from them, to anonymous parties with people he professes not to care about, takes pills and sleeps for days, to numb himself from the pain of their rejection.
And in the process, this feeling of isolation is enforced, becomes more a reality through the concrete evidence he has produced by himself. Maybe the group see his behaviour and think he needs space, they give it to him. He feels lonely, he says nothing. Because he would rather freeze to death than ask for help.
#the secret history#tsh donna tartt#donna tartt#long post#richard papen#henry winter#This is such a ramble#but I stayed up until 3am to finish the book and am absolutely sick with obsession right now
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You know x-virus donât get enough loveâŚ. Do you have any head cannons regular or nsfw (maybe both)??
I've been thinking about this guy a lot lately for some reason. Also I've never written for Cody before so hopefully this came out okay.
I was going to work on Toby's but.... I have more inspiration for Cody at the moment. He absolutely doesn't get enough love!
X-Virus Headcannons
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Isn't related to Toby at all. In fact doesn't really look like him either. Sure, he's got the brown hair, but he looks waaay more dorky than Toby does. While Toby has kind of a boy-next-door-from-hell look to him, Cody is more slender and works out less. He looks like your typical STEM student (sickly complexion, poor nutrition, etc.). His whole schtick requires him to stay indoors most of the time, in a make-shift lab.
Has a refrigerated van, which he paid to be converted to safely transport whatever science experiments he's got going on in a temperature-controlled environment.
He tries to stay in one place. He's less of a drifter than most of the other creeps but sometimes... the things he does requires him to uproot his life and start over in another town. (No Cody you can't just infect your landlord with a mutated form of tuberculosis when they raise your rent! There will be consequences!)
Has kind of a nasally voice. I feel like he always has a bit of a cold too.
Ironically has a shitty immune system, and probably drinks those Airborne Immune Support drink mixes like it's his job. Also a germaphobe, wearing medical gloves all the time, and his hands are dry and cracked from overusing sanitizer.
LOVES Re-animator. He's rewatched that movie more times than he can count. But he has a love for science fiction movies in general, with horror elements to them. Like Alien.
Also loves zombie apocalypse movies, but that's an obvious one. Specifically 28 Days Later and World War Z.
Sometimes he's like... should I try to make a zombie virus? nah.... unless...?
I also think he was raised by a single father, who worked for a large pharmaceutical company.
Antisocial. I know Toby and him are compared a lot and people give them similar 'hyperactive' personalities, but I don't see that for Cody at all.
Cody's more focused, and is less inclined to interact with others. He doesn't really get lonely?
I'd say he'd get along okay with someone like EJ (both like science, ya know?).
Toby and him hang out a bit - they'll stay in and watch movies together. Or Cody will tag along with him to a bar and watch as Toby fails to pick up anybody. Cody wouldn't say it to his face, but it makes him feel better about his own social skills to see Toby strike out like that.
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I don't know how he'd find himself in this situation - but if he DID have a partner.... the sex would be kind of bland at first?
He doesn't know what he wants and frankly is too much of a germaphobe to get up close and personal with someone he doesn't know well.
You'd have to spend months getting to know him for him to feel comfortable to engage in anything sexual.
I think at the start of the relationship, he'd want to experiment with voyeurism.
He'd be across the room watching you touch yourself, giving you directions while he slowly strokes his cock, loving the feeling of ordering you around.
But as things escalate, of course, he'd give in to his urges. However, the voyeurism would become how he likes to foreplay.
Out of all the creeps (most of whom I view as being dominant) he's actually pretty tame.
He whimpers a lot, and it sounds almost pathetic when he moans. He's been holding out for so long for the right person, and when he finally gets to fuck he's absolutely drunk off of you.
That said, his sex drive is about average.
One of his roleplay fantasies is him being the experienced scientist, and you being his lovely little assistant.
Probably started after the first time you helped him in his lab.
He just kept thinking of you in a tiny little lab coat, bent over his desk - papers and test tubes falling to the ground while his hips piston into you.
