#solar vent

[queersolarfandompage]

⚠️Tw Vent, kinda⚠️

For the last couple of years I have had a bad relationship with food. It wasn’t necessarily the food that was the problem, rather it was the cost of it. After graduating high school my parents kicked me out over a disagreement. I started living with my best friend at the time, and their parents welcomed me into their home. However my friends parents had no responsibility to take care of me, so I never felt comfortable eating their food or drinking their beverages. I felt like I needed to prove my worth to even stay in their home. I cleaned up after my friend and helped with babysitting their nephew whenever I was asked. Things ended poorly with my friend and I ended up moving in with my older brother. But I kept that same mindset. This is my brother, he has no reason to take care of me, no responsibility for me, but my brother was insistent on eating dinner together so I couldn’t refuse the meal. But I didn’t often snack on their food or eat meals besides the ones we’d eat together. Neither my friends parents or my brother told me to be self sufficient, I’m sure they would have both been alright if I relied on them, but I became so focused on the idea that they had no reason to take care of me, that I shouldn’t become another burden on them. Eventually I left my brother’s and moved back into my parents. A year and a half had passed, and by this point the relationship I developed with food had stuck. My parents let me know that if I needed anything to let them know, and for a few weeks I did, but then a switch flipped in my head and I began buying my own groceries. I had the money to buy food, even if it was just ramen and sandwich stuff. Then I got Covid, and I couldn’t stomach the idea of eating. I felt nauseous thinking about food, and nothing ever sounded appetizing. If I forced myself to eat my stomach would be in pain for a while after until the food settled. I quit my job, due to the stress of the job, school, and the lack of energy I had due to my illness. I’ve survived the last month on the remains of my money, but it’s slowly dwindling out and as a result I’m more finicky when making purchases. I’ve been living off of cup of noddles and peanut butter because my stomach could tolerate those things but now I can’t even stomach the thought of eating them. I realize if I talk to my family about relying on them when it comes to food that they would most likely agree to help me but I also can’t imagine what I’d even ask them for. My parents eat a specific diet, and they’d have to go out of their way to pick up food that isn’t part of their diet. My food would be cheaper than there’s, but I also don’t even know what foods I would eat. Anyways instead of solving this problem I will just continue suffering until I get a new job or die of starvation. /nsrs

In other news I’ve got an interview tomorrow.

[intermundia]

Saturn’s rings loop for hundreds of thousands of miles. And just beyond them, one of its largest moons changed everything we thought we knew about volcanic activity this far out in the solar system.

With a hard, frozen exterior, Enceladus’ surface averages minus-330 degrees Fahrenheit. It’s one of the coldest places in the Saturn system; an ice world, where we’d expect everything to be completely still, frozen and unchanging.

But in 2005, NASA’s Cassini spacecraft travelled to the south pole and discovered that stillness shattered. It captured explosive jets, constantly erupting from the surface. Giant plumes, far bigger than the moon they erupt from, are an incredible sight.

Over 660 pounds of water erupt from the surface of Enceladus every second, creating visible eruptions that can thrust up to 6,000 miles into space. It’s called “cryovolcanism,” “cryo” from the Greek for cold.

As Enceladus orbits Saturn, it wobbles like a raw egg, by about 0.12 degrees on its axis, a tiny but significant movement that tells us something about the moon’s interior. There is an outer shell of solid ice, around three miles thick, sitting on top of a global ocean of water.

When the liquid ocean is heated from below, by energy from tidal heating, it expands, so the liquid wants to take up more space. As it seeks to take up more space, it pushes up against the bottom of the ice shell. Once that water goes through a crack and then is exposed to the vacuum of space, it’s like a suction.

That’s how tidal heating, caused by an elliptical orbit, drives volcanic eruptions on Enceladus that aren’t even hot.

Solar System: Volcano Worlds on NOVA

[shycroissanti]

*Le croissant being silly*

Idk, today I wanted to draw myself xD

Sorry

[nightixx]

imagine being a daycare attendant who needs professional help

That would be crazy if it existed

[ginahrom]

moho braccatus sounds

[puppppppppy]

i wrote this as a joke because I wanted to strangle a guy watching tiktoks without headphones on the bus, but im genuinely disturbed that we've gotten to a point where convenience comes first. and it depresses me even more that its used to justify and monetize greed

[that-starry-freak]

"Wow, I finally finished the art I needed to do! Now I can finally draw but I want to!"

*hormones kick in and I spend hours reading solarmoon fics and crying* "... oh"

Anyway small solarmoon comic. Can be read as romantic or platonic but is meant to be queer platonic! In my au they kind of just experiment together. (In more than one way lmao, nerds. Yall arnt just kissing yall are SCIENCING)

Nexus: *working*

Nexus: slot your pennies into the vending machine of love-

Nexus: and taste that fizzy minx you've been dreaming of~

Solar: cute~

Nexus: *pauses what he's doing, stunned and flustered*

Solar: absolutely adorable

Nexus: shut up-

Solar: no <3

[ikamigami]

How some people can be so dense?! Aaacjsbsbjsnsbsb

Sun isn't doing fine!

"All the signs that Sun will die is a red herring cause Solar will die.."

Maybe Solar will die? Idk..

But Sun is suicidal! Pls for the love of all that exist!

Sun will most definitely "die" via suicide...

Vsjnsjsksk

I just.. I can't...

No one cares about Sun.. definitely not on Discord.. that's one thing I'm sure of.....

My head hurts me and seeing these stupid takes about Sun.. that he's fine and that he wants to kill Eclipse are making it worse...

Just bsnskdnndjd

[1tz-br1ght]

ﾉﾞ✧*。Why I Relate To Capochin✨🌈

Infodumping about my life, capochin, headcannons, and other autistic things! 

