#solitary places

[tamurakafkaposts]

I have always, essentially, been waiting. Waiting to become something else, waiting to be that person I always thought I was on the verge of becoming, waiting for that life I thought I would have. In my head, I was always one step away... John Lennon once said, “Life is what happens when you’re busy making other plans.” For me, life is what was happening while I was busy waiting for my big moment... Shauna Niequist, Cold Tangerines: Celebrating the Extraordinary Nature of Everyday Life

[tubbytarchia]

Somewhere in the woods, a moth tires of seeking light

[prismaticsaltedink]

Scoria and Sakura are best friends! It's so cute when I see the things they do together, and it makes me so beyond happy that they both came to live with me so that they could share their lives with each other. They absolutely insist on it, and does so much good for the other.

I can't imagine how else they could have found happiness if things hadn't worked out exactly as they did. Scoria has basically been Sakura's "emotional support snake" while she worked through things from her past I'll never fully know that caused her a lot of issues with panic and fear. Sakura knows this too, and looks out for her sister, the only one she truly trusts and feels completely safe with.

The moment they wake up they both want each other to snuggle and play with. Scoria loves to be affectionate with both me and her sister who seems to have not had this earlier in her life- but Scoria is showing her how nice it is not only directly but demonstrating with me and Sakura also trying, copying what she has seen her sister do.

Sometimes when one goes to check on the other they'll join in on... I'm not even sure what they were doing. But they had a good time while taking a mandated union break from digging tunnels for the isopods.

So happy I get to share in the adventures of these two best friends! It makes me so happy to see them living their best lives together, and being beyond content snuggled together with their found family.

[mcytanti]

Lifesteal yuri week day 7

Freeday or Performance/Solitude

[maslimanny]

Touch the earth, love the earth, honour the earth, her plains, her valleys, her hills ... rest your spirit in her solitary places.

- Henry Beston..!

[bigturtl]

do u have blue sky

yes! i'm zeewa on bluesky 🫶

thank you for reminding me that i need to put my bluesky in my about me 💋✌️

[fferthe]

40 YEARS.

[trans-axolotl]

tbh i think i am proud of myself for how i did handle the retraumatizing experience of solitary confinement. bc right after i got out i actually went to my roommates at the time and said "okay so i hadn't talked with you about this before but i was in long term solitary confinement when i was younger and it really, really fucked with my head. Being in solitary yesterday, even for a shorter amount of time, is bringing up all this stuff. i feel insane right now and i don't want to be alone for the forseeable future" and actually like. communicated that instead of pretending everything was normal and fine. and then that allowed me to get a lot of the support i needed and we moved a mattress into one of my roommates rooms and i slept in their room for three weeks. and then i did all the things i knew i would need to do like going outside every day and sleeping with music on and decorating my new room and affirmations and giving myself a LOT of grace when it came to the types of coping mechanisms that felt accessible and easy.

idk sometimes i forget how much work i've put in during the past four years to get to a place where my life is more liveable and i have a lot more options for how to cope and ways to take care of myself that when i was 18 i just did not have any of that. and i am really proud that like, i've gotten to a point with a lot more of these things that my first thought a lot of the time isn't "i have no idea what to do and it's hopeless" but it is usually more like "this is really hard and im so fucking angry and everything hurts AND i know i have things i can try that might help and i know this is liveable."

idk lots of rambling today!

[thelordismylightandmysalvation]

Verse of the Day - Mark 6:31-32

[toxooz]

the way my heart leapt for joy—

YOU LIKE KINGDOM HEARTS TOO??????

oh honey you dont even wanna KNOW the absolute obsession i had with kingdom hearts i think from the age of 6 to like 16 it has rotted my brain and its all bc of this mf ⚰

it was hella unhealthy like im so serious AHA but i still have a deep respect and adoration for the games 🥺

[icewindandboringhorror]

Obligatory fancier outfit that must be present anytime I post outfits 

[sunfudge]

At work, not giving a fuck

[markcampbells]

There is a choice here, hanging like smoke in the autumn air. She can cry for the friends she doesn't have, mourn for the games she isn't playing, or she can let them go. She can be the kind of girl who doesn't need anyone else to keep her happy, the kind of girl who smiles at adults and keeps her own company. She can be content.

In an Absent Dream, Seanan McGuire.

[barbwalken]

I hate that you can't add windows or doors to link's house, i hate this windowless house

But you can add the one and only to your art gallery, so i'll take it

[starrierknight]

got my haircut and had to chat to my lovely hairdresser for the better part of two hours,,, I will not be answering asks for a bit (maybe this evening) because my social battery is ⚰️

[silverislander]

my parents really seem to want me to pick up choir again now that i have a steady job and i really dk how to feel abt it

positives:

i do like and miss choir/ensemble music in general

i would like to join some kind of group outside of work (i really don't get out enough)

it might be a great opportunity to make friends which is hard for me. i should take any opportunity to do that that i can

on that note, might really help my anxiety

negatives:

the only choirs that i know of around here are either 1. women's choirs or 2. church choirs and i really very much don't want to join either for reasons i hope are obvious

i haven't really sang in a long time now. my anxiety got so bad i can't play or sing in front of others anymore, esp my family

i have had pretty bad experiences w making friends in musical spaces before esp w voice. i will get put in the soprano section and i am fully expecting that at least some of the other women there will treat me like i'm diseased bc i'm butch

^^^ which will absolutely make my anxiety worse

honestly i am mostly only interested in hanging out w other queer people. i just want to meet other people like me yk? it's lonely

now there is in fact a queer choir here and i am Looking at it (have wanted to join since the pandemic if i'm honest). however. their practice times are the exact same time and date as my mom's church band practice every week. so i have no way to get there. and i'd have to contend w my whole "not out to my family" situation and do the fucking hoop jumping w names/pronouns shit, esp for concerts. which is a nightmare