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wyll, in my opinion, gets the standard fare treatment for characters that are unequivocally good. i.e. people think he's boring and uninteresting. standard fare might be kind actually given the level of racism and unexplained slander (which is often just more thinly veiled racism). his reputation about being boring is not helped by the very blatant neglect of his storyline post his rewrite and release. as a wyll enjoyer i am hyperaware of the sorry state of his current story in all three acts
despite all of that and the glaring flaws - i still believe that wylls storyline is worth of being engaged with and explored.
one of the reasons (not the most major one, but one) i think wyll experiences so much neglect as a companion stems from a wider idea that "goodness" is always the uncomplicated, easy choice.
it's something i see a lot. wyll is boring because of his archetype as a princely and universally righteous guy. and this is interesting, because it always seems to functions under the assumption that wylls moral character is innate. that his heroic and righteous actions are in some capacity, uncomplicated.
uniquely among the male origin companions, through the course of wylls story - there is never a point in which he is at risk of making a truly 'bad' choice. both gale and astarions story have them at risk of making choices that are ultimately bad for them and others (especially tav when each character is romanced). gales godhood and astarions ascension are their in game moral failings. they are the result of having not broke the cycle and are 'bad' choices for the individual character.
wylls main choice is however his pact and the choice to break that pact. notably - wyll is never at risk of making a bad choice, only a selfish one.
from the critique i see of wyll - it seems like this is the element of him people find most egregious. he's too smooth, not rugged enough, not gritty enough. but i don't think wyll's character needs grit, necessarily.
if you take any time to dissect wyll at all, based on dialogue and character interaction, many of his choices put himself at the forefront of sacrifice. the game strips wyll of a lot of agency, but wyll also always abides by and sticks to his core belief. so often towards his own detriment.
not only does wyll bear the consequence of being turned into a devil (stripping him of the last remaining shred of identity he's ever had and one of the most important things in his life), he bore the burden of being banished when he made his pact, and was willing to do the same for the sake of his father when he is taken to moonrise.
and unlike gale (who i adore, to be clear) who's concept of self-sacrifice stems mostly from a low self-worth - the belief that dying is the best he can do - wyll truly views that it's better him than them.
wyll does not think twice about allowing himself to be the one to take the fall. he can play any part, take any role, even when these choices haunt him so obviously. wyll claims that he forgives his father, but opens up to you about fearing his feelings of missing him are one-sided. he believes that making his pact was the right choice, the one he would make again - but doesn't deny the obvious pain and solace that came along with being a wandering traveler and banished son.
wylls goodness is so deliberate. he is so staunch in upholding and acting on his beliefs that it is always narrative to his own detriment. when you view wyll like this , and view his choices with regards this character attribute, it is imo very hard to hate him.
wyll's goodness is his double edged sword. it makes him heroic, brave, fearless. and it makes him scared, uncertain and lonely. again, the story itself is bare bones and i understand that - but it is so very beautiful to me thinking of him and tav or just his general romance.
as wylls romance partner, encouraging wyll to break his pact is as tragic as it very beautiful. tav is wylls one selfish thing. one of the only reasons that would move him to not give himself up. one of the only reasons he is okay with forgoing his beliefs. he loves tav enough to break his own oaths, and make choices for himself and no one else. not as the blade, or as a ravengard - but just as wyll.
and that aspect of him is in my opinion, enforced, by the mindflayer tav ending. in which wylls monster-hunting and morals are made exceptions with / for tav. my enjoyment of hero corruption might be speaking for me, but i digress.
in every way though - i truly love wyll as a character. and while im well aware of the critical flaws in his in game story state, i think it's both unfortunate and unfair that people call him boring. to me he is anything but
#aristotle.txt#wyll ravengard#bg3#wyll meta#bg3 wyll#wyll x tav#he is so love of my life coded#this is my experience as a deku defending and lover speaking for me i fear
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