TW for mention of abuse, manipulation, power imbalances, pedophilia, and parasocial (?) Relationships

Capochin! Who doesn't love him other then people who don't love him- he's such a silly little guy!! Just a grumpy old man!! A grumpy old man who I, a mentally unwell teenager relate to on a deeply personal level- definitely a bit more then I'm comfortable with- and I know what your thinking, "But Felix! Seriously how relatable can he be-" SHUT UP. SHUT. SH.

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Allow me to explain, and I guess spill my organs just a bit- just a WEE bit! So, given only two people on this forsaken website actually know about my personal life and was there to watch it happen I have a bit of explaining to do- so, where do I start... Hm, how's about middle school! Middle school, ah, how lovely- cutting out how much I was relentlessly bullied middle school was my first exposure to this kind of unhealthy relationship that I've unfortunately grown so accustomed to. Long story short I was forced into a relationship, got extremely emotionally attached only to be abandoned and have the things I love most stolen- then people spread rumors about me and blah blah blah I was bullied in middle school and people did not stop that's the short of it!

But then it kept happening.

Again-

And again-

And again.

Each relationship was progressively worse I, being the dumbass I am, only grew more and more dependant on these people who would hurt me, desprate for the approval of people who looked down at me with nothing but hate in their eyes. Starting to see a similarity? Anyways skip to freshman year! 

Highschool! How bad could it be?? Not worse then middle school that's for sure! And believe it or not- I think I'm that loser who peaks in highschool-BUT the reason I bring this up is because of my most recent experience with an abusive relationship I could not get out of.

Michael. 

At the time I was 14, Michael was 17- he guilt tripped me into dating him, used me for what he wanted and smothered me with 'love' if you could even call it that and at some point in this endless loop of hell he turned 18 while I was still 14- a lot more happened in that relationship but the important part is that this is when I hit an all time low and I didn't mention this but I have always been big on cannibalism metophors- and this is around when those cannibalism metophors stopped being uhhh, metophors let's say! 

Yeah things got real bad but I managed to crawl away mostly unharmed-

And I know because that was genuinely a lot for HORRIBLE shit to read I'll give everyone a bit of fluff in my life, I'm doin fine and I'm in a very happy polyam relationship !! I love my boyfriends very much!

Back to the horrible shit!

This kinda manic desperation got really bad after I got away from Michael, my brain immediately opting to viewing my current boyfriend, Oco as a savior of sorts- given hes known me since middle school, got me out of the abusive relationship with Michael and kinda is the only reason I haven't DIED yet- holding him up on this mental pedistal where no matter what he did he would always be perfect and amazing and I would do anything anything anything for him!! 

Yeah, that... That kinda fucked me up- I mean, go figure-

ALL THESE MANY MANY PARAGRAPHS OF TRAUMADUMPING TO SAY, DO YOU SEE WHAT I MEAN??? GOD this isn't even scratching the surface of the shit I've been through that contributes to why I relate to Capochin so much!! This is leaving out like ALLLLLL the cannibalism and self mutilation metophors I've found myself associated with, pretty much everything that happened that lead up to me holding just... SOME GUY on a mental pedistal for god knows how long- I could genuinely just go on and on and on about it!! But honestly I don't think anyone would really be interested in listening to me info dump about my life more then I already have- we're here for the CAPOCHIN!!! And honestly- I don't really know what to say- I mean I feel like this all kinda speaks for itself, y'know? I mean- fuck man, he just hits a bit too close to home for me sometimes- I love him tho, he's very important to me

If you actually read this far- Uhm, thank you!! You really didn't need to read all this shit- I know it's a lot to take in but I uh- yeah- if you read all this thank you it genuinely means a lot to me <3

[bassguitarinablackt-shirt]

me: *starting to accept that people like me dont get happy endings and ill never fall in love and have a boyfriend that i can touch and kiss and cuddle and ill never be normal and ill never be happy and ill always be just the sad, traumatized, scared freak*

my brain: wow this is so will byers coded of us

[distantsolarsystemsandsnails]

vent (tw vomit)

pretty much every single time i gag i throw up like a minute or two later. and it fucking sucks. it’s so fucking dumb. this morning i drank all of my coffee for the first time in a while and i thought that would mean i’d have more energy but noooooooo i had to go and throw it all up for NO FUCKING REASON. i mean, at least i feel fine now and at least i can get a snack from the vending machine but STILL! it’s dumb! consider me annoyed. and when this happens my face gets all weird and speckled with these little flecks of red which is also kinda annoying. ugh. anyway. whatever, i’m fine.

[queersolarfandompage]

So I start my new job today and I already am pulling back from it. First off I have to dress up everyday, gotta have good hygiene, gotta control my hair. Bestie I’m depressed and struggle to get out of bed everyday. How do you expect me to pull all my shit together at once for a job? I’ll also be dealing with people all day. Why the fuck did we apply for a customer service position. I hate people. And now I have to sit and listen to them all day? Nah. But I feel like I’m stuck with the job. Having a job I dislike is better then not having a job at all or a job that stresses me out to the point of fucking up my mental health. We’ll see how today goes

[solarcandydrops]

I'm so fucking hungry lol. All I have is a little thing of chocolate chips and a small bag of Graham crackers.

[tsamsventingsafe]

Heya there SaMs fandom, I’m making this blog as the original SaMs venting blog has decided to support a known pedophile and isn’t a safe space to vent anymore, especially for kids.

Yes, gore anon vents are allowed, thought do be warned I might not pick up on any malicious vents if they are fandom based ones, so please keep that in mind incase I reply to an ask without knowing it was actually bad.

[turkitty5]

just like in los campesinos!!

[ginahrom]

Don't be sad, or I'll cry

Io said and began to cry